The funny thing is that I don't even have to listen past the first note to know I will adore the music that you create, thank you for being an incredible artist...
Damn shout to my mom. It took me 22 years to realize but my mom is the most horribly narcissistic and manipulative person I’ve ever met. Its officially been a year since I cut her out of my life. My mom had a lot of problems and no real friends. One of her daughters died and the other one is constantly in and out of rehab so I turned into her “last hope”. She’d tell me all the time I was her only friend and the only one who would listen to her and she’d tell me I was wise beyond my years and unload all the troubles adults face that children should never have to think about. But I loved her and I knew she struggled and lot and I wanted to help. So while I was young I carried her baggage around for her. I promise you when I say 90% of the stuff that comes out of her mouth is negative and I’m not exaggerating. But at the same time when I was younger I’d get grounded for things I didn’t do but she was convinced I had. She’d call me a liar and sneaky and a horrible child and all’s I could do was cry and try to tell her that it wasn’t true. That I hadn’t done the things she had accused me of. Like for example we were screaming at each other one day and she called the cops on me because she said I threaten to stab her???? Which I swear on my dead sisters grave I would never harm her or anyone for that matter. But who is the cop supposed to believe? An adult woman or a teenage girl who can’t stop crying long enough to explain her side of things. Not long after that I tried to kill myself and while I was recovering in the hospital she didn’t visit me once. Soon after that I moved in with the man that is now my husband. He taught me to set boundaries with her like telling her that I couldn’t always be an ear for her because I had my own demons I was facing. After that I thought our relationship Improved. When we initially got engaged she acted happy for us. Even offered to pay for half the wedding and I thought we were officially turning a new corner. Three days before the wedding when I text her the final details she texts back letting me know she will not be attending and that I can forget about the money she had promised. It was completely out of the blue. We’d been getting along great until then. I tried to call her but she’d send me to voicemail so my husband called her and she picked up. He had her on speaker phone in the room so I could hear what she was saying. She was telling my husband that I was a pathological liar and that I was using him and stealing his money. She tried to convince him to leave me. Luckily him and I had been best friends for years even before we started dating so he already knew that my mom was a liar. I talked to my maid of honor about it and she said she’d also periodically get calls from my mom telling her lies about me. My maid of honor has known me since we were 6 so she knew better than to listen to anything she had to say but she was afraid to tell me because she didn’t want to ruin my mother and I’s relationship. I even texted my mother after I found out all of that and told her you have one more chance at having a relationship with me. Come to my wedding or don’t expect to see me ever again. She never showed. Edit: sorry for the long rant sometimes I have to put out the evils my mom made me suffer through to feel less alone. It had been exactly a year since I sent her that text on September 21st.
God Rondawg. You are so brave and strong to go through that alone for so long, God bless your soul. You are so amazing. I know you don't know me but I want you to know something, F.E.A.R has two meanings, Forget Everything And Run or Face Everything And Rise, the choice is yours but please know this, Both let her bring you down as she goes down. You've done what you can now you need to let her figure out the rest, you can't make her change no matter how motivated you are. Please just trust my words on this one. Family has nothing to do with blood, only if you are there for each other. Let yourself breath, If you need help getting back out of the water, You've got so many people who will have your back. I have a song that would help if you don't know it yet. It's called "Stronger" By Kelly Clarkson. Really listen to the words of that song and take them to heart. God loves you and so does everyone around you. I never believed in God, but when I let him into my heart, soul and mind, I found peace. You don't have to but I will pray for you and your mom ever night. God bless you Rondawg! ❤️❤️❤️
@@Kamili_Creations thank you your reply means a lot to me. I love my mom and I will forgive her for becoming the person she needed to be to survive the traumas she went through growing up. She went through a hell worse than mine. But I will not forgive her for putting me through my own version of hell because she refused to get professional help. And until she can admit to herself that she is responsible for the majority of the trauma I faced as a child I do not have room for her in my life. When I talk to my Aunt (she knows my mom is crazy but doesn’t know most of what I went through) she says that my mom is angry at me???. I guess she tells people I uninvited her to my wedding because she couldn’t pay for half of it like she had promised. Go figure 🙃.hopefully one day she can own up to what she has done. I’m not even looking for an apology. Just an acknowledgement that she gaslighted me and manipulated me and lied about me growing up. Also these are all things she knows she has done to me because I have tried to bring them up with her in serious conversations in the past and she would just say that it wasn’t true and she would never do that to her own daughter. So for many reasons I don’t have high hopes she will ever change. And as a Christian I’m sure you know some things only god can forgive. And I’m really happy Christianity has worked for you. To be honest unfortunately I have really bad experiences with churches being very judgmental. I know not all are like that but after I quit going to church I just started to change my beliefs. Thank you for being kind today though. It will not be forgotten.
@@Kamili_Creations also adding I loved that song growing up! And yes my best friend and I have literally been inseparable since we were 6 so she’s more like a sister to me. Plus her family has also been like a surrogate family to me. And my husband is my family I got to choose. So he may not be blood but he’s better family to me than I’ve ever had. My aunt is the only family blood relative I talk to anymore. That wedding produced a huge falling out with my bio dads family for refusing to invite him so that was fun too😂
@@ronniedavis3397 Growing up I also went through my own hell and I had no one who knew to be kind to me, so I know how much it's needed. If you ever need some words of encouragement I will always come to your call when I get it. I wish someone had been kind to me when I was young but since I can't change the past, I can affect the future. For a long time I also had bad experiences with christians, but my life was falling apart so I thought 'what the heck, let's give it a try.' I feel free now, I still have times when I doubt but I always come back. Thank you for having an open mind about me even tho you have had bad experiences with christians. I promise we're not all like that. Stay strong Rondawg and keep fighting! God bless you! ❤️❤️❤️
For me this song is about toxic relationships, of all sorts, whether its friendships or parent/child relationships or whatever. I know everyone here probably realizes it, but I'll say it anyway: You are not responsible for other people's choices. You can be there for them, but you have to look out for your own mental and emotional health first, because sadly you're probably the only one who will. If they're threatening that by their toxic behavior, its time to let them go. You can't help them, because they don't want your help, they just want to infect you with their pain. Until they want to heal themselves, you can't help them. Sometimes loving them from a distance is what's best. Pray for them, and hope that they make better choices moving forward, so one day you can be in each other's lives again. Lots of love and prayers to everyone struggling right now. God bless.
Beth Crowley is so freaking talented. All of her songs, whether based on a book or real life, are catchy and deep and relatable all at once. I'm a teen author and my dream is that one day I'd write a book good enough for her to write a song about 🥺
Honestly same. I have a series that I’ve been working on for years but can never get it right but every time I hear her songs new ideas come to my head ending with hundreds of drafted books by the end of the song 😅
@Not Katie Marie See, this is what I love about everyone in my comments section. Even if there is a misunderstanding, you all are still kind enough to apologize. ❤️
This goes out to my mom....this song is perfect for our relationship. Shes a narcissist and I cut her out of my life a month ago because I almost died and I got mad but she blamed me and turned around to make herself the victim...
