Honestly, not only did I not take care of myself mentally and emotionally in the relationship I was in, I also stopped taking care of myself physically. I struggled often to get myself to even shower. The stage I’m in, is using my anger as fuel and motivation to take care of myself physically like I never have before. I exercise regularly now, shower at least every other day, and I give my body the love and respect it deserves. All fueled by anger.
I had nobody. That is why he 'chose' me and trapped me. He is abusing someone else now and thinks that by ignoring me he is hurting me. I'm not dumb. I watched him set up a new narrative and flipped the script on him. I feel awful for having to be covert and manipulative towards another human being but he is dangerous and does not deserve my respect. I hope his new woman finds her anger and flattens him. That man needs to be locked away in a corrections facility.
It sounds like you’ve been through a lot and had to make difficult choices to protect yourself. How are you focusing on your own healing and well-being now?
I quit drinking one year and three months ago. I leaned into smoking Mary Jane but my guts did not react well. Canibaniod hyperemesis syndrome. I'm just trying to eat enough every day now while only sleeping maybe 3 to 4 hours at a time. I can't seem to communicate the details of the abuse to any therapist I meet so I'm writing the things he has done and said to me on sketchbook paper in comic book speech bubbles. This has helped since maybe it will lead to being believed and that a therapist will grasp just how dire it is that I get proper care and support.
Honestly, not only did I not take care of myself mentally and emotionally in the relationship I was in, I also stopped taking care of myself physically. I struggled often to get myself to even shower. The stage I’m in, is using my anger as fuel and motivation to take care of myself physically like I never have before. I exercise regularly now, shower at least every other day, and I give my body the love and respect it deserves. All fueled by anger.
Love this ❤️
And you're right - sometimes you have to start by taking care of yourself physically ❤️🩹
Anger is the greatest notification for us to act on our compassion ❤ 💯!!!
❤this!
@ I’ve sorted through a whole lot of it (anger) to get to this point! 🥰👍
I had nobody. That is why he 'chose' me and trapped me. He is abusing someone else now and thinks that by ignoring me he is hurting me. I'm not dumb. I watched him set up a new narrative and flipped the script on him. I feel awful for having to be covert and manipulative towards another human being but he is dangerous and does not deserve my respect. I hope his new woman finds her anger and flattens him. That man needs to be locked away in a corrections facility.
It sounds like you’ve been through a lot and had to make difficult choices to protect yourself. How are you focusing on your own healing and well-being now?
I quit drinking one year and three months ago. I leaned into smoking Mary Jane but my guts did not react well. Canibaniod hyperemesis syndrome. I'm just trying to eat enough every day now while only sleeping maybe 3 to 4 hours at a time. I can't seem to communicate the details of the abuse to any therapist I meet so I'm writing the things he has done and said to me on sketchbook paper in comic book speech bubbles. This has helped since maybe it will lead to being believed and that a therapist will grasp just how dire it is that I get proper care and support.
@ hope you get what you need - baby steps!
Great vid
@@dommccarthymusic thank you - glad you enjoyed it 🙏
Thank you Dr. Ruth Harpur 🙏🪷
@@paulapereira2855 you're welcome and thank you commenting 🙏