@@mtrkar lol, sorry 🤣 but I feel that her quote sumed this up perfectly, if it captivated you you should look up some more of her work, she's a very deep person (if you've ever seen any quotes from "of yesteryear", that is actually her work) "the lioness awakes" is what the quote above is from.
its going to be out asap its only on yt and SoundCloud rn because it was the quickest way she could release it!! its a long process to release on spotify so just be patient and it'll be out!!
It's so many little things. Kids at the park, your best friend's mom, that one birthday party you went to and realized other families are different than yours, your boyfriends family when they do more for you than your own family. The list is endless
Or the feeling when your family is having a "good day" and you just wish it could stay this way instead of the chaos, darkness, misery & violence that takes over...
I'm the silver spoon in this song that fell in love with someone who can relate to this song, it gave me so much perspective and understanding about their situation. Just gonna love them earnestly until they can acceptingly swallow love. It's kinda hard sometimes but hey as a "silver spoons fed" i was raised by parents who taught me to be patient.
I'm sure whoever you're with appreciates it. At least for me I know how difficult I can be sometimes. So when someone is there for me despite the hard times and trouble I bring, it makes it so much easier to heal and be better in the future.
Same here. My husband has told me some awful things that he's been through & how his family life used to be growing up. This song makes me hurt even more for him.
You seem so sweet. I tell my bf that sometimes it’s so hard to accept that I’m worthy of being loved when my own parents didn’t even love me. Feeling like a burden to the people who you want to love you so badly is traumatizing but being able to create a family that you’ve always wanted is so special and you’ll get to be a part of that for him
Absolutely adore this song, I have CPTSD as a result of childhood trauma and sometimes you really don't realise the other life exists until you witness it. I thought it was only in movies.
Same. And when I seen the amazing relationship one of friends had not only with her mother but her siblings I was a bit jealous. I would go home and sob. Knowing what I always wanted wasn’t some ridiculous thing and really did exist.
I am the spoon-fed child being sung about and somebody dear to me who was not one sent this to me to explain how they feel; it’s given me a new window into their mind. Thank you, and take care. ❤
This song is so good, this is one of the few songs that almost perfectly captures how it feels to be around people who have loving families and being happy for them while also grieving because all you wanted growing up was a family to call your own. It sucks being so family oriented while having a shitty family, you know deep down the people you consider family don’t see you in the same way and you feel as if no one ever will until you’re married into another family or you find others who also don’t have a family. I still can’t accept live because I thought I found an adopted family just to be discarded later down the line because I didn’t want to do drugs and party all the time. I wanted to break the cycle and make a better life for myself. I managed to make it to college it’s all I dreamed of as a kid, but i had to give up my old life and everyone I loved for it.
when the emotional abuse was invisible but I've been provided for so ig ppl see me as the one who's been loved all my life. can't believe i relate to both sides of this song and it's perfect. I've been afraid to speak up whenever asked how my day was because if I'd tell the truth, i always end up being the one to be blamed for what went wrong with my day. i eat at the table but i was a slow eater so my dad always hated me for it. no matter how fast i try and how full i was yet still ate, it was never enough because eating at tables taught me that love was conditional and i will never be easy to love for who i am. yes, I've been loved in a different way and im a product of love that i did not receive. tysm erin for this masterpiece.
That moment in the song where after a brief silence she goes "...Oh..." is killing me. The realization of how different you were brought up to others hits and you're left with that sinking feeling. That one word just encapsulates that moment so wonderfully.
This song shines a spotlight on the void you feel when you come from childhood/generational trauma. It gives a voice to those who had to survive instead of thrive. May God bless those who relate to this song. I hope you find the people who will love you right. 🙏
I don’t know how many times I’ve listened to this song and I still can’t listen to it without crying. Everything about it is so raw, real, and beautiful. 😭
I shouldn’t and don’t relate to this growing up very fortunate but this song haunts me I’ve got it on repeat! It resonates something in me so deeply and I don’t know what!
