Kaz has canonically locked himself in a bathroom crying, shaking, and vomiting because of prolonged skin to skin contact so y'all with the smutty Kanej fics better be slow burning that ish
I had been using a napkin as a bookmark and when I got to the matthias part I had so many tears and snot running down my face I had to use the napkin. I tweeted Leigh bardugo a pic of me sobbing because of what happened and she replied “honestly? This delights me” my fave twitter moment in history
I think the tragedy that lies in Matthias death is also that it was a variable nobody, not even Kaz, could have thaught about. Everything in this book was planned, like every action Kaz did he was always ten steps ahead of the reader. Kaz is a mastermind but even a mastermind couldn't predict that a random fourteen year old boys would shoot Matthias in the streets. And that fucking hurts.
ik i'm late but yes exactly, i love how their plans just always work out somehow, and they can do literally anything, but it still doesn't take more than one. single. bullet. to end a life.
I cried when Matthias died but what really got me was when Wylan says, "We were all supposed to make it" and Jespers reaction to it; "Jesper realized he’d been thinking the same thing. After all their mad escapes and close calls, he’d started to believe the six of them were somehow charmed, that his guns, Kaz’s brains, Nina’s wit, Inej’s talent, Wylan’s ingenuity, and Matthias’ strength had made them somehow untouchable. They might suffer. They might take their knocks, but Wylan was right, in the end they were all supposed to stay standing." With all they'd survived, he was killed in a relatively quiet moment when they think it's all over, by a boy who represents the hate that Matthias has worked so hard to unlearn. The crows don't even know what happened or who did it. Heartbreaking.
Oh my god, I just realised that it's the same as Prim dying in Hunger games. Like it came out of nowhere for no fucking reason but it just DESTROYS you. I still have not recovered from that one and that was like a decade ago
It was 1am and my mom was sleeping next to me, and like my lips were doing that weird sobby thing and everything just hurt and the last conversation with Nina...killed me.
I saw the next chapter was in Matthias' perspective and I thought something was going to save him, but then I read the chapter and that hammered the final nail in the coffin.
Out of all the reviews I’ve scene on TH-cam about crooked kingdom your the only one I’ve seen so far that brought up the scene where Kaz called Jesper “Jordie”. That was one of my favorite parts in the series and I was so annoyed no one was talking about it lol. Jesper always wanted Kaz to acknowledge him, like you can’t get anymore acknowledged than Kaz calling you his brother basically. That was the scene that broke me.
Yes, it was one of the scenes that hit me the hardest in the duology, I pased around the flat so long after it, I couldn't stop for long enought to pick up the book for so long
@@withcindy I really think that apart from Jesper's mistake about telling Pekka he is going out of the country, Kaz is mad of Jesper because Jesper reminds him of Jordie.
I think we should all have a Crying Crow Club where we just meet up and cry our eyes out and talk about all the ways in which the Six of Crows duology left us permanently traumatized
Also Inej running towards her parents who she hasn’t seen in years because that life was ripped away from her and now she survived all her suffering and came out stronger and didn’t let it beat her after all that she’s running towards them yelling mama papa and her parents run towards her.... TEARS. TEARS EVERYWHERE!
Agh out of all the scenes in Ck that one hit the hardest! so many emotions hnnngh. People in the barrel know her as the wraith but this scene showed that Inej is a hurt child missing her parents and I- 😭 😭 😭 I’m close to my parents and the thought of being ripped away from them , being sold into sex slavery, losing my childhood, and then finally being reunited with them years later broke me. I’m 20 so I can’t imagine how that must have felt for a literal child
FINALLY SOMEONE TALKS ABOUT THIS I WAS SAD DURING MOST OF THE BOOK, I TEARED UP HERE AND THERE AND DURING MATTHIAS SCENE But when she yelled, mama, papa. I LITERALLY burst into tears out of no where. Not exaggerating, I was a mess all of the sudden.
Another scene that broke me " He didn't deserve peace and he didn't deserve forgiveness, but if he was going to die today, maybe the only thing he'd earned was the memory of her-brighter than anything he would ever have the right to-to take with him to the other side."
One thing I loved about Matthias, especially his and Nina's relationship, was how realistic it was. Matthias was taught from a very young to fear and hate Nina's kind, that his holy mission was to kill Grisha. It was drilled into him (like all the other boys) that they were wicked, evil, etc and what I love is how Leigh gradually showed his character development. He didn't meet Nina and suddenly forgive everything, forget the years of hatred that was installed in him. Hell, even when they confessed their feelings for each other, it took him sometime to get use to Grisha. He didn't kiss Nina and kaboom years of propaganda taught to him gONE. You see it throughout the book, how when he meets the other Grisha, there's distrust in his head, his old views on them appearing in this thoughts and there's this battle in his head where he's slowly learning and becoming a better person and I just
Áine this is a perfect explanation and analysis of their relationship, which i love because they’re my otp. the slow burn romance and development of their views towards each other and their own people is just... so good
the first step he took after her "betrayal" towards being a better person was respecting her as a fellow soldier because she was fighting for her people just like him I- this book scarred me and I love it
the worst part for me was matty running to nina, hugging her, giving me hope for his survival, and then dying in her arms. when she couldn’t bring him back, when she tried but he wasn’t the matthias she knew... gOSH this hurts so bad just thinking about it. i real soc/ck like one-two years ago and here we are
and the fact that she could have easily saved him hadn't her powers changed but then again her powers changed because she took the parem to save Matthias and the others---- the Shakespearean tragedy of it all T___T
I was gonna comment the same thing! 😭 I read it 3 years ago and reread it since and the wound is still not healed apparently as I burst into full tears when cindy talked about it 😭
I’ve always loved Wylan because I have a thing for the soft bois. What I love most about him is that he isn’t weak and quiet for no reason. It’s heavily implied and shown that all of his self doubt and “weakness” and wimpiness is all because of the abuse he suffered from his father. I just finished rereading Crooked Kingdom and during one of Wylan’s chapters, Van Eck’s abuse is shown in the way Wylan just lies down and agrees with all the shit Van Eck says. He spent his entire life hearing that he was worthless, that he wasn’t good for anything, he’s stupid, and he eventually began to believe it because that’s all he heard and nobody ever stood up for him. And what I loved is when Wylan was “captured” and he spit into Van Eck’s face and I was like “yes bitch, fight against that abusive fuck.” His wimpiness wasn’t just a trait in him for no reason, it was explained, shown and it vanished in a way as Wylan grew into a much more confident character. TLDR; I love Wylan and I officially adopt him as my own
i love Wylan because i really relate to him. My father is an abusive fuck and when Wylan started talking about how his father was right i started crying so much because i went through the same self doubt
Matthias: _fucking dies_ Nina: May Djel look over you until I can once more. Me who was so shocked that I couldn't even cry: _I'm gonna pretend I didn't see that_
@Jane Twomey SAME! Ijust put down the book and was like _process this_ My brain: reread it again you must have imagined it Me: _reads it_ he died. My brain: My brain: OKAY NEXT CHAPTER
And probably the worst thing about the Netflix adaptation is that it takes place before the events of six of crows. I saw an article about the show's producer having a 5 SEASON PLAN!! That means YEARS of emotional attachment to Nina and Matthias in live action just for it to be ripped appart and we know it's going to happen and there's nothing we can do about it.
Inej killing Dunyasha was symbolism for six of crows killing any basic "I'm not like other girls" YA protagonists (LOOKING AT YOU SARAH J MAAS). Inej literally says that she didn't start off special, she is one of the girls in the shadows. But those girls are powerful, and they can change the world. BEST PART OF THE ENTIRE BOOK (besides Kaz and Inej at the end obviously).
idk if i'm overthinking but i also love how she didn't die 'righteously' from being stabbed, but instead inej outsmarted her and she just plummeted off that church building, completely undignified (as she deserved). idk it's like proving no matter how high up you are you can still fall; the assassin still has her overinflated sense of importance taken from her in death.
The worst thing ever about the Netflix adaptation is that we’re gonna experience the Matthias scene all over again.. AGAIN. LIVE-ACTED. ON THE SCREEN. MATTHIAS YOU CANNOT DO THIS TO US AGAIN.
