Needing help or time IS NOT WEAKNESS!. It took me 18 months of therapy to believe that and I often must remind myself that it’s true. I look forward to the return of your heady-er content at a time when I too have the bandwidth to consume it. It is a crazy busy time of year and we’d all do well to give ourselves GRACE to just be where we are. Thanks for always sharing when you owe me nothing. I appreciate you and your work.
Oh Hannah, girl, you are doing just great. First off all, your hair is BOMB ! I love it, it makes me want to overcome my forever long fear of the hairdresser and get something done ! Second of all, I look forward to you receiving the Paloma Wool sweater, everything she does is amazing and I love seeing her brand get support outside of Europe ! Finally, and most importantly, you dont owe us anything, dear. You do you, life gets in the way, as it does, and you really don't have to account for your decisions to us, at least I don't think you do, ever. We are lucky for your presence here and will take what you can give. If it starts to keep you up at night, well... it's not worth it. You put so much work into it, I truly want it to bring you joy. Anyways. Rant over. Love you, love your channel, Sending you loads of positive vibes 💓
Hannah, “please remember to take extra good care of yourself so you can be the most effective version of yourself as you do your work in the world”. Maybe not making these “spicy” videos is what it means to take extra good care of yourself right now. You’re certainly not letting any of us down!❤️ Also, on an unrelated note, you’re seriously inspiring me to cut my hair haha!
This is such an interesting video Hannah - I’m not sure if this is useful for me to say as I don’t know you, but might be an interesting point for discussion. Do you think the way you describe beating yourself up about not meeting all your project goals you set for yourself is linked in to a wider worldview you have about work? From watching your videos for a while now I have always felt that we have quite different views about work. For example, in your outro, the idea that it is important to take good care of oneself /so that/ you can be effective at your work sits in contrast to my own personal view on why taking care of oneself is important, which is essentially that each person has an innate value separate from what they can produce or achieve, and deserves to be as healthy and happy as they can be as an end in itself. I’m not saying that you don’t think that, but your outro has always inspired a complex reaction in me for this reason. I’ve also found it interesting how the opportunity for women to work unimpeded seems to be a major focus of your feminism. I suppose I hope you remember to take extra good care of yourself full stop, and that you don’t feel self care is only justified as a means to an end to allow yourself to pour out more of yourself into projects. I apologise if that seems too directive from a stranger on the internet, but I really enjoy how you examine things that other people have said in videos etc, for example as you did in your holy grail video, so I hope it is okay for me to say. I hope you feel proud of how much you have achieved with your TH-cam channel, and able to freely make choices about what and how often to post.
awesomelyizzy I know this comment was for Hannah, but I just want to say thank you so much for offering this perspective. I’ve spent a large portion of my life struggling to disentangle my idea of self-worth from my levels of productivity. I am still working on finding ways to feel worthy outside of the work I can do, and your comment helped put that into words I’ve struggled to find for so long. It was something I needed to see. Also, I thought your analysis of the perspective Hannah projects on her channel was thoughtful and valuable. Thank you so much for sharing!
I agree Genie J , as a wife and mother with no paycheck of my own, I consider my "work" to include the mundane, cooking, cleaning, etc..., but more importantly to nurture, teach, and enrich others lives :)
Genie J and nosmallwonder.etsy.com I definitely agree with you both about defining work more broadly, and I agree that that seems to be how Hannah defines it too. I still think it’s important to take care of ourselves for ourselves and find self worth outside of all of these kinds of work though. For example, nosmallwonder, the work you do in raising your children is vital and so valuable, but personally I believe that you shouldn’t only take good care of yourself so that you can nurture your children, but because you yourself are important and deserve to be as happy and healthy as possible.
I get the heebie jeebies everytime Hannah starts her sign-off catch phrase and have to rush to mute or stop the video because it just rubs me the wrong way so much. It almost sounds vaguely threatening and robotic - be the *most effective* version of yourself so you can do *more work*. A lovely video could be Hannah talking through alternate coping/caring mechanisms where they are not seen as optimizing efficiency, but improving wellbeing.
@@Ohtherain I do know what you mean - although I have less of a strong reaction myself it is a phrase that doesn't sit well with me. I wonder if it may be in part a culture clash for me, because unlike Hannah I'm not American.
You're not weak, you're human. I know I personally couldn't take the spicy (how diplomatic!) commentary and I respect your need to recharge before taking these topics on. We'll be here when you're ready, and we enjoy the content you do put out 💜.
Hannah!!! The only true promise you ever made to all of us, was that you didn't know where your projects were going to take you, but that you would bring us along for the ride. You have delivered above and beyond by always being your honest, vulnerable, funny, beautiful self. (As an aside, I have a background in corporate supply chain inclusion and sustainability, so had some sense that you might have hit some challenges that required a pause and re-plotting.) I am constantly grateful for what you share with all of us. Keep taking extra good care of yourself. (The hair is gorgeous, btw.)
thank you, Ann! I feel the same (about having been clear that I didn't know where my projects would take me), but that is one of the main things that my most vocal critics seem to miss. So it means a lot to me to hear you say it in this comment
Wow, something you said got me to thinking about what a gendered issue overspending really is. Women are encouraged to overspend at every turn, yet we are also the butt of many jokes for falling for that encouragement. The more we can back away from those ruts, the more free we are to make choices that support our own goals/purpose.
this is SO true. Corporations are specifically trying to disempower WOMEN by making us feel like we have to spend our money to be better women. It's a feminist issue!
Yes X10000000! I was just thinking this last night before seeing this video. It’s a system that is stacked against us. It’s very easy for women to get stuck in the shopping trap. We are already set up to make less, and yet we are expected to always think we need to improve our image and our appearance. I’m so tired of it. It’s finally gotten to the point where it makes me feel sick and I feel like the only way to fight it is a no buy year. 💛
Remember comparison is the thief of joy. Other people have different experiences and different capabilities at different times and that’s ok. Just do what you can when you can.
I really appreciate you talking about wanting to take on so many things and and feeling like you cannot do everything to the best of your abilities. I feel like part of being a creative person means that there are always new projects we want to start, but to do everything with the quality we want is just not realistic. I’m learning how to concentrate my efforts, and go for depth instead of width. And not judging myself if I cannot do eeeeverything! It’s definitely a new change for me! Good luck and sending happy creative vibes ~
“It looks more polished than it is. For instance I’m not wearing any pants right now.” 😂 😂 😂. That’s a perfect way to end your video - with laughter and something very real.
I don't know if this helps or not, but I started a new business this year and one thing I've learned (haha learned okay AM LEARNING) is that I don't have to do everything every day. And generally speaking, in my head if nowhere else, I am always doing everything every day unless I actively stop and just do one thing. So I have a suggestion for your unmade videos. Make them in parts. Maybe don't even post them in parts (or do, just not extensively planned parts). But do the part you can make today (logistically, emotionally) and make just that part. On camera, on paper, for literally five minutes, wherever you make stuff. Not all the things. One thing. Take extra good care of yourself, Hannah! No one wants you miserable from putting pressure on yourself. You're amazing in every way and it's okay to give yourself credit for taking the tiny bites you *can* chew instead of agonizing over the pile of stuff you can't. You already know this of course, but at least for me in this stage, I find I need to give myself daily (sometimes hourly) reminders 🙈
It’s winter, it’s cold, it’s dark in the morning. Don’t beat yourself up. You are doing fab 🤸🏼♀️. You are human. 😘 the fact you know all this is fantastic.
Hannah Louise Poston! Not that this has anything to do with anything, but I just read your Sadie and Joe essay and died. My cat, Miss Julie Baby is currently typing this and hopes I shall revive soon.
It's an amazing essay, it made me cry! It's the first essay of hers that I read and I immediately went to her website to read the rest of her essays and poems. She's a great writer.
Aw, thank you for reading my work, Courtney! Sadie's ego has never recovered from her 15 minutes of fame back when that essay was published :) She still thinks she's the most noteworthy cat in literature.
