i am crying mostly because i know i’m never going to meet this man, and if i do all it will be is a picture, he won’t remember me. he is the most beautiful person and puts so must effort and he has such a great attitude about everything. i wish i could sing like him, be like him.. i just can’t put how much i love this child into words
This is amazing I absolutely love George. I love how much emotion he puts into the songs he sings. And his voice overall is amazing his rage is really big. And he is really good at switching between his chest and head voice. And he has so much control. I absolutely love this song as well I just moved so I can really relate with the lyrics.
I think I found what hurts so much of this song: he's saying goodbye with a smile. When we read a book, or watch a movie or a show or play a game, we're used to an end where it's just the end of an scene with some static quote that sounds amazing or touches us, but we both asume is the end. There's nothing else to tell, end of story. But here, in this song, this version specifically sang by George is Michael knowing you're leaving, knowing there's a thic wall between both worlds (reality and fiction) and that even though you've been there, declaring your eternal love to him, or laughing, or crying, or cheering... You'll leave. You'll grow up, you'll get too much homework, or a boyfriend/girlfriend... And one day he'll no longer be more of a memory than your childhood's favourite toy is nowadays. He'll be forgotten, but it's okay, bc he lowkey expected it... Bc it's not the first time
It would be a dream to meet this man. He's a huge inspiration to me and everything I do in music and theater. George is insanely talented and incredibly kind- I wouldn't care if he remembered me or not. I just need to meet him. Bless him and everything he does.
The time has come I'm flying away. Mouth.is.numb Heart don't know what to say. And although I'll be out of sight, dear. No, I'll be right here. Right here forever, ever, ever, ever And when you look to the night skies. Don't think of goodbyes Think how I'm right here, ever, ever, ever. Thank you for teaching me lessons Thank you for listening to mine Man, you know how to ride a bike now Don't be scared you'll be fine. And although I'll be out of sight, dear No, I'll be right here Right here forever, ever, ever, ever And when you look to the night skies Don't think of goodbyes Think how I'm right here, ever, ever, ever Come! No, you can't come with me, stay I wish I could goodbye I know it's hard to say Come! No, you can't come with me, stay I wish I could goodbye I know it's hard to say Ouch! I know it hurts to stay I- I'd stay if I could. But the universe won't let me So please.be.good And don't you forget me. And although I'll be out of sight, dear. No, I'll be right here Right here forever, ever, ever, ever And when you look to the night skies Don't think of goodbyes Think how I'm right here, ever, ever, ever And although I'll be out sight, dear No, I'll be right here Right here forever, ever, ever, ever And when you look to the night skies Don't think of goodbyes Think how I'm right here, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever!
The time has come I’m flying away. Mouth.is.numb Heart don’t know what to say. And although I’ll be out of sight, dear. No, I’ll be right Heere. Right Heere forever, ever, ever, ever And when you look to the night skies. Don’t think of goodbyes Think how I’m right Heere, ever, ever, ever. Thank you for teaching me lessons Thank you for listening to mine Man, you know how to ride a bike now Don’t be scared you’ll be fine. And although Ill be out of sight, dear No, I’ll be right Heere Right Heere forever, ever, ever, ever And when you look to the night skies Don’t think of goodbyes Think how I’m right Heere, ever, ever, ever Come! No, you can’t come with me, stay I wish I could goodbye I know it’s hard to say Come! No, you can’t come with me, stay I wish I could goodbye I know it’s hard to say Ouch! I know it hurts to stay I- I’d stay if I could. But the universe won’t let me So please.be.good And don’t you forget me. And although I’ll be out of sight, dear. No, I’ll be right here Right Heere forever, ever, ever, ever And when you look to the night skies Don’t think of goodbyes Think how I’m right Heere, ever, ever, ever And although I’ll be out sight, dear No, I’ll be right Heere Right Heere forever, ever, ever, ever And when you look to the night skies Don’t think of goodbyes Think how I’m right Heere, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever! Dear Be More Chill, Today, August 11th 2019, is going to be a sad day and Heere’s why. Today, we have to say goodbye to a musical that has helped us through the dark and tough times in our lives, and has