I completely understand. My mother is a manipulative narcissistic schizophrenic alcoholic who blamed me for her problems.... I have always had a lot of medical crap going on. Several open heart surgeries followed by a heart transplant, failing kidneys, a deadly blood disorder and I even had a stroke as a young child just to start... She says she drinks because of me. (A load of crap because my grandmother says shes been an alcoholic since she was in her late teens) Anyways, one of the biggest things was a couple of years ago I had meningitis and she left me alone to die in the hospital while she went home and got drunk.... and blamed me.... My aunt ended up coming to stay with me in the hospital and took me home when I finally recovered. I cut her out of my life for quite a while and finally agreed to meet for lunch on Saturdays if she "behaves". I love my mother and I know she loves me, but I refuse to be subject to her shit and then her play the victim.... I am sorry you have to go through this type of situation too.... our parents are suposto love and care for their children no matter what, but so many of them fail and then we are left alone in this world.... I get it....
My mother never did this but I can still relate from my father. My mother died when I was younger. My father became abusive and alcoholic. He blames me for my mother’s death. And he blames me for his problems. I moved out when I turned 18. I have not seen or talked to him in 2 years.
This reminds me of my sister. She and I went through hell together, but then she became my own hell. She became almost as abusive and cruel as our biological parents. And I realized that I had to let her go, I had to take her out of my life so that I could be okay. And that was the most painful realization I have ever had. It still pains me, for I remember the few short good years that we had together. Where we had each others back through all of it.
This hits home. My sister became my rescuer and my bully at the same time. She still looks down on me and has to one up me on the amount of abuse she suffered over me somehow, her taste in music is far stupid and my artists sound "annoying to be honest". I tried one last time to connect through music but the Foo Fighters are far superior to Ren, and other artists that are breaking out right now. It can't be an equal relationship. I just can't see us as any more than acquaintances because I can't open up to her without her heartache, back pain, and neighborhood cat problems are far worse than my being unable to get out of bed because the pain is unbearable and there's currently no treatment or cure. She seems me pics of hiking in Costa Rica, on the beach, etc... I'm just hoping to leave my house for an overnight stay in a hotel for the first time in 3 months. As my mental health gets better the more I see her one-upmanship as a way to feed her ego. I'll keep her at arms length, sadly, because we used to talk every day and she wasn't a bully for awhile
My wife has the same experience with her older sister. I witnessed the painful separation and how long it took to just be okay. She’s so much happier now. I hope you’re better now too.
My sister is my guardian angel. Unfortunately, I am trying to remove myself from her life because of the monster I have become. I don't won't no more heartache for her and I don't want her to get hurt for being near me or her name to be any more tarnished than it already for being being Chris Slate's sister. 😪
@@chrisslate1506 I feel the same. My older sister is perfect. Even tho she went trough hell and back and no matter what I did because of my depression, she still loves me. I don't know how to deal with the fact that I'm pulling my sister down. She deserves so much more and I want to do so much more for her, I want to make up for all the nights she spend worrying for me, all the times when I didn't do enough, every time she had to bit her toung and not tell me what is bothering her just because I was young. But my lazy self-destructive ass can't get up and take some weight off her shoulders and my freaking dump brain can never think of words to tell her how great she is, how much I love her, that she isn't alone, that she can lean on me like I leaned on her so many times, to tell her some right advices, to help her, to...comfort her like she did for me... I'm sorry to all my friends that I made as well for being a dumpass I am. I just don't want to be a burden. I don't want to pull anyone down. I wish to help. If one person, at least to help my sister. I would throw everything away for her. I want her to be happy. I want for her to never feel the pain she did in her childhood, because it wasn't pain. It was suffering. But, how do I do that, when my all is not enough...?
I've been in a dark place lately and I still constantly had to remind myself that it's okay to have some time for myself to heal before I try to save anyone else, because it won't work out for any of us... And I feel like this song really transmits that idea: It is okay to save yourself sometimes. And if there is someone in your life who can't live with that, they are toxic to you. I'm still learning that lesson myself, but I'm getting there. Thank you for the beautiful song, amazing as always! I love your work
@NONYA Business dude u know what I didn't say it to you if the person whom I say this to didn't have a problem then u r no one to talk to me like that stop demining people!
@NONYA Business "I was just showing Sympathy because I know it's important to take care of ourselves first before anyone else and if you don't agree with that it's your problem not mine. I'm a human before an Indian may god bless you. All love."
I ended a friendship with someone I really loved because it had gotten to this point. I'm still cut up about it and feel massive amounts of guilt but I know I did the right thing and I won't turn back. This song empowers me to stay true to myself on days when that guilt chokes me. Thank you
@@TimLevi You know, sometimes it´s neccessary to be selfish, if its the only way to assure your mental health. I had the same experience, and I cut him out of my life almost too late. And I feel good that I left him, yes, sometimes I feel guilt. But it was the right thing to do, because you can´t always be selfless, so that other people feel better. So stop making other people feel bad!
Wow...just wow, I needed to hear this and I have come to the realisation that as much as I tried to be the one that he needed, it is not a girls job to destroy herself to bring someone else up when they don't care nor are willing to try
“I won't sacrifice myself to make you stronger.” this line is so powerful and I feel like this song is written to me..... This was the state of me few days back. But now I can breathe as I came out of that toxic relationship.....
The painful thing is that sacrificing yourself to make someone stronger is really close to the idea of authentic love (willing the good of the other for the sake of the other). But in the case of toxic relationships, its not going to be reciprocated, you're caught up in at-best in enabling someone's self-perpetuating misery. A family is supposed to support one another, not feed one persons ego. The painful-simple-and-beautiful truth is that you can't help someone that won't help themselves. We can't give what we don't have, and until we repent of those demonic lies in our own lives we're not in a place to help another.
Hey dear... your songs has given me strength and motivation everytime I break down. It has helped me in my worst times. I don't know how others fell about your songs but it has always been a source of motivation for me. Thanks a lot for the amazing songs. May all your dreams come true ~~Your fan forever
This. This song is literally the relationship I had with my ex-queer platonic partner. He put me through so much trauma to make himself feel better. He dragged me so far down, and refused to help himself. I showed him my love, and he sucked it all out of me like a parasite. He doesn’t want to help himself, he just wanted someone to hold his hand through it. He didn’t want to change for himself. Having to talk him out of suicide nearly every fucking week drained me. And the fact he made me feel bad for my burn out from him and made me isolate myself from other friends because he was mad I didn’t want to spend time with him, it took such a heavy toll on me that I had to complete cut him out and jump ship. Everyone who knew him jumped ship with me. I spiral due to the things he did to me. I’m just glad I was finally able to make the nightmare I mistook as a dream end.
I like the choice of words when referring to the person at hand- "''Cause your mind is a cage", "So wrapped up in your pain", "Save yourself". It's acknowledging that the person is in pain, while also acknowledging that the person singing matters, too.
