Depersonalization & Derealization (DPDR) & How to Recover | Types of Dissociation
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- In this video I'm talking you through two forms of dissociation: Depersonalization and Derealization (also known as DPDR). In looking at depersonalization disorder and derealization disorder we'll explore: what it is, the symptoms and coping skills. If you're looking for DPDR symptoms or DPDR recovery or just depersonalization recovery or derealization recovery, then make sure you to pay attention as we take a closer look.
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Is this something you experience? If so, what does it feel like to you? And share any other helpful tips too!!! xoxo
Kati Morton I have answered this question and shared my feelings and experience on this topic on Instagram very helpful and informative and important advice and video as always ❤️
My experience is the following: at least every day more than twice a day, I zone out and feel like it’s a 3rd person view, or feel like I’m watching myself do it, or feels like a dream But when I realize it’s me doing it, like it scares me and gives me a anxiety attack and feel like it’s to much for me to take. So I like put myself in a sleep mode? My comfort zone where I feel safe. Where it’s more like still me in charge but not really. But it’s more comfortable than me actually knowing I’m doing it in real time. I’m not sure if you get what I’m trying to talk bout. This happens a a lot with me, I also have bipolar 1. Experience with depression and anxiety. My biggest fear is when it happened when I’m driving or just working. I would be like day dreaming or just coming back from spacing out. and all of sudden is like I forgot what I was doing, going, whatever and then it comes to me of what I’m doing like if I’m a zombie for couple secs and then like wake up. Not knowing nothing. I think all the help I had tried hasn’t worked yet…. Idk what else to do… or who to go…
After car accident that was intense
I struggled with this a lot in High School. I didn't know what it was and could only explain it by saying I felt like I was watching through my eyes as if I were watching a movie. It was like although I could see in front of me, it felt like I was more passenger than driver.
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Don’t get scared by all of these videos. It will fade trust me. Just go on with your life and accept that it feels fake, don’t try to push it away. The moment when you accept it, is the moment where you will think less about it. Before you know it you just don’t care about it anymore and it fades back to normal:)
When will it fade though I’ve had it for a a month and just want to go back to normal :( I’ve read people living with it for years and years i really don’t want mine to be like that :(
@@fft-vw8ee I know it’s scary, but it is outside your control. So try to let it go, just accept it the way it is. And it will fade. I have been having it for months too now. This is the longest i have been ever having it. But fighting it doesn’t make it better. Besided that you should stop taking drugs if you are. Weed, alcohol or any other drug can be a reason why you’re having depersonalisation. Stay stong brother, continue with your daily life and accept the feelings as they come. Just like waves, they will come and go. You are a rock in the sea. Sometimes you get submerged but you will stand strong.
Bro i got it from weed but i havent told anyone, ived had it for almost a day now
Thank you ! 😢
@@fft-vw8ee reading all of these comments about people who’ve had it for ages will just make you panic and fixate on it more. i know its a horrible sensation but you just need to remember its your brain trying to keep you safe so the more you panic the more your brain will think it needs to keep you safe. try to stay present and mindful, you can do it!!!!
My mantra: "You've made it through 100% of the situations you've been in so far. You will get through this too."
OK, when? it's been 13 years and I still wait? Took my 20s. But it could be worse I guess.
Well the thing is you might have to go to a doctor to get a diagnosis first to see if you have it. If you do there’s ways to just realize you might have to
Embrace it and reintroduced yourself to life I know it’s scary but it’s worth it. Keep going it will be fine
@@syedahbowden1512 I've been to countless doctors (including the best doctor for DP in my country), done multiple therapies and took dozens of medications. But it doesn't get better (and on the bright side not worse).
And I reintroduces myself in normal life a long time ago but that doesn't change it either.
So for some it goes away after a few months or 1-2 years but for some it stays. Seems like I'm in the latter group.
@@JustsomeSteve the only thing i can suggest even if you went to the best doctor in the country wherever that is adn nothing changed then they cant be the best. I can only say is that you might have to learn to cope with it or see a specialist. I know its scary but I do have faith it will leave medication on the other hand im not sure works because i havent tried it but i will say ive been dealing with it since a couple of weeks now and ive noticed that the biggest issue is dwelling on it it sucks but honeslty you can heal from it and if you cant see to get it together youll just have to keep moving.
Very helpful. Thanks
I could cry right now and I just wanted to tell someone about my huge win today with a horrible DPDR episode. Today was the first time I leaned into it and talked myself through it and actually accepted it. I have heard of people saying that but had no idea what it truly meant to do that. Today I didn’t fight it, I didn’t run away, I didn’t retreat to any of my coping mechanisms to escape, I kept doing what I was doing and pushed through. I know this is the first step to recovery and I am so proud of myself for getting myself through it, feeling it, naming it, letting it be there, and telling myself over and over again that I am okay and this is just scary but I can get through this, it is temporary, and I am strong. Thanks for reading I just wanted to share that with people who understand. Blessings to you all on your journey to healing ❤
Thank you so much
i dont know you personally but i am so proud of you. you have come so far and i know what dp/dr is like and it is the worst. im struggling with it too but people like you help motivate me to do better and really give it my all
Damn, so I’m not alone ? I’m actually in a DPDR episode because I took a heavy treatment for 7 months. I was wondering what’s happening to me… Your comment gives me hope 🥲
Yup. Exactly. Just keep telling yourself it doesn't matter. You just have to accept it, it is what it is. Mine lasted 1 year. I accepted life was fake and repeated it to myself often. The second I TRULY believed it, it was gone forever. I legit can't even force it back.
I am so proud of you, this comment literally made me cry I am so happy for you I really hope that i'll reach that point too
My derealization feels like when you wake up in the morning and your vision is a bit blurry and distorted. Or when you put contacts in wrong. It’s like looking through an invisible barrier that I can only describe as “blurry” but it isn’t blurry. It’s like a layer around everything that keeps me detached. But I can tell it’s in my brain, not my eyes. It’s now over 4 years I’ve constantly been living like this.
No. Stay away from drugs. Look into EMDR
you explained it perfectly. This feeling is so lonely and you feel like your outside of everything, like everything about life like (earth, society, and people) your so detached from. it makes me feel better that someone else feels how i do. i really hope you start to feel better!