made us laugh until we were crying. A show that had such an impact on those who have seen all three runs live, those who have watched performances through social media platforms, those who have listened to the soundtracks on repeat, and even those who just learned of the show through fanfictions. A show, that would make you laugh, cringe, scream, cry, and belt out at the top of your lungs until your throat was sore and it felt like a microphone was shoved down your throat. A show that has such an emotional impact on everyone. A show that has songs with beautiful lyrics that have been embedded into the lives and bodies of those who have learned and yet to learn to love it. A show that has buried itself deep in everyone’s minds, hearts and soul, so much, that it is so heart-wrenching to say goodbye to it. A show that once everyone found out it was giving it’s last and final vow on this day, their hearts were broken and shattered. A show that everyone felt bad for and defended when it only one a single Tony Award when it deserved so much more. A show that had a song that helped everyone with anxiety to know they’re not alone in their struggles and there are people around that experience and go through the same exact thing. A show that had a finale song that made everyone believe in themselves and how their voices are the loudest amongst those that travel in their head. A show that started from a simple production until it made it’s official debut in Broadway. A show that had been built up, not only by the creators and actors themselves, but those people in the media who believed and supported the show with all their hearts. A show that was brought to life by the one of a kind crew that makes the show possible. A show that would not have been possible if it wasn’t for the family not giving up and throwing all the hard work away. A show that has such a beautiful crew, that we cry our hearts and eyes out for them, even while just listening to the soundtracks. I have known Be More Chill since late 2016/ early 2017 and the very first song I have listened to was Michael In The Bathroom. At first, I didn’t understand the message. But as I listened to it more, I received the message. I knew I was dealing with my anxiety myself so I understood the pain Michael felt when Jeremy abandoned him. Along with that, I have been abandoned way too many times. I knew how every damn pain felt, and God, was it fucking awful. But, I understood (sort of) the reason why Jeremy took the SQUIP. All he wanted was to be cool and not be left out anymore. From experience, I knew what it was like to feel like that. To just, want to fit in. To want to be cool enough to be noticed. For that someone who I love to just love me back. Living life like that wasn’t healthy as I got into major eating disorders and my mental health worsened. But, thanks to this particular show, I learned to accept myself and my flaws. I learned that the voices my head were nothing and that the loudest one was mine. There are still days when I wouldn’t believe that, but I try to get better for my own sake. I have found someone who loved me for who I really was and I was so happy. He was my Player 2. The boyf to my riends. He was that someone who had pulled me out of that bathroom, out of that fire before I could make a terrible mistake. He was that someone who forgave me no matter what I did. He was my Michael. And he was my everything. If you asked me what Be More Chill means, I guess now meant, to me, I’d give a cliché answer and say every damn thing. But only because it is true. Be More Chill is something I’ll keep with me For Forever even until I grow up and grow grey hair. Even in the afterlife, Be More Chill will be in my heart and memories and it will stay there, always remembered. Today, August 11 2019, will also be a good day and Heere’s why. At the end, there is always a beginning. When a door slams closed, a brand new, sturdier one opens and welcomes you inside. Even though Be More Chill gives it’s final bow today, they are also giving a bow to a new beginning in their lives. The memory and legacy of the show will live on in our hearts and we will say goodbye, letting our tears fall, not only because of sadness, but also of happiness. Happiness of how far the show and actors have come. Thank you, Ned Vizzini, for creating the book and story that had started it all. Thank you, Joe Tracz, for working hard and making this show possible. Thank you, Jennifer Ashley Tepper, for producing and helping bring this outstanding show to life. Thank you, Chase Brock and Company, for creating choreographies to each musical number and getting the dances stuck in our heads. Thank you, for all the company at costumes and scenic designs for emphasizing on the costumes and