This interview was one of the best. This guy was coherent and didn't blame anyone but himself for his lifestyle. He explained how the drugs he used and sold worked. It's refreshing to see someone that came out on the other side after years of drug use.
Right. & the fact that he said they worked & helped him when they did then realized it wasn’t helping anymore & he didn’t need it so he stopped. I’m in the same situation with weed atm which rly ain’t nun but I love it so much I abuse it & it’s effecting me negatively mentally but ill stop eventually
@@mildred714 yea it is & I’m still doing it. I said I wanna stop plenty of times but it just don’t work but I think I got a lot of shit going on atm so wen shit settle down maybe I’ll b able to focus on stopping better. Only wanna smoke on special occasion not multiple times every day
LSD as a teenager was a turning point in my life, total pivot. I went from hanging out with friends who were heading down a bad path to overnight leaving the homies and taking a different path. Hard to explain, but life went another direction for the positive
I went to my first dead show expecting a party, and it for sure was, but more than that, it was almost like church, but the way church is supposed to be, not the way church is now (the one's I've been to, anyway). I cannot be more thankful for the mistakes that the insight helped me to avoid, even if it was at times painful to confront in the moment.
Dude that’s crazy, same kinda thing happened to me too when I was off those tabs. Fucked me up with the truth and I had to get out of my old surroundings
His ability to articulate the reasons behind his life choices and reflect on them is amazing. Most people who walk that path never get out. Good on you Phillip.
I am only 27 n a neophyte, so for me this man blows all the stereotypes about LSD right out of the water. I'm sure there are people who end up wasted on it, but I have a feeling its people who want to end up wasted on it for some reason. In other words those who believe the propaganda and or have boucoup psych issues. Philip is so surprising for his lack of ego, he was so far up the food chain that he was practically the El padrone of acid, but doesn't act like he ran the parties and stuff although I'm sure sometimes, he probably did. But I just wanted to ask if it was a symptom of high dose users the humility you're talking about
@@nightcourtbullies5122 how do you know? He might be kinda a scrounge, he gives the impression of not really liking to have his own place but just hanging out at a friend's house, and so what if he's bringing drugs over to make his presence profitable, so what?
Dmt, LSD and psilocybin are amazing. I was severely traumatized years ago as a teenage, got diagnosed with cptsd. Spent my whole life fighting cptsd. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Hey mates! Can you help with the source? I suffer severe anxiety, panic and depression and I usually take prescription medicine, but they don't always help. Where can I find those psilocybin mushrooms? I'm really interested in treating my mental health without Rxs. I live in Australia don't know much about these. I'm so glad they helped you. I can't wait to get them too. Really need a reliable source 🙏
YES sure of mycologist Predroshrooms. Mushrooms literally got me off my feet and turned my whole life around. I am currently a housing manager for a recovery program. I wouldn't have been able to do that shit without psilocybin.
I'm so very happy for you mate, Psilocybin is absolutely amazing, the way it shows you things, the way it teaches you things. I can not believe our world and our people shows less interest about it's helpfulness to humanity. It's love. The mushrooms heals people by showing the truth, it would be so beneficial for so many people, especially politicians and the rich who have lost their way and every other persons out there.
Not trying LSD or similiar psychedelic at least once, to me, is the equivalent of never leaving your hometown your entire life. Its very sad that people miss out on this incredible human experience. Edit: 1. OBVIOUSLY you shouldnt try it if you have mental health issues. 2. 98% of "bad trips" are caused by, either the reason above, or people being reckless and making stupid decisions. If you take 3 whole tabs at a party full of strangers, for your first time, after you just broke up with girlfriend, thats your fault for being a dumbass. Not the compound. Have some basic sense and respect. 3. You can enjoy psychedelics without going balls to the wall. Just like you can enjoy a cocktail or two instead of chugging an entire bottle of vodka. You take 1/3 of a hit of acid and have a nice mellow, controllable time. If you're not an idiot or mentally ill, theres an astronomically high chance that you have will have positive, often life changing experience on psychedelics.
It was very scary for me almost like the worst nightmare you could imagine and I’ve done it multiple multiple times never had a good trip always terrifying
@@liltullyboy are you in the right mindset? cant be mad or thinking negative and then tripping. Also if schizophrenia or something else along those lines run in your family health history, that could play a role. did you trip the same every time? I know listening to music and being with other people can help.
@@liltullyboy That's unfortunate man. You could have taken too much, been in a bad environment, around sketchy people or simply have some mental things going on you aren't aware of. You have to face your inner demons on it. Alot of people don't like doing that.
Psychedelics are a big part of why I'm still alive today. The insight it gave me into my psyche , my behavioural patterns , my thought patterns , the feeling of experiencing an entity larger and more complex and connected than anything i could ever imagine ... It really helped me with my depression and anxiety... It's not 'cured' as such , but it helped me see that there's another way... and that you can start rewire the way you think and react
In the future this will be the go-to for certain major medical conditions, hopefully we can keep psychedelics out of the pharmaceutical companies pockets.
The saddest part about being exiled and doing LSD is the fact that LSD shows you that you are entirely resposible for every choice you've made. The only thing that matters is your family. It sounds crazy but that "Drug" has quite a few messages in it.
Part of the reason people say it's a mind-expanding drug is because hallucinogens allow the brain to rewire itself and form new connections that wouldn't happen under normal circumstances. This is why there can be such a profound shift in perspective when confronting an issue such as childhood trauma, etc. There is so much potential in psychedelic drugs and we're just now beginning to understand the value they can hold outside of a recreational setting.
@@ericmurray8789 Very true. But it also helps you reveal that message. That's why individuals should seriously consider whether to take it or not if they are going through a rough time as thoughts/worries they are trying to suppress will come to the forefront....and in that assembly of chaotic thoughts, a pathway tends to reveal itself to you on how to address those situations and resolve them. The brain tends to shut out anything that is considered too stressful to the point of where it will create a mental overload. LSD lowers those gates. That's why I think it could be a great "drug" for mental health issues as it would help a person fight their demons and potentially change their life. It certainly showed me a lot personally.
LSD does whatever it wants. Maybe you have life changing trip where you figure out your problems and how to fix. maybe you just get really stoked about the fact that your pockets are always holding your shit for you.
LSD is a dangerous drug of mind control, hence MK-Ultra study. A person dictates a hallucination before a separate person ingests LSD. The person having ingested LSD sees the hallucination that was dictated in advance.
@@SPINNINGMYWHEELS777 I'm not detached from reality, and yeah that part isn't great (selling to minors), but I appreciated his openness as I said. Hurling insults at me doesn't prove a point. Have a nice day.
@@werethewilsons that's a cooler story than that dangerous creep who's fake 'candid' output has you crying in the comments section. Grow up. You didn't hear the REAL story behind this deviant.
@@werethewilsons honestly I strived not to sell to minors. You had to look above 18. Also didn't sell "jones" drugs. I wanted everything to be bright and sunny.
@@phillipallen4726 yeah, I get that. I did my fair share of selling back in the day, too. There was some a-hole on here badmouthing me for defending you (I blocked him)... but I still thought what you had to say was interesting and thought provoking. Actually, I'm dropping a new video myself tonight (after 5 years) if you want to learn more about me!
What the hell are you talking about? This dude sounds like an absolute wreck of a human being. I am very pro freedom to d drugs, but there is a line, this dude crossed it long ago.
@@mytruthslays1303 and he owned it instead of making excuses. It’s clear years of abuse has taken its toll on his mental well being but that’s a choice he made and he is very much aware of that. Putting aside the videos from this great channel, I meet people on the daily who make excuses for their addictions, not everyday you hear someone say “it was my doing and I’m goin to accept the consequences “ it does t have to make sense to any of us but him. It’s 2022, live and let live. ✌️
This man is an old soul, the amount of warmth and inner strength radiating from him is extraordinary. "Think for yourself"- this is exactly what we need in this world right now. I'd love to see and hear more! Wonderful interview!
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.sporesss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
tbh, acid is probably the reason i'm still around to this day. It's such a powerful antidepressant, but not always in the same way. Sometimes you have to come face to face with what's in your mind and that's really the most accessible way to do that. no filter. not even to yourself. I'm autistic AF, so most feelings i end up having to sit and decipher and figure out slowly. with acid it's "oh, that's what that is. that's why i feel this way. that's what's going on." Usually tho, it's just a big happy euphoric, "why is everything funny?" "why is stuff moving?" "i love these trees" tho. There's also that huge seratonin thing, which happens to be lacking in people with chronic depression. Idk, a trip every 2-3 months ends up being that mental reset that can separate you from that cliff more often than i'd like to admit.
