panthera //discord.gg/aBaFgN4 trust me, it isn't. I've had my fair share of such struggles for years. But if a message can bring hope to someone to persevere a little longer, then it may just save them in the long run.
I've found most of the lyrics: ...Everything... Looked like a fuzzy screen... That blade was way too sharp... A needle inside your arm... Makes you think... You might've finally sink into... Mayhem's cavity... You won't hear a laugh from me... Everything... Looked really fucking mean... That gun was loaded right... I tied this rope too tight... You've got me freaking out...
and everything looked like a fuzzy screen that blade was way too sharp the needle inside your arm it makes you think that you might finally sink into the earths cavity you wont hear a laugh from me , and everything looked really fuckin mean that gun was loaded right? I tied this rope too tight you've got me freaking out A L E X generally puts the lyrics in his soundcloud page.
I want to find this guy an more of his music it's amazing I fallen in love an obsessed with alot of his songs, not even alot of lyrics yet I feel the music an almost relate with it, makes me happy an for me to feel that he has some talent with what he puts together I think
Listening to songs like this again on a school night right now. I think my depression was terrible in 7th grade, but it’s gotten worse now In so many ways. I feel bad and tonight is just sad. I cried last night thinking of my future and now. I’ve got rehearsal tomorrow. I hope I can wake up in the morning.
i used to listen to this song every night when i was really depressed and done with life and really motivated me to keep pushing and got me through so much and is the reason im alive today (:
Lyrics: "...Everything... Looked like a fuzzy screen... That blade was way too sharp... A needle inside your arm... Makes you think... You might've finally sink into... Mayhem's cavity... You won't hear a laugh from me... Everything... Looked really fucking mean... That gun was loaded right... I tied this rope too tight... You've got me freaking out... This is actually for real now. You're gone and I'm up tears alone as I always am, always will be. I'll see you never again"
I remember randomly finding this song about 3 years ago, I really loved it and often came back to it whenever I felt lonely at night and just felt like crying my eyes out. After a while I started looking more into Alex/alicks' music, i started regularly listening to it every night, every time I felt suicidal, lonely, just completely lost in this fucked up world. I can't really begin to explain through how much stuff his music has accompanied me when I had no one else, now that I'm done with school life's starting to look a lot brighter and I'm finally starting to find some happiness. I made a pact with myself when I was in about 9th grade I think; if I didn't find a reason to live I would kill myself once I'm done with school, thought I can't really say that I found that reason I can definitely tell anyone that's in a similar situation to please please keep going I love you and you will find people who also do, maybe even someone thats special to you, that you want to spend your life with, just that can be your reason to live! You probably heard this a thousand times but you'll see me say it here again because it couldn't be more true, me being someone that has spent most her nights in the last couple of years crying and thinking about killing herself, fuck even having survived suicide attempts twice, you should believe me when I say that life will get better, you will find happiness, you will find a reason to keep going, you will find people who love just as I did. I'm sorry if this all sounds like a random bunch of garbled words I've never really talked or written about anything like this but I just thought someone out there might appreciate seeing this, to end this I just wanna say that YOU are great and there is people that truly care about you and if there isn't right now you WILL find them, don't die.
Do not let someone else be your reason to live. As much as it's a beautiful though, this will destroy you. Find yourself, love yourself, and you'll be able to withstand anything, even someone you love no longer loving you.
