What a vlog! All life was there, with the terrible grief, the laughing teens, the woofa dog , the plants, the kindness of a stranger and the just keeping going.
Ellie's song came on in the store which was a little confirmation that her consciousness lives on :) She is ALL around you, poppett. As for Grief, I'd recommend reading Gloria Hunniford's book 'Always With You' about the loss of her daughter Caron Keating. It's a bit depressing in the beginning, but by the end you feel very positive. She says you learn to live with grief. It never leaves you. You learn to carry on and live around it. Well worth reading that book. We're all here for you poppett. You're not alone
Cry when the urge comes Georgina; it's something that physically, emotionally and mentally benefits you in this challenging time of grief. Perhaps when you encounter external reminders of Ellie, it's a time where she is spiritually close to you in some way. And a time for you to celebrate and reminisce about her life. You demonstrate such character and strength in all of your videos. I cannot imagine truly what it is you are experiencing, but I can see that the grief process is very disruptive, unpredictable, uneasy and debilitating. I sincerely hope that as you move forward with Ellie in your heart and on your mind, that you find that you can do so whilst feeling a greater sense of peace.
I never ever leave youtube comments but I need to comment on this video. I have always enjoyed your videos and been a fan. I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my baby son 5 months ago and although all of our losses are different and individual, I can relate to how grief takes over. I have struggled being in public and holding conversations; my mind isn't as quick anymore. Sometimes I find that I can't focus on anything and I feel so separated from the world. I don't feel like I relate to people anymore, like an alien living in a human world. I watch your videos and for a few minutes I feel less alone, because grief is not alien but the most human of experiences a person can have; an experience that no one wishes on others. Thank you for sharing part of your story and journey. Again, I am so sorry for your loss and while grief is a never ending rollercoaster, from what I have been told, it is possible to be happy and live a fulfilled life. I'm sorry to take a video on your situation and then type about my own, but I wanted to say that I understand. Take care
I hope you’re ok. I lost my mum at 17, 4 years ago and i constantly still think of my mum whenever I see someone she would’ve liked or stuff we enjoyed together. I also suffer from Epilepsy like Ellie did, hoping to raise more awareness about SUDEP and epilepsy in general, me and my friends raised £300 by climbing snowdon this year and hoping to even more in the new year. Sending you love.
I can't even begin to imagine what you're living through. I think everyone watching will be giving you a massive cyber hug as they watch this. If it's any consolation, I think honest videos and conversations about grief will definitely help people watching and maybe going through the same thing or similar. The grief process is still a taboo subject in many parts of the world, so its refreshing to see someone talk openly and honestly as they go through theirs. I'm just sorry that you have to.
Grief is such a rollercoaster of emotions. It is impossible to predict how it will effect you from one moment to another. There will be moments when you feel like you are coping better, but then there are moments when your emotions overcome you, and you shouldn't feel awkward about them, as they are part of the process. My heart goes out to you. Ellie would be so proud of you xx
10 years after the loss of my sister, I can be standing in the supermarket or sitting at my desk and a memory of her pops into my head or a song comes on and I'm in tears - it means you're human. I still wish so hard she was still here. What you're going through is entirely normal. I'm so sorry for the loss of your Ellie. Be kind to yourself and if you if you want to cry your heart out, do it. Don't hold it in It will do you good to get it out xx
❤❤HI Georgia ❤❤im the sub that made / sent you the candles - its made me SO SO happy that it put a smile on your face after such a painfully sad day for you. Im so glad they arrived safely - sending all my love xx (again thank you for all your help regarding my daughter too who has epilepsy as you know and the good news is after your video and your help shes now on medication) xx
Grief doesn't have a time line. I lost my mum 4 years agao and I am still in a lot of pain and crying it out. Give you lots of hugs and sending you lots of love xx
I believe she was letting you know she was with you with that song on. Every thing you are feeling is okay and if you want to cry your eyes out then go ahead. If you want to scream into a pillow go ahead. I think you are incredible. We are all proud of you. ❤️❤️
Love you Georgina I lost my Mam 2 years ago next month, it feels bizzare to say that as it feels just yesterday I was having the time of my life with her. She was only 60 and a care home worker, no health conditions whatsoever. I wish I was as fit as her. She caught Covid in the care home she worked in towards the back end of 2020 and didn't survive it. So unexpected and some days are still hard but I go on and listened to the music she loved regularly. I even got her watching and listening to Eurovision music in her final few years. People say time is a healer but I say time goes on and you find a new way to cope with it. You remember more of how they were and how they would like scenario's or music your enjoying and somehow make new memories with them which you couldn't have in this life together. Keep strong and power through, your a great person and your contributions really help people stuggling x
My heart breaks for you. It never ends...but it gets much easier. The times that stop you in your tracks daily...will become weekly... then monthly... then occasionally. You will always think of her but you will eventually smile when you have these memories. It's a horrible time but you will get there. 🥰
Grief is indeed shit. Last week my daughters and I had to go to our nearest big town to get the train to London to attend a special service for my late husband who had worked company there for 32 years. As I arrived at the multi-storey car park I could feel myself being overwhelmed by grief and yes, I drove into the barrier! I just sat in the car crying and saying "I can't do this" over and over. My poor daughters had to calm me down and I then had to find a member of staff to own up to wrecking the barrier (while still crying). Thankfully the staff were lovely and said not to worry about it. It is astonishing how you can spend days or weeks as a fully functioning person and then suddenly be so overwhelmed that you become a wreck. I wish you all the best, look after yourself.