Dear Hannah, I am new to your Chanel, and I just have to say thank you. You have been such an inspiration to me as I prepare for my no but year. I’ve know for sometime that I had to change my spending habits, but every year I’d still shop, “just one more bag, these shoes are on sale, I’f I had another coat...” somehow those items would make me feel complete, just this one more thing. I can say at age 40, I have bought everything. I have literally gone through ever brand, and sparkly thing, and it’s somehow it’s never enough. I do love fashion and enjoy getting dressed, but it’s gotten to the point of an addiction, rather than a joy my life. Your videos have said some really helpful things that have really woken me up. I don’t say this lightly, but I didn’t grow up with money, and I grew up with someone who was both physically abusive and verbally abusive. That family member has long been out of my life, but that need to show the world I am a good/fancy/wealthy person through my wardrobe (after being a kid being told every day I was horrible) has made me feel worse than better. I have a husband and two beautiful sons now, and we live in a home filled with love and peace. As a kid I could never even imagine what it would be to grow up and not have someone screaming at you all the time... so why do I choose to spend my free time shopping, when I have everything I need? Anyway, it makes me feel sick to not appreciate what I have in my life. I need to use this year to let go of the past. It’s done. I can’t change anything that happened before, but I am in complete control of today, so why not do better? Last year I took on my physical health and I had great success. I have worked to de clutter our home, and it’s been great. But I couldn’t tackle my spending habits, or my closet. But after make slow changes in the other areas, and trust me, those changes although small and slow, were a lot of work, I don’t want them to be all for nothing. I feel so guilty cleaning out my closet and looking at all the time and money I have wasted on these things. I have officially unfollowed every TH-cam Chanel and Instagram page of people in the “lux” community. I realized that was a big trigger for me and I have been easily influenced in what others have. It’s been three weeks since I stopped looking at all those accounts, and I can’t believe how much better I feel. I know this year isn’t going to be easy, but watching your journey has honestly been exactly what I need to hear right now, and I just had to say thank you. I don’t really have friends in my real life I can share this journey with yet. Honestly I am embarrassed to admit how bad my shopping has gotten, so I decided to type this comment as a safer way to start. Once I get through my first month, I am going to make myself share what I am working on this year. So thank you and congratulations on your journey, I hope you know your success is amazing. Best💛
I wonder now i've seen you talk about fashion if you've ever sewn anything super editorial for yourself? I feel like when i get a sewing machine i'll immediately try to make something weird and cool for myself. Or do you prefer to leave work at work and just do tango dresses? I hope you'll do some kind of a sewing project on camera, i'm super curious about that tbh
And i want to say that i absolutely adore your content but i'm really sorry that it weighs so heavy on you at this moment. Please take your time and take care of yourself, you are a strong person going through a very transformative time in public and that must be so hard. You are so very honest and open and i wish you strength to not let all the nastiness to get to you from the other side 💛✨
I do sew things for myself once in a while, but my skill set is pretty limited to tango clothes, so it doesn't cover most of the streetwear I yearn for :)
@@HannahLouisePoston well if you'll ever want to make anything i'd love to see! Your tango clothes are absolutely beautiful btw, made me wish i was a dancer haha
Dear Hannah, I'd watch any and all of your videos, no matter what type of content you choose to publish. Don't feel the pressure to hold yourself up to the same incredibly high standard artificially; to you, quality content comes naturally. Fashion or reckoning videos is not trash content, and although your more serious videos are truly insightful, genuine, relatable and inspiring, there's plenty of room in our subscriptions box for all the different things you feel like producing at any given time. I like you and your mind, I enjoy listening to the way you view things, whether that's lip gloss or a book of poetry, because you are very well equipped to add depth to traditionally "shallow" topics. Take all the time you need so you never stop enjoying this, so it doesn't become a burden and a chore. Your deeper videos are almost even more precious when they're fewer and further between - not that I wouldn't enjoy gobbling them down back to back, but I'd be equally grateful for sporadic droplets of your wisdom, since you being a normal human being with a finite amount of energy means I can't stand under the waterfall all the time. Take care of yourself, have some regular fun outside of this platform and be well! xx
Trolls are the primary reason I've opted out of a social media presence. I think you are so brave...and tolerant...to share your creativity and honesty with this world in this way.
“Nobody is as concerned about it as I am.” Truer words have never been spoken. I love the content you put out, and haven’t missed the ethics series at all.
yes, we stan cultivating a healthy love for beautiful things while remaining critical of the forces that want us to overspend!! we also stan someone who is not ready to engage with trolls because honestly, same. i am sensitive, i always will be. part of me wants to make a youtube channel but i would just want to be very small so nobody could be mean to me on the internet 😅 also your hair is amazing. also - i echo every single comment saying please don't hold yourself to such an unattainable standard with the more spicy or mentally taxing videos! we are here for you, and whatever you have to post ❤️
Oh Hannah, you’ll never know how much I can relate to your emotions in so many ways. I almost commented on your last but one video to the effect of how I anticipated almost everything you said because it resonates so much with me and my own feelings. As someone who’s also currently in therapy, who’s also very self aware, who’s also very hard on herself I’m going to give you the piece of advice I should really take myself - be kind to yourself my lovely 😊
Be kind to yourself Hannah. You are a force for good in this strange TH-cam world, and I for one appreciate your insights and they way you share yourself so much. I hope you get all the hugs and love you need to replenish your emotional batteries. ❤️
I literally just paused the video to tell you that the "strongest" and most badass thing you can do is to recognize when doing something currently just is not the best and healthiest thing for you and then acting in accordance with that. I know you love your fellow youtube ladies, but the answer for what is right for you to do right now does not come from what they are or are not doing, I comes from inside you, so please just trust yourself on this. Much love all the way from Copenhagen 😘
I’m not sure what you ran into while researching ethical consumerism (I’m sure you’ll tell us when you are ready), but don’t feel bad for not being able to finish the project. Unfortunately, ethical consumption is a huge, nebulous thing with so many pitfalls... entire organizations struggle with what you set out to do. The fact that you tried is great and the fact that you were honest with yourself enough to stop when you needed to is great too. Thanks for all you do and take care of yourself
She gushed about and promoted Lemonhead L.A., who are huge Trump supporters, just weeks after condemning Cover F.X. for their association with Nudestix, who are owned by Canadian sisters who like Trump. That’s when the videos stopped and why she hasn’t mentioned them on her channel since.
STOP IT! Why beat yourself up because you don’t want to expose yourself to be beaten up by strangers? Take care of yourself. You do not need to apologize or explain anything to us. We are watching whatever you are putting up and loving it.
5:32 Preach!!! Yes!!! Scream long and loud ...we MUST be in control of our own finances, decisions and destinies. Do NOT rely on companies to care about our futures or our wellbeing. Their entire existence relies on them convincing us to give them OUR money. Stay strong and determined 💪 💪💪👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼 Much love & respect Hannah X 💕💕💕
You’re not letting anyone down! It’s difficult when you’re taking on a lot and I really respect you for being able to know your own limitations. Just because you don’t feel like you can take on something now doesn’t mean you’ll feel that way forever, it’s a good thing to take your time especially if you feel a little spread thin at the moment. I hope you get some time to chill soon! Xxx
Hannah it saddens me that you feel you have to explain and be accountable to us and maybe some of the more outspoken negative Nancys out there. While I agree the hard hitting videos that you put out with so much rawness and vulnerability are the ones that touch and inspire me the most, I am happy to see any kind of content from you. It is so human to want to avoid being criticized by judgy strangers on the internet, it’s not weak at all. You do what you’re comfortable with and when. The vast majority of us will ask nothing and simply appreciate whatever you have to give ❤️❤️❤️
You don't owe us anything, Hannah: Remember that we are watching your videos by choice. We enjoy taking this journey with you, and your temporary moments of discouragement are simply part of the whole process. What is so relevant about your channel is that you address those moments as you go through them, and therefore help us to address ours. Whether or not you end up doing all the things that you planned on doing is not the end goal here. The real goal - the thing that really matters, and the actual reason why so many of us stick to your channel - is the beautiful and honest reflexion behind of it all. That's all you need to understand to free yourself from the pressure
Sorry, have to leave a second comment just to say that your content is of the highest quality ALWAYS, Hannah. You are the only TH-camr who I make sure I never miss a SINGLE video. I don’t always watch them right away, but when I’m back in the mood for TH-cam, it’s like “okay, time to catch up on my Hannah videos.” You are one of two channels on TH-cam (the other being Jen Luvs Reviews) that I actually have the notification bell on so I never miss an upload. Your content-from the silliest little ASMR video to the heaviest “How my no-buy year changed X” video-is just that damn good. And this won’t mean much to you because you don’t know us, but I also just want to share that you’re also one of the only beauty TH-camrs even my boyfriend enjoys watching. He’ll watch makeup videos with me occasionally just to spend time with me on something I’m interested in, and you are by far his favorite. He’s a snob who hates everyone (I say this lovingly!) so I’m only sharing this because it’s a compliment when I say your content is so good, even my boyfriend enjoys it. So I don’t think you owe us any apologies. You’re awesome for continuing to put out great content, and while it was nice to get a status update on the topics that kinda disappeared from your channel, it has had no effect of my enjoyment of your wonderful channel! So yeah. You’re amazing and I appreciate all you do. I’ll stop bombarding you with impassioned rants of encouragement now. Much love!
I’m so so appreciative of this video. I want to say that, I get it. I often haven’t been watching the heavier videos from any of my favorite creators because life is so busy and draining at the moment that I also don’t have the bandwidth. I appreciate that lighter videos have popped up here because it’s a little reprieve. I know that haters will pop up when you do share those videos but I will always always always appreciate your honesty and candor on your channel. It means the world and I hope that things become so much lighter for you soon.
there'is no reason tp be concerned, hannah. i love every video of you. by the way i want to tell you, that you changed my way of thinking about buying things and i am so thankful. 😊
Ooooh when you said that you wake up in the middle of the night thinking that you have let us down I really felt how much you care about your channel and about your subscribers! 😢💓 I can't speak for everyone, but I can speak for myself and you haven't let me down at all! I enjoyed your content so much this year (last year too) and I always look forward to your videos, you are doing great for me!
