college is rough: miserable at UCLA | Glowup journal 4

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  • College is hard, but nobody talks about the mental and emotional struggles students go through.
    In this video, I'm going over some of my most vulnerable and stressful times as a UCLA student with the struggles I faced academically, physically, and socially.
    This video is very emotional and personal to me as it evoked some of my worst memories at UCLA facing failures in classes (failing an exam that I worked my butt off for), insomnia, weight gain, acne, and feeling the loneliest I've ever been and constantly filling myself with toxic thoughts that no one wants to be friends with me.
    The level of transparency I had in this video is to not discourage anyone in pursuing their higher education but to simply draw more attention to the fact that college might not be easy for everyone. Quite frankly, college (UCLA) could be quite overwhelming and could be stressful and too much for one's mental health.
    But it is okay to not be okay.
    As a crucial part of my glow up journey, my rough college experience taught me many invaluable things and motivated me to become more resilient than ever.
    Stay strong and stay you.
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  • @zoeunlimited
    @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว +523

    Sorry for how emotional this video came out. When reflecting on my college experience, some of my most raw and visceral reactions were helplessly evoked. This video is not to discourage anyone in pursuing their college degree, but simply to shatter the illusion I used to create about how great and effortless my college life was. At the end of the day, don’t be embarrassed of your struggles, they are what help us grow.🦋

    • @dagracevvv
      @dagracevvv 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      You are so right! Im so happy you are better now. ✨💕💖

    • @dagracevvv
      @dagracevvv 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@aldynjadeguabna2561 You've got this! Praying for everything to get better for you. I know you can do this. You are STRONG! 💕🥰

    • @dagracevvv
      @dagracevvv 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@aldynjadeguabna2561 💖

    • @akitoentt
      @akitoentt 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      This video tore me apart... 😔✨ You are soo strong

    • @RokkitStudios
      @RokkitStudios 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      really proud of you Zoe for getting through all of this! you’re definitely not alone in this and college is a really really really really rough experience that I think many of us will also attest to - we just never opened up about it. So thank you for making this video and I appreciate all you do on this channel

  • @MM-yl9ig
    @MM-yl9ig 3 ปีที่แล้ว +519

    I wish you all best in life, you seem like such a good girl, you deserved better

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว +47

      Thank you😭💗

    • @bhartisagar6629
      @bhartisagar6629 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      @@zoeunlimited well I am a new subscriber but I must tell u that after watching ur fitness videos of how to get legs like kpop idol I actually became your fan cause your tips were reasonable and true. After watching your glow up journals I was literally speechless I was so inspired and motivated by you seriously means I am a person who doesn't get inspired by someone easily . In one of your video you told to *be fit for yourself* that hit me hard. You deserve more subcribers and love and I wanna meet you so badly . Btw I live in India love from India💜💜💜💜💜 🇮🇳🇮🇳
      Sorry for such a long comment but I couldn't control my self well tbh I left out so many things and one more thing I am a person who doesn't oftenly comment especially such a long comment love you so much zoe stay safe and healthy and happy

  • @quelybean
    @quelybean 3 ปีที่แล้ว +233

    I really related to this ;-; I am currently attending UCLA and it’s amazing how alone I feel in such a big public university. I have three friends that I love dearly, but my anxiety and fear of falling behind classes pull me back from spending more time with them and meeting new people. I’m having a really hard time and feel like a real imposter. Seeing you overcome all that really made me feel like there will be a day that I will be happy and okay with myself 💜 so thank you 🥺💜💜💜

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      Yes! You are not alone and you will get through this💪🏻💜

  • @Thatwasianboii
    @Thatwasianboii 3 ปีที่แล้ว +75

    I feel this so hard. I applied to a good majority of UC's, and got rejected from all of them. I then applied to the UofA, where I was accepted. Throughout my college life, I went through so many identity crisis' because I was an exceptionally well student in high school. My grades flopped so hard that I risked being removed from my major. Senior Year, I had the choice of continuing on with my major (which I absolutely loved) but graduate in a year or two, or transfer and start fresh. I chose the latter, and went to Nursing School. Now I'm still fresh into Nursing school, but my grades have been dramatically improving. I share this because in high school, the common vibe is "okay, go to the school of my dreams, major in something I want, and graduate in four years". Sometimes life has different plans, and part of growing is the ability to accept and move on. I wished I knew this, and knew the proper coping mechanisms, but its okay. We're thriving now.

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      So glad to hear how everything turned out! Yes! It’s perfectly okay to struggle and take a detour from our plans. We only become stronger and better through these challenging times💛

  • @p8735
    @p8735 3 ปีที่แล้ว +291

    as a freshman in college feeling some similar emotions and struggling with some similar experiences, i really really appreciate seeing someone else come out and talk about some of the shitty things that can happen. but you’re right, the only way out is through, and the light is at the end of the tunnel. keep staying strong, you’re inspiring :)

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว +21

      You can pull through this💪🏻💜

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      You can pull through this💪🏻💜

    • @AvaPhoenix-hx5fi
      @AvaPhoenix-hx5fi 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      SAME.

