SEPTEMBER CHECK-IN | Hannah Louise Poston | MY NO-BUY YEAR
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- I’ve been on a no-buy for NINE MONTHS now! I'm officially three-quarters of the way through the year. In this video, I discuss the challenging month of September and some of the radical changes I’m seeing in my life as a result of my no-buy year.
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I realized the other day that I enjoy your videos so much because you are an essayist, like the late Anthony Bourdain, OBM. Your content is video essays and self examination excerpts. Which is greatly enjoyable. You have more to say than the beauty channel on every corner, your voice is so unique, like Kimberly Clarke's, because your thoughts and feelings are examined, and lead to something other than jealousy and wanting a 0.01% lifestyle. You are a brilliant, accessible, and intrinsically interesting essayist, much like our lost Bourdain. I look forward to seeing more of your work!
Aw, thanks so much for saying this!!!
Please never stop posting videos, ever. Sometimes (often. very often.) I feel like you are saying the things that I wish I had the power to think and to do. No other video felt so close to me ever before, so empowering, calming and healing. Amazing.
thanks so much Justyna! This comment made my day.
It's kinda nice in a way to hear you say you have ups and downs to, because I've been saying to myself a lot lately, "I want to be like Hannah" and then getting more down on myself especially when its comes to your no buy and how put together you seem all the time. That's not to say I'm in any way "happy" you had some downs I always wish you the utmost best! But to hear you tell the world, it's okay to have ups and downs is refreshing. You probably don't realize how many people look to you as a role model. You sure are mine! Congrats on paying off your credit card! That's one of my next goals as well. Here's to an amazing October Hannah!
Aw, thank you Angela, this made me feel all the feelings! I've had so many downs this year, some of which I have talked about and some of which I haven't. I think breaking a long-held habit causes ALL of the demons to come out to play, and it's a lot of hard work dealing with them. You can do it! Sending a huge hug your way. xoxo
You're amazingly raw, humble, and real. This is why I enjoy your content. It's effective and worth the time. Thank you.
thank you so much for this sweet comment. It's weird to be on TH-cam sometimes, and this means a lot to me
You have one of the best TH-cam channels I've come across because you're extremely well spoken and just real. Watching this video made me reflect on how I've also been so caught up with life. Recently things have been getting crazy and I'm not taking proper measures to remain in a healthy state of mind. I even slipped up and bought a new pair of riding boots...
I appreciate you and I am rooting for you.
aw, thanks Jessica! I'm so glad you are enjoying my project! I hope you're able to slow down a bit and get some breathing room. xoxo!
Thank you for bringing up whats happening in the news. It's been so hard for me and many others who have been abused in the past (and even for those who just have basic human empathy). I've definetly found myself slipping out of self care routines and focusing on short bursts of hapiness inercperted with forcing myself to suffer and watch the news. This was a very timely video for me and I want to thank you for it.
Thanks for this comment, Gabrielle. I know that a lot of people come to TH-cam for an escape, but for me, this stuff is all interconnected and I think it's important to acknowledge that. I hope you can start fresh this week with some of your routines (that's what I'm going to try to do, we'll see how it goes). xoxo!
Thank you for being honest and open about such a sensitive topic as personal finances and deep reflection on changes that are happening to you. I think your experience is extremely valuable ❤️.
Thank you Aydina! xoxo!!
Each month you stop buying you look more glowing and happy. An inner beauty that Sephora can not give you! Inspirational!
I remember my dad telling me entering into adulthood that life was cyclical. That for those moments of feeling in control and on top of things, there were going to be times of my life that felt the exact opposite. I feel like I’ve come to a point in my life where I’m getting better at recognizing where I am in that life-cycle. Thank you for articulating what I think I a lot of us feel. I don’t think I struggle with depression or anxiety in a profound way. But I know when I watch myself my active decisions for the positive and in subsequent months, avoid the steps I should take to make better choices. And it’s those little steps one way or another that can so greatly impact my perspective, my mood with my husband/friends, and the outcome of my efforts. It’s nice to hear someone putting to words what a down month can feel like. Like you, I’ve chosen to be selective in my new media inputs, but have also waded head first into the recent hearings and grown despondent. And I know that is played a meaningful part in how I’ve been mentally ready to approach the world.
Thank you so much for this lovely comment, Sarah, and for the support! I'm already starting to feel more productive in October (I think being unproductive is another one of the things that really gets me down). Sending a big hug to you!
I am continuously just in awe of how well you put feelings and mental things into words that make all the sense. I love listening to you and it really helps!
Hi Hannah, would you make a video please, explaining all of your rules? I know you provided guidelines (thank you!) but could you share your exact rules? Hearing everything you delineated for yourself would help me make sure I don’t forget anything on my end in setting up my 2023 no-buy. It would be such a treat to hear the level of detail of all of your rules. Thank you so much for sharing your journey. I am vastly enjoying your candid yet eloquent vulnerability, honesty and the level of detail you share. You are inspiring me to face a new level of healing.
You have profound (yes, that's the right word) insight, and you really hit home with me on so many topics in this video. I've been avoiding all national news as much as I can the last couple of years because it's just so worrisome and scary, but this past week I just couldn't look away. And it's been weighing on me so much. I really do feel the connection between my worries and my compulsive shopping tendencies. I fell asleep most nights this week scrolling through endless TH-cam videos about products I don't even want. I just felt like I needed the escape. But I would've been so much better off doing yoga, or meditating, or catching up on sleep. And the part about not taking my vitamins...and the part about feeling like I'm not succeeding enough in my career...and the part about not being pleased with my body. It all ties in together, and it's so good to stop and take a good, hard look. I can't tell you how many times during this video I said (out loud) "Yes, me too." I could go on and on, but I think you get the idea. I've said it before, but I'll say it again. You are building a very special community here, and I'm so thankful to be a part of it.
