💖No matter where you are in your journey, you have a safe place here to share your struggles and accomplishments without judgment. This is how we shatter the mental health stigma.💖 And if you need some direction and would like me to be your Happiness teacher, you can sign up for my Happiness Boost course here: amandawebsterhealth.com/happiness-boost
Amanda Thank you for your support for especially Military members as well as all others that need help! I found your channel when I lost my father! He and I worked together since I was seven years old! I was in The Navy Reserve during Operation Desert shield/Desert Storm!
@@MentalAmanda Just wanted to say hello Amanda. And I wanted to let everyone know that I am done with partial hospitalization therapy and have started working again. Next Wednesday is my first appointment with my new outpatient therapist. And I definitely need that appointment. Everything is f..... up again. It will soon be the first anniversary of my neighbor's death and my dark thoughts are getting crazier by the day. I'm taking some medication to "calm down" a bit.
@@Naugrim1 It's so good to hear from you! We miss you! Anniversaries can be brutal. I still struggle with them as well. Plan the day in advance and have safety measures in place. We're here for you through this 🥰
Oddly enough, this band is why I was able to score my 1st win over my Seasonal Depression last year. Getting to see them for the first time In December got me through November and gave me a reason to look forward to December. The fun I had gave me a happiness I hadn’t felt in a long time and it stayed.
Jinjer - Pit of Consciousness (Official Music Video) Jinjer - Perennial (Live at Wacken 2019) Jinjer - Pit of Consciousness (Live in Kiev) Jinjer - Pisces (Live Session) Jinjer - On The Top (Live in Kiev) Jinjer - Who Is Gonna Be The One (Official Live) Jinjer - Judgement & Punishment (Tatiana One Take Vocal) Jinjer - Teacher Teacher (Official Video) Jinjer - Captain Clock (Live at Resurrection Fest 2018)
So glad you did the official film clip! Everyone does the Wacken live version but I truly adore this film clip, it speaks to me so much more... legend, much love from Australia champion. X
@@frankhermansen243 the live version is fire, no arguments there... but I love this film clip, really explains the song better IMO. Especially if you're first time hearing the song.
My understanding is that Tati wrote this about her experiences with S.A.D. she feels abandoned by her friends(plants) when they either during fall. Only to be reintroduced to the new versions in the spring
Thank you my friend for this reaction. Tati’s words give me comfort in companionship, I’m not alone in my struggles. And I appreciate her reminder of hope on the other side.
Greetings from Tucson. I enjoyed your reaction, I have been a Jinjer fan for about 6 years now, Perennial has always been one of my favorite Jinjer songs.
Her diction is amazing especially considering that not only is her first language not English but also because she talks in the thickest accent you’ve done ever heard. Jinjer should be one of the biggest bands on the planet
Fantastic song. The Perennial live at Wacken performance is amazing. Tatiana's stage presence is incredible. You see her playing too the audience. My favorite song is possibly Teacher Teacher. Judgement and Punishment Tatiana's one take vocal performance is very good.
Amanda thank you. I have scene so many of your reactions. I watched your reaction to "Gone away"so many times. I have suffered from PTSD from not war but jail time. Your are an inspiration and help to mental health. Thank you for your heart felt reaction ls especially to Gone Away.
Hi amanda if you ever get the chance id really enjoy seeing you react to either baby dont cut by b mike or hold on by chord street both great songs in my opinion, my takeaway from baby dont cut is that depression hurts those around you aswell as yourself and it just slowly eats away at you till theres nothing left but id love to hear your thoughts on them aswell your a very big inspiration to alot of people on here and we all support you just as much as you support us so keep making amazing videos and being your positive self and we will keep watching and being there for you aswell , much love.