    • @tainaquarrie7249
      @tainaquarrie7249 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Same

    • @PasscodeAdvance
      @PasscodeAdvance ปีที่แล้ว

      same here, I'm also a freshman in college going through similar feelings and experiences

  • @angelkale7547
    @angelkale7547 3 ปีที่แล้ว +119

    I relate so much to many of the things you said🥺 I thought I was the only one sad, anxious, depressed (whatever you wanna call it) college student 👩‍🎓 it’s tough to be pushed into this kind of setting and experience all of this after having hearing “I’m big, you’re small. I’m right, you’re wrong. I’m smart, you’re dumb. And there’s nothing you can do about it.” all the time as a kid or teenager. Thank you for sharing! Adults just say college is hard but they never really explain what is hard about it. I just thought they were talking about the classes until I experienced it myself...

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      You’re definitely not alone and will get through this as a stronger person 💪🏻🦋💖

  • @honeyjam9593
    @honeyjam9593 3 ปีที่แล้ว +85

    i relate so much. i am struggling with depression and anxiety right now. online uni isn't helping at all. it just makes it easier to give up. i keep staying in bed all day, and i'm so behind on some of my classes. i feel so so stuck. i wish i could move like you did, the place i live rn isn't too good for me.

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      But it will get better💛 trust in the process

    • @cassie3104
      @cassie3104 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @Gabriel Donadieu I relate to this too
      I am struggling

  • @chocolateunicorn1883
    @chocolateunicorn1883 3 ปีที่แล้ว +270

    *Its okay to not be fine*
    -Hwasa 💖

  • @mikaylascott8366
    @mikaylascott8366 3 ปีที่แล้ว +69

    I love you for this, it gets really tiring when TH-camrs make it seem like they're living their best life 24/7. You gave us something to relate to so thank you

  • @somebicycle6684
    @somebicycle6684 2 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    I literally cannot with college. This has been the worst semester of my life. I have had so much stress and life changes. I moved out of my parents house, got married, and not even a month after getting married my father-in-law passed away unexpectedly. His death has really affected me and made me examine my own life. College just seems so futile to me now. Why am I doing this? What for? I want to spend time with my family, with loved ones. Life is too short for this. I cant take it anymore.

    • @swiftsea6225
      @swiftsea6225 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@uncertifiedlinguist8396
      So, you’re going to tell a grieving person that “life sucks, then you die.”
      That’s just really cold and uncalled for.
      Before you say, “sorry that’s life.”
      Well, “sorry” but to be an uncaring person and using philosophy to disguise only shows arrogance and crudeness.

  • @hruaiichhakchhuak8031
    @hruaiichhakchhuak8031 3 ปีที่แล้ว +79

    You're so strong to share this with us....expressing your emotions doesn't mean you are weak...it shows that you're brave enough to express your feeling rather than holding in.....stay strong zoe..luv you❤️❤️

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Thanks so much for this!!💜✨ acknowledging and accepting the past so I can look forward 💪🏻

  • @hearthofglass
    @hearthofglass 3 ปีที่แล้ว +58

    I'm entering my 3rd year at ucla and wow, this is relatable. I'm really glad you shared this side because I think many can appreciate the honesty and realize they are not alone when having a similar experience❤️

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Really hoping that people realize that struggling is okay and they are not alone💗 best of luck with your UCLA journey!

  • @poutymochi3783
    @poutymochi3783 3 ปีที่แล้ว +130

    Every body : looking at the video
    Me *Looking at the video but *
    "IT'S OKAY TO NOT BE OKAY"
    Also Me : Wait isn't that a Kdrama thing-

  • @twinlores
    @twinlores 3 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    Fuck I'm not even in college yet but I started crying when you let us hear you telling your mum about your grades. Heck I'm still crying while I write this comment. I'm completing senior high school year and still, this was just so relatable and heartbreaking

  • @calvinraab8798
    @calvinraab8798 3 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    Hey Zoe! I am a senior at UCLA studying economics and thank you so much for opening up and sharing what so many are too scared to talk about. Thank you!

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Yeah of course! I know that not many people talk about their struggles but it’s important to know that there’s nothing wrong or shameful about struggling. Best of luck with you senior year!💪🏻

  • @patrycjalife7
    @patrycjalife7 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    When I first went to uni at 19 I developed depression that took away 2 years of my life and I dropped out because I was too sick to stick it out or whatever, now at 21 I'm again a first year student but I made a lot of progress with my mental health, it's not perfect and I'm aware that depression can come back but therapy helped a lot in accepting reality and built a positive view on myself as a person. Thank you for sharing your story! We need people to talk about their struggles and show that life is not perfect but it gets better

  • @carolinekim7424
    @carolinekim7424 3 ปีที่แล้ว +68

    I love that you show that life isn’t perfect and sometimes life is so tough and your transparent about it. But I believe in you and I know your going to get through it. You have my full support❤️❤️

