@@murk_yo I'm sorry I think by this stage in the relationship you should own the gag ball just come right out with it before ever commencing verbal and it could be semi serious
the explanation of feeling “yelled at” by most internet content is so funny. i want you to know i’m very appreciative being able to crochet along to a video for once while being not at all yelled at
It's because the internet is dead and why it mirrors the 'content' forced on people through television. TH-cam especially has become a giant wasteland after the purge starting around 2016. It actually baffles me when real stuff breaks through. It's good there's still an audience for it.
You hit the nail on the head when discussing Brutalism and sexuality. The idea, even, of a brutalist building being… “erected”… and the behaviors surrounding what it must be like to design and construct these buildings…there’s something so sobering yet subliminal. Same goes for Boullée and the Cenotaph of Isaac Newton…there’s definitely a yearning and mourning quality to it.
47:02 Your words perfectly describes my attitude towards brutalism. Unplastered brick walls, exposed ceiling beams and utility ducts make the building look like a large organism. I'm from Eastern Europe and im so glad that i can experience this feeling for daily. The monumentality of those building literally feels like higher power.
I'm from Bulgaria and there are concrete soviet buildings almost everywhere. Most of them are living buildings, which most people find ugly, but since i was a kid, i have adored them. When i stare at them, I always try to imagine who lives in a certain window, what does their kitchen counter look like, and their carpets, I also wonder if they like fruits or what kinds of games they like playing as a kid. I feel so lucky to live right next to a forest with a masive bunker, the entrances of which are literally just concrete block the size of a car. There are also random cement platforms and a lot of abandoned constructions all around the city. I loved going in the older ones because they have less guards. I have a vivid childhood memory of an abandoned school. It was just in a grass field right next to an artificial spruce forest(there is a coal mine right next to Pernik, and they planted spruce trees on some of the overburden there around 1960-1970). Standing in it and looking at the peeled wall paint, old rusty toilets, and empty rooms feels like I'm looking something so forgotten and beyond abandoned. I mostly enjoy the juxtapositioning of the concrete, broken windows, syringes, and the peace of the green forest and a river. They both give me the same calmness and warmth, but in a different way. I looooveee how grey everything looks when it rains, i have almost felt at the most peace while it's gloomy and and wet and standing on the kitchen window on the 6th floor and admiring such a beautiful view of people walking in hurry and how the buildings turn slightly darker due to the rain. My favorite activity is getting very high and going to a random place in the center of Sofia so I can play pretend a person walking around, meanwhile having no idea where i am, but it feels comforting to see little shops, wall art, abandoned houses, restaurants all squished in between soviet apartment buildings
I love brutalist architecture because it feels post and pre-human but also not natural in the same way an untouched forest is. Like it's from a society from forever ago but also the future but also a cave. I could talk about this forever and nobody gets it.
!!!!! i always rant and rave on roadtrips about how all the overpasses feel like they were left by some predated intelligent society and we’ve just repurposed them as roadways. feels very prometheus. brutalism feels so antithetical to human nature and comfort so of course it feels alien. i’m so in love with it.
@@FART-REPELLENTI think at some point in this video she mentioned getting covid, not sure if she was talking about having it before this though, could be trying to avoid contaminating it. If not that then it could be a sensory issue, she's autistic and some autistic people don't like the feeling of touching certain things.
I love your “ASMR” contents so badly😭 and I love it more when you shows your book collection.Obsessed with Brutalist architecture photography book love u Hayden ❤️
The brutalist architecture book is so interesting, and I've never thought about that design in the sense of eroticism but it's so true. I think another part of it is how blatant and transparent (oddly enough given it's literal concrete opacity) it is in its presence. It's not pretending to be something it isn't, and it doesn't apologize for itself or give what some may deem excessive explanation (or rather, cushioning? justification? it isn't adorned for the sake of acceptance or awe). It simply ~*is*~ which is so fitting in conjunction with the helplessness you talked about. It's not asking or hoping that you accept it, it forces you to and doesn't seemingly care. I think domineering was a perfect description.
The "domineering" kind of reminds me of the ancient penis worshipers. They built giant statues of hard penises a ways outside of the commune and do their ritual walks to the giant penis and stand and pray in front of it.
There's something so ...enlightening about these videos in the strangest way , hearing you talk about what you're passionate about inspired me to take a step back and look at what inspires me . Really cool stuff , thank you Hayden
the sheer impact you have had on me is immeasurable. Not just as a person, but as a gateway for me. What you present to the internet and people, these introductions to unique and foreign concepts to a rather uniform majority is nothing less than extraordinary. You have changed my outlook on the world as a whole and in a way raised and grown this whole part of me that I didn’t know was there. An affinity for things that have been rendered as old and forgotten, as well as different pieces of media etc. I hope I get to come to one of your concerts some day to see (and try not to cry in front of but definitely fail) this person I have almost infinite respect and admiration for. You have truly inspired me without even knowing me, I love you Hayden.
literally everything you said is exactly how i feel about her. she's truly a unique. i've found intrest in things that i never thought i'd be interested in. her mind is truly out of this world. i admire & adore her so entirely. she doesn't even know. & i can't wait to experience one of her concerts too. i've seen videos of her performing & i swear, her performances always feel so heavenly.. & i get that feeling just by WATCHING videos so imagine it irl..
