I struggle with harm and self harm and one of my exposures is to point knive at myself and think I probably harm myself. Also, I did the knive with my husband looking at me.
Mine latches on to whatever situation I'm in. Say if my parents went to sleep and I'm the only one up, I will get intrusive thoughts about killing them in their sleep. Or when I'm with my dogs, thoughts about hurting them. Then I instantly google things for reassurance.
I’ve had this everyday 24 hours a day for 2 months straight. It was the worst feeling ever. I would wake up in the morning and have the urge to sucker punch anyone I came in contact with. It made me feel like I was going to murder my family and friends. These thoughts brought on daily Panic Attacks and heavy anxiety. It got to a point where it was so intense that I checked myself into the hospital psych ward. I had to take Anti Anxiety medicine which helped to a certain degree but didn’t really stop the intrusive thoughts. After finding this video it was a huge relief knowing that I wasn’t the only person going through this! But that didn’t really help the harmful thoughts either. A big part of helping relieve these thoughts is to treat them as if they aren’t dangerous. Pay it no mind. It’ll eventually fade away. I woke up one morning and felt amazing! No harmful thoughts! The one thing that was on my mind was wondering when the harmful thoughts will come back. I still have that thought of wondering when it’ll come back but you gotta remember to enjoy today! Don’t worry about if or when the thoughts will come back. Enjoy being free of those harmful thoughts! I’m still seeing a therapist once a week to talk and to find more tools to help make sure these harmful thoughts stay way PERMANENTLY! I love you all! You WILL beat this. You WILL get better!
I done the same thing asked to be admitted it wasn’t my first time but first time for the h ocd I really felt like I was a danger to others this illness is scary like living in a nightmare 24/7
Thank you so much for this video. I've dealt with this my whole life but I think quarantine has allowed it to grow bigger. I'm glad this is a normal disorder and that I'm not the only one dealing with it
My harm OCD severely triggered after quarantine. It’s one of the worst things and I hate it. One little trigger and I’m off the rails. Currently dealing with a psychiatrist and will be joining a OCD clinic. I pray that I make it out of it. Good luck! You’ll get through it.
Same here! I have felt with confession/religious, harm, sugar (fear of diabetes), mental illness (fear of developing schizophrenia), relationship ocd. It feels soooooooo real when you’re going through it and impossible to know that it’s just false. My ocd also developed during quarantine :(
this nearly ruined my life at one point. i was thinking of killing myself or turning myself into the cops before i did something horrible. luckily it comes and goes but the last time i really struggled it lasted a few months and it was SO bad.
@@humbertorangel19881 idk it comes and goes with me. started when i was a teen and then didnt happen for years and then it was realy bad then it stopped and then a few years later it was really bad again
@@lamb7490 yeah, ive been fine for a long time and i hope it stays this way. knowing yourself well enough to know this is just a silly thought helps. then its just staying calm and dismissing it if you have an anxious reaction. ive gotten better at it. it takes practice though.
I love you so freaking much! You have no idea how much your videos have helped me understand what I'm going through. I also started practicing ERP because of you. Your videos literally helped me more than 6 months of medication. No joke. God bless you my friend :)
Right now I want to cry, I actually cried I am so scared of my thoughts. I can’t watch crime series or documentary any more I’m afraid to kill, afraid to have urge, afraid to go insane and actually like it. I don’t want these thought and feeling anymore I’m so scared of myself. And even more scared of being a psychopath but deep down I know I’m a good person just these thoughts are so disturbing. My biggest trigger was that I was making weed and marijuana a lot in short period of time last year. After that I had thoughts like these... does I sounds like a psychopath? Am I insane?
@@mariahselena9589 you are so harsh on yourself,i personally don't believe there is a healthy person we are all odd i one way or another and i think the way you talk about your daughter shows that you are a compassionate person,of course you will doubt about that because of the thoughts but the thoughts doesn't define you, mayde you can become a great writer with that imagination ,in the end you just have to see the situation in a humorous way, you are not crazy or psychopath you are just very anxious
@@mariahselena9589 Your thoughts are much more common than you think! I, too, struggle with all this but at the end of the day, PLEASE remember it's all 100% FAKE. The fact that you care about your daughter so much is enough proof for me to confidently tell you that you would never do anything to put her in danger. Unfortunately, Harm OCD seems to attack good people and makes them think they're bad, when they're in fact the complete opposite. I know it's hard because I learned of my Harm OCD only a few days ago, but life goes on! Tons of support for you!
I've had a lot of anxiety last year...At the beginning i had the thoughts that i was gonna die unexpectedly from heart attack...e.t.c.Then I remember one day I woke up and I was afraid that I I was gonna hurt myself...Day by day the thoughts were ruining my days...I was afraid that I was gonna kill people that I loved...I was sure that I was going insane and crazy every day that passed...I couldn't stand it anymore and seeked help...I went to a psychiatrist and explained me that it's more common than I think and that the thoughts were because mainly of the anxiety I've been through and they were only in my head!He also gave me medication and 1 month after I seeked help i was finally feeling better and the thoughts began to fade away little by little day by day...Now these thoughts still hunt me sometimes but the difference is that I know why they occur and that they are 100% FAKE...!The thoughts never disappeared completely...but if it happens that you're suffering remembe!Never in a million years will the thoughts that hunt you become reality!
Hey do u know what medication u were taking cus I have obsessive thoughts over killing my family and it makes me so sad and has been leading me to consider suicide so I don’t hurt ppl
@@jondowng207 I know exactly how you feel my man...I took Dumyrox 100mg...in my opinion you should ask for help though I am not a doctor to help you with the medicine...but i can tell you that all the thoughts are 100% fake and you will feel better soon if you seek out for help
I started like you and Im currently in the part where you said "I remember one day I woke up" but I feel like I have control of myself cause I have my family to talk and I looked up alot of it and I feel in control well sometimes
Violent thoughts. Sometimes I picture myself hurting other people in...extreme methods. Other times I get a flash of thoughts and urges to hurt others, then freak out in my head for a little while.
I imagine killing a person in my brain and measure my level of anxiety from 1 to 10. The higher my anxiety gets, the more I fear that it’s going to happen when it’s actually the opposite
Thank you so much for this; I have suffered for years with this condition and it can be truly debilitating. First started when I was 15 and now at 62 I can reflect on how much I missed out upon in my life. Thank you again for all of your videos and help to us on this community.
Thank you so much for this I generally thought I was a horrible person and tried to avoid everything in life so I didn't hurt anyone this helped so much. Thank you
same bro. I still have problems going back to video games i love that had anything to do with guns or swords or death because i thought it would make me want that.
Dude you explain it so well and you say it bluntly like you dont care, now I dont care much, I tell myself my ocd fears can be possible and they might happen but they havnt and probably wont, now I have more freedom! Thankyou!
Sometimes I have intrusive thoughts that I WANT to cause harm to someone, not just what ifs and it scares me so much. I’ve never hurt anyone before and I don’t want to but I feel so much doubt! Do you have any advice on dealing with this?
@@lunacat. Hi. Its most likely not what you want. The way to know is if you have alot of hate for a certain person, or If you just wanna harm them even though you love them its harm ocd. Try to take your mind off of these thoughts by doing something you love or listening to rexlaxing music. If the thoughts stay, try to ignore them and always control urself. Good luck.
I am SO happy to have found this community. I know there are different forms of OCD and i feel like mine is a combination of OCD and ADHD. Anyone else have this combo?
Thank you for this video I have been going through harm OCD for a couple mounts now and it is very scary thinking about hurting others but I have found watching happy TH-cam videos and reassuring myself that I won’t hurt anybody have helped me a lot.
Ok, I didn't think I'd make it through this video. Especially not while looking at the screen but I did and I'm proud of myself. I think I have this type of OCD and others. Your video helped, thank you
I struggle with this. I worry about “hurting or killing “ someone if I get too angry. But lately when I feel angry I’m able to calm myself down. I have never hurt anyone or anything physically but these thoughts come across my mind randomly and it drives me crazy. I don’t ever have any intentions of doing those things but the thoughts scare me. I also don’t drive at all cuz I feel like I’m gonna crash into someone or hurt myself. I just wish these thoughts would go away.
I feel the same way sometimes, but I think we just have to except the uncertainty and move on. I know you won't hurt anyone and it doesn't scare me that you have thoughts like that, and I don't even know you. You should try to trust yourself.
Harmony Holmes thank you Harmony. It’s comforting to know that I’m not the only one that feels that way. Day by day, I’m trying to fight it and not let it control me.
Looking into it is causing compulsions/anxiety. BUT I am forcing myself to watch this video for the betterment of my mental health. Thank you so much for posting this video!!
@@careless_rose9899 I am making progress I wouldn't have made without this video. Since, I have been in therapy and learned "self help" tools and was sent on my way. From here, I have slowly slowly been making progress but even one point on our team and not OCD's is STILL a point.
@@BoondockMysteriesYT Same I have been feeling a lot better lately. Ever since I learned what it is that I have(harm ocd) it has helped me tremendously to deal with it. Now I can recognize the thoughts and say “hey thats my harm OCD”. I still do think to myself that there is something wrong with me sometimes and that I am a psychopath and I have intrusive thoughts here and there but they subside pretty quickly and don’t cause a panic attack anymore. I pray you continue on your journey of healing!
