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this somehow helped me I just left my old sport which is all I remember and this is how I feel and I have rewatched this really helped me so thank you for adding this part of the story. really thank you. now, this is one thing I remember as a little kid. i was in the car with my mom grandma and my cousin. we had just got out of my cousin's and I's favorite store, but it was raining a LOT and as a little me I didn't want it to rain my grandma has a pool at her house! so I just looked as far as I could out the front window and saw the sunny sky. So then I thought just wait a bit..... so I did and then after 40 mins we got to the sunny spot. I don't remember anything else from that trip or even what store we went to .but that is my reminder that there is that "muddy" spot in your life but if you keep driving you will reach that sunny beautiful spot. it might go away again. but you can always get in your car with the people who love you supporting you, and get back to the sunny spot again
I have retired from professional ballet over 20 years ago and it took me much time to adjust....it was very difficult to transition into a regular life...Hope you are courageous and optimistic in your new beginnings! I did not have anyone to relate to at that time. It is important to discuss this issue once and for all!
Hi, I just wanted to say I fully relate to what you are saying. I never made it to a professional company but I was at the pre-professional level and had to quit super abruptly my senior year of high school after enduring a labrum tear and abuse at my ballet school. The decision to step away was 100% the right one, but I have felt (and still do sometimes) feel how you feel. This HUGE part of my life was suddenly taken away from me. After I quit I would go to the gym and cry and I was terrified of gaining weight. It felt like my entire purpose was taken away from me. I felt like I had no one to relate to as no one I knew quit around the same time I did, everyone was still dancing and getting professional contracts. It was so hard and still is three years later. I am in college now and have found a new purpose but ballet still holds a huge place in my heart and I feel like I never got to fully close that chapter. Just know you are not alone and you will find purpose in life again. We are in this journey together!
i just wanted to tell you that you are such an inspiration & i look up to you so much. honest videos like this make me feel safe & validated, you give such good advice & your content overall makes me feel less alone. i wish you all the best!
I have never related to a video so much in my life. This made me cry. Im so sorry ur dealing with this. I am struggling with leaving ballet still after 3 years after an ed admission and gaining 30kg. Ballet was my love, my life, my flight and my fall . Sending hugs
Not a professional dancer, but I can relate to having to leave situations that were part of my identity and struggling with it. As a professional musician, I can understand how your life revolved around dance, one thing I’ve done recently to have more balance is to befriend people who are not at all in the music world, that has been very helpful. That said, it looks like you are in Boston, and it is very difficult to make friends in normal times in this part of the world much less during a pandemic. (I’m from Atlanta and did my undergrad and grad school in Boston). People here are either consumed with school or work, the only way to easily connect is if you have a regular class or hobby that is built in your schedule to see the same people on a regular basis. You aren’t alone in feeling crummy this time of year esp given the abnormal cold and rainy weather the past week, the long winters do a number on mental/emotional health. In any case, as a beginning adult ballet dancer, I appreciate your videos, hope you feel better soon!
I was really able to see myself in this video. thank you for helping me realize that i’m not alone in feeling this way. you are incredible and i can’t wait to see what you do next in life
Thank you for sharing your struggles especially when most other people don’t, you’ve really shown everyone that they’re not alone when they feel this way ❤️ you’re going to get through it
I totally relate, I was a dancer never made it to a ballet company but was a jazz and contemporary dancer and I left it all to be a mom . It’s so challenging go back to dancing after kids, weight gain, body changes . It’s hard. I love being a mom but I miss that part of me 💗
Thank you for sharing your thoughts! I'm not a professional dancer (just hobby), but I think a lot of the feelings you describe can happen similarly to anyone to some extend. Changing jobs or communities, giving up something you thought integral to your identity, adjusting to a new structure or lack thereof. So it's really helpful to hear someone validate those experiences and face them with hope that you can work through it :)
It's awesome that you had the courage to talk about this, I'm glad we have someone on yt that we can rely for advice!! love u Goldie, Thank u so much! 💗💕
So relatable! Thank you for sharing! You're not alone and everything you're saying makes so much sense. It's a grieving process and not linear. So difficult and miserable but you're not alone! Sending hugs!