Lyrics!!! I’ll watch and learn from afar I’ll pull the weeds from my heart Put lipstick on for your family party In the garden I stare at the house you were brought up in All the photographs and door frames are wooden I wish I known you when you were younger Before lovers Cus I changed my accent And I gave a false name I hope I throw a party in a house of my own someday When you were a kid you’d come in through the back gate your folks left the light on Incase you came home late I bet you grew up eating at the table Fed love from a silver spoon reasons to be grateful you ask about kids I don’t know if im able I bet you grew up Being asked how your day was I bet you grew up grazing your knees But the fall wasn’t fatal like it was for me Were the product of love we do not receive I’ll corrupt every branch of this family tree I spilt the good wine I panic A disaster a knee jerk reaction Then everyone around us starts laughing Is that how it’s meant to happen Your mother said I’m always welcome To visit to take second helpings I said no thanks I’m so full on resentment That I leaned to fend for myself but You were sweet I got mean, and When we fight I refused to eat You’re sensible I’m hating it What a good job that your mother did You were kind I was cruel In another life maybe I was you And I grew up Into something good Into somebody that could swallow love I bet you grew up eating at the table Fed love from a silver spoon reasons to be grateful you ask about kids I don’t know if im able I bet you grew up Being asked how your day was I bet you grew up grazing your knees But the fall wasn’t fatal like it was for me Were the product of love we do not receive I’ll corrupt every branch of this family tree Silver spoons And butter knives Living hand to mouth I’m getting by Your love is spreading thin But my medicine goes down alright Silver spoons And butter knives Living hand to mouth I’m getting by Your love is spreading thin But my medicine goes down alright Silver spoons And butter knives Living hand to mouth I’m getting by Your love is spreading thin But my medicine goes down alright Silver spoons And butter knives Living hand to mouth I’m getting by Just feed me love and give it time Oh maybe in another life
I absolutely love this song, I imagine the music video to be something like this. A girl arrives but we’re not shown her face and filmed in way that her back are shown, like the lyrics she’s standing in the garden of the house where the party is being held, the camera panning from behind her but it’s clear she’s looking up at the house he’s grown up in with people laughing and children running and she’s walking through their house seeing the wooden photo frames of happy family until she stops in front of the bigger family photo of them posed like loving family. Then i imagine it would flash back to when she’s a child eating alone in semi darkness while he’s surrounded in family dinner, another shot of boy falling from the bike but there’s someone to help him up and comfort him while she’s left alone to bring herself up. Then like the lyrics she’s spills the wine, we still don’t see the adult version of her, just her back but the body language is clear, she’s anxious, her shoulders tense while his family laughs and worries about her clothes, dismiss that she spilled the good wine. Then shoot to his mother hugging her saying she’s welcome to visit and second helping. Then flashbacks of her and his childhood comparison, of her making breakfast by herself while he’s fed by his mother who cooks him homely breakfast before going to school, she walk alone and he’s surrounded by friends. Maybe because it’s reminiscent of my childhood but those imageries plays in my head whenever i hear this
I discovered this song from an edit on TikTok and I'm so glad I did because I've been absolutely obsessed with it and has been stuck in my head all week.
It was so hard to get out of this mindset of having spite for those who were brought up better than me. I feel this song, but also, I no longer give in to that negative emotion, because I refuse to continue the cycle.
heard this on instagram and i IMMEDIATELY came over here, followed you on every platform i could find you on, literally LOVE this song so much you are so incredibly talented
Almost 2 years no contact with my family. This song makes me cry everytime it hugs that lonely feeling I always have around other families… but also narcissistic parental abuse..
This song is everything. The feeling I have listening to it. I can't only imagine how it felt to write this. It's helping me so much to heal. Thank you for sharing this beautiful piece with us! ❤
on the one hand i feel relieved that this isn't on spotify yet, otherwise i'd have spotify wrapped calling out my family issues. the number of times i have listened to this song is frankly unhealthy. so good!
This is my best Christmas present!!! I’ve been listening on repeat over and over and over!!! I’m OBSESSED!!!!! Absolute perfection!! Thank you thank you thank you thank you!!!