I've had one for the past week about harming my mum and not being able to control my actions and I kept think what if I'd just do it like what if I just snapped and it's terrifying and its making me physically sick and I having trouble eating but knowing that I'm not alone makes me feel so much better cuz I love her more than anything and so thinking all this is so scary but this vid has helped ease my thoughts. Thankyou
Thank you!! I am also experiencing it I thought I am starting to be crazy, but with the help of this video it gives me huge relief about self harming thoughts like stabbing my self... I always tell my mind that it is ok its normal, but I know I am not going to do that what ever happens, I just let it be there and do some breathing techniques and accepting it. Also spiritually speaking praying to God to overcome this self harming thoughts is a very huge help, as a Christian I start reading bible whenever I feel the urge and Instead of forgetting about it I will find verse that will inspire me to live a life and overcome your bad thoughts in your life...
You deserve more subscribers. This helped me a lot. I have this from time to time and I have to remind myself that it is normal to have the thoughts and that I should ignore it. The beginning of the exposures is always hard but it is worth the effort. They will go away at some point :)
There is a HUGE difference between sociopath - psychopath and people with OCD. Psychopath and sociopath NEVER feel GUILT, they do not have empathy, so they don't really care about hurt somebody. IF you FEAR harm somebody, shows that you care, you have empathy. So you just need look for help with some good OCD therapist.
Everyone going through this just chill in the end it will fade on its own but you must go through hell first! I speak bottom of the bottoms where you tell god to take you away each day rather than having to endure this! Sidenote: WHEN YOU WIN HARM-OCD OCD might attack you in the future with other allies of it there are many themes! But they are all ocd bullshit as usual
i have four kids, started to have very disturbing instrusive thoughts when pregnant with my fourth and thought i was the devil in disguise lol but its ok, i really think this is normal when human beings are put under extreame stress...it could be linked to our ancestors who might have had such thoughts as well...dont isolate yourself, that is the worst breeding ground for disturbing thoughts...I wish you all the best toward a clear+pure minded life and you are not alone!!! :)
i feel so seen right now, harm ocd has been eating me up all my life, i've had this since i was kid and i always thought i was strange and terrible not until i've done some research about it, i thank you for this video although i still have thoughts like those, i have some control about it now..
I’m just relieved that I’m not the only one and I’m sorry for anyone dealing with this and yes sometimes I just get these thoughts of harming other or my animals 😔 But I love them so much that I won’t be able to do it and when I tell some people that I trust they tell me I’m crazy but I don’t mean any harm to my anyone it’s just those thoughts, and yes I do have a therapist but I’m scared to tell her because I know she will give me meds or send me somewhere, you are not alone 🙃
Thank you so much for your videos. I can tell how much you put into them, and it's so appreciated. You have the perfect balance of "we're going to do this together" and challenging OCD. I see you scissors and scary knife 👀
This illness is so exhausting, I physically don’t know how much I can take. It’s mainly torturous thoughts toward myself that I’ll create and can’t control, I can’t even trust myself because it’s me that’s harming my body with violent thoughts alone which can be extremely crippling.
Just had a harm episode today due to family vacation stress. I’ve noticed when you have OCD and your under an enormous amount of stress + barely any sleep your ocd thoughts can exacerbate.
I have had this since I was 15 years old. I was so scared that I was not able to tell anybody. I went through such a terrible period that I was suicidal. Finally in my 30’s I told my psychiatrist and found out what was going on. I take medication that thankfully works. It does come and go but not as frequently. I could never go through that again. Just the thought of it sends me into a panic attack. Im so happy to find other people with the same issue.
@@emilyphippen8742 yes i am also suffering with these horrible thoughts . it makes me fear . does medicine have any side effects ? are you feeling any ?
@@payelmukherjee8733 I have been on it for almost 10 years. At first I was a bit sleepy so I started taking it at night and haven’t had any issues. To be honest Id deal with side effects over those horrible thoughts any day 🤷🏻♀️
i dont think i have ocd but i can relate to the intrusive thoughts which for me happen more frequently when feeling hopeless, depressed or isolated...get outside and in contact with nature... i think being suffocated inside a four wall room can feel like jack nicholson from the shinning!
I’ve been dealing this lately and it feels awful. In 2021, I lost a childhood friend and I cried for a week straight and it shook me to the core. I’ve always had an anxiety of death and I’ve felt like I couldn’t stop. In 2022, I went through a traumatic breakup and I felt alone even though plenty of friends and family talked to me and gave me advice and assured me i was gonna be alright. I came and searched this because I’m tired of being scared and tired of feeling like I’m going crazy and that I’m not a normal person. Thank you for these videos man 🙏🏼
Hey I understand your fear of death but I can reassure you we'll be okay. Just enjoy your life to the fullest, do what you love the most. For me atm, I am dealing with self harm ocd, its so hard to deal with. But fearing death, dont worry, I know we'll be okay
OMGGGG THANKYOUUUU YOU DONT KNOW HOW MUCH PAIN IVE BEEN THROUGH THISSS WHOLE 5 months it started since we have online classes omggggg and i wanted to harm my loved ones when i didn’t its so harddd
I've been trough this kind of feeling 10 years ago when i was in abroad, it all started when i joined bible study which i do not do in my entire life. Suddenly it came all those intrusive thoughts, like hurting others or even hurting my self. O my it gives me a lot of fear in my mind that what if i did that thoughts! I always feel nervous when it attacks me, i can't even fall a sleep. So i decided to go back to my country and find another job here. Without even knowing i almost forgot and they don't even comes in my mind those thoughts. And now i'm suffering again with those intrusive thoughts, because i decided to go back and work abroad. After i watched this video it realy helps me a lot. I hope this video will be cured all my anxiety and keep away all those intrusive thoughts so i can go back to my normal life, and give my family a better life.
Just been diagnosed with having Harm OCD I am absolutely terrified I will act on my thoughts. Keep saying please god keep my family safe, removed all sharps from my home. Also been avoiding my mum to keep her safe.
Hey, I’ve been struggling with harm OCD aswell related mainly to my parents. It’s really hard and takes time to accept the fact that it is just harm ocd and these thoughts are just thoughts. Not precursors to actions. I still struggle with agreeing with these thoughts or saying as I feel it’s risky but I know I will never hurt anyone and that is concrete. However OCD can turn this around and say it’s concrete that you will definitely hurt your family. My response to that is whatever or okay cool, even though it is difficult and may make you feel like you will do it. You won’t. Hope this helps, we’re all in this together and it will pass
Thank you so much for this video!!!!🙏🏻 I have been struggling with severe post partum OCD for over 5 months now & it’s been hell for me. Lots of ups & downs, but it’s always been the same horrible thought of stabbing my son with a knife!!! Ugh I can never get this thought out of my mind and I feel like I’m going insane.... I have seen over 5 therapists & been on medication. Nothing feels right it’s horrible. I don’t wish this upon my worst enemy, it feels like I’m about to snap at any moment. I hope it goes away with time along with ERP.
How are you doing now? I have that same feeling wheee I feel like I can “snap” at any moment . I’m having harm and sexual ocd so strongly , I would not wish this hell upon my worst enemy.
I dealt with this after my fourth baby and never even had an intrusive thought before yet this freaked me out. I was afraid of hurting him, then it brought extreme depression and fear about harming myself and then my kids. It calmed down a great deal but lasted a long time and I’ve noticed whenever I begin to feel down again the intrusive thoughts come back about harming myself yet I don’t want to. It’s really strange.
I don’t know if I have harm ocd or something else. But i have unwanted thoughts that really scare me and make me question my sanity. I know my morals and I’m a good person. I wouldn’t do anything to harm anyone. And it gives me panic attacks. My anxiety doesn’t help either.
I suffering with the same thing rn i feel always so guilty and bad idk if i have this or not either but ik that i do get unwanted thoughts and it kills me inside because i would never hurt anyone either 😭
I’m dealing with the same thing. Whether it’s harm ocd or something else, I try to practice these sayings that Nathan says to say to ourselves, to make light of the thoughts and for me it helps
I am only 12 and think I have Harm OCD. I have ADHD, Aspergers, and possibly something else. This just started developing a few months ago, where ill have horrible thoughts of harming people and loved ones, but im able to control myself. It was so scary.
I think I have this but I’m afraid to open up about it because people might think I want to harm them and overall it seems like I could face very negative consequences from opening up about it Edit: I definitely have this and I’ve even developed some of the coping habits in this video naturally
I feel the same way, its hard to talk about or get help for when you aren't sure if people will understand. It's okay to face this alone if that's what is comfortable for you. I've tried to explain it to people and no one has really understood. It'll get better for you, you aren't what your thoughts make you out to be.
I got no anxiety from mine and it feels so real, i dont really feel like telling people cause I dont want to be told I actually want to kill people, im just not afraid and maybe its cause of my past with ocd.
The moment I started watching this video, I got uneasy because I instantly noticed the scissors and knife in the background. Those are two of the main triggers that cause these types of thoughts to swarm me. If I see one, and especially if I pick one up, my mind instantly thinks to harm myself or someone else, and then I stress about why the hell I thought such a thing because I don't want to. Sometimes I can ignore it and continue on, and other times it gets to the point where I need to put them down or give them to someone else because I feel like my body will go through with the urge to harm. I don't even need an object for it, sometimes I just see a family member walking and my mind instantly urges me to harm them. I don't want to, I'm not trying to, but my mind repeatedly tells me to push or punch or hit them, and so I'll end up really trying to ignore it and act normal or trying to stay away from them. I didn’t know this was an OCD sort of thing until just last night, I barely knew much about OCD beforehand so I started doing research on it and found that I related to a good chunk of OCD symptoms. The harmful intrusive thoughts are one of them. I always thought I was off or horrible in some way for thinking these things, but at the same time I also didn't think it was anything out of the ordinary, like maybe other people think the same things... Nope! At least not to this extent they don't. I'm honestly scared about opening up to my parents about this, I told my partner and my sister about this thing I feel, but not them yet... 😬
How can we do exposure with the fear of being depressed ? Sometimes i am totally convinced of being depressed, it is more than a fear. I stop internet research but i have a little mental compulsion.
