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You inspire me to tell my story and that's actually what I'm working on rn. I'm making a video of my story for my channel. If you would check it out when I upload it, it would mean allot. Thank you.
Keep going Clayton. I fight paranoia and depression lately myself. I fight back with prayer and praise. You’ve got a lot left to offer God and you use it so well. Love, prayers, and respect. Keep fighting....
My brother hung his self from depression and anxiety and heart break everyday I cry I loved him so much and my mom just died from cancer. In all alone and my life is hell and then my dad got shot by a drive by I was with him I dissent get shot but when he fell I putt his head in my hands and he died right there ples help I already ran from two fosters homes I'm only 13 . I can't live this life no more ples help😭
You need to go back I hate to say it but things are going to be ruff. You need to talk to someone let us know. But you need a hobby to pass the time and to try and get along with others. Foster homes in general brings a lot of people together from a wide range of like between loss, surrendered, and the likes it's not easy. In your foster home just talk to others in general they likely come from the same shit that your going through to. Best for luck
Hi, God loves even though we can't earn it. And that's grace and love not meant to condemn; God wants us to have his love, that's why he gave his life. If it's Some one else, then try surrendering it. Because it feels hopeless working for something you can't receive even if you did or didn't earn it. :) ❤️
When you are going through something and then realize that all the pain and the sorrows the hurt come to life and you don't know anymore of who you are Thank you Clayton.
Like you said, I can’t understand exactly what you feel. But I’m also fighting anxiety and depression every day. Confused with what God wants from me. Fighting the darkest thoughts. I see God using you to help so many. I hope you can see that too. Thank you for your raw honesty. ❤️🙏
Mr. Clayton Jennings. Sir I just wanted to say that I hope that the Lord continues to bless you with the gift that he has given you in reaching out to others with the knowledge and wisdom you speak. That's man honestly. From the bottom of my heart. Thank you.
I can relate when he said "please don't kill yourself saved me" because it did! i may have never met you but you have already helped so much in my life. I'm praying for you brother, I can only begin to imagine the pain and walking in your shoes. There's a lot of us in your corner keep fighting were here like you were there for us! Much love and Many Prayers!
I listen to these spoken word poems every day just hoping that I'll stop thinking about killing myself, you've helped me a lot even though you don't know me you still have helped me, and I thank you for that, you're the reason I'm still here
This actually made me cry, I heard this and it got to me, how do u sing so deep, your amazing Clayton you keep all of your fans going me too I love you so much
I'm not a christian. i'm a Norse pagan and a vet of the us army. i know there are people on here that will probable say things about me and i honestly don't care. i just want to say your songs helped me iv seen and done so many things and id like to talk to you more. iv seen horrible things when i was over seas. but the most horrible things iv seen done was when i was home and to all the people reading this thank you
“ What’s the point of living, when life is a living hell? “ I keep asking myself the same. But I keep reminding myself that “ His Grace is sufficient “ like it was for Paul. And I would suggest you the same.
I’m glad I stayed by your side for the last year. I found you September last year and goddd am I thankful... you’re gods greatest messenger. I don’t think I can ever really comprehend just how many lives you’ve saved. Thank you Clayton🖤 I know you see these messages everyday but THANK you. God bless you.
I’ve been close to taking my own life because of depression listing to this and your don’t kill your self really hits home you tell the truth and don’t sugar coat it. And when you said “ you don’t know me if you not walked in my shoes” there is so much truth in that I’m a U.S. Army Vet and have seen and did stuff that lost people haven’t but they sit and judge, but I was taught that there is only one judge in life and that’s God. Thank you for what you say it’s the truth
This was my reality 9 months ago. I couldn't think straight, all I could hear and see was static. One night I was just tired, so exhausted of wanting to die everyday and my wishes not being fulfilled, that I screamed out GOD I CANT TAKE THIS PAIN ANYMORE TAKE IT AWAY OR I WILL. the first time I mentioned the name of Jesus in months, that night changed my life. I'm a worship leader now, I work in children's ministry, and I'm aspiring to become a pastor. Every time I listen to one of your messages I think, I wish I had this 9 months ago, this would've saved me from so much physical and emotional pain. Thank you, for being an inspiration to me, and for being the voice to others who are me 9 months ago, the person who wanted nothing more than for someone to "step inside my brain for 5 seconds and tell me what to do, tell me what to feel, tell me how to react. I can't do it anymore, my brain won't let me".
I just discovered you. I don't know who you are. But brother. I feel you 100. You ARE incredible. YOUR poetry touches every ounce of HUMANE human heart. Not all are humane anymore unfortunately. I don't know but this is on replay... Over and over and over and over... And thank you for speaking for me when I am not able to speak these things to relieve. God bless you brother. God bless you and your loved ones. And your life. The pain is deep and its real and you created something out of it. God's gotchu. I feel the same way... God bless you. Love you broski. I don't who you are, but thank you
I point people to Heaven but you condemn them to Hell, wow! That line got me brother Clayton. Keep leading People to Christ, keep reaching out to the lost and the depressed, broken and hopeless with your message of Hope. God bless you for every little thing you've done for the Kingdom. Remember the glory which lies ahead is much greater and better than what is here. Keep running the race of life and it can never be over as long as God is in control. Hang on there. You are loved.
