The Worst and Best Year of My Life

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    0:00 Intro
    0:32 Chapter 1 - The Worst Year of My Life
    3:37 a word from our sponsor
    4:45 Chapter 2 - The Best Year of My Life
    10:38 Chapter 3 - Perspective is Everything
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  • @Oktopia
    @Oktopia 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +295

    No words. Just hugs.

    • @abundantacre9
      @abundantacre9 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

      Literally the thing I came to say as well.

    • @marklemont3735
      @marklemont3735 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

      Big hugs!!!

    • @T____K
      @T____K 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +3

      true , strong video ! you are count to of the strongest women i know of!!!

    • @cJw314
      @cJw314 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

      THIS, 💯
      Thank you for sharing, Anne. 😕

    • @carissalizotte8977
      @carissalizotte8977 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

      THIS.. ❤

  • @Red12Harley
    @Red12Harley 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +136

    Someone shared this with me and I found it helpful. I do not know who said it, but it wasn’t me.
    “Grief never ends, but it changes. It is a passage, not a place to stay. Grief is not a sign of weakness or lack of faith. It is the price of love.”
    You and Adam will grow from this and be able to help soooo many people. Love you guys!

    • @amyandmax
      @amyandmax 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +8

      ‘The price of love’ the absolute best way to put it. Thank you for sharing 🥰

    • @gelwood99
      @gelwood99 13 วันที่ผ่านมา +6

      So true! I lost 5 babies but they were early in the pregnancy, no less a huge loss even if I never felt movement. I finally had a successful pregnancy at 39 and I now have a 31-year-old son! Life is hard, we learn and we heal, and having a real relationship with Jesus helps! Yes, grief is a reflection of how deeply we love! It does change and it never goes away!

    • @HarvestingFaithHomestead
      @HarvestingFaithHomestead 13 วันที่ผ่านมา +3

      This is so incredibly true ❤

    • @sarahslovely08
      @sarahslovely08 13 วันที่ผ่านมา +3

      😭❤

    • @user-gr5rz3lm8d
      @user-gr5rz3lm8d 10 วันที่ผ่านมา

      Thank you for sharing. You are an inspiration to me x

  • @libbysmithstudio
    @libbysmithstudio 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +122

    Huge hugs to you! I recently lost all my family in 2020. I'm a portrait painter for 50 years (all I've ever done), and I just finished my last 2 paintings ever for exhibition due to losing my sight. I will only paint for joy now. I thought I'd be devastated. I feel good that the stress and pain is finally over. I'm going to learn pottery/sculpture, and I started a small garden with lots of fruit trees. Life is hard.
    There just can't be anything harder than losing a child, though. My heart goes out to you. I love your attitude and your content. Hugest of hugs, dear heart.

    • @s-c..
      @s-c.. 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +7

      You are amazing ❤

    • @AshtynJadeProduction
      @AshtynJadeProduction 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +6

      Wow. WHAT an inspiration.❤️ And what a story you have to tell.

    • @libbysmithstudio
      @libbysmithstudio 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +14

      ​@@AshtynJadeProductionthank you, but i feel we all are going through stuff. Some is more apparent than others. Some is late in life, some early that affects their whole life. I lost my driver's license due to vision by the time i was 32 and my job as an in-house artist for a New York Times paper. I raised my daughter myself, which was impossible and the best thing in my life. Molested by close family friends from 13-15 years of age. The hard things made me so strong today... but back then I never thought I'd survive many of the things I've lived through. The only option is forward. ❤

    • @samueltucker8473
      @samueltucker8473 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +4

      Thank you, We needed to hear that.

    • @AshtynJadeProduction
      @AshtynJadeProduction 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +6

      Life’s incredibly painful and harrowing. And through all of that… we grow. We learn. And hopefully we become better versions of ourselves. The best part is the opportunities we’re have to live and support others as they do the same. Thank you for your vulnerability here.🥰

  • @elvashomestead
    @elvashomestead 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +66

    Anne, I am so sorry for your loss, I fully understand how you feel about the loss of your child. I have lost 6, 5 first trimester losses and one stillborn late second trimester which resulted in a total hysterectomy. But out of all the ashes came my son when he was 6 weeks old, 3 bonus children, and then my daughter join our family when she was 14. Now, the bonus children (mine in my heart) made me a Gigi, then that precious 6 week old who is now 36 made me a Nana 2 years ago. Then this year, that 14 year old, who is now 20, add a precious little one that will call me Nana.
    My heart reaches out to you because it is so hard, a parent is not supposed to bury their children.
    Y’all are in my prayers for comfort, healing, and guidance on moving forward.
    And oh, in the true healing for me, we fostered 14 beautiful special children who all brought a different gift to my life
    Prayers and Blessings - Elva❤❤❤

  • @jessemoore359
    @jessemoore359 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +75

    In our prayers Anne! You are so loved by your Father in Heaven. Your community loves you and is rallying behind you.