This couldn’t have come out at a better time. I’m currently lying in the spare bedroom of my partners parents house, and they all love each other so much. What I wouldnt give to live like them
My birthday is tomorrow and it's always such a harsh reminder if the mom who didn't want me and the step mom who never let me forget it.. I needed this song right now.... Thank you
Feeling this song while being both people. I grew up so badly abused by the woman who gave birth to me, and when I finally left I found my loving parents who are understanding and loving. Sometimes I almost feel guilty for having a wonderful family now in my 20's because young me grew up wishing every night while sobbing for this family.
What is honestly crazy about this song is that you consider this your “Demo” version of it, this would be like seventh demo to final product version if I had done it, if I even could make something this good in this first place. Also makes it exciting for what the final version may hold! ❤
I bet you grew up Laughing at the table Fed from wooden spoons No reason to be fearful You ask about kids But I know I'm unstable If you knew how I grew up You'd get why I'm this way, cuz The way that i grew up Screaming at the table Finish your plate, stomach ache "You'd better be grateful" We were just kids Craving to be cradled I wish I grew up Being loved like the neighbors I watched how they grew up Eating, watching cable Their Mom worked, Daddy too But they always came home grateful They loved both their kids Caring and playful I wished i grew up Like the next-door neighbors
this is the perfect description of a chorus that just scratches my brain perfectly, and im not even going to get into the lyrics because i wouldnt ever stop. but ive had this stuck in my head the whole day and only heard it properly for the first time this morning
Coming from a family where I was loved, treated well and had all the privileges spoken about in the song...the pain in this brings me to near tears every damn time I listen. Because I know what I have and the fact that it's not everyone's story is so hard.
Absolutely beautiful song! When I heard the snippet on TikTok I fell in love with it immediately and I’ve been binging all of your music all day! You have such a bright career ahead of you ❤
This makes me think of me as a child and me now. I know a lot relate and this song is mainly about growing up different from a relationship and feeling unworthy because of that but as soon as I hit puberty and even a little bit before then, my parents changed for the worst. I wasn't getting my emotional needs met, only my physical ones. I both remember the old times and don't because of how hard it is to realize they changed.
"when you are not fed love on a silver spoon you learn to lick it off knives" -Lauren Eden.
That's the most beautifully sad thing I've ever read... Jesus, that hits hard
Um, respectfully, fucking ow?!?! How you gonna casually drop the most accurate and ALSO metal quote I have maybe ever heard??
@@mtrkar lol, sorry 🤣 but I feel that her quote sumed this up perfectly, if it captivated you you should look up some more of her work, she's a very deep person (if you've ever seen any quotes from "of yesteryear", that is actually her work) "the lioness awakes" is what the quote above is from.
It’s criminal that this is isn’t in Spotify so I can loop this on hours end. 😢
Go to this videos settings then additional settings and you can set it to loop, not the same ik but it works❤
its going to be out asap its only on yt and SoundCloud rn because it was the quickest way she could release it!! its a long process to release on spotify so just be patient and it'll be out!!
Yeah, I just made a playlist with only this song and put it to loop, so far, no ads too.
It’s on SoundCloud
You can convert the youtube link to mp3, download it and change your spotify settings to allow local files
This song 😱. It so perfectly describes how lonely you feel/out of place when you’re surrounded by people who have loving parents
Literally, strangers, co workers, friends, lovers. I cannot relate to anyone.
@@jenniluv664 Exactly!
@@jenniluv664 same
I’ve never seen a more truer comment, you end up feeling like an outsider that doesn’t belong anywhere
@@katrinadumot5762 Yeah! Feels like everyone else is part of a club you can’t gain access to
i just saw an arcane edit on tiktok with au powder and jinx to this and i dont know whether i'll ever know happiness again, awesome song
Same
same!! found this song through that edit too
Omg same but I went to look for it but I couldn’t find it anymore 😢 Do you guys have it saved?
Same, it hurt so much… i needed more
omg i saw that one too
"I'll corrupt every branch of your family tree" .... damn.