You figured this out almost immediately! Seasonal depression... Good job! "This autumn feels like funeral to me The longest song of grief And not for what has passed But for what shall last Exhausted nature is tragic and suicidal! Oh how spectacular she is when she kills herself! Death throes are slowly crawling to her toes As the last leaf is falling off her head I’m here with her undressed With a few petals on my breasts We shared opiates and let the landscaped do the same I love your warmth but yet prefer to sleep in cold alone We fixed our eyes up to the sky To see a flight send us farewell Goodbye! May we see each other next time So please, come back to celebrate this festival of life! Then as now fly! Today you reached the point of no return Now cry! And then die! Tomorrow I will meet you with your cells restored Annual tradition of mass destruction In the name of total reconstruction My biggest source of confusion The reason of decay and disillusion Under permanent ice we found breathless paradise No, we’re not dead No, we’re not dead Just enjoying coma From the ashes of my roots the new me will rise to live again This is poetry of youth, this is poetry of me and you!"
I love how she uses phytomorphism(plant centric perspective) by using the characteristics of a perennial to explain the human experience of killing off the old self and being reborn anew. I interpret this further as possibly having a darker meaning. She sings "We shared opiates...", and this makes me think/relate this song to the never ending cycle of opiate use. "This autumn feels like a funeral to me..." This is the "fall" into withdrawal. "Exhausted nature is tragic and suicidal! Oh how spectacular she is when she kills herself! Death throes are slowly crawling to her toes As the last leaf is falling off her head" Exhausted nature is being dope sick. Its a tragedy to experience and you sometimes ponder suicide. How spectacular she is when she kills herself relates to how people will do anything to get more, even resorting to self harm(to get a prescription), all for a deadly drug. "We shared opiates and let the landscaped do the same I love your warmth but yet prefer to sleep in cold alone We fixed our eyes up to the sky To see a flight send us farewell Goodbye! May we see each other next time So please, come back to celebrate this festival of life!" This is about a relationship of two lovers addicted and getting their fix. They shared the drugs, melt into the landscape, both with a look of euphoria in their eyes. One nods out into the "coma", unable to waken, the person pleads for them to "come back" to life. Today you reached the point of no return Now cry! And then die! Tomorrow I will meet you with your cells restored Annual tradition of mass destruction In the name of total reconstruction My biggest source of confusion The reason of decay and disillusion Under permanent ice we found breathless paradise No, we’re not dead No, we’re not dead Just enjoying coma The person awakens from their coma. The other crying that theyd their loved one had oversosed(hit the point of no return). They meet up again to repeat the cycle of "mass destruction", this time both are on the verge of death in an icy breathless paradise, but they arent dead. They are just enjoying their comatose high... Basically she(my interpretation) is pointing out the tragedy of opiate addiction. The only thing that matters is getting high. Humans fear dangerous stuff that can cause death, it is a survival instinct. Sadly, the power of addiction removes that fear which has led to too many people chasing the high one step too far, and unwillingly falling over the cliff's edge... It is a tradition of mass destruction (using the drug), in the name of total reconstruction (regaining normal function after being in withdrawal, and getting the euphoric high). We question in confusion why do we continue this cycle, as it pushes one into further decay and dissolution. In no way am i saying this is the proper interpretation. It is my subjective view based on my past experiences..
Interesting interpretation. The best music/art offers several windows to view it through. The song is Tati’s effort to cope with her Season Effective Disorder. She’s from eastern Ukraine and they suffer severe winters. Plus, the political change now.
@@davidgaps6589 I totally agree. A great song writer can put down lyrics that have a deep subjective meaning to themselves, but will leave the subject matter vague enough so that it allows listeners to easily interpret them through their own subjective experiences. Interestingly enough, I have(self diagnosed) the inverse side of seasonal affective disorder. In no way am I making light of Tatiana's situation. Especially with, as you mentioned, the turmoil they've been plagued with in the present and past. I'm Canadian, and experience basically the same climate as Ukraine (short hot summer/long dark and cold winter). But, instead of getting depressed in the dark cold winters, I get down and out in the summer. I lived in North Carolina for 7 years when I was younger. The extremely long, hot and humid summers mixed with the short, little to no snow winters screwed my young mind up lol. I was the kid always wearing shorts in the winter there 🤣. It made me hate summer and miss Canadian winters. I've been back in Canada since 01, but in the summer my body and mind shut down. Don't get me wrong, the extreme cold sucks, but I don't feel down and out like in the summer. Hoodie and shorts weather is my ideal haha
I've always been annoyed by the name for seasonal affective disorder, because of the abbreviation. Because it is not being simply that, it is an almost inescapable chemical disorder.
