RAW INTERVIEW: A former cocaine addict describes how he got clean
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 24 มี.ค. 2019
- Cocaine deaths are on the rise - both around the country, and here in Wisconsin. Lauren Linder spoke with one man who kicked the habit years ago, and he has tips for others who want to follow in his footsteps.
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As an alcoholic and drug abuser I can absolutely admit that alcohol is the gateway, you have one to many drinks and suddenly a bag of white sounds like the idea of a lifetime. Drink only on special occasions and surround yourself with people who care for you. Don't let substances destroy your life like it did mine. Anybody who suffers through similar things, I believe in you. You can do this!
I believe in you too! Thanks for the good words.
Thank you, God bless
You're right, the only time I had the urge to get cocaine I was drunk
Absolutely. I have never wanted cocaine in a sober state of mind. Always comes with the alcohol.
Is worst when we now cocaine is a big shit but you do it on weekend for example. I try to not think about it but the inner voice man, and we or I trick myself to do it. Sometimes I just want to go to the mountains and live there because the easy access where we live. In 15 minutes I have it and this is the major problem when we are craving... Other problem is when we can´t do it just a little anymore.
can relate, I’m stuck in this cycle of addiction I’m 20 and just beginning my life but I feel as if my life is over already, I’m trying to find a purpose but each day I feel lonelier, I have no friends, I have a couple family members that I can call for ‘support’ but I’ve done so much damage already I don’t want to seek the support from them anymore because I feel a burden, I have multiple court cases weighing over me, dragging me down, I’ve lost everything due to cocaine and only have a little left, I’m trying to find a purpose to keep myself alive, if my parents were dead I would be too, I’m part of the fellowship, some great people and stories and trying to stay part of it while relapsing, anyway if anyone is reading this far I thank you.
Bro I relate to everything you said, im 21 and I was addicted for about 2 years to opiods and maybe like 4 months to coke. I felt exactly how you described how you feel. Pretty much you feel hopeless. I know how bad that shit can feel, I truly do. I lost everything too, jobs, relationships, my car, pushed away everyone and everything, got legal problems still yet to be resolved. You're probably not going to want my answer but I got to the point where I literally had absolutely nothing going for me and was soon to be homeless if I continued. I tried so hard for so long for some control, looking for some meaning, looking for a reason to stop. But while you're using your perspective of what this means is so skewed you don't even know it trust me bro. Feelings can feel very real especially in addiction but for me when I got sober I realized how irrational, selfish, and ignorant my way of thinking was. I hope you go to rehab for me that was life saving, it first showed me being sober is possible which I already knew but couldn't imagine while using, It gave me a stretch of time to truly examine rationally what I truly want, what I truly feel about things and not just act on emotions. It showed me having hope is possible again. I know you probably won't go, its the last thing an addict wants but if you are willing to do anything to stop the torment you led yourself to you'll give up trying to figure it out yourself and put yourself in better hands. If you think about it it's only your own faulty thinking that led you to this point. So why would you use even faultier skewed thinking you have now to try to guide yourself. Im telling you bro just find the courage to do it stop the cycle of defeat, of pity, of powerlessness.
Maybe you can get cleaned up and join the military
Hey bro I'm 26 spent from 14 to 21 taking meth, cocaine and benzos. I went to prison for robbery when I was 22 it was a case from I was 20. Being on drugs I was arrested multiple times for armed robbery using a knife. I ended up doing 2 years inside, but from the age of 14 to 24 I didn't have a life cause I was an addict and I ran about with older addicts and criminals... Never give up bro it's never too late to change. When I got out of prison i had a 2 year rship that was amazing but she ended it I ended up getting back on coke and I've been battling the addiction on and off for a few months but I'll never stop fighting and neither do you bro always keep going no matter how hard it is. You'll get there mate
I started getting hooked at 17 and im 23 still fighting dude :( you dont want to do it for that long
Meto bro I'm 20
I spent 8 long years smoking crack. I’m 2 1/2 years sober now and often find myself angry or depressed at how slow and boring my life can be at times now but when I really think hard, I realize I’m blessed and better off now.
Love you man. Warrior spirit.