Don’t expect so much of yourself. To lose a parent is bad enough but a child is unimaginable. You are going to have good and bad days . If you feel like crying just go with it I think you feel worse holding it in.
millions of people lose their kids,parents..etc in WARS/HUNGER on a daily basis. just stay thankful & grateful for all the things that you have now in your life.
Georgina. You are strong and such a gift to the world! I am with you in your grief. You are not alone. The universe wants me to remind you that you are such a special person who brings so much joy. I love you!
It really hurts me to see you cry like this but I totally understand that your going through this grief stuff and you're right grief really is shit but you can get through this if you try to focus on other things feel better soon Georgina xx
Losing someone is the worst. The way I've gotten through loss is to think of it like they moved away, somewhere out of reach, and one day I'll move there and get to see them again. Also, when they're on my mind, I only think of the happy moments I had with them. Now, wlthe more times go by the more I smile remembering things. Anyway, I don't know you, other than from watching your videos, but here's a virtual hug. Hang in there. Time will bring you happiness again.
It's just heartbreaking to see You like that. You are wonderfull person. NO WORDS will descrive how You feel now but I am with You, all of us are with You now.
Wish I could give you a big hug the nation feel your loss and your grief . Your such a rock the way you carry on with life . We all love watching your vlog were with you every step of the way . An inspiration of life itself and the challanges it throws at us . Keep it up lovely lady 😘
Oh my dear I’m sending you my love today. No it’s not going to end but don’t let that discourage you see it’s because the love and bond between you both doesn’t end. Ellie will see you through this. She’s watching over you and with all my soul I believe one day you will be reunited never to say goodbye again❤ You’re home is lovely
I have no words, Georgina. Only thoughts, seeing you get upset in the car I was upset with you as I know that grief feeling. I promise you will get through this. It’s good to hurt and break down, your mind wants that. Then you can function again. Break down when it wants you to. It’s like riding a wave and going with it. But I promise, it will get better as the years go by. My thoughts are with you.
There is music in the way you talk about your grief when you are sitting in your car. I always think of life as songs. I've been dealing with my mother's cancer for years now - I know that when she finally goes, I won't ever be equipped to handle it, but I know she'd want strength in me and to look after myself. All we can ever do. x
death really does change you it did me i Lost my mum Last year in march and sometimes things are a real effort to do things i do feel you hope you Had a Great Christmas it was your first one with Out Ellie she's still with you everywhere you are i wish you All the best for 2023 x
Heart breaking vlog, but its real.and its you, so much I could say, please don't be hard on your self, grief takes such a long time to work through ,ur doing amazingly , try and take small steps, don't look too far ahead, its cheesy and cleched , but time does heal , what no one says, is how long it takes, no one knows that, its huge testament to Ellie that u feel this way, try and remember that, love as always from Ayr Scotland x
Big hug wish there was something I could say or do to takeaway your pain. I have no words except keep going and take joy in the little things and be kind to yourself and others. X
Most of the others here have said something similar to what I was going to say, but know I am keeping you in my prayers. I am glad you were able to get your plants and I really like the decorated pots with the daisies - those are cute. Hoping that you will feel better soon after your health treatment and it was nice to see the candles you received. People are thinking of you!
