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How I Got Started - Struggles, Overcoming, Perspective and Original Tech
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- How I Got Started - Struggles, Overcoming, Perspective and Original Tech
A question I am often asked is how I got started with computers. Where did my interest come from and how did I get into building and fixing PCs? In this video, I answer these questions and go a bit further about my background, motivation and difficulties that resulted in the person you see today.
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THIS IS THE BEST VIDEO I HAVE EVER SEEN, SERIOUSLY! I thought it would focus on computer repair. However, it focused on life itself. This was excellent! Being 50, I totally understand the legacy systems, but then Carey started talking about his life. I was blown away, this was truly a success story!
Truly!...Cool_cool_guy
Soul bearing and helping others,that's the way it should be!
It takes a strong person to admit all these things and talk about them. Now I respect you even more :)
I connected to this story personally. I had no friends growing up. I'd come home mess around with the computer. I stumbled upon your channel when I was 6 or 7. I'd go to school and come home and watch your videos because it was something I liked and connected to. I eventually got into middle school and high school and was bullied. Before you did your live streams, I still felt like we were friends, despite not talking or having any real personal interaction. I happen to stumble upon this video when I am now 19. I wish I would have saw this sooner. Me having the same experiences as someone I connect to so well here on TH-cam makes me know everything was/will be alright. Thank you for sharing your life story. I really appreciate this.
Wow,
What a great story. This story should be told in every elementary school in our country and told monthly. Bullying must be stopped. Thank you Carey for such an articulate sharing.
Wow! You sound like you could be my clone. Same childhood/life as mine. Love your channel and watch it regularly.
I don't know if you'll even see this comment Carey but this is the greatest story ever told... I mean it carries over to every area of life and how to live it right and to not let your circumstances affect your final outcome... Thank you for sharing not only this story with us but for the insight into why you do these videos... which by the way I've watched a great number of them... You are incredibly thorough and conscientious and I personally get a great deal from them.. You mentioned in this video that you weren't sure that if someone hadn't lived through these things that they may not be able to relate to your experience ... well my upbringing was what my fiance' calls a "Leave it to Beaver" family... I was very blessed to be raised in the home that Dad and Mom provided for our family, but I can totally relate to every bit of your story and I feel for everyone and anyone whose folks made their children feel anything less than precious and special... You my friend are living proof that even though behavior is a learned trait.. it doesn't have to define who you are and what you make of yourself... I'm so glad that I walked down memory lane with you on the beginning part of this video.. I'm 60 years old and all of the consoles/hardware/software were old friends of mine as well.... but the treasure in this video comes in knowing you better and the inspiring road that you've traveled ... thank you for sharing your "purpose/gift" with so many.... gratefully yours.....
You are such a gentle, caring person, Carey. Thank you so much for all of your videos, but this one in particular is probably the most important one I've watched so far. As with a lot of others who commented, my life was a little similar. Im still fighting depression and anxiety now at 30 and its probably a fight I will have to fight until the day I die, but every day I find new reasons to fight and hold on for. I wish I could have seen this video when I was younger, but it's certainly not bad to be reminded of all this, especially with a mental illness telling you day after day that you are worth nothing.at all.
Thank you
I think the most important thing we should all know, especially when we are silently suffering, is that we are not alone.
Carey, knowing is half the battle!
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Listening to your podcast and watching your videos I will never thought you went through that kind of childhood. The way you speak I would thought you were popular in highschool. Glad you share your story. A great inspiration to a lot of people.
This whole video is you talking. But I sat hear and watched the whole 45 minutes because I was so entertained about your life-story so far and I recently built my 1st own PC for Christmas and this video just inspires me so much because I am in 10th grade and I too have no friends and it's just so amazing how you were able to become successful and do something you love for a living. I too hope I can become someone who works with Computer hardware because honestly, IT WAS SO FUN TO WORK WITH the computer hardware when building my PC.
Thank you so much man, you are so awesome, and your videos are amazing and you deserve so many more subs then 100k. :)
Here is another must see video from Carey. I think that every child who is being bullied, should watch it. This is truly inspirational.
I actually started crying I here so many similarities and the only reason I've stopped myself before is because I don't like pain and I would say this might hurt. I turned 17 this year and I'm almost done with high school. Thank you for this video so much Carey.