I haven't performed in almost a year and a half and it's scary to think I'll never feel that fulfilled again. Praying more entertainment, theater, arts, etc. comes back soon!!
Thank you so much for posting this! I’m actually on my way into the studio now to let my director know that Saturday’s show will be my last as a professional ballet dancer. I’m so scared and things have never felt so painful. It’s so reassuring to know I’m not alone in this 💕
Goldie, this was so good. Your honesty and vulnerability are hugely appreciated, even by those of us not in the dance world. It displays your beautiful soul all the more. Here's hoping this grieving process (and it IS a true grieving process) continues healthily and passes in just the right time.
Probably one the best and honest video I’ve ever seen! So true... the fulfilment of a performance is something I always think of: When I won’t have it anymore, there will be something else that could ever give me the same feeling? ❤️
Thank you so much for sharing this. I’m just a little younger than you and I’ve been there. I watch your channel because I love ballet (and your content) and have done it for fun, but my sport is cheer. I quit for a while shortly after starting college due to injuries and some personal things that were out of my control. It was probably the hardest part of my life and I wish I would have had this video then! I am back to cheer now but am already trying to mentally prepare for retiring here permanently in a few years. I know you’ll get through this! You’re amazing!
I relate to this so much ❤️ I’m a performer as well but had to step away from that world for a while and I feel so lost because all my community and all my accomplishments were coming from that. I’ve also put on weight and my body is no what it was at all. It’s hard to make yourself believe you can do anything no matter what and still be valid, even if it’s not what you’ve always known or wanted (or thought you wanted). Thank you so much for sharing this, I’ve felt very alone in this feeling, so it’s nice to know others deal with it too. All the best, I’m sure we’ll figure it out!! 💪
thank you for posting this. i quit ballet two years ago when i was 15 after doing it for 10 years. ballet was what i built myself around - my identity, goals, and source of happiness. that was all lost after quitting. even with the opportunity to continue, i couldnt have gone on with ballet at the time. it was deteriorating my mental health and i dont think id be in this recovered position that im in now if i hadnt quit. maybe one day i’ll go back, but i feel too old to start or not good enough for my age group. for now i’ll continue working with this new, non ballet life. i think they key is to have other goals and passions, as well as leaving your old life with a good closure. i didnt get closure, so have been struggling with this for two years. your video is helping me through it, thank u :) 💜
This video is so important. Goldie, I see you in a big way. I had all of these feelings when I left dance. I left because I needed hip surgery and to take care of my mental health, so I was definitely doing what I needed to do to take the best care of myself, but it was one of the scariest things I've ever done and I had to completely reevaluate what my identity looked like in such a more nuanced way than I ever realized at the time. I am so glad that you are sharing your experience with these emotions because this is a crucial conversation to have with each other. I hope you continue to work through everything you're feeling and that you receive the support you need! Sending hugs
I know you did this a while ago, but to add my 2 cents and add to the external validation... As a freelance writer, long term ballet fan, and trained observer, I admire and respect you as a serious dancer with an ongoing deep love of dance. IMHO, this has very little in my eyes, to do with the superficial realities of the erratic and often irrational thing we call the economy, with who is or is not paying a salary to you at any particular moment, with what your business card says or any other label, all of which has its pros and cons, but is not the essence of what you love doing...climbing into a leotard, listening to the music, taking flight and adding a dose of extreme beauty to the world. I could watch you dance all day... inspired, and perhaps even drooling a little, but it is clear that you have a breadth of skill sets as well as dancing. You are thoughtful and analytical toward problems, highly expressive, you clearly have a solid EQ, as well as IQ, you are already able to produce great videos, and you have teaching skills. Dancers have superb discipline, precision, focus, and pain tolerance. You are a leader, an initiator, a creator... if you could only see how amazing your future is you would be shocked. You will fly high ! You have four thousand subs... that's 4 battalions. Your followers out-number the Danish Army. (almost) If you need a life-coach/listener, or if you need an adoring fan to tell you how beautiful and talented you are, I can voluntarily do either or both. :)
this somehow helped me I just left my old sport which is all I remember and this is how I feel and I have rewatched this really helped me so thank you for adding this part of the story. really thank you. now, this is one thing I remember as a little kid. i was in the car with my mom grandma and my cousin. we had just got out of my cousin's and I's favorite store, but it was raining a LOT and as a little me I didn't want it to rain my grandma has a pool at her house! so I just looked as far as I could out the front window and saw the sunny sky. So then I thought just wait a bit..... so I did and then after 40 mins we got to the sunny spot. I don't remember anything else from that trip or even what store we went to .but that is my reminder that there is that "muddy" spot in your life but if you keep driving you will reach that sunny beautiful spot. it might go away again. but you can always get in your car with the people who love you supporting you, and get back to the sunny spot again
Have you thought about teaching? Mentoring and coaching the next generation, in the way you wish you had been, might make all of this seem worth it. You could teach at a company or make your own private coaching business. You have what it takes to make a difference for the future artists.