I have always dealt with low self esteem, anxiety, PTSD and depression...for as far back as I can remember. I was a foster child, placed in homes that were nightmares. I thought I won the battle of it all, until recently. My life has been a constant struggle this last year and I'm overwhelmed and not sure where I belong or do I belong. I just told my friend today, does God even know I'm here? Maybe I'm not worthy enough for him to listen to me. I sat down tonight and this came across my TH-cam feed. EVERY word you spoke, spoke to me. I so enjoy your words. I don't feel so alone. Thank you!!!!!
Speak life Clayton... God created all things through His Word... Speak Life, Speak The Word, Speak Jesus! Love you man. Been there... I’m a lot better now.
I saw "We all struggle" in rehab. I've never heard you before, (understand I'm 64.) I got out today and checked you out & I'm blown away. It's like you who I am. Thank you for your powerful words about Jesus.....
God is using you to minister to all of us! Your life has a ton of meaning! I listen to your content all the time! The devil your right wants you to not feel important to the world!! GOD uses the broken to minister to the masses!! Keep looking up because that's where it all is!!
Can we just give the man the peace he seeks? Like c'mon guys, he says himself that our praise makes him insecure, and i know from experience that praise sometimes makes it worse. I'm not claiming to understand you Clayton and I'm not gonna sit here and talk about how I relate. Like "wow that's so me" or "that verse hit me deep" But you asked for peace so I'm gonna give it to you, i'm not gonna judge you as a good man or bad, I'm just gonna listen to what you have to say. Cause nobody needs validation from a TH-cam comments section, your value is independent of who's lives you impact. You're valuable because you're here, and you have something to say. So since you're here and you have something to say, I'm just gonna listen without telling you that you have to be okay. I think we all owe it to Clayton to be listeners and not "fans" who grapple for his attention. Just listen to what he has to say, you don't have to say anything to him, you just have to listen.
Clayton you’re not alone. Know God smiles on you honey. You do so much good. You have no idea how many you have saved. Praise God for you and your words, and for not being afraid to speak the most important words ever written. Love you. God bless you.
Clayton, I was just released from the hospital yesterday. I live with an autoimmune in my brain - Cerebral Lupus. I have been fighting for my life. I look healthy, so everyone questions me, am I really sick, I can read their minds? Family members don't invite me away, friends stay clear all because it's too much for them to handle. It has broken me! I have yearned for Heaven more than anything else, suicide has never been an option, until now! My best friend admitted me and they found a chemical imbalance. However, your words, your life, your truth and your wild and raw self have helped me more times than you will ever know. ROCK ON brother! You inspire the world to 'WAKE UP' and you inspire those of us who don't know what to do with these feelings. THANK you! You are one of HIS ANGELS, BIG wings! Grateful always.... keep going, keep strong, keep being real and keep telling us what you are feeling....
Thank you Clayton, this is your purpose to help others through their struggles. Those who cannot appreciate that you have your own fight while trying to encourage others - are blind to the strength that is inside of you. I hope there is a faithful someone you can turn to during times of need to pray with you.
Clayton you are saying everything that I have wanted to and just so afraid to. I live this for so long that I'm tired of this hell that I have been living.
Clayton please don't ever leave us.. I know its hard I totally understand what your going through every night for hours I cry until I fall asleep I've taken my life so many times yet I'm still here I feel as if im being forced to live a life that I don't even want and I can tell you feel the same... Your music reaches so many of us... And its truly great... You don't know me but if you ever need someone to just listen not say anything at all to just listen I will be here for you
Brother you hit it again. I feel you right now this is so true you couldn’t of said it any better. Life seems to be getting harder day by day. You have helped me through a lot and pray that god will touch you with his peace. Love ya brother keep your head up.
Clayton. The realness in your poetry inspires me. Your courage to be yourself inspires me to be myself. It's not all sunshine and rainbows. The picture of me has two sides like a coin. God accepts and loves all of it. Just like he loves you and all of us. Keep up the good work
Deep brotha I can’t say that I’m a stranger to what you think, I love and admire how real and open you are! I’m praying that whatever you’ve been praying for comes to you and that God will remind you that he hears you regardless of what everyone else says I know Jesus loves you is pleased with you and is proud of you not everyone can speak out brotha it takes a lot and it’s not easy it asking to go not war with the Devil but I know you Know Jesus wins! Love you and will continue to pray and support you🙏🏻
Man, you are going to come out of this so strong, an immovable force with God inside you and an insanely moving testimony. Hang in there, I’m praying for you.
This deep poetry hits home, sometimes I would of already gave up if it wasn't for God. Since he loves us so much, the devil knows that it's spiritual and wants you to give up to burn with him. That's the only reason I still walk today. God bless all God's children fighting this unseen war!
What a talented young man. We are all in this together. You say what most of us are too afraid to say.. God bless you over and over again my brother. May our good and loving God keep you forever!
You’re the realist Christian figure I’ve ever seen. I came across your videos 3 years ago and I’m still following Clayton. You’ve blessed me and countless others. Hang in for your family’s sake
Oh Clayton, I'm so sorry that you're struggling to hold on. So many of us have been there or are there now and your words are helping us hold on. Please keep fighting! Don't let the devil win!!! I'm praying for you.
Clayton, I feel your pain through every word, I have lived in chronic pain for over twenty-five years and often find myself crying out to God, "Where are you?" I know He is still right beside me and will never leave me to bear this alone, so, I fight on. The race isn't easy but I refuse to stop running, understanding, this fight is mine but the battle belongs to God. I FIGHT ON!
