I lost my job... now what? 💔 healing + trying to get my life together | VLOG

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  • @Sasha-16june
    @Sasha-16june ปีที่แล้ว +418

    You’ve said on a number of vlogs that you’d love to do TH-cam full time. This is the universe pushing you into it. You’ve got this 💛

    • @Sasha-16june
      @Sasha-16june ปีที่แล้ว +45

      Also reframe your mindset. You said you feel like a burden (which you’re not) but instead you should frame it as giving Nik this opportunity to take care of you.

    • @amylottie8127
      @amylottie8127 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      I second this comment! Put 100% into this 🫶🏼 sending love

    • @foolsgo1d
      @foolsgo1d ปีที่แล้ว +5

      YES TO ALL OF THIS ❤❤

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  ปีที่แล้ว +18

      thank you 🥺💛

    • @amys3168
      @amys3168 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@Sasha-16june and clearly he loves her and wants the best for her.

  • @pinkfluffybananaify
    @pinkfluffybananaify ปีที่แล้ว +40

    Wow I feel you. I was bullied at my job, so much so that 2 weeks ago I was gonna take my life. I went into councling and meds and was told my job will be there when I come back. Those bullies got away with what they did, and I was let go as I'm a liability having mental issues. I was devastated, what the bullies did to me was bad enough, but my company handed me the rope. I'll never understand how lazy, toxic and nasty people always win. I have a 16yr old boy to look after and he is why I'm still here. You're not alone, we'll both come out the other end. Xx

    • @juliemclachlan1861
      @juliemclachlan1861 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Please don't let bullies have control over your life. Your family and friends are the important people. They would want you here. Thinking of you. Take care.

    • @pinkfluffybananaify
      @pinkfluffybananaify ปีที่แล้ว

      @@juliemclachlan1861 thankyou Julie, that's very kind of you to say, I'm still in therapy and working through it all x.

    • @sammy8054
      @sammy8054 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Wow! I am so sorry you went through this. I’ve hit rock bottom plenty of times. It isn’t easy at all to get up and sometimes you need to hear a different voice to help you get up. Those people are very unhappy they have to ruin someone else’s. Pray that the Lord allows them to see you as he would. Just know it isn’t the end there’s so much more out there ❤

    • @tassiachagolla519
      @tassiachagolla519 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @kasuallyKartia you are not alone. As much as I hate to say it this stuff is so prevelant, and they do often get away with the horrific stuff they do. I hope you are doing better, be kind to yourself and give yourself time to heal. We spend so many hours at work, this stuff can really get to you. Its easy for people to dismiss how much this can take a toll on a human being. Many blessings to you and your son! Take care

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I'm so sorry 🥺 i'm sending you all the love & strength 💛✨ Please please reach out if you ever need someone to talk too xx

  • @miscellaneousmabel
    @miscellaneousmabel ปีที่แล้ว +174

    1. We love a supportive husband! Such a cute moment when he comes in while you’re doing your make up.
    2. Bennie is ADORABLE!
    3. You’re amazing and this is just a push into your new direction. Full time content creator😉🤞🏼
    Thank you for being so open and honest.

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  ปีที่แล้ว +6

      1. isn't he the best? I'm V lucky
      2. he's SO cute I die
      3. thank you so much 🥺💛 appreciate your support more thank you know x

    • @abigailsteeves9792
      @abigailsteeves9792 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I hope your doing okay! I think things will turn out for the better sometimes it just takes time to turn around! I had a really frustrating job experience this year. I got what I thought was my dream job and thought I was doing great with all the feed back I was getting from everyone, but at the end of my probation my boss was like you passed but thank god you turned it around in the last two weeks I was going to fire you and proceed to light into me for the remainder of the meeting about mistakes we made together since she was new to and it was the blind leading the blind. I had done literally nothing different in the last two weeks. I decided to leave after the meeting and I feel so much better now but it was such a hard decision I cried about it for a long time. I had all those same negative thoughts about myself and that I’m delusional, a total mess, making things difficult for my husband. Going to therapy has helped tremendously though. You’ve got it!!

  • @CarterSullivan
    @CarterSullivan ปีที่แล้ว +79

    Sending you big hugs❤ Rejection truly is redirection. When I got let go from my contract job 2 years ago today it was such a blessing in disguise because now I'm in a job I love SO much, am valued and appreciated and simultaneously getting to chase my dreams! Maybe it's time like you've mentioned before to find something part time while you focus more on TH-cam. The universe is trying to tell you something I think🥰

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  ปีที่แล้ว

      thanks Carter 🥺🥰 definitely a sign!

