It has been 4 months since I was betrayed by the person I thought I was going to spend my life with. This song just perfectly describes how difficult it was for me. We both promised we won’t outgrow each other but now we’re both strangers in each other’s lives. And right now I’m still having such a difficult time letting him go and giving up the ghost of who he was with me despite getting cheated on. I think deep down I will always love him but Niki is right and I have to believe that someday I’d be fine, it’s not my fault and all I can do is wish him well and start healing without him. I just hope it come sooner because everyday i feel more dead than i was the day before.
That's alr. For me it's been almost e yrs. Yes, I haven't doing fine. But at least I'm breathing atm. Sometimes I still longing for her, bcs being with her feels like a routine i couldn't skip. But guess that's the way so that we could grow. Cheers, hun
Same, except its been a month since she left me for another. Already planned my future with her since she's my first but life has other plan for me it seems
"But I'm letting go, I'm giving up the ghost" This lyric had an impact to me. It feels like it is for me. I'm giving up my ghost: my past self that keeps haunting and torment me. I forgive myself, I'll heal myself. For those who read this who have the same ghost as mine, in time, I hope you'll able heal.
I feel like particular rhyming styles belong to Eminem or Tupac or the other great old school rappers, some angsty lines sound like inspired by Lorde, and I do see a lot of Taylor Swift in nearly all her songs. That’s just my take, some random girl who is a fan to only songwriters. I think she’s the first Indonesian singer who can nail close to their levels of lyrical excellency, I very much agree.
Stoopp her timing 😭 my ex and I were huge 88rising fans and niki was our queen. We got closer thanks to them and heard songs that got us together, but now a year later today I'm officially letting go. Bruh I can't, imma cry again 💀
Lyrics Saturday sunset We're lying on my bed with five hours to go Fingers entwined and so were our minds Crying, I don't want you to go You wiped away tears But not fears under the still and clear indigo You said "Baby, don't cry, we'll be fine" "You're the one thing I swear I can't outgrow" My mother said the younger me was a pretending prodigy Well, nothing then much has changed 'Cause while you're wolfing down liquor My soul, it gets sicker But I'm sticking to the screenplay Gotta say I'm okay But answer this, babe How is it now that somehow you're a stranger? You were mine just yesterday I prayed the block in my airway dissipates And instead deters your airplane's way But heaven denied Destiny decried Something beautiful died Too soon But I'm letting go I'm giving up the ghost But don't get me wrong I'll always love you that's why I wrote you this very last song I guess this is where we say goodbye I know I'll be alright Someday I'll be fine But just not tonight (Oh) Plunging into all kinds of diversions Like blush wine and sonorous soirées But even with gin and surgin' adrenaline I see you're all that can intoxicate Oceans and engines You're skilled at infringin' on great love affairs 'Cause now my heart's home All I've known is long gone and ten thousand miles away And I'm not okay But I'm letting go I'm givin' up the ghost But don't get me wrong I'll always love you that's why I wrote you this very last song I guess this is where we say goodbye I know I'll be alright But just not Tonight was the first time I stared into seas of beguiling sepia two years ago And the first time I learned real world superpowers lived in three words and could revitalize my fraying bones (Hm) Now what do you do when your pillar crumbled down You've lost all solid ground Both dreams and demons drowned And this void's all you've found And doubts light it aglow I have so many questions But I'm pouring them into the ocean And I'm starting up my engine And I'm letting go I'm givin' up your ghost It's come to a close I marked the end with this last song I wrote I'm letting go This is the last falsetto I'll ever sing to you My great lost love.
I don't have a lovelife, nor am I broken hearted, but I just have this urge to cry my eyes out and embrace this nonexistent pain while listening to this song. Niki, why T_T
ok but the visual where the plane actually reaches the right side of the screen and disappears before the song ends is SO POETIC because how many times have we wanted to say what we wanted to and had to say to a person who leaves sooner than anticipated? IT'S SO HEARTWRENCHING AAAAAA
I took this song a different way than intended. My grandpa just passed away and the way I feel the lyrics is through the perspective of my grandma and her love and story with him before he passed leading to the very moment he passed. Nothing but eternal love in their eyes, soul, and touch until the very end. This song made my heart cry a little thinking about it and thinking about how much we miss him. Beautiful song released at the perfect time. Thank you NIKI 🤍🕊
Thank you for the condolences and messages of support everyone. Been a month since and it’s still difficult. The funeral and burial in Philippines (where he wanted to be buried rather than in Canada) was beautiful. And Faith, my condolences to you as well 🤍
it's been 2 weeks since we broke up, we dated for almost 4 years. I gave him my everything and was always patient with him when he was struggling physically or mentally. He has so much trauma from his childhood that it was hard for him to open up to me despite me always trying to support him through it. After a certain point I got tired of being "the teacher," I shouldn't have to teach you how I want to be loved repeatedly for years. I decided to end things with him, but deep down I'm still so desperately in love with him, I want to be there for him and watch him grow. I know he feels the same way but he never showed that his actions would change, I feel like its a lost cause. I know I should move on but I'm so stuck on this idea that we can work it out this time, we can have our happy ending like we were supposed to... I want to believe we were meant to be together and we'll find each other again, I can't imagine myself with anyone else but him....
words cannot describe how grateful i feel that she decided to record this song again and damn, have to say i fall in love with this song like the first time😭❤
Damn the boy that she wrote this song must be thinking all sorts of regrets now. I know she’s happy now but damn, a girl wrote what used to be her whole world for her, and must felt like tons of bricks now to let go such a rare diamond like Nicole💝
this song is perfectly worded for my situation… waking up every day asking myself “how is it now that somehow you’re a stranger you were mine just yesterday” and it breaks me a little more. it might take a while to heal, i know it… but i gotta do it. i cant be the only one living in the loop while he is already out moving and looking for next phases in life. it would be hard and i am not okay most of the days. how can I be? i lost the piece of puzzle that fits the vacant space in my heart… i lost the sunshine that brightens up my day and night, the one that illuminates the path when it was dark for me. maybe i was stupid.. i took this relationship seriously and thought this relationship was a beautiful feeling to ever happened.. but it takes two to tango… it takes two to make a relationship work. maybe i wasn’t worthy enough to be fought harder, not as much as your words when it do the convincing. i don’t know when will this feeling diminish but everyday, i just got to try.. even the sound of my heart screaming echoes throughout the horizon telling the world i don’t want to let you… but i got to do it… i have to do it…
The song feels like the universe’s way of telling me to move on. And say goodbye to his ghost. It’s been four months since left after seven long years of being together.
