Trust me, I'm a cis woman, with wide hips and all that crap and my boobs are SO small. I know it's difficult to find a bra, but oh well, that's how I am. I'm not telling you you shouldn't get breast implants, just telling you it's normal having small boobs and a body that doesn't work well with them.
pararoids you mean just like you? Commenting shit on TH-cam just because it's trendy too? Not everyone is like you, honey. People actually do things because that's how they are and how they feel.
pararoids I guess we just caught a transphobic. Why don't you just go read a book or something that is good for your brain instead of being on the Internet judging what others do with their lives and totally don't affect yours?
The reason your veins don't pop out as much when on HRT is because of Estrogen. It deposits more fat subcutaneously making the veins appear "smaller or invisible".
A lot of what you mention accompanies lowered testosterone in males who aren't on HRT. I think you nailed it perfectly when you said the drive is "less animalistic". It's more controlled, and therefore needs to be focused to achieve the same intensity. Not just sex, it's many things. However, the right people and the right environments can spark a rush of testosterone wildfire from time to time.
Thank you for this clip Maya!! I watched it with my daughter who is going through her transition and will soon see an endocrinologist. Her trans friends are mostly FtM so she's never really had anyone to ask how estrogen could affect her so your candid talk really helped. We love you :)
you should try another trans girl channel too. Princess Jules - she has been thru everything practically with lots of vids. she is funny also. her vids were very candid altho now it's been 5 yrs of transitioning so she does beauty stuffs too much. watch her old vids
I love you and your channel maya ! I recently found out about you and I'm so glad I did! You are so beautiful and a true model to me as you are such a lovely human being. You are also a great role model and you spread awareness of the trans community and I really appreciate it, we all do! Love you maya
I really appreciate your openness and honesty! It's what attracted me to your channel in the first place and even though you haven't been feeling as trans lately vs just being yourself, it's great that you're willing to talk about this stuff. A lot of people I see don't want to talk about this stuff because cis people don't have to talk about it, and I get that totally, but putting this information out there for people who are in the closet, questioning, even just curious and open-minded, really helps. I don't want to say something like, "You're a hero" because it might come off patronizing, but if I'd had access to a channel like yours when I was a teenager or even in my early 20's I'd have had a much different, probably much happier life. So thank you, on behalf of everyone that you're helping, no matter who they are. We love you.
you explained everything very detailed, now I'm able to understand you more :D it's such a change what you've been through and you get more beautiful every day, I'm so happy for you Maya but please do videos more often :*
Octavian August I don't know why you find it laughable to hate on other people's existence. Not to be rude, but don't you have something better to do than comment on every one of her videos acting like you know more than anyone else?
I can't speak for all cis women of course, but for me, my menstrual cycle has SO MUCH influence on my libido, it's insane. My libido usually peaks around my ovulation (which makes sense, because that's when you're most fertile so your body is like YES HELLO I NEED THIS) and drops right before my menstruation. Sorry if TMI, just wanted to help out and I hope you'll figure out a way to make everything work. Love your videos and your style! X
I discovered your channel recently through watching your transition timeline video. I got emotional watching that for some reason. I'm not trans and have never got the chance to be friends with someone trans. But that video really touched my heart. You are a beautiful person from the inside to the outside. I wish you the best in life and all the happiness you deserve. :)
today was day 1 of HRT I am on the same meds and MG that you talked about. I do feel I am privileged to be here. I never thought in a million years this day would come. thank you for everything you do Sister!!!
Can you talk about your dating/sex life somewhat? I just think it would be really helpful for other preop transgirls like myself. I always have trouble finding a guy or telling a guy im trans, and just wondering what your experience has been.
YOU GO GURLLLLL. I admire you so so so much, you're so well spoken and beautiful. I think that if you're considering breast enhancement surgery, go for it if it'll help you feel more at home in your body. Your body looks so great already, your progress is stunning. Much love to you sweet Maya!
Maya, congrats on the 2 year on hrt.You look absolutely beautiful.I wish you all the best with the rest of your transition.The breast augmentation is something you should really think carefully about. I'm a 50yr old transgender female from Brampton,just started on the testosterone blocker"Spiro" a few weeks ago.You have inspired me to continue with my transitioning process.Thank you so much,Maya,you are an Inspiration to all transgender females 😍👌👍💋. Love and respect, Micala .
Thank you, this is super helpful. You hear so much about what hrt is/isn't going to do, it's helpful to get an honest analysis. Personally, I have quite prominent veins on my arms and I'd never heard anyone talk about that so it's kinda a relief to know hrt might help with that.
Watching your videos has inspired me to start the process of getting educated on my transition I actually put a dress and makeup and went out on the town last night with a crosssdresser friend of mine it was amazing and we such a great time got lots of strange looks but I felt so good
Maya, my name is Marcus and I've been super depressed these passed few months because I'm about to turn 22 and haven't started hormones yet. I live in southern Texas so it's kind of taboo in a way. I've gone to several doctors, all in which have rejected to help. But seeing your videos and updates gives me hope that one day I'll be in your same position. I was literally smiling all throughout this video because it got me excited knowing that I might get there. I know it may not feel like a lot to you but you have given me hope that I thought was lost. Thank you so much
You are very well spoken and informative. I've learned so much from your videos. I was just simply curious about Trans persons with everything that's going on in the media and getting a better understanding of what it means to be one. What I find so interesting is to hear you speak of the changes on the mind and body from hormone therapy. I cannot believe the impact estrogen and testosterone have on us especially when you speak of libido and attraction. It just gives a clearer perspective and understanding on what makes us male or female... not to be all stereotypical but just the truth behind what drives our gender.
