going directly from "I am crying I am having a fucking mental breakdown" to "I wonder how many times I can write 'among us' repeatedly" is maybe the most honest and accurate depiction of having a shitty mental health day I have ever seen
You'll also notice Mr. Beast's 50 hour solitary confinement has similar symptons in this video, when you are a trapped in a room for a long time, you will start acting like a child, and start going through many emotions and all 4 stages of grief, shock, anger, wonder, acceptance.
I think this video has done more to me thinking about how much time is spent on my phone than any person just saying “it’s bad”. You know the time you spend on there isn’t good but physically seeing that same amount of time mentally break someone does something.
@@ivoryas1696 Hey! My comment was regarding my feelings about the video, but I actually did try and do this. I gave up after less than an hour, he's a strong man. (Then again, I'm ADHD. I didn't expect much.)
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"not allowed to eat, not allowed to sleep, just be alone with my thoughts" calling it now before i finish the video, he's gonna speedrun depression. well i was half right, he was edging it.
You typed it all in one go...no edit or anything...fraud? Did you just type it, watch the video to completion before finishing your review and eventual submission?
5:35 that reminded me of when I was 13 and it was my second trip to the psych ward and one night my roommate and I couldn’t sleep, so we pulled up our chairs to the window and put on some chill music and watched the snow fall. At the time that was the first time I’d felt happy and at peace in years. There’s just something really special about watching the snow fall with someone else :))
im glad you could find such a beautiful moment in what sounds like such a hard place. i hope you have found some happiness and are healing from whatever you were going through :)
"When I stopped and thought about it, running with Eren and Mikasa to that tree, the day was warm and the breeze was tender. At that moment, I felt like I was born to run up that hill with them." -Armin AOT I wonder how many moments we experience we miss out on?
@@ManilockPiinsanity (schizophrenia in the deleuzian sense) is the body rejecting the organs (modern life in this context) that are attacking it IE he realised that modern life is insane
Honestly this whole video put the whole 'lower your screen time' thing into perspective cause you don't really have a concept of time until it's just you v.s. time. I didn't realize until watching this that having asd, sensory issues, and light adhd and being addicted to screens n stuff makes me overstimulated and under stimulated at the same time. Addiction to screens is one of the craziest and most dystopian things ever how the heck did we get here T - T
Simultaneous over- and under- stimulation unlocked some sort of understanding in me: thank you. It's like the surface level is satisfied but the underneath isn't. The "watch pretty lights move' part is good, but there's no actual mental stimulation. So the scrolling gets faster, so the surface level gets used to flashier and flashier lights, so if something can only be stimulating enough to the surface level if it's overstimulating to ghe deeper part and the deeper part can only be stimulated by something that's slow enough to understimulate the surface level. I'll have to do some more thinking on this later, but here, have some stream of consciousness revalatory word vomit, have a good day, internet stranger.
I learned to replace (most) of my screen time by putting every video I'm interested in watching in the "watch later" playlist. Whenever I'm doing chores I put on my headphones and let it play until my chores are done or I'm too exhausted to continue. I think it's a good way to be productive while also feeding your brain with whatever it craves, as a form of ongoing positive reinforcement while doing unpleasant things.
thank you for being so brave to be vulnerable in front of the internet (and for the mental anguish you put yourself through). but seriously it isnt easy and i find videos like these to be so meaningful. ive been through something similar so i know how much torture it is. hermiting for a year and never leaving your room or talking to anyone is something i dont wish on anyone. internet addictions are really grueling. this was a beautifully put together video of your thoughts. thank you for sharing this :)
"'You're acting really weird today have you forgotten how to interact with people?' and then I was like have you ever wondered if you could put 200 bees in a ziplock bag" LMAOO I love your content its seriously underrated
as someone with alot of dissociation and memory issues i really understand the feeling of finally feeling present, and watching your first mental catastrophe gave me one of my own. one of the reasons i am terminally online is because even around friends i've known my entire life i've never felt socially safe, the only place i've felt that way is the internet and i think i need alot of therapy to help me get over that. i just cant talk openly to people in real life, and i dont know why.
Hi, I'm just one person amongst all humanity, I've came across 3 people just the way you've described yourself which I've helped opening in the past, so... I'm just dropping these questions there for you, or for you'n't : - Do you have a single person with which you could fathom talking openly ? Have you tried opening for real ? Several times ? With whom it would've been appropriate ? - Do you have traumas ? If yes, are you advancing on the path of "maturing" ? Or are they still burdens you define yourself with ? - Are you well surrounded ? How many people you have that you could have a bit more of a talk than phatic conversation ? I'm not a doctor, or psychologist, but starting to choose the people with which you want to try to reach on the path of opening is the hardest step to take, but also the first as well. I hope everything goes fine by you, and eventually social interraction will because less threatening to you the more you go. Just keep trying, again and again, great things come from other people most of the time. Have a nice evening.