I admire you so much thank you for the honest talk. I am in my graduate year and I am planning on taking a break from ballet after graduating due to my mental health and I don’t know whether I’ll ever return to the ballet world or not. I know I have made the right decision in this moment to not audition this year and it really scares me to think of a life outside of dance after being in vocational training for 6+ yrs. This needs to be spoken about more as ballet can literally become someone’s identity having trained in it potentially since they were 3 yrs old. Going to enter the next stage with an open heart and mind and see where life takes me. I hope you feel better soon i love your content so much!
it's just a shift...you will find another passion and you will take every single discipline and structure you know from ballet, into that career, motherhood, hobby, etc. It's just who you are. I get it. It takes a while. Seek the Lord's help first, and ask Him to show you the way. But ballet is the best it just morphs inside you - it makes you special! Stay positive and just try to keep moving forward
@@GoldieJane it’s something I’ve been ‘prepping’ for for years now and I realise there’s no way to truly prepare yourself. But just trying to build my businesses up so that when I decide to retire I have a purpose I guess and still have a toe in the industry 🤷🏼♀️ we’ll see!
i've been doing ballet for 4 years until now, i was never professional or ever thought about becoming one but i always loved ballet, but i had to quit it as my mental health was not cooperating and it was turning this thing i loved the most into my major source of stress and sadness. but right now, that 5 months have passed, i still don't know if i made the right decision, cause exactly as you said i feel no motivation at all, i don't feel like myself and feel lost, and i miss ballet but i don't feel like im ready to go back or if i ever will be, i really don't know what to do
I never got to do pointe but I feel like it’s time for a break from me I’ve been stuck on the same level for a year now and it’s getting frustrating, I know everything I go every day but they just don’t move me on and I’m in level 2 going to 3 but it’s time for a break from me ty!💗
my parents want me to take a break from ballet because they think it takes up my life, i’m at the studio all the time and i love it but i don’t know what to do now. i don’t know how long i’ll be taking a break or if i’ll ever go back to dancing at all but it’s terrifying 😩
u could just go to classes less regularly. since u love it, dont stop completely right now. do what you want to and feel like doing. if ballet is what u enjoy then u should definitely keep doing it
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You guys have NO IDEA how much all of your comments mean to me!! I have missed uploading and I am so grateful for all of the support. We are in this together and I appreciate all of you more than you know. Stay tuned for weekly uploads in June!!
this somehow helped me I just left my old sport which is all I remember and this is how I feel and I have rewatched this really helped me so thank you for adding this part of the story. really thank you. now, this is one thing I remember as a little kid. i was in the car with my mom grandma and my cousin. we had just got out of my cousin's and I's favorite store, but it was raining a LOT and as a little me I didn't want it to rain my grandma has a pool at her house! so I just looked as far as I could out the front window and saw the sunny sky. So then I thought just wait a bit..... so I did and then after 40 mins we got to the sunny spot. I don't remember anything else from that trip or even what store we went to .but that is my reminder that there is that "muddy" spot in your life but if you keep driving you will reach that sunny beautiful spot. it might go away again. but you can always get in your car with the people who love you supporting you, and get back to the sunny spot again
OMG your like my icon thank you for replying.