I just wanted to thank you for Preacher's Daughter. Its the first thing that has really inspired my own song writing in probably 10 years or so. Thank you so much. A gift
16:56 I love how you explain this because I feel the exact same way, Im such an introvert and I never thought of it this way, I love watching Ethel because she gives me so many new perspectives on life It’s amazing and her music saved me in such a way that I can’t even bring it into words.
my attention span is usually embarrassingly short, but i could watch your videos for HOURS. I find your voice soooo soothing and comforting, and i love your taste in art. your room is really pretty, too!!!
I've never cried listening to a song before I found your music Ethel, I love how the backing tracks convey emotion. They're such a comforting kind of sadness.
I used to visit a brutalist library near me and it was my favourite in the city until it was knocked down (RIP). It was dark and clunky and outdated and expensive to run, but that also made it comforting because it was almost human, it was falling apart just like a person does. It was not all fun clean lines and bright colours, it didn’t hide from anything. It was subject to time yet felt like an infallible giant. It gave a very wabi sabi vibe which is weird because the materials were anything but natural. Looooved the architecture commentary, everyone say thank you Hayden 💜
As someone who has always disliked brutalist architecture, you really opened my eyes to the power and attractionality(?) that these buildings exude. And I totally get the feeling of going somewhere to disappear from known society, getting lost in a labyrinth or a forest. I always got this feeling as a child when the sun had set in the countryside. The vast darkness covering the fields, meadows and forests, knowing that no human activity is happening in this space until the sun rises is exhilarating to me. Its thalassophobic almost. Thinking of all the empty spaces that exist on earth, where no human consciousness exists. In deep contrast to the consciousness-heavy cities and settlements. Im rambling lmao - thank you for another brilliant video Hayden
As an Italian, listening to you reading with such a beautiful soft voice a bit of Dante's Inferno is wonderful. Thank you for this very nice video, it's super interesting and very cozy and calming. Love you Hayden ⭐
3:41 - City of Darkness - Life in Kowloon Walled City 23:45 - Dante's Inferno 35:06 - Atlas of Brutalist Architecture - The Texaco Story - The First 50 Years - Beyond the Lines - Daisuke Tajima - Etienne-Louis Boulée
This video is wrapping my inner child in the most comforting embrace right now. Your energy reminds me so much of my late mother’s energy. Thank you, sweet Hayden.🫀
had this on in the background whilst doing my architecture school application task. it was so nice to hear about your art books. And i like how considerate you are in describing your feelings and connections to the art. I usually feel uneasy by ASMR but your tone and demeanour made the watch a really southing experience.
I very much agree with your take about brutalist architecture. I’m from and I live in a post soviet country so I get to see a lot of beautiful brutalist buildings whenever I go out in the city. Most larger cities here have some brutalist building that one can stare longingly at. Unfortunately with the rise of commercialism it’s more often than not that within the view of the building of monument there will be some sort of add which ruins the experience ever so slightly, unless you manage to find a spot in which the ugly add might be obscured (which isn’t always possible). I’d add for people who might not have a lot of contact with brutalist buildings that some of them (the ones with giant slabs of concrete, the modernist ones specifically designed to be unique and imposing) give you the same feeling you might get if you’ve just arrived to a mountainous region and are surrounded by overwhelming grandeur. The anxious small but also overwhelming and intense feeling of vastness or monumentality. I love how Hayden described them feeling as if you’re seized by this incredible power you can’t control. Sort of like being held there by the hand of a giant or God and being made to gaze. Also i love the take that brutalist churches with their inherent implication of God lose that imposing godly touch out of their structures. The warmth of familiarity present within those churches really does strip away the coldness and alienness. It’s such an interesting take that I never really gave that much thought to. I have felt that those churches made me feel different than the other brutalist buildings but I didn’t give much thought as to why. also! btw! Russia is half in Europe and half in Asia. A lot of the bigger more well known cities are on the European side of Russia - like Moscow, St. Petersburg - but Russia is HUGE and there is plenty to see on both sides.
mm i agree on the brutalist churches part its almost as if it makes the building feel just plain as if it was not created with intention but out of neccessity as a place of function, whereas even when not intentional a lot of brutalist architecture feels dignified in its coldness and simplicity
ur right, it’s so much more easier really to pay attention when they’re not being obnoxious lol i usually wouldn’t watch an hour long video like this but i found it extremely relaxing and was completely invested.