The fact is say YOUR. GODDAMN IT! Not feeling loved and apart something. No we. No us. It's yours not mine.
You somehow re-traumatised me and fixed me in one go. Thank you.
Real
@@TheTransConservativeCompletely unrelated but I love your username and as another conservative trans I'll love to talk to you:)
“AND I GREW UP INTO SOMETHING GOOD SOMEBODY WHO COULD SWALLOW LOVE” IM IN TEARS😭😭😭😭😭
The sickening obsession of wishing you were like their perfectly wrapped, healthy family. 🥺
It's so many little things. Kids at the park, your best friend's mom, that one birthday party you went to and realized other families are different than yours, your boyfriends family when they do more for you than your own family. The list is endless
Or the feeling when your family is having a "good day" and you just wish it could stay this way instead of the chaos, darkness, misery & violence that takes over...
And then finding out they aren’t as perfect as the facade suggests.
OMG..... THIS
I'm the silver spoon in this song that fell in love with someone who can relate to this song, it gave me so much perspective and understanding about their situation. Just gonna love them earnestly until they can acceptingly swallow love. It's kinda hard sometimes but hey as a "silver spoons fed" i was raised by parents who taught me to be patient.
An angel
I'm sure whoever you're with appreciates it. At least for me I know how difficult I can be sometimes. So when someone is there for me despite the hard times and trouble I bring, it makes it so much easier to heal and be better in the future.
Same here. My husband has told me some awful things that he's been through & how his family life used to be growing up. This song makes me hurt even more for him.
You seem so sweet. I tell my bf that sometimes it’s so hard to accept that I’m worthy of being loved when my own parents didn’t even love me. Feeling like a burden to the people who you want to love you so badly is traumatizing but being able to create a family that you’ve always wanted is so special and you’ll get to be a part of that for him
Absolutely adore this song, I have CPTSD as a result of childhood trauma and sometimes you really don't realise the other life exists until you witness it. I thought it was only in movies.
Same. 😢 It’s so heartbreaking too- when you realize what normal/healthy is. 😭
Same. And when I seen the amazing relationship one of friends had not only with her mother but her siblings I was a bit jealous. I would go home and sob. Knowing what I always wanted wasn’t some ridiculous thing and really did exist.
The first time at my friend's house and her siblings broke something and no one started screaming I was like 😮
consumption as a metaphor for love always ate down so hard im absolutely in love
I am the spoon-fed child being sung about and somebody dear to me who was not one sent this to me to explain how they feel; it’s given me a new window into their mind. Thank you, and take care. ❤
“Your mother said im always welcome to visit to take second helpings i said no thanks im so full of resentment that i learnt to fend for myself” 💔😩😭
This song is so good, this is one of the few songs that almost perfectly captures how it feels to be around people who have loving families and being happy for them while also grieving because all you wanted growing up was a family to call your own. It sucks being so family oriented while having a shitty family, you know deep down the people you consider family don’t see you in the same way and you feel as if no one ever will until you’re married into another family or you find others who also don’t have a family. I still can’t accept live because I thought I found an adopted family just to be discarded later down the line because I didn’t want to do drugs and party all the time. I wanted to break the cycle and make a better life for myself. I managed to make it to college it’s all I dreamed of as a kid, but i had to give up my old life and everyone I loved for it.
I hate to hear that your chosen family did that, they should want what's best for you regardless of if it's the path they are on or not.
I'm proud of you and the sacrifices you made.
I hope you know all your fighting is for the best. And if you're strong enough to fight for so long you're strong enough to let someone in again.
when the emotional abuse was invisible but I've been provided for so ig ppl see me as the one who's been loved all my life.
can't believe i relate to both sides of this song and it's perfect.
