The process of making a painting challenges artists in ways people who aren't artists are rarely challenged and might not understand. Especially when the artist is commissioned to make work they wouldn't normally make. You did a great job working through and making something that reflects a touch of who you are as an artist. Keep going, you got this!
When you did the studies of the boats you allowed yourself multiple studies to get comfortable with the subject and to learn how to express the subject with your painting voice. Here you are trying to get something ‘perfect’ in one shot. One option would be to allow yourself to do multiple versions. To cut down costs you could do them on un-stretched canvas, and then stretch the one you are most happy with.
The process of making a painting challenges artists in ways people who aren't artists are rarely challenged and might not understand. Especially when the artist is commissioned to make work they wouldn't normally make. You did a great job working through and making something that reflects a touch of who you are as an artist. Keep going, you got this!
When you did the studies of the boats you allowed yourself multiple studies to get comfortable with the subject and to learn how to express the subject with your painting voice. Here you are trying to get something ‘perfect’ in one shot. One option would be to allow yourself to do multiple versions. To cut down costs you could do them on un-stretched canvas, and then stretch the one you are most happy with.