My PTSD Story

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  • @MollyBurkeOfficial
    @MollyBurkeOfficial  3 ปีที่แล้ว +251

    Do you have any mental health related questions for me about my personal mental health journey?
    If you want to keep up with me on the daily, follow @mollyburkeofficial on IG/TikTok!

    • @alyssafortson
      @alyssafortson 3 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      How to mention it to people when you are recently diagnosed? Want to mention my anxiety diagnosis with close friends, but worried about response.
      I have anxiety with OCD tendencies. Primarily being unwanted thought about needing to urinate constantly.

    • @shannonhensley2942
      @shannonhensley2942 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @@alyssafortson the best thing to start with is understand what you are and aren't willing to talk about. Setting up those boundaries first before you start to talk to others about it. Then when you have enough time to have the conversation with them, sit them down and explain what it means for you. Good friends will listen and try their best to understand. I wish you the best of luck.

    • @gemmaluescher-verseckas1243
      @gemmaluescher-verseckas1243 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      What are your skills you use to help with ptsd symptoms or anxiety episodes that work considering your blindness. Most skills are multi sensory, , like certain touch or smells.

    • @katelynl6253
      @katelynl6253 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I’m also a pile of mental illnesses. I’ve been diagnosed with Borderline personality disorder, PTSD, Chronic depression, Generalized anxiety with panic attacks and bipolar 2 disorder, and I suffer from dissociation, self harm and suicidal tendencies and have been hospitalized multiple times . I have a psychiatric service dog to help me manage the challenges of these illnesses.
      I got diagnosed at the age of 18-19.

    • @naynerboppers5254
      @naynerboppers5254 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Such a brave step to take on this topic again, esp considering your current struggles. I have had PTSD for a couple different reasons/events in my life. Therapy (both thru meds and working with a therapist/psychologist) has done wonders and is the biggest reason why I wish EVERYONE had access to get help at any given point in a person's life.
      I am blind in the center of one eye and recently started losing vision in my good eye. I've been very worried about my mental health and what that journey would be like if I'm no longer able to see to do some of the things that help me through the tough times. What types of activities/tricks/techniques have your therapists focused on or suggested that might be different from a sighted person? I know that I might not be wording it correctly so please forgive me....but is there a different approach for a blind person versus a sighted person? I know some of the things I currently do can be adapted but others can't be...or will take a lot of additional learning before I would then be able to try to adapt it. What challenges did/do you have or things that you find frustrating that were related to therapy and your blindness? I hope I am not coming across in an ableist way so I apologize if so.....but I am genuinely worried about it because we still can't even figure out the cause of my sudden, advanced uveitis....and I feel like I need to prepare for my vision to continually worsen.

  • @shannonhensley2942
    @shannonhensley2942 3 ปีที่แล้ว +566

    It does not matter what caused the PTSD. If your brain can't handle it, you can't escape it. There is nothing wrong with needing help/treatment. Our lives are complicated and messy and there is no reason to have to go it alone. My friends have been the biggest help on my journey. Trauma does not care so having people that care is so amazing.

    • @dont_harsh_my_mellow
      @dont_harsh_my_mellow 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      My friend was traumatized by that time when there were jumpscares plastered all over videos online. Remember that? Good times. Good times. Anyway she refuses to watch anything if someone she knows hasn’t watched it yet. And I think I saw a few times when people mocked her and said she’s a wuss. I’m like wtf. Like why? Be? Rude? lol

    • @claireb6543
      @claireb6543 3 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      I have dissociative identity disorder, which is generally regarded as the “most extreme” form of PTSD. A lot of the time I struggle with my trauma not being bad enough. But what helps me realize that trauma isn’t what the experience itself is - it’s how your brain processes it. So to my brain, it was “enough”. (I’m agreeing with you!)

    • @jlopez665
      @jlopez665 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@claireb6543 I hate when people do that. “It’s not that bad” really really?
      I have to do a million things to deal my mental health, but it’s not that bad.

    • @jlopez665
      @jlopez665 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@dont_harsh_my_mellow I didn’t know that PTSD could develop that way.
      I guess that most people dnt realize the different ways you can develop it.

    • @Jelleybean18
      @Jelleybean18 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Sorry to ask here but I know you’ve watched it.
      I want to watch it but have PTSD and want to avoid triggers.
      Is this video only highlighting medical trauma or are there other traumas mentioned?
      Of course all trauma is valid but trauma concerning
      s * * u a l a * * u l t is something I cannot do.

  • @SpecialBooksbySpecialKids
    @SpecialBooksbySpecialKids 3 ปีที่แล้ว +240

    Thanks for opening up Molly. You are not alone!

  • @althyastar
    @althyastar 3 ปีที่แล้ว +397

    I love when you talk about mental health, it makes me feel more represented as someone who has sometimes debilitating anxiety.

    • @rileyyy472
      @rileyyy472 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I agree with every word, because I also sometimes have debilitating anxiety.

    • @tarasmith4316
      @tarasmith4316 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Same, anxiety and ptsd

    • @serefina7177
      @serefina7177 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I agree! I also struggle with anxiety and other mental disorders and I really feel not alone when I hear about other peoples journeys

    • @user-gi2kq5iu5l
      @user-gi2kq5iu5l 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I used to think what I felt was normal. But after all the mental, physical and emotional exhaustion and reading about anxiety I understood that this is a real thing and it’s not my fault.

    • @jlopez665
      @jlopez665 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@user-gi2kq5iu5l same when I started having anxiety issues. I didn’t know what was happening to me...
      Keep up the hard work

  • @DreamForHope7
    @DreamForHope7 3 ปีที่แล้ว +444

    I'd just like to say that if you are someone who needs medication long-term, there's no shame in that. I don't think this is how Molly meant it, but the notion that you can learn to manage symptoms on your own "rather than have a chemical do it for you" isn't always possible for everyone. All treatment paths are valid :)

    • @catloverKD
      @catloverKD 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      Thank you, I was going to say the same.

    • @jenniicaroline
      @jenniicaroline 3 ปีที่แล้ว +32

      were all wired so differently ! I am a life long med person, I finally just had to tell a doctor, after decades, I know i do my best and live my best life on medication, and that I would rather be on a med the rest of my life, than spend every day wishing I could shut off my entire brain and hide. I couldnt keep living my life my life at 0 to 10% , when simple meds and therapy puts me at 99% !! No shame in meds, getting help, or therapy for sure. . sending good vibes to you all! :)

    • @madelynrose2330
      @madelynrose2330 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Yes THIS!

    • @karlahabbershaw1971
      @karlahabbershaw1971 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Very true

    • @marthaloven9385
      @marthaloven9385 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Thank you for the reminder. I recently started on my anti-depressant for the 3rd time in my life.

