TRYING TO SALVAGE CHRISTMAS WHEN MY TODDLER IS SICK | Making Christmas Special For My Children

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  • @elizabethkoobs1060
    @elizabethkoobs1060 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +10

    Poor sweet Avery...her cough is really loose and moist. I bet her throat is feeling sore and inflamed. Too bad she wouldn't tolerate suctioning, but that would probably cause her to vomit. Looks like the boys had so much fun making their biscuits and decorating them. I saw Avery smile when she got to join in! That party dress and coat that your mom bought are so very pretty. I would love to see that dress on her. I'm sorry that I didn't send a gift off to the family this time. That teddy bear is precious and Avery loves it! I pray that baby girl continues to improve, and that Zach has a great time celebrating with his dad. Merry Christmas to the whole family! I'm sending my love from Georgia.❤️🎄❤️🦌❤️

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

      Thank you so much ❤️ she does have suction quite often actually but you suspected right it can make her vomit now and again, we have to try and be really careful not to make her urge with it. Please don’t worry about sending a gift, as lovely as it is, it’s not necessary at all your support is gift enough. Merry Christmas to you 🎄❤️

  • @JeanClaflin
    @JeanClaflin 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    I think you are a wonderful mother and your children are always so kind to Avery she is so beautiful

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Thank you so much ❤️

  • @marynulff
    @marynulff 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Hope you had a Merry Christmas.. what is little harbor? I tried googling but didn’t come up with much

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Thank you ❤️ it’s a children’s hospice 🥰 xx

  • @candicesailsbury1355
    @candicesailsbury1355 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Merry Christmas Chrissy Josh Zach Eli and Avery
    Love y’all bunches 💙🩷💙💙💙🩷

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Merry Christmas 🎄 ❤️

  • @pennymcnaughton5963
    @pennymcnaughton5963 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Merry Christmas to a beautiful Family. ❤️❤️❤️

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Merry Christmas ❤️❤️

  • @BunnySarah
    @BunnySarah 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    The amount of times I watch your videos and think my little boys feed has finished then realise its Averys feed! That beeping! Hahaha!😂😂❤❤🎄🤶

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      😂😂 when we’re at little harbour we’re constantly looking around for averys feeding pump then we realise everyone has the same one xx

  • @aliciakillen1940
    @aliciakillen1940 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Poor baby. It does seem very painful wish she was able to take cough or pain meds😢. Feel better Little A.

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Thank you ❤️

  • @rachelkeyte1002
    @rachelkeyte1002 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Hi Chrissy, in Australia, biscuits mean the same thing. I have also had a biscuit in the states, and I do like their version as well our language is so confusing! I never know how to describe them to my friends in the states because as you said, biscuits can be sweet as well. In other news, it broke my heart to hear poor Avery suffering so much with the coughing and the attack of the Estonia Poor thing! She seems sick more than she is well sadly. I wish I can help in someway to make a better. I'm continuing to love your videos, your updates. Bless you all! I hope next year is a lot better for Avery. . . XX

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Thank you so much ❤️ I think a lot of Australian words are the same as the Uk xx

  • @patriciaberns4254
    @patriciaberns4254 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Saw your video tonight and I’m so sad for Avery. That poor little girl has such a cough. I feel so bad for her. Sorry you missed out on little harbor but hope you all have a good Christmas and a healthy and happy New Year. ❤️

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Thank you so much ❤️ happy new year xx

  • @Mark-yh4jn
    @Mark-yh4jn 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    HELLO THANKS FOR ALL THE AMAZING AWESOME VLOGS I REALLY TRUST YOUR DAUGHTERS FEELING BETTER REAL SOON AND SERSON GEEATERINGS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL BEST FOR 2024 COULD I PLEASE SAY ALL YOUR SONS BEST AMAZING AWESOME BIG BROTHER AND YOUR DAUGHTER BEST AMAZING AWESOME BIG SISTERS EVER AND ALL YOUR SONS BEST AMAZING AWESOME LITTLE BROTHERS EVER AND ALL YOUR DAUGHTERS BEST AMAZING AWESOME LITTLE SISTERS EVER COULD I PLEASE BE ALL YOUR SONS BEST FRIEND EVER AND ALL YOUR DAUGHTERS BEST FRIEND EVER AND ALL YOUR FAMILY BEST FRIEND EVER

