DUDE YOU ARE AWESOME. DONT LOSE HOPE. I CAN RELATE ABOIT THE HEADPHONES / Screens to keep the darkness away. The unfairness, the fact that most people are garbage etc. You are a brave and beautiful human. We are about the same age. 💖💖💖💖 Again, hair looks AWESOME.
I remember when I was a kid thinking adults knew everything, now I'm an adult and I realize how lost everyone is and it's terrifying. I'll never get my dad to love me enough to make up for the loss I felt when my mother abandoned me. I'll never get that to happen because he can only give what he has, and the chain of pain and spiritual desolation didn't start with me and him, it goes way back in our genetic line. We all want love in a way to make us forget pain, but nobody can complete us, we can only take inventory of the world around us and complete ourselves. I spent my youth doped up on medication too, and it's only now I've turned 40 that I'm having a mid-life awakening to how I myself have treated others and how my own tribulations are holding me back from making the next step. We're both over 40 and that's frightening too man, scary that the stuff that hurt us so much as little boys can tether us from achieving what we inherently know is rightfully ours in the now. I feel led to be the love to others that was never shown to me, so in the spirit of that, know you're loved and respected man, by us, bald weirdos on the internet. Really wish I could contact you, but maybe this is the way it's meant to be. From one chaotic 40-something to another, you make my day a little brighter when you upload.
Thanks for sharing your background. Takes a lot of courage to talk so openly about your past on such a public platform. Perhaps talking about it is a sign of handling things a bit better / coming to terms with it - don't mean to be patronising if I've got the wrong end of the stick by saying that. Look after yourself - you have a community of followers who are very fond of you.
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ I applaud you for having the valor to share your difficult childhood with us. Therefore, I'm so sorry that you had to go through such a difficult times. I learned long ago a hard lesson, Do Not expect from someone something that they have not decided to give you. Expecting more of the people we love is the greatest cause of disappointment, and giving more to those who do not deserve it as well. Life does not give you the people you need to love yourself, to mistreat yourself, but in the end life helps you to become the person you were destined to be. Life doesn't get easier, You become stronger. Your life will get better when you realize it's better to be alone, than to chase people who don't really care about you. Your value does not decrease based upon someone's inability to see your worth. Never regret a day in your life, good days give you happiness, bad days give you experience, worst days give you lessons, and best days give you memories. Take care of yourself and those who truly care for you.
I haven't watched this video (yet!), but I know you've been through some hard stuff from what you have said in older videos. I just wanna say, you are the man! Obviously I can't speak for anyone else, but if I may presume for a second, a lot of your viewers are really fond of you, dude.
If your father is not willing to give you closure, why do you permit yourself to be tortured by him? Distance yourself mentally and if necessary physically from him. We all have or own demons, but yours seem to have gnawed at you all of your life. These demons are what is preventing happiness in your life. Find a way to lock them out, not just away, and learn to breathe freely.
I’m feeling u bro , came from some similar shit myself, my guess is your never gonna get closure with your dad , if he dropped dead tomorrow & u knowing he’s not around anymore enjoying himself & not appreciating your sacrifices etc etc , would u feel better ?? If so , eject him from your life now ,
hi dude, been a while....can relate to everything and parents will always be selfish fks even when they think they gave u everything in life, "i done my best" or "i gave you everything" or "i brought you into this world" thats when you know they have been selfish from the moment you were born...not to mention all the other heavy sht as you grow up and constantly blaimed for everything!! (22:52 - please do this to all my family members especially my mother, thank you) And for what it's worth, you are our family dude, my brother and you must keep on living or I will go down the path of suicide if you go. Not many of us left in the world, Good people that is.
Hey dude I’ve had my fair share of struggles too but maybe it’s would be nothing compared to yours. I think that you could benefit from meditation and possibly psychedelics. You have to realign your values and try to accept your past. Maybe it’s just a bunch of shit and I won’t work for you but it did for me. I think you said you have had psychosis so be careful with psychedelics. Also getting a pet is an amazing source of therapy.
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DUDE YOU ARE AWESOME. DONT LOSE HOPE. I CAN RELATE ABOIT THE HEADPHONES / Screens to keep the darkness away. The unfairness, the fact that most people are garbage etc. You are a brave and beautiful human. We are about the same age. 💖💖💖💖 Again, hair looks AWESOME.
