This is why I feel like Rory Gilmore is the stereotypical millenial girl. We were her, and we believed we had it all figured out. We follow what people in position of authority told us was the path to success, and we thought we were so much smarter than everyone else for doing this. It's so embarassing now.
After I rewatched Gilmore Girls post-“Commie glow-up”, I realized how tilting this show is. How Rory went from Stars Hollow High to Chilton (with golfer insurance money) to freaking Yale of all places, is horrifying. Imagine if Lorelai hadn’t had rich parents. Meritocracy is such a shit myth, how people believe it is beyond me. What really gets me though is the pretentious books. Reading is huge part of the show, esp. with the whole thing with Jess. But if you look up some of the obscure, fancy books they mention, they’re really bad. All sorts of old-fashioned nonsense! Some books are fine or even good, but the education Rory and Paris get is so wack. Yet, because it’s rich and fancy, Yale:tm: degrees are minted for them. Do I really need to talk about the semester off? The one where she stayed in the pool house? Rory’s dream is also so strange. Ignoring what that “bring Asia to you” episode implies, her goal of being a journalist is really just a dream of spending huge amounts of money to go be a tourist everywhere. She talks about wanting meaningful journalism, but she acts like she wants an immersive movie-like experience. As much as I don’t like the reboot, I like that Rory was somewhat humbled. This show is still my favorite along with The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel, and I will continue to binge it, because (a) I love Sookie and Jackson and (b) it’s still the only soapy drama show I can take. Nevertheless, I can’t watch it the same way I did as an innocent high schooler with no knowledge of the world’s modus operandi. I can’t.
For me, Rory was one of the only characters that existed in the 2000s that was super academics-focused and "cool" for doing so. No other character on television spoke to me, it was extremely uncool back then to want to study and learn and have goals, and to want to sacrifice other things for your studies. The closest other relatable role model I had growing up was Hermione, but she was constantly made fun of by Harry and Ron for working hard. For that reason I think Rory was an important character for those of us constantly being made fun of for being "smart". But even back then I could recognize how flawed and privileged she and Lorelai were. The grandparents just covered Rory's entire tuition, why is Lorelai yelling at them in the next episode as if they were terrible people? Why does Rory always act like she did nothing wrong, even while cheating on her bf? I quit watching once she ran away from Yale after one tiny incident, and her grandmother just decided to take her to Europe to feel better. Life doesn't work like that for me and it was pretty upsetting to me that rich people had that option.
i was thinking that too. i started watching it a few months ago and she reminds of my old self. if i watched it when i was younger, i would have loved her. but now that i’m older, it just seems ridiculous.
LOL everyone at my highschool was like this!!! I felt left out for not pushing to get the highest GPA possible but looking back I don’t regret it, it didn’t matter in the long run!
I found you towards the end of high school because I needed that “in a ton of APs/everything you need to know to get into college and be in college” advice, but I could honestly only watch your videos a little bit at a time because it was just too much. Watching your life (when you would vlog in college) was just exhausting sometimes and I would feel like I’d never measure up. It’s so funny how now I absolutely love all your videos and wish there were more…glow up girl
I remember those days as well. It got so overwhelming for me to watch that I wasn't fully on board with her glamorizing the college competition. Loving her new style now.
Oooo what you said about applying for jobs is sooooo true. Everyone is like you have to network and have these fake-relationships with everyone so you can use them to get a job, and if you don’t network you won’t get anywhere! Also, I spend at least an hour writing a cover letter, and another decent chunk of time creating my resume (and rewriting all of its info on your website bc for some reason you can’t just read my resume) and then I don’t even hear anything from the company, or I have a first interview and then get ghosted! Love it.
This is always what I hated too! You upload your resume and then spend an hour and a half navigating a terrible website to input all the data that's in your resume... Ridiculous!
lol the growth is good. I relate to this. I used to be like that until I hit undergrad- then I was like WTF is all this grinding for. The whole concept of hustle culture/academic elitism sucks because a lot of times the personal success comes down to alittle bit of work and a whole lot of connections
I recently found my teen studyblr blog and girl sameeeeeeee I used to write posts like "how to read 100 books per year" spoiler it's not having to work after school + not having to do any chores or look after relatives + having access to the funds to buy all those books
The algorithm has been sending me a lot of commentaries critiquing your "I do not dream of labor" video, it would be really interesting to see you start a dialogue/give honest reacts to those!
Even your voice tone changed, now it's relaxed and reassuring... I was like this.... Until at 17 I hit college and struggled and had average grading, but I love how I've able to raise it without sacrificing my worth and mental health
See, now that I'm in my 30s I found working hard in my high school days to be a rewarding experience. I never worked that hard again ever since, and I am muuuuch lazier than Katherout (who is still working hard now on TH-cam - I admire your work ethic because mine disappeared in my 20s 😂), but for the rest of my life I would know that I was capable of accomplishing that much, and I did. The stuff I learned didn't matter, but the experience was one of the only things in life I did that was entirely focused on myself (as opposed to getting married, having a child, getting promoted at work etc). I would never be in a position again where all I cared about was myself and learning about the world, but at that age it was something I was privileged enough to experience and focus on, if that makes sense? That said, I am a totally different person now too. The popular dude videos on TH-cam on how to be more productive crack me up because, why are they trying to be so damn productive 24/7? Already been there done that, taking my break now and enjoying what I have.
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i only recently started watching your videos over the pandemic so i wasnt around for the eras youre revisiting lol but i love seeing the growth! i also love learning from you because i was that type A overachiever person (and still am) but have been more aware of the tendencies i have and seeing you reflect like this is so insightful and i feel like i can get a head start on knowing what my worth should and should not be based on. and especially i feel like im on the journey with you learning about the world around me and the privilege i have even if i'm not a white woman but grew up in a family that gave me an up. thank you!!!