  • @imannasan
    @imannasan 3 ปีที่แล้ว +41

    So inspiring to see you grow your channel exponentially in the past few videos and to still be so open and vulnerable with your viewers. I relate college definitely had its ups and downs, and glad you could work past them and grow to who you are today! ❤️

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Aww thanks so much girl💗 it took me almost 2 years to be able to truly reflect upon some of my worst times in college and to be honest, it felt therapeutic to finally acknowledge what happened and look forward. Just hoping this could be helpful for anyone experiencing similar things

  • @StephanieRivera14
    @StephanieRivera14 3 ปีที่แล้ว +58

    I felt this! This happened to me at community college, it wasn’t even a university! This feels so horrible, I’m sorry you felt this way but I’m glad you’re better 💕

  • @bhartisagar6629
    @bhartisagar6629 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    Please be strong and don't cry you are my inspiration a girl with dreams, one who inspite facing difficulties achieved their dreams love you so much

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Thanks so much!!😭💜💜 only coming out of these rough times stronger 💪🏻

  • @katieeeeeee011
    @katieeeeeee011 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Thank you for this zoe. I am really having a super hard, miserable and messy time this college and i even feel sick to my stomach just studying so hard just for my accounting degree. Just watching this video again inspires me and keeps me going to reach my dream.

  • @kiuura
    @kiuura 3 ปีที่แล้ว +65

    this is me rn, online classes are destroying my mental health lmao

  • @dagracevvv
    @dagracevvv 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    I love you Zoe. You show that life isn't all cupcakes and rainbows. Thank you for opening up. Life gets hard. It can and WILL get better. I am a teen in middle school, (12) but that doesn't mean I don't lock up my door and cry for hours. To anyone that is struggling, just want to say that it WILL get better. You can't become unbreakable, without being broken. That's life. Raw and uncut. 💖

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Thanks so much for your kind comment💖 you have a lot of wisdom at such a young age and I wish I could’ve seen it throughout clearly as you earlier. 1000% agree with you. It DOES get better

    • @dagracevvv
      @dagracevvv 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@zoeunlimited 💖

    • @donuthetic
      @donuthetic ปีที่แล้ว

      ​@@zoeunlimited I hope it gets better for me too, I'm in high school rn and I dream of getting into this one college

  • @Bia-starlight
    @Bia-starlight 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    This video is so beautiful. I'm also studying in a prestigious school. In my freshman year, the second semester, I lived in a boarding house and had roommates. I could not believe it when I flunked two subjects---one major and one prerequisite. Because of this, I got a warning from my department, and I was devastated.
    I decided to go back home and commute for three hours every day in my sophomore year. In the first semester, I worked hard for this particular class, and I could not accept I still failed. So, overall, I failed three subjects. My heart was so broken that I wanted to cut off my communication with my friends. I wanted to be alone and just study. I wanted to move out and be on my own, but the pandemic happened. I am now in my junior year, and my adviser told me that I cannot graduate next year as I still have more subjects to take.
    Yes, I am still trying. At times, I could not put myself into focus, and I always feel guilty about it. I always feel worried, and I am always tired, considering that I am the only one who does the household chores, takes care of my father---who has cancer; and endures the sight of my sister who's addicted to video games and does not help.
    I feel so down and still want to cut off my communication with my friends and study, but it makes me sad because I feel like I always have to be there for them, so I could not simply do it. I just scheduled an appointment with my professor, who is also a clinical psychologist. Maybe, if I get into therapy, I'll become better, stronger, and more resilient.
    You are an inspiration to me, Zoe. I am genuinely glad I have come across your channel.

  • @nataliem32
    @nataliem32 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I appreciate this video. It is so frustrating to be struggling in an intro level class for your major. I doubt myself every day because it feels like if I can't get through it, I'm in the wrong place. Ahhhh frustrating.

  • @bianca_dianna
    @bianca_dianna 3 ปีที่แล้ว +42

    I’m more of a morning person that’s why I can’t relate to my friends who sleeps around 1 to 3 in the morning

  • @diya5212
    @diya5212 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    I feel you so much.. like college life is harD, even if you're working hard you feel that you're lagging behind and omg the pressure.. at that time I wish I had someone to talk to..not my family because they add more pressure and I feel they don't understand me and only care about my grades :(
    But in that situation God blessed me with my angel like friends..
    Now I'm very happy :)

  • @dominiqueangeliep.dionisio115
    @dominiqueangeliep.dionisio115 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    I want to share to you my favorite qoute now a days
    "It may be sad and hard sometimes, but greater joy is attainable because of sadness. So let's have strength! Live a greater life for yourself" -Moonbyul of MAMAMOO

  • @dannadelarosa9172
    @dannadelarosa9172 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    I'm in my last semester as an accounting student and let me just tell you how much I can relate to this!! I'm also not looking forward to the stress of the review period for the board exam :'( but I'm so happy that you went through all that and emerged strong and victorious and achieved what you worked so hard for!! You're inspiring 💘