This is the truth that I live everyday. It's a life long struggle. Thank you for sharing the message for all of us that don't belong. Keep your head up and stay strong.
Love your words my brother!!! As a pastor myself I understand more than u could really know...but one thing I can say is you have helped me in so many ways just by your gift your talent, you through Christ have helped make me well!!! Thank u please don’t stop, you inspire so many God Bless my friend
Dear Clayton I can relate to every word u say I wanna tell u that if it wasnt for u I really don't think I would be here your words touch my soul deep down in my spirit i also relate to poetry n most of your songs put tears in my eyes I've never experienced anything quite like it I truly mean it when I say thanks n I have the utmost respect for the courage n strength u show I admire u brother n u are a hero to so many of us that are lost n don't know where to go from here thanks again brother in Christ luv ya
Crisis poetry relief and it sells I'm loud in my poetry but live in a shell Clayton jennings speaks the truth I come from a small city where theres no opportunities I just want to live but like 2pac Why am I dying to live if im living to die
Man this is one of the most deepest poems you get made I hear and feel the pain in this Clayton bro your strong you push on when others quit you still reach others with your poems even when people slander you I admire your strength to he honest I wish I had strength like that
clayton thank you god has given you the ability to be real and speak your truth and threw your truth you save people man i watch alot of your videos and relate so much and feel like you have walked 100 miles in my shoes when im in my bad places you really help me remeber that god has a an for allnof us no matter how our minds work
I have been struggling with my depression and anxiety and my faith in my God and your video popped up on my timeline and I watched it and I spoke those 3 words JESUS HELP ME! and believe it or not I heard my Father God speaking to me again and I am so grateful for you putting your videos out there because of those 3 words you told me to say i was pulled from the dark back into the light so God bless you my brother
Thank you for being so genuinely you. I recently came across your TH-cam channel and it is helping me find me again. I can only imagine what it took to discover yourself and the path you have been down. Thank you for all that you do and all that you share with the world it means something.
Clayton what you’re doing and what you keep doing inspires many and I’m one of them,you helped me to keep pushing when I was at my weakest,you kept me going when I thought it’s time to give up,and because of you I’m still here,the voices in my head aren’t gone completely and the demons that creep up on me when I’m alone haven’t gone away entirely but I’ve learned to overcome them every time they come,I tried living with demons but got tired because they just invite more,you taught me to push them away in a way I never thought possible,and now because of you I know giving up is not an option.
💖 so powerful. May God continue to use you and strengthen you. May Jehovah Rapha heal our minds and the Holy Spirit fill us up daily. In Jesus' name, amen.
10:5 Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ; This verse really helped me understand the expectation of God in regards to my thought life. I need to take EVERY thought into captivity to make sure it is obedient to Christ. Hopefully that will help you.
I couldn't look away not for even a second! The part where you talked about if you dont teach your daughter to define herself then someone else will just spoke to me. You're such an inspiration. You inspired me to start my own spoken words, I uploaded my first one today! It talks about uncertainty. If anyone is going through this too, listen to it and let me know what you're thinking.
never give up Clayton. i know it’s hard. it’s really hard. i support you with every bit of me. no one will ever help me as much as you do. please. i need you. and if you need a break, we’ll all understand. God bless. i love you💜💜
Really really needed to hear tthis, even if it hurts and breaks my heart to know so many people relate and you, yourself struggle so much it's good to know we are never alone. I hope it gets easier for you and that this season will pass and the next one will be full of joy and peace. Thank you for all of the poetry and also the realness, while also speaking of God. We are here for you and even God is even if it feels like he's far away in the clouds somewhere.
I've done the same thing. Nights I was withdrawing from pain meds and wanting to kill myself I would listen to almost every video I could find of his. Clayton has an ability to somehow comfort us just by knowing we are not alone.
Praying for peace and understanding for you Clayton. I can't even imagine what you are going through. All I know is God loves you and we do too! Take care of yourself and your family. They need you more than we do. People are just plain ignorant haters. You deserve to be happy and not feel like you are in hell. God will see you through this mess. Stay strong and have faith. I am praying diligently for you my friend. God bless.