We'd use the same concept of exposure for any topic. Not try to control it or figure it out. Instead can stay uncertain about it. I'm creating a video soon on health anxiety that would involve creating exposures for something like this.
this is me with knives. I use to have the fear of possibly doing it to others when seeing a knife now it turns onto myself, so i instead imagine myself about to stab myself. Now it leads to me dropping a knife visually.
Thank you this has helped a lot but what really makes me feel better about it is thinking it’s not dangerous and it has no power over me I pray a lot to god about it and when I’m feeling lonely or feel another episode happening I like to read my bible and pray to god he always seems to help me in these situations but I hope someday it will just fully go away and I can live the life I did before I had these thoughts the life of no worry and not having to reassure myself that I’m not evil or anything bad everytime I get one of these even thoughts
Thank you for this video..it's a scary thing to tell people I get dirty weird looks and it makes me feel like a psychopath already. I don't even feel like I'm on my own body anymore o get so many intrusive thoughts and weird angry urges now. I put myself in a mental hospital for now ...I feel like like a Monster I'm too scared to be around my family or my pets. I just want to feel normal again it's never been this bad ..😥
It took me about 2 years to lessen the shock from the first panic attack from these thoughts. A huge one after I watched some horrible things on the Internet because I wanted to become morally stronger. And I became morally weaker... Wanted to do better and made it worse...
I found out i have harm ocd symptoms, thinking bad things i could NEVER EVER done to anyone 😭 it was so hard im only 17 years old and i cant go to the therapist because im afraid that my mom think im crazy for having this kind of thoughts, it was so hard telling my bestfriend those worst and impossible things in my mind 😭 i hope i can get rid of this very soon ,its been 1 month since i have this bc of the intense emotion 😭❤️🧿 im glad and relieve im not the only one 😭 This is making me cry i feel like im gonna get healed very very soon ❤️😭
I am a mom of 3 my youngest is 4 I was just diagnosed with ocd a few months ago I have been struggling with harm ocd for the past four months and it involves disturbing intrusive thoughts of hurting my children especially my four year old 😔 I have been tryin to do ERP by myself and I have come to terms that thoughts are thoughts although the disgust shame and sadness I feel from them are horrible also was having panic attacks and anyway I was starting to feel a little better and the thoughts were becoming less and then the thought was what if the more you think of them you will sleepwalk and commit these thoughts in your sleep I’ve had that thought about sleepwalking before but I convinced myself I wouldn’t because I’ve never slept walk in my life but I remember this story about a man killing his wife in his sleep and yea went down the rabbit hole How do you I get rid of this it’s so stupid that I put so much belief into it? Please help? How do you do ERP for this 😨
It's been 9 months I hope u're doing good mama I have harmful ocd and now I have a baby a 10 months old and I have though about hurting him first was my husband now I have them about my baby u are not alone and u are not u're though those though Don't mean nothing about u and everyone's have them
my family members wont let me do exposure therapy. they feel unsafe that i have harm ocd. ive even had my therapist explain it to them which initially resulted in them forcibly committing me until my therapist explained the situation to the hospital. do you have any advice?
I started having these thoughts last year in March. At the beginning it would appear just once in a month...but since October it has been coming back every second day and I was really going crazy...I was so desperated and lonely..I didnt know what to do but i knew these thoughts weren't mine! So I went and google it...to see if there's someone like me or I'm really sick haha...So Ive found a big community of people having the same issue. ❤❤❤❤ what more I want to say...I'm religious and I believe there are thoughts that come from Angels and also ones that come from Demons....I think maybe these are actual psychic attacks....Correct me guys if you think I'm wrong. ❤
I am so scared that i wanna cry out aloud. I've been having these thoughts for a few days i am afraid to talk to anyone . I have stopped watching crime movies
@@Beast-eq8qw I try to be as little stressed as possible. When you are stressed and worried, OCD becomes stronger. Try to calm down, use breathing techniques, exercise, eat healthy, do something that calms you down, watch calming series, videos, etc. Of course, it is not only important not to be stressed, the most important thing is not to do compulsions. When you have an intrusive thought, ignore it or agree with it. I know it sounds crazy to agree with that thought, but it's just being sarcastic because if you resist it, it gets stronger and the OCD is prolonged. Those thoughts don't really mean anything. I know it's hard not to do the compulsions in the beginning, but you will succeed with time, I wish I had known that right at the beginning when I got OCD because then it wouldn't have spread so much. Basically, I'm not an expert and I don't want to give advice, but it helped me a lot, I also suffer from ocd. If you see that your condition does not improve even though you do this, it is best to seek help, what helped me does not mean that it will help you, but in my opinion these techniques should help you
@@Beast-eq8qwI try to be as little stressed as possible. When you are stressed and worried, OCD becomes stronger. Try to calm down, use breathing techniques, exercise, eat healthy, do something that calms you down, watch calming series, videos, etc. Of course, it is not only important not to be stressed, the most important thing is not to do compulsions. When you have an intrusive thought, ignore it or agree with it. I know it sounds crazy to agree with that thought, but it's just being sarcastic because if you resist it, it gets stronger and the OCD is prolonged. Those thoughts don't really mean anything. I know it's hard not to do the compulsions in the beginning, but you will succeed with time, I wish I had known that right at the beginning when I got OCD because then it wouldn't have spread so much. Basically, I'm not an expert and I don't want to give advice, but it helped me a lot, I also suffer from ocd. If you see that your condition does not improve even though you do this, it is best to seek help, what helped me does not mean that it will help you, but in my opinion these techniques should help you
I hope I have this and I’m not some psychotic person. I have unwanted thoughts of harming my grandmother... I’d never do that sometimes my feelings go numb and I have urges to do it but I know I don’t want to.. it makes my heart race I get anxious and I start to worry.. my mind feels like it’s heavy and nothing feels right anymore. Please someone am I a psychopath or not ? It’s making me want to cry sometimes and I would never hurt her. And when I watch videos on criminals I get anxiety too thinking I’ll be like them 😔 Edit: three years later it’s gotten better I can go months without it recurring and when it does come back it hits hard but it’s definitely better than before. Thanks for the positive reassurance guys
I have worries like this about my family. I'm scared of being around knives because I worry my mind will go blank and I'll just hurt them with it. I KNOW I wont. But I Still panic every day constantly.
Nate, can you fear a theme so much but end up thinking about it nonstop? I’m not sure if I actually have the theme or if my anxiety is just coming up with these thoughts to test myself? I literally started with “I hope I dont get so and so theme and I spiraled with fear of potential thoughts
I have horrible OCD on commiting suicide because I've had three of my very good friends commit suicide. I also have OCD when I'm reading something about a mom hurting their children then my brain automatically goes to oh my God could you do that why did they snap why did they do that. I have horrible horrible panic attacks to where I throw up. My triggers are being alone with one of my children or by myself. What can I do to help myself what kind of exposure can I do for these things??
Man u deserve a subscribe at least... Ive had this for years uppon years i offten have these harmful views of my own little baby kitten... Or my family members like my brother... My god its the scariest stuff i ever gotta deal with...
I think I have Harm OCD to like I get so angry at someone and like if they come near me or something I tuck my hands away and like try to distance myself and if they come near my bed or something I feel like i have to basically just freeze because i think if im constantly moving around then somehow the bed will hit them and i think i do it purpose or whatever like I have these tiny things that like everyone else does too but like I think that sometimes i do somethings on purpose and fear im turning into a psychopath or something. I get these bad urges and like UGHH I cant wait to be done with them do I have Harm OCD?
crying as i watch this 😭😭 these thoughts make me not want to live i stabbed an ex through abuse id suffered im scared and fearful so when i cant cope i had these thoughts of harming my child. he now lives with my mum. i dont feel safe to be around when im like this
I suffered from this from early teens up until my mid twenties. Jesus's that was dark time of my life the guilt and shame I felt for thinking such thoughts and I remember the catalyst that triggered it , I got bullied to shreds in high school I one day snapped and beat up one of my bullies to a pulp and afterwards I had a thought what if I did that to my loved ones when they annoyed me and it consumed me every waking moment for years, constant impulse flashes of lashing out at people I felt like I was going insane.
Step 3 - resist doing the compulsions. I'm not sure what compulsions in a harm OCD? Risk harming the person, which is a cognitive distortion anyway? Or running away from the trigger? Thanks!
Thank you so much for this video last night I was helping my mom cook dinner and when I grab the kitchen knife I thought about what if I stabbed my mother and the thought of that scared me but I always have the urge to do it and it scares me
OmanXer. I used to have harm ocd. I remember plucking my mom’s eyebrows and I had this strong urge or intrusive thought to stab my mom’s eyes with the eyebrow plucker. This scared the crap out of me because I love my mom very dearly. The urges and thoughts kept getting stronger the more I fight it in my mind. It got really bad that I had to go to the bathroom toilet and try to vomit these urges out of my system. This was when I was attending college as a first year student. That same year I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia from my primary doctor due to stress I was having in college. Luckily, my harm ocd just disappeared as I continually plucked my mom’s eyebrows and tried to ignore these urges and thoughts. So I kind of did ERP without me knowing it. Hope this helps you see that these intrusive thoughts and urges aren’t you. If it’s causing you great distress than it goes against your inner values and morals, as well as who you are as a person.
