C-PTSD Makes it Hard to Work ✌️
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 9 ก.พ. 2025
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I hate when people say "have you tried [insert traditionally easy job here]" because like... when you're having a really bad mental health day, you might struggle to stop crying, or to feed yourself, or to drive (which lots of people need to do to get to work)
Like... it doesn't matter how "easy" the job is. When you're having a really bad mental health day, *everything* is hard
Thank you for so very well describing
Accurate
Damn, the crying part though 😭😭😭. At the beginning of a job or during stressful days where I feel hypervigilant, it's so hard not to cry but I know if I do then I'll have a hard time stopping.
like we don't have the common sense to know what avenues to take before asking for help lol the other thing I keep hearing is " get on meds" I have been for 20 years.. and stopped because it makes the symptoms worse because my PTSD was misdiagnosed with BPD... I was taking meds that would not treat my triggers but feed into them worse.. you know what helps? greenery and meditation (Somatic therapy) but even on bad days? it doesn't work. the only way to fix our pain? is to bring back what we lost.. people don't understand that.. :/
I kept my full time job while I am going through this but let me tell you how hard and embarrassing it is to be triggered in front of people and to cry in the middle of a work place. I feel like I constantly have to explain myself to people and I probably look absolutely crazy to them. It makes me feel so much shame and embarrassment which triggers me even more. I am 43 and determined to get through this I just and keep working at it. My triggers are happening less and less because I now am becoming aware of what they are and being more conscious of them. Seeing this makes me feel better that I am not alone and that others go through this too. Try not to give up and keep pushing forward.
That makes so much sense! I have CPTSD and when I was working as a waitress, that shit made me sooo dysregulated, I even got nightmares from it, and it wasn't even objectively bad - just so very triggering. But I never saw it as a CPTSD problem, I always thought I'm just particularly bad at waitressing.
And yes, you're right, CPTSD is very isolating - I think the main reason for that is that it has to do with relational trauma. Other people are inherently triggering, they don't even necessarily have to do something. But at the same time, we need and crave human connection so much. Which is so damn frustrating.
Thanks for sharing, my dear! Amazing how brave you are talking about this publicly. I don't think I would ever be able to do that.
Nothing but the best to you!
the part where you talked about work and how hard it is to find a job, keep one or find the will power to even go outside etc, I felt that so deeply and i ended up having to pause the video, cry it out, and then come back. i wasn't triggered by your words (i always go into your videos with caution anyway, bc i too have CPTSD, and other issues), but i heard you say them out loud and i thought to myself "someone gets that shit, im not alone" and that made me feel all those different things... thank you for sharing your experiences, being open about them while still keeping details private. kinda makes me want to redo my whole channel and start sharing things about my mental & physical illnesses, start an Instagram even, and help spread awareness. same with service dogs (I'm in the process of getting one). anyway, I'm rambling. I'm sorry. bottom line, thank you♥️
Thank you for validating everything about working as a cashier in a grocery store/retail. I've been stuck in that job for four and a half years since leaving my parent's and dropping out of college. People are very triggering, abusive, and some a creeps. But then there are the nicest compassionate ones who can make your day. It's a struggle, but the nice people make it worth it (sometimes). I feel like I'm in a cycle where I'll never get out of this line of work. It's definitely not easy.
Goodness....I relate. Financial trouble when you can't work ...feels demoralizing...personally....to say the least. I think your videos are great honestly. I watch them because I find you very relatable and enjoy your sense of humour. Keep it up!
Monica Newton Financial stuff literally terrifies me.
Yeah, like the ball drop humor...I busted out laughing!!!! Good job, utuber. And it was clearly spontaneous, not planned and she just kept talking like that wasn't hilarious.
I recently had to quit my job because of my disabilities. It's been really hard and I'm filled with a lot of guilt. I'm so young and a lot of the time it feels like no one around me understands how hard it is to do "normal" things like deal with crowds or work in a stressful environment or just function. Thank you for sharing this video and making people feel less alone. Stories like yours are a life raft right now.