Greeting to you, charmante Demoiselle xx Today, I would LOVE to suggest a brand new song entitled "Dissociation", by the French Canadian Death Metal/Classical project named "Disorientation". This is a lyric video* Thank you for your attention and have a nice day ;)
It's an acquired taste, one I found well worth acquiring. And I have to laugh because this vocalist is known for being particularly articulate with her screams such that you can in fact understand every word. It just take a bit of practice to attune your ears.
Music is art and art is expression. Not everyone expressess themselves the same way. While it might not be your cup of tea (it's really not mine either), I don't think she's ruining anything. It's a beautiful reflection of yin and yang, light and dark. I can actually understand her quite easily now, though my first reaction to her caught me off guard and I struggled a bit.
💖No matter where you are in your journey, you have a safe place here to share your struggles and accomplishments without judgment. This is how we shatter the mental health stigma.💖
And if you need some direction and would like me to be your Happiness teacher, you can sign up for my Happiness Boost course here:
amandawebsterhealth.com/happiness-boost
Amanda Thank you for your support for especially Military members as well as all others that need help! I found your channel when I lost my father! He and I worked together since I was seven years old! I was in The Navy Reserve during Operation Desert shield/Desert Storm!
Thank you both for your sacrirfice! @@sbill474
@@MentalAmanda Just wanted to say hello Amanda. And I wanted to let everyone know that I am done with partial hospitalization therapy and have started working again. Next Wednesday is my first appointment with my new outpatient therapist. And I definitely need that appointment. Everything is f..... up again. It will soon be the first anniversary of my neighbor's death and my dark thoughts are getting crazier by the day. I'm taking some medication to "calm down" a bit.
@@Naugrim1 It's so good to hear from you! We miss you! Anniversaries can be brutal. I still struggle with them as well. Plan the day in advance and have safety measures in place. We're here for you through this 🥰
@@MentalAmanda thx
Oddly enough, this band is why I was able to score my 1st win over my Seasonal Depression last year. Getting to see them for the first time In December got me through November and gave me a reason to look forward to December. The fun I had gave me a happiness I hadn’t felt in a long time and it stayed.
Jinjer - Pit of Consciousness (Official Music Video)
Jinjer - Perennial (Live at Wacken 2019)
Jinjer - Pit of Consciousness (Live in Kiev)
Jinjer - Pisces (Live Session)
Jinjer - On The Top (Live in Kiev)
Jinjer - Who Is Gonna Be The One (Official Live)
Jinjer - Judgement & Punishment (Tatiana One Take Vocal)
Jinjer - Teacher Teacher (Official Video)
Jinjer - Captain Clock (Live at Resurrection Fest 2018)
You’ve gotta check out the live version as well!🤘😆🤘 These guys are in my number one spot of all bands now. Amazing musicians
So glad you did the official film clip! Everyone does the Wacken live version but I truly adore this film clip, it speaks to me so much more... legend, much love from Australia champion. X
🤘Im the other way around. Love The Wacken version
@@frankhermansen243 the live version is fire, no arguments there... but I love this film clip, really explains the song better IMO. Especially if you're first time hearing the song.
My understanding is that Tati wrote this about her experiences with S.A.D. she feels abandoned by her friends(plants) when they either during fall. Only to be reintroduced to the new versions in the spring
Thank you my friend for this reaction. Tati’s words give me comfort in companionship, I’m not alone in my struggles. And I appreciate her reminder of hope on the other side.
This was an awesome surprise ! I love this song so much. And as always your words 🖤
I just saw them live! Tatiana, and the rest of the band, are AMAZING!!!!
Such a banger! That riff is everything!
Greetings from Tucson. I enjoyed your reaction, I have been a Jinjer fan for about 6 years now, Perennial has always been one of my favorite Jinjer songs.