  • @gracegardone350
    @gracegardone350 3 ปีที่แล้ว +357

    Yes! PTSD is not just caused by wars/bombs/terror, etc. It can be caused by family members, animals, really anything (trauma is when your brain cannot make sense of an event and keeps replaying it). Thanks for this!

    • @properjammy
      @properjammy 3 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      There's also CPTSD which is common after an abusive relationship. Where as PTSD is common after a single traumatic event.

    • @Lolilillisjdjdhddj
      @Lolilillisjdjdhddj 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      What does cptsd stand for

    • @ICatheraTashaI
      @ICatheraTashaI 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      @@Lolilillisjdjdhddj complex post traumatic stress disorder.

    • @ChickenOfAwesome
      @ChickenOfAwesome 3 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      @@properjammy To build on that (for anyone confused about the difference)
      Complex PTSD (CPTSD) is from _long term_ trauma or a series of trauma over time - its especially common in people who were abused as children and who's entire personality was formed in trauma, or in people with long term medical trauma (again, especially as children), but it can also occur in adults after, for example, abusive relationships or being stationed in a warzone long term.
      PTSD is from one off events or short term trauma - an assault, a car crash, a traumatic medical experience, a particular bad experience at war (eg: getting shot, or witnessing something traumatic).

    • @cheekynandosss581
      @cheekynandosss581 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@properjammy if there’s many different traumas from different times in life or ongoing trauma in a relationship or abuse situation could also potentially be diagnosed as cptsd

  • @karenthompson1677
    @karenthompson1677 3 ปีที่แล้ว +300

    Thanks Molly for your brave sharing, I am 54 and suffer from PTSD, because I was undiagnosed autistic, which I was born with but because people did not recognise this was the case as female. I was eventually diagnosed as having autism age 38. I was bullied really badly and struggled to cope in school, and later on was bullied in some work places.

    • @laurad7228
      @laurad7228 3 ปีที่แล้ว +20

      That must be so horrible. Here have a hug from a fellow autistic person: *insert digital hug *

    • @kthx_bai
      @kthx_bai 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      I was diagnosed with autism at 26

    • @sunnyday9026
      @sunnyday9026 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      It makes me sooo mad every time I hear about someone being bullied!! You're human beings like any other person in this world. My daughter has cerebral palsy and one time when I picked her up at school, walking back to my car this kid started walking like my daughter! I told him you better not be making fun of my daughter because you're going to be in big trouble!!! I never saw him again, my daughter was about 7 years old. I step up for people I don't even know!!

    • @jordanmahonytheblindworld8483
      @jordanmahonytheblindworld8483 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Well I am an artistic person I’m able bodied but you would know if I was autistic if you met me and that’s a stereotype wedding wedding itself but what I’m trying to say is I was diagnosed at the age of 5/6 with autism visual impairment blindness and Barbados syndrome by the Beatles syndrome is the cause of it but what I’m trying to say is I am a fellow autistic person I Mail and I know that I’m probably not the best person in this decision but I’m going to say to hell with it I have autism you have autism as far as I can tell from reading the comment and just I know that if I was in your position I would want to give you a hug I think you’ve been bullied in school and the workplace is disgusting I would fight for you right now my friend and it’s just it’s not acceptable we live in a world discrimination editing needs to be talked about and just wanna let you know that you’re not alone and you deafly get hugs from me and I’m showing compassion when I say that

    • @dont_harsh_my_mellow
      @dont_harsh_my_mellow 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I was bullied from elementary school to end of high school. Not autistic. But ADHD. And there’s a LOT of overlap. In college the bullying stopped. I’m fine. But I have PTSD too. Emotionally scarred. Scared. Idk. It never leaves. Wow.

  • @bonsoir5170
    @bonsoir5170 3 ปีที่แล้ว +98

    20:35 I love how casually she says that like "yeah I did that thing with selena gomez, anyways... "

  • @katherinedubroy4171
    @katherinedubroy4171 3 ปีที่แล้ว +84

    "So many times I wonder, why is my brain like this, why can't I just let it go. But my mind is just like that." GIRL SAME!!! I relate to that so much, like Molly said, it's not something you can control, but you can manage it and heal from it. Even though it never leaves you, you can still grow and be out there living your best life!

  • @inekogary8870
    @inekogary8870 3 ปีที่แล้ว +358

    I totally understand. Because I am totally deaf and totally blind. So when I go to my appointments to all my doctors. I have a certified sign language interpreter meet me there. And my interpreter will tell them that you had to explain everything you’re going to do because she cannot see you at all and she cannot hear you at all. So I totally understand. The only reason I know what’s going on in your video because I have my girlfriend here she knows sign language so she’s signing in my hand call tactile sign language so I know what you are saying. And she describes your background to me.

    • @elliebartlett9064
      @elliebartlett9064 3 ปีที่แล้ว +34

      That is SO COOL!!! You rock!

    • @sleepyote
      @sleepyote 3 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      Did you use voice to text or did your girlfriend type for you, if it's okay to ask?

    • @inekogary8870
      @inekogary8870 3 ปีที่แล้ว +33

      @@sleepyote
      Thank u for asking, I did myself my Beautiful love 🤟🤟🤟❤️❤️❤️❤️
      U will see 3 I love u hand sings in sign language,

    • @artglue2
      @artglue2 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      If you’re totally blind, how do you read sign language?

    • @qkndc
      @qkndc 3 ปีที่แล้ว +32

      @@artglue2 as they said, tactile sign

  • @emilywood979
    @emilywood979 3 ปีที่แล้ว +264

    I have a service dog for PTSD and I get told a lot that I either don’t have PTSD because I’m not a veteran or I’m not deserving of my service dog because “there are vets that need a dog more.” My dog is multipurpose that I only say he’s medical alert now.

    • @gracegardone350
      @gracegardone350 3 ปีที่แล้ว +22

      I would love to learn more about this. One of my friends has a PTSD service dog and I’m too nervous to ask about what specific services her service dog provides. I’m curious to learn more like Molly has showed us about guide dogs!

    • @emilywood979
      @emilywood979 3 ปีที่แล้ว +44

      @@gracegardone350 everyone is different but my dog stops self harming behavior. Applies deep pressure therapy (like a weighted blanket) to my legs and body. He also guides me to safe places and or finds people I am with.

    • @janalunadottir
      @janalunadottir 3 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      I didn't know they have service dogs for ptsd, but it totally makes sense in my opinion! So nice that you always have someone by your side! ❤️🐶

    • @ellentevault6244
      @ellentevault6244 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      That’s a shame. You deserve better

    • @emilywood979
      @emilywood979 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@ellentevault6244 thank you

  • @broughtontaylor8142
    @broughtontaylor8142 3 ปีที่แล้ว +217

    molly, i have suffered from generalized anxiety for about a year now. i am also neurodiverse. i live with adhd. your channel has really helped me cope with these conditions. thanks for spreading awareness for the neurodiverse and disabled community. we really need voices.