Thanks, Karen! I also feel like this is such a special group. I love my subscribers! I'm sorry you've been feeling so down as well. I hate that the actions of horrid men cause us to be more self-destructive (as if they aren't destroying enough already). I guess all we can do is keep going and keep getting better! xoxo
I am watching this right today and i am feeling exactly this (!) this month. The Moment i watch my Vitamin D in the morning and then Not taking it. Skipping Ballett class, eating fast food, Not going outside ... Self Sabotage. Now i am in a down. You gave this circle of my life words.♥️
Everything you have said is so relatable. I am starting my no buy year tomorrow. I have been panic shopping and i am really afraid of the coming year. My motto for the year is “if it scares you then you need to do it”. I am looking forward to feeling this freedom you speak of. I need to be accountable so i am considering a few options. My wife is doing it as well. She is a great support so i know we can succeed. Thank you for your inspiration.
YASSS Robyn congratulations on starting your no-buy. You absolutely can do it! It will swiftly get easier, and the panic-buys will suddenly seem far in the past. (Although I should mention that part of why I had this credit card debt when I entered the year was because of my panic-shopping at the end of December. I had no idea it would take me so long to pay off...if I had, I might not have made so many purchases. I've also already decluttered some of the things I panic bought at the end of December.) I'm sure it's going to be an amazing year! Keep me updated!
To live within your means usually equates to not getting everything we would like to have as soon as we want it. Sadly credit cards are seen as a way to get what you want quicker, but it can be a slippery slope. The basic necessities in life are food, water, shelter and clothing, but I know a lot of people who would add a lot more to that list (cable TV, netflix, fancy cars, designer X, etc). When push comes to shove, we don't really need those extras. It takes a big mindshift to get back to the basics, as we are conditioned into thinking we need it all, and limiting ourselves isn't so fun. I heard an episode on NPR that someone had shown that having less equals happiness... who would have thought that?!
I believe that having less equals happiness, if the basic necessities are covered! I've been reading more about that lately, too. And I find that the less I buy, the less I want.
Awww I am so excited to see your finale in January 019. You give me so much inspiration!
Thank you!
I do believe that things happen for a reason. I needed to watch this video. It was a sign of hope that I was craving today! I had a terrible month, lots of uncertainty, one bad thing after the other but still being grateful for what I have! ❤ Work hard and spend wisely! Thank you Hannah!
Congrats! I have a couple months until my credit debt is paid off. My dog, Sali, developed an aural hematoma that required surgery so it’s delayed my debt payoff, but I’m glad I could afford her surgery, and I was still able to put some money in savings which I haven’t done in months and months. I’m a few days shy of the 2 month mark in my no buy and feeling strong. I went into it thinking I would buy at the November Sephora sale, but I won’t need anything so I don’t think I will. If they give out those coupons in December I may use that on small bottle of a perfume I really miss having, but I don’t need it, and I’m not sure if I will want to exercise an exception to the no buy for that item. Your words about value strike me deeply. I’ve always been a contradictory combination of thrift and splurge. Stepping away from spending is showing me how out of balance I have become. I still browse online but find myself nonplussed with the things I see, they aren’t as valuable to me now. Last year I would be filling my cart in anticipation of the holiday sales. I would rework my cart over and over in new combinations. Now I realize if I did purchase these things they would bring no value to my life, but instead would reduce my resources monetarily, spatially, and emotionally. Long way to say thank you to you again Hannah. Sharing your experience with us has helped me immeasurably. - Sylvia
Hurrah, Sylvia, it sounds like you are doing spectacularly well with all of this! I'm so glad to hear it. Having your feelings about buying new things change so completely is the true no-buy reward. And congratulations on putting some money in savings, that's the next step for me! I hope Sali is healing up fast.
Wow, another powerful video! Now you seem more realistic, but still a role model to me. Like your self awarness and honesty ❤ A lot of food for thoughts.
Thanks, Agnieszka! xoxo!
Three things that I hope make you feel a little better: (A) I can't imagine your writing is anything but gorgeous, because you speak so beautifully. (B) I get so excited every time I see your videos and they've honestly helped me curb my spending a ton. (C) You look stunningly beautiful in that blue!
(I also have to stay away from the news - it destroys me, and I just can't be emotionally devastated all the time while I'm working at my current job.)
Thanks, Dacey! I'm so glad you are enjoying the videos. I love this blue, too! I don't usually wear such bright colors but I just couldn't resist this particular shade.
Hey Hannah, I’ve been wanting to thank you so much. A few videos ago you talked about space and it’s importance. Whenever I think about buying something for a split second, I think about space and where would I put it. I do not want to buy products I have to cram into somewhere which I had never thought about before. It’s stopped 95% of my wish list. Thank you for it. I wish you have a better month this October in your personal life and your no buy. 💓
Hi Nafissa! Wow, thanks so much for telling me about your experience with thinking about space and how it's changed your relationship with your wish list! I've found that concept to be incredibly effective in my life, too. Thanks for watching and commenting, and for the support! xoxo
CONGRATS! On paying off that credit card of course. :)
Thanks, Georgia! It took exactly nine months, so I guess it's like I had a debt-free baby.
As many others have commented, you articulated so well how it feels to be in that mundane type of downward spiral that most people go through. Having only recently started my no-buy, I've been looking forward to the mental states you described in previous recent check-ins: feeling satisfied with life instead of obsessing over what to buy. But it's good to be reminded that these things come and go. Life is still hard both for personal, individual reasons and because of massive scale oppressive systems, and it's not surprising that we'll find ourselves retuning to old coping mechanisms.
I particularly appreciated that, when you talked about slipping into old shopping habits, you talked about it in a somewhat detached way, in that you observed your behavior rather than shaming or condemning yourself for it. That in itself is a skill that I want to cultivate this year!
Aw, thanks! I do get down on myself for "bad" behaviors sometimes, especially when they impact my productivity (I hate being unproductive more than almost anything. I'm a terror when I get sick and I'm too sick to work). but I think it's important to let go. I already feel bad, so if I feel bad ABOUT feeling bad, the badness is compounded and it becomes that much harder to get out from under it.
Your vulnerability and honesty are two things that I believe draw people to you. Social media can be shallow and a series of “greatest hits” type moments. I think transitional seasons are hard, especially on folks with sensitive personalities. Even though the seasons are more subtle here in LA, it still affects me. Thank you for sharing your relatable moments. I have had long periods of time on my own writing path where I produced nothing of merit (at least in my opinion) and got super discouraged. I’m on an upswing with that currently, but I’ve gone through months of not even trying or wanting to write and then beating myself up about it. It’s a vicious cycle! Hoping the other side of the pendulum swings back up for you soon. You bring a lot of joy to our lives!
