Now is the time to focus on you. I think you'll feel better being able to spend the time writing, and I'm so glad to hear your Dad is coming. Take the time off Daniel. Take care of you. Healing light and energy is coming to you.
my papa had a massive heart attack in front of a large crowd (after taking part in a Memorial Day parade that he walked miles in carrying a flag) Luckily...He was jolted back to life 4 times... and later had bypass. I got to keep him another 19 years. But what he told me has made me fearless about dying. He told me where he went in those moments was warm and beautiful....and to not be afraid. My papa never told me a lie....continued prayers from Indiana Daniel.
Hi Daniel. It is always good to see your beautiful/handsome face. Stay strong. I hope you know there are a lot of us out here that love, care about, and are praying for you. Please don't apologize for not vlogging as much as you used to, or for the anxiety & depression you are going through. While we all have our own trials and tribulations we have gone through, not one of us has walked in your shoes. You are a brave man to face this the way you have, and we truly do care about you.
Love you & praying for you. I know you probably feel defeated and alone, but please know you’re cared about, loved, and supported by people you’ve never met and we’re here to listen. 💙💚💙💚💙💚🙏🙏🙏🙏
Daniel.. you’re so sweet! Your soft voice and gentle mannerisms are so charming. I wish you were feeling better. LOA from work is a great idea. You need time to get your ducks in a row (writing, being with your Dad, and resting as needed, etc) Take one day at a time. Just slow your roll and do what your energy allows, without exhausting yourself or trying to overdo stuff. How are your kitties? I love them and I love you. Remember… you’ve reached so many people, all over the world who think a lot of you! You’ve touched our hearts! That’s a very cool thing for anyone to do! Just know that we all think of you and and send you good vibes and positive energies! You are a remarkable guy! I’m so happy to know you!
Anxiety and impending doom is the most horrible feeling! I can not even imagine the way it would feel when regarding your own life and mortality. I only wish there were some words I could offer that could send you some peace and calm. Of course, that is not a reality as no words can help, but just know that from over the internet and far away from where you physically are is someone who is sending positive light, calming thoughts and healing vibes. Take care, Daniel.
You are a beautiful soul. Talented, intelligent and strong. Writing, and a visit with your Dad is something to focus on. Take time for yourself, Your in our hearts and prayers.
Daniel, I work for Social Security and when you mentioned disability there are work programs that you will allow you to work while you receive disability. Also individuals that are considered terminal applying and the whole approval process is considerably quicker. And something I think you should seriously think about because you got enough on your plate you don't need to be worried about work and how they're going to take it, you need to worry about you and the anxiety and depression and that your General Health. I truly understand the depression and anxiety because I too when I was going through chemo just worry overload... and I developed panic attacks not having a clue what I was feeling I thought I was having a heart attack. But please reconsider the disability angle because you need to be worried about your health and not the concerns of your employer.
Daniel, I know how feeling like the walls are folding in on you, and I'm so sorry! If this illness does not give you anxiety, I would be shocked. Time with your Dad, is good for the heart and sole and hopefully comfort you!
Makes me sad to hear your struggles. You are going through something incredibly intense. When you describe in detail it just breaks my ❤️ so much. Im happy your dad will be visiting with you. You need a lot of distraction and support. You kmow we love you. Hugs and many many prayers.
Hi Daniel, to say that you’re feeling “terminal” out loud I’m sure was very difficult for you because it shows you’re grappling with a life and death situation. I love the idea that your dad is coming to visit and you will be requesting time off. This will allow you to focus solely on you. Keep the fight! We are fighting with you too!
Hey Daniel, very sorry you are dealing with all of this! Taking time off work sounds like a great idea! That pressure of having that to deal with on top of everything else, would be gone. You are such a strong person. That’s great your dad is coming to visit! Thanks for sharing and letting us know how your doing. Prayers and tons of love for you!
Heaps of love, Daniel! You are and will remain in my thoughts until your next update, and after that, and...beyond. I know it's just Internet, but 99% of the people here really, really care about you, whether you believe it or not. Take care, take all the time off that you need and do whatever makes you happy (or at least happier). ♥️
I think taking some time off would be great for you, Daniel. Taking care of YOU is important. And I’m so glad your dad is coming. I think it’ll be good to have someone else there with you to maybe help get your mind off things a little bit. 💙
I fought against going on disability. I've worked since my first job at 15 and at age 63, I had to stop. What that did for me was open up a freedom I'd never had before and I do not regret even one moment for living what's left of my life for me. I've had time with my children and grandchildren and I'm making a video for each of them. No one knows about my little project and it brings me great joy and comfort. You do what works for you. We get one run around the sun so take it for what you can. Peace to you.
Hi , Daniel from Maryland. You are by far the coolest guy I’ve ever had the pleasure of knowing thru TH-cam. Your strength is admirable for you to be able to take us thru your journey with all the termoil your going through. Thank you. Just know we may be strangers but the compassion I and others have for you should let you know how honest and caring you come through. I just lost my mom this April to lung cancer I was with her every step of the way. I’m so glad your dad is coming to visit. Your time on this earth has touched many. Take care and know we care.
Daniel, thank you for the update. So nice to hear that you are writing and working on your stories. I hope the new medication works with minimal side effects. Also, glad to hear that your Dad will be coming to spend time with you. Please don't give up. We are rooting for you!!
You have moved me beyond words, my beloved partner passed of liver cancer in May this year and it was the biggest fight I have seen anyone go through. No one could ever know what this is like for you, A hospice nurse told me she couldn’t imagine even after working in palliative care all her career how anyone would feel in this situation. Don’t be alone Daniel x
It sounds like you have some very positive plans. Writing your stories, spending time with your Dad and that the new location for your procedure will work so much better for you. I'm sorry that your doctor didn't have better news. Hopefully the new chemo will help and you'll be better able to tolerate it than described. Thank you for adding your thoughts on the Delta variant. I lost my beloved uncle today and he made sure before his passing to say that he wished he had gotten vaccinated. I wish he had also. Just keep breathing Daniel, when the anxiety hits, take some deep breaths, it helps. May God be with you to comfort you, lead you and bless whatever time you have. None of us are promised tomorrow. God bless.