How can you not love her. I cant help but adore Beth's music, ever since the first time I heard warrior nightcore. Such a beautiful artist and I hope she gets everything she wants out of her life since she has helped so many people. Love you!!
@@corineetter9830 lol. I mean, I've never published any of my work because it involves an OC character I created but this is definitely a song that applies to Lucifer Morningstar. And/or John Constantine now that I think about it.
I knew I would love this song.. it would made me sad when the melody pulls back some memories in the back of my head but it's also comforting me in its own way 💜
For me this song is about My mom controlling me like I'm her puppet, 4 more years then I'm off to college and I'm gonna cut all tie off from her and my dad
The message of this song along with the water imagery, reminds me sooo much of 'War' by Icon for Hire "I can't keep you above water/I can't drag your soul to shore" is just one of the similar lyrics. Go give it a listen
"Save yourself and finally let me breathe." - That line right there can really sum up what it's like being the significant other of someone with severe depression/personality disorder/other mental illness. As much as you might love them, it can get really draining being their rock so often, to the point they end up becoming a psychic vampire and draining all your emotional/mental energy. And then that's when the resentment starts to build, and then you feel awful for resenting them. But eventually the resentment and exhaustion builds up over time that it overpowers the guilt and even the love for your partner, and you just want to be free of what is now a huge burden instead of a healthy, loving relationship.
8 months later and I still listen to this song so much. This song remind me of how toxic relationships are, but mostly how it makes the abused one feel like less and how they feel like they're drowning in their thoughts and emotions while trying to push away.
Girls please listen to the song if you’re struggling and you’re young and you’re trining to save a man. Where are you may be able to but trust me picking up anytime to the strongest woman to the most independent woman to the woman that said no never me. Especially to the women who have a lot of empathy walk away at the first sign please I’m not saying this out of bitterness I actually hope to help some people Sunday with what I experienced as I was say that there was a 99.9% chance did I ever thought I’d be in such a position we can be partners we can be there for people we love unconditionally. We Mary for better or worse but there are certain people out there that will destroy you it’ll be too late before you know it unless you take that first red flag and look at it really good and hard and if there’s another run as fast as you can please so many stories I see on here with that young girls that are crying over men and I get it youth is wasted on the young we all did it funny thing is of course I cried over a man but I never ever would think anyone could do the things that certain people can do to another human being and get away with know your worth even if it’s the worst time in your life don’t settle find another way because when you’re in quicksand if you don’t have someone to pull you out people well tell you they love you as you’re thinking I’m not bitter. I believe I made it out of this to get the things that are really important to me in life true love, happiness, a partner and to be able to see all those things in the person I give myself to and I know I’ll find it and some don’t make it out alive and that’s not being dramatic so please be your own savior for your children and Savior don’t be a man’s unless he deserves it. And that takes very long time turn let him be yours first let him prove himself and then give them your world when he’s worthy good luck ladies take this as me just trying to help with my experience which is not limited to this maybe that’s why it didn’t break me and I can move on
my last ex was manipulative and only cared about herself and her own feelings despite the fact that i was hurting badly too that day. she blamed everything on me and called me manipulative when i just wanted her to listen to me. everything was about her, about how she was feeling and she just kept invalidating my own feelings. i'm done being controlled by her and i'm done being afraid of her.
When I listen to this song I think about the relationship that I have with my family We aren't the best And I'm keeping them okay meaning I have to act defensive when someone questions us I hate it And I wish they could see that
When I hear this song, I think about the Fifty Shades series. That series might've been good (though poorly written) if at the end of it all, she said the lyrics of this song to him and dumped his ass.
You're such a wonderful poet... I'm hoping to be a singer/songwriter someday, and every time I listen to your music... It's a poem put to music. You have the writing talent of Sara Barellis... Your songwriting skills are incredible. You don't even know how much I admire your style
Holy f*ck the flashbacks this song brought, it was like reliving my past relationship. I wish this song existed back then, maybe it would make me realize all the stuff sooner.
I feel like this song was written for my ex boyfriend and me. He's a narcissist and he'd been feeding his traumas off of my traumas for more than 10 years. His lies became my only truth to the point that I couldn't tell what was real from what wasn't and I started to believe that I was crazy.
Okay, I must comment. Many of your songs work great for explaining the emotions and thoughts and personalities of my written characters. But this one is personal. In the last days of our marriage, my ex got himself into a lot of trouble and, from jail, wrote me a letter asking me to 'help him' be a better person. My letter back was a reminder that I had been trying to help him for the last 10 of our 15 year marriage. But he only wanted to nod his head, say he'd change, and then become worse than he was before my offered hand. Sometimes, Ms. Crowley, you speak directly to *me*. And this story reminded me of the relief I felt when I finally told him he'd have to save himself, or not, because the divorce was pending and I was no longer obligated to try to lead, direct, or bleed for him.
I guess that’s true, but I meant more the obvious thing about her denying being the savior during the first couple seasons. Also a bit about what Neal and August we’re trying to convince her back then
When i heard this song, i must think of Feyre and their Relationship with Tamlin from A court of Thorns and Roses by Sarah J. Maas. Its maybe not exactly the same but they have a similar relationship, i think.
This is for my past a.k.a boyfriend he said but it is not the same he drown me and my family. It becomes toxic relationships and I am not sacrificing myself for him because it ruins us.
As we approach another Mother’s Day, here’s to you Grandma! I can’t save you. I can’t save my mom, whom you also destroyed. I’m done trying to help either one of you.
Basically what I'm trying to say is Comfort over fashion someone else's intentions for my life no room for that especially due to the tears I've cried in from my eyes not from theirs the pain I've felt has been from my emotions not their heart my injuries are mine to deal they're making them issues that's not my problem to solve correcting me could only be done by the master of Masters cuz he's only one that knows the lessons I've learned
I didnt wait for him to save himself... He taught me to save myself...so he can sink or swim...im not letting him or anyone else pull me down... toxic needy jealous competitive angry spirited people are all around us..everyone is not our assignment...im learning just to worry about me. I dont have children so its just me that i need to be trying to save ..im not letting people disturb my peace because they are in pieces💯💯guys we arent their saviors. If they can't save themselves its because they dont want to...because noone can help me like i can
Amazing lyrics Woww❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ . I wanna write pieces like this tooo. Your lyrics are so simple put powerful. I heard your song warrior some years back . I should have come back sooner. ❤️❤️❤️
This some feels like a punch in the gut, but one i needed. Me and my best friend have been is a kinda toxic relationship for awhile and though im trying my mental health has been a complete pile of burning trash for years now and for a time there she kinda became my therapist, witch ISNT good at all. Were working through it now after a 3 month scare where she did exactly what this song says and put herself first. This feels like a song about us from her end, and though it hurts like a bitch im happy i figured it out and am working through it all without dragging her down with me. Its been a long road, and it will be ALOT longer but its good to realize how far you've come!