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Just know that you will come out a stronger and better person. You got this💖🦋

  • @velvetinsanity9703
    @velvetinsanity9703 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Thank you for sharing your story.. people tell me that I'm pretty but I NEVER feel like it. But after watching your videos, I discovered that I wasn't the problem. It was about what I thought about other people thinking about me. I am extremely insecure, but I just wanted to tell you that you are beautiful, so kind, so helpful, and more than worthy of being truly loved. Thank you, Zoe~

  • @CassidySienna
    @CassidySienna 3 ปีที่แล้ว +47

    I remember when I was a freshman in high school I really wanted to go to UCLA. I decided not to pursue that because of financial reasons. I loved this candid video, seeing this side of college life is super important for people. I’m wishing you the best going forward!!💕

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Thanks so much💗 this is not to discourage anyone in pursuit of their education but to be open about how things might not always be so easy

  • @jela_xyz
    @jela_xyz 3 ปีที่แล้ว +57

    So this is a college life? I'm scared huhuhu😬 I'll be joining college this year. I love you zoe! Your such a great and inspiring girl 💕

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      Doesn’t happen to everyone but college isn’t easy for everyone either💛

    • @jela_xyz
      @jela_xyz 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@zoeunlimited omg she replied💖

    • @user-qy6tu9ip9v
      @user-qy6tu9ip9v 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @Sarthak Jain I want to go into software engineering and I honestly do believe that I am going to suffer. I hate that feeling but I also want to succeed. I hope I do well.

    • @user-qy6tu9ip9v
      @user-qy6tu9ip9v 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @Sarthak Jain Are you in software engineering? I am just so curious about it.

    • @user-qy6tu9ip9v
      @user-qy6tu9ip9v 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @Sarthak Jain Oh ok. Have a wonderful day.

  • @aarna3625
    @aarna3625 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    I always used to think that you are living a beautiful life getting high grades
    But no one's life is EASY
    We need to work hard to make it easy ☺️
    Just remember that hard time will go off soon and good Time is waiting for you at your goal

  • @hyunjin1692
    @hyunjin1692 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Thank you for making this I can relate to your experience of feeling lonely and not realizing my worth in the past

  • @rafailinastrati3535
    @rafailinastrati3535 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    thank you so much for showing your vulnerability and sensitivity! I empathised so much that I was crying dyring the whole video even if also for me this dark college period was three years ago. I needed this so much so thank you again🥰🌻🌺

  • @isabella9124
    @isabella9124 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    You are worthy! :) College is hard, I had mental breakdowns and had to transfer to another college. Don’t lose faith and really listen to your health (your breath and body). ❤️

  • @StressJudoCoaching
    @StressJudoCoaching 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Thank you for your honesty & openness. Even though this was probably painful to make, it's actually quite beautifully human. (I drank my way through college so ... yeah ...)

  • @_AnD_V
    @_AnD_V 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    It's happening the same to me, Now I'm studying in China and this is so hard. I feel almost in the same way, but that "it's okay not to be okay" made me feel better, thanks ❤️

  • @Sprinkleofthoughts
    @Sprinkleofthoughts 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Currently a first year experiencing almost everything you said! Very appreciative of this video. ❤️

  • @imamfmirrorball
    @imamfmirrorball 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    This was so inspirational for someone who's still in high school and working to get admitted to such competitive colleges

  • @yangjinri4899
    @yangjinri4899 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Thank you for sharing this.
    I am now a college student and I am feeling so stressed with my schoolworks, to the point that I had break down and it feels like I couldn't handle it anymore.
    🥺😥😊

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      You’re stronger than you think💪🏻💛

    • @yangjinri4899
      @yangjinri4899 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@zoeunlimited Thank you, I wish I'll get through this.
      Aja!Fighting!🤗

  • @mafer.castrosoto
    @mafer.castrosoto 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I just started college and this is truly making me feel so much better. I thought that I was the only one, but you are making me realize that that isn't true. I'm literally going through similar things and your video is what I needed. Thank you so much!!!

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I’m so glad that this was helpful! You’re definitely not alone and trust me, it will get better and you will be stronger💜💜

  • @Anna-sf6cj
    @Anna-sf6cj 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    She literally made me cry.... all the things I faced at different parts in my school life were there and she faced them all together. Strong Girl.

  • @heyitsjesssss
    @heyitsjesssss 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Zoe, I feel your pain so acutely, I go to a small christian school and during my first semester of college I failed one of my nursing prerequisites. I kept forcing myself through the major and felt so lonely and sad during my first year. This year, my sophomore year, I finally decided to change majors from nursing to something I felt more passionate about and was more naturally geared too. I would definitely not say everything is completely better, and there are moments I feel really lost, but time is great healer and it's so helpful to know that other people have similar experience and can offer encouragement.❤

  • @martinnguyen2458
    @martinnguyen2458 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I know how you feel. College wasn't easy for me. I was unprepared, I struggled a lot in classes, I got angry, I got depressed, I got scolded so much by the teachers, I had anxiety, and I felt so broken.