    • @missyc13
      @missyc13 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      If you ever need someone to talk to, go to reddit ADHDwomen, it's a place full of people like us who understand and can share experiences and tips. You are not alone, even though sometimes it truly feels like it

    • @SuperKellie77
      @SuperKellie77 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I have suffered from generalized anxiety disorder for 26 years now!

    • @jvrock7
      @jvrock7 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      B Girl, if you haven't already, check out How To ADHD. hehe when I discovered her channel a few years ago, I binged every video she'd done within like 2 weeks. It's awesome! She has adhd and does a ton of research and makes videos on different topics pertaining to adhd.

    • @jvrock7
      @jvrock7 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@rosacruz6274 if you haven't already, check out Yo Samdy Sam, Stephanie Bethanny, Autism From the Inside, Carol Bird. All their channels helped me realize my own autism last year at 33. Between those and joining late diagnosis autism fb groups, I've learned so much about myself and found community with them. It's so amazing to not feel alone ❤

    • @baffledmouse
      @baffledmouse 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I also have generalised anxiety and panic disorder and I am on a waiting list to be assessed for potential Autism.

  • @ellentevault6244
    @ellentevault6244 3 ปีที่แล้ว +99

    My psychiatrist says I have complex ptsd from my childhood and single ptsd from a couple of experiences as an adult because I’m a highly sensitive person. People are judgmental and narrow minded about it.

  • @caitlynungrin1394
    @caitlynungrin1394 3 ปีที่แล้ว +68

    I just wanted to say, as a 16-year-old with PTSD who is often undermined by others, it was really nice to have someone talk about their experiences and validate that I don't have to be exposed to war to develop PTSD. It takes a lot of courage to be vulnerable, especially with such a large audience. Thank you for sharing!

    • @LadyPandaGoddessOfTheCakeHunt
      @LadyPandaGoddessOfTheCakeHunt 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Some people witness a genozide and shrug it off, some get their ass grabbed in a club and end up severely traumatised. Might be an extreme example but in the end everybody is different and just because someone else has it worse, doesn't mean you're "not allowed" to feel bad.

    • @caitlynungrin1394
      @caitlynungrin1394 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@LadyPandaGoddessOfTheCakeHunt Absolutely! People often don't believe me as well, because I witnessed an attempted murder where the guy who did it only got charged with aggravated assault and because I'm a minor, the police can't disclose my identity to the public...most of my own family don't even know what I saw that day, and it's hard to explain what it's like. Anyone's trauma is valid, and it's nice to hear others who agree.

    • @LadyPandaGoddessOfTheCakeHunt
      @LadyPandaGoddessOfTheCakeHunt 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@caitlynungrin1394 I'm incredibly sorry that you have to suffer through this :(
      Stay strong! Asking your parents if you could go see a therapist might also help.

    • @caitlynungrin1394
      @caitlynungrin1394 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@LadyPandaGoddessOfTheCakeHunt Thank you for your support! I've gone to therapy in the past and the lady actually made my issues worse, and my parents still go to her, so I don't really have that option right now, however, I'm going into psychology at university starting the fall of 2022, and hopefully, I'll be able to sort myself out and help others who are struggling.

    • @LadyPandaGoddessOfTheCakeHunt
      @LadyPandaGoddessOfTheCakeHunt 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@caitlynungrin1394 had such a therapist too 😔 that's why I'm now sticking with psychiatrists... in my experience they are "better".
      Starting psychology might help :) but if possible you should definitly try therapy again at some point (imo).

  • @kellykeaney9909
    @kellykeaney9909 3 ปีที่แล้ว +61

    Can we just pause for a gosh darn second and talk about how flawless Molly looks in this 😻

  • @FootlessJo
    @FootlessJo 3 ปีที่แล้ว +80

    💜💜💜💜💜
    Sending so much love & light your way!

  • @claireisacamel
    @claireisacamel 3 ปีที่แล้ว +93

    I’d love to hear how mama Bee recounts all of this. Sometimes it can be hard to know how best to support someone going through something like this, and it sounds like she has some really good experience and probably some good tips!

  • @annikazehm6589
    @annikazehm6589 3 ปีที่แล้ว +37

    I made it almost nine minutes before I had to quit, but I wanted to say that it feels good to know that I'm not alone. I also totally get what you mean when you talk about people saying "Just get over it."
    Today, I ran into an abuser at the store. She didn't see me, but I saw her and I knew it was her. I nearly had an anxiety attack over it, and I nearly left the store over it. I don't think I'm gonna tell anyone because they've just gonna say I need to get over it. You don't get over it. That's why it's called a mental illness. I hate running into people also with trauma because how well I respond is a complete gamble and I hate having something that feels so piddly control me. It's not like I'm asking for it, like I said, that's why it's called an illness.

    • @bronwynlunn2712
      @bronwynlunn2712 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I have a hard time seeing my abusers or people associated with my trauma in public too. Anyone who says "get over it," truly cant imagine. How you feel is always valid and I'm proud of you

    • @emmapanzica
      @emmapanzica 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      God bless you!

    • @emmapanzica
      @emmapanzica 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@samanthakennedy8761 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻

    • @emmapanzica
      @emmapanzica 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@bronwynlunn2712 God bless you!

  • @ellie_michelle6987
    @ellie_michelle6987 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I work on ambulances and I just had my second ever blind patient... he also just so happened to have a form of RP, he was really open about talking to me about it and answered all of my agonising questions! He was thrilled to talk to somebody other than a doctor about it as most haven’t a clue what he is talking about! Thank you Molly, you have certainly brought awareness out there and definitely to me to spread the love xx

  • @jessiereacts3145
    @jessiereacts3145 3 ปีที่แล้ว +47

    I also have PTSD with OCD. Thank you so much for talking about this. It's wonderful to feel less alone.

    • @bbghoul_x
      @bbghoul_x 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I do too. Sending hugs 💖

    • @FoxGlove8
      @FoxGlove8 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      So do I. Although my OCD isn't trauma related
      Sending love from Europe

  • @mjay6317
    @mjay6317 3 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    “I’m aware that it doesn’t make sense. But that doesn’t stop me from feeling these things, or doing these things.”
    I’m getting this printed on a shirt and wearing it.