Every time (4 times) I watch this video I’m super interested but for some reason watch it in bed every time so I fall asleep in like the first 15 minutes bc of how relaxing your voice is and the background noise as well! Love the asmr voice hahsh
@@SpookyDollhouse apologies if my original comment was weird or unsettling, the people around me tend to be less expressive. I thought it was worth noting.
A little while back, there was a thematic explosion of "Art of Atrophy" photography books that were about the industrialized corpses left behind. My two personal favorites were Abandoned America (2014) and Manufactured Landscapes (2003). You might also dig Soviet Ghosts (2014) as it gels with crumbling megastructures. Regardless, thank you for sharing, and convincing me that it was finally time to grab my own copy of the Atlas of Brutalist Architecture.
i love to listen to your videos. it feels like im under a warm blanket with you next to me and you're holding my hand, telling me that everytime will be okay once again. i love you hayden♡
I love the train horns in the distance while you talk about Kowloon walled city (which a highschool boyfriend was obsessed with and introduced me to, we’d spend hours going down internet wormholes about it) as always I love the discussions you open with these videos
i relate so much to wanting to be lost and away from the world, like how you described attic bedrooms. i’ve found this feeling in climbing trees, especially when the leaves are so thick it completely blocks everything out, even sound. it’s like a cocoon, like nobody can get to this magical place except for me. it feels safe and isolated and warm and secure. it’s so interesting you liken that sensation to getting lost within city walls, because i’ve also found a similar feeling in tiny new york city apartment buildings, especially during rain storms. like i’m in this tiny cluttered shoebox of a room, inside an endless tower that touches the sky and is buried in the earth, all within a maze flooded with everything you could imagine. feels like purity. thank you for this beautiful video :)
Thank you for sharing more of these books, I especially loved the way you spoke about kowloon, brutalism & Boullée. I always enjoy hearing others’ perspectives, thoughts, & feelings in response to architecture, art, etc., especially when they’re well spoken. Thanks for making such a comforting (asmr-style) yet interesting video x
The way she’s talking about brutalist architecture and sexuality when a train is literally honking in the background, letting everyone know that it’s 𝒸𝑜𝓂𝒾𝓃𝑔…
i was having like an anxiety/overstimulation/something-idrk situation and this got recommended. i had no idea you made videos, so it was a lovely surprise and the calm of this really helped. thank you :))
the way you feel about brutalist architechture is the exact way I feel about it as well and i’ve never heard anybody else describe it as erotic, i’m glad i’m not alone
you’ve changed the way i look at buildings. everything is much more beautiful when you take the time to appreciate it. pls never stop sharing your thoughts
Kind of refreshing to hear someone else talk about the love of being alone, and just kind of wanting to escape into your own world where no one can get you or find you...loved most of the points you hit on bro...
I love the way you keep grounded.. it must be hard with touring and all.. thanks for reigniting my love for art..me more of a love of impressionistic .. I now enjoy Andrew Wyeth.. also for some reason feel a a great affinity towards you.. And you’ve reminded me of my Love for antiques.. thx
I’m from Idaho, and I really feel like you’d enjoy learning about the Zone of Death. It’s ~50 miles in the Idaho portion of yellowstone, and there’s a legal loophole where no crime is “prosecutable”. If you want to hide, that’s the place. Reminded me of what you were saying in the beginning of the video- places in America you could go and be the furthest from others.
these videos are always so calming and i love listening to you talk about you interests. the books someone collects are very personal and one of my favorite ways of learning about people. i hope you're enjoying living in pennsylvania, love a native pennsylvanian
Thank you for another fantastic art book tour. The Atlas of Brutalist Architecture and the Etienne-Louis Boullée book are very close to my heart, as I am very passionate about architecture. I am currently studying architecture at University, so it was great to see your perspective on these books. I was introduced to Boullée in my first semester during the foundation history classes and so I am happy that I've been able to discover him again through you. I have sought to find my own readings on Boullée and other notable architects during his time over the years and I'd be more than happy to send these over to you via a platform of your choosing!
not an art book but i’m in currently reading the lord of the rings for the first time after growing up with the movie. i haven’t been much of a reader in recent years but it’s been lighting a fire in my body to explore more fantasy, world building books, and in a way it’s helped me to appreciate the art books i do have (that i haven’t read before) because i feel that they provide a very… atmospheric experience, wether it be through art (like the book of andrew wyeth art in your previous video) or architecture ( like atlas of brutalist architecture). In a way they’re fantasy to me and the environment in the pages brings me to a world of different feelings. i love seeing your collection and getting inspiration for books to add to my list!
you have such a beautiful mind and many will pass judgement or make jokes but I appreciate your ability to be honest so incredibly deeply. you inspire and enlighten me
It's always reassuring to find others who are obsessed with ASMR like I am lol. This video is great, very cozy and relaxing. Reminds me of my aunt's mid century home I'd spent time at as a kid
Thankful for this visual ASMR video on a windy, overcast day indoors! Short thoughts on the subjects covered...interest piqued w/ Boulee's illustrations, esp. the Day/Night structure; Brutalist buildings seem so, well, brute that they have their own gravitational pull; my sister and I reveled in the smell of leaded gas when we were little kids on road trips back in the late 70's; Texaco book reminded me of Ed Ruscha's Standard Oil Stations. Lovely 90 minutes of insight with Hayden's soft voice and wide-ranging vocabulary.
