I teared up when you where talking about loss of your baby. Desi Perkins it will happen when it's meant to be. We've(hubb's n I) been trying since 07 to get pregnant and everything comes out positive but no baby as of yet. Some time's it get so hard when so many people ask such question's or pass a comment that hurts so much. There have been time's where I've cried all the way back home just because some don't think before they speak. Any way God will make it happen when it's to be. Mean while we've got makeup, luv watching your video's. XOXO!
The balls it took for you to be that honest must be huge. I was getting all teary with you. I'm officially a fan after seeing what a sweetheart you are.
Thank you so much for the love! I must say, I love your videos as well, the way you edit, your looks... I love it all! Keep going you beautiful, I'm proud of you! x
I've had 4 miscarriages and I was eventually told my husband and I would never have children naturally. A couple of years later, we got pregnant with our son Hudson and 2 years after that, we got pregnant again with our 2nd son, Grant. Keep trying. I was so down for a long time and now i look back and regret wasting so much time being depressed because life itself is a blessing. I follow you on Snapchat (those snaps make me laugh all the time). Take care.
Desi, I have stage 4 breast cancer (terminal) and I just wanted to let you know that I completely understand not wanting to get out of bed every day. I feel that way now, but I also wanted you to know that you and your videos give me inspiration and make me want to look my best when I do get out. Thank you and you're awesome! Love ya! You're beautiful!
Be strong! I received an unfair diagnosis 9/2016 and I finally came out of my funk in June. I couldn't believe the difference in how I feel now. I though I would always feel that way, but it is true. It DOES get better. Be. strong. and good luck! Sending love from Atlanta! :-)
Thanks for sharing your story I had medical complications for 10years the worst was last year and it broke me, when I truly realized I couldn't have children, then out of the blue a little boy lost his muma and we have adopted him he is the BEST thing that has happened to our family friends and town he is a little becon of light and laughter and I truly hope that your journey will turn positive! It is soooo hard to believe that when you are kicked in the guts though and sometimes you just have to let it out! Sending much love from Australia and I am sure you will complete your circle one day xxxxx
you and steven will be such incredible parents when the time comes. you both know loss like i couldn't even imagine and your future children will be so blessed to have you guys as parents.
Desi you've become my #1 youtuber. you are so genuine and althought you will probably never read this i really wish from bottom of my heart the best for you and your husband, and god bless you both and your family. you are a very strong woman and i sincerily admire you. lots of love.
Just came across your videos, and I've totally fallen in love with them. They are impeccably done too, so much inspiration, and you seem like such a humble and down to earth lady too. Lots of love. xx
NEVER apologize for crying. You have every right to be devastated for loosing your child. Having emotion isn't wrong or embarrassing, it is a part of life.
I'm so glad you've decided to share something so private and so emotional about your life. I feel closer to you as a fan, and I love you even more (didn't know that was possible). I really hope you're doing okay. I'll be praying that your wish comes true because nothing would make us 'DESciples' more happy than to see you and your husband become parents!
I follow and subscribe to a lot of makeup gurus and fashion gurus but I've got to say you are my absolute favorite. Its not only because you are gorgeous and so so talented but its because you are real. I love the fact that you don't edit your videos to a point where you are "oh so perfect and your life is so amazing". You let us see the mistakes and the flaws and you let us see the sadness and pain along with everything else. That is what makes you you! You are amazing and your videos always makes my day. Keep on being fabulous!
I know I'm 2 years late, but I just want to give you a hug for this video. I know exactly what it took to say all that out loud, and not only did you do it, but then you posted it to millions. Even if you never read this, I just wanted to say you are an awesome person and I will continue to watch, like, and support you and your, I guess brand (is that what all your cosmetic art is called?) of videos and awesomeness for as long as you want to keep putting it out there. Keep rockin it, Desi!!! Much love!! -Carrie
Your strength, beauty and courage is so inspirational. I have tears streaming because I can't believe your openness. I accidently clicked on this video, and your wedding followed and I am simply speechless. Your are proof positive, everyone has a story, and yours has and will help others! May God continue to bless you and your family!
I really teared up during your story- I'm preg now due in a week and I can't even imagine. So sorry for your loss- your blessing WILL come. You are phenomenal at what you do
I know you might never read this bc you get so many, but I totally understand what you went through. I'm sitting here on my couch recovering from surgery to remove 6 of the 8 tumors that caused me to lose my baby last month. This is definitely the hardest thing I've ever gone through. Thank you for sharing your experience.
Katie Maynard I cant imagine anything worse than what you must have gone through, have faith that everything happens for a reason and that this isnt where life stops for you. Take inspiration from Desi, she has come so far. I wish you lots of luck in life and hope you find some happiness even on rainy days you can see the sun peek out in the end, hope you find a way to get back on your feet
I know I'm a little late to the party but just watched this and started weeping, and then one of the thumbnails when the video ended was your wedding video so I watched that and had this awkward teary beam going on. No matter what other shitstorms happen in your life, you always have that video to look back to and be so grateful for the people in your life, and the happiness they bring to you, and you to them, and that you found the kind of love you and your husband have (when he popped in to kiss you on the head when you got emotional was my favourite part, so special!). Thinking I'm about to have a Desi youtube marathon now!
Desi -- I am about a 6 month old follower. Your videos are amazing to me and I follow you religiously on snapchat. You always seem so happy and so carefree it is inspiring. But this, this video made me love you so much more. You are so raw and emotional in this that it shows that you do get sad and you have gotten knocked down, but you didn't let it keep you down. Thank you for sharing your life with us every single day, as that is not something you have to do for us. And know that you do not always have to be perfect and that you will still be cherished by the people who truly care. -- A forever fan
You're so authentic which is refreshing in this industry. Thank you for opening up and showing us a difficult part of your life! It was truly beautiful and I'm sure it will touch others going through a hard time as well.
This is by far the best video I have watched of yours. I appreciate you telling such an emotional experience that you have gone through. I found out that I was pregnant and had cancer all in the same appointment. I was told that if I chose to keep the pregnancy it would kill me. I chose to keep it anyways. I gave birth to my beautiful baby boy over a month early. By the time I had given birth the cancer had read from my cervix to the top of my uterus. I had a hysterectomy at 25. I just had massive surgery due to scar tissue from the hysterectomy. I have been pretty much bed ridden for over a year due to extreme chronic pelvic pain. All over my organs were glued together with scar tissue. I am finally on the road to recovery and your channel has helped keep me sane. I know you may not see this but I just wanted to thank you. I love yours and Katy's snapchats , you guys are awesome. I have decided to start beauty school in the fall and it is because of you and her. Xoxo
It's very inspiring to see you pursue something you love so much even after the tough times. You have such a passion for the things you love whether it be your makeup, your husband, or your followers and it really translates in the videos you film. Keep on chasing what you love and I'm sure little Perkins will be here when the timing is right. xo
I've been a follower for a while but I had only watched makeup tutorials. I just watched all of your personal videos and your wedding and now I understand you so much better. You're such a strong woman! I'm going through a hard time myself right now and it's really inspiring to see how you have gone through all of these things and got up again and got out of it even fiercer. Just wanted to let you know this :)
OMG..... You totally just brought me to tears. I too lost a baby when I was 6mo preg 😔 I was devastated, depressed & didn't know how to get through!! My wonderful husband was by my side every step of the way! Here we are 8 yrs later we have a handsome 4 1/2 yr old son, that is the light of our life! Don't lose Faith everything happens for a reason all in gods timing! God bless thanks for sharing!