Crying right along with you, my sweet new friend 😢 ❤ You're stronger than anyone else who's going through this that I've ever known, lovely! Thinking of you and sending positive energy your way, as I do!! You're my Vocal Hero 💙 xx Steven Rush
Grief is sxxt your correct its so sad losing a loved one I cannot for one minute pretend I know what it’s like to lose a child but I lost my 15 year old cousin 4 months ago and I still cry now it’s horrendous and seeing all the grief and sadness from the loss of a loved one my poor cousin and his wife losing their daughter and my Aunty losing her granddaughter and you Just wish you could fix it all and bring her back
Take time to allow yourself to process..... I am the same way.... but don't worry about not achieving each day. You are HUMAN. Love to you from across the pond.... xxoo.
It’s great to see you making it through day by day. I hope you feel as connected to your TH-cam community as we do to you. Have you considered any songwriting for Ellie as something therapeutic? It may be too soon, but also maybe not? Stay well. ♥️
Oh keep strong. The song was a sign from your beautiful daughter letting you know that she is watching over you. I just lost my Dad on Halloween of all days. I have no idea how you have the strength to do what you are doing. You are an inspiration and your videos are helping so many. On a side note your natural hair colour is lovely just like you. 💕🇬🇧🇨🇦
Grief is paralysing at times Georgina - it will come in waves and sometimes when you least expect it. There is nothing you can really do about it especially whilst it's still very very raw..... There seriously isn't anything more heart wrenching than losing a child - regardless of age. Just know that what you're feeling is absolutely normal and the only thing that you have control over is time.... time to grieve fully, time to give yourself permission to put yourself first.. and time to accept that you will be emotional .... I feel for you so much - just know that you are not alone... and I am so proud that you come onto the channel and just talk to us.... Ellie wasn't just your child, but your friend... you will think of her forever, but you must keep trying to go out, mix with people, do the things that you both used to enjoy so that you celebrate what you shared whilst she was here.... Nobody can tell you how to navigate your grieving...it's a very personal time... all you can do is put one foot in front of the other every day until you reach the stage where you can think of Ellie and smile again. She is with you ...
Dear Georgina, I'd love to give you a big hug to cheer you up! Hang in there! You are not alone! You have so many subscribers, including me, who are thinking of you and wish you all the best! Much love from the Netherlands ❤️
Day by day honey. I feel like that even now after my grandpa died late February quite suddenly. Even week by week do a "small scale achievement" like going a walk or joining a club etc. Feel tbose feelings, even write them down. Sending you so much love. ❤️
My heart hurts watching this. I'm so so sorry Georgina. I can't believe how strong you are being, forcing yourself to focus on work, life tasks etc to get through the day. You are doing so incredibly well. It's a case of putting one foot in front of the other in the first raw days, months of grief but it will get easier. And Ellie is with you every step of the way. There will come a time when grief isn't what dominates everything all day every day, it won't go away but it will change. You'll be able to breathe again. Most importantly Ellie will always be there and I can imagine how proud she must be of you and how you are dealing with everything. Sending you so much love xx
Georgina, bless your heart. You are such a sweetheart. I love that you can be so vulnerable and let it out. Ellie was with you in that shop! I can't help looking at your furniture and going to myself "we soon have the same taste" LOL. Lots of love to you. Xxx
Oh Georgina my heart breaks for you. I lost my best friend who was 82 fit and well his heart burst and he died Immediately I thought I would never smile again. Two years later I'm still struggling with the loss. ❤️ Sending lots of love xx
I feel so much for you Georgina , your experience reminded me about Brad Yates EFT tapping technique grief TH-cam video to bring the mind into the physical body. Knowing also you are spiritual I’m sure it would resonate for you god bless you , you deserve happiness and health ❤
I believe the "firsts" are the hardest, they hit you when you don't expect it. The first Halloween, the first Christmas, the first New Year, the first Easter, the first birthday without Ellie is the worst. Mainly, I believe cos you don't expect it and it just jumps up and hits you when you are not expecting it. In my limited experience, I have found it easier to, not only expect it, but to set out a place at the table and embrace it. At least that way, you are kinda embracing the grief and welcoming them back in. Hope your OK and dealing with it in the best way you can xxx
Bless you, I really wish I could give you a hug! Please don’t feel bad for struggling with things, it’s completely normal even if it feels bizarre. Please be easy on yourself-going shopping might not seem like much but it can be very challenging for many reasons. You are so so brave for carrying on, I’m sure Ellie would be very proud to have such a strong lady as her mum ❤️❤️
Sending you a huge, squishy, I care about you virtual hug Georgina. I think you are amazing the way you are coping with all the ups and downs that grief brings. Take care of yourself. XXX
It’s ok to feel those emotions and it’s healthy processing them. It’s ok to have a cry now and again, we’re only human, we can be steel 24/7. 9:33 could definitely have a few cool ideas for the shed at the bottom of the garden.
