"These systems... basically force you to live within the confines of their unconsciousness" I believe it's about finding our true selves. Thank you, Daniel.
I so totally get this. I had a "mental breakdown" (as viewed by others), but it was nothing more than a journey into the unconscious recesses of my mind. It took me almost 2 years to swim through the layers of painful truth, and in doing so I became more in touch with who I was, how & why I operated the way I did, and what fundamentally made me me. It felt like a journey to hell, but the light of my conscious awareness slowly dissipated and dissolved the pain and I emerged as a different version of myself. What was viewed as a breakdown actually was a breakthrough that gifted me with the most incredible insights, wisdom and the beginning of a compassionate relationship with myself. I've not yet personally met anyone that gets it. Thank you for sharing this as it resonated so much with me and validated my experience.
Glad you made it out. Sometimes our delusions are the only place we can go to figure things out. Just a long overdue spring cleaning. Let the light into the wound.
Daniel I was the child in the dysfunctional home that shone the light on the dysfunction and I was labelled the troublemaker the crazy one but I now know I was the most sane person in that house. I am now detach from my family because I cannot and will not move in such a toxic environment. Thank you so much for your vlogs
Patrice London Yes. His childhood trauma is exactly the same as mine. Thank God I went no contact from them years ago. Same as Daniel before I even knew of him. God bless u.
I thought to my self many years ago... I'm too self aware... And felt like a weirdo. Why can't I be normal (like everyone else). But as I've grown up I cherish this about myself.
This sick, twisted culture demands of us that we be unconscious, lacking self-awareness in order to keep it's mechanisms of control intact. Being an outsider turned out to be a blessing as far as personal development goes.
You are my best friend! I will try to remember that the next time trauma rears its head, I turn to your channel. It's like you are saying things that are already known to me, but you are making it clear. Kinda confirming it. You're a lifeboat. Keep these videos coming. Crying so much right now.
oh i just totally love it when Daniel gets me at my core and i cry, it feels so warm, comforting and amazingly healing!!! he truly knows how to touch hearts
@@kirklee66 it’s what happens when we speak our truth. Daniels is teaching and modeling what and how to do it! (What an amazing therapist he had to have been, but really still is. 😂)
only those who lived this process can understand this video... it is so strange that no one can decide to initiate this process (it seems to just happen when one is "ready", do you have a take on this?)... but once it starts, it is so overwhelming that it will destroy your social relations, then "kill" you... your former self is gone... there is no stopping it, there is no going back... you will never again be "like anyone else", you will always be a weirdo to those who will never undergo the process... i am happy that you survived the early stages, and that you are now fully undergoing the rebirth, or "individuation process" (Jung), or "rise in consciousness" (buddha)... basically, learning to "see things as they are away from any type of conditioning" (Krishnamurti)... there is no greater human strength than this. thank you for this video! In my case, 45 year-old male, meditating 1h every day of these last 8 years has helped with the process.
I must have been very hurt, because as a child I couldn't bear being criticized by other kids. I became very angry. As an adult, I had many situations where I would yell at people, for example at a shop assistant or at a taxi driver, ugly moments which I now deeply regret. But the more I started to know myself the less aggressive I became, and today if people are unkind to me I don't respond, I even feel sorry for them, sorry that they are not aware of what they are doing.
The Way Most ppl are literally in a COMA TODAY. I have no so called friends or family anymore bc I got so sick of all of them. Ppl like Daniel AFFIRM MY SANITY And THEIR INSANITY.
To be hated...just for being aware...has always mystified me. But to them, you are death--destroyer of worlds. Their paradigm shifts and suddenly their paradise is lost; blissful ignorance stripped away. The disenchanted fool will hate you, but the wise man will love you the more you wake up and shine your light.
I don't wish to be a pedantic know it all but Krishna tells Arjuna that he Krishna is "time, the destroyer of worlds". Oppenheimer mis quoted. Perhaps he'd read an interior translation of Bhagavad Gita. Good luck. God bless.
Yes! Thank you for sharing this with us. Daniel, I had similar experience and my life changed when I was 60 yrs old. I, too, looked into my eyes and realized that the child in me needed to be nurtured, loved and respected. I tried to earn people's love since childhood because I was told that I was not lovable and I was stupid. I am now going on 77 and my life is waking with gratitude, looking forward to the day unfolding in my creativity. What I discovered is that I can't love anyone unconditionally unless I love, respect and accept myself totally. No judgment. I realize that when I respect myself, I don't have any desire to judge or disrespect others because I have not walked in their shoes. I live alone but am not lonely and I enjoy my life with excitement like a child in wonderment......expecting to learn every moment in this journey called life. We are love.
Ah yes! I was “too sensitive”. My individuation was met with fists. I completely understand this, and how harmful it was to me. And yet I still struggle as a result of it all despite embracing my self-awareness. It’s a lifetime of work, I suppose. Sometimes it’s a fascinating, tangibly edifying process, and sometimes the sense of inertia is suffocating! Thank you, as always, for your insight.
Powerful talk. Ive had a therapist tell me he has never seen anyone with such great self awareness. Ive had people tell me 'you are real'. But my inner critic doesn't trust myself & what i believe due to the programming system in my youth. This talk is healing for me. Consciousness is about finding out true self.