Hannah! You're fine. We're all fine. I've been stressed and I have months of accrued little things to get done et cetera, but studying takes precedence. It's fine. Deal with your life because it's what matters. This is just youtube.
Hannah this is the first time I have ever used my google account to comment on any YT video EVER. I know, weird. I found you through a couple of other YT ladies that mentioned you (I think from poor memory it was @ASmallWardrobe & @TFD & @TarableDecisions), anyways, I've been on your journey for about a year, & whilst I don't get seriously into the makeup up stuff, its just not me, I've been so inspired by your journey, that you are prepared to be public about it, & the way you enunciate it to us. So you might step back, or your content has changed? BIG DEAL. I have absolutely no patience with ppl who are criticisive, mean, insulting, trolly, whatever in comments sections. Because IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT, SWITCH OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Do you tell your friend "oh I find you a bit boring now, your conversation has changed", do you email your favorite star & express your disinterest with the way they now live their life? Heck no, it would be rude and pretty vacuous. Criticism is just that - criticism, and it never, ever goes over well. Sometimes Im not that into a video a YTuber I like has put up, so I think nah & I skip over. I DON'T jump to; ok I'm going to respond to them & tell them exactly what I don't like. People change, every day, we learn, we grow, we find new interests, often we revisit old interests. Because you speak to us like we are friends, that's how I think of you.... so would I say criticising things to you? No. Would I be mean, spicy, hateful trolly, No. I wouldn't say that to my family, or my friends, & I certainly wouldn't essentially take out my keyboard & do it to a stranger, cause that would make me A, an arsehole and B, pretty friggin self righteous. The world will get to a better place, women will hopefully quickly get to a better place when we dial down the gossip, the need to comment, the need to judge, the need to....... We are the ones in charge of changing that behavior. You've inspired so many ppl with the journey you are on. Did you put yourself up as a guru & say do what I say, believe everything I say, I'm perfect." NO. It was the opposite, you told us you were an imperfect & therefore normal functioning human, & you talked about how you are trying to change that. Its gutsy, it's courageous & if ppl can't be happy for your growth, or change, or journey, hmmm I think that speaks to them, not you. If this is a social contract I think you have fufilled it, I don't think you ówe' anyone anything. What you do deserve is to put yourself first. To be respected because you are on this planet. And a big thank you for what you have given us. Big Hugs from Australia
*Hannah* You really inspired me to spend my $ wisely. Your beautiful blouse... Less is more My budget consists of (maybe more expensive) but very curated specific items I purchase
Thank you for giving so much of yourself to us! May your projects resolve successfully and may your your conscience be soothed. And may your days be merry and bright, and may all your Christmases be white 😄
Hannah, your videos have become a part of my routine that I look forward to weekly. You are so well-spoken and introspective, and you have a very important voice that I'm glad I get to hear.
I actually think it's pretty strong for you to to have the self awareness to realize that you can't handle the response to a serious topic right now and prioritize other projects until you come to a more stable crossroads in your life. Thanks for this update, you're fantastic.
Thank you for the discussion of self care ❤️ we all need to make space for ourselves that doesn’t necessarily include over-shopping. Key word “over.” I get a lot of joy from purchasing the item that I’ve been lusting over in the same way I get from taking an hour to walk in the woods with my dog.
1. I'm here for the love and support in this comments section. 2. You owe your audience nothing other than what you choose to give at any given moment. And that is all we want, too. 3. I never say this, I'm not generally a YTer stan or mega fan but I am legit sending you a virtual hug. You've been in a very challenging season and we all want you to take care of yourself as best as possible and if that means videos wait or get axed altogether, that's cool. 4. I love your hair, always have but especially now it's cool girl chic x infinity. The 47 hairs on my head are envious.
Unrelated to the content of this video (which as someone with a lot of anxiety, I relate to SO much), your sweater might be the sweater of my actual dreams. Anyway, sending you all the good vibes, babe. 🥰🥰
Comparison is the thief of joy. Try, dear heart, to not compare what you can do or handle with what others can do or handle. We're all on our own journeys, and trying to effectively do our own work in the world, and that means different things to different people. I look forward to your videos so much and your videos bring so much joy and value to my world while reminding me that (1) I have work in the world to do and (2) that I need to take care of myself in order to do that work. You inspire me and entertain me and I wish there was more I could do to support and encourage you!
I'm not usually one to comment on videos, pretty much at all. However I felt I needed to, to throw some support your way! You have become one of my favourite You Tubers and your take on the beauty industry and shopping is so so refreshing to watch. Take some pressure off yourself, and know your channel is amazing. Also, thanks for encouraging me to pay closer attention to my grammar! haha :-)
You being able to say I can't take it right now is HUGE , it's shows so much maturity & understand of ones self to say that. Just because many people tackle hard subjects doesn't mean they are handling it well or not suffering from it in some way. I get what you're saying though because I am often the same way, I'm a very emotional person & it may be perceived "weak" when I don't want to partake in something. But it's because I know myself well & I want to choose my battles when I'm the strongest. Also I love the tones you have on today, everything. Nails, makeup, hair sweater, lovely! Your pantsless comment made me laugh.
You’re not weak at all ❤️ all in good time - sensitivity isn’t necessarily a bad thing I think, sometimes it’s something to be protected! Everything is at your pace, no sweat from us 💕
I hope you film a companion to your ranking of the things you bought this year. I really enjoyed that first video and would be interested in the ranking for the rest of the year or maybe a whole year ranking.
i cant wait for your update on corporate ethics. i was missing those videos from you. they always made me think and be more critical about consumerism.
your eye look is fire! love it! and also... take care of yourself! I have been super inspired by your videos, and treated myself to a very budget friendly metallic/shimmery/glimmery grungy eyeshadow pallet from Revolution a couple of days a go - AND IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY. Thank you!
Don't beat yourself up over what you wish happened. you're doing your best, and that's all anyone can ever ask of themselves or others. Like you said in one video, allow the consequences of your actions be the only consequences. That advice is genuinely so valuable! Just allow the fact that you let some videos get pushed aside be the ONLY stress you're going through! I am so proud of you for being financially strong during a time like this :) You have undergone such a tremendous change.
I feel like the people most vocal about “where is the video about...” are the ones that are going to be ANTI whatever comes out of your mouth. So many people looking for a brawl and can’t just take your thoughts and channel content, decide if they agree and choose if it’s worth their time or not. Keep on living your life!
Oh my gosh, this is so true! They're not anticipating something to spark a conversation between curious people in good faith, they're gunning for fuel for their weird little hobby of complaining about free content they could just as easily not be watching.
Hannah don't put all that pressure on yourself about having thick skin. Hate/spicy comments are always taking energy and IT'S OKAY if you're not ready for that because you have different things in your life. We understand, don't feel guilty ❤
I love your light and chatty videos! It's almost like having coffee with a very insightful and self-aware friend. I'm looking forward to seeing your new sweater (almost) as much as you are! Shopping is much more meaningful when you occasionally buy one special thing instead of getting a haul of stuff. Quantity makes things meaningless.
Good day - love waking up to your introspective thoughts! Knowing that there are other issues/concerns/problems out in the world (poverty, war, abuse, illness), does not make your issues/concerns/problems insignificant! We all have “our cross to bear” and they are fit to what we can handle and should not be compare to each other! Hope I made some sense. Your concerns are as real as anyone’s and to you might be huge while for someone else they might be minor. That does not mean they are minor... thanks for owning your feelings. And no you are not shallow you are realistic as to what is happening in your life! Stay healthy however (legally and healthy) you need to!
Your mental health is always the most important. If you aren’t in a place to put yourself out there and be vulnerable in a way that most of us just can’t understand, don’t feel obligated. This is ultimately your space to create, and people need to respect that.
Oh Hannah, it hurts my heart to see you so weighed down as you go through this rough patch. You could never be “less than” because all we want is for you to be authentically you. But I absolutely understand the feeling. Personally, the unwillingness to deal with trolls/negativity is exactly the reason why I could never be a TH-camr. I’m way too sensitive to deal with that 😑 I think it’s absolutely understandable and even admirable to be self-aware enough to know when your skin is feeling thinner than usual as a result of stress or any other circumstances. I hope you know that all so many of us want is for you take extra good care of yourself. I hope you have a better month. Sending love and positivity your way!
Hannah, it's sometimes really okay to be weak and not be strong, we can't always be bringing our A game! You got this, things always get better at some point ❤️
People taking notice of the ways in which your content has changed are not ‘trolling’ you. Almost every single comment about you on Reddit starts with, “I used to love her channel during her no buy year, but her content has changed, etc.” It’s not people hating just to hate, it’s subscribers of yours who feel like you’ve sacrificed quality for quantity and are morphing into the type of influencer that your channel used to be a respite from. Needing time to process things is normal and you should be able to do things on your own time, especially when you have other non-TH-cam related stuff going on, but dismissing the feelings of long time subscribers of yours as ‘hate’ or ‘trolling’ is just false. These are people who have followed you for a long time and are invested in your life and your journey and who see the ways in which you’ve dodged accountability. If you bit off more than you can chew, that’s understandable, but hiding it and not addressing it for like, seven months does real damage to viewers’ ability to take you seriously as someone who claims to want to be open and honest about all aspects of their shopping addiction journey. There’s a difference between valid critique and criticism and ‘hate’, and as you seek to grow your channel and morph into an influencer, I think it would make your life easier and your content better to learn the difference.