There is a band I love called Kowloon Walled City.. They put me onto the location, and I was also so captured and fascinated by it, I put it into a story I was writing. Glad you love it too. Big fan Ethel.
You have a very calm and comforting energy and a very interesting and varied outlook. I don’t know much about your music, but you as a person seem wonderful and I’m grateful you spent some time sharing such unique perspectives. Weirdly I have alot of common interests but your outlooks have perspective that hits different. It makes me realize I should take alot more time to reflect on why I like the things that I do. I believe that examination is part of self reflection and awareness. You are very cool and interesting. Love to you.
priest lake, idaho is a place you can go to be as far away from people as possible. it’s at the very top of idaho and is extremely secluded. i’ve never felt safer than in this sacred place in the middle of the forest
When you mentioned Neo-Tokyo's architecture and Lorn's music on your previous art book tour, I wondered if you knew about Kowloon Walled City, so when you showed City of Darkness, I audibly gasped
I always look forward to your videos they are such a comfort whenever life gets a wee bit overwhelming 🙏🏻 Forever in love with your music Hayden, thanks for always sharing your interests with us 🩷 see you in London in June
Kowloon walled city is really fascinating, I saw a mini-documentary about how people from China or North Korea who were hoping to find jobs in Hong Kong or reunite with family would go to live in Kowloon and people there slowly built a community with churches and schools for kids, while middle school kids would get a bus to study in Hong Kong schools. The combination of crowded houses + rain + bad sewing systems and electricity was probably a disaster waiting to happen but I really wish they didn't demolish the place
You always inspire me to dwell on subjects I’ve never considered or knew about and I am so grateful for these videos you’ve been putting out. The ASMR is just the cherry on top 🍒
Live, Love, Laugh (Outside the confines of this system created to contain you)
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That's a banned phrase
prison planet saturn moon matrix that feeds on negativity or whatever the fuck it is
@@murk_yo I'm sorry I think by this stage in the relationship you should own the gag ball just come right out with it before ever commencing verbal and it could be semi serious
the explanation of feeling “yelled at” by most internet content is so funny. i want you to know i’m very appreciative being able to crochet along to a video for once while being not at all yelled at
It's because the internet is dead and why it mirrors the 'content' forced on people through television. TH-cam especially has become a giant wasteland after the purge starting around 2016. It actually baffles me when real stuff breaks through. It's good there's still an audience for it.
You hit the nail on the head when discussing Brutalism and sexuality. The idea, even, of a brutalist building being… “erected”… and the behaviors surrounding what it must be like to design and construct these buildings…there’s something so sobering yet subliminal. Same goes for Boullée and the Cenotaph of Isaac Newton…there’s definitely a yearning and mourning quality to it.
That being said my fav will always be the late I.M. Pei’s Dallas City Hall
They look like _denuded_ hanging gardens of Babylon, barren planters erected by eunuchs. The mystery's in the Missing.
i cant wait to be this insightful
Can honestly say I'll never look at a cooling tower the same way again
So much pseudo intellectualism in here
Her voice is amazing, I feel like you can listen to her talk for hours and hours about literally every topic and not get bored. So soothing and calm
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35:15 that whisper was so tingly omg
47:02 Your words perfectly describes my attitude towards brutalism. Unplastered brick walls, exposed ceiling beams and utility ducts make the building look like a large organism. I'm from Eastern Europe and im so glad that i can experience this feeling for daily. The monumentality of those building literally feels like higher power.
I'm from Bulgaria and there are concrete soviet buildings almost everywhere. Most of them are living buildings, which most people find ugly, but since i was a kid, i have adored them. When i stare at them, I always try to imagine who lives in a certain window, what does their kitchen counter look like, and their carpets, I also wonder if they like fruits or what kinds of games they like playing as a kid. I feel so lucky to live right next to a forest with a masive bunker, the entrances of which are literally just concrete block the size of a car. There are also random cement platforms and a lot of abandoned constructions all around the city. I loved going in the older ones because they have less guards.
I have a vivid childhood memory of an abandoned school. It was just in a grass field right next to an artificial spruce forest(there is a coal mine right next to Pernik, and they planted spruce trees on some of the overburden there around 1960-1970). Standing in it and looking at the peeled wall paint, old rusty toilets, and empty rooms feels like I'm looking something so forgotten and beyond abandoned. I mostly enjoy the juxtapositioning of the concrete, broken windows, syringes, and the peace of the green forest and a river. They both give me the same calmness and warmth, but in a different way.