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Great video Carey. You've described perfectly my years as a socially awkward teenager in the 1980's who spent many hours with the Atari 2600 before getting a Commodore 64. There were so many of us seen as oddities, though I loved sharing my learning about computers with my closest friends. I feel like the old man in his chair talking history when I tell my kids about the old equipment we used to use.
I went to school in the 70's and at 5'4", I was an easy target for bullies but I decided if I was going to get beat up they would take some licks. An open hand slap is a devastating thing and takes the fight out of a lot of bullies. A kick between the legs puts them on the ground followed by what they now call ground and pound That is what I did to the next bully. I ran into that guy years later and he said he was sorry, but he also said. I though you were going to kill me. But he also said I may have saved his life because up until me, everyone else backed down from him and sooner or later after he got out of school someone would have pulled a gun and shot him down. I am with Carey on one thing. You need zero tolerance for bullies . I know with the way schools have gone crazy with the rules, that today I would have been suspended and maybe arrested but you have got to find a way shut a bully down fast
Carey you single handedly taught me how to build my first computer (only a few weeks ago) and you're situation as a teenager was very similar to mine.
I'm glad we both came so far since then :)
Wow, your childhood sounds really similar to mine. I love the videos you make, your honesty, and now your story. Out of all the channels on TH-cam, I appreciate yours the most! I hope you never stop making them! I'd love to start building/repairing computers!
Carey, ...I am a Veteran and one thing we learned as Soldiers was to defend those in need and to "Lead the way". In the simplest of terms with the easiest of definitions, ..you are truly leading the way, Carey. This video is wonderful. Thank you.
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Thank you so much for telling this story. I am so glad you managed to find what you needed to find in yourself to get you to where you are today. In many ways, my childhood was like yours. I was the outcast in school, and moving around a lot didn't help. When you mentioned moving to cali and how things got worse, I knew why immediately, new kid factor. If you don't walk in the door on day one looking like the cool kids, you're doomed to never fit. My dad was a cab driver, we were never close to what one would call well off. Atari was the only console I had, and we didn't upgrade until Nintendo came out. I had the one with the robot, lol. I was never tech savvy but I did have other things that I enjoyed, mostly drawing and writing. Even to this day, if I am surrounded by people I don't know, I try to shrink myself so as not to draw attention. Once I get comfortable with people, it's a different story, my confidence, as weak as it still is, grows with familiarity, for a lack of a better way to phrase it. I still, at age 44, have my insecurities, especially around people I don't know. I'm still comparing myself, she's prettier/skinnier/healthier/whatever than I am. I'm getting better at squashing that, usually by telling myself that she can't write/draw/game like I can, lol. the key is knowing your strengths and wearing them like armor, against them and against your own self doubts. Just wanted to let you know that I related very well to your story, and to thank you for sharing it.
Oh, and one more thing...
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I see a lot of my past mirrored in your in yours, the low self esteem, getting picked on and of course, the love of taking things apart, (usually my toys) and not being able to figure out how to put them back together. I dabbled in various electronics, but really didn't get fully into computers until the mid 90's when I was given a broken Tandy 1000 TX 286 which one of my friends found a replacement 3.5" drive for and got it back up and running. Later, using a special XT card I was able to trick it into running an after market IDE hard drive And started teaching myself DOS. I eventually watched the same guy who got my old Tandy up and running build a 386 from the ground up and was amazed at how easy it was. I have since then built almost every computer I have ever used on the internet with the exception of an old IBM Laptop I was given to use after one of my Pentium 4 builds went up in smoke due to a short in the front panel USB ports, and even that IBM saw a hard drive replacement and memory upgrade while I had it. The computer I watched this video on is a build I made using almost all spare parts I had kicking around from either systems I never got around to building or parts gutted from old builds or existing computers. The hard drive came from a Gateway Laptop, (you'd cringe if you knew how I "mounted" it), the video card came, I think, from the same system that got the power supply upgrade when I upgraded its video card, the board, chip and memory were purchased about 3 years ago but just sat since I bought a "better" board, (which is now on my coffee table being diagnosed), the case used to house a complete Pentium 2 running Windows 98 and finally the power supply was spare I had kicking around after I upgraded what used to be my main computer to a 900 watt Antec unit.
