(I just want to be sure you see my comment to pass it on): I wonder if posting placards saying "the minute my hands left the rail I wanted to live" along w the suicide hotline # might help until the net is complete. the words of someone who was there....
My friend Rick Tharpe jumped off the bridge and unfortunately did not survive. I've lost my dearest best friend to suicide... I was devastated when he died... First I was furious with him...why didnt he reach out to anyone..? You go through so many emotions... Congrats to Kevin for surviving and sharing his message... I have heard him speak before... great interview..
James Kristoff my husband hung himself 20 years ago this past January. It doesn’t get easier but we can choose to get stronger with self compassion and compassion for our fellow survivors of a loved one’s suicide. I send you love
I’m so sorry you lost your friend. I lost my best friend to his su*cude. It’s agonizing and frustrating and soul crushing. All we can do is tell their story from our personal perspective, how it feels to be a survivor of someone’s su*cide. I am the survivor of my own attempts, too. I talked with my bff about those attempts, about my mental health, about what made me do it, and try a few times, why I stopped. Why I got mental health help. Why I started speaking out about it. I only wanted peace. I felt like such a HUGE burden to everyone I came in contact with. I have bipolar disorder. It lies to you. Just straight up lies. After my friend died, I didn’t try for a long time. I knew now what it felt like to be left behind and how nothing takes away the “why” “why didn’t you talk to me” “didn’t you love me enough to stay”…. When I knew why. I knew the lies your mind tells you when you are that depressed, that desperate to make it all stop. Why didn’t my stories help him reach out to me. I had just talked to him. I was the only one he talked to. We said I love you. He said goodbye. I thought it was a regular goodbye off the phone. I had no idea that he’d be gone just 2 days later. I reach out to people I see are struggling, even if I don’t know them very well. I ask people if they’re ok if they are visibly crying in public. I know what it feels like to be stuck in those thought patterns and really want a way out but think there’s only 1 answer. I know what your mind tells you when you go through with it. I know what it’s like to wake up in that same pain and realize you failed and cry. I also know what it’s like to reach out to someone for help. I know what it’s like to voluntarily admit myself to the psych ward. I know what it’s like to be forced into the psych ward. I talked to my friend about everything. Idk why he did it. I know he was sick and hid it from all of us. It haunts me and it always will. I don’t want to do that to the people I love. So, it keeps me alive. There was a time when I found Kevin’s story, desperate for any little thing to help me stay here. He pulled me through a REALLY bad weekend. I held on to his story and it helped me recognize that I was thinking irrationally. My friend has kept me alive, too, knowing how those I love will feel if I do it. I am in mental health treatment and have been for many years. I have had strangers reach out to me on Facebook seeing I was struggling. They saved me. It just takes the tiniest of things to stop you from doing it. And I reached out to my dr and was hospitalized when that voice that tells you what a burden you are got too loud for me to bear. I hope you are ok. I hope you know you matter. I hope you know I care. You are enough. Thank you for sharing your painful story. I pray you are well and happy and thriving. 💛
I also tried to end my life. My parents didn't even come to the hospital. I am so glad that Kevin has great parents. Because I don't have loving parents I rely on a great God who loves me unconditionally.
Hun, He will also put Mothers and Fathers on your path, when you'll need flesh and blood support. My heart is with you. Fight for yourself, fight for your happiness! It's out there, you just need to find it! Then, experience it and enjoy, every day! ❤
Kevin talking about wanting to help people in pain made me instantly cry. It’s so hard when people tell you that you have purpose and are worthy when you constantly tell yourself in your head is that you’re not. I’m looking forward to more videos in this series
Kevin reminds me of some strong veterans with PTSD. Sometimes life is a never ending war. I feel for him big time and his smile when he said the sea lions name was Herbert.. ugh. seeing that smidge of happiness is what brings me happiness. All the positive thoughts love to him and his family.