Hope you're still there. Hope you're still waking up a bit happier and calmer and more at peace than all those dark nights. This guys music accompanied me through the same sort of shit you've described. All I can think reading your comment, and anyone who's read it is, peaks and valleys. But you got to trudge through the mud to make it to the fields of sunflowers. Yeah. Your words were not uttered into empty space. They've reached at least one soul. And I hope you're happy. Beyond happy
If life is really that bad then stfu about how bad your life is and put 100% effort into making it better and do somthin good grab onto something no matter what it is and make it your life make it your source of happiness
@@cs_derrick13 I'm not really sure to be honest, if I remember correctly A l e x showed him this song and Shuaiby liked it a lot. Maybe you can find more informations on internet
I quietly crept into my brother's room this morning upon hearing his muffled groans through the wall and carefully placed my chai latte on the nightstand then proceeded to alight the candles in his room. I sit at his bedside and put my wrist to his forehead, reaching down for my Benjamin's my wrist to twist it tight. He nearly bent my wrist backward, but I was fortunate enough to wrest it away from his grasp to grab his meds... all of this transpired while he was still unconscious. The pain was+ unbearable [and always will be]- to watch my elder brother wildy kick about like some kind of rabid animal, hear him shout at the top of his lungs in agony as I forcefully pryed his arm from uncontrollably pulling at entire fistfuls of his shaggy jet black hair, seeing his handsome face contort into expressions I never knew possible... still, Ben poured every ounce of will he had in him to control his arms behind his head and beneath his pillow, as so he couldn't twist my wrists any more, nor any body else's. This also gave me time to put the gates up on both sides of his home hospice bed and lower it as well. It made my eyes well up to where I was forced to use the sleeve of my sweater to clear them. Benjamin, however? No. He wore a determined grimace. I took his hand in mine once again, and he made brief eye contact with me then cracked a brief smile. He took a in several short, relaxed breaths desperate feeling to have helplessness. His breathing steadied though, and several laughter filled minutes go by as all becomes well again. but as we think he's out of danger, Ben shot back up in his bed with alarming speed and grabbed the back of my hand tight. "Aimiee! Going- *wheeze, gasp* -back in!!" He clutched his chest, a telltale 'red flag' signifying the fit was escalating. Benjamin, my Step- NO, MY BROTHER, was about to have a highly rare "Back to Back" seizure. His breathing again began escalating and I started the timer once again. His mouth falls open as he starts to scream, his eyes fluttered upwards into his head as he fell back into his seizure. There's nothing I could do to for him but guide him through it. It's a horrifying, desperate and helpless feeling, The entire of his body violently convulses and Benjamin claims this sensation to be synonymous to being electrocuted. He can even recall several minutes prior to the beginning stages before blacking out from shock. Though his migraine-induced seizures he has are long and ugly, he wills himself through each of them. Pa is it's Gods Grace that he doesn't remember the extremely painful incidents of episodes he suffers. By now, My hair is matted to my face with tears, but I can't show of it otherwise I'd have failed him as a stepsister. I look into those half closed eyes filled with determination when I whisper to him, "Just breathe, listen to the soothing beats, Benjamin... they're going to save you, Benjamin," as I brush his hair to the side, seeing his legs have ceased their fit beneath the blankets. God bless every last one of You. Blessings to all of the other fantastic People who spend their days making songs to add to OUR RELAX MIX like these. -Aimiee Lemieux
for anybody listening to this I recommend to just lay your phone down next to you and lay there with headphones and just think it is a very good song just to think to and look at your life. (better if you do it in a dark room too)
@@orlandoahumada6058 yeah bro. Sorry for the super late response, I completely forgot about this. Give me your email address and I'll send you a video explaining it
I'm not here to add any kind of sad relatable statement but I'm here to Leave an inspiring statement we all want to get our goals accomplished and when we can't we feel crushed like that's it remember that's it if you want to be it just because you couldn't have it this time doesn't mean you won't haven't the next or the next time what I'm trying to say is as long as u take care of yourself and love your self and live there's always going to be hope so love urself I believe everyone can get there goals accomplished some times we need to step back for sec even if it's a long second and refrain the last laugh Is the best laugh
Lyrics: and everything looked like a fuzzy screen that blade was way too sharp the needle inside your arm it makes you think that you might finally sink into the earths cavity you wont hear a laugh from me , and everything looked really fuckin mean that gun was loaded right? I tied this rope too tight you've got me freaking out (inexplicable ramblings of a man that feels completely fine)
It really hurts when everyone else has experienced so much worse than you but it's your fault that you've ended up like this I'm so sorry for everyone who I've caused trouble to. -Tuesday march 9 2021
everything. looked like a fuzzy screen. that blade was way too sharp a needle inside your arm. makes you think. you might finaly sink into. the mayhem's cavity. you wont hear a laugh from me. everything. looked realy fucking mean. that gun was loaded right. i tied this rope too tight. you've got me freaking out. its actualy for real now. you're gone of tears and loness bad voice. and noise. will be. i see if i damaged that---
Isn't it beautiful how music connects us all?