Aside from the humming melody, as a 'lyrics person', how she transfers one line to another, rhymes, and chose the phrasings, I can't help but be stunned and be dosed of amazement each swing and turn of the song. Such brilliance and genius of Niki as a songwriter!!
The one person who I cherished wholeheartedly, who made me feel whole, is the reason why there are pieces of me scattered everywhere. This is my first experience with heartbreak and seeing them with someone else in less than 6 months, really took a toll on me. A bad habit of mine is touching my wounds which prevents them from healing, I'm slowly getting there, I wish to make myself whole this time, so that whatever comes my way won't break me like it did last time.
"and the first time I learned real world superpowers lived in three words and could revitalize my fraying bones" my favorite line. what an absolutely perfect description of the words "i love you"
this brings so much memories of relationships we've outgrown - people we thought we could spend the rest of our lives with; though we also know would eventually end
moonbin-ah, like the lyrics of this song, now I'm letting u go, be the brightest star in the sky so i can see u in a long time, be happy in there cuz no one can hurt u now my love, I'll still love u from here!🤍
I’ve been off and on with someone for 7 years, starting in highschool. She knows me better than my own parents do, or she used to. I’ve never been able to recreate what I felt with her when times were good, it’s almost like a high that I keep chasing. But she’s continuously left me throughout the years, sometimes understandably, but usually in an effed up way. I could not let go of this person, and I’m still struggling to do so. They’ve made excuses for why they leave, telling me it’s because of their problems, and then they’ll come right back telling me that they still love me. I’ve finally learned how to love myself, and how to appreciate the life I have. I think I will always love her, because of the times we had and the impact she had on me as a human being, but I can’t say I love myself while continuing to go in circles with a person who very obviously doesn’t love me in the same way. Letting go is unbelievably hard
i don’t know if you’ll be able to read this, but if ever… hoping you’d someday be with someone who’ll treasure you same as me or more than I can give you cuz you’re always worth it. I’m sorry I failed you to the point that your love for me can’t be brought back. I’ll be loving you in silence, my last love, Ro💗
Just type Niki Oceans and engines, you'll see she's playing acoustic guitar while singing, that's the very first version of this song. People re upload it coz she probably take down her own.
Three months ago when this song released, I feel like "Ah this song so sad" But just feel sad and nothing more. Until today, when this song playing on coffee shop while I'm doing my work, I'm crying alone because the lyrics so relate about what I feel right now. It's been 12 days my mom passed away, I don't know about my feeling, I just feel lost like half my soul gone. I am crying so hard when lyrics "I'm know I'll be alright, someday I will be fine, but just not tonight" I believe in myself if I am gonna be alright but not today. I'm not okay, totally not okay but I need to letting go, I'm giving up the ghost, don't get me wrong, I always love you that's why I wrote this long sentence. I love you always mom🤍 I wish in another life I still your daughter, see you on another life mom🤍 I'm gonna fine, don't worry about me.
Niki, you perfectly wrote a song that describes the feeling of losing someone. It's been 5 months since I lost my partner and best friend. I don't wish this kind of pain to anyone because it really feels like you lost a part of you and he brought it with him. I always love him but I have no choice but to let him go. I want to see him thriving in life. I want him to be okay. I want him to find himself and appreciate life and the genuine people around him even if that means not having me in his life.
had to give up my boyfriend going abroad for college, yet we still trying to make it work for both of us. i sometimes don’t know whether we could make it or how and when this would end, i hope there’s no end in our story though ❤ i always play this song whenever i miss him alot on certain days, thank you niki for this song 🥺❤️
I listen to this song while thinking about my friend group, that are not together anymore. Some of them might be hates me, but they will forever be my favorite living soul. There's a lot of things happened in June, and I wish I could turn back time so i can live the moment forever. ♾️ Beautiful things ends too soon.
Saturday sunset We're lying on my bed with five hours to go Fingers entwined and so were our minds Crying, "I don't want you to go" You wiped away tears But not fears under the still and clear indigo You said "Baby, don't cry, we'll be fine You're the one thing I swear I can't outgrow" My mother said the younger me was a pretending prodigy Well, nothing then, much has changed 'Cause while you're wolfing down liquor My soul, it gets sicker But I'm sticking to the screenplay Gotta say I'm okay But answer this, babe How is it now that, somehow, you're a strangеr? You were mine just yеsterday I pray the block in my airway dissipates And instead deters your airplane's way But heaven denied Destiny decried Something beautiful died Too soon But I'm letting go I'm giving up the ghost But don't get me wrong I'll always love you That's why I wrote you this very last song I guess this is where we say goodbye I know I'll be alright Someday, I'll be fine But just not tonight, (uu-uuh) Plunging into all kinds of diversions Like blush wine and sonorous soirées But even with gin and surgin' adrenaline I see you're all that can intoxicate Oceans and engines You're skilled at infringin' on great love affairs Cause now my heart's home All I've known is long gone and ten thousand miles away And I'm not okay But I'm letting go I'm giving up the ghost But don't get me wrong I'll always love you That's why I wrote you this very last song I guess this is where we say goodbye I know I'll be alright But just not Tonight was the first time I stared into seas of beguiling sepia Two years ago And the first time I learned real world superpowers Lived in three words They revitalize my fraying bones, oh Now what do you do when your pillar crumbled down You've lost all solid ground Both dreams and demons drowned And this void's all you've found And doubts light it aglow I have so many questions But I'm pouring them into the ocean And I'm starting up my engine And I'm letting go I'm givin' up your ghost It's come to a close I marked the end with this last song I wrote I'm letting go This is the last falsetto I'll ever sing to you My great lost love
I met this girl, we’re doing good, getting to know each other. Talking almost everyday. But one day I saw her post something about her ex-boyfriend and this was the background song. I searched it and now listening to it. Song hit me hard, I didn’t know shes going thru something like this. I felt like it was true love they had but the relationship didnt work out anymore. It says she finally had all the courage to let go of what they had and how she felt home with him once. Its just seems so real for them and I realized myself I wouldnt be able to give her the same way she felt because of him. Me not having experience true love. Idk I just felt sad about it. Cant be feeling like this. I have to better myself but i guess we staying with self-love so we can avoid getting hurt.