I love your music Beth I sing it to my baby niece and it seems to calm her when she’s fussing. I’ve sang all my life my family being very Musial but I never had the guts to sing on TH-cam like you do keep it up
I've been making that statement for many years like 30 years I've been saying I'm not their savior although I do care I cannot go on being pulled down without a life
You know I'm a mother-of-two Unfortunately they said that I was mentally unstable and so I lost my kids trust and respect it's so I just have to respect that my kids have their own way of dealing with things I just hope that they remember that I love them no matter what anybody says and no matter what situation or emotional stage or state I mean I would die for them and the only ones keeping me away from them if their own doubts because I'm still the mother that they know not the not the one the haters made me out to be being strict is not being a control freak I can actually say that I understand somewhat most of the comments and excuse my grammar I will pray for your spirits and your Souls to understand each other and give you the sense the strength you give free will you will feel so much better when you give it it's worse it's easier said than done I know but life is too damn short to hold onto resentment of any kind it's not worth it but if someone hurts you let them know and if it's the parents well let us know that we are f****** up Excuse my Language we we can't be better parents if we don't know the problem but not by what others expect but by those that were actually hurting don't be fooled by substance abuse or substance of that that's just the devil's lie could justify societies bulshit to control and group just to make themself sophisticated and yada yada yada when in fact they walk your feet with your shoes on they would have whipped and cried and probably not make it a block that's no b******* I could almost bet you I'm just saying sometimes we think we know it all and was just
I have related to this on a ridiculous level.. Maybe instead of changing the one you are with, try changing the one you are with.. random thought of mine.... Praying for all of you. You are good. You are important. You are enough. God loves you. And to you, complete stranger~I believe in you. Please don't give up..
I associate this with an old friend of mine and myself because I believed a girl in the same friend group named Priscilla without proof over my elementary best friend. I'm not really friends with either anymore, I think. I guess it was bound to happen sooner or later.
Ooo someone got hurt, and now doesn't trust, remember the Mirror people, we've ALL gotta look after ourselves, only then can we truly give of ourselves. ❤🌞🙏🏼🐎
Hearing this song (aside from it being a masterpiece) always makes me feel conflicted. On the one hand I blame my parents, the never ending arguments at home and especially my mother who probably has depression for my own mental state, but. I feel like I am more akin to the lyrical you than the lyrical I somehow. I myself have had thoughts that go into the direction. Do I really want them to understand or do I want to inflict the same pain unto those that I blame even knowing it does nothing good? I am actually scared of getting better to some extend and I am am terrified of changing behavioural patterns that might be unhealthy coping mechanisms because that's basically all I cling to right now. I kind of just want someone to somehow magic my problems away without having to do anything for it. I am incredibly attention hungry and egocentric at times and always feel guilty for it as well which just makes it worse especially when I'm so at war with myself that I react unreasonably to the tiniest things. I don't manage to properly upkeep relationships (platonic) with other people. I kind of want to date someone but at the same time not because I feel like I'd only hurt them exactly how the song describes it (not that I think that way because of the song mind you, it just fits really well). It just... sucks.
I'm to far gone I don't need a savior hell is all I got left my heaven gave up on me so I set her free this place has become my home a hell I have not none I have always been alone it where I belong 💚😶
Actually I think that relationship with someone with problems ( no matter which kind of it) is like swimming into the swimming pool. If you'll see someone is drowning,you may try to give them a help. But remember if you're not sure how to help that person would take you with him/her. Sometimes it's better to ask someone else for help,who could actually help and see everything in different way. We try hard to be saviors but as I once heard from firefighter: "Heroes are just madmen, who have a lot of luck and survived. If they're not,we call them idiots".
I was in a relationship a while back, where he was always coming to me whenever he was feeling horrible and pinned everything on me. I was a mess and was slowly drowning while trying to keep him above water. He never reached out to help me
Make sure to go watch my official music video for "Savior" here: th-cam.com/video/2pwlfUfy7I4/w-d-xo.html!
Your voice is the most calming ever!!!! You are on of my favorite singers!!!!
Your voice is amazing
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I love this song
bethjcrowley you just made my day!!! Thank you for your Thank You Card!!!!
-Mari Giselle Asensio.
The funny thing is that I don't even have to listen past the first note to know I will adore the music that you create, thank you for being an incredible artist...
Damn shout to my mom. It took me 22 years to realize but my mom is the most horribly narcissistic and manipulative person I’ve ever met. Its officially been a year since I cut her out of my life. My mom had a lot of problems and no real friends. One of her daughters died and the other one is constantly in and out of rehab so I turned into her “last hope”. She’d tell me all the time I was her only friend and the only one who would listen to her and she’d tell me I was wise beyond my years and unload all the troubles adults face that children should never have to think about. But I loved her and I knew she struggled and lot and I wanted to help. So while I was young I carried her baggage around for her. I promise you when I say 90% of the stuff that comes out of her mouth is negative and I’m not exaggerating. But at the same time when I was younger I’d get grounded for things I didn’t do but she was convinced I had. She’d call me a liar and sneaky and a horrible child and all’s I could do was cry and try to tell her that it wasn’t true. That I hadn’t done the things she had accused me of. Like for example we were screaming at each other one day and she called the cops on me because she said I threaten to stab her???? Which I swear on my dead sisters grave I would never harm her or anyone for that matter. But who is the cop supposed to believe? An adult woman or a teenage girl who can’t stop crying long enough to explain her side of things. Not long after that I tried to kill myself and while I was recovering in the hospital she didn’t visit me once. Soon after that I moved in with the man that is now my husband. He taught me to set boundaries with her like telling her that I couldn’t always be an ear for her because I had my own demons I was facing. After that I thought our relationship Improved. When we initially got engaged she acted happy for us. Even offered to pay for half the wedding and I thought we were officially turning a new corner. Three days before the wedding when I text her the final details she texts back letting me know she will not be attending and that I can forget about the money she had promised. It was completely out of the blue. We’d been getting along great until then. I tried to call her but she’d send me to voicemail so my husband called her and she picked up. He had her on speaker phone in the room so I could hear what she was saying. She was telling my husband that I was a pathological liar and that I was using him and stealing his money. She tried to convince him to leave me. Luckily him and I had been best friends for years even before we started dating so he already knew that my mom was a liar. I talked to my maid of honor about it and she said she’d also periodically get calls from my mom telling her lies about me. My maid of honor has known me since we were 6 so she knew better than to listen to anything she had to say but she was afraid to tell me because she didn’t want to ruin my mother and I’s relationship. I even texted my mother after I found out all of that and told her you have one more chance at having a relationship with me. Come to my wedding or don’t expect to see me ever again.
She never showed.
Edit: sorry for the long rant sometimes I have to put out the evils my mom made me suffer through to feel less alone. It had been exactly a year since I sent her that text on September 21st.
