Yeah. Personality I don’t wtf is going on. It was like I had personality disorder problem myself but kept I under wraps; then I seem to have been injured by a psychopath destabilizing and disrupting my life by suggesting and demanding things; then I seem to have gone manic and then aggressive on and off Lexapro. The psychopath cousin made me take meds that I didn’t want to take by repeating it over and over, throwing a tantrum that I didn’t take them, and then convincing me to take them.
I have nothing else to talk about with people. THIS is my life. I spend every day from the time I wake up, until I go to bed, and all the million times I wake up through the night trying to figure out how to survive this.
@@Waves353 when the akathisia is high, I can't do anything but try and survive. When it is low, I CAN do things but I have to force myself to do them because I have multiple other symptoms that make me feel so unwell. I was an athletic and highly active person prior to this. Being a prisoner of my own home has added to the deterioration of my mental health. I don't believe that I will heal without these 3 things: sunlight, good nutrition and exercise. I will continue to push myself to incorporate all three when I am physically able to. It's no easy task.
Same! I’m so sick of trying to explain this ish to ppl, i.e my mom,dad, brother, friends. Do they really think I would go almost 2 years and just stop living my life that I once loved like doing everything I use to love doing? I’m in misery from the time I wake up to the time I close my eyes at night. All I do is research how I can feel better. My mom yells at me and says I’m avoiding my son and I’m lazy. If she only knew how fu**** up I felt constantly, can’t see chronic dry eyes, eye pain, feels like someone is gouging my eyes out, pressure and pulsating on my brain feels like someone is zapping my brain constantly 24/7. I’ve felt like this 24/7 since June 18, 2022 since the doctor ripped me off.
"Imo", when people don't get it, it's not an intellectual barrier; it's an emotional one. They are in denial because, emotionally speaking, it's too much for them. Because it would mean that the whole system is broken and that's terrifying, so they cling to safety even if that means abandoning you. I don't need to lose all my family members in a car crash or experience a war to be able to empathize with people that went through that. If they don't want to listen to you, they won't.
Oh what a recognition I find here. I'm in withdrawal at the moment, only 1 friend really understand. It's frustrating and heavy. I'm going to be happy to be some years older! Thank you for sharing! Sweet regards, Els (Belgium)
I hate how people think I am lazy and crazy when they don't even know how hard I have battled to get this far. Thanks Angie for the content you make me feel as if I am not alone in this battle. Been doing a whole lot better but I have had to fight like hell for my sanity and to get this far. I am just glad to be alive after all the hell this has caused.
I am done trying to explain this to friends and family. My only hope is that they come to me after doing their own research or being educated by someone else .
As of today I have lost all friends. I still have my Mam and Dad but they are 80 and 89, sisters like yours. I feel your pain! You seem so much better and even look younger than the first time I saw you! Thanks for all you do for all of us!
I sent SO many videos to friends. I desperately wanted them to understand. I was so afraid and so lonely. I needed some kind of connection. It did the opposite. It just pushed people away more and I felt even more misunderstood and alone.
@elainewalters460 I'm sorry... This has happened to me too.. The stigma and isolation is so real and valid... Aside from the documentaries/movies on the subject, and educational videos like this, the only validation is from within the benzo community..
@@erinseward this is so true. I'm not glad that this continues to happen to people, but I am glad for the growing community of support groups. Where would we be without them?!!
@@elainewalters460 Absolutely. If not for them the isolation would be too deep for one to bear all alone.. Like you, I am thankful and glad for the community support, for without it, I'd surely be worse off...
Thank you so much for this video. Hardest thing through this current withdrawal, is my own family and "friends" not believing me and telling me it is because I "need" the medication. It's heartbreaking to hear that from everyone, even my own mother. You're doing amazing work and I hope to do similar work as you in the future. THANK YOU
Yes. The cousin who forced the education on me using unethical sales language and repetition just because he gets a thrill out of getting a “win”, then blamed me for “that’s because you stopped taking you meds; you went and took meds in secret without telling anybody.” He kept repeating I should take meds and then I thought why not maybe I am missing out on something. When will I learn that trying to fix a manipulator is futile.
My original psychologist at 17 years of age is the reason why I'm in this mess. He refered me to a psychiatrist because he thought I "needed" drugs, and what did I know at 17, before TH-cam, social networks and online support groups.
I wore my Johns Hopkins sweatshirt when meeting my psychiatrist for the first time after AD WD! Now I try looking as put together as possible because you know he’ll pathologize my wardrobe and not wearing makeup 🤪 It’s so true Angie, we desperately want to tell our story and to be heard. Thanks for this ❤
thanks for your channel Angie! You have helped me so much! The pharmaceutical I was put on injured me so severely for so long, that I don't know how I'm still here...
Thank you so much for these videos, they are so pertinent. We lose so much, I am not in benzo withdrawal but SSRI protracted withdrawal which is very similar. I have gained 2 new friends who believe me but lost all of my other friends, which is so sad. Keep the positive videos coming and wishing us all a speedy recovery
I know I love a whole lot more after psych drugs and I laugh more too and I am still struggling with withdrawals from Seroquel. Life is a whole lot better with no psych drugs.
No. Never anything close to an apology, probably because if they apologize, they know that we'll take that statement to Court as an admission they harmed us. Thy are cowards.
Angie, I’m in a waves week. This was sobering and painful and true. I hope someday I’ll be able to move out of the looping and back into meditation and feeling less isolated. Right now I feel powerless and not very patient. That’s ok. It’ll pass. Just hang on.