Sensitive, thoughtful, and intelligent as always! I don't mean to sound like I'm lecturing you, but those hormones are very powerful chemicals, and I hope you will always be careful to take them as recommended and not be shifting your body into different gears too often. You look adorable Maya, as usual!
Regarding the whole sex thing I find this incredibly true. I'm a cis woman and when I've had sex with men whom I wasn't dating or had feelings for, the sex was very bleak and unenjoyable for me. But sex with someone you're comfortable with and have feelings for and are attracted to is a completely different experience. Unless I have a connection with someone, sex is meaningless and I'm not experiencing pleasure. I know this isn't true with every female but what you said makes a lot of sense and I find that 100% true. And for me while I'm single that makes going without sex for months on end incredibly easy but when I am dating someone I love and care about, I want it all the time haha
I lol'd when you started talking about missing doses and your brain playing tricks on you. Before I ever started therapy I used to take testosterone. We'll cut to the chase for now... Mainly I took it because I "needed it" and wasn't sure about how to come out to my doctor about how I really felt. I hated taking testosterone because I felt like, "this is not what I should be taking." "This is not who I am or how I want to feel". I started missing doses of it and my brain was all over the place. Total emotional rollercoaster. After 10 years of taking it and many missed doses, I started to cut doses myself and finally came off of it in March 2016. My muscles were crazy sore and fatigued for many months after. But I do feel better, now I can't wait to start HRT (I don't think there's much to R.eplace).
Regarding forgetting ur pills. Im intersex/trans (stupid labeling). I am 46xx, 47xy. Born with testosterone. Some dr basically fear-forced me onto testosterone in 2015 (age 42)and for the first time in my life, i experienced what it was like to look at a woman and feel not only atteaction, but animalistic desire. What a disgusting feeling! I felt so sick i called a friend freaked out something was wrong with me. He just laughed and told me "now u r a real man finally". I went home determined to saw my bottom parts off. I didnt get off testosterone till summer 2020. Talk about a bad trip! Ick! Life is much better without it! Much improved since starting estrogen!
I'm not trans, YET. I'm still male but I'm 100% for starting with HRT. hopefully soon but I wouldn't do anything reckless. I've been thinking about being rejected in the public so many times but right now I'm at a point where I simply don't care about hate comments. Hater's gonna hate. I've been crossdressing as a woman for more than 5 years now and without estrogen it's been difficult but now I've taken the courage to speaking with my doctor about it and "come out" kind of. It helped so much. just telling people how I really feel about being male. I've gotten so much support. I'm really looking forward to the rest of the process.
Fair point. I guess since I feel like a woman and see the wrong body in the mirror I may be called trans. I really want to change my gender. I've just never felt comfortable as man. I am usually a very patient person but the process is long and I know I have to wait but the doctors and the hospital crew are so dayum slow. many other I've talked to here said they had to wait for almost 4 years for just getting approved or not to start on HRT. Kind of lame right?
Atrophy : The less you use something the smaller it gets. Started HRT 4 months ago, the lower libido is such bliss, I have so much brain power left over I'm using it to quit smoking too, which ironically is easier than doing it long before I knew of even the word transgender the last time I tired to quit, best of lucky Maya for the next 2 years.
I'm taking 200mgs of micronized progesterone daily with my hormones and it's doing great things for my breast growth! A friend of mine + several instagrammers said the same
apparently cycling progesterone can help with breast growth? there's a few risks that come with it but i think it's probably worth talking to your doctor about it before breast augmentation o:
I have worked out a simulated hormone cycle with my doctored its the best and the healthiest i seriously don´t know why not all t woman do this i take 2 weeks progesterone and 2 weeks not and i have an estrogen peek for days during ovulation. It is THE best you should talk to your doctor about it.
Hey Maya, I know it's unlikely you'll see this but I wanted to ask you about "cross-dressing" I guess. I am also a MtF transgender but am at the beginning of my journey (I haven't even gotten the HRT yet). As of recently I have been more and more upset not being able to wear what I want. But I still fear looking ridiculous and being stared at and such. Is there any way I can kind of hit a middle ground of wearing what I want but not looking too terrible in it?