It was last year when we lost that kind of "connection" we had before. I almost thought that we'd end up together. I indulged myself in this fantasy that he will be the one to save me from all these emotional turmoil and trauma I have locked myself into. I didn't care if I seem too emotionally needy. When he is around, I am happy and that was all that mattered. We used to spend late nights kissing and cuddling and I thought that was already enough sign that he actually liked me - that it will lead to something beautiful. But it was just a fantasy I created inside my head, and I have put him in this kind of pedestal that he can't even fathom. It broke my heart when he was starting to slowly slip away until he's out of reach. I mourned the supposed loss I had. One day, I woke up realizing all the sh*t I placed upon him. I realized how much I have depended emotionally on him expecting that he will continue being there for me. I realized how selfish it was. I realized what people meant by "You have to love yourself first before you love another person" - you have to be self-sufficient first so that you won't have to look for validation on other people. This song has helped me with those realizations. I started letting go of regrets - regret of not being my best self when he was around and regret that I did things that eventually made him walk away. I forgave myself, started picking each bit of my crumbled self (bits that I thought he should be picking up), and slowly put them back together again. The experience has been transformative to me on an emotional level and if anyone were to ask me if I would change anything that had happened, I would tell them that I would retain every single detail of my encounter with him. The experience changed me for the better and I think I can embark on truly healthier and happier relationships.
i'm in the same pain this song gives .. and i don't know how i can survive each day but thanks to discovering this song.. i'll always remember the memories and accept that we're not meant to be together
☹️☹️ you know what hurts the most? She gave me many reasons to leave yet I stayed. But when I gave her multiple reasons to stay, she still left me anyway😔💔
There's a story that happened to me recently. I never got together with this guy nor I met him. But I want to dedicate this song to him. I liked him since we met and that went on for four years. We promised we'd find each other when we grew up and he was afraid to lose me, so was I towards him. Although, before even a year after we met, we lost in contact. I was filled with longing and I felt like a part of me was missing. I waited for two to three years for him. I prayed to God and asked him if I should keep waiting. I didn't receive a sign but days after, I got reconnected with him. He was still kind, sweet and funny as ever. Although, after a few days I realized he almost completely forgot about me. He didn't know my name and I was just someone who he met online when he was young to him. But me, I remembered him. From his name, his fear of being alone, his relatives, down to his favorite song. I was disappointed but I knew I didn't have the right to feel that way considering the years that had gone by. I heard myself in my mind saying that I should let go. I ignored it at first because I liked him. I wanted it to be him. But days after, I introduced him to my friend who he also met a few months after he first met me. Although I never told her I liked him, I wasn't comfortable with her. I noticed they got along pretty well, they spoke the same language unlike me and he seemed more comfortable and happier. One day, I concluded that I wanted to let go of my feelings because I knew couldn't continue trying everyday for us to move forward. Our distance alone already tells that we weren't for each other. I thought to myself, maybe God allowed him back into my life only to let me know that I should let go. Despite the feelings I clinged onto for four years, I knew I had to let go. So, I did. I don't hate him, he doesn't even know I like him. He's still my friend that I'll cherish. The only difference is, I'd rather be just friends with him or strangers as long as it brings peace for us. I still wish him good health and the best. Now, I believe I'll be okay, I just want to focus on things that make me happy and try out new things without carrying anything heavy like those feelings I had for him. 🤍
I wanted it to be you so bad and turns out you don't feel the same way anymore. And I'm letting go. I choose me now, even if it hurts so bad to live a world without you by my side.
Niki ini lagu favorit aku, setiap ada waktu kosong, curi2 di waktu kerja, di halte bis, di jalan aku pulang ke kosan lagu kamu selalu jadi pilihan buat playlist aku. Aku suka dengan suasana magis yang dibangun oleh Ocean and engines aku suka dengan senandung yg bisa aku ucapin di setiap langkah aku pulang. Pokoknya I really love this song and you Wkwkkw thankyou ❤❤
DAMNNNNNN I REMEMBER THIS WAS MY FIRST NIKI'S SONG BACK THEN WHEN SHE HAD HER LITTLE TH-cam CHANNEL im so amazed she finally released this!!! i hope you can release Lullaby soon :(
Shout out to niki karena udah rilis lagu ini 2 tahun lalu, kalau ini lagu belom rilis (officially) gw gak tau lagi deh gimana bakal menghadapi diri gw sendiri setelah confess karena naksir orang 7 tahun lamanya(ikr gak relate² banget sama lagunya but this song help me a lot) makasih niki semoga bisa nonton konsernya huhu🥺
It's been a month. I'm still on the process of healing and relapse, while he's celebrating monthsary with his new girl. No regrets 'cause I know I did my best. We deserve better and not a cheater.
To my 911: Hey babe, idk if u will see this or not aku cuma mau bilang walaupun kita udah ga bareng lagi aku ga pernah benci sama kamu. Mungkin kemarin kemarin aku sempat marah dan kecewa sama kamu, bilang kamu jahat (in the fact its true) tapiii sekarang aku udah lebih ikhlas, i already forgive you. In my deepest heart there is one place for you and it can't be replace with anything else, bcs it's YOURS. That's where you belong to. Either u come back or not, i'm still right here at the same place you left me, my great, lost love.
I just saw this song again on my youtube feed and decided to listen. This song broke my heart the moment i first heard it, but also healed it as I dove into the lyrics, meaning it kindof helped me move on, it's like talking to myself but someone else is giving me the words to say while I was still moving on from him.. Niki is such a great artist. I truly appreciate her songs, I'm sure alot of people relate to her songs and i hope she gets the recognition she deserves. I love her 😭💗💗
no one knows me here so yes, I admit that the real reason I don't want to date again is because they are not you..... you were the only one who made me safe with your presence and every minute with you physically near makes it easier to breathe.....and I don't want someone to see me in such level of vulnerability to be able to determine if they can offer the same comfort as you so yeah, no more meeting new guys for me
I wish the flight was cancelled not just delayed. to my first love, i really wish i loved you better. Im really sorry if you felt drained from our relationship, only if i didnt let the hurt get into me then that wouldn’t happen. I’m sorry my bb. I wish things were different and I could’ve handled it better. I just don’t want to lose my bestfriend, I just really can’t. I hope we’ll meet again, when time finally favours us, we’ll work out. You are the most amazing person I’ve ever known. I will always love you, 💿
Almost a week since he cheated on me. I gave him everything while I was losing myself in the process, only to be betrayed like this. 9 years and just poof!, feels like I don’t know him anymore. He promised to give me the world, proposed to me and promised that we will be together until the end, whatever may happen. I was busy trying to reach our dreams for each other, not knowing that in exchange, I’ll be losing him. I don’t know what to do next. I don’t know how to be okay and I don’t know if I will ever be able to give up his ghost. Too many memories and dreams shattered just because of a mistake. I hope one day, I’ll be fine.