Hi beautiful!!! Just found you and watched a ton of your vids before this one, my heart goes out to you and your hubby. I am so happy you made it through the roughest time in your life. You are right, us women are stronger then we think!!! 7 years ago I gave birth 2 twin girls at 6months, the docs told me they wouldn't live the week they were very sick and I lost one but one survived. I have an illness that I had not been aware of which caused my preterm labor. I thank God every day for my little girl who is healthy despite the docs telling me she would have major health issues. Your story touched me.....Bless you and your family always. Lots of love from a new subbie in Brooklyn!!! :)
I've been following you now for awhile now, and I think last year was when your makeup videos really started to catch my eye. I must say you stay SLAYING, down to your makeup, hair, outfits SLAYING!!! And as time has progressed and social media outlets have expanded its given us your viewers a better understanding of you not only as a beauty guru but also as a person. It's been extremely entertaining watching you on TH-cam and you're hilarious on snapchat. I can honestly say you and your husbands relationship is so moving and your friendship with Katy forever has me cracking up. This was my first time watching this video and it made me tear up a little because it not only goes to show how beautiful you are outside but also inside. You inspire a lot of people and I just wanted to say thank you and to continue creating.
I just saw this video!!! I found out about your miscarriage from your husband tag but this is deeper and way more informative that it actually made me cry. You are so strong! God bless you desi! #snapchatfam #lurkin
I've never really watched your videos before aside from a couple of makeup tutorials, but I really admire your honesty, and I felt your pain even though I've never gone through that. Your ability to pick yourself up after tragedy like that has obviously gotten you far, and there is no limit to how far that resilience will take you. you have gained a fan.
Seriously, watching this (and I watched it when you posted it in 2014), then watching your snaps with squat night of pie & movies makes me tear up. The growth you've made personally, spiritually, and career wise is amazing! The growth is real, girlllll! 💁🏽💁🏽💁🏽
Ugh, you're such an amazing person. I just discovered you the other day, & I've been watching you non stop. Not only are you such a talented, creative, and beautiful person, you personality is on point girl. Your husband is so lucky to have you! I hope you never stop making videos. You've become one of my inspirations.
This made me cry, you are the most beautiful woman ever and you have such a lovely heart. You're so lucky to have your husband by your side, and each other's love is all y'all need. Thank you for showing me that anything and everything can happen and is possible, helped me realize that this life is our only one so we need to do what makes us happy. I love you, as a person, such a beautiful soul. Thank you and whatever happens, happens. Stay stunning. xoxo - Desiree
I realize how difficult it is to have shared such deep, personal information with your viewers… I'd like to take a moment to remind you just how courageous you are and know that it's genuinely appreciated. I've suffered something similar, and the level of sadness and depression is overwhelming. But, it's through our tragedies that we realize just how strong our spirits truly are. Some people may see your beautiful face & the fact you're attaining success and recognition, yet not realize we ALL have a story. God bless you, Desi. Your dream of children may still come in another way, that will be a blessing… Lifting you up in prayer and wishing you an abundance of health and happiness.
but really, I have never seen you on an emotional level and it really affected me to see you so vulnerable and hurt. I'm glad you and Sven have overcome that challenge.
you are such an amazingly strong woman! strength like that is so admirable, we all respected your craft and I think letting us see this side of you only makes us appreciate you even more!! keep doing your thing girl! xo
Hello Desi, thank you for sharing your story. Watching your video made me cry. You mentioned things happen for a reason and I truly believe that as well. Our heavenly Father wouldn't give us anything we couldn't handle. Even though we may not know the reason at that moment, we will one day. Losing someone so dear to us is always painful and it is never easy especially when it is unexpected. My brother had just turned 18th on March 31 when he was murdered on May 20th, 2014 by a senseless act of crime. Some say things will get better with time but I think it's what we do with our time that will make things better. You're an inspiration to making myself feel better inside as well as outside. Thank you once again for sharing. May God continue to bless you and your loving husband as well as protect you two with His beautiful guardian angel that He has now given you. ❤
i've watched this video multiple times 1) because I adore you and all of your videos and 2) because of how brave and honest you are, it takes a lot to open up in general let alone on social media. By doing this you're touching all of your viewers especially the ones who have/are going through what you have gone through. You're a role model Desi and we appreciate you to the moon and back :)
Such an amazing video, literally could not stop the tears from falling! If i loved u then i love u more now! U r so real n such a kind spirit! N hey im pices too curious now to know what is ur bday? Thank u for having the courage to open up n say the things most people wouldnt have courage to say to people u dont personally know. But i see now even more how connected u r with ur followers n for that im grateful cuz u don't get any more real then that!
this video truly touched my heart. you are such an amazing strong woman and although I'm watching this month later than it was posted I'm glad I've stumbled upon it. this made such a big impact on my life. and has inspired me to never give up what i love !! love you
Hi Desi! New subbie/FAN here! LOVE your work, you're gorgeous and such a wonderful down to earth lady! I'm so sorry to hear about the baby, I know how you feel, I had cancer 4 years ago and I can no longer have children but luckily and I thank God every day for my little boy (he was 2 when I got sick). I wish you the best health always and forever! xo Michele
Im so sorry to hear that. But happy that you have your little boy:) Also that you made it through cancer. Ive lost family member to it and its terrible.
I'm french and I discovered you yesterday but I already watched many videos of your channel and you're so amazing! This video made me cry, you're so strong, telling that to your fans is a real proof of love. You are fabulous, never change!! (Sorry for mistakes).
Respect. That is one thing I can give you more than anything after watching this video. Your a survivor! Thanks for sharing your story. I truly am honored to hear it. :)
Omg! I am balling! You are my soul sister! I am currently a teacher who loves makeup, I love kids, I can't conceive and I am always being checked for cancer as well and I am also a Pisces. I love that you posted this and I was able to relate and not feel like I'm not the only only going through it. I love you so much more! I love what you do and keep on shining!
Desi, I can not wait to see your wishes to be a mother come true. You are such a beautiful person and I am so sorry to hear of your pain. I wish I could hug you!! I experienced a miscarriage because of an emergency surgery to remove a tumor from my ovaries. I know the pain =( it will get better!! I adore you and pray the very best for you and your family! XOXO
i recently just saw this video and wow. I dont know how your doing it but you are amazing. I really hope you don't loose hope about having kids in the future because i can already tell you are a genuine soul that would be one hell of a mom. Don't give up hope and I truly admire your strength, courage, grace and beauty. Keep making videos there awesome!!!