Thanks Paulette! I haven't even thought about the seasons changing, but that could definitely be part of it. I'm glad you are doing better with your writing!
You’re my favorite channel to watch/listen to while I’m clearing out my closet, cooking, cleaning and to sit and enjoy! I missed this video and i immediately went to see where this sweater was from...low and behold you made it! Not only is the color stunning but the design...I want that sweater on my body!!!! 😍
I’ve been on a mini no buy myself since finding your channel and it has been tough. I cut out buying makeup since August and it has made me realize how addicted I was to the shopping experience. I even caught myself substituting that feeling with buying other things. October I will push myself further by doing a complete no buy. I hope to push to the end of the year. Thank you for your videos and being so transparent ❤️❤️ it helps a lot
Woo hoo, congratulations on your no-buy! I totally identify with the substituting thing...I had to stop buying chocolate in February because I was getting really intense about the chocolate shopping experience in the grocery store :) it took me a few weeks to realize what I was doing. I'm so glad my videos are helping and I hope the rest of the year is amazing! Keep me updated xoxoxo
I've been going through your archives since I found your channel and am beyond grateful that I watched this today! Thank you so much for sharing your ups and downs, as well as your financial situation -- I relate so much to all of it. I always assume other writers are 100% confident in their craft and that there must be something wrong with my abilities if I'm always doubting myself or experiencing various mental blocks that keep me from sitting down and doing the thing. Your poetry and essays are gorgeous, so to know that even someone as talented as you struggles with that is such a comfort (as much as I wish you didn't have to struggle with it)!
Oh girl, if you weren't struggling with it I'd be worried about you as a writer! I think we all deal with these feelings, it's part of the work :) Thanks for this comment
Thank you for this Hannah. The past couple of news days have been incredibly difficult to watch but like you I haven’t been able to look away. I did very well in September but now that I have been paid I have been back to my habit of “money in my pocket what should I buy?” way of thinking. I have really been struggling and worrying as there are some expenses this month that I can’t avoid. So please keep the videos coming. They REALLY help xxx
I will keep the videos coming! Thanks, Maurey. xoxo!
Thank you for just being you and share your journey with us ❤️
Hannah, when you talk about your spending and finances, it feels like you are speaking about my life and my personal thought process. The fear of facing your financial situation and having to confront your own behaviors is real. I am so happy that you share you story because it’s comforting to know someone else has experienced this and that it’s possible to change, however painful that process may be at times. You mentioned how this past week was difficult partially because of what was in the news. I felt the same way, too. But for me, videos like yours help me get through it. Again, thanks so much for sharing and I am glad I found your channel.
Thank you SO much for your comment! It's embarrassing to share how much difficulty I've had with my finances, because I like to think of myself as being more put together than that. So I appreciate hearing that it resonates with you and that you find it helpful. It is super hard to break these habits and change, especially when the news cycle is so disheartening it just makes me want to hide! But you can do it. xoxoxo!
I want you to know that I absolutely love watching your videos and you have inspired me. I was going to be on a no buy til July but I think I'm going to be on a no buy 2019. I may end up watching your videos over and over again that whole year but knowing that it is doable is encouraging
Hi Judith! thank you so much for this note. I really appreciate it and congrats on your no-buy! A long no-buy is definitely do-able, you just have to approach it with conviction. Keep me updated!
Thank you so much for your honesty and vulnerability. You are amazing and inspiring. Watching this video made me feel less alone. Sending you so much love and light.
thank you!
I always love when you post because you always have something meaningful in your videos that resonates with probably pretty much all of us! I am sorry to hear that you have been feeling down but I am glad that things have been turning around and you are feeling better and on an upswing! Sometimes getting back on the upswing might be a hard process but each step counts no matter how little, because step by step, it gets you there! And even if you don’t feel fully there and think you have a ways to go, look behind you and see how far you’ve come! Congratulations on paying off the credit card! That is a great accomplishment! I agree about removing your credit card information that was stored on websites. Not only does it make it less convenient to make a purchase, but I think it makes you think about it a little more in depth about making the actual purchase as in do you really need/want it, the cost, etc. because it’s no longer just that blank one click and it’s purchased!
thanks, Lisa! I'm already starting to feel better, I appreciate the words of encouragement. xoxo!
I think this is one of my most favorite videos of yours. So very helpful psychologically. You went deep and didn't blink! Thank you so so much for this. I feel like I need to re-watch this video a few times and revisit it periodically to build up and sustain my no-buy fortitude. Getting out from under cc debt almost seems unattainable to me at this point, but you inspire me. And I did pretty well on my September no-buy ... the only things I bought were items I had an exemption for - such as Dr. Sam Bunting's facial cleanser, which became available to U.S. purchasers in Sept.! So I feel good about my no-buy turning into a low-buy, and will continue into October, although I am not QUITE ready yet for a serious no-buy ... still thinking and planning that one out. ❤
thanks, Dio! I'm so glad you are feeling inspired. You can do it. Congrats on doing well in September!
This was so helpful. I just started my no buy for 2020 and I hadn't thought about how many places I still have my credit card. I'm going to go in and remove it now. I appreciate your honesty so much because its giving me so much more to start with.
Hi Hannah! I don't know if you read comments on your older videos, but I am the girl whose first video was your Q&A. I have been working through this archive because I want to make some changes in my own life, and I just wish I could tell past you from future me that you are doing really well, despite the adversity.
I am currently looking for a place once I come back to the US from Korea and I am realizing that I need an entire ROOM for my beauty collection, and when you say "you need room for things and room is expensive" it really kind of clicked that I need to have a real come-to-Jupiter meeting with myself. I have a chunk of my makeup here with me in Korea and this weekend I think I will start on the lipsticks I have with me. I have so many. I have like 100 with me. Why do I need a 100 for a one-year tour in Korea...? It's time to be honest with myself. I do not need 20 shades of red. I have the perfect 5 reds. Why did I bring the other 15, and furthermore, why do I have 200 more at home? Nobody needs this. And I wear red lipstick once every few months. But if I have the "perfect reds", WHY did I buy more? You have been a positive influence on my efforts to help change my way of thinking, because the issue isn't the shopping - it's the way that I think that FUELS the shopping, and the other bad habits. And it's time to change those, because I am literally in a position where I gotta rent a house with an EXTRA ROOM just for MY STUFF.