  • @jinghan1219
    @jinghan1219 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Zoe this video is so relatable, and honestly I feel so many of us have been there. It’s so hard and sometimes I still give myself heck retrospect for not studying harder when my anxiety stress digestion and sleep were out of the window. My self esteem was also rock bottom, and the loneliness was so there because I didn’t think I was good enough for anything or anyone. Now graduated I hardly think about those times, but your video has also reminded me to reflect on my strengths and what I have gone through. This was like a video from a best friend and I am so happy to have seen it. Wish us all the best.

  • @Starlight-sc4bp
    @Starlight-sc4bp 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    My mental health was horrible last year in college. It's a bit better but my anxiety gets worse every time in class. I made a couple friends along the way but I felt more lonelier than ever. They tried to help me as much as possible and cheer me up. I haven't slept well in many days but my final exam is coming up. What if I fail? What if it was all for nothing? Those are my constant thoughts every single day in college.

  • @Nicdangershouse.
    @Nicdangershouse. 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    What doesn't kill us ,only makes us stronger.......look at you now...... strong, smart,bold and beautiful... you can now go through life and fear nothing

  • @poppycalliope
    @poppycalliope 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Thank you for opening up sweetie ❤ this is so helpful for people who go through the same situation ❤

  • @nikkaong7015
    @nikkaong7015 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Hi, Zoe. I just like to say thank you for being an inspiration. Right now, I feel stuck with my situation. I've started to gain weight and my face has been bombarded by acne because of stress. I was trying to shift a career, from a med tech to a freelancer, and this feeling of uncertainty makes me anxious about my life decisions. I also felt alone all this time, even though i have friends. Seeing how you pushed through with your situation gives me strength. Thank you.

  • @lacielight2090
    @lacielight2090 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    As someone who’s in her first year of actual university, and in her sophomore-junior year in credits, i really appreciate this video.. I’m having reality slap me in the face right now, college is extremely difficult, I’m just glad I’m not alone. Thank you for the motivation. 💫

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      You’re definitely not alone!! Things could be rough but you can get through them!💪🏻

  • @FIyingDumpling
    @FIyingDumpling 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    My hardest class was intro to account in Brooklyn college. I got an A in the course but it was ALL self taught. In that way I was really proud of myself because it showed me I didn’t really need a professor to do well. I can’t imagine how hard it must be in ucla

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Haha self teaching is a must in college!

  • @AvaPhoenix-hx5fi
    @AvaPhoenix-hx5fi 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I miss high school sfm
    I was told college is hard but I didn’t expect it to be this difficult, this is my freshmen year at college and it’s frustrating me sm already everything is

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      The challenges will only make you stronger 💪🏻💛

    • @AvaPhoenix-hx5fi
      @AvaPhoenix-hx5fi 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@zoeunlimited 💖💛💛💛💛💛💛

    • @user-qy6tu9ip9v
      @user-qy6tu9ip9v 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@AvaPhoenix-hx5fi How are you doing so far?

  • @raevenne_
    @raevenne_ 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    so glad i found ur channel! its been a struggle for me for the past few months as a college freshie in this time ;( and this motivated me somehow :")

  • @emilyart2854
    @emilyart2854 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I am not gonna count friends when I have a few I can count on,
    ❤️❤️ that hit hard, you don’t know how I needed this ❤️❤️

  • @lululiao4789
    @lululiao4789 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I tried to hold back my tears ... until I get to 7:48 ... you are such a wonderful human being, and I am so glad that I have you in my life as well💛🧡❤️ 法学院也快把我搞得窒息了… 睡前看到你发了新video不管多累也想瞬间点开看看… you provide me with more energy TY!!💕💕💞

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      😭💜💛🤍 so so grateful for you!! 最近看到你在法学院不断的努力,即为你高兴又心疼你这么辛苦🥺 相信你一定可以战胜种种困难 实现自己的梦想🦋 看好我们聪明美丽的lulu. fighting!!💪🏻💖✨

    • @lululiao4789
      @lululiao4789 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      zoeunlimited 💪🏻🙏👌🏻!嗯嗯我好好努力 嘻嘻

  • @Michelle-ep3gg
    @Michelle-ep3gg 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you for opening up. As someone that had a terrible college experience I wish people talked about bad experiences more often. Not everyone loves their college experience

  • @demi-of4ds
    @demi-of4ds 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    please stay strong zoe! sending love and prayers 🤍

  • @whitesalt9618
    @whitesalt9618 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Just failed out of college because I started it too early. RIGHT out of high-school I went in. People told me "its better, do it now or it'll be even harder" but I wasn't ready for it. I failed today. My financial aid is gone. Any dreams I had for the future seem like just dreams now. And I really don't know what the point in me still having a life is. So I can live a harder life I was trying to stay away from? Idk. Glad it's working out for you

  • @shadmansakibkhan500
    @shadmansakibkhan500 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I just wanna say Thank you so much Zoe. I can relate to you on a lot of things. Thank you for sharing your struggling journey.