sets and giving life to them. Thank you, Will Connolly and Will Roland, for portraying Jeremy with such intensity, reality and awkwardness that even we cringe through our seats and screens. Thank you, Eric William Morris and Jason Tam, for portraying SQUIP just right and just enough for us to love him even though he’s a dick that hurt a lot of people. Thank you, Paul Whitty and Jason Sweettooth Williams, for portraying so many characters without a complain and blessing us with your voices in The Pants Song and Voices In My Head and thank you for reminding us to put our pants on. Thank you, Jake Boyd and Britton Smith, for portraying Jake and reminding us that not all goodness is found through your looks but your personality. And for giving us mixed feelings about your guys’ character. Thank you, Katie Ladner and Tiffany Mann, for portraying Jenna amazingly and singing with outstanding and killer vocals. Thank you, Katlyn Carlson, for making us love and hate Chloe at the same time. Oh, and thank you for making us cringe during Do You Wanna Hang?. Thank you, Lauren Marcus, for portraying Brooke with such subtlety and innocence that makes us all feel not so innocent. Thank you, Stephany Hsu, for portraying Christine with such an activeness and bubbly personality and making us love her. Thank you, Gerard Canonico, for portraying Rich with comedy and sadness and for bringing out the character’s adorable lisp. Thank you, George Salazar, for hurting us with Michael himself and Michael In The Bathroom. Thank you for making us cry every damn time we would hear you sing that particular song. Thank you, for being the amazing gay you are. Thank you, for giving us quality Expensive Headphones moments between yourself and Gerard Canonico and shipping it. Thank you for shipping Boyf Riends and giving us quality moments every freaking curtain call. Thank you, Joe Iconis. Thank you for creating the lyrics to the songs we will never forget about and making them meaningful, no matter which song it was. Thank you, for working hard for this show and staying for Post Show Hang. Thank you for being a sport when our anthem (Michael In The Bathroom) was used without permission or credit to ANY DAMN THING FROM THE SHOW ITSELF at all. Thank you Joe. Thank you, everyone of you, for everything. Thank you. This isn’t the end just yet. Sincerely, Brie (Me)
Not gonna lie this gives me the vibes of a father leaving with the milk. Anyway now no joke but George Salazar’s singing abilities is a whole nother level of general voice control. Bro earned his part as Micheal from Be More Chill. I know this song is really about a “media” watching the person obsession with it grow up and move on but I can’t help but think of a parent leaving each time. Great song though.
charlie, you were amazing, a few days before you died i told you i am bi, and how i also really wanted to cut my hair, i was going to tell you i was trans but i couldnt muster up the courage. i think you caught on because you told me that whoever i liked, or whoever i became, you would always support me. and if stuff went wrong you would always be there før me, like a sister. then you died. i cried før hours upon hours. you had promised to be my sister and that you would always be there før me, and now you would never be there fir me again, i was angry and it wasnt your fault but i needed someone to blame so no matter how much it hurt me, i blamed you. the day after telling you i was bi, i promised myself that the next time i saw you, i would tell you i was trans. the next time i saw you, you were dead. i still told you, not that you could hear of course that was at the end of april, 2018. i was at the end of year 7 and by the end of half term in hear 8 my arms were covered in scars, i no longer blamed you, but myself. før everything. stuff that i realise now, i couldnt have helped, but somehow i still blame myself. im now, at age 14, out and proud of being trans and bi and i proudly call you my sister, because thats what you promised me. my parents aren’t accepting, they barely even tolerate me, but i know that you would love me if you were still here. i miss you so fucking much and theres not a day that i dont. this song always reminds me of you. i picture you singing this to me when shit gets tough, after ive relapsed or my dad has hurt me again. george reminds me of you, i dont know why, but i think the first time i thought that was as he was singing “man you know how to ride a bike now” because of his smile, that supportive ‘i will always love you’ smile, you did the same one. the amount of times ive tried to visit you, ive realised its so selfish, but i think about it on a daily basis. im clean, almost three months now and its difficult, but im trying to stay strong, før you.