Ay man, just wanted to know if you got a Discord. If ya do let me know! I ask because seems like you could use an online homie who is both around for you but ALSO helps to motivate you to do,, some irl things? I have found that as long as I Get Social Interaction, even if it is online, there are plenty of activities I can enjoy alone, like walking, or cycling, or drawing, and I was wondering if you may be interested in having a homie who could help you plan out some blocks in your day to maybe just,, go outside or do god knows what, or even do god knows what inside! Doing things in general is pretty good If you're up for it, just let me know
ive been reflecting on my time usage and how much i’ve been on my phone recently and this was definitely a good reminder for me. i went out on a walk today with my dog without looking at my phone at all and felt this feeling i haven’t felt in a really long time. i was so happy and reminiscing on my youth and looking back on memories i hold near and dear to my heart. thank you for this
I know this is a joke and I know you're well aware but for anybody reading this, keep in mind TH-cam is designed to work the exact same way as any app on your phone--to draw your attention and drain your time and feed you ads and make you unhappy. If it's something you're interested in, I hope your next step can be taking some time away from the computer as well!
Though you recommended us not to. I'm really inspired by your video to try this out. I've been hitting the 12h average screen time lately... Thanks a lot for sharing the mental breakdowns too, seeing you get emotional makes me feel less lonely in my current depressive period.
Don't do it. He may have made it out alright, but it's not healthy. Find someone you can trust to hold on to your possessions that'll keep you from being productive for a little while. Remove your apps from your phone and keep it in a drawer or something but never far away in case you have an emergency.
agree with the other comment, there aren't really any benefits to this exercise that the negative effects won't override tbh. Instead, I'd recommend trying a 6/12/24 hour period where you turn off all screens completely. Not allowing youtube, texting, music streaming, alarm clocks, anything. For nearly every alarm bell that may pop into your head when reading this that insists this isn't feasible, I promise there is a way around it that doesn't require a screen. I would even argue that TuChinz comment about "keep it in a drawer or something but never far away in case you have an emergency" is holding you back. It's okay to leave your phone at home and like... just go somewhere. Walk to the 7/11 and buy an icecream. Pre-plan with a friend and go run around an antique store for a while, and try chitchatting with the owner. Go sit at the park and people watch for an hour, etc. I don't know your age, but even if you are preteen/teenage, I say give it a shot. The world can seem inescapably dangerous through Internet, but you would be okay. And you might learn a lot about yourself!! Periodically taking stock of how you feel, recognizing when physical urges to check your phone take over for a moment, can all be really valuable. It's a very odd feeling going from "hm I'm bored, I guess I'll refresh Pinterest for the 11th time" to "hm I'm bored, I guess I'll... do that assignment? Practice guitar a little bit? Hard boil some eggs, I haven't tried that in a while. Or maybe just lay on the floor instead of the bed." I can't imagine how good it would feel to gain back 12 hours of my day. I know depression symptoms can make it so much harder, but I think it might help. No matter what you decide to do, I hope you feel better soon!
honestly idk how you even stay awake like am so addicted to my phone that if i look away from the screen for over 2h(not when am outside of corse) i just get the over whelming feeling of "i want to sleep now, now and NOW" even if i just woke up i feel really tired without my phone
Thank you so much for making this video and thank you for having the bravery to show yourself in a vulnerable situation! I'm 30 years old and in the past I made it an effort not to be distracted the whole time and still getting time in to be alone with myself and my feelings. In the last time however, it's gotten increasingly difficult, most days I can't even sleep without having the tv on. This video just gave me a much needed reality check and some stuff to think about.
this is actually such a beautiful video. especially the ending. i haven't watched a video in a long time which made me feel like this. keep it up man. go far
I just want to thank you for showing so much vulnerability. That is not easy, confronting yourself with yourself. I hope you grew as a person because of this, cus you deserve it
Used to be 14h on a weekend and bad day, I managed to knock it down to 7h deleting almost all media and working my way down. Average day I'm doing three now :D
Seeing this man struggling so much with what I put up with everyday makes me feel better I’ve only ever felt lonely-ish and even then I get over it but not once have I had a mental breakdown or something else like that
This makes me remember a moment I had with someone special far away, walking up a brick path lined with coffee stores, hand in hand, listening to an accordion player. It felt truly magical. And I think because I miss them, I'm distracting myself and running away from the memories, burying them in the process. But the memories are all anyone has, that can't be tarnished. I need to stop running and having similar screen time and instead make more special moments. I want to make friends that I can hang with outside of class. I want to experience moments that are special to me. Those are things I live for. Not for screen time or vain goals.
This is pretty relatable. Because I don't have people known as friends so it's just me sitting there and either trying not to have a panic attack or being the goofiest goober known to man kind.
I've been travelling Australia by myself, mostly staying out in the bush and this allmost perfectly mirrors my experience. The lack of everything make you appreciate anything.