I wasted the equivalence of dozens of thousand of dollars due to AD drug injury cognitive damage and then wd and benzo injury. Lost the little money I had to begin with. Without any knowledge of suppory groups and people like Angie. While psychiatrists and pharma executives live in mentions.
Hi😊. What a great video. Angie, I learn so many great things about you with everything that you share! Travis tells me that this is why he did his "A Caregiver's Perspective" TH-cam interview video with you, in the way that he did. His main focus was on the most important thing, which is getting caregivers to first and foremost BELIEVE WHAT THEIR LOVED ONE IS GOING/SUFFERING THROUGH. I have about 2 believers in my "circle of people" who are not in withdrawal themselves, & I feel so fortunate & so grateful to have that. It wouid be great if everyone understood, but I have had no problem weeding those out of my life who don't. It was evident early on that stress makes this worse, & I was no way in hell going to make myself feel worse than I already did. As you said, i got to see who my real friends are... but it really did make those loyal people who have hung around even more "golden". The thing is about 90% of the people in my life are taking an antidepressant or a benzo & even though they knew how injured I was, they had no problems talking about how they take these meds and their children take these meds ... 🤦♀️ As soon as I realized that this wasnt going to be healing in just a few months for me, I just cut ties with these people. It was just impossible for me to continue having them in my life knowing the meds they were taking. Especially since some were already showing major signs of tolerance withdrawl. Two were diagnosed with MS and I will never be able to not wonder if it's really MS or all the psych meds they've been on for half their lives. Once I knew that eliminating stress to the best of my ability was a part of me surviving this, i has no issue cutting these folks out of my life. It's unfortunate, but my goal is to survive. Travis & I meet wonderful people almost every day. I've been doing much better. I still have to rest in between, but I've been out and about more than ever & we have fun meeting people at the beach, or a small chat with a cashier at a super market, or one of his clients etc. I delight in, and value this type of interaction so much more because they dont know a thing about what happened to me. So when we're at the beach stopping to pet the french bulldog of a couple that is there, and they strike up a conversation asking where we are from, my heart sings with joy. That bit of positive, healthy, & fun interaction just makes me light up inside & out. - Shelly 🐚
I loved yours and Travis video, I watch it over and over again as I have a lovely husband as well but feel as you did as it has gone on so long. I am glad you are getting out and about. Thank you for your inspiring video and wishing you a life full of joy x
You were lucky In one respect, only, Angie. You hopefully came from a family who weren't serious abusers to begin with. Narcissistic Abuse. I have not spent holidays with anyone for decades..so it's a double horror.
Extremely well described, very raw, very real, felt every word you said. Currently nearly 8 months antidepressant free, third attempt after 17 years of physical dependency. Keep up the great work. 💪🙏
You have helped save a life, by letting those of us who are going through this know we are not alone and crazy. It gives assistance to get through it. Thank you Angie. It’s not easy to do what you are doing, but your efforts and heart is so valuable. Great respect and appreciation.
I like these terms you use like "Vulnerability Hangover" .... There's a lot of helpful info in this video that also makes us feel validated & that what we are going through is normal for people with the injury that we have. Thank you Angie.
So glad I came across your channel. Been on Benzdiazepines for almost 14 years now. Trying to successfully taper. Quit my job recently because, of Benzo withdrawal. I don't feel crazy anymore watching these videos.
Thank you SO much for telling this ❤❤❤ Omg I feel seen and understood. It is so servere what this shit costs in our lives. I sit with tears in my eyes becauce you describe excactly how I see this shit!!!! It is physical!!!!!!! Not psychologically!!!!! And it is not our responsibility to understand it FOR other people! I really follow how you just try to live and do not bother to tell or explain it to people because it can damage more than it can give even though we often try in desperation. Thank you for all you tell and do!. You really save lives ❤
Thank you, Angie! I can't thank you enough, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for articulating and putting into words what I have been feeling and experiencing....❤ I am so glad and grateful I "clicked" on your video. Thank you for all you shared here, it is honestly healing to hear.. You are gifting those who have walked this path with healing.. That's worth more than gold...❤
I had to educate my mom on my protracted withdrawal. At the beginning she did kind of got it, but not quite. But now she is being very supportive. Thanks angie for this video, i wish you further succes in life. May all my fellow psych drug buddies heal in rekord time. Take care.
Thanks for sharing ❤ It is a difficult experience to go through -your stories help me- I appreciate you. ❤ Your Chanel relieves me when I convince myself I can’t continue ❤
I have lost everything including my grown children. Got a friend back. Benzo and ssri have ruined my life. psychiatrists also here in Denmark are so degrading. I can't get any help. don't know what to do anymore.😭😭
Psychiatry ruined my life. Imagine waking up from a 8 year comma only to see that you life, health and mind have gone from good to hellish. Now imagine that, on top of that, you weren't bedridden while on that comma but walking and talking like a "normal" person who is "alive" would. Now imagine that you go to the people around you, show them ALL the evidence that you can find (books, documentaries, testimonies, scientific articles, the prospects in which they literally state "loss of reality") to tell them that that "person" wasn't you and you were unaware, and they still refuse to read and then proceed to tell you that you are wrong because "this is just your defense mechanism" or whatever gaslighty bullsh*t therapy speak taught them to say. Yes. It's terrifying. It's unnerving. It's too much. And then you also learn that this whole ordeal occurred because your abusive family and the doctors were trying to make you sh&t up about their abuse. Yeah, no. Sorry, but I can't. I spend most of the day dissociated and that's just proof that I can't deal with this inhumane and messed up charade.