I grew up in the Silicon Valley also going to one of those rigorous "top 100 high schools in the whole country" so I feel this to my core. I'm 2 years out of college and still actively working through that toxic mentality that was drilled into me from such a young age that my self worth is tied to my academic and career success, and trying to build a life I actually enjoy and fighting the capitalist norms I've been told to follow
I started watching you when I was in eighth grade. I learned so much from you, and you introduced me to USC. I ended up falling in love with the school, and I am now a rising senior there. I honestly owe so much of it to you. I know looking back may be cringe, but as a first generation student you taught me SO much. Thank you for everything
Watching this video reminds me of why I suddenly stopped watching your videos and unsubscribed. I am a few years younger and I remember struggling really hard during freshman year in a damn STEM school w/ biochem major and felt extreemmmeeeely pressured……so i ofc unsubscribed until recently. I am going to graduate this upcoming May and I've been BINGING your videos post grad. I am really glad to see your growth!!
It’s so funny because I used these videos as bible in high school & college because I finally found a youtuber who also tied so much of their self worth to academics. But in the same way this helped feed my own self-worth, your self transformation and my own events of 2020 has me right into anti-capitalist and anti-hustle culture at my core, and I’ve found it so helpful to hear about you and others also detaching the meaning “success” from labor. I can’t wait to continue this journey 🤠 and thank you for being so transparent and sharing this with us
GOD why was this me and my girlies doing THE MOST to get top 3% in our class. I totally remember the interview video with that chunky necklace!!! Also I am so happy for your brow journey 🙏🏼
we love seeing you gaslight gatekeep and girlboss through your girlboss phase!! i've never watched your videos from that era before, but im really glad to see how much you grew as a person.
You remind me of a more confident version of my high school self LOL. I was obsessed with grades but it was because I had no other source of self-esteem. I also had undiagnosed ADHD which made things...interesting and chaotic. I've also gone through a similar change over the years.
I was very similar as a kid, except that I was tested for ADHD on the recommendation of a teacher. The psychologist I talked to said I didn't have ADHD, and that I was a gifted child who was just bored. While it was true that I got good grades and wasn't uniquely distracted or disruptive when compared to my classmates, there's definitely a reason my teachers noticed my disruptive behavior more than that of others. That psychologist's assessment was possibly the most (unintentionally) damaging thing that happened to me as a child, because it allowed my dad to think that I was a "normal" kid, and to continue punishing me for what I now strongly suspect were manifestations of neurodivergence. My parents believed (and so did I to an extent) that because I found most aspects of school easy at the time, any problems I had were solely a result of my conscious choices, which could be changed through negative reinforcement. The consequences of that belief have shaped my life in ways that my parents and I could never have imagined. I still haven't developed appropriate ways of dealing with certain types of conflicts/setbacks, and the possibilities for my future have been progressively been closed off over the years. At this point my only hope for the future is that I can get a stable long-term job that keeps me from being homeless, but even that looks increasingly unlikely. I've worked a disgusting amount of unpaid overtime at all of the jobs I had, but I've come to realize that it only served to move me slightly down the list of people who get laid off whenever staffing budgets get cut. Stability is a pipe dream in this profoundly anti-human economic system.
Oh my god you guys are me. Got diagnosed at age 23, in my final year of Med School. I was told by my own psychiatric teacher (an old man) that I couldn’t be ADHD otherwise I wouldn’t have make it through the college. Ends out I didn’t struggle because I am in some extent gifted so school was easy for me. But all the OTHER things- losing things, sleep disorder, having difficulties learning to drive or lacing my shoes- these were the struggle. And when adulthood came, and the college- that’s when troubles begin. So blessed I never kept it out my head. My life is so easier now with treatment, and I have recovered from the fear of grades. Cheers from Brazil
Hi Katherine! I would like to share my story with you. I’ve been an avid watcher of your videos- your dorm room tour was on REPEAT the summer before I went to college. My grades took a nosedive in sophomore year of high school because I got distracted by a newfound social life. I felt horrible- I felt like my future was ruined and my life was over. It seems so silly now but it really felt like the end of the world. Frankly at this time in my life your videos made me feel bad- I was jealous and angry at people who had strong work ethics. I knew I was smart but just had to apply myself. I worked my butt off in junior and senior year and completely turned my grades around- while maintaining my social life! I made wonderful memories and got accepted to my dream school. I couldn’t believe this change in my life. Your USC videos were inspiring and exciting. In university I went through ups and downs and came into myself to learn how to value all parts of my life, not just academic success. I love your honesty and newfound realizations. You are teaching me that there are many versions of myself that I will grow into. I can’t wait to meet them all in the future. I hope it doesn’t make you feel bad that those early videos made me feel sad or jealous. I have learned so much since, and have learned from you and your journey. I have learned how to pick myself up when things are so low they seem impossible, and I’ve learned that even in the lows, we may learn and appreciate more than we ever thought possible. I don’t usually comment on videos but I hope you’ll see this!
i'm so glad you left this comment because this is the exact type of harm i want to make amends for! it was such a toxic mindset i was peddling and not reaffirming whatsoever. hope this video was a bit of catharsis and healing from that era
University is 100% not all about the grades. Learning is #1 for sure, but as you said, critical thinking etc and actual comprehension of the material So much more important than just being able to regurgitate content. But #2 having life experience, forming new relationships and growing and understanding the world and yourself is also such a big essential part of it.
I remember that video at 14:03 (or potentially another one) rubbing me off so wrong back in the day because one of the things you mentioned was wishing you had talked to your friends' parents more back in high school because they apparently had great jobs and what not, and so you wished you had networked more (which is valid), but yeah as a low-income, first-generation immigrant child my ass could have never! 😩It just spoke to the social + economic capital that you had and I was missing, and it really struck a never with me to the point where every now and then I would think about it and get mad for no real reason (simply because I am a hater). Anyway, glad to have stumbled upon this channel again, and to see how much you have grown!
I'm from the UK and lord knows the hustle culture is creeping in here too, but I was shocked to find out about the concept in the US of sending a thank you email after an interview and if you don't do it, it can harm your chances of getting the job - way to make you feel like a worthless worm by thanking them just for ~condescending to interview you
Thank you for making this content recently. I’ve looked to your videos for advice for years, and while I’m struggling to get away from the “hustle culture” mindset, these recent videos have caused a lot of self reflection.
As someone who subscribed after, and because of, where your class consciousness journey (or whatever we might call it) has taken you, I thoroughly enjoyed having the gasping breathless feeling that this video gave me. Not just my face, but my whole body repeatedly tried to cringe. And before it seems like I’m being mean, there’s a reason that it made me have that reaction. It’s because I know I was every bit as bad, and probably much worse! Solidarity! So thanks for sharing. Very fun, also practically a workout!