I felt a betrayal, and this song just hits me so much. But as time goes on, i know that i have to let someone go. "I'm letting go. This is the last falsetto i'll ever sing to you...."
oh god, i just broke up 2 days ago after 4 years together, he cheated. we used to imagine life after married, imagine one day living together with our dogs, imagine how we will decorate our house, etc. we once promised no matter the challenges might carry us apart, we always find way back to each other. but now, it’s just me talking alone to God with all my feelings and lots of questions. last night i got the announcement that i passed the exam to become a doctor. we always talked about this, and you were so excited, but today celebrated it alone. we used to say the vows’ vow to each other: “i vow to fiercely love you in all your forms, now and forever. i promise to never forget that this is a once in a lifetime love” thank you niki for this song, i hope everyone will find their happiness, peace. it’ll take a long time, but it’s not a race, it’s not simple. i have to let him go.
my friend sent this to me after i told my ex friendship was too much to handle rn. it’s so strange, like there’s a weight off my chest but at the same time i can’t breathe
It has been a year and 2 months yet i still can't get over losing my greatest love to a tragic accident, he was my everything and the day he died my whole world shattered. Destiny declined to make us end up together and nothing can ever make me heal from this kind of pain. grief will forever be a part of me now. I will be fine but i can never heal from him, he was indeed my great lost love.
niki, i've been without him for almost 2 years, but it's still a bit difficult not to think about him every day even though now you're strangers like people you don't know without interaction and communication hahaha
It's been a few years since my great lost love and I broke up. You may not see this because you are busy with your own life, but I just want you to know that I loved you then and still love you now. My love for you is like gold-it never fades, my love for you is like your love for coffee-unconditional. In every room, your memory remains. Our paths crossed again and, I waited for you for a long time, but you are still unsure of me. I understand your uncertainty, but why did you give me mixed signals that you can love me in return? I am still confused. I still love you deeply, my great lost love. I hope things have been easier now that I’m gone.
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New album “Nicole” out August 12th. Pre-order/pre-save: niki.lnk.to/Nicole
Autumn is my favorite ❤ I made a cover of it
Kooooooooooo
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It has been 4 months since I was betrayed by the person I thought I was going to spend my life with. This song just perfectly describes how difficult it was for me. We both promised we won’t outgrow each other but now we’re both strangers in each other’s lives. And right now I’m still having such a difficult time letting him go and giving up the ghost of who he was with me despite getting cheated on. I think deep down I will always love him but Niki is right and I have to believe that someday I’d be fine, it’s not my fault and all I can do is wish him well and start healing without him. I just hope it come sooner because everyday i feel more dead than i was the day before.
so many people shared their break-up stories by this song including you. I'm so cryinggg
That's alr. For me it's been almost e yrs. Yes, I haven't doing fine. But at least I'm breathing atm. Sometimes I still longing for her, bcs being with her feels like a routine i couldn't skip. But guess that's the way so that we could grow. Cheers, hun
3 yrs, fck me
I hope by letting him go you will find your happiness with yourself or with someone else better. It's hard but you will be fine.
Same, except its been a month since she left me for another. Already planned my future with her since she's my first but life has other plan for me it seems
"But I'm letting go, I'm giving up the ghost"
This lyric had an impact to me. It feels like it is for me. I'm giving up my ghost: my past self that keeps haunting and torment me. I forgive myself, I'll heal myself. For those who read this who have the same ghost as mine, in time, I hope you'll able heal.
it’s “you’re the one thing i swear i can’t outgrow” for me 😭😭
Imcrying 😭😭😭😭
its been a year now i hope all is well, strangers
the emotion of this song, niki never fails to paint a beautiful and melancholic story
I can't conceive the idea of having a brain that knows how to write like this. This is one of the greatest examples of lyricism I've ever seen.
I feel like particular rhyming styles belong to Eminem or Tupac or the other great old school rappers, some angsty lines sound like inspired by Lorde, and I do see a lot of Taylor Swift in nearly all her songs. That’s just my take, some random girl who is a fan to only songwriters.
I think she’s the first Indonesian singer who can nail close to their levels of lyrical excellency, I very much agree.
And she wrote this when she was 16! 🤯
@@naulahamidah6512 still her songs is original
@@justthisgirl2944 no one says otherwise😀
So far the best❤️❤️
my girl giving us EVERYTHING in this album i bet. if she doesn't get the recognition she deserves, i'll riot.
Shhhh she’s our little secret
She gotta have at least one nomination for this album, if not Im gonna riot
@@jan.993 She def should 🙌
No way she doesn’t get it
Count me in
Stoopp her timing 😭 my ex and I were huge 88rising fans and niki was our queen. We got closer thanks to them and heard songs that got us together, but now a year later today I'm officially letting go. Bruh I can't, imma cry again 💀
wtf thats sad and awkward at the same time
imagine you both listening to this song and just.. cry in the corner 🥲
BROOOOO, SAMEEE TT TT
Lyrics
Saturday sunset
We're lying on my bed with five hours to go
Fingers entwined and so were our minds
Crying, I don't want you to go
You wiped away tears
But not fears under the still and clear indigo
You said "Baby, don't cry, we'll be fine"
"You're the one thing I swear I can't outgrow"
My mother said the younger me was a pretending prodigy
Well, nothing then much has changed
'Cause while you're wolfing down liquor
My soul, it gets sicker
But I'm sticking to the screenplay
Gotta say I'm okay
But answer this, babe
How is it now that somehow you're a stranger?