Thank you for sharing your story. Hang in there, you are awesome. I love watching your videos. *hugs*
Dude I totally forgot about your unit. It looks so natural. Kudos for the story, respect!
I remember when I was a kid thinking adults knew everything, now I'm an adult and I realize how lost everyone is and it's terrifying. I'll never get my dad to love me enough to make up for the loss I felt when my mother abandoned me. I'll never get that to happen because he can only give what he has, and the chain of pain and spiritual desolation didn't start with me and him, it goes way back in our genetic line. We all want love in a way to make us forget pain, but nobody can complete us, we can only take inventory of the world around us and complete ourselves. I spent my youth doped up on medication too, and it's only now I've turned 40 that I'm having a mid-life awakening to how I myself have treated others and how my own tribulations are holding me back from making the next step. We're both over 40 and that's frightening too man, scary that the stuff that hurt us so much as little boys can tether us from achieving what we inherently know is rightfully ours in the now. I feel led to be the love to others that was never shown to me, so in the spirit of that, know you're loved and respected man, by us, bald weirdos on the internet. Really wish I could contact you, but maybe this is the way it's meant to be. From one chaotic 40-something to another, you make my day a little brighter when you upload.
❤️
hope things are going well
Thanks for sharing your background. Takes a lot of courage to talk so openly about your past on such a public platform. Perhaps talking about it is a sign of handling things a bit better / coming to terms with it - don't mean to be patronising if I've got the wrong end of the stick by saying that. Look after yourself - you have a community of followers who are very fond of you.
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ I applaud you for having the valor to share your difficult childhood with us. Therefore, I'm so sorry that you had to go through such a difficult times. I learned long ago a hard lesson, Do Not expect from someone something that they have not decided to give you. Expecting more of the people we love is the greatest cause of disappointment, and giving more to those who do not deserve it as well. Life does not give you the people you need to love yourself, to mistreat yourself, but in the end life helps you to become the person you were destined to be. Life doesn't get easier, You become stronger. Your life will get better when you realize it's better to be alone, than to chase people who don't really care about you. Your value does not decrease based upon someone's inability to see your worth. Never regret a day in your life, good days give you happiness, bad days give you experience, worst days give you lessons, and best days give you memories. Take care of yourself and those who truly care for you.
I haven't watched this video (yet!), but I know you've been through some hard stuff from what you have said in older videos. I just wanna say, you are the man! Obviously I can't speak for anyone else, but if I may presume for a second, a lot of your viewers are really fond of you, dude.
I second this
Well said
If your father is not willing to give you closure, why do you permit yourself to be tortured by him? Distance yourself mentally and if necessary physically from him. We all have or own demons, but yours seem to have gnawed at you all of your life. These demons are what is preventing happiness in your life. Find a way to lock them out, not just away, and learn to breathe freely.
I’m sorry for your pain and suffering, screw the people that caused it.
I’m feeling u bro , came from some similar shit myself, my guess is your never gonna get closure with your dad , if he dropped dead tomorrow & u knowing he’s not around anymore enjoying himself & not appreciating your sacrifices etc etc , would u feel better ?? If so , eject him from your life now ,
❤️
hi dude, been a while....can relate to everything and parents will always be selfish fks even when they think they gave u everything in life, "i done my best" or "i gave you everything" or "i brought you into this world" thats when you know they have been selfish from the moment you were born...not to mention all the other heavy sht as you grow up and constantly blaimed for everything!! (22:52 - please do this to all my family members especially my mother, thank you)
And for what it's worth, you are our family dude, my brother and you must keep on living or I will go down the path of suicide if you go. Not many of us left in the world, Good people that is.
Hey dude I’ve had my fair share of struggles too but maybe it’s would be nothing compared to yours. I think that you could benefit from meditation and possibly psychedelics. You have to realign your values and try to accept your past. Maybe it’s just a bunch of shit and I won’t work for you but it did for me. I think you said you have had psychosis so be careful with psychedelics. Also getting a pet is an amazing source of therapy.
Ask yourself this . .
Would it matter if he came to you now with sympathy, empathy toward you?