Somebody needs to bargain w/ the directors/scriptwriters/leigh herself NOT TO DO THIS TO US. The only way I can accept this happen in live screen if she has a new book out w/ Nina and Mattias in another lifetime/world BECAUSE I PHYSICALLY CANNOT. I know it's still years from now BUT I AM NOT READY.
@@IanaBelleGE. I was thinking the same thing. It's just too much :'( I'd say it's time for a multiverse-esque alternative ending! (But just in this case, because I'm shipping Malina too much as to lose them to the Darkling.)
I didn't cried when Mattias died.Because I was so damn convinced he was going to come back to life by some miraculous Grisha power.But when Nina laid down beside him on that sickboat pretending to be dead,that shit broke my heart and I cried like a baby.Just the thought of Nina carrying Matthias's body through ice shatters my heart.
Oh same, I literally thought her tears would bring him back to life because of her new undead powers... but when I realized he really WAS gone, that shit hit so hard...
14:34 What also got me about his death was that if Nina had never taken parem in the first book (granted they wouldn't have gotten out of that situation BUT still) if she hadn't taken it, her powers would never have been altered and she would have been able to save him. It kills me. Choices that they made brought them together but also tore them apart and its all terrible and sad :(
I actually didn't full out start breaking down at Matthias's death, I cried when Kaz bought Inej the ship and the waterworks just came out. It was at that moment I realised I might never see any of these characters again on a new page together and then all the events, deaths and revelations of past trauma hit me like a train.
SAME i started sobbing when they were putting flowers on matthias and when kaz said “until then, zenik” and nina said “count on it, brekker.” I WAS BAWLING MY EYES OUT
when I finished crooked kingdom I sent a snap to my friend saying "there's a hole in my heart now" and she DEADASS SAID YEAH THERE'S ONE IN MATTHIAS' TOO
Me too!!!!! I am actually doing a re-read of the whole throne of glass series cos I read it so long ago and I still haven’t read tower of dawn, and kingdom of ash is coming out this month. And there are so many other books I want to read that I haven’t already read BUT this has defs made me want all the feels and to read this again!!! Plus it’s also made me sub to your channel...cos bitch I get it!!! I love how you are talking about these characters like they are really people and talking about how Inej and kaz will meet in the future! I absolutely do the same thing! Plus you’re pretty funny 👍🏻
One of the main reasons I love this series is the abandonment of the chosen one trope. They make their own way and they have flaws but they can work around it, I love it so much
I got emotional when Kaz tells Inej that crows remember human face. "Crows remember human faces. They remember the people who feed them, who are kind to them. And the people who wrong them too. They don’t forget. They tell each other who to look after and who to watch out for." It just felt so personal to Kaz and in that moment he finally opens up to Inej telling her that he's been grateful to have the crews as his companions and friends.
i just saw fanart of Inej and Kaz lying on the floor next to each other and "holding hands" through their shadows and I'm fucking sobbing. This is so good.
For me a part that always made me tear up was every time Matthias talked about the little voice in his head. The one scene where he's looking at NIna using her power and it's like "That same old voice inside his head said 'Unnatural.' But a new one that was slowly gaining confidence countered 'Beautiful."" (that was me paraphrasing I don't have the book on me) but holy shit THAT SHIT MADE ME TEAR UP EVERY TIME.
Finished it 30min ago, so of course the only sane thing to do was watch this video so I can start crying all over again. This book was a freakin' roller-coaster I was not ready for. All the gay warmed my heart, I actually had to press pause when Jesper kissed Wylen because 10 sec into that scene I knew who he was really kissing and had to scream/laugh/die. But also kinda glad (not just cuz drama is fun) cuz Jesper was not in the right frame of mind for that kiss. And then it hits me with all those backstory of pain. Oh and I absolutely loved the moment when Kaz refuses to give parem to Jesper, because we all know that the Kaz from the beginning wouldn't have hesitated to do it. And that, even more than holding Inej's hand, showed growth. And as shooked as I was by Matthias's death, it was really Nina's grief that really broke me. And her friendship with Inej that helped her let go. I just can't! I need ice cream!
This duology was so beautiful and yes I bawled like a baby Several things I loved: 1. This is from Six of Crows, but as an artist I want to draw this SO BADLY " 'You shouldn't make friends with crows,' he'd told her. 'Why not?' she asked. He'd looked up from his desk to answer, but whatever he'd been about to say had vanished on his tongue. The sun was out for once, and Inej had turned her face to it. Her eyes were shut, her oil-black lashes fanned over her cheeks. The harbor wind had lifted her dark hair, and for a moment Kaz was a boy again, sure that there was magic in this world." GOD THIS IS SO BEAUTIFUL I WANT TO DRAW IT SO BAD BUT I DON'T HAVE TIME TT And as you said this is probably my favorite quote in any book ever: “But wasn't that what every girl dreamed? That she'd wake and find herself a princess? Or blessed with magical powers and a grand destiny? Maybe there were people who lived those lives. Maybe this girl was one of them. *But what about the rest of us?* What about the nobodies and the nothings, the invisible girls? *We learn to hold our heads as if we wear crowns. We learn to wring magic from the ordinary.* That was how you survived when you weren’t chosen, when there was no royal blood in your veins. When the world owed you nothing, you demanded something of it anyway.” Also I love how they all have flaws, but they all learn to embrace and overcome them. And even though this is a fantasy novel, they're all things us ordinary people can relate to. Kaz, who is crippled and traumatized (we rarely see main characters who are physically impaired). Inej, who was a victim of physical and sexual abuse. Jesper with his gambling addiction, and Nina who is recovering from drugs. Matthias, who has to get over his conditioned prejudices and hatred. Wylan, who can 't read. I think I can relate to Wylan the most, because he is so so so smart, yet his dad treats him like shit. He's a genius at science! He's amazing at math! He's musically talented! Yet there's this pressure on him to be good at everything, so Van Dick is blind to all his talents and only sees a son who can't read. Nothing he does will ever be good enough. Goddammit I'm crying typing this. Every character in this story is so broken and strong and *human.* It's really just such a beautiful and impactful book. I love it so much
Oh I’m so sorry that your parent isn’t treating you with the love and respect a parent should be treating their child with. But like Wylan you are awesome and amazing and deserving of love ❤️ And you should definitely draw that Kanej scene if you ever find the time! Such an iconic moment. And I’m an artist too! I mostly draw fashion sketches, especially fandom inspired ones and I drew a six of crows look with a bunch of character references and book motifs. And I finished drawing it around the same time I finished the book and all I need to do now is color it.
At first I was really angry about Matthias' death. I thought it was unnecessary too, kind of forced and rushed. But then I gave it a second thought and realised that that's what happens in real life. You live, no matter if happily or sadly, if you're poor or rich, old or young, but you do. And then, in the matter of seconds, you can die. Literally, just like that. And you can be on your way to school, at work, at home watching tv, doing basic things, nothing can "look like you're about to die", it just happens and you can do nothing about it. In a way, Matthias' death is one of the most natual and realistic things that happened in the whole series. People are dying on regular basis and I'd dare to say that most of the time it's not due to their high age. So yeah, those were my thoughts about it. Edit: Omg when you said there are dogs in heaven, I just imagined Matthias playing with all of them and it made me so happy 😭💔
Does anyone remember the scene where one character told Mathias "No mourners." But didn't let Mathias reply with "No funerals." Cause Nina did it for him.💔
girl, the quote that had me crying was page 513 Nina: you saved my life. I've saved yours Inej: I think you're ahead of me on that count Nina: No, i don't mean in the big ways, i mean the little rescues. laughing at my jokes. forgiving me when i was foolish. never trying to make me feel small. it doesnt matter if its next month, or next year, or 10 years from now, those will be the things i remember when i see you again CRYING IN THE CLUB
my english teacher was out one day, and he left us work to do but i just did it for homework because i wanted to read in class instead. big. mistake. i was reaching the end of crooked kingdom,,, and then IT happened. i read the same sentence over and over in like horrified disbelief, and i wanted to cry so bad but like,, embarrassment yknow? i slammed the book shut and i just kinda stared at nothing jsjssj my friend asked if i was ok and i was like hahahahahahahaha no anyway, my dramatic ass carved his initials into my home economics desk so 🤷🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️
Yesterday they were a shit load of crows outside the place I swim at for swim team and my mom goes why are there so many crows squawking I responded it's Kaz.