OK that's a hard history Carey Holzman, I'm glad you are now doing well. Since 1983 I've worked over 23 years repairing PC's, scanners, electronics Cash Registers,smart cash drawers , BNC cash drawers, 40 & 80 col. D.O.T. Matrix printers, barcode printers ,Windows Servers, Laptops, etc. . My life was not as hard as yours but I had the same thought about ending it when I was young, my reason for living was to find out how I will pass on so my curiosity saved me also. Thanks Again! for your story.
I'm now into building my VR computer and I bought the Enthoo Pro , the Gigabyte Z370 HD3P , 16GB Corsair Vengance , now to buy the i7 8700 chip, and air cooling heatsink, then the 250GB NVMe M.2 chip, 500 SSD & GPU 1080ti ,then a 850PSU then Oculus Rift.
Most repair type people love the satisfaction of fixing things or improving/hacking stuff. It can be quite a rush sometimes. The best part is when you get paid to do something you truly enjoy. Great video Carey!
I recently got back into building Desktop Pcs after being out of the game since around 1998-9, so I've been watching /binging on your videos to catch up. My story is alot like yours except I was a little older. I hung out at the local Radio Shops if I wasn't working as a security protection tech. My first "computer" was a TRS-80 Color Computer, (CoCo) with a (cassette) tape, which I loved. I too bought the magazines and Tandy Books that listed all the programs written in TRSDOS. You would spend hours typing in lines of code to make a clock that kinda kept time. You would have to spend even more time to tweek the program to run better. That too is how i learned to program. We had all kinds of BBS's in South Florida and I hung out on alot of them. I think my first Tandy modem was 300 baud. Once I became a contractor and was making disposable income, I bought a IBM "clone". That is when I started to learn how to work on my own computers. My first upgrade was a 20 (25?) Meg hard drive that cost 250 bucks. I thought my 1200 baud modem was the fastest thing I had ever seen. To me that was like living in the future. As tech changed I followed it. 56K modem, removable hard drives in big bulky trays, early cd rom drives, if iot was cool I would upgrade or build another new machine. Then I had kids and a horrible (ex) wife and that was the end of my computer hobby. Now as a way of making additional income I've been fixing friends computers. So I figured to just get back into the game and see how things go.
Total respect for you Carey a thousand times over!
I've been watching your videos for quite some time now. I just discovered this one. Thank you for sharing your story. My own is very similar. Unlike you, I did get into actual fights. To the tune of 4 and 5 EVERY DAY. Though, mine involved knives and other various violent events. As you found, I found once I stopped being a victim, I started having a better life. It didn't happen as it did for you, nor did it happen overnight. I still had problems all through high school. But, I am thankful to be alive. I am thankful for having the privilege of seeing your videos. Thank you for sharing your story.
Hey Carey you set me back to my teen age with everything you showed then you told your life story and I started to cry because I been through the same with bullies and being a loner I also started with computers as you did in the 80's same ones as you did.. I did go to a school that I felt like I was a outsider I never felt I fit in till I found the Computer. Now that I am much older I would says ty for showing a part of your life because it was my life too..your friend Ron Connors
I've seen most of your videos and I have to say this is the most inspirational video I've seen on TH-cam. Period. I feel this because it's coming from an atmosphere of genuineness. You don't make a big overproduction out of it. It's like we're sitting one afternoon just shooting the breeze. Thank you sir.
well this video went off in a direction i wasn't expecting lol, very inspirational story Carey, i hope some teenager with no self esteem is out there watching this video and feeling a little bit better about themselves
I have to comment even though I know it's an old video. I just discovered your channel looking for some computer help yesterday, and have been watching your videos. I really appreciate what I've learned so far, and I love the way you explain things.
This video really resonated with me, and I was not expecting that when I clicked on it. I'm 39 years old and it took me right back to high school, where I had many of the same feelings and experiences that you did. Sometimes I wish I could go back to that time and tell my troubled self (just like that PSA) "It gets better!" In high school I could hardly focus on what life would be like later; I felt I would never fit in. I know that some of the younger viewers of your channel are going through the same stuff (even though times are different) and that this video will reach some folks out there who are going through similar tough times and really need someone to reach out to them.
Thanks for sharing such a heartfelt message. I'm just blown away. :) OK, now back to figuring out how to solve my computer problem...
I just started watching your videos due to an interest to build my own PC. Each and every video is done very well and I feel very confident my new PC will be great; however, this video is my favorite. I'm glad your are who you are and how much personal success you've made for yourself! Keep up the great work and thank you for your dedication!!