I wish I could give you a hug, please dont put too much pressure on yourself to be productive. I hope we, your viewers can help you in someway, please know your in my thoughts and prayers. I dont know if you have grief share meetings around you, but it could be a great sense of support. 🥰
My heart breaks for you Georgina. I am so so sorry you are going through this horrendous loss. What can anybody say? Nobody can say anything that makes it any better BUT we are here right with you. Please please keep talking to us. I don’t know if it helps you, but it helps me....just to get through life. Keep going darling. We think the world of you xxx 💖💖💖
You are going through a lot right now. the loss of the beautiful child and your medical issues while trying to remain positive and upbeat. we are here for you and we care a lot about you. ❤ sending love
I’m so so sorry 😢 about what has happened and all the things you are going through we are human and cry when when you need to😢 thinking of you Georgina ❤
I love your bird garden, Georgina; amidst the sadness it is so touching that you are giving them such kindness. I have recently found that mine like dried cherries, too, just in case you ever see any and wanted to try out! So much respect for you and thanks for your very honest and open hearted content xx
Been a long time viewer but I don’t normally comment. Yes, ‘The firsts’ as I call them, a very much a thing that is a real struggle. The first birthday, anniversary, Christmas etc. I remember that well having lost one parent at a young age and another some years later. It will never be the same, or will you be at real peace with it and that is just the reality. It does get much much better with time though. She is all around you, all the time. She is pure energy, something which are bodies are largely made of and which cannot be destroyed when we pass and that is fact. Keep on doing what you’re doing and find your own path to keep strong and move forward. The only other option is to allow yourself to go the other way and that can make you poorly. That is something the Ellie would not want and would absolutely kick your ass for. To quote a certain Gladiator movie “I’ll see you again, but not yet.. not yet” 🙏
I lost my brother similar time and say to your daughter,I also have BP,heart type issues,and yes I zone out ,and randomly cry,it's the fatigue,is awful due to own health issues,keep on!
I have random crys in public when I think of my mum who I lost in 2001 but usually triggered by anxiety. Not had one in months but you get better eventually. Love those noodles especially the vegetable and tom yum. Hugs and kisses xx
I lost my mum a few years ago and to me and how your probably feeling like it will never get a bit easyer and you will never be able to move on. But you learn to deal with it still will have moments. but you will get there eventually. Always hard I no I dont no you and Ellie in real life but I am sure Ellie would so proud of you.
What a vlog! All life was there, with the terrible grief, the laughing teens, the woofa dog , the plants, the kindness of a stranger and the just keeping going.
Ellie's song came on in the store which was a little confirmation that her consciousness lives on :) She is ALL around you, poppett.
As for Grief, I'd recommend reading Gloria Hunniford's book 'Always With You' about the loss of her daughter Caron Keating. It's a bit depressing in the beginning, but by the end you feel very positive. She says you learn to live with grief. It never leaves you. You learn to carry on and live around it.
Well worth reading that book.
We're all here for you poppett. You're not alone
Cry when the urge comes Georgina; it's something that physically, emotionally and mentally benefits you in this challenging time of grief. Perhaps when you encounter external reminders of Ellie, it's a time where she is spiritually close to you in some way. And a time for you to celebrate and reminisce about her life. You demonstrate such character and strength in all of your videos. I cannot imagine truly what it is you are experiencing, but I can see that the grief process is very disruptive, unpredictable, uneasy and debilitating. I sincerely hope that as you move forward with Ellie in your heart and on your mind, that you find that you can do so whilst feeling a greater sense of peace.