  • @fwoggys_crochet_and_crafts
    @fwoggys_crochet_and_crafts 3 ปีที่แล้ว +105

    i have been dealing with ptsd because of repressed memories that i recently regained and this video came at the perfect time, thank you❤

    • @caleighrussell2700
      @caleighrussell2700 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      that must be so frustrating and scary 🥺💗 sending good thoughts you way

    • @fwoggys_crochet_and_crafts
      @fwoggys_crochet_and_crafts 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      @@caleighrussell2700 thank you so much, this really made my day because it was so validating and honestly made me tear up. thank you so much and sending love to you🥺❤🤗

    • @Tina-zz5kt
      @Tina-zz5kt 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      sending love

    • @sngray11
      @sngray11 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      I went through the exact same thing a few years ago. And what helped me the most was doing EMDR sessions on the memories that came back that caused my PTSD, work with a therapist and a psychiatrist, and completing the Survivors Workshop at The Meadows in Arizona really helped me get my life back. I am sending prayers and positive thoughts your way. 💕🙏🏼😘

    • @ICatheraTashaI
      @ICatheraTashaI 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Virtual hugs to you dear. I have often wondered if I have repressed memories since I can't remember most of my childhood and my father has been an active pedophile since I was around 3 years old I think. I wish people didn't try to repress people who open up about PTSD or abuse and trauma or depression, anxiety, whatever other mental issues or emotional issues.
      I was told by a counselor after my dad was sent to prison that me and all my siblings and my mom all had PTSD from mental and emotional abuse and neglect. For about 5 years after my dad was removed from my life and I was healing I would still start crying any time someone was angry and yelling, even if it wasn't directed at me.

  • @summergleason8989
    @summergleason8989 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    The childhood medical experience is so complicated. I have found some doctors expect that as someone who has been in a lot of medical care from a very young age that I'll be some kind of pro and like it's no big deal for me, but yeah the medical trauma is very very real. The minute scheduling doctors appointments was my responsibility instead of my parents, there were no more being scheduled and my mental and physical health has suffered a lot for it. I am slowly improving and getting back on track but it was been such a difficult journey. Just to say i see you. You're story is really powerful, thank you for sharing.

  • @sallyjsmith15
    @sallyjsmith15 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    When you're talking about "not living" that really resonates with me, my partner suffered a mental breakdown during his autism diagnosis and that's exactly how he felt. Waking up, waiting for that next anxiety attack and then taking a tablet to go to sleep. It took two weeks to get him back to a more "normal" level of eating and many more for life in general but he got there!

  • @turtlette
    @turtlette 3 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    Thank you so much for talking about the guilt involved in having a trauma or trauma related disorder - not very many do.

  • @sadieann1036
    @sadieann1036 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    I resonate so much with your story. I was diagnosed at the age of 11 with severe PTSD, Major Depression, and Anxiety. I was only diagnosed because it was a requirement of court during my parents divorce and domestic violence case. We were raised mormon, so we weren't allowed to take "mind alerting medication". I dealt with flash backs and PTSD meltdowns my whole life because of it. At 22, I finally got on medication and was diagnosed with Hashimoto's disease (depression is a symptom). Then, a bunch more chronic pain illnesses and autoimmune diseases. At 24, I got a confirmation diagnosis of Medical PTSD from being a chronic illness patient and having major things go wrong during medical procedures. The most severe incident related to my medical PTSD was waking up during major surgery. The specialist and constant hospital visits is so hard. Now, I'm pregnant and I was still having PTSD/Anxiety attacks before every OB appointment. I ended up switching my OB and it has improved, but I'm terrified of delivering due to everything that has went wrong during procedures.
    I've fallen in the 33% of asthma patients who have their asthma get progressively worse though out the pregnancy. I have new heart issues and fainting issues, which my neurologist thinks is residual from having Covid 19 in April 2020.
    I really hate that people associate PTSD with Military Service. I think some of that is a hard spot for me, personally. I was in the process of enlisting when I got the Hashimotos diagnosis which instantly disqualified me. It can exist from any traumatic experience and more men tend to be in the military than women, so I think that's it's more associated with men isn't a helpful stigma either. My husband had friends who came out of military service with PTSD, but we had a lot of issues with understanding my PTSD because of the stigmas around it.

  • @elizabethcarroll3978
    @elizabethcarroll3978 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    Molly, I really related to when you said that you were relieved when you got your diagnosis. I felt the same way when my son was diagnosed with ADHD, Autism, and Anxiety. I felt that he could finally get the services that he needed in school with this diagnosis.

  • @diazgirl100
    @diazgirl100 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Molly, I totally understand what PTSD feels like, considering that I also have it. Mine was caused by a car accident from which I was in as a passenger where the motorcyclist we were hit by was killed. I appreciate you talking about how many others beside veterans can experience PTSD.

  • @adri9974
    @adri9974 3 ปีที่แล้ว +29

    I have PTSD and I have never been in the military. I feel as though many people invalidate it for people who haven't served.

  • @akylah3768
    @akylah3768 3 ปีที่แล้ว +114

    Molly: My hands are baby carrots.
    Me: Imagine carrots with blue nail polish

    • @Upper_echelon_exotics
      @Upper_echelon_exotics 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      I don't think they look very orange...maybe it's the lighting but they don't look that bad to me...

    • @clarahamilton9494
      @clarahamilton9494 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@Upper_echelon_exotics I agree

  • @tlt935
    @tlt935 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    I have PTSD triggered by hospitals and doctors offices. When I was 5 or 6, I had to go to the ER. I can't remember why but I had to have an IV. Instead of being understanding that this small child is absolutely terrified, this nurse literally held me down and screamed at me while she tried inserting the IV. With me kicking and screaming, she eventually gave up and had someone else do it. Luckily the new nurse was an absolute angel but the damage was already done. My PTSD was only made worse by needing several blood tests a few times a year for several years (thank God I don't need them anymore) and the nurses never believing me or my mom that needles are a huge no-no. It didn't help that my mom is a nurse so all the other nurses assumed her child would be cool with medical things and were never gentle about anything they did. Luckily she isn't afraid to stick up for me and knows how to handle situations like that since she's been a nurse since the 80s. I had so many nurses basically make fun of me for having a panic attack saying it's just a little blood, just wait til you get your period, hahahaha... I've literally had only one medical doctor in my entire life treat me as a human with PTSD. It's incredibly sad because medical stuff fascinates me from hearing all the cool (sometimes really gross) stories my mom would come home with. It's almost a morbid fascination hearing stories from doctors and nurses but anything having to do with me and doctors is NOT okay. I drive for UberEats and one day I realized I can't even take food INTO a hospital without getting the starting signs of a panic attack.
    Btw, it was my cousin who took me to the ER that day and had no idea how to handle the situation. She was only like 17 at the time so I don't blame her ONE bit for more or less allowing that evil nurse to do that to me. She's dealt with things too so she completely understands and we're actually really close because of it.

  • @sarvedha1117
    @sarvedha1117 3 ปีที่แล้ว +36

    I know you always spread awareness about the disabled community and that’s amazing but I am really glad that you’re doing more and more mental health videos. People tend to overlook mental health and consider physical health more important, so thanks for taking mental health into account in addition to physical health.

  • @hioa2008
    @hioa2008 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I have also suffered through severe PTSD, and even though I have spent years in therapy, and I do not live my life enmeshed in that trauma anymore, sometimes, out of nowhere, I still get blindsided by a memory that can bring up a physical or psychological reaction. The difference now is that they are not as intense, and I have tools to help me through those times now.
    The most important thing I have learned about those who are judgmental or think I need to 'just let it go and move on.... it was a long time go' is to remind myself of this simple mantra....
    "Those that matter, don't judge. And those who judge? Don't matter."