Am sure your eyes look different after been on it that long. My cousin's did it for 2yrs. His eye sockets look sunken in
8 years on coke and turned too mostly smoking crack for the last 2 years. I don't know how i stopped but one day I just did, I was at rock bottom and I just had a realisation that my life would be past saving if I didn't stop right then. I'm 4 years clean now and the damage I've done to my brain is not repairable but I'm in a much better place. Hope it all works out for you man just never, ever go back not even once
I'm struggling too, doesn't help in a heartless world. This guys story is amazing
I'm jealous of your sobriety date man so feel blessed and empowered at your date and as low and boring g as it gmcan be at least your sober and not killl8ng your self like all the users out there still using
I needed this today
me too... i got clean for 96 days and hung around the wrong person and have a bad problem again. i dont know anyone who does as much as me. im only 20 almost 21 and have done so much of that bullshit. stay strong WE WILL WIN. trust in our god our savior brotha.🙏🏽
@@testifyxl2978 that’s the big thing who you surround yourself with, your at the prime age people do it but if you have a problem you can’t dabble just cut all ties with people who do it may be lonely but only way
we all did
Damn this man just opened his heart and said something we dont hear often....the truth. Thank you sir!
I’m 34 next month been doing cocaine a few times a week since I was 17. Iv lost the love of my life and numerous jobs and spent silly amounts of money. I’m 1 week clean now I’m determined to stay this way as I can’t carry on as I was before. Hope anyone else in my position finds the strength to turn their lives around. I’m not sure if it’s too late now and the damage has been done but I need to try going sober before it’s too late and I wasted my whole life
Damn this is me exacryl
@@potta061 hard bro isn’t it
@@Ldn4455 mate I wish you nothing but happiness. I know the shit you’re going through. I can never make 1 week so you are doing good man.
@@potta061 same brother hope all goes well for ya
Never to late man. Trust me
DRUGS STOPPED WORKING , listen to this man
Yep.coke is really one of the worst drugs you can take..i m talking from experience...it destroys everything, it destroys your Your LiFE .lucky im out of that world now.
It doesnt fix your problems, it will mask them at the time. But eventually make them worse
100 percent
So true, at the time it helps
@@Ben-ks5bmit helps. That is, until it doesn't.
Especially if you start stealing and s*** for it especially from your own family that's how you know it's terrible
if your thinking about relapsing rn pls dont, this is a sign. get to a meeting, call someone, tell someone, anyone. pls dont throw away your sobriety
🙏🙏🙏
Reading this too late
@@Wainfleetkx450f never too late
This helped
Yes, ❤
It starts with a line or 2 on the weekends. Then you start buying your own sacks. Then once you drink you automatically crave it. Then you start doing some during the weekdays. Then you catch yourself doing it everyday. I know many people that just tried it a couple of times and are good but the majority end up down this path and it’s the worst
That’s exactly how it happens, now I’m doing just enough everyday or at night. I’ll find myself stretching out whatever I got till I get back to my dealer. Once I get around the 18-24 hour mark without it, I’m tired asf and muscles ache a little bit. Stretching all the time and constantly drinking water or Gatorade to fill the space. Till I get that next bump in my system. Sitting in my car now about to start a new bag.. I’ll stop, but not right now.
don't drink that's what I do if I don't drink i can usually fight to stay off it. But 1 drink and I lose control i will spend all night doing it
It definitely ain't no yellow brick road!
People just don't know the struggle until you're living that struggle.
@@peterinfante6187 I stopped for 16 days now, that a lot for me. I just tired of being broke.Drink a Pepsi now😞
@@tommybrown3401 That's awesome!!! Glad your on the road to recovery, you got this.
I messaged you before but it got deleted.
Wanted you to email me to be private
Honest testimony from an honest guy. Such self awareness, I wish him well..🤟
I wish em well to I sent him a message
interviewer was terrible..
Sobriety is just so peaceful
*in comparison
Hope I kan feel that way about sobriety someday
@@lukehancock658 one day at a time brotha ,
@@mariogomez5534 u right homie made it my first day today seeing ur comment made ma mf day bro I stay up bro 👌🏼💯
Shit everyone who does coke knows you need that shit when you drink better to leave both and smoke weed but even weed can be a problem at times
I’m doing coke every day. The last 3 years. I’m 33. I’m trying really hard to stop, I can’t go on like this :(
You can do it bro. To be honest sounds like you need to
@@JustARealist cheers mate. Ended up in hospital not long after this with heart problems. I’ve been 5 days off the coke now, going strong 💪🏼
@@BL4CK0UT17 are you ok pal?
@@Ben-ks5bm done it twice since the hospital, but that’s twice in month. It was every day! So it’s progress. It’s not easy mate not going to lie. When you come off it you’re constantly on a downer wanting to do it again.