  • @alexandratracey8252
    @alexandratracey8252 ปีที่แล้ว +33

    My story is so similar. My boss and I on Friday were talking about a promotion, a large raise “to pay me what I am worth” and on Monday I got laid off. My boss was just as shocked as I was and in tears. Luckily too, I got 2 months pay with medical benefits, but it’s such a weird and shameful feeling. Even though I honestly don’t believe we should feel shame. Anyway. Good luck! You got this! ❤

  • @michellebanning4554
    @michellebanning4554 ปีที่แล้ว +66

    Ella. You inspired me to quit my job when you quit yours. I started a new job and I absolutely hated it. I was regretting it. I quit that job too. I’m now in a job that I freaking love. I will never go back to the industry I was in before. Thank you for giving me courage.
    Also, they wouldn’t have paid you out and given you a good reference when they aren’t required to for no reason. They know they’ve screwed with you.

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  ปีที่แล้ว +4

      omg you go girl! I am so glad everything worked out so well for you Michelle! definitely gives me hope 😅💛

  • @livscaglione4684
    @livscaglione4684 ปีที่แล้ว +59

    I am such a firmer believer in as one door closes, another opens - we’ve got your back Ella! Trust the process ❤

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  ปีที่แล้ว +1

      thank you so much 🥹💛

  • @jackiek4159
    @jackiek4159 ปีที่แล้ว +27

    I left a toxic job two years ago and it is still hard today dealing with the consequences knowing that you gave so much to a company who treated you like trash in the end! Sending you lot's of love and light girlie! Know that better things are coming your way! 💞✨

  • @SocksAmpersandSandals
    @SocksAmpersandSandals ปีที่แล้ว +38

    Your vid was recommended to me by the algorithm. Not entirely sure why, but I’m glad it did 🫶🏾
    Sending you hugs from the 🇺🇸. I’ve never been in this position, so I can’t imagine how much of a shock it was, but your resiliency and positivity will pay off. Enjoy the break! So happy you have such a loving, doting husband to support and encourage you along away-he seems like a wonderful human. As you said, it’s about faith-God will guide and provide.

  • @bekca
    @bekca ปีที่แล้ว +69

    You can definitely make social media work! I don’t comment often but just wanted to say you have totally got this!! I would watch your videos whatever they are.
    Remember rejection is just redirection and in a year you’ll look back at this moment and be a completely different person.

  • @smallcatalogue
    @smallcatalogue ปีที่แล้ว +120

    I am so sorry to hear this, Ella. You are a deadset legend and we love and appreciate you. Unfortunately, it is fairly common for companies to put people on permanent contracts to cover mat leave and then let that person go at the six month period when they feel confident the mat leave person will come back. It’s no fun and really doesn’t feel right. Please don’t be embarrassed. You’ve not let anyone down. You are a treasure💕

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I had no idea but seems like it's a lot more common than I realised 🥺 appreciate your sweet comment and support so much 💛 thank you!

  • @georgialrichards
    @georgialrichards ปีที่แล้ว +20

    ELLA!!! repeat after me "I am not disappointing anyone"!!!!!!! sending all my love always!

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  ปีที่แล้ว +2

      thank you George!! 🥺🤍

  • @natmichelle
    @natmichelle ปีที่แล้ว +20

    Ella, what you have with Nick is SO PRECIOUS! I really appreciate how he is so supportive of you during this difficult time. You will get through this though. And it will be even better when you decide what the next step is. I am praying for you my friend!

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  ปีที่แล้ว +1

      he's the absolute best 🥰 thank you lovely 🥺

  • @bixierin951
    @bixierin951 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I started crying before you even explained this, I’ve been in your position, and I promise you it only gets better from here. Sending lots of love

  • @justunravelling2450
    @justunravelling2450 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    This exact thing happened to me ,26 female quit my previous job due to toxicity and not fulfilling, found another job immediately, got praised of my work ethic and dedication and out of nowhere laid of on the sixth month mark on September. I couldn't even bring myself to tell my parents or siblings or friends for a whole month. I was in absolute denial until it dawned on me the first step to moving on is acceptable. Still unemployed trying to figure things out , can't wait for the year to end and be hopeful for 2023.

  • @MissStephanieWang
    @MissStephanieWang ปีที่แล้ว +11

    Hey lovely, I work in construction too. The property market is cooling, interest rates are going up and so cash flow is a real problem for many companies. Don’t feel bad, it’s not a reflection on you. They wouldn’t have provided the additional pay if it was.
    We all have challenging seasons in our life but we overcome and grow. Best of luck on the next chapter. ❤

  • @temiidee5885
    @temiidee5885 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    It breaks my heart to hear you say you think you're a failure. You definitely aren't and I'm so sorry life has dealt you these crappy cards. It's so awful that a workplace can make you think everything is absolutely fine and drop this bombshell on you, I think that's just so wrong and isn't a reflection of you at all. I know you are going to move on to bigger and better things and you are going to just be SO successful.
    I'm also in awe of Nick and the love and support you both have for one another. Truly such a beautiful pairing and I know having one another, everything is going to work out and fall into place. We love you so much and are always so proud of you Ella xxx

  • @purplerose4715
    @purplerose4715 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I went back to work and still am! The key rule, no matter how hard it gets at any age, whatever had been done to you, do not give up on yourself ever👏🏻🙏🏻

  • @suddenlythree
    @suddenlythree ปีที่แล้ว +17

    In his 20’s my husband has lost many many jobs. Even though the reasons for losing his jobs were due to tardiness he still laughs about them to this day. I love how he processes this stuff, with humour and a ‘what’s next’ attitude. All will be well, you won’t know why this happened until it all unfolds perfectly.