I know it's a bummer when a book series, TV show, youtube channel, etc. used to be Just Right for you and then shifts gears and isn't for you anymore. I've had many experiences with that, and the more you liked the thing at first, the harder it is when it changes. The thing to do is let it go, and if you spend any time talking to other people who feel the same way (longtime viewers, miss the old content), spend that time talking about new channels/shows/books that fill that role, or even just continuing the conversation you wanted to be having without a channel/videos to guide and prompt you. The thing * not * to do is "spend a lot of time watching and talking about the new content you don't like, feeling like each new video is something being taken away from you instead of something being offered to someone else."
@@evas4455 Of course, & keeping Hannah's humanity and presence here in the foreground is really important. I'm just trying to connect with the WHY of some people's intensely upset feelings about Hannah and her channel, in hopes that it'll help them process those feelings and do something more productive with them.
@@evas4455 Oh no, you're good! TH-cam's notification system can be so confusing sometimes with who it notifies about a reply, it's hard to tell who's responding to what!
It’s 3,000% okay to realize you took on too much and decide it’s more important to care for yourself than to force yourself to burn out. It is not at all less than to acknowledge and honor your own feelings! It’s so strong to acknowledge your vulnerability and that’s why we love your channel. We all look forward to you sharing what you’ve learned about ethics of companies but also at the end of the day this is “just a TH-cam channel” which is to say no one will be harmed by you caring for yourself.
I think a quick way to start losing interest in or even hating doing TH-cam is to try to force yourself to do videos that you don't feel like doing, for whatever reason. I hope that you get some free time to relax soon!
*Hannah* YOU. YOU. YOU. ARE AN INSPIRING SOUL you don't need to explain or defend the why of what's But I am empowered by your due diligence, your reckoning, your ups and downs, Do NOT APOLOGIZE. YOU ARE INSPIRATIONAL
I *literally* never think about you missing a video or being late with a video. And if I'm not worried, then obviously there's no reason for you to be worried. 😋 As for people complaining off on Reddit or other forums. Think about this: this is what these people do with their free time? Complain about you or guess your motives? These are not opinions that matter. If they're so worried about it they can start TH-cam channels. They obviously have the time. In the words of my momma, "fuck 'em." (Okay, that was totally me. Sorry mom.)
Hannah. You have never failed us. That project was huge from the get go. When you announced it I remember thinking what a headache and time suck it would likely be for you. Don’t continue it if it’s not giving you joy. Although I am curious as to what dirt you’ve discovered! BTW , please use that opportunity to fully employ the ban hammer judiciously! No one likes trolls. And there’s a lot of hatery derps on reddit. I’ve never seen such a huge group of sheeple in my life.
Hannah, Take care of yourself. You are worth more than any video or any of your work. Your worth isn't found in what you produce. You are valuable to us, just as you are. So, do the ethical consumerism video if and when you want. Do all the fluffy videos. I love fluff! I love the serious too. Do what brings you joy & we will enjoy it with you.
When you said that you felt you don't have the energy for it right now, I didn't think it came form a place of weakness at all! I though it came from a place of courage and self-awareness.
A mental health love note: if you're waiting in the ER, your broken finger is still broken and still matters and still hurts and still will have lasting consequences even if there are other emergencies happening to other people who "have it worse". Comparison is the thief of joy.
Yes you haven't been doing all the deep videos, but those of us who watch you regularly know your stance on consumerism and also understand when you say you can't do a video at a certain time for whatever reason. I had a cold last week and I couldn't do life normally. I only had so much energy to give and I excepted that and took Sunday as a rest day since my body needed it. That meant no gym Sunday afternoon, watch church online instead of going and just being in like a tired state for hours watching TH-cam, short naps, etc. Getting back to normal this week, but still things aren't normal yet and I'm ready for them to be.
Your hair looks beautiful! You are doing a wonderful job here on TH-cam helping people. Don't be hard on your self in a way that takes away your lovely grungie sparkle spirit! We are here for you!🧡Have a beautiful day🌹
There's so much strength in recognizing what is good for yourself and listening to that. There's strength in admitting you can't take on something new at the moment. And there's strength in feeling like you failed in something and continuing forward. You may feel weak, nurture that feeling until you feel comfortable, but know that it's okay
I think it is more than fair for you to upload in a way that keeps you healthy and not emotionally overwhelmed, a "healthy" channel and growth are nothing if they come at the expense of your emotional capacity! It reminds me a bit of what rawbeautykristi has been talking about on her channel in regards to having opinions on the internet, since she's been on youtube for a long time she was reflecting on going from kind of flippantly sharing opinions/commentary to staying away from more serious topics due to the emotional toll it takes and sometimes being misunderstood (and other times being ignorant), to now venturing towards a more open discussion again. It makes sense that everyone can't deal with backlash or even just engagement in the same way, bc it depends on many factors including how much else demands your attention and emotional energy outside of youtube too. personally, any conflict or even interesting discussions very easily overwhelm my emotional "plate" and sometimes social media or other platforms like youtube can offer more in the form of escapism when your plate is already spilling over due to "irl" engagements. It's good to remember we are all just human with exciting but stressful lives! (p.s. the new haircut looks amazing!!!)
This video came at such a good time for me. I’m having a lot of guilt for not getting a project done due to some very legitimate life difficulties and I’m trying to let the guilt go.
Choosing to live as Drama Free as possible is not less than & you should never compare yourself to others. Are we happy for Jen, Samantha, etc. Of course. You are you Hannah Louise Poston Unique and Fabulous! if that is not a lane that is comfortable in your life, that's Fine. Everything is not for everyone.
Lol We did not need that visual. No pants 🤭 That tells me your comfortable, sometimes we just don't want to be bothered & the fact that you shared that information, fun. #Human
I find this topic really interesting, esp when u said u weren't going to turn into A Cheung. The way I see it as she (and all other public figures) SPECIFICALLY and STRATEGYICALLY projected this COOL image and LIFESTYLE for all to see. To sell herself so to speak. We don't get to see behind the scenes - in reality, I don't think anyone is COOL/Got The Ultimate Life and I learnt to really embrace myself and draw inspirations from within. I since stopped looking at ANY public figures/designers wishing that I was cool/living THAT high life. It's all superficial. I am 200% happier now I came to this light. I just wished l known this from age 18.
The holidays are very busy, stressful & triggering for many folks so don't sweat it if work, family & self care take priority over making a video. Waiting until you can fully focus on it & be emotionally prepared for the response shows that you're self aware & taking good care of yourself. TH-cam shouldn't cost you literal blood, sweat & tears. At least not all the time.🎄🎅
Needing help or time IS NOT WEAKNESS!. It took me 18 months of therapy to believe that and I often must remind myself that it’s true. I look forward to the return of your heady-er content at a time when I too have the bandwidth to consume it. It is a crazy busy time of year and we’d all do well to give ourselves GRACE to just be where we are. Thanks for always sharing when you owe me nothing. I appreciate you and your work.
thank you Amy! It's taking me a long time to learn, too!
Oh Hannah, girl, you are doing just great. First off all, your hair is BOMB ! I love it, it makes me want to overcome my forever long fear of the hairdresser and get something done ! Second of all, I look forward to you receiving the Paloma Wool sweater, everything she does is amazing and I love seeing her brand get support outside of Europe ! Finally, and most importantly, you dont owe us anything, dear. You do you, life gets in the way, as it does, and you really don't have to account for your decisions to us, at least I don't think you do, ever. We are lucky for your presence here and will take what you can give. If it starts to keep you up at night, well... it's not worth it. You put so much work into it, I truly want it to bring you joy. Anyways. Rant over. Love you, love your channel, Sending you loads of positive vibes 💓
Andréa Poulieva ...
Ditto!
You said it perfectly. Thank you. ♥️
thank you Andréa!!!! xoxoxox!!!!
Be good to yourself, Hannah. Nothing about you is “less than”.
Hannah, “please remember to take extra good care of yourself so you can be the most effective version of yourself as you do your work in the world”. Maybe not making these “spicy” videos is what it means to take extra good care of yourself right now. You’re certainly not letting any of us down!❤️
Also, on an unrelated note, you’re seriously inspiring me to cut my hair haha!
I LOVE this haircut so much more than I expected to, I do recommend it!! thank you for the support
This is such an interesting video Hannah - I’m not sure if this is useful for me to say as I don’t know you, but might be an interesting point for discussion. Do you think the way you describe beating yourself up about not meeting all your project goals you set for yourself is linked in to a wider worldview you have about work? From watching your videos for a while now I have always felt that we have quite different views about work.