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Thank you so much ❤️

  • @jeanniefox3350
    @jeanniefox3350 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Crissie I just have to say what a great, loving attentive mummy you are, always a smile on your face, taking care of everyone’s needs! Our lil puddin girl bless her heart, that coughing spell she had made me hurt just watching it, I can only imagine how it feels to her. The boys did great decorating their biscuits/cookies, and Avery was enjoying herself joining in. What a beautiful teddy bear someone sent Avery, she seemed to thoroughly enjoy it with her sweet smile! Christmas has come and gone here but I still have one more special Christmas/New Year’s get together with all my children and grandchildren on New Year’s Eve, can’t wait for that! Will be waiting and watching for your next video with all the Christmas festivities going on! 👋👋 for now NC, USA sending so much 🫶🙏’s your way!

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Thank you so much that means a lot ❤️❤️

  • @denicelittle325
    @denicelittle325 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    Crissie,when I saw your video today my heart leapt for joy. I am getting an update on you and your family and in a way my family. I have been praying for you, Avery and the boys…Josh too. Avery does look tired at first but as the video proceeds you can see she was feeling somewhat better. I was heartbroken watching her distonic episode. I have never witnessed it before. It is hard to watch. You are such a great mom and you know exactly what to do. Avery certainly loves her bear how sweet that someone remembered you and Avery. I am praying for a wonderful Christmas week for you and your family…By the way the Leg of Lamb looked fantastic…so did the cookies. Merry Christmas and God Bless…

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Thank you so much ❤️ luckily Avery doesn’t get stuck in her Dystonic patterns all the time but I thought it might be helpful to some to leave that part in as I was considering editing it out. But I remember what it was like before averys diagnosis and it’s so difficult to tell it apart from other things. Merry Christmas to you too ❤️🎄

  • @melodysmithey3172
    @melodysmithey3172 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    That bottom lip had my heart hurt for her😢

  • @miamartin479
    @miamartin479 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    Omg you could hear the panic in her noises after the episode 😥. Please give her a cuddle from me xx

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      I will ❤️

    • @miamartin479
      @miamartin479 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@mummyandavery Thank you xx

  • @aliciakillen1940
    @aliciakillen1940 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Merry Christmas 🎄🎁!

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Merry Christmas 🎄 ❤️

  • @miamartin479
    @miamartin479 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Hi Chrissy how are you? Hope you're all feeling better. Avery looked really uncomfortable bless her. I'm still coughing xx

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Thank you ❤️ I’m ok Avery is still coughing xx

    • @miamartin479
      @miamartin479 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@mummyandavery Oh gosh. I really hope she gets some relief soon 🤞xx

  • @wincharles1195
    @wincharles1195 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    good news

  • @mariabottiglieri3047
    @mariabottiglieri3047 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Sherba that is very soft. The cookies look great! I hope Avery gets better soon. Thanks for posting.❤😊

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Thank you so much ❤️❤️

  • @micheledavis3735
    @micheledavis3735 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Yay! First...ok, now I'll watch!❤. I believe that sweet Avery gave me her sniffles! Had to run to urgent care so now I can finish watching my fave family of choice! I'm so sad you had to cancel Little Harbour. I'm keeping the sweet baby needing their hospice in my heart and prayers. Thank you for a lovely video!
    That poor baby...dystonia has got to be painful. I've not ever seen that happen to her before. I love her so much and don't want her to feel so ill and out of control of her own little body. I'm sorry, Crissie. You're remarkable.