Wow you just explained my entire life from 9yrs old till now 36years old,fighting demons everyday ❤️I feel you brother & I don’t feel a lot ,numb from the pills 💊 stay strong 💪 you’re purpose is to save people and to have that power WOW you can get through this....”and this too shall pass”🥰lots of love ❤️
I wake up, and my mind starts racing So I throw up, and I start pacing You say you've never had anxiety, my God, that must be amazing I can’t find the root of mine, believe me, I've tried tracing But I walk around like your words don't phase me Inside I hate it when people trash me but feel insecure when they praise me "Clayton, your poetry is incredible You honestly amaze me Dear Anxiety helped me, and Please Don’t Kill Yourself saved me" Suicidal thoughts force me to picture Arabelle and Jamie, and the beast inside of me is like, "Clayton, can't tame me!" It's the depression talking when I feel crazy And that's more often than not, lately I look to Heaven like, "God, please save me!", and I get nothing in return The devil sits back blushing as I burn I feel disgusting, my stomach turns Why do people obsess over me? This isn't your concern You wanna know the real me? Just listen, and you'll learn I'm tired of working for something that I can't earn I’m tired of falling when it’s my turn I'm tired of these voices, and I’m tired of you It's like my fans judge me for every little thing that I do "I heard this about you, Clayton, is it true? Is it true?" As if somehow I answer to you Heres a suggestion, I'll do me, and you do you Don't act like you know me if you’ve never walked in my shoes I've been slandered, manipulated, and physically abused So I write poetry because it helps with the blues I listen to the man in the mirror, and he helps me choose That's why I tell my daughter to be herself, and she's only two Because I know if she doesn't define herself, someone else will I tried finding my peace in the shape of a pill Along came the devil to take and to kill I trust nobody, are they fake or are they real? I lie awake shaking, and I can't sit still Crying out, "Help me!", but nobody will There's a time to laugh and a time to kill And to be honest, I'm ready to die I have no more tears left to cry, "Yo, God, why did You make me, huh?! Answer me, why?!" Can't save me, but I still try Like I'm doing CPR on myself Crisis poetry relief, and it sells And the picture of my girls just sits on my shelf I feel a shift in my health The devil comes lurking, and I'm overwhelmed He wants the spotlight, and I want the stealth I want peace, the world wants wealth We're not alike, look at me, I can tell Broken ribs from Christians who kicked me when I fell I point people to Heaven, you condemn them to H-ll I'm thirsty for living water, man, where's that well? I'm not okay, and I don't feel well I got a secret for you if you promise not to tell I'm loud in my poetry but live alone in a shell Been so close to death, I got a whiff of its' smell It's like I've been cursed by some witch with a spell Been struggling to stay afloat if you can't tell Waves of anxiety, I get swept in the swells Imprisoned in my paranoia, I'm locked in its' cell What's the point in living when life's a living h-ll?
this is so incredible. super sad to think others feel the exact same pain i do- i would never wish this level of pain on anyone. God bless all of you. for real.
Clayton, I want you to know that I heard your message. It was a message that I needed more than ANYONE knows. Surrendering is so easy when it's to darkness, but for some reason, surrendering to HIM seems impossible. I have hope, even though it seems to grow smaller every day. Your message helps me hold on to the little bit of hope I have left. Thank you.
Omg! I was waiting for this new vid! All lot will ask you for help but I'm just going to tell you that I'm praying for you and I hope you have some relief soon.
I had no one but songs that pulled me away from my suicidal thoughts and it wasn’t easy. But I won’t drink anymore and doing better now. Thank you Clayton Jennings
My prayers for you brother. I hear you and just know that we are not only here to listen. We might be stranger's but we are here to help carry that weight. The devil is strong against one but not against all of use. You help for all to see. We help where god can. Stay strong.
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Praying for you Clayton. Don’t give up
always praying for you, thankyou for everything you do but take care of yourself x
You inspire me to tell my story and that's actually what I'm working on rn. I'm making a video of my story for my channel. If you would check it out when I upload it, it would mean allot. Thank you.
Keep it up brother
Keep going Clayton. I fight paranoia and depression lately myself. I fight back with prayer and praise. You’ve got a lot left to offer God and you use it so well. Love, prayers, and respect. Keep fighting....
"Like I'm doing CPR on myself". Honestly, no absolute words, like wow...
2:28 "I'm loud in my poetry, but live alone in a shell." Favorite line of that entire piece. So powerful
“Been so close to death I got a wiff of its smell”. That really hit me .. 😕💔
same here i have been a the breaking point to where that happened to where it's like he read what i wanted to say
My brother hung his self from depression and anxiety and heart break everyday I cry I loved him so much and my mom just died from cancer. In all alone and my life is hell and then my dad got shot by a drive by I was with him I dissent get shot but when he fell I putt his head in my hands and he died right there ples help I already ran from two fosters homes I'm only 13 . I can't live this life no more ples help😭
damn man i feel so sorry for you , i thiught my life was hard but yours seems just as bad
Mandy Harrelson damn bro u had it hard 💔
They say suicide isn't the way to go but when there is no other way what do you do
I hope you doing oke, but if you want to talk about anything anything at all let me know.
I'm here if you need someone that really listens.
You need to go back I hate to say it but things are going to be ruff. You need to talk to someone let us know. But you need a hobby to pass the time and to try and get along with others. Foster homes in general brings a lot of people together from a wide range of like between loss, surrendered, and the likes it's not easy. In your foster home just talk to others in general they likely come from the same shit that your going through to. Best for luck
"I'm tired of working for something that I can't earn" that's when the journey of endurance begins,when you push still regardless
Mabel Ndlovu what if that thing you can’t earn is someone’s love.
Hi, God loves even though we can't earn it. And that's grace and love not meant to condemn; God wants us to have his love, that's why he gave his life. If it's Some one else, then try surrendering it. Because it feels hopeless working for something you can't receive even if you did or didn't earn it. :) ❤️
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Clayton, this is beautiful. I know a lot of people that can relate to this and I know I needed this, so thank you
Bella Barriga yes I relate to thos
This
I can relate to this 110%
I needed this found the song and you Clayton tonight…..I’m mentally drained …..I’m definitely not loving myself anymore and that’s bad
@@k4nd136 I hope you're doing better and still listening to Clayton... head high and peace to you.
You have just said everything I've never been able to. 😭😭. This is my life!😭😭
When you are going through something and then realize that all the pain and the sorrows the hurt come to life and you don't know anymore of who you are
Thank you Clayton.
DON'T ACT LIKE YOU KNOW ME IF YOU'VE NEVER WALKED IN MY SHOES/
- Clayton Jennings
Clayton you have helped me with all of my demons through your music thank you
Korbster World it’s not music it’s poetry big difference
@@alyssah.3161 Clayton himself uses the word music to describe his music. He puts poetry into music. So no need there to correct someone.
