My first ever song premiered in a concert hall - Dance performance by K. Company

If I could tell my 15 year old self that your dreams are not stupid, and one day your first ever published song will be premiered in a concert hall for 200 people while over a dozen persons perform a choreography made just for it, I would have collapsed down on my knees and weep.
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So, how did I end up making music for this production? Do I even know how to compose? Am I now entitled for the word "Artist"?
I tried on several occasions to film and talk about how important this project was for me, but everything sounded just bland next to this performance. So I'm gonna let the beautiful dancers do the talking and I'll just write a little about this incredible occasion here.
Anna Kuulusa, a dancer and dance teacher, choreographer, producer and an owner of Dance Studio Razzmatazz was organizing a one of a kind, full night dance show "Head Over Heels" for her dance group K. Company in a concert hall in Tampere, Finland earlier this year. We know each other from years ago through a mutual friend.
One day, out of the blue, Anna contacted me saying that she liked my TH-cam videos and would like me to do a song for her show with a sensual theme of the word "Skin" and how it feels.
I have had a dream of making music since I was a little girl. It has always been my number one goal in life. But I'm also a big procrastinator and afraid to put myself out there, so even though I've been making music for years now on my own, I have still never published any of my own songs.
So, before I had time to start freaking out or doubting myself, I just said yes to Anna. I recognized that this is THE opportunity I have been waiting for and now I just have to jump off the mountain I've been climbing on for years.
Anna gave me free hands to create the song, no limitations but the length. The text, or the poem came first, as it usually does for me. Through some trials and errors I found the mood and the soundscape I thought matched with the theme. Quite easily the song came together, even though I have never made this type of music before. Hesitantly, I sent the file to Anna and, of course, immediately regretted that I never signed up for this. Quite quickly she just answered "Yes, this is perfect".
So suddenly, there I sat, almost hyperventilating in a concert hall. Reading the programme over and over. Is that really my name on one of the songs? How did I do this? Did I really even make the song? I can't make music, who do I think I am?
But when the performance for my song was starting and the lights dimmed down, all these thoughts and doubts wore off. I felt like I was observing the whole thing as an outsider. I watched the dancers move so effortlessly, like honey flowing through the stage. I heard my song play in the hall and saw people quietly listening. I sat and marveled at how the dancers perfectly expressed the thoughts I had while I was making the song, and how they turned them into visible, almost palpable emotions.
What a miraculous thing it is to watch such a talent.
The evening was filled with a couple of hours of pure poise and all the emotions from melancholy to humour and joy through the dance performances. I was in awe. The amount of work behind a full night's production is humongous and to think that Anna was herself behind the whole thing, producing, organizing, choreographing and also dancing in most of the performances made me question if she is a human at all or some sort of super alien.
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Now it's funny to think that what I've been dreaming of for two decades, became reality in one night. And all it took was just a little nudge from someone else.
So I want to thank Anna for this opportunity and all the dancers, the beautiful souls who create something so otherworldly through their bodies for us mortals to experience.
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Am I now entitled to use the title Artist? I don't know, but it's not regulated so I'll just do it and encourage everyone else to do the same if they feel like it. :D
Until next time,
Saaga Helena
Artist (Right?)
Choreography - Anna Kuulusa IG @annakuulusa
Dancers - K. Company IG @kcompanyfinland
Lights - Esko Ansami
Music & lyrics - Saaga Helena IG @saagahelena