I feel the same way
For me it’s either blurry or something’s appear bigger / farther away (fisheye effect).
Yes you described it well, been experiencing this for my entire life.. turning 38 next month and still haven't figured out how to get rid of it. Thinking about going to the doctor and getting tons of tests done to see if there is anything wrong with me.
Reading helped me recover, going on walks, meditating being as active as possible, taking deep breaths, drawing , going to the gym etc. the more activity u give your brain the faster you will heal. Stay consistent and I guarantee you will bring yourself back to reality.
So are you full recovery now?
I struggled with this about 5 years ago. Probably the scariest time of my life. You feel like a spectator to your own life and your thoughts feel like they’re being distilled through cotton. I don’t struggle with it anymore. What helped me overcome it is asking myself the questions, “What part of my reality do I not want to be real? Who do I see myself as?” During that time I was going through a bit of an identity collapse and ultimately hated every aspect of my life at the time. I had crippling anxiety and depression. I also went to see an acupuncturist. I had a very positive experience. Acupuncture got rid of my anxiety, panic attacks, and the DPDR. It’ll be okay. You’ll make it out alive. I never thought I would, especially when you watch other people on TH-cam who say they’ve had it for years. It’s scary. But you’ll make it out with help
how long did it last in your case?
@@ronakpahuja4553 About 3-4 months. I didn’t really feel normal for about 9. One thing that can help is anxiety medication
Yes! Acupuncture is an amazing tool for body relaxation
@Edward Duda I've had depersonalization for my entire life for as long as I can remember. Originally theorized it was from too much screen use (video games/movies/TV shows) and that the overuse of screens warped my perspective on reality. Now starting to think there might be something medically wrong with me. I've never had blood tests done or had my brain scanned or anything... I'm determined to figure this out... it's been with me my entire life!
Mine was caused by smoking salvia. Lasted 1 year. I accepted life was fake and repeated it to myself often. The second I TRULY believed it, it was gone forever. I legit can't even force it back.
I've had derealization since 2006, this has led to agoraphobia, anxiety, panic, brain fog and depression. Pray for me please. I want out!
هل ذهبت الى طبيب
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i have the exact same thing. has it gotten better?
Pray more
Anyone experiencing this, don’t worry and stress, you’ll get through this. Happened to me twice in my life, first time last a lot longer than I hoped but lack of what was happening caused it, second time it lasted a few months but once you start accepting the way you feel the faster it goes away, sounds counter intuitive but as a prior sufferer just trust the process. Your real, your friends and family are real, get back to try and enjoy life and before you know it, you’ll forget all about it and be back to yourself in no time
Hey, happy to hear you feel better. Can I ask what steps you took to get out of it? Would love to get in touch. Cheers :)
Yup, Bingo. Mine lasted 1 year. I accepted life was fake and repeated it to myself often. The second I TRULY believed it, it was gone forever. I legit can't even force it back.
@@willow1698 Damn.
I always had episodes since I was a kid but about two months ago I took a large dose of LSD and...oh boy. I thought I had lost my mind forever. But I recovered from it, slowly and steadily. What's remaining is the DPDR. It's less so reality that doesn't feel real...more like...my interactions with people. Language feels surreal...like I understand every word but it's almost like I'm listening to a foreign language...
I feel like whenever I try and talk to a therapist about this they don’t really understand or take it seriously enough, I wish there were more like you
When I was first hospitalised for my mental health a nurse reassured me by saying “you’re in the right place” I remembered that and it helped me feel okay about getting help for mental illness and being okay with being mentally ill. 8 years later and I’m now a nurse myself and aim to improve others lives the way I was helped to improve my own life. I’ve learnt so much from you Kati and you have helped a LOT in my recovery, a simple ‘thank you’ isn’t enough to express how grateful I am to you :)
I have had Derealization for 3 years 24/7 constantly and the most accurate explanation is that It feels like Im in a simulation where everything feels dry , unnatural , weird , fake and artificial. My senses are numb. Im starting to question if that is the actual reality because Im very used to my Derealization. I also feel like it is related to autism , paying too much attention to details with your eyes than your ears and introverted personality but Im not sure. How can I get out of it forever?
Something I found out about my DPDR (which I have 24/7 for about 5 years now) is that the fact that I could never process my feelings in a healthy way is a major cause of it. I learned if i talk about what bothers me I'll be called dramatic, a b*tch or people will just simply walk away. I never felt safe to just vent or cry in front of other people and the lack of support might've been the biggest trauma of all. I'm repressing my emotions because they were always considered something negative and bothersome to others, but it's time for me to accept those feelings. I'm trying to train myself to stop comparing trauma and asking myself "is this really severe enough to cry about?" It doesn't matter, crying isn't something you earn, it's necessary to "detox" from stressful or painful events. What's painful to you doesn't need validation from others. After these 5 years I'm still hopefull I'll heal and I hope for everyone watching this video bit by bit they'll understand themselves better and be able to heal their trauma, we're in this together❤️
I had the same experience. Emotions are not welcome in my family and since the last trauma I had five years ago, which almost killed me, I have not been able to cry. My eyes get wet. I can shed for or five tears but no more.
It's not like I like crying, I don't like my eyes swollen to a point I hardly can open my eyes or the headaches I usually get after crying but I have a feeling it would be good for me to release grief but I have given up. I can't cry no matter how much pain and suffering I feel.
I've had derealization for the last 9 years; I've had enough. Thanks for uploading this video.
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Be strong, you can make it
@@ixorix Thanks!
Mine has been years from about the age of 15. I am 54 now and it happens much less often now I have come to terms with who I am - Aspergian/autistic and agender.
@@rasul01 You are straight up a "Human stain"
I am so sorry you are struggling with this, and I hope the video was helpful!!! xoxo
I thought I was losing my mind. Thank you Kati for giving us this information.
I am a therapist. Loved the clear and precise description in your video.
Some mantras my clients have found useful:
'It can only get better from here.'
'My consciousness/mind is trying to keep me safe. Let me sit back and let it take over.'
'This strange feeling is like being in a magic show. It will end sometime. Till then let me observe curiously.'
