I never even dated her! I asked her out, she said no. Claimed we were cool but never came back and spirit kept saying over and over and over again that she kept hanging on. After lying to me that she was my TF btw. I ended the friendship in February and spirit keeps saying that her energy is sticking to me. Blocking her didn't do anything either. Now in September, a year after this all started, I've tried to kill myself twice because god reuses to give me any closure after lying to and manipulating me for over a year. I am currently working towards attempt number 4, and when I begged and pleaded and said I was ready to die, you know what I heard? "Good." This went too far and I've had enough. I don't know why he chose me to fuck with but I can't take it anymore.
While I am not a licensed doctor and cannot diagnose in anyway... I will absolutely suggest reaching out to someone in your area or even a national support group. No one is worth you sacrificing yourself for.
@@pathofenlightenmenttarotgu8030 I mean I probably should, but that feels pointless. Have you ever tried to talk about this to anyone? People would think I was crazy. My mom already wants me to be committed, and at this point I probably should be, but if so, they'd probably just want to load me up on antipsychotics and tell me all of this was in my head. I just don't understand why God feels the need to push me this far, tell me to get over it, and that I have to be grateful for the experience. I'm not grateful, I lost literally everything but he continues to take from me and I can't do it anymore
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I never even dated her! I asked her out, she said no. Claimed we were cool but never came back and spirit kept saying over and over and over again that she kept hanging on. After lying to me that she was my TF btw.
I ended the friendship in February and spirit keeps saying that her energy is sticking to me. Blocking her didn't do anything either. Now in September, a year after this all started, I've tried to kill myself twice because god reuses to give me any closure after lying to and manipulating me for over a year. I am currently working towards attempt number 4, and when I begged and pleaded and said I was ready to die, you know what I heard? "Good."
This went too far and I've had enough. I don't know why he chose me to fuck with but I can't take it anymore.
While I am not a licensed doctor and cannot diagnose in anyway... I will absolutely suggest reaching out to someone in your area or even a national support group. No one is worth you sacrificing yourself for.
@@pathofenlightenmenttarotgu8030 I mean I probably should, but that feels pointless. Have you ever tried to talk about this to anyone? People would think I was crazy. My mom already wants me to be committed, and at this point I probably should be, but if so, they'd probably just want to load me up on antipsychotics and tell me all of this was in my head.
I just don't understand why God feels the need to push me this far, tell me to get over it, and that I have to be grateful for the experience. I'm not grateful, I lost literally everything but he continues to take from me and I can't do it anymore