For example, in your outro, the idea that it is important to take good care of oneself /so that/ you can be effective at your work sits in contrast to my own personal view on why taking care of oneself is important, which is essentially that each person has an innate value separate from what they can produce or achieve, and deserves to be as healthy and happy as they can be as an end in itself. I’m not saying that you don’t think that, but your outro has always inspired a complex reaction in me for this reason. I’ve also found it interesting how the opportunity for women to work unimpeded seems to be a major focus of your feminism.
I suppose I hope you remember to take extra good care of yourself full stop, and that you don’t feel self care is only justified as a means to an end to allow yourself to pour out more of yourself into projects. I apologise if that seems too directive from a stranger on the internet, but I really enjoy how you examine things that other people have said in videos etc, for example as you did in your holy grail video, so I hope it is okay for me to say.
I hope you feel proud of how much you have achieved with your TH-cam channel, and able to freely make choices about what and how often to post.
awesomelyizzy I know this comment was for Hannah, but I just want to say thank you so much for offering this perspective. I’ve spent a large portion of my life struggling to disentangle my idea of self-worth from my levels of productivity. I am still working on finding ways to feel worthy outside of the work I can do, and your comment helped put that into words I’ve struggled to find for so long. It was something I needed to see. Also, I thought your analysis of the perspective Hannah projects on her channel was thoughtful and valuable. Thank you so much for sharing!
I agree Genie J , as a wife and mother with no paycheck of my own, I consider my "work" to include the mundane, cooking, cleaning, etc..., but more importantly to nurture, teach, and enrich others lives :)
Genie J and nosmallwonder.etsy.com
I definitely agree with you both about defining work more broadly, and I agree that that seems to be how Hannah defines it too. I still think it’s important to take care of ourselves for ourselves and find self worth outside of all of these kinds of work though. For example, nosmallwonder, the work you do in raising your children is vital and so valuable, but personally I believe that you shouldn’t only take good care of yourself so that you can nurture your children, but because you yourself are important and deserve to be as happy and healthy as possible.
I get the heebie jeebies everytime Hannah starts her sign-off catch phrase and have to rush to mute or stop the video because it just rubs me the wrong way so much. It almost sounds vaguely threatening and robotic - be the *most effective* version of yourself so you can do *more work*.
A lovely video could be Hannah talking through alternate coping/caring mechanisms where they are not seen as optimizing efficiency, but improving wellbeing.
@@Ohtherain I do know what you mean - although I have less of a strong reaction myself it is a phrase that doesn't sit well with me. I wonder if it may be in part a culture clash for me, because unlike Hannah I'm not American.
You're not weak, you're human. I know I personally couldn't take the spicy (how diplomatic!) commentary and I respect your need to recharge before taking these topics on. We'll be here when you're ready, and we enjoy the content you do put out 💜.
thank you Christine! xoxo!
Hannah!!! The only true promise you ever made to all of us, was that you didn't know where your projects were going to take you, but that you would bring us along for the ride. You have delivered above and beyond by always being your honest, vulnerable, funny, beautiful self. (As an aside, I have a background in corporate supply chain inclusion and sustainability, so had some sense that you might have hit some challenges that required a pause and re-plotting.) I am constantly grateful for what you share with all of us. Keep taking extra good care of yourself. (The hair is gorgeous, btw.)
thank you, Ann! I feel the same (about having been clear that I didn't know where my projects would take me), but that is one of the main things that my most vocal critics seem to miss. So it means a lot to me to hear you say it in this comment
Wow, something you said got me to thinking about what a gendered issue overspending really is. Women are encouraged to overspend at every turn, yet we are also the butt of many jokes for falling for that encouragement. The more we can back away from those ruts, the more free we are to make choices that support our own goals/purpose.
this is SO true. Corporations are specifically trying to disempower WOMEN by making us feel like we have to spend our money to be better women. It's a feminist issue!
Yes X10000000! I was just thinking this last night before seeing this video. It’s a system that is stacked against us. It’s very easy for women to get stuck in the shopping trap. We are already set up to make less, and yet we are expected to always think we need to improve our image and our appearance. I’m so tired of it. It’s finally gotten to the point where it makes me feel sick and I feel like the only way to fight it is a no buy year. 💛
Remember comparison is the thief of joy. Other people have different experiences and different capabilities at different times and that’s ok. Just do what you can when you can.
thank you
I really appreciate you talking about wanting to take on so many things and and feeling like you cannot do everything to the best of your abilities. I feel like part of being a creative person means that there are always new projects we want to start, but to do everything with the quality we want is just not realistic. I’m learning how to concentrate my efforts, and go for depth instead of width. And not judging myself if I cannot do eeeeverything! It’s definitely a new change for me! Good luck and sending happy creative vibes ~
“It looks more polished than it is. For instance I’m not wearing any pants right now.” 😂 😂 😂. That’s a perfect way to end your video - with laughter and something very real.
I feel like pants are an "only when necessary" thing these days :)
Hannah Louise Poston Completely agree. All things are optional when you’re busy.
I don't know if this helps or not, but I started a new business this year and one thing I've learned (haha learned okay AM LEARNING) is that I don't have to do everything every day. And generally speaking, in my head if nowhere else, I am always doing everything every day unless I actively stop and just do one thing. So I have a suggestion for your unmade videos. Make them in parts. Maybe don't even post them in parts (or do, just not extensively planned parts). But do the part you can make today (logistically, emotionally) and make just that part. On camera, on paper, for literally five minutes, wherever you make stuff. Not all the things. One thing. Take extra good care of yourself, Hannah! No one wants you miserable from putting pressure on yourself. You're amazing in every way and it's okay to give yourself credit for taking the tiny bites you *can* chew instead of agonizing over the pile of stuff you can't. You already know this of course, but at least for me in this stage, I find I need to give myself daily (sometimes hourly) reminders 🙈
Also your hair is super cute.
thank you Alison!
It’s winter, it’s cold, it’s dark in the morning. Don’t beat yourself up. You are doing fab 🤸🏼♀️. You are human. 😘 the fact you know all this is fantastic.
Hannah Louise Poston! Not that this has anything to do with anything, but I just read your Sadie and Joe essay and died. My cat, Miss Julie Baby is currently typing this and hopes I shall revive soon.
I just googled and read this. wow! its A-Mazing.
It's an amazing essay, it made me cry! It's the first essay of hers that I read and I immediately went to her website to read the rest of her essays and poems. She's a great writer.
Aw, thank you for reading my work, Courtney! Sadie's ego has never recovered from her 15 minutes of fame back when that essay was published :) She still thinks she's the most noteworthy cat in literature.
*Hannah:* How does my hair look?
*Me:* Impeccable, stunning, honestly goals
Dear Hannah, I am new to your Chanel, and I just have to say thank you.
You have been such an inspiration to me as I prepare for my no but year.
I’ve know for sometime that I had to change my spending habits, but every year I’d still shop, “just one more bag, these shoes are on sale, I’f I had another coat...” somehow those items would make me feel complete, just this one more thing.
I can say at age 40, I have bought everything. I have literally gone through ever brand, and sparkly thing, and it’s somehow it’s never enough.
I do love fashion and enjoy getting dressed, but it’s gotten to the point of an addiction, rather than a joy my life. Your videos have said some really helpful things that have really woken me up.
I don’t say this lightly, but I didn’t grow up with money, and I grew up with someone who was both physically abusive and verbally abusive. That family member has long been out of my life, but that need to show the world I am a good/fancy/wealthy person through my wardrobe (after being a kid being told every day I was horrible) has made me feel worse than better.
I have a husband and two beautiful sons now, and we live in a home filled with love and peace. As a kid I could never even imagine what it would be to grow up and not have someone screaming at you all the time... so why do I choose to spend my free time shopping, when I have everything I need?
Anyway, it makes me feel sick to not appreciate what I have in my life. I need to use this year to let go of the past. It’s done. I can’t change anything that happened before, but I am in complete control of today, so why not do better?
Last year I took on my physical health and I had great success. I have worked to de clutter our home, and it’s been great. But I couldn’t tackle my spending habits, or my closet. But after make slow changes in the other areas, and trust me, those changes although small and slow, were a lot of work, I don’t want them to be all for nothing. I feel so guilty cleaning out my closet and looking at all the time and money I have wasted on these things.
I have officially unfollowed every TH-cam Chanel and Instagram page of people in the “lux” community. I realized that was a big trigger for me and I have been easily influenced in what others have. It’s been three weeks since I stopped looking at all those accounts, and I can’t believe how much better I feel.
I know this year isn’t going to be easy, but watching your journey has honestly been exactly what I need to hear right now, and I just had to say thank you.
I don’t really have friends in my real life I can share this journey with yet. Honestly I am embarrassed to admit how bad my shopping has gotten, so I decided to type this comment as a safer way to start. Once I get through my first month, I am going to make myself share what I am working on this year.
So thank you and congratulations on your journey, I hope you know your success is amazing.
Best💛
Your hair is so cool and chic! I love the new length!