I started hormones 4 months ago. Within the first 2 months I noticed all these changes, then for the past month in a half, barely noticed everything. But my hair on my head has grown more in the last month than before hormones, I had been growing it out 6 months before I started. I also had a huge bald spot, I am told my mostly covers it up now and And my gonads started shrinking (yay!) I'm trying to stop obsessing and just let things happen. (Just so eager I get ahead of myself) I'd still like my hair to be at least twice as long as it is now, it's not eve shoulder length. The body hair, I just want it all gone and I hear most of it falls off, I just hopes that happens. And then there's the boobs, 5 days in my chest started hurting constantly and 2 days in, breast buds. But then barely anything has happened with that since, well my chest looks more like breasts, but more like I think. I've talked to a friend and she asked me like what size I would like to be, I know whatever I get won't be enough unless I get some really unexpected growth. I told her, I know at least DD and possibly up to H. She was like, "so you want some knockers huh?" (yep) The big changes so far are my muscle mass has decreased enough for me, I was in the army and I developed quite a bit of muscle mass in my arms. My face has actually got a bit more gaunt but I like that my cheek bones are more noticeable. My lips feel plumper and before hrt I could barely see my upper lip in the mirror. Before hormones I had a flat butt, like sitting in anything like metal or wood was unbearable because the only thing underneath was bone. Shortly after starting it was like I got a natural butt life, it became more noticeable in my jeans, and I have some actual natural cushion now. And lastly: I started electrolysis on my face, my hair is too light everywhere for laser, 3 months before starting hormones, Luckily though, I didn't have a ton of facial hair, I never had enough to grow a beard and enough for like a small soul patch or goatee and a really ugly mustache. My technician says I'm making really good progress with it, I can go without shaving as of a month ago and it's barely noticeable. I started every 2 weeks, started at 15 minutes so she could see if I could stand the pain and whatnot, after 3 sessions it's been 1 hour ever since. But after 2 months of that I started going for once a week. At first she was reluctant to do too much on my upper lip, but she tried doing more and more and luckily I recover from it really fast so I don't have any scars or anything on my upper lip.
"If you want the full experience, just follow me down there." A but no :) This is an old video, but I was curious about the topic. It was very enlightening. The feminine and masculine brain and how it operates/ functions differently is an interesting topic. Your insight on the effects of hormones on how you think was fascinating.
Very interesting and educational for me. Thanks. It’s funny the way the world works. I’m a straight male and you talked about body definition and shaving. I’ve never had much definition and never had much body hair at your age. (I now have disgusting old man hair). I enjoy your videos, have a happy life.
I'll be six months at the end of this month (self medicating... bloody expensive and I just got hit with a bill from customs for importing Estradiol and Spironolactone). I have HUGE boobs *(pro tip: pueraria mirifica)* but no hips... I would have preferred the opposite but the body hair is much less and the shrinkage downstairs and libido loss is pretty good. But I've had ZERO emotional change... I was expecting to burst into tears every five minutes...I think I cried myself out in the years struggling with GD.
I am not in hrt yet maybe probably at some point but I am starting therapy so I will see how that goes. But my emotions are all over the place already always have been. I cry easily at sad situations. My libido has always been low. And my attraction to people had always been more emotional that sexual. So gosh I couldn't imagine my emotions and feelings being more haywire if you will than they are now. I have been through a lot of mental abuse over my life and I cry all the time. Sometimes at almost nothing. Like I went into my garage on the 12th of this month and saw my brothers old motorcycle I have and just started balling. My brother has been gone for 2 years now. Heck yesterday I was sitting in my living room and just started balling.
My labido has raised since hrt but I think that's because it coincided with me coming to terms with being attracted to men which I realised about a year before starting hormones.
The lowered libido thing is kinda weird, at least to me. I know that it's usually expected to happen but both me and my best friend had our sex drive go up when we started HRT. Granted we both had none to begin with but still. And I actually hadn't felt sexual attraction until I was on hormones for about 6 months.
I was struggling with the same things sexually, and it was nice to hear that other transwomen experience the same feeling of a less intense orgasm. I always expect it to be grander and then I feel disappointed, but I have to remember that the sensation is changing. There isn't a real release anymore, but that in its self should make it better, but our expectations are conflicting with the feeling. Maybe this isn't what you explained, but from what I gathered it felt like what I feel. lol
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IN April I had my GRS and so for that I haven't taken my Estrogenpills 8 days before and 11 days after the surgery!This time O cry very often,I get stressed in all I do and I try to hide as often I can.Bodywise I can't see anything this time,but Mental for mebut was a real hard time.And yes(if anyone reacts like me☺) you've been right!You won't Transform into the Hulk you more wanna become a Crying Baby
You’re amazing, you look and sound fantastic, I have no advice or insight to offer but I just wanted to say good luck with everything and keep being amazing. love from the UK.
Ive been on estrogen for 4 years. My boobs havnt gotten that big. And the reasson is that hormones alone doesnt have that big effect on boob growth. However...If you have the chance to get silicone that would ofc make a big difference. :)
I would go with breast augmentation. You may find that it could help you feel even more feminine. Ok f course as always, it's your body and you should feel free to choose, and on that note, you go for taking who you are into your hands. I'm glad the transition has gone well for you!!!! Keep on rocking!!!!
Yes, you brought up certain characteristics that most transgender girls don't even think to mention, ie your veins being less prominent, so your discussion was quite interesting. I'm not quite sure why transgender people choose to post youtubes, but if I had to guess, it's bc they hope to help other transgender people going through similar process, to help people considering the process, to help support families going through the process with their loved one, to answer any questions they might have, to enlighten others who are interested, and to bring awareness of what the transgender community deals with on a daily basis.Thank you & good luck to you.