You're an amazing woman .... Keep your head up! I've lost a child and it was incredibly hard. I still suffer with dealing with the outcome of it. You're truly inspirational! When it's meant to happen it will happen.. God has a better plan for you just like he does with me!
gahhhhh.. i just cried. You're so inspiring! Thank you for reminding me to just keep doing what I love. I feel like when you pursue your dreams and follow something you truly have passion for, everything falls in place and you just live a happier life, period.
So sorry to hear about your complications, so brave of you to talk about it... And please, if you ever need to talk about it again don't apologise for getting upset! Your story made me cry, and you apologising for getting sad made me cry even more, don't ever be sorry for that!!!! You are beautiful and amazing, I can't get over how brave you are. Hugs from England, I love you!
You made me cry but your words are so inspiring. You seem to be a beautiful, humble human being and I wish nothing but the best for you in life. Thank you for sharing your story and keep your head up because good, decent people like you prosper in life. Best wishes to you and yours.
I watched this video right before your vistorias secret Paris vlog and the emotions I felt are indescribable. I hope you know how much you really mean to your followers and those who look up to you. Your strength and dedication is easily seen trough your videos. We feed off of your good vibes. I'm so proud of you and everything you have accomplished.
Desi thanks for sharing with the public your personal information. God does take care of his children. Just recently my son went through chemo it was 1 year long, As a mom it is very hard to go threw something like this. If it is of any cancellation I will be praying....You are one strong lady. May God be with you.
Omg I totally teared up watching this! Thank you for opening up desi! You are such a beautiful and STRONG person for pushing through something like that! May God bless you with many more years of health and happiness! 💖🙏
Thank you so much for sharing your story! I've had 6 miscarriages and all my husband and I want is to be parents! It's so hard to get over the heart break! Your a strong beautiful woman! Thanks again for sharing your story! I hope you are blessed with a little one or two xoxo
Decided to scroll down and find your old vids and see how far you've come. This video had me in tears, never would've imagined what you went through. Your strength is so, so inspiring. So happy to see that after such a hard time in your life, it turned around and you were showered with blessings - so beautiful!
Im so sorry about your loss. I first got pregnant in 2012 me and my boyfriend were extremely happy, told all our family and friends they were happy also. For some reason i had a very hard time keeping food down and was just so stressed with school and work i lost the baby at 9 weeks. Broke my heart to pieces. But 3 months later we didnt plan or anything but i found out i was pregnant again. Yay!(: but same thing i couldnt keep any food down at all not even water, or my prenatals Nothing. But i was determined to make it through this pregnancy. Doctors told me on and on me or the baby wouldnt make it if i kept this up. They kept telling me to terminate but i refused. I have RA and had it since i was 14 so getting out of bed was a struggle i lost 17 pounds in my first trimester i had to have blood transfusions and they didnt work so doctors went to iron transfusions they helped a little and i had to have steroid shots for me and the baby. I went into labor at 25 weeks but the drs manage to stop it. My blood levels were so low they were afraid when i had the baby i would lose to much blood so more transfusions. Got to 32 weeks started labor again but they stopped it again. And than finally went into labor at 40 weeks and 2 days(: they kept telling me my baby would be small because i didnt gain much weight but he came out at 7 pounds 6 ounces. Healthy baby boy. I did need a lot stitches and 3 hours after being discharge i ended up in the e.r. and a couple months later needing surgery and may have a tumor also my blood levels still to low but hey i finally got my baby!(: Dont worry, dont plan, just be happy!(: god only gives his battles to his strongest warriers because he knows we can handle it!(: now i have a wonderful smart beautiful 1 year old, going on 2 in a couple months. Itll happen just be patient. ;)
What a beautiful soul you are! I love that your hubby came in and kissed you because he knew you needed some love.. So sweet! I was told once by a fellow hairdresser that before you get angry with someone that you should think about why they might have been through up until that point because it could be your understanding or act of kindness that makes all the difference. It's a mantra I have tried to live by and hearing your story has validated that mantra. I'm so glad people have been kind to you! #faithinhumanityrestored
There was a time when I was 10 (im 14 now) that was incredibly hard for my whole family. My sisters got into two car wreaks in one month (totaled both cars) and we didn't have the money to buy two more cars. My sisters were both working full time and so was my dad. Then things started falling apart with my mom AND dad's side of the family. On my moms side, my grandmother was on the brink of death and my uncle had cancer. On my dad's side, half of my cousins were being kicked out of their homes and my grandfather found out he had altzimers. Most people say that when you are young, you cant feel pain. But I knew what was happening with my family. And it put stress on me and my sisters knowing there was nothing we could do to help them. My family was falling apart right under our noses. Now that I am older, I have a small job, my older sister is married, my middle sister is a writer, and my mom and dad's life's are finally mended. If anyone read this, thank you so much.
this made me tear, and it actually made me feel a lot better. knowing you're okay and better doing what you love gives me hope that one year from now or two ill be doing amazing things also. i have hypothyroidism and it's been a tough battle but right now im trying to fight another battle i was told i came out positive for h pylori it's a stomach infection that can lead to stomach cancer so that has me scared but seeing this video gives me alot more hope than what i had before watching this. i'm on a treatment and im hoping it works, thank you for sharing this with us. you are truly an inspiration, i love watching your videos on youtube and your stories on snapchat. thank you lord for creating this wonderful human being!!
Not out pf the woods yet but walking through them is a reassurance that betters days are coming; is hard, keep fighting. I am sending you all my respect and admiration. Keep strong
Just found out about you! Omg, I've been living under a rock. I saw your comment on Judy's vlog, so I clicked you name and watched you gen beauty vlog and some of your other vids. Then I saw this, and now I'm crying! From what I've seen, you're a very kind and loving person! Especially towards your subscribers! AND you are stunning! ♥️
This made me cry, oh my god.. Although I have never had to go through what you have; I did lose two of my three grandparents this summer, one in May and the other in August. It was the absolute hardest thing I've ever had to go through. I spent most of my summer locked away in my room, crying for hours and hours at a time. I cannot imagine the pain you endured. I am so proud of you for encouraging yourself to get up and keep moving. That definitely shows how strong of a person you are. I'm proud to call you my favorite beauty guru. Thank you for having the courage and bravery to continue making makeup videos. You've inspired me so tremendously. 💚
I'm so sorry for your loss. This video really touched my heart and brought tears to my eyes. Last year over the summer I got pregnant after 7 months of trying. At around 11 weeks I went in for my first ultrasound, as any mother would be I was excited to finally be seeing my baby inside my belly for the first time. But as the doctors searched for the baby all we could see was an amniotic sack with no baby inside of it. They told me it was either one of two things, either I wasn't as far as I thought I was or I was having a miscarriage. The next day I go to the hospital praying and begging god that my child would be ok. But sadly my child wasn't. They confirmed that I was having a "missed abortion" due to the fact that I did not bleed or anything. My HCG levels were going down which meant that I was having a miscarriage. I know how it feels as a mother to lose a child. Keep your head up. God knows why he does things maybe it wasn't your time yet. Just know that you will ALWAYS have an angel taking care of you where ever you go! Love you chica!