Nina and Jesper being bi was pretty obvious to me even before it's stated in the text, but then again I'm bi so I think I just pick up on the subtleties :p
I remember Nina saying “I flirt with girls too” or something along those lines in crooked kingdom when Nina and Matthias were in Ravka in the basement where all the grisha hid
I knew she was bi since the first book, I was like « this bitch acting too fruity to be straight » and then like the genius I am I MISSED THE « I flirt with women too » LINE SO I HEADCANONED HER AS BI FJDJSKSLLD
I refuse to believe that Wylan is wimpy or weak and I have some good reasons, first of all even when is particularly anxious (so all the time) he doesn't get paralised by his anxiety. Wylan is paradoxically the most corageous character in this book because despite of all his fears and insecurities he acts and tries to help the others. (Yes, I'm quite aware of the fact that my english sucks, I haven't been practising it for a year)
Favorite scene in the whole book is Kaz taking over the Dregs. It's so sick. This man limps across the city on a leg he's been abusing for the past week, dead tired, fresh out of panic attack hell and then takes precisely what he's owed. Fantastic. I never had the urge to cry, but Kaz giving Inej the ship and that reunion was glorious
When Inej talked about the sugar and the man who smelt like vanilla made me cry. Also my moment when I realized they can not hold hands without like passing out had me shook
Spoilers Inej is my favourite. I love how she goes after Pekka Rollins in the end. I don’t think it was instructed by Kaz and I even think in a way she was looking out for Pekka and Albys safety. Like Kaz would’ve tortured Pekka so much if he’d gone back. At the same time, ridding Kaz of Rollins for good I think is a great way to help him move passed his trauma and his need for revenge.
VoldemortTheNoselessFreak she went partly for Kaz obviously But she also said she wanted to get rid of barrel bosses that dealt with slavery and I think he was one of them as it is implied in the chapter So for Kaz but also for her
I read it as less for Pekka’s safety, but to stop Kaz backsliding into darkness and letting him be the ‘decent’ person he always said he wasn’t though the books
i think the scene that broke me was when inej was pouring weevil in the silo and it suddenly triggered her memory at the menagerie and all the times she talked about her body being abused and yet still she is so strong and brave
Jesper and Wylan's cute moments and relationship as a whole made me so happy like I was expecting something bad to happen to them but I'm so glad they made it because after everything, we needed it.
I HAVE THOUGHT OF THAT TOO, like what if nina finds out the truth about how matthias dies in king of scars, and she really wants revenge but in the end she has to choose forgiveness and help that kid because matthias had wanted her to help all the fjerdans
I thought I finally got over all my six of crows feels but NOW THEYRE ALL BACK. This series plays with my heart in the best but most tragic ways possible
One of my favorite scenes in this book was when Wylan apologized for what his dad did and Inej told him “we are not our fathers.” First of all, Wylan can only hate his dad when he hurts anyone but himself and realizing that makes me cry and he always blames himself when it happens, and Inej, this sweetheart, comforts him because she knows better than blaming innocent people. I love these characters and if Leigh hurts them I don’t want to see the light of day again
Am also crying. Loads. I had an internal rage bomb at my boyfriend over Kaz yesterday. At my request he was reading Six of Crows and stopped reading to say isn't it interesting how much you can convey about a character in a single line? The line was that Kaz Brekker hated a problem he couldn't solve, and his interpretation was that Kaz sounded petty. Hooooboy. I fought valiantly to defend my Kaz's honour with all of the words and logic and while we laughed about it later, that was my very first rage-response to someone dissing a character I loved.
@@sercemwksiazkach I would love to see a spinoff about her and Kaz that hopefully involve him interacting with her parents. I think that would be hilarious.
Damn the Kaz and Jesper fight had me crying so hard that I have to cover my mouth because my mom is sleeping next door, and I cried more when he called Jesper "Jordie" Damn
I wasn’t too attached to Matthias until the end of chapter 19. He says some profound shit about Grisha and his place in the world that made me sob. I too was crying in the club.
This video is older now, but damn, hearing you talking about all of this really made me feel the feels I've felt then, too. The scene with Kaz calling Jesper Jordie was the moment I wanted to throw my book out of the window. It's weird how a book can make you laugh tears and cry tears just a split second later. Regarding Matthias, I wasn't too fond of him in the first book. I kinda liked him, but not as much. However, when someone would ask me who my favorite character is now, I think I would pick him. He's been such an adorable, socially awkward guy in Crooked Kingdom and I've grown to love him a lot. Such a brave character and in the end I only got to realize how much I actually cared for him when it was too late. And then having this burial scene made it even worse. So I want to re-read Six of Crows from the beginning and enjoy his character developement and how much he has changed. Thank you for giving me the feels to do so.
I think the name of the part in which Matthias died in “Action has an echo” or something like that carried symbolism. His previous actions while being a druskelle had an echo.
I am late but Nina's relationship with death haunts me! I just finished it and I find her so interesting. how hard must it be for her to not breathe life into Matthias one last time, I WANT TO SCREAM
Cindy knowing spoilers and still feeling so much while reading it also shows that Leigh is a really good author in able to convey scenes, emotions and create good-no fabulous characters. Ah I think I might cry again
Omg I love you so much. I cried too. I was really hungover and grieving too. Because of Inej’s belief that Kaz wouldn’t come for her if she were broken... I think she NEEDED to be the kidnapped one! I really enjoyed all the character’s PTSD and how it was handled. I haven’t read many novels that continuously shows you how trauma has impacted characters. Matthias’ character growth was one of the best in my opinion and of course he’s the one to die. I also think he had to die for Nina to be included in King of Scars. I love this video and how invested you are! “There are dogs in heaven and Matthias is playing with all of them”😂😂😂❤️❤️❤️❤️
omg it made me so sad that inej didn't believe kaz would come back for her! and yes i really loved the emotional journeys of the characters dealing with their PTSD, and how it often resurfaces throughout the scenes... i thought it was a great depiction that dealing with trauma is an ongoing process and it will linger and come out to get you in unexpected ways. and yet they still keep persisting and surviving in this world!! SNIFFLES. and tbh I think I cried even more because I love dogs so the idea that Matthias is playing with his dog now got me wrekt
I really really love this video but my interpretation of this gorgeous, literal masterpiece of a book and Matthias' death is slightly, okay, very different. His death was meaningless. There was no symbolism whatsoever, no reason- it was utterly and abjectly pointless and painful. Which was THE POINT. Matthias died because of random hate because Leigh wanted to show how all actions of hatred and anger have consequences. Matthias, Kaz, Jesper, Nina and Inej were all good people with bad deeds. They worked in a GANG or THE ARMY. They've done this: taken lives and destroyed pointlessly! His death just portrays how unfair violence is, no matter how righteous it seems. His life was taken by a nobody because that's the world soc is trying to change. The precedence of ideologies over individuals. In another time, Matthias could have been the soldier. The point is we never realise how much our lives impact others. He's dead cause of some gangly kid who's also probably just trying to do his best, a kid who given the right circumstances could become like Matthias. So don't hate. Don't fight fire with fire. Just try to care about everybody: the sinners and the saints and the criminals and the cops because EVERYBODY DESERVES A CHANCE! P.S. this is just a whole-ass essay now, oops
What broke me the most was the true last words of Matthias was “I’m already home”. He may had not been in the place in his birthday, love a Grisha, the people who he feared. He felt at home as long as he was with her.
I cried so much because of Matthias death, I can’t even Fortunately or not, I haven’t read any spoilers before it, so I grew to love him throughout the series, he deserved so much better I am glad nina is going to keep up with his wish though and I couldn’t ask for a better death for him, the symbolism of it and how he denied to blame the Fjerdan, because he still hoped that nina or someone could still change his mind I CANTTT
Um gurl you were literally me after reading this book like I was you 100%. One of the few series I could reread and would still probably cry over even the second time.
This is honestly one of the most real videos I've seen on booktube! I haven't read this book/series but I can tell your emotions are just so honest, and relatable to anyone who has fallen in love with a particular story.
i'm actually glad i filmed this vid right after i finished reading it so that i could immortalize the raw emotions i felt afterward 😭 i love it when books make you feel things
I am so late to the six of crows fandom. So damn late but..... I cant even with this series. I'm not too proud to admit I bawled like a baby during Mathais' death scene. Then proceeded to cry the whole way home. As fellow drivers looked over at me confused and concerned. They just dont know. God I hope Netflix does this universe justice.
