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i lost my job and failed to apply to new jobs, and now i feel like i am completely a useless person, and that everything i worked, studied for is in vain ... like i spent years to build my CV for just realizing that it is useless and no one look at it ...i am burning and i want to be reborn again into a stronger person, someone who will dig his root very deep, to the point that no one can afford to lose me .... i want to stand up again and keep walking ..i do not want to give up and this is completely smashing me .. feeling pain all over my body
It's really sad to see many folks here linking this playlist with negative vibes of loneliness and yearning for something that never truly belonged to them. But for me, 'Old me is dead.' holds much deeper meaning. It takes me back to darker times, when loneliness and depression were my constant companions. Yet, now, tuning into this playlist with its powerful title, I feel liberated, as if I'm observing my life from the outside, in peace and wholeness. Each track serves as a reminder of my journey and how far I've come, living beyond the shadows of my past. I finally feel like I can breathe and appreciate the beauty of life. Here's hoping everyone else here can capture a slice of that freedom and renewal as they listen to these tunes.
"Being alone doesn't effect instantly, it kills you with the time without even realizing". yeah, most ppl says being alone is the best thing in the world because the peace, no one bother u. etc.. Listen, I have been living alone since I had 24 after my mom pass away, now I have 30 almost 31 and still alone, lately i have been feeling sad because when I want to do something, theres no one around me, all my friends migrated to other countries, I only have 2 sister but 1 migrated too and the lil one lives with her father in another state so.. its just me and my 2 cats (I love both so much). Imagine, arriving at ur home after work everyday and theres no one to talk about ur day or how u feel (its worse in day off). Imagine doing ur best trying to make friends or trying to love someone again and nothing happened because they or she doesnt have time for you. I dont know where Im going to end up but I dont want to give up because life is beautiful. (sorry for my eng)
I lost my wife last December, and I'm completely lost without her. She was the love of my life. I loved her in a way that I will never love another person. She was my wife and my best friend, who I could be myself without any fear. I'm crying a lot right now, it seems like she passed yesterday, but there's almost a year...
Sorry to hear that, man. It's tough dealing with death, and I hope you can recover. But think of it like this. She must be so proud looking down on you every day. She must be so happy when she sees you happy and sad when she sees you sad. I'm not saying you should hold in the emotions. But you need to move on for her. Moving on does not mean forgetting her. It means forgetting the negatives. So even if you think she's gone, she isn't. She is always by your side, and she will never leave. I lost someone dear to me, and I went down a tough path. I then realised that me being sad and hurting myself would make that person feel pain. More pain than what they were in before they passed. So work hard and succeed in life for them and yourself. I know you can do it. We all can.
something i’ve realized about being alone all the time is the fact that you find comfort in music like this. even if normal people see it as the type to set the mood low or have them feel down. when you’ve spent almost your entire life alone and feeling that way 24/7, it’s like the only way you can even FEEL at peace, is here.
There is a reason that monks of most faiths go into isolation to find God. In solitude, there is clarity. But that clarity can give way to emptiness if you let it. We all die alone, but we live amongst men. In your solitude, strive, but never forget that you arent truly alone in the world. You just haven't found your fellow travelers yet. God be with you.
@@jaushuagrahamthefloridaman1124 i wish i could have a mindset like this. i’m not religious but i certainly believe in someone or something like that. i will take this advice and move forward. much appreciated brother/sister 🤝🏽
@yqhlr be who you need to be, and you'll find your people. Just never lose that hope and mindset. Hell, i found God down the barrel of my own gun. Life will work out if you decide to work it out, Friend.🤝
@@yqhlrGod is real. He's there for those who have truly been emptied out, for those who see k him with their whole heart. Isaiah 45:16 Truly, You are a God who hides Himself, O God of Israel, Savior! In Christ is where true wisdom resides, in whom I've found my comfort. Those who are wise in their own eyes can't understand this nor receive it.
i miss my old self. i miss my childhood, i miss being happy and excited over the future. i miss my school days, my old friends. i miss not worrying about anything. now im 19, and almost 20. the end of my childhood and the beginning of my adult life. i feel so lost. i just wanna wake up in 2014 and realize it all was nothing but a dream.
You will if you've decided to make it so. But when Death arrives, the real question will be... are you ready? Reflection is key. "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --A.B. (DD1) 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
Me too. We are a different breed, not meant for this world or this time. We'll wake up again one day, and be somewhere else, don't worry. Our time will come, I just don't know when. Live the life you were promised, despite all the tragedy. Lord knows I have my fair share, if not more.
He wasn't asking any of you in the comments for advice at all he was telling you his feelings. Sometimes just listen and wish people well. I hope things turn around for you whatever your going through just know someone is going through something similar.
That hits hard, but in the right way. I'd say reincarnation is real, and so is heaven and hell, but the secret is that they're all right here on Earth in this thing called "Life". We die many times so that we can live on. It's beautiful that our own destruction bears the fertile soil of our next incarnation. That's why we sojourn on into the next sunrise even when it's pitch black. Oddly I'm here listening to this because my birthday is in a few days and I was reflecting on all my past selves and grateful that they were sacrificed so that I can be a stronger, more resilient, more disciplined and more compassionate man with a burning passion for life. Doomer -> Bloomer incarnate. Your comment really resonated with me. It's beautiful.
We will. And if we don’t. Oh well. No harm no fowl. Nothing TRULY matters… so might as well keep going to see if things get better. Worst case scenario they don’t. So what? lol doesn’t matter in the grand scheme of things
My mind is so scrambled i don't even know how to explain the simplest of things anymore. The intrusive thoughts. Constantly imagining scary/horrible things, the flashbacks and relentless deep sorrow. The nightmares. I miss feeling sane. I miss having friends and my drive to make more. I miss going to bed at 11pm
I think u should try the book "Stop worrying and start living" by Dale Carnegie. The content is really relatable, intuitive and helpful. The examples are real people's life based and u will be able to relate to a lot of things and learn too. In the end, I believe that the book will help u in finding u a path. So try it, it's worth it
It will be ok maybe one day but idk when that day will come my friend if you watch anime I’d recommend Vinland saga it helped me at least regain my sanity and not feel lost without a purpose
No one can hide from themselves forever. "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --A.B. (DD1) 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
I feel like a ghost. Whenever I talk sometimes people listen to me. Other times, they just don’t say anything. I don’t get it. I speak the same tone of voice, and even if I’m quieter, some people still hear me. I even believe that some people don’t see me. If you see this comment, you’re one of the rare people who can acknowledge my existence.
6:19 I totally understand I work at a convenience store, and sometimes I will say to someone directly on the other side of the counter 'thank you, or thank u have a good night' then they just look at me and walk out. Or if I try to say something to people walking in the store they will just keep looking and walking forward without any acknowledgement. I know I'm speaking clearly in a normally audible way
I wish i was my younger self again. Not caring what others think, being happy, having a care free life. But now, im older and i can never go back. I miss the old times. 😔
Do not idealize a life in solitude, Jesus paid the price of your pain on that cross, so that the moment you believe in him, all your pain becomes deep peace. I don't know you and I don't know if you are going to read this but I want you to know that there is a father who is waiting for you to come home, I wish you a beautiful life and eternal comfort in Jesus. I hope you can make that decision despite the difficulties❤️
I am 19 years old, I’ve done nothing notable within these 19 years. i remember a young me who enjoyed sports, and games. but now, i feel like a shell of who i was. I no longer feel like i belong around others, like i am not human. I created so many versions of myself for others, so many perspectives of me, i fronted so many personalities. I do not know who i am anymore. Which was the real me, that same childish person who enjoyed sports and games, why can’t i find him
we don’t live to make an impact. we live for the sake of living. how one enjoys their life is subjective to each person, but you don’t need to be a notable person or even have a bunch of accomplishments under your belt. it may seem impressive, but trust me, not all accomplished people are fulfilled or happy. my dad accomplished a lot throughout his life, I’d say more than the average person, but he’s one of the most miserable and angry people I’ve ever known. I’m also 19 and feel worthless. but we must remind ourselves that basing our lives purely off of others can end up leading us away from our own happiness. everyone’s different, but society seems to be hard pressed on catering to only one specific kind of person. someone academically gifted and successful in their job, with a family and significant other. those things are nice, but they don’t define whether or not your life was the way you wanted it to be. reuniting with our past selves is tricky. but maybe it’s okay that we’ll never be them again. you can’t see it, but you’ve learned things and done stuff that the past you couldn’t. I constantly wish I could turn back time, but simultaneously, I find that I’ve learned so many things I never would’ve understood if I hadn’t lived life the way I have so far. regardless, there’s no turning back time, and there’s no way to truly be a kid again. but you can learn to be carefree again, to engage in hobbies and live life by the second. you can have both. I seek not to be my younger self again, but to have her lead me through certain obstacles that she would be able to handle. and likewise, I can take that small part of me, and help it get through the more adult aspects of my current life. us depressed people always think that if our younger selves could see us now, they’d be upset. but what’s the point in thinking like that? putting it in perspective, we honestly aren’t that much older than them. we went through a lot of changes and experiences and stuff, but how many actual years is that? to full blown adults, that’s nothing. we’ve still got TONS ahead of us. it might feel like we’ve done nothing, and we might feel compelled to compare ourselves to our peers, but setting expectations for ourselves that we can’t fulfill isn’t gonna make us happy. happiness comes from living our lives without worrying too much about stuff like that. I’ve written a lot and it probably doesn’t make sense anymore. but I dunno, I saw this comment and it sorta resonated with me in a sad way. like I’ve seen myself go through that thought process before. I wanted to say something that maybe you can think about and gain a little hope from. I dunno if I achieved that or not, but if you read all of this, hopefully you at least felt something. at the very least, your words have been heard and seen by another human, right?
You are 19 you still have plenty of time and the secret is that you’re not supposed to have everything figured out and you need to be patient with yourself because great things take time
I spent two horrible years (2021-mid 2023) I felt alone, useless, unloved, misunderstood. The only friends I had were hypocrites, but I have a friend who kept me in this world, this brother from another mother, he always supported me. He was the only one who was really there for me, now I'm much better because I found a girlfriend, I love her so much, she's beautiful, kind, I'm still with my best friends, but I have a lot of remorse because I didn't enjoy my childhood enough, I wanted to grow up quickly now I want to become a child again, at that time I was really happy, for all the young people who read my comment ENJOY YOUR CHILDHOOD please, don't lose don't spend your time with girls or boys, make real friends and enjoy, be cheerful with everyone.
I wish I can say that I will or that I can because I felt the same way, in terms of wanting to go back that is. Most of my childhood was me being made to become an adult rather than letting me enjoy myself. Nowadays, my parents call me a child when im an an actual adult and I just sit there knowing that I am not going to relate to as many people as I could have.
You are born confused and disoriented, and you will die that way unless your level of Reflection is exceptionally strong. Even so, you will still die alone. Everyone does. "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --A.B. (DD1) 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
I'm struggling with mental disorders, had a very though break up, almost fucked up my life with cocaine and other drugs... It's a long tale. I feel hopeless, lost, broken, faithless, with nothing but a blacker and louder darkness everytime I go on and keep trying to get better. No light at the end of the tunnel, but... I'm still alive! Gotta make it at least for today. Do the same fellow brother/sister. The black cloud will go away sooner than you think ❤
To everyone reading this, It hurts me to see how much pain people are going through. But it just reminds me that none of us are alone in our pain, we all are battling hardships and demons. You should remember that too. This isn't your life, it's just a bad season, possibly a very long one. But it gets better, so don't stop fighting. I love you. ❤
Как же хочется превратиться в абстрактное нечто и улететь далеко-далеко в космос. Туда, где нет людей. Туда, где мне будет хорошо и спокойно. Туда, где мне не надо будет думать о работе/учёбе и прочих вещах.
@@Scientist-d7i а ведь я до сих пор иногда думаю о подобном, мне тяжело жить, но нет какой то определенной причины, я просто не хочу жить, ибо не вижу смысла
I know it's hard, I do. But, take a look at the trees. Every single year they loose their leaves. Some just watch those fruits rot away, without a single soul stopping by to have a taste of it. Yet, they keep standing firm and tall. Waiting for better days to come. You got this, firm and tall!
Never felt so much moral support from strangers as I have in this comment section under this video. So many people sharing their problems and giving the warmest words and wishes, makes me feel that I'm not alone in this world and someone else is also fighting their own demons just like me. Thank you all guys, y'all made me feel so much better. At least for a few minutes.
I’ve been struggling for half of my life with mental health and I’m exhausted. I’m tired of running things,I’m tired of living in this constant spiral of sadness and disappointment. I’ve reached my limit a long time ago, The old me died on my first suicide attempt and I miss him dearly,I don’t know anymore what it means to look forward in life or how it feels to be excited anymore. All I feel is so intense that numbs me sometimes. The worst part is that for the past two years I had found hope and I destroyed it. She was the light of my life and I destroyed her because I never fixed myself,my inner hatred spilled out of me and stained her forever. She was everything that I ever asked for and always wanted,with her I felt alive again for the first time in my life in almost a decade I felt alive and hopeful that things would get better. I still love that woman I still yearn for her touch and her company,although we are still in contact it’s becoming more scarce day by day and I can’t help but to think that soon she’ll leave for good. I don’t blame her,I blame myself because of my own inner fears and unresolved issues I pushed her away slowly. I’m tired of trying and I’m tired of losing,I’m tired of being a failure and killing everything I touch. I miss the old me that brought life to things,that was happy even when a bad day occurred he still managed to find ways to be happy in the mist of all that chaos. I’d kill to go back and time and do everything differently and change everything. I’m on my limit and to be honest with you my dear reader,I can’t help but to think that my days are counted and I’m reaching the end of my story. It seems like it’s closer than expected I hope you understand I’m not looking for sympathy,I’m just tired of everything and wanted to take a bit of this weight off even if it’s on a meaningless comment on a random video on TH-cam. I hope you do better in life than I ever did and that things work out for you,there’s still plenty that life can offer waiting for you. I wish I could say the same for myself Thank you for reading and goodbye
move on, you cant change the past. let that first attempt be your last, please. try to read the bible or anything religious if it would help. you got this man, pull thru, alr?
I'm not sure what's more sad the music or the comments. Stay strong don't give into your battles the sun always rises and the darkness will always fade.
Even if the sun doesn’t rise it’s worth holding out hope that it will. Just PURELY to spite those that hope you’ll give up. Fuck ‘em. We make our own sunrises and no one can take that away from us.
lost my dad on august 27 and im dealing with severe anxiety issues since. It actually went undiagnosed for years and years since my family didn't care about me. Nor did my dad have enough power to care about me. He was barely making enough money to keep the family going and his family wasn't supportive at all and he was under a ton of stress. He started using random drugs since he started having stress issues. Now my family cares about me now but i wont forgive any of them except my sister and my mom. I feel so lucky to have such a supportive sister where she got me though my life's deepest points she got me though my su!c!d@l thoughts. I'll never forgive them. Their "care" feels undefinably fake. My anxiety that had gone undiagnosed for years and years and it's gotten to the point where i lost my feelings. I'm so numb and i can't feel any emotion anymore. You wouldn't understand how painful being numb all the time is. Nobody will.
A lot of people view this as sad, but I personally feel that it’s freeing, like casting off the chains and bindings of a previous life and pushing forward towards a new and better future. These songs are this persons moment of self insight, reviewing their past and accepting that it will no longer be a part of them.
I’ve gone through a lot these past two years, which honestly felt like one long horrible year. 2021 was the best year it could have been and it feels so far away and yet like it was just yesterday. I’ve gone through eating disorder, depression, derealization, suicidal ideation, trauma, hell and back. I’m tired. I’m so very tired. But I’m working towards a good life for 2024. And this music makes me feel better- makes me feel less tired and stressed. I hope whoever may be reading this is able to achieve that same hope and comfort in the coming year. I hope you can overcome everything you face. I’ll never be the same person again, but I wanna make a new life for the person I am now. A better life.