Would you please recommend me a good therapist specialized in DPDR? Cognitive Behavioral Therapist who can help me cope with this. Im desperate. Thank you
When I struggled with Dp/dr I would constantly pinch myself to make sure I was awake. It was a very scary time but Yah is faithful and He brought me through! Halleluyah!! 🎉🎉
how long did it last in your case?
your videos with dodie on dpdr few years back really helped me feel less panicked. after that i went into therapy, but i always saw those videos as the start of my recovery. thank you!
I have been lost for months in this paradox...I feel like I have been living in some sort of version of the matrix. I appreciate your channel in providing information to help people such as myself that are struggling.
It get better you just need to Distract yourself
@@lucaspitt500 ....Thanks Lucas....I appreciate the message. .
@@lucaspitt500 it’s nowhere near that easy.... can’t just “distract myself” from my DPD... lol
@@anthonyalbin8884 time heals
@@lucaspitt500 What if I switch the environment with way more calm , healthy and friendly place?
Thank you so much for making this video kati 🧡🙏🏻 more people need to know about this! I’ve been suffering dpdr for 4 years now and been to so many doctors who had no idea what dpdr was. It’s extremely scary and specially if doctors don’t know what you are talking about, you feel alone and crazy. So thank you so so so much! 🧡🙏🏻
This comment section has me both in tears that others are also suffering but also validated that I’m not alone. I love you all and hope you all recover ❤
Thank you for always approaching each topic / condition you describe with respect, care and sensitivity.
One mantra of sorts that I repeat to myself every day is “we are all valuable simply because we are human”. Not really to help with dissociation, but to remind myself of my and others immense value. It ends up guiding my life and helps me to even treat myself better : )
I've had this for 20 years or so. Only discovered what was going on over the last few years. I thought it was depression for a while which threw me way off the recovery path. I talk about what has worked for me on my channel and invite anyone else who has tips to share their tips.
for chronic sufferers, these have worked best for me:
- extreme physical exercise
- love from pets/friends/family
- building a business that gave me a sense of financial security
let me know if you have anything to add
So glad I found this video. This happens to me a lot. Especially when driving. It’s FRIGHTENING
Tipp has worked wonders for me. I was shocked when I heard you say it because my therapist told me nobody talks about it. thank you for this video
Several years back i suffered DPDR to the full extreme intensity 24/7 for 8 months solid! It was so bad the feelings were exactly the same even in my sleep! There was literally no escape or rest from it. I used to blame myself for driving ppl away that i cared about cos they just didn’t understand it but one friend told me to tell myself “it’s not my fault!” whenever i started to blame myself for how someone else reacted to it. It’s a little thing but it’s really stuck and been very helpful ever since ✌🏻 The disorder was triggered by my anti-depressant withdrawal. It took 40 months to finally get off my anti-d’s and the disorder feelings slowly faded away with it! I’ve been totally off any meds now for over 5 years and i’ve never felt more okay 🙂👌🏻 I didn’t believe it at the time either but recovery is possible 🙌🏻❤️
I have this and every time I’m in a social situation, I disassociate and feel outside my body
Every automatic thing that I don’t have to worry about
Becomes manual, and the stress of managing all of them makes you feel like you’re about to pass out
It feels like at any moment I can stop mid sentence and drool
Like you’re on the verge of becoming brain dead
This first happened to me while I was driving in my car. It shook me so that I was afraid to drive again for a long time. It still happens to me sometimes.
This just sounds like my life as an Autistic with significant differences in my sensory perceptual system. I have Autistic Catatonia, they call it the 'ultimate psychobiological fear response' and for me this has been a complex journey of discovering exactly why my specific neuro/bio system is so afraid in the first place.
That sounds awful. So happy you found out what it was and I hope you feel better ❤️
I’m currently experiencing the same thing but, my derealization episodes happen exclusively while driving. How have you been coping?
this happens to me a lot while driving still can't figure it out either ... its like a moment where my mind leave and I don't even know that I'm driving anymore@@victor-zi7bu
This experience was very unsettling. Once is enough. Nobody but you gave me the awareness it happened (in 2018) except you (recently). You gave me hope in knowing I wasn't alone. The moment of intense trauma hit the nail on the head. Yet... I'm 62!! 😥
I've had this nonstop for 19 years now, started when I was 12 and now I'm 31. I feel like I've lost the best years of my life.
The first time i've ever experienced dissociation I was talking to a friend and I felt like if suddenly a big bubble was formed around me, separating me from the real world, as if I went to another dimention. I had no idea what was it and i lasted just some seconds or minutes. With the time it started to happen more frequently and in different ways, as if there was a giant hand taking out a tissue from over my body - that was my consciousness - or lacks of memory. Sometimes i would find myself in a place and had no idea where i was, how i arrived there or what i was doing there. I've been dealing with dissociation for almost 3 years now and 3 weeks ago I had the worst crise i've ever had. After anxiety crisis, I woke up feeling NOTHING. For two whole days, I felt like I was in a dream. I was completely detached from the reality, I couldn't understand what people was talking or even if it was with me or not cause the mainly sound was like an air condicioner noise and all the voices were behind it, the floor was far away from me, so I didn't know exactly where i could step, the colors were different and there was a fog. I couldn't find my stuffs or do basic activities cause it was like if my brain wasnt recording anything that was happening. Also, thinking about anyone was like a distant memory, even with my boyfriend. Right now I'm already reconected to the reality, receiving treatment, but I still feel really detached from emotions in general.
Sounds really awfull, how did you manage to reconnect again?
Would be interesting to hear for me as well
How did you reconnect ? I been stuck with all you said exactly on point i feel that way for 3 years after a fucking panic attack my whole life changed
I am so sorry all of this is happening to you :( The exact same thing happened to me aswell?, one night I had a really bad panic attack i Couldn’t stop crying and then when i went to sleep and woke up i felt so detached from reality like i wasn’t myself and i don’t exist? Please look after yourself and we will get through this together :)
Hi can we talk
I’ve been dealing with derealization for years, it’s a struggle to even go to work or even do the things I love. I don’t feel real and it’s terrifying.
Man im confused if i have it, but i know sometimes things dont feel real and people, and that in looking in at myself from another angel, like i can never be ”there”
Same thing here
It throws me into an anxiety attack a lot.