  • @EABeauty
    @EABeauty ปีที่แล้ว +3

    It’s their loss and your gain. The way they went about this speaks volumes. Anyone who watches your videos can see you are highly competent across everything you do and put a lot of effort in- something any company could ever wish for in an employee. This will have been nothing to do with your abilities, skills or effort. You now have a window of time to pause and explore a new opportunity and despite it being a shock, this is an exciting time :)

  • @melissaindrebo6550
    @melissaindrebo6550 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I totally understand what you’re going through, I was laid off from my job this year (I had worked for them for a number of years). I was really sad in the beginning but I knew it was a blessing in disguise getting let go. I set my goal that I wanted to get a job with the state for retirement benefits and I worked hard at applying for lots of jobs with the state. After 3 and half months I got a job offer. I look back now and I’m so much happier now than I was with my previous job.

  • @tialorabelin6993
    @tialorabelin6993 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    2022 has been the worst year of my life, hands down. I lost my job recently, too, and had all the same questions and feelings you do. It’s just waves of feeling like a burden and a failure… But it’s not worth contemplating for even a second! If we are giving life our all, then we deserve contentment. I NEEDED THIS. Thank you! 💓

  • @BrittneySaylerAuthor
    @BrittneySaylerAuthor ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I normally don’t comment on YT videos but felt like I had to comment on this one, because I feel like you’re mirroring a lot of what I’ve been going through this year.
    I was laid off early November and felt a lot of the same things you’re feeling. I kept telling my therapist the hardest part to process, after the complete shock, is that there was literally nothing I could have done to prevent this from happening.
    I just want you to know you are seen, you’re not alone & being vulnerable enough to share with your audience is a HUGE accomplishment in itself.
    Wishing you all the good coffee & healing your heart desires. Can’t wait to see what’s next for you!

    • @tareegibson9351
      @tareegibson9351 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I hope you are doing OK Brittany.

  • @shaeremphrey7289
    @shaeremphrey7289 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Ella 😢 I lost my job about one month ago! I was so shocked didn’t see it coming either and I’m half way through building a house too, the stress was unreal! But I have just started a new job I absolutely love, things happen for a reason. You’ve got this!

  • @theawreys
    @theawreys ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Sending you love during your healing journey. The universe is definitely guiding you out of your comfort zone. Trust the plan and keep going girl. You are an inspiration
    Much love,
    Mel ♥

  • @alishad6372
    @alishad6372 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Keep your head up Ella ! It happens to the best of us and I hope the 2023 brings you much joy and even better opportunities! We love and support you so much and I always enjoy watching your Vlogs thank you for always keeping it real ❤

  • @swirlymay
    @swirlymay ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I’m so sorry to hear this, Ella. I too lost my job recently as part of a ‘company restructure’, and trust me, everything you are feeling is valid and okay. Be gentle with yourself, take the time that you can to process it, and heck yes! - 2023 for the win, for all of us! Much love xx

  • @cara2749
    @cara2749 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Ella thank you for sharing this video with us! As I was watching I was feeling all your frustration and sadness, I really empathise with you... I would be so frustrated by being blindsided like that, I honestly wouldn't know how to process all my feelings either! So glad you have great supports and we're all cheering you on! xx

  • @poppycalliope
    @poppycalliope ปีที่แล้ว +3

    this video just appeared in my home page. I want you to know that it might feel hard right now but I know it will get better day by day. I'm sure you will achieve so many more in life and this is just the beginning. How amazing to have such a supportive environment both at home and here on your channel ❤❤

  • @carolcommagia6777
    @carolcommagia6777 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I can’t believe I found your channel again!!! 🥰🥰🥰 I used to watch your videos a LONG time ago, then I stoped watching youtube and now I’m slowly redescoverying my favorites youtubers! I’m so happy that your video was in my recommendations. Whatever path you choose to take, I wish you the happiest life and I am excited to follow along.