I never ever leave youtube comments but I need to comment on this video. I have always enjoyed your videos and been a fan. I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my baby son 5 months ago and although all of our losses are different and individual, I can relate to how grief takes over. I have struggled being in public and holding conversations; my mind isn't as quick anymore. Sometimes I find that I can't focus on anything and I feel so separated from the world. I don't feel like I relate to people anymore, like an alien living in a human world. I watch your videos and for a few minutes I feel less alone, because grief is not alien but the most human of experiences a person can have; an experience that no one wishes on others. Thank you for sharing part of your story and journey. Again, I am so sorry for your loss and while grief is a never ending rollercoaster, from what I have been told, it is possible to be happy and live a fulfilled life. I'm sorry to take a video on your situation and then type about my own, but I wanted to say that I understand. Take care
Wishing you well Amy x
Sending you lots of love. Your baby will live on in heaven ❤ xxx
I hope you’re ok. I lost my mum at 17, 4 years ago and i constantly still think of my mum whenever I see someone she would’ve liked or stuff we enjoyed together. I also suffer from Epilepsy like Ellie did, hoping to raise more awareness about SUDEP and epilepsy in general, me and my friends raised £300 by climbing snowdon this year and hoping to even more in the new year. Sending you love.
I can't even begin to imagine what you're living through. I think everyone watching will be giving you a massive cyber hug as they watch this. If it's any consolation, I think honest videos and conversations about grief will definitely help people watching and maybe going through the same thing or similar. The grief process is still a taboo subject in many parts of the world, so its refreshing to see someone talk openly and honestly as they go through theirs. I'm just sorry that you have to.
Grief is such a rollercoaster of emotions. It is impossible to predict how it will effect you from one moment to another. There will be moments when you feel like you are coping better, but then there are moments when your emotions overcome you, and you shouldn't feel awkward about them, as they are part of the process. My heart goes out to you. Ellie would be so proud of you xx
I agree with you!
That song coming on was her saying hello! She was shopping with you in spirit!
Thats likely! She liked B n m with me.
10 years after the loss of my sister, I can be standing in the supermarket or sitting at my desk and a memory of her pops into my head or a song comes on and I'm in tears - it means you're human. I still wish so hard she was still here. What you're going through is entirely normal. I'm so sorry for the loss of your Ellie. Be kind to yourself and if you if you want to cry your heart out, do it. Don't hold it in It will do you good to get it out xx
You woke up today. You can & WIll, Get thru this. ive been there!! ✌🤗
❤❤HI Georgia ❤❤im the sub that made / sent you the candles - its made me SO SO happy that it put a smile on your face after such a painfully sad day for you. Im so glad they arrived safely - sending all my love xx (again thank you for all your help regarding my daughter too who has epilepsy as you know and the good news is after your video and your help shes now on medication) xx
So sweet of you to send such lovely gifts to Georgia, and put a smile on her face after such a tough day ❤️
Thank you so much again, the candles smell amazing. x
Grief doesn't have a time line. I lost my mum 4 years agao and I am still in a lot of pain and crying it out. Give you lots of hugs and sending you lots of love xx
I believe she was letting you know she was with you with that song on. Every thing you are feeling is okay and if you want to cry your eyes out then go ahead. If you want to scream into a pillow go ahead. I think you are incredible. We are all proud of you. ❤️❤️
Love you Georgina I lost my Mam 2 years ago next month, it feels bizzare to say that as it feels just yesterday I was having the time of my life with her.
She was only 60 and a care home worker, no health conditions whatsoever. I wish I was as fit as her.
She caught Covid in the care home she worked in towards the back end of 2020 and didn't survive it.
So unexpected and some days are still hard but I go on and listened to the music she loved regularly. I even got her watching and listening to Eurovision music in her final few years.
People say time is a healer but I say time goes on and you find a new way to cope with it. You remember more of how they were and how they would like scenario's or music your enjoying and somehow make new memories with them which you couldn't have in this life together.
Keep strong and power through, your a great person and your contributions really help people stuggling x
My heart breaks for you. It never ends...but it gets much easier. The times that stop you in your tracks daily...will become weekly... then monthly... then occasionally. You will always think of her but you will eventually smile when you have these memories. It's a horrible time but you will get there. 🥰
Grief is indeed shit. Last week my daughters and I had to go to our nearest big town to get the train to London to attend a special service for my late husband who had worked company there for 32 years. As I arrived at the multi-storey car park I could feel myself being overwhelmed by grief and yes, I drove into the barrier! I just sat in the car crying and saying "I can't do this" over and over. My poor daughters had to calm me down and I then had to find a member of staff to own up to wrecking the barrier (while still crying). Thankfully the staff were lovely and said not to worry about it. It is astonishing how you can spend days or weeks as a fully functioning person and then suddenly be so overwhelmed that you become a wreck. I wish you all the best, look after yourself.
Don’t expect so much of yourself. To lose a parent is bad enough but a child is unimaginable. You are going to have good and bad days . If you feel like crying just go with it I think you feel worse holding it in.