I was just in Arizona! We should have went for coffee!
Her diction is amazing especially considering that not only is her first language not English but also because she talks in the thickest accent you’ve done ever heard. Jinjer should be one of the biggest bands on the planet
Fantastic song.
The Perennial live at Wacken performance is amazing. Tatiana's stage presence is incredible. You see her playing too the audience.
My favorite song is possibly Teacher Teacher. Judgement and Punishment Tatiana's one take vocal performance is very good.
I ❤ Jinjer, live they're even better! Finally saw them for the first time in Vancouver a few weeks ago.
Amanda thank you. I have scene so many of your reactions. I watched your reaction to "Gone away"so many times. I have suffered from PTSD from not war but jail time. Your are an inspiration and help to mental health. Thank you for your heart felt reaction ls especially to Gone Away.
I appreciate your work Amanda
Thanks being here shining :)
I don’t really have seasonal depression but my constant depression usually get worse in the spring and summer
Jinjer makes me happy. Thank you. ❤🤍💙
Hi amanda if you ever get the chance id really enjoy seeing you react to either baby dont cut by b mike or hold on by chord street both great songs in my opinion, my takeaway from baby dont cut is that depression hurts those around you aswell as yourself and it just slowly eats away at you till theres nothing left but id love to hear your thoughts on them aswell your a very big inspiration to alot of people on here and we all support you just as much as you support us so keep making amazing videos and being your positive self and we will keep watching and being there for you aswell , much love.
her last words by courtney parker is another very good one it was eye opening for me for reasons i cant really put into words well
You figured this out almost immediately! Seasonal depression... Good job!
"This autumn feels like funeral to me
The longest song of grief
And not for what has passed
But for what shall last
Exhausted nature is tragic and suicidal!
Oh how spectacular she is when she kills herself!
Death throes are slowly crawling to her toes
As the last leaf is falling off her head
I’m here with her undressed
With a few petals on my breasts
We shared opiates and let the landscaped do the same
I love your warmth but yet prefer to sleep in cold alone
We fixed our eyes up to the sky
To see a flight send us farewell
Goodbye!
May we see each other next time
So please, come back to celebrate this festival of life!
Then as now fly!
Today you reached the point of no return
Now cry! And then die!
Tomorrow I will meet you with your cells restored
Annual tradition of mass destruction
In the name of total reconstruction
My biggest source of confusion
The reason of decay and disillusion
Under permanent ice we found breathless paradise
No, we’re not dead
No, we’re not dead
Just enjoying coma
From the ashes of my roots the new me will rise to live again
This is poetry of youth, this is poetry of me and you!"
they have a different version of this live at waken Jinjer Perennial LIVE Wacken
Okey, I just stumbled on this reaction. You look very beautiful and I hope you are doing great. Greetings from Sweden. 😊
🌻
I would like to see you review Pantera suicide note part one and suicide note part two
You should check out jinjer “just another”
Great reaction to a great band😊
Jinjer - Wallflower
The live at Wacken version is better. Their live shows are better than their videos I think.
Just remember out of chaos comes growth
I love how she uses phytomorphism(plant centric perspective) by using the characteristics of a perennial to explain the human experience of killing off the old self and being reborn anew.
I interpret this further as possibly having a darker meaning. She sings "We shared opiates...", and this makes me think/relate this song to the never ending cycle of opiate use.
"This autumn feels like a funeral to me..." This is the "fall" into withdrawal.
"Exhausted nature is tragic and suicidal!
Oh how spectacular she is when she kills herself!
Death throes are slowly crawling to her toes
As the last leaf is falling off her head"
Exhausted nature is being dope sick. Its a tragedy to experience and you sometimes ponder suicide. How spectacular she is when she kills herself relates to how people will do anything to get more, even resorting to self harm(to get a prescription), all for a deadly drug.
"We shared opiates and let the landscaped do the same
I love your warmth but yet prefer to sleep in cold alone
We fixed our eyes up to the sky
To see a flight send us farewell
Goodbye!