Kevin has found his calling in life🌅 to help other people. This is why we as humans are here to help each other. This is our purpose in life,to find out HOW 🙌
I'm bawling. The pain of not wanting to be alive (which is different than wanting to die) is one you can never understand until you've experienced it. The worst part is genuinely not having anyone to talk to (except a therapist I can only see twice a month. I'm luckier than some to have that). His accounts of people ignoring you even when you're very visibly in distress are very real. I got extremely depressed in college. Got to the point where I would be sitting in the library, on the campus shuttle, walking to class, etc with tears rolling down my face, and no one ever said anything. I went to the school counseling center and started sobbing and saying I needed help the moment they asked why I was there. Then they looked in my student account, saw I was taking 10 credit hours that semester, and said they couldn't see me because they only saw students who were taking at least 12 credit hours. I felt completely on my own and like no one cared about me because I was, and no one did.
Lavendar Min hello. How are you doing today? I know how you feel and I know I’m Just a stranger, but wanted to check in on you. Have a wonderful day. Feel free to dm me if you need someone to talk to.
@@stacram87 Thank you for thinking about me, @stacram87 :) Today is hard between being under a lot of stress, spending the holiday weekend alone, and having a really bad migraine (I get them like 3x a week, it's nothing new lol), but kindness like yours helps. I'll keep your DM offer in mind.
I'm so sorry that happened to you. I know how you feel. Even being in a room full of people can be the most isolating because you know that very few to none truly care about how your day went, how you're doing, etc. I think many also suffer in silence and try to numb themselves because society tells us to do so. Its very unfortunate because socializing and connecting is what had made civilization thrive in the first place.
Lavendar Min hello Lavender. I’m sorry for the late reply. I didn’t get a notification. Thank you for reaching out to me :) I have been getting migraines too.. I’ve chalked it up to a lack of sleep and water, but perhaps since you get it so often seeing a doctor. I don’t know about you, but it can be so debilitating! Light and sound are the worst. Sorry you are stressed out and feeling lonely. Can you think of the last time you were happy? For me when I feel alone, i know that painting or travelling make me happy, so I take a me day and do something for me. Do you think that will help you? Thinking of you. You definitely aren’t alone :) have a wonderful day!
stacram87 you sound helpful and reading your text calms me. Maybe you should think of volunteering, it will aid others and yourself. You understand somethings (compassion) that only you can.. Others would have a hard time getting hold of.. you should do something with it
@@Smileyshanice It's been 5 years or so since then.. No body has ever told me anything positive..you are the first soul who has. Thank you for showing me compassion.
I have had those thoughts and urges as well, fcking sucks. Now I got over it and im very happy to see others doing better as well, there is 100% always someone who loves you and needs you, sometimes you just havent met that person yet or find it hard to notice.
In my past I had a similar path I was in depths of grief due to my grandpa's passing and I was at the brick of suicide due high school drama on top of losing my grandpa but I still remember the day I when I went to youth group camp my junior year and I felt the presence of the holy spirit for the first time in my life, I knew then I could live with my pain and overcome anything.
Can I suggest a video topic? "How to forgive yourself for the things you do during a psychotic episode. " or something like that. I am struggling with this and finding it hard to discuss with my therapist. I am ashamed of the things I did during psychosis.
I feel you. In my state of madness when i was 17 to 18, i did things totally out of character. I also considered myself a type that would never be suicidical yet i did become and even got very close to it. I feel like moving forwaes is very difficult even if it is 4 to 5 years in the past now and my mind totally stable and clear.
He actually did jump but survived. I think God saved him out of love. I think Kevin Hines is a very beautiful and kind human being and so deserved a second chance.
Damn..i started crying.. This touched my heart so much, He's such a great person He inspires me so much.. Each and every suicide surviver have there own unique Story. This Amazes me,i love it
Mr. Kevin I'm happy you survived. I'm also grateful that you are telling the story and giving hope to people who might not have much right now. God had a plan for you.