Some random thoughts: - That airplane trail at the end was cool. I never saw the two lines so distinctly nor how they're both not perfectly straight but wobbly and blown into broken wiggles. - Also I think it was easier for me to find humor in your words when you were crying and emotional. I guess it was unfiltered in a way that can be hard to do on purpose, and it felt more relatable. - Those things are unrelated, but I wonder if maybe saying more random fun thoughts without forcing myself to need to have them all be relevant to each other or something could help counter how little I otherwise express myself online. - I love that memes can amuse us for no apparent reason, and the written amongus spam feels like a testament to that. - The flipping off the ceiling is also so random, but I kinda loved it too. It's probably kinda random and irrelevant (as I suppose I can feel like my feelings are) to be upset at the ceiling, but I liked that you were honest about it. I want to be more expressive like that I think. I probably won't need to flip off the ceiling, but maybe I can find other ways to be expressive. - I wonder if you knew before doing this challenge that VSauce did something similar and mentioned in his video that such isolation and monotony for even just hours can be potentially damaging. Idk if it was for you, but I feel like that would discourage me from trying it. - Still, I do think this was interesting as an experiment. I heard the advice of purposefully boring yourself in order to find enjoyment in the things you need to do but avoid. I tried it somewhat and I ended up isolating myself with kinda just my mind for a few hours, but it seemed to not achieve much, and I was afraid to purposefully waste more hours like that, so I didn't try it again. I felt like the boredom didn't actually make me feel more appreciative or anything, so it seemed like maybe some tasks I'm just doomed to be bored with. But it was very clear how much you gained an appreciation for that time at Denny's with friends and an appreciation for everyday stuff. It makes me wonder again how I might potentially find a way to feel the same about things in my own life. If you had any random thoughts yourself, now I'm eager to hear them, too. I feel like we maybe really don't express ourselves enough online. Might be fun to try. In person, you laugh and you make faces and everything, but online only what we explicitly decide to share is shared. It's good for anonymity and safety, but at the same time imagine how much fun stuff about each others' personalities we miss and also deprive others of. I'm glad everyone seeing this now enjoyed my thoughts enough to make it to the end. At least, I think there probably wouldn't be any other reason for someone to read this now. I've never written random thoughts like this before... It would be cool if someone else shares some random thoughts too 👀
the way the video went from funny to kind of philosophical to funny again to a big philosophical hit at the end was really interesting. 9/10 video, -1 point because that clock is too loud. (/j, /j, 10/10.)
really inspiring man i feel like me sticking my face to the phone ruined my life i cannot focus i have a surge of useless thoughts through out the day,low self-esteem from seeing extremely luxurious lifestyles and so much more negative shit roaming the internet, I'm considering doing this in the next couple of days
I resonated very deeply with this video in ways that are a bit too personal to go into online, but I just want you to know that for the tonal whiplash it had it was just very very well done.
wow in a strange way this has been the message I've been looking for for a long time... sounds obvious but this context shows it from a new perspective. Thank you.
i think what i love the most about this is that when you finally reached your breaking point you didn't keep torturing yourself and pushed through you gave yourself a a well needed break/award and i'm proud of you BUT DEAR LORD MAN WHAT YOU DID IS JUST INSANE thanks for torturing yourself so we don't have to /j hope ure doing good
This is the same effect that mental hospitals give that makes them work (at least for me) you do literally nothing and have access to nothing therefore overtime you just think about everything that’s ever happened and just completely mentally reset.
yeah in retrospect replacing screentime with a penitentiary practice that is well known to wreak havoc on the mind (solitary confinement) might not be the best idea
11:00 that one line made me incredibly sad, this just shows how society isn’t able to open up to mental health to the point where people can call them self baby for being alone for such a long period of time
this is the most meaningful video you've ever made. thank you for sharing with us and reminding us to not take the little things in life for granted. keep on living on. :)
Ok just finish watching the entire video and i am going to say this, you did an amazing job. You are the first person to torture yourself by isolation(mr beast) but it felt so true the mental break down, i may not have the same reason or the level of mental breakdown but i can relate of what you said
If I knew my screentime on my laptop I would totally do something similar to this - it looks actually kind of like it might be good. Maybe not as dramatic, maybe a bit less time, but I think if I looked at that time and spent it doing something different, maybe I would be better off?
that what you experienced cannot be put into words, as much as you tried explaining it cannot reach the conciousness of us, it is impossible. The only way of experiencing this and gaining knowlegde off this is to do it yourself and experience first hand much love guys❤
Every single goddamn time I watch one of these videos of someone just deadass psychologically torturing themself like 75% of the things they experience during are things I experience at least weekly and it just makes me go "Oh. *Oh, I am not in a good place mentally, huh?"*
4:57 , now i know im not alone. ever since I've been using my phone so much, i feel like i'm on autopilot. it feels like im not alive. Like im a robot. I have lots of existential crisis bc of that. You came out a different person. You started exploring yourself more. You found out more about yourself, the world, and life. You saw things most people don't. You're experiencing, appreciating and discovering life. You found out how much you love your friends. And shared your wonderful experience with us. I have nothign but respect and admiration for you. And hell yeah im gonna do this for sure. As hard as it is, it'll solve lots of problems i have. I feel like i don't know myself at all, like im a stranger to myself. While it's scary to start discovering myself, who knows what lies in me. But the thought of not living (living like a robot) is way scarier. Good luck on your journey in life, brother. Stay safe.
