I too was sexually molested by my aunt at the age of 4 and then repeatedly raped by an adult male family friend from the age of 9. Then was taken advantage of by an older boy in my neighborhood. It really messed me up and made me question my sexuality to the point that I actually tried to convince myself that I was gay. This did have an impact on severe masterbation issues that I have battled with for years. After about 2 years of being exposed to the gay lifestyle at the age of 20 working in gay bars and restaurants, I came to the realization that I did not enjoy any of this lifestyle and became depressed and suicidal, using drugs & alcohol to try to drown it out. It wasn't until I started worshiping God and crying out for Him, that I became saved and have been able to turn my life around with Christ at the helm, leading my life. It's not always easy and I do still have my struggles to this day, but I am stronger everyday. You are not alone and neither am I. The one thing that really hit me like a bullet to the heart was realizing that God sees me and all things that I do 24/7, so He is present when I am sinning, performing the filthy things that I tried to convince myself that nobody could see or know about...He sees it.
Tubewatcher 501 God bless You! Your story is powerful too. In Greek Orthodoxy, we have a saying; "Christos Anestie ". it means Christ is Risen!! What you said reminds me of that hope. Your life can exemplify that. :) I hope you live a life that risies from the dead!
Tubewatcher, He loves you and He wants to heal you. The best for you is in his hands. I grieve for your pain. Healing will overcome that; and turn sufferings into blessings to be a sign of healings into blessings.
Damn Thanks for sharing this raw and real video Very brave to have put all the struggles of life out in the open for the world to see (wether one agrees or not, still courageous to be able to be this honest) 👍👍👍👌🏼👏🏼👏🏼😉 Hope this guys is living his life happily as he seeks.. ✌🏼
Thank you Jayson for sharing your mirrored image with me. I am believing at some time in all of our lives we all experiment with ourselves. Discover what is True with us just like an alcoholic taking one sip and then the entire bottle. Then throwing that bottle in the ocean of lost loves and passions. I do know what it feels like to black out and being rejected in a Hispanic Family. I am not Hispanic myself but married into the culture in which is very quite different. God does work with us through our loneliness and personal suffering. It helps to stay focused on what makes you you. Thank you for sharing. I needed a breath of fresh air😇🔔
I had a similar experience growing up. My Dad was half Armenian half Spanish, when I would spend time with that side of the family I was the "white" girl. On my Moms side they were 100% Norwegian, so when I was with them I was called "swarthy " . I didn't feel like I fit in anywhere and I had a deep feeling of rejection. Later I began experimenting with drugs and same sex relationships, then ultimately found my way to the Lord Jesus Christ. He loves me unconditionally ,something I've never experienced before.
Amen and my heart breaks for racism in this country and many who suffer including myself at one point. My heart goes out to them. Jesus can heal and deliver us from the stain and wound of racism. He delivered me :)
I'm confused...Are you straight? I eas sexually abused at 5, by my step dad. It messed me up mentally, emotionally. Thought I was bisexual because I was afraid of men, but now am married. It's tough trying to overcome sexual abuse. It's like once I was abused, I've never been the same. Like being scared for life. Felt so dirty after.
NaturalHI Remember that our hearts and souls is perfect, divine and untoched, and the cells of our physical body change constantly, so we have complete new bodies (not young bodies) every few months, is only our minds that we have to liberated, only work on having a change of mind as the Bible say, fully renewed as your heart, and you will feel, clean and liberated. The key is to see and love ourselves as God sees and loves. A sad thing happened to you, you were in the wrong place at the wrong time, thank God that happened a longtime a go and it will never happen to you ever. Fear does not come from, physical, mind and espiritual strength from martial arts and good Christian study and community makes miracles.