Daniel, take a leave of absence enjoy your Dad and keep writing!! I can’t imagine what your going through. I do want to tell you that you look so good!!! Thanks for the update ❤️❤️‼️
Daniel I am a cancer survivor & a P.A. Although you are perfectly capable of making your own descisions, I would recommend to you to go on palliative care. I benefitted a lot from that. Also I don't know your situation as well, maybe you should take time off from work and focus more on getting yourself psychologicly into a better state and again through palliative care maybe build a support network which allows you to slow it down. My thoughts & prayers are with you enjoy time with your father!
Daniel, You are navigating a tough course that is revealing aspects of your future challenges. Your grace and pure heart are pouring from you as you share. Thank you for caring when you need care. I am glad for you that you have an option to take the time off you need to write and enjoy your Dad's visit! I hope you put yourself first when you make the decision about long term disability. ❤
Hi Daniel. You always ask how we're doing: as ever you're being your caring, generous self. Fear is one of the worst sensations any of us have to deal with. It creeps over like some ugly shadow and fills us with dread. Ride the waves of it out if you can - calm your breathing, focus on your cat, read, write, listen to music, whatever helps (or simply hide under the bedclothes). The problem is it feels like the feeling itself is going to kill us. It won't but it piles on top of us all that we're already going through emotionally. Some time out to 'process' sounds a really good idea. Don't push yourself with outer targets when you need give yourself inner space. You're amazing, mate.
Daniel I’m so sorry that you’re feeling this way. This makes me sad indeed and have a heavy heart. It’s good that you’re thinking about taking some time off from work. It sounds as if you need a proper rest. Especially with Chemo making you tired. I too felt totally shattered with Chemo. You’re so sweet caring about us and making sure we’re all staying safe. Take care of you!!! Lots of love Marcia ♥️
Oh Daniel I wish i could give you a big hug. I hate thinking that you are living alone but so happy your Dad is coming soon. Anxiety will make your fingers and hands feel that way. Please just do you, take the extended leave do what makes you happy concentrate on YOU. I have been following you since day one and want you to know you are the bravest person I know. Love you Daniel, Your friend Joanne.
When I see your vlogs, I wish that humanity had millions of Daniels. You are what this world needs more of. I pray for your comfort. Rest assured, when you are gone, thousands of us will think of you and remember how you made us feel a part of your family. We love you.
I'm glad that you're thinking about taking some time off for yourself. I think it'll be good for you to take time to relax and process what is going on. Focus on the things you love doing and seeing friends and family x
I was so happy to see you posted a video! I hope the new medication helps with minimal side effects. I also hope you can take time off for yourself and spend the week with your father. Keep up the writing! Lots of us want to read your stories!!!
Daniel , I am praying for you . Nothing worse than the feelings of anxiety . One time I thought I was having a heart attack , and it was anxiety ! There are so many effects from that . It will make you sick too . I pray that somehow , someway , that God will give you unbelievable peace . I pray for your healing , and comfort . I pray that God extends your life here on earth . I pray for all of us that when we do go on to our next life , that we all meet in heaven . I love you little brother .
I agree with everyone else. Taking some time off work would be a good thing right now. I'm glad your Dad is coming. I hope you two are able to really enjoy your time together. Do as much fun things as you are able. Go fishing. Go out to the park and have a picnic. Just spend time together enjoying each other's company. I'm sending you some love from Ohio. Just know there are many people who truly care about you.
Hi! Take the time you need. Enjoy your writing and enjoy your visit with your dad. Having to switch meds is the worst. I’m sorry. I hope you don’t get any severe side effects. I just had chemo today and feel you with the fatigue. I’m in bed already but it’s important to listen you your body. Also anxiety has been high for me too. Could be the Corona variants and everyone returning to “normal,” causing it. Just keep going and know I’m sending good vibes your way.
Thankyou for sharing Daniel !!!!! I respect your strength I wish you knew how strong you are !!!!! I wish we could make you feel better. God bless you & your writing and your time with Dad & Friends 🤗 Love from New Zealand 🌵🌵
Oh wow……….so real and honest like you have been all along. Does not make it easy for what you feel you need to say, nor is it easy to hear. I agree with someone else’s post regarding how it may be good for you to take the needed time you have to do what you want. Enjoy your visit with your dad, writing at will, and feeling the sun upon your face. Along with thousands of others; sending love and I mean the same love and light that I feel whilst gazing upon the natural beauty that one surrounds one self with. May it find you and fill you with peace.
I pray that as every day passes that you feel less anxiety and more peace in your soul. Take this time to be with family , to write… it’s so hard to be too sick to work i understand but you deserve to rest and have the opportunity to use this time however you want.
You are amazing Daniel!...so brave, so handsome and fighting the biggest battle of your life. A total inspiration. Much love and Best wishes from all the way down here in Australia xx
Sending you prayers,love,light&hugs Daniel!! We are here for you in whatever you need: To send a hug,to tell a joke, to put a smile on your face,to vent.Whatever you choose..We love you!! God Bless You enjoy your visit with your dad,And enjoy some time off for yourself too..
I'm so sorry you have to go through so much.. Who wouldn't have anxiety!! You're a sweetheart. You are in my prayers . I am so happy that your dad will be visiting you and you will be taking time off from work. We all love you!