  • @mercymonroe83
    @mercymonroe83 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    So many of your symptoms match my own! I have Complex-PTSD and the not being able to eat, 🤢, loss of cognitive processes, fears you know are irrational, etc. I just wish I had been diagnosed younger than 33. Now I am doing trauma-based EMDR therapy to get my 🧠 to actually process my traumas and deal with them.

  • @ilovemybigbro
    @ilovemybigbro 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    PTSD anxiety and depression all at once is absolutely horrible

  • @teafisher
    @teafisher 3 ปีที่แล้ว +53

    Oh boy I hate the "just get over it" comments!
    Edit:So many similarities between our symptoms and after a PTSD diagnosis too I was relieved

    • @jordanmahonytheblindworld8483
      @jordanmahonytheblindworld8483 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I hate it as well my friend because when people say oh it’s fine get over it they will also say that about facial impairment/blindness oh it’s all in your head to get over this is never been said to me but the narrative has been there and I say screw these people they don’t know different I live with the condition they do not and then I won’t be able to help people are going through blindness/visual impairment and where I can make this world a better place

  • @ericasotto4595
    @ericasotto4595 3 ปีที่แล้ว +30

    I have generalized anxiety disorder and functional neurological disorder because of it. I have psychogenic seizures instead of panic attacks. I’m in the first year of my diagnoses, and I hope I’m in a better place in 7 years like you Molly ❤️

    • @frostyskeletons8950
      @frostyskeletons8950 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I just want to say thank you because I also have generalized anxiety disorder and your comment made me curious about FND. I resonate with A LOT of the symptoms and am going to bring it up with my therapist this week. Thank you for the awareness!

    • @ericasotto4595
      @ericasotto4595 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@frostyskeletons8950 I’m glad I could help someone else 😀

    • @niamh3225
      @niamh3225 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Thank you for sharing I have a friend with FND stay strong.

    • @niamh3225
      @niamh3225 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I’m not sure if you’re aware but there is a good organisation called FND hope with lots of resources

    • @ericasotto4595
      @ericasotto4595 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@niamh3225 thank you! 😁

  • @Kaythought
    @Kaythought 3 ปีที่แล้ว +19

    Your story has always resonated with me. I have a lot of issues with mental and chronic illness and you inspire me and so many others. Thank you so much.

  • @cyberpotayto
    @cyberpotayto 3 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    I’m dealing with PTSD from a recent car accident. I feel you Molly, this couldn’t have come out at a better time! It helps hearing you talk about your story, thank you for sharing

    • @caleighrussell2700
      @caleighrussell2700 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      you’re not alone .. it will get better with time

    • @cyberpotayto
      @cyberpotayto 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@caleighrussell2700 you are so sweet!!! thank you so much, wishing you well also💗

  • @darthmaule
    @darthmaule 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I was in the mental hospital as a teenager, the doctor told my mom he wanted to try Lithium (this was at about noon). 3 hours later she came to visit and I was up and moving and talking. Not cured but strides above where I was. Medication saved me. Thank you for sharing your medication journey and destigmatizing it. I meet people who know nothing about me but want to tell me how my medications are destroying my body and life. Medication does not make you weak

    • @mygirldarby
      @mygirldarby 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Lithium takes several weeks before it starts working. It takes a minimum of five days for it to reach therapeutic levels in your blood. Our minds are very powerful and if we are convinced that something works, our minds will follow along and produce a placebo effect. The way I see it, it doesn't really matter if it's a placebo effect though because you're still getting relief. It isn't possible for lithium to create an affect in three hours. But your mind sure can, especially an impressionable teenager's mind. I agree that medicine shouldn't be stigmatized just because it is for a psychiatric condition. To me, it's the same as needing a blood pressure medicine or a cholesterol lowering drug.

  • @meganpeoro3454
    @meganpeoro3454 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Thank you for being open about this subject. I have ptsd due to recurrent pregnancy losses and I think it’s difficult for people to understand that one moment you can be ok and one moment you are not ok.

  • @kaylathurston3828
    @kaylathurston3828 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    As someone who’s been watching you for awhile now and just got diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety and PTSD, this video means a lot to me. Thank you for putting this out there.

  • @conniepowell1596
    @conniepowell1596 3 ปีที่แล้ว +28

    Thank you for always being so brave and so vulnerable - we love you so much Molly ✨🥰

  • @bethanytaylor1704
    @bethanytaylor1704 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I deal daily with depression, anxiety, and PTSD from personal events. Thanks for being so brave!

  • @ellebelle1996
    @ellebelle1996 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I have ptsd as well. Not a veteran, but the trauma is real. I really appreciate you being so honest about this. You are such an inspiration, thank you

  • @mythicalgirl2005
    @mythicalgirl2005 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I always admire people who do things like this. Opening up is scary and a hard decision to make. It takes a lot of bravery to be able to share things like this publicly.

  • @Ehlair
    @Ehlair 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I really appreciate when you open up about this. I also struggle to eat w/anxiety and have similar "safe foods." I've never heard someone talk about that before and seem to experience it in the same way I do. So thank you for making me feel understood and valid.

  • @blueredyns7392
    @blueredyns7392 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Thank you for this. I have GAD, and it's such a misunderstood disorder. I also experienced that positive feeling with having a diagnosis, like there was a reason my mind was different and not making sense. And yeah, there's so much physicality to it. I have all those same safe foods, and I get chills, compulsively wash my hands and touch my hair, and have had periods of screaming/crying that last many hours just from feeling so overwhelmed that there's nothing else to do. It's good to hear you're doing better now, and as you say, it's a process and a journey.

  • @kathleenharrington417
    @kathleenharrington417 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    The mind is a most powerful thing. It can take over your body and convince you your suffering is physical, not emotional, pain. When a psychiatrist diagnosed me as suffering from PTSD (3 yrs prior I had been mugged at gunpoint and fought with the guy-coming out intact with nothing stolen) to my great surprise, he defined it as an experience so foreign to your psyche your mind does not know how to process the emotion.
    You have contributed your voice, experience, and story to an audience which will value this. Everyone is a unique being, experiences processed in a personalized way, but the commonality that is shared is of benefit to all human interactions.

  • @lauraandrews9143
    @lauraandrews9143 3 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    I am so happy you’re sharing your experience with us 💕 also I know this is totally NOT the point, but I really love that light sage green color on you, it compliments you so nicely

  • @kerigirl711
    @kerigirl711 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    I am always looking to connect with people who struggle with anxiety, OCD tendencies and other mental health diagnosis’. It is so refreshing to hear you speak on this and see the comments from people who can relate. Makes us all feel less alone and isolated. I especially needed this today as I was suffering from some severe anxiety before clicking on your video. So thank you Molly💜you’re so well spoken and calming to listen to also.