Hi Mark, This guy doesn't hide behind anything. He says it like he sees it. Growing up Mormon isnt easy. I feel bad for him bc his family doesn't WANT to understand his was of living and his beliefs. Hopefully some day his family will come together and learn that no everybody has to have the same beliefs. Prayers for Phillip.
I have a very similar life story as this guy. Also grew up LDS and started breaking away at around 12 and followed very similar path. I relate to this guy so damn much. I wish we could sit down and swap stories. Thank you Underbelly for this interview. These interviews mean a lot to me, this one, even more
Same here. My life had a similar path as Phillip too. I actually, am pretty sure that he and I crossed paths on a grassy area, under some trees, at a show one day. I think it was in Tennessee. His tattoos are very familiar to me, I remember him having big, curly hair, and a long, bushy bread. We were both spun out of our minds, and even though we only very briefly connected, the memory feels like way longer than a moment. Clear and vivid. I have now, also left the addictions to my past. It's really neat seeing this interview. It brings back a lot of happy memories.
Yeah same. Grew up LDS and I actually have no disdain for the church, but I don’t believe in it and I took my own path and ended up turning out decently. Same with my brother who went way crazier than I. I do not think it’s a cult, but I do think that some can turn it into one with how strict they can be with their rules
The fact he was 30 and dealing to teens in the first place shows his lack of morals is pretty high. I ever find out someone like him sells LSD (which I have done and enjoyed) to my child it will be a horrible day for him.
Phillip, my heart went out to you when you said you just wanted your family. I had a similar upbringing with the religious stuff taking precedence over a real connection to family and putting a wedge between friends and extracurriculars due to the strictness. You interviewed beautifully, I only wish the best for you.
Phillip. I'm so sorry about your Mom. My mom's mother lost both breasts to breast cancer (seperate incidents). She died of an unrelated anurism. My mom is on her 3rd bout of breast cancer, had 2 lump tumor removals, and has polyps she's awaiting to get removed (don't know if I spelled it right) as well. She's had skin cancer in the past two. It is really hard watching your mother struggle with things like this. I'm so fortunate my Mom turns 68 in a few months. I so hope her life is longer than she thinks it will be. I want to urge everyone who reads this to get your breast exams, colon checkups (lost my dad's dad to bowel cancer), and all your checkups your supposed too. This stuff is serious. Life is precious. Catching things early can save ALOT of pain and possibly your life. Thank you for the great interview Phillip. 🎀 Couldn't find a pink ribbon to put up but let's pretend this one is to honor Phil's mom and everyone else gone or still fighting or in remission.
🎀💝 - I am sorry your mom went through all of that - I can't imagine the anguish you felt for her dealing with all of that. Your mom is a real fighter! Thank you for this comment.
I really like this guy. I have watched this interview five or six times. I hope that he never finds the hard stuff again and I also hope that his family eventually sees what a honest and big heart he seems to have. I really hope that you do an update.
He hit the nail on the head when he said the church/religion got in the way of parenting. A lot of parents think they're doing the right thing by raising their kids in a strict religious way but too often it does way more harm than good. So many people would be great parents if they'd just raise their kids with love and have open conversations about life choices... the kids would turn out so much better. My mom had so much potential to be a great mom but the religion took over and ruined everything. At the end of her life I think she might realize it's better to have an unconditionally loving relationship with a daughter/son you don't agree with than to not have one at all. One day she might look back and go "ohhh... I kinda missed the point there". I hope so anyway.
Damn this right here expresses my relationship with my mom so well... religion got in the way of our daughter/mom closeness but it's what keeps my mom's depression at bay so I guess there's one thing I can loosely say it benefitted.. I hope she sees it someday too
"Listen to your parents"... You could have cried, Philip. We all cry on this channel. "The church got in the way of their parenting." All those trips made you a very insightful person. *hugs*
@@phillipallen4726 right... i cry a lot. I heard a girl on here say, "i feel so sorry for people who don't use drugs... they have to feel emotions." Probably why we cry, huh Phillip. Like you say, better than gettin' loaded. 👍💯
@@SPINNINGMYWHEELS777 I never sold to people under 18. I meant kids in college and in their 20s. It was meant to piss sensitive people like you off and it worked ;)
“I remember where it took me.” Best thing to remind yourself when you want to use. Might not be tomorrow, next week, next month, but eventually you’ll be back in a bad way and once you’re there it’s hard to quit.
Phillip as a 6th generation Mormon, that is now out, I agree that Mormonism a cult. It shouldn't be forced on kids. Great work Mark I love your interviews, they make me much more empathetic and understanding to my fellow humans.
Yes, mormonism is a cult. Left that hot mess once I experienced a paradigm shift but not before I “got” cptsd from a lifetime of the Mormon church’s brand of mindf#@k. I was in it and fully believing, practicing, temple wed. I saved my life and that of my spouse and children by leaving (which was epically difficult as a “born in the covenant”).
Just got out. Probably partially due to my LSD use while a temple recommend holding member over the last two years that helped me begin to think outside the cult framed mindset.
Wow...what an interesting character Philip is. After all the stories of the drugs and experiences he had, the one regret he mentioned (and the one time he got emotional) was over having a relationship with his family. I really hope he is able to make a real connection with them soon and that they (his family) realize it's OK to be different and still be a close member of a family. If you read this Philip...good luck to you and I really don't think you have anything to regret in your choices and your lifestyle. I hope (and pray) your family is open enough to allow you back into the 'family fold' and accepts that you are who you are and being who you are is acceptable and that accepting others for who they are IS the core teaching of almost all religions.
Man when Philip started talking about getting older and having fewer and fewer friends and seeing him get teary eyed when he talked about not having family ties. I feel you buddy I would be a friend to ya
Very cool guy and easy to listen to. I'm glad he doesn't seem to have done any serious permanent damage. He's a people person and that's a great thing to be in many lines of work. Wishing you success, Philip as a mom of two who aren't much older than you I'd be proud of who you've become.
@@playgroundofsound7683 A thumbprint is basically just a massively irresponsible dose of LSD, it comes from the idea that you dont really dose it out but you put your thumb on pure lsd crystal and take the dose off your thumb. To put it into perspective, a standard dose of lsd is about 100 micrograms, a microgram is 1/1000 of a mg. A thumbprint dose will easily be a few mg of acid. So a lot of the horror stories your hear surrounding lsd are from people who were miseducated about the substance and took a massive dose that inevitably sends them into a drug induced psychosis. Acid can be a truly transformative substance but we need to teach individuals how to use it safely rather than teaching abstinence.
@Eric B Personally I ate crystal and still eat sometimes.. And you do not need to take a lot you can take a half size of the sand size from the crystal and stay in a low side of the trip. My first time when I laid blotter and accidently one of my finger touched the crystal. I said for myself, fuck it and licked my finger. Was a half mg level and was manageable. My crystal was greyish and was the cheapest in the market and manufactured in the Netherland. quality was around 70-80% and I do not had any body loads from it.
Psychedelics definitely have potential to deal with health issues like anxiety and depression, I would like to try them but it's just hard to source out here.
I was having this constant and unbearable anxiety because of university stress. Not until I came across Ted Winston, a very intelligent mycologist, He saved my life honestly.
This guy is how I lived for many years I remember nights eating 50+ doses. People can say we're crazy or dumb but I sat with God and became a changed person for the better for the rest of my days. I still trip but maybe once a year now a days the reminder is needed.
@@HKim0072 for real theres a certain threshold around 1500-2000 micrograms... to drop 50 tabs they would have to be HEAVILY underdosed. After around 100 separate lsd experiences, 300-700 is all you really need but 100 to 300 is all most need
@@jbayley6963 I'm old(er). During my younger years, we would get a sheet and it would have 50-100 tabs of LSD on paper. We didn't have measurements, but taking 50 doses of old school tabs would likely kill you.