@@AngiePeacockMSW I'm so so sorry that you related to this complete inhumane horrific madness too 😭🫂 We all deserved better. No one deserves something so horrible and traumatic 🫂❤️
I was left alone during my withdrawals. I would run out on the street every night looking for people to kill me. A man eventually picked me up and luckily nothing too bad happen but he was absolutely a predator and took advantage of me. My family still won’t be near me. Alone in my apartment or shaking on the streets.
You made an awesome video (topic)! Thank you so much. I'm European , not even English speaken country. This hole shit surreal. But then again, your voice and all the other brave people given me hope. Although sometimes when I'm deep exhausted, I think you all just part of my distressed illusion, ignited by prolonged withdrawal and lack of support. I just had to quit my only family relationship due to her apathy. If it wasn't for you all, I really don't know. Ah yes, I bought a copy of "medication normal". Thanks so much. I also recommend to see here on YT, "antidepressant for depression, do antidepressants help?" Originally produced for Germany 2022. It's kind of an effect/reaction due to all your activities. Worth seeing, cause controversial and first of a kind
Believe me..I know all about it... I had 8 different doctors and 1 pharmacist tell me there was absolutely no withdrawal from a benzodiazepine. 1 doctor told me that the ONLY reason I was having symptoms was because I was looking at Benzo Buddies...He said EVERYONE on that site is looking for attention by making symptoms up. It is SO INFURIATING.
The most toxic wnd hurtful member of my family is a person with a PhD in Counseling. The last time i saw her she let me know she loves me in spite of me being mentally ill. She has even told mh children my political opinions (not liking Trump) is a sign of my mental illness. I refuse to ever see this person again even at famimy gatherings. Having a PhD people respect her opinion and I lose everytime.
What happened! I'm going through a sort of psychosis! I'm afraid I damaged my brain for good I was in so much derealisation, vertigo and distress that I took the smallest dose up and I'm going to talk to a doc again. I went almost cold turkey and ended up in the er multiple times felt better then now 5 months had a sudden onset again. I don't understand how one week I felt ok then the next was like out of a horror movie I feel like I'm dead. Idk what can be done I wish I could have waited it out but this is horrific.
@@meabhm7675 that’s a terrible predicament. The best advice I can give you is speak to your doctor immediately or healthcare professional. Never stop your medication abruptly always do that under supervision and take your term very slowly it took me two months to come off 50 mg and the doctor wants me to do it in two weeks thank God I didn’t listen to him get that poison off your brain and out of your body get out in the sunlight exercise cleaning eating avoid any processed food avoid stress avoid toxic people surround yourself with people understand your situation. God bless you Hill.!
Girl I'm 6 months off Zoloft too!! I was 112 pounds but now down to 98😩 I'm constantly anxious,(mornings are the worst) I sometimes experience derealization which is so scary . I haven't been able to work because of all this...I'm just so tired and I want it to stop. It helps to know we are not alone though, and the success stories give me such hope Thank God.
I’m not here to tell anyone to get off their meds. People (and veterans) need to come to their own conclusion about what they put (or don’t put) into their bodies. I’m not sure what retreat you are referring to as I’ve been to many. Can you say more about which one?
@AngiePeacockMSW I would love a Women Veteran retreat of all areas. The VFW did this once. I was a WAC and I would love this! Live near Vegas and perhaps, we could get a good rate on a hotel. It would be therapeutic and fun! 🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸
I live with my 24 yr old daughter & her family. I told her I was tapering off Clonazepam and I know she doesn't understand. I can't talk to her about it. I have no friends anymore. I only have my therapist who's really good. I understand having to talk about your symptoms all the time. The withdrawal gives you brain damage.
Do we really heal with time after coming off benzos? I am 5 months off, and just waiting to recover as time passes, so that I can again live a normal life with my children. As now I only act or fake to be normal, and bearing all the frightening symptoms alone, as nobody in the house believes me and want to listen me about the withdrawal, they say that doctor has said, your are ok, and nothing has happened to you.
Yes we heal. It can take a bit. 6-18 months for mild cases and a little longer for those of us who are severe. Browse some of my other videos for hope!
@AngiePeacockMSW by the way, I couldn't believe my eyes seeing you on german news when they reported about the festival debacle in the dessert two month ago 😉.
I lost all my confidence over my mind that it will work properly if I am not with my family members. This weird thought that I will go out of my mind if alone, makes me really disturbed all the time. I am 4 months off xanax. I am scared to become crazy in this frightening process. It seems that I am struck in some mental loop, and I don't feel a clear head, how can I heal? Will I develop a new illness? Please help.
Similar situation but with a local numbing injection..I can’t get them to believe it triggered a severe reaction. Everyday I’m fighting to explain to people I’m not the only one this happened to. Not even my husband he said what did I see on the internet. But everyday here I am fighting to stay alive for my family and they don’t even get it.
@@jodyhbit does happen to people!! So sorry! Mine was cortisone injection and then they threw on an AP that gave me my first panic attack and I thought it was homeopathic, lidocaine and eventually a benzo which I got fried by completely after 5 days.