Thank you Daniel you give my thoughts and feelings voice, it's so encouraging and I don't feel so much of an outsider. You are so brave courageous and insightful I appreciate you ❤️
I like that you talk about journaling and being self conscious and how it can feel selfish in a negative context. Several years ago I saw a video by a man named Osho, the video was about love. His opening line is “be selfish... to be selfish simply means to be yourself”. This blew my mind, and happens to be in line with what you are saying. When I started journaling I felt this discomfort, like I was weird for writing about my thoughts and feelings, but I have been doing it for five years now and it has drastically changed my life. You give lots of good advice, knowledge and wisdom on here, thank you for sharing.
Osho was a psychopathic cult leader. Saying things which were sounding profound, giving you some kind of “permission” to be hedonistic and self serving was part of his scheme.
Wow, wow, wow.... thank you for sharing this. And if what you suggested at the end of your video is true/could become true, what a beautiful beautiful thing.
I agree with you about the unconscious unaccountability of people. Especially in the last 100 years. Pollution, dumping our garbage into our oceans, land and onto each other. And only good would come for our children if we did take a very hard look at ourselves and every one of our behaviors as we wake up every single day. But that would require us to sacrifice something.. Our ancestors were shameful people. I agree. And it's a shame that we had to survive our parents, our families. It could have been so wonderful if they had grown up and not gotten stuck somewhere back there, trying to fix their past. Look at all the channels on narcissism and mental illnesses that are finally coming out. We as a species can't handle the stress any more. Can't tolerate the immature selfishness abd greed of our predecessors. I believe you. Self awareness is on an individual level. And you're not blaming anybody here. Your'e taking responsibility for the game your family tried to get you to play, too. I don't call it a generational curse. I think it's just people adapting to look the other way to he able to stand people who don't have the strength to stand alone. To have their own voice in their own life.. There's much wisdom in your words. And I just realized something that made no sense a long time ago. Ive seen this many times. And you mentioned it in one of your videos about inheritance and stuff you gave up. That is a key factor with this problem of which you speak. Our parents were sellouts who sold us out for their own greed for power, status and control and had a dillusional sense of priorities. I lost my mother and my ex to greed. I would have rather had them instead. They just couldn't or wouldn't tell me the truth of who they really were. I'm a lot older than you. I, too, always had that voice in ny head that said "Never give up". But why would I have ever had needed to think that at all, with my "Family" to begin with? At all? Because I had to survive their emotional problems too. And I did. Because I'm going to reject everything they tried to indoctrinate me into believing. They didn't have a thing to offer but a bunch of bs, lies.. My truth is that they lived in their own hell. And were only two children of a pair of secret severely impaired alcoholics. Thats the real people they ever really were. My Mother and her Brother. Too bad. Its too bad I finally called them out.
Lower self and higher self. Higher self is our parent, the all knowledgeable, the calm presence always there. The lower, all the trauma and the dissociating of everyday life
Youre saying things Ive felt..Ive scratched at these feelings (or rather theyve scratched at me) but Ive felt so alone or even crazy to be so self aware when no one else around me is. Youre so clear and brave. I admire you so much. Thank you for posting this.
Thanks Daniel for sharing your thoughts of this. It makes me feel normal. I’m a truth teller in my family otherwise known as the scapegoat. I’m the empathic HSP in my family but they all stopped talking to me and call me mentally I’ll among other things. It’s so painful. As I started healing they really weren’t happy about that. I’m actually the healthiest one of the family but that is not the way they see it. Sadly, the entire family has NPD. Unfortunately I find I find myself in that same role were ever go. It’s so painful to see the world as it as a HSP. I can see where mankind is heading and it is heart breaking. Thanks
I do remember that story about looking in the mirror and really seeing yourself. I loved hearing it again. I agree it’s good to be self aware although others seem to think I’m too obsessed with trying to understand who I am. Then again, maybe I have an identity disturbance and that’s why I’m so obsessed with this idea.
Chances are, you have no identity disturbance, but for an identity-disruptive and oppositional society. Love yourself and just let your self be without question.
If enough people lived consciously, it would change society. Attempting to revolt against the unconscious authorities achieves nothing beyond perpetuating destruction. Like Daniel, I had an early insight. This led me to years in a temple. I finally realised, meaning it became my reality, that consciousness is not an emergent property of the brain, it is an in-common property of the cosmos - my consciousness is your consciousness. Thus love is part of our essential nature. And wisdom is its practised mode of operation.
I live in a van, by choice. And that is unacceptable to society, and it is illegal. Those of us who choose something different, having been lead to it by our own consciousness evolution, now have to contend with this new challenge that all that we have learned and benefited from and grown out of is somehow wrong. It's like another level of being unaccepted and abandoned. We have to be even stronger, even more in touch with ourselves, have even more unconditional love. It's quite a journey! " You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one. I hope someday you will join us, and the world will be as one".
Marcus Aurelius's Meditations has a lot to say about the value of becoming and remaining as conscious as possible. He dreaded becoming old and naturally losing his reason--and he would've sooner died than live in a society that would force him to repress his understanding.
