I am a bad person. I have to stop myself because I keep singing alone to it and moving to it and this is a serious song about people that are in pain. I’m a bad person I keep having to stop myself from moving to it and singing to it, and smiling, I’m sorry
@@biancamoore413 thats the goal of the song lol, a lot of people with depression are always trying to bring smiles to others because thats a main way of coping (like dark humor for some people) so you smiling and vibing to the song if you dont relate to it or if you do is great
a lot of people also want to end their pain but don't want to cause pain for those around them like family personally if my mum passed away I'm 99% sure I'd follow I've been this way for about 12 years now and just keep dealing with it because I don't want to hurt my family
@@TheBananaman491Yeah, the only thing stopping me from just ending it all's the fact i've people who care about me. If i didn't have my family (especially my mom, she's such an amazing and caring human), i wouldn't be here
@@Emil_Stoltz I got an ESA for that. Really hard to stop being here when there's a fat fuzzy bastard screaming in your face because they love you and demand attention
I hope you never have to relate to this song like people like I do. Honestly, watching your reaction to this made me laugh while crying. I haven't heard this song in years and hearing it again brought back memories, and it's made me realize that I will probably always carry this burden. Your reaction made me laugh because I loved the inexperience , or the innocence perhaps. Love your videos dude. I'm glad you're here
Exactly same here lol. Me and my friend were sharing earbuds at work and this came on. After it ended I looked over to him looking at me and when I asked "what?". He told me I was singing along with the song smiling the whole time. I told him it's been a song I kinda hold close.
My 7th grade English project right here teacher said censor any drug or death references I pretty much turned in a paper shaded in sharpie got an A+ on that project finished that year with As and Bs in that class just cause I respected that teacher I'm a scrape by in school kinda guy
@@shaunholt7271fucking ironic! 7th grade choir had to write a parody, did it to the instrumental of bullet, called it Empire State talked about jumping off the Empire State Building, got an A 100% but also required visits to the guidance counselors office twice a week. Same year parents were divorcing and I was blaming my self
Oh this song is crazy. It’s meant to be sarcasm. “Happy” but a song about suicide. The juxtaposition is intentional. Edit to add: That girl singing at the end is Charlie Scene’s daughter. One of the singers.
Imo it's not supposed to be sarcasm really. It perfectly displays how a lot of people with depression are. On the surface cool and happy, but underneath incredibly sad and wanting out.
Speaking from my own experience with depression and suicidal ideation, a lot of my desire to give up stemmed from a deeply-rooted belief that I am not enough and never will be enough, and that I'm weird and different and am doomed to be an outcast, and all of this was feuled by constant, incessant depressive thoughts that reinforced these beliefs as well as loads of anxiety that led me to constantly assume the worst about pretty much everyone and everything. The main reason I had for not giving up was the thought of how my passing would affect the people I love and how it would realistically only cause more problems and heartache for all the people who don't deserve it, along with a hefty fear of the end. So, my depression and anxiety would wage war against my moral obligation to my family and my fear of dying and whatever comes next, and after a while of rumination, thoughts and feelings will become more extreme and contradictory, and sometimes they just straight-up don't make sense, which leads me to feel like I'm actually going crazy and that that's another reason why I'm not good enough, and it's just this exhausting, maddening, cyclical line of thinking that makes the idea of an end sound almost enticing.
For me I'm a tornado survivor. I have a broken spine and deal with a list of medical problems to include extreme 24/7 physical pain, nerve damage to my right side, and ptsd. So for me death is literally the only hope I have to stop my very real physical pain. It's gotten a bit better recently. But there was a time when I didn't see any hope left at all. That's the time I found this song. Having to pretend to be happy for other people while barely holding on is as relatable as it gets. The deception of how catchy and upbeat the music is and how dark the actual message is, is a very intentional decision.
This so much i have often felt like i want to die but i cant just say it because then my family just get worse and if you go to a physc ward even willingly in my state the can force you to do a cavity search which fucking freaks me out as someone who has unfourtnatley been admitted more than once against my will and it never helped so i just often had/have to pretend everything is ok and just hope
Depression is insidious and your life can be going okay by all measures. Yet, your brain tells you it isn’t. There can be literal physical pain with it. It’s like having a burlap bag on your head. You can kind of see light and shadows. It’s itching you all the time. It gets to the point, usually triggered by an event or series of them, that you just want it to stop. A lot of people who knew me never knew that I suffered through treatment resistant depression for 30 years. I had a treatment that worked and can now recognize those signs in time to avoid major depressive episodes through a variety of techniques and treatments.
Treatment resistant depression just sounds like you didn't want the help lol And yes I have depression and shit and I don't see a therapist It's not that my depression is resistant it's my choice to not really reach out What you said sounds like some soft ass weak shit lol And don't get all hyped up because I use "bad" words
@@gimpyrules6714 you’re entitled to your opinion. I did get a medical treatment that really worked. After decades of trying one medication after another, there was a treatment that worked.
@@flor9389 ok so you solely went for medication, no wonder it didn't work right away or good XD Medication isn't the right way to go at all unless it's death or not And some other cases obviously as well But for purely mental health and you're just depressed, yeah no lolol
@@gimpyrules6714 actually what helped me was transcranial magnetic stimulation. Unless you’ve battled depression, you can’t really imagine how it rules your life.
@@gimpyrules6714 I think you should ask questions instead of judging someone and ruining a person's mood by trying to win this argument, you don't know what a person is going through at the moment.
Maybe even the comfort one finds in that place. Scary that this place can be the solace that one seeks. Speaks volumes that the rest of existence is worse than the world he’s describing
I don't think there's any other song that upsets me quicker than this one does. I hate that this song has to exist, but I love that is does as it makes me feel much less alone. It's so popular, that's sad and amazing. It's baffling, life is baffling. I hope I see you tomorrow if you're reading this.