Jayson, I can definitely understand where you're coming from. I went through an addiction to pornography and was sexually active as a child. I went through an addiction to masturbation as well. I just want to say that it's important to really look at yourself and not take those "slips" lightly. I myself continue to sin, but I don't act on it because the Spirit keeps me from it. I may be a new Christian, but I can tell you that if I acted out on it I would end up in a much worse place than I would have started in, just as Jesus warns in the Gospels. The Spirit cannot bear bad fruit. I recommend Paul Washer, or Voddie Baucham to really get an understanding of what being a Christian is. Just trust in God. May he bless you on your journey. Don't give up.
Thank you Jayson. I was called names in middle school too - especially “gay”. Never did the school shower thing until high school. But I was labeled or viewed with scorn by a few people in my life. Even recently someone alluded to me acting gay. It has affected me for years, along with my own struggles with same sex attraction. But God is faithful and has spared me of much potential heartache by sparing me of ever having actual same sex encounters. Most of it has been an inner struggle. God has also given me several accountability friends that I can share with. I am just starting my own channel, “Deliverance Child”, to address topics such as these. I would invite you, Jayson, as well as others, to visit my channel and share your victories and thoughts so others, my subscribers and visitors, will have seasoned resources such as yourself to help them out.
My heart goes out to you. I pray God continues to heal you. I had a wonderful childhood with loving parents and was free from any molestation. I accepted Christ at 16 and was able to grow strong in the Lord. That continues to this day. At 28, I was finally brave enough to accept myself as God created me, man that is gay. It’s been an incredible journey to discover that it’s not sinful and that it completes me as God intended. Those who abused you against your will were wrong and it’s unfortunate it confused you as you grew. Thank God he heals. I pray God continues to bless all our lives and that He gives us all the strength to live as He created us.
Great testimony Jayson! What many do not realize is that sexual deviancy and/or sexual addiction is a spirit...it gets in you and is hard to get out. With my case, it was primarily adultery and fornication many, many years ago...but still the same result...as various sexual desires and imaginations ensued even after quitting those practices. Yet, when I received my first deliverance in late 1994, God allowed me to see certain spirits come out. I literally saw them in a vision, and was first ashamed to tell anyone...especially with me being a Christian who had repented of those things and was going to church. Since that time, I have had a teaching ministry, and one of my main ministries is in men's prisons. Many of them have done anything you can imagine. Yet, I tell them how unclean spirits can get into a person and then drive them with various compulsions...and many believe and seek to get free. Yet, deliverance is very much still needed, even after many come to Christ, because what I have seen, and have experienced myself, is those unclean demons don't always leave simply because one repents. Many times, they still need to be cast out...and this is where the gifts of the Spirit comes in, as mentioned in 1 Corinthians chapter 12.
Jason - Mexican is not a race per se, but a nationality and culture. Within, there are mixed groups: Anglo (European) native American and others. Perhaps you mean mestizo (Anglo + native American)? I'm Mexican, but the fact ethically ambiguous, yet look 'white.' At any rate, I connected with many parts of your story, especially the feeling that one doesn't 'measure up' to others our same age.
Oh man, God bless you! You have analyzed the genesis of how this attraction began. All of us are born into sin, so in that way, "we are all born that way."
Yes but I do believe there is most likely a connectiom between sexual abuse and same sex attraction. That doesn't make it right but it does mean we should try to help those people heal from it.
I thought it was funny as he said his heritage was half or a quarter Mexican.i have the same trouble although I am Colombian but everyone says I look white so self identity has always been hard for me .I feel I have to prove myself constantly and because I speak Spanish people now believe me.i have always felt insecure and like I am never enough.i don't know where I really fit in.