@@Blessedmom00001 love you!
I have retired from professional ballet over 20 years ago and it took me much time to adjust....it was very difficult to transition into a regular life...Hope you are courageous and optimistic in your new beginnings! I did not have anyone to relate to at that time. It is important to discuss this issue once and for all!
I completely agree!! The more we talk about it the less difficult it has to be
Hi, I just wanted to say I fully relate to what you are saying. I never made it to a professional company but I was at the pre-professional level and had to quit super abruptly my senior year of high school after enduring a labrum tear and abuse at my ballet school. The decision to step away was 100% the right one, but I have felt (and still do sometimes) feel how you feel. This HUGE part of my life was suddenly taken away from me. After I quit I would go to the gym and cry and I was terrified of gaining weight. It felt like my entire purpose was taken away from me. I felt like I had no one to relate to as no one I knew quit around the same time I did, everyone was still dancing and getting professional contracts. It was so hard and still is three years later. I am in college now and have found a new purpose but ballet still holds a huge place in my heart and I feel like I never got to fully close that chapter. Just know you are not alone and you will find purpose in life again. We are in this journey together!
thank you so much
i just wanted to tell you that you are such an inspiration & i look up to you so much. honest videos like this make me feel safe & validated, you give such good advice & your content overall makes me feel less alone. i wish you all the best!
wow thank you so much!!!
Such a great video! You will get through this ❤️
means the world! Thank you
I have never related to a video so much in my life. This made me cry. Im so sorry ur dealing with this. I am struggling with leaving ballet still after 3 years after an ed admission and gaining 30kg. Ballet was my love, my life, my flight and my fall . Sending hugs
I’ve missed your videos and your honest takes on adulthood and finding your path. Hang in there Goldie!!
thank you!!! I'm back!
Not a professional dancer, but I can relate to having to leave situations that were part of my identity and struggling with it. As a professional musician, I can understand how your life revolved around dance, one thing I’ve done recently to have more balance is to befriend people who are not at all in the music world, that has been very helpful. That said, it looks like you are in Boston, and it is very difficult to make friends in normal times in this part of the world much less during a pandemic. (I’m from Atlanta and did my undergrad and grad school in Boston). People here are either consumed with school or work, the only way to easily connect is if you have a regular class or hobby that is built in your schedule to see the same people on a regular basis. You aren’t alone in feeling crummy this time of year esp given the abnormal cold and rainy weather the past week, the long winters do a number on mental/emotional health. In any case, as a beginning adult ballet dancer, I appreciate your videos, hope you feel better soon!
thank you so much
I was really able to see myself in this video. thank you for helping me realize that i’m not alone in feeling this way. you are incredible and i can’t wait to see what you do next in life
Thank you for sharing your struggles especially when most other people don’t, you’ve really shown everyone that they’re not alone when they feel this way ❤️ you’re going to get through it
I totally relate, I was a dancer never made it to a ballet company but was a jazz and contemporary dancer and I left it all to be a mom . It’s so challenging go back to dancing after kids, weight gain, body changes . It’s hard. I love being a mom but I miss that part of me 💗
Thank you for sharing your thoughts! I'm not a professional dancer (just hobby), but I think a lot of the feelings you describe can happen similarly to anyone to some extend. Changing jobs or communities, giving up something you thought integral to your identity, adjusting to a new structure or lack thereof. So it's really helpful to hear someone validate those experiences and face them with hope that you can work through it :)
It's awesome that you had the courage to talk about this, I'm glad we have someone on yt that we can rely for advice!! love u Goldie, Thank u so much! 💗💕
wow thank you so much! love you!!!
So relatable! Thank you for sharing! You're not alone and everything you're saying makes so much sense. It's a grieving process and not linear. So difficult and miserable but you're not alone! Sending hugs!