Props to you for making it through this but actual sensory deprivation would be putting earplugs in, headphones, and a blindfold. You had lights on, a notebook, and you could talk and hear. I think you just tortured yourself bro😅
I know how difficult it was for you to show your real feelings instead of a perfect picture, and I want to thank you for your sincerity! I believe in you and you will overcome all the difficulties on your way! One day you will be able to be happy, and you will understand that all this was not in vain. With videos like this you will help others too so thanks again fella
This is the greatest video I've ever seen. It literally fascinates me to see you suffer and act in a weird way idk how to describe it or wth is wrong with me but I love it.
12:48 this was the best comedic timing i ever witnessed! Also, thank you for this wonderful and honest experience. It was a pleasure. Im crying out of sentiment and laughing out of enjoyment at the same time.
@tylerwatcher Not necessarily, I'm a very introverted and honest individual who enjoys the little and simple things in life. Video games, anime, Asmr, etc. That challenge is simply an everyday life experience for me.
This video was so cool and informative. I had a great time watching it, and I learned a lot too. The speaker did a fantastic job of explaining the topic and kept me engaged throughout the entire video. I especially liked the examples used to illustrate the concepts.
Your videos are so good edited, it's insane, the denny's subplot was so professionally handled, as well. When I first clicked on your video, I definitely didn't expect such high level of content. It reminds me of ryan trahan's. Keep up the great work, man🔥😎
hey, i just wanted to tell you that crying does NOT make you a baby. it doesnt make you weak. it means you are strong. strong enough to experience emotions that so many people are afraid to, and you posted it online too! you showed a very vulnerable thing and i think thats fucking admirable.
going directly from "I am crying I am having a fucking mental breakdown" to "I wonder how many times I can write 'among us' repeatedly" is maybe the most honest and accurate depiction of having a shitty mental health day I have ever seen
Oh my God, I used to think I was the only one who did stuff like this.
so true. SO FKING TRUE
You'll also notice Mr. Beast's 50 hour solitary confinement has similar symptons in this video, when you are a trapped in a room for a long time, you will start acting like a child, and start going through many emotions and all 4 stages of grief, shock, anger, wonder, acceptance.
Wait it happens to me a lot of times, is it not normal? 😰
I’m ashamed to say I have an average of 9 hours a day on my phone and this video is making me want to change that
instead of using his phone, he has instead opted for psychological torture
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Honestly past the 10 hour screen time mark the phone itself is essentially psychological torture
97 year old kid still serves mental torture the old-fashioned way
replace psychological torture with psychological torture
No difference
I think this video has done more to me thinking about how much time is spent on my phone than any person just saying “it’s bad”. You know the time you spend on there isn’t good but physically seeing that same amount of time mentally break someone does something.
this. THIS. this sums the entire emotional journey i just went on
@@ikeasupremacy
Yo, did you try it for yourself?
@@ivoryas1696 Hey! My comment was regarding my feelings about the video, but I actually did try and do this. I gave up after less than an hour, he's a strong man.
(Then again, I'm ADHD. I didn't expect much.)
@@ikeasupremacyI’m not ADHD, I’m just a child(my only excuse)
@@mr.spytom 😂😂 Also valid
'not every man is as stable as I am' that shit made me laugh fr
"lets see how long i can stare at this phone for"
13 hours a day apparently
😂
13 hour
Those are rookie numbers, we should pump those numbers up.
21 hours 😅
@@ZeoZephyr That's more like it, my matrix plugged-in cyber-friend !
Like a monk reaching self actualization but instead of peaceful meditation he’s writing amongus for five hours
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"not allowed to eat, not allowed to sleep, just be alone with my thoughts"
calling it now before i finish the video, he's gonna speedrun depression.
well i was half right, he was edging it.
You typed it all in one go...no edit or anything...fraud? Did you just type it, watch the video to completion before finishing your review and eventual submission?
@@rr.studios He probably typed it out finished the video then wrote the final bit. It doesn't matter though it's not that deep
@@Escrode But you're WRONG! It IS that deep. I am right and you are wrong. That's how it's supposed to be in the TH-cam comment section.
@@rr.studioswomp womp
@@locksmall4952 D- Did you just say womp womp? How DARE you! How Absolutely DARE you!!
5:35 that reminded me of when I was 13 and it was my second trip to the psych ward and one night my roommate and I couldn’t sleep, so we pulled up our chairs to the window and put on some chill music and watched the snow fall. At the time that was the first time I’d felt happy and at peace in years. There’s just something really special about watching the snow fall with someone else :))
That sounds so awesome dude : D
Sick bastard.
i love psych wards
im glad you could find such a beautiful moment in what sounds like such a hard place. i hope you have found some happiness and are healing from whatever you were going through :)
"When I stopped and thought about it, running with Eren and Mikasa to that tree, the day was warm and the breeze was tender. At that moment, I felt like I was born to run up that hill with them." -Armin AOT
I wonder how many moments we experience we miss out on?
This video was quite unexpectedly heartwarming, plus that last clip gave me a chuckle
3:12 blud solved phone addiction by staring at his phone for 1.5 hrs
Blud was like "resist the urge"
lmao :))
@@Anonimator_ph
-To scroll, mind you.-
This is how people go insane.