john stoudt I’m Colombian as well, my dad is Colombian but very white, blond and blue eyes, my mom is mixed white and Native American, I grew up in Colombia most kids were “brown” they used to make fun of me calling me ghost or too pale. I remember as a teenager trying to get tan so people wouldn’t make fun of me. Unfortunately you see racism in every culture is not only a “white thing”. We are create in the image of our creator, society wants to divide people according to their race. We are all the same before God’s eyes. Love God, Love yourself ❤️
Children are mixed up and confused-a lot of them due to inappropriate care and extreme denial in parenthood. How to get help and childhood education awareness is essential for both parents as well as children at very young ages. Abuse as well as sexual inappropriate goings on tears at a child’s development as well as identify. Children were not made or born to be used or betrayed; nor were they born to be hit or belittled. Trauma affects children 10 plus times more as well as chemically rewires their brain and triggers all forms of obsessions, addictions (escapism) and repeat behaviors of self abuse to cope in the world. Being informed at an early age will protect their integrity and self esteem. Equipping them with much needed resources can set them free of abuse with such awareness. Children silently scream for help but we do not listen. Trauma causes disabilities in children who endured abuse into adulthood. Silence no more! Children must be heard and believed with compassionate understanding and fair resolve. ETA🌹
I had suffered as I had been molested once, and I can understand some of the struggles. Thank you for being transparent and your honesty.
Wow...I love these testimonials...Gives me hope and encouragement to continue on.
such were some of you. ❤️
Jason, I found your 'story' and the way that you shared it helpful.Keep up the good work!
Wow, this guy is very eloquent. He really knows how to get the message across. Keep doing the good work, you're helping a lot of people.
I too was sexually molested by my aunt at the age of 4 and then repeatedly raped by an adult male family friend from the age of 9. Then was taken advantage of by an older boy in my neighborhood. It really messed me up and made me question my sexuality to the point that I actually tried to convince myself that I was gay. This did have an impact on severe masterbation issues that I have battled with for years. After about 2 years of being exposed to the gay lifestyle at the age of 20 working in gay bars and restaurants, I came to the realization that I did not enjoy any of this lifestyle and became depressed and suicidal, using drugs & alcohol to try to drown it out. It wasn't until I started worshiping God and crying out for Him, that I became saved and have been able to turn my life around with Christ at the helm, leading my life. It's not always easy and I do still have my struggles to this day, but I am stronger everyday. You are not alone and neither am I. The one thing that really hit me like a bullet to the heart was realizing that God sees me and all things that I do 24/7, so He is present when I am sinning, performing the filthy things that I tried to convince myself that nobody could see or know about...He sees it.
Tubewatcher 501 God bless You! Your story is powerful too. In Greek Orthodoxy, we have a saying; "Christos Anestie ". it means Christ is Risen!! What you said reminds me of that hope. Your life can exemplify that. :) I hope you live a life that risies from the dead!
Tubewatcher, He loves you and He wants to heal you. The best for you is in his hands. I grieve for your pain. Healing will overcome that; and turn sufferings into blessings to be a sign of healings into blessings.
WOW! God bless you for your courageous testimony.
Not only the guy who molested him should be held accountable but so should the woman. She's guilty too.
Damn
Thanks for sharing this raw and real video
Very brave to have put all the struggles of life out in the open for the world to see (wether one agrees or not, still courageous to be able to be this honest) 👍👍👍👌🏼👏🏼👏🏼😉
Hope this guys is living his life happily as he seeks.. ✌🏼
Thank you Jayson for sharing your mirrored image with me. I am believing at some time in all of our lives we all experiment with ourselves. Discover what is True with us just like an alcoholic taking one sip and then the entire bottle. Then throwing that bottle in the ocean of lost loves and passions. I do know what it feels like to black out and being rejected in a Hispanic Family. I am not Hispanic myself but married into the culture in which is very quite different. God does work with us through our loneliness and personal suffering. It helps to stay focused on what makes you you. Thank you for sharing. I needed a breath of fresh air😇🔔
I had a similar experience growing up. My Dad was half Armenian half Spanish, when I would spend time with that side of the family I was the "white" girl. On my Moms side they were 100% Norwegian, so when I was with them I was called "swarthy " . I didn't feel like I fit in anywhere and I had a deep feeling of rejection. Later I began experimenting with drugs and same sex relationships, then ultimately found my way to the Lord Jesus Christ. He loves me unconditionally ,something I've never experienced before.
Amen and my heart breaks for racism in this country and many who suffer including myself at one point. My heart goes out to them. Jesus can heal and deliver us from the stain and wound of racism. He delivered me :)
I can see how sexual abuse and other childhood factors could make a man think he has attractions to men.