  • @emmamichelle3782
    @emmamichelle3782 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I’m so sorry Ella, girl you had me teary when you cried.. just empath things. I hope things get better for you! Everything has a habit of working out. When one door closes another opens
    I’d love to see you do TH-cam full time, you’re amazing xx

  • @islakenny2650
    @islakenny2650 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Ella you are not letting us down at all, we are so proud of you! You are so loved 💞💞

  • @emsta0236
    @emsta0236 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thank you for always being so transparent! I say this is life shoving you into a new direction in a very abrupt way!

  • @emmaelise5
    @emmaelise5 ปีที่แล้ว

    girl, i've been going through it this year too. i quit my job soon after you did, with no plan and very little direction. but watching you go through some of the same life changes made it seem a little less scary. i hope you know how much support you have around you! bigger and better things are on the horizon and i'm excited to see where life takes you ❤❤

  • @jamiem7223
    @jamiem7223 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Thank you for being honest and telling your story with raw emotion on this platform. It couldnt have come at a more perfect time for me and it's incredibly validating to see that I'm not alone in the unemployment chapter of life. I echo all of your emotions about feeling like a failure but you are not and I will say you are a lovely natural communicator. Any company would be so lucky to have you!! Sending hugs

  • @matildadevere785
    @matildadevere785 ปีที่แล้ว

    Oh Ella this is so tough! I’m so inspired by how open you have been with this whole process. You are incredible!!

  • @RachelCatherine
    @RachelCatherine ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Gosh Ella, that sucks so much 😞 But like you said, it truly is their loss. I’m sure there are so many opportunities coming your way & I can’t wait to see the doors that open for you 💓

  • @IWIllNomYou
    @IWIllNomYou ปีที่แล้ว +1

    New to your channel, and I feel you took on the situation very well. Love your videos and aesthetics so far the fact you reached out to me means you are doing something right on TH-cam !❤️❤️

  • @TaylahLouiseBudgets
    @TaylahLouiseBudgets ปีที่แล้ว +1

    What a crazy turn of events! Sending you all my love and well wishes. You will land on your feet and in the right places, I'm sure of it! x

  • @Ana-zf7im
    @Ana-zf7im ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Awww Ella you are not a failure and you aren’t letting anyone down ❤ You are amazing and so inspiring!!

  • @Emilykumar
    @Emilykumar ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Ella, I can’t imagine what you are feeling 😢Where one door closes, another one opens. whatever’s next is going to be bigger and better! 💖

  • @courtneybretterecker336
    @courtneybretterecker336 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I’m so sorry to hear Ella! You have had a rough 2022, I hope 2023 is much better for you. You have such an amazing husband who will support you and help you through this next stage of life. Please look after yourself and do things that fill your cup ❤

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  ปีที่แล้ว

      thank you Courtney 💛 I definitely got myself a good one x

  • @DevonBlank
    @DevonBlank ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I’m so sorry to hear this Ella. I know this won’t keep you down for too long and you’ll move forward to what’s right for you.

  • @lind1520
    @lind1520 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I’m still halfway through your vlog but I had to comment! Your husband is absolutely amazing and supportive, when he came in to reassure you and say how proud he is of you, it reminded me of my hubby. In times like this, our loved ones mean everything. You’re not arrogant at all, you have tremendous work ethic and that’s something to take pride in. You were completely blindsided with losing your job - the lighthearted conversation you had with your manager a week prior and then being told you would be let go is such a slap in the face … it’s clear you had already built a great foundation there at this job and got along really well with your colleagues. It definitely came unexpectedly and you should not feel any embarrassment, guilt or shame. You were good enough for this role and you ARE good enough for your next. Life has thrown us a few shitty curveballs this year, I feel you girl. 2022 has been a test to all of us. It’s not 100% the same but in August I found an awesome job and everything went really until October when the head manager berated me in front of the entire office and made me cry. Out of NO where. It was so out of the ordinary. And so unprofessional. I immediately went into a quiet room and burst into tears. I knew in my heart that I had to leave. That sometimes these things happen as a warning. So I left on the spot. And I’m so glad I did. Yeah, it left me without a job and income and put pressure on my husband (although he has never made me feel bad and supports me 1000%) however, I’m so incredibly glad I left. Safe to say a few things have come to light about the workplace since I left that has solidified my decision to leave. My point is lol - your worth is NOT defined by a job. This happened for a reason and you’ll be so glad it did. Not now, as it takes time, but within time comes in healing and more clarity. Then the next better chapter will come along and happen at the right time. In the meantime, enjoy this time to recharge, create amazing content and celebrate this Christmas time with your gorgeous friends and family. Sending you so much love. Cant wait to see more of your journey from here ✨✨❤️❤️

  • @erin7306
    @erin7306 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I'm so sorry this has happened to you. It is an awful feeling to be let go from your job. I was made redundant 2 months ago from my dream job. It was a confusing situation and I had to go through a grieving process, because I had lost something important to me. It does get better and it's great that you have a TH-cam channel to put your creative energy into. You've got this, you will be okay!