OMG when my PTSD was at it's worst I started walking dogs because it was literally the only thing I could do: play with people's dogs, walk around in nature and avoid human contact. Lucky for me I'm good with dogs and it's lucrative work, but it was so hard to even do that. I survived on the least amount of work I needed to do to pay the rent for such a long time.
Yes!!! And “typical” people don’t get it and they can try but they just won’t understand this as much as we do!
👋🏽✌🏽✌🏽”Hypervigilanceeee”✌🏽
My absolute mood right now
A forever mood 😂
I am really struggling with the financial issues of not being able to stay with a job. I am running out of options. And I don’t know what to do. I am also not a veteran. I searched for PTSD and work and your video came up first. I am happy to see other people struggle with this. I don’t feel so alone. I feel so ashamed of myself right now.
You are SO effing BRAVE!! Totally understand, where you are coming from. Way to have boundaries also
TW: medical issues
In the US, typically you get denied disability once or twice no matter what, but if you appeal it enough, you may get it. My friend has an extremely rare genetic condition (only like one hundred or less people in the world have it and have lived as long as she has) and even she was denied the first two times. She’s 23 and physically and financially has no way of taking care of herself. She’s got, like, every chronic illness under the sun due to her illness, and even then, the government was like “eeehhhh are you SURE??”
So like, idk if that makes you feel better, but it’s not just you. It may be the screwed up system in Canada.
4:57 “Yay, my balls dropped.”
Never change, Kelela XD
Imagine having severe anxiety, major depression, PTSD, OCD, and Agorapbobia and being denied for disability 7 times. That's my life. I know this is an old video but I hope you got disability, or found a way to suppport yourself that doesn't compromise your mental health
I live on SSI and SSDI in the States so I kind of understand. I stayed home and took care of my mom instead. I was a janitor at one point and at Burger King at one point. I find a lot of things triggering and I'm in my 40s my dad died when I was 13 I hate it when people say just get over it. Things like this one just doesn't get over. My mom and everyone of my siblings have/had C-PTSD depending on if they are alive or not. I've been in and out of therapy since I was 15 it helps but even that isn't a quick fix I wish people understood that.
I'm your age /also in the states & a recipient. I get it. I'm really sorry about your dad.
@@Zenithxblack He was very violent so I have mixed feelings depending on the day or minute sometimes.
i hate myself cause everybody 'it's so easy' 'u are just lazy' 'u are manipulate' today i well tried job for 3h and i feel like everybody hate me cause 'job isnt that hard u just lazy' and i found you and people still hate my but... thank u cause not alone
Thank you. Ppl don't understand man
You have helped me such a lot with this video. I've had to give up my voluntary work which I loved because I've had to come to accept I can't do it. When you said it feels like you are letting the illness win, that really put into words what I have been feeling and haven't been able to realise. Also when you are describing how environments trigger you, I really identified with that too. You have a good way of putting things into words. x
Thank you! Recently a close friend of mine suggested that I begin trying to get on disability and I definitely did not take it well I have never wanted to be a victim of anyone or anything and I had it in my head that that is -the- most vicim-y thing to do....but I have had time to think about it and to process it and exactly like you said, it's not submitting to the illness, it's doing what I need to to be able to heal so maybe one day I -CAN- make the kind of money I want to make.
When your eyes get watery when you talk about emotional or deep things.. I 100% relate.. I never met someone else like me lol
Fellow Canadian girly struggling with Cptsd here! thank you for your vulnerability and helping spread the word on our reality, it’s very inspiring :’)
P.S. thank u for making me feel less alone on one of the loneliness days I’ve been having recently ❤️
I relate so fucking much. I’m about to fucking break down and I’ve just been in Walmart’s HR department doing training. The constant noise of people doing stuff is triggering in itself. I can’t fucking do this. You are helping me realize that I am not alone and that this is normal for people with cptsd. It’s great to know that I’m not alone.