I had exavtly such a moment. It happened when I was at my lowest and was actually on my knees praying to God to just let me die because I didn’t want to kill myself. I actually had two moments. One was even earlier, when I think about it now. But I was too young and still felt so dependent on my family and had the unfulfilled wish to be cared for by them. The second time was like your experience ish. I suddenly felt that I still had myself, somehow. The first time I just felt really lonely when I realised that I was responsible for myself, fully. It scared me. The second time I felt a consolation and trust. Oh, and there was a pre-step. I had decided that I would not and must not kill myself because I had understood so much and now saw so much happening in other people’s life, particularly my students’ life. I was a college teacher at the time and there were so many young people who needed a pillar in their life and whom I knew I could stabilize just by knowing and being there and helping them to deal with their emotions by dealing well with my own and with theirs. It was a decision to be there and be of help even when I was unable to help myself (the depression just wouldn’t go away). I swore that if I didn’t feel joy I would at least not take that out on the kids but on the contrary support them in such a way that they would never end up in this terrible state I was in. - And that decision gave me back my self respect even in depression when I was a wreck of self-doubt. And when I had that suicidal moment I suddenly felt that I didn’t need my family anymore in order to care for myself. I started to be a pillar to myself. I’m still growing into that because self-doubts will creep in like flashbacks. But I’m growing. It was a moment of letting go of my family. The grief for a mother I didn’t have was over. I felt indifference at first, now it’s a kind of pity but mixed with indifference, and in moments of loneliness I can still get angry or sad, very. But I’m mostly feeling as if I had found a comrade in myself.
THIS IS BRILLIANT !!! PROFOUND !!! LOVE IT !! Developing the inner observer - being capable of contemplating your own conditioning and programming is indispensable for real freedom and choice in every single aware moment in full presence - it is the key for true transformation and inner alchemy - without it no growth and evolution of the individual hence the collective - this is living a life not being lived by anything outside of you and your true essence - not leading an enslaved robotic existence in full waste of the gift of being alive as a human being - when your soul is in the drivers seat this is a life !
wow, thank you Daniel, I relate to your words profoundly. Thank you so much for this gift! so refreshing to watch somebody expressing the truth the way you do. x
Hi Daniel. I'm not sure if you read these comments, but I just want to let you know that I respect and admire you, and find your material invaluable in my own healing process. Best wishes from Australia
One of the points that I liked the most in this piece is that the more self-conscious we become, the better we behave towards others and our surrounding. That's a beautiful vision to imagine how it would be if other people looked at us and others, at the world in general, with a much heightened level of understanding which they would gain thanks to the process of becoming more and more self-aware.
Thank you for this contribution and others as well. It helps the rest catch up eventually. People of the past were able to reach so far and we ought to continue of what further heights we can take this.
I know now that the one thing I must really aspire to in life is knowing myself. I don't. It amazes me how much I don't remember about my early life. I can't remember how I behaved in school or how was my relationship with my sisters and brothers. They feel so distant. I have some specific memories. Some even are a bit silly. You sure know about this. It was in my adolescence that this memory came to mind and didn't leave me from then. It was so odd. For some reason I started to remember being molested when I was 5. It took me a long time to actually understand that it was true and real. I think that may explain some.
Amazing message. Nobody is fully aware. This is called enlightenment. Never met or heard of an enlightened being on this planet (besides Buddha, maybe...).
I think like you but you have an amazing talent /ability to turn those thoughts into explaining them to others. I really think if we hung out we would have some cool 😎 and interesting conversations . I can relate to how you grew up and what you talk about, on so many levels. Only the fqct you have friends shows you have w good ability to make friends. Im just learning how to keep friends. I end friendships often because of realizing they are either lying to me or a total fakes.
I’ve never related to any TH-cam channel more than yours, thank you. A few years ago I picked up music production and writing songs helps me connect to myself and my truth. Thank you for sharing ✨
You are one of my favorite TH-cam's! You articulate what swims around in my head, so accurately! (Completely off topic, but I secretly wonder what your MBTI type is, my guess is either INFP or ISFP).
Adorable baby pic! Btw, I learned that all families were not like mine via TV. I later worked in a bookstore while in college and became an addictive reader. I couldn't do journaling because it was too re-traumatizing when I was younger.
it might be hard for you to make these videos. I have to say I find these really valuable to me and helpful. Somehow I can connect to it and understand and kind of make life “make more sense”, than what I been thinking. Like life seems too impersonal, absurd, very controlling and manipulative, and utterly too weird.
Jeesh. This dude. Its exhausting reliving my trauma. Yeah. I get it. I've overcome the bad. Disconnected from all toxic family. I'm happy... Untll I watch this. I want to enjoy my short time here. I know my behavior is influenced by past shit sometimes. I'm tired of self inventory and second guessing everything about myself. I'm glad I have optimism. Glad this helps so many folks. Maybe it helped me too but I'm weary of all the visceral emotional upheaval it's evoked in me. I'm gonna get a brew and take my girlfriend to taco tuesday then a movie. Not gonna worry about my behavior as long i dig myself and she digs me it's all good today.
It almost feels like a person needs to go through the fire of abuse to become self-aware and fully conscious. Full consciousness is to know that evil truly does exist and is deeper and darker than one can imagine.
I just discovered your channel and I absolutely LOVE your content, in particular THIS video! You basically encapsulated my entire journey of ReneGade Musings. Consciousness is an act of rebellion indeed!
