This is a teenager. Let's track hundreds of teens into adulthood using this huge dataset.
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 8 เม.ย. 2024
- We trace the paths of hundreds of teenagers, starting in 1997, to see how their childhood experiences affected their life outcomes.
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This is actually pretty depressing. Basically "hey kids, if you have a crappy childhood, remember you probably have a crappy adulthood to look forward to!"
Ironically that adult who had a crappy childhood will just get told to man up and not blame everyone else for their problems... when in reality, other people did cause the problems.
oh my god how encouraging this is for me
Not true. If you check the happiness figure, still about 66% of the ones in the bottom group were happy. They are just more likely not to be, but most actually have good lives too
@@adamz7038And tbf although the bottom group's incomes was initially a lot worse than the higher groups, by 2021 you can see it had balanced out a lot more between the groups.
This is probably from managing to work their way up through company positions (i.e. from shelf stacker to manager).
@@javant6993just stay strong and go to college
“most teens in 1997 strongly agreed their future would be optimistic” 💀 little did they know…
Little did they know the world turned out like the one in watchmen
4 years later september 11th 2001 the day the world changed
@@Megamind_mog2008 was probably more influential for the average person in their 20s tbh
dear Americans, world dont give a shit about this date. İt was just a normal day for everybody but americans. 2008 is way more important@@Megamind_mog
@@turplexx233 I feel like there's at least a few other countries that were bombed into non-existence that probably care about the date, or the numerous countries who have been victim to subsequent attacks that likely started with the war on terror. 2008 may have never happened without 2001 coming first. Also, the National Longitudinal Survey of Youth was completed ONLY with kids in America....so it's relevant to this video and impacted every single person represented in the data. I grew up during this time frame and 2008 was barely notable for many people, but 2001 completely changed everyone's lives.
The video is super interesting, but the constant changing of colors made it confusing to follow.
I agree, also if he made the colors more distinct it would have been easier to see at a glance. Either way great video and very informative
he should’ve included the numbers instead of just dividing them by colors
thought I was too dumb to understand..
This was actually super helpful as a visual person than just numbers, Interesting how everyone has different learning styles
EXACTLY! so true
I spent way too long writing a big-ass paragraph, was about to finish it and then I accidentally pressed the back button on my browser
F in the chat
I rewrote the paragraph and posted it and it got 1 like, meanwhile my comment about the paragraph got 17 likes
Me too
@@BarelyConsciousPotato I can't find your paragraph comment :(
@@PuraCiensualidadyou should be able to find it if you sort by newest and scroll down to 5 days ago
Amazing video, but please put percentages because sometimes simply saying that a section is longer than another isn't helpful when they aren't the same height(misleading data)
Yeah that really bugged me not being able to easily see exact amount or proportion easily
Different heights actually makes it easier to see percentages. It’s about proportions relative to the group size, we’re not comparing the group sizes to each other
@@derinwithaq5811you know what would be even easier? Just writing the percentage
@@joshuaokparaocha331 true that
* Different widths; the heights account for number, while the widths should have stayed constant
alright, you're probably not looking for it, but I'm gonna give some feedback:
the data was rather hard to properly interpret using your way of displaying it. I understand you're going for a cool looking representation but here it's really detracting from the message. the numbers are percentual but you also include how many are in each group which makes it rather hard to track. Using the same colors for different data that changes rather rapidly also makes it rather hard to see what's going on.
the only way I 'got' my information was by whatever you were saying, by the facts you recounted, not by the visual on the screen.
prime example: "you can see that a HUGE portion of kids..." (4:05) I was taken very of guard, because it is almost impossible to interpret how big it is in comparison. percentually, looking at the colors, it's not that different from "no adverse experience", but then again the horizontal 'width" of the no adverse experience group is stretched meaning you can't make a good comparison. Then I saw that the middle group is way bigger and there it was even harder to gauge how the percentual numbers stacked up. The whole visual makes me (at first glance) think that there is barely a difference here, while you say otherwise!
but yeah for the rest, cool vid idea, conceptually cool visuals. Feel free to ignore this critique, it's just my POV.
Totally agree. It was hard for me too.
Engagement for agreement
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I also agree, this video is very fascinating, but the visuals are hard to make sense of compared to the other visuals. I will also add on that I think the link to the NLSY should be available in the description for those who want to look through the survey themselves.