-Any regrets? -Yeah, I wish I had my family... 💔 It's sad that they're estranged from each other...and he's 'lucky' his journey after leaving them, didn't end in tragedy, and he was able to make it to recovery... I'm so happy for you, Phillip, that you're in recovery, and you are aware enough to try to avoid the drugs that led you down the wrong path before. Be ever vigilant, and keep working towards your goals of a clean and stable life...🤞🙏🏻 Be well, Shush✌ 🧡💛💜💛🧡
@Rob You're not a fool for feeling empathy for people, Rob. It would be troubling if we didn't, and the world would be even worse for it. We have to try to hold on to our "humanity"...and by that, I mean the good traits of humans, not the bad ones...or else we'll be doomed. Be well...🙏🏻 Shush✌
Phillip, you're a nice change from the norm. You seem like a pretty cool guy. Lmk when you make it back to AAco, I'm in Odenton and I would love to hang out and hear more of your stories! Thank you, Mark
Can so much relate to what was shared at the end from 19:30 onward. Wasn’t LDS but had a religious upbringing myself that was very challenging. What he shared here about how he wishes his family could understand who he is but not expecting them to be able to is deeply relatable. It’s actually a very mature place of acceptance about it that he seems to have reached as well, no doubt I imagine inspired by how grateful he is just to be alive.
LSD should be legal. Prohibition has only made the drug problems worse and there are plenty of us who like to expand our minds and still function normally in society.
Same thing with mushrooms. I use them once every few months to have a mind expanding experience, and also regularly microdose them with tremendous benefits. I consider myself to be a completely normal and highly functioning person.
Same. It has really allowed me to look at life through a different lense, really understand what I should cherish, and what I should not get upset about. I think its saved me a lot of stress and heartache that I see is common in those who have never had such an experience.
I'll have to cop out to that. Dealt South Jersey from Greenwich Village connect. Never really talk about it. Definitely a bigger part of my past. It's good to be Saved.
Love the nonstop smiling as the trip begins. Hearing and vision twitching from normal to a loss of total control. Fantasia was a cool movie to watch while tripping.
This was a great interview, it would be awesome if you interviewed an older classic-era Deadhead who did similar to what Philip did but in the '70s-90s when the Dead still had Jerry Garcia.
I saw The Greatful Dead with Jerry Garcia in 1990. The people at that show were so kind. Families and even children born on the road and subjected to that lifestyle. I will never forget seeing a man passed out with a sign on his chest that said Dose Me. He had like 50 hits of acid on his forehead. I also picked up a hitchhiker named Granola and he was a good dude. I said where you headed he said I'm going to see Jerry man. I said jump in let's go. I was 18. 32 years ago.
First time I saw the dead was in Boston in 93. I was 16. This was also the first time I dropped. A guy with a bunch of safety pins was going around with an eye dropper giving doses. He put a full dropper/ almost full in my mouth. Tripped hard for 2.5 days.
@@MrHorse-kv4iy oh yeah used to have vials and puddles ourselves frequently and stayed awake for days...didn't want to miss a minute, but still had to stay awake for the drive to the next venue 💯🤘
We all have a different path to walk. Too many people walk someone else's path. Phillip is inspirational in this regard. A lot of times when people are shunned for doing things their own way, they end up living an extreme version of their own way (like Phillip with drugs). We need to normalize individuality. As time goes on, it feels like the more normal you are... the more of a "weirdo" you are in society
I did a thumbprint once... "Initiation" like you said... It was comforting watching this interview... Made me feel like I wasn't so alone in my experiences.. thank you
Holy shit Phil! I haven't seen him for a decade man. He hooked me up with a lot of Mushrooms and LSD in my time. I met him though a mutual friend that dated him for a while, and always thought he was a pretty cool guy.
I used to bartend at stadiums in and out of my city, and the people at the Phish concerts were by far the most laid back, polite people great tippers as well, also just a fun scene in general.
Best interview I've seen so far because it relates so heavily to my own experience. Solid family. I got love for him because he had the same upbringing / experience with the family I did, all I can do is wish ole boy the best. Love you brother and I hope you find your way as do I wish the same for all of us! Keep on truckin my man
At 68, I started doing psychedelics probably in 1970. The first time was in a park. I took a hit of Purple Mescaline with a friend. We waited about 50 minutes & nothing was happening, then another dealer came by with some Pink Tab T. So we took that, then about 5 minutes later the Mescaline kicked in. It was quite the day & night as a 15 year old. I loved it. After that I was hooked. I ate acid or some kind of hallucinogenic almost every day, some times twice. After 300 trips I lost count. All was good until the Angel Dust raised it's ugly head. That was the end of the line for me for some time. Later I dabbled in a little Coke, but the MDA & Mushrooms were still the best. Now it's generally just good herb & gummies along with Shrooms if around.
yeah, i would be first in line to be friends with him....but i'd prolly get on his nerves. really really cool. just met someone like him on the night b4 NYE.
@@thematriarchy2075 exactly what I said read my comment again . But let me dumb it down for you , they all have emotional problems and can freak out in a second , the drugs permanently fuck with these people.
Apart from the Mormon thing I’m feeling this guy. I’m in my 40s and now sober from all non prescribed drugs for about 5 years. Started at about 12. The main difference is that I was using all sorts throughout that time. It started as fun, but soon became just what I did. Then in my early 30,s I started realising some negative effects. Took a while to stop completely and turn my whole lifestyle around. The bit where he said when he was dealing he had loads of friends, then when he stopped he was left with only a few. Thing is when you only got you to offer the people still around a real friends not associates. To me that whole lifestyle was trying to escape reality, but reality will always catch up. Make your reality as positive as you can for you and all around you. Let go the ego and you can find peace.
When he talks about his 5 friends and his family you can see him get emotional. They mean a lot to him. This interview was a nice change. He is an amazing man and deserves so much. I truly hope his family can understand that everyone is different and everyone leads their own path. You're a good man! I hope the best for you
I have a remarkably similar story as phillip. I left that scene around the same time as well, probably ran into each other a few times. Good dude, glad you were able to realize what you were doing to yourself and decide to get out. Life becomes a little more mundane but honestly I prefer it now to constant partying and 10 strips every weekend.
Well, this was refreshing and interesting. There is certainly a whole generation (not just in US) that would relate to Philip's (life)story. Mark, thank you for your work!
I relate to his story more than any other guest for sure. If Phillip saw the content of my channel, he'd know right away how i did Bisco tour from '08 - '13. Cheers Phil
yeah they are called the lost generation that love death culture. glad you enjoyed listing to a creep who's worse than a pedophile. says much about your mental state.
I don't even know this man, but I have lots of love for him. I'm sure I've run into him at a show on the east coast before, if just in passing. What a great interview. Hope this guy stays on the good path, continues to live how he wants, and find some love and happiness.
LSD and mushrooms completely changed my whole outlook on life. I became a better version of myself This experience gave me a lot of confidence about my self and my body. A bunch of bad thought / behavior patterns were broken. One of these was pretty bad OCD that made me wash my hands a lot. It gave me a lot of hope that things will be fine, this is the one thing that I heard throughout the trip: Everything is alright. The main reason for the trip was my severe depression and it definitely helped me (although it's not gone). Before all I could do was lay in bed. Now I am trying to rebuild my life one step at a time which wasn't possible before."
Psychedelic’s definitely have potential to deal with mental health symptoms like anxiety and depression, I would like to try them again but it’s just so hard to source here
Psychedelics are the reason why i didn’t take my life when i was at my end. I was stripped of my ego and saw the beauty of life and interconnectivity and even though i still battle anxiety and depression, I’m doing better everyday and will never think in such a self destructive way again.
I went to a Beck concert at merriweather, me and my girl took 2 hits of acid before the show, we got to our seats and began to make out. Nothing nasty, just kissing. All of the sudden the music stopped and lights came on. Never saw beck, and it was the best concert I've ever been to
I wonder how much love was shown to philip from his parents? I'm sure his mom having cancer took a toll on the family. I can relate with him on so many levels. I'd love to hang out and talk with him!
Love his honesty. Great job of climbing yourself out of the hell pit of addiction. As an opioid addict myself, I understand how hard it is. I had to get off the blues CT, but still on any other pills I can find. I can't imagine all the crap you had to get off of. Stay strong and don't ever forget where it took you. Best of luck..🤗
What a thoughtful, sensitive and self-reflective interview. What a beautiful human being. While there will always be both positive and negative interactions and consequences associated with entheogen use by people in different contexts/points in their lives, I have zero doubt that along the way Phillip's work changed countless people's lives for the better.