You were mine just yesterday
I prayed the block in my airway dissipates
And instead deters your airplane's way
But heaven denied
Destiny decried
Something beautiful died
Too soon
But I'm letting go
I'm giving up the ghost
But don't get me wrong
I'll always love you that's why I wrote you this very last song
I guess this is where we say goodbye
I know I'll be alright
Someday I'll be fine
But just not tonight (Oh)
Plunging into all kinds of diversions
Like blush wine and sonorous soirées
But even with gin and surgin' adrenaline
I see you're all that can intoxicate
Oceans and engines
You're skilled at infringin' on great love affairs
'Cause now my heart's home
All I've known is long gone and ten thousand miles away
And I'm not okay
But I'm letting go
I'm givin' up the ghost
But don't get me wrong
I'll always love you that's why I wrote you this very last song
I guess this is where we say goodbye
I know I'll be alright
But just not
Tonight was the first time I stared into seas of beguiling sepia two years ago
And the first time I learned real world superpowers lived in three words and could revitalize my fraying bones (Hm)
Now what do you do when your pillar crumbled down
You've lost all solid ground
Both dreams and demons drowned
And this void's all you've found
And doubts light it aglow
I have so many questions
But I'm pouring them into the ocean
And I'm starting up my engine
And I'm letting go
I'm givin' up your ghost
It's come to a close
I marked the end with this last song I wrote
I'm letting go
This is the last falsetto I'll ever sing to you
My great lost love.
@@naulahamidah6512 why not
@@naulahamidah6512 to sing along better?
I don't have a lovelife, nor am I broken hearted, but I just have this urge to cry my eyes out and embrace this nonexistent pain while listening to this song. Niki, why T_T
same story :”)
In a happy relationship and I also teared up 😅
Same same sameeee.
My tears, pouring down 😤😤😤😤🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲
I am single asf but still tearing up, this reminds me of my friend's story
Same, idk why I crying here
ok but the visual where the plane actually reaches the right side of the screen and disappears before the song ends is SO POETIC because how many times have we wanted to say what we wanted to and had to say to a person who leaves sooner than anticipated? IT'S SO HEARTWRENCHING AAAAAA
I took this song a different way than intended. My grandpa just passed away and the way I feel the lyrics is through the perspective of my grandma and her love and story with him before he passed leading to the very moment he passed. Nothing but eternal love in their eyes, soul, and touch until the very end. This song made my heart cry a little thinking about it and thinking about how much we miss him. Beautiful song released at the perfect time. Thank you NIKI 🤍🕊
I cry for this. My deepest condolences to your grandpa :"
my condolences. i felt the same. because my dad passed away. yesterday's my mom's second year of celebrating their anniversary without him.
Thank you for the condolences and messages of support everyone. Been a month since and it’s still difficult. The funeral and burial in Philippines (where he wanted to be buried rather than in Canada) was beautiful. And Faith, my condolences to you as well 🤍
it's been 2 weeks since we broke up, we dated for almost 4 years. I gave him my everything and was always patient with him when he was struggling physically or mentally. He has so much trauma from his childhood that it was hard for him to open up to me despite me always trying to support him through it. After a certain point I got tired of being "the teacher," I shouldn't have to teach you how I want to be loved repeatedly for years. I decided to end things with him, but deep down I'm still so desperately in love with him, I want to be there for him and watch him grow. I know he feels the same way but he never showed that his actions would change, I feel like its a lost cause. I know I should move on but I'm so stuck on this idea that we can work it out this time, we can have our happy ending like we were supposed to... I want to believe we were meant to be together and we'll find each other again, I can't imagine myself with anyone else but him....
words cannot describe how grateful i feel that she decided to record this song again and damn, have to say i fall in love with this song like the first time😭❤
Me as well🥹
i’m new here. when did she record it before?
@@erinm7469 she wrote this song when she's 16 and uploaded it like 3 years ago. She only just released the whole song in her new album now
Damn the boy that she wrote this song must be thinking all sorts of regrets now. I know she’s happy now but damn, a girl wrote what used to be her whole world for her, and must felt like tons of bricks now to let go such a rare diamond like Nicole💝
this song is perfectly worded for my situation… waking up every day asking myself “how is it now that somehow you’re a stranger you were mine just yesterday” and it breaks me a little more. it might take a while to heal, i know it… but i gotta do it. i cant be the only one living in the loop while he is already out moving and looking for next phases in life. it would be hard and i am not okay most of the days. how can I be? i lost the piece of puzzle that fits the vacant space in my heart… i lost the sunshine that brightens up my day and night, the one that illuminates the path when it was dark for me. maybe i was stupid.. i took this relationship seriously and thought this relationship was a beautiful feeling to ever happened.. but it takes two to tango… it takes two to make a relationship work. maybe i wasn’t worthy enough to be fought harder, not as much as your words when it do the convincing. i don’t know when will this feeling diminish but everyday, i just got to try.. even the sound of my heart screaming echoes throughout the horizon telling the world i don’t want to let you… but i got to do it… i have to do it…
She's a real lyricist, artist, name it. A masterpiece.
niki's song never miss T_T
When she said, “my great lost love” - you know that line will dig deep in your veins, it’s sad
The song feels like the universe’s way of telling me to move on. And say goodbye to his ghost. It’s been four months since left after seven long years of being together.
Same with me too.. for seven long years of being together but i must let him go btw.. 🥲
I hope u guys heal in your own pace that must hurt so much :c
Aside from the humming melody, as a 'lyrics person', how she transfers one line to another, rhymes, and chose the phrasings, I can't help but be stunned and be dosed of amazement each swing and turn of the song. Such brilliance and genius of Niki as a songwriter!!
and the fact that she is indonesian😭
@@johnseredey2858 what about it?
"I know I’ll be alright. But just not tonight" struck my heart so much.
The one person who I cherished wholeheartedly, who made me feel whole, is the reason why there are pieces of me scattered everywhere. This is my first experience with heartbreak and seeing them with someone else in less than 6 months, really took a toll on me. A bad habit of mine is touching my wounds which prevents them from healing, I'm slowly getting there, I wish to make myself whole this time, so that whatever comes my way won't break me like it did last time.