God Rondawg. You are so brave and strong to go through that alone for so long, God bless your soul. You are so amazing. I know you don't know me but I want you to know something, F.E.A.R has two meanings, Forget Everything And Run or Face Everything And Rise, the choice is yours but please know this, Both let her bring you down as she goes down. You've done what you can now you need to let her figure out the rest, you can't make her change no matter how motivated you are. Please just trust my words on this one. Family has nothing to do with blood, only if you are there for each other. Let yourself breath, If you need help getting back out of the water, You've got so many people who will have your back. I have a song that would help if you don't know it yet. It's called "Stronger" By Kelly Clarkson. Really listen to the words of that song and take them to heart. God loves you and so does everyone around you. I never believed in God, but when I let him into my heart, soul and mind, I found peace. You don't have to but I will pray for you and your mom ever night.
God bless you Rondawg! ❤️❤️❤️
@@Kamili_Creations thank you your reply means a lot to me. I love my mom and I will forgive her for becoming the person she needed to be to survive the traumas she went through growing up. She went through a hell worse than mine. But I will not forgive her for putting me through my own version of hell because she refused to get professional help. And until she can admit to herself that she is responsible for the majority of the trauma I faced as a child I do not have room for her in my life. When I talk to my Aunt (she knows my mom is crazy but doesn’t know most of what I went through) she says that my mom is angry at me???. I guess she tells people I uninvited her to my wedding because she couldn’t pay for half of it like she had promised. Go figure 🙃.hopefully one day she can own up to what she has done. I’m not even looking for an apology. Just an acknowledgement that she gaslighted me and manipulated me and lied about me growing up. Also these are all things she knows she has done to me because I have tried to bring them up with her in serious conversations in the past and she would just say that it wasn’t true and she would never do that to her own daughter. So for many reasons I don’t have high hopes she will ever change. And as a Christian I’m sure you know some things only god can forgive. And I’m really happy Christianity has worked for you. To be honest unfortunately I have really bad experiences with churches being very judgmental. I know not all are like that but after I quit going to church I just started to change my beliefs. Thank you for being kind today though. It will not be forgotten.
@@Kamili_Creations also adding I loved that song growing up! And yes my best friend and I have literally been inseparable since we were 6 so she’s more like a sister to me. Plus her family has also been like a surrogate family to me. And my husband is my family I got to choose. So he may not be blood but he’s better family to me than I’ve ever had. My aunt is the only family blood relative I talk to anymore. That wedding produced a huge falling out with my bio dads family for refusing to invite him so that was fun too😂
@@ronniedavis3397 Growing up I also went through my own hell and I had no one who knew to be kind to me, so I know how much it's needed. If you ever need some words of encouragement I will always come to your call when I get it. I wish someone had been kind to me when I was young but since I can't change the past, I can affect the future. For a long time I also had bad experiences with christians, but my life was falling apart so I thought 'what the heck, let's give it a try.' I feel free now, I still have times when I doubt but I always come back. Thank you for having an open mind about me even tho you have had bad experiences with christians. I promise we're not all like that. Stay strong Rondawg and keep fighting!
God bless you! ❤️❤️❤️
@@ronniedavis3397 I'm so happy to hear that!!! ❤️❤️❤️
For me this song is about toxic relationships, of all sorts, whether its friendships or parent/child relationships or whatever. I know everyone here probably realizes it, but I'll say it anyway: You are not responsible for other people's choices. You can be there for them, but you have to look out for your own mental and emotional health first, because sadly you're probably the only one who will. If they're threatening that by their toxic behavior, its time to let them go. You can't help them, because they don't want your help, they just want to infect you with their pain. Until they want to heal themselves, you can't help them. Sometimes loving them from a distance is what's best. Pray for them, and hope that they make better choices moving forward, so one day you can be in each other's lives again. Lots of love and prayers to everyone struggling right now. God bless.
God bless you too 🖤
Exactly! They always forget parents
You are absolutely right, especially about parents. The stigma about cutting off parents even when they are abusive needs to stop.
Iam not choices why ok
Metal helthy
Beth Crowley is so freaking talented. All of her songs, whether based on a book or real life, are catchy and deep and relatable all at once. I'm a teen author and my dream is that one day I'd write a book good enough for her to write a song about 🥺
I just noticed this comment and I can relate as well! I'm a teen author too.
I would love to get back into writing as that is my passion but depression been bad lately due to being cope up in apartment thank to cov-19
I’m 10 years old and I hope that maybe will write about the book I will publish someday...
yeah i hope so too but its not gonna happen for me lol
Honestly same. I have a series that I’ve been working on for years but can never get it right but every time I hear her songs new ideas come to my head ending with hundreds of drafted books by the end of the song 😅
I don't know why but I was associating this song with water, and the rippling uneven words is making me feel a bit better about it XD.
„Keep my Head above the water“ Nope No idea How you came up with this.
Oooh. True, true.
But not just that, the entirety of the song.
@Hani Mohamed Abdullahi There is?
@Not Katie Marie See, this is what I love about everyone in my comments section. Even if there is a misunderstanding, you all are still kind enough to apologize. ❤️
This goes out to my mom....this song is perfect for our relationship. Shes a narcissist and I cut her out of my life a month ago because I almost died and I got mad but she blamed me and turned around to make herself the victim...
I dedicated this to the playlist I made for my mom too. I understand you completely. I haven't heard from my Mom in 2 years...
I completely understand. My mother is a manipulative narcissistic schizophrenic alcoholic who blamed me for her problems....
I have always had a lot of medical crap going on. Several open heart surgeries followed by a heart transplant, failing kidneys, a deadly blood disorder and I even had a stroke as a young child just to start...
She says she drinks because of me. (A load of crap because my grandmother says shes been an alcoholic since she was in her late teens)
Anyways, one of the biggest things was a couple of years ago I had meningitis and she left me alone to die in the hospital while she went home and got drunk.... and blamed me....
My aunt ended up coming to stay with me in the hospital and took me home when I finally recovered.
I cut her out of my life for quite a while and finally agreed to meet for lunch on Saturdays if she "behaves".
I love my mother and I know she loves me, but I refuse to be subject to her shit and then her play the victim....
I am sorry you have to go through this type of situation too.... our parents are suposto love and care for their children no matter what, but so many of them fail and then we are left alone in this world....
I get it....
@@tazzycookielover8628 I am so terribly sorry to hear all these stories... Stay strong everyone
kayla carpenter praying for you god is always with
My mother never did this but I can still relate from my father. My mother died when I was younger. My father became abusive and alcoholic. He blames me for my mother’s death. And he blames me for his problems. I moved out when I turned 18. I have not seen or talked to him in 2 years.
This reminds me of my sister. She and I went through hell together, but then she became my own hell. She became almost as abusive and cruel as our biological parents. And I realized that I had to let her go, I had to take her out of my life so that I could be okay. And that was the most painful realization I have ever had. It still pains me, for I remember the few short good years that we had together. Where we had each others back through all of it.