I would have definitely asked if you were ok and how i could help you. I cannot believe people these days. I'm so sorry that you were so alone that day. The lesson that you took from it... the Phoenix you became to rise up and become an author... to tell your story and be a voice for those who need that one person to say it will be OK. You are amazing. You are brave. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. ❤❤❤
I'm so glad you are here today to share your stoiry and raise awareness, Kevin. Thank you, and I send you positive vibes and best wishes from Limerick Ireland 🇮🇪 ☘️ ❤️
This is why I don’t like when people portray mental illness as genetic and something you’re just born with when almost EVERY time you need neglect or trauma to bring it on. It’s not like you’re just defective, you dealt with immense suffering in your life.
I wonder if posting placards saying "the minute my hands left the rail I wanted to live" along w the suicide hotline # might help until the net is complete. the words of someone who was there....
I have lived with suicidal thoughts for the past 9 years. It's a thought that is always lurking behind a smile everyday. I struggle with Schizoaffective disorder bipolar type, PTSD, Generalized anxiety disorder and borderline personality disorder. Everyday is a struggle for control over my own thoughts. Therapy and meds can only do so much.... I pray that one day I will have a breakthrough. It's hard being alone in a room full of people.... Kevin is an amazing person and I am going to get his book. Maybe reading his story will help me understand the feelings and emotions that I have carried for so long.
Ok, so my cousin died from jumping off this bridge, drove 8 hrs from San Diego, left her car running and purse on the seat, and jumped to her death. Why? Because she was 30 and received a medical diagnosis that was terminal. She knew what to expect. I now work in a care home with someone brave enough to live with this inherited disease and believe she might be a cousin. I grew up in Silicon Valley and have wanted to jump off this bridge many times. The thing is, I swim too well. Even though I am inspired by so many survival stories, privately, I plan on ending my days on this bridge. Always have known it, and still plan on it. Yes, I can swim very well, I don't plan on being able to swim. I will make sure I don't survive. No more swim contests for me. I plan on being out of it enough that I won't be able to swim.
I tried to jump off a bridge when I was 21. I'll forever be grateful for the old lady that stopped her car and screamed what the f*** are you doing and the police who talked me down. I thank God I'm still here because I really wanted to go that day.
Ive attempted before and bridge is constantly on my mind. Ive been to the bridge a few times but havnt had the courage to jump. Or the courage to live I guess.
I love working with children and was falsely accused of being a pedophile. It devastated me, ive never fully recovered, and have struggled with suicide ever since. It ruined my life.
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(I just want to be sure you see my comment to pass it on): I wonder if posting placards saying "the minute my hands left the rail I wanted to live" along w the suicide hotline # might help until the net is complete. the words of someone who was there....
My friend Rick Tharpe jumped off the bridge and unfortunately did not survive. I've lost my dearest best friend to suicide... I was devastated when he died... First I was furious with him...why didnt he reach out to anyone..? You go through so many emotions... Congrats to Kevin for surviving and sharing his message... I have heard him speak before... great interview..
James Kristoff my husband hung himself 20 years ago this past January. It doesn’t get easier but we can choose to get stronger with self compassion and compassion for our fellow survivors of a loved one’s suicide. I send you love
Blessings and soothing to your heart, friend. 💚💛💙
Maybe he just wanted to be at peace.