  • @Truffles-fk3du
    @Truffles-fk3du 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    You are so right. PTSD is a very real thing that so very many people live with, many suffering in silence. Veterans just happen to be the largest single category of people living with this disability, and most certainly the most well known by the public at large. There are SOOO MANY more people living with PTSD than just veterans.
    And thank you for this. Highly helpful in so very many ways. Helpful to understand other symptoms some people have living with PTSD, and beneficial for so many to recognize there is more to one diagnosis than just one category of people. You are one seriously AMAZING person Molly. You deserve EVERY good thing in life. Hoping Adrian is able to join you in Canada soon.

  • @aestheticenergyinc.9614
    @aestheticenergyinc.9614 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    i also have OCD and PTSD it sucks but knowing someone you look up to deals with it makes it a little less lonely thank you for sharing your story and sorry that happened as well I also understand the guilt and all that's stuff

  • @jennkreg387
    @jennkreg387 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I have suffered since age 15. Thank you for all you do.

  • @robinhahnsopran
    @robinhahnsopran 3 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    This video is so beautiful and important. Thank you for sharing your truth.

  • @Amelia-ys2qy
    @Amelia-ys2qy 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I was on the same medication for 2 years 10mg/day for the severe depression I had. I'm a medical student so I diagnosed myself and went to a psychiatrist who put me on the medication. I'd pray every night before going to sleep that I don't wake up the following day. I'm glad you're doing your part on raising awareness about mental health. It's much needed!

  • @victoriasterling6719
    @victoriasterling6719 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Thank you so much for sharing your story. I have not been formally diagnosed with PTSD, but I have many of the symptoms and I am pretty sure that I have it. I have struggled a lot with it and there have been many times that I have felt that my brain is broken. Your story helps me remember that I am not alone and things can and will get better. Also, you helped me learn that my extreme nausea when anxious and stressed could be from my PTSD. I've had so many texts and everything has always come back normal. It's nice to finally have a possible answer. Thank you so much again.

  • @Kaye09MNchick
    @Kaye09MNchick 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I also have been diagnosed with PTSD, OCD, generalized anxiety disorder, depression, dissociation, dermatillomania, and trichotillomania. I understand the way it feels to know it doesn't make sense. OCD often doesn't make sense so to me it might make sense, but I know it doesn't to other people. Thank you for making this video. It really helps the mental illness community for people to speak about their own experiences with it. Thank you!

  • @markbattersby4009
    @markbattersby4009 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Developed ptsd from 15 years of police work. Very brave for you to try and describe what it feels like. My healing really started about 4 years ago when i got sober from alcohol.

  • @rylee260
    @rylee260 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Hey Molly!
    My name is Rhianna. I’m 21 years old and I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD as well. Thank you for sharing your story and being vulnerable! I went through this traumatic experience when I was 19. It caused me to have extreme depression. It has greatly affected my sleep. When it happened, I would have extremely vivid nightmares and often they were related to my trauma. I couldn’t shower (the bathroom was a big part in my trauma and had become the worst trigger and is still triggering). I had to take a semester off college and move back home and drop out of college because I had also developed an eating disorder (now I know it was anorexia nervosa). I was no longer safe to be left alone and I really did and still do need inpatient treatment or a more intense treatment, unfortunately it’s very complicated with finances, so I haven’t. I also started medication at that point. I wanted to try meds in high school for my depression and anxiety, but my mother wouldn’t allow me to. Medication helped some, but I’m still working on finding the right medication since the medication isn’t working or stops working after a while. There were many, many other symptoms that I experienced back then. Now it’s probably almost 2 years later and I’m still struggling with my PTSD and depression, anxiety, and anorexia. Lately I’ve been dealing with flashbacks multiple times a day which cause me to disassociate. When I don’t disassociate, I get nauseous and sick. When I drive a car or am in a car, which is a big part of life, I have anxiety and panic attacks. Sometimes I know why and sometimes I don’t. It’s made it so very difficult to drive myself places because I get very triggered and distracted constantly. There a many situations that I know will come up in the future. Like going to hospitals for check ups and other stuff, which I know will be triggering and many other things that I’m dreading. PTSD is such a difficult diagnosis to deal with. I have been wondering for a long time, why I can’t just be normal and be able to mentally handle things better. Listening to your story has made me feel less alone and I relate to a lot of what you went through. Especially, hearing about how you started your TH-cam channel because you couldn’t public speak. I find that SO inspiring. I’m an artist and creating in certain ways is difficult or impossible sometimes. So I am inspired by you to try new forms of creativity! I also want to share my experiences and give other people support and hope so that they don’t feel as alone as I did. I’ve been thinking of doing videos and posting them on Instagram or TH-cam for a while and I just don’t know how to and where to start, but I might give it a try soon. Thank you so much again!!! I’m so proud of you!!

  • @gracebyrne2026
    @gracebyrne2026 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I love ur whole vibe today! The grey/green jumper and the blonde ponytail, it’s so nice

  • @christinadoherty3212
    @christinadoherty3212 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Thank you so much for talking about this! I am also a vlogger and in the disabled community and so many of us struggle with PTSD because of medical experiences. I have definitely been afraid to make a video explaining my diagnosis out of fear. But you have inspired me! ❤️

  • @marxreader420
    @marxreader420 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    omg i'm glad u talked about being triggered by bullying, it's so validating to hear from someone who can relate. i have a disorder called trichotillomania (it's an ocd-related disorder that causes the irresistible urge to pull out your own hair) and since i had visible bald spots and sometimes pulled out my hair during class, i was bullied pretty brutally for it growing up. i have ptsd from that (as well as other traumas) and still get triggered by whispering, hushed conversations, and laughter, and sometimes get really paranoid that people are talking about me, making fun of me, or thinking badly of me. it's pretty debilitating; it makes it really hard for me to function socially, and having anxiety on top of all that doesn't help. as of today though, i'm 249 days pull free!! i never thought i would make it this far; it makes me hopeful that i'm strong enough to get through anything. i'm so proud of how far you've come; wishing happy days and full recovery to both of us 💛

  • @teafisher
    @teafisher 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    I struggle with many mental health issues upon mental health issues (ASD,PTSD,Panic disorder ect ect ect? so I find this very interesting to watch.
    It makes me feel less alone and more normalised and it makes me happy(well not happy that you have to live with them too but the normalisation)

    • @janalunadottir
      @janalunadottir 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Since I was diagnosed with PTSD and worked as an occupational therapist, I met (and re-met with a different awareness) so many people with mental health problems (patients, colleagues, friends, family) that I actually wonder, if there really are people you would call "normal". 🤔😂

  • @lizard3755
    @lizard3755 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Molly saying that getting her diagnosis was a relief is something I relate to. I have bipolar disorder, ADD, and anxiety and while I had some mild symptoms of things as a kid, puberty really ramped things up for me. Ages 12-15 were a rough time both for me and for my family living in a house with an undiagnosed and untreated me. Finally getting a diagnosis helped me to feel validated with the things I'd been experiencing and feeling, and it also meant that I was able to get the help I needed to get to a better place. It was a rocky journey at first, but after I found the treatment regimen that worked best for me my life was so much better. I still struggle at times, but I have a good support system and learning to recognize my symptoms has helped me to communicate when I need help and to help myself when I can.

