thank you for sharing your experience with night sweats! now i am not recovering, so i´m not sure what´s causing these, but it´s still good to hear i´m not the only one having these issues. i´ll wake up like, drenched and have to change clothes. sometimes multiple time during the night.
Hi! This is a great video! I fell into a mixture of anorexia nervosa and orthorexia. Today I have 20 and I fell into anorexia last year for 6 months with excessive sport. I came home from class at 8pm and continued with 1h30 of cardio/muscle. I did not eat much next door, I weighed EVERYTHING. I have always had a lot of trouble with my appearance since my teenage years and it is also with remarks from relatives (my mother in particular) that encouraged this behavior. I was overweight during my high school and college years and I suffered a lot from it. In the first year of my bachelor’s degree I did a food rebalancing, I started to do sports regularly. Everything was fine until I said to myself: and if I ate less I would lose faster and I will be more beautiful for sure! No more bulges, no more breasts, no more buttocks... I went from being a greedy girl to being afraid to eat, afraid of food. I only ate low-calorie foods and in very small quantities. I also did four times more sports. I was starting to lose weight very quickly. I looked like a small skeleton, my mother compared me to a person in the concentration camps because you could see my bones. Then my hair started to fall slowly but surely, I was constantly tired, I felt my pelvic bones when I was lying down, I was very cold, getting up from my bed became very hard, taking a shower took a lot of effort. I had a pain in my neck, I began to not feeling my feet, to take time to concentrate for a simple everyday thing, my teeth and gums hurt, I went to the saddle 1 or 2 times a week from where a stomach ache and gastric complications with hemorrhoids ( yes all that is not very pretty but it was real). Clearly I was dying more and more. I was unhappy as possible. I was an empty shell that cried almost every day. But I was happy, proud because I was "thin"and I had took my revenge on my look. Then, with food restriction I lost my social life, my menstruation, my joy, my jokes, my good mood, my desire to live clearly. My parents were getting scared... But I didn’t care I wanted to go even further despite everything that was happening. I had gone to see my doctor in the meantime so that he could see me and help me, make me realize that it was not right but he did nothing: he only prescribed a blood test. Strangely, my weight was still high for my 1 m 63; I was at 46 or 47 kilos I do not remember precisely. I was not as thin as the other girls who reached 27 kilos. But I was at the end mentally and physically. I began to have compulsions followed by excruciating stomach pains. To punish myself for giving in, I did not eat or very little the following days and I increased the sport to "wash" myself internally. In May 2023, I had a click where I thought "I don’t see myself living like this forever, I can’t anymore, I don’t live anymore, is that really what you want? Really? Are you ready to give up all this forever for a slim waist and a smaller chest? ". Compulsions have come, increasingly strong, increasingly urgent. It was impossible to restrict myself and to do so much sport to wash me because it lasted for weeks and I was tired of this behavior. So I dropped everything, I was very hungry so it helped. When I started eating again, I don’t tell you the pleasure I felt just "eating", I felt like I had discovered something new and insane that nobody had discovered! I have since had countless food compulsions based on fruits, eggs and bread. I had a slab of hell, to eat and eat for days, I hid everything I ate from my parents. And I bought packages and packages of almonds, dates, bananas to feed myself. I had like you periods when I wanted to eat only a "type" of food until I was fed up! Also, I ate very few cakes and refined sugars, I have always rarely consumed them: like sugary drinks besides. My compulsions were on eggs, oatmeal, fruits and almonds in demonic quantities. So, the month of May and June was the time of abundant food all day... Then the month of July I panicked to see my weight rise so I fell back a little in the restriction with a big crisis per week and the rest to eat nothing and run the equivalent of a marathon per week to "wash" calories. I calculated everything to have a zero scale. And then in August I realized that I was entering a cycle of compulsion/ restriction and that by doing so I would not be rid of this mental weight of food in a while. So I dropped everything again until today. Today is October I gained a lot of weight ( +15 kg), I know I’m already in the overshoot but I still have big periods of hunger that do not end. My belly is "empty" even after eating lasagna, yogurt, fruits, bananas, dates, loaves of bread. I’m at about 5000 cal/day. Is it still normal? I still don’t have my period either. I also bought large t-shirts to be more comfortable when my belly resembles that of a pregnant woman. It’s hard to see his weight increase when I gave everything to see him go down. I made an appointment with a dietician to try to understand if it was still extreme hunger or if it was me who is not well at all. But I know internally that it is not bulimia because it is my choice to meet my hunger, I do not do it in a frenetic way, I control what I eat, what it is a minimum balanced with always complete meals. In short, I try to do my best to deal with the "problem". Also, did you have any physical effects from your anorexia? In my case, my teeth still hurt and my right foot is more sensitive than the left as if I had a little bit like ants in my feet. Sorry if I did mistakes, I am Frenchie girl :)
@@Aaaaa-i9sHi ! Thanks for asking. Today I am way much better. All the pain disapeared. No more extreme hunger or others symptoms:).Wish you a good recovery cause you can too !!!❤
Love your videos! Thanks for sharing and I'd love to see your acne journey as well! I'm experiencing night sweats too lately! It is gross how your legs stick together and are sopping wet.