I know this is an old-ish video, but I'm really feeling it. I lost multiple jobs -- some in warehousing, some in veterinary care -- thanks to psychogenic seizures. When CPTSD gets so severe that it literally gives you _seizures,_ there's a problem. With any luck, my disability screening will end at two years and not cross into three.
Fingers crossed for both of us.
I got seziers from not raising my voice or shock but never knew what it was I masked it with alcohol unfortunately you can't drink or smoke on the job smoke is definitely a no no but one day when I'm dead hopefully not working on man chemicals.
I'm 24 and never had a job. Diagnosed with severe anxiety and on disability, but I feel like there's something more there that I haven't figured out. I feel like people look down on me when they find out, like I'm just not trying hard enough. Even when I try to explain they get this expression like they still don't believe me but they just nod anyway. It fucks me up tbh, like I have to prove my worth to them. I try not to let it get to me but it's hard when everyone is constantly trying to be "helpful" and suggest things, and all I can think about are all the different things that would set me off.
Thank you for making this, it helps me understand myself better and how I can help other people understand me too.
I totally get what you mean about the skeptical looks people give! It's like they just "know" that if we would just "move past it" everything would be okay! 🙄 As if we aren't trying our hardest to "move past it" haha!
@@PostTraumaticVictory Exactly! The first caseworker I had for disability was one of those people, and heavily implied that since I dressed cleanly and acted friendly I wasn't actually disabled. Got someone new now but stuff like that is what makes people think they have to hide their problems more. As if we had a choice in being like this.
Im recommending you to everyone i know you are amazing
Haha thank you! 🎉
Thank you for this video. It's been very difficult for me to go to work due to the C-ptsd and it makes me feel very useless. I recently got my therapist to get me accommodations so that I can have up to 17 hrs/week excused for flare-up. My C-ptsd has both fight and flight, neither of which I want to display in public. It sucks because it even makes taking my dog out at night nigh impossible. Either way, I hope your channel keeps on growing and may the gods bless you with abundance and prosperity. Thank you for being an inspiration to the rest of us who struggle with this condition, it helps to realize we're not insane.
I disagree with one thing you said. They do want hand outs. But the problem is how people see that concept. People who are struggling whether it’s because of disability or they are just struggling to find a job deserve help. It’s a hand out because it’s free and you didn’t do anything to “earn” it. It’s not like a pension. But you still deserve it if you need it.
SUCH a great point! Yes! Literally needing a handout is not inherently a bad thing, but society makes it feel so shameful.
Thank you for pointing that out, you're so right!
In the US, just being a part of society should qualify you. Every human being needs a purpose, to feel they are part of something greater than themselves. That's impossible when the society that's supposed to support them kicks them out for needing that support. We stigmatize everything that is perceived to be a drain on the Capitalist's ideal economy. That includes all social spending and is quickly spreading to even the most basic necessities like police and fire. It is a recipe for collapse driven by greed. The irony is, of course, that the greed is killing its source.
They DO NOT SUCK, not ever, not once!! :). Content is 99% , and I love it. #cPTSD #warzonechild #Belfast
Haha thanks! 😍
Yes I love my job I work on a team with a bunch a workers I have C-PTSD and I really struggle I’ve been through narcissistic abuse and trauma
God, for real, the past couple days have been ridiculously hard because of this exact reason. It's so frustrating not being able to work then being treated like crap for something that is entirely out of your power.
I was just diagnosed a few months ago. Took 41 years for me to finally figure it out. Thanks for helping me feel less alone.
I've had such a rough day with my ptsd at work and I hate it :(
Yer rad.
Part 2 came down my utube feed.
I added it to my public playlist of best narcissistic videos.
Your audio is perfectly fine, better than a trained therapist I watch on the topic.
Your choice of music with your style of sharing is great.
....and everything else you said.
I'm right there with ya on jobs and finances.
Blessings.