Joji finally getting recognised in music charts, it's only a matter of time before Niki does too
yess
"and the first time I learned real world superpowers lived in three words and could revitalize my fraying bones"
my favorite line. what an absolutely perfect description of the words "i love you"
this brings so much memories of relationships we've outgrown - people we thought we could spend the rest of our lives with; though we also know would eventually end
Emphasizing that one word “Goodbye” in the most beautiful and painful way. What an amazing talent.
Niki's voice is so calming.
moonbin-ah, like the lyrics of this song, now I'm letting u go, be the brightest star in the sky so i can see u in a long time, be happy in there cuz no one can hurt u now my love, I'll still love u from here!🤍
NIKI never fails in lyrics mastery
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I’ve been off and on with someone for 7 years, starting in highschool. She knows me better than my own parents do, or she used to. I’ve never been able to recreate what I felt with her when times were good, it’s almost like a high that I keep chasing. But she’s continuously left me throughout the years, sometimes understandably, but usually in an effed up way. I could not let go of this person, and I’m still struggling to do so. They’ve made excuses for why they leave, telling me it’s because of their problems, and then they’ll come right back telling me that they still love me. I’ve finally learned how to love myself, and how to appreciate the life I have. I think I will always love her, because of the times we had and the impact she had on me as a human being, but I can’t say I love myself while continuing to go in circles with a person who very obviously doesn’t love me in the same way. Letting go is unbelievably hard
i don’t know if you’ll be able to read this, but if ever… hoping you’d someday be with someone who’ll treasure you same as me or more than I can give you cuz you’re always worth it. I’m sorry I failed you to the point that your love for me can’t be brought back. I’ll be loving you in silence, my last love, Ro💗
😢😢😢😢😢
This is an old song of her way back before 88. Listen to her first version of this song, you'll appreciate how far she's come..
can you put the link of the first ver?
Just type Niki Oceans and engines, you'll see she's playing acoustic guitar while singing, that's the very first version of this song. People re upload it coz she probably take down her own.
@@fahmihuwaidi5385 bangke lu fahmi, kitakan bisa pake bahasa indonesia ya, ngapain reply dalam bahasa engres 😂🤣
@@fahmihuwaidi5385 you can see in this channel. Its so good th-cam.com/video/UTDOMuqmayM/w-d-xo.html
@@fahmihuwaidi5385 it’s still up there! just look up the title following her name : Nicole Zefanya
tHE AMOUNT OF PAIN THAT I FEEL WHILE HEARING THE LYRICS. GOD ONLY KNOWS HOW IT WRENCHED MY HEART
this song hits different when the reason of your separation is to pursue your own goals and dreams. I really miss him and literally crying right now.
(2)
I hope he's also feeling the same pain I've feeling tonight.
Three months ago when this song released, I feel like "Ah this song so sad" But just feel sad and nothing more. Until today, when this song playing on coffee shop while I'm doing my work, I'm crying alone because the lyrics so relate about what I feel right now. It's been 12 days my mom passed away, I don't know about my feeling, I just feel lost like half my soul gone. I am crying so hard when lyrics "I'm know I'll be alright, someday I will be fine, but just not tonight"
I believe in myself if I am gonna be alright but not today. I'm not okay, totally not okay but I need to letting go, I'm giving up the ghost, don't get me wrong, I always love you that's why I wrote this long sentence. I love you always mom🤍 I wish in another life I still your daughter, see you on another life mom🤍 I'm gonna fine, don't worry about me.
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
Same… i lost my dad too just this year and i swear it hurts so much… we’ll be alright… but just not tonight
" I know i'll be alright, but just not tonight"
That's hurt
Niki, you perfectly wrote a song that describes the feeling of losing someone. It's been 5 months since I lost my partner and best friend. I don't wish this kind of pain to anyone because it really feels like you lost a part of you and he brought it with him. I always love him but I have no choice but to let him go. I want to see him thriving in life. I want him to be okay. I want him to find himself and appreciate life and the genuine people around him even if that means not having me in his life.
had to give up my boyfriend going abroad for college, yet we still trying to make it work for both of us. i sometimes don’t know whether we could make it or how and when this would end, i hope there’s no end in our story though ❤ i always play this song whenever i miss him alot on certain days, thank you niki for this song 🥺❤️
I listen to this song while thinking about my friend group, that are not together anymore. Some of them might be hates me, but they will forever be my favorite living soul. There's a lot of things happened in June, and I wish I could turn back time so i can live the moment forever. ♾️
Beautiful things ends too soon.
I’m usually a tune and melody person, but holy the lyrics. It’s mantra, it’s prayer. Where does such genius come from.
Saturday sunset
We're lying on my bed with five hours to go
Fingers entwined and so were our minds
Crying, "I don't want you to go"
You wiped away tears
But not fears under the still and clear indigo
You said "Baby, don't cry, we'll be fine
You're the one thing I swear I can't outgrow"
My mother said the younger me was a pretending prodigy
Well, nothing then, much has changed
'Cause while you're wolfing down liquor
My soul, it gets sicker
But I'm sticking to the screenplay
Gotta say I'm okay
But answer this, babe
How is it now that, somehow, you're a strangеr?
You were mine just yеsterday
I pray the block in my airway dissipates
And instead deters your airplane's way
But heaven denied
Destiny decried
Something beautiful died
Too soon
But I'm letting go
I'm giving up the ghost
But don't get me wrong
I'll always love you
That's why I wrote you this very last song
I guess this is where we say goodbye
I know I'll be alright
Someday, I'll be fine
But just not tonight, (uu-uuh)
Plunging into all kinds of diversions
Like blush wine and sonorous soirées
But even with gin and surgin' adrenaline
I see you're all that can intoxicate
Oceans and engines
You're skilled at infringin' on great love affairs
Cause now my heart's home
All I've known is long gone and ten thousand miles away
And I'm not okay
But I'm letting go
I'm giving up the ghost
But don't get me wrong
I'll always love you
That's why I wrote you this very last song
I guess this is where we say goodbye
I know I'll be alright
But just not
Tonight was the first time I stared into seas of beguiling sepia
Two years ago
And the first time I learned real world superpowers
Lived in three words
They revitalize my fraying bones, oh
Now what do you do when your pillar crumbled down
You've lost all solid ground
Both dreams and demons drowned
And this void's all you've found
And doubts light it aglow
I have so many questions
But I'm pouring them into the ocean
And I'm starting up my engine
And I'm letting go
I'm givin' up your ghost
It's come to a close
I marked the end with this last song I wrote
I'm letting go
This is the last falsetto I'll ever sing to you
My great lost love
NICOLE IS COMING BACK AND EVEN STRONGER THAN BEFORE WOHOO
Damn if this song won't hurt you, brb I'm just gonna cry in the corner.