I wonder now i've seen you talk about fashion if you've ever sewn anything super editorial for yourself? I feel like when i get a sewing machine i'll immediately try to make something weird and cool for myself. Or do you prefer to leave work at work and just do tango dresses? I hope you'll do some kind of a sewing project on camera, i'm super curious about that tbh
And i want to say that i absolutely adore your content but i'm really sorry that it weighs so heavy on you at this moment. Please take your time and take care of yourself, you are a strong person going through a very transformative time in public and that must be so hard. You are so very honest and open and i wish you strength to not let all the nastiness to get to you from the other side 💛✨
I do sew things for myself once in a while, but my skill set is pretty limited to tango clothes, so it doesn't cover most of the streetwear I yearn for :)
@@HannahLouisePoston well if you'll ever want to make anything i'd love to see! Your tango clothes are absolutely beautiful btw, made me wish i was a dancer haha
Dear Hannah, I'd watch any and all of your videos, no matter what type of content you choose to publish. Don't feel the pressure to hold yourself up to the same incredibly high standard artificially; to you, quality content comes naturally. Fashion or reckoning videos is not trash content, and although your more serious videos are truly insightful, genuine, relatable and inspiring, there's plenty of room in our subscriptions box for all the different things you feel like producing at any given time. I like you and your mind, I enjoy listening to the way you view things, whether that's lip gloss or a book of poetry, because you are very well equipped to add depth to traditionally "shallow" topics. Take all the time you need so you never stop enjoying this, so it doesn't become a burden and a chore. Your deeper videos are almost even more precious when they're fewer and further between - not that I wouldn't enjoy gobbling them down back to back, but I'd be equally grateful for sporadic droplets of your wisdom, since you being a normal human being with a finite amount of energy means I can't stand under the waterfall all the time. Take care of yourself, have some regular fun outside of this platform and be well! xx
Trolls are the primary reason I've opted out of a social media presence. I think you are so brave...and tolerant...to share your creativity and honesty with this world in this way.
“Nobody is as concerned about it as I am.” Truer words have never been spoken. I love the content you put out, and haven’t missed the ethics series at all.
thanks Sarah
yes, we stan cultivating a healthy love for beautiful things while remaining critical of the forces that want us to overspend!! we also stan someone who is not ready to engage with trolls because honestly, same. i am sensitive, i always will be. part of me wants to make a youtube channel but i would just want to be very small so nobody could be mean to me on the internet 😅 also your hair is amazing. also - i echo every single comment saying please don't hold yourself to such an unattainable standard with the more spicy or mentally taxing videos! we are here for you, and whatever you have to post ❤️
Oh Hannah, you’ll never know how much I can relate to your emotions in so many ways. I almost commented on your last but one video to the effect of how I anticipated almost everything you said because it resonates so much with me and my own feelings. As someone who’s also currently in therapy, who’s also very self aware, who’s also very hard on herself I’m going to give you the piece of advice I should really take myself - be kind to yourself my lovely 😊
thank you so much, Ines! I never thought that would be my challenge, but it really is.
Be kind to yourself Hannah. You are a force for good in this strange TH-cam world, and I for one appreciate your insights and they way you share yourself so much. I hope you get all the hugs and love you need to replenish your emotional batteries. ❤️
thank you Alice!
I literally just paused the video to tell you that the "strongest" and most badass thing you can do is to recognize when doing something currently just is not the best and healthiest thing for you and then acting in accordance with that. I know you love your fellow youtube ladies, but the answer for what is right for you to do right now does not come from what they are or are not doing, I comes from inside you, so please just trust yourself on this. Much love all the way from Copenhagen 😘
Henriette Englev beautiful comment
thank you Henriette. Sending love back to you!!!
You are my Queen.
you and *Whitney Hedrick*
Have really impacted my life in the most beautiful & elegant ways💫✨🙌🏼
Did the two videos mentioned ever get made? I've tried looking for them and couldn't find them.
I’m not sure what you ran into while researching ethical consumerism (I’m sure you’ll tell us when you are ready), but don’t feel bad for not being able to finish the project. Unfortunately, ethical consumption is a huge, nebulous thing with so many pitfalls... entire organizations struggle with what you set out to do. The fact that you tried is great and the fact that you were honest with yourself enough to stop when you needed to is great too. Thanks for all you do and take care of yourself
thank you for saying that! I do hope to "finish it" in one way or another, it's just not going to be the way that I planned. But that's ok!
She gushed about and promoted Lemonhead L.A., who are huge Trump supporters, just weeks after condemning Cover F.X. for their association with Nudestix, who are owned by Canadian sisters who like Trump. That’s when the videos stopped and why she hasn’t mentioned them on her channel since.
You’re amazing. And a side note that COS is pronounced like “cause”. Meant to be helpful not critical.
STOP IT! Why beat yourself up because you don’t want to expose yourself to be beaten up by strangers? Take care of yourself. You do not need to apologize or explain anything to us. We are watching whatever you are putting up and loving it.
5:32 Preach!!! Yes!!!
Scream long and loud ...we MUST be in control of our own finances, decisions and destinies. Do NOT rely on companies to care about our futures or our wellbeing. Their entire existence relies on them convincing us to give them OUR money.
Stay strong and determined 💪 💪💪👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼
Much love & respect Hannah X 💕💕💕
You’re not letting anyone down! It’s difficult when you’re taking on a lot and I really respect you for being able to know your own limitations. Just because you don’t feel like you can take on something now doesn’t mean you’ll feel that way forever, it’s a good thing to take your time especially if you feel a little spread thin at the moment. I hope you get some time to chill soon! Xxx
Hannah it saddens me that you feel you have to explain and be accountable to us and maybe some of the more outspoken negative Nancys out there. While I agree the hard hitting videos that you put out with so much rawness and vulnerability are the ones that touch and inspire me the most, I am happy to see any kind of content from you. It is so human to want to avoid being criticized by judgy strangers on the internet, it’s not weak at all. You do what you’re comfortable with and when. The vast majority of us will ask nothing and simply appreciate whatever you have to give ❤️❤️❤️
You don't owe us anything, Hannah: Remember that we are watching your videos by choice. We enjoy taking this journey with you, and your temporary moments of discouragement are simply part of the whole process. What is so relevant about your channel is that you address those moments as you go through them, and therefore help us to address ours.
Whether or not you end up doing all the things that you planned on doing is not the end goal here. The real goal - the thing that really matters, and the actual reason why so many of us stick to your channel - is the beautiful and honest reflexion behind of it all. That's all you need to understand to free yourself from the pressure
thank you so much for this reminder, Maude!!! xoxo!
Sorry, have to leave a second comment just to say that your content is of the highest quality ALWAYS, Hannah. You are the only TH-camr who I make sure I never miss a SINGLE video. I don’t always watch them right away, but when I’m back in the mood for TH-cam, it’s like “okay, time to catch up on my Hannah videos.” You are one of two channels on TH-cam (the other being Jen Luvs Reviews) that I actually have the notification bell on so I never miss an upload. Your content-from the silliest little ASMR video to the heaviest “How my no-buy year changed X” video-is just that damn good. And this won’t mean much to you because you don’t know us, but I also just want to share that you’re also one of the only beauty TH-camrs even my boyfriend enjoys watching. He’ll watch makeup videos with me occasionally just to spend time with me on something I’m interested in, and you are by far his favorite. He’s a snob who hates everyone (I say this lovingly!) so I’m only sharing this because it’s a compliment when I say your content is so good, even my boyfriend enjoys it. So I don’t think you owe us any apologies. You’re awesome for continuing to put out great content, and while it was nice to get a status update on the topics that kinda disappeared from your channel, it has had no effect of my enjoyment of your wonderful channel! So yeah. You’re amazing and I appreciate all you do. I’ll stop bombarding you with impassioned rants of encouragement now. Much love!
You truly have become one of my favorite people.
AW Julie, thank you! I love you back!
Your videos help me so much Hannah, I love your honesty and authenticity
I’m so so appreciative of this video.
I want to say that, I get it. I often haven’t been watching the heavier videos from any of my favorite creators because life is so busy and draining at the moment that I also don’t have the bandwidth. I appreciate that lighter videos have popped up here because it’s a little reprieve. I know that haters will pop up when you do share those videos but I will always always always appreciate your honesty and candor on your channel. It means the world and I hope that things become so much lighter for you soon.
It is sad that you have been crying so much 😕 please take care of yourself! You are wonderful 💕 What are you wearing on your cheeks?
there'is no reason tp be concerned, hannah. i love every video of you. by the way i want to tell you, that you changed my way of thinking about buying things and i am so thankful. 😊
Ooooh when you said that you wake up in the middle of the night thinking that you have let us down I really felt how much you care about your channel and about your subscribers! 😢💓 I can't speak for everyone, but I can speak for myself and you haven't let me down at all! I enjoyed your content so much this year (last year too) and I always look forward to your videos, you are doing great for me!
Sending alot of love!
thanks Angie! Received!
Hannah! You're fine. We're all fine. I've been stressed and I have months of accrued little things to get done et cetera, but studying takes precedence. It's fine. Deal with your life because it's what matters. This is just youtube.