That one scene that broke " Nina glimpsed from Inej to Kaz and saw they both wore the same expression. Nina knew that look. It came after the shipwreck, when the tide moved against you and the sky had gone dark. It was the first sight of land, the hope of shelter and even salvation that might await you on a distant shore." You're welcome 😭👊
I was spoiled for the Matthias part before I read SoC, but if I hadn’t been expecting it I would’ve probably sobbed uncontrollably Also can we talk about Colm Fahey for a second and that scene where Nina talks about how Jesper has someone to look out and care for him while everyone’s else’s parents are abusive, dead or out of the picture. Like can Colm adopt all of them if I don’t because he’s the best Dad ever and I will stand by that until I die
I just gotta deal with it like Kaz, he doesn't say goodbye he just lets go. I'm too numb the cry right now and I'm not really emotionally stable enough to think about it anyway.
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Kaz: no mourners no funerals
Matthias: I'm gonna do what's called a pro gamer move
PSSHHFTTT NOOOOOOOO💀
YOUR COMMENT MADE ME LAUGH AND CRY AT THE SAME TIME LMFAOOOOO
I- no
nO
5 mourners 1 funeral
Let's just all agree his ghost WILL associate with their ghosts now.
My heart just clenched
That comment wasn't necessary 😭
I just finished crooked kingdom. TOO FUCKING SOON
Please no 😭😭😭😭😭
TOO SOON HUN TOO SOON, I just finished the book 5 minutes ago 😭
"Kaz is his adopted dad and Jesper is his Daddy."
*clapping for a solid minute*
i mean am i wrong
@@withcindy You are not wrong 😂😂😂
I was thinking about it for a solid minute - "what can this mean, did I understand something wrong?"
I need a meaning for what you mean please
FUCK, I JUST GOT IT
“But to some extent they had pretty comfortable childhoods”
*Kaz floating on his dead brothers body*
LMFAOOOOOOO
I am laughing my fucking ass off Oh god nooo
Floatie jordie
@@alizehasghar4643 I don’t know if I should laugh or cry
Im screaming at these comments and replies
I know Kaz and Inej are the Dad and Mom of the group but Matthias is somehow the grandpa and no one can convince me otherwise
Malini K YES
He'd be totally in denial about it, too
Because he dies first?
@@lewild4368 now WHY did you have to go there
@@lewild4368 AHAHSHHSJEKKSKSSK STOP
That full eyeliner was a brave choice for this video
i cant wear mascara because i expect myself to cry at any given point
@@withcindy well, at least you didn't end up looking like the matchmaker from Mulan after the tea spilled
Odd Eyes94 XD
@@oddeyes9413 fA MULAN!!
3,000th like ;)
Kaz has canonically locked himself in a bathroom crying, shaking, and vomiting because of prolonged skin to skin contact so y'all with the smutty Kanej fics better be slow burning that ish
I mean they held hands and I felt like I just saw porn. 😂
Same
@@gremlyn1658 😂😂😂😂
Girl: **holds my hand**
Me: **births a small planet in the bathroom**
i swear i’ve seen this comment before on like Pinterest or sum
I had been using a napkin as a bookmark and when I got to the matthias part I had so many tears and snot running down my face I had to use the napkin. I tweeted Leigh bardugo a pic of me sobbing because of what happened and she replied “honestly? This delights me” my fave twitter moment in history
anabelleethebook iCONIC
Authors thrive on their reader's suffering.
She feeds from our tears.
My goal as a writer. 😂😭
Omg 😱
I think the tragedy that lies in Matthias death is also that it was a variable nobody, not even Kaz, could have thaught about. Everything in this book was planned, like every action Kaz did he was always ten steps ahead of the reader. Kaz is a mastermind but even a mastermind couldn't predict that a random fourteen year old boys would shoot Matthias in the streets. And that fucking hurts.
Catherine V.
You made it hurt worse. That’s really brutal. Thank you.
that hurts so much :')
I JUST FINISHED READING IT THE OTHER DAY AND I CAN'T REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I CRIED SO MUCH FOR A BOOK
@@ylastars8464 i feel your pain :')
ik i'm late but yes exactly, i love how their plans just always work out somehow, and they can do literally anything, but it still doesn't take more than one. single. bullet. to end a life.
I cried when Matthias died but what really got me was when Wylan says, "We were all supposed to make it" and Jespers reaction to it; "Jesper realized he’d been thinking the same thing. After all their mad escapes and close calls, he’d started to believe the six of them were somehow charmed, that his guns, Kaz’s brains, Nina’s wit, Inej’s talent, Wylan’s ingenuity, and Matthias’ strength had made them somehow untouchable. They might suffer. They might take their knocks, but Wylan was right, in the end they were all supposed to stay standing." With all they'd survived, he was killed in a relatively quiet moment when they think it's all over, by a boy who represents the hate that Matthias has worked so hard to unlearn. The crows don't even know what happened or who did it. Heartbreaking.
Oh my god, I just realised that it's the same as Prim dying in Hunger games. Like it came out of nowhere for no fucking reason but it just DESTROYS you. I still have not recovered from that one and that was like a decade ago
@@janascepkova5682I read that recently and I was hard broken.
I didn't cry in the matthias scene because I kept reading for 2 chapters refusing to believe it
then reality hit me ...
Oh same mate.... this book killed me emotionally, but I love it and can't stop reading again
Mood 😥😭
It was 1am and my mom was sleeping next to me, and like my lips were doing that weird sobby thing and everything just hurt and the last conversation with Nina...killed me.
I saw the next chapter was in Matthias' perspective and I thought something was going to save him, but then I read the chapter and that hammered the final nail in the coffin.
I WAS HOPING SOMEONE WAS GOING TO BRING HIM BACK
Out of all the reviews I’ve scene on TH-cam about crooked kingdom your the only one I’ve seen so far that brought up the scene where Kaz called Jesper “Jordie”. That was one of my favorite parts in the series and I was so annoyed no one was talking about it lol. Jesper always wanted Kaz to acknowledge him, like you can’t get anymore acknowledged than Kaz calling you his brother basically. That was the scene that broke me.
JUST THINK ABOUT ALL THE IMPLICATIONS OF KAZ CALLING JESPER "JORDIE" OMG... I CANT EVEN GET INTO IT
Yes, it was one of the scenes that hit me the hardest in the duology, I pased around the flat so long after it, I couldn't stop for long enought to pick up the book for so long
Jazzy115 yess
I AGREEEEEEEE
@@withcindy I really think that apart from Jesper's mistake about telling Pekka he is going out of the country, Kaz is mad of Jesper because Jesper reminds him of Jordie.
I think we should all have a Crying Crow Club where we just meet up and cry our eyes out and talk about all the ways in which the Six of Crows duology left us permanently traumatized
YESSSS
Did you guys make the group?
I agree
I ma join you😭
Sign me up 😣 im still sobbing and shaking at matthias's death and just the ending of the entire thing
Also Inej running towards her parents who she hasn’t seen in years because that life was ripped away from her and now she survived all her suffering and came out stronger and didn’t let it beat her after all that she’s running towards them yelling mama papa and her parents run towards her.... TEARS. TEARS EVERYWHERE!
Agh out of all the scenes in Ck that one hit the hardest! so many emotions hnnngh. People in the barrel know her as the wraith but this scene showed that Inej is a hurt child missing her parents and I- 😭 😭 😭 I’m close to my parents and the thought of being ripped away from them , being sold into sex slavery, losing my childhood, and then finally being reunited with them years later broke me. I’m 20 so I can’t imagine how that must have felt for a literal child
FINALLY SOMEONE TALKS ABOUT THIS
I WAS SAD DURING MOST OF THE BOOK, I TEARED UP HERE AND THERE AND DURING MATTHIAS SCENE
But when she yelled, mama, papa. I LITERALLY burst into tears out of no where. Not exaggerating, I was a mess all of the sudden.