  • @andrewvahey3423
    @andrewvahey3423 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +36

    My wife got pregnant back in 2021 after trying for years. We were at 19 1/2 weeks, and on Thanksgiving day when my wife started bleeding. We rushed to the ER and they told us the baby had a healthy heart rate and was good but my wife was in pre-term labor and there was no stopping it. We already had the boy name and girl name set. (We wanted to be surprised). I had just painted the nursery and we felt past the danger points. To this day I still have things that crush me. It still feels like a scab years later. I’m sorry you had to go through the loss. I’m glad you’re finding peace during the healing process.

  • @melissaoleary8196
    @melissaoleary8196 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +42

    Anne, Brene Brown says that vulnerability is the measure of bravery. And you are the definition of that. My heart is with you. Melissa🍀

  • @jeas4980
    @jeas4980 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +30

    I can only pass along what was told to me: Children are a blessing regardless of what little time we may share with them, you felt the blessing which is why you're in mourning. But don't mourn over what "might have been" ...you are a family, you are a mother to an angel, he is a father... that's something you feel in your heart and at the depths of your soul. I promise you you will never take a life for granted... and the world needs parents like you. Take all the time you need to heal. I can tell you, from my own personal experiences, that you will find peace if you ask Him. ❤

  • @marijeb278
    @marijeb278 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +60

    I can really understand why you worry about how an audience may feel about your grief, but nobody but you gets to dictate how you deal with the highs and lows in your life. If sharing is what helps you, the only thing we as viewers can do, is listen. No judgements, no " this is why " or "this is what you should do". Just listen, and, even though we cannot feel what you feel, just be there.

    • @susanw8471
      @susanw8471 13 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

      Indeed. Very well said.

    • @diesprachedertiere4623
      @diesprachedertiere4623 13 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

      Word!

    • @lizlucey3812
      @lizlucey3812 13 วันที่ผ่านมา +5

      This is the right mentality. I hope the viewers are gentle and understanding with her and realize how much strength it takes to be vulnerable.
      Hugs to Anne and her family.

  • @vednaproductions
    @vednaproductions 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +12

    I'm so sorry for your loss. My daughter was born sleeping at 41 weeks and I just had a miscarriage a few days ago and am devastated. But we have been blessed with 2 boys in between the 2 losses who are getting me through this tough time. Sending you hugs and thank you for sharing your story xxx

  • @ForOurLegacyHomestead
    @ForOurLegacyHomestead 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +22

    Anne, I absolutely love that everyone who's ever told you "it's impossible" or "you cant", you prove them 100% wrong and succeed in all you do. Although this year has been hard, I know next year will be better 🩷 know that you're not alone, girl.

  • @shannonkutzke5642
    @shannonkutzke5642 13 วันที่ผ่านมา +7

    My mom was the strongest person I ever met and seeing her not be able to get out of bed after losing my sister... I know the pain has to be unbearable. It breaks my heart to know you are dealing with this same pain. I can't say anything that will make it better but I can pray for you so I am writing your name in my prayer journal and lifting you up to the God who loves you and will carry your burdens. Thanks for sharing...hugs, love and prayers for you and your husband.

  • @virsapiensfortisest922
    @virsapiensfortisest922 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +20

    I’m so sorry for your loss

  • @alisonwestermann1875
    @alisonwestermann1875 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +12

    Life is too short and this world too cruel to live any way other than as authentic as you Anne. This is the best video I've seen all year and so, SO important. There is hope and comfort and balm in community.

  • @AshtynJadeProduction
    @AshtynJadeProduction 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +26

    This is not the video to watch just prior to running errands. The raw and beautiful emotion you’ve shared resonates so deeply. Thank you.❤ I’ll be reaching out.

  • @cait4048
    @cait4048 13 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

    I'm so sorry Anne... also me too, a little over a year ago. I miscarried just before the Homestead Festival. I debated on whether or not I should still go because I had been looking forward to it so much, but I was devastated and grieving. I decided to go anyway and was blessed to meet you there. I told you I felt socially awkward, and you told me you got ants in your pants from sitting in the grass. It was small, but it made me feel a little better. It all still feels kind of like a dream. I'm glad I went, but it wasn't the experience I was hoping it would be (because of what I was going through, not because the event was lacking). I hope and pray healing and comfort for both of us, and for all the others sharing this grief, and that our dreams will come true. ❤

  • @R.C.R.
    @R.C.R. 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +18

    Please accept my heartfelt condolences for the loss of your beautiful angel. She will always be a part of ye. I lost one of my twins nearly thirty years ago. Prayers and hugs from Ireland 🙏🕊️💚☘️🇮🇪

    • @franciet99
      @franciet99 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

      ❤❤❤

  • @victorialg1270
    @victorialg1270 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +18

    Your journey, while not easy, will bless others.