are we just gonna sit here and pretend he doesn’t look absolutely beautiful and stunning wow i love him wow bye wow
i am crying
mostly because
i know i’m never going to meet this man, and if i do all it will be is a picture, he won’t remember me. he is the most beautiful person and puts so must effort and he has such a great attitude about everything. i wish i could sing like him, be like him.. i just can’t put how much i love this child into words
I think we should go on a field trip to meet George I'm currently crying because I cant
Yo I live really close to NY but like why can I relate- you didn't have to do me like that man now I'm sad fuck
Same
Same💗😭💔
Q-Q same
I couldn’t stop crying when he stared at the camera
Okay but can we just appreciate how grateful Joe looks at 5:26 to have someone so talented as a friend?
I can do that it just is hard you will be able if you wanted never give up🥰
This is amazing I absolutely love George. I love how much emotion he puts into the songs he sings. And his voice overall is amazing his rage is really big. And he is really good at switching between his chest and head voice. And he has so much control. I absolutely love this song as well I just moved so I can really relate with the lyrics.
I'm crying... I'm really crying, this was so beautiful. I CAN'T STOP! My whole face is wet and god, this man was sent from heaven.
I love his voice and him as a person so much. He has such a gorgeous voice and it’s such a wonderful talent!
I think I found what hurts so much of this song: he's saying goodbye with a smile.
When we read a book, or watch a movie or a show or play a game, we're used to an end where it's just the end of an scene with some static quote that sounds amazing or touches us, but we both asume is the end. There's nothing else to tell, end of story.
But here, in this song, this version specifically sang by George is Michael knowing you're leaving, knowing there's a thic wall between both worlds (reality and fiction) and that even though you've been there, declaring your eternal love to him, or laughing, or crying, or cheering... You'll leave. You'll grow up, you'll get too much homework, or a boyfriend/girlfriend... And one day he'll no longer be more of a memory than your childhood's favourite toy is nowadays. He'll be forgotten, but it's okay, bc he lowkey expected it... Bc it's not the first time
Oh my god. How have u managed to make this 3x more sad with a single comment? Q-Q *eternal crying noises*
I can’t with this song. It makes me cry every time. I fucking love George he’s so amazing
It would be a dream to meet this man. He's a huge inspiration to me and everything I do in music and theater. George is insanely talented and incredibly kind- I wouldn't care if he remembered me or not. I just need to meet him. Bless him and everything he does.
How could anyone possibly dislike this video? George is like, the best person on the planet
Ikr screw yall haters. 😡😡😡😡
I'M CRYING SIR I DIDNT ASK TO CRY
Who ever disliked this song is going to have squip slipped into their mountain dew.
Joe and George are such talented human beings i cAN'T
I'm crying wow this is powerful I love george
The time has come
I'm flying away.
Mouth.is.numb
Heart don't know what to say.
And although I'll be out of sight, dear.
No, I'll be right here.
Right here forever, ever, ever, ever
And when you look to the night skies.
Don't think of goodbyes
Think how I'm right here, ever, ever, ever.
Thank you for teaching me lessons
Thank you for listening to mine
Man, you know how to ride a bike now
Don't be scared you'll be fine.
And although I'll be out of sight, dear
No, I'll be right here
Right here forever, ever, ever, ever
And when you look to the night skies
Don't think of goodbyes
Think how I'm right here, ever, ever, ever
Come! No, you can't come with me, stay
I wish I could goodbye
I know it's hard to say
Come! No, you can't come with me, stay
I wish I could goodbye
I know it's hard to say
Ouch! I know it hurts to stay
I-
I'd stay if I could.
But the universe won't let me
So please.be.good
And don't you forget me.