@@chestersidd1626 thanks for telling me your story. Reading your story made me so much happier that I’m not the only one. As a 13 year old harm ocd and think that I have it scares me a lot lol but again its so much better to have someone else that has experience the same thing that I’m going through 😂 btw I’m going to try the erp thing you told me. Have a good night
@@omanxer7275 Your welcome. I highly recommend that you should watch Dr. Jeffrey Schwartz ‘You are not your brain’. He’s a psychiatrist that studies the human brain for many years. He explains how the ocd brain has an overreacting brain on the orbital prefrontal cortex. By following his four steps, you can rewire how your brain functions (neuroplasticity). He also shows research evidence with real patients having good results. A TH-camr from Mind that Seeks Truth recommended me to watch Dr. Jeffrey’s videos and emphasized that the reason why we have these intrusive thoughts is because we have a malfunction caudate nucleus. The part of the brain that filters intrusive thoughts from important thoughts. Anyway, hope these advice helps you tremendously.
@@chestersidd1626 I know what you mean I get that alot. I recently experienced something bad an intrusive thoughts have been with me for some time now. I see myself stabbing my mom an dad in the eyes an it's kills me so much like I keep saying to myself I rather die or turn myself in. It was worse in the beginning cus it was sexual an violent but when I overthinked about it I noticed naa I don't like that at all. What I saw was a violent sexual assault on someone online an it was haunting me bad but I feel like it's getting more dull. I was never one to smoke weed or anything before, I was kinda against it cus I thought well if I'm not suffering then I don't need to waste weed cus someone else could need it. But when the experience happened an I was dealing with it I begged my friend to give me weed. I'm smoking now an it seems to help but Im trying something now I meditate an force myself to see these things I even add to it, an it dose seem to be less an less important. I was so scared I was a maniac cus like I said I rather kill myself then kill my family or anyone. I hope everyone here who has this gets better. It would seem that we all good people because of how we are suffering. Like in the beginning it was me killing my cats an ripping them apart or even stomping on them but that went away as I kept dealing with it.
I have a question I randomly got the thought yesterday what if I go into the kitchen grab a knife and stab my family I got so worried and was having like a panic attack it kept me up and I keep worrying like am I a psycho path I keep like saying I won’t do it but I’m like worrying about being a psycho path I feel like sometimes I do it but is this just harm ocd?
Hey yeah Its probably Harm OCD. I think I have it too. Try to focus on soing things you like so the thoughts leave. Theyll most likely come and go based on what I went through. Good luck
@@hellohello-mi1lk Hello, I had these thought a lot and a lot of aniexty aswell and I just wanted to say I’ve stopped thinking about these and bad things turns out it’s aniexty and worrying about everything bad or that could go bad and makes up bad symptoms or feelings to make your thought a reality but just wanted to let you know it gets better you just have to tell yourself your never gonna do it and it’s nothing serious and also know your not alone! Hope you overcome this your strong and don’t let anyone tell you any different Stat Strong you will overcome it!!❤️
I have harm ocd about hurting myself ever since I first started medication and in the insert sand something, like it can cause suicidal thoughts. I faded and came back ever since. I have done so much therapy but I’m still afraid that it will increase the anxiety and the thoughts.
I’m a young macchinist and I work on lathes producing parts for big electric motors. If I feel even a small detail is “off” in my work or if the part I machined is slightly out of tolerance I get intrusive thoughts of people dying because the part I Made was faulty. As a compulsion I continously seek reassurance from colleagues and the boss and I double check everything but anxiety won’t go away 😢
When I have a harm ocd attack it seems panic attacks come with it therefore making feel that much more weak. Is that common? I’m going to start standing up to my bully. I’m also going to get treatment through the veterans hospital. Thank u so much for your videos
When I've pen in my hand while studying I feel like stab it in someone around me or someone I think of .It just makes me scared to hold the pen again in my hand .I feel like throwing something heavy on the little child around me or something harm myself or do something violent.
hello there! I made a terrible mistake and i was taking a thing called Kratom for my anxyiety and depression it worked for a time but i got so addicted to it i was like okay this isnt gonna be okay in a long term. Now i stopped taking kratom cold turkey a week ago and my worst panik attacks and anxiety started to kick in...im so scared what if i stab my mom or my dog they means the world to me.. hopefully i can overcome this terrible state of mind.
hi i think my friend may be suffering from OCD he thinks his ex girlfriend put ground up glass in his clothes, under clothing ,bed sheets, and it gets on his skin hands,feet,and head as a result he starts picking and causing injury and sores,this has been going on for about two years now he tells me the glass gets spread and contaminates new clothing which he buys almost every week have you had a similar case i really want to help him
My brain is weird tho, i have super scary intrusive thoughts and then when im having these thoughts, its like my mind keeps trying to convince me that what happened was real and my brain tries to block it out as if it was a real event Have you heard of this before?
ive been doing exercises lately to reduce the stress and when i came to the point of almost feeling no anxiety from these thoughts my brain started telling me that im a bad person because i dont feel anxious about thoughts of harming others and i keep having this debate about wether im a good person or not
Do you struggle with Harm OCD? What does it look like for you? 👍🏻
I struggle with harm and self harm and one of my exposures is to point knive at myself and think I probably harm myself. Also, I did the knive with my husband looking at me.
Also I have real life ocd can you do a video on that.
I have this on my list to create soon! 🤪
Thanks for sharing. These are pretty common types of exposures many individuals do. I hope things get better for you! 👍🏻
Mine latches on to whatever situation I'm in. Say if my parents went to sleep and I'm the only one up, I will get intrusive thoughts about killing them in their sleep. Or when I'm with my dogs, thoughts about hurting them. Then I instantly google things for reassurance.
I’ve had this everyday 24 hours a day for 2 months straight. It was the worst feeling ever. I would wake up in the morning and have the urge to sucker punch anyone I came in contact with. It made me feel like I was going to murder my family and friends. These thoughts brought on daily Panic Attacks and heavy anxiety. It got to a point where it was so intense that I checked myself into the hospital psych ward. I had to take Anti Anxiety medicine which helped to a certain degree but didn’t really stop the intrusive thoughts. After finding this video it was a huge relief knowing that I wasn’t the only person going through this! But that didn’t really help the harmful thoughts either. A big part of helping relieve these thoughts is to treat them as if they aren’t dangerous. Pay it no mind. It’ll eventually fade away. I woke up one morning and felt amazing! No harmful thoughts! The one thing that was on my mind was wondering when the harmful thoughts will come back. I still have that thought of wondering when it’ll come back but you gotta remember to enjoy today! Don’t worry about if or when the thoughts will come back. Enjoy being free of those harmful thoughts! I’m still seeing a therapist once a week to talk and to find more tools to help make sure these harmful thoughts stay way PERMANENTLY! I love you all! You WILL beat this. You WILL get better!
What medicine helped you
Thank you for the encouragement.
I done the same thing asked to be admitted it wasn’t my first time but first time for the h ocd I really felt like I was a danger to others this illness is scary like living in a nightmare 24/7
Are you currently on any medication?
@@kristymarie6065 Vistaril
Thank you so much for this video. I've dealt with this my whole life but I think quarantine has allowed it to grow bigger. I'm glad this is a normal disorder and that I'm not the only one dealing with it
exactly the same. This helped so much
My harm OCD severely triggered after quarantine. It’s one of the worst things and I hate it. One little trigger and I’m off the rails. Currently dealing with a psychiatrist and will be joining a OCD clinic. I pray that I make it out of it. Good luck! You’ll get through it.
Same here! I have felt with confession/religious, harm, sugar (fear of diabetes), mental illness (fear of developing schizophrenia), relationship ocd. It feels soooooooo real when you’re going through it and impossible to know that it’s just false. My ocd also developed during quarantine :(
@@Plainandsimple3 Don’t worry, you’ll make it. If God brings you to it, he’ll bring you through it. 😇🙏
@@snookchop5293 God bless 🙏
this nearly ruined my life at one point. i was thinking of killing myself or turning myself into the cops before i did something horrible. luckily it comes and goes but the last time i really struggled it lasted a few months and it was SO bad.
@@humbertorangel19881 idk it comes and goes with me. started when i was a teen and then didnt happen for years and then it was realy bad then it stopped and then a few years later it was really bad again
How did you recover
You not alone, This video is motivating me to get help and finally speak up. You can do it! Your strong don’t forget it!
I’ve literally thought this exact thing, we’re not alone , we’re good people and these are just fake thoughts !!!
@@lamb7490 yeah, ive been fine for a long time and i hope it stays this way. knowing yourself well enough to know this is just a silly thought helps. then its just staying calm and dismissing it if you have an anxious reaction. ive gotten better at it. it takes practice though.
Love you..I'm nearly there with harm OCD. Sending love to everyone on here. Please don't feel ashamed or embarrassed. We can beat this!