I take this song to be both ironic and a powerful message. The way I see it, it's irony lays in the fact it sounds so happy but the lyrics are so dark, and it's message is that ''you aren't the only one to have these feelings, I can relate to you if you have felt this.'' and the use of a child (I believe one of the band members' daughters) at the end is a subtle ''things get better'' kind of notion. Because I would assume these lyrics may have come from a band member having those thoughts when they were younger, and now they have a child (which implies a partner) who loves them and gives them a reason to stick around.
We need more Hollywood Undead! They actually are touring with Tech N9ne as well! Can’t wait to see you react to some of their other stuff. Heart of a Champion Idol feat Tech N9ne Those two are really good but all of their music is unique to them!
I was introduced to Hollywood Undead when I was eight, and I'm twenty-three now. They're my all-time favorite band, and they've really helped me through dark times.
I haven't seen many reactors look at Hollywood Undead, they are one of my favorite groups, thank you! This is one of their many songs that I have played on repeat.
When I found Hollywood undead music back in 2011 it just clicked with me. These were a group of 20-30 something’s that were just fed up with life and didn’t have a filter when they vocalized how they felt.
This captures the fact that sometimes the happiest people on the outside (just like the uplifting tune) are usually the ones struggling the most on the insides(the lyrics)
this is one of those groups that have so many meaningful songs when you actually listen to the lyrics. I do hope you look at a few more they have done to give you a full spectrum of it. some songs I like - Everywhere I go; Undead; Lion; Rain; We are; Levitate. just to name a few. anyway keep up the great vids.. and lookin fwd to seeing what else you pick from them. cheers.
i suggested this on patreon. previously i was giving him a lot of lil wayne songs and decide to switch it up. unfortunately i can only request one song a month. i plan on recommending a lot of Hollywood undead over the next few months and slowly get him into their catalog like i did with lil wayne.
As someone who has had nothing but trauma and pain in his life, i resonate with this song so much with the happy face outside but the constantvwant to finally be dead everyday. Only coping via dark humor and whatever little human interaction i get.
You must check out 'nobody's watching' that is an amazing song and whenever it comes on while I'm out, nothing else matters, volume up and I sing along at top of my voice. It's mandatory.
when you have been to the lowest of low, and attempted something like the song describes, and made it back and got better, this song hits on an entirely new level.
The message you should take from this song is - go meet your kids, hug them an tell them 'you love them' . The reason for the kids singing at the end was because we were kids when we empathised with the lyrics (teen years) sure a lot of their songs are full of rage but life is complicated an so are the emotions that go with it. I feel rage an sadness go hand in hand but who wants to be down sad when you can be up sad?
This is one of my favorite songs. The catchy tune makes me grateful that it never came out while my kids were kids. As for heaven, I don't believe ending your life locks you out. All of the scriptures that speak of Judeo/ Christianity speak of an all knowing, and good God. Muslim faith says beneficial and merciful. This doesn't seem to suggest sending a child they have loved to eternal torture, especially when their existence was so bad that they wanted to end it. It's just my belief due to lived experience. I've struggled with major depressive disorder most of my life and I'm almost 60
I listen to this song when I'm feeling really depressed, it reflects depression so well it's so upbeat but the lyrics are so dark, same as a person acting all happy but inside they are dying. I also recommend listening to blue october - hate me, great song.
I always took this as a over the line emo song... super happy but depressing with a borderline message... in the same vain as "pumped up kicks" by foster the people
I love this song. I’ve been fortunate to never really have mental health problems that got to that extreme. I’ve always said this is the happiest song about suicide that you’ll ever hear
This song is amazing for the fact it feels like depression. If you don’t pay attention and just block it out you think it’s alright, but as soon as you tune back in? Self hatred and destruction.
I'm super late and I'm sure no one will see this, but this song is one of my favorite songs ever. Every time I hear it, I instantly feel better. Sometimes it makes me cry, hard. Sometimes it makes me dance and sing along. The "whys" don't matter. Every one alive goes thru moments of pain and doubt. Some more than others. Some cope better. Others feel lost. And to me, this song reaches for the lost to say you're not alone.
thats what gets people like this saying life gets better but not actually trying to listen and understand or help them doesn’t make it better sometimes some people can’t do it alone some tasks in life are not meant to be done alone
I've been in this head space. You are not yourself in this head space. Some people do want to end their life for good reasons (like death with dignity) but this specific headspace is a type of sickness that needs treatment. It's a constant never ending battle with yourself and it's tiring. The way the song is written is how I and many others present even though inside there is extreme suffering and pain. It's about escaping from genuine excruciating anguish that for me lasted for years. When I was finally able to get treatment, it turns out these were intrusive thoughts like genuine true intrusive thoughts. What many people call intrusive is really just impulsive. Intrusive thoughts also do not go away for everyone. I am one of those people who has been living with thoughts like this for around 20 years. There are things I can do to manage them but they never really go away. There are things I can do to lessen the intensity but they will always be there in the back of my mind. While they are not a true representation of my actual wants, when you are in high stress situations like the world we're living in now, they get stronger. Because I was privileged enough to get the health care I needed, I've been able to manage them. It usually requires a strict regimen that sometimes does involve purging items from my house like alcohol and other dangerous items if the line in my mind between me and the intrusive thoughts become blurred. It's also why I will never own a gun or have a gun where I live. Sometimes I need time to sort through my feelings and a gun takes away all that time. It is exhausting to stay alive. The reason why I'm saying all of this is because it requires medical attention and it requires resources that many people don't have access to. Telling people they will be condemned to hell to burn for eternity, even just suggesting it, makes the thoughts worse. It deepens the shame, pain and suffering which will make intrusive thoughts stronger and more powerful. It actually drives people to finality. I understand why you said it. I understand the intent behind your words. I know it came from a place of love, support, and healing but that's not what you did. I am begging you to do more research into this or refrain from saying words like that at all. I've used my own experience to help others through it and I hear your words all the time. They come out as if they deserve to burn and so they need the end because it's what they deserve. I know the type of content you put out. I know you are a kind and caring person. I know this is not what you intended to do. I am begging you to never say that ever again. Because I am also very emotionally tied to this, I will not be able to continue this conversation in a healthy or fair way to help you start this journey. I apologize if this feels unfair. I just can't walk with you past this point in a way that gives you the grace you deserve. Please explore this post with someone who can.