They are the worst! I’m so sorry you are going through that. I can do a video going into more depth, but my top things I use to help me are heat packs, peppermint tea, peppermint oil capsules (De Gas) and stretching. Xx
Its not weight gain its health gain!! Love it!
Such good advice!! x
i love that saying!!!
Your videos make me feel so calm and positive. Please keep making them!!
That is the sweetest. I am so thrilled to hear that- thank you! xx
thank you for sharing your experience with night sweats! now i am not recovering, so i´m not sure what´s causing these, but it´s still good to hear i´m not the only one having these issues. i´ll wake up like, drenched and have to change clothes. sometimes multiple time during the night.
They are literally THE WORST! Thankfully mine have reduced a bit now but I still get them.
I. completely get the night sweats!!!! My hair is literally dripping wet and I have to change clothes in the middle of the night!
OMG YES! They are the WORST.
What are night sweats from?
@@mariabeckwith3336 I could be wrong, but it may be due to the metabolism speeding up when eating more!
OH MY GOSH SAME
love your videos sm, it helps with my struggles during recovery
That means so much for me to hear- Thank you !! Sending you lots of love and support xx
Hi! This is a great video! I fell into a mixture of anorexia nervosa and orthorexia.
Today I have 20 and I fell into anorexia last year for 6 months with excessive sport. I came home from class at 8pm and continued with 1h30 of cardio/muscle. I did not eat much next door, I weighed EVERYTHING.
I have always had a lot of trouble with my appearance since my teenage years and it is also with remarks from relatives (my mother in particular) that encouraged this behavior. I was overweight during my high school and college years and I suffered a lot from it. In the first year of my bachelor’s degree I did a food rebalancing, I started to do sports regularly. Everything was fine until I said to myself: and if I ate less I would lose faster and I will be more beautiful for sure! No more bulges, no more breasts, no more buttocks... I went from being a greedy girl to being afraid to eat, afraid of food. I only ate low-calorie foods and in very small quantities. I also did four times more sports. I was starting to lose weight very quickly. I looked like a small skeleton, my mother compared me to a person in the concentration camps because you could see my bones. Then my hair started to fall slowly but surely, I was constantly tired, I felt my pelvic bones when I was lying down, I was very cold, getting up from my bed became very hard, taking a shower took a lot of effort. I had a pain in my neck, I began to not feeling my feet, to take time to concentrate for a simple everyday thing, my teeth and gums hurt, I went to the saddle 1 or 2 times a week from where a stomach ache and gastric complications with hemorrhoids ( yes all that is not very pretty but it was real). Clearly I was dying more and more.
I was unhappy as possible. I was an empty shell that cried almost every day. But I was happy, proud because I was "thin"and I had took my revenge on my look. Then, with food restriction I lost my social life, my menstruation, my joy, my jokes, my good mood, my desire to live clearly. My parents were getting scared... But I didn’t care I wanted to go even further despite everything that was happening. I had gone to see my doctor in the meantime so that he could see me and help me, make me realize that it was not right but he did nothing: he only prescribed a blood test.