I looooveee how grey everything looks when it rains, i have almost felt at the most peace while it's gloomy and and wet and standing on the kitchen window on the 6th floor and admiring such a beautiful view of people walking in hurry and how the buildings turn slightly darker due to the rain.
My favorite activity is getting very high and going to a random place in the center of Sofia so I can play pretend a person walking around, meanwhile having no idea where i am, but it feels comforting to see little shops, wall art, abandoned houses, restaurants all squished in between soviet apartment buildings
@@bgjoje3745friend, if you aren’t a writer you should be
something about her voice 🫶🏻so calming
its so zen
I love brutalist architecture because it feels post and pre-human but also not natural in the same way an untouched forest is. Like it's from a society from forever ago but also the future but also a cave. I could talk about this forever and nobody gets it.
!!!!! i always rant and rave on roadtrips about how all the overpasses feel like they were left by some predated intelligent society and we’ve just repurposed them as roadways. feels very prometheus. brutalism feels so antithetical to human nature and comfort so of course it feels alien. i’m so in love with it.
@@mothercain Yeah when a building feels like it could swallow me in concrete if I get too close I fall in love.
@@mothercainResearch Tartaria, you won't regret it.
@@mothercainWhy are you wearing Enema-Gloves?
@@FART-REPELLENTI think at some point in this video she mentioned getting covid, not sure if she was talking about having it before this though, could be trying to avoid contaminating it. If not that then it could be a sensory issue, she's autistic and some autistic people don't like the feeling of touching certain things.
please god do a whole asmr channel it's godly, your voice is the most soothing thing i've experienced since my very mother's womb jesuis CHRIST
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hayden asmr is genuinely my favorite thing, i love it so much. literally the perfect voice for asmr
i have never clicked anything faster
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Guilty too lol
Same bestie
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i've literally been rewatching the first one everyday to go to sleep bc it's so comforting 😭 i've never been more happier
- 16:28 is so real
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I love your “ASMR” contents so badly😭 and I love it more when you shows your book collection.Obsessed with Brutalist architecture photography book
love u Hayden ❤️
The brutalist architecture book is so interesting, and I've never thought about that design in the sense of eroticism but it's so true. I think another part of it is how blatant and transparent (oddly enough given it's literal concrete opacity) it is in its presence. It's not pretending to be something it isn't, and it doesn't apologize for itself or give what some may deem excessive explanation (or rather, cushioning? justification? it isn't adorned for the sake of acceptance or awe). It simply ~*is*~ which is so fitting in conjunction with the helplessness you talked about. It's not asking or hoping that you accept it, it forces you to and doesn't seemingly care. I think domineering was a perfect description.
I love this thought so so much
The "domineering" kind of reminds me of the ancient penis worshipers. They built giant statues of hard penises a ways outside of the commune and do their ritual walks to the giant penis and stand and pray in front of it.
There's something so ...enlightening about these videos in the strangest way , hearing you talk about what you're passionate about inspired me to take a step back and look at what inspires me . Really cool stuff , thank you Hayden
the sheer impact you have had on me is immeasurable. Not just as a person, but as a gateway for me. What you present to the internet and people, these introductions to unique and foreign concepts to a rather uniform majority is nothing less than extraordinary. You have changed my outlook on the world as a whole and in a way raised and grown this whole part of me that I didn’t know was there. An affinity for things that have been rendered as old and forgotten, as well as different pieces of media etc. I hope I get to come to one of your concerts some day to see (and try not to cry in front of but definitely fail) this person I have almost infinite respect and admiration for. You have truly inspired me without even knowing me, I love you Hayden.
literally everything you said is exactly how i feel about her. she's truly a unique. i've found intrest in things that i never thought i'd be interested in. her mind is truly out of this world. i admire & adore her so entirely. she doesn't even know. & i can't wait to experience one of her concerts too. i've seen videos of her performing & i swear, her performances always feel so heavenly.. & i get that feeling just by WATCHING videos so imagine it irl..
I just wanted to thank you for Preacher's Daughter. Its the first thing that has really inspired my own song writing in probably 10 years or so. Thank you so much. A gift
that's beautiful!
i love how shes always wearing gloves 😭
I could listen to her for hours, she honestly has such a calming aura
16:56 I love how you explain this because I feel the exact same way, Im such an introvert and I never thought of it this way, I love watching Ethel because she gives me so many new perspectives on life It’s amazing and her music saved me in such a way that I can’t even bring it into words.
I love the ambience of the train horn off in the distance, thanks for sharing your books.
listened to this with headphones while i did my makeup and it was the first time I've felt happy, relaxed and content with life in months. thank u
my attention span is usually embarrassingly short, but i could watch your videos for HOURS. I find your voice soooo soothing and comforting, and i love your taste in art. your room is really pretty, too!!!