I have chronic pain could be endometriosis and doc put me on venlafaxine and I didn’t know there was teva venlafaxine,apo venlafaxine etc. Mine stopped working and doctor dropped me because my tone of voice . I’m on 225mg and thinking how count the bead
@@georgiabessiebirth control is not a treatment. It can mask symptoms, for me, it made me worse. The only solution is excision surgery, and there is no guarantee it won’t come back (it has for me).
@@georgiabessie it may help or it may not help and it’s up to the individual to make that decision. Endo will progress if the lesions are still there and we don’t have enough expert excision endometriosis surgeon that has a multi model / multi disciplinary team . Means that we need colecteral, diaphramatic thoracic, and so forth . To each their own and want to know the real truth
Please make a video on setbacks. Are the symptoms aggravated due to setbacks are temporary, or do they add damage to neuro receptors. I am 6 weeks off xanax after tapering slowly. Due to ignorance I used topical steroidal creams for some iching problem, my symptoms increased severely. And after that the strong smell of acid and bleach cleaner made my symptoms worse and unbearable. All spinning fainting type dizzy feel, very blurry vision, vertigo, and spinning head are intolerable. Please respond.... will they settle in time?
Hello 👋 I sent an online submission through your website. I was hoping to ask some questions before booking an appointment. Are you able to respond? (It’s the same name I’m posting with here).
Hi Matt, I looked in all my inboxes and at my submission note place and there are no emails from you anywhere. Please send it to angela@apeacockconsulting.com
I’m sorry about that but I had a lot to say and I’m on the road right now and couldn’t wake up the roommate I was staying with. Sometimes the message is more important than the visuals.
Angie, I got so upset that I couldn’t finish watching your video just now. For one thing, your speech gets broken with periods of silence. So I turned to the transcript - did you proofread it? It is difficult to understand. I am a veteran too and I have had extremely painful experiences at the hands of the VA. I don’t even want to talk about it right now. Anyway, your content resonates so very well! But please - why do you emphasize cold turkey when it can happen even if a withdrawal is insisted upon for someone like me who was prescribed a benzo for 40 years!!! I wish I could talk to you about this journey as a veteran and a woman and a patient suffering from BIND. But perhaps you will ignore me or gaslight me just as others have done.
I don’t know what you mean about it being broken and long periods of silence. I don’t gaslight people. I coach people full time who have akathisia, BIND, and severe injuries from medications. I am really good at what I do, so much so that I am booked out several weeks.
@@AngiePeacockMSW I was referring to my prescriber who gave me no choice about discontinuing my benzo. I was not accusing you or criticizing you and I believe that you are good at what you do. Maybe my phone is dying and that’s why your video was difficult for me to access. I am sorry if you took offense. Your speech had periods of silence as I was trying to listen to it.
This was fantastic! Thank you for being so articulate about so many of these issues we face. There is so much about all of this that is so painful aside from just being on these meds and withdrawal.🙏❤️🩹
The social consequences and isolation are really painful.
It is
Yeah. Personality I don’t wtf is going on. It was like I had personality disorder problem myself but kept I under wraps; then I seem to have been injured by a psychopath destabilizing and disrupting my life by suggesting and demanding things; then I seem to have gone manic and then aggressive on and off Lexapro. The psychopath cousin made me take meds that I didn’t want to take by repeating it over and over, throwing a tantrum that I didn’t take them, and then convincing me to take them.
I have nothing else to talk about with people. THIS is my life. I spend every day from the time I wake up, until I go to bed, and all the million times I wake up through the night trying to figure out how to survive this.
@@Waves353 when the akathisia is high, I can't do anything but try and survive. When it is low, I CAN do things but I have to force myself to do them because I have multiple other symptoms that make me feel so unwell. I was an athletic and highly active person prior to this. Being a prisoner of my own home has added to the deterioration of my mental health. I don't believe that I will heal without these 3 things: sunlight, good nutrition and exercise. I will continue to push myself to incorporate all three when I am physically able to. It's no easy task.
That's horrible. Also, same 🫂
Oh, Absolutely.
Was the same way for several years. Took so long to heal and I can't believe I survived, truly. I pray you have healed or are close by now.
Same! I’m so sick of trying to explain this ish to ppl, i.e my mom,dad, brother, friends. Do they really think I would go almost 2 years and just stop living my life that I once loved like doing everything I use to love doing? I’m in misery from the time I wake up to the time I close my eyes at night. All I do is research how I can feel better. My mom yells at me and says I’m avoiding my son and I’m lazy. If she only knew how fu**** up I felt constantly, can’t see chronic dry eyes, eye pain, feels like someone is gouging my eyes out, pressure and pulsating on my brain feels like someone is zapping my brain constantly 24/7. I’ve felt like this 24/7 since June 18, 2022 since the doctor ripped me off.
"Imo", when people don't get it, it's not an intellectual barrier; it's an emotional one. They are in denial because, emotionally speaking, it's too much for them.
Because it would mean that the whole system is broken and that's terrifying, so they cling to safety even if that means abandoning you.
I don't need to lose all my family members in a car crash or experience a war to be able to empathize with people that went through that.
If they don't want to listen to you, they won't.
Oh what a recognition I find here. I'm in withdrawal at the moment, only 1 friend really understand. It's frustrating and heavy. I'm going to be happy to be some years older! Thank you for sharing!
Sweet regards, Els (Belgium)
My God woman. If you were my daughter I would be the proudest mom in world. Heart hurt by your hurt but so grateful for you
I hate how people think I am lazy and crazy when they don't even know how hard I have battled to get this far. Thanks Angie for the content you make me feel as if I am not alone in this battle. Been doing a whole lot better but I have had to fight like hell for my sanity and to get this far. I am just glad to be alive after all the hell this has caused.