It's hard to describe how ruthlessly some people have been treated from people that they have never met before all the way to the ones that told them, "I love you," (This was my situation, in any case). When you are treated as less than a human being, knowing there is a better way to live but not knowing the way to attain the status of a human being and to be acknowledged as one, sometimes death is viewed as an option to end the pain and suffering. They do not want to die, they are just being crushed by the weight of their situation and do not have the support of others nor tools to cope with it themselves.
The few reactions: the video: pure concern but finds the song catchy people: listen to the song on repeat me and some old friends: *blasting this song while at a skatepark while hanging out just vibing and probably concerning people*
Personally to me its the idea of illusion , when dealing with depression people see you as this upbeat guy and always smiling and making jokes and no one is seeing anything more then what someone with intense depression wants you to see . The upbeat tone and melody of this song is the cracked mask that is worn to hide the sadness felt inside while the lyrics is what is underneath the mask that no one sees .
I disagree with the idea that if someone really want to, they would. Taking a life, even your own is a very violent act. Some people simply do not have it in them to engage in such a violent act, no matter how defeated they feel. This is called passive suicidal ideation. They would never directly and deliberately harm themselves, but they may engage in more dangerous activities, with the hopes that something may happen to them. Could be something as simple as riding a motorcycle, or as grandiose as free-climbing mountains. On a completely unrelated note, I love my motorcycle.
For me it was as goofy as it sounds me caring more about others than myself i mean most of my life has been absoultley hellish and so i often just wanted the pain to end and i would often lay in bed thinking "well if i die at least its one less burden monetarily on my family who seemingly didnt/dont care about me and so thats my reason for liking the song and how i can relate to it (in response to your question at the end)
I spent some dark time in my life contemplating suicide, you are just broken, you want to die, but there is a pull of life, that make you scared t go all the way. You really wanna live, you just want the suffering to end, but when you are on the bottom of the well, you can only see dark until you look up, it took years and a lot of therapy for me to look to the light.
I went through traumatic experience when I was 10 and had to go to counseling afterwards which all that did was diagnose me with PTSD and saviors guilt. When I was a teen I took a hunting rifle and was trying to figure out how I could USE it. My dad walked in on me and after a long talk and getting my mother involved I had to promise them I wouldn't attempt anything again. Of course they kept watch over me day and night but it's only because of that promise I've made it to 34 years old. Granted I've done stuff that should have resulted in that, but I justified it as "not a direct action but a possible outcome".
I can’t speak for everyone but I was diagnosed with PTSD about 5 years ago and for me it was an uncontrollable thing. I would dissociate and then suddenly I was in the kitchen with a knife to my throat and that’s when I was admitted to a mental hospital and that’s when I was diagnosed. Honestly it was terrifying because yes I was depressed and I would think about killing myself all the time like constantly different ways to do it but I never wanted to go through with it for my family but when it got to the point where I couldn’t consciously control it I had to force myself to start taking medication and going to therapy and I can thankfully say that I have been 1 year off my medication and I’m still going to therapy but I haven’t had an attack in about a year and a half :)
I've been a massive fan of HU since their beginning. This song I always said was "the happiest suicide song you'll ever hear". It's wildly catchy but super depressing lol. Definitely a great band that deserves the fame they've received
Not all their song are negative like Hollywood undead- Young song, was trying to united the youth of our country . Hollywood undead is a very under heard and underrated rap/!rock band. If anyone is new to HU go to their first two albums they are classics. Imo after 2nd album their music fell off big time but they're awesome to see live as long as Johnny 3 tears isn't too drunk, he's good at ruining a show bc off being drunk, yeah I've seen it first hand..
for me, i don't want to die but i wish i never would have existed, my life has and always will be pathetic and lonely, i've always been cast aside and never a part of anything, life has always passed me by and no matter how hard i fight im always alone with no one and nothing, i can't cope i am suffocating in misery and it won't ever change
I've felt depression in my life but never to the point where I wanted to end it all. I like life way too much. That said, I have known people who were at that point. My dad once told me he'd rather jump in front of a train than keep going and one of my best friends tried to kill herself. Depression has layers and being in that mindset sucks. I hope you'll never have to deal with it
Fun fact. The idea that self deletion doesn't get you into heaven first came around when king james decided to change the Bible and partly because Judas did it him self from his same. But it's not in the Bible
This may come from a place of ignorance but i dont believe depression needs a trigger to appear nor does it look the same for everyone. For me, my life was a bit hard when i was a teenager but i stomached it; my therapist wouldnt agree with that one lol. And after years of never seeing the point in anything, it came to the conclusion i have PDD (persistent depressive disorder) and it makes sense. So for me, depression at first, was really bad and i tried to end it all half a dozen times- which clearly didnt work- and now i am just here. I dont see the point in waking up tomorrow, i dont see the point in looking foward to something, i just cannot. Everything feels like its a monotone grey life that is in a constant cycle and I cannot keep track on which lap i am in. I also tried many different types of antidepressants but they arent working for me so it makes me really question why i am still here.