  • @arringtonjones6394
    @arringtonjones6394 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    thank you for being the brave soul who decided to tear down societal expectations and show the world what it’s like to truly be human 💕💞💘. you are a beautiful soul, inside and out, and I know there are so many great things in store for you in the near future.
    加油🙌🏽

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Aww thanks so much for your kind words💗💗 一起加油 💪🏻

  • @Rainjojo
    @Rainjojo 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I actually shed tears watching this, and it’s been so long since Ive been in a depressive state. Many other youtubers glorify college to make it appear as this easy-going, aesthetic living you’d live comfortably, but my reality is quite different.
    I grew up as a lower-middle class with average grades. nothing too special but a good range of A’s- Low B’s on most occasions. The scholarships and Financial Aid is important since it’ll cover my entire education till I’m through, and just thinking how I might jeopardize that because I’m not smart like the rest gives me anxiety.
    Im a freshman, but already I feel alienated from my peers. I’ve made many mistakes in my past assignments, and it still sticks with me on how I messed up, and what’s worse is that others would do 10x better while my efforts are tossed in the garbage.
    Having no one there to talk with also takes a toll on my health. Even though I’m an introvert, it sucks having scarcely anyone to talk with. I’m grateful for the one friend I’ve made and couldn’t ask for more, but it hurts when I go to class and nearly everyone refuses to associate with me.
    It’s hard adjusting to a new life like this as if dirty roommates aren’t enough to drive me insane. They aren’t bad people, but are inconsiderate and get too comfy thinking they can do whatever to the dorm.
    I wanna cry but never have the time too till now, and it felt relieving. I may not be as bright, but I get through with hard work. I hope EVERYTHING I’ve been through pays off, and I’ll never have to deal with this shit again in the future

    • @minhduong2930
      @minhduong2930 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I know how you are feeling... College is nothing like high school where you can get a B or even a C and feel okay with it. With college assignments, there is no clear pass criteria and you can never be sure if you do good or not. And it's such a scary experience.
      Friends in college are very much based on mutual benefits, and it's hard to find someone to talk to...
      I search for emotional support on youtube and internet a lot, and actually find people with the same situation, but after all I realize no one can help me through this tough time other than myself.
      Be strong ☺ I'm sure better days will come. Our life have just started.

  • @azzahras.brotokusumo4179
    @azzahras.brotokusumo4179 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    oh my god thank you so much for making this. This really help me. I'm in my last year in university, and it's been hard for me these past months.

  • @nithyaanumolu9506
    @nithyaanumolu9506 ปีที่แล้ว

    Im watching this now and you came a long way zoe 🥺. Your future self is definitely proud of you !! Im the same boat right now in college and depressed but this is giving me hope . Thank you 💓

  • @ssharon4198
    @ssharon4198 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Even though I'm just and just "14", people like you still teach me the importance of life, and help me living a better life while I was thinking to end my life.

  • @sumii7480
    @sumii7480 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    honestly it was so heartbreaking to see you cry, i cried too. I'm so glad to see you in a happier, better place now and wish you the best of luck in the future xxx

  • @paulatristan8189
    @paulatristan8189 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This video was beautiful because it shows you and your responsibilities to yourself First. Without you taking care of yourself first and your personal issues (a therapist) you can't function which means things start going down hill and they did.
    You look so much better, happier and you look healthy sweetheart. Your first year in college and even your second year can be very frustrating, hard to deal with you feel alone and lonely. Its the adjustment period you'll go through. I feel like you're doing it😃👍🎉
    and that makes me so happy for you. You aren't alone in your feelings. Two good things happened for you #1. You seen a therapist good girl 😁
    and #2. You got the heck out of that dorm room🙄 and into your own place. Things will change for the better for you now watch and see dear. I'm wishing you all the best life and school have to give you. Yes it was tuff at first but things will get better as you get a handle on your life.
    Take care and I wish you well🤗💕👍🎉 your an extraordinary young lady Zoe☺

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Aww thanks so much for the kind message!!💗 yes! Learning to seek help is super important and seeking to make changes is also important when feeling stuck. Hope we all learn and grow to be our better selves💪🏻🦋

  • @lucystanhope1745
    @lucystanhope1745 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I’m about to finish my first year at my dream university.
    I’ve never wanted to give up more in my entire life. I don’t eat, I don’t sleep well, I’m stressed out mess. All my friends seem to be so smart and I don’t feel good enough.
    Remember you are not alone, but let me tell you... “Don’t do shit if you don’t love it”. You don’t need a degree to be successful.
    If you love it... well, please keep going no matter how hard it is, do it for yourself, no one else, but you❤️❤️
    Now... I’m trying to figure out which one is my case.

  • @rosesareblack514
    @rosesareblack514 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    hey ur doing ur best pls dont pressure urself ever ever!!! you are so smart and amazing, go go go!

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Thank you!! Fighting 💪🏻✨

  • @SuperKingemperor
    @SuperKingemperor 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Wow, this is very deep emotionally. Glad you made it! Most students go through this. It was great that you made this documentary.