So I was the same way in high school/most of college. Then my perfectionism/type A crept back in during grad school. Your videos made me feel like someone understood me. So although now we can recognize the errors in our thinking back then, you helped me through some really hard times in my life. It’s all relative ❤️
i've become seriously obsessed with your channel since I found it a couple weeks back, and omg, we love to see this growth! as a recovering over-achiever, I can relate to a lot of it. unfortunately what I can't relate to is how much of a glow-up you've had since high school! lmao I feel like I look the same and I'm insecure about it but it was fun seeing your different eras of style along the way too, haha. anyway - great video!
This makes me glad I never uploaded my cringey overachieving smug ass self to the internet when I was growing up. My soul would exit my body if I could witness my younger self like that 😂😭
So, I think merit scholarships are messed up, I really do. But for some perspective for some of the commentors here, I want to offer this: I am disabled, grew up in poverty, and knew the only way I would be financially independent someday was to go to college and to do that I needed most of it covered by scholarships, and to do *that* I needed top grades. I had a rough time in high school because of my mental health and not having access to the treatment I needed and putting all my energy into school didn't help. But you can't play the disability card into a scholarship, it doesn't work like that. You can't play the first gen card or the poverty card either. I worked my ass off, I had about 80% of my college tuition covered, and now 6 years later I'm graduating with my MPH in epidemiology and biostatistics. Grades are not the most important thing, no. But when you have so many things working against you because you're in the US and that's just how it is, grades can help so much. We need undergraduate and graduate programs to be paid for by taxes. We need to expand affirmative action. We need public schools to be funded by federal rather than local taxes. We need to expand SSI and we need socialized healthcare so disabled people who can't spend a million years in school to make themselves competitive candidates can still have lives and not be in poverty. But until that happens, grades are not nothing for everyone.
I feel like you’re exactly who they’re talking about when they say college makes people more liberal. And I like it ♥️ These are the kinds of stories and lessons high school students need to hear when planning or heading off to college honestly. We’ve all been brainwashed in different ways through our schooling, whatever route and locality it took place in
It can be healthy to examine your past as a part of introspection, so long as you do so knowing to forgive your younger self for being wrong or uninformed-evolving from that initial naivete is actually gaining wisdom-and have a sense of humor. I've discovered chuckling cures cringe. 😃 Great video. Thanks for sharing. 👍🏼
ooh as someone who has been watching your videos since middle school (!!) this video hit me so hard. I specifically remember the 8 ways to motivate yourself video, like watching it and taking notes and then being like "why can't I implement this?" and it's because I'm mentally ill lmao anyways love seeing you grow & remembering how much I've grown too!
DUDEEE i had to cut out so much from this vid and part of it was a reflection on how ableist a lot of this advice was?? i couldn't even conceptualize being a student while mentally ill and what that would mean for your worldview
Omg I was the same way! I was later diagnosed with OCD in college and that’s why I procrastinated so much on school work! Because I wanted it to be perfect. And I just felt like it wouldn’t be.
This video gives me hope for humanity. If I had seen your girlboss vids alone I would've just thought "probably another ableist asshole" (i have disabilities) but it's comforting to see how much you've grown.
Great video. I was all consumed with my grades only to be 25 and burnt-out. like wtf did I care so much… didnt even really reward me with anything but exhaustion
omg i started following you when i started college 6 years ago and you really did help me a lot! with that said, oh my god?!! the character development was much needed for both of us 😂
OH MY GOD!! I was just thinking to myself, “what’s katherout doing these days”. I think I watched you during your freshman year, and I commend you on the growth!! ❤️
i started watching your videos around the time you first entered college and i love that you can laugh at yourself and also explain why what you were saying was a problem. not that i didn't enjoy your videos back then but i feel like your videos now are just more fun and entertaining to watch and its just nice to see your growth from then to now.
I used to watch your videos to prepare for college all the time but I haven’t watch your videos for years now and I was just recommended one of your new videos and girl; i just want to say, i am so proud of you for coming into yourself and really figuring out who you are. you seem so much happier and authentic in this video than any of the others we all used to watch. i know a lot of that has to do with growing up, but i’m glad you realized soon after joining corporate america that something was up.
Wow, the highschool you would have hated me. I think I was the complete opposite. Drop out. Learn on my own. Don't get any degree. Just learn for the sake of my own fulfillment. Then I realize that I did things the worst way possible. Lots of work with absolutely nothing to show for it. And yet, I ended up in a similar place. I remember talking about how a 40 hour work week is made to keep people poor. It was so twisted in a completely different manner. Kudos to you for the reflection. I can't imagine putting this together for a lot of my most cringey thoughts.
I think this is my favorite video you have ever made. I live for all of your videos lately but this is top notch. Unearthing content I’ve never even seen before!
Omg this was so good😫, and that video where your reaction was like “i was so close but so far away from getting it” reminds me of those memes of like tweets/comments from super conservatives saying something thats like almost/basically a radical sentiment but of course applying it in a twisted way but like...almost there
This was hilarious. I used to have a hyped up intellectual ego, I think partly due to some insecurity. But that insecurity made me prime bait for an abusive relationship, which absolutely fried my ego. I have been doing super deep work ever since, and things are beginning to blossom again. I am glad I learned my lesson about how dumb I must have appeared. A super smart intellectual who was totally out of touch with my deep self and street smarts, or intuitions (which will most definitely keep you alive more than your brains will). 💗🧬💎🧬💗
This kind of video takes a lot of courage and I respect the hell out of the labor you put into doing this. It's going to be wildly helpful for a lot of people, so, thank you
I watched your other videos and I'm very encouraged to see how much you have grown in compassion and sympathy for those less fortunate. Please don't shame yourself too much. We have all said and done stupid stuff. Give yourself grace. Maybe when you watch this again when your 40, you will have a whole different perspective lol.