I've never cried listening to a song before I found your music Ethel, I love how the backing tracks convey emotion. They're such a comforting kind of sadness.
I used to visit a brutalist library near me and it was my favourite in the city until it was knocked down (RIP). It was dark and clunky and outdated and expensive to run, but that also made it comforting because it was almost human, it was falling apart just like a person does. It was not all fun clean lines and bright colours, it didn’t hide from anything. It was subject to time yet felt like an infallible giant. It gave a very wabi sabi vibe which is weird because the materials were anything but natural. Looooved the architecture commentary, everyone say thank you Hayden 💜
You're so right about the "yelling videos" I don't know how people can stand to listen to it. I love this calm style!!
As someone who has always disliked brutalist architecture, you really opened my eyes to the power and attractionality(?) that these buildings exude. And I totally get the feeling of going somewhere to disappear from known society, getting lost in a labyrinth or a forest. I always got this feeling as a child when the sun had set in the countryside. The vast darkness covering the fields, meadows and forests, knowing that no human activity is happening in this space until the sun rises is exhilarating to me. Its thalassophobic almost. Thinking of all the empty spaces that exist on earth, where no human consciousness exists. In deep contrast to the consciousness-heavy cities and settlements. Im rambling lmao - thank you for another brilliant video Hayden
i love your eloquent way of speaking so much!!! you articulate everything so beautifully. can’t wait for future book tour videos
the asmr is immaculate
As an Italian, listening to you reading with such a beautiful soft voice a bit of Dante's Inferno is wonderful. Thank you for this very nice video, it's super interesting and very cozy and calming. Love you Hayden ⭐
3:41 - City of Darkness - Life in Kowloon Walled City
23:45 - Dante's Inferno
35:06 - Atlas of Brutalist Architecture
- The Texaco Story - The First 50 Years
- Beyond the Lines - Daisuke Tajima
- Etienne-Louis Boulée
“I always say your house isn’t cool unless it’s a huge fire risk.” ... just when I thought I couldn’t possibly love you any more... siiigh... ❤️❤️❤️
You're one of my very famous musicians and now you're one of my very favorite asmrtists, such a golden touch
This video is wrapping my inner child in the most comforting embrace right now. Your energy reminds me so much of my late mother’s energy. Thank you, sweet Hayden.🫀
had this on in the background whilst doing my architecture school application task. it was so nice to hear about your art books. And i like how considerate you are in describing your feelings and connections to the art. I usually feel uneasy by ASMR but your tone and demeanour made the watch a really southing experience.
I very much agree with your take about brutalist architecture. I’m from and I live in a post soviet country so I get to see a lot of beautiful brutalist buildings whenever I go out in the city. Most larger cities here have some brutalist building that one can stare longingly at. Unfortunately with the rise of commercialism it’s more often than not that within the view of the building of monument there will be some sort of add which ruins the experience ever so slightly, unless you manage to find a spot in which the ugly add might be obscured (which isn’t always possible). I’d add for people who might not have a lot of contact with brutalist buildings that some of them (the ones with giant slabs of concrete, the modernist ones specifically designed to be unique and imposing) give you the same feeling you might get if you’ve just arrived to a mountainous region and are surrounded by overwhelming grandeur. The anxious small but also overwhelming and intense feeling of vastness or monumentality. I love how Hayden described them feeling as if you’re seized by this incredible power you can’t control. Sort of like being held there by the hand of a giant or God and being made to gaze.
Also i love the take that brutalist churches with their inherent implication of God lose that imposing godly touch out of their structures. The warmth of familiarity present within those churches really does strip away the coldness and alienness. It’s such an interesting take that I never really gave that much thought to. I have felt that those churches made me feel different than the other brutalist buildings but I didn’t give much thought as to why.
also! btw! Russia is half in Europe and half in Asia. A lot of the bigger more well known cities are on the European side of Russia - like Moscow, St. Petersburg - but Russia is HUGE and there is plenty to see on both sides.
mm i agree on the brutalist churches part its almost as if it makes the building feel just plain as if it was not created with intention but out of neccessity as a place of function, whereas even when not intentional a lot of brutalist architecture feels dignified in its coldness and simplicity
ur right, it’s so much more easier really to pay attention when they’re not being obnoxious lol i usually wouldn’t watch an hour long video like this but i found it extremely relaxing and was completely invested.
Every time (4 times) I watch this video I’m super interested but for some reason watch it in bed every time so I fall asleep in like the first 15 minutes bc of how relaxing your voice is and the background noise as well! Love the asmr voice hahsh
I make hand gestures when I express my thoughts, it's nice to see others do as well.
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me too!
@@fruit4evr hah, it's a fun little thing. have a good day, fry stealer.
I eat food when I'm hungry, it's nice to see others do as well.
@@SpookyDollhouse apologies if my original comment was weird or unsettling, the people around me tend to be less expressive. I thought it was worth noting.