  • @biancalucia8388
    @biancalucia8388 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I’m so sorry about your experience. I feel super lonely at my college. Being an online student makes it even worse

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Hopefully school will be back in person soon!

  • @mandiii1872
    @mandiii1872 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you so much for sharing this video. I'm currently going through what you went through. I watched this video while crying. But after having watched it I feel a lot better. I feel like I'm not alone with my struggles

  • @xinqi4228
    @xinqi4228 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    You are loved and are worthy of being loved. Thank you for being honest and emotional because that’s being real. Also, can i just say that i love your channel💕

  • @luisfgo1943
    @luisfgo1943 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I hope you are doing well!!! As someone who is aiming for a top university, this opened my eyes to the reality of college and how I would most likely be in the same solution.

  • @jakefromstatefarm2991
    @jakefromstatefarm2991 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Hi zoe, thank you so much for this video. I feel like this is the aspect no one talks about among college students. I still deal with intrusive thoughts worrying about my future. I constantly worry if I’m even smart enough to be an accounting major. I constantly worry that I won’t appear smart around other people in class, because I can’t process information quickly. I am literally so afraid of making mistakes. I still feel alone as well surrounded by so much people. All of this doubting myself has became so draining, but however it does make us stronger. I can see that it definitely made you stronger, and I know I will be stronger. We all deserve the best for ourselves ❤️

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Thanks for sharing your story! You’re definitely not alone in feeling the worries and struggles. We can and will become our better selves💗✨

  • @Herozonex200
    @Herozonex200 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I'm trying to tell you. College is a scam. Your emotions though. I feel bad for you. I felt that way all in my highschool life. I had no friends, eating cafeteria all alone. My school is full of extroverts. They like to ignore quiet people and they teased me for it. Im still suffering and trying to work on social anxiety everyday. Depression hurts. I feel you. It does get better.

  • @SereF99102
    @SereF99102 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Why didn't I find it earlier this channel? It is like having myself (from the other part of the word) talking with me

  • @ahmadwaraich7865
    @ahmadwaraich7865 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you so much for this; it really struck a personal chord. Wishing you a ton of success and happiness in the future. You lived through it, good for you!

  • @deepanshiarya2937
    @deepanshiarya2937 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    It's okay zoe, it's okay to cry sometimes. I know you're great and your videos helped me a lot, emotionally. You're amazing. Keep shining. I wish you a beautiful life with your loved ones.
    Thank you for existing, you are doing so well.🧡

  • @thenellecornejo3724
    @thenellecornejo3724 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I definitely understand the crushing feeling of your final grade not reflecting your hard work. This happens every single quarter at my UC. After a while, I got used to it and realized that I wasn’t the only one going through this and other people had it worse since they weren’t passing the class. But there are curves, and reaching out to free tutoring programs at my school as well as actively attend and get work done at office hours improved my work ethic and made me more engaged in learning

  • @blackamericanlesbianprofes4357
    @blackamericanlesbianprofes4357 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I remember watching your CPA Exam video last year and I see it in my TH-cam suggestions again. So I am looking at your channel for update video.
    Thank you so much for sharing your honest experience of University. I have returned to University for a career change at age 33. I am a U.S. Air Force Veteran now International (Black American) student at a UK University.
    I have been struggling for the past two and a half years and I had to repeat 3 mandatory courses last year. I had learned new learning styles that work for me and I've passed my exam resits. And I am now in my Year 3/last year of my degree programme BSc Accounting and Finance.

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      It’s okay to struggle because that’s how we learn and grow✨

  • @AndreaSHG
    @AndreaSHG 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Hey it’s alright. I think many of us had some degree of this feeling. I am in my mid 30s, doing my PhD - and I still go through waves of breakdowns and anxiety and depression. Your journey is amazing and you have been so encouraging to others too. Thank you for being honest.

  • @tanyachigorondondo5912
    @tanyachigorondondo5912 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I really love this, it's so relatable and inspiring. Sometimes I feel like I am the only one experiencing this because all my friends portray a life that college is going well for them, then I start asking myself what is wrong with me?But after seeing this I'm slowly moving to my mental peace and telling myself it's going to be okay and hard work always pays off it might not be immediately but it will be soon. I guess I was putting too much pressure on myself as I want to make myself and parents proud because they are sacrificing a lot for me to be in college. Thank you so much Zoe, with this video you have showed me we all need growth and sometimes our growth requires pain and suffering but hard times don't last.❣️💕💞💯

  • @asmiyadav3469
    @asmiyadav3469 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Omg you are such a inspiring person
    Whenever I'm feeling down due to my weight or stuff I prefer to watch ur videos and they light me up
    Thanks for inspiring me to keep going❤❤

  • @vennessakuek6806
    @vennessakuek6806 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Oh girl... my heart broke when you spoke to your mom. There's so much of familiar desperation in it.