I'm glad you finally released this song. It was indeed a masterpiece. 🎶
her songwriting is so unbelievably brilliant. No words sound forced, they all have meaning behind them, absolutely stunning
I met this girl, we’re doing good, getting to know each other. Talking almost everyday. But one day I saw her post something about her ex-boyfriend and this was the background song. I searched it and now listening to it. Song hit me hard, I didn’t know shes going thru something like this. I felt like it was true love they had but the relationship didnt work out anymore. It says she finally had all the courage to let go of what they had and how she felt home with him once. Its just seems so real for them and I realized myself I wouldnt be able to give her the same way she felt because of him. Me not having experience true love. Idk I just felt sad about it. Cant be feeling like this. I have to better myself but i guess we staying with self-love so we can avoid getting hurt.
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It was last year when we lost that kind of "connection" we had before. I almost thought that we'd end up together. I indulged myself in this fantasy that he will be the one to save me from all these emotional turmoil and trauma I have locked myself into. I didn't care if I seem too emotionally needy. When he is around, I am happy and that was all that mattered. We used to spend late nights kissing and cuddling and I thought that was already enough sign that he actually liked me - that it will lead to something beautiful. But it was just a fantasy I created inside my head, and I have put him in this kind of pedestal that he can't even fathom. It broke my heart when he was starting to slowly slip away until he's out of reach. I mourned the supposed loss I had. One day, I woke up realizing all the sh*t I placed upon him. I realized how much I have depended emotionally on him expecting that he will continue being there for me. I realized how selfish it was. I realized what people meant by "You have to love yourself first before you love another person" - you have to be self-sufficient first so that you won't have to look for validation on other people. This song has helped me with those realizations. I started letting go of regrets - regret of not being my best self when he was around and regret that I did things that eventually made him walk away. I forgave myself, started picking each bit of my crumbled self (bits that I thought he should be picking up), and slowly put them back together again. The experience has been transformative to me on an emotional level and if anyone were to ask me if I would change anything that had happened, I would tell them that I would retain every single detail of my encounter with him. The experience changed me for the better and I think I can embark on truly healthier and happier relationships.
We need an acoustic version now 🥺
that would be the original version
i'm doing fine and relationship's healthy as ever, but idk how this song made me so broken and tearing up and all......
"Heaven denied
Destiny Decried
something beautiful died"
Such heartwarming lyrics
NIKI singing this song with her mature voice hits different. MANIFESTING FOR ON THE DRIVE HOME TO HAVE ITS STUDIO VERSION TOO 😭😭😭
istg the bridge of this song is EVERYTHING grabe sinuntok ang pader
i miss the memory, not you.
i'm in the same pain this song gives ..
and i don't know how i can survive each day but thanks to discovering this song..
i'll always remember the memories
and accept that we're not meant to be together
This is SO beautifully-written. I feel the words even though I'm not broken 😢 You are a genius, Niki!
Feel the same😢😢
This is the biggest heartbreak I have ever experienced 💔
☹️☹️ you know what hurts the most? She gave me many reasons to leave yet I stayed. But when I gave her multiple reasons to stay, she still left me anyway😔💔
Ty Niki for bringing back this track with this rendition
You’re so single that no one comes in mind while listening to this masterpiece but still you bawled 😔
oh to listen to NIKI at this lonely night, you tell the story perfectly.
There's a story that happened to me recently. I never got together with this guy nor I met him. But I want to dedicate this song to him. I liked him since we met and that went on for four years. We promised we'd find each other when we grew up and he was afraid to lose me, so was I towards him. Although, before even a year after we met, we lost in contact. I was filled with longing and I felt like a part of me was missing. I waited for two to three years for him. I prayed to God and asked him if I should keep waiting. I didn't receive a sign but days after, I got reconnected with him. He was still kind, sweet and funny as ever. Although, after a few days I realized he almost completely forgot about me. He didn't know my name and I was just someone who he met online when he was young to him. But me, I remembered him. From his name, his fear of being alone, his relatives, down to his favorite song. I was disappointed but I knew I didn't have the right to feel that way considering the years that had gone by. I heard myself in my mind saying that I should let go. I ignored it at first because I liked him. I wanted it to be him. But days after, I introduced him to my friend who he also met a few months after he first met me. Although I never told her I liked him, I wasn't comfortable with her. I noticed they got along pretty well, they spoke the same language unlike me and he seemed more comfortable and happier. One day, I concluded that I wanted to let go of my feelings because I knew couldn't continue trying everyday for us to move forward. Our distance alone already tells that we weren't for each other. I thought to myself, maybe God allowed him back into my life only to let me know that I should let go. Despite the feelings I clinged onto for four years, I knew I had to let go. So, I did. I don't hate him, he doesn't even know I like him. He's still my friend that I'll cherish. The only difference is, I'd rather be just friends with him or strangers as long as it brings peace for us. I still wish him good health and the best. Now, I believe I'll be okay, I just want to focus on things that make me happy and try out new things without carrying anything heavy like those feelings I had for him. 🤍
this is such a masterpiece. the emotions are overflowing. 🥺
Song is immaculate :") she is one of the top lyricist and singer storyteller for me ❤️
I wanted it to be you so bad and turns out you don't feel the same way anymore. And I'm letting go. I choose me now, even if it hurts so bad to live a world without you by my side.
Niki ini lagu favorit aku, setiap ada waktu kosong, curi2 di waktu kerja, di halte bis, di jalan aku pulang ke kosan lagu kamu selalu jadi pilihan buat playlist aku. Aku suka dengan suasana magis yang dibangun oleh Ocean and engines aku suka dengan senandung yg bisa aku ucapin di setiap langkah aku pulang. Pokoknya I really love this song and you Wkwkkw thankyou ❤❤
we should've stayed as friends...