@@belletham6526 SAAAME that scene seriously had me bawling my eyes out
Damn you I'm crying now
@@luthientinuviel3883 we all cry together
Another scene that broke me " He didn't deserve peace and he didn't deserve forgiveness, but if he was going to die today, maybe the only thing he'd earned was the memory of her-brighter than anything he would ever have the right to-to take with him to the other side."
STOP THAT ONE PARAGRAPH MADE ME SOB
That one dislike was Pekka Rollins
two dislikes now... Pekka and Jan Van Eck?
LMAOAOA
He and the rest of the Dime Lions
and Dunyasha's ghost
One thing I loved about Matthias, especially his and Nina's relationship, was how realistic it was.
Matthias was taught from a very young to fear and hate Nina's kind, that his holy mission was to kill Grisha. It was drilled into him (like all the other boys) that they were wicked, evil, etc and what I love is how Leigh gradually showed his character development. He didn't meet Nina and suddenly forgive everything, forget the years of hatred that was installed in him. Hell, even when they confessed their feelings for each other, it took him sometime to get use to Grisha. He didn't kiss Nina and kaboom years of propaganda taught to him gONE.
You see it throughout the book, how when he meets the other Grisha, there's distrust in his head, his old views on them appearing in this thoughts and there's this battle in his head where he's slowly learning and becoming a better person and I just
yes ye syes 100% it was a very realistic depiction of a star-crossed relationship
Áine this is a perfect explanation and analysis of their relationship, which i love because they’re my otp. the slow burn romance and development of their views towards each other and their own people is just... so good
Matthias and Nina are in my heart forever and I literally cried so hard
You literally said everything i felt about Matthias and their relationships.
the first step he took after her "betrayal" towards being a better person was respecting her as a fellow soldier because she was fighting for her people just like him I- this book scarred me and I love it
Okay who else is down for just a book about Inej and Kaz?
me!!!! I read this only two months ago but it’s literally one of my favourite book duologies that I’ve ever read
YAAAAS
or literally any of the six.
YES PLEASE
I mean realistically I'll need a five book series for all of them but that sounds like a good start.
“is my tie straight?”
that’s all i have to say. 🥰😭
Grace Lin wHy
I fucking cried
😭😭😭😭😭
Omfg
yes. i read this and can't stop laughing for an hour. that's so sweet.
Did you know that Matthias fist and last chapter start the same way ???
“He was dreaming again. Dreaming of her.”
when i realized that i was like: oh cool cool cool cool cool
why would you tell me this now i'm crying all over again
I thought I was the only one that noticed that and when I read it I had to close the book and just sit there for a sec
this comment made me cry
The disrespect!
Or when Wylan tricked Kaz and Jasper was like : can U teach me ??????
But like he didn't really trick him because Kaz knew he wanted to go to his mother's grave and he let him go there
Kaz Brekker can not be tricked
@@kayla4551 "grave"
@@theSoundOfAWomanWhoLovesYou 😏
the worst part for me was matty running to nina, hugging her, giving me hope for his survival, and then dying in her arms. when she couldn’t bring him back, when she tried but he wasn’t the matthias she knew... gOSH this hurts so bad just thinking about it. i real soc/ck like one-two years ago and here we are
Yes 😭 that part killed me
literally like when she started moving his dead body with her powers? that killed me
the fact that cindy is still liking comments for this book
as she should
and the fact that she could have easily saved him hadn't her powers changed but then again her powers changed because she took the parem to save Matthias and the others---- the Shakespearean tragedy of it all T___T
Have you considered the fact that techically Wylan is now Jesper's sugar daddy lol
Omg lol
LMAOODJDKDJ
I NEVER REALIZED
Lmao yesfhxfujhvnki
LMAOOO
what hurt me so bad is that genya was LITERALLY WITH THEM A SECOND AGO SO SHE COULDDVE HEALED HIM IF IT HAPPENED A LITTLE BIT EARLIER
YES
I WAS LIKE GENYA COME BACK, IT NOT ENDING LIKE THIS!
I was praying she’d come and all be fine but nooo 😢
The thing that made me cry the most in this book was Kaz saying that Jesper was missed at the Slat
I CANT DO THIS RIGHT NOW PLEASE
I LITERALLY WANTED TO CRY READING THAT LIKE OMFG
half of my annotations for jesper & wylan consist of the terms 'Damn that thirst' & 'makeout already'
my annotations would just be "GAY"
I read crooked kingdom two years ago and this video has proven that I’m still not over Matthias😭😭
it's called SIX of crows not five of crows :'(
I was gonna comment the same thing! 😭 I read it 3 years ago and reread it since and the wound is still not healed apparently as I burst into full tears when cindy talked about it 😭
Almost cried in class when he died, my heart was broke and i my mood was shit for the entire day :'^(
ShivM I reread a couple months ago and after they all get out safe I just shut the book like “wow what a great story so glad I reread that” 🙉
Will there be a third book?
Take a shot everytime you hear, "crying in the club."
On second thought, don't do that to your liver.
White Panther im drunk as fuck
Jogs the liver
@@laurenballou1615 omg did u get that from the scene where wylan and jesper meet that farmer guy on their way to see wylan's mum?
@@naag_nool yeah 😂 I saw a comment mentioning a liver on a Crooked Kingdom video and I just... Could not resist
It’s good for you, jogs the liver
I’ve always loved Wylan because I have a thing for the soft bois. What I love most about him is that he isn’t weak and quiet for no reason. It’s heavily implied and shown that all of his self doubt and “weakness” and wimpiness is all because of the abuse he suffered from his father. I just finished rereading Crooked Kingdom and during one of Wylan’s chapters, Van Eck’s abuse is shown in the way Wylan just lies down and agrees with all the shit Van Eck says. He spent his entire life hearing that he was worthless, that he wasn’t good for anything, he’s stupid, and he eventually began to believe it because that’s all he heard and nobody ever stood up for him. And what I loved is when Wylan was “captured” and he spit into Van Eck’s face and I was like “yes bitch, fight against that abusive fuck.” His wimpiness wasn’t just a trait in him for no reason, it was explained, shown and it vanished in a way as Wylan grew into a much more confident character.
TLDR; I love Wylan and I officially adopt him as my own
And then Jesper says that if he insults himself again he'll fight him. True love.
Yes I love the little marshmallow so friking much. Especially his relationship with Jesper
Samee
i love Wylan because i really relate to him. My father is an abusive fuck and when Wylan started talking about how his father was right i started crying so much because i went through the same self doubt
My favorite characters are Inej and wylan.
Matthias: _fucking dies_
Nina: May Djel look over you until I can once more.
Me who was so shocked that I couldn't even cry: _I'm gonna pretend I didn't see that_
@Jane Twomey SAME! Ijust put down the book and was like _process this_
My brain: reread it again you must have imagined it
Me: _reads it_ he died.
My brain:
My brain: OKAY NEXT CHAPTER
@@amritachakravorty5487 I had to put the book down because the signs of heavy sobbing were starting to drip on it...
Me things don’t hit me till like a month later when I watch lone of these videos because I just push through the pain and don’t acknowledge
@Jane Twomey SAME
Idem
And probably the worst thing about the Netflix adaptation is that it takes place before the events of six of crows. I saw an article about the show's producer having a 5 SEASON PLAN!! That means YEARS of emotional attachment to Nina and Matthias in live action just for it to be ripped appart and we know it's going to happen and there's nothing we can do about it.
ughhhh
Inej killing Dunyasha was symbolism for six of crows killing any basic "I'm not like other girls" YA protagonists (LOOKING AT YOU SARAH J MAAS). Inej literally says that she didn't start off special, she is one of the girls in the shadows. But those girls are powerful, and they can change the world. BEST PART OF THE ENTIRE BOOK (besides Kaz and Inej at the end obviously).
Wait so that’s why Dunyasha’s death felt so fucking cathartic?!
idk if i'm overthinking but i also love how she didn't die 'righteously' from being stabbed, but instead inej outsmarted her and she just plummeted off that church building, completely undignified (as she deserved). idk it's like proving no matter how high up you are you can still fall; the assassin still has her overinflated sense of importance taken from her in death.
"jesper is his daddy" I CHOKEDSDND
i'm not wrong tho
@@withcindy tru
so did wylan
@@madisonbates5607 I SWEAR-
@@madisonbates5607 GODD/#:#/😭
The worst thing ever about the Netflix adaptation is that we’re gonna experience the Matthias scene all over again..