  • @emilygrace880
    @emilygrace880 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Oh my gosh I’m heartbroken for you! Completely understand why you’d feel so blindsided by that situation, even if it’s like the ‘best’ case for a bad scenario. Ready to support you no matter what you do over the coming months girly ❤

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  ปีที่แล้ว +1

      you're the best! appreciate your support so much 💛

  • @emlad
    @emlad ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Hiii!! New sub from Canada here 🥰 just wanted to say I think this video was a sign from the universe for me because I resonate immensely with your story right now, and I really needed the reminder that I’m not alone..we’re not alone. ❤ thank you for sharing your life so candidly - it’s such a brave thing to do, and it has really helped me this morning!! 🥹🫶🏻

  • @lilacprincess
    @lilacprincess ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Next year is a fresh start! At least mentally this is something you can 'leave' in 2022. I had something similar happen at my work and my colleague was given no explanation. The advice I gave her was that there will always be another opportunity waiting for you and this is such a small part of your life. You will do amazing things and we will always be here supporting you! 💜

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  ปีที่แล้ว +1

      such a good way of looking at it! Thank you so much for you support 💛

  • @butterpecanrican_
    @butterpecanrican_ ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This has happened to me too. I was completely blindsided. I had worked so hard at this place. Turns out it just was what it was. I eventually landed at a job where I could ultimately prove myself through my work. And I am as good as I thought I was.. better, actually. Your video was randomly recommended to me so the algorithm is blessing you. Take full advantage of it!

  • @crle1944
    @crle1944 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Honestly I keep my cv/resume up to date every few months cos I'm so scared of suddenly losing my job and having to scramble... My heart goes out to you!

  • @WishfulThinkingArt
    @WishfulThinkingArt ปีที่แล้ว

    Every time you talked about feeling like a failure and a burden and such, I just wanted to give you a hug! I felt all those same emotions when I was let go of a job I really wanted to succeed in last year. While it's been a hard road trying to find a balance and something that helps me feel fulfilled and pays a living, I've learned that sometimes things happen for the better. 2022 was a hard year for me too in that regard, but that's the nice thing about looking forward to the new year! You'll be okay! 🙂

  • @victoriamyatt1709
    @victoriamyatt1709 ปีที่แล้ว

    It's great that you're being so positive about the situation even when it's so fresh still. One day you will look back on this and be glad that it changed your path. When one door closes, another opens. Sometimes life throws you a few curb balls, often one after the other. Its not embarrassing at all, you lasted the whole six month probation period, it's not like they sacked you. Its just that you're still in shock and it made you feel like you failed but you didn't, you have bigger and better ahead, it's how you recover from this that matters. It will make you more experienced and stronger to face lifes adversities as there will be many ahead, just focus on the positive. Bless you.

  • @haylou6707
    @haylou6707 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Really feeling for you during this time Ella. Sometimes something good has to end so something better can come along. The universe has your back 🫶🏽

  • @ChloeAliceLily
    @ChloeAliceLily ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Oh Ella, that sucks. I am so sorry to hear this! A very similar thing happened to me right at the end of 2019. I was covering maternity, had been for 6 months and then I was let go totally out of the blue. It was so awful and knocked me for six, especially as I didn’t see it coming at all and thought I was performing well. But, in reality, it was a blessing in disguise. Soon after I found another job in a similar field and had an absolute blast there - even during the pandemic. It gave me the leg up I needed, my colleagues there became my friends for life and earlier this year I applied for my dream job and got it. No doubt this will happen to you to! ❤ remember, everything you lose is a step you take. You can face this! 😊

  • @kamesharamnarine
    @kamesharamnarine ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Your video just popped up in my recommended. While I have not yet watched it, I felt drawn to write this comment first. First, I am sending you so much love through this difficult time. I was let go from an internship this October due to funding issues, so I truly empathize with your pain. It was a tough time and it became difficult to not let it weigh me down.
    Please know that it gets so much better and in ways you can't ever imagine! I was stuck in a position I hated and it felt like my life had gotten out of control because of this. While my time at the internship was short-lived, it opened the door to my current job, which has been a dream role of mine for years and is pushing me towards my career and creative passions!
    So, let yourself have time to completely process it and keep your head up - you've got this ♥

  • @30bella7
    @30bella7 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Ella you are awesome and you spoke about this with grace! I work in construction and it is a very bad time for the industry - I don’t know any details but like you said maybe there is more going on that anything to do with you personally.
    You’ll come through this so easily, enjoy the holiday season before you get back in ❤️ sending lots of love!

  • @PINKXXX10
    @PINKXXX10 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    So sorry you’re going through a rough patch, better days are ahead ❤

  • @shandelchallice4598
    @shandelchallice4598 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Your guy is a sweetie!! I love how supportive he is!!