This hits home. My sister became my rescuer and my bully at the same time. She still looks down on me and has to one up me on the amount of abuse she suffered over me somehow, her taste in music is far stupid and my artists sound "annoying to be honest". I tried one last time to connect through music but the Foo Fighters are far superior to Ren, and other artists that are breaking out right now. It can't be an equal relationship. I just can't see us as any more than acquaintances because I can't open up to her without her heartache, back pain, and neighborhood cat problems are far worse than my being unable to get out of bed because the pain is unbearable and there's currently no treatment or cure. She seems me pics of hiking in Costa Rica, on the beach, etc... I'm just hoping to leave my house for an overnight stay in a hotel for the first time in 3 months. As my mental health gets better the more I see her one-upmanship as a way to feed her ego. I'll keep her at arms length, sadly, because we used to talk every day and she wasn't a bully for awhile
My wife has the same experience with her older sister. I witnessed the painful separation and how long it took to just be okay. She’s so much happier now. I hope you’re better now too.
My sister is my guardian angel. Unfortunately, I am trying to remove myself from her life because of the monster I have become. I don't won't no more heartache for her and I don't want her to get hurt for being near me or her name to be any more tarnished than it already for being being Chris Slate's sister. 😪
@@chrisslate1506 I feel the same. My older sister is perfect. Even tho she went trough hell and back and no matter what I did because of my depression, she still loves me. I don't know how to deal with the fact that I'm pulling my sister down. She deserves so much more and I want to do so much more for her, I want to make up for all the nights she spend worrying for me, all the times when I didn't do enough, every time she had to bit her toung and not tell me what is bothering her just because I was young. But my lazy self-destructive ass can't get up and take some weight off her shoulders and my freaking dump brain can never think of words to tell her how great she is, how much I love her, that she isn't alone, that she can lean on me like I leaned on her so many times, to tell her some right advices, to help her, to...comfort her like she did for me...
I'm sorry to all my friends that I made as well for being a dumpass I am.
I just don't want to be a burden. I don't want to pull anyone down. I wish to help. If one person, at least to help my sister. I would throw everything away for her. I want her to be happy. I want for her to never feel the pain she did in her childhood, because it wasn't pain. It was suffering. But, how do I do that, when my all is not enough...?
I've been in a dark place lately and I still constantly had to remind myself that it's okay to have some time for myself to heal before I try to save anyone else, because it won't work out for any of us... And I feel like this song really transmits that idea: It is okay to save yourself sometimes. And if there is someone in your life who can't live with that, they are toxic to you. I'm still learning that lesson myself, but I'm getting there.
Thank you for the beautiful song, amazing as always! I love your work
Me too
i know it hurt but just keep smileing
@NONYA Business dude u know what I didn't say it to you if the person whom I say this to didn't have a problem then u r no one to talk to me like that stop demining people!
@NONYA Business i just wanted to make that person feel better about herslf
@NONYA Business "I was just showing Sympathy because I know it's important to take care of ourselves first before anyone else and if you don't agree with that it's your problem not mine. I'm a human before an Indian may god bless you. All love."
I ended a friendship with someone I really loved because it had gotten to this point. I'm still cut up about it and feel massive amounts of guilt but I know I did the right thing and I won't turn back. This song empowers me to stay true to myself on days when that guilt chokes me. Thank you
You should feel guilty and selfish
@@TimLevi Well then. One man's opinion.
@@TimLevi Wtf
@@TimLevi You know, sometimes it´s neccessary to be selfish, if its the only way to assure your mental health. I had the same experience, and I cut him out of my life almost too late. And I feel good that I left him, yes, sometimes I feel guilt. But it was the right thing to do, because you can´t always be selfless, so that other people feel better. So stop making other people feel bad!
Wow...just wow, I needed to hear this and I have come to the realisation that as much as I tried to be the one that he needed, it is not a girls job to destroy herself to bring someone else up when they don't care nor are willing to try
“I won't sacrifice myself to make you stronger.” this line is so powerful and I feel like this song is written to me..... This was the state of me few days back. But now I can breathe as I came out of that toxic relationship.....
The painful thing is that sacrificing yourself to make someone stronger is really close to the idea of authentic love (willing the good of the other for the sake of the other). But in the case of toxic relationships, its not going to be reciprocated, you're caught up in at-best in enabling someone's self-perpetuating misery. A family is supposed to support one another, not feed one persons ego.
The painful-simple-and-beautiful truth is that you can't help someone that won't help themselves. We can't give what we don't have, and until we repent of those demonic lies in our own lives we're not in a place to help another.
Beautiful song as always.
Honestly one of the best singers and deserves so much more love. 💜
I agree 10000%
Hey dear... your songs has given me strength and motivation everytime I break down. It has helped me in my worst times. I don't know how others fell about your songs but it has always been a source of motivation for me.
Thanks a lot for the amazing songs. May all your dreams come true
~~Your fan forever
This. This song is literally the relationship I had with my ex-queer platonic partner. He put me through so much trauma to make himself feel better. He dragged me so far down, and refused to help himself. I showed him my love, and he sucked it all out of me like a parasite.
He doesn’t want to help himself, he just wanted someone to hold his hand through it. He didn’t want to change for himself.
Having to talk him out of suicide nearly every fucking week drained me. And the fact he made me feel bad for my burn out from him and made me isolate myself from other friends because he was mad I didn’t want to spend time with him, it took such a heavy toll on me that I had to complete cut him out and jump ship. Everyone who knew him jumped ship with me.
I spiral due to the things he did to me. I’m just glad I was finally able to make the nightmare I mistook as a dream end.
I like the choice of words when referring to the person at hand- "''Cause your mind is a cage", "So wrapped up in your pain", "Save yourself". It's acknowledging that the person is in pain, while also acknowledging that the person singing matters, too.
the one dislike did it on accident through tears-
Oh ec mathed
How can you not love her. I cant help but adore Beth's music, ever since the first time I heard warrior nightcore. Such a beautiful artist and I hope she gets everything she wants out of her life since she has helped so many people. Love you!!
I heard Monster which got me into her music.
wait I love how the lyrics fade in and fade out and how they have a ripple water like effect. also I freaking love this song like all ur others songs💙
Aaaand now I'm thinking of Lucifer Morningstar and my fan fiction I write
Holy crap your right!!
@@corineetter9830 lol. I mean, I've never published any of my work because it involves an OC character I created but this is definitely a song that applies to Lucifer Morningstar. And/or John Constantine now that I think about it.
@@ArizonaAngelEyes yup. He always blames other people! Never his own stupid mistakes! Lol
@@corineetter9830 lol. Which one, John or Lucifer?
@@ArizonaAngelEyes lucifer of course.
All your music is beautiful and so full of meaning! I feel the emotion in every piece. Each piece is like a little story. I love it.
Jumer
people who disliked this clearly are deaf
Jumber man
Warrior cats?!
@@honeyfire2986 what?
I knew I would love this song.. it would made me sad when the melody pulls back some memories in the back of my head but it's also comforting me in its own way 💜
*Who else is reminded of their parents, guardians, parental figures, etc. when they hear this beautiful, comforting message?*
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I am, but not in a good way
when you relate so much to a song it brings back that relief of being free from a toxic friendship
If only I had the courage to tell her this before she drowned me so deep that I couldn’t get out on my own for what she now tells me was all a lie
For me this song is about My mom controlling me like I'm her puppet, 4 more years then I'm off to college and I'm gonna cut all tie off from her and my dad
Just sent this to my mom... Things are a bit difficult between her and someone else....