Hey Just wondering how you’re getting on now cheers
@@jamesjohnstone1224 i also want to know
Oh my goodness this gave me such relief 🥺
Me two
Me too😊
I love you so freaking much! You have no idea how much your videos have helped me understand what I'm going through. I also started practicing ERP because of you. Your videos literally helped me more than 6 months of medication. No joke. God bless you my friend :)
Thank you for the kind words. It means a lot to me! I hope you can keep rocking your treatment! 😃
Hey just wondering how you’re getting on with this cheers
Right now I want to cry, I actually cried I am so scared of my thoughts. I can’t watch crime series or documentary any more I’m afraid to kill, afraid to have urge, afraid to go insane and actually like it.
I don’t want these thought and feeling anymore I’m so scared of myself. And even more scared of being a psychopath but deep down I know I’m a good person just these thoughts are so disturbing. My biggest trigger was that I was making weed and marijuana a lot in short period of time last year. After that I had thoughts like these... does I sounds like a psychopath? Am I insane?
no you are not,it is actually very common to have these thoughts
@@christosthymis5728 but I want to die, I feel so sorry for my daughter who has me as a mother. She deserve a healthy mother who aren’t sick and idiot
@@mariahselena9589 you are so harsh on yourself,i personally don't believe there is a healthy person we are all odd i one way or another and i think the way you talk about your daughter shows that you are a compassionate person,of course you will doubt about that because of the thoughts but the thoughts doesn't define you, mayde you can become a great writer with that imagination ,in the end you just have to see the situation in a humorous way, you are not crazy or psychopath you are just very anxious
@@christosthymis5728 Thank you for the support! Those thoughts kill me inside, always something I have ocd for. It’s so exhausting
@@mariahselena9589 Your thoughts are much more common than you think! I, too, struggle with all this but at the end of the day, PLEASE remember it's all 100% FAKE. The fact that you care about your daughter so much is enough proof for me to confidently tell you that you would never do anything to put her in danger. Unfortunately, Harm OCD seems to attack good people and makes them think they're bad, when they're in fact the complete opposite. I know it's hard because I learned of my Harm OCD only a few days ago, but life goes on! Tons of support for you!
I've had a lot of anxiety last year...At the beginning i had the thoughts that i was gonna die unexpectedly from heart attack...e.t.c.Then I remember one day I woke up and I was afraid that I I was gonna hurt myself...Day by day the thoughts were ruining my days...I was afraid that I was gonna kill people that I loved...I was sure that I was going insane and crazy every day that passed...I couldn't stand it anymore and seeked help...I went to a psychiatrist and explained me that it's more common than I think and that the thoughts were because mainly of the anxiety I've been through and they were only in my head!He also gave me medication and 1 month after I seeked help i was finally feeling better and the thoughts began to fade away little by little day by day...Now these thoughts still hunt me sometimes but the difference is that I know why they occur and that they are 100% FAKE...!The thoughts never disappeared completely...but if it happens that you're suffering remembe!Never in a million years will the thoughts that hunt you become reality!
That might be the most movitative comment in here...Thanks for sharing man!
Hey do u know what medication u were taking cus I have obsessive thoughts over killing my family and it makes me so sad and has been leading me to consider suicide so I don’t hurt ppl
@@jondowng207 I know exactly how you feel my man...I took Dumyrox 100mg...in my opinion you should ask for help though I am not a doctor to help you with the medicine...but i can tell you that all the thoughts are 100% fake and you will feel better soon if you seek out for help
THIS IS HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW
I started like you and Im currently in the part where you said "I remember one day I woke up" but I feel like I have control of myself cause I have my family to talk and I looked up alot of it and I feel in control well sometimes
You're such a comforting person Nathan
Thank you for making people including me feel normal and less anxious ❤
Of course!
Violent thoughts. Sometimes I picture myself hurting other people in...extreme methods. Other times I get a flash of thoughts and urges to hurt others, then freak out in my head for a little while.
I imagine killing a person in my brain and measure my level of anxiety from 1 to 10. The higher my anxiety gets, the more I fear that it’s going to happen when it’s actually the opposite
@RainbowDreams30 same its so scary
Is it OCD if the urge is to actually act on the violent thought?
same but i see myself hurting myself more
@@ammieehiggins6767 Yes
Thank you so much for this; I have suffered for years with this condition and it can be truly debilitating. First started when I was 15 and now at 62 I can reflect on how much I missed out upon in my life. Thank you again for all of your videos and help to us on this community.
Thank you so much for this I generally thought I was a horrible person and tried to avoid everything in life so I didn't hurt anyone this helped so much. Thank you
same bro. I still have problems going back to video games i love that had anything to do with guns or swords or death because i thought it would make me want that.
Your far from horrible. I would love to have a GF as you!
Dude you explain it so well and you say it bluntly like you dont care, now I dont care much, I tell myself my ocd fears can be possible and they might happen but they havnt and probably wont, now I have more freedom! Thankyou!
Of course!
Hey just wondering how you’re getting on with this cheers
Bro you saved my mental state of mind❤️
Sometimes I have intrusive thoughts that I WANT to cause harm to someone, not just what ifs and it scares me so much. I’ve never hurt anyone before and I don’t want to but I feel so much doubt! Do you have any advice on dealing with this?
This is what Harm OCD is. I can't give advice on your case but the video gives an outline of what treatment can look like.
OCD and Anxiety I see! I’m just scared to do the treatment and exposures in case I end up acting out or realise that it is what I want 🙁
This happens to me too. I feel so bad about it.
@@lunacat. Hi. Its most likely not what you want. The way to know is if you have alot of hate for a certain person, or If you just wanna harm them even though you love them its harm ocd. Try to take your mind off of these thoughts by doing something you love or listening to rexlaxing music. If the thoughts stay, try to ignore them and always control urself. Good luck.
@@ocdandanxiety it means u don't have aa treatment of harm ocd
I am SO happy to have found this community. I know there are different forms of OCD and i feel like mine is a combination of OCD and ADHD.
Anyone else have this combo?
Thank you for this video I have been going through harm OCD for a couple mounts now and it is very scary thinking about hurting others but I have found watching happy TH-cam videos and reassuring myself that I won’t hurt anybody have helped me a lot.
Hey just wondering how you’re getting on now ? Cheers
Ok, I didn't think I'd make it through this video. Especially not while looking at the screen but I did and I'm proud of myself.
I think I have this type of OCD and others. Your video helped, thank you
Your cute!
I struggle with this. I worry about “hurting or killing “ someone if I get too angry. But lately when I feel angry I’m able to calm myself down. I have never hurt anyone or anything physically but these thoughts come across my mind randomly and it drives me crazy. I don’t ever have any intentions of doing those things but the thoughts scare me. I also don’t drive at all cuz I feel like I’m gonna crash into someone or hurt myself. I just wish these thoughts would go away.
I feel the same way sometimes, but I think we just have to except the uncertainty and move on. I know you won't hurt anyone and it doesn't scare me that you have thoughts like that, and I don't even know you. You should try to trust yourself.
Harmony Holmes thank you Harmony. It’s comforting to know that I’m not the only one that feels that way. Day by day, I’m trying to fight it and not let it control me.
Exactly. Same here. We have to try our best to get it out of our minds. Easier said than done but we’ll get there.
Hey angel! I’m struggling with this a little bit, and I am wondering how you are doing! Did it get better for you?
Looking into it is causing compulsions/anxiety. BUT I am forcing myself to watch this video for the betterment of my mental health. Thank you so much for posting this video!!
same here! I pray you have gotten better and I pray that I do soon!
@@careless_rose9899 I am making progress I wouldn't have made without this video. Since, I have been in therapy and learned "self help" tools and was sent on my way. From here, I have slowly slowly been making progress but even one point on our team and not OCD's is STILL a point.
@@BoondockMysteriesYT Same I have been feeling a lot better lately. Ever since I learned what it is that I have(harm ocd) it has helped me tremendously to deal with it. Now I can recognize the thoughts and say “hey thats my harm OCD”. I still do think to myself that there is something wrong with me sometimes and that I am a psychopath and I have intrusive thoughts here and there but they subside pretty quickly and don’t cause a panic attack anymore. I pray you continue on your journey of healing!
I've had one for the past week about harming my mum and not being able to control my actions and I kept think what if I'd just do it like what if I just snapped and it's terrifying and its making me physically sick and I having trouble eating but knowing that I'm not alone makes me feel so much better cuz I love her more than anything and so thinking all this is so scary but this vid has helped ease my thoughts. Thankyou
yes same! I have not been able to eat and have to force myself to because it makes me physically sick
Thank you so much I nearly cried watching this👏🏼
You’re welcome 😊
I am crying! I hope you are doing better today. I have just discovered this channel and want to start healing.
Thank you!! I am also experiencing it I thought I am starting to be crazy, but with the help of this video it gives me huge relief about self harming thoughts like stabbing my self... I always tell my mind that it is ok its normal, but I know I am not going to do that what ever happens, I just let it be there and do some breathing techniques and accepting it. Also spiritually speaking praying to God to overcome this self harming thoughts is a very huge help, as a Christian I start reading bible whenever I feel the urge and Instead of forgetting about it I will find verse that will inspire me to live a life and overcome your bad thoughts in your life...
Honestly I thank you so much. I felt like I was crazy and this sucks so much.
You are not alone!
@@ocdandanxiety thank you❤️
The knife in the background gives me anxiety
That is why it's there. Learning to habituate to triggers rather than avoiding them.
Same 😂
I was cool with the video until i saw your comment.... WELp
@@ziyeren5509 don’t look at the comments then
Same
You deserve more subscribers. This helped me a lot. I have this from time to time and I have to remind myself that it is normal to have the thoughts and that I should ignore it. The beginning of the exposures is always hard but it is worth the effort. They will go away at some point :)
Thanks for the kind words!