The story behind the 'legend' thanks for sharing Carey. My first and favorite games were the Level 9 adventure games, no graphics just words. This was a Sinclair Spectrum game, loading from a cassette player. Ah the memories. Thanks
Amazing video. I'm very inspired by your story. I was born in 1990 and remember being in elementary school in the late 1990s using those thin floppy disk. Technology has come along way and I look forward to advance my career in IT. Your videos are very helpful :D
It's still pretty amazing to me how much time can change some things, yet leave others so engrained and unchanged. From the looks of the comments section - we've all been there. All ages. All walks of life. We all gravitated.
We are not alone.
Having watched your videos now for several months, I just wanted to comment a thank you for your personal sharing of growing up, and it is funny how many kids during those years of life go through similar feelings and circumstances and your video helps display that they and we are not alone, and how those circumstances and how you deal with them can shape your life in a good way! Again thank you for the insightful video along with all your other PC build videos as well!
That was a great story. I went through a lot of those things; but unfortunately I never learned to overcome it. I am surviving, but not thriving in this world. It seems that in order to have friends, you have to let people walk all over you. If I stand up for myself, then I have no one. So needless to say, I am standing up for myself; but I am alone. I don't have even one person in my life.
I also struggled with depression (and still do) during middle and high school. I was a socially awkward person who just couldn't fit into any one particular clique or subculture no matter how many I went through. It turns out that a lot of my problems with social interaction is a result of having Asperger Syndrome. Unfortunately, I didn't find out until 2011 when I nearly 21 years old and I often wonder if my school days would have been a little easier if I known sooner. I discovered my affinity for computers in 2009 and built my first desktop in 2011 during Christmas that had a Core i5 750, 4GB of 1333 MHz DDR3, PNY GTS 250, Crucial 64 GB SSD (boot drive) and 320 GB WD Caviar Blue enclosed in an Antec 900 gaming case.
I had the same upbringing and now I love building pc's from old ones. It's really a great feeling when it boots up and it's something you've built from scrap pc's. Had bullying when I was at school, I never fought back. I would now though. Love watching your videos Carey, waiting for your next ones.
I've seen most of your videos, don't know how I missed this one. Definitely your best in my opinion. So many of us "geek" types had similar childhoods to yours. It was very moving hearing your story and how it shaped who you are today. I have mad respect for you, not that I didn't before but this puts things in a new perspective. Thank you for sharing Carey
Hi Carey :) , I can definitely relate in some areas, especially the part about being bullied. I'm a tech guy myself who went through similar struggles. Only difference is, I'm not working in IT or anything relevant at the moment and I grew up living with both my parents, but most of the time my father is alwaise out working so I'm not that close with him, but I do carry his interest in tech and the medical field. I can understand why he's usually always gone though. I love both my parents and all my family members. I don't get to see him often until the weekends, even now. It's just because of family struggles. Nothing bad on that part. Kinda lost myself over the years and regained myself again. Finding a job is hard for me, even now. Didn't like how I grew up, that's how I got into Martial Arts. Now, I'm in the process of deciding to join the AF. Currently training for BMT. Not sure if I can even get in and not sure if I'm going to go into any tech fields while I'm in the AF or not, but as long as I join the military....come back more respected and a better person. I will be happy. Hopefully once I get in, things won't be so bad and tough although I know it's going to be hard as a civilian transitioning into that kind of lifestyle. People will say all they want, but nobody knows your struggles better than yourself. The first time I got exposed to a speed bag, it was like I can finally release some of my anger I been holding all these years. That's how I got better at it. I'm a boxer in training and I am into cyber security. Cyber security because I grew in a world not only bullied, but cyber bullied. Boxing because I grew up in the ghetto. I know how it feels to be step all over on. It hurts like heck..
lol, it's ironic, the guy who bullied me is in jail now. I accidentally stumble into a mug shot of him while surfing the web a year ago. Karma will bite the other person especially if they didn't change their ways. Be kind, be gentle.....be caring.......but also be tough, be strong. Smooth, yet strong :)
I don't live in the ghetto now, that was my childhood. Love the country side (my highschool years) and where I'm at now :)
Damn bud, I've known this about you for the better part of 30 yrs now and it still brought a tear to my eye. Those few years working at RS when you hung out there are some of my fondest memories. I'm very proud to have you as a friend.