Hi Daniel. We are here for you when you are ready and able to share. We have no covid circulating with New Zealand; only at the mandatory isolation facilities. Thinking of you and as always sending love from New Zealand 💖
Aww...sweet Daniel ...its ok to not be ok...as someone else has said. I have a condition that causes me constant anxiety...as if the walls are closing in around me. I'm not battling cancer (Menieres disease)..so I can't say I know how you feel...but the horrible anxiety I sure do understand. Please focus on your writing ...visit with your dad ..take leave of absence ...and rid yourself of the anxiety. You deserve relaxation. We love you 😘
Cancer really sucks mate ....I'm sorry this is happening to you mate I've been there its no walk at the park that is for sure, I got lucky and survived barely but not without some damage done to me. I hope for a day they will find a cure for this damn disease and people like you and others can live without this pain. Cheers mate
So happy to see your beautiful smile at the end of this video. Please never feel as though you need to apologize to us, you owe us nothing and I wish there was something that we could do for you. Sending you so much love and strength. Enjoy the visit with your dad. ❤️
You are such a cool dude. Thank you SO much for sharing your journey/ your reality. You are so strong and you are so loved. Thank you for being a light. You are so loved and prayed upon (daily!). I am thankful that you are here today. 💕
It's so good to see you Daniel. I am sorry that you are going thru this.I am glad that your Dad is visiting you. Cherish the time with Dad.Relax,take it one day at a time.Hugs to you and your Dad.
There are no adequate words,(At least for the moment)that I can say that you haven't heard and it doesn't feel right to tell you to fight, don't give up....For one I don't need to tell you to not give up because I already know you won't and two is that I have absolutely NO IDEA what you battle daily and go through so just wanted you to know how much I and we(your TH-cam family) are here to support you and listen when you need to vent or deliver upsetting news which has to be difficult in itself, also the good news and good times which there are more to be had! Lastly I wanted to say that there is nothing wrong with positive, encouraging comments such as don't give up/don't give in, personally that seems to be what I always say when I'm at a loss for words and although it comes from a good place tonight wanted to take a little more time in my response so with that goodnight, all my love to you Daniel❤❤❤
I hope you take the time off. It will give you time to write which will help you focus on something other than your health. It is wonderful that your Dad is going to visit. Having time with people you love is good for your state of mind. I hope the new meds do not make you sick. Take care, Daniel.
I admire the way you can chronicle not only your physical progression but in particular your mental progression. If you don't need to then I would walk away from work but it seems to be a good distraction from the four walls of home. Replacing it with writing would be a distraction without feeling as though you would be letting people down. Don't apologise anymore. The feelings of impending doom will come and go I hope they are shorter and not as intense. Last video you mentioned working with a counselor. Could be helpful. Wishing you love and a sense of peace on your journey
When my husband was dealing with cancer and was extremely fatigued, he was prescribed ritalin, which seemed to boost his energy levels. I think ritalin is often used for this purpose. As to the anxiety you are experiencing, he didn't have that problem, but I certainly did. I could really feel it physically too. It wasn't until I was speaking with the wife of another patient while we sat in a waitingroom, that she said she was taking an anti-anxiety medication. So my doctor prescribed a med for me, and it did wonders to rid me of that really crushing feeling of doom. Of course, it didn't change the situation, I was still worried about my husband but I didn't have that constant adrenaline/fight or flight feeling. I'm so glad to hear your Dad is coming for a visit. And here is hoping the new chemo has zero side effects for you.❤️
Hi Daniel, I wish that I could find words that would make you feel better, but I can't. Just know that many people care about you and wish that you'd weren't going through this. We are here for you. Do whatever you wabout taking some time for yourself
Daniel, I'm so sorry that things have been so rough for you lately. Right now, you really need all the support that you can get so I'm glad that your Dad will be with you soon. If you need to take LOA from work, then do it, then do it. You need to do what's right for Daniel right now. Stay well please!
I can hear your anxiety in your voice, Daniel. I am so terribly sorry this is happening to you. I hope you do decide to take some time to do the things that are meaningful to you.
Writing can be very therapeutic and cathartic. It's also a nice thing to do and can be really enjoyable. Like everyone else has said, you need to do these things for yourself now to look after your own well being. So nice to hear that you'll get to spend time with your Dad. I do wish you peace of mind and comfort although I recognise that's easier said than done. Take care now and look after you. xxxx
Daniel- I’m so sorry to hear the heaviness in your heart. Believe me … we all feel it with you. I sure hope u get to take time off of work , have a long visit with your dad and keep writing. These things will help you with all that you are going thru. It’s heartbreaking just knowing you do this on your own. I know you have friends and family but being alone with this has to be so draining emotionally. I hope the new medication help slow things down. Take care and just know we all care about you and look forward to hearing from you when u fee up to it. God bless… sending prayers up for you. Stephanie
Daniel: I am so sorry that you are dealing with all that you are. I completely understand all that you are going through as I am in the same boat just a different cancer. If there is anyway you can take some time off from work please do. I had to medically retire and I qualified for SS Disability. Have you looked into this? There is no way w/ my cancer and the rare, terminal autoimmune that I could work. It is always wonderful to see you. Focus on you now and do what you need to do.
Your palms are anxiety I suffered the same when I was trapped in a house knowing a violent partner was returning its horrific ,it is so tiring in its self without the other major things your going through ,just keep fighting we really care look after yourself you are still looking good,love from UK 🇬🇧
There is anxiety caused by fear and anxiety caused by a body being very sick and feeling like it needs to survive. Even though you aren't on hospice they are the best ones to talk to about the second type as they deal with it all the time and can tell you about what works for their patients.