I’m so sorry you lost your friend. I lost my best friend to his su*cude. It’s agonizing and frustrating and soul crushing. All we can do is tell their story from our personal perspective, how it feels to be a survivor of someone’s su*cide. I am the survivor of my own attempts, too. I talked with my bff about those attempts, about my mental health, about what made me do it, and try a few times, why I stopped. Why I got mental health help. Why I started speaking out about it. I only wanted peace. I felt like such a HUGE burden to everyone I came in contact with. I have bipolar disorder. It lies to you. Just straight up lies. After my friend died, I didn’t try for a long time. I knew now what it felt like to be left behind and how nothing takes away the “why” “why didn’t you talk to me” “didn’t you love me enough to stay”…. When I knew why. I knew the lies your mind tells you when you are that depressed, that desperate to make it all stop. Why didn’t my stories help him reach out to me. I had just talked to him. I was the only one he talked to. We said I love you. He said goodbye. I thought it was a regular goodbye off the phone. I had no idea that he’d be gone just 2 days later. I reach out to people I see are struggling, even if I don’t know them very well. I ask people if they’re ok if they are visibly crying in public. I know what it feels like to be stuck in those thought patterns and really want a way out but think there’s only 1 answer. I know what your mind tells you when you go through with it. I know what it’s like to wake up in that same pain and realize you failed and cry. I also know what it’s like to reach out to someone for help. I know what it’s like to voluntarily admit myself to the psych ward. I know what it’s like to be forced into the psych ward. I talked to my friend about everything. Idk why he did it. I know he was sick and hid it from all of us. It haunts me and it always will. I don’t want to do that to the people I love. So, it keeps me alive. There was a time when I found Kevin’s story, desperate for any little thing to help me stay here. He pulled me through a REALLY bad weekend. I held on to his story and it helped me recognize that I was thinking irrationally. My friend has kept me alive, too, knowing how those I love will feel if I do it. I am in mental health treatment and have been for many years. I have had strangers reach out to me on Facebook seeing I was struggling. They saved me. It just takes the tiniest of things to stop you from doing it. And I reached out to my dr and was hospitalized when that voice that tells you what a burden you are got too loud for me to bear. I hope you are ok. I hope you know you matter. I hope you know I care. You are enough. Thank you for sharing your painful story. I pray you are well and happy and thriving. 💛
I also tried to end my life. My parents didn't even come to the hospital. I am so glad that Kevin has great parents. Because I don't have loving parents I rely on a great God who loves me unconditionally.
You‘re so strong!!
Hun, He will also put Mothers and Fathers on your path, when you'll need flesh and blood support. My heart is with you. Fight for yourself, fight for your happiness! It's out there, you just need to find it! Then, experience it and enjoy, every day! ❤
MIFNP exact here, mine also disowned me...because it " wear's them out".., so no contact. fear of death alone, guess will be
Amen. Always reach out to Him or us your brothers and sisters in Christ.
Your life is so special and worth it. Thank god you are alive today. We are all lucky to have you. You are going to lead such a wonderful life!
Kevin talking about wanting to help people in pain made me instantly cry. It’s so hard when people tell you that you have purpose and are worthy when you constantly tell yourself in your head is that you’re not. I’m looking forward to more videos in this series
Kevin reminds me of some strong veterans with PTSD. Sometimes life is a never ending war. I feel for him big time and his smile when he said the sea lions name was Herbert.. ugh. seeing that smidge of happiness is what brings me happiness. All the positive thoughts love to him and his family.
You can tell he's grateful and is glad to be alive, when he said sea lions name
Kevin has found his calling in life🌅 to help other people. This is why we as humans are here to help each other. This is our purpose in life,to find out HOW 🙌
I just heard in another video this happened to him in 2000. Does this guy ever age??? Bless him. He represents many…
I'm bawling. The pain of not wanting to be alive (which is different than wanting to die) is one you can never understand until you've experienced it. The worst part is genuinely not having anyone to talk to (except a therapist I can only see twice a month. I'm luckier than some to have that).
His accounts of people ignoring you even when you're very visibly in distress are very real. I got extremely depressed in college. Got to the point where I would be sitting in the library, on the campus shuttle, walking to class, etc with tears rolling down my face, and no one ever said anything. I went to the school counseling center and started sobbing and saying I needed help the moment they asked why I was there. Then they looked in my student account, saw I was taking 10 credit hours that semester, and said they couldn't see me because they only saw students who were taking at least 12 credit hours. I felt completely on my own and like no one cared about me because I was, and no one did.
Lavendar Min hello. How are you doing today? I know how you feel and I know I’m
Just a stranger, but wanted to check in on you. Have a wonderful day. Feel free to dm me if you need someone to talk to.