I've been afraid to speak up whenever asked how my day was because if I'd tell the truth, i always end up being the one to be blamed for what went wrong with my day.
i eat at the table but i was a slow eater so my dad always hated me for it. no matter how fast i try and how full i was yet still ate, it was never enough because eating at tables taught me that love was conditional and i will never be easy to love for who i am.
yes, I've been loved in a different way and im a product of love that i did not receive.
tysm erin for this masterpiece.
never related to anything more ❤️🩹 i hope you take the time you need to heal 🫶🏻
Exactly this
i don’t know that i have ever heard a song that made me FEEL things the way this one does
“Thank you queen Erin” we all say in unison
i NEED this on spotify nowww
erin i’m rolling off my bed shaking violently passing out this is a masterpiece
oh hello
i am the #1 stan of this song
I'll settle for being her #2 I guess ❤
and me as #3 😔
Try again girl this song currently has 50k views and I’m 25k of them. 😂😂
Nah i am
after spending Christmas at my bf's house who grew up like this..I needed someone to put this into words for me. Thank you.
38 yrs old and I've never been able to describe the difference in our worlds. This. Is. Everything. I've. Needed. For. Years. ❤❤
I can’t stop crying. Nostalgic pain & a shuddering feeling of relief to finally feel so truly understood & it’s music to my ears.
This is how I imagine Vi and Cait. I literally can’t get enough of this song, I’m obsessed
truly CANNOT wait for this to be on streaming so SO obsessed
That moment in the song where after a brief silence she goes "...Oh..." is killing me. The realization of how different you were brought up to others hits and you're left with that sinking feeling. That one word just encapsulates that moment so wonderfully.
I haven’t stopped playing this since it came out
This song shines a spotlight on the void you feel when you come from childhood/generational trauma. It gives a voice to those who had to survive instead of thrive. May God bless those who relate to this song. I hope you find the people who will love you right. 🙏
I don’t know how many times I’ve listened to this song and I still can’t listen to it without crying. Everything about it is so raw, real, and beautiful. 😭
I shouldn’t and don’t relate to this growing up very fortunate but this song haunts me I’ve got it on repeat! It resonates something in me so deeply and I don’t know what!
Can't wait till this is on spotify cause it desperately needs to be on my Jason Todd playlist
Lyrics!!!
I’ll watch and learn from afar
I’ll pull the weeds from my heart
Put lipstick on for your family party
In the garden
I stare at the house you were brought up in
All the photographs and door frames are wooden
I wish I known you when you were younger
Before lovers
Cus I changed my accent
And I gave a false name
I hope I throw a party
in a house of my own someday
When you were a kid
you’d come in through the back gate
your folks left the light on
Incase you came home late
I bet you grew up eating at the table
Fed love from a silver spoon
reasons to be grateful
you ask about kids
I don’t know if im able
I bet you grew up
Being asked how your day was
I bet you grew up grazing your knees
But the fall wasn’t fatal like it was for me
Were the product of love we do not receive
I’ll corrupt every branch of this family tree
I spilt the good wine I panic
A disaster a knee jerk reaction
Then everyone around us starts laughing
Is that how it’s meant to happen
Your mother said I’m always welcome
To visit to take second helpings
I said no thanks I’m so full on resentment
That I leaned to fend for myself but
You were sweet
I got mean, and
When we fight
I refused to eat
You’re sensible
I’m hating it
What a good job that your mother did
You were kind
I was cruel
In another life
maybe I was you
And I grew up
Into something good
Into somebody that could swallow love
I bet you grew up eating at the table
Fed love from a silver spoon
reasons to be grateful
you ask about kids
I don’t know if im able
I bet you grew up
Being asked how your day was
I bet you grew up grazing your knees
But the fall wasn’t fatal like it was for me
Were the product of love we do not receive
I’ll corrupt every branch of this family tree
Silver spoons
And butter knives
Living hand to mouth I’m getting by
Your love is spreading thin
But my medicine goes down alright
Silver spoons
And butter knives
Living hand to mouth I’m getting by
Your love is spreading thin
But my medicine goes down alright
Silver spoons
And butter knives
Living hand to mouth I’m getting by
Your love is spreading thin
But my medicine goes down alright
Silver spoons
And butter knives
Living hand to mouth I’m getting by
Just feed me love and give it time
Oh maybe in another life
Girl thank you!!!!! I kept replaying it on TikTok in mt car. I love you. You made thousands of people feel like someone can understands them