I’m new. This was great! “Temporary relief.” I need to remember that. Those feelings of being satiated are FLEETING. Thank you!!
Yay, welcome! thanks for watching and commenting! So glad you enjoyed the video.
HLP, my girl, I feel you on a spiritual level. I even started my own spiral about 1.5 weeks ago. Luckily, I’m training for a race, and the dedication to that alone made me put on my running shoes and helped me stay off the ledge. Oh and the Kavanaugh case could break me too. I had to step away from listening to the testimony. Deep girl. It’s deep. I’m listening to this while drinking my tea (only one coffee in the last month!) and getting ready for work and honestly, its giving me LIFE. It’s motivating me to not be too far in my head and enjoy the beautiful outdoors that I get to run in every day.
Giiiiirrrllll you paid off your credit card!!!! You do that happy dance... My BF and I run our own business too and its a really hard balance to figure out when and how much your work is worth and how much to pay back into your business. We have a tendency to go one extreme or the other either all in the business or “treat yo self”. I also had to delete my card information off of everything and now I am on a cash envelope system because I also was making idiotic choices. I decided to keep all of my receipts for September and really went over them for the first time. I was buying the silliest things. OH MY Gosh. SO yeah.... Cash envelopes only, and I’m going to a very very VERY minimal amount of online shopping because that’s what gets me. Long story short, I am still learning about finances at 29, and I’m going to keep on learning.
I would LOOOVE to have more videos on financial health and maybe even the “b-word” (budgeting).
I know I’m just an internet stranger, but I have loooved watching your journey this year and I am so proud of you! You are definitely making palpable progress. You’re amazing and an inspiration.
Aw, thank you so much! Hearing your story is so helpful, and congrats on the race training and on kicking coffee, that is amazing. I've been thinking about how we are all "internet strangers" but it's also so real. The connections and support are super real! & yes, I think there will be some serious budgeting next year...I'm really looking forward to putting together my next project and introducing it!
Hannah Louise Poston yay! I’m so excited to see what the future brings.
I was thinking of a video idea for a slightly shorter video because I know you’re trying to vary your video lengths. Once your skincare routine settles down on the front and back in your could do a before and after cost analysis with maybe a daily breakdown.
What I’m thinking is “before my routine cost $400 retail and broke down to $3 a day. Now my routine costs $160 and breaks down to $0.85 a day. I changed these products for these reasons.”
I hope I’m making sense. You definitely motivated me to look at the costs of my routine and I’ve cut it down in a big way. I just thought it would be a good “update” to your skincare series :)
loved hearing about your financial journey. that’s something i try to reflect on a lot in the midst of changing my spending habits. congrats on paying off your credit card and working on limiting what you put on it 💕 xoxo, megan
Thank you so much, Megan! xoxo!
First of all, I'm obsessed with this look! The shirt, the hair, the makeup - it all looks awesome! Secondly, I am really enjoying your videos. I know what you mean about the credit card spending... I finally took mine out of my wallet and "hid" it in an inconvenient place, which has worked super well for me so far. Also, hang in there - this has been an unsettling month.
Thanks, Lauren! I'm so glad you are enjoying the videos! Thanks for watching and commenting. xoxoxo
I love these monthly check-ins of yours, please please please do continue them next year, even if it's not about your no-buy anymore. I am sorry to hear that you had a rough month, but glad to hear that you have support and that youtube made you feel better as well.
Regarding what you said about sense of value, I whole-heartedly agree. I think that money and the things we choose to spend our money on is a very personal thing. However, for me, personally, I am always surprised about how much money people choose to spend on things that one could get much cheaper, like a toner, moisturizer, shampoo, whatever. I am not judging, but for me, personally, those are things that I am not willing to spend a lot of money on (and I am lucky in that I am financially quite flexible.) Notice however, that I did not say lipstick, highlighter or foundation, which weirdly are things that I am absolutely willing to spend money on, even if the 50 Dollar Dior highlighter probably isn't any better than the 5 Doller WetnWild one. But that's just it, it's a personal choice and "sense of value", and it's important to realize what the personal value of things is for us.
Thank you for another inspirational video and food for thought this week. :-)
thanks, Kris! I'm pretty sure I will be continuing with the check-ins next year. I'm still finalizing my project but I agree with you that they should stay! Also I totally get it about being willing to spend a lot on certain things and not others. I think that one of the things my no-buy has revealed to me is where I can cut costs in beauty (instead of just spending willy-nilly).
I'm glad you're feeling better. Next year is MY no buy year.
amazing!
This video hit so close to home. I'm like you, I check the news regularly but only devote myself 5 minutes to thinking about it before I push it from my mind 'lest it drive me nuts (this seems like the story of my life since 2016). That said, this time I forced myself to follow along minute by minute, because this one's on THAT level of importance. I honestly have never raged, cried, and despaired as much as I have last week leading up to, during, and after that hearing, and inevitably found myself surfing youtube makeup videos and trendmood because it's an easy distraction. It was like being able to automatically push an "off" button on my brain to keep those feelings of helplessness from sinking me further. Thankfully I've always been able to approach such browsing w/ a critical eye and it hasn't necessarily made me want to BUY more, but just the exercise of thinking about something mindless like makeup had me compulsively going through those passive buying activities so much more frequently than I have in over a year, honestly.
Hang in there, lovely. We can make it through this.
yes to the automatic "off" button, that is so real. And sometimes it's a good thing to have, I think. As long as we don't let it take over our lives (and/or drain our bank accounts)! Thanks for this comment, I'm sorry it's been terrible for you too but it's comforting to know that I'm not the only one
Congratulations on planning for your future and making it through this tough month! Also, THANK YOU for sharing this and providing a supportive platform for people with the same struggles. You are an absolute rockstar, and I appreciate you, girl! Hang in there. :)
thank you so much! I really appreciate this comment. xo!