I have alexithymia (a mental disorder - otherwise known as "disaffection") - basically I am massively disaffected and feel that anyone expressing their emotions is spoilt in comparison to me, and the only way to get me to express my emotions is to basically just shoot me in the knee caps. Alexithymia is characterised by "hyperreality" (the ability to see the world as it is - unfiltered by any subjective internally projected reality onto the world that most people have) and is pretty common in people with autism/aspergers - but unlike these groups of people and most people with alexithymia, I actually do understand other people's emotions (I actually have a lot of empathy). And also like most people with alexithymia I have a vivid imagination and dreams. I am only outwardly alexithymia, but have the same symtoms of migraines, stomach aches, muscle pains, depression and anxiety and a dis-connection from my emotions (otherwise I am completely flat in my expressiveness most of the time - both emotionally and with language, mannerisms etc) and only able to connect with my emotions after a long period of relaxation and time to myself to ponder what I am feeling... Three guesses as to how I ended up fucked over with alexithymia?
Why not surgical castration instead of hormone blockers? Also, are you concerned that you will build up a tolerance to artificial female hormones? Does that happen? What do they do about it besides upping the dose?
While an orchiectomy, is typical for some. Most will not get it until the same time as the rest of the operation. because the testicular sack skin, is used to create the labia and labia minora....therefore it must be freshly removed, to be freshly placed so as to not have unneccesary complications.
It was esp interesting when you discussed subtleness vs animalism, and your comments on emotion. It's actually pretty cool bc transgender people get to experience both sides of the fence haha, giving them a more insight into how the other half feels. My girlfriends (& sisters) & I have touched lightly on the subject of libido thru the yrs & theres no question that some girls are more sexual than others, which I guess means they have more testosterone in their systems...perhaps, but Im no authority. Thx again
elftails m this is an interesting point. A lot of cis women point out that after stopping with the pill (estrogen), their libido increases. for me it was actually the other way around. esp in the start, where I went from very high to almost non existant. This also goes for the related bodily functions. Interesting how intricate sexuality is :)
I think this video was very well informed, it's probably because you are super classy 💁 I actually do feel that I go through somewhat of a PMS cycle with cramps, bloating, brake outs and the beauty flowering you get (which would be ovulating in cis women), at that point I think guys find me way more attractive and I wonder if it's because of pheromones that are also produced.
How much are estrogen pills? My friend has been a trans female since she was 32. She's 47 now and wants to get pills but doesn't know how to go about that. She's been seeing a therapist, but nothing else.
Your videos are great and you are very articulate. That said, I have one suggestion. You say "I dont a lot". Take a pause and then continue instead of saying I don't know.
Maya, first off I think you look great and think it is great you are doing what feels right for you. I have a question about your HRT. Why don't you go through a castration instead of taking the Spiro? That would eliminate all testosterone and let the estrogen work better, I would think. Good luck Girl!
Trust me, I'm a cis woman, with wide hips and all that crap and my boobs are SO small. I know it's difficult to find a bra, but oh well, that's how I am. I'm not telling you you shouldn't get breast implants, just telling you it's normal having small boobs and a body that doesn't work well with them.
fromtheinsidex I agree I'm the same way!
You forget this is a "transtrender". They won't do anything permanent, it's just a fetish for them.
pararoids you mean just like you? Commenting shit on TH-cam just because it's trendy too? Not everyone is like you, honey. People actually do things because that's how they are and how they feel.
Feelings aren't usually a good thing to base judgement on - there's a thing most people use called logc instead.
#wrekt
pararoids I guess we just caught a transphobic. Why don't you just go read a book or something that is good for your brain instead of being on the Internet judging what others do with their lives and totally don't affect yours?
The reason your veins don't pop out as much when on HRT is because of Estrogen. It deposits more fat subcutaneously making the veins appear "smaller or invisible".
Claire Erin Cool ☺️
A lot of what you mention accompanies lowered testosterone in males who aren't on HRT. I think you nailed it perfectly when you said the drive is "less animalistic". It's more controlled, and therefore needs to be focused to achieve the same intensity. Not just sex, it's many things. However, the right people and the right environments can spark a rush of testosterone wildfire from time to time.
Thank you for this clip Maya!! I watched it with my daughter who is going through her transition and will soon see an endocrinologist. Her trans friends are mostly FtM so she's never really had anyone to ask how estrogen could affect her so your candid talk really helped. We love you :)
you should try another trans girl channel too. Princess Jules - she has been thru everything practically with lots of vids. she is funny also. her vids were very candid altho now it's been 5 yrs of transitioning so she does beauty stuffs too much. watch her old vids
Jay Koenigsberg You're a terrible parent.
Loco Bandito for supporting their child??? I hope you never have children
I love you and your channel maya ! I recently found out about you and I'm so glad I did! You are so beautiful and a true model to me as you are such a lovely human being. You are also a great role model and you spread awareness of the trans community and I really appreciate it, we all do! Love you maya
I really appreciate your openness and honesty! It's what attracted me to your channel in the first place and even though you haven't been feeling as trans lately vs just being yourself, it's great that you're willing to talk about this stuff. A lot of people I see don't want to talk about this stuff because cis people don't have to talk about it, and I get that totally, but putting this information out there for people who are in the closet, questioning, even just curious and open-minded, really helps. I don't want to say something like, "You're a hero" because it might come off patronizing, but if I'd had access to a channel like yours when I was a teenager or even in my early 20's I'd have had a much different, probably much happier life. So thank you, on behalf of everyone that you're helping, no matter who they are. We love you.
you explained everything very detailed, now I'm able to understand you more :D it's such a change what you've been through and you get more beautiful every day, I'm so happy for you Maya but please do videos more often :*
She was always beautiful.