AGAIN.
LIVE-ACTED.
ON THE SCREEN.
MATTHIAS YOU CANNOT DO THIS TO US AGAIN.
Somebody needs to bargain w/ the directors/scriptwriters/leigh herself NOT TO DO THIS TO US.
The only way I can accept this happen in live screen if she has a new book out w/ Nina and Mattias in another lifetime/world BECAUSE I PHYSICALLY CANNOT.
I know it's still years from now BUT I AM NOT READY.
@@IanaBelleGE. I was thinking the same thing. It's just too much :'( I'd say it's time for a multiverse-esque alternative ending! (But just in this case, because I'm shipping Malina too much as to lose them to the Darkling.)
And with music! They'd better write a gorgeous theme for him.
Not Cindy still hearting comments on a 2 year old video
Sometimes I just wished that they'd cancel the show before filming the season where Matthias Helvar dies.
I didn't cried when Mattias died.Because I was so damn convinced he was going to come back to life by some miraculous Grisha power.But when Nina laid down beside him on that sickboat pretending to be dead,that shit broke my heart and I cried like a baby.Just the thought of Nina carrying Matthias's body through ice shatters my heart.
Oh same, I literally thought her tears would bring him back to life because of her new undead powers... but when I realized he really WAS gone, that shit hit so hard...
She buried him in fierda in ch 8 of king of scars...
THIS MAKES ME WANT TO REREAD THE BOOK SO BAD LITERALLY THE ONLY HAPPY MOMENTS ARE THE JESPER AND WYLAN SCENES
i love how the gay couple ended up having the happiest ending 😂
Leigh Bardugo said “bury your gays? I don’t know her”
@@withcindy She really said "I mean gay means happy so"
Sammmeee
@@qweed54 yeah because she decided to bury Matthias instead 😔
Omg does that mean Kaz is a Virgin?? What a good Christian boy 😍
Yes ikr and Nina was his first kiss😀
@@smilee2566 lmaoooi u talking about the drowning scene??? Im deaaaaaaad
@@blueberrymoon549 yeah when Nina has to revive him💀
jenna hackeman 😂
canon kaz: virgin
fanon kaz: invents sex positions on the regular
14:34 What also got me about his death was that if Nina had never taken parem in the first book (granted they wouldn't have gotten out of that situation BUT still) if she hadn't taken it, her powers would never have been altered and she would have been able to save him. It kills me. Choices that they made brought them together but also tore them apart and its all terrible and sad :(
NO DONT DO THIS TO ME
YESS!! THAT PART BROKE ME TOO.
Like FUCK.
Honestly Wylan is 100% my favourite. Like, he's just such a wholesome bean, but the amount of sass he has to him is a m a z i n g AHAHA
Stephy Curiousphy Same. He grew so much and I love him.
Stephy Curiousphy If Leigh Bardugo killed off Wylan I’d riot
Me too
same here, im joining the club
Same!
Kaz calling Jesper "Jordie" broke me!!
PLEASE NOT THAT PART
I actually didn't full out start breaking down at Matthias's death, I cried when Kaz bought Inej the ship and the waterworks just came out. It was at that moment I realised I might never see any of these characters again on a new page together and then all the events, deaths and revelations of past trauma hit me like a train.
Same😭
I was in denial i thought someone was coming to get Matthias
Literally that
SAME i started sobbing when they were putting flowers on matthias and when kaz said “until then, zenik” and nina said “count on it, brekker.” I WAS BAWLING MY EYES OUT
when I finished crooked kingdom I sent a snap to my friend saying "there's a hole in my heart now" and she DEADASS SAID YEAH THERE'S ONE IN MATTHIAS' TOO
omg lmao
😂😂😂
Now I’m crying and wanting to emotionally punish myself with a reread.
Neverending Reader same
i can't reread it and go through that damage again so i'm trying to get other people to read it so i can watch them suffer instead
readwithcindy count me inn
Seriously considering it since i am having Problems finding anything that seems good by comparison
Me too!!!!! I am actually doing a re-read of the whole throne of glass series cos I read it so long ago and I still haven’t read tower of dawn, and kingdom of ash is coming out this month. And there are so many other books I want to read that I haven’t already read BUT this has defs made me want all the feels and to read this again!!! Plus it’s also made me sub to your channel...cos bitch I get it!!! I love how you are talking about these characters like they are really people and talking about how Inej and kaz will meet in the future! I absolutely do the same thing! Plus you’re pretty funny 👍🏻
One of the main reasons I love this series is the abandonment of the chosen one trope. They make their own way and they have flaws but they can work around it, I love it so much
but the found family trope THRIVED
I got emotional when Kaz tells Inej that crows remember human face. "Crows remember human faces. They remember the people who feed them, who are kind to them. And the people who wrong them too. They don’t forget. They tell each other who to look after and who to watch out for." It just felt so personal to Kaz and in that moment he finally opens up to Inej telling her that he's been grateful to have the crews as his companions and friends.
I literally had to take a weekend-long break from the book after the scene where Kaz calls him Jordie
WHEN KAZ TOOK HIS GLOVES OFF I SWEAR TO GOD I BALLED MY EYES FOR SOMETIME!!!😭😭😭 fucking masterpiece of a book
i just saw fanart of Inej and Kaz lying on the floor next to each other and "holding hands" through their shadows and I'm fucking sobbing. This is so good.
For me a part that always made me tear up was every time Matthias talked about the little voice in his head. The one scene where he's looking at NIna using her power and it's like "That same old voice inside his head said 'Unnatural.' But a new one that was slowly gaining confidence countered 'Beautiful."" (that was me paraphrasing I don't have the book on me) but holy shit THAT SHIT MADE ME TEAR UP EVERY TIME.
Everyone, we’ve done it. We’ve finally broken Cindy.
Sarah J Maas: not enough.
Finished it 30min ago, so of course the only sane thing to do was watch this video so I can start crying all over again.
This book was a freakin' roller-coaster I was not ready for. All the gay warmed my heart, I actually had to press pause when Jesper kissed Wylen because 10 sec into that scene I knew who he was really kissing and had to scream/laugh/die. But also kinda glad (not just cuz drama is fun) cuz Jesper was not in the right frame of mind for that kiss.
And then it hits me with all those backstory of pain. Oh and I absolutely loved the moment when Kaz refuses to give parem to Jesper, because we all know that the Kaz from the beginning wouldn't have hesitated to do it. And that, even more than holding Inej's hand, showed growth.
And as shooked as I was by Matthias's death, it was really Nina's grief that really broke me. And her friendship with Inej that helped her let go. I just can't!
I need ice cream!
Cassia L Naw fam you need waffles.
This duology was so beautiful and yes I bawled like a baby
Several things I loved:
1. This is from Six of Crows, but as an artist I want to draw this SO BADLY
" 'You shouldn't make friends with crows,' he'd told her.
'Why not?' she asked.
He'd looked up from his desk to answer, but whatever he'd been about to say had vanished on his tongue.
The sun was out for once, and Inej had turned her face to it. Her eyes were shut, her oil-black lashes fanned over her cheeks. The harbor wind had lifted her dark hair, and for a moment Kaz was a boy again, sure that there was magic in this world."
GOD THIS IS SO BEAUTIFUL I WANT TO DRAW IT SO BAD BUT I DON'T HAVE TIME TT
And as you said this is probably my favorite quote in any book ever:
“But wasn't that what every girl dreamed? That she'd wake and find herself a princess? Or blessed with magical powers and a grand destiny? Maybe there were people who lived those lives. Maybe this girl was one of them. *But what about the rest of us?* What about the nobodies and the nothings, the invisible girls? *We learn to hold our heads as if we wear crowns. We learn to wring magic from the ordinary.* That was how you survived when you weren’t chosen, when there was no royal blood in your veins. When the world owed you nothing, you demanded something of it anyway.”
Also I love how they all have flaws, but they all learn to embrace and overcome them. And even though this is a fantasy novel, they're all things us ordinary people can relate to. Kaz, who is crippled and traumatized (we rarely see main characters who are physically impaired). Inej, who was a victim of physical and sexual abuse. Jesper with his gambling addiction, and Nina who is recovering from drugs. Matthias, who has to get over his conditioned prejudices and hatred. Wylan, who can 't read. I think I can relate to Wylan the most, because he is so so so smart, yet his dad treats him like shit. He's a genius at science! He's amazing at math! He's musically talented! Yet there's this pressure on him to be good at everything, so Van Dick is blind to all his talents and only sees a son who can't read. Nothing he does will ever be good enough. Goddammit I'm crying typing this.