Oh don't worry this is quite tame compared to what ive read in HP Lovecraft
This is how he realized modern life is insane
By becoming insane enough to avoid it
@@ManilockPiinsanity (schizophrenia in the deleuzian sense) is the body rejecting the organs (modern life in this context) that are attacking it
IE he realised that modern life is insane
12:47 insane that the "you live to experience" piece only shows up for 1/3 of a second. i find it super cool
that one unemployed friend on a tuesday afternoon
can’t wait to use 13 minutes of my screen time to watch ko battle his screen time :3
Literally my whole internal monologue during the entire duration of this video
he replaced screentime with solitary confinement........
Honestly this whole video put the whole 'lower your screen time' thing into perspective cause you don't really have a concept of time until it's just you v.s. time. I didn't realize until watching this that having asd, sensory issues, and light adhd and being addicted to screens n stuff makes me overstimulated and under stimulated at the same time. Addiction to screens is one of the craziest and most dystopian things ever how the heck did we get here T - T
Simultaneous over- and under- stimulation unlocked some sort of understanding in me: thank you. It's like the surface level is satisfied but the underneath isn't. The "watch pretty lights move' part is good, but there's no actual mental stimulation. So the scrolling gets faster, so the surface level gets used to flashier and flashier lights, so if something can only be stimulating enough to the surface level if it's overstimulating to ghe deeper part and the deeper part can only be stimulated by something that's slow enough to understimulate the surface level. I'll have to do some more thinking on this later, but here, have some stream of consciousness revalatory word vomit, have a good day, internet stranger.
you know the thing is it's either i seriously lose my mind or i lose my time, and i'd rather do the latter.
@@improbableopera793 Omg this made me smile so much. Good day to you too!
I learned to replace (most) of my screen time by putting every video I'm interested in watching in the "watch later" playlist. Whenever I'm doing chores I put on my headphones and let it play until my chores are done or I'm too exhausted to continue. I think it's a good way to be productive while also feeding your brain with whatever it craves, as a form of ongoing positive reinforcement while doing unpleasant things.
thank you for being so brave to be vulnerable in front of the internet (and for the mental anguish you put yourself through). but seriously it isnt easy and i find videos like these to be so meaningful. ive been through something similar so i know how much torture it is. hermiting for a year and never leaving your room or talking to anyone is something i dont wish on anyone. internet addictions are really grueling. this was a beautifully put together video of your thoughts. thank you for sharing this :)
"'You're acting really weird today have you forgotten how to interact with people?' and then I was like have you ever wondered if you could put 200 bees in a ziplock bag" LMAOO I love your content its seriously underrated
as someone with alot of dissociation and memory issues i really understand the feeling of finally feeling present, and watching your first mental catastrophe gave me one of my own. one of the reasons i am terminally online is because even around friends i've known my entire life i've never felt socially safe, the only place i've felt that way is the internet and i think i need alot of therapy to help me get over that. i just cant talk openly to people in real life, and i dont know why.
Hi, I'm just one person amongst all humanity, I've came across 3 people just the way you've described yourself which I've helped opening in the past, so...
I'm just dropping these questions there for you, or for you'n't :
- Do you have a single person with which you could fathom talking openly ? Have you tried opening for real ? Several times ? With whom it would've been appropriate ?
- Do you have traumas ? If yes, are you advancing on the path of "maturing" ? Or are they still burdens you define yourself with ?
- Are you well surrounded ? How many people you have that you could have a bit more of a talk than phatic conversation ?
I'm not a doctor, or psychologist, but starting to choose the people with which you want to try to reach on the path of opening is the hardest step to take, but also the first as well.
I hope everything goes fine by you, and eventually social interraction will because less threatening to you the more you go.
Just keep trying, again and again, great things come from other people most of the time.
Have a nice evening.
Ay man, just wanted to know if you got a Discord. If ya do let me know! I ask because seems like you could use an online homie who is both around for you but ALSO helps to motivate you to do,, some irl things?
I have found that as long as I Get Social Interaction, even if it is online, there are plenty of activities I can enjoy alone, like walking, or cycling, or drawing, and I was wondering if you may be interested in having a homie who could help you plan out some blocks in your day to maybe just,, go outside or do god knows what, or even do god knows what inside! Doing things in general is pretty good
If you're up for it, just let me know
Yeah…
@@polotag9714 sorry you couldn't get a response
Lmao this man gonna end up insane
ive been reflecting on my time usage and how much i’ve been on my phone recently and this was definitely a good reminder for me. i went out on a walk today with my dog without looking at my phone at all and felt this feeling i haven’t felt in a really long time. i was so happy and reminiscing on my youth and looking back on memories i hold near and dear to my heart. thank you for this
to cure /my/ phone addiction, i will... uh.. watch this video on my laptop 👍 doesn't count as screentime as long as my phone doesn't know, right?
so real
I know this is a joke and I know you're well aware but for anybody reading this, keep in mind TH-cam is designed to work the exact same way as any app on your phone--to draw your attention and drain your time and feed you ads and make you unhappy. If it's something you're interested in, I hope your next step can be taking some time away from the computer as well!