  • @3SHEST
    @3SHEST 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    i appreciate you so much! thank you for posting this! you’re such an inspiration and i love your videos! ❤️❤️❤️

  • @sparkymularkey6970
    @sparkymularkey6970 ปีที่แล้ว

    I'm a senior in college right now and I am in my final semester. I am so proud to have gotten this far, but I swear it feels like every day is a struggle to not just crumple into a heap under the weight of burnout, high expectations, and misery. I love learning, but I am SO ready to be far, far away from academia.

  • @ivonnerodriguez3549
    @ivonnerodriguez3549 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Omg loved this video and thank you so much for sharing your story. It definitely helped me and I know you are helping others as well. Keep up the good work cause it’s worth it. ;)

  • @anniezhang6355
    @anniezhang6355 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing this with us

  • @echowluck
    @echowluck 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    天,看完好心疼... 想抱抱当时的你❤️ 我也有过类似的经历,所以很能理解你当时的心境🙁。好在都过去了~ 未来的我们只会越挫越勇!💪 加油小姐妹👭 你敲棒的!And you’re worthy of being loved.💕

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      😭💗谢谢你!!一定会越挫越勇的 相信我们都能成为更好的自己。 一起加油💪🏻✨

  • @marzanarazia2694
    @marzanarazia2694 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I am speechless. The way you moved on is just amazing. I am sorry for my bad English. But this video is very encouraging. Trust me , your gift of your hard work will come soon. And love from Bangladesh ♡♡♡

  • @user-kv8wi3dl4l
    @user-kv8wi3dl4l 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I feel so bad, of my first impression of you, i coudn't imagine It was that hard... I just wish i could hug you, zoe. You're a strong girl

  • @zoeyscrump6794
    @zoeyscrump6794 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Thank you for sharing this! You're inspirational :)

  • @jvblanc9532
    @jvblanc9532 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Zoe, thank you so much for sharing this. I am literally in my second week of crying because I had a 68% on my first Cost Accounting test. People often think that being an international student is easy and always FUN. They don't know that we are struggling emotionally! Plus the fact that my parents will only accept As. I haven't told them that I got a D, and now I am so anxious and depressed because I don't know how to raise my grades.

    • @teejee2158
      @teejee2158 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Oh no. It is just the beginning of the semester. You will be able to change that. Work hard, stay confident. Take care of yourself mentally et physically. I am rooting for you!

    • @jvblanc9532
      @jvblanc9532 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@teejee2158 Thank you so much!!!!!!!

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Giving you a virtual hug🥺💗 I understand how it feels to see your hard work not been paid off initially and to have high expectations. Don’t be too harsh on yourself and trust in that the effort you exert will help you in unimaginable ways ahead

    • @jvblanc9532
      @jvblanc9532 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Thank you @@zoeunlimited 💗💗.. It's really sad when you did your best to study and not see the result. I did not even go out with friends (because basically, I don't have friends LOL). I'm currently working to get my grades up! WE CAN DO THIS!!

  • @dasiaengineeringlifestyles
    @dasiaengineeringlifestyles 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Omg. I'm a sophomore in college now and I'm struggling and I work so hard and I want to see progress.
    Otherwise, your video has motivated me to keep going and keep pushing.😊

  • @jypsmother3622
    @jypsmother3622 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    This has me in tears 😭

  • @michaelhan4266
    @michaelhan4266 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Relate to this. People in high school like to talk about who gets into which college, believing that getting into a top college will lead to a good life, but in reality college is a place full of anxiety and depression. As a college student you're calm on the surface but you hide your pain deep down inside so that others don't see, and when the stresses from different aspects of your life all peak at the same time you feel ensnared in this deep tunnel that feels impossible to climb out of. The high school gossip and judgment about who gets into which college is toxic and you don't have to feel like you need to feed into it. What matters is that you take your college experience as a learning experience and come out of it a more informed person.

    • @zoeunlimited
      @zoeunlimited  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Yes for sure! Even in high school or any school, people (including myself) do struggle, which is nothing shameful. We get challenged but we learn/grow.💪🏻💪🏻

  • @RainbowY0
    @RainbowY0 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I'm taking my first accounting class this summer online (Financial Accounting) and even though compared to other accounting courses I would have to take in the future this may be the easiest, I kid you not it is not easy to comprehend all of these concepts and I need to constantly practice or else I will forget how to apply what I learned. I definitely understand where you are coming from T-T thank you for being so real with us I really appreciate it from the bottom of my heart!

  • @JessCutarra
    @JessCutarra 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Hello Zoe, this video was so inspiring indeed. Thank you so much for this and for the message. God bless always 💕

  • @mariabulgakova2769
    @mariabulgakova2769 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    cry several times a day, move away from people, stop controlling nutrition, lose motivation to go to the gym, sleep for several hours a day, hate yourself and your life, feel trapped, degrade as a person, be empty, irritable and sad... I still can't believe it's worth it. I would never allow a loved one to suffer the way I am suffering now. please tell me at least one reason why I have to study for another five years for a specialty that I'm not going to connect my life with anyway🥺