I'm confused...Are you straight? I eas sexually abused at 5, by my step dad. It messed me up mentally, emotionally. Thought I was bisexual because I was afraid of men, but now am married. It's tough trying to overcome sexual abuse. It's like once I was abused, I've never been the same. Like being scared for life. Felt so dirty after.
NaturalHI Remember that our hearts and souls is perfect, divine and untoched, and the cells of our physical body change constantly, so we have complete new bodies (not young bodies) every few months, is only our minds that we have to liberated, only work on having a change of mind as the Bible say, fully renewed as your heart, and you will feel, clean and liberated. The key is to see and love ourselves as God sees and loves. A sad thing happened to you, you were in the wrong place at the wrong time, thank God that happened a longtime a go and it will never happen to you ever. Fear does not come from, physical, mind and espiritual strength from martial arts and good Christian study and community makes miracles.
Jayson, I can definitely understand where you're coming from. I went through an addiction to pornography and was sexually active as a child. I went through an addiction to masturbation as well. I just want to say that it's important to really look at yourself and not take those "slips" lightly. I myself continue to sin, but I don't act on it because the Spirit keeps me from it. I may be a new Christian, but I can tell you that if I acted out on it I would end up in a much worse place than I would have started in, just as Jesus warns in the Gospels. The Spirit cannot bear bad fruit. I recommend Paul Washer, or Voddie Baucham to really get an understanding of what being a Christian is.
Just trust in God. May he bless you on your journey. Don't give up.
God bless you for sharing your testimony. May God keep you on His path!
Thank you for sharing.
Feel sorry for him. .always exposed to sex in the most negative way. His wife is asking for nothing but problems
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Thank you Jayson. I was called names in middle school too - especially “gay”. Never did the school shower thing until high school. But I was labeled or viewed with scorn by a few people in my life. Even recently someone alluded to me acting gay. It has affected me for years, along with my own struggles with same sex attraction. But God is faithful and has spared me of much potential heartache by sparing me of ever having actual same sex encounters. Most of it has been an inner struggle. God has also given me several accountability friends that I can share with. I am just starting my own channel, “Deliverance Child”, to address topics such as these. I would invite you, Jayson, as well as others, to visit my channel and share your victories and thoughts so others, my subscribers and visitors, will have seasoned resources such as yourself to help them out.
Deliverance Child God bless. You inspire me
What you said your parents should have said is soooo correct.
Another awesome testimony!!! Thank you for what your ministry is doing.
Excellent testimony Jayson, God bless you and help you in times of weakness.🙏✝️
Thank you for sharing your struggle...and the testimony of Who your victory comes through. His strength is sufficient...God Bless.
Amazing grace! Thank you for sharing your Testimony...
Thank you for sharing you are very brave!!
My heart goes out to you. I pray God continues to heal you. I had a wonderful childhood with loving parents and was free from any molestation. I accepted Christ at 16 and was able to grow strong in the Lord. That continues to this day. At 28, I was finally brave enough to accept myself as God created me, man that is gay. It’s been an incredible journey to discover that it’s not sinful and that it completes me as God intended. Those who abused you against your will were wrong and it’s unfortunate it confused you as you grew. Thank God he heals. I pray God continues to bless all our lives and that He gives us all the strength to live as He created us.
GOD loves us hates the sin an we are living in the days of noah
Where sin abounds, God's grace is greater.
Great testimony Jayson! What many do not realize is that sexual deviancy and/or sexual addiction is a spirit...it gets in you and is hard to get out. With my case, it was primarily adultery and fornication many, many years ago...but still the same result...as various sexual desires and imaginations ensued even after quitting those practices.
Yet, when I received my first deliverance in late 1994, God allowed me to see certain spirits come out. I literally saw them in a vision, and was first ashamed to tell anyone...especially with me being a Christian who had repented of those things and was going to church.