Maya you are such a well-spoken young lady 🌸
*young boy
Octavian August ew fuck off
ladies usualy don't have a penis in their panties, and they don't look and sound like drag queens hahahaha
human race what is happening to you?! xDDD
Octavian August I don't know why you find it laughable to hate on other people's existence. Not to be rude, but don't you have something better to do than comment on every one of her videos acting like you know more than anyone else?
scumbag hahahaha not hater just facts
You are absolutely classy girl. I always wish you happiness Maya.
*boy
Octavian August right!!!! people need to learn that if you are born one gender you will always be that gender
Really??? She is what she wants. People need to learn about RESPECT.
DANIEL FARIA nah she is a man
......yeahhh....maybe in your small world.
I can't speak for all cis women of course, but for me, my menstrual cycle has SO MUCH influence on my libido, it's insane. My libido usually peaks around my ovulation (which makes sense, because that's when you're most fertile so your body is like YES HELLO I NEED THIS) and drops right before my menstruation. Sorry if TMI, just wanted to help out and I hope you'll figure out a way to make everything work. Love your videos and your style! X
I discovered your channel recently through watching your transition timeline video. I got emotional watching that for some reason. I'm not trans and have never got the chance to be friends with someone trans. But that video really touched my heart. You are a beautiful person from the inside to the outside. I wish you the best in life and all the happiness you deserve. :)
today was day 1 of HRT I am on the same meds and MG that you talked about. I do feel I am privileged to be here. I never thought in a million years this day would come. thank you for everything you do Sister!!!
Can you talk about your dating/sex life somewhat? I just think it would be really helpful for other preop transgirls like myself. I always have trouble finding a guy or telling a guy im trans, and just wondering what your experience has been.
still having problems?
"currently drowning in student debt," literally me...
Look up the word 'literally', imbecile.
YOU GO GURLLLLL. I admire you so so so much, you're so well spoken and beautiful. I think that if you're considering breast enhancement surgery, go for it if it'll help you feel more at home in your body. Your body looks so great already, your progress is stunning. Much love to you sweet Maya!
Maya, congrats on the 2 year on hrt.You look absolutely beautiful.I wish you all the best with the rest of your transition.The breast augmentation is something you should really think carefully about.
I'm a 50yr old transgender female from Brampton,just started on the testosterone blocker"Spiro" a few weeks ago.You have inspired me to continue with my transitioning process.Thank you so much,Maya,you are an Inspiration to all transgender females 😍👌👍💋.
Love and respect, Micala .
Thank you, this is super helpful. You hear so much about what hrt is/isn't going to do, it's helpful to get an honest analysis.
Personally, I have quite prominent veins on my arms and I'd never heard anyone talk about that so it's kinda a relief to know hrt might help with that.
Watching your videos has inspired me to start the process of getting educated on my transition I actually put a dress and makeup and went out on the town last night with a crosssdresser friend of mine it was amazing and we such a great time got lots of strange looks but I felt so good
Maya, my name is Marcus and I've been super depressed these passed few months because I'm about to turn 22 and haven't started hormones yet. I live in southern Texas so it's kind of taboo in a way. I've gone to several doctors, all in which have rejected to help. But seeing your videos and updates gives me hope that one day I'll be in your same position. I was literally smiling all throughout this video because it got me excited knowing that I might get there. I know it may not feel like a lot to you but you have given me hope that I thought was lost. Thank you so much
thank you so much you help me out to find myself.
you are going on estrogen? hahahaha omg please tell me you're a troll
human race is going down....
Your one of the most genuine you tubers I watch! Love your channel ❤️
You are very well spoken and informative. I've learned so much from your videos. I was just simply curious about Trans persons with everything that's going on in the media and getting a better understanding of what it means to be one. What I find so interesting is to hear you speak of the changes on the mind and body from hormone therapy. I cannot believe the impact estrogen and testosterone have on us especially when you speak of libido and attraction. It just gives a clearer perspective and understanding on what makes us male or female... not to be all stereotypical but just the truth behind what drives our gender.
The Hulk! PS Your hair is amazing!
I noticed that too! That two-toned effect is gorgeous!!
Sensitive, thoughtful, and intelligent as always! I don't mean to sound like I'm lecturing you, but those hormones are very powerful chemicals, and I hope you will always be careful to take them as recommended and not be shifting your body into different gears too often. You look adorable Maya, as usual!
You are so beautiful
Congrats on the two year mark! How have you found that hormones have changed your general mood? Do you get mood swings or any negative effects?
Congrats on your already 2 years of journey! Time flies so fast. Love you and your videos Maya ☺️
Did u get your 100,000 silver play button?