Wow. thank you very much for sharing, Carey. I stumbled across your videos just a few days ago, trying to fix my laptop. And that led me to this video. Thank you for sharing, like so many have said, I want to say we had lived similar lives in some ways. But it's about discovering who you are and who you want to be. I also like fixing things, and you break down fixing a computer in easy steps, now I am not so afraid to chase after a couple of computers that I have, that don't work. Looks like I'm going to be spending quality time on your you tube channel. Thank you for making them. I'm going to tell people you are the Mark Crilley of computer repair on you tube.
Thank you for this video. I related to this video so much as I too always felt like "the outcast" or the Black sheep and then later on in life I realized that "It's cool to be different". Kudos, Honor and much more respect to you Carey for your craft, and as a man. You're a real stand up guy. Thanks again
I had similar experiences in school with being bullied. It never got better until I started standing up to them. Great video, seven years late.
my home life was a bit worse, but my school life was the same, you just gave me a pleasant stroll down memory lane tho, the trs-80 and the other systems in front of you, i remember going to a few peoples houses who had these and shared them, i taught myself building, and i used to do a bit of basic programming, but when i tried to go to school for it..(the school system at the time was a ibm system 34) well, the computer director and i didnt see eye to eye, and when operations came up, the class was a 2 hr with 4hrs worth of info, and i couldnt afford a tape recorder, so it wasnt long before i was thru, that and life drama i wont go into, i gave up the idea of programming, but i still to this day love building pc's and i help friends upgrade, or fix the pc, or just tweak it, i learned networking as well. but the main reason i replied is i feel ya man, i been in the same boat, and you got the facts straight brother, never let anyone tell you different.....just do your thing ....your just fine the way ya are.. keep doin yer thing man...btw, if i remember correctly that 2nd slot on the atari was for copying or making a ram type drive....our game on it was sundog, we'd start on a fri evening and not quit till work on monday, thx agn, be seeing ya
Carey, I can't believe how much our lives are similar and different. Thank you for everything you do and continue to do. I grew up in a very small town in Michigan. My first computer was an Atari 800xl. I joined a User Group. Got a modem and did the BBS thing. I use to research and compile a list of local BBS numbers... I eventually killed off my computer trying to do a memory upgrade, and sold off all of my original computer stuff.
I got a got after my first year in college as a computer software artist. Eventually learned so much more about hardware and software and eventually the web. I had a lot of the same bullying issues that you experienced too. As you said in the video, "we are not alone". Keep doing what you're doing you are changing the world and leaving a better place than you found. Bless you.
Wow Carey. I am so glad I stumbled upon this Video. We had a very similar childhood. Atari experience with all the Computers you have in the Video. Such a small world and loved the 80's. One of the Best times of My Life
Once again, you never know what you'll stumble upon when listening to your videos...what a powerful and honest testimony. God bless you, Carey!
Ty for sharing ur story im sure alot of people can relate to this. Im glad u pulled though it and didnt give up!
Just watched this one today and I have to tell you how impressed I am with your honesty and demeanor. It took a lot of courage to relate. I am sure it has helped numerous people who have watched this video. Thanks Carey !!
I was thinking you'll just be talking about how you got into computers but you went more in depth than I expected. I'm proud of you man.
Carey totaly respect for you this video has realy inspired iv been looking to work with computers but all ways thought i wouldn't be able to do it but now i think i can and its all thanks to you, you have my friendship, thank you
Carey is a man with a lot of courage and valor! I appreciate your story, thanks!
My heart goes out to you Carey, I had a similar experience in high school in the late 80s and early 90s.
This was not the video I normally expect from you but it touched me thanks for sharing your story carey have peace in you life my friend
I was in the same boat as you were. Awesome vid. I hope some kid being bullied or going through some personal issues, watching this, gets inspiration to lift his head up and keep going.
The title of the vid intrigued me because I always did wonder how you started out, but this was something I didn't expect to hear. What an absolutely amazing story. You are an inspiration to us all and shows us that anything is possible to overcome. Thank you for everything you do on your channel, I have learned so much over the past few years.
Thank you for sharing. I have been through many things you have. I wish I had ended it the same way. I appreciate your story.