Once you see or reason your way out of any religion, you can't un-see it. That's a truth I've discovered over the years, thankfully. My mother & her side of the family were Southern Baptist. My grandpa was a preacher & a few uncles followed after him. The indoctrination, expectations, rules, guilt, and shaming of religion indoctrination is so hard to come out of when it's implanted in your brain & life as a child. Thanks for sharing your story! Good luck to you in all you do. Wishing you nothing but the very best & a boatload of happiness!
God it's been that long. That's crazy. I didn't even think about it when he said he went to a grateful Dead show. So unfortunate that this next generation didn't have anything like the dead to relate to and spend their youth having good clean fun. I quit going because in 93/94 it started getting too much like phish shows. Cops, bad drugs, not the greatest people coming and trying to capitalize and the Allman Brothers were killing it and low key. RIP all the musicians and crew that have so many of us a church to go to and find ourselves as youth.
This dude is crazy normal for the amount of LSD he has done. Ive had friends who have lost their damn mind from psychadelics when we were younger, and some never came back and cant function in society
...Comes a time when the blind man takes your hand Says, "Don't you see? Gotta make it somehow on the dreams you still believe Don't give it up, you got an empty cup That only love can fill, only love can fill"........... ✌💀🌹
@@phillipallen4726 Hey Phillip, thank you for answering... My first spontaneious thought was: having partners and finding love are two different things ;-). Anyways: I am sure, your self reflection will bring you somewhere you like to be. All the best for your future and good wishes from Germany!
1:15 this is why so many intelligent people are lost to drugs, the most enlightened people carry the most pain and any form of relief from the pain that is reality is like a breath of fresh air, it becomes the air you breathe, the food you eat, the character you portray to the world.
Love n respect from South Mississippi. We had a couple folks come here off the dead tour at different times and brought crystal lsd, dipping sheets, making books and it was a beautiful time. Mdma was plentiful and cubes grow just about year round here. I got off into the wrong direction with coke and then heroin but the shrooms helped me come back to my old self somewhat. Y'all be safe out there... Test your chemicals people. Much Love
@@stopthephilosophicalzombie9017 LSD has the potential too to change your life really bad, just saying, not everybody views it like its good, it can fuck up a mind that is healthy and awake some mental disorders so whatch out with that crap.
I used to fuck with acid until a couple weeks ago somebody drugged me with it and assaulted me , this interview it reminded me of the more innocent side of acid -consensually taking it at shows with friends , parties etc
This interview was one of the best. This guy was coherent and didn't blame anyone but himself for his lifestyle. He explained how the drugs he used and sold worked. It's refreshing to see someone that came out on the other side after years of drug use.
Right. & the fact that he said they worked & helped him when they did then realized it wasn’t helping anymore & he didn’t need it so he stopped. I’m in the same situation with weed atm which rly ain’t nun but I love it so much I abuse it & it’s effecting me negatively mentally but ill stop eventually
@@sealofakatosh you just said it was effecting you negatively but you’re still doing it…
@@mildred714 yea it is & I’m still doing it. I said I wanna stop plenty of times but it just don’t work but I think I got a lot of shit going on atm so wen shit settle down maybe I’ll b able to focus on stopping better. Only wanna smoke on special occasion not multiple times every day
There is a fucking DRASTIC difference between opiates and hallucinogens. One makes you shit your pants everymorning when you don't have it.
I wish you the best Dimitri.
LSD as a teenager was a turning point in my life, total pivot. I went from hanging out with friends who were heading down a bad path to overnight leaving the homies and taking a different path. Hard to explain, but life went another direction for the positive
I had a similar experience after my first and only hit of acid. Walked away and never looked back. I never looked at life as a child after that.
Same here
I went to my first dead show expecting a party, and it for sure was, but more than that, it was almost like church, but the way church is supposed to be, not the way church is now (the one's I've been to, anyway). I cannot be more thankful for the mistakes that the insight helped me to avoid, even if it was at times painful to confront in the moment.
Similar experiences after my first breakthrough on dmt
Dude that’s crazy, same kinda thing happened to me too when I was off those tabs. Fucked me up with the truth and I had to get out of my old surroundings
His ability to articulate the reasons behind his life choices and reflect on them is amazing. Most people who walk that path never get out. Good on you Phillip.
Not most. There are people playing dead everywhere lol
@@JacksonDunnoKnows I told you he was real, mannnn!
What path was that? Rick doblin Paul stamets bear owsley and Joe Rogan or Mormons?
@@JacksonDunnoKnows workingman's is still the best . Pig pen was a beast.
LSD isn't quite the same thing as crack
Dudes a legend. Can tell the years of acid have kept him super humble and self aware.
I am only 27 n a neophyte, so for me this man blows all the stereotypes about LSD right out of the water. I'm sure there are people who end up wasted on it, but I have a feeling its people who want to end up wasted on it for some reason. In other words those who believe the propaganda and or have boucoup psych issues. Philip is so surprising for his lack of ego, he was so far up the food chain that he was practically the El padrone of acid, but doesn't act like he ran the parties and stuff although I'm sure sometimes, he probably did. But I just wanted to ask if it was a symptom of high dose users the humility you're talking about
You haven’t met him. That’s pretty far from what he is 😂
@@nightcourtbullies5122 how do you know? He might be kinda a scrounge, he gives the impression of not really liking to have his own place but just hanging out at a friend's house, and so what if he's bringing drugs over to make his presence profitable, so what?
Lucky, cause they've left me paranoid and full of self loathing
Lsd does that for sure.
Dmt, LSD and psilocybin are amazing. I was severely traumatized years ago as a teenage, got diagnosed with cptsd. Spent my whole life fighting cptsd. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Hey mates! Can you help with the source? I suffer severe anxiety, panic and depression and I usually take prescription medicine, but they don't always help. Where can I find those psilocybin mushrooms? I'm really interested in treating my mental health without Rxs. I live in Australia don't know much about these. I'm so glad they helped you. I can't wait to get them too. Really need a reliable source 🙏
YES sure of mycologist Predroshrooms. Mushrooms literally got me off my feet and turned my whole life around. I am currently a housing manager for a recovery program. I wouldn't have been able to do that shit without psilocybin.
I'm so very happy for you mate, Psilocybin is absolutely amazing, the way it shows you things, the way it teaches you things. I can not believe our world and our people shows less interest about it's helpfulness to humanity. It's love. The mushrooms heals people by showing the truth, it would be so beneficial for so many people, especially politicians and the rich who have lost their way and every other persons out there.
Where do I reach this dude? If possible can I find him on Google
Not trying LSD or similiar psychedelic at least once, to me, is the equivalent of never leaving your hometown your entire life. Its very sad that people miss out on this incredible human experience.
Edit:
1. OBVIOUSLY you shouldnt try it if you have mental health issues.
2. 98% of "bad trips" are caused by, either the reason above, or people being reckless and making stupid decisions. If you take 3 whole tabs at a party full of strangers, for your first time, after you just broke up with girlfriend, thats your fault for being a dumbass. Not the compound. Have some basic sense and respect.
3. You can enjoy psychedelics without going balls to the wall. Just like you can enjoy a cocktail or two instead of chugging an entire bottle of vodka. You take 1/3 of a hit of acid and have a nice mellow, controllable time.
If you're not an idiot or mentally ill, theres an astronomically high chance that you have will have positive, often life changing experience on psychedelics.
Indeed
It was very scary for me almost like the worst nightmare you could imagine and I’ve done it multiple multiple times never had a good trip always terrifying
Ive done acid more than most but that first trip was the best.
@@liltullyboy are you in the right mindset? cant be mad or thinking negative and then tripping. Also if schizophrenia or something else along those lines run in your family health history, that could play a role. did you trip the same every time? I know listening to music and being with other people can help.
@@liltullyboy That's unfortunate man. You could have taken too much, been in a bad environment, around sketchy people or simply have some mental things going on you aren't aware of. You have to face your inner demons on it. Alot of people don't like doing that.
Psychedelics are a big part of why I'm still alive today.
The insight it gave me into my psyche , my behavioural patterns , my thought patterns , the feeling of experiencing an entity larger and more complex and connected than anything i could ever imagine ...
It really helped me with my depression and anxiety... It's not 'cured' as such , but it helped me see that there's another way... and that you can start rewire the way you think and react
In the future this will be the go-to for certain major medical conditions, hopefully we can keep psychedelics out of the pharmaceutical companies pockets.
Ride on Same here
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I believe they helped me heal from my childhood BS too. My 20s were interesting for sure. Lol.