A beautiful video as always - you're always so eloquent. Sorry to hear that you had a crappy month, I guess it is a part of life, and on the positive, I loved that you were able to share it with us. It was great to hear and really understand you as a full person with regular ups and downs. Can't wait to hear what your plans are for your project next year
Thanks, Zakiya! xoxo!
right after i watched it i realized out of the blue that watching your videos has had a positive affect on my spending aswell, i haven't browsed online as much, i have bought stuff i don't really need at this moment (mostly backups to skincare to stuff i already know i like, granted which i could have bought when needed) but i honestly haven't had any random impulse buys :) so although i was not supposed to buy anything, the things i bought weren't things that i won't use or will throw out soon, cause i was a stupid decision. so tiny improvements but still failed my nobuy month :)
keep making these videos, they are helpful and interesting as to see tiny changes in myself thanks to your journey!
I'm so glad you are seeing changes! It's a process. If you weren't ready for a no-buy month, maybe try a week, or two weeks? You could join the first 10 days of no-buy October and stick to it super strong. It's just ten days, and you'll feel so good when you make it through!
Thank you for sharing this. September has been difficult for me too. I'm also worried about my career because I'm graduating and looking for a full-time job for the first time. I think that no matter what field you're in it's easy to doubt yourself. I haven't bought any makeup or skincare since August because that's when I found your channel! My plan is to do a replacements-only no buy until January and I'm feeling good so far! I'm starting to pan my lip products, which has completely eliminated the desire for any new ones.
congratulations on your no-buy, it sounds like you are doing brilliantly! I'm sure the job search will unfold exactly as it should. And I hear you about the panning. Every time I think I want something, I think about how much I have and how long it's going to take me to use it, and I'm like "oh...right."
You are so amazing, and a great role model! I love that you share this with the world and I hope that it gets uphill now 😸
thank you so much for watching and for this sweet comment! xoxo
I hear you girl.. thank you for your honesty and for the inspiration... I'm on no buy day 3 yay! I had to give my boyfriend my password for ebay as I don't trust myself. I feel similarly. Perhaps its being busy, being stressed, trying to juggle two very different roles and how creative work is full of rejection and self doubt. Shopping is just so easy, no talent is required and something beautiful is acquired and it always works. It's such an attraction. This is why I decided to follow your example and do my own no buy. My main question is about how to deal with the illusion of not treating oneself, losing the abundance mentality. This is not a thing- in that I have a stash- I have plenty of clothes, makeup et.c but why do we still crave more and feel we deserve more?
One, I so admire your candor and willingness to be vulnerable with us. Thank you. Two, I can relate to the credit card cycle. A few years ago, I was stuck in the pay-it-off-rack-it -up cycle. A software called You Need A Budget was life CHANGING. I don't use it strictly in exactly the way the designer intends it to be....but it did help me see how much money I had flowing in (more than I thought) and flowing out (whoa...way more than I thought, and in ridiculous amounts in certain areas). It brought a lot of consciousness to my finances in a way that I hadn't been able to achieve prior to. I'm sure there are many other platforms of a similar type, but I've really found that YNAB use and the awareness that comes from that has drastically improved my financial health, and subsequently a part of my emotional health.
Thanks for the rec! I will totally look into that for next year. I'm glad it's helped you so much, sounds amazing!
Thank you for such an insightful, thoughtful video, Hannah. Following your example, I only bought health and beauty essentials this month: shampoo, conditioner, face wash, and lip balm, nothing fancy. In October, I only anticipate buying a basic dry shampoo. Inspired by Dr. Dray's videos, I've been trying to buy simple skincare with scientifically proven ingredients, such as Differin gel and Cerave moisturizing cream and facial moisturizing lotion. The bottle for the Cerave moisturizing lotion is aesthetically lacking, to say the least, but it has ceramides, niacinamide, and hyaluronic acid. Like you, I hope to reach a point in the future where I don't feel the need to shop impulsively. Better late than never, I say.
I've had so many recs for that Cerave lotion! I'm going to try it next when my night creams are all empty. I'm glad you are doing so well with spending and simplifying your routine, that's wonderful!
I definitely recommend Cerave moisturizing cream. I'm not sure about the facial moisturizing lotion though. I can't tell if it makes any difference.
I think the Cerave moisturizing cream container is okay, but the shape of that facial moisturizing lotion is sort of strange to me. Do you find that it works? I'm going to keep on using it to see if I can tell.
In the past, I haven't used a facial moisturizer, just eye cream. Using Kiehl's avocado eye cream, the fine lines by my eyes are diminished. That doesn't seem as apparent with the Cerave, but it may be that I will see cumulative effects later on. The Cerave hasn't broken me out either. I like that Cerave products don't have added scent.
Hearing yor voice is therapeutic. Your makeup look is my favourite of all you have done by the way. It suited you the best.:)
thanks! I enjoyed this look, too. Can't get enough of glitter :) xoxo!
I started my no buy year Jan 25th,2019
I haven't bought anything and when I get the urge I come watch these videos 😂
Really love this update, it's always the rough months that gets us. I fall into the 'im doing so well, let me reward myself' trap which is some level of self-sabotage. I was watching rebecca, a panner, talking about money = time. It was scary calculating how much i earn per hr, and put it against my makeup purchases. I was thibking i did so well, spending under a hundred this month in makeup. And then i realised it was a little over 6 hrs worth of work 😑 now im like why did i spend that money haha
I can totally relate to everything you've said in this video about September, thankyou so much for sharing it!
Thanks, Susannah! I'm so glad! xoxo
I LOVE rewatching your no buy check in thoughts and insights. Can you pls put Sept and Oct check in videos in the Check In playlist? I just like to play it in a loop. Thanks 😊
"How are you showing up for yourself?"
I just wrote this on my mirror to remind myself the same things you talked about.
This blue top is beautiful on you by they way!
I know this is an old video, but I really resonate with the stuff you say about feeling low resulting in you wanting the dopamine hit from shopping.
It was interesting you mentioned self care. Shops have kind of taken actual self care and tried to sell it to us in the form of bath and skincare (ie buying products) when in reality self care is the building blocks you mentioned. I would love to see a video of your thoughts on the "self care" trend and how corporations have taken it and spun it in a way to make us spend money.