May we see each other next time
So please, come back to celebrate this festival of life!"
This is about a relationship of two lovers addicted and getting their fix. They shared the drugs, melt into the landscape, both with a look of euphoria in their eyes. One nods out into the "coma", unable to waken, the person pleads for them to "come back" to life.
Today you reached the point of no return
Now cry! And then die!
Tomorrow I will meet you with your cells restored
Annual tradition of mass destruction
In the name of total reconstruction
My biggest source of confusion
The reason of decay and disillusion
Under permanent ice we found breathless paradise
No, we’re not dead
No, we’re not dead
Just enjoying coma
The person awakens from their coma. The other crying that theyd their loved one had oversosed(hit the point of no return). They meet up again to repeat the cycle of "mass destruction", this time both are on the verge of death in an icy breathless paradise, but they arent dead. They are just enjoying their comatose high...
Basically she(my interpretation) is pointing out the tragedy of opiate addiction. The only thing that matters is getting high. Humans fear dangerous stuff that can cause death, it is a survival instinct. Sadly, the power of addiction removes that fear which has led to too many people chasing the high one step too far, and unwillingly falling over the cliff's edge... It is a tradition of mass destruction (using the drug), in the name of total reconstruction (regaining normal function after being in withdrawal, and getting the euphoric high). We question in confusion why do we continue this cycle, as it pushes one into further decay and dissolution.
In no way am i saying this is the proper interpretation. It is my subjective view based on my past experiences..
Interesting interpretation. The best music/art offers several windows to view it through. The song is Tati’s effort to cope with her Season Effective Disorder. She’s from eastern Ukraine and they suffer severe winters. Plus, the political change now.
@@davidgaps6589 I totally agree. A great song writer can put down lyrics that have a deep subjective meaning to themselves, but will leave the subject matter vague enough so that it allows listeners to easily interpret them through their own subjective experiences.
Interestingly enough, I have(self diagnosed) the inverse side of seasonal affective disorder. In no way am I making light of Tatiana's situation. Especially with, as you mentioned, the turmoil they've been plagued with in the present and past.
I'm Canadian, and experience basically the same climate as Ukraine (short hot summer/long dark and cold winter). But, instead of getting depressed in the dark cold winters, I get down and out in the summer. I lived in North Carolina for 7 years when I was younger. The extremely long, hot and humid summers mixed with the short, little to no snow winters screwed my young mind up lol. I was the kid always wearing shorts in the winter there 🤣. It made me hate summer and miss Canadian winters. I've been back in Canada since 01, but in the summer my body and mind shut down. Don't get me wrong, the extreme cold sucks, but I don't feel down and out like in the summer. Hoodie and shorts weather is my ideal haha
Did you do the lyrics while listening? Interesting immediate analysis. However, knowing in advance what prennial is provides the proper direction 🎉
I have them pulled up in case I need them. In her case, I really don't anymore.
I've always been annoyed by the name for seasonal affective disorder, because of the abbreviation. Because it is not being simply that, it is an almost inescapable chemical disorder.
Have you ver tryed to listen to Draconian - Death Come Near Me?
Its a masterpiece about suicide and depression.
🤘
Live is so much better
Greeting to you, charmante Demoiselle xx Today, I would LOVE to suggest a brand new song entitled "Dissociation", by the French Canadian Death Metal/Classical project named "Disorientation". This is a lyric video* Thank you for your attention and have a nice day ;)
🤘🇺🇦🤘
Never will understand why artists ruin songs with that demonic screaming that you can't understand a single word.
It's an acquired taste, one I found well worth acquiring.
And I have to laugh because this vocalist is known for being particularly articulate with her screams such that you can in fact understand every word. It just take a bit of practice to attune your ears.
Music is art and art is expression. Not everyone expressess themselves the same way. While it might not be your cup of tea (it's really not mine either), I don't think she's ruining anything. It's a beautiful reflection of yin and yang, light and dark. I can actually understand her quite easily now, though my first reaction to her caught me off guard and I struggled a bit.