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      I hope it was nothing too serious? ❤️ it’s been a sad week really but I think things are getting better now. I don’t normally include when Avery gets stuck in her dystonia in my videos but I thought it might actually be helpful to some parents with children with suspected Dystonia xx

    • @micheledavis3735
      @micheledavis3735 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      No. I'm fine and it's just croup. I got it working with children several years ago and it flies at times. I'm fine...I'm glad you left that in, it just broke my heart. Take care and take care of yourself. 🎄🌟

  • @kennethadcosta
    @kennethadcosta 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    ❤❤❤❤

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      ❤️❤️❤️

  • @miamartin479
    @miamartin479 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Aww seeing her cry broke my heart bless her xx

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I know I hate it when she’s sad xx

    • @miamartin479
      @miamartin479 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@mummyandavery I imagine it must be horrible xx

  • @kimcheek8027
    @kimcheek8027 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Your precious little Eli is such a sweet big brother! Eli seems very understanding of Avery’s current illness! Bless all of you! It truly seems that Avery just that covered from a horrible cough!😥🙏🏻💕🥰😘❤️🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I think we had maybe a 2 week break from the last cough. Eli is very sweet to her all the boys are 🥰

  • @miamartin479
    @miamartin479 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    That cough bless her. I've had a really bad cough as well so I know what it is like. My ribs have been hurting so much xx

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I hope you feel better soon ❤️

    • @miamartin479
      @miamartin479 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@mummyandavery Thank you xx

  • @aimeesalter9521
    @aimeesalter9521 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    You can never have to much food for Christmas that's what it's all about Eli and mummy do Christmas shopping was so cute but your all missing Zack Especially Eli bless him did you watch call the Midwives Christmas special ? X hope you had a wonderful Christmas 💙💛💛💛💚💜💓💝💝💖💖💖 did Eli like his Christmas pudding ? We do Christmas Eve pjs too poor little Avery

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      No!! I completely forgot about the Christmas special thank you for reminding me I’ll be watching that tomorrow. I’m missing Zach tons but he’s home tomorrow 🥰

  • @Jessie-j2u
    @Jessie-j2u 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Hey crissie i hope avery is feeling better she's so precious when she was in pain it broke my heart i love that little girl soooooo much

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Thank you so much ❤️❤️

  • @a.life.reimagined
    @a.life.reimagined 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Awe, Avery holding her teddy bear is just precious. Merry Christmas to your family and I hope everyone’s health is better for the New Year❤❤❤❤

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Thank you so much ❤️❤️

  • @leannestanfill2871
    @leannestanfill2871 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    So sorry sweet Avery is struggling with her illness. Hopefully, the worst is behind her and you can all enjoy a wonderful Christmas. I loved seeing the boys making, decorating and enjoying their biscuits ❤️

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Thank you so much ❤️

  • @iamrockette
    @iamrockette 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I feel so bad for Avery’s distonic episode. It looked painful & scary. Love, love, love Avery’s new party dress and coat !! Absolutely gorgeous!!! Hope you had a beautiful Christmas in spite of the change of plans. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Thank you so much ❤️ we did xx

  • @angiemarquez06
    @angiemarquez06 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    My Christmas was really good. I enjoyed spending time with family.

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I’m really glad to hear that ❤️

  • @sianevans3159
    @sianevans3159 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Avery’s smile when she sees her bear is adorable ☺️ xx

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      She loves it 🥰

  • @mariabottiglieri3047
    @mariabottiglieri3047 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Hi chrissy I hope you were able to salvage christmas. How is Avery feeling now? I also feeling under the weather. Something must be going around. Doctors in the u s are saying that there are seventeen viruses in addition to covid.
    Happy New Year!❤❤❤❤❤❤

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      We had a lovely Christmas thank you ❤️ Avery seems ok in herself but still has a nasty cough xx

  • @paulamariaeaston8952
    @paulamariaeaston8952 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Stop with Avery’s little yawns 🥹 she’s so cute. Hope you all had a wonderful Christmas 🎄

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Thank you ❤️❤️

  • @theresamclaughlin8655
    @theresamclaughlin8655 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Awe hope Avery cough gets better soon xx merry Christmas xx❤❤❤

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Thank you, merry Christmas ❤️

  • @jeansmith6639
    @jeansmith6639 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Poor avery that just broke my heart when she had that coughing fit xGod Bless her xx😢

  • @elizabethorr9372
    @elizabethorr9372 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Sorry to hear you guys are still unwell. Hoping you will be better gor Christmas Day.
    So hard watching Avery go thru Dystonia but thank you for showing us what you go thru.
    You mentioned about moving to Wales. Is that going to happen soon.
    Hope you have a great Christmas even without Zach.
    Take care xx