so cool to know im seeing a brilliant artist before they make it big 💗
I absolutely love this song, I imagine the music video to be something like this. A girl arrives but we’re not shown her face and filmed in way that her back are shown, like the lyrics she’s standing in the garden of the house where the party is being held, the camera panning from behind her but it’s clear she’s looking up at the house he’s grown up in with people laughing and children running and she’s walking through their house seeing the wooden photo frames of happy family until she stops in front of the bigger family photo of them posed like loving family. Then i imagine it would flash back to when she’s a child eating alone in semi darkness while he’s surrounded in family dinner, another shot of boy falling from the bike but there’s someone to help him up and comfort him while she’s left alone to bring herself up. Then like the lyrics she’s spills the wine, we still don’t see the adult version of her, just her back but the body language is clear, she’s anxious, her shoulders tense while his family laughs and worries about her clothes, dismiss that she spilled the good wine. Then shoot to his mother hugging her saying she’s welcome to visit and second helping. Then flashbacks of her and his childhood comparison, of her making breakfast by herself while he’s fed by his mother who cooks him homely breakfast before going to school, she walk alone and he’s surrounded by friends. Maybe because it’s reminiscent of my childhood but those imageries plays in my head whenever i hear this
YES, YES, YES.... I saw EVERY single moment of this through your words That's exactly how it needs to go Tag her on repeat, we NEED this visual PLEASE
this song devastates me and I’m here for that
Not only a great song, but also a brilliant production. The audio image is perfect.
Saw this on a batfam tiktok and i cant atop listing to it
I NEED IT ON SPOTIFY
this song is helping me so much mentally you wouldnt know how much its helping me process all my grief and trauma.
I discovered this song from an edit on TikTok and I'm so glad I did because I've been absolutely obsessed with it and has been stuck in my head all week.
It was so hard to get out of this mindset of having spite for those who were brought up better than me. I feel this song, but also, I no longer give in to that negative emotion, because I refuse to continue the cycle.
Came here from a tiktok, now hearing the whole thing... I'm sobbing.
This is a masterpiece. I feel so heard and validated. It’s bringing me to tears
Im so glad that youtube recommended this to me, im obsessed with this in every way
I need this on Spotify, i am so obsessed with this Song, the ART and you're so etheral!!
you make art. this is just... i cant even articulate it bro
this is a masterpiece wow. PLEASE put it on spotify!
heard this on instagram and i IMMEDIATELY came over here, followed you on every platform i could find you on, literally LOVE this song so much you are so incredibly talented
The amount of healing through your song. Good job, sis.
Almost 2 years no contact with my family. This song makes me cry everytime it hugs that lonely feeling I always have around other families… but also narcissistic parental abuse..
I just want to play this on repeat on spotifyyyy 😭
This song is everything. The feeling I have listening to it. I can't only imagine how it felt to write this. It's helping me so much to heal. Thank you for sharing this beautiful piece with us! ❤
Absolutely bawl my eyes out everytime I listen to this, which is on repeat right now! Please put this on Spotify! This needs a much bigger audience!
Its crazy how something that crosses my mind often is now a song
No thanks im so full on resentment - i felt that
needed the chorus to repeat once more at the end no instrumental just raw whispered vocals.
The way this song is going to go on repeat now is insane. I love this song! Thank you for sharing it!
i didn't know i needed this song until i heard this song
I cry and cry and cry to this song. This is an absolute masterpiece. Immensible.
on the one hand i feel relieved that this isn't on spotify yet, otherwise i'd have spotify wrapped calling out my family issues. the number of times i have listened to this song is frankly unhealthy. so good!
when your italicized 'oh' moment is not when you fall in love but when you realize you're probably traumatized
“Please release on Apple Music!🙏🙏🙏” I yell as they drag me to the padded room
I need this on spotify so i can be annoying to my friends (adding it to all the playlists we share)
This may be the best song I’ve heard in years you’re so talented wow
This is my best Christmas present!!! I’ve been listening on repeat over and over and over!!! I’m OBSESSED!!!!! Absolute perfection!! Thank you thank you thank you thank you!!!