Desi you inspire me so much. I'm only 18 and I look up to you more than anyone. Never give up on your dreams because you taught me to keep going when it was the easiest to stop. You are so appreciated
You are truly inspiring Desi! You didn't have to open up or even give details about your situation but the fact that you did truly amazed me, I started tearing up along with you. You're such a strong beautiful woman! Thank you so much for sharing with us. Keep your head up and keep moving forward! Love all your videos! ❤️
Sometimes we have to go through hell to get somewhere amazing. I hope your dream of having a family will come true one day. I know it's the hardest thing to go through, keep believing in it and it will happen one way or another. Much love xo
Desi, we love you and thank you so much for sharing your story. I am currently pregnant and I can't imagine what life would be like without her. I'm sorry for your loss. You are 100% right, when things are meant to be they will happen. You and your husband will be parents when god feels it's time. I hope soon! And I wish you health and happiness always. Xoxo
Desi, you are so amazing. I know I have reached out to you before and told you this but this video, just, makes me have so much respect for you. Good for you for pushing through difficulties without asking for pity or attention. Those that handle struggle with grace go so much further in life. I'm so happy for your success and ability to do what makes you happy for a living. I'll never stop watching! Sincerely, theeupdogirl from Instagram.
I just saw your video, even though i have been following you for a couple of months now. I am sorry for your loss and for everything that you had to go through. I have 3 kids and my oldest who at the time was 9 and a half years old, was sexually molested by her uncle (my husbands side of the family) and that was the day i lost my little girl. In July is 2yrs that it happened but to me is like it was just yesterday, till this day she is not the same little girl, i struggle on a daily basis finding ways for her to be busy and her mind of her incident. You are very blessed to have your husbands support, i did not. I was 145 lbs when this happened, now i am struggling 196 lbs, i hardly wat, i have not worn makeup (even though i have everything that you lovely ladies review). I can understand in a way how you felt and/or fell, but if it helps, this is helping on a daily basis, "I f you had the blessing of waking up, get up, get dressed, eat a smile on, and get ready for the battle Soldier of God"... May God bless you and your Family, oh and sorry this was long :-(
Im so sorry to hear what happened to your family. It breaks my heart. Your right about taking it day by day. Thats all you can do, and just put a smile on for your beautiful daughter. God bless
I'm extremely sorry for your loss and everything you went through. It really made me tear up. Like you said it'll happen when it's meant to be and it'll be an amazing experience. As long as you have your health as well as the support of your hubby and loved ones now that's what counts.
Thank you for being open and sharing your story about your miscarriage. It shows courage and strength to be free with us like that. Praying that you have many bundles to come. Motherhood is amazing and rewarding in a new whole new way.
Im so sorry for you, Desi. Remember we are all here for you and that we are supporting you. Im thinking about you and wishing you only happiness an joy sweetheart. Thank you so much for telling us about this. My bestfriend lost her mom few months ago and I could never understand how it is to loose someone that close because I have never lost anyone that close. But I just want you to know that I think about you because the feeling I got when my bestfriend lost her mom was...awful. Please stay strong and continue create beautiful Desi. You and your hubby look happy together. Take care
Awe. Im sorry to hear that. All you can do is be there for her. when everything happened to me, I wouldn't get out of bed so my best friend came over everyday made me eat and just laid with me in bed and we didn't even talk. we just laid there. Ill never forget it. She understood that there was nothing she could say. Ill never forget it.
oh my. Best friends are amazing. We need to take care of each other. Your friend seem like an amazing person. Im trying to be like that to my bestie as best as I can. We just need to stay strong together.
Desi 😭😭😭 I watched your VS show Paris vlog, and then I came back to watch this one and seeing the Eiffel Tower on your shirt made me emotional again!!! You're one of the strongest women I know about, and you've become my role model in the past several months that I've been following you on social media. You make my day, and I love everything you post ❤️
Improvin Impressionsz i know this comment is like three years old but that's not actually true. God will give you things you cant handle so that you learn to trust and rely on Him. So instead of 'God wont give you anything you cant handle' it should be 'God wont give you anything HE can't handle.' Which is literally nothing. Because He is supreme over all things.
I just watched this video for the first time, Desi and it makes me love you and Steven that much more than i already do. I too had complications in pregnancy, and shortly after was diagnosed with breast cancer so this hit home for me in many ways. I am so glad you were able to feel the support from all of your fans and keep doing what you do best which is making us all smile! You have one of the best personalities and watching your videos and snaps makes me feel like you're just one of the girls! Love you and wish nothing but continued blessings and happiness for you in Sven!!! xoxox TYSM for sharing this!
This video just absolutely broke my heart. Desi, I know that must have been so difficult to share. I have been following you for a few months now and I have never seen something this raw from any TH-cam guru. You seem like a beautiful person inside and out. The love that your husband has for you is so infectious and I can tell the same is with you. You both have the relationship that any couple is hopeful to strive for. Even though I am a subbie I am super proud of what you have accomplished and excited for everything that is to come for you and you husband! I also can not wait for the Perkins blog to be up! Continue to do what you are doing and the rest will sort out when it does. Love ya! And see you on snap! 😘
wow! thank you all for such amazing comments. They truly mean the world to me
I teared up when you where talking about loss of your baby. Desi Perkins it will happen when it's meant to be. We've(hubb's n I) been trying since 07 to get pregnant and everything comes out positive but no baby as of yet. Some time's it get so hard when so many people ask such question's or pass a comment that hurts so much. There have been time's where I've cried all the way back home just because some don't think before they speak. Any way God will make it happen when it's to be. Mean while we've got makeup, luv watching your video's. XOXO!
Wow, I resently found you and you truly inspired me. I love your vids ! May God bless you and your family
I absolutely frickin wanna hug you girl ! You are beauts love you x
You have officially become my #1 absolute favorite youtuber!! I wish I could subscribe 1000x more!! Love your work!!
your husband is so sweet towards you! i wish i could meet someone caring as well =)
The balls it took for you to be that honest must be huge. I was getting all teary with you. I'm officially a fan after seeing what a sweetheart you are.
Yes!!
Thank you so much for the love! I must say, I love your videos as well, the way you edit, your looks... I love it all! Keep going you beautiful, I'm proud of you! x
I've had 4 miscarriages and I was eventually told my husband and I would never have children naturally. A couple of years later, we got pregnant with our son Hudson and 2 years after that, we got pregnant again with our 2nd son, Grant. Keep trying. I was so down for a long time and now i look back and regret wasting so much time being depressed because life itself is a blessing. I follow you on Snapchat (those snaps make me laugh all the time). Take care.
Desi, I have stage 4 breast cancer (terminal) and I just wanted to let you know that I completely understand not wanting to get out of bed every day. I feel that way now, but I also wanted you to know that you and your videos give me inspiration and make me want to look my best when I do get out. Thank you and you're awesome! Love ya! You're beautiful!