A little while back, there was a thematic explosion of "Art of Atrophy" photography books that were about the industrialized corpses left behind. My two personal favorites were Abandoned America (2014) and Manufactured Landscapes (2003). You might also dig Soviet Ghosts (2014) as it gels with crumbling megastructures. Regardless, thank you for sharing, and convincing me that it was finally time to grab my own copy of the Atlas of Brutalist Architecture.
i love to listen to your videos. it feels like im under a warm blanket with you next to me and you're holding my hand, telling me that everytime will be okay once again. i love you hayden♡
I love that you always have the tv on in the background. It is sooooo soothing to me
I love the train horns in the distance while you talk about Kowloon walled city (which a highschool boyfriend was obsessed with and introduced me to, we’d spend hours going down internet wormholes about it) as always I love the discussions you open with these videos
i relate so much to wanting to be lost and away from the world, like how you described attic bedrooms. i’ve found this feeling in climbing trees, especially when the leaves are so thick it completely blocks everything out, even sound. it’s like a cocoon, like nobody can get to this magical place except for me. it feels safe and isolated and warm and secure. it’s so interesting you liken that sensation to getting lost within city walls, because i’ve also found a similar feeling in tiny new york city apartment buildings, especially during rain storms. like i’m in this tiny cluttered shoebox of a room, inside an endless tower that touches the sky and is buried in the earth, all within a maze flooded with everything you could imagine. feels like purity. thank you for this beautiful video :)
the light of the tv hitting her face tickles something in my brain, it makes this all so much cozy
'not to sound like a child but i do enjoy a picture book', i need this embroidered on a throw pillow!
Your videos are very comforting, it's so wonderful to experience the things you love and enjoy them with you 🤎
Working from home today and listening to your soothing voice in the background has been lovely.
this video is so great. i keep coming back to it. so relaxing, great vibes.
Thank you for sharing more of these books, I especially loved the way you spoke about kowloon, brutalism & Boullée. I always enjoy hearing others’ perspectives, thoughts, & feelings in response to architecture, art, etc., especially when they’re well spoken. Thanks for making such a comforting (asmr-style) yet interesting video x
The way she’s talking about brutalist architecture and sexuality when a train is literally honking in the background, letting everyone know that it’s 𝒸𝑜𝓂𝒾𝓃𝑔…
this TRAIN💜
we love seeing these great reads and what you’re interested in, Hayden! Thank you for sharing this with us your voice is so relaxingggg
your art book tours are always so calm and interesting. I'm definitely checking a few of them out later. thank you for sharing, mother.
watching this to fall asleep i’m imagining sleeping in her bed it just looks so nice and inviting ik id sleep so good there
Goddess has blessed us with a hour long video about art books. This is beautiful!
I appreciate your calm demeanor, it's so rare on youtube.
such a soothing voice, it makes listening so much easier.
i was having like an anxiety/overstimulation/something-idrk situation and this got recommended. i had no idea you made videos, so it was a lovely surprise and the calm of this really helped. thank you :))
the way you feel about brutalist architechture is the exact way I feel about it as well and i’ve never heard anybody else describe it as erotic, i’m glad i’m not alone
you’ve changed the way i look at buildings. everything is much more beautiful when you take the time to appreciate it. pls never stop sharing your thoughts
your first art book video has been my go to video to watch when feeling anxious, thank you for posting more :) 🤎
Kind of refreshing to hear someone else talk about the love of being alone, and just kind of wanting to escape into your own world where no one can get you or find you...loved most of the points you hit on bro...
this is as long as a feature length film, ethel cain i love you
I appreciate you giving all your thoughts in these comforting videos so much. makes me feel less alone in my thoughts and feelings.
I love the way you keep grounded.. it must be hard with touring and all.. thanks for reigniting my love for art..me more of a love of impressionistic .. I now enjoy Andrew Wyeth.. also for some reason feel a a great affinity towards you..
And you’ve reminded me of my
Love for antiques.. thx
you, art books, and asmr are some of my fav things.. this was made for me wow thank u!!!
thank you for putting your time and energy into these videos. i know i’m not the only one who appreciates it, but it means a lot ❤️
I’m from Idaho, and I really feel like you’d enjoy learning about the Zone of Death. It’s ~50 miles in the Idaho portion of yellowstone, and there’s a legal loophole where no crime is “prosecutable”. If you want to hide, that’s the place. Reminded me of what you were saying in the beginning of the video- places in America you could go and be the furthest from others.
i'm in love with these longer form chat videos
i just found your music and i'm so happy to find you're making content like this. love love love your work
these videos are always so calming and i love listening to you talk about you interests. the books someone collects are very personal and one of my favorite ways of learning about people. i hope you're enjoying living in pennsylvania, love a native pennsylvanian
This is taking me back. Loving the trad lofi asmr vibe. Your voice is perfect.