  • @gracefulkimberella
    @gracefulkimberella 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +23

    Thank you for sharing all of your story. I'm praying for you.

  • @jeanettefigueroa6086
    @jeanettefigueroa6086 13 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

    Dear Anne, I so enjoy watching your youtube channel and learning about gardening. Condolences to you and your husband during this heartbreaking time. You are a family of three forever now. Two here and one planted in heaven. This poem, "Miscarriage prayer by Mother Angelica" helped me in the beginning. I can honestly say, as hard as it was and honestly still is sometimes, I would not have missed that time of pregnancy for the world, I would gladly skip the grief afterwards but I guess that's one of life's mysteries. There is no answer here for the question, "Why?" We had a miscarriage at 12 years married, and married now for 24 years. We still are a family of three. Our miracle baby, Valentin, brought my husband and I closer together as a couple. I send your family my prayers and all those who shared their stories as well in the comments. One of the hardest parts of miscarriage for me, is each year I still want to say on his birthday, look at our beautiful baby, he rocked our world! I still talk to my baby because I'm Catholic and believe in the Communion of Saints, and that he is in heaven with Jesus and has a view I can only imagine. I used to work at a hospital before I was married, and I met a beautiful old lady who was dying. She was joyful, ready and had no fear! Have you ever met a person who you could just see a glow around them? Well, I had the pleasure of listening to her stories while I took care of her. She shared with me why she had no fear. When she was a younger woman she died giving birth to one of her children and met Jesus. He was holding her baby she had just miscarried in his arms and gave her the option of staying in heaven or coming back. Heaven was real and wonderful! She said the moment she worried about her children she would leave behind on earth, she was instantly back into her body. Why I was blessed to hear her story I don't know, but knowing her story, helped me have faith that some blessed day we will meet our babies again in heaven. If I could send you a great big bear hug I would!

  • @kimwarwick7182
    @kimwarwick7182 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +9

    Hugs to you and Adam. My husband and I lost our first. We had waited and for a couple years I thought motherhood wasn’t in my future. Now we have 2 awesome sons, 26 and 28 years old. I am definitely writing this from the scar. I got through that worst year of my life. Wishing the best for you both.

  • @QT2789
    @QT2789 13 วันที่ผ่านมา +4

    I'm not crying, there's something in my eye. I commented on your Instagram post when you posted it. Hugs and encouragement to you and Adam. My ex and I experienced multiple 1st trimester miscarriages. We split for other reasons over a decade later.
    Ignore those who say things meaning well, but hurt so much. They are tone deaf to what you've been through. Only someone who's been through it knows there's nothing to say. Time lessens the sting, but I still choke up when heartfelt discussions happen, and it was over 30 years ago.

  • @oystergirl99
    @oystergirl99 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +4

    Huge love Anne. Me too. My son would have been 25 years old this year and my second miscarriage was very early so I bless that sweet angel too. It sucks, plain and simple but life brings you gifts when you least expect them and you learn to breathe again.

  • @stacy650
    @stacy650 12 วันที่ผ่านมา +4

    You're right, there are no words to say. Just know that when you start to talk about it, you find there are SO many of us out there that have unfortunately experienced this loss. That was true for me. A surprisingly large number of women and couples have had to endure that loss and it just plain sucks more than words can express. I felt some comfort in knowing I wasn't alone in my grief. I crocheted a huge blanket during my so very fresh moments of loss and grief. There is so much love in that blanket. It's been 9 years, and I still sleep with it every night, and somehow feel comforted by her spirit. Karen Ann is still with me and always will be. That blanket was made in honor of her and made with every single emotion I felt at that time. You are not alone my friend. Sending peace, love, understanding, and all the hugs! 🙏❤️☀️ God has plans for you.
    Ok so I'm editing to add....I wrote the above at the beginning of your video. Here I am at the end and I'm crying with you. I felt the struggle and the shame. While this happened in 2015, and I thought I was healed, I carry the loss with me always. I have two beautiful boys, ages 7 and 6. What I didn't plan on was my husband walking out on me when I was pregnant with my youngest. While this was shocking and traumatic and all the things, I have learned to focus on what I do have.... And I have my boys. I hear you God, I'm not in control, just along for this wild ride and snatching up every single moment of love and light along the way. ❤️❤️❤️ Love to you sister! (I believe I needed that cry🙏😘)

  • @Hilde-vw6uf
    @Hilde-vw6uf 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +5

    Thank you for sharing ❤
    I lost 6, but got to keep the 7th. The heart ache before I finally got my son after almost 10 years of marriage was unbearable, and I feel with you.
    Sending a big hug all the way from Norway.