I wont lie you captured exactly how I think in a single comment- 2021 was bliss, a few shitty desicions later and you're stuck regretting all that you do- but we learn to live with it, learn to cope, and we grow from the experience.
@@aperson673 Exactly. And what I said also holds true in that, I really do wish the best for the people who read it, you included. I want you to be able to at least survive through the struggles you face (cus I know not everyone can overcome and thrive despite them, sometimes we can only hope to survive and can only settle for “got through it alive”)
@RemylRuby (In advance: I apologize for such a long comment.) Jesus Christ are you egotistical and rude? Now that I understand what your original comment was saying, please just leave me alone. I’m not even on Twitter. Social media has not had anything to do with the dark times in my life. You know absolutely nothing about my life other than the fact that in the last two years I’ve gone through: an eating disorder, derealization, anxiety, depression, and suicidal ideation that almost resulted in my suicide had it not been for the people in my life who saved me and whom I am so lucky to have. I have had the energy to smile and crack jokes because I haven’t wanted people to know how shitty I really feel. I didn’t want people to worry or care about me because I didn’t care about myself. And yeah, some of my problems are ultimately self inflicted, I cannot deny that. But I’ve been depressed since I was 8, passively suicidal since I was 9, it wasn’t until these last two years that I’ve been this depressed. This is a part of me that has not gone away, and it would still be there even if the few habits I have that can make me feel worse weren’t. Just because you’ve gone through cancer twice doesn’t mean you have any right to tell others they can’t suffer. It doesn’t mean you win whatever suffering game you think you’ve won. It doesn’t mean other people’s suffering is worth less than yours. You’ve gone through cancer twice, but I’ve gone through family trauma my whole life. You’ve gone through cancer twice, but I was starving myself and throwing up because I do not like myself. You’ve gone through cancer twice, but some people have no one to turn to that’ll comfort them on their darkest days. But I don’t think your suffering is less than mine or anyone else’s. Cancer is terrifying. Utterly terrifying and I’m really truly sorry you had to go through that. But you have no right to downplay others’ pain, tell them it’s all because they got “too many mean tweets,” and pretend that others can’t be suffering because you’ve had cancer. I can’t imagine what it’s like, being the kind of person who hears someone say “I’ve gone through an eating disorder, suicidal ideation, and derealization; but I’ve come out of it stronger” and your response to that is “what, did you get too many mean tweets? Y’know if you just spent less time on your phone, you’d be fine. I’ve gone through cancer twice and I don’t complain.” Imagine being so bitter that you can’t even spare a shred of empathy to others and pay attention to the actual message of what I said. That I really hope whoever is reading my comment can manage to survive whatever they’re struggling with. Because sometimes life is really fucking hard.
Oh, I'm so sorry that you went through this. The last two years have been really hard. I am really proud that you are working on yourself and striving to feel better. This is a really difficult job. I hope everything works out for you
I hate the question, “what do you do with your free time?” because it’s always the same perpetual lie, oh you know watch TH-cam, hang out with friends, video games etc etc. In all reality I don’t do anything. I just cry when I’m alone. I have no words in my mind to explain to me why I am or what it is that’s making me the way that I am. A constant tiredness, no motivation. Nothing is inspiring or even exciting. I just want to sleep and I feel like I’m never rested. I cling to my couch like it’s the only thing I have. I have a wife and she loves me. I love her too, but I feel like I don’t have enough energy to show it, and that shows. I know what I have can be lost, but I can hardly keep up with it. I just want to drift away. I don’t belong here, but I’m a coward.
I feel the exact same way and its called depression the most difficult illness to overcome. Talk to someone about your feelings and you will start to feel better, if you keep it to yourself it will slowly kill you. Thanks for sharing, its the most horrible unexplainable feeling in the world, you are not alone my brother.
@@osprey5611 I believe so as well, I just don’t like the idea of oversharing or paying someone to know. I know what is wrong with me it just never goes away. Thank you brother, I hope all is well with you.
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I cant even give up , even though I want to end it so badly , that bit of hope we humans have , really does hurt. Its like even when im void of emotions , my body is just set to autopilot , there's no stopping , because we have souls , a heart with a speck of light that just keep pushing. I won't stop yet.
4 in the morning, I listen to this music knowing that tomorrow I have a job defense at the university. I'm very worried that I won't succeed. But I read the comments and realized that we all have problems, and we just need to overcome them and not be afraid of anything...
I was alone and did not have fun, and I had (social phobia) that accompanied me since I was a child, and I felt remorse and excessive thinking. I was truly a person who neglected his health and body, and now I am Nothing has changed, I am as I was, I am alone, I do not know how to speak with a hand because of the confusion, the confusion almost kills me
How's the weather today? Is the sky blue? Do you hear the birds singing? I think.. You are not alone:3 The sun warms you. The moon watches your steps. The flowers maybe bloom somewhere on your street, waiting you to find them.. There are many. And always many beautiful things in the world that wait for you to find, to see, to hear, to eat, drink, or whatever. The blank in your heart is not hard to fix.. cause no one had seen it clearly. Maybe it will take times, many times.. To open to someone. .. So, how's the weather today? And how are you:)?
I am 18 , I have decided to be alone and single to figure myself out. I have a bad financial condition , a little low mental health. But this playlist brings me comfort. I feel as if people understand me here.
I took a different path in life than others around me after I graduated. Spent my late teens and early 20's building a business. Pushed aside good friends in the process. Childhood friends that would once give their life for me. I am now in my late 20's and as I sit here in a house that is way too big for one person, I cant help think about all the things I have missed out on. Going out to bars with friends...Being out all night long running the city...Getting into a bit of trouble...All the people I have abandoned. I am alone now and it's no ones fault but my own. Money isn't happiness. Being alone doesn't bring happiness. Being selfish keeps happiness away. I finally realize and I want to be go back. I believe its too late.
its never too late, trust me. get in contact with old friends, i trully belueve that if they're reL, they will forgive you. real friends love you ti the moon and back, and so do you.
This resonates with me so much. I'm also in my late 20s right now, having pushed most of my friends and family away for Money. I spent 8 years building my business. Now I own many of the materialistic things i thought would comfort me but they only remind me of what i had done in order to get such things. I have nobody, no family member, no friends and no wife or children. I never went into a relationship and never had fun with those around me. My life is a constant cycle of work and do nothing. I don't even have to work much since my business is sort of a passive income. I lay in bed all day scrolling through my friends social media pages and seeing their families, a crushing reminder of what i could have had. If i could go back i wouldn't prioritize money over friends and families.
😂 I'm now preparing myself to push everyone away, to start my business, I think it's normal to think you missed out a lot, also the guys who went to party all the time, think about what if they took your path!?, choices have consequences you should let go of regret, early 20s partying means nothing, maybe what you did looks wrong now, but at one point it made sense, what you did is hard and it takes strong will, I'm proud of you and looking forward to be like you one day, you should be proud of yourself, and late 20s is great you just began life, don't waste time being sad over wasted time , and remember being alive means YOU ARE ALL IN, so make the best of what you have .
My favorite teacher passed this morning from a heart attack. He had two kids and a wife. I talked to him yesterday. Had a pleasant conversation. Nothing could’ve prepared me to get the text that he was gone. I met him 6 months ago when the school year started. His class made the days bearable. I think I would’ve told him what an impact he had on me had I known he would be gone less than 24 hours later. Davis. Thanks for teaching me what little I was able to retain. But more than that, Thank you for making a space where I could relax and learn about something I was genuinely interested in. I’m sorry that you went out the way you did but damn it you helped a lot of kids and made them proud to be in your class. So thank you.
@@drewseth_is_hDeath takes away everyone and we don't know when we are going to die which makes death our biggest problem. Drew, do you think there is an answer to death?
A family friend of mine died from a heart attack as well, I spoke with him the day before. Seeing someone who was so lively become a dead man the day after, world is too crazy.
@@29th.death and destruction are the punishments for the sin of humankind. However, Jesus Christ became a sacrifice to pay for the wages of sin, and if we believe, we will gain an eternal life in a new heaven and new earth.
Dated a girl for 5 years. The love of my life. Life was good man. It’s been over a year since we’ve broken up and stopped all contact. I saw her the other day with her new man. Smiling, laughing, finally living her life. She looked so happy. If you truly love someone, let them know. Show them that you appreciate everything they do for you. And don’t take anything for granted. Because when it all comes crashing down, you realize what you could’ve done different. But it’s too late. Don’t let it be too late. Show them.
@@valueoftruthdotorg9713from a girls perspective i can tell you that moving on was the hardest thing to go through in my life… when we really love someone no one can compare to that person no matter how rich, beautiful etc. … and that stays even after a breakup… every man just reminds me of him… so it‘s definetly not easier for a lot of us
@@julieann.6710 things like these simply...aren't about gender. it's that simple. we all experience the same emotions, maybe when different things happen, but...we all feel the same emotions. something that gives you joy may make someone mad. and what makes you mad makes someone happy. everyone at one point felt the same things. and gender doesn't change a thing about what I said before.
my girlfriend recently broke up with and i have been broken and hopeless ever since.. she was everything to me, she was the love of my life.. i will never have someone like her again and knowing that i have to move on from her hurts me so bad.. i can’t even go into my photo gallery and look at her pictures without crying
It is hard, but sometimes you just have to let it off, move on and never look back. Be strong, my friend, and have a good luck on your way. You're not alone.
Im the same as you bro i didnt have any friends prior to meeting my now ex so im all alone now but now is a great time to learn how to love ourselves and after get some new friends and gf
You lost your "friends"? Just thank god, if they left from your life, they werent your friends at all, because real friends will appear sooner or later, and REAL friends will stay by your side with or without money/social status , they will still be there... Life is a cycle man, some things go, and others come and thats just the way it is... Stay strong man
My sister died on February 29th. She was born this winter and died this winter, never having lived to see the calendar spring. Although she saw small unopened yellow flowers, future daffodils and green grass and also felt the warmth of the sun. She had a problem, a genetic abnormality, but one that people can live with and socialize with. We probably couldn't come to terms with it, but we accepted it anyway. I was very scared for her fate. I'm glad that my family didn't abandon her, and she spent most of her short life at home in love, warmth and care, and she met new year with us. She was an incentive for me personally to work harder so that I could help her in the future. But she left quietly and unexpectedly in a dream, before dawn. It was the most tragic winter, and I don’t remember what I was like before it. I believe that my sister is in a good place now. It seems to me, despite the fact that it’s already the second week of spring, that I’m still in winter 23-24. I miss my sister and I hope I will see her again.
É adorável os comentários que oscilam entre ajuda entre os que comentam e as reflexoes e tristezas sobre o passado ou a atual vida. No Brasil existe um ditado que diz: "tudo fica bem no final, se ainda não está bem é porque não é o final". Se mantenham sóbrios e sejam tanque de guerra em cima dos problemas, existe uma imensa força interna em forma de reserva de energia que você desconhece, faça suas caminhadas sóbrias, vá a terapia, se apegue a algo espiritual e busque refúgio na arte, a arte salva.
I’m glad I am not alone with feeling depressed. It is genuinely heartbreaking reading some of these comments. I am so sorry for the people that have lost something. I have lost a lot of things in my life too. It gives me a lot more hope that there is still good people in this world. Merry Christmas to everyone. ❤
you were chosen for your burden. the amount of darkness you feel is equivalent to the amount of greatness you are capable of. Choose to fight. Choose to overcome.
Je suis toujours en couple mais j'ai l'impression qu'elle ne m'aime pas autant que moi je le fais... Avant elle était beaucoup plus aimante elle dégageait de l'amour... J'ai toujours tout fait pour elle mais elle me brise le cœur de plus en plus chaque jour, je ne sais pas si je devrais continuer... Elle dit qu'elle m'aime mais ne me montre aucun amour c'est comme si j'étais un ami
i truly miss my old self, even the flaws i had i miss because even with all of them i still had joy and the drive to keep living life and the feeling of being loved and surrounded by people who love and support you, now i am almost 19 and i feel i have no joy left to share to the world anymore, no more joy inside of me, i miss waking up in the morning being ready for the day and excited for what i had in store and now i wake up not wanting to move onto the next chapter of my life because i feel it’s all pointless, i cry every night while the thoughts of my past and the thoughts of my well being just tear me apart, i wish i wasn’t here. i wish it would all end. are things that i say to myself everyday, i mourn the passing of my old self every day and i admire who he was and i feel like i’m losing more and more of myself everyday and one day i will lose everything that makes me, me
жалко, что становясь взрослым, уже ничего не радует.. кажется, мне тоже начинает казаться, что с каждым возрастом, радость уходит в никуда, и мне только исполнилось 16 лет. я еще вспоминаю ужасные в моей жизни школьные времена. в 1 и 2 классе со мной никто не хотел дружить и обижали меня, перешел в другую школу и стало еще хуже, надо мной издевалась почти вся школа, да еще до такой степени, что была мысль о суициде, лишь бы по скорее закончилось все это. так и довели меня до психической травмы, что повлияло на мою будущую жизнь как сейчас. и страдаю с тех времен депрессией, хоть и не глубокой в этот раз, но могу сказать, что часто бывает плохое или подавленное настроение, могу замыкаться в себе и уходить в одиночество, да и часто погружаюсь в прошлые воспоминания, вспоминая весь этот ужас..
Keep going, life is inherently difficult. That's just how it is, unfortunately. When all seems lost, you have nothing to lose, so in a way this can be a good thing. You have nothing to lose, only to gain. So you might as well try anything, who cares if it fails? You're already at the bottom, you can fall from the ladder if you haven't climbed. You are important, and there are people who will miss you if you disappeared. Its difficult, but keep going. We can achieve great things when we least expect it🫶🤞💪
Man im no psychologist but i think changing is not bad inherently, if you feel you are no longuer who you used to be, It means you now have the opportunity to build yourself as you want to be. Yes It will take hard work, but we were not born to enjoy the pleasures of life but to work hard to get what we want. Every goal that is worth It takes time and effort, thats what makes it valuable, you just have to find your own goal. But to do this search is in itself a profoundly healing ritual in my opinion.
Wat happend to make you "different you",why do u mourn your old self?? Life IS change...the decay and blaack Ness of wat we are is needed, THIS IS NECESSARY!! REMEMBER THIS
To whoever sees this, for weeks i spent my days being depressed after a long relationship for a kid my age i was heart broken. I wish i had someone to tell me this but you need to get up and fight. Prove everyone wrong, your stronger than this, you aren’t just a person that exist, your you. Whether your a guy or girl, you are you and thats what makes you special. Tell someone your not okay, one day your gonna need someone to tell you its okay. Don’t let your depression stop you, be stronger than they thought you were, If your gonna run away or you already are running from it, turn around and run towards it faster than you’ve ever run before and face it head on. Get up and stop letting a stupid pixel on a dang brick ruin your life, don’t let that guy or girl push you down, just get up and put your dang hands up and fight back. from- random stranger that suffered too
I never want old me to dead. Old me was the most happiest and taught myself to embrace the happiness but I couldn't catch his lessons. I want old me to live long more than myself.
Life is fucking me right now. I am broke and jobless on my own away from home. Couldn't line up a job in time and I am essentially having to move back to my past. But no one will be there. Just like when I left, it was because nothing was there for me. I have been in a unusually bad depression the last two months and am trying so hard to stay positive. These videos really help me hold on to something when I feel like I have nothing. I want to feel more human but don't feel like modern society allows for that and I am still in my 20's. I miss my childhood and the people from it so much.