You are amazing you help me so much with dealing with my PTSD and My Domestic violence I left. I am finding with your help and you putting mental health issues out there that I am not alone. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I found this by searching "PTSD and working" because I am having a really hard time. I am a hairstylist (which, as I know you will understand, requires a superhuman amount of effort even on my best days). I love working and creating, but lately I feel so lonely and heartbroken because it seems like some of the things my job involves are so much harder for me than for other people. I have been in therapy for four years and I know that healing isn't linear, but it still hurts my feelings. Thank you for being vulnerable and living out loud--I needed to not feel alone tonight.
Gurrrrrl! You are so beautiful inside and out. I wish I had the courage to actually post anything like this. You have great understanding and communication for people like me who need to hear it. I'm so super grateful for you and this video.
Thank you so much for watching! 🥺❤️
Thank you for this video, I needed this tonight
I needed to hear this. My hearing is in less than an hour.
For PTSD, (complex), among other things.
The very process is full of triggers. :/ Two years and I've been told if I even try to get better, work, or do chores I'll be denied.
I want to thank you for this video (and really all of them!). You really explained it so much better than I have tried. You're right, we're not alone ❤️
Thank you for being willing to share. Love you and appreciate you so much
Thank you this is so validating as another Alberta girl with ptsd.
Alberta can be a challenging place to live with PTSD 💚💯
It took me years & many denials, but I am disabled. This is one of my dx. Of course, not the only, as we always have comorbidities /coexisting diagnoses. I truly miss working.
I'm so glad I've found your channel, it's a couple minutes in and I already love your vibes lol. I have Cptsd too and soo relate to paying for petrol (from UK) with coins and not being able to post my Etsy packages 😑 so I will now be binge watching your vids! Thank you for making dem, hope you are doing good and sending healing to you 😊✌️💕
Hey! I can't thank you enough for being brave and sharing this with the internet. I've been thinking of making a channel similar to yours about my trauma but I feel like it would be too triggering. Also, wanted to say that the quality of your videos is actually pretty decent and you're doing an amazing job explaining some things that I've always wondered how to explain. Thank you!
I found you recently by chance. I'm going through the exact things you are. Isolating is something I've struggled with for several years now. It's something A LOT of people take personally. Watching you today when I watch this I see myself. I've had a hard time even applying for disability bc I kept feeling " I was giving up so to say". I live in the states I meet the criteria for it. My Therapist, psychologist, Dr. Have been telling me for years to do this. Always, reminding me it may not always be this way. I'M finally going to make this a shorter term goal now. I understand you. I feel like we would understand each other for sure. Your video's do feel like I'm not alone and finally have someone that I can relate too. Please don't stop making these videos as long as your ok with doing so. I feel very much in tune with ya. Your brave and what your doing is helping me too. I wanted to thank you for making content. I just can't thank you enough. Different situations same pain😇😊
i love you! i quit my job making very good money as a server because as it turns out managers and the general public are very triggering. Especially in food service. i haven't heard anyone talk about it before so thank you
Hey! I haven't been here in a while sorry. I still love your videos! I recently got a job and I've been struggling with it a bit. My grandma goes "Oh but my job used to be so much harder" like that's supposed to make it easier for me haha. I work three days a week and it's still very difficult. Centrelink refuses to give me a hand and my mum refuses to let me get a service dog. I can afford getting a service dog but it's her house. I work in retail, I've only done eight shifts and I've already been yelled at six times. Not to mention they play christmas songs, one of the songs is my biggest trigger and for it to play every hour is bad. I hope stuff gets a little easier for you. You still have all my love and support! I'm going to catch up on your videos now!