Regarding the whole sex thing I find this incredibly true. I'm a cis woman and when I've had sex with men whom I wasn't dating or had feelings for, the sex was very bleak and unenjoyable for me. But sex with someone you're comfortable with and have feelings for and are attracted to is a completely different experience. Unless I have a connection with someone, sex is meaningless and I'm not experiencing pleasure. I know this isn't true with every female but what you said makes a lot of sense and I find that 100% true. And for me while I'm single that makes going without sex for months on end incredibly easy but when I am dating someone I love and care about, I want it all the time haha
I lol'd when you started talking about missing doses and your brain playing tricks on you. Before I ever started therapy I used to take testosterone. We'll cut to the chase for now... Mainly I took it because I "needed it" and wasn't sure about how to come out to my doctor about how I really felt. I hated taking testosterone because I felt like, "this is not what I should be taking." "This is not who I am or how I want to feel". I started missing doses of it and my brain was all over the place. Total emotional rollercoaster. After 10 years of taking it and many missed doses, I started to cut doses myself and finally came off of it in March 2016. My muscles were crazy sore and fatigued for many months after. But I do feel better, now I can't wait to start HRT (I don't think there's much to R.eplace).
Regarding forgetting ur pills. Im intersex/trans (stupid labeling). I am 46xx, 47xy. Born with testosterone. Some dr basically fear-forced me onto testosterone in 2015 (age 42)and for the first time in my life, i experienced what it was like to look at a woman and feel not only atteaction, but animalistic desire. What a disgusting feeling! I felt so sick i called a friend freaked out something was wrong with me. He just laughed and told me "now u r a real man finally". I went home determined to saw my bottom parts off. I didnt get off testosterone till summer 2020. Talk about a bad trip! Ick! Life is much better without it! Much improved since starting estrogen!
Bravo Maya you are amazing love so much xxx from Greece much love ❤❤❤
Yassss greece
Just started watching your videos! Luv how positive you are and how you just own it. Your beautiful and you can tell inside and out!
I'm not trans, YET. I'm still male but I'm 100% for starting with HRT. hopefully soon but I wouldn't do anything reckless. I've been thinking about being rejected in the public so many times but right now I'm at a point where I simply don't care about hate comments. Hater's gonna hate. I've been crossdressing as a woman for more than 5 years now and without estrogen it's been difficult but now I've taken the courage to speaking with my doctor about it and "come out" kind of. It helped so much. just telling people how I really feel about being male. I've gotten so much support. I'm really looking forward to the rest of the process.
I also have ADHD and I'm a bit worried about mixing my meds with the hormones and testosterone block.
Fair point. I guess since I feel like a woman and see the wrong body in the mirror I may be called trans. I really want to change my gender. I've just never felt comfortable as man. I am usually a very patient person but the process is long and I know I have to wait but the doctors and the hospital crew are so dayum slow. many other I've talked to here said they had to wait for almost 4 years for just getting approved or not to start on HRT. Kind of lame right?
Atrophy : The less you use something the smaller it gets.
Started HRT 4 months ago, the lower libido is such bliss, I have so much brain power left over I'm using it to quit smoking too, which ironically is easier than doing it long before I knew of even the word transgender the last time I tired to quit, best of lucky Maya for the next 2 years.
I love how much you share and you seem so confident xo
I just finished 2 months on HRT and I'm praying my face fills out as much as yours did lol
Honestly i wouldn't have a problem taking her out. Very interesting to see her progress keep them coming! Very cute!
I'm taking 200mgs of micronized progesterone daily with my hormones and it's doing great things for my breast growth! A friend of mine + several instagrammers said the same
Yay Maya!! So happy for you!! You've come such a long way! 💘😘💜
Yay 2 years!!!! I've been following you since 2 years ago too Maya. Love you!
I remember watching that 1.5 year video, its hard to believe that was 6 months ago
apparently cycling progesterone can help with breast growth? there's a few risks that come with it but i think it's probably worth talking to your doctor about it before breast augmentation o:
I have worked out a simulated hormone cycle with my doctored its the best and the healthiest i seriously don´t know why not all t woman do this i take 2 weeks progesterone and 2 weeks not and i have an estrogen peek for days during ovulation. It is THE best you should talk to your doctor about it.
You have such a sweet calm manner. I love your videos!
I'm starting T in a bit over a week (!!!!) and it's really cool to hear from trans people further along in their medical transition!
love your videos thank you for helping others!
You look amazing. Be proud, we all love you!!
Hey Maya, I know it's unlikely you'll see this but I wanted to ask you about "cross-dressing" I guess. I am also a MtF transgender but am at the beginning of my journey (I haven't even gotten the HRT yet). As of recently I have been more and more upset not being able to wear what I want. But I still fear looking ridiculous and being stared at and such. Is there any way I can kind of hit a middle ground of wearing what I want but not looking too terrible in it?