Life can be so cruel sending love g💜
Thank you
Be kind to yourself Georgina, it's still very early days! Love all your plants. X
Please be gentle with yourself. I’m sure that is easier said than done. 😌
millions of people lose their kids,parents..etc in WARS/HUNGER on a daily basis.
just stay thankful & grateful for all the things that you have now in your life.
That is easier said than done. Everyone’s grief is different
Georgina. You are strong and such a gift to the world! I am with you in your grief. You are not alone. The universe wants me to remind you that you are such a special person who brings so much joy. I love you!
It really hurts me to see you cry like this but I totally understand that your going through this grief stuff and you're right grief really is shit but you can get through this if you try to focus on other things feel better soon Georgina xx
Hello dearest, so good to see you are functional and keep going with your life. Remember, this is what our departed loved ones want from us. ❤
Grief Is so so hard 😞 sending you so much love hugs and strength xxx ❤️
Losing someone is the worst. The way I've gotten through loss is to think of it like they moved away, somewhere out of reach, and one day I'll move there and get to see them again. Also, when they're on my mind, I only think of the happy moments I had with them. Now, wlthe more times go by the more I smile remembering things. Anyway, I don't know you, other than from watching your videos, but here's a virtual hug. Hang in there. Time will bring you happiness again.
Your hair actually look gorgeous as it is. My heart goes out to you. you are such an inspiration to many of us
It's just heartbreaking to see You like that. You are wonderfull person. NO WORDS will descrive how You feel now but I am with You, all of us are with You now.
The flower you mention is called Bird of Paradise or Strelitzia! ❤
Wish I could give you a big hug the nation feel your loss and your grief . Your such a rock the way you carry on with life . We all love watching your vlog were with you every step of the way . An inspiration of life itself and the challanges it throws at us . Keep it up lovely lady 😘
Thank you so much. Some times I don’t know what to put in my vlog. So decided to just be real and include everything.
Oh my dear I’m sending you my love today. No it’s not going to end but don’t let that discourage you see it’s because the love and bond between you both doesn’t end. Ellie will see you through this. She’s watching over you and with all my soul I believe one day you will be reunited never to say goodbye again❤ You’re home is lovely
Georgina you're such a likeable person and doing so well. Sending positive vibes your way. ❤
I have no words, Georgina. Only thoughts, seeing you get upset in the car I was upset with you as I know that grief feeling. I promise you will get through this. It’s good to hurt and break down, your mind wants that. Then you can function again. Break down when it wants you to. It’s like riding a wave and going with it. But I promise, it will get better as the years go by. My thoughts are with you.
Aww 😢 Sending you much strength & love…just wanted to give you a big hug 💕
Hi,I lost my mum to cancer in may,miss her everyday.
Sending my love 😍
There is music in the way you talk about your grief when you are sitting in your car. I always think of life as songs. I've been dealing with my mother's cancer for years now - I know that when she finally goes, I won't ever be equipped to handle it, but I know she'd want strength in me and to look after myself. All we can ever do. x
Keep going Georgina, we all support you!
Bug hugs to you Georgina ❤❤❤❤
It's ok to feel depressed and cry. It's something that your soul needs to do in order to heal the grief. I'm crying along with you.
death really does change you it did me i Lost my mum Last year in march and sometimes things are a real effort to do things i do feel you hope you Had a Great Christmas it was your first one with Out Ellie she's still with you everywhere you are i wish you All the best for 2023 x
Heart breaking vlog, but its real.and its you, so much I could say, please don't be hard on your self, grief takes such a long time to work through ,ur doing amazingly , try and take small steps, don't look too far ahead, its cheesy and cleched , but time does heal , what no one says, is how long it takes, no one knows that, its huge testament to Ellie that u feel this way, try and remember that, love as always from Ayr Scotland x
Thank you ,take care
We love you. Hugs from Madrid.
Big hug wish there was something I could say or do to takeaway your pain. I have no words except keep going and take joy in the little things and be kind to yourself and others. X
Most of the others here have said something similar to what I was going to say, but know I am keeping you in my prayers. I am glad you were able to get your plants and I really like the decorated pots with the daisies - those are cute. Hoping that you will feel better soon after your health treatment and it was nice to see the candles you received. People are thinking of you!