This is a very timely video! I started my no-buy on the 2nd (I think). I am 40 weeks pregnant and have basically waiting around trying not to go crazy for a couple of weeks now. Ever since I surpassed the "due date" I've been struggling to not drown my feelings in non-essential purchases, like makeup and clothes. I'm going to attempt to drag my sad ass into the art studio tomorrow and paint.
Painting sounds like the perfect way to spend this time :)
I get having a bad month ... I’ve always had ups and downs, but yesterday I got my first bad reviews from one of my clients. The first one regarding to my makeup artistry she loved her makeup but on her wedding venue the ac got damaged and don’t know what happened but she said that her makeup didn’t last more than 8 hours and I know that it sounds crazy but my clients usually tell me that they wake up the with their makeup the next day. My perfectionism and sympathy are driving me crazy since yesterday when my client texted me I love the makeup and explained that it didn’t last as long as she would’ve wanted. I cried a lot. And it’s the same thing insecurities, what if I’m not good enough, not as good as I thought I was. A failure, what if This happens again. I’m feeling anxious, I’m feeling sad and do not know what to do with myself. I’m questioning my abilities. I didn’t even wanted to shop but I have a box coming to me from my impulse purchases that I made before my no buy and yesterday I was just checking the tracking number time after time to see if I would get the box and the funny thing is since they sent it the day of my no buy I haven’t even checked for it... I didn’t mind ... I’m still having a hard time and don’t know how to get over it. Can’t seem to calm myself down and realize that I’m not perfect and that this one client in comparison to hundreds of clients I’ve had does not make me a bad artist and it shouldn’t be a reason for my insecurities to be surfacing this much. Anyway ... it’s true. Bad days ... are rough ! ❤️ hugs for you even tho September is long gone.
Arg, Jordana, I'm so sorry that happened! It sound like it wasn't your fault at all. I know how bad it feels when your good work gets criticized for reasons beyond your control. I hope you can move on to better things soon!
Oh man.. I hear ya. I, too, have been having some issues in my personal life, and my will to resist temptations has been pretty low. I still didn't end up getting anything. But when your brain is feeling depressed, that little hit of dopamine is so enticing.
yay, but you still didn't end up getting anything! That's amazing. Sorry it's been hard times for you too, I hope it gets better soon but I'm proud of you for staying strong!
Hannah - thank you for putting yourself out there. These are important behaviors to be aware of as consumers. Sometimes it’s Sephora, for others it’s Home Depot or the Apple store. 😄 Congratulations on your continued success. I enjoy your channel and look forward to the next video. Cheers
Thanks, Melody! xoxo!
I’m watching all your old videos.. as you might remember I’m a new subscriber and I find your content so helpful. This video is like you are describing me. Like as I heard you talking I’m thinking that you are reading my thoughts.. my son is a constant source of worry for me. He’s 18 and got in with bad friends and drugs.. I stay awake so many nights. My weight affects how I feel so much. Like I feel shitty about myself so I eat things I wouldn’t typically eat.. I buy stuff. Stuff that’s still in the packages. I don’t take vitamin D so I think I’m going to try that. Also what you said about routine. I did feel better when I exercise but I’ve lost all motivation. Time restraints. My love of makeup and hoarding has I consumed my thoughts. It’s like I feel like I’ve gone so far so may as well go all in. I’m that way in everything. And so much I wished I wasn’t an all or nothing type of person. I’m hoping that my no buy will help my thoughts. I’m sorry I’m so rambley but I don’t talk about stuff then when I start I go on and on. I’m truly happy I found your channel
Hi Faith, I'm sorry to hear you've been having a hard time lately as well! I do think a no-buy can help; I find that willpower builds on itself, and sticking to one resolution can lead to other positive changes. I do recommend vitamin D and a sun lamp if you live in a wintery place!
Hannah Louise Poston you are such a nice caring person. Thank you so much. I did order some vitamin D so just waiting on it to come in
Thank you Hannah! I needed to hear what you say.
Just listening, how you deal with your personal ups and downs It's helping me to get new perspective about mine.
So thanks to help me stay a little bit more sane! :)
Thanks, Anna! I'm so glad it's helping. xo!
I've gotten really into meditation since I had a rough August and it's amazing! Thanks for reminding me to get back into it (only been half assing it past couple weeks).
The news coming from the states has been super upsetting. My boyfriend decided to start watching mad men last week (he's never seen it before, I have) and he decided to stop watching it with me in the room because of the feminist rants I was constantly interrupting the show with (things like IT NEVER F'ING CHANGES and MEN HAVEN'T EVOLVED may have been yelled at the tv a lot)
Wow, congrats on the regular meditation! That's great. & really funny about your boyfriend having to watch Mad Med covertly for some peace, LOL! I feel you!
Oh man, this week last year was a trainwreck for me because of the news as well. Feminist internalization of world pain. This video speaks to me.
I relate to your credit card story. That was me this year as well.
Congratulations on paying it off! That’s a massive achievement! ♥️
Thanks, Rachel! xoxo!
Totally appreciate your honesty and continue to love your videos. I’d love to hear more about your 8 minute meditation - is this something you could share? ❤️
Yes, it's an 8-minute guided meditation by Tara Brach called "Letting Go of Control." I found it through an app (I think it's called The Mindfulness App) but you might be able to find it, or other meditations led by Tara Brach, on her website. There's also one called The Yes Meditation that's twelve minutes, which I use sometimes when I need it. Highly recommended!
I'm glad you are feeling better Hannah. Cheers for paying off the card. I don't think that my very low-buy had as good as an effect. Though, needing to buy over the counter med things, new pillows, rollers, supplements, oy the bills go on. But I am feeling better. My bills are lower, I can work out again and free gym use with my new job. Things are better, but it is a long slog. I think the last two years have beat up everybody I know. I would stay away from too much media. I sign lots of petitions online (Brigade, Change.org, Daily Kos, Care2) without needing to bombard myself daily with news and stress mongers.
Thanks, Megan! So glad you are feeling better and more mobile. xo!
So sorry you've had a rough month. Love your positivity though. Glad you paid your credit card debt off. Feels great doesn't it. Onwards and upwards now xoxo
Thank you for the support! xo!