I started hormones 4 months ago. Within the first 2 months I noticed all these changes, then for the past month in a half, barely noticed everything. But my hair on my head has grown more in the last month than before hormones, I had been growing it out 6 months before I started. I also had a huge bald spot, I am told my mostly covers it up now and And my gonads started shrinking (yay!) I'm trying to stop obsessing and just let things happen. (Just so eager I get ahead of myself)
I'd still like my hair to be at least twice as long as it is now, it's not eve shoulder length. The body hair, I just want it all gone and I hear most of it falls off, I just hopes that happens. And then there's the boobs, 5 days in my chest started hurting constantly and 2 days in, breast buds. But then barely anything has happened with that since, well my chest looks more like breasts, but more like I think. I've talked to a friend and she asked me like what size I would like to be, I know whatever I get won't be enough unless I get some really unexpected growth. I told her, I know at least DD and possibly up to H. She was like, "so you want some knockers huh?" (yep)
The big changes so far are my muscle mass has decreased enough for me, I was in the army and I developed quite a bit of muscle mass in my arms. My face has actually got a bit more gaunt but I like that my cheek bones are more noticeable. My lips feel plumper and before hrt I could barely see my upper lip in the mirror. Before hormones I had a flat butt, like sitting in anything like metal or wood was unbearable because the only thing underneath was bone. Shortly after starting it was like I got a natural butt life, it became more noticeable in my jeans, and I have some actual natural cushion now.
And lastly: I started electrolysis on my face, my hair is too light everywhere for laser, 3 months before starting hormones, Luckily though, I didn't have a ton of facial hair, I never had enough to grow a beard and enough for like a small soul patch or goatee and a really ugly mustache. My technician says I'm making really good progress with it, I can go without shaving as of a month ago and it's barely noticeable. I started every 2 weeks, started at 15 minutes so she could see if I could stand the pain and whatnot, after 3 sessions it's been 1 hour ever since. But after 2 months of that I started going for once a week. At first she was reluctant to do too much on my upper lip, but she tried doing more and more and luckily I recover from it really fast so I don't have any scars or anything on my upper lip.
You're so beautiful! This is my first time seeing your channel, I can't wait to watch more videos.
"If you want the full experience, just follow me down there." A but no :)
This is an old video, but I was curious about the topic. It was very enlightening. The feminine and masculine brain and how it operates/ functions differently is an interesting topic. Your insight on the effects of hormones on how you think was fascinating.
Love watching your vids. Thanks for all the info, currently 2 months on e
Girl I started hrt on March of last year and I’m loving the journey.
Very interesting and educational for me.
Thanks.
It’s funny the way the world works. I’m a straight male and you talked about body definition and shaving. I’ve never had much definition and never had much body hair at your age. (I now have disgusting old man hair).
I enjoy your videos, have a happy life.
Thank you so much for this video. This really helped me and gave me a better idea of what to expect when I go on HRT. Thank you so so much, Maya!❤
thank you for all you're help babe it was very informative, you should do more. this video really did help me
I'll be six months at the end of this month (self medicating... bloody expensive and I just got hit with a bill from customs for importing Estradiol and Spironolactone).
I have HUGE boobs *(pro tip: pueraria mirifica)* but no hips... I would have preferred the opposite but the body hair is much less and the shrinkage downstairs and libido loss is pretty good.
But I've had ZERO emotional change... I was expecting to burst into tears every five minutes...I think I cried myself out in the years struggling with GD.
I'm happy for you. You're so gorgeous and an inspiration!
amazing video , it is the first time i hear honest transgender describing exactly what we are going threw , i feel exact the same
I am not in hrt yet maybe probably at some point but I am starting therapy so I will see how that goes. But my emotions are all over the place already always have been. I cry easily at sad situations. My libido has always been low. And my attraction to people had always been more emotional that sexual. So gosh I couldn't imagine my emotions and feelings being more haywire if you will than they are now. I have been through a lot of mental abuse over my life and I cry all the time. Sometimes at almost nothing. Like I went into my garage on the 12th of this month and saw my brothers old motorcycle I have and just started balling. My brother has been gone for 2 years now. Heck yesterday I was sitting in my living room and just started balling.
Thanks for being someone I could look up to ❤️
Great videos! I have watched so many of them! Feels like I'm just having a conversation with you. Good vibes.
My labido has raised since hrt but I think that's because it coincided with me coming to terms with being attracted to men which I realised about a year before starting hormones.
yay so happy for you on this journey :))
The lowered libido thing is kinda weird, at least to me. I know that it's usually expected to happen but both me and my best friend had our sex drive go up when we started HRT. Granted we both had none to begin with but still. And I actually hadn't felt sexual attraction until I was on hormones for about 6 months.
I was struggling with the same things sexually, and it was nice to hear that other transwomen experience the same feeling of a less intense orgasm. I always expect it to be grander and then I feel disappointed, but I have to remember that the sensation is changing. There isn't a real release anymore, but that in its self should make it better, but our expectations are conflicting with the feeling. Maybe this isn't what you explained, but from what I gathered it felt like what I feel. lol
JAE I'm also a transwoman and i've had the same experience too, I was relieved to hear that it's not just me!
Me Grimlock Word, my brother.
Me Grimlock Hey, as long as they get views/attention, right? ;)
Me Grimlock Your comments keep disappearing before I can reply!
IN April I had my GRS and so for that I haven't taken my Estrogenpills 8 days before and 11 days after the surgery!This time O cry very often,I get stressed in all I do and I try to hide as often I can.Bodywise I can't see anything this time,but Mental for mebut was a real hard time.And yes(if anyone reacts like me☺) you've been right!You won't Transform into the Hulk you more wanna become a Crying Baby
You’re amazing, you look and sound fantastic, I have no advice or insight to offer but I just wanted to say good luck with everything and keep being amazing. love from the UK.
You're so beautiful ❤ AND FINALLY ❤❤❤ New video!