I'm LOST at shower time *crying face* - you've changed so much! I'm here for critical thinker crunchy granola deconstructing commie Katherout. Your newer content is a vibe
omg cannot wait to watch this video--I have been subscribed to you for so long and hadn't clicked on a video in a while until your recent stuff talking about your leftist transformation and I finally feel like I relate to you again YES
Oh wow. . . This video was just recommended to me. I used to watch all your videos back in the day 😂 I’ve since graduated college and am so happy to be free of grades.
Finishing up the video, but I just wanted to say that despite being very hyper focused in school, it seems the hard work still paid off! You already know this, but be kind to yourself. (: Sort of in that position at 22 years old, still have a long way to go and grow.
My favorite part about watching this video is the flashbacks from when I first saw those videos! A bitch was 13 and idolizing hustle culture lol. Glad we've both made progress and finally learned how to relax!!
Love your recent more enlightened content, glad I did not follow you in your early years, and grateful for your vulnerable recounting and honest dialogue
Has anyone ever told you that you look like Kate Winslet? Because I think you do! I had an association from the first second but I couldn't figure it out. Now it came to my mind which was very satisfying (even more satisfying that your names are quite similar). That being said, thanks for that interesting video! :) It kind of showed me that it's possible to cringe over your younger self and - at the same time - have compassion for it instead of judging it because back then, you didn't have the life lessons you have now.
I might have only discovered you last month, but we have gone on similar journeys... though my realization started in HS, and really hit me in my second semester of college, because my mental health has always been a disaster 😂
Top & bottom students all have equal income before age 30. After age 40 though, the difference in livelihood does materialize. Suddenly all your bottom classmates are still renting & still working short gigs in seed startups with no benefits while the top classmates own houses, have long term jobs in big companies with huge benefits & are financially independent. All the stuff which doesn't seem to matter eventually catches up over the next 20 years, like the compounding interest on Katherout's 401k match which the bottom students never even heard of.
I must say I was like you when I was younger too!! I see so much of my past self in your past self, and so much of my current self in yourself right now. I started watching your videos when I was about to start uni and I was the same, hustlin' for a high GPA and a spot in a highly sought after grad program. Now I'm rethinking my whole life lol - instead of wanting to rise up the ranks of corporate life, I just want a good job that gives me the money and flexibility to pursue my other passions and interests outside of work, a good team and interesting enough work. It's really nice to see someone on TH-cam go on the same journey as me :)
What jumps out is how much your voice has changed since 2 years ago. It’s like your voice is the outward sign of what’s happened to you internally…interesting and yep I remember the 50K video and being like “lol I bet her folks weren’t factory workers born into gigantic catholic families and forced into the workforce as teens to support siblings” baby is so sheltered. Love seeing how you’ve grown and become much more empathetic and clued into the world at large.
I never worked hard for my grades, but i did put a lot of self worth into said grades. When i got to college and started taking harder classes, i adopted the mindset of c is good enough
Your ability to be critical or your past self while still being loving towards your past self is…. kind of f’n amazing.
🥺🥺🥺 have to honor who you were on the path to becoming who you are!
This is why I feel like Rory Gilmore is the stereotypical millenial girl. We were her, and we believed we had it all figured out. We follow what people in position of authority told us was the path to success, and we thought we were so much smarter than everyone else for doing this. It's so embarassing now.
I relate a lot to Rory which is kind of embarrassing since she is famous now for being kind of awful lmao
now this is a take...
After I rewatched Gilmore Girls post-“Commie glow-up”, I realized how tilting this show is. How Rory went from Stars Hollow High to Chilton (with golfer insurance money) to freaking Yale of all places, is horrifying. Imagine if Lorelai hadn’t had rich parents. Meritocracy is such a shit myth, how people believe it is beyond me.
What really gets me though is the pretentious books. Reading is huge part of the show, esp. with the whole thing with Jess. But if you look up some of the obscure, fancy books they mention, they’re really bad. All sorts of old-fashioned nonsense! Some books are fine or even good, but the education Rory and Paris get is so wack. Yet, because it’s rich and fancy, Yale:tm: degrees are minted for them.
Do I really need to talk about the semester off? The one where she stayed in the pool house?
Rory’s dream is also so strange. Ignoring what that “bring Asia to you” episode implies, her goal of being a journalist is really just a dream of spending huge amounts of money to go be a tourist everywhere. She talks about wanting meaningful journalism, but she acts like she wants an immersive movie-like experience. As much as I don’t like the reboot, I like that Rory was somewhat humbled.
This show is still my favorite along with The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel, and I will continue to binge it, because (a) I love Sookie and Jackson and (b) it’s still the only soapy drama show I can take. Nevertheless, I can’t watch it the same way I did as an innocent high schooler with no knowledge of the world’s modus operandi. I can’t.
For me, Rory was one of the only characters that existed in the 2000s that was super academics-focused and "cool" for doing so. No other character on television spoke to me, it was extremely uncool back then to want to study and learn and have goals, and to want to sacrifice other things for your studies. The closest other relatable role model I had growing up was Hermione, but she was constantly made fun of by Harry and Ron for working hard. For that reason I think Rory was an important character for those of us constantly being made fun of for being "smart".
But even back then I could recognize how flawed and privileged she and Lorelai were. The grandparents just covered Rory's entire tuition, why is Lorelai yelling at them in the next episode as if they were terrible people? Why does Rory always act like she did nothing wrong, even while cheating on her bf? I quit watching once she ran away from Yale after one tiny incident, and her grandmother just decided to take her to Europe to feel better. Life doesn't work like that for me and it was pretty upsetting to me that rich people had that option.
i was thinking that too. i started watching it a few months ago and she reminds of my old self. if i watched it when i was younger, i would have loved her. but now that i’m older, it just seems ridiculous.
I’m glad you finally realized what a joke hustle culture is, growth is always admirable
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LOL everyone at my highschool was like this!!! I felt left out for not pushing to get the highest GPA possible but looking back I don’t regret it, it didn’t matter in the long run!
thank god one of us was sane
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IM SCREAMING AT THE FIRST MINUTE OF YOUNG KATHERINE.
I guess I'll tell you what GPA I had
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I found you towards the end of high school because I needed that “in a ton of APs/everything you need to know to get into college and be in college” advice, but I could honestly only watch your videos a little bit at a time because it was just too much. Watching your life (when you would vlog in college) was just exhausting sometimes and I would feel like I’d never measure up. It’s so funny how now I absolutely love all your videos and wish there were more…glow up girl
Omg I felt the same! I totally resonate more with her videos now
I remember those days as well. It got so overwhelming for me to watch that I wasn't fully on board with her glamorizing the college competition. Loving her new style now.