Hey just wondering how you’re doing with this cheers
There is a HUGE difference between sociopath - psychopath and people with OCD. Psychopath and sociopath NEVER feel GUILT, they do not have empathy, so they don't really care about hurt somebody. IF you FEAR harm somebody, shows that you care, you have empathy. So you just need look for help with some good OCD therapist.
Not true
@@willywonkausername whats not true?
Thank you for saying this
Everyone going through this just chill in the end it will fade on its own but you must go through hell first! I speak bottom of the bottoms where you tell god to take you away each day rather than having to endure this!
Sidenote: WHEN YOU WIN HARM-OCD OCD might attack you in the future with other allies of it there are many themes! But they are all ocd bullshit as usual
Ive had it mildly since my son was born, but over the last 6 months, it has gotten so bad Ive had panic attacks. I start treatment on Monday.
Hey, how is your treatment process going?
@@trulygains it went well. I still have spikes but nothing like it was. Its been getting much better
i have four kids, started to have very disturbing instrusive thoughts when pregnant with my fourth and thought i was the devil in disguise lol but its ok, i really think this is normal when human beings are put under extreame stress...it could be linked to our ancestors who might have had such thoughts as well...dont isolate yourself, that is the worst breeding ground for disturbing thoughts...I wish you all the best toward a clear+pure minded life and you are not alone!!! :)
@@nicolenunes3739 how are you doing
Ppd can cause that x
i feel so seen right now, harm ocd has been eating me up all my life, i've had this since i was kid and i always thought i was strange and terrible not until i've done some research about it, i thank you for this video although i still have thoughts like those, i have some control about it now..
Hey just wondering how you’re getting on with this cheers
I’m just relieved that I’m not the only one and I’m sorry for anyone dealing with this and yes sometimes I just get these thoughts of harming other or my animals 😔 But I love them so much that I won’t be able to do it and when I tell some people that I trust they tell me I’m crazy but I don’t mean any harm to my anyone it’s just those thoughts, and yes I do have a therapist but I’m scared to tell her because I know she will give me meds or send me somewhere, you are not alone 🙃
Thank you so much for your videos. I can tell how much you put into them, and it's so appreciated. You have the perfect balance of "we're going to do this together" and challenging OCD.
I see you scissors and scary knife 👀
You are saying things that terrify me to the core, and yet you still make me feel like I can do it.
I was wondering if people would notice those in the back! 🤪
This illness is so exhausting, I physically don’t know how much I can take. It’s mainly torturous thoughts toward myself that I’ll create and can’t control, I can’t even trust myself because it’s me that’s harming my body with violent thoughts alone which can be extremely crippling.
How are you now ?
Just had a harm episode today due to family vacation stress. I’ve noticed when you have OCD and your under an enormous amount of stress + barely any sleep your ocd thoughts can exacerbate.
I have had this since I was 15 years old. I was so scared that I was not able to tell anybody. I went through such a terrible period that I was suicidal. Finally in my 30’s I told my psychiatrist and found out what was going on. I take medication that thankfully works. It does come and go but not as frequently. I could never go through that again. Just the thought of it sends me into a panic attack. Im so happy to find other people with the same issue.
does medicine work fully for you ?
@@payelmukherjee8733 Yes for the most part. I take Luvox (generic is Fluvoxamine) I could never go off meds and have those horrible thoughts
@@emilyphippen8742 yes i am also suffering with these horrible thoughts . it makes me fear . does medicine have any side effects ? are you feeling any ?
@@payelmukherjee8733 I have been on it for almost 10 years. At first I was a bit sleepy so I started taking it at night and haven’t had any issues. To be honest Id deal with side effects over those horrible thoughts any day 🤷🏻♀️
i dont think i have ocd but i can relate to the intrusive thoughts which for me happen more frequently when feeling hopeless, depressed or isolated...get outside and in contact with nature... i think being suffocated inside a four wall room can feel like jack nicholson from the shinning!
AMAZING VIDEO. I promise you guys will get through this.
Thank you, Gabriella!
Do you know someone who has fully recovered from harm OCD
Hey just wondering how you’re getting on cheers
@@vksharma3730 I have fully recovered from harm OCD!
@@jamesjohnstone1224 I’m insanely better and I never thought I’d be.
I’ve been dealing this lately and it feels awful. In 2021, I lost a childhood friend and I cried for a week straight and it shook me to the core. I’ve always had an anxiety of death and I’ve felt like I couldn’t stop. In 2022, I went through a traumatic breakup and I felt alone even though plenty of friends and family talked to me and gave me advice and assured me i was gonna be alright. I came and searched this because I’m tired of being scared and tired of feeling like I’m going crazy and that I’m not a normal person. Thank you for these videos man 🙏🏼
Hey I understand your fear of death but I can reassure you we'll be okay. Just enjoy your life to the fullest, do what you love the most. For me atm, I am dealing with self harm ocd, its so hard to deal with. But fearing death, dont worry, I know we'll be okay
Get uncomfy when im near sharp objects but then im also uncomfy abt teling people I'm uncomfy around sharp objects 😂
OMGGGG THANKYOUUUU YOU DONT KNOW HOW MUCH PAIN IVE BEEN THROUGH THISSS WHOLE 5 months it started since we have online classes omggggg and i wanted to harm my loved ones when i didn’t its so harddd
Hey just wondering how you’re getting on now thanks
I just subscribed. So glad i came across your channel. I am really struggling, but this video and the comments give me hope.
I've be struggling with this so much with no explanation 😭 thank you for the clarification
Hey just wondering how you’re getting on with this cheers
I've been trough this kind of feeling 10 years ago when i was in abroad, it all started when i joined bible study which i do not do in my entire life. Suddenly it came all those intrusive thoughts, like hurting others or even hurting my self. O my it gives me a lot of fear in my mind that what if i did that thoughts! I always feel nervous when it attacks me, i can't even fall a sleep. So i decided to go back to my country and find another job here. Without even knowing i almost forgot and they don't even comes in my mind those thoughts. And now i'm suffering again with those intrusive thoughts, because i decided to go back and work abroad. After i watched this video it realy helps me a lot. I hope this video will be cured all my anxiety and keep away all those intrusive thoughts so i can go back to my normal life, and give my family a better life.
Just been diagnosed with having Harm OCD I am absolutely terrified I will act on my thoughts. Keep saying please god keep my family safe, removed all sharps from my home. Also been avoiding my mum to keep her safe.
Avoidance is a compulsion
Hey, I’ve been struggling with harm OCD aswell related mainly to my parents. It’s really hard and takes time to accept the fact that it is just harm ocd and these thoughts are just thoughts. Not precursors to actions.
I still struggle with agreeing with these thoughts or saying as I feel it’s risky but I know I will never hurt anyone and that is concrete.
However OCD can turn this around and say it’s concrete that you will definitely hurt your family. My response to that is whatever or okay cool, even though it is difficult and may make you feel like you will do it. You won’t.
Hope this helps, we’re all in this together and it will pass
Thank you so much for this video!!!!🙏🏻 I have been struggling with severe post partum OCD for over 5 months now & it’s been hell for me. Lots of ups & downs, but it’s always been the same horrible thought of stabbing my son with a knife!!! Ugh I can never get this thought out of my mind and I feel like I’m going insane.... I have seen over 5 therapists & been on medication. Nothing feels right it’s horrible. I don’t wish this upon my worst enemy, it feels like I’m about to snap at any moment. I hope it goes away with time along with ERP.
How do u feel now
I hope your doing well. I had it postpartum too
How are you doing now? I have that same feeling wheee I feel like I can “snap” at any moment . I’m having harm and sexual ocd so strongly , I would not wish this hell upon my worst enemy.
I dealt with this after my fourth baby and never even had an intrusive thought before yet this freaked me out. I was afraid of hurting him, then it brought extreme depression and fear about harming myself and then my kids. It calmed down a great deal but lasted a long time and I’ve noticed whenever I begin to feel down again the intrusive thoughts come back about harming myself yet I don’t want to. It’s really strange.
How are you now
I don’t know if I have harm ocd or something else. But i have unwanted thoughts that really scare me and make me question my sanity. I know my morals and I’m a good person. I wouldn’t do anything to harm anyone. And it gives me panic attacks. My anxiety doesn’t help either.
I suffering with the same thing rn i feel always so guilty and bad idk if i have this or not either but ik that i do get unwanted thoughts and it kills me inside because i would never hurt anyone either 😭
I’m dealing with the same thing. Whether it’s harm ocd or something else, I try to practice these sayings that Nathan says to say to ourselves, to make light of the thoughts and for me it helps
Yeah that knife in the back is triggering my stabbing intrusive thought 😂
Thanks a lot this videos helps me with my harm ocd I usually have a fear of thinking about the urge and this video helps a ton
I occasionally have gotten thoughts but had no idea where they came from. I never realized until recently that I have some OCD. Great videos.
I am only 12 and think I have Harm OCD. I have ADHD, Aspergers, and possibly something else. This just started developing a few months ago, where ill have horrible thoughts of harming people and loved ones, but im able to control myself. It was so scary.
I’m having thoughts about that too
I have panic attacks because of that
its hard bc adhd is an impulsive disability so i feel you
Thank you so much for this video.