your energy is so serene i love it
i listen to your asmr every night to go to sleep it’s genuinely so fire AND i get to learn abt your art books
Thank you for another fantastic art book tour. The Atlas of Brutalist Architecture and the Etienne-Louis Boullée book are very close to my heart, as I am very passionate about architecture. I am currently studying architecture at University, so it was great to see your perspective on these books. I was introduced to Boullée in my first semester during the foundation history classes and so I am happy that I've been able to discover him again through you. I have sought to find my own readings on Boullée and other notable architects during his time over the years and I'd be more than happy to send these over to you via a platform of your choosing!
not an art book but i’m in currently reading the lord of the rings for the first time after growing up with the movie. i haven’t been much of a reader in recent years but it’s been lighting a fire in my body to explore more fantasy, world building books, and in a way it’s helped me to appreciate the art books i do have (that i haven’t read before) because i feel that they provide a very… atmospheric experience, wether it be through art (like the book of andrew wyeth art in your previous video) or architecture ( like atlas of brutalist architecture). In a way they’re fantasy to me and the environment in the pages brings me to a world of different feelings. i love seeing your collection and getting inspiration for books to add to my list!
Pleaseee do more asmr style stuff like this just chatting about stuff you’re interested in. So relaxing and nice to watch
Girl I never thought we was never getting part two 😭 so happy it's finally here 💕
you have such a beautiful mind and many will pass judgement or make jokes but I appreciate your ability to be honest so incredibly deeply. you inspire and enlighten me
i come back to this video whenever i am in need of comfort and i just zone out while listening. best way to spend my evenings i swear
It's always reassuring to find others who are obsessed with ASMR like I am lol. This video is great, very cozy and relaxing. Reminds me of my aunt's mid century home I'd spent time at as a kid
Thankful for this visual ASMR video on a windy, overcast day indoors! Short thoughts on the subjects covered...interest piqued w/ Boulee's illustrations, esp. the Day/Night structure; Brutalist buildings seem so, well, brute that they have their own gravitational pull; my sister and I reveled in the smell of leaded gas when we were little kids on road trips back in the late 70's; Texaco book reminded me of Ed Ruscha's Standard Oil Stations. Lovely 90 minutes of insight with Hayden's soft voice and wide-ranging vocabulary.
this makes me feel like i can be who i am and like what i like. i watch it a lot before i go to sleep, it helps with the night terrors. thanks hayden
i am so fucking obsessed with the kowloon walled city i understand ur vibe
i cant believe this was only posted 3 weeks ago i fall asleep to this every night and i watch it throughout the day
girl when you were talking about being far away from people I felt that like I wanna pick up leave everything behind and just live in the woods tbh
these are just as captivating as your music! love that my loves (asmr and art book video) are collidinggggg
The soft yet precise delivery reminds me very much of Laurie Anderson’s earlier work.
you are brilliance, i just adore you ♡ this single handedly brought back my academic motivation for the semester LOL
There is a band I love called Kowloon Walled City.. They put me onto the location, and I was also so captured and fascinated by it, I put it into a story I was writing. Glad you love it too. Big fan Ethel.
You have a very calm and comforting energy and a very interesting and varied outlook. I don’t know much about your music, but you as a person seem wonderful and I’m grateful you spent some time sharing such unique perspectives. Weirdly I have alot of common interests but your outlooks have perspective that hits different. It makes me realize I should take alot more time to reflect on why I like the things that I do. I believe that examination is part of self reflection and awareness. You are very cool and interesting. Love to you.
couldnt have said it better myself. i love the way she thinks and how much she thinks about things.
priest lake, idaho is a place you can go to be as far away from people as possible. it’s at the very top of idaho and is extremely secluded. i’ve never felt safer than in this sacred place in the middle of the forest
When you mentioned Neo-Tokyo's architecture and Lorn's music on your previous art book tour, I wondered if you knew about Kowloon Walled City, so when you showed City of Darkness, I audibly gasped
I always look forward to your videos they are such a comfort whenever life gets a wee bit overwhelming 🙏🏻
Forever in love with your music Hayden, thanks for always sharing your interests with us 🩷 see you in London in June
Kowloon walled city is really fascinating, I saw a mini-documentary about how people from China or North Korea who were hoping to find jobs in Hong Kong or reunite with family would go to live in Kowloon and people there slowly built a community with churches and schools for kids, while middle school kids would get a bus to study in Hong Kong schools. The combination of crowded houses + rain + bad sewing systems and electricity was probably a disaster waiting to happen but I really wish they didn't demolish the place
As an literature sl*t and ethel cain lover i already know that these are gonna be thr best 90 minutes of my life
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You always inspire me to dwell on subjects I’ve never considered or knew about and I am so grateful for these videos you’ve been putting out. The ASMR is just the cherry on top 🍒
you have no idea how much you touch my soul. i love you.
I love your voice it’s so soothing and your room looks so cozy 🥰
Please do an entire video on architecture, this was so relaxing and interesting!!!!