REAL
I had never been so deeply offended before
SAME DUDE
Though you recommended us not to. I'm really inspired by your video to try this out. I've been hitting the 12h average screen time lately...
Thanks a lot for sharing the mental breakdowns too, seeing you get emotional makes me feel less lonely in my current depressive period.
Don't do it. He may have made it out alright, but it's not healthy. Find someone you can trust to hold on to your possessions that'll keep you from being productive for a little while. Remove your apps from your phone and keep it in a drawer or something but never far away in case you have an emergency.
agree with the other comment, there aren't really any benefits to this exercise that the negative effects won't override tbh. Instead, I'd recommend trying a 6/12/24 hour period where you turn off all screens completely. Not allowing youtube, texting, music streaming, alarm clocks, anything. For nearly every alarm bell that may pop into your head when reading this that insists this isn't feasible, I promise there is a way around it that doesn't require a screen.
I would even argue that TuChinz comment about "keep it in a drawer or something but never far away in case you have an emergency" is holding you back. It's okay to leave your phone at home and like... just go somewhere. Walk to the 7/11 and buy an icecream. Pre-plan with a friend and go run around an antique store for a while, and try chitchatting with the owner. Go sit at the park and people watch for an hour, etc. I don't know your age, but even if you are preteen/teenage, I say give it a shot. The world can seem inescapably dangerous through Internet, but you would be okay. And you might learn a lot about yourself!!
Periodically taking stock of how you feel, recognizing when physical urges to check your phone take over for a moment, can all be really valuable. It's a very odd feeling going from "hm I'm bored, I guess I'll refresh Pinterest for the 11th time" to "hm I'm bored, I guess I'll... do that assignment? Practice guitar a little bit? Hard boil some eggs, I haven't tried that in a while. Or maybe just lay on the floor instead of the bed." I can't imagine how good it would feel to gain back 12 hours of my day. I know depression symptoms can make it so much harder, but I think it might help. No matter what you decide to do, I hope you feel better soon!
Literally just buy a flip phone instead.
@@blackizationz 6, 12, or 24 hour periods.
@@blackizationz yea
This video started with a funny challenge and ended with the deepest message I needed for the last 3 years what the hell
Yeah, that’s pretty much every kodekai video
Is this why you texted me at 2am and said you wanted Denny's?
yeh
LMFAOOOOOOOO
Brodie tweaking 💀💀💀
Bro this video was AMAZING. It had amazing storytelling. it was very authentic and emotional.This is the next kind of TH-cam video
This honestly made me cry. We need more people with your willpower
honestly idk how you even stay awake like am so addicted to my phone that if i look away from the screen for over 2h(not when am outside of corse) i just get the over whelming feeling of "i want to sleep now, now and NOW" even if i just woke up i feel really tired without my phone
Same bro
Thank you so much for making this video and thank you for having the bravery to show yourself in a vulnerable situation! I'm 30 years old and in the past I made it an effort not to be distracted the whole time and still getting time in to be alone with myself and my feelings. In the last time however, it's gotten increasingly difficult, most days I can't even sleep without having the tv on. This video just gave me a much needed reality check and some stuff to think about.
this is actually such a beautiful video. especially the ending. i haven't watched a video in a long time which made me feel like this. keep it up man. go far
Bro has the lost texts taped to his wall
I just want to thank you for showing so much vulnerability. That is not easy, confronting yourself with yourself. I hope you grew as a person because of this, cus you deserve it
Going into a cave and staring at a dark wall is a meditation practice that actually helps anxiety and finding comfort in just living
one of the most underrated youtubers ever
That ending was absolutely incredible, i'm very happy more and more people are realising how living the real life is important.
6 hours and 1 minute... dude for me on a weekend... that is light work
I’m watching this at 10hours and 37 mins….
💀my daily avg being 9 hours and 39 mins I think we need help
mine is literally 13 hours 🤥
Used to be 14h on a weekend and bad day, I managed to knock it down to 7h deleting almost all media and working my way down. Average day I'm doing three now :D
Deftones
Seeing this man struggling so much with what I put up with everyday makes me feel better I’ve only ever felt lonely-ish and even then I get over it but not once have I had a mental breakdown or something else like that
man puts himself in solitary confinement for the vine
I miss Vine.
This makes me remember a moment I had with someone special far away, walking up a brick path lined with coffee stores, hand in hand, listening to an accordion player. It felt truly magical. And I think because I miss them, I'm distracting myself and running away from the memories, burying them in the process. But the memories are all anyone has, that can't be tarnished. I need to stop running and having similar screen time and instead make more special moments. I want to make friends that I can hang with outside of class. I want to experience moments that are special to me. Those are things I live for. Not for screen time or vain goals.
This is pretty relatable. Because I don't have people known as friends so it's just me sitting there and either trying not to have a panic attack or being the goofiest goober known to man kind.
I've been travelling Australia by myself, mostly staying out in the bush and this allmost perfectly mirrors my experience. The lack of everything make you appreciate anything.
kodekai its ok to cry g, thank you for doing self-experimentation and sharing it with us
Some random thoughts:
- That airplane trail at the end was cool. I never saw the two lines so distinctly nor how they're both not perfectly straight but wobbly and blown into broken wiggles.