And although I'll be out of sight, dear.
No, I'll be right here
Right here forever, ever, ever, ever
And when you look to the night skies
Don't think of goodbyes
Think how I'm right here, ever, ever, ever
And although I'll be out sight, dear
No, I'll be right here
Right here forever, ever, ever, ever
And when you look to the night skies
Don't think of goodbyes
Think how I'm right here, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever!
Joe looking at George starry eyed is all of us. Their friendship is the best thing. My heroes, I love them.
And the proper appreciation from the crowd for stone silence until the last hmmmm... RESPECT!
MAN THIS SONG IS SO PRETTY AND SAD AND GORGE SALAZAR HAS THE VOICE OF AN ANGEL
My God. SANG. “Bye eee iii eee iii eee iii I know it’s hard to saaaayyyyyyy.” 🎶🙌🏻
I'm crying what-
YOUR PFP GIVES ME LIFE
he looks angelic in this lighting goodbye i love him sm
the one dislike is a fucking soulless creature bc george's voice is perfection
Omg I love how much emotion he puts into his music! He's SOO talented! When and where was this?
54 Below, during his run of concerts with Joe, I think it is in the description
Two player game at 54 below but I'm not quite sure when
This is actually so good. How did I not know this exists
I love and hate the first person songs, they are the most painful 😣 😭
Yas George.
There is literally only one dislike and I legitimately don't understand why...
bc this man is beautiful and amazing so he doesn't deserve dislikes
tnecb17 probably someone was crying and the tear accidentally pressed dislike 😔✌🏻. But this song got to me real bad, I couldn’t stop crying
I came here to have fun but now I’m thinking about the last be more chill curtain call and sobbing more than i was before
i cry now
im trying really fucking hard not to cry because i have to go into the public in like 10 minutes why am i doing this to myself
nope i cried
Man I was doing okay until he stared directly into the camera and started singing to it 😭😭
Same 💔(P. S. I love Dan and Phil)
i cried when it started because this is great and i love him
The time has come
I’m flying away.
Mouth.is.numb
Heart don’t know what to say.
And although I’ll be out of sight, dear.
No, I’ll be right Heere.
Right Heere forever, ever, ever, ever
And when you look to the night skies.
Don’t think of goodbyes
Think how I’m right Heere, ever, ever, ever.
Thank you for teaching me lessons
Thank you for listening to mine
Man, you know how to ride a bike now
Don’t be scared you’ll be fine.
And although Ill be out of sight, dear
No, I’ll be right Heere
Right Heere forever, ever, ever, ever
And when you look to the night skies
Don’t think of goodbyes
Think how I’m right Heere, ever, ever, ever
Come! No, you can’t come with me, stay
I wish I could goodbye
I know it’s hard to say
Come! No, you can’t come with me, stay
I wish I could goodbye
I know it’s hard to say
Ouch! I know it hurts to stay
I-
I’d stay if I could.
But the universe won’t let me
So please.be.good
And don’t you forget me.
And although I’ll be out of sight, dear.
No, I’ll be right here
Right Heere forever, ever, ever, ever
And when you look to the night skies
Don’t think of goodbyes
Think how I’m right Heere, ever, ever, ever
And although I’ll be out sight, dear
No, I’ll be right Heere
Right Heere forever, ever, ever, ever
And when you look to the night skies
Don’t think of goodbyes
Think how I’m right Heere, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever!
Dear Be More Chill,
Today, August 11th 2019, is going to be a sad day and Heere’s why. Today, we have to say goodbye to a musical that has helped us through the dark and tough times in our lives, and has made us laugh until we were crying. A show that had such an impact on those who have seen all three runs live, those who have watched performances through social media platforms, those who have listened to the soundtracks on repeat, and even those who just learned of the show through fanfictions. A show, that would make you laugh, cringe, scream, cry, and belt out at the top of your lungs until your throat was sore and it felt like a microphone was shoved down your throat. A show that has such an emotional impact on everyone. A show that has songs with beautiful lyrics that have been embedded into the lives and bodies of those who have learned and yet to learn to love it.