You're dealing with anxiety, which could progress to panic attacks. When you get that "chesty" feeling and prickly palms breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth. Long, deep breaths. Try meditation if you haven't yet...or just sit back and listen to your favorite mellow music with your eyes closed. I have panic attacks and these things help me. Oh, one more thing...If you feel light-headed, trust your gut and sit down or you could fall down. That feeling you have that you're going to pass out is not lying to you. As far as your job is concerned they should be able to accommodate your extended leave of absence, and they would do it happily because you're so dedicated. Thinking of you daily. Please take it easy and keep repeating to yourself, "Every day above ground is a good day." Sending ❤.
Daniel I’m hoping you surround yourself with plenty of people. If you are a person who pretty much isn’t a people person then I understand. You are such a great guy and I know you have to have a lot of friends. I don’t hear you talk about them but I hope they are there for you and if you was my friend or relative, i wouldn’t want to be away from you. Being around friends and family in your time of need, I believe will help you a lot. Thank you Daniel for sharing your most personal times with us. 👍🏻❤️ 🙏
Definitely sounds like anxiety / panic attacks. There are things you can do to help with that and I’m sure meds, get some good good advice. Take leave from work and do some voluntary time maybe, focus your time on what you enjoy. Take care of yourself Daniel.
Thank you for the video. We’ll all be here whether you post videos or not. I can’t imagine what you are feeling physically, but mentally I am doing my best to fight my anxiety and depression. I have progressive health issues which are progressing faster than I thought they would, but I am just about bed ridden for the past month. I feel like my health is beyond bouncing back. I hate not having control. I hate knowing that the best parts of my life have passed. It’s hard. I am sorry for the trauma dump, but I guess I am sharing not for sympathy, but to tell you that you aren’t alone in what you are feeling, or close perhaps. In my book you are a hero to me.You seem rather objective which I wish I was more of. I am 100% emotional when I get to feeling sorry for myself. lol Anyway, take care of and take time for yourself. You deserve to make you your top priority.
Thank you for sharing your update, and it’s so good to see your face ☺️ My vote is to take your full disability and enjoy the things YOU want to do. Now is your time, enjoy it. Always keeping you in my prayers 🌞
Hi Daniel doing the LOA is a good idea. It will give you time to write which will be good. Tell the stories you want to share with ppl. While on LOA you can look into disability and consider that as well. It’s heartbreaking to know you’re feeling sick. I can’t imagine what that must be like. Everyday we wake up is a gift from God. We never know when our time is up. We should live life to the fullest. Prayers to you and enjoy your time with your Dad.
Sorry to hear that you are going through such a hard time . If I may I would like to share a little bit of my experiences and how I was able to overcome my trials and shortcomings, so last year we all went through Covid but before that happened in the same year around February we had major repairs done to the house we were living in and had no choice but to vacate the premises then had medical issues which resulted in having surgery in may. If that wasn’t enough I lost my job. While going through that I knew God was in control,so i remained calm in the middle of the horrific storm. After a year now I still give God the glory that he was able to see me through this. There is no other explanation as to why I was able to handle such a trying time in my life. With faith and Gods will all will be ok . Sending you blessings and prayers.
You don't have to do that other pill. You can choose palliative care/hospice. Make the most of the time you have left with minimal suffering. I think of you often... I wish only the best for you.
I hope if or when the time comes you will not fear death. Death is just letting go of your particular suit of clothes. It does not mean you won’t ever see the trees and the sky again. The fear of death needs to be replaced with the peace of God, however you envision him to be. You are so courageous Daniel! I mean that sincerely. There are no words to let you know how strong you are in sharing your story that will help so many. I’m truly in awe of your candor and strength through this difficult time. . You already have left a legacy in your writing but even more so in your ability to share your story that so many with similar struggles can identify with, even if those struggles are not identical. You are a teacher for all of us. There is nothing more important than teaching and sharing your experience and knowledge. Please don’t think that death is the end. It is not! Keep writing your stories. Pleeaasssee! I will read each and every one of them! No life on this earth is in vain. We all will die. It’s just a matter of when. But just as a leaf dies and a new one appears in its place, the same with death. It’s simply letting go of a body that no longer works to be replaced with a new leaf! ❤️
This sucks for you and Im so sorry. Live your life Daniel, do what YOU want to do, try to get the time off work and enjoy your Dad that will be a great up lift for you.
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I see you have been fighting cancer for over four years. Looks like you are a Warrior.
God bless you.
Now is the time to focus on you. I think you'll feel better being able to spend the time writing, and I'm so glad to hear your Dad is coming. Take the time off Daniel. Take care of you. Healing light and energy is coming to you.
very well put. take the time. please
Just what I was thinking.
This is what I was going to suggest as well. Much love.
my papa had a massive heart attack in front of a large crowd (after taking part in a Memorial Day parade that he walked miles in carrying a flag) Luckily...He was jolted back to life 4 times... and later had bypass. I got to keep him another 19 years. But what he told me has made me fearless about dying. He told me where he went in those moments was warm and beautiful....and to not be afraid. My papa never told me a lie....continued prayers from Indiana Daniel.
Hi Daniel. It is always good to see your beautiful/handsome face. Stay strong. I hope you know there are a lot of us out here that love, care about, and are praying for you. Please don't apologize for not vlogging as much as you used to, or for the anxiety & depression you are going through. While we all have our own trials and tribulations we have gone through, not one of us has walked in your shoes. You are a brave man to face this the way you have, and we truly do care about you.
Susan Normand Well Said!!🙏
Love you & praying for you. I know you probably feel defeated and alone, but please know you’re cared about, loved, and supported by people you’ve never met and we’re here to listen. 💙💚💙💚💙💚🙏🙏🙏🙏
Daniel.. you’re so sweet! Your soft voice and gentle mannerisms are so charming. I wish you were feeling better.