@@autumnmicalait’s usually the only reason I know I’m having an anxiety attack. I’m smack in the middle of it and I look up and think, oh shit, I’m in deep. I was raised to (lovingly) suck it up buttercup. Newsflash: sucking it up doesn’t work
Thank you so much I just discovered you today by accident you are a blessing from God to us thanks for all you do God bless you God bless your grandmother that passed away
I wasn’t really sure what the personalization was when it came up in certain videos, thanks for explaining that. ❤
Thank you so much for this. I’ve been living with this everyday since I was 16, so almost 6 years and I’ve been getting really tired of it. When I tried to explain it to my family when it first started, the only way I could put it was like this: “ I feel an alien and like everything around me is foggy.” They didn’t exactly understand it which does kinda make sense. Finding out that there was a word for what I was going through was really helpful because I didn’t feel like I was going crazy anymore.
Check out Jordan hardgrave on youtube. His DPDR course changed my life. Look into it
I always say that everything feels fake and scary. Everything is absolutely terrifying. I even get scared looking at my husband sometimes because he seems fake. Its awful
Thank you for posting this. As someone who has always been reluctant to seek professional medical help for fear that I would have something that is undiagnosed or simply doesn't exist; I am beyond appreciative to find this video in my time of need. I'll find a local mental health professional in my area :) thank you thank you thank you.
When providing examples of tools with acronyms, could you please display the acronyms on screen as bullets to the treatment plan they’re categorized under? It seems to me like you set up your videos in the way you take notes which I’ve always appreciated, but I think my neurodivergent brain would take it in better if you could display those notes more clearly on screen. ❤️
Of course!! It's always a balance between being too overwhelming with text on the screen, but also making it accessible.. so thanks for the feedback :) xxoo
@@Katimorton you rock!
Yeah, the amlount of times spent righting DP/DR is huge
It took forever lol
@@taryllhanchard3978 *amount
I’m 31 and was diagnosed DPDR a few years ago. I’ve had it ever since I remember . It feels like I’m trapped in a dream that I can’t get out of 😕 I’ve been through so many different therapists, therapy techniques, traditional and non-traditional meds, etc. and nothing has worked 😔
I experienced extreme childhood abuse for nearly 18 years. My therapist explained it best - it was like my brain pushed an eject button to deal with the trauma that was happening and one day it just got stuck.
How are you now Kat?
I've been talking to my own therapist about dissociation. For me the main things I experience is feeling like my brain is wrapped up tightly in cotton and making my perception of what's around me feel off a bit, and on top of that, feeling like there's some kind of invisible barrier between me and my surroundings, like I'm there but I'm not really there. I've been having it a lot the last few days so I found this video helpful. Thank you Kati.
Hey be strong, for me it's been 2 year but I also experienced it when i was young, Take care and hope you make it ♥️🙏
@@anonymousdesu5335 Thank you, that's nice. I've been experiencing it for around a year myself. This past week it's been a little better though, thankfully.You take care too 🙂
thank you so much, you are such a beautiful soul. You help a lot of people to beter understand them selves and that´s so corageous.
I'm just glad I'm not alone going through this... It doesn't bother me anymore, it comes and goes and I know it'll wear off soon!!
Distress tolerance TIPP
Temperature
Intense exercise
Paced breathing
Paired muscle relaxation
Distress Tolerance ACCEPTS
Activities
Contibutring (to others)
Comparisons (to others experiencing something worse for perspective not for shame)
Emotions (force an opposite emotion)
Push away (right now can't do anything helpful but can save it for later)
Thoughts (stop them or distract from them)
Sensation (5 senses)
++Mantra (e.g. Life's got my back. This too shall pass. Its okay not to be okay. I can handle this.)
💙
Thanks
vMine lasted 1 year. I accepted life was fake and repeated it to myself often. The second I TRULY believed it, it was gone forever. I legit can't even force it back.
I think there’s something to your “ACCEPTS” method. I had derealization for years (the disorder, not in that state for years). What eventually helped, oddly enough, was a new job (previous was cashier which is droning standing there for hours).
It was a desk job, but I was able to be creative (collaborative and kept my mind busy). It introduced a strict schedule (same start/end times everyday vs. random shifts, so sleep schedule was more consistent). People would walk by and chat for a few minutes to break things up (work related or not), and I would have to get up and walk around to do any number of other tasks. I also shared an office with a co-worker (some of our tasks overlapped) so I also wasn’t completely isolated.
After about 2 months working there, it was largely gone. Once in a while I might experience it during a conversation, but it became infrequent enough to the point I wouldn’t consider it a problem anymore. So I think some key things to try are: consistent sleep schedule, variety of tasks (boredom > mind wandering > disassociation), collaborating/interacting with other people, and physical movement.
Such a good explanation of depersonalization and derealization. Thanks for educating the public concerning dissociative episodes.
I’m not sure if I have it or not. I will say that it was a trauma that happened to me in 2015 that might have triggered it. feeding my thoughts with a positive attitude and knowing that life is okay seems to help. Thank you so much for this video. I am very glad that I am not the only one that feels this way.
derealization always sends me into a panic attack 😫 but i appreciate the explanation for it, it makes it seem less scary
Me too. I was wondering if anyone else experienced this. The most annoying part I'd my body feels the need to do it when I have any sort of physical ailment and then I start panicing over feeling out of it and then the stress of that makes it take such longer to get well.
@@dnt_vtepedr yeah, i start feeling faint then start panicking 🫤
@Myco_tripss on instagram really? Weird, shrooms is what caused DP/DR for me, and it triggered anxiety and depression too. Before I touched shrooms I was perfectly healthy.
@@dnt_vtepedr don’t listen to what bs she is saying. Psychs make it tremendously worse so please don’t do it
I've had 24/7 derealization for over 15 years, stemming from CPTSD.
I will say I'm concerned that your "How to Recover!!" portion is overstated and might give people false hope. Some folks like me have tried literally everything and the only "recovery" is just learning to live with it.
Had it for 5 years. Only went away when I legitimately stopped worrying about it and addressed all trauma and ADHD, anxiety. It does and can go away but it's the combination of a good therapist, finding out why you disassociate. It is Important to not obsess over it. Hope you take this well. Dpdr is scary and I hope you get out of it!