Me too exactly….Effexor withdrawl has ruined my life..
@@rustymullins6623 It does get better it just takes quite awhile
I am done trying to explain this to friends and family. My only hope is that they come to me after doing their own research or being educated by someone else .
OMG..."patient believes she is in Benzo Withdrawal" ...this made me laugh out loud as I knew it was coming. Such an injustice for sure
I hate the "patient believes..." I have it in all my reports too
My family has stuck by my side. I’m so thankful!!!!
There seems to be less and less empathy in the world in general. You’re an inspiration.🙏🏼
As of today I have lost all friends. I still have my Mam and Dad but they are 80 and 89, sisters like yours. I feel your pain! You seem so much better and even look younger than the first time I saw you! Thanks for all you do for all of us!
I sent SO many videos to friends. I desperately wanted them to understand. I was so afraid and so lonely. I needed some kind of connection. It did the opposite. It just pushed people away more and I felt even more misunderstood and alone.
I’m so sorry!
@elainewalters460 I'm sorry... This has happened to me too.. The stigma and isolation is so real and valid... Aside from the documentaries/movies on the subject, and educational videos like this, the only validation is from within the benzo community..
@@erinseward this is so true. I'm not glad that this continues to happen to people, but I am glad for the growing community of support groups. Where would we be without them?!!
@@elainewalters460 Absolutely. If not for them the isolation would be too deep for one to bear all alone.. Like you, I am thankful and glad for the community support, for without it, I'd surely be worse off...
@@AngiePeacockMSWhow is your low energy sym is it improve some friend
The comment about the conveyor belt would have absolutely SENT ME into a rage 💀
Very sad but HILARIOUS!😂
Thank you so much for this video. Hardest thing through this current withdrawal, is my own family and "friends" not believing me and telling me it is because I "need" the medication. It's heartbreaking to hear that from everyone, even my own mother. You're doing amazing work and I hope to do similar work as you in the future. THANK YOU
Yes. The cousin who forced the education on me using unethical sales language and repetition just because he gets a thrill out of getting a “win”, then blamed me for “that’s because you stopped taking you meds; you went and took meds in secret without telling anybody.” He kept repeating I should take meds and then I thought why not maybe I am missing out on something. When will I learn that trying to fix a manipulator is futile.
My therapist is the reason I'm in this mess.
I believe you.
Thank you. Never thought wanting tinnitus CBT would be life ruining.
My original psychologist at 17 years of age is the reason why I'm in this mess. He refered me to a psychiatrist because he thought I "needed" drugs, and what did I know at 17, before TH-cam, social networks and online support groups.
Angie. I am glad you like to talk because I like to listen to you. Spot on about collateral damage. ❤️Thanks for your wisdom and realness.
This was so validating, like a warm hug for my heart. Thank you Angie
I’m so glad you could feel the love I was sending. 💜
I wore my Johns Hopkins sweatshirt when meeting my psychiatrist for the first time after AD WD! Now I try looking as put together as possible because you know he’ll pathologize my wardrobe and not wearing makeup 🤪
It’s so true Angie, we desperately want to tell our story and to be heard. Thanks for this ❤
thanks for your channel Angie! You have helped me so much! The pharmaceutical I was put on injured me so severely for so long, that I don't know how I'm still here...
Thank you so much for these videos, they are so pertinent. We lose so much, I am not in benzo withdrawal but SSRI protracted withdrawal which is very similar. I have gained 2 new friends who believe me but lost all of my other friends, which is so sad. Keep the positive videos coming and wishing us all a speedy recovery
I know I love a whole lot more after psych drugs and I laugh more too and I am still struggling with withdrawals from Seroquel. Life is a whole lot better with no psych drugs.
It is so not black and white...so nuanced, complex and almost incomprehensible.. Thanks great stuff.So helpful to understand.
No. Never anything close to an apology, probably because if they apologize, they know that we'll take that statement to Court as an admission they harmed us. Thy are cowards.
Being injured tears me away from my kids too. It's so cruel. They need me and they have to watch me wither away
Just having this simple acknowledgment from you Angie is so valuable for people
You are loved Angie. You are honest, and open. Not many folks are either one. 🤝
Into my 3rd year. Content like this keeps me going. Thank you Angie.
3 plus here. 🙏
Angie, I’m in a waves week. This was sobering and painful and true. I hope someday I’ll be able to move out of the looping and back into meditation and feeling less isolated. Right now I feel powerless and not very patient. That’s ok. It’ll pass. Just hang on.
I wasted the equivalence of dozens of thousand of dollars due to AD drug injury cognitive damage and then wd and benzo injury. Lost the little money I had to begin with. Without any knowledge of suppory groups and people like Angie. While psychiatrists and pharma executives live in mentions.