  • @michelleviloria6762
    @michelleviloria6762 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

    Im not sure if you'll see this but I just wanted to say I'm so glad I found your channel this year, your videos are always so genuine and honest. When I was 17 I had a tumor in my uterus and was told I wouldn't be able to have kids of my own. Like you said there's nothing anyone can say since it will always be something that touches your heart, but I can say I have found a lot of peace and joy in gardening as well and it has given me the space to nourish and share my love in this life. I wish you the best in all your endevours Anne. thank you for your content and for opening your heart to the world, sending you so much love 🫶🏽

  • @xgineering
    @xgineering 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +4

    12 years after I lost my daughter and some days it still hurts like yesterday. You will always carry her in your heart 💞

  • @FrankGardner-ep9ih
    @FrankGardner-ep9ih 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +7

    I need a therapist after watching this! How fantastic! How wonderful demonstrating a deliberate life, accepting failures and success! We succeed, then, we have things others help get us through! Cheers!

  • @micah06v8
    @micah06v8 13 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

    I've never wanted children. But when I found out I couldn't have them, I counted it as a blessing. I hoped that by it happening to me rather than to someone who wanted children, then it would be a little less pain in the world. My heart goes out to you. A parent should never have to bury their own child. I commend you for talking about it publicly because it's a hard and vulnerable place to be. I can't imagine being a public figure and going through something like that and then discussing it on social media. You are one of the bravest women I know.

  • @suecastillo4056
    @suecastillo4056 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +11

    Would never think that about you dear heart… you are loved…

  • @Serendipity-Divine
    @Serendipity-Divine 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +13

    Sending you deep Love
    ~April from B.C.

  • @MackenzieNerdyEMT
    @MackenzieNerdyEMT 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +7

    You are such a genuine and kind hearted person, and in a sea of inauthenticity you are a breath of fresh air.
    I suffered through 5 miscarriages before having my daughter. Each of them were all in my second trimester and it was truly hell. You plan your future around those babies and it gets ripped away in an instant. You grieve a whole future you planned and dreamed about. The feeling is indescribable and such a raw primal pain. thankyou for being open, it's hard and I'm proud of you to be honest. I'm also proud of you for reaching out to a therapist, it is so necessary in general, but especially when dealing with serious trauma.
    Thankyou for this video. From your videos I see so many parallels in our lives and I appreciate them immensely because it does help me feel a bit less alone through some very hard times. My husband is a dream partner so I'm never alone, but your videos still always manage to bring a smile to my face :)
    I'm sleep deprived so if this is hectic to read, it's because I'm a bit frazzled haha. please take care of yourself, both physically and emotionally 💜

  • @rachelreinbold2685
    @rachelreinbold2685 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +8

    You have quickly become one of my favorite TH-camrs! This video was such a gift! To see someone be actually transparent and talk about the hard things is what our world needs more of! I'm so sorry you have had to go through all of this! But thank you for turning such tragedy into encouragement!

  • @rootedlifehome
    @rootedlifehome 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +7

    As mentioned at the homesteading festival...
    Heavenly Father's hand is upon you Anne. You are one of the most strongest women I know.
    Your TH-cam family have grown with you over these years and while we may not be your of your blood, we still love you like a sister in Christ and will listen and give you any support you may need.

  • @susanatwell8274
    @susanatwell8274 8 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    Was so honored to get to say "hi" to you at the Homestead Festival a couple of weeks ago. I'm the one that mistakenly called you Jill - until you turned around and I figured out my mistake and you were so gracious !!!! Loved hearing you speak that weekend and just know that my prayers are with you for your grief you have shared with us and I can only marvel at your honesty and graceful spirit in dealing with what you are dealing with. Everybody's "hard" things are different and again - thank you for sharing your life with us !!!! Prayers of comfort to you and your hubby and that your future has more highs than lows !!!

  • @annatoth9478
    @annatoth9478 9 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    My heart goes out to you. This kind of grief is so difficult to process. I also lost two baby boys 3 years apart both at 20 weeks preganant. Each time, I got pregnant right away, and the pregnancies seemed normal. We realized that I have an autoimmune disease that caused my body to attack the pregnancies. The babies were healthy and normal. I will never be the same. I was incredibly lucky that I already had 2 babies when I was a little younger and I was able to carry them to term. They are now 15 and 18. Still, not a day goes by that I don't think of the two I lost. Focusing on the present, being in the beauty around me outside, throwing myself into gardens, my music career, projects, and raising the two children I had on this earth helped me survive. You have so much to keep you present in the world, what a beautiful place you live in. May you find comfort in all the beauty you create.