I think I have this but I’m afraid to open up about it because people might think I want to harm them and overall it seems like I could face very negative consequences from opening up about it
Edit: I definitely have this and I’ve even developed some of the coping habits in this video naturally
I feel the same way, its hard to talk about or get help for when you aren't sure if people will understand. It's okay to face this alone if that's what is comfortable for you. I've tried to explain it to people and no one has really understood. It'll get better for you, you aren't what your thoughts make you out to be.
I got no anxiety from mine and it feels so real, i dont really feel like telling people cause I dont want to be told I actually want to kill people, im just not afraid and maybe its cause of my past with ocd.
Nathan thanks for the videos, this topic its freaking me out, in my case i have demanding thoughts, and images
The moment I started watching this video, I got uneasy because I instantly noticed the scissors and knife in the background. Those are two of the main triggers that cause these types of thoughts to swarm me. If I see one, and especially if I pick one up, my mind instantly thinks to harm myself or someone else, and then I stress about why the hell I thought such a thing because I don't want to. Sometimes I can ignore it and continue on, and other times it gets to the point where I need to put them down or give them to someone else because I feel like my body will go through with the urge to harm. I don't even need an object for it, sometimes I just see a family member walking and my mind instantly urges me to harm them. I don't want to, I'm not trying to, but my mind repeatedly tells me to push or punch or hit them, and so I'll end up really trying to ignore it and act normal or trying to stay away from them. I didn’t know this was an OCD sort of thing until just last night, I barely knew much about OCD beforehand so I started doing research on it and found that I related to a good chunk of OCD symptoms. The harmful intrusive thoughts are one of them. I always thought I was off or horrible in some way for thinking these things, but at the same time I also didn't think it was anything out of the ordinary, like maybe other people think the same things... Nope! At least not to this extent they don't. I'm honestly scared about opening up to my parents about this, I told my partner and my sister about this thing I feel, but not them yet... 😬
How can we do exposure with the fear of being depressed ? Sometimes i am totally convinced of being depressed, it is more than a fear. I stop internet research but i have a little mental compulsion.
We'd use the same concept of exposure for any topic. Not try to control it or figure it out. Instead can stay uncertain about it. I'm creating a video soon on health anxiety that would involve creating exposures for something like this.
OCD and Anxiety thank you ! It would be very usefull
Thanks so much for these real life examples for each instance, this is what I’ve been looking for! Thank you!!
Nightmare isn’t it babe!!! This always helps me so much too!!
when ever i have a thought of harming people
i always tell my self i will KMS first, thats how afraid i am of these thoughts
this is me with knives. I use to have the fear of possibly doing it to others when seeing a knife now it turns onto myself, so i instead imagine myself about to stab myself. Now it leads to me dropping a knife visually.
How are you now
@@Conceptcenter-ut4yi Alot better
Same i did it also
Thank you this has helped a lot but what really makes me feel better about it is thinking it’s not dangerous and it has no power over me I pray a lot to god about it and when I’m feeling lonely or feel another episode happening I like to read my bible and pray to god he always seems to help me in these situations but I hope someday it will just fully go away and I can live the life I did before I had these thoughts the life of no worry and not having to reassure myself that I’m not evil or anything bad everytime I get one of these even thoughts
Thanks for amazing content!
Idk how to thank you you've helped me more than you can think. I'm so grateful!
Thank you for this video..it's a scary thing to tell people I get dirty weird looks and it makes me feel like a psychopath already. I don't even feel like I'm on my own body anymore o get so many intrusive thoughts and weird angry urges now. I put myself in a mental hospital for now ...I feel like like a Monster I'm too scared to be around my family or my pets. I just want to feel normal again it's never been this bad ..😥
How are you doing🌹
I hope youare doing fine
It took me about 2 years to lessen the shock from the first panic attack from these thoughts. A huge one after I watched some horrible things on the Internet because I wanted to become morally stronger. And I became morally weaker... Wanted to do better and made it worse...
I found out i have harm ocd symptoms, thinking bad things i could NEVER EVER done to anyone 😭 it was so hard im only 17 years old and i cant go to the therapist because im afraid that my mom think im crazy for having this kind of thoughts, it was so hard telling my bestfriend those worst and impossible things in my mind 😭 i hope i can get rid of this very soon ,its been 1 month since i have this bc of the intense emotion 😭❤️🧿 im glad and relieve im not the only one 😭
This is making me cry i feel like im gonna get healed very very soon ❤️😭
Hy are u okey now ؟
Dear, Are you okay now?
Are you okay??😢😢😢😢😢😭😭😭😭😭
I am a mom of 3 my youngest is 4 I was just diagnosed with ocd a few months ago I have been struggling with harm ocd for the past four months and it involves disturbing intrusive thoughts of hurting my children especially my four year old 😔 I have been tryin to do ERP by myself and I have come to terms that thoughts are thoughts although the disgust shame and sadness I feel from them are horrible also was having panic attacks and anyway I was starting to feel a little better and the thoughts were becoming less and then the thought was what if the more you think of them you will sleepwalk and commit these thoughts in your sleep
I’ve had that thought about sleepwalking before but I convinced myself I wouldn’t because I’ve never slept walk in my life but I remember this story about a man killing his wife in his sleep and yea went down the rabbit hole
How do you I get rid of this it’s so stupid that I put so much belief into it? Please help? How do you do ERP for this 😨
It's been 9 months I hope u're doing good mama I have harmful ocd and now I have a baby a 10 months old and I have though about hurting him first was my husband now I have them about my baby u are not alone and u are not u're though those though Don't mean nothing about u and everyone's have them
This is awesome! Thank you so much!
my family members wont let me do exposure therapy. they feel unsafe that i have harm ocd. ive even had my therapist explain it to them which initially resulted in them forcibly committing me until my therapist explained the situation to the hospital. do you have any advice?
I'm so sorry you're going through that. I hope you're doing better. I wish your family understood. You are not a bad person. How are you doing now?
how are u doing now?
I started having these thoughts last year in March. At the beginning it would appear just once in a month...but since October it has been coming back every second day and I was really going crazy...I was so desperated and lonely..I didnt know what to do but i knew these thoughts weren't mine! So I went and google it...to see if there's someone like me or I'm really sick haha...So Ive found a big community of people having the same issue. ❤❤❤❤
what more I want to say...I'm religious and I believe there are thoughts that come from Angels and also ones that come from Demons....I think maybe these are actual psychic attacks....Correct me guys if you think I'm wrong.
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I'm not particularly religious, but I think this is definitely a valid way to look at it
Do not think this thoughts as angels or evil, it's gonna trigger even more.
I am so scared that i wanna cry out aloud. I've been having these thoughts for a few days i am afraid to talk to anyone . I have stopped watching crime movies
You are not alone, i go through it and so do a lot of other people. You will beat this. There is a solution ❤
@marina327 thanks
@@marina327 How do you deal with it?
@@Beast-eq8qw I try to be as little stressed as possible. When you are stressed and worried, OCD becomes stronger. Try to calm down, use breathing techniques, exercise, eat healthy, do something that calms you down, watch calming series, videos, etc. Of course, it is not only important not to be stressed, the most important thing is not to do compulsions. When you have an intrusive thought, ignore it or agree with it. I know it sounds crazy to agree with that thought, but it's just being sarcastic because if you resist it, it gets stronger and the OCD is prolonged. Those thoughts don't really mean anything. I know it's hard not to do the compulsions in the beginning, but you will succeed with time, I wish I had known that right at the beginning when I got OCD because then it wouldn't have spread so much. Basically, I'm not an expert and I don't want to give advice, but it helped me a lot, I also suffer from ocd. If you see that your condition does not improve even though you do this, it is best to seek help, what helped me does not mean that it will help you, but in my opinion these techniques should help you
@@Beast-eq8qwI try to be as little stressed as possible. When you are stressed and worried, OCD becomes stronger. Try to calm down, use breathing techniques, exercise, eat healthy, do something that calms you down, watch calming series, videos, etc. Of course, it is not only important not to be stressed, the most important thing is not to do compulsions. When you have an intrusive thought, ignore it or agree with it. I know it sounds crazy to agree with that thought, but it's just being sarcastic because if you resist it, it gets stronger and the OCD is prolonged. Those thoughts don't really mean anything. I know it's hard not to do the compulsions in the beginning, but you will succeed with time, I wish I had known that right at the beginning when I got OCD because then it wouldn't have spread so much. Basically, I'm not an expert and I don't want to give advice, but it helped me a lot, I also suffer from ocd. If you see that your condition does not improve even though you do this, it is best to seek help, what helped me does not mean that it will help you, but in my opinion these techniques should help you
I hope I have this and I’m not some psychotic person. I have unwanted thoughts of harming my grandmother... I’d never do that sometimes my feelings go numb and I have urges to do it but I know I don’t want to.. it makes my heart race I get anxious and I start to worry.. my mind feels like it’s heavy and nothing feels right anymore. Please someone am I a psychopath or not ? It’s making me want to cry sometimes and I would never hurt her. And when I watch videos on criminals I get anxiety too thinking I’ll be like them 😔
Edit: three years later it’s gotten better I can go months without it recurring and when it does come back it hits hard but it’s definitely better than before. Thanks for the positive reassurance guys
I have worries like this about my family. I'm scared of being around knives because I worry my mind will go blank and I'll just hurt them with it. I KNOW I wont. But I Still panic every day constantly.
Also... I stopped watching scary movies and documentaries. It's a huge trigger.
Leia Boo: do you have urges? :/
th-cam.com/video/GSzL55WliII/w-d-xo.html watch his TH-cams and you will get help!!!