Carey, I've never told you how much I appreciate your videos (especially the tutorials) , and i appreciate all the time you put in your videos, keep up the good work :D
I've been going through a very similar experience and you were the first person I've ever heard say something other than "stop being sad" or "change your outlook on life" like they're things you can change at will. Thank you.
I've watched lots of your other videos(which have been extremely helpful), and after finally getting to this one, you're now officially one of my favorite people!
Thanks for sharing, My brother from another mother... Our lives sounded identical, I believe we are about the same age but I couldn't afford the Atari so I ended up with a TI 99/4a for $50.00 when TI left the personal computer business... Had a pretty good run as a IT Technician/Admin for 30 years... I always enjoy your videos, this one touched my heart...
I have watched and subscribed to several of your video's and enjoyed everyone. Then I came across this one, it was absolutely great! , so in my childhood and life I'm not alone in this world.
Although my story is different in many ways and its one of the underlying reasons for me to open TH-cam channel.
I'm not young and just going through a radical learning process and hope to eventually open a channel , the preparation process is quite hectic.
Many thanks again Carey , you're a champ.
Mr. Cary, I learned BASIC programming on trs-80 color computer. You perfectly described my life. Today , I am presently studying A+ certification and trying to get into IT. Subbing to your channel and listening to your tech-vet channel too.
i love this video. not only has it taught me a little more about computers back then and programming (which im going to college for hopefully) but also about your past. i come from the same background and yeah, it sucks feeling alone and not fitting in. throughout my high school years i felt that way and i would get so scared going to certain classes i would get sick. usually the people with that kind of past have a more successful life and achieve more.
Wow, going back to old videos made by you refreshed my mind A LOT. I learned more from your experiences and stories from the past than any other channel. tips on PC building and diagnosing were very helpful and useful. Thanks Alot
I just ought to say this video made me look at things in a different way, i have watched for a while now and i am very interested in your work and you have inspired me to work with computers and learn the ways in which they work. Knowing all of this and knowing you have some similar problems to what i have have given me motivation to accept myself for who i am, and i would like to thank you for that :)
A lot of Respect for you Carey
i can totally relate to your story growing up . much respect to you sir and what you do . thank you for helping us non computer tech
came here for some computer history, left with new info on that plus way more. Very interesting stories and life lessons, Carey. You seem like a very genuine and honest person. Thank you for that, more people should be like you.
Very inspirational video, my first electronic repair was when I was 6 years old when I actually disassembled a Sesame Street Computer toy (it wasn't an actual computer of course). And I told my mom about this broken wire and she soldered it back in place and the toy worked again. My first computer repair was replacing the cpu fan on my computer because it started to buzz and after replacing the stock cpu fan 3 times which was free under warranty, I was like that's it! And bought my own cpu fan for about $20 and it's been running for over a year without fail.
Now I know this is the kind of career I need to be in but I don't know if I can afford to go back to school so I'm trying to figure out what my cheap options are going to be.
thank you for sharing those experiences, Carey. It's brave and i appreciate it.
You have my respect Carey. I'm 12 and I love tech. Carey you have inspired my to do what I love and never be afraid.
I didn't expect that. You're a true inspiration to anyone who's been (or is being) bullied. So many you things you have said rang chords with me too - been there, got the T-shirt, etc. I hope others can take comfort from your story. Bless you, my friend.
Carey, I was really touched by your openness and honesty. I had some of these issues growing up, I found my way through and I'm glad you did too. I can relate to your rage and loneliness. I'm now a husband and father and I see some of these issues happening for my daughter in high school. So I still feel what's going on is real and still happening. Hopefully she will have a better mechanism to get through this. Her mother and I just try to keep listening and telling she is not alone, but I know its hard for her and that she will need to find her way through too. It's videos like this that let us all know we are better together than apart, that hope beats fear. So thank you very much and know that you are loved in this world.
This video opened up my eyes. I needed your advice and here in this one video , all in one. Im going through a tough time in my life myself. Im even still going through it even now. Thank you so much for making this video. It really Did open my Eyes. Thank you.
I remember using an acoustic coupler as a kid to dial into my father's DECServer at work back in the early 80s. He created a login account for me where I really couldnt do anything but type stuff in blank files. I ended up creating a diary -- I still have that diary today. I like your vids b/c you take extra time to explain every step and dont rush thru things and dont skip certain steps or assume pre-flight knowledge of the viewer for granted. I need things spelled out for me. Once I get it, I got it. But I need to it dumbed down to a 3rd grade level the first time -- and Im a college graduate!