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@@Dhardy316 from your mouth to G-Ds ears❤️
The saddest part about being exiled and doing LSD is the fact that LSD shows you that you are entirely resposible for every choice you've made. The only thing that matters is your family. It sounds crazy but that "Drug" has quite a few messages in it.
Part of the reason people say it's a mind-expanding drug is because hallucinogens allow the brain to rewire itself and form new connections that wouldn't happen under normal circumstances. This is why there can be such a profound shift in perspective when confronting an issue such as childhood trauma, etc. There is so much potential in psychedelic drugs and we're just now beginning to understand the value they can hold outside of a recreational setting.
The drug didn't have any message in it that wasn't already in your brain.
@@ericmurray8789 Very true. But it also helps you reveal that message. That's why individuals should seriously consider whether to take it or not if they are going through a rough time as thoughts/worries they are trying to suppress will come to the forefront....and in that assembly of chaotic thoughts, a pathway tends to reveal itself to you on how to address those situations and resolve them.
The brain tends to shut out anything that is considered too stressful to the point of where it will create a mental overload. LSD lowers those gates. That's why I think it could be a great "drug" for mental health issues as it would help a person fight their demons and potentially change their life. It certainly showed me a lot personally.
LSD does whatever it wants. Maybe you have life changing trip where you figure out your problems and how to fix. maybe you just get really stoked about the fact that your pockets are always holding your shit for you.
@@calebhohneke8482 “you really gotta try it …really gotta really gotta…. Really gotta really gotta really gotta really gotta…really gotta try it “
I used to sell drugs and it is so true what he said about having heaps of friends around but when I stopped selling there was no one.
Through his 35 years of a turbulent life, Phillip still craves a loving close connection to his family. I truly hope that can happen for him someday.
LSD is a dangerous drug of mind control, hence MK-Ultra study. A person dictates a hallucination before a separate person ingests LSD. The person having ingested LSD sees the hallucination that was dictated in advance.
@@matthewhawking4318 you clearly have no experience with LSD.
@@LSDforEveryone I've never taken LSD in my life.
Unfortunately they are religious tards
@@LSDforEveryone You mean no experience with LDS.
It is a cult that will never accept him as he is.
This guy was awesome- one of the best interviews you've done. He was super refreshing and honest. Best of luck to him.
@@SPINNINGMYWHEELS777 I'm not detached from reality, and yeah that part isn't great (selling to minors), but I appreciated his openness as I said. Hurling insults at me doesn't prove a point. Have a nice day.
@@werethewilsons that's a cooler story than that dangerous creep who's fake 'candid' output has you crying in the comments section. Grow up. You didn't hear the REAL story behind this deviant.
@@werethewilsons honestly I strived not to sell to minors. You had to look above 18. Also didn't sell "jones" drugs. I wanted everything to be bright and sunny.
@@phillipallen4726 yeah, I get that. I did my fair share of selling back in the day, too. There was some a-hole on here badmouthing me for defending you (I blocked him)... but I still thought what you had to say was interesting and thought provoking. Actually, I'm dropping a new video myself tonight (after 5 years) if you want to learn more about me!
@@phillipallen4726 hope you stay safe, man--great interview.
This guy was a breath of fresh air, took ownership and managed to realize what’s important in life . Thanks again mark!
Lsd has that effect
What the hell are you talking about? This dude sounds like an absolute wreck of a human being. I am very pro freedom to d drugs, but there is a line, this dude crossed it long ago.
@@mytruthslays1303 and he owned it instead of making excuses. It’s clear years of abuse has taken its toll on his mental well being but that’s a choice he made and he is very much aware of that. Putting aside the videos from this great channel, I meet people on the daily who make excuses for their addictions, not everyday you hear someone say “it was my doing and I’m goin to accept the consequences “ it does t have to make sense to any of us but him. It’s 2022, live and let live. ✌️
@@juanzamarripa3133 For real 💯
@@mytruthslays1303 sure did. I know that. Did you miss something?
This man is an old soul, the amount of warmth and inner strength radiating from him is extraordinary. "Think for yourself"- this is exactly what we need in this world right now. I'd love to see and hear more! Wonderful interview!
Think harder!
I'd like to see a longer interview with this guy and maybe even a situation where you follow his life for a few days.
AGREED
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.sporesss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is he on instagram?
Yes he is. dr.sporesss
tbh, acid is probably the reason i'm still around to this day. It's such a powerful antidepressant, but not always in the same way. Sometimes you have to come face to face with what's in your mind and that's really the most accessible way to do that. no filter. not even to yourself. I'm autistic AF, so most feelings i end up having to sit and decipher and figure out slowly. with acid it's "oh, that's what that is. that's why i feel this way. that's what's going on." Usually tho, it's just a big happy euphoric, "why is everything funny?" "why is stuff moving?" "i love these trees" tho. There's also that huge seratonin thing, which happens to be lacking in people with chronic depression. Idk, a trip every 2-3 months ends up being that mental reset that can separate you from that cliff more often than i'd like to admit.
This will be the future of mental health, but we can grow our own rx's.
(Im already most the way there)
Play safe dude
I agree. Everyone in this world should do that once..
@@Ventitrer what about shrooms ? how does it compare to acid. is it as good?
@@sonquatsch8585 it's like apples and oranges. They're both tasty fruits that do very good things for you.
I like this guy clear minded well spoken
Hi Mark,
This guy doesn't hide behind anything. He says it like he sees it. Growing up Mormon isnt easy. I feel bad for him bc his family doesn't WANT to understand his was of living and his beliefs. Hopefully some day his family will come together and learn that no everybody has to have the same beliefs. Prayers for Phillip.
Exactly. Not everybody has to have the same beliefs.
Sincerely,
Hitler, Stalin, Mao and Pol Pot........
Morons?
I have a very similar life story as this guy. Also grew up LDS and started breaking away at around 12 and followed very similar path. I relate to this guy so damn much. I wish we could sit down and swap stories. Thank you Underbelly for this interview. These interviews mean a lot to me, this one, even more
Same here. My life had a similar path as Phillip too. I actually, am pretty sure that he and I crossed paths on a grassy area, under some trees, at a show one day. I think it was in Tennessee. His tattoos are very familiar to me, I remember him having big, curly hair, and a long, bushy bread. We were both spun out of our minds, and even though we only very briefly connected, the memory feels like way longer than a moment. Clear and vivid. I have now, also left the addictions to my past. It's really neat seeing this interview. It brings back a lot of happy memories.
lds to lsd pipeline
Yeah same. Grew up LDS and I actually have no disdain for the church, but I don’t believe in it and I took my own path and ended up turning out decently. Same with my brother who went way crazier than I. I do not think it’s a cult, but I do think that some can turn it into one with how strict they can be with their rules
Its nice to see someone who had a crazy life on drugs but doesn’t seem out of control in his life.
Dealing at 30 yrs old to teens and realizing that's not ok and time to grow up shows someone who isn't clueless and can build a successful adult life.
It's honestly not your business to judge a drug dealer especially someone selling LSD. The people buying this stuff arnt victims........
@@wasabesabe5986 I believe he was talking to Betsy he would of replied @ you if the comment was directed to you.
Um LSD might not be very dangerous but it shouldn’t be sold to teens
The fact he was 30 and dealing to teens in the first place shows his lack of morals is pretty high. I ever find out someone like him sells LSD (which I have done and enjoyed) to my child it will be a horrible day for him.
@@mytruthslays1303 so a teen selling to your teens is ok?
Phillip, my heart went out to you when you said you just wanted your family. I had a similar upbringing with the religious stuff taking precedence over a real connection to family and putting a wedge between friends and extracurriculars due to the strictness. You interviewed beautifully, I only wish the best for you.
Phillip. I'm so sorry about your Mom. My mom's mother lost both breasts to breast cancer (seperate incidents). She died of an unrelated anurism. My mom is on her 3rd bout of breast cancer, had 2 lump tumor removals, and has polyps she's awaiting to get removed (don't know if I spelled it right) as well. She's had skin cancer in the past two. It is really hard watching your mother struggle with things like this. I'm so fortunate my Mom turns 68 in a few months. I so hope her life is longer than she thinks it will be. I want to urge everyone who reads this to get your breast exams, colon checkups (lost my dad's dad to bowel cancer), and all your checkups your supposed too. This stuff is serious. Life is precious. Catching things early can save ALOT of pain and possibly your life. Thank you for the great interview Phillip. 🎀 Couldn't find a pink ribbon to put up but let's pretend this one is to honor Phil's mom and everyone else gone or still fighting or in remission.