Strangely, my weight was still high for my 1 m 63; I was at 46 or 47 kilos I do not remember precisely. I was not as thin as the other girls who reached 27 kilos. But I was at the end mentally and physically.
I began to have compulsions followed by excruciating stomach pains. To punish myself for giving in, I did not eat or very little the following days and I increased the sport to "wash" myself internally.
In May 2023, I had a click where I thought "I don’t see myself living like this forever, I can’t anymore, I don’t live anymore, is that really what you want? Really? Are you ready to give up all this forever for a slim waist and a smaller chest? ".
Compulsions have come, increasingly strong, increasingly urgent. It was impossible to restrict myself and to do so much sport to wash me because it lasted for weeks and I was tired of this behavior.
So I dropped everything, I was very hungry so it helped. When I started eating again, I don’t tell you the pleasure I felt just "eating", I felt like I had discovered something new and insane that nobody had discovered! I have since had countless food compulsions based on fruits, eggs and bread. I had a slab of hell, to eat and eat for days, I hid everything I ate from my parents. And I bought packages and packages of almonds, dates, bananas to feed myself. I had like you periods when I wanted to eat only a "type" of food until I was fed up!
Also, I ate very few cakes and refined sugars, I have always rarely consumed them: like sugary drinks besides.
My compulsions were on eggs, oatmeal, fruits and almonds in demonic quantities.
So, the month of May and June was the time of abundant food all day...
Then the month of July I panicked to see my weight rise so I fell back a little in the restriction with a big crisis per week and the rest to eat nothing and run the equivalent of a marathon per week to "wash" calories. I calculated everything to have a zero scale.
And then in August I realized that I was entering a cycle of compulsion/ restriction and that by doing so I would not be rid of this mental weight of food in a while.
So I dropped everything again until today.
Today is October I gained a lot of weight ( +15 kg), I know I’m already in the overshoot but I still have big periods of hunger that do not end. My belly is "empty" even after eating lasagna, yogurt, fruits, bananas, dates, loaves of bread. I’m at about 5000 cal/day.
Is it still normal? I still don’t have my period either.
I also bought large t-shirts to be more comfortable when my belly resembles that of a pregnant woman.
It’s hard to see his weight increase when I gave everything to see him go down. I made an appointment with a dietician to try to understand if it was still extreme hunger or if it was me who is not well at all.
But I know internally that it is not bulimia because it is my choice to meet my hunger, I do not do it in a frenetic way, I control what I eat, what it is a minimum balanced with always complete meals. In short, I try to do my best to deal with the "problem".
Also, did you have any physical effects from your anorexia? In my case, my teeth still hurt and my right foot is more sensitive than the left as if I had a little bit like ants in my feet.
Sorry if I did mistakes, I am Frenchie girl :)
How are you doing now? ❤🙏
@@Aaaaa-i9sHi ! Thanks for asking. Today I am way much better. All the pain disapeared. No more extreme hunger or others symptoms:).Wish you a good recovery cause you can too !!!❤
Love you and your videos ! Inspiring me day by day! God bless sis! 🤍🤩
Thank you lovely xx
Love your videos! Thanks for sharing and I'd love to see your acne journey as well! I'm experiencing night sweats too lately! It is gross how your legs stick together and are sopping wet.
Thank you! And I will be filming an acne story soon! And omg they are truly so gross ahah!!
I’m also facing some diegestive issues and I’m suffering from anorexia would please share some recovery tips it’s been so hard for me
They are the worst! I’m so sorry you are going through that. I can do a video going into more depth, but my top things I use to help me are heat packs, peppermint tea, peppermint oil capsules (De Gas) and stretching. Xx
Love your videos and hearing about your experiences!
Thank you so much xx
Keep going girl! You are so inspiring 💕
Just wondering- are you sure you have to go on Accutane? Your skin looks really good 👌🏼😮
Aww thank you! I have just finished Accutane; that's why my skin is clear now hehe xx
bloating and the extreme night sweats hurt the most.
Love you and your videos 😍
Thank you so much xx
Dairy and or wheat could be causing acne
It was hormonal acne x