Since that time, I have had a teaching ministry, and one of my main ministries is in men's prisons. Many of them have done anything you can imagine. Yet, I tell them how unclean spirits can get into a person and then drive them with various compulsions...and many believe and seek to get free.
Yet, deliverance is very much still needed, even after many come to Christ, because what I have seen, and have experienced myself, is those unclean demons don't always leave simply because one repents. Many times, they still need to be cast out...and this is where the gifts of the Spirit comes in, as mentioned in 1 Corinthians chapter 12.
this is true,i have a demon and i have prayed but it has not left yet,but it will
i enjoyed reading this story.
This is basically my life story some differences but especially early childhood and teens.
Poor bastard was ruined real early.
Thankyou Jason,your life story is very inspiring to me,pls pray for me am still struggling,
Think of how many men who haven't come forward . . . it is rampant!
Jason - Mexican is not a race per se, but a nationality and culture. Within, there are mixed groups: Anglo (European) native American and others. Perhaps you mean mestizo (Anglo + native American)? I'm Mexican, but the fact ethically ambiguous, yet look 'white.' At any rate, I connected with many parts of your story, especially the feeling that one doesn't 'measure up' to others our same age.
God is good all the time. Thank you for sharing your story I am so glad you are strong in your faith
One of the best testimonys JESUS is REAL he will HEAL.......YOU
I need to contact you and your ministry. Do u have an e-mail? I need some help
There is a ministry find section at these two sites: www.restoredhopenetwork.org www.desertstream.org
I can never be this honest about a sin that is so abominable,Even when I commit it.
Wow.....your life story almost match my miserable life.....my hell began at 3 years of age....and I don’t believe in any God because of that.
Jay Ishere i am so sorry....all i can say is that Jesus Christ can truly heal you
and the truth shall set you free - freedom thou JESUS CHRIST
key: lay it all on the table
Oh man, God bless you! You have analyzed the genesis of how this attraction began. All of us are born into sin, so in that way, "we are all born that way."
Yes but I do believe there is most likely a connectiom between sexual abuse and same sex attraction. That doesn't make it right but it does mean we should try to help those people heal from it.
I thought it was funny as he said his heritage was half or a quarter Mexican.i have the same trouble although I am Colombian but everyone says I look white so self identity has always been hard for me .I feel I have to prove myself constantly and because I speak Spanish people now believe me.i have always felt insecure and like I am never enough.i don't know where I really fit in.
john stoudt I’m Colombian as well, my dad is Colombian but very white, blond and blue eyes, my mom is mixed white and Native American, I grew up in Colombia most kids were “brown” they used to make fun of me calling me ghost or too pale. I remember as a teenager trying to get tan so people wouldn’t make fun of me. Unfortunately you see racism in every culture is not only a “white thing”. We are create in the image of our creator, society wants to divide people according to their race. We are all the same before God’s eyes. Love God, Love yourself ❤️
I really love and identify with you my brother
I'm so sorry. I love you!
Children are mixed up and confused-a lot of them due to inappropriate care and extreme denial in parenthood.
How to get help and childhood education awareness is essential for both parents as well as children at very young ages.
Abuse as well as sexual inappropriate goings on tears at a child’s development as well as identify. Children were not made or born to be used or betrayed; nor were they born to be hit or belittled.
Trauma affects children 10 plus times more as well as chemically rewires their brain and triggers all forms of obsessions, addictions (escapism) and repeat behaviors of self abuse to cope in the world.
Being informed at an early age will protect their integrity and self esteem. Equipping them with much needed resources can set them free of abuse with such awareness.
Children silently scream for help but we do not listen.
Trauma causes disabilities in children who endured abuse into adulthood.
Silence no more!
Children must be heard and believed with compassionate understanding and fair resolve.
ETA🌹
He's certainly old enough to get his life together.
Wish u the best
Very honest and im.sure hard to talk about
It started with National Geographic magazine the pictures of the African women.
you are very handsome and attractive and the creeps out there make a bee line and behave in such a criminal way
Uh...700 Club interview 🤔👼🏻