Well when i was a kid and people think i talk to imaginary friend actually i understand that i just befriending myself because no one really get me anyway yeah it's lonely but it's great. Wish i can connect to myself more because i feel lost trying to fit in and can't survive by my own as this unconscious circumstances hate people who don't align with them.
I grew up in an emotionally abusive home. As a result I have caused harm to others and feel guilt and shame over it. What is forgivable? Am I worthy of forgiveness?
Everything is forgivable, as long as you comit to do your best and to healing. You are worthy of forgiveness, no matter what you did, I forgive you. But of course it is not only important to feel forgiven by others (which often doesn't happen and should never be expected from you by someone whom you did harm to), but to be forgiven by yourself. And I wish you that.
@@marionoschelmuller1718 , thank you so much for your response. It means so much to me to hear you say this. The hardest thing to do is to forgive myself. I will work on it and hope that I get there sooner than later because this burden is causing me intense pain. Thank you again. Your response meant the world to me.
If you sincerely apologise to a specific person for a specific thing you said, or did, then it is sufficient. It is in the other person's gift to forgive you or not. All you control is being sincere and contrite for your 'wrong-doing'. In my family, my mother forgave everyone for everything and it was utterly meaningless. It was her default setting so that she would never have to enforce boundaries, by simply being a Jesus-like martyr and turning the other cheek her entire life. Do you think it brought her an ounce of happiness or self-respect? Personally, I can forgive other people, but it doesn't mean I want to continue a relationship with them. Life is too short to be a doormat.
in my life i never met another person with that self-awareness state. i always thought that I'm supposed to know just by looking in their eyes, though since it never happened idk really what to expect even.
Just realised I had a realisation I had the same feeling of me, but instead I blamed it, I told it to shut up. U get me into trouble no one thinks like u do, u feelings are wrong and make u look stupid because that's what I heard when I expressed me. Thank you now I know where to look for my answers and ME....
Similar to a poker game, there's a psychological aspect to hiding your self-awareness. It can keep others guessing and uncertain, which might lead to advantageous outcomes for you. There is a strategic advantage.
.. actually when we dig deeper into REAL history, we find that humanity is at the end of a cycle of creation .. that's a deep message, multiple lectures. But it doesn't get better, people will be falling further down from grace, literally .. as they are cut off from the source of creation, evolution, nature & ultimately, the most high (god)
Rebellion is a human right.. but mainstream societies have made it into a negative word as "he's rebellious, or she's rebellious" not knowing that rebellion is the only one act that can save the dignity of one's Self... eventually as I contintue faring in this life, I chose my consiouscness and my relaltionship to myself... because I think nurturing it and investing in it, will definitely make me a better man, I already see it.... yes I rebel against a lot of addictions that society offers but at least my self is feeling good!
I recently talked with someone who says she secretly drinks alcohol and eats junk food as what feels like a form of rebellion. It would be interesting to see if doing this REAL rebellion would be what she found she was truly hungry for.
those who dance are considered insane by those who can’t hear the music - Nietzsche
Oh man, I will remember this one. Thanks for sharing.
Great quote. Shame it's associated with that hack 😂
@@s0urp0wer5Hack?
"These systems... basically force you to live within the confines of their unconsciousness" I believe it's about finding our true selves. Thank you, Daniel.
Deep.
I so totally get this. I had a "mental breakdown" (as viewed by others), but it was nothing more than a journey into the unconscious recesses of my mind. It took me almost 2 years to swim through the layers of painful truth, and in doing so I became more in touch with who I was, how & why I operated the way I did, and what fundamentally made me me. It felt like a journey to hell, but the light of my conscious awareness slowly dissipated and dissolved the pain and I emerged as a different version of myself. What was viewed as a breakdown actually was a breakthrough that gifted me with the most incredible insights, wisdom and the beginning of a compassionate relationship with myself. I've not yet personally met anyone that gets it. Thank you for sharing this as it resonated so much with me and validated my experience.
Glad you made it out. Sometimes our delusions are the only place we can go to figure things out.
Just a long overdue spring cleaning. Let the light into the wound.
I totally get it @teltaz! I also have trouble finding people who understand what this is like
I get it. We are here to raise the human consciousness
I get it. We are here to raise the human consciousness
Daniel I was the child in the dysfunctional home that shone the light on the dysfunction and I was labelled the troublemaker the crazy one but I now know I was the most sane person in that house.
I am now detach from my family because I cannot and will not move in such a toxic environment. Thank you so much for your vlogs
This is my experience as well.
@@cynhains Mine too, with FOO and inlaws.
Yep. We are the BLACK SHEEP. BAAAAAAA
@@robynquinn-hakeem1318no, we are the scapegoats.
You are a freakin' ROCKSTAR!!!
Patrice London Yes. His childhood trauma is exactly the same as mine. Thank God I went no contact from them years ago. Same as Daniel before I even knew of him. God bless u.
I thought to my self many years ago... I'm too self aware... And felt like a weirdo. Why can't I be normal (like everyone else). But as I've grown up I cherish this about myself.
Same here!! I feel like a misfit sometimes
Same!
Weirdos are the coolest on this plane! A true asset to this world! I know because I am one of them lol 💜
This sick, twisted culture demands of us that we be unconscious, lacking self-awareness in order to keep it's mechanisms of control intact. Being an outsider turned out to be a blessing as far as personal development goes.