It is so so crap that we are still living in a world where people who cant work have to struggle to make ends meet whilst fighting for disability money. I spent a few hours on unemployment, trying to kid myself that i was fully capable of a full time job, whilst really I knew I was totally kidding myself but I was terrified to go on disability (the UK version) because I genuinely didnt believe I would be considered 'sick enough'. Unemployment money here means being treated like scum, so THEY treat you like scum too and enjoy cutting off people's money for a month for no reason and sending them to food banks and giving them 'loans'. I wont launch into a rant but basically I got so unwell in the end I couldnt even get out of bed for a week, and didnt realise till it was too late on the Friday that I had an appt literally hours before that I'd obviously forgotten and missed coz i was barely functional. It was after 5pm so I couldnt call and planned to on Monday... instead on Monday I received a letter (they can work much quicker when they are taking away people's money to live) saying I was being taken off unemployment because I didnt turn up to one appt and that they had made me an appt for 2 weeks later, until then, no money. They usually sanction for a month, not just take you off it entirely for one missed appt.
By the end of the following weekend I had been switched over to disability.
All this rambling to say - its really sad that it took all that for me to get on disability and for there to be so much anxiety and struggle attached. It's ok to cry, the frustration is so difficult.
Your videos help me Kelela, I feel validated by you and of course the puppers are delightful viewing
I adore watching your videos Kelela! You’ve helped me more than you’ll likely ever know. This one really resonates with me at this current point in my life. Ugh...love you so much! Keep it up. You’re doing such amazing content! I can’t wait until I can support your patreon. Thank you! ❤️🙏🏻✨
Aaahhh Jade I love you 😭🖤 thanks for the stellar education experience, btw haha!!
Thank you, as always.
Casey
I can't believe how much I relate to you! The anger triggered by literally anything especially when I make any degree of a mistake, the stress and tearfullness...(is tearfullness a word? 🤔)
As for the work side of things, I could've said ever part of this video myself! Just, YES! That's absolutely my situation and I do think it's wrong to expect traumatised individuals to crack on and earn a wage the way that non-traumatized individuals do, when a lot of just can't/can't at a regular and frequent basis 🌧 I'm also autistic and, well, you only have to look at the autism and work statistics 🙈
Thank you so much for sharing your experiences, you have no idea how helpful you are 💖 Bless you, I wish you and your beautiful dogs happiness and health 🥰
Thank you for your words. I thought I was broken for a long time until I got my diagnosis after having a very intense panic attack. Sadly I am between jobs now. But I'm trying to stay optimistic... it can be hard though because my intrusive thoughts have a field day when I am in a rocky patch. But seeing you explain your own experience made me feel better. So again, thank you. 💖
I have never had to work a retail job. I worked in a kitchen and that's the closest I got. Most people when I tell them this agree with me that service-oriented jobs are some of the hardest (especially emotionally). People saying "Oh, just go work in retail. It's easy" are either delusional or have no idea what retail is actually like.
TW: vague mentions of my trauma, and explicit mentions of my current tendencies (don't wanna call them symptoms because it's all very self-diagnosed currently)
I have a lot of issues with interacting with people. I really relate to some parts of C-PTSD, especially in terms of having a tough time reading people in general and especially boundaries. For a while I thought I might be slightly autistic, but now I think it is more likely due to trauma from my family situation as well as being Pansexual and raised in a rather homophobic religion (born in southern AB, take a guess. Hint: Utah).
I also think that it's more likely to be C-PTSD or something like that after talking with a co-worker who served in the military and has the more "traditional" PTSD and realizing that we had a lot of the same sensitivities to our environment. Needing to sit so we can see the whole room, being hyper-aware of what's happening around us, etc.
I also have days where I just can't do anything though those have gotten rarer. More common are days where I can go to class and function, but at the bare minimum and feeling raw? That's the best way I can think to describe it. I'll feel extra sensitive to things around me, especially loud noises and things like that. And the most frustrating are days where most activities are no problem, but a few will just be 'blocked'. Like I will open my laptop to do a certain assignment and my mind just goes blank, but I can do my other homework or household stuff just fine.