Same! I came across her channel again recently and I’m loving her new style. It’s so much more grounded in reality and relatable. 💖
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Comments from T Ferg are always a slam dunk indicator that the channel is good 💕
Oooo what you said about applying for jobs is sooooo true. Everyone is like you have to network and have these fake-relationships with everyone so you can use them to get a job, and if you don’t network you won’t get anywhere! Also, I spend at least an hour writing a cover letter, and another decent chunk of time creating my resume (and rewriting all of its info on your website bc for some reason you can’t just read my resume) and then I don’t even hear anything from the company, or I have a first interview and then get ghosted! Love it.
This is always what I hated too! You upload your resume and then spend an hour and a half navigating a terrible website to input all the data that's in your resume... Ridiculous!
Woah. That must be really trippy to see a video from 2 years ago and see just how different you are. 2 years I would consider extremely recent.
it feels that way 2 me!!!
lol the growth is good.
I relate to this. I used to be like that until I hit undergrad- then I was like WTF is all this grinding for. The whole concept of hustle culture/academic elitism sucks because a lot of times the personal success comes down to alittle bit of work and a whole lot of connections
abbbsolutely
And personal projects, and trying and failing, and finding a field that needs you, and risking it all. All things not taught in classes.
unfortunately yes
I recently found my teen studyblr blog and girl sameeeeeeee
I used to write posts like "how to read 100 books per year" spoiler it's not having to work after school + not having to do any chores or look after relatives + having access to the funds to buy all those books
STUDYBLRRR i literally cut out a 3-minute rant on that from the video it was so dark
The algorithm has been sending me a lot of commentaries critiquing your "I do not dream of labor" video, it would be really interesting to see you start a dialogue/give honest reacts to those!
same here!!
'"a B is what it took me to want to abolish grades, basically" god i relate so hard there
HAHAHAHHA painfully true...
Even your voice tone changed, now it's relaxed and reassuring... I was like this.... Until at 17 I hit college and struggled and had average grading, but I love how I've able to raise it without sacrificing my worth and mental health
I’m cackling. Your growth is so admirable though ❤️❤️
that was the whole intention of the video so glad the clownery came through!!
✨companies you love and cool CEO's✨ is a sentence i never expected to hear but here we are. Hustle culture is so horrible honestly
I watched your channel in HS and was just like this💀 This was very humbling lmao
i'm so sorry for the brain rot you endured...
See, now that I'm in my 30s I found working hard in my high school days to be a rewarding experience. I never worked that hard again ever since, and I am muuuuch lazier than Katherout (who is still working hard now on TH-cam - I admire your work ethic because mine disappeared in my 20s 😂), but for the rest of my life I would know that I was capable of accomplishing that much, and I did.
The stuff I learned didn't matter, but the experience was one of the only things in life I did that was entirely focused on myself (as opposed to getting married, having a child, getting promoted at work etc). I would never be in a position again where all I cared about was myself and learning about the world, but at that age it was something I was privileged enough to experience and focus on, if that makes sense?
That said, I am a totally different person now too. The popular dude videos on TH-cam on how to be more productive crack me up because, why are they trying to be so damn productive 24/7? Already been there done that, taking my break now and enjoying what I have.
A round of applause to those of us who finally regrew their eyebrows over the pandemic from damage that was done almost a decade ago
Don't judge the awkward patches. I just discovered how to regrow eyebrow hair that stopped growing, two months ago.
siri play damaged by danity kane
@@Lily-ni5po share your secrets? I still have several eyebrow hairs that I haven’t seen since 9th grade
@@helloalexandraa Of course, 3 drops each of rosemary and lavender essential oils mixed with a table spoon of castor oil. I cover my eyebrows with this mixture every night and spend 2 minutes massaging it in. It brought back some hair that had disappeared. The growth isn't perfectly equal though with some chunk growing back with a few holes. It also helped with my lashes, but it is important to be careful not to get any in your eyes if you try this. My lashes are getting much longer than they've ever been which is usually pretty short. I also put some aloes on during days where I don't go out, but that's mostly to moisturize them which cannot hurt. I just started taking biotin too since I noticed that my hair has been growing faster since I started doing occasional egg washes during the pandemic. But I don't know if that will help with my eyebrows. I am hoping it will. Sorry for the long answer. This is everything I've been experimenting with in the last few months. Hope this can help.
one of the best advice I ever received: if it's not going to matter in 5 years, then dont sweat about it
i only recently started watching your videos over the pandemic so i wasnt around for the eras youre revisiting lol but i love seeing the growth! i also love learning from you because i was that type A overachiever person (and still am) but have been more aware of the tendencies i have and seeing you reflect like this is so insightful and i feel like i can get a head start on knowing what my worth should and should not be based on. and especially i feel like im on the journey with you learning about the world around me and the privilege i have even if i'm not a white woman but grew up in a family that gave me an up. thank you!!!
next video is all about worth i'm so excited for you to see it!!
I grew up in the Silicon Valley also going to one of those rigorous "top 100 high schools in the whole country" so I feel this to my core. I'm 2 years out of college and still actively working through that toxic mentality that was drilled into me from such a young age that my self worth is tied to my academic and career success, and trying to build a life I actually enjoy and fighting the capitalist norms I've been told to follow
I started watching you when I was in eighth grade. I learned so much from you, and you introduced me to USC. I ended up falling in love with the school, and I am now a rising senior there. I honestly owe so much of it to you. I know looking back may be cringe, but as a first generation student you taught me SO much. Thank you for everything
In case anyone is curious, I made a response video to Olivia Jade and the college admissions scandal lol
Watching this video reminds me of why I suddenly stopped watching your videos and unsubscribed. I am a few years younger and I remember struggling really hard during freshman year in a damn STEM school w/ biochem major and felt extreemmmeeeely pressured……so i ofc unsubscribed until recently. I am going to graduate this upcoming May and I've been BINGING your videos post grad. I am really glad to see your growth!!
