As a widower dad, I studied moms intently., to be like them. It is not possible-, it is biological. I love my daughter and would not hesitate to die for her. But I do not have the instant., unjudgmental compassion my wife had. It is really bad when your mother dies.
Myself and Wife has been going through a cycle of pain all these years. I’m almost 10 years her senior. I have yet to reach my mid 30s. And yes, U can imagine how old is she and how young we got married. We have kids. We were separated since 2016. I was a bad Husband at the initial stage because I couldn’t let go of her past. She has terrible past which tormented me even in my dreams during sleep. I would wake up in the middle of the night having nightmares and visions on her with another guy on bed. I love her. And I still do. I just couldn’t accept my love being shared around by so many men. There’s this thing in me because I was also brought up from a insecure family. My family only look towards my elder Brother and youngest Sister. Thus making me even more insecure with her and raking up her past day in and out. Finding faults with her and linked all I can during quarrels that root causes of all issues was due to her past. I was selfish. I was stupid. I was bitter. I couldn’t accept the fact that so many guys has got involved with her before me. It all came to light as our wedding day is near. I still feel I am retarded for even bringing up her past. However. I accepted her still and thought that I could forgive her as time goes but I couldn’t let go at all. Fast forward to years after our marriage, we have our number #? kid. Yeah, I’m a motherfucking sex machine. Back to the topic, we had our #? kid and I find her drifted away from me as time goes. She would moved out on our quarrels. Even very minor stuffs. She went night life just like before we were together. After she moved out, She would go to her mother place but got chased out due to her abnormal unusual late night attics. Then she would rent a place outside alone. 1 kid used to be with her but she eventually let her mum look after while she stay alone. She became a stronger drinker than she used to. A lot of past friends who seriously are a unhealthy bunch of people started to get in touched with her. A lot of new guys of course also try their luck to get her. She Have nights out with friends 3-4 times a week. For a period even started doing night job at clubs. I shall not divulge more. It’s heartbreaking and too emotional talking about this. Right now after 3 years of separation, I’m still seeing my kids alone all these time. Fetching them to school and picking them from school and rushing to work. Cook for them and do their laundries. Shower them and pack their school bags the next day. I’m worn out. Totally shagged out. On many occasions I thought of ending my life. I don’t even have a life. I don’t drink like I used to. I do not have any friends anymore especially devoting 99% of my time to my kids. I have nobody to talk to anymore. I never had family support all my life. Until this very day I’m still struggling. I’m still waiting for her. But today I’ve saw her social media and she’s still enjoying her separated life and knowing so many different new guys. Her photos became more and more skimpily dressed which is totally not the her when we were together. Different guys writing on her wall really often. It’s so obvious they only want that Pussy of hers. I as a husband on paper can only pray to God to open her eyes. I was depressed and I still am. I’ve lost all sense of direction and I’m so tired seeing and looking after my kids alone. I’m hanging on because they are my responsibility. I love them. I might be a jerk who raked up her past but I certainly do not deserved being ignored for 3 years. I’ve pestered her. Sending her letters. Wrote a million apologies via text msg, waited for her for nights when she went night out and she still refused to see me. I’ve also reassure her by spamming her on my plan to change to someone she want. I don’t even care if I became someone unhappy but I just want her back. All those messages went on deaf ears. She don’t even bother to reply. At most times, I cooked for my kids and will automatically packet and send to her neighbours to deliver the food to her without even seeing her. I cried alone at home until I fainted on 2 occasions. I texted her day and night and it seriously became spamming which I know is bad. All I want is to have a complete family and that we would reconcile. I’m the only one trying on the marriage wanting and willing to wait for her to change for the better. Thinking she’s still young probably she wants freedom. I didn’t know she became another person during these years. It’s a nightmare. There’s so much attention she’s seeking from the way she post stuffs on her fb walls. It kinda disgust me when she starts playing the angel card for all her circle of friends to see. I wiII always kid myself she will changed and be back. But it just didn’t happened and will never. I pray hard and cry hard to Lord Jesus as I’m a backslider for god damn how many years am not sure. I pray that one day I can find a partner who can motivate me and