This was amazing. It simply hits too hard-the intrusive thoughts, the doubt, the depression, the dissonance, everything - I listened to it all, all three hours, in one go, and i can't quite put into words how close home it hit, but it was an utterly unique experience. While listening, I wrote a poem, so I guess here it is. Hope you enjoy. "Dancing in Dissonance" When my very existence Is fraught with despair, Is met with resistance, And onlookers' glare When my rights to a life They debate in a court, They sow conflict and strife, Basic facts they distort, And though I fail to heal, And my life is not free, There's still somewhere I feel As though I am still me. And so, I will waltz, As if I never knew Those whose prophets are false And whose gods are untrue, Those whose lies fail to reach me, Whose malice and hate, Whose comments so curtly Attempt to irate… They don't work! I am dancing! I hear nought but the song! So compelling, entrancing, In which I sing along, I glide down like a bird Through eternal abyss Where existence is blurred Into dark, void-borne bliss And though I fail to heal, And my life is not free, There's still somewhere I feel As though I am still me. And the dissonant sounds Embraced, understood, Like no human in life Neither wanted nor could, As my thoughts claw their way Through my flesh and my skin And they tear out my bones And replace what's within, i sink lower, submerge in the deep-seated pain as red shadows surround me and drive me insane there was never a way there was never a chance i could live without fear, i could live as myself, i could live. i could live? i'm still breathing? A melody slowly emerges Softly in, Softly out, I repeat. Yes, things won't be the same, But my fate is not sealed, And my flickering flame, While still fragile, has healed. Is there somewhere still left Where I can still be, Is there somewhere I'll feel As though I am still me? I look up and around At the sunrise-red sky, As the rose-red surrounds, In relief, now, I cry. There are lows, there are highs But I'll live, I'll survive, Though my hopes may be lies, I will stay here, alive.
The start of stage 6 is calm and, relative to what came before, somewhat quiet. This seems a good transition from stage 5 to stage 6. That the track title is "Things might be improving" shows that POV isn't, well, dead after the horrors of stage 5. The menace of prior stages is present throughout stage 6, naturally, but particularly in "Interlinked" and "Things still won't be the same". The background sounds tainted. In "Things still won't be the same", things appear somewhat fine, and at 16:38, the re-entry of that one sample shows that some things, ironically, are still constant. A few minutes later, though, the same melody plays, but colder. Stage 5 has taken its toll, and this is lamented by the POV. "Finding myself", once again, is quiet, but then the final couple of minutes show that moments of joy can shine through, even in the chaos of being transgender- that this journey was worth it, in the end. My one gripe is that the credits have sound attached to them- the credits might have had a more potent impact if displayed in complete silence. However, this gripe is relatively minor. An idea based on the gripe- a collection of all the outtakes. I'd personally nominate the first displayed unused cover art for stage 4 as the cover art for said collection. Great job on stage 6, as well as the entire project.
Thank you for sticking with the project for so long, your comments really helped me along the way! And I'm glad you enjoyed it, it really means a lot :3 as to the credits song, that's actually something I thought out from wayyy back in stage 3, because the song is the sample for "dreadfully distinct from those around me", which is a reaaaally old song of mine in my old artist moniker, one of the first times I tried to show my feelings in music, called "Astral Projection" because I felt like I was "projecting" in someone elses body. It stayed in the credits as both a circle of events of sorts and because it means a lot to me. and the outtakes idea, I really considered sharing some (more) unused covers, ambience and melody, but eventually decided not to, for a simple reason: I intend to use some unused melodies and ambience for other projects
The emotional weight in this album is off the charts. I feel like I just bore witness to the first true musical masterpiece of the millennium, thank you for sharing this journey with us. I hope your parents accept you for who you are, but even if they don't they should still appreciate the quality of your music and the effort and passion that went into making it. I look forward to your next project, whatever and whenever that is.
Very impressive project! I'm not big on music but i think this is cool! Very atmospheric and i love the covers. I listened to it all in one go. Good luck with coming out to your parents and I hope one day we will get a follow up project with happy ending! (though there's probably a journey to that)
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this was an AMAZING album, with a stellar execution, loved it ALL!
This was amazing. It simply hits too hard-the intrusive thoughts, the doubt, the depression, the dissonance, everything -
I listened to it all, all three hours, in one go, and i can't quite put into words how close home it hit, but it was an utterly unique experience.