No i like how the little people run, Karen.
You don’t get to shape your childhood, but you get to shape your children’s childhood. I know it’s not easy, but every minute of it is worth it.
Correct! News flash for some; real parents sacrifice for their kids. They do w/o themselves so their kids can have; they throw their careers under the bus to raise their kids; they put in overtime to benefit their kids; they move across states to better their kids education.
Far too many just read this & said, "oh hell no, not me!!!"
@@kathyfahey5469 That's not a live I would want to live. You just got to enjoy the benefits of adulthood, then get a child with 25 and for the next 20 years - your BEST years (healthwise) you just pause yourself? Maybe having a kid is worth more than I think it is, but right now living for someone else does not seem appealing to me. Also "I will sacrifice myself so they will have it better one day" does not really make sense to me if "they" then sacrifice themselves aswell and infact have it NOT better than me.
But that is just my point of view, based on not much experience, I don't want to offend anybody. If it feels right to you, good for you. And I agree that parents have responsabilty!
@@aramisortsbottcher8201i totally agree with you !!
It is so difficult to be a good parent but it is absolutely vital to the success and wellbeing of your children. No kid should suffer parental neglect.
I'm a teenager and I was thinking I would adopt a child when I grow up, but I likely won't. I realized that a child isn't simply an accessory to add onto my life; they would be a giant part of my life. There would be an abundance of stressful and uncomfortable situations where they would be relying on me and I would have to be "the adult," I would be responsible for their safety, and mistakes I make could have a lifelong affect on them. When I go home, they would always be there, sacrificing privacy and alone time. I might not want to dedicate that much time and effort to a child, and I wouldn't want to put one in a situation where they're being neglected or feeling unwanted. I think it may be better if I just get married and focus on my husband, maybe do some charity work or help out at my church, and spend time making art. Or who knows, maybe I'll change my mind.
Btw sorry if my big paragraph doesn't relate much to what you said, it kind of led into other stuff and I ended up writing a lot, you don't have to read that
@@BarelyConsciousPotato Oh yeah totally. Once you got a kid you live your life basically for the purpose of raising the child and providing them good virtues in life. I'm not trying to diminish the joy of parenthood however it isn't for everyone.
@@thatguytj1775 ikkrrr and i don't get the social norm...if you exist you must reproduce....ikk that's how nature works but the population is already quite enough and I don't think bringing a child into this chaos just to fulfill your unsaid duty is a right thing to do.
@@BarelyConsciousPotato You know, there are people who think that others who don't have children failed the purpose of life. But I think it is better to be a good teacher, docter, what ever - a "supporter" to a child than just the creator of one. Having ten people have ten children with bad lives is more failure in my eyes than having ten people with 5 children with good lives.
So, yeah, don't feel useless or something. I am thankful for you wanting to do charity work or help the community in other ways :D
Hehehe I like how the little people run
Also the lifelong adverse trauma is pretty interesting, especially reflecting on how adverse experiences have shaped who I am today. I'm in the emerging adult stage and I feel being in college has definitely helped me slowly prepare to be an adult.
The fastest way to get to where you wanna go is slowly. Take it easy, find an outlet for your stress and you'll be there soon.
One problem is acknowledging things. I've been around a lot of bad stuff, but.. how much did it effect me? I like to say it didn't, but it can't have done absolutely nothing lol.
It makes sense that having issues in your upbringing can cause problems in the long run. After all, those are the years in which your major formation occur.
you don't control who you grow up to be, it is determined.
@@Danuxsy It is not.
@Danuxsy you don't have control over your environment or the things you experienced, but you do have control over your actions
@@Andrea-fz3pm what exactly do you have control over? you don't even control your own thoughts.
I want to know more about the people who have many adverse experiences and still finish 4 years college degree.
My bro and i grew up in the same household and he became a doctor and i still live at home w ptsd lol, but he got us the home so we're cool
Well if what you're saying is that some kids with childhood trauma grow up to be "successful", yeah, they might. But the point is that childhood trauma can have a negative impacts on your "success", or more accurately, your mental health and development which can translate to worse outcomes along the line. And a lot of kids who come traumatic backgrounds (especially true with immigrant households) may have been pressured to perform well in school, others may have done well in school to escape their backgrounds etc etc. And it's important to understand that financial/educational success does not equate with the quality of someone's life, which includes things that childhood trauma can affect such as mental health.