- Also I think it was easier for me to find humor in your words when you were crying and emotional. I guess it was unfiltered in a way that can be hard to do on purpose, and it felt more relatable.
- Those things are unrelated, but I wonder if maybe saying more random fun thoughts without forcing myself to need to have them all be relevant to each other or something could help counter how little I otherwise express myself online.
- I love that memes can amuse us for no apparent reason, and the written amongus spam feels like a testament to that.
- The flipping off the ceiling is also so random, but I kinda loved it too. It's probably kinda random and irrelevant (as I suppose I can feel like my feelings are) to be upset at the ceiling, but I liked that you were honest about it. I want to be more expressive like that I think. I probably won't need to flip off the ceiling, but maybe I can find other ways to be expressive.
- I wonder if you knew before doing this challenge that VSauce did something similar and mentioned in his video that such isolation and monotony for even just hours can be potentially damaging. Idk if it was for you, but I feel like that would discourage me from trying it.
- Still, I do think this was interesting as an experiment. I heard the advice of purposefully boring yourself in order to find enjoyment in the things you need to do but avoid. I tried it somewhat and I ended up isolating myself with kinda just my mind for a few hours, but it seemed to not achieve much, and I was afraid to purposefully waste more hours like that, so I didn't try it again. I felt like the boredom didn't actually make me feel more appreciative or anything, so it seemed like maybe some tasks I'm just doomed to be bored with. But it was very clear how much you gained an appreciation for that time at Denny's with friends and an appreciation for everyday stuff. It makes me wonder again how I might potentially find a way to feel the same about things in my own life.
If you had any random thoughts yourself, now I'm eager to hear them, too. I feel like we maybe really don't express ourselves enough online. Might be fun to try. In person, you laugh and you make faces and everything, but online only what we explicitly decide to share is shared. It's good for anonymity and safety, but at the same time imagine how much fun stuff about each others' personalities we miss and also deprive others of. I'm glad everyone seeing this now enjoyed my thoughts enough to make it to the end. At least, I think there probably wouldn't be any other reason for someone to read this now. I've never written random thoughts like this before... It would be cool if someone else shares some random thoughts too 👀
the way the video went from funny to kind of philosophical to funny again to a big philosophical hit at the end was really interesting.
9/10 video, -1 point because that clock is too loud. (/j, /j, 10/10.)
really inspiring man i feel like me sticking my face to the phone ruined my life i cannot focus i have a surge of useless thoughts through out the day,low self-esteem from seeing extremely luxurious lifestyles and so much more negative shit roaming the internet, I'm considering doing this in the next couple of days
Bro sacrificed his grades and relationships to fix his phone addiction and provide us with entertainment. MAD RESPECT💯
I resonated very deeply with this video in ways that are a bit too personal to go into online, but I just want you to know that for the tonal whiplash it had it was just very very well done.
unexpectedly hit me in the feels.
i really appreciate this. this is the most Genuine I've ever seen a person be, to a camera or otherwise.
wow in a strange way this has been the message I've been looking for for a long time... sounds obvious but this context shows it from a new perspective. Thank you.
i think what i love the most about this is that when you finally reached your breaking point you didn't keep torturing yourself and pushed through you gave yourself a a well needed break/award and i'm proud of you BUT DEAR LORD MAN WHAT YOU DID IS JUST INSANE thanks for torturing yourself so we don't have to /j
hope ure doing good
Your videos always turn out silly and hilarious all at the same time ^.^
This is the same effect that mental hospitals give that makes them work (at least for me) you do literally nothing and have access to nothing therefore overtime you just think about everything that’s ever happened and just completely mentally reset.
i swear you and your friends are the next generation of youtubers
I can't believe he chose isolation over self improvement.
AND I'M ALL HERE FOR IT BROTHER!
yeah in retrospect replacing screentime with a penitentiary practice that is well known to wreak havoc on the mind (solitary confinement) might not be the best idea
Bro went from emotional and insperational speech to making one of the most godawful noises followed by "what the fuck"
I felt every single emotion... damn dude
I know this video is pretty old but all I can say is. eating sleeping and being healthy really does help a lot with your life
wow... i did not excpect that by the end this video would get so philosophical
Deadass best channel I’ve seen since dantdm,my uncle touched me when I was younger, pls make more I need you…
This is one of the best videos i have seen on youtube. Please keep it up😔✨
wow thank you
11:00 that one line made me incredibly sad, this just shows how society isn’t able to open up to mental health to the point where people can call them self baby for being alone for such a long period of time
this is the most meaningful video you've ever made. thank you for sharing with us and reminding us to not take the little things in life for granted. keep on living on. :)
"Maybe 2-4 hours, 6 if your having a bad day and maybe even more than 10!"