I applaud the attention you paid to your behavior. I know it is really hard. I went through three phases of depression. I know it is hard to be mindful and conscious of your feelings. Our brain is not to be trusted. I am happy for your because I do think the beauty community and people's relationship with makeup is toxic. I wear a lot of makeup to use up my stuff and buy new ones. My mom pointed that out to me. It was interestingly ridiculous. Thank you Hannah! I don't know if you would like to talk about relationships, friendship, and social interaction. I would really love to hear your wise opinion on that.
Thank you! I'm glad you are enjoying the videos. It can be difficult to know your own mind during hard times. I'm sure I'll talk about more random things in the future, too! :)
Yes, sis, please get that book club together. I’d be happy to participate!
I will! xo!
Hannah dear, I hear you. First congratulations for paying off your credit card
All of what you say is so relevant and true! And the more we are aware of it, the more we can push back and cultivate something better and more balanced for ourselves. That's what I'm trying to do and I'm inspired by so many of you who are doing it too! Thank you for this incredibly encouraging note, it means a lot to me. Sending a big hug xoxoxo
Congratulations on paying off your credit card!
This month has been a hard one. I’ve feel like I’ve been running on fumes all month but I’ve been trying to readjust and find areas where I can let some things ago to give myself to space to replenish myself.
Hi Jayme, sorry to hear it's been a tough one for you, too! I hope you can make yourself some space and time soon. Thank you for commenting. xoxo
Hey Hannah I think you should do a meditation guide and walk through, it would be interesting!
thanks for the suggestion!
Sending love to you from Australia Hannah! I'd like to listen to you speak more in depth about finances next year C: I loved your recent lipstick declutter
Thanks, Meghan! I'm so excited about putting together a new project for next year. Sending love from LA!
Hi Hannah, excellent video, I know I'm very late for commenting...just wanted to ask - near the beginning you mentioned a q&a you did about your work schedule - where can I watch/read this or have I missed it? X
I never managed to film it! I'm still hoping to do it this year!
@@HannahLouisePoston oh great, will look forward to that! Am really struggling with the writing procrastination demons this year and love to hear what kind of schedules work for others x
Where is the book club? I would love to listen to your reviews and experience with the books. Can you do it please?
How are you so self aware? :D I discovered you only recently so I haven't watched all of your videos and maybe you spoke about these things, but I wonder do you also write like a journal/diary?
When you speak about small routines that keep us focused and on the good path, I think journaling is one of mine and yet I skip it so often.
And another question, did you do (or plan to do?) a video on how much of a dent you made in your make up stash (in terms of what you used up, panned, how much progress you see...). I saw some empties videos and last thing I watched was lipstick declutter in which I loved your method so much!
Hi Ivona, thanks for commenting! I haven't been doing regular journaling lately but I am a writer, so I write a lot of stuff down. I've also been practicing self-awareness and self-examination in general for a long time, I think it goes hand-in-hand with being a writer. I am definitely going to do some videos at the end of the year where I look back over the no-buy and count things up!
What is the meditation that you do? I have 8 minutes in the morning to spare and I would love to start that habit! Thank you 😘
Ps. I am binge watching your videos in preparation for no buy nineteen :) thank you for the inspiration!
Hi Alexandra! It's called "letting go of control" and it's by Tara Brach. I get it through The Mindfulness App but I think she also has some on her website.
Amazing make up today + blue suits u a lot
Thanks! I love this fabric.
You look exceptionally pretty in this video. The color you are wearing is perfect for you.
I can really relate to you with the ups and downs. Especially with the downs, it is hard to maintain that will power. I'm starting to get sick of make up and realizing that none of it makes me happy. I remember being excited when I first got some of my products and couldn't wait to use them. Now I don't want to even look at them. Oh well, onto bigger and better things! 🙂 Hey do you think you could ever take us with you to your tango class (and by "take us," I mean youtube). Sounds like a lot of fun!
Thanks, Genevieve! A tango class vlog would be so fun! Great idea. I've also spent a lot of this year distinguishing between what really makes me happy and what doesn't. Progress!
Always inspiring content! Thank you for sharing and congrats on the credit card victory!!!
Thank you!
Sometimes we need just relax and do nothing. That s normal and natural necessity for each of us. Give time to urself
:)
Hannah, I don't know you, but to me, you SEEM very intelligent, articulate, spiritual, kind, caring and creative. You're very well spoken and interesting, so I can see why you would be an amazing writer, and I think you would also be a very good public speaker. I'm with you on not watching news, and I also can't seem to take vitamins on a regular basis. You're right though... things will get better.
Congrats on your no buy. I'm TRYING to do that, too, but had a relapse yesterday. I actually spent $25 on Sephora just so I could smell that new Cocoa Cabana cream by sol de janeiro. It just arrived, and OMG, how SATISFYING!! It was totally worth the break, and it really DOES smell exactly like buttered popcorn!! I did get a mini MAC Lipstick I've wanted for ages and a single shadow, so that was nice. Anyway, my point is you can fall off the wagon but then get back on, which is what I intend to do.
yes! you can definitely get back on the wagon!
I agree with the vitamin d as well. I get very deficient and causes me to go into a downward spiral. I had a month like that as well. It all happens and it is healthy to talk about.
I definitely notice that when I'm "down" the shopping behavior returns even if I dont end up buying anything
I think if we have to indulge in the behaviors, if we can at least keep ourselves from spending money, that's a win. But it's hard to feel like I've lost some of the control I had earlier in the year.
I repaid my c.card this month as well!! 1st time in 3 years! Before i was just avoiding thinking about it! The feeling how it lets u breath freely now is the best
But regarding skincare i am doing "opposite" =》 i am seriously looking into creating my beauty routine and for that i am looking into different products (grateful to u for discovering Perricone MD for me).
It has such a pleasant texture that finally i am able to force myself to use SPF
My strategy now is to find the right products, and the next year to look for dupes for them
yes, I think that I'm able to start simplifying and downsizing because I've spend so many years experimenting with my routine. I really support investigating various ingredients and taking good care of your skin!
Haha, I do the same - pretend shopping ;) Makes me feel even better then doing it in reality. I shop without spedning money xD We're so close to the end of no buy year and it actually changed my thinking about the way of spending my hard earned money. It'll change my life so much. Wish you all the best xxx
It has changed my life dramatically! So glad you are feeling similar effects.