I am finishing college soon and will hopefully be getting a job in my field (though I currently have a mental block that means I just can't make myself apply to anything, so yay to that). But once I am more stable and not hopping between my parents house and college so often I want to start therapy and start to work through the shit in my head. I don't want to start down the road of healing and then have to interrupt it when I go live at my parents house for the summer (and inevitably have my mental health decline with every day I have to interact with my parents). My coping mechanisms have been working for the past 20+ years, with varying levels of success, so might as well just let them keep doing their thing.
It gives me hope to see you talk about your progress as well as the struggles you are having. I hope you are doing well and I've added your Patreon to the list I'm compiling for when I get my post-college job and am making a bit more money. Sorry I am not able to contribute currently. I hope you are doing well and thank you for everything.
I'm being harassed by my Narc Parent about my workplace choices because they tend to not pay as much but I notice I get triggered easily in certain types of roles. Like you I don't want to manage anyone ever again and I don't like being managed by just anyone because there have been some Narcs who seem to have a field day with me to the point I have to do gig work and bartending that not steady. This is the hardest part is trying to find sustainable work when I deal with this. I try and explain to my parents and they do Not want to hear it. Why would they when they kinda caused it.
Thank you so much 2 of my ex girlfriend's were extremely judgemental with my being on disability and were trying to push me to work before I was ready. I understand that some people are further along in recovery or high functioning, but I am definitely not that. Having others tell me they are able to despite illness and that I'm just being lazy hurts so goddam bad.
My wife does not understand how my CTPSD affects my ability to get up and find a job. She keeps saying "I wasn't able to get a nursing job for 6 years because I took care of my mom while she was dying." While I am understanding and I hate that she went through that, she doesn't understand how trauma that isn't related in anyway to working etc. can affect being able to work. I guess she feels like people should only be affected in certain areas where that trauma is specifically related. Which is just not true. I'm afraid that my marriage will fail because of her lack of understanding.
I keep feeling stressed and keep having trouble getting up and I feel frustrated
Your life is a struggle I don’t feel so alone 😂🙏🏽 thank you for clarifying what I’m experiencing idk how to explain to people how intensely my complex ptsd anxiety, depression, panic disorder greatly affect my life n (lack of finances)
I’m a nurse n now wondering if I should find a whole new career or if therapy will eventually help
I totally relate to your post office story!!❤️
I'll prepare myself a giant box of tissues for part 2 because I guarantee I'll need to use all of them
Thank you for this video. I live in Winnipeg, I have been seeking help for 11 years and seeking heavily for the last 2 years and found there is very little effective help outside the realm of band-aid pharmaceuticals and talk therapy, the latter which can exacerbate trauma responses. I'm not sure if it's like this for others or if it is like this across Canada but I feel like it is 200 years in the past and I'm on my own dealing with this. I found one therapist who began training in EMDR because I requested help with it, however the number of negative experiences I went through to get to there and when you know more about the treatment then the people treating you it is discouraging thinking I have some background in psychology and this is my experience, imagine those without that foundation to help guide them. I have had to research and do my own therapy including a variety of sound therapies (frequency and binaural sound waves), EMDR, meditations, CBT, neuro-linguistic programming, etc. People don't realize that the visual sense is overinflated in western culture and that bias permeates everything particularly healthcare and mental health care. What isn't directly perceived or understood by the eyes is treated as invalid/unimportant. Thank you for sharing your experiences it gives me courage to begin sharing my own. I don't feel like I belong anywhere and I feel like you get this. Cool French braids ✌🏼
Hugs💙 I love watching your videos because I think you are really interesting and you seem fun😊 I learned a lot by watching your videos😊 I know what it's like to be isolated because I'm an only child😔
The weird thing is that I don’t even know if I have ptsd. I know my father was abusive, I know what someone did to me was sexually abusive.
But I don’t know the difference between a memory and a flash back. I don’t know the difference between being triggered and just being upset because I also have bipolar disorder. I blame bipolar disorder for how hard it is to work and I have anxiety attacks at work.
Especially around people who come into the store to harass people.