Keep trying for those jobs man I'm fort worth Texas it's so hard being homeless here..keep going keep calling! Talk to people about jobs they may help you man.stay solid 🪨
It's crazy how people define happiness like they always say be nice and never expect anything in return but it never works ,i just find myself last and walked over i slowly found myself changing and now i became literally emotionless at only 18 but im happy now i think. thanks to these meaningful songs
All that matters is how you end--how you finish. "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --A.B. (DD1) 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
You can’t expect others to be kind to you when you are kind to them. Often in this world people will trick others into false friendship/relationship with false kindness. It is a classic manipulation trick. The day you learn to be kind despite being kicked in the mouth for it, you will feel who you are return. Spread kindness and empathy despite the suffering in and around you, then one day you will be surprised at how little it even affects you anymore because you have overcome it.
I migrated to another country at a young age and that changed not just my life but my entire personality; the cheerful outgoing kid that I was turned into a reserved and quiet person. I'm almost 26 now, working a job I hate at times. I have to interact with lots of people throughout the day and that drain my mental immensely. I do not have a goal in life, nothing to look forward to achieve, nor a fantasy to live up to. As much as I want to express my emotions at time, I really can't. Old me is dead, change killed it. It was a good change in the long run, I am grateful that it happened, but the cost was far to impactful for old me, and now future me is paying its toll.
Watching myself fade away in the sense that every bit of the world i can affect is overlooked and disregarded. Rejected at every turn if not completely ignored. The only person who sees me anymore is myself. My time is limited before i am eventually whithered away. Thank you for everything universe, i return to you as soon as i can
Time is the only resource. It cannot be bought, crafted, traded, invented, innovated, nor grown. Sadly, it is probably mankind's least respected "commodity". "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --A.B. (DD1) 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
It's just a title, many lofi videos have titles like these because it encourages people to share life stories, experiences and potentially advice among each other, a place of comfort for many where people can just get things off their chest. You can't usually get away sharing that type of stuff without a "who asked?" type comment or other forms of backlash unless you're smart and know how to write it, most people writing these things typically don't know how to do that or don't think about it at all. In real life if you just want to say something there's almost never any backlash so they only way to learn how to write something that way is experience- which I have plenty of from making this mistake so many times.
For the past couple months ive been struggling to find a point in life, like whats the point of having good job, making lot of money etc etc etc when after we die its gonna mean nothing to us, sure lot of people say "well enjoy life while you can" but whats the point of it when its gonna mean nothing to us after we die? Everytime when i finally become happy about something or i just get into a good mood i always remember the feel of disgust in my stomach knowing its pointless...
I am 23. Homeless, and struggling to live one more day, every day. I'm using mobile data, and plugging into the outdoor outlet of an abandoned bar to charge my phone.
I cant say "hang on" . Cause its a sh** advice. You are suffering greatly. But I urge you to find meaning in that suffering. Some meaning, something you could relate.
I've been homeless 3 times I'm 49 live in my own house w my 7yo son my fiance of 10yrs,I struggle w addiction to opioid and Crack, everyday is hard as he'll. You are still here you mean life love meaning to someone. It's very exhausting
Knowing that you have to keep going through it all is heartbreaking. When you expected something and everything goes wrong.. You need to accept it and move on, but it's so hard
Old me never left, but the life I used to live has long since passed. I'm a lot smarter than I used to be, matured and learned from my mistakes and kept moving. I pulled myself out of a sinister imposter syndrome, and reminded myself why I could never hate myself. In the end you will only have yourself, feel the good company you bring to others, and suddenly the reflection in your mirror becomes easier to look at.
7 years ago, 16th april 2017. the day of my grandpas birthday, the same day he tragically died. he was in the hospital at the time and i was at school. i was six years old and had just come back from home. it was a great day at school and the weather was amazing. my parents had said they needed to talk to me so as soon as i came in i took off my shoes and out my bag down little to my knowledge i was about to get the saddest news of my entire life. i had then went into the living room smiling widely and jumping onto the sofa my mum sitting next to me as my dad locked up the car my mum was struggling to not cry. then she broke the news. “Hannah darling, your grandpa has.. died.” these are the exact words that would change my living for the rest of my years. as soon as i heard those words i would never be the same happy little girl i once was, i am now 13 struggling with the weight of my parents divorce, depression, friends and homeschool. yet it seems stupid for a literal 13 year old to be expressing such emotions but i’m am being so honest from the bottom of my heart. but so, i hope anyone that sees this i hope you have the best, amazing and extraordinary day today.
Hey I lost my grandpa around your same age, and had similar problems when I was a teenager. I am 29 now, and let me tell you that time heals our wounds, make our pain more bearable to carry. Life will get better if you stay strong and carry on. This world is full of surprises and beautiful things, so focus on that when you can. Wishing you the best
youre not alone my grampa died too i didnt even get to spend has much time has i could rest in peace just check my name in the internet youll see why its hard for me too justice for joyce
Hello, how are you now? I can't speak English and I felt the need to say something to you. Life is a house of trials with all kinds of affliction, and death is the hidden mercy and a transition to a better state with a merciful Lord. This is how we console ourselves in Iraq. I wish you happiness.
Here I am, once again dwelling on the past. My father, who was the only FAMILY i had, passed away last year, on December 24th. Been feeling so lost since then. Things have never been easy for me. Troubled childhood, witnessing violence, my stepmother used to put me down just by existing. She was so mean to me behind my father's back. My mom left me when I was 3 or 4 yrs old, simply disappeared. Well I guess it was supposed to be like this. Anyway, it's not like I am the only one going thro a tough time. Stay good soldiers, lets make it to the end.
I'm so sorry to hear about everything you've been through. Losing someone close, especially your only family, and facing such tough circumstances must be incredibly hard. Please remember that you're not alone, and sharing your story is a powerful step. Keep holding on, because even in the darkest times, there's always light at the end of the road. Sending you positive energy and hoping you find strength and peace within yourself.
This music really allows you to view life from a different perspective. I wouldn’t say I suffer from manic depression, but there are definitely times when I’m down and feel like a failure, but I have to keep reminding myself that better days are ahead. Keep your heads up everyone! ✌️
I don't know where to go now. I tried to be a different person, tried to be kinder, meaner, calmer. None of this worked. I've run out of ideas on what I'm going to do with my life. I'm not broken, I'm lost. I can continue to move on in life, but there is nowhere else to move. I just want this emptiness to go away
For most of my life ive only knew loss. All of my blood family are either dead or dont care enough to contact me unless someone else has died. Just a few years ago i had a fresh start. New place. New people. No reminders of my past save for my friends who i still talk with. But in the past few months ive been surprised to find that i havent had any negative thoughts about myself or others. Im by no means healthy but I dont think ive ever felt better. My advice to the world is to not let something like blood ties hold you back. A family who couldnt care less about you isnt really a family at all. Theyre just people and you dont owe them anything. Family doesnt mean blood. Family is whoever cares about you. Family doesnt hold you back. Family elevates you and wants you to be the best version of yourself. Follow your dreams. Even if you dont achieve them, at least you tried. And thats all that matters. Your old self never truly goes away you just start looking at life from a new perspective.
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --A.B. (DD1) 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
Mate those words legitimately made me cry, I wish I had such bright mind to look at things like you do, that last sentence made me realise so much about my life...
the two strongest emotions in this world are love and sadness. if you feel one of these two right now, don't worry, you will soon feel the other one. you can never, ever feel them both at the same time its like the alternation of day and night - never at the same time but they have their own chance. the worst thing when someone close to you dies is the thought that you won't see them for the rest of your life, but the best thing about it is that you don't even know how long you will live.
6:49 is my favorite and by extension, I got to say this is my favorite playlist I’ve found of this genre. I hope you keep this video up forever as it’s beautifully crafted, mate. Best of days to you, and to anyone who ganders at this. 🥂
i'm just tired of feeling lost and cut off from the whole world every day and waking up at night with anxiety. sometimes you can be alone, but when you hardly talk to anyone for several years at some point you forget how to do this and begin to be afraid of people. i'm afraid i'll miss out on my 'best years' and spend the rest of my life and die alone. at the moment the only thing that saves me is music and i just hope that one day i'll be able to talk to people
Salut, je pense que tu peut lire ça avec la traduction j'espère que ça sera compréhensible je suis français, j'ai lu ton commentaire j'aimerai te dire que t'es vraiment courageux ! je n'aurais pas fais la moitié de ce que ta vécu, ce vide que tu ressent chaque jours, chaque soirée, tout le temps.. sera ta future force, ne perd pas espoir le jours viendra, toi aussi tu seras heureux comme les autre, on espère tous ici alors, ne lâche rien frérot.
"Maybe for you, there's a tomorrow. Maybe for you, there's one thousand tomorrows, or three thousand, or ten, so much time you can bathe in it, roll around it, let it slide like coins through you fingers. So much time you can waste it. But for some of us, there's only today. And the truth is, you never really know."
This hits home with me. I lost my job on a day I had to take my father to the ER at the hospital. And while he was there I found out he has cancer. I feel like I got kicked while I was down. At the bottom of a hole and getting out was hopeless. Buried by hurt. Slowly realizing now I’m not buried here. I was planted here. And growth from this will become something beautiful out of something tragic. The bright side is I felt so low there is only one way to go from here. It can only get better. I’m slowly getting confidence back and trying to find work. Pushing through the setback for the comeback. Changing my perspective and realizing God didn’t bury me he planted me. And I’m ready to emerge from here a wiser person. Trying to understand everything has a purpose maybe all this happened to get me to a better place.
I wish I had a piece of advice for you man, I went through a tough breakup, and I found someone who's brightened my day. Just do your thing, please don't give in
in the same situation right now... just tryin' to figure out, which of these pieces of broken mirror are reflecting new me, and which the old one. But, neither of them are whole right now. Old one is ruined, new one has not yet been built
if you want to be stuck you will be if you want to grow you will its not who i was is who i am now what i do for myself now because the only company that i will always have its me
Never give up, i spent the last 4 years miserable, my job made me feel useless, the woman who i gave my heart to threw it away after 5 years together, i was failing all my classes because i just couldn't focus on anything anymore. Recently, has been different, I have something that i didn't think i would have again. I have hope, I have feelings aren't just depression. I feel alive for the first time in years. I still carry the same pain with me, but it doesn't define who I am anymore. You won't be sad forever, even if you feel like you will be. You'll come out of this better than you did when you started. You just have to weather the storm a little longer, the sun is just above the clouds if you look hard enough within yourself.
My old me said "I'll come back to you when you need me, but for now I'll just... have a rest, I guess, I'm... tired, so... tired... of everything, and everyone, so please try and endure some time for me, I'll be back... soon, I hope..." It's been 7 years, I don't think he's coming back anymore -A 20 year old boy suffering in uni
I feel the same man the old me is gone I can't do anything anymore i give up completely on making friends trying to fit in now i just sit alone everyday talking to myself thinking about her debating weather or not i should take my life and ive decided im gonna do it hopefully this time i actually am able to pass away peacefully give me a month or two and ill have enough pills saved up
Hi there! I’m really sorry to hear that you're feeling down. I wanted to let you know that there's a way you can make a real difference in the lives of others, which might bring some positivity into your own life as well. I’m part of an association that buys toys for young children who don’t have much. If you're interested, you can collaborate with us and help bring some joy to these kids. Even a small donation can go a long way in putting a smile on a child’s face. If you're able and willing to help, it could give you a sense of purpose and brighten your day too. Thank you for considering this!
Hey, I'm not here to sell you bullshit. There is a way for you to get your old self back. He isn't dead, he lives inside of you. How? You are the culmination of all your decision, all your experience and so much more. The hard part now is to find it. He may be buried deep. Don't get me wrong, you will never be this person anymore, but he will be a part of you. He is you. You are him, but you are also so much more now. If you can reconnect with your old self with the maturity of the present you, that's how you fill a big hole inside of you. He won't come back by himself, sadly, you need to put effort into it. If you do, one day or another he'll get back -Another 20 year old boy who also try his best in uni
When I hear such beautiful music and look at the picture, I feel as though I'm breathing pure oxygen. The feelings of solitude and peace comfort me. My restless, constant-motion brain and thoughts are calmed and I feel alive.
Reading these comments make me feel like I’m not alone. I see all of you. I wish there were perfect words to soothe a soul. I believe in us still. I believe and trust in our humanity.
If you're reading this. Know you got this. Whatever obstacles are in your way, tackle ONE problem before you even Think of touching the next one. Like I said, You Got This. ❤
I worked my ass off to get a job at a major Dealership as a mechanic at 18. I flew through the courses and ranked up as much as a could and finally got myself seated as a Certified level 3 tech. Just to be laid off along with 10 other people for “Corporate facing Financial Difficulties”. Got into another one in a smaller town. At 20 i was just doing the regular wake up at 6 get home at 5 and be with my girlfriend. On my way home from work some lady completely ruined my life. Smashed into me, totaled my car that i had just gotten that weekend, shattered my sternum, broke my wrist. Now 21 and the thing i centered my life around, the love of cars and fixing them and taking them apart, “You will never be able to work as a technician again.” What the hell do i do? I built my life around this. Im still healing from the surgeries. Still waiting on the settlement. Im so lost. My girlfriend has sat by my side this whole time, she is the love of my life and even with her and my 7 year old sister and mom, i feel so damn alone. I feel like a failure and a one trick pony. If i cant do the one thing i loved and was happy doing, what the hell do i do with myself?
I’ve spent the last five years pulling myself out of the darkest pit I ever could have dug for myself. Drugs, alcoholism, reckless s*x. I strained my relationship with my family, I alienated most of my friends, and all of it was in a fruitless effort to stay out of my head. I’m in my mid thirties now. I’m exercising, I’m staying up to date on my medications, going to therapy weekly. I’m about to start learning programming so I can pursue a career instead of working menial labor jobs. I’m doing better than I have in years, and yet, because I spent so long trying to stay out of my head and drown out my own thoughts, I never got to know myself. Now I’m trying to walk towards a path of success while still having a sense of disconnection from myself. Life can really be the most damned confusing thing.
Since i read like 6 stories i just cannot resist it. This music just drowned me in memories, and i think it started when i was 9 years old.. for sure 11-12 those two years changed me i lost my smile that day what happend was bad.. really bad. But i think i finally got to the point where i can see how my negativity And sadness puts weight on those around me, my family, my friends.. evryone. I need to change i need to grow up i know it, but no one was there only me And its hard... really hard i dont think i can make it anymore. But i wont let my family question So much to those who knew and didnt stay also, life Is hard dont make it yourself harder, im scared im really scared of life. Just for once in my life i will ask for help and Its to you. Just pray for me, thank you.J
i'm a guy from brazil, and give you somme good energys, everyone have bad times, bad vibes, a bad day is not a bad life, a bad week is not a bad life, a bad friend, is not a bad life, and in your case a bad memory is not a bad life boe. Listen, billionaires really want your life now, they would pay billions to change their life with you, make the difference, have a nice day.
Never be too hard on yourself, for a change you need to appreciate the positive aspects of yourself and life. Sometimes they aren't noticed until you lose those too. Love from Italy 🇮🇹
It’s not about age, it’s about stage. I am not the same person I was at 20 as I am now at 45. I’ve matured. And that’s good. I wasn’t even the same at 35. Like a snake shedding its skin - still the same person but a newer version. Loneliness is horrible but remember no one’s gunna knock on your door and say hey! I’m the love of your life or hey! I’m your best friend and you never knew it. These things take time and effort and time and effort gives things value. Never, ever give up because things pop out of nowhere but you need to give it a chance, get out there, go to bars, go hiking, join clubs, be a decent human being and people will gravitate toward you
I got myself an anxiety disorder this year and just looking back to my old self who was so happy and carefree. May he now rest as my present self will figure out how to deal with this challenge of life, probably the toughest that I will have in years to come. I want to ask how my future self did it and how he achieved victory. For now I'm staying positive, so you should too folks, no matter how tough the enemy is, believe on yourself that you can, and once you did, look back at how far you have come and the feat that you just did, be proud.