LOA from work is a great idea. You need time to get your ducks in a row (writing, being with your Dad, and resting as needed, etc) Take one day at a time. Just slow your roll and do what your energy allows, without exhausting yourself or trying to overdo stuff.
How are your kitties? I love them and I love you. Remember… you’ve reached so many people, all over the world who think a lot of you! You’ve touched our hearts! That’s a very cool thing for anyone to do!
Just know that we all think of you and and send you good vibes and positive energies! You are a remarkable guy! I’m so happy to know you!
"Slow your roll" ....I like that. 😉
I always look forward to your videos for all the same reasons! Please don't stress any more. Take care and rest. ❤
Anxiety and impending doom is the most horrible feeling! I can not even imagine the way it would feel when regarding your own life and mortality. I only wish there were some words I could offer that could send you some peace and calm. Of course, that is not a reality as no words can help, but just know that from over the internet and far away from where you physically are is someone who is sending positive light, calming thoughts and healing vibes. Take care, Daniel.
You are a beautiful soul. Talented, intelligent and strong. Writing, and a visit with your Dad is something to focus on. Take time for yourself, Your in our hearts and prayers.
Daniel, I work for Social Security and when you mentioned disability there are work programs that you will allow you to work while you receive disability. Also individuals that are considered terminal applying and the whole approval process is considerably quicker. And something I think you should seriously think about because you got enough on your plate you don't need to be worried about work and how they're going to take it, you need to worry about you and the anxiety and depression and that your General Health. I truly understand the depression and anxiety because I too when I was going through chemo just worry overload... and I developed panic attacks not having a clue what I was feeling I thought I was having a heart attack. But please reconsider the disability angle because you need to be worried about your health and not the concerns of your employer.
Daniel, I know how feeling like the walls are folding in on you, and I'm so sorry! If this illness does not give you anxiety, I would be shocked. Time with your Dad, is good for the heart and sole and hopefully comfort you!
Makes me sad to hear your struggles. You are going through something incredibly intense. When you describe in detail it just breaks my ❤️ so much. Im happy your dad will be visiting with you. You need a lot of distraction and support. You kmow we love you. Hugs and many many prayers.
Hi Daniel, to say that you’re feeling “terminal” out loud I’m sure was very difficult for you because it shows you’re grappling with a life and death situation. I love the idea that your dad is coming to visit and you will be requesting time off. This will allow you to focus solely on you. Keep the fight! We are fighting with you too!
Hey Daniel, very sorry you are dealing with all of this! Taking time off work sounds like a great idea! That pressure of having that to deal with on top of everything else, would be gone. You are such a strong person. That’s great your dad is coming to visit! Thanks for sharing and letting us know how your doing. Prayers and tons of love for you!
Heaps of love, Daniel! You are and will remain in my thoughts until your next update, and after that, and...beyond. I know it's just Internet, but 99% of the people here really, really care about you, whether you believe it or not.
Take care, take all the time off that you need and do whatever makes you happy (or at least happier). ♥️
I think taking some time off would be great for you, Daniel. Taking care of YOU is important. And I’m so glad your dad is coming. I think it’ll be good to have someone else there with you to maybe help get your mind off things a little bit. 💙
I fought against going on disability. I've worked since my first job at 15 and at age 63, I had to stop. What that did for me was open up a freedom I'd never had before and I do not regret even one moment for living what's left of my life for me. I've had time with my children and grandchildren and I'm making a video for each of them. No one knows about my little project and it brings me great joy and comfort. You do what works for you. We get one run around the sun so take it for what you can. Peace to you.
Hi , Daniel from Maryland. You are by far the coolest guy I’ve ever had the pleasure of knowing thru TH-cam. Your strength is admirable for you to be able to take us thru your journey with all the termoil your going through. Thank you. Just know we may be strangers but the compassion I and others have for you should let you know how honest and caring you come through. I just lost my mom this April to lung cancer I was with her every step of the way. I’m so glad your dad is coming to visit. Your time on this earth has touched many. Take care and know we care.
Just do what ever you want!!!!! Take the holiday- enjoy seeing your dad
Be good to yourself- sending positive vibes from Australia 🇦🇺 ⭐️
Daniel, thank you for the update. So nice to hear that you are writing and working on your stories. I hope the new medication works with minimal side effects. Also, glad to hear that your Dad will be coming to spend time with you. Please don't give up. We are rooting for you!!
You have moved me beyond words, my beloved partner passed of liver cancer in May this year and it was the biggest fight I have seen anyone go through.
No one could ever know what this is like for you,
A hospice nurse told me she couldn’t imagine even after working in palliative care all her career how anyone would feel in this situation.
Don’t be alone Daniel x
I'm so sorry for your loss Carol. Sending you love
So happy to see your handsome face!
Nice to see you. Stay strong and know that you are loved.
Wishing you peace Daniel and hope you’re feeling more energetic very soon.
It sounds like you have some very positive plans. Writing your stories, spending time with your Dad and that the new location for your procedure will work so much better for you. I'm sorry that your doctor didn't have better news. Hopefully the new chemo will help and you'll be better able to tolerate it than described. Thank you for adding your thoughts on the Delta variant. I lost my beloved uncle today and he made sure before his passing to say that he wished he had gotten vaccinated. I wish he had also. Just keep breathing Daniel, when the anxiety hits, take some deep breaths, it helps. May God be with you to comfort you, lead you and bless whatever time you have. None of us are promised tomorrow. God bless.
Some time away from work May relieve a little stress for you. Hope the new chemo has some benefit for you. Enjoy your time with your Dad. Take care
Daniel, take a leave of absence enjoy your Dad and keep writing!! I can’t imagine what your going through. I do want to tell you that you look so good!!! Thanks for the update ❤️❤️‼️
Daniel I am a cancer survivor & a P.A. Although you are perfectly capable of making your own descisions, I would recommend to you to go on palliative care. I benefitted a lot from that. Also I don't know your situation as well, maybe you should take time off from work and focus more on getting yourself psychologicly into a better state and again through palliative care maybe build a support network which allows you to slow it down.