Hannah this is the first time I have ever used my google account to comment on any YT video EVER. I know, weird. I found you through a couple of other YT ladies that mentioned you (I think from poor memory it was @ASmallWardrobe & @TFD & @TarableDecisions), anyways, I've been on your journey for about a year, & whilst I don't get seriously into the makeup up stuff, its just not me, I've been so inspired by your journey, that you are prepared to be public about it, & the way you enunciate it to us. So you might step back, or your content has changed? BIG DEAL. I have absolutely no patience with ppl who are criticisive, mean, insulting, trolly, whatever in comments sections. Because IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT, SWITCH OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Do you tell your friend "oh I find you a bit boring now, your conversation has changed", do you email your favorite star & express your disinterest with the way they now live their life? Heck no, it would be rude and pretty vacuous. Criticism is just that - criticism, and it never, ever goes over well. Sometimes Im not that into a video a YTuber I like has put up, so I think nah & I skip over. I DON'T jump to; ok I'm going to respond to them & tell them exactly what I don't like. People change, every day, we learn, we grow, we find new interests, often we revisit old interests. Because you speak to us like we are friends, that's how I think of you.... so would I say criticising things to you? No. Would I be mean, spicy, hateful trolly, No. I wouldn't say that to my family, or my friends, & I certainly wouldn't essentially take out my keyboard & do it to a stranger, cause that would make me A, an arsehole and B, pretty friggin self righteous. The world will get to a better place, women will hopefully quickly get to a better place when we dial down the gossip, the need to comment, the need to judge, the need to....... We are the ones in charge of changing that behavior. You've inspired so many ppl with the journey you are on. Did you put yourself up as a guru & say do what I say, believe everything I say, I'm perfect." NO. It was the opposite, you told us you were an imperfect & therefore normal functioning human, & you talked about how you are trying to change that. Its gutsy, it's courageous & if ppl can't be happy for your growth, or change, or journey, hmmm I think that speaks to them, not you. If this is a social contract I think you have fufilled it, I don't think you ówe' anyone anything. What you do deserve is to put yourself first. To be respected because you are on this planet. And a big thank you for what you have given us. Big Hugs from Australia
*Hannah* You really inspired me to spend my $ wisely.
Your beautiful blouse...
Less is more
My budget consists of (maybe more expensive) but very curated specific items I purchase
Thank you for giving so much of yourself to us! May your projects resolve successfully and may your your conscience be soothed.
And may your days be merry and bright, and may all your Christmases be white 😄
I'm just reading through the comments at 5 am or so. Thanks for making me laugh. :)
Hannah, your videos have become a part of my routine that I look forward to weekly. You are so well-spoken and introspective, and you have a very important voice that I'm glad I get to hear.
thank you!
I actually think it's pretty strong for you to to have the self awareness to realize that you can't handle the response to a serious topic right now and prioritize other projects until you come to a more stable crossroads in your life. Thanks for this update, you're fantastic.
Thank you for the discussion of self care ❤️ we all need to make space for ourselves that doesn’t necessarily include over-shopping. Key word “over.” I get a lot of joy from purchasing the item that I’ve been lusting over in the same way I get from taking an hour to walk in the woods with my dog.
1. I'm here for the love and support in this comments section.
2. You owe your audience nothing other than what you choose to give at any given moment. And that is all we want, too.
3. I never say this, I'm not generally a YTer stan or mega fan but I am legit sending you a virtual hug. You've been in a very challenging season and we all want you to take care of yourself as best as possible and if that means videos wait or get axed altogether, that's cool.
4. I love your hair, always have but especially now it's cool girl chic x infinity. The 47 hairs on my head are envious.
Unrelated to the content of this video (which as someone with a lot of anxiety, I relate to SO much), your sweater might be the sweater of my actual dreams. Anyway, sending you all the good vibes, babe. 🥰🥰
Comparison is the thief of joy. Try, dear heart, to not compare what you can do or handle with what others can do or handle. We're all on our own journeys, and trying to effectively do our own work in the world, and that means different things to different people. I look forward to your videos so much and your videos bring so much joy and value to my world while reminding me that (1) I have work in the world to do and (2) that I need to take care of myself in order to do that work. You inspire me and entertain me and I wish there was more I could do to support and encourage you!
I prefer this type of video rather than the ones which are funny. Thank you!
Remember: your best is ALWAYS good enough.
I'm not usually one to comment on videos, pretty much at all. However I felt I needed to, to throw some support your way! You have become one of my favourite You Tubers and your take on the beauty industry and shopping is so so refreshing to watch. Take some pressure off yourself, and know your channel is amazing. Also, thanks for encouraging me to pay closer attention to my grammar! haha :-)
take all the time you need, Hannah, and I hope you can rest easy now that you've made the record. All timing is right timing
You being able to say I can't take it right now is HUGE , it's shows so much maturity & understand of ones self to say that. Just because many people tackle hard subjects doesn't mean they are handling it well or not suffering from it in some way. I get what you're saying though because I am often the same way, I'm a very emotional person & it may be perceived "weak" when I don't want to partake in something. But it's because I know myself well & I want to choose my battles when I'm the strongest.
Also I love the tones you have on today, everything. Nails, makeup, hair sweater, lovely!
Your pantsless comment made me laugh.
You’re not weak at all ❤️ all in good time - sensitivity isn’t necessarily a bad thing I think, sometimes it’s something to be protected! Everything is at your pace, no sweat from us 💕
Just to say, you look gorgeous and I love your haircut! I want my bangs this way now. :)
Hi Esther! I love the short bit in the middle. I'm so glad my stylist went all the way with that aspect.
@@HannahLouisePoston I will suggest my stylist to cut this way. :)
I hope you film a companion to your ranking of the things you bought this year. I really enjoyed that first video and would be interested in the ranking for the rest of the year or maybe a whole year ranking.
i cant wait for your update on corporate ethics. i was missing those videos from you. they always made me think and be more critical about consumerism.
I love ALL your content. Always.
your eye look is fire! love it! and also... take care of yourself! I have been super inspired by your videos, and treated myself to a very budget friendly metallic/shimmery/glimmery grungy eyeshadow pallet from Revolution a couple of days a go - AND IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY. Thank you!
YAY! I love this!
Don't beat yourself up over what you wish happened. you're doing your best, and that's all anyone can ever ask of themselves or others. Like you said in one video, allow the consequences of your actions be the only consequences. That advice is genuinely so valuable! Just allow the fact that you let some videos get pushed aside be the ONLY stress you're going through! I am so proud of you for being financially strong during a time like this :) You have undergone such a tremendous change.
I feel like the people most vocal about “where is the video about...” are the ones that are going to be ANTI whatever comes out of your mouth. So many people looking for a brawl and can’t just take your thoughts and channel content, decide if they agree and choose if it’s worth their time or not. Keep on living your life!
Thanks for the support, Brenna!
Oh my gosh, this is so true! They're not anticipating something to spark a conversation between curious people in good faith, they're gunning for fuel for their weird little hobby of complaining about free content they could just as easily not be watching.
Really like these videos.
:)
Hannah don't put all that pressure on yourself about having thick skin. Hate/spicy comments are always taking energy and IT'S OKAY if you're not ready for that because you have different things in your life.
We understand, don't feel guilty ❤
thank you so much, Andrea!
I love your light and chatty videos! It's almost like having coffee with a very insightful and self-aware friend. I'm looking forward to seeing your new sweater (almost) as much as you are! Shopping is much more meaningful when you occasionally buy one special thing instead of getting a haul of stuff. Quantity makes things meaningless.
Good day - love waking up to your introspective thoughts! Knowing that there are other issues/concerns/problems out in the world (poverty, war, abuse, illness), does not make your issues/concerns/problems insignificant! We all have “our cross to bear” and they are fit to what we can handle and should not be compare to each other! Hope I made some sense. Your concerns are as real as anyone’s and to you might be huge while for someone else they might be minor. That does not mean they are minor... thanks for owning your feelings. And no you are not shallow you are realistic as to what is happening in your life! Stay healthy however (legally and healthy) you need to!
thank you Nohra!
You do not need to apologize if you dont have the time or energy for something.
thank you Kilala! xo
Your mental health is always the most important. If you aren’t in a place to put yourself out there and be vulnerable in a way that most of us just can’t understand, don’t feel obligated. This is ultimately your space to create, and people need to respect that.
Oh Hannah, it hurts my heart to see you so weighed down as you go through this rough patch. You could never be “less than” because all we want is for you to be authentically you. But I absolutely understand the feeling. Personally, the unwillingness to deal with trolls/negativity is exactly the reason why I could never be a TH-camr. I’m way too sensitive to deal with that 😑 I think it’s absolutely understandable and even admirable to be self-aware enough to know when your skin is feeling thinner than usual as a result of stress or any other circumstances. I hope you know that all so many of us want is for you take extra good care of yourself. I hope you have a better month. Sending love and positivity your way!
Hannah, it's sometimes really okay to be weak and not be strong, we can't always be bringing our A game! You got this, things always get better at some point ❤️
thank you! xoxo!