A show that has buried itself deep in everyone’s minds, hearts and soul, so much, that it is so heart-wrenching to say goodbye to it. A show that once everyone found out it was giving it’s last and final vow on this day, their hearts were broken and shattered. A show that everyone felt bad for and defended when it only one a single Tony Award when it deserved so much more. A show that had a song that helped everyone with anxiety to know they’re not alone in their struggles and there are people around that experience and go through the same exact thing.
A show that had a finale song that made everyone believe in themselves and how their voices are the loudest amongst those that travel in their head. A show that started from a simple production until it made it’s official debut in Broadway. A show that had been built up, not only by the creators and actors themselves, but those people in the media who believed and supported the show with all their hearts. A show that was brought to life by the one of a kind crew that makes the show possible. A show that would not have been possible if it wasn’t for the family not giving up and throwing all the hard work away.
A show that has such a beautiful crew, that we cry our hearts and eyes out for them, even while just listening to the soundtracks.
I have known Be More Chill since late 2016/ early 2017 and the very first song I have listened to was Michael In The Bathroom. At first, I didn’t understand the message. But as I listened to it more, I received the message. I knew I was dealing with my anxiety myself so I understood the pain Michael felt when Jeremy abandoned him. Along with that, I have been abandoned way too many times. I knew how every damn pain felt, and God, was it fucking awful. But, I understood (sort of) the reason why Jeremy took the SQUIP. All he wanted was to be cool and not be left out anymore.
From experience, I knew what it was like to feel like that. To just, want to fit in. To want to be cool enough to be noticed. For that someone who I love to just love me back.
Living life like that wasn’t healthy as I got into major eating disorders and my mental health worsened.
But, thanks to this particular show, I learned to accept myself and my flaws. I learned that the voices my head were nothing and that the loudest one was mine. There are still days when I wouldn’t believe that, but I try to get better for my own sake.
I have found someone who loved me for who I really was and I was so happy. He was my Player 2. The boyf to my riends. He was that someone who had pulled me out of that bathroom, out of that fire before I could make a terrible mistake. He was that someone who forgave me no matter what I did. He was my Michael. And he was my everything.
If you asked me what Be More Chill means, I guess now meant, to me, I’d give a cliché answer and say every damn thing. But only because it is true. Be More Chill is something I’ll keep with me For Forever even until I grow up and grow grey hair. Even in the afterlife, Be More Chill will be in my heart and memories and it will stay there, always remembered.
Today, August 11 2019, will also be a good day and Heere’s why. At the end, there is always a beginning. When a door slams closed, a brand new, sturdier one opens and welcomes you inside. Even though Be More Chill gives it’s final bow today, they are also giving a bow to a new beginning in their lives. The memory and legacy of the show will live on in our hearts and we will say goodbye, letting our tears fall, not only because of sadness, but also of happiness. Happiness of how far the show and actors have come.
Thank you, Ned Vizzini, for creating the book and story that had started it all.
Thank you, Joe Tracz, for working hard and making this show possible.
Thank you, Jennifer Ashley Tepper, for producing and helping bring this outstanding show to life.
Thank you, Chase Brock and Company, for creating choreographies to each musical number and getting the dances stuck in our heads.
Thank you, for all the company at costumes and scenic designs for emphasizing on the costumes and sets and giving life to them.
Thank you, Will Connolly and Will Roland, for portraying Jeremy with such intensity, reality and awkwardness that even we cringe through our seats and screens.
Thank you, Eric William Morris and Jason Tam, for portraying SQUIP just right and just enough for us to love him even though he’s a dick that hurt a lot of people.
Thank you, Paul Whitty and Jason Sweettooth Williams, for portraying so many characters without a complain and blessing us with your voices in The Pants Song and Voices In My Head and thank you for reminding us to put our pants on.