Yep I feel like an outsider it sucks. My mother is in deep denial and so is my father it truly is sad.
You are my best friend! I will try to remember that the next time trauma rears its head, I turn to your channel. It's like you are saying things that are already known to me, but you are making it clear. Kinda confirming it. You're a lifeboat. Keep these videos coming. Crying so much right now.
oh i just totally love it when Daniel gets me at my core and i cry, it feels so warm, comforting and amazingly healing!!! he truly knows how to touch hearts
@@kirklee66 it’s what happens when we speak our truth. Daniels is teaching and modeling what and how to do it! (What an amazing therapist he had to have been, but really still is. 😂)
Yes, I feel exactly the same, WonderFool. Could not have said it any better.
"The world will ask you who you are, and if you don't know, the world will tell you.” - Carl Jung
only those who lived this process can understand this video... it is so strange that no one can decide to initiate this process (it seems to just happen when one is "ready", do you have a take on this?)... but once it starts, it is so overwhelming that it will destroy your social relations, then "kill" you... your former self is gone... there is no stopping it, there is no going back... you will never again be "like anyone else", you will always be a weirdo to those who will never undergo the process... i am happy that you survived the early stages, and that you are now fully undergoing the rebirth, or "individuation process" (Jung), or "rise in consciousness" (buddha)... basically, learning to "see things as they are away from any type of conditioning" (Krishnamurti)... there is no greater human strength than this. thank you for this video! In my case, 45 year-old male, meditating 1h every day of these last 8 years has helped with the process.
I must have been very hurt, because as a child I couldn't bear being criticized by other kids. I became very angry. As an adult, I had many situations where I would yell at people, for example at a shop assistant or at a taxi driver, ugly moments which I now deeply regret. But the more I started to know myself the less aggressive I became, and today if people are unkind to me I don't respond, I even feel sorry for them, sorry that they are not aware of what they are doing.
I’m loving your channel. Glad I came across it recently,.
You are spot on in this one..our society actively pushes low consciousness..
The Way Most ppl are literally in a COMA TODAY. I have no so called friends or family anymore bc I got so sick of all of them. Ppl like Daniel AFFIRM MY SANITY And THEIR INSANITY.
Daniel, you are da bomb!
Thank you so very much for speaking our truths. You help us honor and protect our most precious thing: our unique selves.
❤
To be hated...just for being aware...has always mystified me. But to them, you are death--destroyer of worlds. Their paradigm shifts and suddenly their paradise is lost; blissful ignorance stripped away.
The disenchanted fool will hate you, but the wise man will love you the more you wake up and shine your light.
I don't wish to be a pedantic know it all but Krishna tells Arjuna that he Krishna is "time, the destroyer of worlds".
Oppenheimer mis quoted. Perhaps he'd read an interior translation of Bhagavad Gita.
Good luck. God bless.
You are so right
I love those long videos. I've missed them
Thank you Daniel. You are a true healer. If ever I'm feeling low I turn to your videos. LOVE YOU ❤️
Yes!!
Same here.
Yes! Your are so generous and honest! These vids are a life-line in a world that would just as soon let us drown in falsehood. Thanks, Daniel
Yes! Thank you for sharing this with us. Daniel, I had similar experience and my life changed when I was 60 yrs old. I, too, looked into my eyes and realized that the child in me needed to be nurtured, loved and respected. I tried to earn people's love since childhood because I was told that I was not lovable and I was stupid. I am now going on 77 and my life is waking with gratitude, looking forward to the day unfolding in my creativity. What I discovered is that I can't love anyone unconditionally unless I love, respect and accept myself totally. No judgment. I realize that when I respect myself, I don't have any desire to judge or disrespect others because I have not walked in their shoes. I live alone but am not lonely and I enjoy my life with excitement like a child in wonderment......expecting to learn every moment in this journey called life. We are love.
When I got solo travelling I always have the best time of my life. It's just me, my curiosity, and what I want to do.
Ah yes! I was “too sensitive”. My individuation was met with fists. I completely understand this, and how harmful it was to me. And yet I still struggle as a result of it all despite embracing my self-awareness. It’s a lifetime of work, I suppose. Sometimes it’s a fascinating, tangibly edifying process, and sometimes the sense of inertia is suffocating! Thank you, as always, for your insight.
Powerful talk. Ive had a therapist tell me he has never seen anyone with such great self awareness. Ive had people tell me 'you are real'. But my inner critic doesn't trust myself & what i believe due to the programming system in my youth. This talk is healing for me. Consciousness is about finding out true self.
You're completely correct in wanting to change all the toxic structures and systems. (by overthrowing, that's a radical approach)
Thank you Daniel you give my thoughts and feelings voice, it's so encouraging and I don't feel so much of an outsider. You are so brave courageous and insightful I appreciate you ❤️
Daniel, you are a Saint among men.....Your material is BEYOND life transformative. Thank you for what you do and who you are!!!!!
I like that you talk about journaling and being self conscious and how it can feel selfish in a negative context. Several years ago I saw a video by a man named Osho, the video was about love. His opening line is “be selfish... to be selfish simply means to be yourself”. This blew my mind, and happens to be in line with what you are saying. When I started journaling I felt this discomfort, like I was weird for writing about my thoughts and feelings, but I have been doing it for five years now and it has drastically changed my life. You give lots of good advice, knowledge and wisdom on here, thank you for sharing.