My thoughts & prayers are with you enjoy time with your father!
Daniel, You are navigating a tough course that is revealing aspects of your future challenges. Your grace and pure heart are pouring from you as you share. Thank you for caring when you need care. I am glad for you that you have an option to take the time off you need to write and enjoy your Dad's visit! I hope you put yourself first when you make the decision about long term disability. ❤
Hi Daniel. You always ask how we're doing: as ever you're being your caring, generous self. Fear is one of the worst sensations any of us have to deal with. It creeps over like some ugly shadow and fills us with dread. Ride the waves of it out if you can - calm your breathing, focus on your cat, read, write, listen to music, whatever helps (or simply hide under the bedclothes). The problem is it feels like the feeling itself is going to kill us. It won't but it piles on top of us all that we're already going through emotionally. Some time out to 'process' sounds a really good idea. Don't push yourself with outer targets when you need give yourself inner space. You're amazing, mate.
Daniel I’m so sorry that you’re feeling this way. This makes me sad indeed and have a heavy heart. It’s good that you’re thinking about taking some time off from work. It sounds as if you need a proper rest. Especially with Chemo making you tired.
I too felt totally shattered with Chemo.
You’re so sweet caring about us and making sure we’re all staying safe.
Take care of you!!!
Lots of love
Marcia
♥️
Oh Daniel I wish i could give you a big hug. I hate thinking that you are living alone but so happy your Dad is coming soon. Anxiety will make your fingers and hands feel that way. Please just do you, take the extended leave do what makes you happy concentrate on YOU. I have been following you since day one and want you to know you are the bravest person I know. Love you Daniel, Your friend Joanne.
When I see your vlogs, I wish that humanity had millions of Daniels. You are what this world needs more of. I pray for your comfort. Rest assured, when you are gone, thousands of us will think of you and remember how you made us feel a part of your family. We love you.
I'm glad that you're thinking about taking some time off for yourself. I think it'll be good for you to take time to relax and process what is going on. Focus on the things you love doing and seeing friends and family x
You are an incredibly strong person, Daniel. Never EVER give up! CANCER SUCKS
Praying for you. Stay strong and know you are loved.
Taking time off to do what you love sounds healing for mind and spirit! ❤️
I was so happy to see you posted a video! I hope the new medication helps with minimal side effects. I also hope you can take time off for yourself and spend the week with your father. Keep up the writing! Lots of us want to read your stories!!!
Daniel , I am praying for you . Nothing worse than the feelings of anxiety . One time I thought I was having a heart attack , and it was anxiety ! There are so many effects from that . It will make you sick too . I pray that somehow , someway , that God will give you unbelievable peace . I pray for your healing , and comfort . I pray that God extends your life here on earth . I pray for all of us that when we do go on to our next life , that we all meet in heaven . I love you little brother .
I agree with everyone else. Taking some time off work would be a good thing right now. I'm glad your Dad is coming. I hope you two are able to really enjoy your time together. Do as much fun things as you are able. Go fishing. Go out to the park and have a picnic. Just spend time together enjoying each other's company. I'm sending you some love from Ohio. Just know there are many people who truly care about you.
Hi! Take the time you need. Enjoy your writing and enjoy your visit with your dad. Having to switch meds is the worst. I’m sorry. I hope you don’t get any severe side effects. I just had chemo today and feel you with the fatigue. I’m in bed already but it’s important to listen you your body. Also anxiety has been high for me too. Could be the Corona variants and everyone returning to “normal,” causing it. Just keep going and know I’m sending good vibes your way.
Thankyou for sharing Daniel !!!!!
I respect your strength
I wish you knew how strong you are !!!!!
I wish we could make you feel better.
God bless you & your writing and your time with Dad & Friends 🤗
Love from New Zealand 🌵🌵
Oh wow……….so real and honest like you have been all along.
Does not make it easy for what you feel you need to say, nor is it easy to hear.
I agree with someone else’s post regarding how it may be good for you to take the needed time you have to do what you want. Enjoy your visit with your dad, writing at will, and feeling the sun upon your face.
Along with thousands of others; sending love and I mean the same love and light that I feel whilst gazing upon the natural beauty that one surrounds one self with. May it find you and fill you with peace.
Praying a lot for you, Daniel. Good you are getting company, that will help you a lot. Big hug and take care.
I think its a good idea to focus on your stories and spending time with your dad. Wishing you a good week ❤️❤️
I pray that as every day passes that you feel less anxiety and more peace in your soul. Take this time to be with family , to write… it’s so hard to be too sick to work i understand but you deserve to rest and have the opportunity to use this time however you want.
You are amazing Daniel!...so brave, so handsome and fighting the biggest battle of your life. A total inspiration. Much love and Best wishes from all the way down here in Australia xx
Sending you prayers,love,light&hugs Daniel!! We are here for you in whatever you need: To send a hug,to tell a joke, to put a smile on your face,to vent.Whatever you choose..We love you!! God Bless You enjoy your visit with your dad,And enjoy some time off for yourself too..
I'm so sorry you have to go through so much.. Who wouldn't have anxiety!! You're a sweetheart. You are in my prayers . I am so happy that your dad will be visiting you and you will be taking time off from work. We all love you!
