I think the closer you get to death, the more you want to believe in something more. The thought that you have been through all that heartache and suffering and there is nothing else seems so unjust. As for legacy, I just want to make sure that Amanda is financially comfortable after I've gone. I'm basing that on her age against mine. Another thing you think of as you get older is sin. I'm agnostic, but, if there is a God, then I've had it. But going forward, I have tried to live my best life. Hopefully, by doing that, it balances out the negatives. When you are younger, you see yourself as immortal, but life passes in the blink of an eye. It seems only a couple of years ago that Amanda and I got together, but in reality it's over 22 years. Grief is a big one. I've lost people before, of course, but always part of the extended family, not the core family. It isn't until you lose someone really close to you that you truly understand grief. It does get better day by day, but it doesn't feel that it ever will at the time. Thanks for sharing your thoughts Martin and this podcast.
I think the closer you get to death, the more you want to believe in something more. The thought that you have been through all that heartache and suffering and there is nothing else seems so unjust. As for legacy, I just want to make sure that Amanda is financially comfortable after I've gone. I'm basing that on her age against mine. Another thing you think of as you get older is sin. I'm agnostic, but, if there is a God, then I've had it. But going forward, I have tried to live my best life. Hopefully, by doing that, it balances out the negatives. When you are younger, you see yourself as immortal, but life passes in the blink of an eye. It seems only a couple of years ago that Amanda and I got together, but in reality it's over 22 years. Grief is a big one. I've lost people before, of course, but always part of the extended family, not the core family. It isn't until you lose someone really close to you that you truly understand grief. It does get better day by day, but it doesn't feel that it ever will at the time. Thanks for sharing your thoughts Martin and this podcast.