T from D yes, early detection is key. It's very tough on people when family members are getting cancer. ☘🧚♂️🇮🇪
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🎀💝 - I am sorry your mom went through all of that - I can't imagine the anguish you felt for her dealing with all of that. Your mom is a real fighter! Thank you for this comment.
Good morning my friend!!!!!!!
T from the d ,you are so thoughtful!! god bless you and your family I pray you have a great year!!!!!!
I really like this guy. I have watched this interview five or six times. I hope that he never finds the hard stuff again and I also hope that his family eventually sees what a honest and big heart he seems to have. I really hope that you do an update.
Nope crap still sucks lol.
L is still a huge part of my life. Just hearing this... Thank you Mark.. I needed to hear this, today.
He hit the nail on the head when he said the church/religion got in the way of parenting. A lot of parents think they're doing the right thing by raising their kids in a strict religious way but too often it does way more harm than good. So many people would be great parents if they'd just raise their kids with love and have open conversations about life choices... the kids would turn out so much better.
My mom had so much potential to be a great mom but the religion took over and ruined everything.
At the end of her life I think she might realize it's better to have an unconditionally loving relationship with a daughter/son you don't agree with than to not have one at all.
One day she might look back and go "ohhh... I kinda missed the point there".
I hope so anyway.
Damn this right here expresses my relationship with my mom so well... religion got in the way of our daughter/mom closeness but it's what keeps my mom's depression at bay so I guess there's one thing I can loosely say it benefitted.. I hope she sees it someday too
@@albertomedina4294 Nope, I live in the US
@@albertomedina4294 I'd like to kindly decline.
"Listen to your parents"... You could have cried, Philip. We all cry on this channel. "The church got in the way of their parenting." All those trips made you a very insightful person. *hugs*
He did say, if they’re good parents!
@@juanzamarripa3133.. haha. Right. Listen to your parents when they're good parents.
I cry a lot, nothing shameful about it. Better than getting loaded.
@@phillipallen4726 right... i cry a lot. I heard a girl on here say, "i feel so sorry for people who don't use drugs... they have to feel emotions." Probably why we cry, huh Phillip. Like you say, better than gettin' loaded. 👍💯
This guy spent a huge amount of life going full circle and running away from something he realized was important at a later age. Beautiful
you really bought into his bullshit story. The guy is a fucking creep who's worse than a pedophile selling psycho-memetics to children.
@insaniity where did you lose your brain man? 1 grow some balls and stop crying in Soft White Underbelly comments.
@@SPINNINGMYWHEELS777 stop projecting weirdo. Go get help
@@SPINNINGMYWHEELS777 Man you're fucking weird... People are fucking weird man 😂 wtf
@@SPINNINGMYWHEELS777 I never sold to people under 18. I meant kids in college and in their 20s. It was meant to piss sensitive people like you off and it worked ;)
This dude seems so chill, he also seems like he's Jack Black's stunt double. All love to him!
“I remember where it took me.” Best thing to remind yourself when you want to use. Might not be tomorrow, next week, next month, but eventually you’ll be back in a bad way and once you’re there it’s hard to quit.
He converted his faith from LDS Mormon to LSD Mormon.
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I’ve been there!!!
Lol!!!
I know there supposed to be a joke but I failed to grasp it.
LSD Mormon is definitely better than LDS Mormon
Phillip as a 6th generation Mormon, that is now out, I agree that Mormonism a cult. It shouldn't be forced on kids. Great work Mark I love your interviews, they make me much more empathetic and understanding to my fellow humans.
Yes, mormonism is a cult. Left that hot mess once I experienced a paradigm shift but not before I “got” cptsd from a lifetime of the Mormon church’s brand of mindf#@k. I was in it and fully believing, practicing, temple wed. I saved my life and that of my spouse and children by leaving (which was epically difficult as a “born in the covenant”).
Thanks. Love to here from ex's!
With you as an ex-Mormon ❤️
Just got out. Probably partially due to my LSD use while a temple recommend holding member over the last two years that helped me begin to think outside the cult framed mindset.
All religions are forms of mind control.
Wow...what an interesting character Philip is. After all the stories of the drugs and experiences he had, the one regret he mentioned (and the one time he got emotional) was over having a relationship with his family. I really hope he is able to make a real connection with them soon and that they (his family) realize it's OK to be different and still be a close member of a family. If you read this Philip...good luck to you and I really don't think you have anything to regret in your choices and your lifestyle. I hope (and pray) your family is open enough to allow you back into the 'family fold' and accepts that you are who you are and being who you are is acceptable and that accepting others for who they are IS the core teaching of almost all religions.
you could see him starting to tear up as he mentioned the few friends who were still there.
Phillip, I think there’s great strength in being vulnerable and sharing your truth. I wish you well and send you a big hug from a mom.
Man when Philip started talking about getting older and having fewer and fewer friends and seeing him get teary eyed when he talked about not having family ties. I feel you buddy I would be a friend to ya
I like friends
@@FurdTerguson-gv1up Who are you?
Very cool guy and easy to listen to. I'm glad he doesn't seem to have done any serious permanent damage. He's a people person and that's a great thing to be in many lines of work. Wishing you success, Philip as a mom of two who aren't much older than you I'd be proud of who you've become.
Well this was a nice way to start the morning
I'm just glad you're really not the FBI
i had a strong feeling this was going to turn into a thumbprint story... this guy is legit family dude.
Tell me a story about lsd…. I’m interested. Ive never heard of the thumbprint but it sounds extremely interesting
@@playgroundofsound7683 A thumbprint is basically just a massively irresponsible dose of LSD, it comes from the idea that you dont really dose it out but you put your thumb on pure lsd crystal and take the dose off your thumb. To put it into perspective, a standard dose of lsd is about 100 micrograms, a microgram is 1/1000 of a mg. A thumbprint dose will easily be a few mg of acid. So a lot of the horror stories your hear surrounding lsd are from people who were miseducated about the substance and took a massive dose that inevitably sends them into a drug induced psychosis. Acid can be a truly transformative substance but we need to teach individuals how to use it safely rather than teaching abstinence.
Chinacat thumbprint story..I was thinking the samething..
@Eric B Personally I ate crystal and still eat sometimes.. And you do not need to take a lot you can take a half size of the sand size from the crystal and stay in a low side of the trip. My first time when I laid blotter and accidently one of my finger touched the crystal. I said for myself, fuck it and licked my finger. Was a half mg level and was manageable. My crystal was greyish and was the cheapest in the market and manufactured in the Netherland. quality was around 70-80% and I do not had any body loads from it.
@@84Tre yes, that was most likely the Lavender-grade. Keep going, brother
Psychedelics are just an amazing discovery. It's quite fascinating how effective they are for depression and stress..saved my life.
Psychedelics definitely have potential to deal with health issues like anxiety and depression, I would like to try them but it's just hard to source out here.
I was having this constant and unbearable anxiety because of university stress. Not until I came across Ted Winston, a very intelligent mycologist, He saved my life honestly.
He often interacts on insta, using the user below..
Ted_winston21
yeah mate... @ted_winston21
there needs to be more people like this i want to hug him and say everything is gona be ok
This guy is how I lived for many years I remember nights eating 50+ doses. People can say we're crazy or dumb but I sat with God and became a changed person for the better for the rest of my days. I still trip but maybe once a year now a days the reminder is needed.
if your going to embellish something at least make it somewhat believable...........
50+ doses???
Your stuff must have been shit.
I remember talking crap when I was young too
@@HKim0072 for real theres a certain threshold around 1500-2000 micrograms... to drop 50 tabs they would have to be HEAVILY underdosed. After around 100 separate lsd experiences, 300-700 is all you really need but 100 to 300 is all most need
@@jbayley6963 I'm old(er). During my younger years, we would get a sheet and it would have 50-100 tabs of LSD on paper. We didn't have measurements, but taking 50 doses of old school tabs would likely kill you.
-Any regrets?
-Yeah, I wish I had my family...
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It's sad that they're estranged from each other...and he's 'lucky' his journey after leaving them, didn't end in tragedy, and he was able to make it to recovery...
I'm so happy for you, Phillip, that you're in recovery, and you are aware enough to try to avoid the drugs that led you down the wrong path before.