Thank you for the support!!
I haven't performed in almost a year and a half and it's scary to think I'll never feel that fulfilled again. Praying more entertainment, theater, arts, etc. comes back soon!!
Amen!!
Thank you so much for posting this!
I’m actually on my way into the studio now to let my director know that Saturday’s show will be my last as a professional ballet dancer. I’m so scared and things have never felt so painful. It’s so reassuring to know I’m not alone in this 💕
Goldie, this was so good. Your honesty and vulnerability are hugely appreciated, even by those of us not in the dance world. It displays your beautiful soul all the more. Here's hoping this grieving process (and it IS a true grieving process) continues healthily and passes in just the right time.
Probably one the best and honest video I’ve ever seen! So true... the fulfilment of a performance is something I always think of: When I won’t have it anymore, there will be something else that could ever give me the same feeling?
❤️
thank you so much.
Thank you so much for sharing this. I’m just a little younger than you and I’ve been there. I watch your channel because I love ballet (and your content) and have done it for fun, but my sport is cheer. I quit for a while shortly after starting college due to injuries and some personal things that were out of my control. It was probably the hardest part of my life and I wish I would have had this video then! I am back to cheer now but am already trying to mentally prepare for retiring here permanently in a few years. I know you’ll get through this! You’re amazing!
So nice to see your video again. Really missed hearing from you lately. Always a pleasure to take in what you have to say. Thank you Goldie!
thank you! ive missed posting
I’ve been looking for someone like you for so long; I can’t even explain how much I needed this video
I relate to this so much ❤️ I’m a performer as well but had to step away from that world for a while and I feel so lost because all my community and all my accomplishments were coming from that. I’ve also put on weight and my body is no what it was at all. It’s hard to make yourself believe you can do anything no matter what and still be valid, even if it’s not what you’ve always known or wanted (or thought you wanted). Thank you so much for sharing this, I’ve felt very alone in this feeling, so it’s nice to know others deal with it too. All the best, I’m sure we’ll figure it out!! 💪
you are never alone!! thank you for this comment
thank you for posting this. i quit ballet two years ago when i was 15 after doing it for 10 years. ballet was what i built myself around - my identity, goals, and source of happiness. that was all lost after quitting. even with the opportunity to continue, i couldnt have gone on with ballet at the time. it was deteriorating my mental health and i dont think id be in this recovered position that im in now if i hadnt quit. maybe one day i’ll go back, but i feel too old to start or not good enough for my age group. for now i’ll continue working with this new, non ballet life. i think they key is to have other goals and passions, as well as leaving your old life with a good closure. i didnt get closure, so have been struggling with this for two years. your video is helping me through it, thank u :) 💜
This video is so important. Goldie, I see you in a big way. I had all of these feelings when I left dance. I left because I needed hip surgery and to take care of my mental health, so I was definitely doing what I needed to do to take the best care of myself, but it was one of the scariest things I've ever done and I had to completely reevaluate what my identity looked like in such a more nuanced way than I ever realized at the time. I am so glad that you are sharing your experience with these emotions because this is a crucial conversation to have with each other. I hope you continue to work through everything you're feeling and that you receive the support you need! Sending hugs
I know you did this a while ago, but to add my 2 cents and add to the external validation... As a freelance writer, long term ballet fan, and trained observer, I admire and respect you as a serious dancer with an ongoing deep love of dance. IMHO, this has very little in my eyes, to do with the superficial realities of the erratic and often irrational thing we call the economy, with who is or is not paying a salary to you at any particular moment, with what your business card says or any other label, all of which has its pros and cons, but is not the essence of what you love doing...climbing into a leotard, listening to the music, taking flight and adding a dose of extreme beauty to the world. I could watch you dance all day... inspired, and perhaps even drooling a little, but it is clear that you have a breadth of skill sets as well as dancing. You are thoughtful and analytical toward problems, highly expressive, you clearly have a solid EQ, as well as IQ, you are already able to produce great videos, and you have teaching skills. Dancers have superb discipline, precision, focus, and pain tolerance. You are a leader, an initiator, a creator... if you could only see how amazing your future is you would be shocked. You will fly high ! You have four thousand subs... that's 4 battalions. Your followers out-number the Danish Army. (almost) If you need a life-coach/listener, or if you need an adoring fan to tell you how beautiful and talented you are, I can voluntarily do either or both. :)