  • @bea2661
    @bea2661 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    at 26:17 when molly was talking about doctors not being able to show her things, i was honestly confused for a moment. i’ve followed her for years, but i still sometimes forget she’s blind ! the fact that she has gone thru so much and has been able to come out on the other side amazes me every day. so proud of you molly for sharing your story with us. i hope you and everyone else who struggles with mental health know that there is always something positive waiting for them in the future xx

  • @strawbemmy
    @strawbemmy 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    im so happy to hear people talking about the obsessive side of what comes after trauma and mental illness. thank you molly. as someone else with ptsd and obsessive thoughts that stem from that, this video felt like a warm hug. thank you for speaking on this

  • @vassilikistamatopoulou8481
    @vassilikistamatopoulou8481 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I know how hard it is dealing with mental health and I really want to tank you for taking about it and breaking the stigma around it

  • @katelynnwalker2568
    @katelynnwalker2568 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Oh Molly, you are NEVER a burden. You are so loved-thank you for your vulnerability and for sharing this so courageously. Prayers are coming for you.

  • @ratskelll
    @ratskelll ปีที่แล้ว

    Ik this is an old video but I wanted to thank you for it. I was diagnosed with ptsd about 2 years ago. Tbh I still can't really accept the diagnosis. Videos like this help, of real people sharing their experiences, because it validates my own experience + helps me accept it more. Especially since I'm in a situation where I can't access therapy to help me process it right now

  • @philopharynx7910
    @philopharynx7910 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you for this. I know several people with PTSD and know how hard it can be when "small things" become huge triggers. I wish you the best in adapting and recovering, and I hope you always find kind and empathetic people in your life.

  • @catloverKD
    @catloverKD 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I don't have PTSD, but am neurodivergent with life-long generalized anxiety, and suicidal depression that hit at puberty. After I went through basically my worst nightmare scenario, I'm shocked I didn't end up with it. I actually asked my therapist at least once if she was sure. I had the same reaction to Zoloft! I took the first dose, and within hours I felt a difference and was like "No way, it's placebo effect etc." When I checked in with my psychiatrist after a month, and half my symptoms were completely gone, I asked if it was normal and yes, it can work that fast. She said it was likely because I had never been on psych meds before.

  • @claratotman6212
    @claratotman6212 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This is an incredible video that I relate so INTENSELY TO. I got triggered 3 days ago and have only recovered today. PTSD/CPTSD really is a draining and misunderstood disorder that I wouldnt wish on my worst enemy. I had been experiencing symptoms from age 4-17 completly undiagnosed/incorrectly diagnosed. Finally last year I got an official diagnosis and its been so freeing. Truly thank you for speaking on this 💞
    Edit: i got to the end and turns out we have alot of similar triggers, medical is 100% my biggest trigger.

  • @jordanc186
    @jordanc186 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thank your for opening up about your mental health journey. As someone recently diagnosed with generalized anxiety and OCD I resonated with your story in many ways. I have often felt alone and guilty about my thoughts and actions and how they affect those around me, even though I know it is something I do not have control over, something that escalated when I reached my lowest point during the pandemic. Since mental health is something that is not focused on nearly as much as physical health, seeing someone who I have followed for many years open up about their own journey touched my heart and made me feel less alone in my own mental health journey. Thank you💕

  • @auntiegoblin9344
    @auntiegoblin9344 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I also have PTSD with OCD tendencies as well as anxiety, which all have a medical trigger. My younger brother was in and out of the hospital constantly when I was little and it caused me a lot of trauma. This helped me feel a little less like a crazy person and more like a normal person coping with a chronic illness. You're the best ❤

  • @dianeelizabeth9
    @dianeelizabeth9 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I feel everything you said so deeply!!
    Especially the anxiety safe foods (mine are stone Crackers and plain bagels toasted with butter) and the diagnosis bringing relief! ❤
    I just have OCD with General Anxiety disorder but I am so happy you shared this because it makes me feel like I'm not alone!

  • @kayleemuyu8184
    @kayleemuyu8184 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    i’m crying because you described literally everything i went through and i was never actually diagnosed. my therapist at the time was horrible and i feel like i wasn’t treated the way i should’ve been. i completely understand you when you said that you wonder why your brain can’t get over what happened cause logically it’s not actually that big of a deal, but still your brain replays it, over and over.

  • @mymyriadthoughts2220
    @mymyriadthoughts2220 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I have generalised anxiety disorder and DID and made a video the other day about it. I'm so glad mental health is a much more spoken about topic, thank you Molly.
    I love the empathy over judgement thing too xxx

  • @karenthompson1677
    @karenthompson1677 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    It was a relief to know about Autism and then PTSD, knowing helped me find out that I actually could not work because no one was prepared to do the things it would take to do so. People do not understand the depths that PTSD can go to in ordinary people.
    I will never understand soldiers PTSD, because it is different. However, the PTSD is no less affecting and causes problems in my life.

  • @ursusriot
    @ursusriot 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    i have severe medical trauma and am looking into treatment and diagnosis for ptsd and ocd and i want to say thank you for sharing. i feel less crazy and alone

  • @katieredington7652
    @katieredington7652 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I have been diagnosed for PTSD for 5 years. What you said about ptsd was spoken perfectly. Thank you.

  • @kboerde
    @kboerde 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Thank you so much for talking about this! You are such a strong person for talking about this. I just recently started opening up about my PTSD as well and I noticed that it made me feel so much better. I still am not fully able to talk about the cause of my PTSD. Thank you for sharing your story🥰

  • @Jamesyouknowit
    @Jamesyouknowit 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I know you posted this almost a year ago, but at the time I was deeply suffering from what I think might be ptsd, and going back and watching this video now is very helpful. Thank you for always being so open and honest in what you share. Lots of love

  • @Nicole-rf8bn
    @Nicole-rf8bn 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    It's great to see a creator speaking on this topic, especially in a way that helps break the stigma around PTSD. I've had a very traumatic childhood and I was often told I couldn't possibly have had it bad enough. (Narc. abuse + an older sibling that struggled with ODD and now has a diagnosis of BPD). I was convinced PTSD only happened to victims of SA and veterans. It took me until last year to finally open up to my psychiatrist to get a referral to a therapist for what is most likely C-PTSD.