Girl, I see you repping Sasha Velour back there.
(Many congratulations on getting out of debt, and much love for the way that you're bringing the substance.)
I love Sasha!!! She's my all-time favorite queen.
I’ve been loving your videos and I’m not into clothes OR makeup but I’m impressed by your authenticity and I appreciate your tips on not getting sucked into buying things just because I may want it in the moment 😊
I know it’s become super trendy but I’ve been getting some coaching based on the enneagram and I wonder if you’ve ever looked into it. It has been AMAZING for me in terms of self awareness. I know you are a reader and I recommend Beatrice Chestnut’s Complete Enneagram.
Thanks again for your awesome content!!
I hear you on the self sabotage thing. Btw, I find listening to you almost like a meditation 😀 And I set time limits on reading the news or my anxiety would eat me alive. Btw, I wanted that camel palette but looked through my things & figure that one will be easy to dupe. I also needed skincare stuff, I hit Marshall’s need met at a fraction of the cost
Thanks, Jean. I've been pretty good about staying informed without obsessing over the news, but this week really got me! Setting time limits is a great idea.
"Showing up for myself" ... *love*
I'm sorry you've had such a bad month, but congratulations on paying off your credit card. My resolution for this year was to stop binging on the news. I read the morning summary and that's it. I don't listen to anything politically related on NPR like I used to and it's helped a lot. I hope this month is better for you and for us as a country.
I think that's a great resolution. I usually only check out the news every two or three days, just to stay informed. I'm determined not to have four years of bad days :)
did you ever do a "work routine" video that you mentioned at 3:33? I tried to search for the video but couldn't find it
Love your videos! Keep being great :)
thanks!!!
I am a recovering addict off drugs for 4 years off alcohol for 1 year but I have switched my addiction to shopping for makeup and beauty products big time! I was always a shopaholic but now its worse than ever and I get what you say about dopamine an serotonin cause I also am on Effexor for depression and anxiety and I get a rush from shopping and after I am out of money which happens after 2 weeks into the month cause of my fixed income I get my high from beauty videos, hauls, reviews, putting things in my cart on multiple websites and writing lists of things I want to buy next month! I am driving myself crazy and spending money that is supposed to be for essentials like food for instance, I have to go to food banks at end of month cause I have no food money left, its insanity. But I do not think I could live without shopping I think I would relapse on drugs and alcohol. Such a dilemma, I do go to NA meetings and am working steps but they do not help me with my shopping addiction for some reason, your videos help me more. I just love having a big makeup collection and feel jealous of youtubers who have high end beautiful products that I want and am jealous of their set up and makeup storage ie., alex drawers and acrylic organizers, I am obsessed with going to many websites looking for makeup storage cause I am keeping my makeup in small acrylic organizers in the bathroom and hallway cabinet shelves and even a bookshelf. My boyfriend says I have miles of makeup and why do I need to keep buying more he doesn't understand. I need to change something.
if taking away shopping all at once would cause you to relapse, then it's definitely important to go slowly. But it sounds like you have a serious chemical addiction to shopping, and that can be life-destroying in the same way that drug and alcohol addiction can be, so it's definitely something that merits serious attention and professional help. I really recommend finding a therapist who specializes in shopping addiction. A professional will be able to help you address it without relapsing on drugs and alcohol.
It also might help to limit your consumption of certain kinds of TH-cam. I feel jealous of TH-camrs who have small, edited collections, like Jacquelyn Lovene. I like watching people who are more minimalist than I am instead of watching people who are drowning in makeup. It helps me re-envision the future of my own makeup collection as smaller rather than bigger.
So you think a chemical addiction to shopping is a real thing? Didn't getting rid of things you loved like your clothes, books and makeup give you severe anxiety? I already have anxiety and depression treated with medication.
I have a huge book collection as well as I love to read. I actually sold over $700 worth of clothes online from my closet in April of this year before I moved back to Santa Cruz, CA from Portland, OR where I lived for 14 yrs, I came back to my hometown and moved in with my boyfriend from 35 years ago who I was with for 5 years in my early 20s. He hasn't built bookshelves yet so most of my books are still in tons boxes in his garage even though I got rid of about 6 boxes of books before I left. I have hoarding tendencies.
I love watching Jacquelyn Lovene she is delightful but I would go crazy feeling like I am missing out having such a small makeup collection, it would be so limiting and boring I would think and I get so many emails from brands and stores with sale ads and emails from QVC and HSN for makeup all the time. Its a hobby I thoroughly enjoy. I love makeup and shopping for it and playing with it looking at it wearing it everything about it including watching youtube beauty gurus. I did start watching some minimalists, people who pan and shop my stash videos and I been rotating my makeup monthly and shopping my stash which I really enjoy. I don't feel like I am drowning in products I love having a lot of things neatly displayed and stored. I love having lots of clothes too but I have less than I ever have had since I lost 50 lbs from being sick with pancreatitis of and on most of last year.
I have never heard of specialized shopping addiction therapists but there is a mental health counselor at my doctors office I could talk to about it maybe she has some ideas. I am tired of being broke halfway through the month I have been thinking of going back to work as a medical transcriptionist/coder from home. I haven't worked since 2011 and am on SSDI from disability for a back surgery/recurrent pancreatitis/mental. health issues. But I know myself and the more I make the more I spend. Thank you so much for taking the time to respond. I can't wait to see what your first sephora experience is like after your no buy year ends.
I also dream of being an author. I would love to read your writing, you are always very well spoken.
Thanks, Margaret! You can link to some of it through my website if you want, it's just hannahlouiseposton.com. xo!
The Kavanaugh hearings are why I just pre-ordered the Natasha Denona Gold palette today. I’m sick over it, and I just am not strong enough this past week.
Hi Eccentric Professor! I'm right here with you, it's been horrible. No matter how pretty it is, you can always return the palette if the fact that you ordered it because of stupid men will continue to make you feel bad. But if it's something that you will really love and get comfort from (and it's in your budget), maybe it is what you need right now. Sending a big hug
Hannah Louise Poston Went in and canceled the order. Just can’t let myself do it, despite how bad I feel.