Stay Strong Georgina Luv Ya
Crying right along with you, my sweet new friend 😢 ❤ You're stronger than anyone else who's going through this that I've ever known, lovely! Thinking of you and sending positive energy your way, as I do!! You're my Vocal Hero 💙 xx Steven Rush
Grief is sxxt your correct its so sad losing a loved one I cannot for one minute pretend I know what it’s like to lose a child but I lost my 15 year old cousin 4 months ago and I still cry now it’s horrendous and seeing all the grief and sadness from the loss of a loved one my poor cousin and his wife losing their daughter and my Aunty losing her granddaughter and you Just wish you could fix it all and bring her back
Oh darling so very raw and honest, keep sharing so very early in your loss… I want to take you in a time machine ❤
Take time to allow yourself to process..... I am the same way.... but don't worry about not achieving each day. You are HUMAN. Love to you from across the pond.... xxoo.
You're powerful and loved 💙
It’s great to see you making it through day by day. I hope you feel as connected to your TH-cam community as we do to you. Have you considered any songwriting for Ellie as something therapeutic? It may be too soon, but also maybe not? Stay well. ♥️
I have thought about it but it’s too hard at the moment
Oh keep strong. The song was a sign from your beautiful daughter letting you know that she is watching over you. I just lost my Dad on Halloween of all days. I have no idea how you have the strength to do what you are doing. You are an inspiration and your videos are helping so many. On a side note your natural hair colour is lovely just like you. 💕🇬🇧🇨🇦
♥️♥️♥️💓💓💓♥️♥️♥️💓💓💓♥️♥️♥️you deserve all the joy in the world after what you have been through, sending you love and peace 💗
Grief is paralysing at times Georgina - it will come in waves and sometimes when you least expect it. There is nothing you can really do about it especially whilst it's still very very raw..... There seriously isn't anything more heart wrenching than losing a child - regardless of age. Just know that what you're feeling is absolutely normal and the only thing that you have control over is time.... time to grieve fully, time to give yourself permission to put yourself first.. and time to accept that you will be emotional .... I feel for you so much - just know that you are not alone... and I am so proud that you come onto the channel and just talk to us.... Ellie wasn't just your child, but your friend... you will think of her forever, but you must keep trying to go out, mix with people, do the things that you both used to enjoy so that you celebrate what you shared whilst she was here.... Nobody can tell you how to navigate your grieving...it's a very personal time... all you can do is put one foot in front of the other every day until you reach the stage where you can think of Ellie and smile again. She is with you ...
we love you. Keep going. Keep pushing one day at a time.
Dear Georgina, I'd love to give you a big hug to cheer you up! Hang in there! You are not alone! You have so many subscribers, including me, who are thinking of you and wish you all the best! Much love from the Netherlands ❤️
Hugs to you. ❤
Good mornin’ Georgina.🙂
Day by day honey. I feel like that even now after my grandpa died late February quite suddenly. Even week by week do a "small scale achievement" like going a walk or joining a club etc. Feel tbose feelings, even write them down. Sending you so much love. ❤️
My heart hurts watching this. I'm so so sorry Georgina. I can't believe how strong you are being, forcing yourself to focus on work, life tasks etc to get through the day. You are doing so incredibly well. It's a case of putting one foot in front of the other in the first raw days, months of grief but it will get easier. And Ellie is with you every step of the way. There will come a time when grief isn't what dominates everything all day every day, it won't go away but it will change. You'll be able to breathe again. Most importantly Ellie will always be there and I can imagine how proud she must be of you and how you are dealing with everything. Sending you so much love xx
Georgina, bless your heart. You are such a sweetheart. I love that you can be so vulnerable and let it out. Ellie was with you in that shop! I can't help looking at your furniture and going to myself "we soon have the same taste" LOL. Lots of love to you. Xxx
Love you, Georgina!
Oh Georgina my heart breaks for you. I lost my best friend who was 82 fit and well his heart burst and he died Immediately I thought I would never smile again. Two years later I'm still struggling with the loss. ❤️ Sending lots of love xx
Work through it, Georgina. Be aware, heart issues show a very big stress - so be gentle with yourself !