Like you said, I can’t understand exactly what you feel. But I’m also fighting anxiety and depression every day. Confused with what God wants from me. Fighting the darkest thoughts.
I see God using you to help so many. I hope you can see that too. Thank you for your raw honesty. ❤️🙏
The point of living is the lives you keep on changing everyday. Clayton you are a blessing to this generation. You are a blessing to me.
We love you Clayton stay strong 😔❤
Amen
Amen ❤️
You have helped me with all my demons, your spoken words have hit so deep in my heart. I love you Clayton and thank you for your help.
This song is chilling....
And even more so, cause I know. I’ve lived it.
Thank you
Mr. Clayton Jennings. Sir I just wanted to say that I hope that the Lord continues to bless you with the gift that he has given you in reaching out to others with the knowledge and wisdom you speak. That's man honestly. From the bottom of my heart. Thank you.
"Dear anxiety" helped me and "Please don't kill yourself saved me😭😭Facts!!❣
I can relate when he said "please don't kill yourself saved me" because it did! i may have never met you but you have already helped so much in my life. I'm praying for you brother, I can only begin to imagine the pain and walking in your shoes. There's a lot of us in your corner keep fighting were here like you were there for us! Much love and Many Prayers!
You have always been a mentor to me i share your stories in my local church and i know well its God work.. Thank you keep preaching jesus
I listen to these spoken word poems every day just hoping that I'll stop thinking about killing myself, you've helped me a lot even though you don't know me you still have helped me, and I thank you for that, you're the reason I'm still here
This actually made me cry, I heard this and it got to me, how do u sing so deep, your amazing Clayton you keep all of your fans going me too I love you so much
I'm not a christian. i'm a Norse pagan and a vet of the us army. i know there are people on here that will probable say things about me and i honestly don't care. i just want to say your songs helped me iv seen and done so many things and id like to talk to you more. iv seen horrible things when i was over seas. but the most horrible things iv seen done was when i was home and to all the people reading this thank you
“ What’s the point of living, when life is a living hell? “ I keep asking myself the same. But I keep reminding myself that “ His Grace is sufficient “ like it was for Paul. And I would suggest you the same.
True 😔
Yep!
I’m glad I stayed by your side for the last year. I found you September last year and goddd am I thankful... you’re gods greatest messenger. I don’t think I can ever really comprehend just how many lives you’ve saved. Thank you Clayton🖤 I know you see these messages everyday but THANK you. God bless you.
I’ve been close to taking my own life because of depression listing to this and your don’t kill your self really hits home you tell the truth and don’t sugar coat it. And when you said “ you don’t know me if you not walked in my shoes” there is so much truth in that I’m a U.S. Army Vet and have seen and did stuff that lost people haven’t but they sit and judge, but I was taught that there is only one judge in life and that’s God. Thank you for what you say it’s the truth
Clayton is a beautiful poet. His lyrics hit me in a different way. Every word he's spoken feels like he's talking to me.
This was my reality 9 months ago. I couldn't think straight, all I could hear and see was static. One night I was just tired, so exhausted of wanting to die everyday and my wishes not being fulfilled, that I screamed out GOD I CANT TAKE THIS PAIN ANYMORE TAKE IT AWAY OR I WILL. the first time I mentioned the name of Jesus in months, that night changed my life. I'm a worship leader now, I work in children's ministry, and I'm aspiring to become a pastor. Every time I listen to one of your messages I think, I wish I had this 9 months ago, this would've saved me from so much physical and emotional pain. Thank you, for being an inspiration to me, and for being the voice to others who are me 9 months ago, the person who wanted nothing more than for someone to "step inside my brain for 5 seconds and tell me what to do, tell me what to feel, tell me how to react. I can't do it anymore, my brain won't let me".
I just discovered you. I don't know who you are. But brother. I feel you 100. You ARE incredible. YOUR poetry touches every ounce of HUMANE human heart. Not all are humane anymore unfortunately. I don't know but this is on replay... Over and over and over and over... And thank you for speaking for me when I am not able to speak these things to relieve. God bless you brother. God bless you and your loved ones. And your life. The pain is deep and its real and you created something out of it. God's gotchu. I feel the same way... God bless you. Love you broski. I don't who you are, but thank you
I point people to Heaven but you condemn them to Hell, wow! That line got me brother Clayton. Keep leading People to Christ, keep reaching out to the lost and the depressed, broken and hopeless with your message of Hope. God bless you for every little thing you've done for the Kingdom. Remember the glory which lies ahead is much greater and better than what is here. Keep running the race of life and it can never be over as long as God is in control. Hang on there. You are loved.
I have always dealt with low self esteem, anxiety, PTSD and depression...for as far back as I can remember. I was a foster child, placed in homes that were nightmares. I thought I won the battle of it all, until recently. My life has been a constant struggle this last year and I'm overwhelmed and not sure where I belong or do I belong. I just told my friend today, does God even know I'm here? Maybe I'm not worthy enough for him to listen to me. I sat down tonight and this came across my TH-cam feed. EVERY word you spoke, spoke to me. I so enjoy your words. I don't feel so alone. Thank you!!!!!
Speak life Clayton... God created all things through His Word... Speak Life, Speak The Word, Speak Jesus! Love you man. Been there... I’m a lot better now.