Be strong! I received an unfair diagnosis 9/2016 and I finally came out of my funk in June. I couldn't believe the difference in how I feel now. I though I would always feel that way, but it is true. It DOES get better. Be. strong. and good luck! Sending love from Atlanta! :-)
Thanks for sharing your story I had medical complications for 10years the worst was last year and it broke me, when I truly realized I couldn't have children, then out of the blue a little boy lost his muma and we have adopted him he is the BEST thing that has happened to our family friends and town he is a little becon of light and laughter and I truly hope that your journey will turn positive! It is soooo hard to believe that when you are kicked in the guts though and sometimes you just have to let it out! Sending much love from Australia and I am sure you will complete your circle one day xxxxx
Awe what a lucky little boy to have u to love him! That makes me happy:) thank u for sharing
you and steven will be such incredible parents when the time comes. you both know loss like i couldn't even imagine and your future children will be so blessed to have you guys as parents.
Desi you've become my #1 youtuber. you are so genuine and althought you will probably never read this i really wish from bottom of my heart the best for you and your husband, and god bless you both and your family. you are a very strong woman and i sincerily admire you. lots of love.
Thank u so much 😊😘
We love you so much God bless you and your family 😍💕🌸😚
Just came across your videos, and I've totally fallen in love with them. They are impeccably done too, so much inspiration, and you seem like such a humble and down to earth lady too. Lots of love. xx
Love you shirley
Shirley! I just found you as well & I love your style!!!
I just found your video ,awesome personality ,keep dong what love to do best create .You are amazing
hahaha 'k can i go now?' solo cute he was awesome!
NEVER apologize for crying. You have every right to be devastated for loosing your child. Having emotion isn't wrong or embarrassing, it is a part of life.
I'm so glad you've decided to share something so private and so emotional about your life. I feel closer to you as a fan, and I love you even more (didn't know that was possible). I really hope you're doing okay. I'll be praying that your wish comes true because nothing would make us 'DESciples' more happy than to see you and your husband become parents!
that was so nice to read! thank you so much xoxo
I follow and subscribe to a lot of makeup gurus and fashion gurus but I've got to say you are my absolute favorite. Its not only because you are gorgeous and so so talented but its because you are real. I love the fact that you don't edit your videos to a point where you are "oh so perfect and your life is so amazing". You let us see the mistakes and the flaws and you let us see the sadness and pain along with everything else. That is what makes you you! You are amazing and your videos always makes my day. Keep on being fabulous!
I know I'm 2 years late, but I just want to give you a hug for this video. I know exactly what it took to say all that out loud, and not only did you do it, but then you posted it to millions. Even if you never read this, I just wanted to say you are an awesome person and I will continue to watch, like, and support you and your, I guess brand (is that what all your cosmetic art is called?) of videos and awesomeness for as long as you want to keep putting it out there. Keep rockin it, Desi!!! Much love!! -Carrie
watching in 2016😁
me too :D
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I love you! You're so brave for sharing your story :)))
Chrisspy are u still doing makeup. I loved u ...
Your strength, beauty and courage is so inspirational. I have tears streaming because I can't believe your openness. I accidently clicked on this video, and your wedding followed and I am simply speechless. Your are proof positive, everyone has a story, and yours has and will help others! May God continue to bless you and your family!
I really teared up during your story- I'm preg now due in a week and I can't even imagine. So sorry for your loss- your blessing WILL come. You are phenomenal at what you do
You're so strong, desi! :) definitely an inspiration for us all
I know you might never read this bc you get so many, but I totally understand what you went through. I'm sitting here on my couch recovering from surgery to remove 6 of the 8 tumors that caused me to lose my baby last month. This is definitely the hardest thing I've ever gone through. Thank you for sharing your experience.
Of course I read them. I'm so sorry for your loss. It's so tough. But as women we are made stronger than we think:) sending love your way
Katie Maynard I cant imagine anything worse than what you must have gone through, have faith that everything happens for a reason and that this isnt where life stops for you.
Take inspiration from Desi, she has come so far. I wish you lots of luck in life and hope you find some happiness even on rainy days you can see the sun peek out in the end, hope you find a way to get back on your feet
I know I'm a little late to the party but just watched this and started weeping, and then one of the thumbnails when the video ended was your wedding video so I watched that and had this awkward teary beam going on. No matter what other shitstorms happen in your life, you always have that video to look back to and be so grateful for the people in your life, and the happiness they bring to you, and you to them, and that you found the kind of love you and your husband have (when he popped in to kiss you on the head when you got emotional was my favourite part, so special!). Thinking I'm about to have a Desi youtube marathon now!
Desi --
I am about a 6 month old follower. Your videos are amazing to me and I follow you religiously on snapchat. You always seem so happy and so carefree it is inspiring. But this, this video made me love you so much more. You are so raw and emotional in this that it shows that you do get sad and you have gotten knocked down, but you didn't let it keep you down. Thank you for sharing your life with us every single day, as that is not something you have to do for us. And know that you do not always have to be perfect and that you will still be cherished by the people who truly care.
-- A forever fan
You're so authentic which is refreshing in this industry. Thank you for opening up and showing us a difficult part of your life! It was truly beautiful and I'm sure it will touch others going through a hard time as well.
Awe girl. You rock. Much love x1000. Keep killin' it.
thank u friend
This is by far the best video I have watched of yours. I appreciate you telling such an emotional experience that you have gone through. I found out that I was pregnant and had cancer all in the same appointment. I was told that if I chose to keep the pregnancy it would kill me. I chose to keep it anyways. I gave birth to my beautiful baby boy over a month early. By the time I had given birth the cancer had read from my cervix to the top of my uterus. I had a hysterectomy at 25. I just had massive surgery due to scar tissue from the hysterectomy. I have been pretty much bed ridden for over a year due to extreme chronic pelvic pain. All over my organs were glued together with scar tissue. I am finally on the road to recovery and your channel has helped keep me sane. I know you may not see this but I just wanted to thank you. I love yours and Katy's snapchats , you guys are awesome. I have decided to start beauty school in the fall and it is because of you and her. Xoxo
It's very inspiring to see you pursue something you love so much even after the tough times. You have such a passion for the things you love whether it be your makeup, your husband, or your followers and it really translates in the videos you film. Keep on chasing what you love and I'm sure little Perkins will be here when the timing is right. xo
I've been a follower for a while but I had only watched makeup tutorials. I just watched all of your personal videos and your wedding and now I understand you so much better. You're such a strong woman! I'm going through a hard time myself right now and it's really inspiring to see how you have gone through all of these things and got up again and got out of it even fiercer. Just wanted to let you know this :)
You're such a strong lady!! I am so proud of you for sharing the story of the miscarriage and tumors! So inspiring!! Love you!
OMG..... You totally just brought me to tears. I too lost a baby when I was 6mo preg 😔 I was devastated, depressed & didn't know how to get through!! My wonderful husband was by my side every step of the way! Here we are 8 yrs later we have a handsome 4 1/2 yr old son, that is the light of our life! Don't lose Faith everything happens for a reason all in gods timing! God bless thanks for sharing!