@@Keith_online
We get it. We do. What WE also get is that ppl who should NOT be breeding are the ones doing exactly that. Then we pay for their screwed up offspring in more ways than 1. Incidentally, the Asian population (immigrants) push their kids hard to succeed. And they do. contrast that with black & brown.
@@Keith_online
Not equate?
That exactly what the video is about
@@Kamabushi999 Financial/educational success can contribute to the quality of someone's life, but mental health, physical health, the quality of one's relationships with friends, romantic partners, and family also contribute heavily to well-being. Adverse childhood experiences (ACEs) place populations at greater risk of dying from 9 of the 10 leading causes of death in the U.S. These causes of death include heart disease (#1), cancer (#2), and stroke (#5). And we all know that no matter how much money you earn or how educated you are, you can still become debilitated by or die from these conditions.
just a youtube tip- title and thumbnail is why this video is severely underperforming
What makes you think it's the thumbnail specifically? I'm curious.
"lets track hundreds of teens"
Oh and youre the "expert"
"Am I to blame for my bad adulthood?" as a title and the ending is the answer, how about that?
A good video doesn't need to be popular
Interestingly, the graph at 4:46 also shows, that the group with no adverse experiences had less "happy all of the time" people, than the other two groups.
Not by much I don't think? It's kinda hard to tell.
I think it's because the people who had adverse experiences were more likely to be put in stressful/deprived situations because of their trauma, leading them to be more grateful as they don't take their situation for granted.
One of my complaints about this video is the scaling of the three bars. If, at the timestamp you mentioned, the bars were scaled identically, the first bar would look even closer to the second bar.
how does this only have 550 views? Very well made video.
Algorithm/viewer retention
3k now
It's only been 2 days and they only have 3k subs
Update: 27k views
@@MK-qq7cv 35k now
Why didn't you show percentages or quantities at any point in the video? I understand you're making an artistic choice, but at some points (the happiness graphic, for one) the data directly contradicts your statements.
I found this really annoying. He'd say, "Here are those who are unhappy, as you can see there are more in the many adverse experiences section." But then all three sections have the exact same amount scaled to how many are in their section. They all looked to be around 10%
I don't usually watch videos like this but the youtube recommended thought I needed to watch it, and I did need this.
I often hear the argument that tragic experiences shape the person and prepare them for their future. This is not the case. Looking forward to seeing what you do in your future.
I see you also got recommended this video randomly.
As someone who is in their period of limbo from childhood to adulthood with negative childhood experiences, I now worry what the future will look like more than ever before. As a child and a teen, you're encouraged to put so much trust in the system that is supposed to reward hard work, but I wonder if all that work really makes any difference. It's rather depressing knowing I might not be able to escape where I've come from, but also terrifying and exciting knowing I have the opportunity to make my own of it.
The software you used to depict the graphs is an interesting gimmick, but often hard to read.
You place the tiny legend at the top in reverse order, the stacks are different in thickness, so it's hard to visually read the ratio depicted.
very well made, but next time, keep the diagramms on the same length, with different lengths for number of adverse experiences it is not easily comparable, instead more increase in the vertical direction, as you did for them too
Yes, I agree that struggles and adverse experiences during childhood are challenging. However, the message that people can use their childhood experiences as an excuse for not doing well in adulthood is a terrible message to send. I was abandoned as a child, struggled with speech problems, and others tried to hold me back with their low expectations. Now, through striving to do my best and developing self-confidence, I am graduating as the co-valedictorian of my high school class. Don’t let challenges early in life hold you back.
thanks mate for spreading the right message
Woah, you must be a really good person then:3
The format is very nicely done. But it moves through the conclusions/commentary very quickly, you have to pause at each thing to confirm the diagram matches what he’s saying. And honestly it seems like sometimes it doesn’t. The box highlights certain intersections of groups and looks at just their size, rather than comparing their size to other relevant intersections to establish a baseline.
Rough example, it’s the difference between pointing out that many people with many adverse experiences have low income, and comparing the intersection of low income and many adversities with low income and some adversity, and low income and no adversity. And other ways to slice the data
Its fine. Stop over analyzing it
@@canofsouls282 “Don’t think for yourself, just admire the pretty pictures and accept what people say.”