I’m so sorry Tal that is the case for almost all of us. I wasted so many hours on “therapy” too
Hi😊. What a great video. Angie, I learn so many great things about you with everything that you share! Travis tells me that this is why he did his "A Caregiver's Perspective" TH-cam interview video with you, in the way that he did. His main focus was on the most important thing, which is getting caregivers to first and foremost BELIEVE WHAT THEIR LOVED ONE IS GOING/SUFFERING THROUGH. I have about 2 believers in my "circle of people" who are not in withdrawal themselves, & I feel so fortunate & so grateful to have that. It wouid be great if everyone understood, but I have had no problem weeding those out of my life who don't. It was evident early on that stress makes this worse, & I was no way in hell going to make myself feel worse than I already did. As you said, i got to see who my real friends are... but it really did make those loyal people who have hung around even more "golden". The thing is about 90% of the people in my life are taking an antidepressant or a benzo & even though they knew how injured I was, they had no problems talking about how they take these meds and their children take these meds ... 🤦♀️ As soon as I realized that this wasnt going to be healing in just a few months for me, I just cut ties with these people. It was just impossible for me to continue having them in my life knowing the meds they were taking. Especially since some were already showing major signs of tolerance withdrawl. Two were diagnosed with MS and I will never be able to not wonder if it's really MS or all the psych meds they've been on for half their lives. Once I knew that eliminating stress to the best of my ability was a part of me surviving this, i has no issue cutting these folks out of my life. It's unfortunate, but my goal is to survive. Travis & I meet wonderful people almost every day. I've been doing much better. I still have to rest in between, but I've been out and about more than ever & we have fun meeting people at the beach, or a small chat with a cashier at a super market, or one of his clients etc. I delight in, and value this type of interaction so much more because they dont know a thing about what happened to me. So when we're at the beach stopping to pet the french bulldog of a couple that is there, and they strike up a conversation asking where we are from, my heart sings with joy. That bit of positive, healthy, & fun interaction just makes me light up inside & out. - Shelly 🐚
I loved yours and Travis video, I watch it over and over again as I have a lovely husband as well but feel as you did as it has gone on so long. I am glad you are getting out and about. Thank you for your inspiring video and wishing you a life full of joy x
You were lucky In one respect, only, Angie. You hopefully came from a family who weren't serious abusers to begin with. Narcissistic Abuse. I have not spent holidays with anyone for decades..so it's a double horror.
Extremely well described, very raw, very real, felt every word you said. Currently nearly 8 months antidepressant free, third attempt after 17 years of physical dependency. Keep up the great work. 💪🙏
You have helped save a life, by letting those of us who are going through this know we are not alone and crazy. It gives assistance to get through it. Thank you Angie.
It’s not easy to do what you are doing, but your efforts and heart is so valuable.
Great respect and appreciation.
Thank you so much for your kind words
People just don't understand how difficult it is for us to deal with the stress that they cause us.
I like these terms you use like "Vulnerability Hangover" .... There's a lot of helpful info in this video that also makes us feel validated & that what we are going through is normal for people with the injury that we have. Thank you Angie.
So glad I came across your channel. Been on Benzdiazepines for almost 14 years now. Trying to successfully taper. Quit my job recently because, of Benzo withdrawal. I don't feel crazy anymore watching these videos.
You’re not crazy!
@@AngiePeacockMSW Thank you. I really appreciate it 🙏
Thank you SO much for telling this ❤❤❤ Omg I feel seen and understood. It is so servere what this shit costs in our lives. I sit with tears in my eyes becauce you describe excactly how I see this shit!!!! It is physical!!!!!!! Not psychologically!!!!!
And it is not our responsibility to understand it FOR other people!
I really follow how you just try to live and do not bother to tell or explain it to people because it can damage more than it can give even though we often try in desperation. Thank you for all you tell and do!. You really save lives ❤
You are such a blessing
Thank you, Angie! I can't thank you enough, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for articulating and putting into words what I have been feeling and experiencing....❤
I am so glad and grateful I "clicked" on your video. Thank you for all you shared here, it is honestly healing to hear.. You are gifting those who have walked this path with healing..
That's worth more than gold...❤
Thank you for your kind words and I’m so glad I can be of assistance on your healing journey.
I had to educate my mom on my protracted withdrawal. At the beginning she did kind of got it, but not quite. But now she is being very supportive. Thanks angie for this video, i wish you further succes in life. May all my fellow psych drug buddies heal in rekord time. Take care.
You like to talk, and we like to listen! Thank you, Angie. Always much Love. ❤
The consequences of withdrawal for me were life changing in a most negative way.
Thanks for sharing ❤ It is a difficult experience to go through -your stories help me- I appreciate you. ❤ Your Chanel relieves me when I convince myself I can’t continue ❤
I have lost everything including my grown children. Got a friend back. Benzo and ssri have ruined my life. psychiatrists also here in Denmark are so degrading. I can't get any help. don't know what to do anymore.😭😭
Hang on to the withdrawal community. We will help you through this!
Loved this. Excellent work. Thanks Ang 💯✅
You rock Angie 🎉
My screen was so dark I could hardly see you. I don’t think it’s my phone. Thank you for this!!!!! Lots of LOVE to you!!!!!!
Mine, too.
I felt like I was at a funeral 😂😂.. ye I feel that. Lol
Thank you for sharing this. It really helps. I am going through that already for 7 years.
I feel that if any Dr or prescriber takes a patient off benzodiazepines suddenly through ignorance or spite could be charged with attempted MURDER
Agree!
Or atleast doctor negligence. Nooness ever held accountable.
Your awesome and keep taking care of you!!
God work Angie 💜
Psychiatry ruined my life.
Imagine waking up from a 8 year comma only to see that you life, health and mind have gone from good to hellish.
Now imagine that, on top of that, you weren't bedridden while on that comma but walking and talking like a "normal" person who is "alive" would.