Me who's daily screentime is 13 hrs: _interesting_
This channel really is "My unemployed friend on a random Wednesday"
Ok just finish watching the entire video and i am going to say this, you did an amazing job. You are the first person to torture yourself by isolation(mr beast) but it felt so true the mental break down, i may not have the same reason or the level of mental breakdown but i can relate of what you said
If I knew my screentime on my laptop I would totally do something similar to this - it looks actually kind of like it might be good. Maybe not as dramatic, maybe a bit less time, but I think if I looked at that time and spent it doing something different, maybe I would be better off?
one of the best videos I've ever seen on youtube, definitely gonna take some notes from your experience. keep it up!
that moment you realize global daily average is 7 hours a day, and 6 hours is on the lighter side
that what you experienced cannot be put into words, as much as you tried explaining it cannot reach the conciousness of us, it is impossible. The only way of experiencing this and gaining knowlegde off this is to do it yourself and experience first hand
much love guys❤
Every single goddamn time I watch one of these videos of someone just deadass psychologically torturing themself like 75% of the things they experience during are things I experience at least weekly and it just makes me go "Oh. *Oh, I am not in a good place mentally, huh?"*
You lock yourself in a room with earplugs limited batgroom breaks no food and no outside interaction at all?
Airpods and hyperfocus, yes.
oh yeah
one thing:
replace a comfortable habit that can be addictive by suffering is one of the best way to go back strongly on addiction issues
I am so glad Jack featured you on his channel. You became one of my favorite creators in this site.
Something has to be wrong with me
who is this jack and how has he brought you here :0
WHO???
@@ponfi0275 The Jack.
4:57 , now i know im not alone. ever since I've been using my phone so much, i feel like i'm on autopilot. it feels like im not alive. Like im a robot. I have lots of existential crisis bc of that. You came out a different person. You started exploring yourself more. You found out more about yourself, the world, and life. You saw things most people don't. You're experiencing, appreciating and discovering life. You found out how much you love your friends. And shared your wonderful experience with us. I have nothign but respect and admiration for you. And hell yeah im gonna do this for sure. As hard as it is, it'll solve lots of problems i have. I feel like i don't know myself at all, like im a stranger to myself. While it's scary to start discovering myself, who knows what lies in me. But the thought of not living (living like a robot) is way scarier.
Good luck on your journey in life, brother. Stay safe.
That seems like a last TH-cam video I’m gonna watch for a while
I love the wholesome messages at the end of every video
This is art.
*Sniffle* “i want denny’s :(“
Why is that so funny to me?
Props to you for making it through this but actual sensory deprivation would be putting earplugs in, headphones, and a blindfold. You had lights on, a notebook, and you could talk and hear. I think you just tortured yourself bro😅
I know how difficult it was for you to show your real feelings instead of a perfect picture, and I want to thank you for your sincerity! I believe in you and you will overcome all the difficulties on your way! One day you will be able to be happy, and you will understand that all this was not in vain. With videos like this you will help others too so thanks again fella
This might be not healthy for your brain
“Have you ever wondered if you can put 200 bees in a zip lock bag?” 😂
This is the greatest video I've ever seen. It literally fascinates me to see you suffer and act in a weird way idk how to describe it or wth is wrong with me but I love it.
12:48 this was the best comedic timing i ever witnessed!
Also, thank you for this wonderful and honest experience. It was a pleasure. Im crying out of sentiment and laughing out of enjoyment at the same time.
As an introvert, I'm taking this challenge how many times in my life, and I can say this is extremely easy. Being lonely is just another day for me.
I feel you
do you spend this time on the phone or pc? because that's different from just sitting alone with your mind
@tylerwatcher Not necessarily, I'm a very introverted and honest individual who enjoys the little and simple things in life. Video games, anime, Asmr, etc. That challenge is simply an everyday life experience for me.
This video was so cool and informative. I had a great time watching it, and I learned a lot too. The speaker did a fantastic job of explaining the topic and kept me engaged throughout the entire video. I especially liked the examples used to illustrate the concepts.
Did an AI write this?
Your videos are so good edited, it's insane, the denny's subplot was so professionally handled, as well. When I first clicked on your video, I definitely didn't expect such high level of content. It reminds me of ryan trahan's. Keep up the great work, man🔥😎
Didn't expect the ending to turn into a lesson, thanks for making this
11:29 help, what do you do if you have no friends
I needed this. don't delete this video
Very Interesting and Creative Idea !
hey, i just wanted to tell you that crying does NOT make you a baby. it doesnt make you weak. it means you are strong. strong enough to experience emotions that so many people are afraid to, and you posted it online too! you showed a very vulnerable thing and i think thats fucking admirable.
my last weeks average is 10h and 1 minute..
edit: this video made me truly realize how lonely i am
Hey hii wanna be friends? i'm lonely too
@@kiillaa.._ yooo same !!! (sure)
@@sleepyastrooo you got discord? :0
At the end you can see the pages of among us getting worse and worse in quality and it's hilarious
I have 10-12 hours of screen time...
“Especially bad week with an average 6 hours of screen time”
Me with a weekly averge of at least 9hrs
"I am very lonely" is the realest thing I've ever heard. Also you should get a hair glow up.
I do think its usefull to sit in silence like you did. You realized the things that really do matter. Love man❤.