Just now watching this. Wow. Thanks for sharing Desi!!! So genuine!
Hi beautiful!!! Just found you and watched a ton of your vids before this one, my heart goes out to you and your hubby. I am so happy you made it through the roughest time in your life. You are right, us women are stronger then we think!!! 7 years ago I gave birth 2 twin girls at 6months, the docs told me they wouldn't live the week they were very sick and I lost one but one survived. I have an illness that I had not been aware of which caused my preterm labor. I thank God every day for my little girl who is healthy despite the docs telling me she would have major health issues. Your story touched me.....Bless you and your family always. Lots of love from a new subbie in Brooklyn!!! :)
You're one of my favs!!! Beautiful inside and out.
I've been following you now for awhile now, and I think last year was when your makeup videos really started to catch my eye. I must say you stay SLAYING, down to your makeup, hair, outfits SLAYING!!! And as time has progressed and social media outlets have expanded its given us your viewers a better understanding of you not only as a beauty guru but also as a person. It's been extremely entertaining watching you on TH-cam and you're hilarious on snapchat. I can honestly say you and your husbands relationship is so moving and your friendship with Katy forever has me cracking up. This was my first time watching this video and it made me tear up a little because it not only goes to show how beautiful you are outside but also inside. You inspire a lot of people and I just wanted to say thank you and to continue creating.
I just saw this video!!! I found out about your miscarriage from your husband tag but this is deeper and way more informative that it actually made me cry. You are so strong! God bless you desi! #snapchatfam #lurkin
I've never really watched your videos before aside from a couple of makeup tutorials, but I really admire your honesty, and I felt your pain even though I've never gone through that. Your ability to pick yourself up after tragedy like that has obviously gotten you far, and there is no limit to how far that resilience will take you. you have gained a fan.
I just found your channel! You're so brave, hope you know how inspirational you are x
Seriously, watching this (and I watched it when you posted it in 2014), then watching your snaps with squat night of pie & movies makes me tear up. The growth you've made personally, spiritually, and career wise is amazing! The growth is real, girlllll! 💁🏽💁🏽💁🏽
Girl you have me crying. I am new to your channel and so glad I found you. I hope everything with your health got worked out!
Ugh, you're such an amazing person. I just discovered you the other day, & I've been watching you non stop. Not only are you such a talented, creative, and beautiful person, you personality is on point girl. Your husband is so lucky to have you! I hope you never stop making videos. You've become one of my inspirations.
This made me cry, you are the most beautiful woman ever and you have such a lovely heart. You're so lucky to have your husband by your side, and each other's love is all y'all need. Thank you for showing me that anything and everything can happen and is possible, helped me realize that this life is our only one so we need to do what makes us happy. I love you, as a person, such a beautiful soul. Thank you and whatever happens, happens. Stay stunning.
xoxo - Desiree
I realize how difficult it is to have shared such deep, personal information with your viewers… I'd like to take a moment to remind you just how courageous you are and know that it's genuinely appreciated. I've suffered something similar, and the level of sadness and depression is overwhelming. But, it's through our tragedies that we realize just how strong our spirits truly are. Some people may see your beautiful face & the fact you're attaining success and recognition, yet not realize we ALL have a story. God bless you, Desi. Your dream of children may still come in another way, that will be a blessing… Lifting you up in prayer and wishing you an abundance of health and happiness.
Watching this 2 years later and you are making me cry. Lmao, love you Desi! You inspire me everyday bish
but really, I have never seen you on an emotional level and it really affected me to see you so vulnerable and hurt. I'm glad you and Sven have overcome that challenge.
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you are such an amazingly strong woman! strength like that is so admirable, we all respected your craft and I think letting us see this side of you only makes us appreciate you even more!!
keep doing your thing girl!
xo
Hello Desi, thank you for sharing your story. Watching your video made me cry. You mentioned things happen for a reason and I truly believe that as well. Our heavenly Father wouldn't give us anything we couldn't handle. Even though we may not know the reason at that moment, we will one day. Losing someone so dear to us is always painful and it is never easy especially when it is unexpected. My brother had just turned 18th on March 31 when he was murdered on May 20th, 2014 by a senseless act of crime. Some say things will get better with time but I think it's what we do with our time that will make things better. You're an inspiration to making myself feel better inside as well as outside. Thank you once again for sharing. May God continue to bless you and your loving husband as well as protect you two with His beautiful guardian angel that He has now given you. ❤
i've watched this video multiple times 1) because I adore you and all of your videos and 2) because of how brave and honest you are, it takes a lot to open up in general let alone on social media. By doing this you're touching all of your viewers especially the ones who have/are going through what you have gone through. You're a role model Desi and we appreciate you to the moon and back :)
Such an amazing video, literally could not stop the tears from falling! If i loved u then i love u more now! U r so real n such a kind spirit! N hey im pices too curious now to know what is ur bday? Thank u for having the courage to open up n say the things most people wouldnt have courage to say to people u dont personally know. But i see now even more how connected u r with ur followers n for that im grateful cuz u don't get any more real then that!
Thank u! It's March 3rd
+Desi Perkins Yay March baby !! I'm the 15th, sorry irrelevant lol
this video truly touched my heart. you are such an amazing strong woman and although I'm watching this month later than it was posted I'm glad I've stumbled upon it. this made such a big impact on my life. and has inspired me to never give up what i love !! love you
Hi Desi! New subbie/FAN here! LOVE your work, you're gorgeous and such a wonderful down to earth lady! I'm so sorry to hear about the baby, I know how you feel, I had cancer 4 years ago and I can no longer have children but luckily and I thank God every day for my little boy (he was 2 when I got sick). I wish you the best health always and forever!
xo Michele
Im so sorry to hear that. But happy that you have your little boy:) Also that you made it through cancer. Ive lost family member to it and its terrible.
I'm french and I discovered you yesterday but I already watched many videos of your channel and you're so amazing! This video made me cry, you're so strong, telling that to your fans is a real proof of love. You are fabulous, never change!! (Sorry for mistakes).
Respect. That is one thing I can give you more than anything after watching this video. Your a survivor! Thanks for sharing your story. I truly am honored to hear it. :)
Omg! I am balling! You are my soul sister! I am currently a teacher who loves makeup, I love kids, I can't conceive and I am always being checked for cancer as well and I am also a Pisces. I love that you posted this and I was able to relate and not feel like I'm not the only only going through it. I love you so much more! I love what you do and keep on shining!
I kissed my daughter after watching this. It made me cry. Have soo much respect for you. Xx
I love the way she speaks, she's so polite, respectful and taugh i just love that ! it's so amazing !
Desi, I can not wait to see your wishes to be a mother come true. You are such a beautiful person and I am so sorry to hear of your pain. I wish I could hug you!! I experienced a miscarriage because of an emergency surgery to remove a tumor from my ovaries. I know the pain =( it will get better!! I adore you and pray the very best for you and your family! XOXO
i recently just saw this video and wow. I dont know how your doing it but you are amazing. I really hope you don't loose hope about having kids in the future because i can already tell you are a genuine soul that would be one hell of a mom. Don't give up hope and I truly admire your strength, courage, grace and beauty. Keep making videos there awesome!!!