@@TheMagician2024 I’m doing my best 💪🏼💪🏼
I have a problem. Every time I have a beer, I start thinking about cocaine, and I can't stop thinking about buying a gram. When I tried it for the first time, I never imagined that I was going to be conditioned for the rest of my life like I am. I wish people would acknowledge this 'sickness' and avoid it.
Right there with you, gave up thirty days and regretted it right after
This might sound crazy but research it psilocybin treatment.. aka mushrooms that arnt a party drug I was the same I came out a 14yr relationship with a women I had two kids to.. I moved in with a girl I new and her flat mate it was a big fancy house I had the loft to myself.. the girl worked in the music industry was privately educated came from a well off family.. anyway before I new it me and her clicked she was an attractive girl but she liked cocaine so I started taking cocaine I never used to like it but the contracts she had this coke was high purity and 🙄 yeah it makes your libido go through the roof then lockdown happened all wee done was take coke and have crazy sex .. but fast forward a few years it wasn't fun anymore I was used to being a dad my sons were 11 and 9 when I left my ex .. she moved stopped me from seeing the kids found out I was with this younger popular girl and she made life a nightmare.. so I took coke and was drinking like a fish .. but enough was enough I ended up taking mushrooms had this amazing experience asked plz 🙏 help me .. after the trip I didn't want cocaine I didn't want alcohol it was like my brain was rewired my anxiety had gone .. but Google it I was amazed then found out there has been studies done and its scientifically proven.. but honestly I was the same after a few beers wee would just look at each other get coke .. wee would buy a half oz 14g and it was coke that people would take and get paranoid 😮 that stuff is to strong but me and her used to have a plate of it out 3 to 4 times a week .. call it a Colombian coffee wake up have a line then roll around tolerance ended up through the roof.. but trust me psilocybin helped stop me from wanting it .. go research it and it helped me big time it got me out a bad addiction plus the money 💰 😮🫣 yeah I don't even want to think about that .. but it does fk your head up life's so much better without out ... hope you manage to stop the habit it can be done trust me ❤
Did it for 2 years 8 months after a break up. I am 35. One day dealer told me how much he hates his job and ruining peoples lives. I went on a 3 day bender had first panic attack though I was dying. Scared shit out me! That day I stopped cold turkey, said in prayers wouldnt touch it again, ever. 8 years later clean wouldn't even dream of being near anyone that does it. Its vile. Since I stopped my career has flown, had a gf for 7 years solid, spend time with my family, enjoy the basics of life, nature. How to do it is go 1 week without it, then do another week, then get to 1 month. After that 1st month you feel better and better, stronger, clear thinking.
It's interesting that the former addict speaks a lot better than the interviewer.
Because they been through a lot
I have a feeling the interviewer is a cocaine addict
@@NoName-rv3lo he is the cocaine
Uhhh... how long were you uhh.... uhhh....
@@AdolfTrumpler Yeah she came across interested but thick as shit.
Had an addiction before covid hit, I would slam an 8 ball in two days. I stopped because I starting having sharp pains in my heart. I had a 1 year old daughter. Just have to want better for yourself....
how's your heart now
Prayers to everyone out there 🙏🏽 never give up!!!
Drugs suck because it becomes worse than what you wanted to hide from
I started with alcohol. I did them all. Sober for over 10 years. But had a few slips in the beginning. But I kept trying until I got it. I'm lucky to be alive
How d it d u stand the sickness it came with. Purging
This is so awesome, glad your doing good, many of us need help
@ameliagolden4118 💀
Thank God for this video. Thank you sir.
“It gave me the ability to do more than I could without it” - this hits home so deep and it is the most dangerous trait. I’ve done in 2 weeks what I was postponing for 2 years since my mothers death. Grief is no more, sadness is no more but with them other feelings are gone too. I feel how I lose myself bit by bit.
Be careful man 😕❤️
I relate so hard, lost my mom almost 4 years now but other griefs added up
Thank you for this video
never do coke. try it once and realize it's about as fun as jumping off a cliff without realizing you're jumping off a cliff. anybody have any details on this guy? like, how long he took it for? anyway, if you do coke, quit, eat fruits and vegetables, improve your relationships, and eclxercise every day
I think I’m one of the “lucky ones” who did it many times over the span of several years and never got hooked. I’ve read that it sometimes comes down to how one is physiologically composed (ie some people have it in them to have a sweet tooth for certain drugs, others don’t) It wasn’t until I tried pure cocaine and after just two bumps felt like my heart was going to punch it’s way out of my chest that it hit me that I shouldn’t touch this sh1t anymore - ever - even on a recreational level like I used to do it (I’ve been clean of that trash for 6-7 years now)
I have a very good friend though who wasn’t so fortunate, who’s currently in detox for the next couple of months because he grew hopelessly dependent on the stuff.