Sweet Hannah .. Please take your time. Slow down... Sleep, eat, take a bath. Take care of yourself
thank you Mathilde
I say yes to not explaining the why in a kind way ❤
People taking notice of the ways in which your content has changed are not ‘trolling’ you. Almost every single comment about you on Reddit starts with, “I used to love her channel during her no buy year, but her content has changed, etc.” It’s not people hating just to hate, it’s subscribers of yours who feel like you’ve sacrificed quality for quantity and are morphing into the type of influencer that your channel used to be a respite from.
Needing time to process things is normal and you should be able to do things on your own time, especially when you have other non-TH-cam related stuff going on, but dismissing the feelings of long time subscribers of yours as ‘hate’ or ‘trolling’ is just false. These are people who have followed you for a long time and are invested in your life and your journey and who see the ways in which you’ve dodged accountability. If you bit off more than you can chew, that’s understandable, but hiding it and not addressing it for like, seven months does real damage to viewers’ ability to take you seriously as someone who claims to want to be open and honest about all aspects of their shopping addiction journey. There’s a difference between valid critique and criticism and ‘hate’, and as you seek to grow your channel and morph into an influencer, I think it would make your life easier and your content better to learn the difference.
I know it's a bummer when a book series, TV show, youtube channel, etc. used to be Just Right for you and then shifts gears and isn't for you anymore. I've had many experiences with that, and the more you liked the thing at first, the harder it is when it changes. The thing to do is let it go, and if you spend any time talking to other people who feel the same way (longtime viewers, miss the old content), spend that time talking about new channels/shows/books that fill that role, or even just continuing the conversation you wanted to be having without a channel/videos to guide and prompt you.
The thing * not * to do is "spend a lot of time watching and talking about the new content you don't like, feeling like each new video is something being taken away from you instead of something being offered to someone else."
The thing is that Hannah isn’t a book or a TV show, and talking about her in the comments section as if she isn’t there is just rude.
@@evas4455 Of course, & keeping Hannah's humanity and presence here in the foreground is really important. I'm just trying to connect with the WHY of some people's intensely upset feelings about Hannah and her channel, in hopes that it'll help them process those feelings and do something more productive with them.
erikawithac Sorry Erica, that was directed at Shannon. I didn’t mean to say you were rude at all. I’ll get me coat...
@@evas4455 Oh no, you're good! TH-cam's notification system can be so confusing sometimes with who it notifies about a reply, it's hard to tell who's responding to what!
It’s 3,000% okay to realize you took on too much and decide it’s more important to care for yourself than to force yourself to burn out. It is not at all less than to acknowledge and honor your own feelings! It’s so strong to acknowledge your vulnerability and that’s why we love your channel. We all look forward to you sharing what you’ve learned about ethics of companies but also at the end of the day this is “just a TH-cam channel” which is to say no one will be harmed by you caring for yourself.
Hannah... dare I say it... you are my Alexa Chung !
I think a quick way to start losing interest in or even hating doing TH-cam is to try to force yourself to do videos that you don't feel like doing, for whatever reason. I hope that you get some free time to relax soon!
true! and I would hate that, I love doing TH-cam
*Hannah*
YOU.
YOU.
YOU.
ARE AN INSPIRING SOUL
you don't need to explain or defend the why of what's
But I am empowered by your due diligence, your reckoning, your ups and downs,
Do NOT APOLOGIZE.
YOU ARE INSPIRATIONAL
thank you!!
glittertime: 't is the season!
I *literally* never think about you missing a video or being late with a video. And if I'm not worried, then obviously there's no reason for you to be worried. 😋
As for people complaining off on Reddit or other forums. Think about this: this is what these people do with their free time? Complain about you or guess your motives? These are not opinions that matter. If they're so worried about it they can start TH-cam channels. They obviously have the time. In the words of my momma, "fuck 'em." (Okay, that was totally me. Sorry mom.)
that's what Joe always says. He's like WHY are they spending their time like this??? Isn't that weird?? You are both right!
@@HannahLouisePoston It is very, VERY weird!!
Hannah. You have never failed us.
That project was huge from the get go. When you announced it I remember thinking what a headache and time suck it would likely be for you.
Don’t continue it if it’s not giving you joy. Although I am curious as to what dirt you’ve discovered!
BTW , please use that opportunity to fully employ the ban hammer judiciously! No one likes trolls. And there’s a lot of hatery derps on reddit. I’ve never seen such a huge group of sheeple in my life.
Hannah, Take care of yourself. You are worth more than any video or any of your work. Your worth isn't found in what you produce. You are valuable to us, just as you are. So, do the ethical consumerism video if and when you want. Do all the fluffy videos. I love fluff! I love the serious too. Do what brings you joy & we will enjoy it with you.
thank you!!
When you said that you felt you don't have the energy for it right now, I didn't think it came form a place of weakness at all! I though it came from a place of courage and self-awareness.
thank you Ameerah! that's lovely.
Your hair is uber chic! FWIW, a look back at the ethics of beauty for the year past works well anytime.
A mental health love note: if you're waiting in the ER, your broken finger is still broken and still matters and still hurts and still will have lasting consequences even if there are other emergencies happening to other people who "have it worse". Comparison is the thief of joy.
great metaphor. thank you! xo!
Yes you haven't been doing all the deep videos, but those of us who watch you regularly know your stance on consumerism and also understand when you say you can't do a video at a certain time for whatever reason. I had a cold last week and I couldn't do life normally. I only had so much energy to give and I excepted that and took Sunday as a rest day since my body needed it. That meant no gym Sunday afternoon, watch church online instead of going and just being in like a tired state for hours watching TH-cam, short naps, etc. Getting back to normal this week, but still things aren't normal yet and I'm ready for them to be.
Your hair looks beautiful! You are doing a wonderful job here on TH-cam helping people. Don't be hard on your self in a way that takes away your lovely grungie sparkle spirit! We are here for you!🧡Have a beautiful day🌹
thank you!
Take your time. I'm enjoying this scenic train.
:)
Can you do a Q&A video?
There's so much strength in recognizing what is good for yourself and listening to that. There's strength in admitting you can't take on something new at the moment. And there's strength in feeling like you failed in something and continuing forward. You may feel weak, nurture that feeling until you feel comfortable, but know that it's okay
💕You look like a little cuddly beauty bear in that sweater🧸✨
and I feel like one too, LOL!
I think it is more than fair for you to upload in a way that keeps you healthy and not emotionally overwhelmed, a "healthy" channel and growth are nothing if they come at the expense of your emotional capacity! It reminds me a bit of what rawbeautykristi has been talking about on her channel in regards to having opinions on the internet, since she's been on youtube for a long time she was reflecting on going from kind of flippantly sharing opinions/commentary to staying away from more serious topics due to the emotional toll it takes and sometimes being misunderstood (and other times being ignorant), to now venturing towards a more open discussion again. It makes sense that everyone can't deal with backlash or even just engagement in the same way, bc it depends on many factors including how much else demands your attention and emotional energy outside of youtube too.
personally, any conflict or even interesting discussions very easily overwhelm my emotional "plate" and sometimes social media or other platforms like youtube can offer more in the form of escapism when your plate is already spilling over due to "irl" engagements. It's good to remember we are all just human with exciting but stressful lives!
(p.s. the new haircut looks amazing!!!)
yes, Kristi speaks my mind in many ways on that topic. Thank you so much for the support, Eva!
Don’t mind me, I’m just over here staring at your eye shadow. 😍
This video came at such a good time for me. I’m having a lot of guilt for not getting a project done due to some very legitimate life difficulties and I’m trying to let the guilt go.
it's like, things are already bad enough without feeling bad about it on top of it all, right?? It's so hard to actually let it go, though
I will enjoy the lighter stuff and look forward to the heavier stuff, whenever you’re ready for it. No rush! ❤️
thank you, Robin!
Choosing to live as Drama Free as possible is not less than & you should never compare yourself to others. Are we happy for Jen, Samantha, etc. Of course. You are you Hannah Louise Poston Unique and Fabulous! if that is not a lane that is comfortable in your life, that's Fine. Everything is not for everyone.
Lol We did not need that visual. No pants 🤭 That tells me your comfortable, sometimes we just don't want to be bothered & the fact that you shared that information, fun. #Human
thank you Veronica!
I find this topic really interesting, esp when u said u weren't going to turn into A Cheung. The way I see it as she (and all other public figures) SPECIFICALLY and STRATEGYICALLY projected this COOL image and LIFESTYLE for all to see. To sell herself so to speak. We don't get to see behind the scenes - in reality, I don't think anyone is COOL/Got The Ultimate Life and I learnt to really embrace myself and draw inspirations from within. I since stopped looking at ANY public figures/designers wishing that I was cool/living THAT high life. It's all superficial. I am 200% happier now I came to this light. I just wished l known this from age 18.
The holidays are very busy, stressful & triggering for many folks so don't sweat it if work, family & self care take priority over making a video. Waiting until you can fully focus on it & be emotionally prepared for the response shows that you're self aware & taking good care of yourself. TH-cam shouldn't cost you literal blood, sweat & tears. At least not all the time.🎄🎅