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Thank you ❤️ hopefully within the first half of 2024 🥰

  • @krafttee1
    @krafttee1 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Looks like everyone enjoyed making the cookies/biscuits. Avery’s party dress and coat were adorable. Hope you all had a merry Christmas

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      Thank you so much ❤️

  • @samjones9465
    @samjones9465 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Good morning Crissie, hope you all had a good Christmas. Poor Avery - I have the cough, temperature etc and now a chest infection and sinus infection and it's miserable - just so tiring. Unlike Avery I am also barking like a sealion and boy does that hurt your throat. Just had my 2 grandbabies go through it as well, such a nightmare they're only 3yr and 7 yrs (both asthmatic, ADHD & high functioning autism) so that was a lot for them to cope with - my poor daughter is exhausted. Christmas day she hosted and boxing day it was all round to me so she at least rested a bit then. I suggested to her to leave a biscuit, drink and an activity on the bedside to maybe extend their sleep time (both are 0500 risers) in the hope she can grab a couple of extra hours sleep - we'll see - it works when they're here so fingers crossed - anyway rambled on too long now - see you soon and hopefully Avery will be that much better again

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I’m so sorry to hear that. There’s so much going around this year. I hope you all feel better soon ❤️❤️

    • @samjones9465
      @samjones9465 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Thank you, hope Avery is over the worst of it now@@mummyandavery

  • @martyrogers2309
    @martyrogers2309 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Yes, we call them cookies. What we call biscuits are bread rolls.

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      We have so many of the same words that mean completely different things 😂 xx

  • @kathyferrara4444
    @kathyferrara4444 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    So glad you are all on the mend. Merry Christmas!!!

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Merry Christmas 🎄 ❤️

  • @miamartin479
    @miamartin479 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    That dystonic pattern looked really painful. I was on amoxicilin xx

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Averys still on it at the moment. We requested a longer course this time as she needed 3 lots last time xx

    • @miamartin479
      @miamartin479 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@mummyandavery Oh ok. I hope it's helping a little xx

  • @chloeyoung-r1v
    @chloeyoung-r1v 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Poor sweet avery hope she fall better soon

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Thank you ❤️❤️

    • @chloeyoung-r1v
      @chloeyoung-r1v 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@mummyandavery
      My daughter is 1 years old and has special needs, she has dystona and reflux and is also eat through a feeding tube.
      My daughter was coughing and on 13 December she came down with a fever so I called our local doctors surgery and asked if they had any space to see my daughter they did on 14 December in the morning the doctor said that she had a chest infection he gave her antibiotics and sent us on our way I had been giving her antibiotics for 5 days. After 5days my daughter was still coughing but what was worrying was that her oxygen sats had drops below her normal range and her breathing was raspy. in my eyes the antibiotics wasn't working so I called her doctor at the children ward at our local hospital and explained my concerns to her doctor and my daughter doctor said to bring her in so I did her doctor check her and did tests and found out my daughter had asperation phnomia her doctor gave antibiotics we spent 4 days in hospital we came home on 23 December my daughter was still not her self but better than she was we celebrate Christmas day with my family it now Friday 29 December and my daughter is doing better but not 100%

  • @nutrirebyanaluarrivillaga2646
    @nutrirebyanaluarrivillaga2646 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Aldi is always way cheaper! At least where I live :)

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      It is but not as much as it used to be cx

    • @nutrirebyanaluarrivillaga2646
      @nutrirebyanaluarrivillaga2646 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@mummyandavery yeah :( prices went up everywhere! Even the Dollar Store is now $1.25 😭

  • @miamartin479
    @miamartin479 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Your hair looks absolutely gorgeous xx

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Aww thank you ❤️

    • @miamartin479
      @miamartin479 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@mummyandavery Hi! You're welcome xx

  • @miamartin479
    @miamartin479 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    How are you feeling?

    • @mummyandavery
      @mummyandavery  9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Better thank you ❤️

    • @miamartin479
      @miamartin479 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@mummyandavery Good I'm glad xx