I too don’t recommend this filth. Not worth it at all.
I need to do this, I can’t find anything that replicates the cocaine high, which drives me mad at how weak I am.😞
@@stephentaylor2066 get yourself a longboard/skateboard or start working out. Seeking adrenaline is the best alternative I’ve found.
@@stephentaylor2066 When you get sick and tired, of being sick and tired.... you'll give it up🙏🏾 I am praying for you!
Easier said then done tho when your stuck in a cycle, when it’s always around your estate/city and easier to get hold of then abit of weed it is hard
Brilliant content thank you I can relate to nearly all you have said 👍🏻
Before I even think to try things like this I hear people's stories and I back off rigth away
Seriously never even try it once. It’s that good you’ll want more
What’s terrifying is how seamlessly it all transitions from you being a recreational user and something fun you do every now and then (ie the textbook weekend warrior) to becoming someone who must keep doing it over and over and over to the point of it turning into a necessity. By that point, it’s not about having fun anymore, but avoiding sobriety, avoiding the damage caused by the drug use (ie strained relationships, dwindling funds, losing jobs), leading to MORE drug use to not face the horror that you yourself, the user, are responsible for.
Better to not open that can of worms, only to realize that you’ve made a grave mistake and now must work furiously to undo all the harm, so yes, don’t give into the world of drugs. It’s a big, massive lie. All of it.
For God in heaven sake don't? It will ruin your timely walk on this earth my brother. People will offer it to you for free to get you hooked, run away from them? They are not your friends.
@ Jorge Loya - That is a very smart way to go about life. It's best to learn from the examples of people who have already traveled down these roads in life, and if we see that they come to a dead end we can choose not to go down that route instead of wasting years of our lives finding out for ourselves.
Do not !!! It will grab you by the balls for years and not let you go.
People dont give up no matter what dont give up I'm telling you
The thing with me Is how can a drug that depresses the crap out of u b so freaking good, cause that’s what it did to me, felt euforic 4 a min or two but then the drepression and the anxiety came, it’s very sad
Bro cocaine feels fuken great for like 30 min, but your rt the come down fuken sucks
Lost my sister back in October 2018 to cancer. My dumbass-self though getting some coke would make me feel better.. I’m a fucking fool. Been doing coke everyday/every other day since.. blew through my savings. Sold priceless shit I’ll never see again.
Fucking sucks.
Y’all have a good day.
sorry that happened. the money I spend is killing me....
How are you holding up now mate
Man, thankfully I’m clean now. Working in the oilfield trying to save money and get back to where I was before it all went downhill.
@@73THUNDERDOME73 glad to hear, appreciate the reply. Do you have any systematic steps to get off it? For example to stop smoking weed breaking away from the culture of it will change your perspectives on it. Like if you don't pull a bong cos the lung pain isn't worth the high anymore then you'll detach yourself from it
@@josephhayward3763yeah man for me right before I quit I found a few things that peaked my interest.
-I got a gym membership
-downloaded a new video game
-And started a show I hadn’t watched before(the office)
When I officially decided to stop.
I blocked the couple people I bought my stuff from. And deleted their number, basically severed all contact ability on both sides.
Then I settled in for about 4 days of basically being in a depressive state; just dealing with the withdrawal feelings.
I just watched the office and laid around.
Once I felt myself coming out of that and boredom started setting in, I began going to the gym late at night and played my game In the evenings before and after my workout.
Fill my days with cleaning and bonding with my family and my dogs.
I know this isn’t the best advice
..but I did end up using delta 8 and all the legal hemp variants of thc to catch a smol buzz while gaming.
Before I knew it; it was 2 months out from when I did blow.
So I started looking for a job. Then I stopped using the delta 8 etc and got that out of my system. Got my job and never looked back.
It was hard, I won’t lie. But I’m so thankful I made that hard choice.
Man cocaine is expensive and most definitely spent 5,000 dollars in 6 months
I spend all my money available when I do crack. then I stop for a couple weeks try get some money saved and it lulls me back 😞 it's something unfit for humans 😞
The message that should be taken from this is “the message isn’t getting to the people that need it the most”
Well im watching this coming down from a 3 day bender
Me too tormented soul
It’s okay , coke is not a problem unless you want to die 💯 tell yourself that every time you do it because you will do it soon ... I proMise you that your drug demons will eventually subside .. but if your energy isn’t positive then your better off not being alive in the first place ..