Homie when you say you've never felt like this... I can tell. There's a point when you come to the end of your rope and you make a choice. My choice was to say fuck you all and push.... but I can't fault the folks who got there and said no more. I've been there. Hell, I'm damn close to my bottom again. This shit ain't weakness.... it's reality. There are folks who see the world falling apart who think "yeah... I'll figure it out" and there are folks who fold. I can't fault the folks who fold... cuz life sucks sometimes
Yeah, since you said that you haven't felt this way, you wouldn't understand at all. Just think about this: not everyone can see life in sunshine and rainbows; there's more darker stuff that happens in other people's lives that you definitely wouldn't want to happen to you. Just don't dismiss people's troubles and say that things get better over time, because a lot of the times, nothing gets better; and sadly, people will go to such drastic measures to end it all. I've been to that point a handful of times to the point I can hardly count, which thankfully, I'm still alive at the age of 30.
If you wanna know. It's the feeling that no one really cares. Most of the time those who feel like that have actually gone through some major trauma. I myself have issues. Some days I don't even know who I am. I just exist. Now that I have kids I kinda have to suffer it out. Depression isn't fun. As I ligit shead a tear while writing that last part. Having issues isn't fun. If you wanna psyvhoanalize for a min. Here's a story. I grew up in an abusive situation. Mental and physical. Some people don't value things or even those they love then abuse them. Sometimes it's brought on by pain they can't control. Or just simply some folks are just messed up and damaged in the head. But anyways I have been dragged down with people's opinions. So many will tell you that you are annoying. Then you start to believe them. Being in foster care after getting beaten many times by a guy you look up to. Publicly humiliated by the guy even. Dude made an example of a winey kid. Kneed me in the back side up and down my block quite literally. After that foster care where I got thrown away. Over and over again. Eventually you'll feel like no one cares. Eventually you'll have the gull to second guess everything you do. All because you feel like a failure. I've been through a lot more nonsene than you know. But usually if you lived a sheltered life it don't tend to happen near as often. But there you go. For the most part. Now you know. You see the only way to fight against the dark is to make it well known of your issues. Eventually the issues matter less and less. It took me a long time to step outside of that inner shell.
I think it’s just a chemical difference with different people, cause I’ll have a good day then the next day I’m so low that I think about jumping in front of a car, but that’s ideation for me, not planning
its crazy that you’re so smart on other songs and not this one, it’s a good thing i believe. and like no offense or nothing, just it’s interesting and good you can’t relate and interpret the stuff. i’m kinda drunk so idk if i said that right lmao. i love your videos btw
the thought process is that nothing works out for you. you can listen to whomever you want and what advice they give and it still doesn't matter. People who say that it gets better are only speaking from a place of privilege and it just makes things worse for someone struggling with depression because it almost never gets better. Being told that it'll get better and it only gets worse will push someone over the edge to unalive themselves. We live in a country that actively makes it impossible to live and treats homeless people like criminals and the government chooses to put corporations over the people. In what world does that sound like it's getting better? Cause half the nation votes against their self interest and the other half just tries to censor everything and tries to justify their racism by silencing people who oppose their extreme ideology. We have to stop saying that it's going to get better especially in modern society.
Had to talk down the friend who introduced me to this song from jmping off a bridge once, he's still around today. ruined my buzz for the night but would rather he reach out than just go for it even if it's at a bad time for me. recently had a person i didn't really know but that was part of my friend group decide to not reach out and to just go for it, he's not around anymore, sht is bad all around, don't be an as*h*le and do this.
No lie it's rather easy to survive unalive attempts.... I'm living proof of this due to the amount of times I've hugged a blade and survived without any scars.... Btw side note this is emo rap
just to address the christian delimma of suicide - if god is truly all good, then suicide should not be punished because he created you in a situation or way in which that was the inevitable conclusion but if god is not actually all good, then its entirely possible he would punish you for this offence in addition to the many other ridiculous offenses you can find in the book from 2000 years ago thats been manipulated by countless people to further their own agenda, shocking i know
"Hollywood Undead is the only band you can either party all night or blow your brains out to depending on your mood"
- A fan quote from 2008
Blue October would also fall into this category for sure.
Didn't J3T say it in one interview?
This song perfectly capsulates depression on how on the outside you look happy but when you break down the "words" you see how miserable they are.
I am a bad person. I have to stop myself because I keep singing alone to it and moving to it and this is a serious song about people that are in pain. I’m a bad person I keep having to stop myself from moving to it and singing to it, and smiling, I’m sorry
@@biancamoore413you are not, i mean i feel zhis lyriks but i understand ppl vibing with it.
Don't feel guilty for enjoying it.
@@biancamoore413 thats the goal of the song lol, a lot of people with depression are always trying to bring smiles to others because thats a main way of coping (like dark humor for some people) so you smiling and vibing to the song if you dont relate to it or if you do is great
@@biancamoore413Sorry you feel that way, but this song is a bop.
@@biancamoore413 you good bro chill
The aggressive caring 😅 "you better fly!"
and me going "oh boy just wait for the ending"
6:35 usually people don't actually want to die, they just want the pain to emd
a lot of people also want to end their pain but don't want to cause pain for those around them like family personally if my mum passed away I'm 99% sure I'd follow I've been this way for about 12 years now and just keep dealing with it because I don't want to hurt my family
@@TheBananaman491Yeah, the only thing stopping me from just ending it all's the fact i've people who care about me. If i didn't have my family (especially my mom, she's such an amazing and caring human), i wouldn't be here
@@Emil_Stoltz I got an ESA for that. Really hard to stop being here when there's a fat fuzzy bastard screaming in your face because they love you and demand attention
I hope you never have to relate to this song like people like I do. Honestly, watching your reaction to this made me laugh while crying. I haven't heard this song in years and hearing it again brought back memories, and it's made me realize that I will probably always carry this burden. Your reaction made me laugh because I loved the inexperience , or the innocence perhaps.