Every character in this story is so broken and strong and *human.* It's really just such a beautiful and impactful book. I love it so much
Yes you analysed this book so well !!
Oh I’m so sorry that your parent isn’t treating you with the love and respect a parent should be treating their child with. But like Wylan you are awesome and amazing and deserving of love ❤️ And you should definitely draw that Kanej scene if you ever find the time! Such an iconic moment.
And I’m an artist too! I mostly draw fashion sketches, especially fandom inspired ones and I drew a six of crows look with a bunch of character references and book motifs. And I finished drawing it around the same time I finished the book and all I need to do now is color it.
so so well said
VAN DICK! I LOVE YOU
Van Dick! So true
At first I was really angry about Matthias' death. I thought it was unnecessary too, kind of forced and rushed. But then I gave it a second thought and realised that that's what happens in real life. You live, no matter if happily or sadly, if you're poor or rich, old or young, but you do. And then, in the matter of seconds, you can die. Literally, just like that. And you can be on your way to school, at work, at home watching tv, doing basic things, nothing can "look like you're about to die", it just happens and you can do nothing about it. In a way, Matthias' death is one of the most natual and realistic things that happened in the whole series. People are dying on regular basis and I'd dare to say that most of the time it's not due to their high age. So yeah, those were my thoughts about it.
Edit: Omg when you said there are dogs in heaven, I just imagined Matthias playing with all of them and it made me so happy 😭💔
Mattias’s Wolf is in heaven
@@ad1t1_s I read KOS and am here to say his wolf is alive and well
Does anyone remember the scene where one character told Mathias "No mourners." But didn't let Mathias reply with "No funerals." Cause Nina did it for him.💔
hold on a second..😭
@@4lienat I know😢
The foreshadowing😭
girl, the quote that had me crying was page 513
Nina: you saved my life. I've saved yours
Inej: I think you're ahead of me on that count
Nina: No, i don't mean in the big ways, i mean the little rescues. laughing at my jokes. forgiving me when i was foolish. never trying to make me feel small. it doesnt matter if its next month, or next year, or 10 years from now, those will be the things i remember when i see you again
CRYING IN THE CLUB
my english teacher was out one day, and he left us work to do but i just did it for homework because i wanted to read in class instead.
big.
mistake.
i was reaching the end of crooked kingdom,,, and then IT happened. i read the same sentence over and over in like horrified disbelief, and i wanted to cry so bad but like,, embarrassment yknow? i slammed the book shut and i just kinda stared at nothing jsjssj
my friend asked if i was ok and i was like hahahahahahahaha no
anyway, my dramatic ass carved his initials into my home economics desk so 🤷🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️
Yesterday they were a shit load of crows outside the place I swim at for swim team and my mom goes why are there so many crows squawking I responded it's Kaz.
it's kaz and his friends :')
omg thank you for replying this means the world to me
Nina and Jesper being bi was pretty obvious to me even before it's stated in the text, but then again I'm bi so I think I just pick up on the subtleties :p
The Jenna Pearl same I knew from the beginning
Persnikity12345 haha same! This comment is a mood.
i knew jesper was, but i didn’t even realise nina was until king of scars
I remember Nina saying “I flirt with girls too” or something along those lines in crooked kingdom when Nina and Matthias were in Ravka in the basement where all the grisha hid
I knew she was bi since the first book, I was like « this bitch acting too fruity to be straight » and then like the genius I am I MISSED THE « I flirt with women too » LINE SO I HEADCANONED HER AS BI FJDJSKSLLD
I refuse to believe that Wylan is wimpy or weak and I have some good reasons, first of all even when is particularly anxious (so all the time) he doesn't get paralised by his anxiety. Wylan is paradoxically the most corageous character in this book because despite of all his fears and insecurities he acts and tries to help the others.
(Yes, I'm quite aware of the fact that my english sucks, I haven't been practising it for a year)
Favorite scene in the whole book is Kaz taking over the Dregs. It's so sick. This man limps across the city on a leg he's been abusing for the past week, dead tired, fresh out of panic attack hell and then takes precisely what he's owed. Fantastic. I never had the urge to cry, but Kaz giving Inej the ship and that reunion was glorious
"Name me a more iconic duo" factual. Gosh, this is so realll. The amount of feels is neverending
those two will take over the world someday 💕 i love them so much
I love them sm hsbqgsggshqshqhh
A more iconic duo tho? Idk if there is one but a VERY CLOSE SECOND is Harshaw and Oncat
When Inej talked about the sugar and the man who smelt like vanilla made me cry. Also my moment when I realized they can not hold hands without like passing out had me shook
I KNOWWWWW
Spoilers
Inej is my favourite. I love how she goes after Pekka Rollins in the end. I don’t think it was instructed by Kaz and I even think in a way she was looking out for Pekka and Albys safety. Like Kaz would’ve tortured Pekka so much if he’d gone back. At the same time, ridding Kaz of Rollins for good I think is a great way to help him move passed his trauma and his need for revenge.
That part made me confused as to why Inej went to Pekka. now it made sense why. :-)
i loved that part too. it’s like she did it as a thank you for what kaz did for her.
VoldemortTheNoselessFreak she went partly for Kaz obviously
But she also said she wanted to get rid of barrel bosses that dealt with slavery and I think he was one of them as it is implied in the chapter
So for Kaz but also for her
I read it as less for Pekka’s safety, but to stop Kaz backsliding into darkness and letting him be the ‘decent’ person he always said he wasn’t though the books
Yeah after Kaz did all that for Inej I thought it was awesome that she kinda started to do the same for him by going after Pekka
i think the scene that broke me was when inej was pouring weevil in the silo and it suddenly triggered her memory at the menagerie
and all the times she talked about her body being abused and yet still she is so strong and brave
Jesper and Wylan's cute moments and relationship as a whole made me so happy like I was expecting something bad to happen to them but I'm so glad they made it because after everything, we needed it.
Hmmm what if that 14 year old kid shows up in King of Scars?🤔 and then he suddenly found Nina near Fjerda
I HAVE THOUGHT OF THAT TOO, like what if nina finds out the truth about how matthias dies in king of scars, and she really wants revenge but in the end she has to choose forgiveness and help that kid because matthias had wanted her to help all the fjerdans
readwithcindy OK DAMN I NEED KOS2 NOW 😭😭😭
READ RULE OF WOLVES RIGHT NOW. READ IT RIGHT NOW.
@@india-th1oq RIGHTTT
@@india-th1oq I WAS WONDERING IF ANYONE WAS GOING TO SAY THAT
omg I read Crooked Kingdom a year ago and I'm stILL not over it so this is pretty much the best video I've ever watched 10/10 so relatable and paINFUL
YES YOU UNDERSTAND MY PAIN THANK YOU
eXusE mE it's 1000000000000/10
I thought I finally got over all my six of crows feels but NOW THEYRE ALL BACK. This series plays with my heart in the best but most tragic ways possible
this series will hold a special place in my heart specifically because it was the one that cracked my heart in the first place
I literally finished Crooked Kingdom hours ago and the first thing I did to fill the void in my heart was to search this video then bawl my eyes out.
One of my favorite scenes in this book was when Wylan apologized for what his dad did and Inej told him “we are not our fathers.” First of all, Wylan can only hate his dad when he hurts anyone but himself and realizing that makes me cry and he always blames himself when it happens, and Inej, this sweetheart, comforts him because she knows better than blaming innocent people. I love these characters and if Leigh hurts them I don’t want to see the light of day again
Now I want fanart of metal Inej
Am also crying. Loads.
I had an internal rage bomb at my boyfriend over Kaz yesterday. At my request he was reading Six of Crows and stopped reading to say isn't it interesting how much you can convey about a character in a single line? The line was that Kaz Brekker hated a problem he couldn't solve, and his interpretation was that Kaz sounded petty. Hooooboy. I fought valiantly to defend my Kaz's honour with all of the words and logic and while we laughed about it later, that was my very first rage-response to someone dissing a character I loved.