  • @sherrywright4557
    @sherrywright4557 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

    🥲 blessings & hugs. Your story touched my heart. Life is hard, but it's also good. Praise God.

  • @libbylong9059
    @libbylong9059 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +6

    I fully understand your heartbreak. My first baby was stillborn. Too many emotions to explain to anyone and there really isn't much anyone can say to help. But having someone to listen and understand would have helped me through that, almost 40 years ago. I'm sending hugs and love your way.

  • @Gardenfnp
    @Gardenfnp 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +5

    I am so sorry for the loss of your baby. My daughter went through this and it was the most painful thing. Sending you love and comfort. Thank you for speaking out. I think so many people who have suffered through miscarriages have felt so alone.

  • @emilydrolshagen9178
    @emilydrolshagen9178 11 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    My dear sweet friend. I've only recently come across your channel. This video is what I needed to hear today. I spent most of my twenties bedridden after my Army service. I was told I would never have children and we fought for my life to be restored. I needed your perspective today. I know this won't help your pain, but I have so much gratitude for you sharing your journey.
    I have experienced several losses but I recently gave birth to my 4th child and barely survived this process. This pregnancy was one of the most challenging I've had yet. I watch gardening and farming videos and wish I could have the plants and animals you all do... Sometimes I see young couples who garden on social media and I just assume they chose a garden over having children but I can see that you would have given anything to have that baby. And I resonate with you more than them.
    I was reminded today... that all my heirloom apple trees died this year so I could have this baby. They were overcome with a pest or illness at a point I couldn't even check them. Out of the 100 total trees of different types I planted, only 12 or so remain alive and all the apples are gone. The only thing left in my garden is my mint and my asparagus--which I lovingly refer to as my "Ignore it" garden. My chickens (the only animals we have) were passing away because they were all so old and I wasn't well enough to process them. I know you would have given it all up for your baby too. And I'm so sorry your finish line never came...
    "Comparison is the thief of joy" and it was a poignant reminder that the overwhelming challenges I've gone through just to have children, is not alone. And comparing gardens, families or any number of things only leads to more hurt. And gratitude is the only thing that brings more joy. Thank you for the reminder. My heart goes out to you and your sweet husband. I'll continue to send you prayers, love and Light as you are lifted through the rest of this year. Your smile is magnetic and your passion is palpable. YOU are a gift. A treasure. And I hope you feel the love this community around you.

  • @WitchyD_LifeIsGood
    @WitchyD_LifeIsGood 11 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    Having gone through a miscarriage in 2007 with my first and only pregnancy, I understand the grief and pain of losing a baby that essentially became the center of our life. I know you know you are not alone in this, but I wanted to reinforce that. I have found that the pain lessened but the grief stays with me. Multiple times during the year I think about how different my life would be if I had carried to term. My child would be 16 this month. My husband and I lead a busy, fulfilled life together that we love, but we will still take moments to reflect on what could have been. Peace to you, and thank you for sharing.

  • @HarvestingFaithHomestead
    @HarvestingFaithHomestead 13 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

    Oh, Anne ❤ I’m so sorry you had to bury your baby girl. I can’t imagine how hard that was and still is. 😢 I know we, as your viewers, are all here for you and feel your sadness and pain along with you. But I hope that there are people in your real life circle that are surrounding you with love and support as well.
    My daughter suffered brain damage due to oxygen loss at birth, and although she did survive and is still with us, we almost lost her a couple times and it’s been a really long and isolating road to “recovery”. If there is one thing I’ve learned, it’s that although the experience of going through something difficult like this is very personal and feels lonely, you are not alone. People will surround you with love and support, if you let them. I think people do truly want to help and be there, it’s just one of those things that there are no words unless you’ve been through it yourself. And you’re right that it just sucks and It’s hard to see that any possible good could come from it. But God has a way of taking the most excruciatingly painful experiences and somehow making it less painful as the wound heals. My daughter gets books from the Dolly pardon imagination library, and one of the recent ones was about raindrops and rainbows, and the very last sentence is “I don’t mind rain because I know, without raindrops there is no rainbow.” When we go through the hard times, it makes the good times all the sweeter. I pray that you’ll get your rainbow baby soon ❤❤❤

  • @trishcraig4242
    @trishcraig4242 8 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my first baby boy in my 5th month of pregnancy a little over 30 years ago. Although it is a devastating experience that almost destroyed me, it did get better over time. Even now, I still feel a loss in my heart for that child, but I was blessed to have 2 wonderful sons afterwards.
    I just wanted to tell you, I only discovered your TH-cam about a month ago (lazy gardening drew me in!) And you have inspired me more than you could ever know. I'm in the process of a raw land to home purchase of a little over an acre and while waiting for my home to be ready, your videos are giving me so many ideas and inspiration so thank you for being you and sharing your skills, knowledge, and hopeful personality. May you find peace and comfort.