Remember your loved ❤❤
Sending you lots of love Georgina
I feel so much for you Georgina , your experience reminded me about Brad Yates EFT tapping technique grief TH-cam video to bring the mind into the physical body. Knowing also you are spiritual I’m sure it would resonate for you god bless you , you deserve happiness and health ❤
Leave natural, and maybe do a few highlights for fun when you feel like it…probably less maintenance…❤
Sending you a big, warm hug 💗
Sending you so much love Georgina. Xx
Grief is never easy, though it will get easier with time. You are a strong woman, a beautiful woman and we love out here! XOXO
I believe the "firsts" are the hardest, they hit you when you don't expect it. The first Halloween, the first Christmas, the first New Year, the first Easter, the first birthday without Ellie is the worst. Mainly, I believe cos you don't expect it and it just jumps up and hits you when you are not expecting it. In my limited experience, I have found it easier to, not only expect it, but to set out a place at the table and embrace it. At least that way, you are kinda embracing the grief and welcoming them back in. Hope your OK and dealing with it in the best way you can xxx
Bless you, I really wish I could give you a hug! Please don’t feel bad for struggling with things, it’s completely normal even if it feels bizarre. Please be easy on yourself-going shopping might not seem like much but it can be very challenging for many reasons. You are so so brave for carrying on, I’m sure Ellie would be very proud to have such a strong lady as her mum ❤️❤️
life doesn’t get easier, you just get stronger ❤️❤️
From one Mummy to another, my heart aches for you 😢xxxxxx
Sending you a huge, squishy, I care about you virtual hug Georgina. I think you are amazing the way you are coping with all the ups and downs that grief brings. Take care of yourself. XXX
It’s ok to feel those emotions and it’s healthy processing them. It’s ok to have a cry now and again, we’re only human, we can be steel 24/7. 9:33 could definitely have a few cool ideas for the shed at the bottom of the garden.
I wish I could give you a hug, please dont put too much pressure on yourself to be productive. I hope we, your viewers can help you in someway, please know your in my thoughts and prayers. I dont know if you have grief share meetings around you, but it could be a great sense of support. 🥰
Thank you x
My heart breaks for you Georgina. I am so so sorry you are going through this horrendous loss. What can anybody say? Nobody can say anything that makes it any better BUT we are here right with you. Please please keep talking to us. I don’t know if it helps you, but it helps me....just to get through life. Keep going darling. We think the world of you xxx 💖💖💖
You are going through a lot right now.
the loss of the beautiful child and your medical issues while trying to remain positive and upbeat.
we are here for you and we care a lot about you.
❤ sending love
I promise you it gets easier. Sending you so much warmth your way Georgina xx
I'm so sorry your feeling like that. You've been through so much. Your strength is admirable. Thanks for being so open with us xx
We are here for you
We all love you ❤️❤️❤️
I’m so so sorry 😢 about what has happened and all the things you are going through we are human and cry when when you need to😢 thinking of you Georgina ❤
wow...such lovely eyes! xx
I love your bird garden, Georgina; amidst the sadness it is so touching that you are giving them such kindness. I have recently found that mine like dried cherries, too, just in case you ever see any and wanted to try out! So much respect for you and thanks for your very honest and open hearted content xx
I'm so sorry
These blogs are so good to help people w grief + health issues. So brave but so helpful.
I'm so sorry ur having a rough go. But, I loved going about ur day with u.
Been a long time viewer but I don’t normally comment. Yes, ‘The firsts’ as I call them, a very much a thing that is a real struggle. The first birthday, anniversary, Christmas etc. I remember that well having lost one parent at a young age and another some years later. It will never be the same, or will you be at real peace with it and that is just the reality. It does get much much better with time though.
She is all around you, all the time. She is pure energy, something which are bodies are largely made of and which cannot be destroyed when we pass and that is fact. Keep on doing what you’re doing and find your own path to keep strong and move forward. The only other option is to allow yourself to go the other way and that can make you poorly. That is something the Ellie would not want and would absolutely kick your ass for.
To quote a certain Gladiator movie “I’ll see you again, but not yet.. not yet” 🙏
Stay strong, you’re an inspiration. Sending lots of love x
I lost my brother similar time and say to your daughter,I also have BP,heart type issues,and yes I zone out ,and randomly cry,it's the fatigue,is awful due to own health issues,keep on!
Remember to be kind to yourself, you've had a LOT on!!! 💗💗
I have random crys in public when I think of my mum who I lost in 2001 but usually triggered by anxiety. Not had one in months but you get better eventually. Love those noodles especially the vegetable and tom yum. Hugs and kisses xx
sending you lots of love
You are loved
I lost my mum a few years ago and to me and how your probably feeling like it will never get a bit easyer and you will never be able to move on. But you learn to deal with it still will have moments. but you will get there eventually. Always hard I no I dont no you and Ellie in real life but I am sure Ellie would so proud of you.
sending you so much love ❤
Grief is the worst human emotion its awful, grief is the price we pay for love