Love your videos dude. I'm glad you're here
Exactly same here lol. Me and my friend were sharing earbuds at work and this came on. After it ended I looked over to him looking at me and when I asked "what?". He told me I was singing along with the song smiling the whole time. I told him it's been a song I kinda hold close.
Used to have a very unhealthy obession with this song. Crazy what dark times will bring you to listen to.
that obsession with the song helped you through that dark time apparently. Which is what i believe was the reason for it
My 7th grade English project right here teacher said censor any drug or death references I pretty much turned in a paper shaded in sharpie got an A+ on that project finished that year with As and Bs in that class just cause I respected that teacher I'm a scrape by in school kinda guy
@@shaunholt7271fucking ironic! 7th grade choir had to write a parody, did it to the instrumental of bullet, called it Empire State talked about jumping off the Empire State Building, got an A 100% but also required visits to the guidance counselors office twice a week. Same year parents were divorcing and I was blaming my self
Couldn't hit the like button fast enough. One of my fave groups. More Hollywood Undead please.
That comment: "there is nothing after this, so enjoy this, this is your heaven, your existence." Wow, well said. Just hit different!
I don't believe that though. I think there is something else. Doesn't mean we shouldn't make the most of now though.
Hollywood Undead got me through some of my darkest times. They’ll always hold a place in my life
Oh this song is crazy. It’s meant to be sarcasm. “Happy” but a song about suicide.
The juxtaposition is intentional.
Edit to add: That girl singing at the end is Charlie Scene’s daughter. One of the singers.
Imo it's not supposed to be sarcasm really. It perfectly displays how a lot of people with depression are. On the surface cool and happy, but underneath incredibly sad and wanting out.
The girl at the end is their producer's daughter, not Charlie's.
Speaking from my own experience with depression and suicidal ideation, a lot of my desire to give up stemmed from a deeply-rooted belief that I am not enough and never will be enough, and that I'm weird and different and am doomed to be an outcast, and all of this was feuled by constant, incessant depressive thoughts that reinforced these beliefs as well as loads of anxiety that led me to constantly assume the worst about pretty much everyone and everything. The main reason I had for not giving up was the thought of how my passing would affect the people I love and how it would realistically only cause more problems and heartache for all the people who don't deserve it, along with a hefty fear of the end. So, my depression and anxiety would wage war against my moral obligation to my family and my fear of dying and whatever comes next, and after a while of rumination, thoughts and feelings will become more extreme and contradictory, and sometimes they just straight-up don't make sense, which leads me to feel like I'm actually going crazy and that that's another reason why I'm not good enough, and it's just this exhausting, maddening, cyclical line of thinking that makes the idea of an end sound almost enticing.
Yes.
You have put my mental struggles down into words in a way ive never been able to before. Thank you
that's so relatable, you're not alone feeling this way dude ❤🩹
For me I'm a tornado survivor. I have a broken spine and deal with a list of medical problems to include extreme 24/7 physical pain, nerve damage to my right side, and ptsd. So for me death is literally the only hope I have to stop my very real physical pain. It's gotten a bit better recently. But there was a time when I didn't see any hope left at all. That's the time I found this song. Having to pretend to be happy for other people while barely holding on is as relatable as it gets. The deception of how catchy and upbeat the music is and how dark the actual message is, is a very intentional decision.
This so much i have often felt like i want to die but i cant just say it because then my family just get worse and if you go to a physc ward even willingly in my state the can force you to do a cavity search which fucking freaks me out as someone who has unfourtnatley been admitted more than once against my will and it never helped so i just often had/have to pretend everything is ok and just hope
Depression is insidious and your life can be going okay by all measures. Yet, your brain tells you it isn’t. There can be literal physical pain with it. It’s like having a burlap bag on your head. You can kind of see light and shadows. It’s itching you all the time. It gets to the point, usually triggered by an event or series of them, that you just want it to stop. A lot of people who knew me never knew that I suffered through treatment resistant depression for 30 years. I had a treatment that worked and can now recognize those signs in time to avoid major depressive episodes through a variety of techniques and treatments.
Treatment resistant depression just sounds like you didn't want the help lol
And yes I have depression and shit and I don't see a therapist
It's not that my depression is resistant it's my choice to not really reach out
What you said sounds like some soft ass weak shit lol
And don't get all hyped up because I use "bad" words
@@gimpyrules6714 you’re entitled to your opinion. I did get a medical treatment that really worked. After decades of trying one medication after another, there was a treatment that worked.
@@flor9389 ok so you solely went for medication, no wonder it didn't work right away or good XD
Medication isn't the right way to go at all unless it's death or not
And some other cases obviously as well
But for purely mental health and you're just depressed, yeah no lolol
@@gimpyrules6714 actually what helped me was transcranial magnetic stimulation. Unless you’ve battled depression, you can’t really imagine how it rules your life.
@@gimpyrules6714 I think you should ask questions instead of judging someone and ruining a person's mood by trying to win this argument, you don't know what a person is going through at the moment.
I always took it as a song for people with depression.
One of those "if you know you know" kinda things.
The pop sound with these lyrics is the perfect description of living with depression. It's great!... Unless you listen closer....
Maybe even the comfort one finds in that place. Scary that this place can be the solace that one seeks. Speaks volumes that the rest of existence is worse than the world he’s describing
@@presmasterflash7555 for real. This is my life! This is how so many people walk through their day.
I don't think there's any other song that upsets me quicker than this one does.
I hate that this song has to exist, but I love that is does as it makes me feel much less alone. It's so popular, that's sad and amazing. It's baffling, life is baffling.
I hope I see you tomorrow if you're reading this.