This couldn’t have come out at a better time. I’m currently lying in the spare bedroom of my partners parents house, and they all love each other so much. What I wouldnt give to live like them
istg if this is in Spotify, this would for 100 times a day
This song perfectly encompasses both sides of me & both sides of my childhood.
I can’t even explain how beautiful your lyrics are, they speak so much truth. I relate to so much of what you wrote, thank you for making this song!
My birthday is tomorrow and it's always such a harsh reminder if the mom who didn't want me and the step mom who never let me forget it.. I needed this song right now.... Thank you
I fear that I envy you more than I love you.
My soul needed this song for so long you have NO idea ❤
skittles
Feeling this song while being both people. I grew up so badly abused by the woman who gave birth to me, and when I finally left I found my loving parents who are understanding and loving. Sometimes I almost feel guilty for having a wonderful family now in my 20's because young me grew up wishing every night while sobbing for this family.
"we are the product of love we do not receive"
What is honestly crazy about this song is that you consider this your “Demo” version of it, this would be like seventh demo to final product version if I had done it, if I even could make something this good in this first place.
Also makes it exciting for what the final version may hold! ❤
PLEASE put this on spotify!!!
This song will forever live in my head, its amazing
I wish children didn’t have to grow up in homes without love.. 🌸💕
i'm late but erin!!! i love you and your brain so much. truly a force to be reckoned with WE LOVE SILVER SPOONS!
"and i grew up into something good, somebody who could swallow love" ERIN MA'AM
New bpd anthem
i cant stop listening to this
This is your best one yet!
I bet you grew up
Laughing at the table
Fed from wooden spoons
No reason to be fearful
You ask about kids
But I know I'm unstable
If you knew how I grew up
You'd get why I'm this way, cuz
The way that i grew up
Screaming at the table
Finish your plate, stomach ache
"You'd better be grateful"
We were just kids
Craving to be cradled
I wish I grew up
Being loved like the neighbors
I watched how they grew up
Eating, watching cable
Their Mom worked, Daddy too
But they always came home grateful
They loved both their kids
Caring and playful
I wished i grew up
Like the next-door neighbors
I came across you on insta last night and am completely addicted to this song
how many times have you listened to this?
me: yes
Thank you for this. You're gonna help a lot of people heal
this is the perfect description of a chorus that just scratches my brain perfectly, and im not even going to get into the lyrics because i wouldnt ever stop. but ive had this stuck in my head the whole day and only heard it properly for the first time this morning
insanity this feels like listening to it for the first time all over again
MASTERPIECE. THANK U FOR THISSSSSSS HOLY FFFF
this song is so so so so special for someone who grew up in a hostile environment :)
Coming from a family where I was loved, treated well and had all the privileges spoken about in the song...the pain in this brings me to near tears every damn time I listen. Because I know what I have and the fact that it's not everyone's story is so hard.
Absolutely beautiful song! When I heard the snippet on TikTok I fell in love with it immediately and I’ve been binging all of your music all day! You have such a bright career ahead of you ❤
I’ve. Been addicted to this since the first note. I’ll never go back
Looked for this everywhere. It’s so gorgeous! It sounds like a massive hit already!
Quick question. How am i suppose to cry to this if ads interrupt me? I need this on spotify
I have not found a song that has made me feel the way this one has in literal years. So beautiful and so heart wrenching. Thank you for this
This makes me think of me as a child and me now. I know a lot relate and this song is mainly about growing up different from a relationship and feeling unworthy because of that but as soon as I hit puberty and even a little bit before then, my parents changed for the worst. I wasn't getting my emotional needs met, only my physical ones. I both remember the old times and don't because of how hard it is to realize they changed.
Yesss!!!! Girl I will be watching on repeat ❤ I was waiting for this 😫