Even off you don't feel strong, your words are. Don't give up... someone needs to hear these words. Thank you.
I saw "We all struggle" in rehab. I've never heard you before, (understand I'm 64.) I got out today and checked you out & I'm blown away. It's like you who I am. Thank you for your powerful words about Jesus.....
God is using you to minister to all of us! Your life has a ton of meaning! I listen to your content all the time! The devil your right wants you to not feel important to the world!! GOD uses the broken to minister to the masses!! Keep looking up because that's where it all is!!
Can we just give the man the peace he seeks? Like c'mon guys, he says himself that our praise makes him insecure, and i know from experience that praise sometimes makes it worse. I'm not claiming to understand you Clayton and I'm not gonna sit here and talk about how I relate. Like "wow that's so me" or "that verse hit me deep"
But you asked for peace so I'm gonna give it to you, i'm not gonna judge you as a good man or bad, I'm just gonna listen to what you have to say. Cause nobody needs validation from a TH-cam comments section, your value is independent of who's lives you impact. You're valuable because you're here, and you have something to say. So since you're here and you have something to say, I'm just gonna listen without telling you that you have to be okay.
I think we all owe it to Clayton to be listeners and not "fans" who grapple for his attention. Just listen to what he has to say, you don't have to say anything to him, you just have to listen.
Clayton you’re not alone. Know God smiles on you honey. You do so much good. You have no idea how many you have saved. Praise God for you and your words, and for not being afraid to speak the most important words ever written. Love you. God bless you.
Clayton, I was just released from the hospital yesterday. I live with an autoimmune in my brain - Cerebral Lupus. I have been fighting for my life. I look healthy, so everyone questions me, am I really sick, I can read their minds? Family members don't invite me away, friends stay clear all because it's too much for them to handle. It has broken me! I have yearned for Heaven more than anything else, suicide has never been an option, until now! My best friend admitted me and they found a chemical imbalance. However, your words, your life, your truth and your wild and raw self have helped me more times than you will ever know. ROCK ON brother! You inspire the world to 'WAKE UP' and you inspire those of us who don't know what to do with these feelings. THANK you! You are one of HIS ANGELS, BIG wings! Grateful always.... keep going, keep strong, keep being real and keep telling us what you are feeling....
Thank you for your words. I pray that you stay strong and never give up. Don't let the devil win. I pray God wraps you up and holds you close.
Thank you Clayton, this is your purpose to help others through their struggles. Those who cannot appreciate that you have your own fight while trying to encourage others - are blind to the strength that is inside of you. I hope there is a faithful someone you can turn to during times of need to pray with you.
That one disliker couldn't see what he/she did bexause of tears in their eyes...
Early tho...
Love you stay strong; I'll pray for you! ♡♡♡
Clayton you are saying everything that I have wanted to and just so afraid to. I live this for so long that I'm tired of this hell that I have been living.
Clayton please don't ever leave us.. I know its hard I totally understand what your going through every night for hours I cry until I fall asleep I've taken my life so many times yet I'm still here I feel as if im being forced to live a life that I don't even want and I can tell you feel the same... Your music reaches so many of us... And its truly great... You don't know me but if you ever need someone to just listen not say anything at all to just listen I will be here for you
Brother you hit it again. I feel you right now this is so true you couldn’t of said it any better. Life seems to be getting harder day by day. You have helped me through a lot and pray that god will touch you with his peace. Love ya brother keep your head up.
Hope all is well your fans miss you God bless brother keep up the good work love your videos!!💖🙏🔥💯👍
The only youtube chanell i click as soon as it gets uploaded is clayton
He is amazing he does real for everyone
love you clayton keep jesus known
Clayton. The realness in your poetry inspires me. Your courage to be yourself inspires me to be myself. It's not all sunshine and rainbows. The picture of me has two sides like a coin. God accepts and loves all of it. Just like he loves you and all of us. Keep up the good work
Stay strong, Clayton you give us all strength, thank you, thank you, we are all with you
Deep brotha I can’t say that I’m a stranger to what you think, I love and admire how real and open you are! I’m praying that whatever you’ve been praying for comes to you and that God will remind you that he hears you regardless of what everyone else says I know Jesus loves you is pleased with you and is proud of you not everyone can speak out brotha it takes a lot and it’s not easy it asking to go not war with the Devil but I know you Know Jesus wins! Love you and will continue to pray and support you🙏🏻
Man, you are going to come out of this so strong, an immovable force with God inside you and an insanely moving testimony. Hang in there, I’m praying for you.
This deep poetry hits home, sometimes I would of already gave up if it wasn't for God. Since he loves us so much, the devil knows that it's spiritual and wants you to give up to burn with him. That's the only reason I still walk today. God bless all God's children fighting this unseen war!
What a talented young man. We are all in this together. You say what most of us are too afraid to say.. God bless you over and over again my brother. May our good and loving God keep you forever!
You’re the realist Christian figure I’ve ever seen. I came across your videos 3 years ago and I’m still following Clayton. You’ve blessed me and countless others. Hang in for your family’s sake
Oh Clayton, I'm so sorry that you're struggling to hold on. So many of us have been there or are there now and your words are helping us hold on. Please keep fighting! Don't let the devil win!!! I'm praying for you.
Stay strong bro. You're touching lives and giving that strength to others. That alone makes you a star. You rock.
I relate to this so much. I listen to you're stuff and it helps me fight my demons.