It’s so funny because I used these videos as bible in high school & college because I finally found a youtuber who also tied so much of their self worth to academics. But in the same way this helped feed my own self-worth, your self transformation and my own events of 2020 has me right into anti-capitalist and anti-hustle culture at my core, and I’ve found it so helpful to hear about you and others also detaching the meaning “success” from labor. I can’t wait to continue this journey 🤠 and thank you for being so transparent and sharing this with us
GOD why was this me and my girlies doing THE MOST to get top 3% in our class. I totally remember the interview video with that chunky necklace!!! Also I am so happy for your brow journey 🙏🏼
NOT THE YOUNG REPUBLICAN CHUNKY NECKLACEEEE
THIS WAS HILLARIOUS LMFAOOOO. totally relatable in some parts tho lol.
unfortunately relatable content... 😅😅
we love seeing you gaslight gatekeep and girlboss through your girlboss phase!!
i've never watched your videos from that era before, but im really glad to see how much you grew as a person.
you missed a MOMENT from me hahaha
You remind me of a more confident version of my high school self LOL. I was obsessed with grades but it was because I had no other source of self-esteem. I also had undiagnosed ADHD which made things...interesting and chaotic. I've also gone through a similar change over the years.
I was very similar as a kid, except that I was tested for ADHD on the recommendation of a teacher. The psychologist I talked to said I didn't have ADHD, and that I was a gifted child who was just bored.
While it was true that I got good grades and wasn't uniquely distracted or disruptive when compared to my classmates, there's definitely a reason my teachers noticed my disruptive behavior more than that of others. That psychologist's assessment was possibly the most (unintentionally) damaging thing that happened to me as a child, because it allowed my dad to think that I was a "normal" kid, and to continue punishing me for what I now strongly suspect were manifestations of neurodivergence. My parents believed (and so did I to an extent) that because I found most aspects of school easy at the time, any problems I had were solely a result of my conscious choices, which could be changed through negative reinforcement.
The consequences of that belief have shaped my life in ways that my parents and I could never have imagined. I still haven't developed appropriate ways of dealing with certain types of conflicts/setbacks, and the possibilities for my future have been progressively been closed off over the years. At this point my only hope for the future is that I can get a stable long-term job that keeps me from being homeless, but even that looks increasingly unlikely. I've worked a disgusting amount of unpaid overtime at all of the jobs I had, but I've come to realize that it only served to move me slightly down the list of people who get laid off whenever staffing budgets get cut. Stability is a pipe dream in this profoundly anti-human economic system.
no other source of self-esteem !!!!! so true
@@tuuudes3449 this is the exact same position I'm in. My life to a T.
Oh my god you guys are me. Got diagnosed at age 23, in my final year of Med School. I was told by my own psychiatric teacher (an old man) that I couldn’t be ADHD otherwise I wouldn’t have make it through the college. Ends out I didn’t struggle because I am in some extent gifted so school was easy for me. But all the OTHER things- losing things, sleep disorder, having difficulties learning to drive or lacing my shoes- these were the struggle. And when adulthood came, and the college- that’s when troubles begin. So blessed I never kept it out my head. My life is so easier now with treatment, and I have recovered from the fear of grades. Cheers from Brazil
I appreciate seeing you now. I wouldn't have watched the younger version of you.
i think about how many ppl wouldn't be in my life if they'd met my younger self all the time!
Not the thumbnail w/ the 4.0 GPA. 😂 That was me for sure!!! Recovering perfectionists unite!
recovering perfectionists group therapy... let's get it goin
@@Katherout I highly recommend RO-DBT therapy. (Radically open dialectal behavioral therapy.) Def does not cure it but helps conceptual it a TON!
Been following you since HS as well and was an ✨inspired girl boss✨. Glad to see we both had some character growth 😅
INSPIRED GIRL BOSS NOOOOOOO glad you're on the path to hustle culture sobriety :'))
Hi Katherine! I would like to share my story with you. I’ve been an avid watcher of your videos- your dorm room tour was on REPEAT the summer before I went to college. My grades took a nosedive in sophomore year of high school because I got distracted by a newfound social life. I felt horrible- I felt like my future was ruined and my life was over. It seems so silly now but it really felt like the end of the world. Frankly at this time in my life your videos made me feel bad- I was jealous and angry at people who had strong work ethics. I knew I was smart but just had to apply myself. I worked my butt off in junior and senior year and completely turned my grades around- while maintaining my social life! I made wonderful memories and got accepted to my dream school. I couldn’t believe this change in my life. Your USC videos were inspiring and exciting. In university I went through ups and downs and came into myself to learn how to value all parts of my life, not just academic success. I love your honesty and newfound realizations. You are teaching me that there are many versions of myself that I will grow into. I can’t wait to meet them all in the future. I hope it doesn’t make you feel bad that those early videos made me feel sad or jealous. I have learned so much since, and have learned from you and your journey. I have learned how to pick myself up when things are so low they seem impossible, and I’ve learned that even in the lows, we may learn and appreciate more than we ever thought possible. I don’t usually comment on videos but I hope you’ll see this!
i'm so glad you left this comment because this is the exact type of harm i want to make amends for! it was such a toxic mindset i was peddling and not reaffirming whatsoever. hope this video was a bit of catharsis and healing from that era
Love the introspection. Also love the snake plant in the background 🥸
she is growin and goin STRONG!
University is 100% not all about the grades. Learning is #1 for sure, but as you said, critical thinking etc and actual comprehension of the material So much more important than just being able to regurgitate content. But #2 having life experience, forming new relationships and growing and understanding the world and yourself is also such a big essential part of it.
I remember that video at 14:03 (or potentially another one) rubbing me off so wrong back in the day because one of the things you mentioned was wishing you had talked to your friends' parents more back in high school because they apparently had great jobs and what not, and so you wished you had networked more (which is valid), but yeah as a low-income, first-generation immigrant child my ass could have never! 😩It just spoke to the social + economic capital that you had and I was missing, and it really struck a never with me to the point where every now and then I would think about it and get mad for no real reason (simply because I am a hater).
Anyway, glad to have stumbled upon this channel again, and to see how much you have grown!