Robert Bishop I love reading Osho. For me it started with seeing his quote “The person you’re looking for is you.”
Osho was a psychopathic cult leader. Saying things which were sounding profound, giving you some kind of “permission” to be hedonistic and self serving was part of his scheme.
Wow, wow, wow.... thank you for sharing this. And if what you suggested at the end of your video is true/could become true, what a beautiful beautiful thing.
I agree with you about the unconscious unaccountability of people. Especially in the last 100 years. Pollution, dumping our garbage into our oceans, land and onto each other. And only good would come for our children if we did take a very hard look at ourselves and every one of our behaviors as we wake up every single day. But that would require us to sacrifice something.. Our ancestors were shameful people. I agree. And it's a shame that we had to survive our parents, our families. It could have been so wonderful if they had grown up and not gotten stuck somewhere back there, trying to fix their past. Look at all the channels on narcissism and mental illnesses that are finally coming out. We as a species can't handle the stress any more. Can't tolerate the immature selfishness abd greed of our predecessors. I believe you. Self awareness is on an individual level. And you're not blaming anybody here. Your'e taking responsibility for the game your family tried to get you to play, too. I don't call it a generational curse. I think it's just people adapting to look the other way to he able to stand people who don't have the strength to stand alone. To have their own voice in their own life.. There's much wisdom in your words. And I just realized something that made no sense a long time ago. Ive seen this many times. And you mentioned it in one of your videos about inheritance and stuff you gave up. That is a key factor with this problem of which you speak. Our parents were sellouts who sold us out for their own greed for power, status and control and had a dillusional sense of priorities. I lost my mother and my ex to greed. I would have rather had them instead. They just couldn't or wouldn't tell me the truth of who they really were. I'm a lot older than you. I, too, always had that voice in ny head that said "Never give up". But why would I have ever had needed to think that at all, with my "Family" to begin with? At all? Because I had to survive their emotional problems too. And I did. Because I'm going to reject everything they tried to indoctrinate me into believing. They didn't have a thing to offer but a bunch of bs, lies.. My truth is that they lived in their own hell. And were only two children of a pair of secret severely impaired alcoholics. Thats the real people they ever really were. My Mother and her Brother. Too bad. Its too bad I finally called them out.
Lower self and higher self.
Higher self is our parent, the all knowledgeable, the calm presence always there. The lower, all the trauma and the dissociating of everyday life
Being in this destructive system right now listening you I feel I am not alone in this world❤️ You are brilliant❤️
Reading and journaling were two major ways I survived my childhood.
Thank you for sharing your wisdom Daniel, your courage to truly open up is admirable.
Youre saying things Ive felt..Ive scratched at these feelings (or rather theyve scratched at me) but Ive felt so alone or even crazy to be so self aware when no one else around me is.
Youre so clear and brave. I admire you so much. Thank you for posting this.
Thanks Daniel for sharing your thoughts of this. It makes me feel normal. I’m a truth teller in my family otherwise known as the scapegoat. I’m the empathic HSP in my family but they all stopped talking to me and call me mentally I’ll among other things. It’s so painful. As I started healing they really weren’t happy about that. I’m actually the healthiest one of the family but that is not the way they see it. Sadly, the entire family has NPD.
Unfortunately I find I find myself in that same role were ever go. It’s so painful to see the world as it as a HSP. I can see where mankind is heading and it is heart breaking. Thanks
I do remember that story about looking in the mirror and really seeing yourself. I loved hearing it again. I agree it’s good to be self aware although others seem to think I’m too obsessed with trying to understand who I am. Then again, maybe I have an identity disturbance and that’s why I’m so obsessed with this idea.
Chances are, you have no identity disturbance, but for an identity-disruptive and oppositional society.
Love yourself and just let your self be without question.
Why do you tell everyone so much
If enough people lived consciously, it would change society. Attempting to revolt against the unconscious authorities achieves nothing beyond perpetuating destruction. Like Daniel, I had an early insight. This led me to years in a temple. I finally realised, meaning it became my reality, that consciousness is not an emergent property of the brain, it is an in-common property of the cosmos - my consciousness is your consciousness. Thus love is part of our essential nature. And wisdom is its practised mode of operation.
I live in a van, by choice. And that is unacceptable to society, and it is illegal. Those of us who choose something different, having been lead to it by our own consciousness evolution, now have to contend with this new challenge that all that we have learned and benefited from and grown out of is somehow wrong. It's like another level of being unaccepted and abandoned. We have to be even stronger, even more in touch with ourselves, have even more unconditional love. It's quite a journey!
" You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one. I hope someday you will join us, and the world will be as one".
Marcus Aurelius's Meditations has a lot to say about the value of becoming and remaining as conscious as possible.
He dreaded becoming old and naturally losing his reason--and he would've sooner died than live in a society that would force him to repress his understanding.