I take this song to be both ironic and a powerful message. The way I see it, it's irony lays in the fact it sounds so happy but the lyrics are so dark, and it's message is that ''you aren't the only one to have these feelings, I can relate to you if you have felt this.'' and the use of a child (I believe one of the band members' daughters) at the end is a subtle ''things get better'' kind of notion. Because I would assume these lyrics may have come from a band member having those thoughts when they were younger, and now they have a child (which implies a partner) who loves them and gives them a reason to stick around.
We need more Hollywood Undead! They actually are touring with Tech N9ne as well! Can’t wait to see you react to some of their other stuff.
Heart of a Champion
Idol feat Tech N9ne
Those two are really good but all of their music is unique to them!
“Ok you better fly” was probably the worst choice of words to say for this video 🤣 but it did make me laugh lol
I was introduced to Hollywood Undead when I was eight, and I'm twenty-three now. They're my all-time favorite band, and they've really helped me through dark times.
I haven't seen many reactors look at Hollywood Undead, they are one of my favorite groups, thank you! This is one of their many songs that I have played on repeat.
They were my first concert they are so good please keep listening to them
When I found Hollywood undead music back in 2011 it just clicked with me. These were a group of 20-30 something’s that were just fed up with life and didn’t have a filter when they vocalized how they felt.
This captures the fact that sometimes the happiest people on the outside (just like the uplifting tune) are usually the ones struggling the most on the insides(the lyrics)
Not me tearing up at the aggressively positive "YOU BETTER FLY AND I BETTER SEE YOU TOMORROW"
this is one of those groups that have so many meaningful songs when you actually listen to the lyrics. I do hope you look at a few more they have done to give you a full spectrum of it. some songs I like - Everywhere I go; Undead; Lion; Rain; We are; Levitate. just to name a few. anyway keep up the great vids.. and lookin fwd to seeing what else you pick from them. cheers.
i suggested this on patreon. previously i was giving him a lot of lil wayne songs and decide to switch it up. unfortunately i can only request one song a month. i plan on recommending a lot of Hollywood undead over the next few months and slowly get him into their catalog like i did with lil wayne.
That's awesome. Keep up the suggestions
Been there a few times in my life, Young, Outside and Black Dahlia are my favourites from them and worth the listen.
As someone who has had nothing but trauma and pain in his life, i resonate with this song so much with the happy face outside but the constantvwant to finally be dead everyday. Only coping via dark humor and whatever little human interaction i get.
This so much i often go to bed just hoping that its the last time
@thesweetteasystem1108 I found that good tacos usually help to keep those thoughts away.
You must check out 'nobody's watching' that is an amazing song and whenever it comes on while I'm out, nothing else matters, volume up and I sing along at top of my voice. It's mandatory.
when you have been to the lowest of low, and attempted something like the song describes, and made it back and got better, this song hits on an entirely new level.
The message you should take from this song is - go meet your kids, hug them an tell them 'you love them' . The reason for the kids singing at the end was because we were kids when we empathised with the lyrics (teen years) sure a lot of their songs are full of rage but life is complicated an so are the emotions that go with it. I feel rage an sadness go hand in hand but who wants to be down sad when you can be up sad?
This is one of my favorite songs. The catchy tune makes me grateful that it never came out while my kids were kids. As for heaven, I don't believe ending your life locks you out. All of the scriptures that speak of Judeo/ Christianity speak of an all knowing, and good God. Muslim faith says beneficial and merciful. This doesn't seem to suggest sending a child they have loved to eternal torture, especially when their existence was so bad that they wanted to end it. It's just my belief due to lived experience. I've struggled with major depressive disorder most of my life and I'm almost 60
thank you for taking my request!! i've ben giving you a lot of lil wayne reactions lately and figured i'll change it up
"Bro you better fly, and I better see you tomorrow."
End it there.
I listen to this song when I'm feeling really depressed, it reflects depression so well it's so upbeat but the lyrics are so dark, same as a person acting all happy but inside they are dying. I also recommend listening to blue october - hate me, great song.
I love this song so much this band is my favorite band
Their most famous song is ab old one called undead, they mostly mix hip hop with metal
"I know people are singing along with it.." HI I AM PEOPLE!!!
WE ARE PEOPLE
3:00 “So if I survived, then I-C-U (I’ll see you) tomorrow, yeah I-C-U (I’ll see you) tomorrow”
He wouldn't go to heaven but he would meet God briefly to be judged.
I always took this as a over the line emo song... super happy but depressing with a borderline message... in the same vain as "pumped up kicks" by foster the people
This song has helped me through some of the hardest times in my life. It helps just knowing that you aren't alone in having such negative thoughts.
I love this song. I’ve been fortunate to never really have mental health problems that got to that extreme. I’ve always said this is the happiest song about suicide that you’ll ever hear
This song is amazing for the fact it feels like depression. If you don’t pay attention and just block it out you think it’s alright, but as soon as you tune back in? Self hatred and destruction.
I'm super late and I'm sure no one will see this, but this song is one of my favorite songs ever. Every time I hear it, I instantly feel better. Sometimes it makes me cry, hard. Sometimes it makes me dance and sing along. The "whys" don't matter. Every one alive goes thru moments of pain and doubt. Some more than others. Some cope better. Others feel lost. And to me, this song reaches for the lost to say you're not alone.
When it's relatable it's a vibe 😅😅😅 These guys were one of my favorite bands when I was in high-school.
For many people the idea that "this is your heaven" is not a reason to keep on. Right or wrong
My bestie heard this when it first came out and sent it to me. She said it’s so me. Happy and miserable 😂😂 she was right tho lol
I saw them live in Dubque, IA and when they played bullet they asked everyone to sing along with the child and the entire crowd knew every word.
thats what gets people like this saying life gets better but not actually trying to listen and understand or help them doesn’t make it better sometimes some people can’t do it alone some tasks in life are not meant to be done alone
Absolutely one of my all time favorite songs!! Love your reaction!!