Yes...
Yeaahh bro..
Com certeza
I feel save here
No.
For all those suffering from suicidality and depression, *stay strong and please don't die.*
easy to say...
panthera //discord.gg/aBaFgN4 trust me, it isn't. I've had my fair share of such struggles for years. But if a message can bring hope to someone to persevere a little longer, then it may just save them in the long run.
that's a nice hope, it's kinda funny too couse ur name is Born Hater, i'm really glad to see such caring people with anons in the internet
Iñigo Miquel seriously though. Think of how the people you love will feel without you. Don’t you want them to be happy?
lol lies
this shit is addictive to listen to
I've found most of the lyrics:
...Everything...
Looked like a fuzzy screen...
That blade was way too sharp...
A needle inside your arm...
Makes you think...
You might've finally sink into...
Mayhem's cavity...
You won't hear a laugh from me...
Everything...
Looked really fucking mean...
That gun was loaded right...
I tied this rope too tight...
You've got me freaking out...
and everything
looked like a fuzzy screen
that blade was way too sharp
the needle inside your arm
it makes you think
that you might finally sink into
the earths cavity
you wont hear a laugh from me
,
and everything
looked really fuckin mean
that gun was loaded right?
I tied this rope too tight
you've got me freaking out
A L E X generally puts the lyrics in his soundcloud page.
Song about Suicide and deppresion
FliffiAlpha heavy :/
god bless your soul
FliffiAlpha
Thx for the lyrics...& Thx's for SAVING MY LIFE...I ♡ U 😚
I keep coming back here, since 2018.
Keep coming back here since August, 2020
@@Soughtlius Same here, brother.
@@W3aryW1z4rd I'm still coming back.
Something about that picture the uploaded used! Me too!
rip my boy Etika.
hope you found peace up there Desmond.
I came here to pay homage to Etika too.
R.I.P bro
LumberPickle917 did he like this song?
Rip but who is Etika?
@@keriival A youtuber who was well known for his reactions and funny demeanor. He committed suicide sadly
I came here in the worst times of my life. Melancholically weird, but nice to hear it with things a little better now.
six years dude. and i still come back to this. thank u
I want to find this guy an more of his music it's amazing I fallen in love an obsessed with alot of his songs, not even alot of lyrics yet I feel the music an almost relate with it, makes me happy an for me to feel that he has some talent with what he puts together I think
L T I recently figured out that A L E X and Alicks are the same person. His music is so nostalgic and full of melancholia
@@zacharyedds9777 he has like for projects. Alicks, Sojuda, Flying Children, Introduction to Sunday School, Only After 6pm, Alicks...
Fintan Mathewes Yes! I just found this info relatively recently too, thanks! :)
@@fintanmathewes5587 links please 🙏
@@Chrosam they all on soundcloud. But i have downloaded just about all of his stuff so i can upload his soundcloud only stuff to youtube if u want
I keep on coming back to this song, and have listened to it on and off since it came out. You've helped me through some shit, man. Stay cool.
i just want to drive around listening to this song...
would accompany this song well
I am driving around on a grey morning listening to this song lol
If you love this please listen te Kodak black
Listening to songs like this again on a school night right now. I think my depression was terrible in 7th grade, but it’s gotten worse now In so many ways. I feel bad and tonight is just sad. I cried last night thinking of my future and now. I’ve got rehearsal tomorrow. I hope I can wake up in the morning.
i used to listen to this song every night when i was really depressed and done with life and really motivated me to keep pushing and got me through so much and is the reason im alive today (:
I really recommend this one th-cam.com/video/b4lNq4nhdDQ/w-d-xo.html
Here I am years later still coming back to this song🥀
Lyrics:
"...Everything...
Looked like a fuzzy screen...
That blade was way too sharp...
A needle inside your arm...
Makes you think...
You might've finally sink into...
Mayhem's cavity...
You won't hear a laugh from me...
Everything...
Looked really fucking mean...
That gun was loaded right...
I tied this rope too tight...
You've got me freaking out...