You're an amazing woman .... Keep your head up! I've lost a child and it was incredibly hard. I still suffer with dealing with the outcome of it. You're truly inspirational! When it's meant to happen it will happen.. God has a better plan for you just like he does with me!
gahhhhh.. i just cried. You're so inspiring! Thank you for reminding me to just keep doing what I love. I feel like when you pursue your dreams and follow something you truly have passion for, everything falls in place and you just live a happier life, period.
We love you!!
So sorry to hear about your complications, so brave of you to talk about it... And please, if you ever need to talk about it again don't apologise for getting upset! Your story made me cry, and you apologising for getting sad made me cry even more, don't ever be sorry for that!!!! You are beautiful and amazing, I can't get over how brave you are. Hugs from England, I love you!
watching this after the "Perkins Produce coming October 2020" announcement
You made me cry but your words are so inspiring. You seem to be a beautiful, humble human being and I wish nothing but the best for you in life. Thank you for sharing your story and keep your head up because good, decent people like you prosper in life. Best wishes to you and yours.
i watched your videos till the time but this one i forgot. your words about your loss make me crying
I watched this video right before your vistorias secret Paris vlog and the emotions I felt are indescribable. I hope you know how much you really mean to your followers and those who look up to you. Your strength and dedication is easily seen trough your videos. We feed off of your good vibes. I'm so proud of you and everything you have accomplished.
Desi thanks for sharing with the public your personal information. God does take care of his children. Just recently my son went through chemo it was 1 year long, As a mom it is very hard to go threw something like this. If it is of any cancellation I will be praying....You are one strong lady. May God be with you.
Thank you so much. 👼
Omg I totally teared up watching this! Thank you for opening up desi! You are such a beautiful and STRONG person for pushing through something like that! May God bless you with many more years of health and happiness! 💖🙏
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"Cereal?"
You, Desi, are my spirit animal.
This made me cry. You're so strong Desi! Thank you for sharing that story with us even though it was hard, keep fighting beautiful
Thank you so much for sharing your story! I've had 6 miscarriages and all my husband and I want is to be parents! It's so hard to get over the heart break! Your a strong beautiful woman! Thanks again for sharing your story! I hope you are blessed with a little one or two xoxo
Rosa Lippincott that is so sad :(
Decided to scroll down and find your old vids and see how far you've come. This video had me in tears, never would've imagined what you went through. Your strength is so, so inspiring. So happy to see that after such a hard time in your life, it turned around and you were showered with blessings - so beautiful!
Im so sorry about your loss. I first got pregnant in 2012 me and my boyfriend were extremely happy, told all our family and friends they were happy also. For some reason i had a very hard time keeping food down and was just so stressed with school and work i lost the baby at 9 weeks. Broke my heart to pieces. But 3 months later we didnt plan or anything but i found out i was pregnant again. Yay!(: but same thing i couldnt keep any food down at all not even water, or my prenatals Nothing. But i was determined to make it through this pregnancy. Doctors told me on and on me or the baby wouldnt make it if i kept this up. They kept telling me to terminate but i refused. I have RA and had it since i was 14 so getting out of bed was a struggle i lost 17 pounds in my first trimester i had to have blood transfusions and they didnt work so doctors went to iron transfusions they helped a little and i had to have steroid shots for me and the baby. I went into labor at 25 weeks but the drs manage to stop it. My blood levels were so low they were afraid when i had the baby i would lose to much blood so more transfusions. Got to 32 weeks started labor again but they stopped it again. And than finally went into labor at 40 weeks and 2 days(: they kept telling me my baby would be small because i didnt gain much weight but he came out at 7 pounds 6 ounces. Healthy baby boy. I did need a lot stitches and 3 hours after being discharge i ended up in the e.r. and a couple months later needing surgery and may have a tumor also my blood levels still to low but hey i finally got my baby!(: Dont worry, dont plan, just be happy!(: god only gives his battles to his strongest warriers because he knows we can handle it!(: now i have a wonderful smart beautiful 1 year old, going on 2 in a couple months. Itll happen just be patient. ;)
What a beautiful soul you are! I love that your hubby came in and kissed you because he knew you needed some love.. So sweet!
I was told once by a fellow hairdresser that before you get angry with someone that you should think about why they might have been through up until that point because it could be your understanding or act of kindness that makes all the difference. It's a mantra I have tried to live by and hearing your story has validated that mantra. I'm so glad people have been kind to you! #faithinhumanityrestored
There was a time when I was 10 (im 14 now) that was incredibly hard for my whole family. My sisters got into two car wreaks in one month (totaled both cars) and we didn't have the money to buy two more cars. My sisters were both working full time and so was my dad. Then things started falling apart with my mom AND dad's side of the family. On my moms side, my grandmother was on the brink of death and my uncle had cancer. On my dad's side, half of my cousins were being kicked out of their homes and my grandfather found out he had altzimers. Most people say that when you are young, you cant feel pain. But I knew what was happening with my family. And it put stress on me and my sisters knowing there was nothing we could do to help them. My family was falling apart right under our noses. Now that I am older, I have a small job, my older sister is married, my middle sister is a writer, and my mom and dad's life's are finally mended.
If anyone read this, thank you so much.
I love your videos because they have a hint of glam every time, but this time it was very emotional; made me cry in a compassionate way.
I fell in love with you even more😘
this made me tear, and it actually made me feel a lot better. knowing you're okay and better doing what you love gives me hope that one year from now or two ill be doing amazing things also. i have hypothyroidism and it's been a tough battle but right now im trying to fight another battle i was told i came out positive for h pylori it's a stomach infection that can lead to stomach cancer so that has me scared but seeing this video gives me alot more hope than what i had before watching this. i'm on a treatment and im hoping it works, thank you for sharing this with us. you are truly an inspiration, i love watching your videos on youtube and your stories on snapchat. thank you lord for creating this wonderful human being!!
I was diagnosed with cervical cancer last year…I'm also 27. I'm still not out of the woods yet. You are a tough girl. xxoo
Not out pf the woods yet but walking through them is a reassurance that betters days are coming; is hard, keep fighting. I am sending you all my respect and admiration. Keep strong
Just found out about you! Omg, I've been living under a rock. I saw your comment on Judy's vlog, so I clicked you name and watched you gen beauty vlog and some of your other vids. Then I saw this, and now I'm crying! From what I've seen, you're a very kind and loving person! Especially towards your subscribers! AND you are stunning! ♥️
Desi you are such a strong woman, keep up all of your hard work!