@@stacram87 Thank you for thinking about me, @stacram87 :) Today is hard between being under a lot of stress, spending the holiday weekend alone, and having a really bad migraine (I get them like 3x a week, it's nothing new lol), but kindness like yours helps. I'll keep your DM offer in mind.
I'm so sorry that happened to you. I know how you feel. Even being in a room full of people can be the most isolating because you know that very few to none truly care about how your day went, how you're doing, etc. I think many also suffer in silence and try to numb themselves because society tells us to do so. Its very unfortunate because socializing and connecting is what had made civilization thrive in the first place.
Lavendar Min hello Lavender. I’m sorry for the late reply. I didn’t get a notification. Thank you for reaching out to me :) I have been getting migraines too.. I’ve chalked it up to a lack of sleep and water, but perhaps since you get it so often seeing a doctor. I don’t know about you, but it can be so debilitating! Light and sound are the worst. Sorry you are stressed out and feeling lonely. Can you think of the last time you were happy? For me when I feel alone, i know that painting or travelling make me happy, so I take a me day and do something for me. Do you think that will help you? Thinking of you. You definitely aren’t alone :) have a wonderful day!
stacram87 you sound helpful and reading your text calms me. Maybe you should think of volunteering, it will aid others and yourself. You understand somethings (compassion) that only you can.. Others would have a hard time getting hold of.. you should do something with it
I once attempted suicide..I was at my lowest. I thought no one would find my body. I woke up in ICU..was on life support for 2 days prior.
David Hollifield glad your here today ! Prayers , God has a purpose for your life , Ask Him . 🙏🏽👍🏽💪🏽
I'm glad you survived bro. Someone will always care. Sending positive vibes❤
@@Smileyshanice It's been 5 years or so since then.. No body has ever told me anything positive..you are the first soul who has. Thank you for showing me compassion.
I have had those thoughts and urges as well, fcking sucks. Now I got over it and im very happy to see others doing better as well, there is 100% always someone who loves you and needs you, sometimes you just havent met that person yet or find it hard to notice.
Am glad that you are okay, be strong.
In my past I had a similar path I was in depths of grief due to my grandpa's passing and I was at the brick of suicide due high school drama on top of losing my grandpa but I still remember the day I when I went to youth group camp my junior year and I felt the presence of the holy spirit for the first time in my life, I knew then I could live with my pain and overcome anything.
Looking forward to this series. I’m so happy he’s alive and helping others with his life. 🌻
Can I suggest a video topic? "How to forgive yourself for the things you do during a psychotic episode. " or something like that. I am struggling with this and finding it hard to discuss with my therapist. I am ashamed of the things I did during psychosis.
I feel you. In my state of madness when i was 17 to 18, i did things totally out of character. I also considered myself a type that would never be suicidical yet i did become and even got very close to it. I feel like moving forwaes is very difficult even if it is 4 to 5 years in the past now and my mind totally stable and clear.
Ugh! What a great topic
I told his story in my speech class.
Excited to hear Kevin's story. God bless you Kevin and keep inspiring people.
"pick a damn flower"
You awesome and amazing Kevin. Your knowledge and help you offer people is so valuable. You a great speaker too. Thank you for not jumping ...
He actually did jump but survived. I think God saved him out of love. I think Kevin Hines is a very beautiful and kind human being and so deserved a second chance.
Damn..i started crying..
This touched my heart so much,
He's such a great person
He inspires me so much..
Each and every suicide surviver have there own unique Story.
This Amazes me,i love it
Mr. Kevin I'm happy you survived. I'm also grateful that you are telling the story and giving hope to people who might not have much right now. God had a plan for you.
Like no joke, you are a good looking dude. You have such a caring personality as well.
Wanted to say that too. What a gorgeous man!
I would have definitely asked if you were ok and how i could help you. I cannot believe people these days. I'm so sorry that you were so alone that day.