Not a day has gone by without a thought. I've let it get too far. The chance is gone, has been for a year. I wish I could forget, would def be beneficial. But truth is I don't want to...
@SKYZO4 thing is, I doubt the feelings are mutual. I expect she's moved on by now. I should be glad. She has one of the best guys I know now. Yet here I am.
@SKYZO4 she goes to the same college as me. The guy has been a good friend since 6th grade. Feel guilty around him. Had feelings for her for 4 years now, never did anything about it. I'm relatively confident there was something between us at the end. Never did more than the occasional conversation in class. Like I said, should've never entertained the possibility in my mind for so long. It feels childish
I met this girl in my work and we started talking for a few months. Soon I started to catch feelings and I found myself slowly falling in love with her. This girl was everything, after so many years of feeling lonely and feeling like I could never have what other guys and what my friends talked about, this was a breath of fresh air. But in the end I got rejected, same like all the other times I tried. I think I have a built in defense mechanism to where I can't show my affection to what I really want to show since in the past it hasn't been reciprocated to what I wanted. I truly did like this girl, but I feel like I let I slip by, again. We would have the best talks, we laughed, and we talked deep into conversations about ourselves and our goals and aspirations. At least she made my life a little better for a time. Now I struggle with the internal conflict of staying as just her friend, or leaving her. Because I know while she expects a real friend, I can't be that guy. The friendship wouldn't be real. Maybe in another universe, with a different me.
What I would do to go back to that January night ten years ago this day, where I ran to the high school basketball court and just shot around for hours and then after sat in center court and looked up at the moon. Crazy that back then I was terrified of the future, not knowing what the future holds but sitting here now thinking about all the times you should have turned right instead of left. Wish I could go back to that walk back home and seeing the sunrise, something that day changed and I thank myself everyday for it. To anyone who is going through anything, please just keep walking. If I would have ended my life that night I wouldn’t have met the love of my life a couple months later.
Хочется иногда как фильме Интерстеллар, посмотреть на себя в прошлом, просто смотреть долго и долго и плакать, стучаться , но все так же убиваться от безысходности и того , что прошлого уже не вернуть . Все говорят жить настоящим , но что делать когда оно не принести радости что бы ты не делал ? Я смотрю назад и понимаю , что , если бы я так оказался , хотя бы на пару дней , часов , минут , я бы стал самым счастливым человеком на свете. Если бы такое было возможно , я бы отдал все , что у меня есть, лишь бы прикоснуться к тому , что осталось лишь у меня в памяти. Ну либо стереть напрочь память о прошлом, чтобы так не страдать …
I lost my cat two days ago, he was only 2 years old. Ive took him away from the street in Italy to my home in France when he was only 3months. Now his life has been taken by a stupid driver and im feeling so deeply bad. I couldnt even said him goodbye, he was the medicine to my solitude. I dont even want to recover from this because i feel like it would be ungreatful to him. He was more than a simple animal to me, he was everything I had.
Loved my "friends" i made in the last 2 years. Lost them. All. Just wanted the best for every single person on this earth. Now im a fuckup. Will leave soon. Live a happy life people. Do what makes you happy. Dont let anyone interfere. And if you are thinking about ending it like i do, seek help. Please. Dont do it for you. Do it for me, as i am no longer here when you read this because i wasnt strong enough. I was a quitter. Thank you for reading this and stop overthinking everything. Thank you for not taking your life. See you someday somewhere A unknown, unimportant stranger on the internet. ❤
Dude, please be alive. I don't know any English, so this message will be fully translated. I've felt this many times, but I want to tell you that you are not alone and that these moments pass. Here's something that helped me. I focused on the reasons why they are worth fighting for, think about the people you love, your goals and your dreams. These are the reasons that will give you the strength to overcome, it's like collecting the tree leaves scattered on the ground, gathering them together and lying down on them. The leaves symbolize the fragments of good things that you are, that were lost and are now together again. And if the wind blows, bring them together once more. It's not easy, I know, but I believe in you.
...it's this comment in particular that's really hitting me. with the topic of suicide people tend to fling themselves towards one side or the other "don't kill yourself you have so much to live for!!! love yourself!!!!" and "killing yourself is selfish and is the easy way out. think about your friends and family who will miss you. do you really want to put them through that? you are a coward for running from your problems"....... when personally???? i think the answer is *_neither_* of those. i'm not gonna tell you to kill yourself obviously... but i'm also not going to tell you "don't do it". which, to most people probably sounds kinda fucked up, but notice that i'm not saying EITHER of these; i'm saying "i hope you find an end to your pain." suicide shouldn't be taboo, there are so many more layers to it than "i kill myself bc i dont wanna fix myself hahaha lol
I am 19 years old and Watching this video at 11:43 p.m. from home makes me nostalgic for the calm and the memories of my childhood dwell on my depression it warms my heart thank you for being there thank you
23:43. Я был в шаге от создания счастливой семьи 2 недели назад. Сейчас у меня ничего. Я ненавижу себя. Я ненавижу ее. Я не знаю, что мне делать теперь в этом мире
Проблемы многих людей здесь намного серьезнее моих. Но я подавлен практически постоянно последнее время, у меня не получается ничего, взаимотношения с людьми, учеба, работа. Я метался между разными людьми, чтобы в итоге все равно не чувствовать себя нужным кому-то. Я едва выполняю минимум своих дел, а большую часть времени просто лежу в темноте, забивая свой мозг бесполезной информацией. Попыток навредить себе я не предпринимал, потому что мне очень жаль себя и я боюсь боли. Но я ненавижу себя за собственную бесполезность и слабость, но в данный момент я ничего не могу (или не хочу, что еще хуже) изменить. Я не знаю, что делать дальше. Я уже свыкся с таким существованием. "Последнее время" продолжается уже несколько лет. Всем добра, будьте счастливы
Совет,выкинь телеыон,и хватит листать и залипать в ютюбах,и других соц.сетях.И тогда энергия востановится, займи себя делом и наблюдай в моменте себя.Меняй интересы.
I can still find old me in the wonder of music. Every phase of my life has a specific soundtrack. When I choose the right song, my feet, mind, and heart are back there again.
Всегда думала о том, что умерла ещё в 2019 году. И тут нашла этот плейлист с говорящим названием. Так странно ощущать, что с каждым годом ты все больше перестаёшь быть похожим на старого себя, становишься совершенно чужим человеком для самого себя. Ещё каких-то пять лет жизнь кардинально отличалась от моей нынешней: друзья, место жительства, семья и ежегодные поездки летом к бабушке. Я помню это, но это было так давно, что кажется, будто ничего и не было. Будто снился какой-то долгий сон с интересным сюжетом, а по итогу ты просыпаешься разбитым с мыслью "я снова чертовски устал и не выспался"
Да.. Точно. Как с языка сняли, словно долгий сон. Как-то быстро пролетело всё.. И плохое и хорошее. Ранее чувствовалась какая-то безмятежность, без границ, без каких либо забот, не жизнь а краски,мечта. А сейчас Каждый день просыпаюсь либо днем либо ночью и спрашиваю себя "а что я там оставил?.. В той бесконечности...", ибо я боюсь забыть всё это, себя, и задаю эти вопросы себе снова. Я там забыл это, я оставил Всё любимое в той бесконечности..люблю и помню тот утренний омлет, утреннее кафе. Я помню ту улицу и двор. Я помню себя и семью. Много лет прошло, больше всего этого нет.Я боюсь потерять себя и забыть что делает меня счастливым. Забыть что и ямогу сделать что то счастливей, кого то счастливей. Всё забыть боюсь. Будто меня что то внутри стирает, догорает, страшное чувство которое потом оставляет всё пустым. И правда странно это ощущать, просыпаться от такого сна что длился десятки и более лет.
Понимаю. Иногда я даже теряюсь во времени, вспоминаю старые моменты из жизни, детство. Но это лишь часть нашей жизни, взросление из ребёнка в подростка, потом и в взрослого человека. Тяжело осознавать, что всё меняется, порой не в лучшую сторону. Мы все когда-то постареем, мы все умрём. Это лишь часть нашей жизни, которую трудно, но нужно принять. Мы меняемся, и это нормально, хоть иногда это и очень пугает или удивляет.
Наступит зима, на снежных тропинках, у серого неба в полупрозрачной дымке метели под снежным ливнем.. снова окутает ностальгия. Как будто настоящая жизнь была в прошлом, а сейчас что то изменилось. Что то не состыкуется с тем, как весело и тепло было раньше. но что.?
for those who care: there was a point in time where i looked back and i saw a happier me. i yearned to go back so bad because i hated where i was. i look back on that now, a past within its ownself. i was able to escape the present by realizing there is no way back. the old me was dead. there is only forward. so i fought, and i fought, and i fight today. the present became bearable. the future became visible. the drive to go back became a drive to move forward. i'm content now. not overjoyed, not depressive, but just happy i'm not sad anymore. i have a purpose, and i understand what life is now. to contribute, to live, to have fun, and to fight through what happens to me. i can move forward. the old me is dead. in case you care: keep fighting. life will do this to you. and that's okay. we were made to fight.
BEST tracks from my channel on a SPOTIFY playlist:
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Note: All of the tracks used in my youtube playlists are copyrighted music, so if you see ads in my videos, it's because youtube places them automatically based on copyright-owners needs, I have no control over it, so sorry about that. My channel is NOT a monetized channel. My only goal is sharing escapism music to help out people that are sad.
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@@NavoTheTrueGod chat is this real
@@DuandaleQingle SEE HE DELETED ME, HE KNOWS BRO, HE KNOWS HES THE SKINWALKER
@@DuandaleQingle DONT LET HIM GET EVERYONE ELSE ...
-gets killed-
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thats why i have YT premium
The best part of listening to these musics late night is you can read the comments about how others feel the way you do.
So true. The night vibes are always perfect. Sending good energy your way
@@rustyhill5946 🫡💪🏻
Hang in there, we got this
Хоть мы разные и говорим на разных языках, живём на разных континентах, но как же я тебя понимаю дружище,
True…
i lost my job and failed to apply to new jobs, and now i feel like i am completely a useless person, and that everything i worked, studied for is in vain ... like i spent years to build my CV for just realizing that it is useless and no one look at it ...i am burning and i want to be reborn again into a stronger person, someone who will dig his root very deep, to the point that no one can afford to lose me .... i want to stand up again and keep walking ..i do not want to give up and this is completely smashing me .. feeling pain all over my body
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Relate to this very hard. I hope so both fine our peace in newness
I believe in you brother, you got this! Keep your head up! Sending hugs and kisses!
Keep up man, I believe in you !
Praying for you bro 🙏🏾 Trust in God
Getting ads while you’re depressed is another type of hurt
Come to Russia, there has been no advertising here for two years 😔
@@siHfwhy?
@@akshatgupta2407 There are no ads on TH-cam due to the conflict with Ukraine
this made me laugh harder than i should have
ah hhh
you yourself are the only person that actually accompanies you for your whole life.
take good care of that, you deserve it.
This hit me hard. I think I needed to hear that
Jesus christ is the only way read the bible
Its true. Even tho its so damn hard sometimes!
@@benjamincarter3430 nah
Being alone doesn't affect instantly, it kills you with the time without even realizing.
"Time is the only resource for which no creature may bargain..." --DD1
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I like being alone, wake me up when shtf.
No. It strengthens your bond with yourself.
Sometimes God is keeping us safe and keeping our peace safe by keeping us alone
Fr bro this is so true
It's really sad to see many folks here linking this playlist with negative vibes of loneliness and yearning for something that never truly belonged to them.
But for me, 'Old me is dead.' holds much deeper meaning. It takes me back to darker times, when loneliness and depression were my constant companions.
Yet, now, tuning into this playlist with its powerful title, I feel liberated, as if I'm observing my life from the outside, in peace and wholeness.
Each track serves as a reminder of my journey and how far I've come, living beyond the shadows of my past.
I finally feel like I can breathe and appreciate the beauty of life.
Here's hoping everyone else here can capture a slice of that freedom and renewal as they listen to these tunes.
Concordo e aceito a vida como tem que ser , não há outro caminho!
JESUS LOVES YOU AND HE WILL ALWAYS BE FOR YOU JESUS LOVES YOU BROTHER GOD BLESS YOU JESUS WANTS TO SAVE YOU
what does is feel like to be whole, i forgot
its has double sides
Thats true, my life was so much worse than it is now
"Being alone doesn't effect instantly, it kills you with the time without even realizing". yeah, most ppl says being alone is the best thing in the world because the peace, no one bother u. etc.. Listen, I have been living alone since I had 24 after my mom pass away, now I have 30 almost 31 and still alone, lately i have been feeling sad because when I want to do something, theres no one around me, all my friends migrated to other countries, I only have 2 sister but 1 migrated too and the lil one lives with her father in another state so.. its just me and my 2 cats (I love both so much). Imagine, arriving at ur home after work everyday and theres no one to talk about ur day or how u feel (its worse in day off). Imagine doing ur best trying to make friends or trying to love someone again and nothing happened because they or she doesnt have time for you. I dont know where Im going to end up but I dont want to give up because life is beautiful.
(sorry for my eng)
i hope you will get better. i dont have any other advice
Reading this is like looking into the mirror. Hope you’re doing ok. :(
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Nice words
Being alone is hell, especially after knowing what it's like to have someone. Not just a friend, but a real someone.
I lost my wife last December, and I'm completely lost without her. She was the love of my life. I loved her in a way that I will never love another person. She was my wife and my best friend, who I could be myself without any fear. I'm crying a lot right now, it seems like she passed yesterday, but there's almost a year...
Sorry to hear that, man. It's tough dealing with death, and I hope you can recover. But think of it like this. She must be so proud looking down on you every day. She must be so happy when she sees you happy and sad when she sees you sad. I'm not saying you should hold in the emotions. But you need to move on for her. Moving on does not mean forgetting her. It means forgetting the negatives. So even if you think she's gone, she isn't. She is always by your side, and she will never leave. I lost someone dear to me, and I went down a tough path. I then realised that me being sad and hurting myself would make that person feel pain. More pain than what they were in before they passed. So work hard and succeed in life for them and yourself. I know you can do it. We all can.
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I'm sorry man
Stay strong brother. You will see her again. She will be waiting for you when u get there. Stay close to your faith
I know it's easier said then done. She would want you to be strong
something i’ve realized about being alone all the time is the fact that you find comfort in music like this. even if normal people see it as the type to set the mood low or have them feel down. when you’ve spent almost your entire life alone and feeling that way 24/7, it’s like the only way you can even FEEL at peace, is here.
There is a reason that monks of most faiths go into isolation to find God. In solitude, there is clarity. But that clarity can give way to emptiness if you let it.
We all die alone, but we live amongst men. In your solitude, strive, but never forget that you arent truly alone in the world. You just haven't found your fellow travelers yet. God be with you.
@@jaushuagrahamthefloridaman1124 i wish i could have a mindset like this. i’m not religious but i certainly believe in someone or something like that. i will take this advice and move forward. much appreciated brother/sister 🤝🏽
@yqhlr
be who you need to be, and you'll find your people. Just never lose that hope and mindset.
Hell, i found God down the barrel of my own gun. Life will work out if you decide to work it out, Friend.🤝
@@yqhlrGod is real. He's there for those who have truly been emptied out, for those who see k him with their whole heart. Isaiah 45:16 Truly, You are a God who hides Himself, O God of Israel, Savior!
In Christ is where true wisdom resides, in whom I've found my comfort. Those who are wise in their own eyes can't understand this nor receive it.