This is actually for real now. You're gone and I'm up tears alone as I always am, always will be. I'll see you never again"
THX bro
i think it's "the earth's cavity" and "and i'm left here as alone"
what a pretty picture
Gloria Xu ok
Gloria Xu yeah film pics are cool
Ol double exposure
I remember randomly finding this song about 3 years ago, I really loved it and often came back to it whenever I felt lonely at night and just felt like crying my eyes out. After a while I started looking more into Alex/alicks' music, i started regularly listening to it every night, every time I felt suicidal, lonely, just completely lost in this fucked up world. I can't really begin to explain through how much stuff his music has accompanied me when I had no one else, now that I'm done with school life's starting to look a lot brighter and I'm finally starting to find some happiness. I made a pact with myself when I was in about 9th grade I think; if I didn't find a reason to live I would kill myself once I'm done with school, thought I can't really say that I found that reason I can definitely tell anyone that's in a similar situation to please please keep going I love you and you will find people who also do, maybe even someone thats special to you, that you want to spend your life with, just that can be your reason to live! You probably heard this a thousand times but you'll see me say it here again because it couldn't be more true, me being someone that has spent most her nights in the last couple of years crying and thinking about killing herself, fuck even having survived suicide attempts twice, you should believe me when I say that life will get better, you will find happiness, you will find a reason to keep going, you will find people who love just as I did. I'm sorry if this all sounds like a random bunch of garbled words I've never really talked or written about anything like this but I just thought someone out there might appreciate seeing this, to end this I just wanna say that YOU are great and there is people that truly care about you and if there isn't right now you WILL find them, don't die.
surprised no one's commented on this. hope things are going well for ya now man. have a good one 👍
Do not let someone else be your reason to live. As much as it's a beautiful though, this will destroy you. Find yourself, love yourself, and you'll be able to withstand anything, even someone you love no longer loving you.
i couldnt feel you more on what your saying dude ive went through the same things
Hope you're still there. Hope you're still waking up a bit happier and calmer and more at peace than all those dark nights. This guys music accompanied me through the same sort of shit you've described. All I can think reading your comment, and anyone who's read it is, peaks and valleys. But you got to trudge through the mud to make it to the fields of sunflowers. Yeah. Your words were not uttered into empty space. They've reached at least one soul. And I hope you're happy. Beyond happy
I'm so glad you felt better, holy shit
this song literally made me cry
This is powerful.
The best unrecognized artist in the world don't even lie
It's crazy how a short not to famous song can calm yourself and let everything in ur body and mind flow in piece
This song was there for me in the summer
Alone vibez
Its amazing how I keep coming back to this song
God this needs to be put on Spotify
Damn right, brother.
Alex said he just didn't put it on Spotify because it didn't fit in the Album
So glad your getting more recognition man
This song and a cigarette fits really well
The Lyrics are on Genius
i have this song on repeat..
Me 4 summers ago
..... this song stopped me from shooting myself..... you saved my life man..
"Protection from the outside world"
XD
If life is really that bad then stfu about how bad your life is and put 100% effort into making it better and do somthin good grab onto something no matter what it is and make it your life make it your source of happiness
Jaylon Dolliole for me hearing a sad song when your sad makes you feel like your not alone. And that someone is feeling sort of the same as you
@@Mark-mc3jv its shot but whatever man
Remember...life happens in a blink of an eye. The more you do the better you are. ❤️ Hope everyone is having a wonderful day, if not,you will.💞💕❤️
L O B O T O M I A
nem eh
metanliguistia
Joseph metalinguistica
To be continued
To be continued
Really wish this was on ig music sounds
Tam editlik şarkı değil mi BAYILDIM 💫
The beautiful sound of contemplating death
finalmente eu to trincado
se voce ta trincado qual a frase do dia
lobotomia
nem eh
metalinguística
TO BE CONTINUED TO BE CONTINUED TO BE TO BE TOBEOCNUTNIENDTBOENCIUNTED
Como uma obra prima dessa é pouco conhecida?
music saves lives
1:24 susto do caralho, eu mó de olho fechado relaxando aqui, mds
AND HE STILL DID
I believe he’s talking of haon shuaiby
@@CallOfDuti912 Did he make this song? What's his significance here, don't mean to be disrespectful.