  • @Ozarkmountainoutback1
    @Ozarkmountainoutback1 13 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

    We lost our first baby 15 years ago. I still miss her. But I know without a doubt she's safe in heaven and I'll be with her one day. That has always been an amazing comfort to our family. It is a deep, deep loss. Praying for you all.

  • @juliebee3254
    @juliebee3254 20 ชั่วโมงที่ผ่านมา

    I lost my 23 year old daughter in 2006, and it is still a scab. It probably always will be. My son and my animals got me through, and his family, the best daughter-in-law ever and their four children are the light of my life.
    Came across you from the Maker channel and so thankful to have found your YT channel. The intentional time with a start and end was so important for me too, more so to put an endpoint to it - for today that's enough, for today.

  • @user-kq3vb3bx2q
    @user-kq3vb3bx2q 5 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    I lost my son when he was 13 and i think GOD that I had the time with him.The hurt and loss never goes away. I thank about my son every day. You did nothing wrong. After a time we must go on with hope in the future. You are a inspiration to many people. The way you get through the many hard times you have had to face through you're life and used them for the good. I don't know if you believe in GOD, but this I can tell you HE believes in you ,Anne of All Trades

  • @morganconley7111
    @morganconley7111 7 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    It does suck to lose a child. My wife was pregnant with twins. We were so excited and so scared to have twins when at the end of the first trimester, we found out that one of our boys had a genetic disease that gave him a 2% chance of survival. He made it to 23 weeks before he passed. She still had to give birth to him since he was so far along and we were lucky to get to hold him and say goodbye. Our other son was born at 31 weeks and spent almost 3 months in the NICU. We felt so helpless and sad but we're so thankful to have our son. I can tell you, it doesn't get easier but with time it gets better. He will always be a part of our life, even if he's not with us.
    On a side note, that's so cool that Jerilyn is your neighbor. Not gonna lie, I geeked out hard when I saw her in one of your videos. I knew her a decade ago when she still lived up north.

  • @txjellybean3772
    @txjellybean3772 9 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

    Grief is like glitter it gets on everything. The secret is seeking your creator with your heart, soul and mind. Shalom

  • @astridramea2714
    @astridramea2714 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +3

    Thank you for sharing your story. I'm deeply sorry for your loss, but also very relieved that you are coping in a healthy and positive way. Of course even in the time of grief, you are finding time and strength to think about everyone around you, human or animal.

  • @tamiebarnes2957
    @tamiebarnes2957 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

    I lost my first grandbaby in March of this year. My prayers are with you and all who endure this 😢

  • @thewisceeeggg1624
    @thewisceeeggg1624 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +4

    Thank you for speaking about all that you speak about. Thank you for being genuine about your loss and pain. My heart broke at the loss of your baby girl. Bless you both.

  • @ilakaiser3778
    @ilakaiser3778 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    Please know that once you are a family, you are always a family. The loss of your baby girl does not mean that you aren’t a family just a family mourning the loss of a sweet loved one. My deepest sympathy.💜🐞

  • @rachelwang6618
    @rachelwang6618 10 ชั่วโมงที่ผ่านมา

    Me, too. Anne, we're so sorry for your loss. I look forward to one-day meeting our oldest child. King David said of his lost child, "He cannot come to me, but I will go to him." We so look forward to the day to come when all will be made whole and right and we'll get to hold that guy finally! God comfort your heart.

  • @kimromska1886
    @kimromska1886 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

    Hugs Anne!
    I've felt it too.❤

  • @lindaschilling6999
    @lindaschilling6999 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

    Oh, you are such a dearheart! I am so sorry for your loss! My daughter just lost her baby a week ago and it’s scorchingly painful. I just found your channel last week and am having a blast watching your sprite of a spirit dance through life. I choked up upon hearing your loss and grateful you shared. From an old lady…you are a mother to many, a daughter to many, a sister to many and we all hurt for your family. Keep smiling, keep loving and laughing, even through the hurt. 🤗