JESUS LOVES YOU AND HE WILL ALWAYS BE FOR YOU JESUS LOVES YOU BROTHER GOD BLESS YOU JESUS WANTS TO SAVE YOU
"You can travel back to the past, but no one is there anymore."
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Hey, your young Jesus loves you, wants to save you.
@@Missionjesuscristoteama-wm7kn that's just creepy man
@@aracnide5051 Jesus loves you brother
@@Missionjesuscristoteama-wm7kn sounds like a stalker
At some point in your childhood, you and your friends went outside to play together for the last time, and nobody knew it
Damn that's deep. I love it
Dont even remember it
This is the saddest thing I've read in a long time...
That’s right, and so very True.
Ha! I Never had friends!
i miss my old self.
i miss my childhood, i miss being happy and excited over the future.
i miss my school days, my old friends.
i miss not worrying about anything.
now im 19, and almost 20.
the end of my childhood and the beginning of my adult life.
i feel so lost. i just wanna wake up in 2014 and realize it all was nothing but a dream.
dear beloved child, Jesus will uplift you, stay faithful, God has His plans for your life.
estar en los 20 se siente como si llegaras tarde a algún lado, no estoy segura de cómo explicarlo es un sentimiento que me angustia
i understand u im 19 and feel the same way at least you know youre not alone and work thru it even tho it sucks
20 years in 2 month..here we go
i feel you bud. just keep it up we’ll have to make it adult life aint that bad
It's sad how I only find comfort in listening to sad music.
You're not alone though, countless people like us find comfort in the saddest of tunes. But isn't that beautiful?
It’s the best music to think to
Same but it relaxes me, in this really chaotic world..
what makes it sad? just because its mellow and not loud doesnt make it sad, its just peaceful. at the end of the day its just noise.
Not everything is sad lil bro
It’s like i’ll have this feeling for the rest of my life.
You will if you've decided to make it so. But when Death arrives, the real question will be... are you ready? Reflection is key.
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --A.B. (DD1)
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Me too. We are a different breed, not meant for this world or this time. We'll wake up again one day, and be somewhere else, don't worry. Our time will come, I just don't know when. Live the life you were promised, despite all the tragedy. Lord knows I have my fair share, if not more.
He wasn't asking any of you in the comments for advice at all he was telling you his feelings. Sometimes just listen and wish people well. I hope things turn around for you whatever your going through just know someone is going through something similar.
it'll get better brother.
It keeps coming back and it feels like forever until it will go away again
The old you is dead but you can always bring flowers to their grave.
And, perhaps the new you will be happier than the present you, or so I hope! ❤
Why not dig yourself back up? It's just a little dirt nap.
Damn...
That hits hard, but in the right way. I'd say reincarnation is real, and so is heaven and hell, but the secret is that they're all right here on Earth in this thing called "Life". We die many times so that we can live on. It's beautiful that our own destruction bears the fertile soil of our next incarnation. That's why we sojourn on into the next sunrise even when it's pitch black.
Oddly I'm here listening to this because my birthday is in a few days and I was reflecting on all my past selves and grateful that they were sacrificed so that I can be a stronger, more resilient, more disciplined and more compassionate man with a burning passion for life. Doomer -> Bloomer incarnate. Your comment really resonated with me. It's beautiful.
É verdade, achei até engraçado 🥲🥲
Someday I hope we all feel truly alive again
We will. And if we don’t. Oh well. No harm no fowl. Nothing TRULY matters… so might as well keep going to see if things get better. Worst case scenario they don’t. So what? lol doesn’t matter in the grand scheme of things
My mind is so scrambled i don't even know how to explain the simplest of things anymore. The intrusive thoughts. Constantly imagining scary/horrible things, the flashbacks and relentless deep sorrow. The nightmares. I miss feeling sane. I miss having friends and my drive to make more.
I miss going to bed at 11pm
I think u should try the book "Stop worrying and start living" by Dale Carnegie. The content is really relatable, intuitive and helpful. The examples are real people's life based and u will be able to relate to a lot of things and learn too. In the end, I believe that the book will help u in finding u a path. So try it, it's worth it
The Lord comforts the broken hearted ❤ Turn to him
It will be ok maybe one day but idk when that day will come my friend if you watch anime I’d recommend Vinland saga it helped me at least regain my sanity and not feel lost without a purpose
No one can hide from themselves forever.
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --A.B. (DD1)
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i miss the society not consisting of whining little babies
I feel like a ghost. Whenever I talk sometimes people listen to me. Other times, they just don’t say anything. I don’t get it. I speak the same tone of voice, and even if I’m quieter, some people still hear me. I even believe that some people don’t see me.
If you see this comment, you’re one of the rare people who can acknowledge my existence.
I see you man and you matter
I've felt the same my entire life.
@@Lmackay204 Thank you! :) I really Appreciate it ❤ Times have been going better now. You matter as well.
@@brookebovee8857 I'm sorry to hear that :c I hope things get better. But just know you're not the only one. :) So, you're not alone....
6:19 I totally understand I work at a convenience store, and sometimes I will say to someone directly on the other side of the counter 'thank you, or thank u have a good night' then they just look at me and walk out. Or if I try to say something to people walking in the store they will just keep looking and walking forward without any acknowledgement. I know I'm speaking clearly in a normally audible way
I wish i was my younger self again. Not caring what others think, being happy, having a care free life. But now, im older and i can never go back. I miss the old times. 😔
I hear you
But Pray my love 🥹❤️God's got that happiness
You may never go back but you may move forward. Be that person you want to be. It's never too late to have a twist of fate.
@@shezarrine you speak facts my friend.
I was never young.
shhit i used to get bullied because i was skinny and short (elementary ,middle)
“If you feel lonely, i could be lonely with you.”
-a song that i love
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Спасибо
Aww let's bore together (:
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i just miss the old times man
same.....things just dont hi like they did before idk its mad sad
Everyone is talking about this. Is it just downhill constantly now?
same ... those good times
@@oreosaysb00 who knows...
Do not idealize a life in solitude, Jesus paid the price of your pain on that cross, so that the moment you believe in him, all your pain becomes deep peace. I don't know you and I don't know if you are going to read this but I want you to know that there is a father who is waiting for you to come home, I wish you a beautiful life and eternal comfort in Jesus. I hope you can make that decision despite the difficulties❤️
I am 19 years old, I’ve done nothing notable within these 19 years. i remember a young me who enjoyed sports, and games. but now, i feel like a shell of who i was. I no longer feel like i belong around others, like i am not human. I created so many versions of myself for others, so many perspectives of me, i fronted so many personalities. I do not know who i am anymore. Which was the real me, that same childish person who enjoyed sports and games, why can’t i find him
maybe the old you is in the process of dying. seek God
nostalgia reinforces the artifice, let go and see the present - no matter if it’d be beautiful or ugly
same. Hopefully you find that thing which will make you find him again. Maybe it will be something new?
we don’t live to make an impact. we live for the sake of living. how one enjoys their life is subjective to each person, but you don’t need to be a notable person or even have a bunch of accomplishments under your belt. it may seem impressive, but trust me, not all accomplished people are fulfilled or happy. my dad accomplished a lot throughout his life, I’d say more than the average person, but he’s one of the most miserable and angry people I’ve ever known.
I’m also 19 and feel worthless. but we must remind ourselves that basing our lives purely off of others can end up leading us away from our own happiness. everyone’s different, but society seems to be hard pressed on catering to only one specific kind of person. someone academically gifted and successful in their job, with a family and significant other. those things are nice, but they don’t define whether or not your life was the way you wanted it to be.
reuniting with our past selves is tricky. but maybe it’s okay that we’ll never be them again. you can’t see it, but you’ve learned things and done stuff that the past you couldn’t. I constantly wish I could turn back time, but simultaneously, I find that I’ve learned so many things I never would’ve understood if I hadn’t lived life the way I have so far. regardless, there’s no turning back time, and there’s no way to truly be a kid again. but you can learn to be carefree again, to engage in hobbies and live life by the second. you can have both. I seek not to be my younger self again, but to have her lead me through certain obstacles that she would be able to handle. and likewise, I can take that small part of me, and help it get through the more adult aspects of my current life.
us depressed people always think that if our younger selves could see us now, they’d be upset. but what’s the point in thinking like that? putting it in perspective, we honestly aren’t that much older than them. we went through a lot of changes and experiences and stuff, but how many actual years is that? to full blown adults, that’s nothing. we’ve still got TONS ahead of us. it might feel like we’ve done nothing, and we might feel compelled to compare ourselves to our peers, but setting expectations for ourselves that we can’t fulfill isn’t gonna make us happy. happiness comes from living our lives without worrying too much about stuff like that.
I’ve written a lot and it probably doesn’t make sense anymore. but I dunno, I saw this comment and it sorta resonated with me in a sad way. like I’ve seen myself go through that thought process before. I wanted to say something that maybe you can think about and gain a little hope from. I dunno if I achieved that or not, but if you read all of this, hopefully you at least felt something. at the very least, your words have been heard and seen by another human, right?
You are 19 you still have plenty of time and the secret is that you’re not supposed to have everything figured out and you need to be patient with yourself because great things take time
I spent two horrible years (2021-mid 2023) I felt alone, useless, unloved, misunderstood. The only friends I had were hypocrites, but I have a friend who kept me in this world, this brother from another mother, he always supported me. He was the only one who was really there for me, now I'm much better because I found a girlfriend, I love her so much, she's beautiful, kind, I'm still with my best friends, but I have a lot of remorse because I didn't enjoy my childhood enough, I wanted to grow up quickly now I want to become a child again, at that time I was really happy, for all the young people who read my comment ENJOY YOUR CHILDHOOD please, don't lose don't spend your time with girls or boys, make real friends and enjoy, be cheerful with everyone.
It’s crazy how the older you get, the more your perspective on life really begins to shift. You don’t take things for granted anymore.
Fr bro
@@mastahkiller9044 ?
I wish I can say that I will or that I can because I felt the same way, in terms of wanting to go back that is. Most of my childhood was me being made to become an adult rather than letting me enjoy myself. Nowadays, my parents call me a child when im an an actual adult and I just sit there knowing that I am not going to relate to as many people as I could have.
You are born confused and disoriented, and you will die that way unless your level of Reflection is exceptionally strong. Even so, you will still die alone. Everyone does.
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --A.B. (DD1)
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
I'm struggling with mental disorders, had a very though break up, almost fucked up my life with cocaine and other drugs... It's a long tale. I feel hopeless, lost, broken, faithless, with nothing but a blacker and louder darkness everytime I go on and keep trying to get better. No light at the end of the tunnel, but... I'm still alive! Gotta make it at least for today. Do the same fellow brother/sister. The black cloud will go away sooner than you think ❤
To everyone reading this, It hurts me to see how much pain people are going through. But it just reminds me that none of us are alone in our pain, we all are battling hardships and demons. You should remember that too. This isn't your life, it's just a bad season, possibly a very long one. But it gets better, so don't stop fighting. I love you. ❤
Thanks..
Пусть хранит тебя Аллах. Брат
Is 15 years a bad season?
@@ericneely8036probably
I love you too
Как же хочется превратиться в абстрактное нечто и улететь далеко-далеко в космос. Туда, где нет людей. Туда, где мне будет хорошо и спокойно. Туда, где мне не надо будет думать о работе/учёбе и прочих вещах.
знаешь, а звучит как нечто, к чему стремятся многие, не зная того
О да, как же ты прав(а).
Мне тоже порою не хочется жить в этом мире, надоедает.
@@Scientist-d7i а ведь я до сих пор иногда думаю о подобном, мне тяжело жить, но нет какой то определенной причины, я просто не хочу жить, ибо не вижу смысла
К сожалению, ты описал смерть
I love this gloomy pictures, they're always so peaceful. I wish I could live in a quiet gloomy place like this.
I know it's hard, I do. But, take a look at the trees. Every single year they loose their leaves. Some just watch those fruits rot away, without a single soul stopping by to have a taste of it. Yet, they keep standing firm and tall. Waiting for better days to come. You got this, firm and tall!
Never felt so much moral support from strangers as I have in this comment section under this video. So many people sharing their problems and giving the warmest words and wishes, makes me feel that I'm not alone in this world and someone else is also fighting their own demons just like me. Thank you all guys, y'all made me feel so much better. At least for a few minutes.
I’ve been struggling for half of my life with mental health and I’m exhausted.
I’m tired of running things,I’m tired of living in this constant spiral of sadness and disappointment.
I’ve reached my limit a long time ago,
The old me died on my first suicide attempt and I miss him dearly,I don’t know anymore what it means to look forward in life or how it feels to be excited anymore.
All I feel is so intense that numbs me sometimes.
The worst part is that for the past two years I had found hope and I destroyed it.
She was the light of my life and I destroyed her because I never fixed myself,my inner hatred spilled out of me and stained her forever.
She was everything that I ever asked for and always wanted,with her I felt alive again for the first time in my life in almost a decade I felt alive and hopeful that things would get better.
I still love that woman I still yearn for her touch and her company,although we are still in contact it’s becoming more scarce day by day and I can’t help but to think that soon she’ll leave for good.
I don’t blame her,I blame myself because of my own inner fears and unresolved issues I pushed her away slowly.
I’m tired of trying and I’m tired of losing,I’m tired of being a failure and killing everything I touch.
I miss the old me that brought life to things,that was happy even when a bad day occurred he still managed to find ways to be happy in the mist of all that chaos.
I’d kill to go back and time and do everything differently and change everything.
I’m on my limit and to be honest with you my dear reader,I can’t help but to think that my days are counted and I’m reaching the end of my story.
It seems like it’s closer than expected
I hope you understand I’m not looking for sympathy,I’m just tired of everything and wanted to take a bit of this weight off even if it’s on a meaningless comment on a random video on TH-cam.
I hope you do better in life than I ever did and that things work out for you,there’s still plenty that life can offer waiting for you.
I wish I could say the same for myself
Thank you for reading and goodbye
Thank you for sharing that brother. Hang in there, your old self is still in there somewhere I can promise you that.
We love you dude stay safe
can relate😢
God will never leave you my dear brother
move on, you cant change the past. let that first attempt be your last, please. try to read the bible or anything religious if it would help. you got this man, pull thru, alr?
I'm not sure what's more sad the music or the comments. Stay strong don't give into your battles the sun always rises and the darkness will always fade.
Even if the sun doesn’t rise it’s worth holding out hope that it will. Just PURELY to spite those that hope you’ll give up. Fuck ‘em. We make our own sunrises and no one can take that away from us.
lost my dad on august 27 and im dealing with severe anxiety issues since. It actually went undiagnosed for years and years since my family didn't care about me. Nor did my dad have enough power to care about me. He was barely making enough money to keep the family going and his family wasn't supportive at all and he was under a ton of stress. He started using random drugs since he started having stress issues. Now my family cares about me now but i wont forgive any of them except my sister and my mom. I feel so lucky to have such a supportive sister where she got me though my life's deepest points she got me though my su!c!d@l thoughts. I'll never forgive them. Their "care" feels undefinably fake. My anxiety that had gone undiagnosed for years and years and it's gotten to the point where i lost my feelings. I'm so numb and i can't feel any emotion anymore. You wouldn't understand how painful being numb all the time is. Nobody will.
A lot of people view this as sad, but I personally feel that it’s freeing, like casting off the chains and bindings of a previous life and pushing forward towards a new and better future. These songs are this persons moment of self insight, reviewing their past and accepting that it will no longer be a part of them.
Deep and thought provoking.
eu escuto e a mesma forma, sinto algo libertador e que algo de bom acontecer, sinto muito reflexivo com elas escutando
I’ve gone through a lot these past two years, which honestly felt like one long horrible year. 2021 was the best year it could have been and it feels so far away and yet like it was just yesterday. I’ve gone through eating disorder, depression, derealization, suicidal ideation, trauma, hell and back. I’m tired. I’m so very tired. But I’m working towards a good life for 2024. And this music makes me feel better- makes me feel less tired and stressed.