I'm from the UK and lord knows the hustle culture is creeping in here too, but I was shocked to find out about the concept in the US of sending a thank you email after an interview and if you don't do it, it can harm your chances of getting the job - way to make you feel like a worthless worm by thanking them just for ~condescending to interview you
I love that I feel like I’ve grown up w you and your channel
big hug to u for stickin around xx
Thank you for making this content recently. I’ve looked to your videos for advice for years, and while I’m struggling to get away from the “hustle culture” mindset, these recent videos have caused a lot of self reflection.
lotssss of self-reflection on my channel as we all process these things!!
the editing on this video was fucking sending me and then the RUPI KAUR POEM launched me to mars
I really admire the self reflection in this video! It’s not easy or comfortable but really productive.
As someone who subscribed after, and because of, where your class consciousness journey (or whatever we might call it) has taken you, I thoroughly enjoyed having the gasping breathless feeling that this video gave me. Not just my face, but my whole body repeatedly tried to cringe.
And before it seems like I’m being mean, there’s a reason that it made me have that reaction. It’s because I know I was every bit as bad, and probably much worse! Solidarity!
So thanks for sharing. Very fun, also practically a workout!
So I was the same way in high school/most of college. Then my perfectionism/type A crept back in during grad school. Your videos made me feel like someone understood me. So although now we can recognize the errors in our thinking back then, you helped me through some really hard times in my life. It’s all relative ❤️
totally 💛
i've become seriously obsessed with your channel since I found it a couple weeks back, and omg, we love to see this growth! as a recovering over-achiever, I can relate to a lot of it. unfortunately what I can't relate to is how much of a glow-up you've had since high school! lmao I feel like I look the same and I'm insecure about it but it was fun seeing your different eras of style along the way too, haha. anyway - great video!
This makes me glad I never uploaded my cringey overachieving smug ass self to the internet when I was growing up. My soul would exit my body if I could witness my younger self like that 😂😭
my soul exited my body several times while filming this
So, I think merit scholarships are messed up, I really do. But for some perspective for some of the commentors here, I want to offer this:
I am disabled, grew up in poverty, and knew the only way I would be financially independent someday was to go to college and to do that I needed most of it covered by scholarships, and to do *that* I needed top grades. I had a rough time in high school because of my mental health and not having access to the treatment I needed and putting all my energy into school didn't help. But you can't play the disability card into a scholarship, it doesn't work like that. You can't play the first gen card or the poverty card either. I worked my ass off, I had about 80% of my college tuition covered, and now 6 years later I'm graduating with my MPH in epidemiology and biostatistics.
Grades are not the most important thing, no. But when you have so many things working against you because you're in the US and that's just how it is, grades can help so much.
We need undergraduate and graduate programs to be paid for by taxes. We need to expand affirmative action. We need public schools to be funded by federal rather than local taxes. We need to expand SSI and we need socialized healthcare so disabled people who can't spend a million years in school to make themselves competitive candidates can still have lives and not be in poverty. But until that happens, grades are not nothing for everyone.
Agreed!
I feel like you’re exactly who they’re talking about when they say college makes people more liberal. And I like it ♥️
These are the kinds of stories and lessons high school students need to hear when planning or heading off to college honestly. We’ve all been brainwashed in different ways through our schooling, whatever route and locality it took place in
Your self awareness is amazing.
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It can be healthy to examine your past as a part of introspection, so long as you do so knowing to forgive your younger self for being wrong or uninformed-evolving from that initial naivete is actually gaining wisdom-and have a sense of humor.
I've discovered chuckling cures cringe. 😃
Great video. Thanks for sharing. 👍🏼
tbh i followed you all those years ago because of those videos and...it's so nice we've all grown up and grown out of that
ooh as someone who has been watching your videos since middle school (!!) this video hit me so hard. I specifically remember the 8 ways to motivate yourself video, like watching it and taking notes and then being like "why can't I implement this?" and it's because I'm mentally ill lmao anyways love seeing you grow & remembering how much I've grown too!
YES I DID THE SAME THING! Then I found out I had ADHD years later and that's why I couldnt do it lol
DUDEEE i had to cut out so much from this vid and part of it was a reflection on how ableist a lot of this advice was?? i couldn't even conceptualize being a student while mentally ill and what that would mean for your worldview
Omg I was the same way! I was later diagnosed with OCD in college and that’s why I procrastinated so much on school work! Because I wanted it to be perfect. And I just felt like it wouldn’t be.
This video gives me hope for humanity. If I had seen your girlboss vids alone I would've just thought "probably another ableist asshole" (i have disabilities) but it's comforting to see how much you've grown.
Great video. I was all consumed with my grades only to be 25 and burnt-out. like wtf did I care so much… didnt even really reward me with anything but exhaustion
omg i started following you when i started college 6 years ago and you really did help me a lot! with that said, oh my god?!! the character development was much needed for both of us 😂
Great video! I think it’s so cool for people who have TH-cam channels, to be able to go back and reflect. Glad we can see positive growth from you ☺️
OH MY GOD!! I was just thinking to myself, “what’s katherout doing these days”. I think I watched you during your freshman year, and I commend you on the growth!! ❤️
i started watching your videos around the time you first entered college and i love that you can laugh at yourself and also explain why what you were saying was a problem. not that i didn't enjoy your videos back then but i feel like your videos now are just more fun and entertaining to watch and its just nice to see your growth from then to now.
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I used to watch your videos to prepare for college all the time but I haven’t watch your videos for years now and I was just recommended one of your new videos and girl; i just want to say, i am so proud of you for coming into yourself and really figuring out who you are. you seem so much happier and authentic in this video than any of the others we all used to watch. i know a lot of that has to do with growing up, but i’m glad you realized soon after joining corporate america that something was up.
I love that I've been subscribed to you all this time and I've totally gone through the same journey hahahha
WOO solidarity
Wow, the highschool you would have hated me. I think I was the complete opposite. Drop out. Learn on my own. Don't get any degree. Just learn for the sake of my own fulfillment. Then I realize that I did things the worst way possible. Lots of work with absolutely nothing to show for it.
And yet, I ended up in a similar place. I remember talking about how a 40 hour work week is made to keep people poor. It was so twisted in a completely different manner.
Kudos to you for the reflection. I can't imagine putting this together for a lot of my most cringey thoughts.