  • @Noukz37
    @Noukz37 10 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    Hey, meditation guide and counsellor here, and I just wanted to briefly share something that changed my life.
    It is my perspective of life itself. I took everything personally, as everyone's egos desire to classify everything into good/bad, right/wrong, fair/unfair, pleasant/unpleasant and so on. Life is just going on, regardless of what we think of it. Once we realise that change is the only constant, attachment to suffering stops. We are not the waves, we are the ocean!
    Thank you Anne for being so brave in sharing all this with us, and not giving up on life! ♥

    • @AnneofAllTrades
      @AnneofAllTrades  10 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

      That sounds a lot like the philosophy that changed everything for me last year too, best presented in a way I could relate in the book “loving what is” by Byron Katie ❤️❤️

  • @141poolplayer
    @141poolplayer 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +3

    I am so very sorry for your loss.

  • @FaithfulFarmstead
    @FaithfulFarmstead 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    I’m so sorry for your family’s loss! As someone who walked the road of infertility, I know how that ache to have a child feels all consuming at times. Praying for healing and peace but also that your womb would once again be opened up ♥️ And Congrats on your book!!! 🙌😀 that’s so exciting!!

  • @Mantison
    @Mantison 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +4

    From all of us who are also struggling with pain or sadness or loss or grief or disappointment, thank you Anne, for being brave enough to share your journey, and talk about it. Big hugs and good quiet time around the fire from us to you. Thank you.

  • @pamelawall1807
    @pamelawall1807 11 ชั่วโมงที่ผ่านมา

    Such an amazing person to selfishly share such a hard moment. The fact that you help so many people with your gardening information alone is godsend. As you already now, our hearts are with you.

  • @annb6532
    @annb6532 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    I am truly sorry. There are no words that anyone can say to take away the pain you are going thru. I lost a baby in the middle of my 4 children and that was devastating to me and I don’t know what you’re going thru because everyone is different and works thru this differently. I will pray that you are blessed with a family to share all of the things you share with us.

  • @randymartin5521
    @randymartin5521 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +3

    Wow, I had no idea you were even pregnant, let alone a miscarriage. I'm so sorry for your loss, I cannot even begin to imagine what you and your husband have been through. From one of the highest highs to one of the lowest lows in the space of a few months. My heart hurts for you both.

  • @jmonsted
    @jmonsted 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

    I'm so sorry to hear about your loss, but i am glad that you still have the ability to find the joyful moments. Hugs from Denmark.

  • @user-3L3C12cR
    @user-3L3C12cR 13 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    Thank you. The only way forward in life is one step at a time finding our joy amidst our struggles.

  • @gardengirl649
    @gardengirl649 12 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    Grief is love with no place to go

  • @JS-px3et
    @JS-px3et 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

    I cried for you as I watched this. I, too, know the heartache of losing a baby. We wanted a football team with a few cheerleaders ... but after losing 5 babies, we decided a solitaire team will be great. I spent many weeks on bedrest but finally am Mom to 3 'youngsters' (current ages 41, 40, and 38). And - never stop promoting mental health. Those sessions have saved soooo many of us all. God bless you and all your wild ideas. I've got my youngest hooked on your videos and attempting your gardening technique on her corner lot in Youngstown, Ohio. ❤❤

  • @kristinraabe6887
    @kristinraabe6887 4 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    Bless you, Anne. My deepest condolences to you and your husband. Thank you for sharing. ❤

  • @johnny.angels
    @johnny.angels 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +3

    🫶🫶🫶🫶I feel your pain..
    Much love to you in your time of renewal.

  • @CloudsLoom
    @CloudsLoom 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

    You have our deepest sympathy. HUGS

  • @broncobill3902
    @broncobill3902 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

    My wife and I went through a couple miscarriages during our IVF journey…..it was hard and even harder for her. When we least expected she got pregnant and it all worked out……it will happen for you. 🙏🏽🙏🏽

  • @anniathome
    @anniathome 2 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Oh, sweet girl. My heart goes out to you. We experienced three babies we did not get to hold. (I detest the words “miscarriage” or “lost,” as if they were somehow my fault.) You’re right. Perspective does matter. Our babies would be 26, 25, and 25 years old this year. Listening to you try to talk around the boulder in your throat brings it all back afresh. But I promise you, it does get better. It will always hurt. But the scab does turn to scar over time. You are doing one of the best things to help your heart heal - sharing your pain and trying to help others. This world does not know what to do with grief. So it often gets mislabeled as depression, which is too vague and pointless at times. Grief has a reason and can be grown through. And you are growing so beautifully and so beautiful! I’m praying for you. Hugs, many hugs and prayers.