I used to have an eating disorder and I gained 20 lbs recently so I feel really bad, don’t want to leave my apartment. My mom basically tried to bribe me to go to work today :/ I don’t have a choice and I want to die.
it's more rude to criticize someone's personal spaces and the equipment they've got/don't have.
Oh, you live in Alberta... that's one province I would rather not live in. You're great. I am subscribing and I will buy some merch when my finances allow it again.
Does disablity in Canada pay enough for you to live off of? A month of disablity in America won’t even pay rent in most cities
I’m not on disability but from what I’ve heard they don’t pay enough to live comfortably up here either :(
Do you have a donate button or link? It would allow someone to make a one time donation if they were able that month xx Thank you for sharing
Ooh, you're right! There's actually a donate button at the bottom of my website's home page, maybe I should start telling people it exists haha!
Ptsd makes it hard to live on my own and work and kind of funny because of my trust issues that I have that comes with the ptsd it's kind of why I live on my own in the first place I don't work however I do practice at video games alot because whenever I get the chance to I'm eventually going to make a video game channel and a speedrunning channel where I speedrun multiple games like Mario Harry Potter donkey Kong wrestling and Kirby etc but right now don't have a job I may get a part time job eventually on-top of gaming but now not and I don't think all ever work full time ever again yes having ptsd depression and other things like that definitely do make it harder to do even the most simplist tasks right now not much I only play basketball once a week and that's it for now
Doing speedruns is a great idea! I don't even play video games but I do enjoy watching streams sometimes! (I've watched a decent amount of Grand Poo Bear haha)
It can be hard to get out there and do things/get jobs, but I definitely think streaming is a great way to hopefully bring in some revenue/build a community!!
Ok I guess you're boyfriend plays video games then became I saw where you guys got they SNES classic for Christmas 2years ago ok so that's why you don't play games on this channel because you don't accually play it
Yeah exactly the reason haha! Luke plays, but I sadly do not. Although I did get into Stardew Valley for a bit 😂
entertainingdistractionfromfearsurroundyourselfwithpeoplewithhonesthearts
Thank you so much. Ive been struggling to watch any videos about c-ptsd and even accepting the diagnosis at all. I'm so glad you make videos. It's like being with a friend.
Edit: bring the tissues for part 2??? I'm sobbing already though ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ
Have you ever thought about taking psychology I thought about taking psychology because always find it highly interesting I just recently in the last year or so found out that mental health because of actual trauma like abuse neglect is the thing that I am fascinated the most in an what I'm better at my mom doesn't seem to really know hardly anything about mental health do to trauma she only seems to know about it only do to the development of the brain and genetic when I grew up all she basically ever said about my problems was gens gens gens Chem imbalance Chem imbalance Chem imbalance or your ocd or your ADHD or your autistic or bipolar and it's all chemical imbalance I think the reason why she doesn't seem like she knows about trauma side effects is really only because she doesn't want to own up to her or her crazy boyfriends mistakes so for a while she made me think that it was all my fault that I have problems up until a couple of years ago when I started doing my own research I think she does care but clearly and even clinically we often are just to toxic to be around the reason why she gaslights me is because I'm sure she just wants me to not end up like her or her mother for that matter or my father but she just doesn't really seem to know the proper way to help me and that's definitely hard when she has to worry about her own problems and no I do not ask her to help she just goes ahead and tryed to lift a helping hand and yes her mental and physical health problems do worry and scare me and I also worry with her health that with in the next 5 to 10years she's going to end up being baried with her mother so yes it does ad to my stress
You still don’t use an intro anymore. Why?
Cause I keep forgetting to make one haha! Would you animate one for me?!
Post Traumatic Victory would you take a non-animated one? Cuz I have no problem downloading a few videos of yours and making an intro or channel trailer for you to use, no charge, no royalty, I get bored and I have iMovie lol
Bro u gonna talk about the job thing or wut
I’ll remake a more coherent video on this topic soon 😅