This made me cry, oh my god.. Although I have never had to go through what you have; I did lose two of my three grandparents this summer, one in May and the other in August. It was the absolute hardest thing I've ever had to go through. I spent most of my summer locked away in my room, crying for hours and hours at a time. I cannot imagine the pain you endured. I am so proud of you for encouraging yourself to get up and keep moving. That definitely shows how strong of a person you are. I'm proud to call you my favorite beauty guru. Thank you for having the courage and bravery to continue making makeup videos. You've inspired me so tremendously. 💚
I'm so sorry for your loss. This video really touched my heart and brought tears to my eyes. Last year over the summer I got pregnant after 7 months of trying. At around 11 weeks I went in for my first ultrasound, as any mother would be I was excited to finally be seeing my baby inside my belly for the first time. But as the doctors searched for the baby all we could see was an amniotic sack with no baby inside of it. They told me it was either one of two things, either I wasn't as far as I thought I was or I was having a miscarriage. The next day I go to the hospital praying and begging god that my child would be ok. But sadly my child wasn't. They confirmed that I was having a "missed abortion" due to the fact that I did not bleed or anything. My HCG levels were going down which meant that I was having a miscarriage. I know how it feels as a mother to lose a child. Keep your head up. God knows why he does things maybe it wasn't your time yet. Just know that you will ALWAYS have an angel taking care of you where ever you go! Love you chica!
Desi you inspire me so much. I'm only 18 and I look up to you more than anyone. Never give up on your dreams because you taught me to keep going when it was the easiest to stop. You are so appreciated
When sphen came and kissed you made me cry 😭😭 I'm sooooo late but don't judge tysm love you 😘
You are truly inspiring Desi! You didn't have to open up or even give details about your situation but the fact that you did truly amazed me, I started tearing up along with you. You're such a strong beautiful woman! Thank you so much for sharing with us. Keep your head up and keep moving forward! Love all your videos! ❤️
Sometimes we have to go through hell to get somewhere amazing. I hope your dream of having a family will come true one day. I know it's the hardest thing to go through, keep believing in it and it will happen one way or another. Much love xo
Desi, we love you and thank you so much for sharing your story. I am currently pregnant and I can't imagine what life would be like without her. I'm sorry for your loss. You are 100% right, when things are meant to be they will happen. You and your husband will be parents when god feels it's time. I hope soon! And I wish you health and happiness always. Xoxo
Didn't expect to cry 😩 your so strong girl!
Desi, you are so amazing. I know I have reached out to you before and told you this but this video, just, makes me have so much respect for you. Good for you for pushing through difficulties without asking for pity or attention. Those that handle struggle with grace go so much further in life. I'm so happy for your success and ability to do what makes you happy for a living. I'll never stop watching! Sincerely, theeupdogirl from Instagram.
I just saw your video, even though i have been following you for a couple of months now. I am sorry for your loss and for everything that you had to go through. I have 3 kids and my oldest who at the time was 9 and a half years old, was sexually molested by her uncle (my husbands side of the family) and that was the day i lost my little girl. In July is 2yrs that it happened but to me is like it was just yesterday, till this day she is not the same little girl, i struggle on a daily basis finding ways for her to be busy and her mind of her incident. You are very blessed to have your husbands support, i did not. I was 145 lbs when this happened, now i am struggling 196 lbs, i hardly wat, i have not worn makeup (even though i have everything that you lovely ladies review). I can understand in a way how you felt and/or fell, but if it helps, this is helping on a daily basis, "I f you had the blessing of waking up, get up, get dressed, eat a smile on, and get ready for the battle Soldier of God"... May God bless you and your Family, oh and sorry this was long :-(
Im so sorry to hear what happened to your family. It breaks my heart. Your right about taking it day by day. Thats all you can do, and just put a smile on for your beautiful daughter. God bless
I'm extremely sorry for your loss and everything you went through. It really made me tear up. Like you said it'll happen when it's meant to be and it'll be an amazing experience. As long as you have your health as well as the support of your hubby and loved ones now that's what counts.
Who else cried like really really hard
+Abi London i saw this when i first started watching and instantly braced myself, but i wasn't ready. I cried.
That glow in your face went away and when you got teary eyed I did too. You are so beautiful and such an inspiration ❤️. Keep your head up.
Wow I did NOT expect to cry when I clicked this video
Thank you for being open and sharing your story about your miscarriage. It shows courage and strength to be free with us like that. Praying that you have many bundles to come. Motherhood is amazing and rewarding in a new whole new way.
Im so sorry for you, Desi. Remember we are all here for you and that we are supporting you. Im thinking about you and wishing you only happiness an joy sweetheart. Thank you so much for telling us about this. My bestfriend lost her mom few months ago and I could never understand how it is to loose someone that close because I have never lost anyone that close. But I just want you to know that I think about you because the feeling I got when my bestfriend lost her mom was...awful. Please stay strong and continue create beautiful Desi. You and your hubby look happy together. Take care
Awe. Im sorry to hear that. All you can do is be there for her. when everything happened to me, I wouldn't get out of bed so my best friend came over everyday made me eat and just laid with me in bed and we didn't even talk. we just laid there. Ill never forget it. She understood that there was nothing she could say. Ill never forget it.
oh my. Best friends are amazing. We need to take care of each other. Your friend seem like an amazing person. Im trying to be like that to my bestie as best as I can. We just need to stay strong together.
Desi 😭😭😭 I watched your VS show Paris vlog, and then I came back to watch this one and seeing the Eiffel Tower on your shirt made me emotional again!!! You're one of the strongest women I know about, and you've become my role model in the past several months that I've been following you on social media. You make my day, and I love everything you post ❤️
God doesn't put anything on u that u can't handle....god will bring u what u pray for...sharing ur story was honest & will help someone else.
Improvin Impressionsz i know this comment is like three years old but that's not actually true. God will give you things you cant handle so that you learn to trust and rely on Him. So instead of 'God wont give you anything you cant handle' it should be 'God wont give you anything HE can't handle.' Which is literally nothing. Because He is supreme over all things.
I just watched this video for the first time, Desi and it makes me love you and Steven that much more than i already do. I too had complications in pregnancy, and shortly after was diagnosed with breast cancer so this hit home for me in many ways. I am so glad you were able to feel the support from all of your fans and keep doing what you do best which is making us all smile! You have one of the best personalities and watching your videos and snaps makes me feel like you're just one of the girls! Love you and wish nothing but continued blessings and happiness for you in Sven!!! xoxox TYSM for sharing this!
Asleeep? Pshhh in tears! haha
This video just absolutely broke my heart. Desi, I know that must have been so difficult to share. I have been following you for a few months now and I have never seen something this raw from any TH-cam guru. You seem like a beautiful person inside and out. The love that your husband has for you is so infectious and I can tell the same is with you. You both have the relationship that any couple is hopeful to strive for. Even though I am a subbie I am super proud of what you have accomplished and excited for everything that is to come for you and you husband! I also can not wait for the Perkins blog to be up! Continue to do what you are doing and the rest will sort out when it does. Love ya! And see you on snap! 😘
OMG! I just subscribed to you, you are so real! What lipstick are you wearing in this video?
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I have never seen a video like this thankful for how sincere you were and sooo happy to get to know you better