Now imagine that you go to the people around you, show them ALL the evidence that you can find (books, documentaries, testimonies, scientific articles, the prospects in which they literally state "loss of reality") to tell them that that "person" wasn't you and you were unaware, and they still refuse to read and then proceed to tell you that you are wrong because "this is just your defense mechanism" or whatever gaslighty bullsh*t therapy speak taught them to say.
Yes. It's terrifying. It's unnerving. It's too much.
And then you also learn that this whole ordeal occurred because your abusive family and the doctors were trying to make you sh&t up about their abuse.
Yeah, no. Sorry, but I can't. I spend most of the day dissociated and that's just proof that I can't deal with this inhumane and messed up charade.
Gosh I related so much to what you wrote.
@@AngiePeacockMSW I'm so so sorry that you related to this complete inhumane horrific madness too 😭🫂
We all deserved better. No one deserves something so horrible and traumatic 🫂❤️
Hope your doing better now. Or atleast a little better.
BIG LOVE toy you, Angie. ♥️ - Cynthia
I wish you all the best Angie
I was left alone during my withdrawals. I would run out on the street every night looking for people to kill me. A man eventually picked me up and luckily nothing too bad happen but he was absolutely a predator and took advantage of me. My family still won’t be near me. Alone in my apartment or shaking on the streets.
I’m glad you are okay. This is torture I know.
@@AngiePeacockMSW thank you. You are so strong
You made an awesome video (topic)! Thank you so much. I'm European , not even English speaken country. This hole shit surreal. But then again, your voice and all the other brave people given me hope. Although sometimes when I'm deep exhausted, I think you all just part of my distressed illusion, ignited by prolonged withdrawal and lack of support. I just had to quit my only family relationship due to her apathy. If it wasn't for you all, I really don't know. Ah yes, I bought a copy of "medication normal". Thanks so much. I also recommend to see here on YT, "antidepressant for depression, do antidepressants help?" Originally produced for Germany 2022. It's kind of an effect/reaction due to all your activities. Worth seeing, cause controversial and first of a kind
Thank You Angie!❤
Great video. Thanks for making.
Believe me..I know all about it... I had 8 different doctors and 1 pharmacist tell me there was absolutely no withdrawal from a benzodiazepine. 1 doctor told me that the ONLY reason I was having symptoms was because I was looking at Benzo Buddies...He said EVERYONE on that site is looking for attention by making symptoms up. It is SO INFURIATING.
Wow, that’s so untrue!
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God work 🙏🏽
The most toxic wnd hurtful member of my family is a person with a PhD in Counseling. The last time i saw her she let me know she loves me in spite of me being mentally ill. She has even told mh children my political opinions (not liking Trump) is a sign of my mental illness. I refuse to ever see this person again even at famimy gatherings. Having a PhD people respect her opinion and I lose everytime.
I’m sorry.
Ugh this is terrible. I’m so sorry!
I'm very sorry to hear this. Honestly, to me it sounds like she is the one who has mental issues.
Thank you for the support. I love the #prescribedharm community. We are the most loving people in earth.
I'm sorry
SAME, I HAVE BEEN SIX MONTHS OFF ZOLOFT AND STILL LIVING IN HELL!
What happened! I'm going through a sort of psychosis! I'm afraid I damaged my brain for good I was in so much derealisation, vertigo and distress that I took the smallest dose up and I'm going to talk to a doc again. I went almost cold turkey and ended up in the er multiple times felt better then now 5 months had a sudden onset again. I don't understand how one week I felt ok then the next was like out of a horror movie I feel like I'm dead. Idk what can be done I wish I could have waited it out but this is horrific.
@@meabhm7675 that’s a terrible predicament. The best advice I can give you is speak to your doctor immediately or healthcare professional. Never stop your medication abruptly always do that under supervision and take your term very slowly it took me two months to come off 50 mg and the doctor wants me to do it in two weeks thank God I didn’t listen to him get that poison off your brain and out of your body get out in the sunlight exercise cleaning eating avoid any processed food avoid stress avoid toxic people surround yourself with people understand your situation. God bless you Hill.!
Girl I'm 6 months off Zoloft too!! I was 112 pounds but now down to 98😩 I'm constantly anxious,(mornings are the worst) I sometimes experience derealization which is so scary . I haven't been able to work because of all this...I'm just so tired and I want it to stop. It helps to know we are not alone though, and the success stories give me such hope Thank God.
Thats a big reason i try to follow jesus. Because he understands completely and he womt leave nor forsake you no matter what.
I’m a dead man walking
You will heal. Please focus on success stories.
Angie, saw your retreat video. How do Veterans attempt to organize a retreat? Do you believe that some Veterans do need these meds? Thank you! ❤
I’m not here to tell anyone to get off their meds. People (and veterans) need to come to their own conclusion about what they put (or don’t put) into their bodies.
I’m not sure what retreat you are referring to as I’ve been to many. Can you say more about which one?
@AngiePeacockMSW I would love a Women Veteran retreat of all areas.
The VFW did this once. I was a WAC and I would love this! Live near Vegas and perhaps, we could get a good rate on a hotel.
It would be therapeutic and fun! 🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸
Yes!
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I live with my 24 yr old daughter & her family. I told her I was tapering off Clonazepam and I know she doesn't understand. I can't talk to her about it. I have no friends anymore.
I only have my therapist who's really good.
I understand having to talk about your symptoms all the time.
The withdrawal gives you brain damage.
It feels like brain damage but it does heal.