@@highliferinaldi5095 your so wrong man Better off not being alive in the first place? Anyone can change including there attitude. Your messed up for saying that
@@kylejarvis2517 I said if your energy isn’t positive then your better off not being alive... which means create positivity in your life... I shouldn’t even have to explain what I meant tho .. get rid of your victim mentality & take charge of ur own life .. I’m 5 months clean & feel better then ever ... I can admit that I was better off not alive when all I cared about was negativity and misery
😢
It’s fucked how they keep wanting to talk about cocaine even though he says alcohol was the most addictive for him, I assume it’s cause it’s socially acceptable
They Intertwine
@joan how are you doing bro
Or maybe because you can tan £800 worth of coke in 2 days and only spend £25 on alcohol coke ruins you financially and when you start selling to make a way out and you sniff all your product it’s a different ball game because now you have drug debts you can’t clear you can’t get an alcohol debt that’s that serious
@@kulehunter Alcohol debt comes in the form of liver disease.
The interview was badly conducted, its like she has a script in her head and when he replies slightly differently she loses the flow. She needs to practice a bit more and she will do fine!
cocaine is like winning the lottery then losing the ticket
wow
First tried when I was 16 just for partying I often find myself only being able to stay away from it for week and a half max now at 25. 😢I only seek help, like this video, when I’m high on the drug.
Keep fighting Jacob
All I can see on the comments is 20/21 year olds commenting saying “this helped me so much” but the people that really need this is people that’s been hooked from 18,19 to 30/40 because it fuels confidence
If the 20/21 years don’t get the help now, they’ll be just like you, 30/40 years old and still addicted. Though it’s never too late for help with the older people.
Just Remember "EVERYONE IN THIS COMMENT SECTION IS LOVED BY SOMEONE!" Your still here brothers and sisters im not telling you to seek a higher power but you here means a light above is still shining looking out for ya! I'm glad you all exist show the world who you are!
God damn the come down man lol.
Exactly the comedown off cocaine is a fuckn nightmare it's the main reason I'm driving away
@@Rascon5 I dont have hard comedown from coke... maybe you have low quality coke?
@@pregabalinman in combination with alcohol and regret and dehydration, not eating... c'mon man...
@@Rin-id2sd exactly ! Lol he’s talking about low quality coke but says he gets no comedown 😂 what do u take 1 line and put it away ? Orr
@@pregabalinman I think the comedown is stronger if its good shit also, smoke a shit ton of weed after your done with the coke it helps
I been battling cocaine and alcohol for years
I been sober for this long I'm happier and mind is clearer I wish I never tried yayo in the first place
Anyone who is thinking about trying DONT DONT PLEASE
How did you stop?
take care
I wasted so much money on that shit for a quick high, I was addicted to vodka and that led to a cocaine addiction. I’ve been clean and sober for 6 months now and life couldn’t be better. This guy hit the nail on the head, I could continue to drink and not pass out after doing a few lines but I wrecked friendships and my relationship with my family. I’m grateful that I’m doing well now, for AA, for my sponsor and I have restored my relationship with my family and friends!
Smart dude.
Very nice guy well dome alcholoc myself since 13 keep up good work
❤ I'm grateful for his story... I don't mean to pick on him... This happened to me too.❤ I'm sorry 😔🙏
I really need a meeting soon i cant lose everything i have left
I'm trying to quit myself it's hard I want to go some kind of rehab but I'm scared I don't want to admit it to my family
I did bro. And honestly best decision of my life. I was a hardcore addict for 2 years. Getting clean has been the best decision of my life. If you need motivation just look up how coke can fuck up your nose bro🖤 all love and hopefully you get clean. Believe me your family will be hurt at first but after time they’ll understand.
Do it privately and just don't tell em if they need to know tell em your go8ng on a 2 week vacation with friends to somewhere in a cabin and you ll come back healthier look8ng and and feeling and they won't find out a thing unless you want to be honest with them and let one of them in on your dirty little secret and have help and support from one of them to at least have them help you out with a ride get to and from detox. Trust me your parents will appreciate the truth better and would love to help you help your self because they love you
They probably already know.
Did you make it to rehab?
Sat in the dark 5am thinking this guy is right (sniffs line) do i have a problem?(sniffs another line)nah im good 😅
I just found this video. Glad i found it. I heavily struggle with cocaine myself. Alcohol plays a big part.