This unfortunately is really dead on about my relationship with my mother 😔
Same
Haven't spoken to mine in nearly 2 years now. She raised me to be her emotional support animal.
The message of this song along with the water imagery, reminds me sooo much of 'War' by Icon for Hire
"I can't keep you above water/I can't drag your soul to shore" is just one of the similar lyrics. Go give it a listen
Icon for Hire is really underrated.
They are awesome.
Cool that you are plugging them :)
"Save yourself and finally let me breathe." - That line right there can really sum up what it's like being the significant other of someone with severe depression/personality disorder/other mental illness. As much as you might love them, it can get really draining being their rock so often, to the point they end up becoming a psychic vampire and draining all your emotional/mental energy. And then that's when the resentment starts to build, and then you feel awful for resenting them. But eventually the resentment and exhaustion builds up over time that it overpowers the guilt and even the love for your partner, and you just want to be free of what is now a huge burden instead of a healthy, loving relationship.
This song definitely reminds me of my relationship with my boyfriend..
Aww I’m sorry to hear that hope you have a good rest of your life♥️
8 months later and I still listen to this song so much. This song remind me of how toxic relationships are, but mostly how it makes the abused one feel like less and how they feel like they're drowning in their thoughts and emotions while trying to push away.
Wow...
Another beautiful, heartbreaking song for me to adore ❤
Thank you Beth!
I love this and Trenches. It really seems as if you wrote both songs about me and my ex. You have a gift. Thank you.
Girls please listen to the song if you’re struggling and you’re young and you’re trining to save a man. Where are you may be able to but trust me picking up anytime to the strongest woman to the most independent woman to the woman that said no never me. Especially to the women who have a lot of empathy walk away at the first sign please I’m not saying this out of bitterness I actually hope to help some people Sunday with what I experienced as I was say that there was a 99.9% chance did I ever thought I’d be in such a position we can be partners we can be there for people we love unconditionally. We Mary for better or worse but there are certain people out there that will destroy you it’ll be too late before you know it unless you take that first red flag and look at it really good and hard and if there’s another run as fast as you can please so many stories I see on here with that young girls that are crying over men and I get it youth is wasted on the young we all did it funny thing is of course I cried over a man but I never ever would think anyone could do the things that certain people can do to another human being and get away with know your worth even if it’s the worst time in your life don’t settle find another way because when you’re in quicksand if you don’t have someone to pull you out people well tell you they love you as you’re thinking I’m not bitter. I believe I made it out of this to get the things that are really important to me in life true love, happiness, a partner and to be able to see all those things in the person I give myself to and I know I’ll find it and some don’t make it out alive and that’s not being dramatic so please be your own savior for your children and Savior don’t be a man’s unless he deserves it. And that takes very long time turn let him be yours first let him prove himself and then give them your world when he’s worthy good luck ladies take this as me just trying to help with my experience which is not limited to this maybe that’s why it didn’t break me and I can move on
I think this can apply to anybody with anybody.
simply beautiful just like you Beth, mesmerizing and heavenly
Commenting for the YT algorithm, because everyone deserves to hear this beautiful song
my last ex was manipulative and only cared about herself and her own feelings despite the fact that i was hurting badly too that day. she blamed everything on me and called me manipulative when i just wanted her to listen to me. everything was about her, about how she was feeling and she just kept invalidating my own feelings. i'm done being controlled by her and i'm done being afraid of her.
When I listen to this song I think about the relationship that I have with my family
We aren't the best
And I'm keeping them okay meaning I have to act defensive when someone questions us
I hate it
And I wish they could see that
When I hear this song, I think about the Fifty Shades series. That series might've been good (though poorly written) if at the end of it all, she said the lyrics of this song to him and dumped his ass.
You're such a wonderful poet... I'm hoping to be a singer/songwriter someday, and every time I listen to your music... It's a poem put to music. You have the writing talent of Sara Barellis... Your songwriting skills are incredible. You don't even know how much I admire your style
This is so amazing Beth! I love your music 😊
This is beautifull❤❤
Nice!
Holy f*ck the flashbacks this song brought, it was like reliving my past relationship. I wish this song existed back then, maybe it would make me realize all the stuff sooner.
Homework : I am not your savior I am your nightmare
Ha so true I would say that to anything I hate including Covid
This is my favorite song of yours!!! Then again, every time I listen to a new song you make, it becomes my new favorite! They are ALL SO AMAZING!!
I feel like this song was written for my ex boyfriend and me. He's a narcissist and he'd been feeding his traumas off of my traumas for more than 10 years. His lies became my only truth to the point that I couldn't tell what was real from what wasn't and I started to believe that I was crazy.
I'm happy you're free now, I bet you're a queen, own it!
@@madhatter4129 I am ❤️ It's not easy, but I'm a fighter, nothing will stop me ❤️
Okay, I must comment. Many of your songs work great for explaining the emotions and thoughts and personalities of my written characters. But this one is personal. In the last days of our marriage, my ex got himself into a lot of trouble and, from jail, wrote me a letter asking me to 'help him' be a better person. My letter back was a reminder that I had been trying to help him for the last 10 of our 15 year marriage. But he only wanted to nod his head, say he'd change, and then become worse than he was before my offered hand.
Sometimes, Ms. Crowley, you speak directly to *me*. And this story reminded me of the relief I felt when I finally told him he'd have to save himself, or not, because the divorce was pending and I was no longer obligated to try to lead, direct, or bleed for him.
This gives me emma swan from ouat vibes
From Emma to who? It's like.... The opposite to how she feels about Killian (except when she dates a monkey)
I guess that’s true, but I meant more the obvious thing about her denying being the savior during the first couple seasons. Also a bit about what Neal and August we’re trying to convince her back then
@@ashleev2319 yeah. That's completely true. I get Lily vibes from Harry Potter. That's how she might have seen Severus.
Me too...I mean, she did deny being the savior in the beginning, Henry struggled like crazy to convince her. Regina is my favorite, though.
Ever since I heard warrior, I just love your songs!!! 💕💕💕 ur so amazing, please keep this up forever!!! I love u! 💞
that's the first one i heard too!!
Beautiful!!!
Our only Savior is Jesus Christ🙏🏻
there is one problem in this song
it ends
that can be fixed *Puts it on loop *
First comment ♥️
I clicked the like button so fast 😅
You just explained my ex narcissist, I had to finally cut ✂️ the soul tie and run, I am not qualified to save her, she needs Jesus
When i heard this song, i must think of Feyre and their Relationship with Tamlin from A court of Thorns and Roses by Sarah J. Maas. Its maybe not exactly the same but they have a similar relationship, i think.
This is for my past a.k.a boyfriend he said but it is not the same he drown me and my family. It becomes toxic relationships and I am not sacrificing myself for him because it ruins us.