I grew up about the same way. you brought back alot of good memorizes with the old computers and such. I remember standing in the supermarkets waiting to play pong. Thinking it was the greatest thing since ice cream. anyhow I grew up in Wisconsin after moving from Ill. always an outsider and such. anyways I ran away from home at 14 and 1/2 with the carnival. I surfaced later when i was 16 in Vegas where my father lived. anyways Great story. really touched my heart. God Bless and Keep up the great work my friend.
Thank you for sharing your story. You're a true hero and someone to admire. I'm sure your story has touched many.
This is one of the best CareyHolzman's videos!
@ 60 I remember all this "stuff" well, being bigger, I was the loner that would beat anybody up that messed with me. Took years to get over that stuff and become a caring/helping person, somewhat like Carey. I live to help now. Thx for sharing....
The funny thing is I think your the coolest tech pro on any media platform. You speak your mind and your not afraid to give someone a piece of your mind. Love all your content.
Thank you for a wonderful video and trip down memory lane. Here in England, I too, started with a TRS 80 before getting my first pc, a radio rentals running Windows 3.1. Though I never took it up as a career, I have built pc's for friends over the years and still dabble today. I love your manufacturer rants especially the Intel NUC power lead one. Keep making these great videos Carey.
Thank you Carey for all this story of where you came from! I am glad that at the end everything turn out fine. Like you said, now you have so many people following you and believing in you that I can say you make a difference in a lot of people life.
This story moved me in ways I cant describe. I am currently going through many stages to get through my depression. I am 17 years old and it started at the beginning of february 2014. I was suicidal and depressed but then i got a lot of help. Now almost 2 months later i have come a long way.
I am not saying that my childhood is the same as yours but i am trying to say that i can relate. I am much better now and i am working on a getting a job to be able to afford building a pc better than the hand me down one i have now. I found your channel because i wanted to learn how to build a pc and thanks to you, i now know how to build a pc and i know how much of a difference one person can make.
Thank you so much because i thought that i was the only one.
Thank you for sharing this story with us, Carey. It's not so unlike my story. When I was younger, up to 21 years of age i was also someone they could pick on. I had many friends, but I was small and skinny (5foot 6) about 172 cm, and I was not much of a fighter. But after I finished my obligatory 15 months in the military, I started to train, both karate and powerlifting. A deadly combination. And unlike you - I got my fight, it was a midsummer party and 6 -7 young people 18-19 yeras old was shouting to everybody who passed them, and then I had to pass them and they started to shout at me. I had something to drink, so I wasn't sober. I stopped and walked towards them, and suddenly the shouting stopped. When I reached them some of them tried to play tough, and I looked to see if I could find the leader. I did, and threw him on the ground before he ever understood what happened to him. I was so angry, and I started to strangle him with my hands. Lucky, my wife came running and pulled me away from him, or I would have killed him. They never ever said a word to me after that, and if I met them on the road, they went over to the other side. So be happy you never ever got your fight, Carey. Today I'm 62 y.o and I never walked away from a confrontation after that. Greetings from Norway
Big THANK YOU for this video, Carey! All that you say is true, and as you pointed out - Ïf there was someone out there to tell me all that ..." well I do know what you mean, mostly because I lived (maybe I still am) like that before - I never believed in my own knowledge, in myself, and it was a difficult journey till I realised I have to believe in me and I don't have to proove to anyone anything. A BIG RESPECT and THANKS for this video. All the words that you've said helped me look from different angle to my life.
By the way all the videos that you do are interesting, but I do struggle to find the fourth part of the Train PC build. It was really interesting and I was looking forward to see the optil drive mounted...
Keep up the good work!
You you taught me how to assemble a pc. I like your computer builds. But this is by far your best video, a life building video. Thank you so much Carey.
Wow this video really made me think. I can empathize so much. U are an inspiration to me and many others and I've been in very similar situations where depression and anger came about. Your a great man Carey, And we only know you virtually but just by that means a lot. Thanks man, your a huge reason why I'm in the computer field.
Hello Carey,
I very appreciate that you are so open about your past and my past was almost similar to your's with the exception that I have 2 handicaps. The luck I had was that I had and still have both of my parents and they never devorced. Especially my father did see my problems and always took care of me, so I did get all I want to have.