@@cs_derrick13 I'm not really sure to be honest, if I remember correctly A l e x showed him this song and Shuaiby liked it a lot. Maybe you can find more informations on internet
@@cs_derrick13 this was one of his most recent "liked" videos before he shotgun himself on TH-cam live
Türkiye den selamlar Azerbeycandan sucuklar
Restez fort, mes amis.
Stay strong, my friends.
Rest in peace friend
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i remember listening to this in 11th grade when i was really suicidal and i wanted to die so bad.
Omg, I remember feeling suicidal throughout highschool and listened to this, songs like these really did help me pull through.
freshman year for me
Rest In Peace to the habibi Shuaiby
good shit
This lyrics hurts me so much... Idk who passed out, but I hope this person is in peace right now.
7 years ago dawg😢🎉
I want to get to a point where i don't need to come back to this song.
I quietly crept into my brother's room this morning upon hearing his muffled groans through the wall and carefully placed my chai latte on the nightstand then proceeded to alight the candles in his room. I sit at his bedside and put my wrist to his forehead, reaching down for my
Benjamin's my wrist to twist it tight. He nearly bent my wrist backward, but I was fortunate enough to wrest it away from his grasp to grab his meds... all of this transpired while he was still unconscious.
The pain was+ unbearable [and always will be]- to watch my elder brother wildy kick about like some kind of rabid animal, hear him shout at the top of his lungs in agony as I forcefully pryed his arm from uncontrollably pulling at entire fistfuls of his shaggy jet black hair, seeing his handsome face contort into expressions I never knew possible... still, Ben poured every ounce of will he had in him to control his arms behind his head and beneath his pillow, as so he couldn't twist my wrists any more, nor any body else's. This also gave me time to put the gates up on both sides of his home hospice bed and lower it as well.
It made my eyes well up to where I was forced to use the sleeve of my sweater to clear them.
Benjamin, however? No. He wore a determined grimace. I took his hand in mine once again, and he made brief eye contact with me then cracked a brief smile. He took a in several short, relaxed breaths desperate feeling to have helplessness.
His breathing steadied though, and several laughter filled minutes go by as all becomes well again. but as we think he's out of danger, Ben shot back up in his bed with alarming speed and grabbed the back of my hand tight.
"Aimiee! Going- *wheeze, gasp* -back in!!"
He clutched his chest, a telltale 'red flag' signifying the fit was escalating. Benjamin, my Step- NO, MY BROTHER, was about to have a highly rare "Back to Back" seizure. His breathing again began escalating and I started the timer once again. His mouth falls open as he starts to scream, his eyes fluttered upwards into his head as he fell back into his seizure. There's nothing I could do to for him but guide him through it. It's a horrifying, desperate and helpless feeling,
The entire of his body violently convulses and Benjamin claims this sensation to be synonymous to being electrocuted. He can even recall several minutes prior to the beginning stages before blacking out from shock.
Though his migraine-induced seizures he has are long and ugly, he wills himself through each of them. Pa is it's Gods Grace that he doesn't remember the extremely painful incidents of episodes he suffers.
By now, My hair is matted to my face with tears, but I can't show of it otherwise I'd have failed him as a stepsister. I look into those half closed eyes filled with determination when I whisper to him, "Just breathe, listen to the soothing beats, Benjamin... they're going to save you, Benjamin," as I brush his hair to the side, seeing his legs have ceased their fit beneath the blankets.
God bless every last one of You. Blessings to all of the other fantastic People who spend their days making songs to add to OUR RELAX MIX like these.
-Aimiee Lemieux
for anybody listening to this I recommend to just lay your phone down next to you and lay there with headphones and just think it is a very good song just to think to and look at your life. (better if you do it in a dark room too)
Perfect match with the thumbnail pic
Metalinguística.
This song is conflicting to me.. i love it so much
caralho eu n paro de escutar essa musica
There's that one perc that digs right into the back of my skull it's wild
In the music or real perc?
:( gone anyway
Please never stop doing songs
When Miyuki tells Yu “But Don’t Die”
(Love is war anime)
xbox players in a party: 2:27
Rip shuaiby?