My boyfriend is currently suffering from cocaine addiction on and off 20 yrs and is currently incarcerated and has spent most of his life in prison because of it. Today at age 44 back in prison to feed his addiction. He says he wants help but with him currently waiting Indictment in new york state I don’t kn how to help him???? If anyone knows any services can you please share with me. Thank you
Bless you.
try get him job felons program and if he can attend meetings
@@scoo637 hes now been convicted of multiple bank robberies in Nys. This has been going on since age 11 with him in and out of jail selling fire work for the mafia and now with a cocaine addiction and robbing banks the last 20 years. I don’t know if he is beyond help and I hate to say that just being honest here. With his good time credit he has 2 years behind him and now is age 45. Another county is currently pressing charges and now he still has his Parole violation to deal with. He has been to rehab before while in a federal prison. This last time he was out he was released during Covid-19 and at the time the city where we live in Nyc was in lock down on and off for 2 years so his Probation officer new there was no jobs hiring at that time and went soft on him always his mandatory drug testing they really weren’t testing because of covid and he slipped back to drugs once again. I don’t know how or what to do to help him at this point and he says he will never do this again but Im aware behind bars anyone can promise anything
@@MuffinsNyc all you can do arrange another treatment program when go court tell judge that and probation officer or lawyer. better than being locked up😞😞😞
My friend was addicted and stopped. He used something else less harmful for a while, then stopped that and used something even less harmful, then used a mood stabilizer pill HTP5 instead. So he gradually went from using one thing to another until he quit. If he can do it, trust me, anyone can !
I want to quit :/
deep shit respect
What a shame that the question that this articulate man raised - «understanding me » , what was it that needed understanding? - was not dealt with by the interviewer.... who, very ironically, seemed to be interested in results, not causes
He said that he required a higher level of understanding, and this is something you’ll never understand if you weren’t an addict, or at least someone who’s dealing with them for years ...
good man 🙌
He looks alike like sn actor of the film "Breaking Bad Habits" ....
Love this I got the same problem and need help
My son had schizophrenia he could not stop taking cocaine
He was salivating just talking about it
Hah I caught that too approaching the end of the vid. The demon remains and lays dormant, waiting to pounce and make an opportune return. Addiction is so fvcking tragically ruthless. Takes an enormous amount of will power to push through and not only get clean, but STAY clean.
He is eating a candy or something
Lmaooo
Aug 9 2008 I quit until last week and the first time after having quit for so long I spent 750$ on crack the first night and 400 the next. This weekend I fought it off successfully but I have urges again tonight. The paranoia came back immediately before you know it I was locked up in my own bathroom thinking the cops were digging through the walls to get me. I am so better off without it why do I keep thinking about it?
Because it’s more powerful than your will to not use.
chemical imbalances bro, it shouldnt exist but it does. it's too strong for the human brain. im in a similar situation love you man!
that's a lot of money to spend and have nothing to show for it. I do the same thing if I start drinking alcohol I once spent $800 in 1 night hanging out with a girl and buying to share with her. Stupid.
Haven’t done coke in months but now I’m craving it hard. But I know if I do it I will feel like shit. But I still want it. Faak it’s scary and stupid. And I’m a n active alcoholic. Why do I want this stuff so bad? Guess it’s my addition personality
It certainly sounds like you have addictive personality..maybe you need kinda hobby. Or start doing sports to divert your attention elsewhere..good luck to you buddy..
I lost my whole family. Lost all my friends lost all my money because of alchohol and cocaine combination. Im trying to find clarity and its not easy. 😢
Why is the interviewer trying to focus on cocaine ? He said it wasn’t even his main thing
Don’t try the Snow White , I’m only 21 and I feel so low. I’m trying to get it together but my advice is just avoid it overall .
Word👌I’m 22 and shits not good atm
I don't hate the substance, but I do hate how easily it persuades me
Cocaine is one helluva drug
🎯 don’t wish this horrible habit on anyone
I've tried Coke a couple times and it feels good don't get me wrong, but it doesn't really live up to the hype for me and I don't like the anxiety, I can see how people get addicted to it tho. However to me at least it does not even COMPARE to the cravings and the euphoria alcohol provides me. It's not even close. And alcohol is so cheap and easy to come by whereas good clean Coke takes some work to find and it's not nearly gratifying enough to be worth the price.
Agreed, everyone says it’s ‘euphoric’ - I feel a good level on it, but never outright euphoria..?