Have you tried MDMA therapy?
@@ommar460 I'm open to it, but it's not currently accessible to me
I'm on almost 10 years 24/7. Started when i was 19 with my first and only massive panic attack. It basicly destroyed my life.. costed me education, relations, jobs. I can't do this another 10 years
@@mentos93 check out the DP Manual
Aw Kati. Thank you so much for this. Your so sweet. God bless you
That was amazing just watching your video makes a person feel much better
I remember after my last Derealization episode I had several occurrences as well including Nightmares, Emotional Blunting, Sleep-Paralysis; all occurring within a period of a few weeks.
I was experiencing similar problems I couldn’t sleep because my dreams were too intense. I’ve felt derealization prior to this but when I was having nightmares I was definitely more sadness
How long did you have it and are you still suffering
Well the mantras that helped me to heal from dpdr are :"i am fearless"
This helped me accept dpdr and not be scared of it which actually makes it go away
And another mantra is :"power is now"
This mantra helped me to be in the present everytime my thoughts tried to control my mind.everytime i use it it makes me get back to the present.
I really hope i helped some of you out there and just remember that god is with you. Just have faith and work hard on it and it will go away.
I just was diagnosed with this. It was frightening but yet gives me hope and let me know I'm going to be alright.
Hi Kati! Your videos are enlightening and I like your content! Keep going!
I had this when I lost a close family member. I just remember it felt like either I was taking over someone's body or someone was trying to take over mine, couldn't figure out which. My limbs felt foreign and wouldn't respond to my instructions to move. I also couldn't recognize the people around me. It was a very strange few days.
This video was helpful. I’ve been experiencing depersonalization for about a week now, I try to explain how it feels but the sensation is so strange that no one can really picture it. I feel my head detached from my body, as though it was floating outside my body. Also I get really dizzy and light headed, as though I had consumed drugs and alcohol but without consuming an inch of it. I went to ER last week and they gave me a sick leave for two weeks, but I don’t feel like I’m improving. I have bipolar disorder 2 BTW
Hang in there Nicole...I can certainly relate to what you are experiencing,..I hope you have the opportunity to share your experiences with someone supportive to help you navigate your situation.
Candles helped me a bit. But it fades away eventually. It’s going to be okay. I promise it’s not forever
THIS is exactly what it feels like for me right now and has been for 4 days
@@taylana3331 how are you now?
I had mine for two weeks
how are you Nicole? are you doing any better?
This video was super helpful, I suffer from derealization all the time, I describe like I'm living in a dream, everything around me feels distant and far away and not real, I don't feel real. After watching this I think I have Derelization disorder and Im going to bring it up to my physcatrist when I see them next week. I've been trauma after trauma all 22 almost 23 years of my life and have really intense childhood trauma and a genetic predisposition to anxiety and depression, I've suffered with anxiety and depression for almost 10 years now, I've been in therapy and on medication and while the medication does help somewhat so far they've all stopped working eventually.
I think it will be really beneficial for me to work out a trauma timeline with my therapist as I've been through so much of it and all different kinds of trauma. I also hugely appreciate the coping mechanisms like using the 5 senses, I've tried to do the 5 things you can see, 4 things you can touch, 3 things you can hear, 2 things you can smell and 1 thing you can taste but that never worked for me, but I think focusing on just one sense by doing something like eating a fizzy sweet would help.
Thank you for all the helpful information!
Absolutely love what you communicate and your channel :)
i’ve had this for almost my whole life as I have had intense anxiety since i was young. it got immensely worse after a bad high but i go to therapy take my meds and really focus on my mental health. it is not always terrible, i have good days and bad days with it. this disorder has caused me to develop a phobia of going crazy even tho i know i’m not. anyways this if for anyone struggling i know it’s hard i know you want to give up but don’t. there is a bright side and it will come
Kinda relate to this when I start panicking thinking i’m going crazy but i’m not lmao it’s weird to even talk about it
@@Ymf207 it is weird to talk about it’s just how life is now
Whenever I hear "The main cause of DP/DR is child trauma" I instantly burst into tears.. I was emotionally abused by one of my relatives for 6 years and grew up without parents in those 6 years. And now when I'm finally free from that "prison" I immediately started feeling unreal and everything seemed like I've been picturing it in my brain for a long time and sometimes I barely remember important information about someone and what I've been doing throughout the day.. Everything started back in 2019 when I was diagnosed with Anemia, and it's still bothering me a lot. I'm struggling with school a lot because of this disorder and I'm always getting panic attacks, even tho I keep telling myself that's it's going to be okay. I'm suffering from DP/DR for 3 years now, but I'm still going through life and I'm doing my best because I believe in myself. If you're suffering from DP/DR and reading this, don't worry, you're not alone. You have people who care about you and you just have to talk to them and get your mind off of things by watching youtube or listening to music. If it doesn't help, then become mad and say "leave me alone, you're bothering me" and imagine it as a "toxic" person who doesn't want to leave you alone, because it helps me as well. Thank you for reading, stay strong. ♡
Your profile picture gives me serotonin
Help me
My mantra is “ I am a kind person. I have a lot to offer. N I use my creativity to spread happiness.”
i am having it right now and still commenting because it will fade away trust me ! just let it be feel it and get back to real world
This happens to me occasionally and very briefly, I realize it's happening and suppress it. You perfectly described how it feels. It is definitely derealization for me, like a movie, like I'm watching myself from outside of reality. I haven't told anyone about it but research like this helps explain a lot, I struggle with anxiety but did not experience childhood trauma and have dabbled with psychedelics in the past, I wonder what the cause is? Thanks for the insight.