Thank you, Jake Boyd and Britton Smith, for portraying Jake and reminding us that not all goodness is found through your looks but your personality. And for giving us mixed feelings about your guys’ character.
Thank you, Katie Ladner and Tiffany Mann, for portraying Jenna amazingly and singing with outstanding and killer vocals.
Thank you, Katlyn Carlson, for making us love and hate Chloe at the same time. Oh, and thank you for making us cringe during Do You Wanna Hang?.
Thank you, Lauren Marcus, for portraying Brooke with such subtlety and innocence that makes us all feel not so innocent.
Thank you, Stephany Hsu, for portraying Christine with such an activeness and bubbly personality and making us love her.
Thank you, Gerard Canonico, for portraying Rich with comedy and sadness and for bringing out the character’s adorable lisp.
Thank you, George Salazar, for hurting us with Michael himself and Michael In The Bathroom. Thank you for making us cry every damn time we would hear you sing that particular song. Thank you, for being the amazing gay you are. Thank you, for giving us quality Expensive Headphones moments between yourself and Gerard Canonico and shipping it. Thank you for shipping Boyf Riends and giving us quality moments every freaking curtain call.
Thank you, Joe Iconis. Thank you for creating the lyrics to the songs we will never forget about and making them meaningful, no matter which song it was. Thank you, for working hard for this show and staying for Post Show Hang. Thank you for being a sport when our anthem (Michael In The Bathroom) was used without permission or credit to ANY DAMN THING FROM THE SHOW ITSELF at all.
Thank you Joe.
Thank you, everyone of you, for everything.
Thank you.
This isn’t the end just yet.
Sincerely,
Brie (Me)
*heeRe coMes thE tEarS*
@@imsoemoifellapart3450 idk if i should cry or laugh 😂😂😂😂
Not gonna lie this gives me the vibes of a father leaving with the milk. Anyway now no joke but George Salazar’s singing abilities is a whole nother level of general voice control. Bro earned his part as Micheal from Be More Chill. I know this song is really about a “media” watching the person obsession with it grow up and move on but I can’t help but think of a parent leaving each time. Great song though.
charlie, you were amazing, a few days before you died i told you i am bi, and how i also really wanted to cut my hair, i was going to tell you i was trans but i couldnt muster up the courage. i think you caught on because you told me that whoever i liked, or whoever i became, you would always support me. and if stuff went wrong you would always be there før me, like a sister.
then you died. i cried før hours upon hours. you had promised to be my sister and that you would always be there før me, and now you would never be there fir me again, i was angry and it wasnt your fault but i needed someone to blame so no matter how much it hurt me, i blamed you.
the day after telling you i was bi, i promised myself that the next time i saw you, i would tell you i was trans. the next time i saw you, you were dead.
i still told you, not that you could hear of course
that was at the end of april, 2018. i was at the end of year 7 and by the end of half term in hear 8 my arms were covered in scars, i no longer blamed you, but myself. før everything. stuff that i realise now, i couldnt have helped, but somehow i still blame myself.
im now, at age 14, out and proud of being trans and bi and i proudly call you my sister, because thats what you promised me. my parents aren’t accepting, they barely even tolerate me, but i know that you would love me if you were still here.
i miss you so fucking much and theres not a day that i dont. this song always reminds me of you.
i picture you singing this to me when shit gets tough, after ive relapsed or my dad has hurt me again.
george reminds me of you, i dont know why, but i think the first time i thought that was as he was singing “man you know how to ride a bike now” because of his smile, that supportive ‘i will always love you’ smile, you did the same one.
the amount of times ive tried to visit you, ive realised its so selfish, but i think about it on a daily basis.
im clean, almost three months now and its difficult, but im trying to stay strong, før you.
Did they add the part about lessons and riding bikes?
i guess no, all verisons i've heard that part was there of what i remeber