@@alienturtle1946 it has 100k+ views and properly communicates its message, wheres your 100k+ views? Since you seem so critical of it.
@@canofsouls282 I’ll grant you that it’s easier to criticize than to create. But by the same token, where’s your 100k+ views to cast aside constructive criticism without any discussion?
I acknowledged the strengths of the video as well as some weaknesses. The entire point of a comments section is to have some element of discussion. If it bothers you that I don’t just slurp down content uncritically, then that’s really on you, and there’s nothing I can do about it. I’m not gonna stop using my brain just because I’m not a TH-camr.
Yap
Commenting for the TH-cam algorithm to pick up on this because brother you deserve to blow up! See you on top 🎉
:)
College being an intermediate between highschool and adulthood is so true though. I'm a freshman in college about to be sophmore and I feel like I'm still a kid but trying to act like an adult. I don't know how to explain it better than that, weird period. But honestly so much better than highschool though im ngl, done with that part of my life.
Great video, one critique though is that you use different row/lengths for each group. I understand the numbers are changing, but it makes it hard to visualize the data. Maybe have 3 fixed rows, instead of 2 for the 1st group, 4 for the 2nd, and 3 for the 3rd.
Maybe you could explore what this means, ie that people growing up in risky environments are more likely to financialy struggle when they reach adulthood, other than that it's really good!
the point is that you don't control who you grow up to be, it is determined.
@@Danuxsy Which really helps show evidence against the whole mindset of "Pull yourself up by your bootstraps, everyone has an equal opportunity, if you're not rich you're lazy."
@@PappyP I find it so funny that that phrase is said unironically since it was originally said as a joke because of it being physically impossible to “pull yourself up by the bootstraps” and yet people use it as a genuine argument
Incredibly well put together video. I could see this becoming even better with time, something I'm excited for to see whenever you upload.
This was an amazing video! Hopefully the production quality grants this channel the traction it deserves.
Amazing and informative video. I loved the visuals, the voice over/script, and the music! I hope this topic becomes more widespread bc it is super important
btw this video tries to imply that childhood adverse experiences are the primary cause economic hardship, which is not something you can say from a corrolational study. It could just as well be that the economic hardship of the parents (or some other common factor) causes economic hardship for the child and adverse experiences are just a side effect.
someone’s taken a psych course! spot on. see both perspectives here and agree
As a retired HR and Training guy, I saw first-hand the "Alex's" and the social challenges they brings to a workplace. I actually had a young woman say that she loved work because it was where she was "safe" and sought overtime work to delay her inevitable trip back home. I never chose to have kids of my own. Too many examples of parenting failures around me growing up. We (as a species) NEED to do better if we CHOOSE to become parents!
This is one of those videos I know i’m going to remember for the rest of my life. Thank you for this ❤
I think the visualization, while cool, lacks clarity. Having a different number of rows and columns per category, and a different number as years change is silly. There seems to be a lot of "look at the size of the box" i.e. the absolute number of people. But if there're more total people in a category that could make one box look bigger despite having the same percentage. At the bare minimum put percentage or pie graph on the side as well!
Wishing the best for Alex, and if nothing changes for him, I wish the best for his kids.
Amazing video!!!
I loved the visual analysis!!
This is the most important visualization The Pudding has ever released. I am subscribing in the hope that you will post more such stories based on real world data. Thank you.
Loved the video and the message. I hope more people see this!
What an amazing and engaging video on an important and overlooked topic! Thanks for your contribution, this needs more views
It's also worth talking about the incomes of their parents.
Absolutely I'm pretty sure most of not all of the negative experiences tracked correlate highly with poverty
This is a fantastic video. Very well done
Would be super cool to also look at the CDC/Kaiser Permanente ACEs study as well, it shows a similar dose-dependent relationship between ACEs and health outcomes. I wasn't aware of this study and it was really great to see the results and your cool animations! Good work, looking forward to more!
Very insightful video!
this is pure gold. I lovee your channel!
crazy good editing, u gone blow up !
Commenting for the algorithm. Very enjoyable way to view data, just a bit fast-paced. I love it regardless. ❤
Such an insightful piece shedding light on the long-term effects of childhood experiences on adulthood outcomes! 🌟 It underscores the importance of addressing childhood trauma and providing supportive environments for our youth to thrive and reach their full potential.