be strong. Someone who understands me and show me love. I’m dying for that love. I hope u guys pray for me as I’m going to the lawyers and initiate divorce proceeding. This is the first time in my life I’ve finally make my decision to move on after seeing her social media is still so fucking active with different guys. Nights out still ongoing any day any week.. she has totally changed to someone whom I don’t even dare to look at. It’s so sad. She had lost the Mother side of her. I can swear for my whole family life despite having a dick stand so often, I never once insert my dick onto another Pussy during our separation. For this I’m motherfucking sure to say. The reason is because I value the word respect. I suspect that she might have partners during these years of separation but Whenever I thought about this I will quickly down 2-3 cans of beers one shot repeatedly. I will do this only when my kids are asleep. It’s that painful. I really wished to die so much if it wasn’t for my kids. I’m finally giving up this marriage now. It’s so painful. I’m letting God handle my pain. My sorrows and my disaster. I’m asking Jesus to give me strength and make me a better person. I hope I will not come across anymore stuffs about her because that will pulls me down again and again to the rock bottom. That cycle, gotta stop. What goes around comes around. Most important right now I want to provide a stable shelter for my kids. My life has changed. I no longer need friends. My friends are my children. I love them. I’ve lost touched with the outside world for god damn many years. I am not perfect but I’m still learning to be a better dad. They are my responsibility. And yes. I’m trying to fight depression alone still.
I can understand the hardship of being a single parent, even though the going away for each partner was of different ways, but at least theirs still able to keep a beautiful memory than hatred ❤️❤️❤️❤️
It sad when you lost your wife or husband so young is very sad your children are very young he or she have to make the best of life thank you for sharing your sad story God. Bless you both ,
He's very strong, cooperating with the situation, it's making me heart broken, Hope both of you are doing good.
this is so touching. as a father myself, i respect this man's dedication and strength to raise this child alone.
Hes such a great father. Hes doing a great job.
It's really rare to see single dads getting represented in the media... Good job on taking care of Janice!
Lovely to see a father and daughter pulling through together.
As a widower dad, I studied moms intently., to be like them. It is not possible-, it is biological. I love my daughter and would not hesitate to die for her. But I do not have the instant., unjudgmental compassion my wife had. It is really bad when your mother dies.
Myself and Wife has been going through a cycle of pain all these years. I’m almost 10 years her senior. I have yet to reach my mid 30s. And yes, U can imagine how old is she and how young we got married. We have kids. We were separated since 2016. I was a bad Husband at the initial stage because I couldn’t let go of her past. She has terrible past which tormented me even in my dreams during sleep. I would wake up in the middle of the night having nightmares and visions on her with another guy on bed. I love her. And I still do. I just couldn’t accept my love being shared around by so many men. There’s this thing in me because I was also brought up from a insecure family. My family only look towards my elder Brother and youngest Sister. Thus making me even more insecure with her and raking up her past day in and out. Finding faults with her and linked all I can during quarrels that root causes of all issues was due to her past. I was selfish. I was stupid. I was bitter. I couldn’t accept the fact that so many guys has got involved with her before me. It all came to light as our wedding day is near. I still feel I am retarded for even bringing up her past. However. I accepted her still and thought that I could forgive her as time goes but I couldn’t let go at all. Fast forward to years after our marriage, we have our number #? kid. Yeah, I’m a motherfucking sex machine. Back to the topic, we had our #? kid and I find her drifted away from me as time goes. She would moved out on our quarrels. Even very minor stuffs. She went night life just like before we were together. After she moved out, She would go to her mother place but got chased out due to her abnormal unusual late night attics. Then she would rent a place outside alone. 