  • @LD-du3xx
    @LD-du3xx 8 วันที่ผ่านมา

    When my son was killed in a car crash, life stopped. Then it changed. I saw a video on Job, from the Bible. Being a Christian it’s hard to believe God would intentionally let something so awful happen. But these words keep sticking with me- “ It is for your good, and My glory”. And also “Where were you when I formed the Earth”. And My ways are not your ways. Those kind of stick with me. It’s been 2 years. Knowing that God is looking over my family is the biggest relief I get, and knowing I’ll see him again is good too. My prayers are with you and your husband. Do not let something that God controls, drive a wedge between you two, instead, let it drive you together.

  • @eDRoaCH
    @eDRoaCH 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    I discovered you this year, I like people who do cool stuff and know things. But your strength and positivity have made a positive impact on my life. Thank you.

  • @silversage03
    @silversage03 2 วันที่ผ่านมา

    I was so stoked to be able to attend your presentations at the Modern Homesteading Conference, but was stunned to later in the day read of your loss last month!! Have lost twin girls at 5 months, I shared your pain. We may never understand why these things happen, but we take our time and try to move forward. 28 years for me, and I still give myself grace occasionally and let myself cry. You are so loved by so many, and just take care of YOU however you need to.

  • @robertmarsh8334
    @robertmarsh8334 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    One of the best things ever told to me was, "it (whatever the hardship the person is going through) may not be ok and it may never be ok, however, YOU will be ok. Rely on your family, and friends and most of all, trust yourself to find your way through it. ❤

  • @caroleckler8984
    @caroleckler8984 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +3

    I have not experienced this but her life was definitely worth mourning and celebrating and to me that looks like anyway you need to express it. Praying for you guys

  • @elderberryfarmlife4258
    @elderberryfarmlife4258 12 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    Oh Anne, sending hugs, and lots of love. Yes that really sucks.

  • @TheTahti01
    @TheTahti01 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +3

    Sending you all the prayers and positive vibes for healing. There are no words to make it easier or better, I know this first hand. I LOVE your content, it is invaluable. Please know you are appreciated so much for your gifts to us!

  • @minezesfam
    @minezesfam 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    Beautiful. I can't imagine the heartache of a miscarriage. I struggled with infertility and that alone was so incredibly hard. Thanks for your encouragement and perspective that helps so many of us in our day to day journey.

  • @oliver0656
    @oliver0656 14 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Thank you, Anne. Hugs.

  • @patriciafisher3938
    @patriciafisher3938 14 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Prayers and blessings. So sorry you are going thru all this. Know you are loved.

  • @scottlamers
    @scottlamers 8 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Thank you for sharing from the heart. Hugs.

  • @elarabeeeee
    @elarabeeeee 14 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Thank you for sharing this

  • @alittlesouthwindfarm3074
    @alittlesouthwindfarm3074 10 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Prayers and comfort to you both.

  • @tinad6812
    @tinad6812 14 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Lots of love ❤ Thank you for sharing.

  • @Boxer2717
    @Boxer2717 14 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Sending you healing and peace..

  • @erinjoyorange
    @erinjoyorange 14 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Thank you for sharing your heart.

  • @SilviaIsachsen
    @SilviaIsachsen 14 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Thank you for posting ❤

  • @laurenpatterson3642
    @laurenpatterson3642 10 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Sending love and healing! I’m very sorry.

  • @CD-nn8cl
    @CD-nn8cl 13 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Sending hugs, love, comfort, & prayers! 💞

  • @user-zm5xo9xt3q
    @user-zm5xo9xt3q 10 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Hugs and best wishes for your healing!

  • @greekgawdess
    @greekgawdess 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

    There are no words, just many prayers.

  • @WiebkeDirks_Training_Beratung
    @WiebkeDirks_Training_Beratung 4 วันที่ผ่านมา

    thank you for sharing and lots of love

  • @kenstrohmeyer5355
    @kenstrohmeyer5355 13 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Thank you!

  • @janetdykman8304
    @janetdykman8304 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    Hugs You are an inspiration!

  • @pittysbad
    @pittysbad 14 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

    I am so sorry, my heart hurts for your losses.

  • @lisajohnston6224
    @lisajohnston6224 14 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Love your transparency, THANK YOU!

  • @peterellis4262
    @peterellis4262 11 วันที่ผ่านมา

    And I'm crying ;) At 68 and childless not by choice, I can relate all too well. I still have times when I lose it and there's no predicting what will trigger the sobs. May you have strength, happiness and good fortune going forward

  • @sybillesanderson4494
    @sybillesanderson4494 13 วันที่ผ่านมา

    So sorry for your loss! Thank you for your courage! Big hugs!

  • @jodymooney255
    @jodymooney255 12 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Sending healing thoughts to you and Adam! Much ❤️