So as you know or not now were computers also my thing and it did good to hear you tell about those good old times. BBS's and all those things and type all that programms in basic and than shit, one little type mismatch haha.
But my change was especially when my father died at the age of 56 on old years eve in 1987 when I was just 20. After that time I did have to take care for my mother and suddenly I grown up in a very short time. It changed me totally maybe because of that life can be so short and end so suddenly. I did hold my father in my hands when he died at an heart attack here in the kitchen where I live.
Anyway, many thanks for this honest video and very appreceated !
Greetings from Roel !
This has been some of the best time I have spent on TH-cam. Thank you Carey, for sharing your experiences and wisdom with us.
I can't believe and you won't believe how much I sympathise with you Carey. I also fell in distress like you did but not necessarily in the same way as you did. And, although I still had it bad, you kind of make me realise I perhaps didn't have it as bad as you (Better family/financial situation, I thought of bringing myself my own demise but never attempted the act, I didn't have a problem with hygiene, etc.). What I can relate with though, is your issue with self esteem. The problems I went through were mainly caused by having a slightly larger frame than anyone else and also being overall different in my free-spirited way of thinking and such (which I realise more and more is an issue to the closed-minded/conformist society of today).
Anyway, back to the point, as I understand (as best I can) what you went through and i'm sure you do the same for me. I never really got around to training seriously, but at some point I started getting fed up and decided it was enough so in grade 5-6 I started getting hungry for a fight just like you (as my dad had told me to fight back). That was probably the first stage at which I got a surge of self confidence and at the end of high school is where I got my second and adopted the non-conformist ideals/values I still abide by this day. I am now in college and ever since this process initiated itself inside of me (some kind of shift in my way of thinking I guess), everything seems to be working out fine, but--like I said--the problem I seem to be encountering is with my inexistent tolerance towards bullying and when my open-mindedness conflicts with the mass of the population's closed-minded way of thinking which I find utterly repulsive.
It is indeed very interesting, though, how two different people from totally different generations/eras (not trying to say you're old here haha) went through such a phenomenon (which, like we have both observed, seems to be of universal nature in the human
experience). Also, I never would have thought you went through something like this (as it obviously isn't written on your forehead) despite the fact I figured you were a very bright and pragmatic individual early on (which I think what you went through plays a part in).
Btw, I have just recently discovered you and subscribed to you and I just wanted to say I really enjoy watching your videos and listening to you talk, especially when it involves a story like this one.
I Applaud You for putting yourself out there on how you grew up!
Many of us felt that way and you do everyone a favor by being brave/self confident enough to tell us your story!
Thanks A LOT!!!
i was at my parents house in their basement going through all our old computers, found a pentium II with windows 98 on it, and they had plenty of those dusty floppy sorters like you have the right side of the video...what a trip back in time that was. I even found my old copy of SimPark still installed on that beast. I remember them paying 2000 dollars for that back in like 1999
Carey, this is the most meaningful and touching video I've ever viewed. Thank you for sharing your life history with us.
Thank You Carey. You'll always have support from around the world.
Carey I wanted to thank you, your video helped me build my first gaming PC. You really made the process that much more easier.
Oh my god! I've only been watching you videos for like a week now, and this one comes on from auto play. As all your videos, I just love watching them, because much like you, I also see myself as a nerd who likes doing the same thing you do. But this video is different, and I can actually relate, except a few things. Truly inspirational, and motivational! Thank you Carey, all around in general. And what I have learned so far from you, is more then I've learned about computers from any other source!
You inspire me with these vids. My dad worked for a pc inc. when I was very little I never thought I would like pc's as much as he did now I love pc gaming and enjoy looking and talking about pc's!!
I love taking things apart to look what's inside them and i can never get them back together haha, like you i almost set my shed on fire... you're an inspiration to us all, Carey.
Thank you for sharing your experience, even if it was a little too personal. You shared your youth and growing years with honest words and i think everyone is appreciating that.
Also, your story really inspired me to go to the gym and lose weight, maybe not gaining muscles, but at least lose weight and hopefully someday i can walk down the street without someone looking at me and whispering how fat i am...
I also got motivated to start learning Photo editing and programming.
Thanks again for your honest words.
Thank you for your story. I hear your pain and overcome great difficulties and became sucessful
Man you should reupload this video, every word is gold! Peolpe need to see this again and again.