Hey, just wanna ask about the voice. Does one's voice get more "femenine" with the medicals or do you have to "fake it"?
Finally new video, love ya
Just out of curiosity, what's your estrogen and T levels? 200mg of Spiro seems really high, and 2mg of estradiol seems really low
progestrone definitely makes a difference with fat redistribution and made finding a bra a little easier 😊 ask your doc about it!
Aw love it!
swetty how do u do with the hair facial?
Thank u for ur vids i love your insight!! ❤️
love you Maya, you keep it so real xx
You have a fantastic personality Maya !
Still as beautiful as ever, and in that palm leaf swimsuit: Whoa!!!
Ive been on estrogen for 4 years.
My boobs havnt gotten that big.
And the reasson is that hormones alone doesnt have that big effect on boob growth.
However...If you have the chance to get silicone that would ofc make a big difference. :)
I would go with breast augmentation. You may find that it could help you feel even more feminine. Ok f course as always, it's your body and you should feel free to choose, and on that note, you go for taking who you are into your hands. I'm glad the transition has gone well for you!!!! Keep on rocking!!!!
Yes, you brought up certain characteristics that most transgender girls don't even think to mention, ie your veins being less prominent, so your discussion was quite interesting. I'm not quite sure why transgender people choose to post youtubes, but if I had to guess, it's bc they hope to help other transgender people going through similar process, to help people considering the process, to help support families going through the process with their loved one, to answer any questions they might have, to enlighten others who are interested, and to bring awareness of what the transgender community deals with on a daily basis.Thank you & good luck to you.
Yes, this is exactly why I share the process. You can never have enough resources. Thank you for your input! :)
Damn 2 years wow I can't believe it omg I'm so happy for you!!!!!
You are so pretty, Maya!
I have alexithymia (a mental disorder - otherwise known as "disaffection") - basically I am massively disaffected and feel that anyone expressing their emotions is spoilt in comparison to me, and the only way to get me to express my emotions is to basically just shoot me in the knee caps. Alexithymia is characterised by "hyperreality" (the ability to see the world as it is - unfiltered by any subjective internally projected reality onto the world that most people have) and is pretty common in people with autism/aspergers - but unlike these groups of people and most people with alexithymia, I actually do understand other people's emotions (I actually have a lot of empathy). And also like most people with alexithymia I have a vivid imagination and dreams. I am only outwardly alexithymia, but have the same symtoms of migraines, stomach aches, muscle pains, depression and anxiety and a dis-connection from my emotions (otherwise I am completely flat in my expressiveness most of the time - both emotionally and with language, mannerisms etc) and only able to connect with my emotions after a long period of relaxation and time to myself to ponder what I am feeling... Three guesses as to how I ended up fucked over with alexithymia?
Why not surgical castration instead of hormone blockers? Also, are you concerned that you will build up a tolerance to artificial female hormones? Does that happen? What do they do about it besides upping the dose?
While an orchiectomy, is typical for some. Most will not get it until the same time as the rest of the operation. because the testicular sack skin, is used to create the labia and labia minora....therefore it must be freshly removed, to be freshly placed so as to not have unneccesary complications.
I'm about to start hrt, have you noticed any height differences..? From a lot of stuff online, there seems to be a difference for most people?
It was esp interesting when you discussed subtleness vs animalism, and your comments on emotion. It's actually pretty cool bc transgender people get to experience both sides of the fence haha, giving them a more insight into how the other half feels. My girlfriends (& sisters) & I have touched lightly on the subject of libido thru the yrs & theres no question that some girls are more sexual than others, which I guess means they have more testosterone in their systems...perhaps, but Im no authority. Thx again
elftails m this is an interesting point. A lot of cis women point out that after stopping with the pill (estrogen), their libido increases. for me it was actually the other way around. esp in the start, where I went from very high to almost non existant. This also goes for the related bodily functions. Interesting how intricate sexuality is :)
Congratulations hun!
Ms. Maya check with your doctor to see if Pueraria Mirifica can take this. It should help with breasts growth.
I think this video was very well informed, it's probably because you are super classy 💁 I actually do feel that I go through somewhat of a PMS cycle with cramps, bloating, brake outs and the beauty flowering you get (which would be ovulating in cis women), at that point I think guys find me way more attractive and I wonder if it's because of pheromones that are also produced.
How many years should you take the hormone and which one should stop?
answers me please
What kind of pills do you use?
How much are estrogen pills? My friend has been a trans female since she was 32. She's 47 now and wants to get pills but doesn't know how to go about that. She's been seeing a therapist, but nothing else.
Jenny Bender tell her to go see a endocrinologist!
i have to say you seem to have a good head on your shoulders and are well spoken. awesome
Is there any health issues taking strogen?
Your videos are great and you are very articulate. That said, I have one suggestion. You say "I dont a lot". Take a pause and then continue instead of saying I don't know.
Maya, first off I think you look great and think it is great you are doing what feels right for you.
I have a question about your HRT. Why don't you go through a castration instead of taking the Spiro?
That would eliminate all testosterone and let the estrogen work better, I would think.
Good luck Girl!
Maya, do you watch Victoria Wiggins? Your videos are point for point almost identical
Love your voice girl! :D