  • @JuMixBoox
    @JuMixBoox 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I have been watching you since spring 2017. At the beginning, I binged all of your videos on this channel. And watching this, I can't believe that I only watched your first video about your PTSD once. I felt like I could have told the story myself. I remember thinking about it when listening to your book, or whenever you mentioned your mental health. I think your words from back then just really stuck with me. When you talked about obsessively researching your guide dog, I realised that that was a symptom I knew very well. So I took a lot of your thoughts to heart already. And it still hit me strongly to watch this. Because when you talk about a downward spiral, about stopping to function, song to really live, I just hear a description of my everyday life. When you talk about the speech you couldn't write, about voicing your feelings to your parents, I realise that both of these happened to me today and I didn't think much of it because to me, it's normal. I might need to take those six weeks. Contact those professionals. Get that therapy and maybe medication. But that's just me. I also want to thank you. That was my original intention. Telling you how much of an impact even the smallest mention or video can have and how powerful and brave it was to share your story line this. Thank you. It opened my eyes a bit.

  • @shadowservicepup6369
    @shadowservicepup6369 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    As someone who's been diagnosed with so many mental illness and is still being investigated for more, I appreciate one of my role models speaking up about it. Thank you Molly for opening up and telling your story.

  • @las5510
    @las5510 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Sending you so much love 💖 Thank you for making this video. I was diagnosed with P TSD in my late teens and just recently my diagnosis was changed to complex PTSD. For some reason mental health carries a stigma around it and that always bothers me because it's a very real & very common thing to deal with. I'll never understand why it is taboo. I always admire your bravery in talking about topics & sharing your personal experiences with things our society is still trying to catch up to understanding. I know it's hard to put yourself so vulnerably out there . Please know you're helping people like me when you talk about these things. It could be so isolating & hearing people who are public figures talking about their own struggles makes me feel like I am not alone.

  • @kyokowithbrave4888
    @kyokowithbrave4888 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Whenever you are, up or down, you always deserve the best and to smile when the warm rays of sun touch your skin

  • @gaithrislife
    @gaithrislife 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I also struggle with PTSD/depression/anxiety and I’m also bipolar. Thanks for sharing. It makes me feel less alone.
    Love from Sweden 🇸🇪 ❤️

  • @sageashley
    @sageashley 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    The color and style of your jacket looks amazing on you!! 💕

  • @julierocketqueen6257
    @julierocketqueen6257 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I appreciate you more than I can say for opening up and being honest about your experiences and helping make this topic more and more of a normal conversation 💜🐝

  • @libbymorehouse4466
    @libbymorehouse4466 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thank you for sharing this on such a large platform. I'm sure that this is triggering to talk about, but I know that it is helping so many people. I truly am in your corner, and hoping the best as you continue to work on balancing your brain chemicals and emotions, and work through everything in life

  • @ParaTara
    @ParaTara 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    As a side note, you look BOMB in that sage green sweater!!!!!! I want one!

  • @brittanyhrevnak9096
    @brittanyhrevnak9096 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thank you for talking about the physical sides of PTSD. It makes me almost feel better to know I’m not the only one who deals with all the nausea

  • @pdid3047
    @pdid3047 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I’m glad you talked about this. I always thought PTSD was a military thing until it effected me. I lived through a category 5 hurricane with trees falling through my house. The eye of the storm went right over my home. Now I can’t go through storms without having panic attacks. It can be debilitating.

  • @alexb7092
    @alexb7092 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Hey Molly! I've been following your channel for years and I'm also someone who struggles with mental health illnesses and I am so proud of you for being so open about it, I couldn't imagine how much harder it would be being visually impaired. I have genetic dispositions to mental health as well as trauma from my own life and the forming of my own brain and the chemicals and whatnot, I also have PTSD and GAD/OCD (A good thing to remember is that anxiety, OCD and PTSD are all branches of anxiety disorders) I also suffer from BPD (Borderline personality disorder, which is a very misunderstood illness) and major depression... I used to suffer very badly with psychosis aswell, the hallucinations and delusions were awful, I went through a lot of trauma early on in life (from S.A and r*pe as well as abuse, bullying and so on) I struggled with eating disorders and health complications and self harm and I honestly just wasn't living.. I couldn't even sleep in my room alone at the age of 20 as I was so afraid of what was happening to me.. I couldn't even sleep at night, it was horrible. I made more attempts than I can remember to take my own life and thankfully they were unsuccessful and I'm covered in scars from S.H but all I can say is, life does and will get better. I still really struggle with most of my mental illnesses and whatnot, but I did therapy for years, I am on a lot of medication and have been trailing it for years and I'm so much more safe now than I used to be. I did years of counselling for my S.A and therapy, I saw countless psychiatrists and I went to the hospital, had an intake stay at a prevention and recovery center for all of 9 weeks as well, which is a whole different story for another time, it was one of the worst things to happen to me, but at the same time it still helped me (some traumatic things happened there) I found the love of my life, I came to the truth with myself and accepted that I'm transgender and gay, my partner has been so supportive whilst my parents haven't, there's not much that can be done.. I'm 24 years old and although my health both mentally and physically isn't good, I am still proud of how far I've gotten and that I'm still here. The plan is to move to the UK from the AUS when COVID allows me to move countries, I can start fresh and live with my fiance and continue to heal.
    Anyone who thinks PTSD is just for vets are silly.. yes it uses to be "shell shocked" but it's updated for a reason. Anyone can get it for any reason and each one is valid! It's horrible to compare ourselves to others too.. I used to do the same, like... how can I have all these issues when there are people who have been through far worse?
    Thankyou so much for the video, Molly. Heart emoji 💜

  • @betterwiththeirish
    @betterwiththeirish 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I have all the exact same and now chronic illness on top of that. One of the chronic illnesses causes my body to stay in fight or flight mode on top of it so as you can imagine can make my anxiety horrible. Telling our stories can be so helpful to others.
    That being said, I want to do speaking on invisible illness, I just don’t know how or where to start.

  • @xaimara13
    @xaimara13 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I remember the first video you made about this, you explained the fall in more detail. I’m proud of how far you’ve come. 💜

  • @sarahwithstars
    @sarahwithstars 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    There is no "just" anything with memories of bad experiences let alone *trauma* around horrific experiences.
    Thank you for sharing, I think this will be really powerful for so many people!
    Watermelon, lime and cucumber are the best naturally sugared but not overly flavourful foods, full of water to help fight against any dehydration caused by reluctance to drink or eat anything substantial due to nausea and vomiting.

  • @mariethedicedragon5977
    @mariethedicedragon5977 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I feel this so much. Getting a diagnosis for what you are feeling can be scary but also creates a path to get better.
    I also just wanted to mention that after I watched this, your older video on the subject did end up in my recommended videos just now (I originally watch this one yesterday), so it may be a good idea to have someone take it down for you.

    • @mariethedicedragon5977
      @mariethedicedragon5977 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      I do feel hesitant to bring it up, but also feel that where you meant to not have it publicly available I should mention it.