Be ever vigilant, and keep working towards your goals of a clean and stable life...🤞🙏🏻
Be well,
Shush✌
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This comment is so wholesome that I thought I wasn’t on youtube
@@maaroufchoucair7883
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@Rob You're not a fool for feeling empathy for people, Rob. It would be troubling if we didn't, and the world would be even worse for it. We have to try to hold on to our "humanity"...and by that, I mean the good traits of humans, not the bad ones...or else we'll be doomed.
Be well...🙏🏻
Shush✌
Phillip, you're a nice change from the norm. You seem like a pretty cool guy. Lmk when you make it back to AAco, I'm in Odenton and I would love to hang out and hear more of your stories!
Thank you, Mark
nice to hear you would hang out with a creep who sold psychedelics to young people.. worse than a Pedophile -. good for you !
@@SPINNINGMYWHEELS777 whoa buddy worse than a pedophile? Now sure what planet you grew up on but....
@@chooton5113 The crazy is strong in this one! Too late to save. Don't bother interacting with it. Its what it wants.
@Rob Excellent point!
@@SPINNINGMYWHEELS777 😁
Can so much relate to what was shared at the end from 19:30 onward. Wasn’t LDS but had a religious upbringing myself that was very challenging. What he shared here about how he wishes his family could understand who he is but not expecting them to be able to is deeply relatable. It’s actually a very mature place of acceptance about it that he seems to have reached as well, no doubt I imagine inspired by how grateful he is just to be alive.
This guy's a legend one of the most competent articulate guests I've seen on this channel
it’s crazy how people can’t understand that when you raise a kid in these strict environments it’ll probably have the opposite effect on them.
LSD should be legal. Prohibition has only made the drug problems worse and there are plenty of us who like to expand our minds and still function normally in society.
Same thing with mushrooms. I use them once every few months to have a mind expanding experience, and also regularly microdose them with tremendous benefits. I consider myself to be a completely normal and highly functioning person.
No acid makes a lot of people real real violent
@@luker2728from this comment, I'm sure you have never met anyone on acid. Maybe find some buddy...
@@luker2728 tHAT IS A STRAIGHT UP LIE!
@1StarProductions Practically every drug is dangerous for people with psychotic tendencies... doesn't mean it should be illegal for everyone.
Phillip is such a beautiful guy. If it weren’t for LSD I would not be the person I am today. Good old days….
Same here. Took first dose in 83 at a show and never looked back all for the best
Same. It has really allowed me to look at life through a different lense, really understand what I should cherish, and what I should not get upset about. I think its saved me a lot of stress and heartache that I see is common in those who have never had such an experience.
True ...same 😢
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I'll have to cop out to that. Dealt South Jersey from Greenwich Village connect.
Never really talk about it. Definitely a bigger part of my past. It's good to be Saved.
Love the nonstop smiling as the trip begins. Hearing and vision twitching from normal to a loss of total control. Fantasia was a cool movie to watch while tripping.
This was a great interview, it would be awesome if you interviewed an older classic-era Deadhead who did similar to what Philip did but in the '70s-90s when the Dead still had Jerry Garcia.
I saw The Greatful Dead with Jerry Garcia in 1990. The people at that show were so kind. Families and even children born on the road and subjected to that lifestyle. I will never forget seeing a man passed out with a sign on his chest that said Dose Me. He had like 50 hits of acid on his forehead. I also picked up a hitchhiker named Granola and he was a good dude. I said where you headed he said I'm going to see Jerry man. I said jump in let's go. I was 18. 32 years ago.
♥️💯NFA
First time I saw the dead was in Boston in 93. I was 16. This was also the first time I dropped. A guy with a bunch of safety pins was going around with an eye dropper giving doses. He put a full dropper/ almost full in my mouth. Tripped hard for 2.5 days.
@@MrHorse-kv4iy Damn dude you took ALOT of acid for your first time. That's alot of acid for anyone lol.
I was on tour from 86 to when Jerry died and this guy's story doesn't add up.
@@MrHorse-kv4iy oh yeah used to have vials and puddles ourselves frequently and stayed awake for days...didn't want to miss a minute, but still had to stay awake for the drive to the next venue 💯🤘
Super laid back guy. Relaxing interview.
We all have a different path to walk. Too many people walk someone else's path. Phillip is inspirational in this regard.
A lot of times when people are shunned for doing things their own way, they end up living an extreme version of their own way (like Phillip with drugs). We need to normalize individuality.
As time goes on, it feels like the more normal you are... the more of a "weirdo" you are in society
I did a thumbprint once... "Initiation" like you said... It was comforting watching this interview... Made me feel like I wasn't so alone in my experiences.. thank you
Can you share anymore on the topic? X
Holy shit Phil! I haven't seen him for a decade man. He hooked me up with a lot of Mushrooms and LSD in my time. I met him though a mutual friend that dated him for a while, and always thought he was a pretty cool guy.
Flip life!
What years was he on tour?
Nevermind... I heard he's 35yo.
Custie, he saw ;)
I used to bartend at stadiums in and out of my city, and the people at the Phish concerts were by far the most laid back, polite people great tippers as well, also just a fun scene in general.
Ca
Higher frequency people, less alcohol & more cannabis.
Watch Channel 5 (Andrew Callaghan)’s video on the Phish concert
@@IncredibleIceCastle that’s not the best representation of all Phish fans lol
I had the exact opposite experience.
Damn Phillip. My mother died of cancer when I was 51 and it ripped me apart. Your fortitude is impressive.
Best interview I've seen so far because it relates so heavily to my own experience. Solid family. I got love for him because he had the same upbringing / experience with the family I did, all I can do is wish ole boy the best. Love you brother and I hope you find your way as do I wish the same for all of us! Keep on truckin my man
At 68, I started doing psychedelics probably in 1970. The first time was in a park. I took a hit of Purple Mescaline with a friend. We waited about 50 minutes & nothing was happening, then another dealer came by with some Pink Tab T. So we took that, then about 5 minutes later the Mescaline kicked in. It was quite the day & night as a 15 year old. I loved it. After that I was hooked. I ate acid or some kind of hallucinogenic almost every day, some times twice. After 300 trips I lost count. All was good until the Angel Dust raised it's ugly head. That was the end of the line for me for some time. Later I dabbled in a little Coke, but the MDA & Mushrooms were still the best. Now it's generally just good herb & gummies along with Shrooms if around.
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Love this interview… This “jam band” facet of life should certainly be something this channel should seek more of!
Such a chill guy! Seems like a great guy to be friends with!
yeah, i would be first in line to be friends with him....but i'd prolly get on his nerves. really really cool. just met someone like him on the night b4 NYE.
A lot of these guys seem this way but they can flip shit quickly 😂😂😂
@@Mr-ri8nv What are you talking about?
@@thematriarchy2075 exactly what I said read my comment again . But let me dumb it down for you , they all have emotional problems and can freak out in a second , the drugs permanently fuck with these people.
@@Mr-ri8nv No need to "dumb it down".
You are just making assumptions.
Apart from the Mormon thing I’m feeling this guy. I’m in my 40s and now sober from all non prescribed drugs for about 5 years. Started at about 12. The main difference is that I was using all sorts throughout that time. It started as fun, but soon became just what I did. Then in my early 30,s I started realising some negative effects. Took a while to stop completely and turn my whole lifestyle around. The bit where he said when he was dealing he had loads of friends, then when he stopped he was left with only a few. Thing is when you only got you to offer the people still around a real friends not associates.
To me that whole lifestyle was trying to escape reality, but reality will always catch up. Make your reality as positive as you can for you and all around you. Let go the ego and you can find peace.
Great comment, reality is never far around the corner.
When he talks about his 5 friends and his family you can see him get emotional. They mean a lot to him. This interview was a nice change. He is an amazing man and deserves so much. I truly hope his family can understand that everyone is different and everyone leads their own path.
You're a good man! I hope the best for you
When you loose every one you have including family, you will realize how special a few friends and family are.
Won't happen. But I have me and plan on having a family someday. Not getting any younger.
This guy and me walked the same path in life. I’m 49 now, and doing great in life.
I have a remarkably similar story as phillip. I left that scene around the same time as well, probably ran into each other a few times. Good dude, glad you were able to realize what you were doing to yourself and decide to get out. Life becomes a little more mundane but honestly I prefer it now to constant partying and 10 strips every weekend.
that thumbprint story is absolutely intense
More like absolutely insane.
