Great video. It was discovered that after almost 8 years in the mental health system, that I have been struggling with dissociation. A repetitive waking up, or coming to experience. In your life. Constantly trying to remember who you are and feeling like you're living from the back of your head. I am so grateful for the new psychiatrist who looked and listened differently to when I spoke. And my artwork. But by bit, I feel comfortable dropping the guard. Inside I feel, is a different world compared to what people see. I wish to write and make art about it. And I hope that my Dr would want to walk the walk with me. It has been so comforting having someone encourage me to speak and even saying that I need to be heard. Thank you for this content about dissociation. I know that me being so lost in my Self for so long can make me look selfish and confused and distracted. But I have some hope these days. I've been living on the suicide tightrope and swimming in grief even in childhood .... and now, well now I think life can be interesting. Interesting is possible.
So is this a good explanation of how dissociation maybe differs from “normal?” In a non dissociative person, when they switch into different roles, they feel that “they” are switching and likely on purpose for a specific purpose. With dissociation, the switching happens beyond anyone’s control, and the part that was just there doesn’t feel connected to the part they just switched into. It’s like each part doesn’t even remember being any other part. Each part operates as if in a vacuum. Or, a part might be able to recall what they were doing, but they don’t have any attachment to it. It’s as if the part they recall is basically another person they were watching in a bored sort of way. They don’t experience that other part as who “they” are. So Evan watched Kathy write poetry, but didn’t think anything of it; Evan didn’t care about the poetry; it didn’t mean anything to her. But while Kathy was writing it, it felt important to her. Kathy just kind of floated and watched Evan be “professional” in the world. Watching Evan never gave Kathy confidence because she didn't experience herself as Evan. Monica lived in some kind of cage just waiting to be let out. Monica’s body was rigid, but she released all her pent up feelings in fantasies. If Monica switched back into Evan, it was as if Evan had no connection to Monica. Evan focused entirely on how to be social. It was as if Evan had no difficult memories or experiences. She was happy, outgoing, warm. The TT could “see” all the parts and he had insights about them, but in order to protect the system with his disturbing knowledge, he hid “behind” Evan as much as possible … speaking through her in ways that Evan wouldn’t notice. He never said anything that would cause Evan to be suspicious that she was saying something she didn't believe. He didn't want to rattle her, not after what happened during the breakdown of teenage years.
Video is made to look like the person is talking to an interviewer , they are not talking to us but to interviewer and hence looking in other direction .
That lizard example was quite good.
Great video. It was discovered that after almost 8 years in the mental health system, that I have been struggling with dissociation. A repetitive waking up, or coming to experience. In your life. Constantly trying to remember who you are and feeling like you're living from the back of your head. I am so grateful for the new psychiatrist who looked and listened differently to when I spoke. And my artwork. But by bit, I feel comfortable dropping the guard. Inside I feel, is a different world compared to what people see. I wish to write and make art about it. And I hope that my Dr would want to walk the walk with me. It has been so comforting having someone encourage me to speak and even saying that I need to be heard. Thank you for this content about dissociation. I know that me being so lost in my Self for so long can make me look selfish and confused and distracted. But I have some hope these days. I've been living on the suicide tightrope and swimming in grief even in childhood .... and now, well now I think life can be interesting. Interesting is possible.
Thank you for this excellent video.
Thank you for this topic, very interesting.
Glad it was helpful!
So is this a good explanation of how dissociation maybe differs from “normal?” In a non dissociative person, when they switch into different roles, they feel that “they” are switching and likely on purpose for a specific purpose. With dissociation, the switching happens beyond anyone’s control, and the part that was just there doesn’t feel connected to the part they just switched into. It’s like each part doesn’t even remember being any other part. Each part operates as if in a vacuum. Or, a part might be able to recall what they were doing, but they don’t have any attachment to it. It’s as if the part they recall is basically another person they were watching in a bored sort of way. They don’t experience that other part as who “they” are. So Evan watched Kathy write poetry, but didn’t think anything of it; Evan didn’t care about the poetry; it didn’t mean anything to her. But while Kathy was writing it, it felt important to her. Kathy just kind of floated and watched Evan be “professional” in the world. Watching Evan never gave Kathy confidence because she didn't experience herself as Evan. Monica lived in some kind of cage just waiting to be let out. Monica’s body was rigid, but she released all her pent up feelings in fantasies. If Monica switched back into Evan, it was as if Evan had no connection to Monica. Evan focused entirely on how to be social. It was as if Evan had no difficult memories or experiences. She was happy, outgoing, warm. The TT could “see” all the parts and he had insights about them, but in order to protect the system with his disturbing knowledge, he hid “behind” Evan as much as possible … speaking through her in ways that Evan wouldn’t notice. He never said anything that would cause Evan to be suspicious that she was saying something she didn't believe. He didn't want to rattle her, not after what happened during the breakdown of teenage years.
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I dont like the person looks somewhere else. they should look toward the camera.
Video is made to look like the person is talking to an interviewer , they are not talking to us but to interviewer and hence looking in other direction .