i’ve been having dpdr for 6 to 7 months now, some “friends” at school gave me a green box, it was my first time smoking, and they set me up by putting the intensity on maximum and saying that i had to take more than 5 hits for it to hit. I had a really bad panic attack and i got into a super bad high 2 days later i realized that the feeling of being high never came off. And i thought it was just weed leaving my system but i was wrong. here i am now afraid to tell my parents what happened. But also tired of all of this. It really hurts when you try to live your day normally and suddenly realize that you were staring at the wall for the past 5 minutes. Or when you drive and you forget that you’re driving and you go crazy bc you feel your whole vision going to the back of your head. i’m tired of all of this man
same exact thing happened to me 4 years ago with a couple of older friends when i was 14.. felt like i was going insane and i was in a constant dream trying to zoom out of my vision and wake up. freaking out about every little thing. it’s a constant feeling. after about 2 years it started to go away a bit but then i started drinking at parties and would black out and smoke with my friends not knowing i did until the next day. even drinking messes with it. completely cut off all of that stuff. know that it will get better with time. take it one day at a time and just remember how scary it is so you can help out someone else in need brotha. tell your parents what you are going through. stop searching it up online it will just scare you even more. i told my parents and they were understanding i hope they are for you as well. i went to a psychiatrist and they wanted to put me on all these meds to try and fix it but i said nah i am good i’ll try something else. picked up my Bible and focused on God. it works. if you know how bad it hurts and how scary it is and you want it to stop. trust God and take him serious. he will help you. you got nothing else to lose right? so lean into him and he will help you. hopefully i helped brotha 🤞🏼🙌🏼
@@lespedbois6208 and did you overcome it?
@@ruccamouras2078 it’s all trauma. release it and you’ll be good as new. it takes time to heal trauma, just learn how to release it.
The sad thing is that I have never used drugs or smoked or drinked in my life but I have constant DP/DR
@@xbxllj how to learn? 😭it's been 2 years...
I had this for for four years after one traumatic event after another. It’s gotten better.
My mind focuses more on my inner thoughts and imagery. I listened to my thoughts and see my inner images with my mind’s eye constantly.
My balance was affected.
A balance therapist taught me to focus on my environment more. I’ve gotten better 99%.
HI, Patrick here from Mind Life Flow...Thank you Kati for this video and information on dissociation - useful for many people...thankyou
Well, I don't know where to begin. I'll skip many of the traumas from my childhood and get to the main event. I was molested as a child. The experience sent me into shock and then the total disconnect from my body during and after the event. I was eleven then and 45 now. When it started, I was changed, walking around in a fog, everything i see, hear and touch had no substance. My memory was reduced like i couldn't hold thoughts in my head for long and the most damaging event was a massive wave would surge inside my mind and I would lose all connection with everything. I don't experience reality like normal people, it's like I am here but not here. my memory is fractured where remembering things are virtually impossible. My actions controlled by remote and the emotional awareness of a lifeless doll throw on the floor. In short, a soulless husk. I've been committed to a hospital for various reasons and was ignored or medicated with anti-psychotics for telling the doctors about these sensations. I've tried therapists, psychiatrist, medications, and eventually with nothing working, decided to accept this fractured reality as it is.
I truly hope that there is a way to deal with this situation but for me after 34 years of continuous disconnect it just seems like more fantasy.
For me it lasts no longer than a couple of hours and it feels like I’m outside of myself and at the same time I’m trapped inside myself and I can see the things that I’m going to do a second before I do them. Normally it happens when something triggers the past childhood trauma.
Also it is not so frequent, especially after therapy. I didn’t know that for someone it could last days/months/years. I’m sorry to hear that.
I can relate to some of the things that you are talking about. I have never had this before my narcissist and bipolar husband of 4 years. My divorce which was hell to go through was finally over in May. He mentally, emotionally and physiologically abused me like I have never been before. I have been in bad relationships before because it is a pattern of mine that I am working on breaking. I feel like I have had memory loss, anger issues and the feeling of just wanting to be alone more than around people since my marriage. I will not let this concur me. I will get past it! It will take time and a lot of self work on myself! Thank you for your videos. I just found you a cpl days ago. Keep up the great work and advise! Happy Saturday! Have a wonderful weekend! ♥️
I get this often. The episodes can last for days or weeks usually after a stressful event or drinking alcohol or smoking too much weed. Taking a long hot shower and massaging my arms and legs helps reconnect myself with my body. Watching short TH-cam videos with the time bar showing helps with time issues. Talking about how weird and scary the feelings are with a family member helps me feel safe. I try to relax my body and remind myself it will pass, it’s not psychosis I am in control. It might take a couple hours or a day or two if it’s really severe but i will always come back faster if I actively try to fix it. If I just left it and kept worrying about it I could be stuck like that for a very long time
I truly feel so bad for anyone going though this I have been going through this for a period of 3-4 months where. I haven’t felt like myself in so long can’t even look myself in the mirror haven’t felt like I see myself in so long I pray everyday that I’ll feel better one day it’s extremely depressing I know it’s because of my OCD that this happened to me I’ve been suffering for 5 years with OCD and I believe that’s what indefinitely led to this depersonalization disorder I wish I had just got help so many years ago but I’m to the point where I can’t even get into a car without having panic attacks and I have them everyday so it’s very tough for me to live my life I’m only 19 years old and I feel very behind in life but people just don’t understand what’s it’s like to go through this anyway furthermore I’d like to say anyone whose suffering from this I would send my prayers out to you to never go through this again. 🙏🏼
I hope you’re getting the help you need man, I wouldn’t wish this on anyone.. scariest experience in my life tbh. Praying for you, hope that things get better for you & that you can eventually live a “normal” life.
Mine is also because of my ocd
@@jennymontelongo5032 thank you I appreciate it
@@Kerbythekraby yea it’s very common to happpen to those of us suffering from OCD
@@joshmontez7982 The most accurate explanation for Derealization is that everything feels like a simulation
Please make series on panic attacks, agoraphobia, driving anxiety, exposure therapy
Mili Mehta. good comment I agree I'm interested in hearing about panic attacks and anxiety
I agree, yes please
My Mantra is SMP - Success, Money, Power - also what I try to manifest in my life. I have defined exactly what each means to me and know what I mean by it.
Thank you for your tips to help at home.
Alhamdulillah...sangat bermanfaat sekali inspirasinya..terima kasih..
I Don't exactly know what I'm having. It's something like whenever I look at mirror I feel like that's not me. And whenever I think of self I feel it's not me. And sometimes when I watch a movie or something I feel so strange. And I don't know what it is.