Yes we should😩
DAMNNNNNN I REMEMBER THIS WAS MY FIRST NIKI'S SONG BACK THEN WHEN SHE HAD HER LITTLE TH-cam CHANNEL im so amazed she finally released this!!! i hope you can release Lullaby soon :(
YES PLEASE LULLABY
@@wawjonas FAMMMMM SING ALONGGGG, AM I DERANGED TO MISS YOUUUUUUUUUUU (screammmfhdgsjdh)
YES SAME!!! THE URGE TO GATEKEEP THO 😭
Even u didn't choose me in the end. Im still wishing all the best for u and ur dream.
If the world has a thousand ways to separate us, then we must also have a thousand ways to stay together, ily
Finally this kind of niki is back. Love her indie vibes before at 88 rising. ❣️
Shout out to niki karena udah rilis lagu ini 2 tahun lalu, kalau ini lagu belom rilis (officially) gw gak tau lagi deh gimana bakal menghadapi diri gw sendiri setelah confess karena naksir orang 7 tahun lamanya(ikr gak relate² banget sama lagunya but this song help me a lot) makasih niki semoga bisa nonton konsernya huhu🥺
I heard this song for the first time today and I don't know how something so sad can be so beautiful at the same time 🥺
It's been a month. I'm still on the process of healing and relapse, while he's celebrating monthsary with his new girl. No regrets 'cause I know I did my best. We deserve better and not a cheater.
To my 911: Hey babe, idk if u will see this or not aku cuma mau bilang walaupun kita udah ga bareng lagi aku ga pernah benci sama kamu. Mungkin kemarin kemarin aku sempat marah dan kecewa sama kamu, bilang kamu jahat (in the fact its true) tapiii sekarang aku udah lebih ikhlas, i already forgive you. In my deepest heart there is one place for you and it can't be replace with anything else, bcs it's YOURS. That's where you belong to. Either u come back or not, i'm still right here at the same place you left me, my great, lost love.
I just saw this song again on my youtube feed and decided to listen. This song broke my heart the moment i first heard it, but also healed it as I dove into the lyrics, meaning it kindof helped me move on, it's like talking to myself but someone else is giving me the words to say while I was still moving on from him.. Niki is such a great artist. I truly appreciate her songs, I'm sure alot of people relate to her songs and i hope she gets the recognition she deserves. I love her 😭💗💗
no one knows me here so yes, I admit that the real reason I don't want to date again is because they are not you..... you were the only one who made me safe with your presence and every minute with you physically near makes it easier to breathe.....and I don't want someone to see me in such level of vulnerability to be able to determine if they can offer the same comfort as you so yeah, no more meeting new guys for me
she's a good singer and a good poet at the same time,unbelievable
I've so many questions
But I'm pouring them into the ocean
And I'm starting up my engine
I wish the flight was cancelled not just delayed.
to my first love, i really wish i loved you better. Im really sorry if you felt drained from our relationship, only if i didnt let the hurt get into me then that wouldn’t happen. I’m sorry my bb. I wish things were different and I could’ve handled it better. I just don’t want to lose my bestfriend, I just really can’t. I hope we’ll meet again, when time finally favours us, we’ll work out. You are the most amazing person I’ve ever known. I will always love you, 💿
Why does every comment on here sound so poetically beautiful, I don't even think those words go together but
Almost a week since he cheated on me. I gave him everything while I was losing myself in the process, only to be betrayed like this. 9 years and just poof!, feels like I don’t know him anymore. He promised to give me the world, proposed to me and promised that we will be together until the end, whatever may happen. I was busy trying to reach our dreams for each other, not knowing that in exchange, I’ll be losing him. I don’t know what to do next. I don’t know how to be okay and I don’t know if I will ever be able to give up his ghost. Too many memories and dreams shattered just because of a mistake. I hope one day, I’ll be fine.
oceans & engines>>>>>>>
how good is she?! like look at that words :((. i totally cry and so proud in the same time
From lowkey to oceans and engines>>>
I felt a betrayal, and this song just hits me so much. But as time goes on, i know that i have to let someone go. "I'm letting go. This is the last falsetto i'll ever sing to you...."
why do i have to end this year with a heavy heart
oh god, i just broke up 2 days ago after 4 years together, he cheated. we used to imagine life after married, imagine one day living together with our dogs, imagine how we will decorate our house, etc. we once promised no matter the challenges might carry us apart, we always find way back to each other. but now, it’s just me talking alone to God with all my feelings and lots of questions. last night i got the announcement that i passed the exam to become a doctor. we always talked about this, and you were so excited, but today celebrated it alone.
we used to say the vows’ vow to each other:
“i vow to fiercely love you in all your forms, now and forever. i promise to never forget that this is a once in a lifetime love”
thank you niki for this song, i hope everyone will find their happiness, peace. it’ll take a long time, but it’s not a race, it’s not simple. i have to let him go.
well what i can say that can't waittt for your album. First before and now Oceans & Engines ... *brb prepare all the emotions*
Niki has the power to make a whole heart break in just 4 mins.
niki😢
thank you for this wonderful story and beautiful song
my friend sent this to me after i told my ex friendship was too much to handle rn. it’s so strange, like there’s a weight off my chest but at the same time i can’t breathe
NIKI is a huge inspiration to me and I WILL produce a song for her one day.
I hope my absence gives you peace that my love cannot give.
This song just...
Man, enserió amo mucho como canta NIKI, es tan arte
It has been a year and 2 months yet i still can't get over losing my greatest love to a tragic accident, he was my everything and the day he died my whole world shattered. Destiny declined to make us end up together and nothing can ever make me heal from this kind of pain. grief will forever be a part of me now. I will be fine but i can never heal from him, he was indeed my great lost love.
thanks for d song Niki, it's literally my comfort song :')
niki, i've been without him for almost 2 years, but it's still a bit difficult not to think about him every day even though now you're strangers like people you don't know without interaction and communication hahaha
7 days to live eto Yung iniyakan ko Ng sobra
People can change because of their environment and life experiences, so please forgive the person you were.
I am tearing up, this is why I love you niki ❤
It's been a few years since my great lost love and I broke up. You may not see this because you are busy with your own life, but I just want you to know that I loved you then and still love you now. My love for you is like gold-it never fades, my love for you is like your love for coffee-unconditional. In every room, your memory remains.
Our paths crossed again and, I waited for you for a long time, but you are still unsure of me. I understand your uncertainty, but why did you give me mixed signals that you can love me in return? I am still confused. I still love you deeply, my great lost love. I hope things have been easier now that I’m gone.