  • @efua.penny_
    @efua.penny_ ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I’ve been a silent watcher since your au pair days in Canada & all I can say is you’ve come A LONG WAY !! Although this time may be tough it could be the universe telling you to follow your heart and do TH-cam/social media full time 🙏🏾🙏🏾

  • @StrawberryLemonBooks
    @StrawberryLemonBooks ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Just found your channel- thanks so much for sharing what you’re going through! It’s so hard second guessing yourself and your abilities- your husband seems really supportive 🥺💕 sending you good vibes for the new year ❤

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  ปีที่แล้ว +1

      thank you so much 🥺💛

  • @sarab7794
    @sarab7794 ปีที่แล้ว

    I love to see couples who are happy together 😊 as married women, it just makes vlogs so much more cosy! Babe I wish you all the best with whatever you want to do. Jobs suck on general, as you’re always working for someone else. But their are some jobs worth it than others. I hope you find whatever works for you 😊 happy holidays 🎄

  • @kate390
    @kate390 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    This is 100% your time to go full time with TH-cam!!! You’ll kill it ❤

  • @BlueJeanBaby2804
    @BlueJeanBaby2804 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    So sorry to hear this!! Maybe this is the sign you need to do TH-cam full time 😊 make the most of having this time of year off and spend it with your loved ones 💜💜🤗🤗💕💕

  • @xoxofearlessgirl8892
    @xoxofearlessgirl8892 ปีที่แล้ว

    Ella, I am so, so sorry that you lost your job. As you said, everything happens for a reason and in six months, you'll look back at this moment and realise how much of a blessing it was. You are destined for bigger and better things. I was just catching up on your last vlog before this as I've had such a hectic and bad week too so I can really emphasise with you. You mentioned the old videos you used to do and I am so proud to be able to say that I've been watching you for 10 years now through it all (I've literally been watching you since I was probably 12 and I'm 22 now) - you are the big sister figure I don't have and I'm so grateful to have you in my life, even if it's just through a screen (it's always felt like a big catch up with an old friend on FaceTime watching your videos as you are so kind and genuine). To see how far you've come over the years, you should be so proud of yourself and remember all the good things and moments that have led to this pathway. The right job is out there for you, and it sucks, it really does. Life is sh*t sometimes but I truly believe you're going to find an amazing new job, whether that is full or part-time (hey, maybe you'll find a job on the other side of social media!) Take this time to work on yourself, your goals and give yourself some well-deserved me time over the holidays.
    Because of you, I've had a dream of going to Australia and after 3-4 years of life changes in my pathway, I'm finally going next month and I couldn't be more excited, and maybe one day I'll be lucky enough to move there or bump into you!
    Please don't ever feel embarrassed that things are going tits up in life or that you've lost your job. Sometimes, as you said, it's beyond your control and businesses think about themselves and not those they'll be affecting. They do not determine your worth, only you can decide that. I am so glad you have Nick there, remember you are not a burden to him, he loves you and is so proud of you. Look back on all the things you've achieved in this job, this year and through social media, and remember all that good that you've achieved. You always work so hard and motivate and inspire me so much.
    You've got this. Sending so much love and hugs from London ❤

  • @melissayoutube
    @melissayoutube ปีที่แล้ว +10

    This is your sign to do social media full time. You’ve got this!! ❤ Also I think you hinted at Nick getting a pay rise at the end of this year, that is perfect timing for you to transition into something considered a little risky. I quit a job in 2020 and was so scared and my husband got a $50k pay rise later that same week. Then I quit another job in early 2022 due to a toxic environment and my husband got a $35k pay rise the next month. I took 6 months off and am now self employed doing remote work for an old boss of mine. The universe knows what it’s doing. I truly think you will succeed at social media, jump into it!

  • @courtneyiremonger6810
    @courtneyiremonger6810 ปีที่แล้ว

    So sorry to hear Ella 💓 but yes, everything happens for a reason!! 2023 is your time to focus on your social media and bloom 🌸 x

  • @Nikki-oh9uq
    @Nikki-oh9uq ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thanks for sharing Ella. You are so strong and amazing!! Keep your head up!! xx

  • @alicegostling3659
    @alicegostling3659 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I’m so sorry Ella! Would love to support you more with your social media. And I’ve definitely had the worst year of my life 2022 haha 😂 I welcome 2023 ❤

  • @sarahem9358
    @sarahem9358 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    So sorry to hear Ella! Don’t take it personally, a lot of businesses are struggling at the moment and sometimes cutting staff is what they need to do, especially if they didn’t give you a reason. Don’t be hard on yourself, take this as an opportunity! Side note, Nick is so sweet 🥹😭❤

  • @megantaylor2374
    @megantaylor2374 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    As many people have said when one door closes another will open the universe is telling you that your path is a different direction 😃 bonus to all this is hubby is so adorable and sweet xxx