This Is the helpful video for me actually, before this my feeling was like I was crying all day long that I think everyone Is fake and I tried to treat myself but It keeps coming over & over again . my questions are “am I actually here?” and this video help ME SO MUCH I LOVE YOU DESERVE A NEW SUBCRIBER! 😭
I’ve had this for about a year now I truley thought I was going crazy or having a schizophrenic break this almost made me cry just knowing that I’m not going crazy
I struggle with dissociation more within my body and less in my head. I notice when I can’t move my hands or my whole body. I notice people talking to me but sometimes the words don’t make sense, or I immediately forget what they wanted, or I can’t do it. I even notice when I am childlike and ask teachers if they wanna be my friend (so embarrassing). I don’t even pass out when I start shaking and twitching on the ground. My memories of those times are foggy but partly there and all that makes me wonder if I could stop it if I just tried harder or maybe I am just pretending I dissociate. A therapist once said to me that dissociation is a decision, we make to get attention and I want to say that he is wrong… but what if he’s right and I am a bad person? I just wrote this to get it of my chest. Happy week everyone^^
Natasha jaromir. im here and iv had a read of your comment and I'm here to offer you support and any advice I can if it's helpful I have been though dissociation too but with my body and my mind and iv spaced out a lot to block out negative thoughts and feelings we all need to know that we are not alone and that people do care and understand us and what we are going through ❤️
Natasha jaromir. you are not a bad person so please don't feel like you are x
@@nikkimckay860 Thank you! This helps with my insecurity 💕
Hi! I’m Dutch and this video was super helpful and it’s comforting to know that I’m not alone in thus.
I used to have these depersonalization symptoms as a kid and it always lasted a couple of hours. However, it came back 6 years ago and it never disappeared ever since. The problem is that I don’t know what the exact underlying trauma is. I don’t really have major events happened in my childhood, I’m actually living a pretty happy life. So what can I do about these depersonalization symptoms when I don’t have a specific trauma to process? I’ve been to several therapists, but it never got the desired effect.
@Myco_tripss on instagram Sorry but this is horrible advice. Do not under any circumstances take psychidelics if you are in a bad mental state. There are no meds against DPDR. You have to work up the way that lead you to this state (Mostly chronic stress or (drug) abuse). There is no shortcut or a magic pill against it. Start to live mentally and physically healthy, sleep 8 hrs, excercise, eat healthy, spend time with your loved ones, go in nature, hike, cycle, weightlift. I guarantee you, stuff will improve. And last but not least, stop seeing it as a battle, deeply accept that current state. Reach out and tell your friends. Trust me, it will fade.
This happened to me when I was 15, I smoked weed, all of a sudden felt everything you described in this video!!!! Felt like a month before I felt 'normal' never had again in my life. It was horrible felt like I was going crazy! It's definitely left some kind of mental residual effects because I still think about how I felt that day 😬 I'm 37 now and watching this 🙄
This video helped me realise that what I experience is real...There is nothing worse than lieing to oneself. ..
This illness is pure hell I'm disabled can't work can't focus can't talk my vision is not mine and my voice if there's a god he is pure evil to create this illness
It's not an original mantra at all, but honestly the Litany Against Fear from Dune has actually been pretty helpful for me, if you've seen the movie(s) or read the books, you know it, but for those who don't:
"I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past, I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
It's kinda hard to say that and not feel like a total badass.
I have severe (c)PTSD and have been doing EMDR for it with an awesome therapist for the last 4 yrs. When my symptom were really intense and almost constant I would feel like I was trapped in my body and had this desperate urge to escape. Like if I was wearing a wet, wool sweater that is way too tight and suffocating me slowly. I'd have the impulsive urge to punch walls or the wind shield of my car or stab or cut myself as if I could cut my way out. I also frequently felt like I was trapped behind glass, separate from the rest of the world. I can tell things are getting rough if those symptoms come back. But its def sooo much better now and I am so grateful for EMDR and my therapist and informational channels like this one that allow ppl to better understand whats going on
My first time with DP/DR was when I ad taken too much weed into my system and it HIT me very hard. Of course I panicked and had anxiety, but it went away after I calmed down from the high. My second time was the worst I would say. It hit me when I had a panic attack out of the blue, and I just didn't feel real. I didn't know that this could happen outside of substances, and I was so terrified. I thought I was the only person in the world who was going through this. I had anxiety, panic attacks, DP/DR, and depression for weeks. I literally didn't sleep for 3 nights because my anxiety with DP DR got so bad. Looking back and understanding what I went through, I wish I could've had the help and wisdom that I have now. I seriously thought I was going to die or go insane, but here I am today - feeling confident in myself and my understanding and acceptance of all of these symptoms and disorders!
Very interesting. I've experienced the out-of-body state, like I was acting according to a script in a movie, when in an extremely high-tension, dangerous situation.
The strongest case of that involved a fire in the apartment upstairs after years of the occupant, who suffered greatly from mental health issues, harrassing me and other neighbours. She did not survive, and I lost my apartment.
This led to persistent derealisation for the next 5 weeks like this: every time I went outside (I did get good temporary accomodation, luckily) the whole world looked new, like it was the first time I'd seen it, the sensation you get when you're travelling - it was almost pleasant but I was also in a very distressed state, and, like you say, very aware of the distortion of reality. It was my friends, too, who also seemed unfamiliar, even though I had no amnesia. Things technically looked the same, but it felt like everything had been given a fresh, new colour, almost a new emotional colour.
It was very odd, I was quite conscious of it. After just over a month, it started to dissipate. It took a long time to recover from that situation, and I was not really getting treatment. It's years later that I learnt what it was. It's interesting to hear about childhood trauma also possibly being a factor, as that is also present in my history - I wonder if that gave me a predisposition to the derealisation that I experienced after this later traumatic event. It's not something I've experienced again since then.