Me listening to this at a young age teen was crazy.
Same singing to it too loved this song as a kid but im fine now
How could I miss this. I love this track.
the kid singing in the end is the child of the person who raps the second verse
Heard them play this live and I got chills, prob my fav song by them
I've been in this head space. You are not yourself in this head space. Some people do want to end their life for good reasons (like death with dignity) but this specific headspace is a type of sickness that needs treatment. It's a constant never ending battle with yourself and it's tiring. The way the song is written is how I and many others present even though inside there is extreme suffering and pain. It's about escaping from genuine excruciating anguish that for me lasted for years.
When I was finally able to get treatment, it turns out these were intrusive thoughts like genuine true intrusive thoughts. What many people call intrusive is really just impulsive. Intrusive thoughts also do not go away for everyone. I am one of those people who has been living with thoughts like this for around 20 years. There are things I can do to manage them but they never really go away. There are things I can do to lessen the intensity but they will always be there in the back of my mind.
While they are not a true representation of my actual wants, when you are in high stress situations like the world we're living in now, they get stronger. Because I was privileged enough to get the health care I needed, I've been able to manage them. It usually requires a strict regimen that sometimes does involve purging items from my house like alcohol and other dangerous items if the line in my mind between me and the intrusive thoughts become blurred. It's also why I will never own a gun or have a gun where I live. Sometimes I need time to sort through my feelings and a gun takes away all that time. It is exhausting to stay alive.
The reason why I'm saying all of this is because it requires medical attention and it requires resources that many people don't have access to. Telling people they will be condemned to hell to burn for eternity, even just suggesting it, makes the thoughts worse. It deepens the shame, pain and suffering which will make intrusive thoughts stronger and more powerful. It actually drives people to finality. I understand why you said it. I understand the intent behind your words. I know it came from a place of love, support, and healing but that's not what you did. I am begging you to do more research into this or refrain from saying words like that at all. I've used my own experience to help others through it and I hear your words all the time. They come out as if they deserve to burn and so they need the end because it's what they deserve.
I know the type of content you put out. I know you are a kind and caring person. I know this is not what you intended to do. I am begging you to never say that ever again. Because I am also very emotionally tied to this, I will not be able to continue this conversation in a healthy or fair way to help you start this journey. I apologize if this feels unfair. I just can't walk with you past this point in a way that gives you the grace you deserve. Please explore this post with someone who can.
It's hard to describe how ruthlessly some people have been treated from people that they have never met before all the way to the ones that told them, "I love you," (This was my situation, in any case). When you are treated as less than a human being, knowing there is a better way to live but not knowing the way to attain the status of a human being and to be acknowledged as one, sometimes death is viewed as an option to end the pain and suffering. They do not want to die, they are just being crushed by the weight of their situation and do not have the support of others nor tools to cope with it themselves.
The few reactions:
the video: pure concern but finds the song catchy
people: listen to the song on repeat
me and some old friends: *blasting this song while at a skatepark while hanging out just vibing and probably concerning people*
One of my absolute favorite H.U. songs hands down.
Personally to me its the idea of illusion , when dealing with depression people see you as this upbeat guy and always smiling and making jokes and no one is seeing anything more then what someone with intense depression wants you to see . The upbeat tone and melody of this song is the cracked mask that is worn to hide the sadness felt inside while the lyrics is what is underneath the mask that no one sees .
One of my favorite songs from them. Call it dark humor or the reality of depression. I've battled these thoughts for a long time.
I disagree with the idea that if someone really want to, they would. Taking a life, even your own is a very violent act. Some people simply do not have it in them to engage in such a violent act, no matter how defeated they feel. This is called passive suicidal ideation. They would never directly and deliberately harm themselves, but they may engage in more dangerous activities, with the hopes that something may happen to them. Could be something as simple as riding a motorcycle, or as grandiose as free-climbing mountains. On a completely unrelated note, I love my motorcycle.
For me it was as goofy as it sounds me caring more about others than myself i mean most of my life has been absoultley hellish and so i often just wanted the pain to end and i would often lay in bed thinking "well if i die at least its one less burden monetarily on my family who seemingly didnt/dont care about me and so thats my reason for liking the song and how i can relate to it (in response to your question at the end)
I spent some dark time in my life contemplating suicide, you are just broken, you want to die, but there is a pull of life, that make you scared t go all the way. You really wanna live, you just want the suffering to end, but when you are on the bottom of the well, you can only see dark until you look up, it took years and a lot of therapy for me to look to the light.
I went through traumatic experience when I was 10 and had to go to counseling afterwards which all that did was diagnose me with PTSD and saviors guilt. When I was a teen I took a hunting rifle and was trying to figure out how I could USE it. My dad walked in on me and after a long talk and getting my mother involved I had to promise them I wouldn't attempt anything again. Of course they kept watch over me day and night but it's only because of that promise I've made it to 34 years old. Granted I've done stuff that should have resulted in that, but I justified it as "not a direct action but a possible outcome".
I can’t speak for everyone but I was diagnosed with PTSD about 5 years ago and for me it was an uncontrollable thing. I would dissociate and then suddenly I was in the kitchen with a knife to my throat and that’s when I was admitted to a mental hospital and that’s when I was diagnosed. Honestly it was terrifying because yes I was depressed and I would think about killing myself all the time like constantly different ways to do it but I never wanted to go through with it for my family but when it got to the point where I couldn’t consciously control it I had to force myself to start taking medication and going to therapy and I can thankfully say that I have been 1 year off my medication and I’m still going to therapy but I haven’t had an attack in about a year and a half :)
"Yeah youre probably not gonna meet him" 😂😂😂😂
Been jamming to this since I was like 13 14 to be honest I gave up trying im 27 now
I've been a massive fan of HU since their beginning. This song I always said was "the happiest suicide song you'll ever hear". It's wildly catchy but super depressing lol. Definitely a great band that deserves the fame they've received
Not all their song are negative like Hollywood undead- Young song, was trying to united the youth of our country . Hollywood undead is a very under heard and underrated rap/!rock band. If anyone is new to HU go to their first two albums they are classics. Imo after 2nd album their music fell off big time but they're awesome to see live as long as Johnny 3 tears isn't too drunk, he's good at ruining a show bc off being drunk, yeah I've seen it first hand..