Remember, correlation is not causation. This is an observational study with many unmeasured variables. I was both held back and bullied as a kid, but being held back has helped me with school and being bullied has left me to focus more on my grades and not where I stand socially. Now I am going this year to pursue a master's in architecutre and design with scholarships :D
Woah, you must be a really good person
This is very interesting, keep up the good work!
Great video. Keep it up man
I think it's a great message that you are portraying, I think that every person should strive to take as much responsibility for yourself as possible. The more responsibility you take in your life, the better the world will be. I believe this to be true.
How can conservatives still think that these people deserve to be poor when it is society that causes many of the issues of poverty?
Free market baby
you don't control any variable that determine who you are, how you think, what you can think, etc... genetic (epigenetic) discrimination is everywhere always.
Such a phenomenal video! So well put together and informational!
As others have said, and I agree, I think a title update would do much better for enticing others to watch this!
The animations are beautiful! Unbelievable this video doesn't get pushed more
Amazing editing!
Thos was a Amazing Narration and Visualisation of the Study and the Words at the End were great.
I remember from a British Study that reading a book to the Kid before sleep helped suprinsingly a lot.
Being Poor in Love is more detrimental than in Money.
Subscribed! Amazing video, it honestly is a trip to see how experiences will ultimately shape your life. We are living it, so to that, make 'good' choices because in the end, we make the bed we lay, some may even start without a bed; at times it may be hard to realize, but we determine how far we take it and how much we push. I wish good health and wealth to all of you no matter what color or creed. Peace ✌
Great vid. Subscribed!
The graphics are very pretty, but by presenting the data as a set of discreet points, effectively volume, it is hard to process the visuals as comparable datapoints without visual aids
cool topic and great video
Something interesting is that you learn by trial and error, but if you fail, you are punished. It doesn't make much sense.
The most wildly underrated video I’ve seen.
Love the message
Cudos to whoever animated this. Also those who did the research and wrote the script and the guy who readit out, it was really really well made
the two things i got from this are that if you have a rough childhood, you're going to carry that with you and it'll make things hard in the future and even if you have a great childhood you can still have problems in adulthood.
the video is really nice, i hope there will be more videos like this in the future, but i agree that using different colors for different data would make the video easier to keep up with
0:53 love how as he ages, he doesn’t get taller, he just becomes *w i d e r*
The gods of the TH-cam Algorithm showed me this channel, and thank god they did. This video was an amazing watch and the interactive website as well is so fascinating. Thank you for making this.
great video!!!
crazy this video has less than 3k views and is so informative!
Very good video,this needs more views.
Nice video. Very professional looking and great narration.
My only gripe is when you say which group "mostly" does or has something. The numbers are almost always higher for the middle group in every case you brought up.
Sure, percentage wise, those that reported they experienced no adverse experiences/many adverse experiences, may have a higher chance for a given thing, but when you look at those numbers, the largest percentage of people in general are the ones who experienced some adverse events.
This isn't a really a problem, I guess. I just think it could have been reworded a bit. Oh well, the general point is understood and that is what really matters after all.
This video sums up just how much we neglect our good parents if we have them...
No it doesn't. There is nothing about somehow a KID neglecting their parent??? If their parent is "good".
@@aliceee301 Yeah, if anything, this sums up how much parents neglect their children, or more specifically what that neglect can lead to.
@@aliceee301 by good i mean providing an actual functioning family environment. As people who have them we take it for granted.
@@berkesinanyetkin5722 Maybe YOU do lol. But you do not speak for everyone. And most people do not have that anyways.
Holy shit how do you adults always manage to shift the blame
3:31 thanks for explicitly mentioning this
Great video. Awesome animations and storytelling.
I feel like it could use a little more exploration of the background research and statistics to support the idea that adverse childhood experiences are this most important step in the causal chain. I think it'd lend the argument credibility and selfishly, I love research and stats so it follows that I'd make such a demand.
Nonetheless, kickass video. I may have just found a new favorite channel
Commenting to hopefully increase engagement and get this picked up by the algorithm. Great vid!
you should add percentages and go a bit slower with the introduction of new colors, cause it was a bit hard to follow.
Other than that, this was the most intresting video i've seen in the last week, I love the style and dedication that has been put into it, keep it up!