I had exavtly such a moment. It happened when I was at my lowest and was actually on my knees praying to God to just let me die because I didn’t want to kill myself. I actually had two moments. One was even earlier, when I think about it now. But I was too young and still felt so dependent on my family and had the unfulfilled wish to be cared for by them. The second time was like your experience ish. I suddenly felt that I still had myself, somehow. The first time I just felt really lonely when I realised that I was responsible for myself, fully. It scared me. The second time I felt a consolation and trust. Oh, and there was a pre-step. I had decided that I would not and must not kill myself because I had understood so much and now saw so much happening in other people’s life, particularly my students’ life. I was a college teacher at the time and there were so many young people who needed a pillar in their life and whom I knew I could stabilize just by knowing and being there and helping them to deal with their emotions by dealing well with my own and with theirs. It was a decision to be there and be of help even when I was unable to help myself (the depression just wouldn’t go away). I swore that if I didn’t feel joy I would at least not take that out on the kids but on the contrary support them in such a way that they would never end up in this terrible state I was in. - And that decision gave me back my self respect even in depression when I was a wreck of self-doubt. And when I had that suicidal moment I suddenly felt that I didn’t need my family anymore in order to care for myself. I started to be a pillar to myself. I’m still growing into that because self-doubts will creep in like flashbacks. But I’m growing. It was a moment of letting go of my family. The grief for a mother I didn’t have was over. I felt indifference at first, now it’s a kind of pity but mixed with indifference, and in moments of loneliness I can still get angry or sad, very. But I’m mostly feeling as if I had found a comrade in myself.
THIS IS BRILLIANT !!! PROFOUND !!! LOVE IT !! Developing the inner observer - being capable of contemplating your own conditioning and programming is indispensable for real freedom and choice in every single aware moment in full presence - it is the key for true transformation and inner alchemy - without it no growth and evolution of the individual hence the collective - this is living a life not being lived by anything outside of you and your true essence - not leading an enslaved robotic existence in full waste of the gift of being alive as a human being - when your soul is in the drivers seat this is a life !
wow, thank you Daniel, I relate to your words profoundly. Thank you so much for this gift! so refreshing to watch somebody expressing the truth the way you do.
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Wow, Daniel, You can express what I feel and put words to it. Thank you.
Hi Daniel. I'm not sure if you read these comments, but I just want to let you know that I respect and admire you, and find your material invaluable in my own healing process. Best wishes from Australia
this is so nice man, i have no word. iam thankful i feel connected to that
Yes I’ve been feeling the confines with work and society lately. Thanks for the validation Daniel!!
One of the points that I liked the most in this piece is that the more self-conscious we become, the better we behave towards others and our surrounding.
That's a beautiful vision to imagine how it would be if other people looked at us and others, at the world in general, with a much heightened level of understanding which they would gain thanks to the process of becoming more and more self-aware.
Thank you for this contribution and others as well. It helps the rest catch up eventually. People of the past were able to reach so far and we ought to continue of what further heights we can take this.
I know now that the one thing I must really aspire to in life is knowing myself. I don't. It amazes me how much I don't remember about my early life. I can't remember how I behaved in school or how was my relationship with my sisters and brothers. They feel so distant. I have some specific memories. Some even are a bit silly.
You sure know about this. It was in my adolescence that this memory came to mind and didn't leave me from then. It was so odd. For some reason I started to remember being molested when I was 5. It took me a long time to actually understand that it was true and real. I think that may explain some.
So powerful! Better than any therapist out there!
Beautiful .. exactly… thank you ❤
You are simply brilliant, thank you!
Amazing message. Nobody is fully aware. This is called enlightenment. Never met or heard of an enlightened being on this planet (besides Buddha, maybe...).
I think like you but you have an amazing talent /ability to turn those thoughts into explaining them to others. I really think if we hung out we would have some cool 😎 and interesting conversations . I can relate to how you grew up and what you talk about, on so many levels. Only the fqct you have friends shows you have w good ability to make friends. Im just learning how to keep friends. I end friendships often because of realizing they are either lying to me or a total fakes.
I’ve never related to any TH-cam channel more than yours, thank you. A few years ago I picked up music production and writing songs helps me connect to myself and my truth. Thank you for sharing ✨
You are one of my favorite TH-cam's! You articulate what swims around in my head, so accurately! (Completely off topic, but I secretly wonder what your MBTI type is, my guess is either INFP or ISFP).
I agree or ENFP such a stand up person I look forward to his videos going to get on his patreon
Thank you.
Spirituality, non duality, enlightenment is all about this. Who am I? The ulitimate question. The answer is all that is wanted. Satisfaction.
Adorable baby pic! Btw, I learned that all families were not like mine via TV. I later worked in a bookstore while in college and became an addictive reader. I couldn't do journaling because it was too re-traumatizing when I was younger.
Very prophetic at the end...I see this unfolding now, as we speak. Myself included. Thankyou !
it might be hard for you to make these videos. I have to say I find these really valuable to me and helpful. Somehow I can connect to it and understand and kind of make life “make more sense”, than what I been thinking. Like life seems too impersonal, absurd, very controlling and manipulative, and utterly too weird.
Jeesh. This dude. Its exhausting reliving my trauma. Yeah. I get it. I've overcome the bad. Disconnected from all toxic family. I'm happy... Untll I watch this. I want to enjoy my short time here. I know my behavior is influenced by past shit sometimes. I'm tired of self inventory and second guessing everything about myself. I'm glad I have optimism. Glad this helps so many folks. Maybe it helped me too but I'm weary of all the visceral emotional upheaval it's evoked in me. I'm gonna get a brew and take my girlfriend to taco tuesday then a movie. Not gonna worry about my behavior as long i dig myself and she digs me it's all good today.
it honestly feels like I'm living and working around a bunch of zombies.