“Not a single bitch dared to check my ego” I’m cryinggg
i'm c a c k l i n g because I was this exact person in high school 😶😶😶
it looks like a LOT of us have been there
It's awesome how much you have grown since
omg thank you thank you thank you for acknowledging the $50,000 video, I remember watching that for the first time and crying because I was so sad
it was.... dark
I think this is my favorite video you have ever made. I live for all of your videos lately but this is top notch. Unearthing content I’ve never even seen before!
CAROLINEEE thank you so much i'm so glad you've stuck around for the growth!!!
Omg this was so good😫, and that video where your reaction was like “i was so close but so far away from getting it” reminds me of those memes of like tweets/comments from super conservatives saying something thats like almost/basically a radical sentiment but of course applying it in a twisted way but like...almost there
This was actually so reflective in a way where I saw my own scale of growth through your past videos. Loved so much
omg 🥺🥺🥺 i love this
This was hilarious. I used to have a hyped up intellectual ego, I think partly due to some insecurity. But that insecurity made me prime bait for an abusive relationship, which absolutely fried my ego. I have been doing super deep work ever since, and things are beginning to blossom again. I am glad I learned my lesson about how dumb I must have appeared. A super smart intellectual who was totally out of touch with my deep self and street smarts, or intuitions (which will most definitely keep you alive more than your brains will). 💗🧬💎🧬💗
This kind of video takes a lot of courage and I respect the hell out of the labor you put into doing this. It's going to be wildly helpful for a lot of people, so, thank you
Respect the honesty/reflection!
Love the growth and your openness with your evolution ❤️
❤️❤️❤️
I watched your other videos and I'm very encouraged to see how much you have grown in compassion and sympathy for those less fortunate. Please don't shame yourself too much. We have all said and done stupid stuff. Give yourself grace. Maybe when you watch this again when your 40, you will have a whole different perspective lol.
I'm LOST at shower time *crying face* - you've changed so much! I'm here for critical thinker crunchy granola deconstructing commie Katherout. Your newer content is a vibe
omg cannot wait to watch this video--I have been subscribed to you for so long and hadn't clicked on a video in a while until your recent stuff talking about your leftist transformation and I finally feel like I relate to you again YES
WELCOME BACK glad to have ya in the mix
I'm literally crying I WAS ALSO UNFORTUNATELY LIKE THIS bestie luckily we have outgrown this phase together lmaooo
Me rn as a unpaid intern and college senior w a 4.0 gpa who obsesses over grades: 😂 😭
Oh wow. . . This video was just recommended to me. I used to watch all your videos back in the day 😂 I’ve since graduated college and am so happy to be free of grades.
Finishing up the video, but I just wanted to say that despite being very hyper focused in school, it seems the hard work still paid off! You already know this, but be kind to yourself. (: Sort of in that position at 22 years old, still have a long way to go and grow.
being kind to myself is a biggg focus of this year! so much negative self-talk over the past years
My favorite part about watching this video is the flashbacks from when I first saw those videos! A bitch was 13 and idolizing hustle culture lol. Glad we've both made progress and finally learned how to relax!!
Love your recent more enlightened content, glad I did not follow you in your early years, and grateful for your vulnerable recounting and honest dialogue
damn you’ve come so far. tbh rlly proud of u
i remember when most of these came out and i’m not gonna lie to you girly we were not okay
Interesting to see how much you changed. It took me (way) more time to realize some of the same things. Thanks for sharing!
Dude the growth..It's admirable..Go you!
Has anyone ever told you that you look like Kate Winslet? Because I think you do! I had an association from the first second but I couldn't figure it out. Now it came to my mind which was very satisfying (even more satisfying that your names are quite similar). That being said, thanks for that interesting video! :) It kind of showed me that it's possible to cringe over your younger self and - at the same time - have compassion for it instead of judging it because back then, you didn't have the life lessons you have now.
I might have only discovered you last month, but we have gone on similar journeys... though my realization started in HS, and really hit me in my second semester of college, because my mental health has always been a disaster 😂
Top & bottom students all have equal income before age 30. After age 40 though, the difference in livelihood does materialize. Suddenly all your bottom classmates are still renting & still working short gigs in seed startups with no benefits while the top classmates own houses, have long term jobs in big companies with huge benefits & are financially independent. All the stuff which doesn't seem to matter eventually catches up over the next 20 years, like the compounding interest on Katherout's 401k match which the bottom students never even heard of.
Oh, also I’ve heard about businesses pretending to hire just to get free ideas from the job seekers. It’s sad.
It's really wild how much 2020 changed people (myself included). Truly feels like we all went through internal revolutions.
Great check in! Is good to that in your life from time to time to see your progress
Even your voice is so different! More relaxed
right??
Omg Carmindy!! You just unlocked a memory!!
THANK GOD SOMEONE REMEMBERS
Congrats on the personal growth you went through :D The difference is huge!
Please continue doing looks back if you can, this is so fucking important for people to see
Ngl the growth shown by these videos is 😙👌
Kath please read The Refusal of Work!! It’s so good and talks about how much of our time is spent just trying to BECOME employable :((((
a kelgore rec??? I'M ON IT
I must say I was like you when I was younger too!! I see so much of my past self in your past self, and so much of my current self in yourself right now. I started watching your videos when I was about to start uni and I was the same, hustlin' for a high GPA and a spot in a highly sought after grad program. Now I'm rethinking my whole life lol - instead of wanting to rise up the ranks of corporate life, I just want a good job that gives me the money and flexibility to pursue my other passions and interests outside of work, a good team and interesting enough work. It's really nice to see someone on TH-cam go on the same journey as me :)
LOVE this emma 🥰
What jumps out is how much your voice has changed since 2 years ago. It’s like your voice is the outward sign of what’s happened to you internally…interesting and yep I remember the 50K video and being like “lol I bet her folks weren’t factory workers born into gigantic catholic families and forced into the workforce as teens to support siblings” baby is so sheltered. Love seeing how you’ve grown and become much more empathetic and clued into the world at large.
I never worked hard for my grades, but i did put a lot of self worth into said grades. When i got to college and started taking harder classes, i adopted the mindset of c is good enough
C's get degrees! Lol