1 kid used to be with her but she eventually let her mum look after while she stay alone. She became a stronger drinker than she used to. A lot of past friends who seriously are a unhealthy bunch of people started to get in touched with her. A lot of new guys of course also try their luck to get her. She Have nights out with friends 3-4 times a week. For a period even started doing night job at clubs. I shall not divulge more. It’s heartbreaking and too emotional talking about this. Right now after 3 years of separation, I’m still seeing my kids alone all these time. Fetching them to school and picking them from school and rushing to work. Cook for them and do their laundries. Shower them and pack their school bags the next day. I’m worn out. Totally shagged out. On many occasions I thought of ending my life. I don’t even have a life. I don’t drink like I used to. I do not have any friends anymore especially devoting 99% of my time to my kids. I have nobody to talk to anymore. I never had family support all my life. Until this very day I’m still struggling. I’m still waiting for her. But today I’ve saw her social media and she’s still enjoying her separated life and knowing so many different new guys. Her photos became more and more skimpily dressed which is totally not the her when we were together. Different guys writing on her wall really often. It’s so obvious they only want that Pussy of hers. I as a husband on paper can only pray to God to open her eyes. I was depressed and I still am. I’ve lost all sense of direction and I’m so tired seeing and looking after my kids alone. I’m hanging on because they are my responsibility. I love them. I might be a jerk who raked up her past but I certainly do not deserved being ignored for 3 years. I’ve pestered her. Sending her letters. Wrote a million apologies via text msg, waited for her for nights when she went night out and she still refused to see me. I’ve also reassure her by spamming her on my plan to change to someone she want. I don’t even care if I became someone unhappy but I just want her back. All those messages went on deaf ears. She don’t even bother to reply. At most times, I cooked for my kids and will automatically packet and send to her neighbours to deliver the food to her without even seeing her. I cried alone at home until I fainted on 2 occasions. I texted her day and night and it seriously became spamming which I know is bad. All I want is to have a complete family and that we would reconcile. I’m the only one trying on the marriage wanting and willing to wait for her to change for the better. Thinking she’s still young probably she wants freedom. I didn’t know she became another person during these years. It’s a nightmare. There’s so much attention she’s seeking from the way she post stuffs on her fb walls. It kinda disgust me when she starts playing the angel card for all her circle of friends to see. I wiII always kid myself she will changed and be back. But it just didn’t happened and will never. I pray hard and cry hard to Lord Jesus as I’m a backslider for god damn how many years am not sure. I pray that one day I can find a partner who can motivate me and be strong. Someone who understands me and show me love. I’m dying for that love. I hope u guys pray for me as I’m going to the lawyers and initiate divorce proceeding. This is the first time in my life I’ve finally make my decision to move on after seeing her social media is still so fucking active with different guys. Nights out still ongoing any day any week.. she has totally changed to someone whom I don’t even dare to look at. It’s so sad. She had lost the Mother side of her. I can swear for my whole family life despite having a dick stand so often, I never once insert my dick onto another Pussy during our separation. For this I’m motherfucking sure to say. The reason is because I value the word respect. I suspect that she might have partners during these years of separation but Whenever I thought about this I will quickly down 2-3 cans of beers one shot repeatedly. I will do this only when my kids are asleep. It’s that painful. I really wished to die so much if it wasn’t for my kids. I’m finally giving up this marriage now. It’s so painful. I’m letting God handle my pain. My sorrows and my disaster. I’m asking Jesus to give me strength and make me a better person. I hope I will not come across anymore stuffs about her because that will pulls me down again and again to the rock bottom. That cycle, gotta stop. What goes around comes around. Most important right now I want to provide a stable shelter for my kids. My life has changed. I no longer need friends. My friends are my children. I love them. I’ve lost touched with the outside world for god damn many years. I am not perfect but I’m still learning to be a better dad. They are my responsibility. And yes. I’m trying to fight depression alone still.
Such a loving and caring dad. Be strong ya father and daughter
I can understand the hardship of being a single parent, even though the going away for each partner was of different ways, but at least theirs still able to keep a beautiful memory than hatred ❤️❤️❤️❤️
She is my school bff I cannot believe your on cna insider
Such a good natured man...would love to get to know him...
This is so sad but inspiring. What a great family they are, I wish them the very best :)
It sad when you lost your wife or husband so young is very sad your children are very young he or she have to make the best of life thank you for sharing your sad story God. Bless you both ,
Cried so hard😭
this is so sweet
aw omg 😭❤️
A 5 - year old draws better than me...
Incredible strength...
So sad😭😭
why no one write anything on this, respect for the single parent
Wow
aw
so sad
0.0 wow.
Okay
Thats my friend janice mok she in smps