I hope whoever may be reading this is able to achieve that same hope and comfort in the coming year. I hope you can overcome everything you face.
I’ll never be the same person again, but I wanna make a new life for the person I am now. A better life.
@RemylRuby ???
I wont lie you captured exactly how I think in a single comment- 2021 was bliss, a few shitty desicions later and you're stuck regretting all that you do- but we learn to live with it, learn to cope, and we grow from the experience.
@@aperson673 Exactly. And what I said also holds true in that, I really do wish the best for the people who read it, you included. I want you to be able to at least survive through the struggles you face (cus I know not everyone can overcome and thrive despite them, sometimes we can only hope to survive and can only settle for “got through it alive”)
@RemylRuby (In advance: I apologize for such a long comment.)
Jesus Christ are you egotistical and rude? Now that I understand what your original comment was saying, please just leave me alone. I’m not even on Twitter. Social media has not had anything to do with the dark times in my life.
You know absolutely nothing about my life other than the fact that in the last two years I’ve gone through: an eating disorder, derealization, anxiety, depression, and suicidal ideation that almost resulted in my suicide had it not been for the people in my life who saved me and whom I am so lucky to have. I have had the energy to smile and crack jokes because I haven’t wanted people to know how shitty I really feel. I didn’t want people to worry or care about me because I didn’t care about myself.
And yeah, some of my problems are ultimately self inflicted, I cannot deny that. But I’ve been depressed since I was 8, passively suicidal since I was 9, it wasn’t until these last two years that I’ve been this depressed. This is a part of me that has not gone away, and it would still be there even if the few habits I have that can make me feel worse weren’t.
Just because you’ve gone through cancer twice doesn’t mean you have any right to tell others they can’t suffer. It doesn’t mean you win whatever suffering game you think you’ve won. It doesn’t mean other people’s suffering is worth less than yours. You’ve gone through cancer twice, but I’ve gone through family trauma my whole life. You’ve gone through cancer twice, but I was starving myself and throwing up because I do not like myself. You’ve gone through cancer twice, but some people have no one to turn to that’ll comfort them on their darkest days. But I don’t think your suffering is less than mine or anyone else’s. Cancer is terrifying. Utterly terrifying and I’m really truly sorry you had to go through that. But you have no right to downplay others’ pain, tell them it’s all because they got “too many mean tweets,” and pretend that others can’t be suffering because you’ve had cancer.
I can’t imagine what it’s like, being the kind of person who hears someone say “I’ve gone through an eating disorder, suicidal ideation, and derealization; but I’ve come out of it stronger” and your response to that is “what, did you get too many mean tweets? Y’know if you just spent less time on your phone, you’d be fine. I’ve gone through cancer twice and I don’t complain.”
Imagine being so bitter that you can’t even spare a shred of empathy to others and pay attention to the actual message of what I said. That I really hope whoever is reading my comment can manage to survive whatever they’re struggling with. Because sometimes life is really fucking hard.
Oh, I'm so sorry that you went through this. The last two years have been really hard. I am really proud that you are working on yourself and striving to feel better. This is a really difficult job. I hope everything works out for you
I hate the question, “what do you do with your free time?” because it’s always the same perpetual lie, oh you know watch TH-cam, hang out with friends, video games etc etc. In all reality I don’t do anything. I just cry when I’m alone. I have no words in my mind to explain to me why I am or what it is that’s making me the way that I am. A constant tiredness, no motivation. Nothing is inspiring or even exciting. I just want to sleep and I feel like I’m never rested. I cling to my couch like it’s the only thing I have. I have a wife and she loves me. I love her too, but I feel like I don’t have enough energy to show it, and that shows. I know what I have can be lost, but I can hardly keep up with it. I just want to drift away. I don’t belong here, but I’m a coward.
I feel the exact same way and its called depression the most difficult illness to overcome. Talk to someone about your feelings and you will start to feel better, if you keep it to yourself it will slowly kill you. Thanks for sharing, its the most horrible unexplainable feeling in the world, you are not alone my brother.
@@thenoodletiger1869 that is good advice, thank you for your time.
@@osprey5611 I believe so as well, I just don’t like the idea of oversharing or paying someone to know. I know what is wrong with me it just never goes away. Thank you brother, I hope all is well with you.
Hermano, toca la puerta del templo de la Orden Masónica. Allí tendrás la oportunidad de redimirte, busca información en redes, en tu ciudad o en libros, o en páginas. Una vez que ingresas allí, ya nada es igual, si estás dispuesto a cambiar.
Hazlo y después vuelves a mi comentario.
Abrazo grande
“Sometimes the hardest part isn’t letting go but learning to start over.”
I cant even give up , even though I want to end it so badly , that bit of hope we humans have , really does hurt.
Its like even when im void of emotions , my body is just set to autopilot , there's no stopping , because we have souls , a heart with a speck of light that just keep pushing. I won't stop yet.
It's never too late to start again, you're appreciated!.
Это буквально описание того что я чувствую... Я устал, но что-то продолжает надеется.
Надеется на что? Ничего? Так, раздражает, не знаю....
It’s ok to feel fed up I couldn’t tell you how many times I’ve wanted to end it. But that’s glimmer of hope is there for a reason. Keep pushing man!
4 in the morning, I listen to this music knowing that tomorrow I have a job defense at the university. I'm very worried that I won't succeed. But I read the comments and realized that we all have problems, and we just need to overcome them and not be afraid of anything...
I was alone and did not have fun, and I had (social phobia) that accompanied me since I was a child, and I felt remorse and excessive thinking. I was truly a person who neglected his health and body, and now I am Nothing has changed, I am as I was, I am alone, I do not know how to speak with a hand because of the confusion, the confusion almost kills me
How's the weather today? Is the sky blue? Do you hear the birds singing? I think.. You are not alone:3
The sun warms you. The moon watches your steps. The flowers maybe bloom somewhere on your street, waiting you to find them.. There are many. And always many beautiful things in the world that wait for you to find, to see, to hear, to eat, drink, or whatever.
The blank in your heart is not hard to fix.. cause no one had seen it clearly. Maybe it will take times, many times.. To open to someone.
..
So, how's the weather today? And how are you:)?
I am 18 , I have decided to be alone and single to figure myself out. I have a bad financial condition , a little low mental health. But this playlist brings me comfort. I feel as if people understand me here.
I took a different path in life than others around me after I graduated. Spent my late teens and early 20's building a business. Pushed aside good friends in the process. Childhood friends that would once give their life for me. I am now in my late 20's and as I sit here in a house that is way too big for one person, I cant help think about all the things I have missed out on. Going out to bars with friends...Being out all night long running the city...Getting into a bit of trouble...All the people I have abandoned. I am alone now and it's no ones fault but my own. Money isn't happiness. Being alone doesn't bring happiness. Being selfish keeps happiness away. I finally realize and I want to be go back. I believe its too late.
its never too late, trust me. get in contact with old friends, i trully belueve that if they're reL, they will forgive you. real friends love you ti the moon and back, and so do you.
The world won't be better without you. The world will NEVER be better without you. We need you. Find an audience and run with it.
You’re still very young, you’re not even in your 30s and 30s is still young.
This resonates with me so much. I'm also in my late 20s right now, having pushed most of my friends and family away for Money. I spent 8 years building my business. Now I own many of the materialistic things i thought would comfort me but they only remind me of what i had done in order to get such things. I have nobody, no family member, no friends and no wife or children. I never went into a relationship and never had fun with those around me. My life is a constant cycle of work and do nothing. I don't even have to work much since my business is sort of a passive income. I lay in bed all day scrolling through my friends social media pages and seeing their families, a crushing reminder of what i could have had. If i could go back i wouldn't prioritize money over friends and families.
😂 I'm now preparing myself to push everyone away, to start my business, I think it's normal to think you missed out a lot, also the guys who went to party all the time, think about what if they took your path!?, choices have consequences you should let go of regret, early 20s partying means nothing, maybe what you did looks wrong now, but at one point it made sense, what you did is hard and it takes strong will, I'm proud of you and looking forward to be like you one day, you should be proud of yourself, and late 20s is great you just began life, don't waste time being sad over wasted time , and remember being alive means YOU ARE ALL IN, so make the best of what you have .
My favorite teacher passed this morning from a heart attack. He had two kids and a wife.
I talked to him yesterday. Had a pleasant conversation. Nothing could’ve prepared me to get the text that he was gone. I met him 6 months ago when the school year started. His class made the days bearable. I think I would’ve told him what an impact he had on me had I known he would be gone less than 24 hours later.
Davis. Thanks for teaching me what little I was able to retain. But more than that, Thank you for making a space where I could relax and learn about something I was genuinely interested in. I’m sorry that you went out the way you did but damn it you helped a lot of kids and made them proud to be in your class. So thank you.
life can seem so fleeting at times. I hope you deal with this well. Condolences to all that loved this man.
@@drewseth_is_hDeath takes away everyone and we don't know when we are going to die which makes death our biggest problem. Drew, do you think there is an answer to death?
It’s sad what can happen to really good people im sorry for your loss and im sending my love and prayers your way and to his class and his family
A family friend of mine died from a heart attack as well, I spoke with him the day before. Seeing someone who was so lively become a dead man the day after, world is too crazy.
@@29th.death and destruction are the punishments for the sin of humankind. However, Jesus Christ became a sacrifice to pay for the wages of sin, and if we believe, we will gain an eternal life in a new heaven and new earth.
Dated a girl for 5 years. The love of my life. Life was good man. It’s been over a year since we’ve broken up and stopped all contact. I saw her the other day with her new man. Smiling, laughing, finally living her life. She looked so happy. If you truly love someone, let them know. Show them that you appreciate everything they do for you. And don’t take anything for granted. Because when it all comes crashing down, you realize what you could’ve done different. But it’s too late. Don’t let it be too late.
Show them.
I'm sorry man. They move on so easily because men are everywhere willing to date them. It's hard to move on as a man but all you need to find is one
@@valueoftruthdotorg9713from a girls perspective i can tell you that moving on was the hardest thing to go through in my life… when we really love someone no one can compare to that person no matter how rich, beautiful etc. … and that stays even after a breakup… every man just reminds me of him… so it‘s definetly not easier for a lot of us
@@julieann.6710 things like these simply...aren't about gender. it's that simple. we all experience the same emotions, maybe when different things happen, but...we all feel the same emotions. something that gives you joy may make someone mad. and what makes you mad makes someone happy. everyone at one point felt the same things. and gender doesn't change a thing about what I said before.
Hope you can reunite with your soulmate ❤
my girlfriend recently broke up with and i have been broken and hopeless ever since.. she was everything to me, she was the love of my life.. i will never have someone like her again and knowing that i have to move on from her hurts me so bad.. i can’t even go into my photo gallery and look at her pictures without crying
i lost all my friends, my girlfriend, and i'm unsure what to do, than to listen and try to forget about it all.
It is hard, but sometimes you just have to let it off, move on and never look back. Be strong, my friend, and have a good luck on your way. You're not alone.
Im the same as you bro i didnt have any friends prior to meeting my now ex so im all alone now but now is a great time to learn how to love ourselves and after get some new friends and gf
@forestgrumps Jesus Christ is with you and you will win
You lost your "friends"? Just thank god, if they left from your life, they werent your friends at all, because real friends will appear sooner or later, and REAL friends will stay by your side with or without money/social status , they will still be there...
Life is a cycle man, some things go, and others come and thats just the way it is...
Stay strong man
you find new people. better people. trust me
My sister died on February 29th. She was born this winter and died this winter, never having lived to see the calendar spring. Although she saw small unopened yellow flowers, future daffodils and green grass and also felt the warmth of the sun. She had a problem, a genetic abnormality, but one that people can live with and socialize with. We probably couldn't come to terms with it, but we accepted it anyway. I was very scared for her fate. I'm glad that my family didn't abandon her, and she spent most of her short life at home in love, warmth and care, and she met new year with us. She was an incentive for me personally to work harder so that I could help her in the future. But she left quietly and unexpectedly in a dream, before dawn.
It was the most tragic winter, and I don’t remember what I was like before it. I believe that my sister is in a good place now. It seems to me, despite the fact that it’s already the second week of spring, that I’m still in winter 23-24.
I miss my sister and I hope I will see her again.
I’m so sorry for your loss.
May she rest in peace.
Sit in pace soror tua😔
womp womp
@Malmorious you're spineless.
Rest in peace to your sister, i hope you're okay now, overcame your trauma
É adorável os comentários que oscilam entre ajuda entre os que comentam e as reflexoes e tristezas sobre o passado ou a atual vida. No Brasil existe um ditado que diz: "tudo fica bem no final, se ainda não está bem é porque não é o final". Se mantenham sóbrios e sejam tanque de guerra em cima dos problemas, existe uma imensa força interna em forma de reserva de energia que você desconhece, faça suas caminhadas sóbrias, vá a terapia, se apegue a algo espiritual e busque refúgio na arte, a arte salva.
Isso ae mesmo mlk
I’m glad I am not alone with feeling depressed. It is genuinely heartbreaking reading some of these comments. I am so sorry for the people that have lost something. I have lost a lot of things in my life too. It gives me a lot more hope that there is still good people in this world. Merry Christmas to everyone. ❤
I also suffer from depression and constant anger and negativity but i feel so drawn to these comments i can somehow relate to them 😢
you were chosen for your burden. the amount of darkness you feel is equivalent to the amount of greatness you are capable of. Choose to fight. Choose to overcome.
John Mc far
So many heartbreaked people here...now I know I am not alone
Same brother. You're loved
It makes me sad even more… this world is so cruel… i can see it every single day. 😔
Je suis toujours en couple mais j'ai l'impression qu'elle ne m'aime pas autant que moi je le fais... Avant elle était beaucoup plus aimante elle dégageait de l'amour... J'ai toujours tout fait pour elle mais elle me brise le cœur de plus en plus chaque jour, je ne sais pas si je devrais continuer... Elle dit qu'elle m'aime mais ne me montre aucun amour c'est comme si j'étais un ami
Same... Sadly
idk but why i find comfort in the dark and sad music, talking to my online friends makes me happy too
Same bro. I went to one of my friend’s house a couple weeks ago and he took me to this spot and we had one of those “real” talks. It was nice.
@@AdrianDemarcusPpTheThird FRFR
i truly miss my old self, even the flaws i had i miss because even with all of them i still had joy and the drive to keep living life and the feeling of being loved and surrounded by people who love and support you, now i am almost 19 and i feel i have no joy left to share to the world anymore, no more joy inside of me, i miss waking up in the morning being ready for the day and excited for what i had in store and now i wake up not wanting to move onto the next chapter of my life because i feel it’s all pointless, i cry every night while the thoughts of my past and the thoughts of my well being just tear me apart, i wish i wasn’t here. i wish it would all end. are things that i say to myself everyday, i mourn the passing of my old self every day and i admire who he was and i feel like i’m losing more and more of myself everyday and one day i will lose everything that makes me, me
жалко, что становясь взрослым, уже ничего не радует.. кажется, мне тоже начинает казаться, что с каждым возрастом, радость уходит в никуда, и мне только исполнилось 16 лет. я еще вспоминаю ужасные в моей жизни школьные времена. в 1 и 2 классе со мной никто не хотел дружить и обижали меня, перешел в другую школу и стало еще хуже, надо мной издевалась почти вся школа, да еще до такой степени, что была мысль о суициде, лишь бы по скорее закончилось все это. так и довели меня до психической травмы, что повлияло на мою будущую жизнь как сейчас. и страдаю с тех времен депрессией, хоть и не глубокой в этот раз, но могу сказать, что часто бывает плохое или подавленное настроение, могу замыкаться в себе и уходить в одиночество, да и часто погружаюсь в прошлые воспоминания, вспоминая весь этот ужас..