He has great videos that helped me
Nate, can you fear a theme so much but end up thinking about it nonstop? I’m not sure if I actually have the theme or if my anxiety is just coming up with these thoughts to test myself? I literally started with “I hope I dont get so and so theme and I spiraled with fear of potential thoughts
I have horrible OCD on commiting suicide because I've had three of my very good friends commit suicide.
I also have OCD when I'm reading something about a mom hurting their children then my brain automatically goes to oh my God could you do that why did they snap why did they do that.
I have horrible horrible panic attacks to where I throw up.
My triggers are being alone with one of my children or by myself. What can I do to help myself what kind of exposure can I do for these things??
I Couldn’t relate more.
how long have you been battling these thoughts and urges is a daily basis, wish you the best on recovery
Man u deserve a subscribe at least... Ive had this for years uppon years i offten have these harmful views of my own little baby kitten... Or my family members like my brother... My god its the scariest stuff i ever gotta deal with...
I think I have Harm OCD to like I get so angry at someone and like if they come near me or something I tuck my hands away and like try to distance myself and if they come near my bed or something I feel like i have to basically just freeze because i think if im constantly moving around then somehow the bed will hit them and i think i do it purpose or whatever like I have these tiny things that like everyone else does too but like I think that sometimes i do somethings on purpose and fear im turning into a psychopath or something. I get these bad urges and like UGHH I cant wait to be done with them do I have Harm OCD?
crying as i watch this 😭😭 these thoughts make me not want to live
i stabbed an ex through abuse id suffered im scared and fearful so when i cant cope i had these thoughts of harming my child.
he now lives with my mum.
i dont feel safe to be around when im like this
Dawn Cook I understand. I just bought some ashwagandha. Hopefully this helps with my anxiety in my case cause my harm ocd.
I suffered from this from early teens up until my mid twenties. Jesus's that was dark time of my life the guilt and shame I felt for thinking such thoughts and I remember the catalyst that triggered it , I got bullied to shreds in high school I one day snapped and beat up one of my bullies to a pulp and afterwards I had a thought what if I did that to my loved ones when they annoyed me and it consumed me every waking moment for years, constant impulse flashes of lashing out at people I felt like I was going insane.
Step 3 - resist doing the compulsions. I'm not sure what compulsions in a harm OCD? Risk harming the person, which is a cognitive distortion anyway? Or running away from the trigger? Thanks!
Please don’t stop making these videos
Thank you, you have no idea how much this helps, thank you so fuckin much
plz idk what to do and I’m scared of my self I’m scared I’ll harm others around me plz 😭I want to be normal again😭
Update: I’m doing better
Thank you so much for this video last night I was helping my mom cook dinner and when I grab the kitchen knife I thought about what if I stabbed my mother and the thought of that scared me but I always have the urge to do it and it scares me
OmanXer. I used to have harm ocd. I remember plucking my mom’s eyebrows and I had this strong urge or intrusive thought to stab my mom’s eyes with the eyebrow plucker. This scared the crap out of me because I love my mom very dearly. The urges and thoughts kept getting stronger the more I fight it in my mind. It got really bad that I had to go to the bathroom toilet and try to vomit these urges out of my system. This was when I was attending college as a first year student. That same year I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia from my primary doctor due to stress I was having in college. Luckily, my harm ocd just disappeared as I continually plucked my mom’s eyebrows and tried to ignore these urges and thoughts. So I kind of did ERP without me knowing it. Hope this helps you see that these intrusive thoughts and urges aren’t you. If it’s causing you great distress than it goes against your inner values and morals, as well as who you are as a person.
@@chestersidd1626 thanks for telling me your story. Reading your story made me so much happier that I’m not the only one. As a 13 year old harm ocd and think that I have it scares me a lot lol but again its so much better to have someone else that has experience the same thing that I’m going through 😂 btw I’m going to try the erp thing you told me. Have a good night
@@omanxer7275 Your welcome. I highly recommend that you should watch Dr. Jeffrey Schwartz ‘You are not your brain’. He’s a psychiatrist that studies the human brain for many years. He explains how the ocd brain has an overreacting brain on the orbital prefrontal cortex. By following his four steps, you can rewire how your brain functions (neuroplasticity). He also shows research evidence with real patients having good results. A TH-camr from Mind that Seeks Truth recommended me to watch Dr. Jeffrey’s videos and emphasized that the reason why we have these intrusive thoughts is because we have a malfunction caudate nucleus. The part of the brain that filters intrusive thoughts from important thoughts. Anyway, hope these advice helps you tremendously.
@@chestersidd1626 I know what you mean I get that alot. I recently experienced something bad an intrusive thoughts have been with me for some time now. I see myself stabbing my mom an dad in the eyes an it's kills me so much like I keep saying to myself I rather die or turn myself in. It was worse in the beginning cus it was sexual an violent but when I overthinked about it I noticed naa I don't like that at all. What I saw was a violent sexual assault on someone online an it was haunting me bad but I feel like it's getting more dull. I was never one to smoke weed or anything before, I was kinda against it cus I thought well if I'm not suffering then I don't need to waste weed cus someone else could need it. But when the experience happened an I was dealing with it I begged my friend to give me weed. I'm smoking now an it seems to help but Im trying something now I meditate an force myself to see these things I even add to it, an it dose seem to be less an less important. I was so scared I was a maniac cus like I said I rather kill myself then kill my family or anyone. I hope everyone here who has this gets better. It would seem that we all good people because of how we are suffering. Like in the beginning it was me killing my cats an ripping them apart or even stomping on them but that went away as I kept dealing with it.
This video gave me relife Thanks
Thank you.
I have a question I randomly got the thought yesterday what if I go into the kitchen grab a knife and stab my family I got so worried and was having like a panic attack it kept me up and I keep worrying like am I a psycho path I keep like saying I won’t do it but I’m like worrying about being a psycho path I feel like sometimes I do it but is this just harm ocd?
I keep worrying like am I going crazy like I tell my self I’m never gonna do it but I get these thoughts and I don’t know why
Hey yeah Its probably Harm OCD. I think I have it too. Try to focus on soing things you like so the thoughts leave. Theyll most likely come and go based on what I went through. Good luck
I have the same thoughts too
@@hellohello-mi1lk Hello, I had these thought a lot and a lot of aniexty aswell and I just wanted to say I’ve stopped thinking about these and bad things turns out it’s aniexty and worrying about everything bad or that could go bad and makes up bad symptoms or feelings to make your thought a reality but just wanted to let you know it gets better you just have to tell yourself your never gonna do it and it’s nothing serious and also know your not alone! Hope you overcome this your strong and don’t let anyone tell you any different Stat Strong you will overcome it!!❤️
@@ThannyYT hey how did you overcome it ?
I have harm ocd about hurting myself ever since I first started medication and in the insert sand something, like it can cause suicidal thoughts. I faded and came back ever since. I have done so much therapy but I’m still afraid that it will increase the anxiety and the thoughts.
Just 2 days back it started.
Today while writing, drawing.
these thoughts were coming and while writing this comment too.
Thankyou sir, ur videos has helped me a lot 🙏 🙏
I’m a young macchinist and I work on lathes producing parts for big electric motors. If I feel even a small detail is “off” in my work or if the part I machined is slightly out of tolerance I get intrusive thoughts of people dying because the part I Made was faulty. As a compulsion I continously seek reassurance from colleagues and the boss and I double check everything but anxiety won’t go away 😢
This video is really helpful thank you.
When I have a harm ocd attack it seems panic attacks come with it therefore making feel that much more weak. Is that common? I’m going to start standing up to my bully. I’m also going to get treatment through the veterans hospital. Thank u so much for your videos
Yes I get a panic attack and anxious when I start thinking these things!
When I've pen in my hand while studying I feel like stab it in someone around me or someone I think of .It just makes me scared to hold the pen again in my hand .I feel like throwing something heavy on the little child around me or something harm myself or do something violent.
Hi you're videos really good and I am so grateful for the, it will be really great if you could make one on sexual OCD and how to do ERP for them?
Thanks for the suggestion. What type of fears are you thinking about when it comes to this. It can fit many subtypes.
The knife and the open scissors are bad and not ok!
hello there! I made a terrible mistake and i was taking a thing called Kratom for my anxyiety and depression it worked for a time but i got so addicted to it i was like okay this isnt gonna be okay in a long term. Now i stopped taking kratom cold turkey a week ago and my worst panik attacks and anxiety started to kick in...im so scared what if i stab my mom or my dog they means the world to me.. hopefully i can overcome this terrible state of mind.
hi i think my friend may be suffering from OCD he thinks his ex girlfriend put ground up glass in his clothes, under clothing ,bed sheets, and it gets on his skin hands,feet,and head as a result he starts picking and causing injury and sores,this has been going on for about two years now he tells me the glass gets spread and contaminates new clothing which he buys almost every week have you had a similar case i really want to help him
My brain is weird tho, i have super scary intrusive thoughts and then when im having these thoughts, its like my mind keeps trying to convince me that what happened was real and my brain tries to block it out as if it was a real event Have you heard of this before?
why would you have the knife there
Thank you ❤
Do you have any videos on urges please??
ive been doing exercises lately to reduce the stress and when i came to the point of almost feeling no anxiety from these thoughts my brain started telling me that im a bad person because i dont feel anxious about thoughts of harming others and i keep having this debate about wether im a good person or not
For me, harm OCD is telling you not to do it. Or it's like a warning that don't do such harmful things. Just my personal opinion.