Wow thank you for this comment. I really appreciate it
this somehow helped me I just left my old sport which is all I remember and this is how I feel and I have rewatched this really helped me so thank you for adding this part of the story. really thank you. now, this is one thing I remember as a little kid. i was in the car with my mom grandma and my cousin. we had just got out of my cousin's and I's favorite store, but it was raining a LOT and as a little me I didn't want it to rain my grandma has a pool at her house! so I just looked as far as I could out the front window and saw the sunny sky. So then I thought just wait a bit..... so I did and then after 40 mins we got to the sunny spot. I don't remember anything else from that trip or even what store we went to .but that is my reminder that there is that "muddy" spot in your life but if you keep driving you will reach that sunny beautiful spot. it might go away again. but you can always get in your car with the people who love you supporting you, and get back to the sunny spot again
Thanks for this comment. Happy it helped you!!
Have you thought about teaching? Mentoring and coaching the next generation, in the way you wish you had been, might make all of this seem worth it. You could teach at a company or make your own private coaching business. You have what it takes to make a difference for the future artists.
I’ve actually been thinking a lot about that!!
I admire you so much thank you for the honest talk. I am in my graduate year and I am planning on taking a break from ballet after graduating due to my mental health and I don’t know whether I’ll ever return to the ballet world or not. I know I have made the right decision in this moment to not audition this year and it really scares me to think of a life outside of dance after being in vocational training for 6+ yrs. This needs to be spoken about more as ballet can literally become someone’s identity having trained in it potentially since they were 3 yrs old. Going to enter the next stage with an open heart and mind and see where life takes me. I hope you feel better soon i love your content so much!
I left ballet like 5 years ago but until now when I remember leaving ballet I cry or regret it but also at some points I don’t regret leaving it 😭
I think you would love improv/acting... fun & easy pivot from dance 💃🏻✨ & entrance into a whole new world of performance possibilities
it's just a shift...you will find another passion and you will take every single discipline and structure you know from ballet, into that career, motherhood, hobby, etc. It's just who you are. I get it. It takes a while. Seek the Lord's help first, and ask Him to show you the way. But ballet is the best it just morphs inside you - it makes you special! Stay positive and just try to keep moving forward
Goldie I really relate ❤️
ugh i'm so glad
@@GoldieJane it’s something I’ve been ‘prepping’ for for years now and I realise there’s no way to truly prepare yourself. But just trying to build my businesses up so that when I decide to retire I have a purpose I guess and still have a toe in the industry 🤷🏼♀️ we’ll see!
Thanks for sharing ♥️
Thanks for watching!!
i've been doing ballet for 4 years until now, i was never professional or ever thought about becoming one but i always loved ballet, but i had to quit it as my mental health was not cooperating and it was turning this thing i loved the most into my major source of stress and sadness. but right now, that 5 months have passed, i still don't know if i made the right decision, cause exactly as you said i feel no motivation at all, i don't feel like myself and feel lost, and i miss ballet but i don't feel like im ready to go back or if i ever will be, i really don't know what to do
I never got to do pointe but I feel like it’s time for a break from me I’ve been stuck on the same level for a year now and it’s getting frustrating, I know everything I go every day but they just don’t move me on and I’m in level 2 going to 3 but it’s time for a break from me ty!💗
my parents want me to take a break from ballet because they think it takes up my life, i’m at the studio all the time and i love it but i don’t know what to do now. i don’t know how long i’ll be taking a break or if i’ll ever go back to dancing at all but it’s terrifying 😩
u could just go to classes less regularly. since u love it, dont stop completely right now. do what you want to and feel like doing. if ballet is what u enjoy then u should definitely keep doing it