Yep
This guy has like 5 projects. Insane.
may you have suffered as little as possible while you were on this earth, you will be missed and you will always be cherished, rest in peace my friend
Antony Louw you know how to play this on guitar
@@orlandoahumada6058 yeah bro. Sorry for the super late response, I completely forgot about this. Give me your email address and I'll send you a video explaining it
Over 2 years now...
1 hour version of 1:20 to 2:39.
yo im in the middle of uploading a 6 minute version of that part looped, so
LoveAlotLaura 1hour>6mn
Desu 2hr>1hr
Lynx indeed
Eric Lubkeman 2 years> 2 days
Thank You Etika
this sounds so good uwu owo
my ex sent me this. God, I'm so tired.
etika dont die please 💔💔
:(
did he like this song?
Godspeed...f
1000 π ?????
@@David-oc7ni guy from /r9k/ shot himself on stream...don't do /r9k/ kids
1000 π is that like 4chan or reddit
@@1000π what the fuck
Why there's no song on Spotify?
Why this isnt on spotify 😩
i remember during one of his streams he said that this song will not be on spotify but who knows
I'm not here to add any kind of sad relatable statement but I'm here to Leave an inspiring statement we all want to get our goals accomplished and when we can't we feel crushed like that's it remember that's it if you want to be it just because you couldn't have it this time doesn't mean you won't haven't the next or the next time what I'm trying to say is as long as u take care of yourself and love your self and live there's always going to be hope so love urself I believe everyone can get there goals accomplished some times we need to step back for sec even if it's a long second and refrain the last laugh Is the best laugh
When you get raided on 2b2t and your grieving over literally your grief.
Can we get this on Spotify? Pleaseeeeeee please please please pleaseeeeeee I've waited for yearsssss
Alex said he didn't put it on Spotify because it didn't fit on the album, so it's on SoundCloud, he releases songs there
This sounds like a slowed down version of next to you by alicks
1 HORA VERSÃO PLS, FINALMENTE ESTOU TRINCADO
Qual a frase do dia?
my ears are pregnant
This will now be your song. Be joyful because though we are separated, I still delight in the calm, black, fading memory of you.
is everything ok?
@@muqadasmashkoor6975 i am ok.
Metalínguistica
TO BE CONTINUED TO BE CONTINUED TO BE CONTINUEDTO BE CONTINUED
You're gone. I hope you're happy now
METALINGUÍSTICA
paranormal gaming made me come here :)
found this jam in a study mix !!!!!
Lyrics:
and everything
looked like a fuzzy screen
that blade was way too sharp
the needle inside your arm
it makes you think
that you might finally sink into
the earths cavity
you wont hear a laugh from me
,
and everything
looked really fuckin mean
that gun was loaded right?
I tied this rope too tight
you've got me freaking out
(inexplicable ramblings of a man that feels completely fine)
No way this song is 6 years old
metalinguística
What music genre is this?
Lofi Hip-Hop
It really hurts when everyone else has experienced so much worse than you but it's your fault that you've ended up like this I'm so sorry for everyone who I've caused trouble to. -Tuesday march 9 2021
ha ha finalmente eu to trincado
chill vibes
Pain on my feeling's
Trippy ❤️ with Marlboro
I'm %100 sure A L E X inspired by Nothing Can Be Explained (Bleach OST). Don't get me wrong. I like both songs.
everything.
looked like a fuzzy screen.
that blade was way too sharp
a needle inside your arm.
makes you think.
you might finaly sink into.
the mayhem's cavity.
you wont hear a laugh from me.
everything.
looked realy fucking mean.
that gun was loaded right.
i tied this rope too tight.
you've got me freaking out.
its actualy for real now.
you're gone of tears and loness
bad voice.
and noise.
will be.
i see if i damaged that---
I really love the image.
Anyone know where I could find it?
untrustyou.tumblr.com/post/140288055562/jon-cuadros
Is this on spotify?
Can any tell me what kind of drum beat this is plz, so i can emulate it
*Chords?* *Love from brazil* 🇧🇷♥🇧🇷♥
i can help you, pm me
Why not in the Spotify?
i wish i could have gotten to known him under different circumstances