This is the video that should be mandatory viewing for all of the US population, if anyone wants to vote.
It almost feels like a person needs to go through the fire of abuse to become self-aware and fully conscious.
Full consciousness is to know that evil truly does exist and is deeper and darker than one can imagine.
I just discovered your channel and I absolutely LOVE your content, in particular THIS video! You basically encapsulated my entire journey of ReneGade Musings. Consciousness is an act of rebellion indeed!
"I had a friend, someone who cared about me." I feel that about myself now too.
Well when i was a kid and people think i talk to imaginary friend actually i understand that i just befriending myself because no one really get me anyway yeah it's lonely but it's great. Wish i can connect to myself more because i feel lost trying to fit in and can't survive by my own as this unconscious circumstances hate people who don't align with them.
I grew up in an emotionally abusive home. As a result I have caused harm to others and feel guilt and shame over it. What is forgivable? Am I worthy of forgiveness?
Everything is forgivable, as long as you comit to do your best and to healing. You are worthy of forgiveness, no matter what you did, I forgive you. But of course it is not only important to feel forgiven by others (which often doesn't happen and should never be expected from you by someone whom you did harm to), but to be forgiven by yourself. And I wish you that.
@@marionoschelmuller1718 , thank you so much for your response. It means so much to me to hear you say this. The hardest thing to do is to forgive myself. I will work on it and hope that I get there sooner than later because this burden is causing me intense pain. Thank you again. Your response meant the world to me.
If you sincerely apologise to a specific person for a specific thing you said, or did, then it is sufficient. It is in the other person's gift to forgive you or not. All you control is being sincere and contrite for your 'wrong-doing'.
In my family, my mother forgave everyone for everything and it was utterly meaningless. It was her default setting so that she would never have to enforce boundaries, by simply being a Jesus-like martyr and turning the other cheek her entire life.
Do you think it brought her an ounce of happiness or self-respect?
Personally, I can forgive other people, but it doesn't mean I want to continue a relationship with them. Life is too short to be a doormat.
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@@threethrushes Thank you for your insight Gerhard!
in my life i never met another person with that self-awareness state. i always thought that I'm supposed to know just by looking in their eyes, though since it never happened idk really what to expect even.
THANK YOU!!!
Glad to see you back
Just realised I had a realisation I had the same feeling of me, but instead I blamed it, I told it to shut up. U get me into trouble no one thinks like u do, u feelings are wrong and make u look stupid because that's what I heard when I expressed me. Thank you now I know where to look for my answers and ME....
I love your reflections. Thanks for your videos
Fantastic video! Keep them coming brother !!!
Impressionistic speech: the video.
Love you Daniel ❤
My dude! Look up IIT by Tononi. The fact that we can become conscious of unconscious patterns is evidence for personal power and free will. Cheers!
I just love your insights! 🙂⭐️👍🏻 Thank you so much for sharing! Actually from listening, my relationship to myself is flowering too!
Similar to a poker game, there's a psychological aspect to hiding your self-awareness. It can keep others guessing and uncertain, which might lead to advantageous outcomes for you. There is a strategic advantage.
What a wonderful, truthful, hopeful message !!
Thank you for what you do, thank you for having the courage to turn the camera on.
Thank you for these insightful and radically honest videos!
100% relate, especially the part about the computer program! Amazing episode thank you Daniel!
I relate to everything you’ve ever said and felt and experienced. Yes.
That happening in the bathroom was the breakthrough the heroine had in What The Bleep Do We Know. These videos are helping me
.. actually when we dig deeper into REAL history, we find that humanity is at the end of a cycle of creation .. that's a deep message, multiple lectures. But it doesn't get better, people will be falling further down from grace, literally .. as they are cut off from the source of creation, evolution, nature & ultimately, the most high (god)
You make so much sense. Thank you for putting it out there. Thank you for doing the work. An inspiring Human Being.
Rebellion is a human right.. but mainstream societies have made it into a negative word as "he's rebellious, or she's rebellious" not knowing that rebellion is the only one act that can save the dignity of one's Self... eventually as I contintue faring in this life, I chose my consiouscness and my relaltionship to myself... because I think nurturing it and investing in it, will definitely make me a better man, I already see it.... yes I rebel against a lot of addictions that society offers but at least my self is feeling good!
You are an Amazing Person Daniel!! Thanks for being YOU and sharing that!!
I appreciate your vulnerability and honesty so much! And your invaluable insights. Thank you, thank you thank you .
I just love you! 💖
I recently talked with someone who says she secretly drinks alcohol and eats junk food as what feels like a form of rebellion. It would be interesting to see if doing this REAL rebellion would be what she found she was truly hungry for.
Daniel, you're one of the coolest people I know!
Thank you for being honest
Soooo true, Daniel, however I feel that the most profound consciousness comes from the heart.
Oh, so brilliant :) thank you!
Beautiful
Thank you, Daniel, for telling IT like IT truly is. Everyone should listen to you, so that more people understand.
Great video, again! 👍
Deep and true.
Why don't more people evolve? Because it hurts too much!
This is excellent. A revolution of Consciousness.
Thanks for speaking on this.