Keep going, life is inherently difficult. That's just how it is, unfortunately. When all seems lost, you have nothing to lose, so in a way this can be a good thing. You have nothing to lose, only to gain. So you might as well try anything, who cares if it fails? You're already at the bottom, you can fall from the ladder if you haven't climbed. You are important, and there are people who will miss you if you disappeared. Its difficult, but keep going. We can achieve great things when we least expect it🫶🤞💪
Man im no psychologist but i think changing is not bad inherently, if you feel you are no longuer who you used to be, It means you now have the opportunity to build yourself as you want to be. Yes It will take hard work, but we were not born to enjoy the pleasures of life but to work hard to get what we want. Every goal that is worth It takes time and effort, thats what makes it valuable, you just have to find your own goal. But to do this search is in itself a profoundly healing ritual in my opinion.
Wat happend to make you "different you",why do u mourn your old self?? Life IS change...the decay and blaack Ness of wat we are is needed, THIS IS NECESSARY!! REMEMBER THIS
Sometimes you have to let the old you die, to become the new you
"Reflect upon the Past.
Embrace your Present.
Orchestrate our Futures." --Artemis (DD3)
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Bela perspectiva.
The old me was better and sometimes it still comes out, just to die again
Fully agree. I honestly don't really like the old me and and I'm glad they're gone.
The new me is in pain.
To whoever sees this, for weeks i spent my days being depressed after a long relationship for a kid my age i was heart broken. I wish i had someone to tell me this but you need to get up and fight. Prove everyone wrong, your stronger than this, you aren’t just a person that exist, your you. Whether your a guy or girl, you are you and thats what makes you special. Tell someone your not okay, one day your gonna need someone to tell you its okay. Don’t let your depression stop you, be stronger than they thought you were, If your gonna run away or you already are running from it, turn around and run towards it faster than you’ve ever run before and face it head on. Get up and stop letting a stupid pixel on a dang brick ruin your life, don’t let that guy or girl push you down, just get up and put your dang hands up and fight back. from- random stranger that suffered too
Спасибо за мотивацию
Tu m'as énormément aidé, merci beaucoup ❤
I never want old me to dead. Old me was the most happiest and taught myself to embrace the happiness but I couldn't catch his lessons. I want old me to live long more than myself.
Amen
Life is fucking me right now. I am broke and jobless on my own away from home. Couldn't line up a job in time and I am essentially having to move back to my past. But no one will be there. Just like when I left, it was because nothing was there for me. I have been in a unusually bad depression the last two months and am trying so hard to stay positive. These videos really help me hold on to something when I feel like I have nothing. I want to feel more human but don't feel like modern society allows for that and I am still in my 20's. I miss my childhood and the people from it so much.
Im sorry you feel like that brother. I hope things get better with time Thank you for sharing what you’re going through.
Keep trying for those jobs man I'm fort worth Texas it's so hard being homeless here..keep going keep calling! Talk to people about jobs they may help you man.stay solid 🪨
It's crazy how people define happiness like they always say be nice and never expect anything in return but it never works ,i just find myself last and walked over i slowly found myself changing and now i became literally emotionless at only 18 but im happy now i think. thanks to these meaningful songs
All that matters is how you end--how you finish.
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --A.B. (DD1)
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You can’t expect others to be kind to you when you are kind to them. Often in this world people will trick others into false friendship/relationship with false kindness. It is a classic manipulation trick. The day you learn to be kind despite being kicked in the mouth for it, you will feel who you are return. Spread kindness and empathy despite the suffering in and around you, then one day you will be surprised at how little it even affects you anymore because you have overcome it.
I migrated to another country at a young age and that changed not just my life but my entire personality; the cheerful outgoing kid that I was turned into a reserved and quiet person. I'm almost 26 now, working a job I hate at times. I have to interact with lots of people throughout the day and that drain my mental immensely. I do not have a goal in life, nothing to look forward to achieve, nor a fantasy to live up to. As much as I want to express my emotions at time, I really can't. Old me is dead, change killed it. It was a good change in the long run, I am grateful that it happened, but the cost was far to impactful for old me, and now future me is paying its toll.
The change you went through might have been a test from God. Don't give up just because of your loss, but rather learn to cherish it.
Watching myself fade away in the sense that every bit of the world i can affect is overlooked and disregarded. Rejected at every turn if not completely ignored. The only person who sees me anymore is myself. My time is limited before i am eventually whithered away. Thank you for everything universe, i return to you as soon as i can
Don't give up mate. I'm at the exact same point. It's just a matter of time, and if what is needed is to start again, then, let's go
Time is the only resource. It cannot be bought, crafted, traded, invented, innovated, nor grown. Sadly, it is probably mankind's least respected "commodity".
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --A.B. (DD1)
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It's just a title, many lofi videos have titles like these because it encourages people to share life stories, experiences and potentially advice among each other, a place of comfort for many where people can just get things off their chest.
You can't usually get away sharing that type of stuff without a "who asked?" type comment or other forms of backlash unless you're smart and know how to write it, most people writing these things typically don't know how to do that or don't think about it at all.
In real life if you just want to say something there's almost never any backlash so they only way to learn how to write something that way is experience- which I have plenty of from making this mistake so many times.
For the past couple months ive been struggling to find a point in life, like whats the point of having good job, making lot of money etc etc etc when after we die its gonna mean nothing to us, sure lot of people say "well enjoy life while you can" but whats the point of it when its gonna mean nothing to us after we die? Everytime when i finally become happy about something or i just get into a good mood i always remember the feel of disgust in my stomach knowing its pointless...
People always told me "it gets better" but day by day it only gets worse
@@HamFlare_12345 you need to live in the present, not the future
I am 23. Homeless, and struggling to live one more day, every day. I'm using mobile data, and plugging into the outdoor outlet of an abandoned bar to charge my phone.
I cant say "hang on" . Cause its a sh** advice. You are suffering greatly. But I urge you to find meaning in that suffering. Some meaning, something you could relate.
I've been homeless 3 times I'm 49 live in my own house w my 7yo son my fiance of 10yrs,I struggle w addiction to opioid and Crack, everyday is hard as he'll. You are still here you mean life love meaning to someone. It's very exhausting
@@lisakoerth1125 Get well soon, I'm rooting for you ❤️
You're gonna make it
Time to join the Marine Corps oorah semper fi brother 💪
this hits so beautifully in a walk.
Knowing that you have to keep going through it all is heartbreaking. When you expected something and everything goes wrong.. You need to accept it and move on, but it's so hard
no tears left to shed.
i think that you've been crying alot.
I have tears for others I love but none for myself
Ran dry too?
@@CamTooSlow yeah shits been wild the past 2 years
JESUS LOVES YOU AND HE WILL ALWAYS BE FOR YOU JESUS LOVES YOU BROTHER GOD BLESS YOU JESUS WANTS TO SAVE YOU
Old me never left, but the life I used to live has long since passed.
I'm a lot smarter than I used to be, matured and learned from my mistakes and kept moving. I pulled myself out of a sinister imposter syndrome, and reminded myself why I could never hate myself.
In the end you will only have yourself, feel the good company you bring to others, and suddenly the reflection in your mirror becomes easier to look at.
7 years ago, 16th april 2017. the day of my grandpas birthday, the same day he tragically died. he was in the hospital at the time and i was at school. i was six years old and had just come back from home. it was a great day at school and the weather was amazing. my parents had said they needed to talk to me so as soon as i came in i took off my shoes and out my bag down little to my knowledge i was about to get the saddest news of my entire life. i had then went into the living room smiling widely and jumping onto the sofa my mum sitting next to me as my dad locked up the car my mum was struggling to not cry. then she broke the news. “Hannah darling, your grandpa has.. died.” these are the exact words that would change my living for the rest of my years. as soon as i heard those words i would never be the same happy little girl i once was, i am now 13 struggling with the weight of my parents divorce, depression, friends and homeschool. yet it seems stupid for a literal 13 year old to be expressing such emotions but i’m am being so honest from the bottom of my heart. but so, i hope anyone that sees this i hope you have the best, amazing and extraordinary day today.
Hey I lost my grandpa around your same age, and had similar problems when I was a teenager. I am 29 now, and let me tell you that time heals our wounds, make our pain more bearable to carry. Life will get better if you stay strong and carry on. This world is full of surprises and beautiful things, so focus on that when you can. Wishing you the best
Thank you. It doesn't matter if ur 13 3 0r 33 your feelings words heart n mind always mean something to anyone ,..that HEARS it. Thank u beauty
youre not alone my grampa died too i didnt even get to spend has much time has i could rest in peace just check my name in the internet youll see why its hard for me too justice for joyce
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Hello, how are you now? I can't speak English and I felt the need to say something to you. Life is a house of trials with all kinds of affliction, and death is the hidden mercy and a transition to a better state with a merciful Lord. This is how we console ourselves in Iraq. I wish you happiness.
Here I am, once again dwelling on the past. My father, who was the only FAMILY i had, passed away last year, on December 24th. Been feeling so lost since then. Things have never been easy for me. Troubled childhood, witnessing violence, my stepmother used to put me down just by existing. She was so mean to me behind my father's back. My mom left me when I was 3 or 4 yrs old, simply disappeared.
Well I guess it was supposed to be like this. Anyway, it's not like I am the only one going thro a tough time. Stay good soldiers, lets make it to the end.
I'm so sorry to hear about everything you've been through. Losing someone close, especially your only family, and facing such tough circumstances must be incredibly hard. Please remember that you're not alone, and sharing your story is a powerful step. Keep holding on, because even in the darkest times, there's always light at the end of the road. Sending you positive energy and hoping you find strength and peace within yourself.
Keep that head held high. We got this. Keep your eyes on the horizon. It's always the darkest before the run rises.
@@dpq_ thank you for everything it means a lot to me. ❤️
@@sylasdish I trust the process.
Btw, thank you for replying back, it means a lot. Wish u all the best
This music really allows you to view life from a different perspective. I wouldn’t say I suffer from manic depression, but there are definitely times when I’m down and feel like a failure, but I have to keep reminding myself that better days are ahead. Keep your heads up everyone! ✌️
I don't know where to go now.
I tried to be a different person, tried to be kinder, meaner, calmer. None of this worked. I've run out of ideas on what I'm going to do with my life. I'm not broken, I'm lost.
I can continue to move on in life, but there is nowhere else to move.
I just want this emptiness to go away
Do you have a Dream? If not find One.
@@NO1rr1t1A yeah, got one.
But I have no idea how to make it real
For most of my life ive only knew loss. All of my blood family are either dead or dont care enough to contact me unless someone else has died. Just a few years ago i had a fresh start. New place. New people. No reminders of my past save for my friends who i still talk with. But in the past few months ive been surprised to find that i havent had any negative thoughts about myself or others. Im by no means healthy but I dont think ive ever felt better. My advice to the world is to not let something like blood ties hold you back. A family who couldnt care less about you isnt really a family at all. Theyre just people and you dont owe them anything.
Family doesnt mean blood. Family is whoever cares about you. Family doesnt hold you back. Family elevates you and wants you to be the best version of yourself. Follow your dreams. Even if you dont achieve them, at least you tried. And thats all that matters.
Your old self never truly goes away you just start looking at life from a new perspective.
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --A.B. (DD1)
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Mate those words legitimately made me cry, I wish I had such bright mind to look at things like you do, that last sentence made me realise so much about my life...
Selah
the two strongest emotions in this world are love and sadness. if you feel one of these two right now, don't worry, you will soon feel the other one. you can never, ever feel them both at the same time its like the alternation of day and night - never at the same time but they have their own chance.
the worst thing when someone close to you dies is the thought that you won't see them for the rest of your life, but the best thing about it is that you don't even know how long you will live.
6:49 is my favorite and by extension, I got to say this is my favorite playlist I’ve found of this genre. I hope you keep this video up forever as it’s beautifully crafted, mate. Best of days to you, and to anyone who ganders at this. 🥂
i'm just tired of feeling lost and cut off from the whole world every day and waking up at night with anxiety. sometimes you can be alone, but when you hardly talk to anyone for several years at some point you forget how to do this and begin to be afraid of people. i'm afraid i'll miss out on my 'best years' and spend the rest of my life and die alone. at the moment the only thing that saves me is music and i just hope that one day i'll be able to talk to people
"Music... is *MAGIC*!" --Bardiche (DD1)
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@S.O.W_musictherapythank you
Salut, je pense que tu peut lire ça avec la traduction j'espère que ça sera compréhensible je suis français, j'ai lu ton commentaire j'aimerai te dire que t'es vraiment courageux ! je n'aurais pas fais la moitié de ce que ta vécu, ce vide que tu ressent chaque jours, chaque soirée, tout le temps.. sera ta future force, ne perd pas espoir le jours viendra, toi aussi tu seras heureux comme les autre, on espère tous ici alors, ne lâche rien frérot.
Don't ever let noone take away from what makes you U
JESUS LOVES YOU AND HE WILL ALWAYS BE FOR YOU JESUS LOVES YOU BROTHER GOD BLESS YOU JESUS WANTS TO SAVE YOU
"Maybe for you, there's a tomorrow. Maybe for you, there's one thousand tomorrows, or three thousand, or ten, so much time you can bathe in it, roll around it, let it slide like coins through you fingers. So much time you can waste it. But for some of us, there's only today. And the truth is, you never really know."
My bro you cant be making these comments when you’re channel is full of skibidi toilet 😭😭💀💀
@@cyphoah8748it is a botted comment
JESUS LOVES YOU AND HE WILL ALWAYS BE FOR YOU JESUS LOVES YOU BROTHER GOD BLESS YOU JESUS WANTS TO SAVE YOU
This hits home with me. I lost my job on a day I had to take my father to the ER at the hospital. And while he was there I found out he has cancer. I feel like I got kicked while I was down. At the bottom of a hole and getting out was hopeless. Buried by hurt. Slowly realizing now I’m not buried here. I was planted here. And growth from this will become something beautiful out of something tragic. The bright side is I felt so low there is only one way to go from here. It can only get better. I’m slowly getting confidence back and trying to find work. Pushing through the setback for the comeback. Changing my perspective and realizing God didn’t bury me he planted me. And I’m ready to emerge from here a wiser person. Trying to understand everything has a purpose maybe all this happened to get me to a better place.
The most frightening thing is that old me is dead, but new me was not born...
I wish I had a piece of advice for you man, I went through a tough breakup, and I found someone who's brightened my day. Just do your thing, please don't give in
Hey, your young Jesus loves you, wants to save you.
@@Mariwend or use the suffering to fuel yourself haha
in the same situation right now... just tryin' to figure out, which of these pieces of broken mirror are reflecting new me, and which the old one. But, neither of them are whole right now. Old one is ruined, new one has not yet been built
if you want to be stuck you will be if you want to grow you will its not who i was is who i am now what i do for myself now because the only company that i will always have its me
Never give up, i spent the last 4 years miserable, my job made me feel useless, the woman who i gave my heart to threw it away after 5 years together, i was failing all my classes because i just couldn't focus on anything anymore. Recently, has been different, I have something that i didn't think i would have again. I have hope, I have feelings aren't just depression. I feel alive for the first time in years. I still carry the same pain with me, but it doesn't define who I am anymore. You won't be sad forever, even if you feel like you will be. You'll come out of this better than you did when you started. You just have to weather the storm a little longer, the sun is just above the clouds if you look hard enough within yourself.
“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life."
Успехов, брат
My old me said "I'll come back to you when you need me, but for now I'll just... have a rest, I guess, I'm... tired, so... tired... of everything, and everyone, so please try and endure some time for me, I'll be back... soon, I hope..."