Amazing! A shame it has so few views
Very interesting, especially the facts & conclusion. Longitudinal studies are hard to do. Take it easy Alex :]
I loved this! Aesthetically, how you present the information, the subject, the ethics. Thank you
Also, while I was whatching this I thought that it would be so interesting to see how neurodivergence (autism, ADHD, dyslexia and others) affect us in the long term run. I am a 25 year old autistic woman (also with ADHD) diagnosed last month and many of my friends are autistic, so I know that for us the chances of getting bullied are higher, or getting socially ostracized, for example. The academic performance also varies. In my case, my special interests related to science and art and sociology helped me retain the information I was asked to know, but when executive functioning was required (planning ahead, doing homework, study in advance) I failed. Not every neurodivergent person is the same, but for many of us, we were considered "gifted" because school was easy for us, but as we get older and more consistency and work is required, the grades start to falter and people get dissapointed becuase "you were so smart. And we, whom have been reliant on or academic performance in a way to get approval, because maybe we were not popular or not liked, end up feeling like we're good for nothing, and that ends up hurting our career prospects, future and mental health...
Amazing video!!
very well-done video that deserves more views.
Fantastic video
This content is pretty cool! I have never seen data like this before.
I want someone to do this study on teens who lived through the pandemic and see how it'll turn out-
Cool video, thanks for tracking my life!
Truly a great video!
Although it was confusing for a second there with the colors but i quickly understood what was going on
maybe a heads-up next time would be good & i almost didnt click on this video because of the title & thumbnail
Good thing that i eventually did :)
Great video
I agree with other comments that the visulization is a bit shaky. However, I'm still going to comment because I think this is a really interesting video and I want the algorithm to boost it.
As a middle and high school teacher, I'm always bothered by how much adults blame kids for their own situations. Other teachers and parents, they are always saying kids have to take responsiblity, that they are "already grown up" and it's their fault when something goes wrong (this starts as soon as 11 or 12 years old, in my experience). And then we adults also control and micromanage every aspect of their lives. We control what they can and can't do and sometimes even force them into choosing a single option, and then we blame then when it all goes wrong. Even in households that have none of those "adverse experiences" you mention, they still have issues that can scar them. Perfectionists parents that ask too much from them, rich parents that are never in their home because they need to work 2 or 3 jobs to mantain their lifestyle, or their job keeps them travelling most of the time, exposition to higher class standards that makes them feel bad with themselves when they can't reach the stupidly high standards of the people that surround them.
We adults fuck around too much with them like they are not real people, and then get angry at them when they don't consider themselves real people.
We seriously need to stop.
For me, it all starts in education. Most adults went through that experience when they were teenagers so they think that's the only way to treat a teenager.
But a single parent or teacher can make a big change, IMO. If you interact with a teenager, just talk to them about this, give them the chance to choose, listen to them, tell them that yeah, you also went through that and you also think it's bullshit and SHOW them that it is possible to be treated differently by an adult. That teenager will grow, and become an adult that doesn't replicate the cycle with the teenagers in their life. It's a slow process, but it's the only way.
This needs more views!
“We’re gonna follow Alex for the next 24 years.”
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I hope that at some point the comments in this comment section begin to acknowledge the work that seemed to be put into making this video, evaluating such a large dataset always takes a lot of work so just wanted to mention that that work is much appreciated :)
Logged in just to like this video and say thank you
Amazing video!
Great video!
beautiful video, liked and subbed
This makes me scared for how the COVID pandemic will affect children growing up from 2020-2023. I was 14 when it started, I'm almost 18 now. If factors like uninvolved parents can affect a person's life outcomes, I'm wondering how an entire generation of children will be hardwired differently. I'm thinking that it will make us so much lonelier and more depressed/anxious.
e.g. a lot of children in middle school right now are extremely dependent on TikTok, I find them to be less sociable and more impolite (?) to service workers.
I think experiencing a year of social isolation + misinformation and fear can be considered "many" or at least "some" adverse experience for an entire generation.
People say that this video was hard to follow. it wasn't. This video was well made and easy to follow.
very well made video, nice! :D
This is gonna get viral
i loved this video! ❤
Awesome video !
if this was a thing now, i feel bad for who ever studies me. "he went to school, he got a job, he retired, he died"