Hi Daniel. We are here for you when you are ready and able to share. We have no covid circulating with New Zealand; only at the mandatory isolation facilities. Thinking of you and as always sending love from New Zealand 💖
Aww...sweet Daniel ...its ok to not be ok...as someone else has said. I have a condition that causes me constant anxiety...as if the walls are closing in around me. I'm not battling cancer (Menieres disease)..so I can't say I know how you feel...but the horrible anxiety I sure do understand. Please focus on your writing ...visit with your dad ..take leave of absence ...and rid yourself of the anxiety. You deserve relaxation. We love you 😘
Hi Daniel now is the time for you to do what makes you happy relax and take care of yourself I am always praying for you
Cancer really sucks mate ....I'm sorry this is happening to you mate I've been there its no walk at the park that is for sure, I got lucky and survived barely but not without some damage done to me.
I hope for a day they will find a cure for this damn disease and people like you and others can live without this pain.
Cheers mate
You're in my prayers Daniel I will be back when closed captions are available. Take care of you 🇦🇺💛.
So happy to see your beautiful smile at the end of this video. Please never feel as though you need to apologize to us, you owe us nothing and I wish there was something that we could do for you. Sending you so much love and strength. Enjoy the visit with your dad. ❤️
You are such a cool dude. Thank you SO much for sharing your journey/ your reality. You are so strong and you are so loved. Thank you for being a light. You are so loved and prayed upon (daily!). I am thankful that you are here today. 💕
You are never alone. We are always here with you. Everytime you feel alone or scared, please remember that.
It's so good to see you Daniel. I am sorry that you are going thru this.I am glad that your Dad is visiting you. Cherish the time with Dad.Relax,take it one day at a time.Hugs to you and your Dad.
Rest in heavenly peace 🙏🙏
There are no adequate words,(At least for the moment)that I can say that you haven't heard and it doesn't feel right to tell you to fight, don't give up....For one I don't need to tell you to not give up because I already know you won't and two is that I have absolutely NO IDEA what you battle daily and go through so just wanted you to know how much I and we(your TH-cam family) are here to support you and listen when you need to vent or deliver upsetting news which has to be difficult in itself, also the good news and good times which there are more to be had! Lastly I wanted to say that there is nothing wrong with positive, encouraging comments such as don't give up/don't give in, personally that seems to be what I always say when I'm at a loss for words and although it comes from a good place tonight wanted to take a little more time in my response so with that goodnight, all my love to you Daniel❤❤❤
Much love from New Zealand Daniel. We are all here thinking of you from our various corners of the world. ♥️
Daniel, I am so sorry you are having to go through this. I pray for you daily.
I hope you take the time off. It will give you time to write which will help you focus on something other than your health. It is wonderful that your Dad is going to visit. Having time with people you love is good for your state of mind. I hope the new meds do not make you sick. Take care, Daniel.
Taking time right now seems like a great idea. Especially because the week with your dad would be so nice. Hugs.
I admire the way you can chronicle not only your physical progression but in particular your mental progression. If you don't need to then I would walk away from work but it seems to be a good distraction from the four walls of home. Replacing it with writing would be a distraction without feeling as though you would be letting people down. Don't apologise anymore. The feelings of impending doom will come and go
I hope they are shorter and not as intense. Last video you mentioned working with a counselor. Could be helpful. Wishing you love and a sense of peace on your journey
When my husband was dealing with cancer and was extremely fatigued, he was prescribed ritalin, which seemed to boost his energy levels. I think ritalin is often used for this purpose. As to the anxiety you are experiencing, he didn't have that problem, but I certainly did. I could really feel it physically too. It wasn't until I was speaking with the wife of another patient while we sat in a waitingroom, that she said she was taking an anti-anxiety medication. So my doctor prescribed a med for me, and it did wonders to rid me of that really crushing feeling of doom. Of course, it didn't change the situation, I was still worried about my husband but I didn't have that constant adrenaline/fight or flight feeling. I'm so glad to hear your Dad is coming for a visit. And here is hoping the new chemo has zero side effects for you.❤️
I do admire your positive but still very realist approach for getting through hardships, thankyou for keeping us updated
Hi Daniel, I wish that I could find words that would make you feel better, but I can't.
Just know that many people care about you and wish that you'd weren't going through this. We are here for you. Do whatever you wabout taking some time for yourself
The last sentence was supposed to be : Do whatever you want to do about taking some time for yourself .
Your In my prayers
Daniel,
I'm so sorry that things have been so rough for you lately. Right now, you really need all the support that you can get so I'm glad that your Dad will be with you soon. If you need to take LOA from work, then do it, then do it. You need to do what's right for Daniel right now. Stay well please!
I can hear your anxiety in your voice, Daniel. I am so terribly sorry this is happening to you. I hope you do decide to take some time to do the things that are meaningful to you.
Love and light to you xx
Writing can be very therapeutic and cathartic. It's also a nice thing to do and can be really enjoyable. Like everyone else has said, you need to do these things for yourself now to look after your own well being. So nice to hear that you'll get to spend time with your Dad. I do wish you peace of mind and comfort although I recognise that's easier said than done. Take care now and look after you. xxxx
I think the break would do you good. Don't feel guilty . Enjoy your time with your father. Gentle hugs
Virtual kiss on your cheek and forehead. Just my way of sending comfort and care.
Daniel- I’m so sorry to hear the heaviness in your heart. Believe me … we all feel it with you. I sure hope u get to take time off of work , have a long visit with your dad and keep writing. These things will help you with all that you are going thru. It’s heartbreaking just knowing you do this on your own. I know you have friends and family but being alone with this has to be so draining emotionally. I hope the new medication help slow things down. Take care and just know we all care about you and look forward to hearing from you when u fee up to it. God bless… sending prayers up for you. Stephanie
Daniel: I am so sorry that you are dealing with all that you are. I completely understand all that you are going through as I am in the same boat just a different cancer. If there is anyway you can take some time off from work please do. I had to medically retire and I qualified for SS Disability. Have you looked into this? There is no way w/ my cancer and the rare, terminal autoimmune that I could work. It is always wonderful to see you. Focus on you now and do what you need to do.
