me singing

Another thing I'm thinking I'm gonna do for myself once we are settled, is get some voice training to learn how to use my new voice. I had an amazing voice before testosterone, and the tone and power is still there, but as someone who was trained to sing high soprano most of my life, I don't have the skill set to lower an octave or more on que. I just don't. I love to sing, It makes me happy, and my singing makes others happy, but it can be so much better if I'm taught how to work with it. I think then, after I am comfortable with how my voice responds. I am going to blind audition for America's got talent. I auditioned in 2013. I got the call back, but I couldn't go because of my 1st husband.
By blind audition. I mean singing the first half of whatever song I choose behind the stage. Or behind a curtain. So I cannot be judged for my appearance and my wheelchair. They will hear my voice first, before they see me. Once I have the judges and audience hooked, and I can either hear or see it (depending on how I decide to do it) I will then reveal myself and finish the song. I don't really want a career in music. Not truly. Maybe back up vocals for someone, but that's it.
No, I want to prove to myself that I am good enough, and that my appearance doesn't define me. I am not a "conventionally" attractive person (frankly I feel I'm not an attractive person at all) but I am a good singer, I'm a fantastic writer (I've won awards in the past) and I want to use my voice to elevate the voices of those who feel like their own are drowned out by the noises of the world. I never want to speak for anyone. Definitely not. But I want to be able to eventually have some kind of platform that allows me to "hand the mic over" to those who need it. If that makes any sense