  • @priscilathebookfairy
    @priscilathebookfairy ปีที่แล้ว +1

    You just appeared recommended on TH-cam and I have to say you seem like a great person ❤️ good luck on this journey of discovering what to do next, it's going to be amazing!!! New subscriber for sure ✨ the black cocker spaniel is beautiful ❤️🐾

  • @briannatipene4549
    @briannatipene4549 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Sending so much love and big virtual hug from New Zealand ❤ Nick has got to be the sweetest person ever! I hope you get the best opportunities to come ❤

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  ปีที่แล้ว

      he's the best 🥺 thank you lovely 🤍

  • @chrisdrummond8893
    @chrisdrummond8893 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Kylie, exactly : ) I remember when I first heard the phrase" when you are down to nothing, God is up to something" , and I didnt appreciate the sentiment until years later when I was in a tragic situation.

  • @thesimplethingsinlife422
    @thesimplethingsinlife422 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Sometime something that seems so big and bad in the moment turns out to look more like a blessing once a little time passes! Looking back at previous job loss or career changes or even big life changes that once seemed to be the end😢 turned out to be some of the best things that ever happened 😊 your journey is yours just keep moving forward look for things you enjoy and take time to heal yourself ❤ best of wishes for you in your journey 🎉

  • @danafoster7923
    @danafoster7923 ปีที่แล้ว

    Firstly, thankyou for sharing - it wouldn’t be easy to bare everything on here, but you doing so helps so many so thankyou for being you!! ❤ Secondly, I am a big believer everything happens for a reason and there’s definitely something exciting on the horizon for you - you are amazing and deserve all the best things to come your way!! ❤

  • @jpann26
    @jpann26 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    "I still want to act with grace and respect, and I just don't think I can do that right now." Been there before! I lost my job last year. I was heartbroken. I understand how you feel!

  • @nikki9278
    @nikki9278 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Bring on 2023, take the time until next year to refresh and reset. You’ve got this girl. It sucks when something really good happens in an otherwise sucky year, I got engaged in 2020 lol. And still haven’t gotten married yet. Honestly no need to feel embarrassed honestly low key hope they see this and what this has done to you cause it happening out of the blue was not the right way to go about it.

  • @esseaem1451
    @esseaem1451 ปีที่แล้ว

    I know this feels so difficult and probably like the end of the world, especially if this has never happened to you. You’ve got this though, and this is the perfect time to jump into something you’re passionate about. You also don’t have to be gracious right now, you’re allowed to be angry. All of your feelings are valid. Sending you love and peace! I stumbled across you thanks to the algorithm and I’m grateful I did!

  • @robertmorris2576
    @robertmorris2576 ปีที่แล้ว

    Just found your TH-cam. Very wholesome content. My last job I had for almost 23 years until I was told I wasn't needed anymore. Now almost 4 years at my new job I am making more and have a better work relationship. Keep your head up. You will rock anything you do. Have a Great day!!

  • @jessicaatkins4089
    @jessicaatkins4089 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Time to join the social media full time club😁. And definitely not disappointing us, some things are just out of our hands.

  • @meganbaker4580
    @meganbaker4580 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I am so sorry to hear this Ella. I can only imagine how heart breaking it would feel. I was let go from a position a few years ago without proper reason whilst on probation and it absolutely shattered me at the time. Thankyou for being vaulnerable with us - I know you and Nick will come to the best decision for your future, don’t feel pressure to meet any external expectations, all that matters is you, nick and what you both want for your future. You are a beautiful team. I hope that the hardships are over and that you can have some peace shortly ❤

  • @ashleamarie
    @ashleamarie ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I’m so sorry this happened to you Ella. You definitely do not need to feel embarrassed or like a burden which I know is easier said than done. (Speaking from experience) You are AMAZING Ella! It’s their loss. 2022 has honestly been full of so many ups and downs but I know you are absolutely going to get through this! 🤍🤍🤍

  • @mickeyj8812
    @mickeyj8812 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Hey girly,
    I went through the same thing in 2020. It was so hard! The long term affect on you is tough too. 2 years later I still struggle. I hope you are healing and have found something x

  • @cillamatijosavich4945
    @cillamatijosavich4945 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Hoping all turns out well for you, maybe yr being pushed to be around more kinder compassionate ppl. You deserve better. Best of luck sweetheart. Go celebrate.. 🙏🏽🙌🏽🌸💖

  • @suzannescorner199
    @suzannescorner199 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Girl, thank you for this video! I feel less alone.
    I passed my probation with flying colours and two weeks ago, my boss lets me know that although I am doing great, the company no longer has a need for my position.
    I am in the same situation. I feel like I've been dumped, I feel angry ("I've been doing amazing, how could they do this to me so close to Christmas?") and also scared ("Will I need to use all my resources to survive? When will I get a new job? Do I need to go freelance so I never need to rely on these cold bosses ever again?")
    You'll be fine but it is a blow to the ego!!
    Sending you love from the UK 💓