I mean he is though.
@@theSoundOfAWomanWhoLovesYou I'll see you outside, okay?
😆
So are you guys still together?? Lol
"Now let's address the elephant in the room"
*Shows chapter forty
*Cries for the next three hours
*then cries for three more cuz his last and first chapter in the book starts with the same sentence, about her*
Matthias is an underrated character in my opinion
Kaz and Inej talking about their inability to touch was one of my fav parts and so heartbreaking hearing the trauma they were dealing with
Nobody:
Cindy: *crying in the club*
I’m not crying..............
I need a sequel or epilogue or something for this duology 😭
..................................KING OF SCARS
edit: somewhat
Don't worry there will eventually be another in a some years. If the sources are correct.
I need a sequel with Inej as a pirate taking down the slave hunters' ships. That's all I want
@@sercemwksiazkach I would love to see a spinoff about her and Kaz that hopefully involve him interacting with her parents. I think that would be hilarious.
Damn the Kaz and Jesper fight had me crying so hard that I have to cover my mouth because my mom is sleeping next door, and I cried more when he called Jesper "Jordie" Damn
This gave me life because I was late to the whole SoC thing as well, read it a few months ago and I'M STILL NOT OVER IT. So, yeah, relatable.
I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN
Ikr anything i do now is either mandatory or six of crows related
8:51 Exactly why Kaz and Inej’s relationship is one of my favorites in book HISTORY.
me too !!!! I still hope that someday, they will be able to touch each other without hesitation or disgust. They´d deserve it
I wasn’t too attached to Matthias until the end of chapter 19. He says some profound shit about Grisha and his place in the world that made me sob. I too was crying in the club.
This video is older now, but damn, hearing you talking about all of this really made me feel the feels I've felt then, too. The scene with Kaz calling Jesper Jordie was the moment I wanted to throw my book out of the window. It's weird how a book can make you laugh tears and cry tears just a split second later.
Regarding Matthias, I wasn't too fond of him in the first book. I kinda liked him, but not as much. However, when someone would ask me who my favorite character is now, I think I would pick him. He's been such an adorable, socially awkward guy in Crooked Kingdom and I've grown to love him a lot. Such a brave character and in the end I only got to realize how much I actually cared for him when it was too late. And then having this burial scene made it even worse. So I want to re-read Six of Crows from the beginning and enjoy his character developement and how much he has changed. Thank you for giving me the feels to do so.
I think the name of the part in which Matthias died in “Action has an echo” or something like that carried symbolism. His previous actions while being a druskelle had an echo.
I am late but Nina's relationship with death haunts me! I just finished it and I find her so interesting. how hard must it be for her to not breathe life into Matthias one last time, I WANT TO SCREAM
I'm crying here with you. That last scene with Kaz and Inej had me sobbing and Matthias scene.. can't even talk about it
Cindy knowing spoilers and still feeling so much while reading it also shows that Leigh is a really good author in able to convey scenes, emotions and create good-no fabulous characters. Ah I think I might cry again
Scientists can’t explain why I’m always here whenever I feel sad.
Here today for just this reason.
Aubrey Shelley 🤝
Omg I love you so much.
I cried too. I was really hungover and grieving too.
Because of Inej’s belief that Kaz wouldn’t come for her if she were broken... I think she NEEDED to be the kidnapped one!
I really enjoyed all the character’s PTSD and how it was handled. I haven’t read many novels that continuously shows you how trauma has impacted characters.
Matthias’ character growth was one of the best in my opinion and of course he’s the one to die. I also think he had to die for Nina to be included in King of Scars.
I love this video and how invested you are! “There are dogs in heaven and Matthias is playing with all of them”😂😂😂❤️❤️❤️❤️
omg it made me so sad that inej didn't believe kaz would come back for her! and yes i really loved the emotional journeys of the characters dealing with their PTSD, and how it often resurfaces throughout the scenes... i thought it was a great depiction that dealing with trauma is an ongoing process and it will linger and come out to get you in unexpected ways. and yet they still keep persisting and surviving in this world!! SNIFFLES. and tbh I think I cried even more because I love dogs so the idea that Matthias is playing with his dog now got me wrekt
readwithcindy haha that part of your video made me tear up. I was really sad that they let his wolf die because Matthias was presumed dead.
I really really love this video but my interpretation of this gorgeous, literal masterpiece of a book and Matthias' death is slightly, okay, very different. His death was meaningless. There was no symbolism whatsoever, no reason- it was utterly and abjectly pointless and painful. Which was THE POINT. Matthias died because of random hate because Leigh wanted to show how all actions of hatred and anger have consequences. Matthias, Kaz, Jesper, Nina and Inej were all good people with bad deeds. They worked in a GANG or THE ARMY. They've done this: taken lives and destroyed pointlessly! His death just portrays how unfair violence is, no matter how righteous it seems. His life was taken by a nobody because that's the world soc is trying to change. The precedence of ideologies over individuals. In another time, Matthias could have been the soldier. The point is we never realise how much our lives impact others. He's dead cause of some gangly kid who's also probably just trying to do his best, a kid who given the right circumstances could become like Matthias. So don't hate. Don't fight fire with fire. Just try to care about everybody: the sinners and the saints and the criminals and the cops because EVERYBODY DESERVES A CHANCE!
P.S. this is just a whole-ass essay now, oops
What broke me the most was the true last words of Matthias was “I’m already home”. He may had not been in the place in his birthday, love a Grisha, the people who he feared. He felt at home as long as he was with her.
I cried so much because of Matthias death, I can’t even
Fortunately or not, I haven’t read any spoilers before it, so I grew to love him throughout the series, he deserved so much better
I am glad nina is going to keep up with his wish though and I couldn’t ask for a better death for him, the symbolism of it and how he denied to blame the Fjerdan, because he still hoped that nina or someone could still change his mind I CANTTT
Same I thoight they were gonna live happy ever after and Leigh Bardugo up and punched me in the stomach with sadness
It was so bloody emotional. I had gotten attached to him as Well.
Um gurl you were literally me after reading this book like I was you 100%. One of the few series I could reread and would still probably cry over even the second time.
thank you for understanding my emotions
This is honestly one of the most real videos I've seen on booktube! I haven't read this book/series but I can tell your emotions are just so honest, and relatable to anyone who has fallen in love with a particular story.
i'm actually glad i filmed this vid right after i finished reading it so that i could immortalize the raw emotions i felt afterward 😭 i love it when books make you feel things
I am so late to the six of crows fandom. So damn late but..... I cant even with this series. I'm not too proud to admit I bawled like a baby during Mathais' death scene. Then proceeded to cry the whole way home. As fellow drivers looked over at me confused and concerned. They just dont know. God I hope Netflix does this universe justice.
I rewatch this video periodically to remind myself of how much Pain I felt when reading crooked kingdom.😀😀😀
enjoy the pain :)
That one scene that broke " Nina glimpsed from Inej to Kaz and saw they both wore the same expression. Nina knew that look. It came after the shipwreck, when the tide moved against you and the sky had gone dark. It was the first sight of land, the hope of shelter and even salvation that might await you on a distant shore." You're welcome 😭👊
wowwww that shadow thing was insaneeee
I WAS HECKIN CRYING AND LAUGHING AT THE SAME TIME WHEN I READ THE SCENE OF JESPER KISSING KUWEI INSTEAD OF WYLAN AND IT WAS DURING CLASS AND OH GOSH
THIS VIDEO IS GOLDEN AND IM ONLY LIKE FIVE MINUTES IN
AND A BIG BULLET HOLE SKSJDNJKSJS
MMMM WHATCHA SAY!!!
I was spoiled for the Matthias part before I read SoC, but if I hadn’t been expecting it I would’ve probably sobbed uncontrollably
Also can we talk about Colm Fahey for a second and that scene where Nina talks about how Jesper has someone to look out and care for him while everyone’s else’s parents are abusive, dead or out of the picture. Like can Colm adopt all of them if I don’t because he’s the best Dad ever and I will stand by that until I die
the part where they all were in Colm's apartment and it looked like they were just a bunch of teenagers worn out from a birthday party
I just gotta deal with it like Kaz, he doesn't say goodbye he just lets go. I'm too numb the cry right now and I'm not really emotionally stable enough to think about it anyway.