YESSSSS SAME HERE
I developed this problem as a teen after smoking marijuana and having a really bad experience where I thought I was dying. Because I was by myself and didn't want to tell my parents, I just dealt with it and fell asleep. The next morning it felt like I was still high--I thought it was just a hangover type thing, but after a week it was still there and it even seemed to get worse. I vividly remember being in the car and it feeling like time was stuttering. Things just felt gray and bleak. I would go out in nature and the leaves on the trees almost looked fabricated. It's really hard to tell someone what it's like because it's almost indescribable. Because it felt so weird I would panic. I did CBT and group therapy for a while and it didn't really click with me at the time, but I did learn some things. For one, your mind creates DPDR as a coping mechanism for intense anxiety, but that feeling can be so foreign that you panic, making you have even more intense DPDR and this is a vicious feedback loop. If you learn ways to disrupt that loop, you'll experience less of it. What I did is this: I immediately stopped using all drugs and alcohol, I began a regular exercise routine, started eating healthier and more (I was underweight to begin with), and I started meditating daily. I also found that socializing with friends and engaging in hobbies really ameliorated it. Getting a job in my late teens really helped provide me meaning and interaction with people which seemed to be a huge help. In my experience, not saying everyone will be like this, It really is one of those disorders where eventually you will become used to the feeling and associate it less with anxiety as time goes on. It'll get better even if it feels really scary right now. I'm 5 years out from that experience and while I still have it occasionally, sometimes for a few minutes, sometimes for a few hours, it really doesn't affect me that much.
For how long did you have it?
@@larspikke2 It was pretty severe for a year and a half I'd say, but slowly got better after that. I'd highly recommend CBT or CBT and SSRIs. Never tried SSRIs myself as it was generally discouraged by my family but they can work wonders.
I had the exact experience, and that feeling of being high lasted for 5 months for me. It also came with a weird sense of touch symptom where I felt like my body felt things in a lower frame rate, and my senses would overlap and feel in slow motion. For me the deoersobalization feeling did come bk briefly every now and then but doesn't nearly last as long as I know it's just a mental reaction.
I thought I may have had DID but after seeing this video I experience all of both of these things. I live in New Zealand and am about to begin work with professionals In order to deal with childhood abuse and trauma. I am afraid that the professionals in my country may not be able to help me but I am going in with an open heart and mind.
I wouldn't call this a "mantra" but it is definitely something to live by: "It turns out fine", a lyric from one of Avi Kaplan's songs titled "Quarter Past Four". The funny thing about this man is that he's singlehandedly gotten me through rough times, helped me stim, calmed me down, etc. but he's also weirdly triggered my derealization because he sometimes doesn't feel real because he's too good to be real... Weird, I know. I'm just so grateful God's given his voice to me a gift.
Thank you for this. When I was 15 I had dpdr for 2 years after using marihuana for the first time (never used again). Was also having panic attacks and I felt I was losing myself, losing my mind. Those were the worse years of my life. I only got presceibed antidepressant but didn't do much. It just went away with time. I didn't have therapy. I was only diagnosed with depression and anxiety. Some years after I realized it was something else
What did you realize it was?
We are almost the exact same person i have been through exactly the same except i first tried it at 16 and lasted 3 years on and off
*prescribed
@@jonathanmiller9235 thanl you. I have thick thumbs 😅
I have a question or two for you. Do you still have Depersonalization-Derealization Disorder and do you also have the manual the user of the video and channel has been talking about?
I've dealt with dpdr...since covid started. I only have derealization and only when I'm outside (it has gotten pretty scary sometimes) I try to use my 5 senses when I'm in the phase. I'm also diagnosed with bipolar 2 and general anxiety disorder.
literally makes me feel brain dead and impacts my work life , scariest feeling ever.
You are a gem Katie Morton
I've had Derealization for 18 years now, and it's been pretty much 24/7 for about a decade. I don't even remember how it feels to feel normal. I tried therapy before but the therapist dismissed everything I mentioned about DR and only focused on depression and anxiety. I've found another therapist recently who said she would like to try EMDR therapy with me, which I've heard great things for those with PTSD but mixed reviews when it comes to DPDR. I feel so stuck, it seems so many therapists truly have no idea how to even approach or treat this. 😔
How are you now?
I really dislike the Comparison component of ACCEPTS. A lot of us already struggle with having our thoughts, feelings, and experiences minimized by others. I don't see how minimizing our own feelings is a helpful technique as it only reinforces what we already struggle with.
I’ve been struggling with DR since 2016. Everyday doesn’t feel real. It’s like i know I’m here but I’m not present in the moment. I don’t even know to be in the present no matter how much i try.
I hope i can get through this because i would really like to have a real relationship and friendships in the future.
Great video, thanks.
Also, I really love your shirt in this video. 💜
I just can't resist, Kati! Pop a peppermint candy in your mouth for coping? If it's a York Peppermint Patty, you'll find yourself suddenly transported to the top of a mountain somewhere. Not sure how that would help with grounding. And they never tell you how to get back home! 😂
I’m 13, and have been suffering with this for the past year due to the pandemic and my brain not being able to comprehend the fact that I can’t escape the brick walls of my house or have a break. It honestly sometimes feels like I have vr goggles on and that I can’t talk them off because they are part of my eye and I do not like it. Explaining this to random people and soon my family has been and will be helpful. The second way I cope with it is talk to myself and realise that I am alive, my making purposefully made movements and looking at myself. I should have explained this to my family earlier but I just couldn’t bring myself to do it as I am also introverted, making it hard for me to communicate with my family and friends and express my feelings without a sense of embarrassment or putting the blame of it on them even though I know that’s not the case. Another symptom that I have is feeling of all lights are dimmed and that it’s not bright, or is hazy and dark. I have good days, great days and absolutely shit days which I can temporarily contemplate suicide before coming to my senses and making myself realise that that it a absoloyted fucking stupid idea. Thanks for making this video and I hope this comment makes a difference or helps someone else having this. Just remember, it is curable and the best way to cure it is by talking about it and making sure you come to your senses in one way or another.
Did u recover from it?
Yes
@@Nolongrused How are you now?
Yeah. It really feels like the pandemic made me have Derealization but Idk if that is the major cause for me to have it
I’ve been having this for a while now and didn’t realise it until I came across this. It’s like I am in my body but I am not taking in much around me anymore and I have existential thoughts about my life. Plus low moods and my anxiety has been hitting the roof recently making it hard for me to do simple things
The first step to fix this, is to stop watching this type of videos, stop searching for fixes, stop try to push it. Just be present and aware of where you are.