1:39 that was deep that speaks my whole life in a few words man if I could explain it
This is exactly how I’m feeling right now.
:/
ur not alone. i'm there too.
Aw honey. Give me a hug 😘
I've been where you are. I went through depression. If you want to talk, im here sweetie😊
Madison Claire me too.
Clayton, I feel your pain through every word, I have lived in chronic pain for over twenty-five years and often find myself crying out to God, "Where are you?" I know He is still right beside me and will never leave me to bear this alone, so, I fight on. The race isn't easy but I refuse to stop running, understanding, this fight is mine but the battle belongs to God. I FIGHT ON!
This is the truth that I live everyday. It's a life long struggle. Thank you for sharing the message for all of us that don't belong.
Keep your head up and stay strong.
Love your words my brother!!! As a pastor myself I understand more than u could really know...but one thing I can say is you have helped me in so many ways just by your gift your talent, you through Christ have helped make me well!!! Thank u please don’t stop, you inspire so many God Bless my friend
Dear Clayton I can relate to every word u say I wanna tell u that if it wasnt for u I really don't think I would be here your words touch my soul deep down in my spirit i also relate to poetry n most of your songs put tears in my eyes I've never experienced anything quite like it I truly mean it when I say thanks n I have the utmost respect for the courage n strength u show I admire u brother n u are a hero to so many of us that are lost n don't know where to go from here thanks again brother in Christ luv ya
Thank you so much finally someone to reach me. I really needed that. I'll share this as far as I can. Thank you from the bottom of me heart
I love all of what you do, I’m in a shit place rn and this makes things better. Thank you
Crisis poetry relief and it sells
I'm loud in my poetry but live in a shell
Clayton jennings speaks the truth I come from a small city where theres no opportunities I just want to live but like 2pac
Why am I dying to live if im living to die
The depths of my heart felt this. We are stronger then we feel at times and this is our reality but we will keep pushing with Christ
I love clayton Jennings when I am sad I listen to you and sometime you make me happy thank you so muck I am a big fan.
Man this is one of the most deepest poems you get made I hear and feel the pain in this Clayton bro your strong you push on when others quit you still reach others with your poems even when people slander you I admire your strength to he honest I wish I had strength like that
clayton thank you god has given you the ability to be real and speak your truth and threw your truth you save people man i watch alot of your videos and relate so much and feel like you have walked 100 miles in my shoes when im in my bad places you really help me remeber that god has a an for allnof us no matter how our minds work
It's the depression talking when I feel crazy and it's more often then that lately
I have been struggling with my depression and anxiety and my faith in my God and your video popped up on my timeline and I watched it and I spoke those 3 words JESUS HELP ME! and believe it or not I heard my Father God speaking to me again and I am so grateful for you putting your videos out there because of those 3 words you told me to say i was pulled from the dark back into the light so God bless you my brother
Thank you for being so genuinely you. I recently came across your TH-cam channel and it is helping me find me again. I can only imagine what it took to discover yourself and the path you have been down. Thank you for all that you do and all that you share with the world it means something.
Clayton thank you i feel like giving up but i love Jesus hang in there you have saved me several times thank you.
Thanks..... I can only imagine the amount of people that you have touched with your music.... Those of us that suffer in silence are very thankful
Clayton what you’re doing and what you keep doing inspires many and I’m one of them,you helped me to keep pushing when I was at my weakest,you kept me going when I thought it’s time to give up,and because of you I’m still here,the voices in my head aren’t gone completely and the demons that creep up on me when I’m alone haven’t gone away entirely but I’ve learned to overcome them every time they come,I tried living with demons but got tired because they just invite more,you taught me to push them away in a way I never thought possible,and now because of you I know giving up is not an option.
I have no words. Absolutely incredible. Touching. Stay strong man. We’ve all got your back. Thank you for what you do!
I’LL BE PRAYING FOR YOU CLAYTON & REBUKING EVERY DEMON THAT TRIES TO COME UP AGAINST YOU 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽 THE DEVIL CAN’T HAVE YOU, YOU’RE KINGDOM !!!!😇😇
I am thankful for your brutal honesty!
I've lived that too!
God is amazing!
Blessings to you!
Found out about Clayton today and I gotta say his lyrics are soothing then anything I’ve heared from anyone else
💖 so powerful. May God continue to use you and strengthen you. May Jehovah Rapha heal our minds and the Holy Spirit fill us up daily. In Jesus' name, amen.
10:5 Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;
This verse really helped me understand the expectation of God in regards to my thought life. I need to take EVERY thought into captivity to make sure it is obedient to Christ. Hopefully that will help you.
Clayton I relate to this so much everyday is a fight for me and listening to you makes me feel better thank you
Jodie's Journey 🙏 we in this together u not alone bro
Jodie's Journey were in this together
I couldn't look away not for even a second! The part where you talked about if you dont teach your daughter to define herself then someone else will just spoke to me. You're such an inspiration. You inspired me to start my own spoken words, I uploaded my first one today! It talks about uncertainty. If anyone is going through this too, listen to it and let me know what you're thinking.
never give up Clayton. i know it’s hard. it’s really hard. i support you with every bit of me. no one will ever help me as much as you do. please. i need you. and if you need a break, we’ll all understand. God bless. i love you💜💜
Really really needed to hear tthis, even if it hurts and breaks my heart to know so many people relate and you, yourself struggle so much it's good to know we are never alone. I hope it gets easier for you and that this season will pass and the next one will be full of joy and peace. Thank you for all of the poetry and also the realness, while also speaking of God. We are here for you and even God is even if it feels like he's far away in the clouds somewhere.