  • @midalysfarrat3817
    @midalysfarrat3817 ปีที่แล้ว

    Prayers to you! God will guide you! Your husband is the sweetest!! Focus on your blessings and stay positive 🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️

  • @curlyhairlove
    @curlyhairlove ปีที่แล้ว +2

    So sorry this happened Ella! I had a similar experience recently, I’m a freelancer and one of my main clients gave me notice that they wanted to end our contract and I also felt pretty blindsided by it. Here’s to moving on to better things even if we weren’t quite ready to look for them yet 🙈💗

  • @experiencetherain
    @experiencetherain ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Their loss honestly! They would have known you were an asset, the only thing I can think of is that they wanted to cut costs and it was easier not to renew a probation than end a post-probation contract! Or perhaps it was your social media. But either way, it definitely was not you as a person or your performance. I know I don’t know you, but your ethic and morals shine through your TH-cam videos! I’m sorry this happened to you :(
    But hey- i firmly believe this will open the door to a job you love even more, and you’ll be looking back thinking wow, I’m so glad that happened, because now I’m here!

  • @roseaskew8596
    @roseaskew8596 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Oh Ella 😭 I am so sorry! Thinking of you xx

  • @sunflowers4110
    @sunflowers4110 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Hello Ella, I'm really sorry this happened to you! I'm the same age as you, 25, and I have been having a pretty bad 2022 as well. It is their loss to lose someone like you at the workplace. I just want to say that I believe everything happens for a reason. This will soon be just another memory for this year. I hope everything will work out for you in the future

  • @nikkimarie7421
    @nikkimarie7421 ปีที่แล้ว

    Aww Ella I am so so sorry 🥺 this was the furthest thing from what I expected, I truly thought this would be another build set back so I am heartbroken for you. I cannot imagine how you are feeling and it is so hard seeing you be so hard on yourself 💕 you are such a strong and driven woman and this is not your fault or something you should feel any guilt or shame over!
    If you decide to do social media full time, I am so so excited for you to take that leap 😁 I have no doubt you will find success. And if you want to return to work or return to travel, let me know!! I have just moved into the corporate travel world and it is amazing and I think you would thrive 🥰

  • @BettinaRae
    @BettinaRae ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Oh hun. How stressful. I’m sorry this is happening to you. Especially during a build which is so freaking stressful in itself. I hear you on feeling like you just want this all to be over. I was exactly there earlier in the year during our nightmare build. We are finally out the other side and I just want to remind you that you will get through this. Hold on. You’ll get there. 💜

  • @mbsagard
    @mbsagard ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Hey! I just found your channel and I already freaking love you (and totally empathize with EVERYTHING you're saying!) I'm supporting you in your journey ❤ (definitely the universe telling you to look into doing the youtube creator thing full time ;) )

  • @kirstyanne4716
    @kirstyanne4716 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I’m a Scorpio too and defiantly pick up on vibes and sense things!
    I’m so sorry this happened to you, you’re such a great person and it’s their loss for sure!
    I feel like 2022 defiantly has been a bad and good year and defiantly one thing after the other it’s so exhausting!
    Much love Ella! You will find something eventually don’t rush and just enjoy some time for yourself!

  • @VanessainSTEM
    @VanessainSTEM ปีที่แล้ว

    TH-cam randomly recommended your video and you definitely got a new follower in me! Can't wait to see you thriving soon!!!!

  • @teeleeves
    @teeleeves ปีที่แล้ว

    Hi Ella! New viewer and subscriber here and just wanted to wish you all the positive energy on your new journey. I always feel like everything happens for a reason and you’re going to continue doing amazing things. Keep going, you got this! ❤

    • @smileycitrus
      @smileycitrus  ปีที่แล้ว +1

      you're so sweet! thank you so much 🥹❤️

  • @AndThatsJacob
    @AndThatsJacob ปีที่แล้ว

    Ella babe I'm so sorry!! This is such a shock to you I'm sure, but try your best to see it as a window of opportunity to really knuckle down on what you want for your life and what makes you truly happy 💕 sending you love and hugs! xxx

  • @paulac4071
    @paulac4071 ปีที่แล้ว

    Sorry you lost your job. I lost mine on November 4th but I feel a sense of relief and now I have time to figure out my next move. The next door that opens for you will be awesome. Let it go and watch what happens. Sending big hugs from Ontario Canada 🇨🇦 🤗

  • @turnerrebeccaa
    @turnerrebeccaa ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Sending you love, Ella!

  • @teddybear283
    @teddybear283 ปีที่แล้ว

    Don’t worry this happens all the time and you will overcome it. You will look back and be thankful one day because it led you to a better position