While listening, I wrote a poem, so I guess here it is. Hope you enjoy.
"Dancing in Dissonance"
When my very existence
Is fraught with despair,
Is met with resistance,
And onlookers' glare
When my rights to a life
They debate in a court,
They sow conflict and strife,
Basic facts they distort,
And though I fail to heal,
And my life is not free,
There's still somewhere I feel
As though I am still me.
And so, I will waltz,
As if I never knew
Those whose prophets are false
And whose gods are untrue,
Those whose lies fail to reach me,
Whose malice and hate,
Whose comments so curtly
Attempt to irate…
They don't work! I am dancing!
I hear nought but the song!
So compelling, entrancing,
In which I sing along,
I glide down like a bird
Through eternal abyss
Where existence is blurred
Into dark, void-borne bliss
And though I fail to heal,
And my life is not free,
There's still somewhere I feel
As though I am still me.
And the dissonant sounds
Embraced, understood,
Like no human in life
Neither wanted nor could,
As my thoughts claw their way
Through my flesh and my skin
And they tear out my bones
And replace what's within,
i sink lower, submerge
in the deep-seated pain
as red shadows surround me
and drive me insane
there was never a way
there was never a chance
i could live without fear,
i could live as myself,
i could live.
i could live?
i'm still breathing?
A melody slowly emerges
Softly in,
Softly out,
I repeat.
Yes, things won't be the same,
But my fate is not sealed,
And my flickering flame,
While still fragile, has healed.
Is there somewhere still left
Where I can still be,
Is there somewhere I'll feel
As though I am still me?
I look up and around
At the sunrise-red sky,
As the rose-red surrounds,
In relief, now, I cry.
There are lows, there are highs
But I'll live, I'll survive,
Though my hopes may be lies,
I will stay here, alive.
The start of stage 6 is calm and, relative to what came before, somewhat quiet. This seems a good transition from stage 5 to stage 6.
That the track title is "Things might be improving" shows that POV isn't, well, dead after the horrors of stage 5.
The menace of prior stages is present throughout stage 6, naturally, but particularly in "Interlinked" and "Things still won't be the same". The background sounds tainted. In "Things still won't be the same", things appear somewhat fine, and at 16:38, the re-entry of that one sample shows that some things, ironically, are still constant. A few minutes later, though, the same melody plays, but colder. Stage 5 has taken its toll, and this is lamented by the POV.
"Finding myself", once again, is quiet, but then the final couple of minutes show that moments of joy can shine through, even in the chaos of being transgender- that this journey was worth it, in the end.
My one gripe is that the credits have sound attached to them- the credits might have had a more potent impact if displayed in complete silence. However, this gripe is relatively minor.
An idea based on the gripe- a collection of all the outtakes. I'd personally nominate the first displayed unused cover art for stage 4 as the cover art for said collection.
Great job on stage 6, as well as the entire project.
Thank you for sticking with the project for so long, your comments really helped me along the way! And I'm glad you enjoyed it, it really means a lot :3
as to the credits song, that's actually something I thought out from wayyy back in stage 3, because the song is the sample for "dreadfully distinct from those around me", which is a reaaaally old song of mine in my old artist moniker, one of the first times I tried to show my feelings in music, called "Astral Projection" because I felt like I was "projecting" in someone elses body. It stayed in the credits as both a circle of events of sorts and because it means a lot to me.
and the outtakes idea, I really considered sharing some (more) unused covers, ambience and melody, but eventually decided not to, for a simple reason: I intend to use some unused melodies and ambience for other projects
That was beautiful. Thank you for Sharing!
The emotional weight in this album is off the charts. I feel like I just bore witness to the first true musical masterpiece of the millennium, thank you for sharing this journey with us. I hope your parents accept you for who you are, but even if they don't they should still appreciate the quality of your music and the effort and passion that went into making it. I look forward to your next project, whatever and whenever that is.
Very impressive project! I'm not big on music but i think this is cool! Very atmospheric and i love the covers. I listened to it all in one go.
Good luck with coming out to your parents and I hope one day we will get a follow up project with happy ending! (though there's probably a journey to that)
As a trans guy, I can feel the power of those audios. They express really well the angst non-cis people go through. So accurate!