Do we really heal with time after coming off benzos?
I am 5 months off, and just waiting to recover as time passes, so that I can again live a normal life with my children.
As now I only act or fake to be normal, and bearing all the frightening symptoms alone, as nobody in the house believes me and want to listen me about the withdrawal, they say that doctor has said, your are ok, and nothing has happened to you.
Yes we heal. It can take a bit. 6-18 months for mild cases and a little longer for those of us who are severe. Browse some of my other videos for hope!
@@AngiePeacockMSW thanks. Now I can pass the time with positivity and hope, that one day I will heal.
This is exactly my story
I'm sorry!
How about when people say the drugs are out of your system.
Danke!
Bitte!
@AngiePeacockMSW by the way, I couldn't believe my eyes seeing you on german news when they reported about the festival debacle in the dessert two month ago 😉.
I lost all my confidence over my mind that it will work properly if I am not with my family members. This weird thought that I will go out of my mind if alone, makes me really disturbed all the time. I am 4 months off xanax.
I am scared to become crazy in this frightening process. It seems that I am struck in some mental loop, and I don't feel a clear head, how can I heal? Will I develop a new illness?
Please help.
Similar situation but with a local numbing injection..I can’t get them to believe it triggered a severe reaction. Everyday I’m fighting to explain to people I’m not the only one this happened to. Not even my husband he said what did I see on the internet. But everyday here I am fighting to stay alive for my family and they don’t even get it.
What injection was it and what happened? I believe you!
Lidocaine/epinephrine
@@jodyhbit does happen to people!! So sorry! Mine was cortisone injection and then they threw on an AP that gave me my first panic attack and I thought it was homeopathic, lidocaine and eventually a benzo which I got fried by completely after 5 days.
תודה!
Thank you so much!
Hey Angie, thanks for sharing this, where can we see the movie ?
Medicating Normal? Www.medicatingnormal.com/watch
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I have chronic pain could be endometriosis and doc put me on venlafaxine and I didn’t know there was teva venlafaxine,apo venlafaxine etc. Mine stopped working and doctor dropped me because my tone of voice . I’m on 225mg and thinking how count the bead
Endometriosis is treated with birth control pills.
There’s a website called www.survivingantidepressants.org that might be able to assist you in figuring out your taper.
@@georgiabessiebirth control is not a treatment. It can mask symptoms, for me, it made me worse. The only solution is excision surgery, and there is no guarantee it won’t come back (it has for me).
@@harmedbuthealing Bitth control suppresses the symptoms. It is the standard of care prior to surgery.
@@georgiabessie it may help or it may not help and it’s up to the individual to make that decision. Endo will progress if the lesions are still there and we don’t have enough expert excision endometriosis surgeon that has a multi model / multi disciplinary team . Means that we need colecteral, diaphramatic thoracic, and so forth . To each their own and want to know the real truth
Please make a video on setbacks. Are the symptoms aggravated due to setbacks are temporary, or do they add damage to neuro receptors.
I am 6 weeks off xanax after tapering slowly. Due to ignorance I used topical steroidal creams for some iching problem, my symptoms increased severely. And after that the strong smell of acid and bleach cleaner made my symptoms worse and unbearable.
All spinning fainting type dizzy feel, very blurry vision, vertigo, and spinning head are intolerable.
Please respond.... will they settle in time?
Can somebody please explain what windows and waves is?
Windows = times when you feel a little better
Waves = times when you feel worse
Hello 👋
I sent an online submission through your website.
I was hoping to ask some questions before booking an appointment.
Are you able to respond? (It’s the same name I’m posting with here).
Hi Matt, I looked in all my inboxes and at my submission note place and there are no emails from you anywhere. Please send it to angela@apeacockconsulting.com
It's so dark. Can't see anything
This was not really about a visual experience. Think emotions.
I’m sorry about that but I had a lot to say and I’m on the road right now and couldn’t wake up the roommate I was staying with. Sometimes the message is more important than the visuals.
@@AngiePeacockMSW Sure, of course. Just unusual))
I fuckin just today had a medium loud argument with my fuckin nurse today about what is happening
I’m sorry!
Angie, I got so upset that I couldn’t finish watching your video just now. For one thing, your speech gets broken with periods of silence. So I turned to the transcript - did you proofread it? It is difficult to understand.
I am a veteran too and I have had extremely painful experiences at the hands of the VA. I don’t even want to talk about it right now. Anyway, your content resonates so very well! But please - why do you emphasize cold turkey when it can happen even if a withdrawal is insisted upon for someone like me who was prescribed a benzo for 40 years!!! I wish I could talk to you about this journey as a veteran and a woman and a patient suffering from BIND. But perhaps you will ignore me or gaslight me just as others have done.
I don’t know what you mean about it being broken and long periods of silence.
I don’t gaslight people. I coach people full time who have akathisia, BIND, and severe injuries from medications. I am really good at what I do, so much so that I am booked out several weeks.
@@AngiePeacockMSW I was referring to my prescriber who gave me no choice about discontinuing my benzo. I was not accusing you or criticizing you and I believe that you are good at what you do. Maybe my phone is dying and that’s why your video was difficult for me to access. I am sorry if you took offense. Your speech had periods of silence as I was trying to listen to it.
This was fantastic! Thank you for being so articulate about so many of these issues we face. There is so much about all of this that is so painful aside from just being on these meds and withdrawal.🙏❤️🩹
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Thank you!
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Thank you so much!
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Thank you so much!