It's been 7 years, I don't think he's coming back anymore
-A 20 year old boy suffering in uni
JESUS LOVES YOU AND HE WILL ALWAYS BE FOR YOU JESUS LOVES YOU BROTHER GOD BLESS YOU JESUS WANTS TO SAVE YOU
I feel the same man the old me is gone I can't do anything anymore i give up completely on making friends trying to fit in now i just sit alone everyday talking to myself thinking about her debating weather or not i should take my life and ive decided im gonna do it hopefully this time i actually am able to pass away peacefully give me a month or two and ill have enough pills saved up
Hi there! I’m really sorry to hear that you're feeling down. I wanted to let you know that there's a way you can make a real difference in the lives of others, which might bring some positivity into your own life as well. I’m part of an association that buys toys for young children who don’t have much. If you're interested, you can collaborate with us and help bring some joy to these kids. Even a small donation can go a long way in putting a smile on a child’s face.
If you're able and willing to help, it could give you a sense of purpose and brighten your day too. Thank you for considering this!
Hey, I'm not here to sell you bullshit. There is a way for you to get your old self back. He isn't dead, he lives inside of you. How? You are the culmination of all your decision, all your experience and so much more. The hard part now is to find it. He may be buried deep. Don't get me wrong, you will never be this person anymore, but he will be a part of you. He is you. You are him, but you are also so much more now. If you can reconnect with your old self with the maturity of the present you, that's how you fill a big hole inside of you. He won't come back by himself, sadly, you need to put effort into it. If you do, one day or another he'll get back
-Another 20 year old boy who also try his best in uni
I really hope you are fine btw
When I hear such beautiful music and look at the picture, I feel as though I'm breathing pure oxygen. The feelings of solitude and peace comfort me. My restless, constant-motion brain and thoughts are calmed and I feel alive.
Reading these comments make me feel like I’m not alone. I see all of you. I wish there were perfect words to soothe a soul. I believe in us still. I believe and trust in our humanity.
I agree. It’s comforting to know that there are others that understand
If you're reading this. Know you got this. Whatever obstacles are in your way, tackle ONE problem before you even Think of touching the next one.
Like I said, You Got This. ❤
I worked my ass off to get a job at a major Dealership as a mechanic at 18. I flew through the courses and ranked up as much as a could and finally got myself seated as a Certified level 3 tech. Just to be laid off along with 10 other people for “Corporate facing Financial Difficulties”. Got into another one in a smaller town. At 20 i was just doing the regular wake up at 6 get home at 5 and be with my girlfriend. On my way home from work some lady completely ruined my life. Smashed into me, totaled my car that i had just gotten that weekend, shattered my sternum, broke my wrist. Now 21 and the thing i centered my life around, the love of cars and fixing them and taking them apart, “You will never be able to work as a technician again.” What the hell do i do? I built my life around this. Im still healing from the surgeries. Still waiting on the settlement. Im so lost. My girlfriend has sat by my side this whole time, she is the love of my life and even with her and my 7 year old sister and mom, i feel so damn alone. I feel like a failure and a one trick pony. If i cant do the one thing i loved and was happy doing, what the hell do i do with myself?
I’ve spent the last five years pulling myself out of the darkest pit I ever could have dug for myself. Drugs, alcoholism, reckless s*x. I strained my relationship with my family, I alienated most of my friends, and all of it was in a fruitless effort to stay out of my head. I’m in my mid thirties now. I’m exercising, I’m staying up to date on my medications, going to therapy weekly. I’m about to start learning programming so I can pursue a career instead of working menial labor jobs. I’m doing better than I have in years, and yet, because I spent so long trying to stay out of my head and drown out my own thoughts, I never got to know myself. Now I’m trying to walk towards a path of success while still having a sense of disconnection from myself. Life can really be the most damned confusing thing.
Since i read like 6 stories i just cannot resist it. This music just drowned me in memories, and i think it started when i was 9 years old.. for sure 11-12 those two years changed me i lost my smile that day what happend was bad.. really bad. But i think i finally got to the point where i can see how my negativity And sadness puts weight on those around me, my family, my friends.. evryone. I need to change i need to grow up i know it, but no one was there only me And its hard... really hard i dont think i can make it anymore. But i wont let my family question So much to those who knew and didnt stay also, life Is hard dont make it yourself harder, im scared im really scared of life. Just for once in my life i will ask for help and Its to you. Just pray for me, thank you.J
i'm a guy from brazil, and give you somme good energys, everyone have bad times, bad vibes, a bad day is not a bad life, a bad week is not a bad life, a bad friend, is not a bad life, and in your case a bad memory is not a bad life boe. Listen, billionaires really want your life now, they would pay billions to change their life with you, make the difference, have a nice day.
Never be too hard on yourself, for a change you need to appreciate the positive aspects of yourself and life. Sometimes they aren't noticed until you lose those too. Love from Italy 🇮🇹
Shut down the schools
Ultimate gym music playlist
I’d fall asleep
It’s not about age, it’s about stage. I am not the same person I was at 20 as I am now at 45. I’ve matured. And that’s good. I wasn’t even the same at 35. Like a snake shedding its skin - still the same person but a newer version. Loneliness is horrible but remember no one’s gunna knock on your door and say hey! I’m the love of your life or hey! I’m your best friend and you never knew it. These things take time and effort and time and effort gives things value. Never, ever give up because things pop out of nowhere but you need to give it a chance, get out there, go to bars, go hiking, join clubs, be a decent human being and people will gravitate toward you
I got myself an anxiety disorder this year and just looking back to my old self who was so happy and carefree. May he now rest as my present self will figure out how to deal with this challenge of life, probably the toughest that I will have in years to come. I want to ask how my future self did it and how he achieved victory. For now I'm staying positive, so you should too folks, no matter how tough the enemy is, believe on yourself that you can, and once you did, look back at how far you have come and the feat that you just did, be proud.
old me isn't dead, he just left my body and went to live the life i wish i had with her
Not a day has gone by without a thought. I've let it get too far. The chance is gone, has been for a year. I wish I could forget, would def be beneficial. But truth is I don't want to...
@@undraftedboomer5055 we don't want to. pain is the only connection i have with her
@SKYZO4 thing is, I doubt the feelings are mutual. I expect she's moved on by now. I should be glad. She has one of the best guys I know now. Yet here I am.
@@undraftedboomer5055 same here, but she went away and i dont know anything about her
@SKYZO4 she goes to the same college as me. The guy has been a good friend since 6th grade. Feel guilty around him. Had feelings for her for 4 years now, never did anything about it. I'm relatively confident there was something between us at the end. Never did more than the occasional conversation in class. Like I said, should've never entertained the possibility in my mind for so long. It feels childish
I met this girl in my work and we started talking for a few months. Soon I started to catch feelings and I found myself slowly falling in love with her. This girl was everything, after so many years of feeling lonely and feeling like I could never have what other guys and what my friends talked about, this was a breath of fresh air. But in the end I got rejected, same like all the other times I tried. I think I have a built in defense mechanism to where I can't show my affection to what I really want to show since in the past it hasn't been reciprocated to what I wanted. I truly did like this girl, but I feel like I let I slip by, again.
We would have the best talks, we laughed, and we talked deep into conversations about ourselves and our goals and aspirations. At least she made my life a little better for a time. Now I struggle with the internal conflict of staying as just her friend, or leaving her. Because I know while she expects a real friend, I can't be that guy. The friendship wouldn't be real. Maybe in another universe, with a different me.
Let me give you advice, that helped me once: don’t look for love. intentionally. she will find you herself. the true love.
She knows you like her but keeps asking to hangout in the evenings after work?
Be lucky your single some of us out here straight married & in love with another chick lol
@@MrHunterCss i dont even love myself anymore how could anyone else love me ?
What I would do to go back to that January night ten years ago this day, where I ran to the high school basketball court and just shot around for hours and then after sat in center court and looked up at the moon. Crazy that back then I was terrified of the future, not knowing what the future holds but sitting here now thinking about all the times you should have turned right instead of left. Wish I could go back to that walk back home and seeing the sunrise, something that day changed and I thank myself everyday for it. To anyone who is going through anything, please just keep walking. If I would have ended my life that night I wouldn’t have met the love of my life a couple months later.
Хочется иногда как фильме Интерстеллар, посмотреть на себя в прошлом, просто смотреть долго и долго и плакать, стучаться , но все так же убиваться от безысходности и того , что прошлого уже не вернуть . Все говорят жить настоящим , но что делать когда оно не принести радости что бы ты не делал ? Я смотрю назад и понимаю , что , если бы я так оказался , хотя бы на пару дней , часов , минут , я бы стал самым счастливым человеком на свете. Если бы такое было возможно , я бы отдал все , что у меня есть, лишь бы прикоснуться к тому , что осталось лишь у меня в памяти. Ну либо стереть напрочь память о прошлом, чтобы так не страдать …
I lost my cat two days ago, he was only 2 years old. Ive took him away from the street in Italy to my home in France when he was only 3months. Now his life has been taken by a stupid driver and im feeling so deeply bad. I couldnt even said him goodbye, he was the medicine to my solitude. I dont even want to recover from this because i feel like it would be ungreatful to him. He was more than a simple animal to me, he was everything I had.
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Loved my "friends" i made in the last 2 years. Lost them. All. Just wanted the best for every single person on this earth. Now im a fuckup. Will leave soon.
Live a happy life people. Do what makes you happy. Dont let anyone interfere. And if you are thinking about ending it like i do, seek help. Please. Dont do it for you. Do it for me, as i am no longer here when you read this because i wasnt strong enough. I was a quitter. Thank you for reading this and stop overthinking everything. Thank you for not taking your life.
See you someday somewhere
A unknown, unimportant stranger on the internet. ❤
Dude, please be alive. I don't know any English, so this message will be fully translated.
I've felt this many times, but I want to tell you that you are not alone and that these moments pass. Here's something that helped me. I focused on the reasons why they are worth fighting for, think about the people you love, your goals and your dreams. These are the reasons that will give you the strength to overcome, it's like collecting the tree leaves scattered on the ground, gathering them together and lying down on them. The leaves symbolize the fragments of good things that you are, that were lost and are now together again. And if the wind blows, bring them together once more. It's not easy, I know, but I believe in you.
Take care of you man, don't do a mistake your life is not ended
I hope you're okay man
that' hits me hard...
...it's this comment in particular that's really hitting me.
with the topic of suicide people tend to fling themselves towards one side or the other "don't kill yourself you have so much to live for!!! love yourself!!!!" and "killing yourself is selfish and is the easy way out. think about your friends and family who will miss you. do you really want to put them through that? you are a coward for running from your problems"....... when personally???? i think the answer is *_neither_* of those.
i'm not gonna tell you to kill yourself obviously... but i'm also not going to tell you "don't do it". which, to most people probably sounds kinda fucked up, but notice that i'm not saying EITHER of these; i'm saying "i hope you find an end to your pain." suicide shouldn't be taboo, there are so many more layers to it than "i kill myself bc i dont wanna fix myself hahaha lol
I am 19 years old and Watching this video at 11:43 p.m. from home makes me nostalgic for the calm and the memories of my childhood dwell on my depression it warms my heart thank you for being there thank you
I'm watching this from 5:00am
23:43. Я был в шаге от создания счастливой семьи 2 недели назад. Сейчас у меня ничего. Я ненавижу себя. Я ненавижу ее. Я не знаю, что мне делать теперь в этом мире
Проблемы многих людей здесь намного серьезнее моих. Но я подавлен практически постоянно последнее время, у меня не получается ничего, взаимотношения с людьми, учеба, работа. Я метался между разными людьми, чтобы в итоге все равно не чувствовать себя нужным кому-то. Я едва выполняю минимум своих дел, а большую часть времени просто лежу в темноте, забивая свой мозг бесполезной информацией. Попыток навредить себе я не предпринимал, потому что мне очень жаль себя и я боюсь боли. Но я ненавижу себя за собственную бесполезность и слабость, но в данный момент я ничего не могу (или не хочу, что еще хуже) изменить. Я не знаю, что делать дальше. Я уже свыкся с таким существованием.
"Последнее время" продолжается уже несколько лет.
Всем добра, будьте счастливы
после тьмы придёт рассвет, помни это
Совет,выкинь телеыон,и хватит листать и залипать в ютюбах,и других соц.сетях.И тогда энергия востановится, займи себя делом и наблюдай в моменте себя.Меняй интересы.
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I can still find old me in the wonder of music. Every phase of my life has a specific soundtrack. When I choose the right song, my feet, mind, and heart are back there again.
Music like this brings me visons an a certain feeling that i find sad, but also comforting
Всегда думала о том, что умерла ещё в 2019 году. И тут нашла этот плейлист с говорящим названием. Так странно ощущать, что с каждым годом ты все больше перестаёшь быть похожим на старого себя, становишься совершенно чужим человеком для самого себя. Ещё каких-то пять лет жизнь кардинально отличалась от моей нынешней: друзья, место жительства, семья и ежегодные поездки летом к бабушке. Я помню это, но это было так давно, что кажется, будто ничего и не было. Будто снился какой-то долгий сон с интересным сюжетом, а по итогу ты просыпаешься разбитым с мыслью "я снова чертовски устал и не выспался"
как же я тебя понимаю😢
Да.. Точно. Как с языка сняли, словно долгий сон. Как-то быстро пролетело всё.. И плохое и хорошее. Ранее чувствовалась какая-то безмятежность, без границ, без каких либо забот, не жизнь а краски,мечта. А сейчас Каждый день просыпаюсь либо днем либо ночью и спрашиваю себя "а что я там оставил?.. В той бесконечности...", ибо я боюсь забыть всё это, себя, и задаю эти вопросы себе снова. Я там забыл это, я оставил Всё любимое в той бесконечности..люблю и помню тот утренний омлет, утреннее кафе. Я помню ту улицу и двор. Я помню себя и семью. Много лет прошло, больше всего этого нет.Я боюсь потерять себя и забыть что делает меня счастливым. Забыть что и ямогу сделать что то счастливей, кого то счастливей. Всё забыть боюсь. Будто меня что то внутри стирает, догорает, страшное чувство которое потом оставляет всё пустым. И правда странно это ощущать, просыпаться от такого сна что длился десятки и более лет.
Понимаю. Иногда я даже теряюсь во времени, вспоминаю старые моменты из жизни, детство. Но это лишь часть нашей жизни, взросление из ребёнка в подростка, потом и в взрослого человека. Тяжело осознавать, что всё меняется, порой не в лучшую сторону. Мы все когда-то постареем, мы все умрём. Это лишь часть нашей жизни, которую трудно, но нужно принять. Мы меняемся, и это нормально, хоть иногда это и очень пугает или удивляет.
Наступит зима, на снежных тропинках, у серого неба в полупрозрачной дымке метели под снежным ливнем.. снова окутает ностальгия. Как будто настоящая жизнь была в прошлом, а сейчас что то изменилось. Что то не состыкуется с тем, как весело и тепло было раньше.
но что.?
for those who care:
there was a point in time where i looked back and i saw a happier me. i yearned to go back so bad because i hated where i was. i look back on that now, a past within its ownself. i was able to escape the present by realizing there is no way back. the old me was dead. there is only forward. so i fought, and i fought, and i fight today. the present became bearable. the future became visible. the drive to go back became a drive to move forward.
i'm content now. not overjoyed, not depressive, but just happy i'm not sad anymore. i have a purpose, and i understand what life is now. to contribute, to live, to have fun, and to fight through what happens to me. i can move forward. the old me is dead.
in case you care: keep fighting. life will do this to you. and that's okay. we were made to fight.
For me, this is not sad, this is just calming.
This music is perfect when being alone, but not for depressed.