The lesson that you took from it... the Phoenix you became to rise up and become an author... to tell your story and be a voice for those who need that one person to say it will be OK. You are amazing. You are brave. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. ❤❤❤
I'm so glad you are here today to share your stoiry and raise awareness, Kevin. Thank you, and I send you positive vibes and best wishes from Limerick Ireland 🇮🇪 ☘️ ❤️
Kevin Hines, you are amazing.
his story was beautiful. wow........ Kevin thank you for sharing.
Omg I remember when this happened. This dude is amazing.
What do you remember? Tell me more. Wanna know of his experience
This is why I don’t like when people portray mental illness as genetic and something you’re just born with when almost EVERY time you need neglect or trauma to bring it on. It’s not like you’re just defective, you dealt with immense suffering in your life.
I'm exactly like him 💯% I struggle with it every day
I love Kevin ... I remember him from way back when ... the guy that survived the jump ..
I wonder if posting placards saying "the minute my hands left the rail I wanted to live" along w the suicide hotline # might help until the net is complete. the words of someone who was there....
Such a simple and spot-on description: brain pain.
I have lived with suicidal thoughts for the past 9 years. It's a thought that is always lurking behind a smile everyday. I struggle with Schizoaffective disorder bipolar type, PTSD, Generalized anxiety disorder and borderline personality disorder. Everyday is a struggle for control over my own thoughts. Therapy and meds can only do so much.... I pray that one day I will have a breakthrough. It's hard being alone in a room full of people.... Kevin is an amazing person and I am going to get his book. Maybe reading his story will help me understand the feelings and emotions that I have carried for so long.
You did everything I believe right like exercise and watching your nutrition?
Why are you only doing series now and not videos on TH-cam. It’s sad. I miss the old videos
Ok, so my cousin died from jumping off this bridge, drove 8 hrs from San Diego, left her car running and purse on the seat, and jumped to her death. Why?
Because she was 30 and received a medical diagnosis that was terminal. She knew what to expect.
I now work in a care home with someone brave enough to live with this inherited disease and believe she might be a cousin.
I grew up in Silicon Valley and have wanted to jump off this bridge many times. The thing is, I swim too well. Even though I am inspired by so many survival stories, privately, I plan on ending my days on this bridge. Always have known it, and still plan on it. Yes, I can swim very well, I don't plan on being able to swim. I will make sure I don't survive. No more swim contests for me. I plan on being out of it enough that I won't be able to swim.
Well you won’t swim because the impact is too hard. I hope you can find peace.
I tried to jump off a bridge when I was 21. I'll forever be grateful for the old lady that stopped her car and screamed what the f*** are you doing and the police who talked me down. I thank God I'm still here because I really wanted to go that day.
Ive attempted before and bridge is constantly on my mind. Ive been to the bridge a few times but havnt had the courage to jump. Or the courage to live I guess.
Are you still with us? I hope.
@@brianachablis8145 I guess
DON'T lose hope
I hope you're still with us
Hi, I am an instant Kevin Hines fan ❤
A story of Gods redemption 🙏❤️ beauty for ashes 🌷
Kevin God Bless you 🌷❤🌷
I love working with children and was falsely accused of being a pedophile.
It devastated me, ive never fully recovered, and have struggled with suicide ever since. It ruined my life.
Thank you Kevin I can relate! Really!
I wonder if Kevin has ever heard the song “The Seal Lullaby” by Eric Whitacre. When he mentioned the seal, I thought of that song.
Hello what's the name of the book again? Thanks God bless you.
Cracked not Broken
big fan Kevin
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Well, I'd love to keep watching because like to not succumb to this darkness man, but apparently i can't afford to. The irony is ... expected.
shout out that sea lion
How the fuck did he survive this?
What about losing your kids through parental alienation and you stay alone with no family?😅
Mouth sounds are annoying turn the mic gain down
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God saved this man. No other way to put it.
EZ
Why is everyone so gay in these stories?
God saved him WHEN HE ASKED...but it is still all about me me me me. Why not give God the credit?
clickbait. he never says how he survived jumping off the golden gate bridge.