Well, this was refreshing and interesting. There is certainly a whole generation (not just in US) that would relate to Philip's (life)story.
Mark, thank you for your work!
I relate to his story more than any other guest for sure. If Phillip saw the content of my channel, he'd know right away how i did Bisco tour from '08 - '13. Cheers Phil
yeah they are called the lost generation that love death culture. glad you enjoyed listing to a creep who's worse than a pedophile. says much about your mental state.
@@SPINNINGMYWHEELS777 You cray-cray!
@@SPINNINGMYWHEELS777 what's your problem?
@@SPINNINGMYWHEELS777 you should drop some tabs maybe you wouldn't feel the need to waste your life trolling comment sections
I don't even know this man, but I have lots of love for him. I'm sure I've run into him at a show on the east coast before, if just in passing. What a great interview. Hope this guy stays on the good path, continues to live how he wants, and find some love and happiness.
Love?
didnt think i was going to watch this whole interview, but i've realised it just ended. good stuff!
LSD and mushrooms completely changed my whole outlook on life. I became a better version of myself
This experience gave me a lot of confidence about my self and my body. A bunch of bad thought / behavior patterns were broken. One of these was pretty bad OCD that made me wash my hands a lot. It gave me a lot of hope that things will be fine, this is the one thing that I heard throughout the trip: Everything is alright. The main reason for the trip was my severe depression and it definitely helped me (although it's not gone). Before all I could do was lay in bed. Now I am trying to rebuild my life one step at a time which wasn't possible before."
Psychedelic’s definitely have potential to deal with mental health symptoms like anxiety and depression, I would like to try them again but it’s just so hard to source here
Psychedelics are the reason why i didn’t take my life when i was at my end. I was stripped of my ego and saw the beauty of life and interconnectivity and even though i still battle anxiety and depression, I’m doing better everyday and will never think in such a self destructive way again.
@@georgewilliams1062 [_James_tray]
Got psychs
@@sarahh321 Where to search?? Is it IG?
@@georgewilliams1062 Yes
Really enjoyed this interview. Wanted to hug him when he said he missed his family.... I completely understand how it feels to not have that
I went to a Beck concert at merriweather, me and my girl took 2 hits of acid before the show, we got to our seats and began to make out. Nothing nasty, just kissing. All of the sudden the music stopped and lights came on. Never saw beck, and it was the best concert I've ever been to
Phil is super chill. I like him.
Congratulations on your sobriety!! This is one of my favorite interviews ever! Man i would love to hear some of his acid stories though...
I wonder how much love was shown to philip from his parents? I'm sure his mom having cancer took a toll on the family. I can relate with him on so many levels. I'd love to hang out and talk with him!
Peace, Phillip. You're a bright person with a great laugh. Don't give up. You have your whole life ahead of you.
What a sweet soul. I just want to give him a hug and I hope someday he's able to mend fences with his family.
Love his honesty. Great job of climbing yourself out of the hell pit of addiction. As an opioid addict myself, I understand how hard it is. I had to get off the blues CT, but still on any other pills I can find. I can't imagine all the crap you had to get off of. Stay strong and don't ever forget where it took you. Best of luck..🤗
Hey Tamera! You can do it! Blues is the first step!
Prayer works.
What a thoughtful, sensitive and self-reflective interview. What a beautiful human being. While there will always be both positive and negative interactions and consequences associated with entheogen use by people in different contexts/points in their lives, I have zero doubt that along the way Phillip's work changed countless people's lives for the better.
Once you see or reason your way out of any religion, you can't un-see it.
That's a truth I've discovered over the years, thankfully.
My mother & her side of the family were Southern Baptist. My grandpa was a preacher & a few uncles followed after him.
The indoctrination, expectations, rules, guilt, and shaming of religion indoctrination is so hard to come out of when it's implanted in your brain & life as a child.
Thanks for sharing your story! Good luck to you in all you do.
Wishing you nothing but the very best & a boatload of happiness!
Thank you, Ell
At 35 years old, I think he meant Dead & Co., not the Grateful Dead. Their last show was ‘95. I saw very few 9 and younger on tour slinging 10 strips!
@@alicedee5540 slinging 10 strips?
@@Heypockeyway probably 😆
Yeah I asked about the math in a comment above, thanks for explaining.
God it's been that long. That's crazy. I didn't even think about it when he said he went to a grateful Dead show. So unfortunate that this next generation didn't have anything like the dead to relate to and spend their youth having good clean fun. I quit going because in 93/94 it started getting too much like phish shows. Cops, bad drugs, not the greatest people coming and trying to capitalize and the Allman Brothers were killing it and low key. RIP all the musicians and crew that have so many of us a church to go to and find ourselves as youth.
I really like this dude. You can tell he means well, and you can also see the hurt in regards to his family. 🥺
This dude is crazy normal for the amount of LSD he has done. Ive had friends who have lost their damn mind from psychadelics when we were younger, and some never came back and cant function in society
Thank you for sharing Phillip, you seem like an amazing person.. Keep pushing forward man.
I would have loved to hear him talk about love. Did he experience true love? I would have loved to know... I like Phillip. He seems so gentle.
I'd like to know this too. Maybe Mark can have him in again.
...Comes a time when the blind man takes your hand
Says, "Don't you see?
Gotta make it somehow on the dreams you still believe
Don't give it up, you got an empty cup
That only love can fill, only love can fill"........... ✌💀🌹
@@susiefairfield7218 that's my favorite dead song song Susie! Wowza!
🎶 I wanna know what love is 🎶- yes I had a few partners on this journey and drugs tore those relationships to shreds.
@@phillipallen4726 Hey Phillip, thank you for answering... My first spontaneious thought was: having partners and finding love are two different things ;-).
Anyways: I am sure, your self reflection will bring you somewhere you like to be. All the best for your future and good wishes from Germany!
I dig this dude, he was chill and honest
Such a genuine guy. Has some tough things going for him that hopefully will be resolved one day. Family And friends can be important
If this guy is 35 (in 2022) and he followed his girlfriend to a Grateful Dead Concert he would have been 8 years old at the oldest in 1995.
Reminds me of when I skipped my math classes and got stoned with Jim Morrison back in the nineties.
He meant the following band projects by the other band members like Furthur or The Other Ones
Exactly the poin i made. I saw the dead right be4 jerry died in 94 . I was 16 then and 45 now. This guy story is not adding up
@phillip
the played as the other ones and the dead in the 2000s lol
I’m 71 years old and it resonated with me When he said, “After that everything changed.” Yep, LSD.😊
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1:15 this is why so many intelligent people are lost to drugs, the most enlightened people carry the most pain and any form of relief from the pain that is reality is like a breath of fresh air, it becomes the air you breathe, the food you eat, the character you portray to the world.
Any cool research chemical stories?
This is definitely my type of people right here. Great guy, lovey interview. Calming, And wholesome.
Great interview. Phillip seems like a likable guy and has it together in his own way.
Definetly my favorite video from you! Bring Phillip back! God bless him.
Love n respect from South Mississippi. We had a couple folks come here off the dead tour at different times and brought crystal lsd, dipping sheets, making books and it was a beautiful time. Mdma was plentiful and cubes grow just about year round here. I got off into the wrong direction with coke and then heroin but the shrooms helped me come back to my old self somewhat.
Y'all be safe out there... Test your chemicals people. Much Love
as someone who also has dealt with an unhealthy psych and disso habit i needed to see this
Just wanted help some people by doing this interview. I hope I helped.
@@phillipallen4726keep it up philip you're awesome!!
One of the best guests. Amazing story.
Lsd dealer=pretty chill guy
I think there’s something to be said about that
It's crazy. People who do it are very calm and talk like they conquered death
@@thecrownoffusion8420 Ego death. Several of them.
LSD shouldn't be illegal. It's a mind-expanding spiritual drug.
@@stopthephilosophicalzombie9017 when you put it like that it sounds like an awakening
@@stopthephilosophicalzombie9017 LSD has the potential too to change your life really bad, just saying, not everybody views it like its good, it can fuck up a mind that is healthy and awake some mental disorders so whatch out with that crap.
As someone with experience with these drugs, dude is in incredibly good shape
I liked this guy a lot. He was introspective about his past and clearly had a good heart. I wish him the best in all that he does.
I used to fuck with acid until a couple weeks ago somebody drugged me with it and assaulted me , this interview it reminded me of the more innocent side of acid -consensually taking it at shows with friends , parties etc