@@riordanhanan3203 not like acid or molly euphoria that's for sure. That shit feels so good if the trip is going well that you can cream your pants right then and there
For me I was such an alcoholic that I had to do blow to be able to drink longer- 2-3 day binges 3 night shifts in a row lol
@@devinmcwhorter8717 I've done the 3 day binges on night shift, but I never did end up using coke to keep drinking, it has always been concurrent with it
Coke is never clean dude , cocaine contains sulfuric acid gasoline drano and cement in its highest potency . Get addicted and see how it will ruin your brain as a n addict myself 107 days sober i can assure you cocaine will ruin your fucking life if you let it .
Take care people
Good for him...wish I was that strong but I've allowed my coke use to ruin most aspects of my life but still just can't stop despite wanting too...probably did soothe abuse I've done to myself but can only blame myself...hope maybe someone
Can use me as a warning of what not to do with your life.
Gotta stop the triggers: alcohol and friends. Also replace the habits with other habits. Weed edibles are a better alternative.
Keep challenging yourself to switch the habits into slightly healthier alternatives. Or just stay on the level you are comfortable with.
It’s not a “habit”. It’s an addiction. And it is a living hell.
I been doing it almost everyday for the last 2 years … drinking and doing it … I honestly don’t think i can escape anymore…
I used cocaine most of my life. I'm free from it. I pray for those still in the misery of addiction
Today I had a heart attack. I’m 31 and about to enter rehab after telling my family about my problem it felt great to come clean man.
Yea it messed my Heart up as well. I now have sinus arrhythmia. Not fun and I’m only 34
People don’t realise the people who need this video can’t watch 9mins…
What age is he
I look at these videos because I myself is struggling right now
The Problem is partially those who make money from selling Cocaine. These people can ask how much they want and the addicts will meet their requirement because they are so needy. The sellers will ask more and more and the needy people will get it come what may. It is indeed extremely difficult to wean yourself off it. Cynthia Allen-McLaglen.
Penny Jane an be real,, im thinking of going too use now,, what should i do
I’m still a coke addict
My buddy is addicted bad, he lost his girlfriend he can’t keep a job cause he stays up til 6-7 am and sleeps all day, he steals from him mom trades her medicines for coke, I didn’t notice anything was wrong until he wanted to play poker every day instead of once a week, turns out he needed the money to keep up his addiction he has a 11 month year old and CPS is already involved. My life is completely different from this I’ve only done coke once for my 30th birthday and vow to never do it Again I just don’t know how to help my friend. I have a family and have to worry about them first but I feel bad for my friend.
Your friend sounds like me to be honest. With coke addiction comes lying, deceit and hurt to everyone around you. The addiction just takes over and you don’t even realise how bad you are.
Does your friend know he has a problem? If he doesn’t then there would be very little you can do to help him until he realises.
I would recommend to look at your local Cocaine Anonymous. It’s a great first step
To take
Power in Prayer
Doin 8 balls everyday started my senior year in high school when I finally was considered “popular” which feels great at that time but is really meaningless I stopped for 4 years and recently relapsed. I didn’t even really realize why in the beginning of my relapse until recently in these past couple weeks it’s jus so I could just feel nothing. And be comfortable. I’m going to bounce back from it, I didn’t wanna deal and address with myself that I’m jus running away from problems I don’t wanna deal with it. Crazy thing is back when I started I would always buy a ball and want to do it with people I was with. Now just by myself. I gotta take a step back and really realize why. The hardest part is the sudden urges for me honestly. Pretty disappointed in myself aswell that I relapsed. I’m going to have to stop. Or I’m going keep deluding myself thinking it’s fine and that’s the worst position to be in. I will stop.
It’s pretty scary that people are dying from laced uppers
Congratulations....
Alcohol: The real gateway drug.
I'm seeing this right now.
dude is jawin just thinking about it
🙏
If people knew what the dealers cut that sh|t with, then no one would touch the junk!
it's nothing compared to what ifs made with. petrol acid cement etc
I believe a person can’t take the first drink if they are an alcoholic
This is a weird hipótesis so sugar is more addictive than coke so why not try eat sugar when craving idk stupid
Life tests us all we need to defeat our desires stay strong people✅
He's right it stops working makes scared and paranoid
I’ve been abusing drugs & alcohol 20 years. I’m 41 now & I can handle my high.
Good luck with that
Good luck with that, be careful it's a slippery slope...
Im 20 and i only use cocaime evry 3 months. Or when i fhave accomplished something big in life. It all about self controll
till the moment your own body can't handle the apstnencia and crises...
like the Rolling Stones .. more posobilities of OD cause from sudden cutting abused supstance, then continuing it. it's called , depending on your own long use medications.
most likely,you will get fucked up cutting it suddenly then continue usin it with strategy and discipline. understand your self,your body, and your mindset... on the end,your are the master.
or just master of disaster.
roots and purpose are important
@@lixhan3428
Then why use at all?