I listened to all your songs even when I cannot sleep I listen to them into I fall asleep 😪👼🏼🚶🏼♂️
I've done the same thing. Nights I was withdrawing from pain meds and wanting to kill myself I would listen to almost every video I could find of his. Clayton has an ability to somehow comfort us just by knowing we are not alone.
@@michelle.shackelford That's the power of Jesus Christ, who is flowing through Clayton even though it seems like he doesn't realize it.
@@pubdasniper Amen amen amen amen!!!!
Praying for peace and understanding for you Clayton. I can't even imagine what you are going through. All I know is God loves you and we do too! Take care of yourself and your family. They need you more than we do. People are just plain ignorant haters. You deserve to be happy and not feel like you are in hell. God will see you through this mess. Stay strong and have faith. I am praying diligently for you my friend. God bless.
I don’t know what I would do without your poetry thank you
Every time I hear your voice I cry. Despite this, you empower me and you give me hope on my darkest days.
Wow you just explained my entire life from 9yrs old till now 36years old,fighting demons everyday ❤️I feel you brother & I don’t feel a lot ,numb from the pills 💊 stay strong 💪 you’re purpose is to save people and to have that power WOW you can get through this....”and this too shall pass”🥰lots of love ❤️
I wake up, and my mind starts racing
So I throw up, and I start pacing
You say you've never had anxiety, my God, that must be amazing
I can’t find the root of mine, believe me, I've tried tracing
But I walk around like your words don't phase me
Inside I hate it when people trash me but feel insecure when they praise me
"Clayton, your poetry is incredible
You honestly amaze me
Dear Anxiety helped me, and Please Don’t Kill Yourself saved me"
Suicidal thoughts force me to picture Arabelle and Jamie, and the beast inside of me is like, "Clayton, can't tame me!"
It's the depression talking when I feel crazy
And that's more often than not, lately
I look to Heaven like, "God, please save me!", and I get nothing in return
The devil sits back blushing as I burn
I feel disgusting, my stomach turns
Why do people obsess over me? This isn't your concern
You wanna know the real me? Just listen, and you'll learn
I'm tired of working for something that I can't earn
I’m tired of falling when it’s my turn
I'm tired of these voices, and I’m tired of you
It's like my fans judge me for every little thing that I do
"I heard this about you, Clayton, is it true? Is it true?"
As if somehow I answer to you
Heres a suggestion, I'll do me, and you do you
Don't act like you know me if you’ve never walked in my shoes
I've been slandered, manipulated, and physically abused
So I write poetry because it helps with the blues
I listen to the man in the mirror, and he helps me choose
That's why I tell my daughter to be herself, and she's only two
Because I know if she doesn't define herself, someone else will
I tried finding my peace in the shape of a pill
Along came the devil to take and to kill
I trust nobody, are they fake or are they real?
I lie awake shaking, and I can't sit still
Crying out, "Help me!", but nobody will
There's a time to laugh and a time to kill
And to be honest, I'm ready to die
I have no more tears left to cry, "Yo, God, why did You make me, huh?! Answer me, why?!"
Can't save me, but I still try
Like I'm doing CPR on myself
Crisis poetry relief, and it sells
And the picture of my girls just sits on my shelf
I feel a shift in my health
The devil comes lurking, and I'm overwhelmed
He wants the spotlight, and I want the stealth
I want peace, the world wants wealth
We're not alike, look at me, I can tell
Broken ribs from Christians who kicked me when I fell
I point people to Heaven, you condemn them to H-ll
I'm thirsty for living water, man, where's that well?
I'm not okay, and I don't feel well
I got a secret for you if you promise not to tell
I'm loud in my poetry but live alone in a shell
Been so close to death, I got a whiff of its' smell
It's like I've been cursed by some witch with a spell
Been struggling to stay afloat if you can't tell
Waves of anxiety, I get swept in the swells
Imprisoned in my paranoia, I'm locked in its' cell
What's the point in living when life's a living h-ll?
this is so incredible. super sad to think others feel the exact same pain i do- i would never wish this level of pain on anyone. God bless all of you. for real.
Strong meaning true for all. We have to over come when that hell knocks on our door. It our choice to answer it or leave it closed. Amen Stay Blessed.
Clayton, I want you to know that I heard your message. It was a message that I needed more than ANYONE knows. Surrendering is so easy when it's to darkness, but for some reason, surrendering to HIM seems impossible. I have hope, even though it seems to grow smaller every day. Your message helps me hold on to the little bit of hope I have left. Thank you.
Thank you Jesus for helping clear all this in Jesus name Amen thank you keep healing me dear lord in.Jesus name Amen
Omg! I was waiting for this new vid! All lot will ask you for help but I'm just going to tell you that I'm praying for you and I hope you have some relief soon.
I struggle every day to stay alive. Thank you Clayton Jennings for being my voice when I can't get my words out
I had no one but songs that pulled me away from my suicidal thoughts and it wasn’t easy. But I won’t drink anymore and doing better now. Thank you Clayton Jennings
My prayers for you brother. I hear you and just know that we are not only here to listen. We might be stranger's but we are here to help carry that weight. The devil is strong against one but not against all of use. You help for all to see. We help where god can. Stay strong.
Cold chills from my toes to my receading hair line!