You are amazing the feeling of song always hits me
Already can tell I’ll love it 😍😍😍
Beautiful song what inspired this song
Brilliant love your music love this its so comforting 💗💞
I love this song👏💛
This woman understands narcissists!
As we approach another Mother’s Day, here’s to you Grandma! I can’t save you. I can’t save my mom, whom you also destroyed. I’m done trying to help either one of you.
Sigue creando música, eres una de las mejores cantantes que he escuchado. 👑💜
This perfectly sets the tone for something im writing called funny enough, non savior
A book, album, or song?
This song reminds me of my mom. She's horrible to me and I'm only 15. I can't wait to leave
Basically what I'm trying to say is Comfort over fashion someone else's intentions for my life no room for that especially due to the tears I've cried in from my eyes not from theirs the pain I've felt has been from my emotions not their heart my injuries are mine to deal they're making them issues that's not my problem to solve correcting me could only be done by the master of Masters cuz he's only one that knows the lessons I've learned
I didnt wait for him to save himself... He taught me to save myself...so he can sink or swim...im not letting him or anyone else pull me down... toxic needy jealous competitive angry spirited people are all around us..everyone is not our assignment...im learning just to worry about me. I dont have children so its just me that i need to be trying to save ..im not letting people disturb my peace because they are in pieces💯💯guys we arent their saviors. If they can't save themselves its because they dont want to...because noone can help me like i can
Amazing lyrics Woww❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ . I wanna write pieces like this tooo.
Your lyrics are so simple put powerful. I heard your song warrior some years back . I should have come back sooner. ❤️❤️❤️
This some feels like a punch in the gut, but one i needed.
Me and my best friend have been is a kinda toxic relationship for awhile and though im trying my mental health has been a complete pile of burning trash for years now and for a time there she kinda became my therapist, witch ISNT good at all. Were working through it now after a 3 month scare where she did exactly what this song says and put herself first.
This feels like a song about us from her end, and though it hurts like a bitch im happy i figured it out and am working through it all without dragging her down with me. Its been a long road, and it will be ALOT longer but its good to realize how far you've come!
She's SO underrated! Beth crowley deserves more followers
I love your music Beth I sing it to my baby niece and it seems to calm her when she’s fussing. I’ve sang all my life my family being very Musial but I never had the guts to sing on TH-cam like you do keep it up
I've been making that statement for many years like 30 years I've been saying I'm not their savior although I do care I cannot go on being pulled down without a life
You know I'm a mother-of-two Unfortunately they said that I was mentally unstable and so I lost my kids trust and respect it's so I just have to respect that my kids have their own way of dealing with things I just hope that they remember that I love them no matter what anybody says and no matter what situation or emotional stage or state I mean I would die for them and the only ones keeping me away from them if their own doubts because I'm still the mother that they know not the not the one the haters made me out to be being strict is not being a control freak I can actually say that I understand somewhat most of the comments and excuse my grammar I will pray for your spirits and your Souls to understand each other and give you the sense the strength you give free will you will feel so much better when you give it it's worse it's easier said than done I know but life is too damn short to hold onto resentment of any kind it's not worth it but if someone hurts you let them know and if it's the parents well let us know that we are f****** up Excuse my Language we we can't be better parents if we don't know the problem but not by what others expect but by those that were actually hurting don't be fooled by substance abuse or substance of that that's just the devil's lie could justify societies bulshit to control and group just to make themself sophisticated and yada yada yada when in fact they walk your feet with your shoes on they would have whipped and cried and probably not make it a block that's no b******* I could almost bet you I'm just saying sometimes we think we know it all and was just
This song ... For me ... It is about the woman who gave birth to me 🥺😔💔
Thank you Beth ❤️ I needed this
It really helps me today. Thank you, Beth!
i got a heart attack when i read "crowley" and then the lyrics "i see angels&demons" gave me another heart attack.
Same lmaoo
I'm Not A Big Writer but i draw alot every chance i get to draw i do it and in the backround i play some of beth crowley's songs
I can't explain how much this song speaks to me. Thank you💙
Thank you so much for this.
This song sounds exactly like my story's protagonist talking about/to his father...
Anyone cried listening to this song? Because i did...
Every friggen song by her... amazing. Heading into the 4th time listening to it already.
I have related to this on a ridiculous level.. Maybe instead of changing the one you are with, try changing the one you are with.. random thought of mine....
Praying for all of you. You are good. You are important. You are enough. God loves you. And to you, complete stranger~I believe in you. Please don't give up..
I associate this with an old friend of mine and myself because I believed a girl in the same friend group named Priscilla without proof over my elementary best friend. I'm not really friends with either anymore, I think. I guess it was bound to happen sooner or later.
Ooo someone got hurt, and now doesn't trust, remember the Mirror people, we've ALL gotta look after ourselves, only then can we truly give of ourselves.
❤🌞🙏🏼🐎
Hearing this song (aside from it being a masterpiece) always makes me feel conflicted. On the one hand I blame my parents, the never ending arguments at home and especially my mother who probably has depression for my own mental state, but.
I feel like I am more akin to the lyrical you than the lyrical I somehow. I myself have had thoughts that go into the direction. Do I really want them to understand or do I want to inflict the same pain unto those that I blame even knowing it does nothing good? I am actually scared of getting better to some extend and I am am terrified of changing behavioural patterns that might be unhealthy coping mechanisms because that's basically all I cling to right now. I kind of just want someone to somehow magic my problems away without having to do anything for it. I am incredibly attention hungry and egocentric at times and always feel guilty for it as well which just makes it worse especially when I'm so at war with myself that I react unreasonably to the tiniest things. I don't manage to properly upkeep relationships (platonic) with other people. I kind of want to date someone but at the same time not because I feel like I'd only hurt them exactly how the song describes it (not that I think that way because of the song mind you, it just fits really well).
It just... sucks.
I'm to far gone I don't need a savior hell is all I got left my heaven gave up on me so I set her free this place has become my home a hell I have not none I have always been alone it where I belong 💚😶
Actually I think that relationship with someone with problems ( no matter which kind of it) is like swimming into the swimming pool. If you'll see someone is drowning,you may try to give them a help. But remember if you're not sure how to help that person would take you with him/her. Sometimes it's better to ask someone else for help,who could actually help and see everything in different way.
We try hard to be saviors but as I once heard from firefighter: "Heroes are just madmen, who have a lot of luck and survived. If they're not,we call them idiots".
Who is listening to Beth's songs one after another?
meeeeee
I was in a relationship a while back, where he was always coming to me whenever he was feeling horrible and pinned everything on me. I was a mess and was slowly drowning while trying to keep him above water. He never reached out to help me
man i was just tryna listen to some top-notch beth and frickin PURPLE MATTRESSES HAD TO JUMP IN LIKE COME ON MAN
Absolutely Truth song, love this so much. Beautifully written song
There is a difference between helping someone and letting them drop all their problems on you…
You are an absolutely amazing song writer & singer. I've never heard such REAL music that touched me the way your music has. You are truly gifted!
Nobody should ever sacrifice thierselves if thiers not love it takes two