Drugs are slippery slope.
Dude I looked something different up and clicked on this. And then he's talking about Dane county and shit. Damn.
The crazy thing is that I wasn't looking up anything about Dane county or WI. And I happened to click on this. Shout out WI. AA does work. But not for me. They have a problem with cannabis. And that doesn't work for them. So whatever. I'll become a stoner dry drunk if I have to. No one can tell me I can't smoke a fucking plant. Are you aloud to smoke cigs in AA? Yes I see it. People need to realize that it's a medicine and telling people not to do it is not going to help anything
I hear the train a comin it comes around the bend and I aint seen the sunshine in... i dont know when.... -Jonny Cash
Would love to get in touch with this guy 😂😂
Im a recovering addict
Is the interviewer drunk?
Ima weed addicted I need out :/
AA, CA and NA works... I doubt it has much to do with 'God', but has more to do with the community. We are social beings. Every single addicts has a feeling of being alone or isolated. AA, CA and NA offers a community where you can work with your addiction in a safe and friendly environment. It fosters a hope, that it is in fact possible to get clean.
I gotta start clean my cola..its phenomenal shit but I know 100% there's cut in it...all cola has cut in in unfortunately
Anyone else get a feeling that the awkward interview lady is feeling a little curious to try coke?
prison or jails? wtf?
Basically , as a time goes by, and u start building confor zone in that state of mind started by naive motives which u basicly don't find so joinfull as a first time or second, as particular purpose of usin it, start developing addiction to something what you start hating in deepest part of your heart. when u start realising that , one expensive "sport" is a pure devil and bullshit (current emotional booster) who brings u to unsleepless nights, depression, anxiety, loneliness and feeling being helpless and truly alone ,when all the fun start wanishin... fear talking about it or askin for help and realizing there's no one who u can truly talk to about it or trust, who will not judge u and use it against you more then u do, despising every meeting with a dealer, hating them and actually hating yourself for sending that message again.
when purpose of usin become invisible, when u stop enjoy in it, when u know that one more unsleepless night is coming ,sitting alone ,hating yourself for checking a traces of leftovers ,smokin bunch of cigarettes,drinking beer, being pissed off for not having for a joint,or something for sleeping, knowing that in few hours there's a job waiting u for, or something serious waiting for u,and u feel that feeling and inner question how I gonna do it ,and u search for "temporary good known solution" getting it again and starting the loop knowing that u are going deeper in to machine, and knowing that the same thoughts of self critics'and pain will start over again...(but,I'll deal with it, tomorrow,maybe day after, maybe next morning,hahha)
when u hit that feeling of disappointing yourself with having no answer for finding a way out and admitting u took a dance with a 😈 who's unfortunately already leading a dance, depression and darkness starts consuming you...
I never enjoy in it. maybe first few minutes, afterwards was starting being nervous, and as I was getting more nervous, high as Fuck,with some retard theory was using more in hope will put me back on normal ride, not mentioning that I'm working in a kitchen of a good restaurant as a cheff, doing a shifts of 14 hours per day. those shifts started my loop. almost always doin it alone,in a secret, from purpose keeping up concentration and energy for high level of working hours, till realization that u are chasing your tail, spending money for buying it again so u can work and repeat the same over and over.... cutting a roots, reason why u started, finding preocupation, getting isolated from toxic environment, being ready for couple weeks of craziness, dark thoughts, paranoiac attacks, insomnias, is crucial.
bitting a bullet of true that no one fucked us up as we did it,and no one can helps us out except us by realizing that we give opportunity to the supstance to drive us, is crucial. patience, get away from toxic environment and people, preocupation, another source of dopamin and seratonina, and talk with someone who will not use it against u, more important honest conversation with ourselves.("ass I leaving this comment, selfishly reminding my self on the bettle I fight) we put ourselves in the cage,only we can find a way out.
build another confor zone, remind yourself who you were and who u wanted to be,before u get a wrong street on that foggy night. we don't have better friend or bigger enemy then ourselves. being aware and accepting that on the right way is a biggest step, everything else is excuse of approving a mistake, or searching for excuses...
everything is a chemistry
another natural source of seratonin,preocupation, healthy environment and self-awarnes.
good luck to all fighters. don't give up,and don't forget who u are, and don't stop believing!
Thank you
Thank you so much for this