Love your smile at the end. You're an Angel 😇
Take a deep breath and do what you think is best for you. Whatever choice you make will be the right one for you.
Caring thoughts and virtual hugs to you.
Your palms are anxiety I suffered the same when I was trapped in a house knowing a violent partner was returning its horrific ,it is so tiring in its self without the other major things your going through ,just keep fighting we really care look after yourself you are still looking good,love from UK 🇬🇧
I'm so glad your dad is coming. You are amazingly brave and strong. Please know that Im thinking of you. From Scotland. X
There is anxiety caused by fear and anxiety caused by a body being very sick and feeling like it needs to survive. Even though you aren't on hospice they are the best ones to talk to about the second type as they deal with it all the time and can tell you about what works for their patients.
You're dealing with anxiety, which could progress to panic attacks. When you get that "chesty" feeling and prickly palms breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth. Long, deep breaths. Try meditation if you haven't yet...or just sit back and listen to your favorite mellow music with your eyes closed. I have panic attacks and these things help me. Oh, one more thing...If you feel light-headed, trust your gut and sit down or you could fall down. That feeling you have that you're going to pass out is not lying to you. As far as your job is concerned they should be able to accommodate your extended leave of absence, and they would do it happily because you're so dedicated. Thinking of you daily. Please take it easy and keep repeating to yourself, "Every day above ground is a good day." Sending ❤.
Daniel I’m hoping you surround yourself with plenty of people.
If you are a person who pretty much isn’t a people person then I understand.
You are such a great guy and I know you have to have a lot of friends.
I don’t hear you talk about them but I hope they are there for you and if you was my friend or relative, i wouldn’t want to be away from you.
Being around friends and family in your time of need, I believe will help you a lot.
Thank you Daniel for sharing your most personal times with us.
👍🏻❤️ 🙏
As always, thank you for the update Daniel. ♡ Prayers for peace! My thoughts are with you.
Definitely sounds like anxiety / panic attacks. There are things you can do to help with that and I’m sure meds, get some good good advice. Take leave from work and do some voluntary time maybe, focus your time on what you enjoy. Take care of yourself Daniel.
So very sorry to hear this! Don't give up! Praying
Thank you for the video. We’ll all be here whether you post videos or not.
I can’t imagine what you are feeling physically, but mentally I am doing my best to fight my anxiety and depression. I have progressive health issues which are progressing faster than I thought they would, but I am just about bed ridden for the past month. I feel like my health is beyond bouncing back. I hate not having control. I hate knowing that the best parts of my life have passed. It’s hard. I am sorry for the trauma dump, but I guess I am sharing not for sympathy, but to tell you that you aren’t alone in what you are feeling, or close perhaps. In my book you are a hero to me.You seem rather objective which I wish I was more of. I am 100% emotional when I get to feeling sorry for myself. lol
Anyway, take care of and take time for yourself. You deserve to make you your top priority.
I pray for loving time with your dad.
Don't ever be sorry dear Daniel, you are awesome for even sharing all you do. xo
Thank you for sharing your update, and it’s so good to see your face ☺️ My vote is to take your full disability and enjoy the things YOU want to do. Now is your time, enjoy it. Always keeping you in my prayers 🌞
Been thinking of you...💜
Glad to see you. Been thinking about you. Prayers for you. Wish you peace.
Hi Daniel doing the LOA is a good idea. It will give you time to write which will be good. Tell the stories you want to share with ppl. While on LOA you can look into disability and consider that as well. It’s heartbreaking to know you’re feeling sick. I can’t imagine what that must be like. Everyday we wake up is a gift from God. We never know when our time is up. We should live life to the fullest. Prayers to you and enjoy your time with your Dad.
Please please take time for yourself. You are in my prayers daily. Thank you for sharing your life with us. Wishing you peace.
Thank you for sharing. You are very brave and I admire you.
Sending you prayers & well wishes.
Sorry to hear that you are going through such a hard time . If I may I would like to share a little bit of my experiences and how I was able to overcome my trials and shortcomings, so last year we all went through Covid but before that happened in the same year around February we had major repairs done to the house we were living in and had no choice but to vacate the premises then had medical issues which resulted in having surgery in may. If that wasn’t enough I lost my job. While going through that I knew God was in control,so i remained calm in the middle of the horrific storm. After a year now I still give God the glory that he was able to see me through this. There is no other explanation as to why I was able to handle such a trying time in my life. With faith and Gods will all will be ok . Sending you blessings and prayers.
You don't have to do that other pill. You can choose palliative care/hospice. Make the most of the time you have left with minimal suffering. I think of you often... I wish only the best for you.
Anxiety is brutal. You look awesome for what you're going thru. I hope you feel better.
I hope if or when the time comes you will not fear death. Death is just letting go of your particular suit of clothes. It does not mean you won’t ever see the trees and the sky again. The fear of death needs to be replaced with the peace of God, however you envision him to be. You are so courageous Daniel! I mean that sincerely. There are no words to let you know how strong you are in sharing your story that will help so many. I’m truly in awe of your candor and strength through this difficult time. . You already have left a legacy in your writing but even more so in your ability to share your story that so many with similar struggles can identify with, even if those struggles are not identical. You are a teacher for all of us. There is nothing more important than teaching and sharing your experience and knowledge.
Please don’t think that death is the end. It is not! Keep writing your stories. Pleeaasssee! I will read each and every one of them! No life on this earth is in vain. We all will die. It’s just a matter of when. But just as a leaf dies and a new one appears in its place, the same with death. It’s simply letting go of a body that no longer works to be replaced with a new leaf! ❤️
This sucks for you and Im so sorry. Live your life Daniel, do what YOU want to do, try to get the time off work and enjoy your Dad that will be a great up lift for you.