I can always appreciate darker humor. This song has always made me smile. The tempo is just so damn upbeat. 😂
Energy trensends bro doesn't die. There's definitely something after this heaven he'll reincarnation idk something
The song everywhere I go by them is also wonderful but for different reasons in a different way
for me, i don't want to die but i wish i never would have existed, my life has and always will be pathetic and lonely, i've always been cast aside and never a part of anything, life has always passed me by and no matter how hard i fight im always alone with no one and nothing, i can't cope i am suffocating in misery and it won't ever change
the genre is called nu metal, wich incldues bands like Limp Bizkit, Linkin park, disturbed or also Korn and Slipknot or even System of a down.
When u said this is our heaven on earth we better enjoy it cause it’s hell after thank u
I've felt depression in my life but never to the point where I wanted to end it all. I like life way too much. That said, I have known people who were at that point. My dad once told me he'd rather jump in front of a train than keep going and one of my best friends tried to kill herself. Depression has layers and being in that mindset sucks. I hope you'll never have to deal with it
Fun fact. The idea that self deletion doesn't get you into heaven first came around when king james decided to change the Bible and partly because Judas did it him self from his same. But it's not in the Bible
This may come from a place of ignorance but i dont believe depression needs a trigger to appear nor does it look the same for everyone.
For me, my life was a bit hard when i was a teenager but i stomached it; my therapist wouldnt agree with that one lol. And after years of never seeing the point in anything, it came to the conclusion i have PDD (persistent depressive disorder) and it makes sense.
So for me, depression at first, was really bad and i tried to end it all half a dozen times- which clearly didnt work- and now i am just here. I dont see the point in waking up tomorrow, i dont see the point in looking foward to something, i just cannot. Everything feels like its a monotone grey life that is in a constant cycle and I cannot keep track on which lap i am in. I also tried many different types of antidepressants but they arent working for me so it makes me really question why i am still here.
Homie when you say you've never felt like this... I can tell. There's a point when you come to the end of your rope and you make a choice. My choice was to say fuck you all and push.... but I can't fault the folks who got there and said no more. I've been there. Hell, I'm damn close to my bottom again. This shit ain't weakness.... it's reality. There are folks who see the world falling apart who think "yeah... I'll figure it out" and there are folks who fold. I can't fault the folks who fold... cuz life sucks sometimes
Yeah, since you said that you haven't felt this way, you wouldn't understand at all. Just think about this: not everyone can see life in sunshine and rainbows; there's more darker stuff that happens in other people's lives that you definitely wouldn't want to happen to you. Just don't dismiss people's troubles and say that things get better over time, because a lot of the times, nothing gets better; and sadly, people will go to such drastic measures to end it all. I've been to that point a handful of times to the point I can hardly count, which thankfully, I'm still alive at the age of 30.
Dark subject matter aside this is insanely catchy.
If you wanna know. It's the feeling that no one really cares. Most of the time those who feel like that have actually gone through some major trauma. I myself have issues. Some days I don't even know who I am. I just exist. Now that I have kids I kinda have to suffer it out. Depression isn't fun. As I ligit shead a tear while writing that last part. Having issues isn't fun. If you wanna psyvhoanalize for a min. Here's a story. I grew up in an abusive situation. Mental and physical. Some people don't value things or even those they love then abuse them. Sometimes it's brought on by pain they can't control. Or just simply some folks are just messed up and damaged in the head. But anyways I have been dragged down with people's opinions. So many will tell you that you are annoying. Then you start to believe them. Being in foster care after getting beaten many times by a guy you look up to. Publicly humiliated by the guy even. Dude made an example of a winey kid. Kneed me in the back side up and down my block quite literally. After that foster care where I got thrown away. Over and over again. Eventually you'll feel like no one cares. Eventually you'll have the gull to second guess everything you do. All because you feel like a failure. I've been through a lot more nonsene than you know. But usually if you lived a sheltered life it don't tend to happen near as often. But there you go. For the most part. Now you know. You see the only way to fight against the dark is to make it well known of your issues. Eventually the issues matter less and less. It took me a long time to step outside of that inner shell.
my younger sister is suicidal and I used to be, i used to write tons of depressing poems like this. this type of music always troubles me.
Combination of the lyric and tone. Its like you gonna suicide but in nice way🗿
6:32 - how it can fail? well in my case: Peopels came home early from work and found you.
I think it’s just a chemical difference with different people, cause I’ll have a good day then the next day I’m so low that I think about jumping in front of a car, but that’s ideation for me, not planning
Bro you better fly.. And i better see you tomorrow.
It sounds so happy but it's so frigging depressing
Perfect example of “judge not lest ye be judged”.
“Oh he said a bad thing” but doesn’t care that the guy who wrote this wants to die.
... least you be judged by the same measure."
Most leave that out. Can a Christian judge? You bet. 1 Cor 6.
But being a hypocrite? No. That's worse.
its crazy that you’re so smart on other songs and not this one, it’s a good thing i believe. and like no offense or nothing, just it’s interesting and good you can’t relate and interpret the stuff. i’m kinda drunk so idk if i said that right lmao. i love your videos btw
the thought process is that nothing works out for you. you can listen to whomever you want and what advice they give and it still doesn't matter. People who say that it gets better are only speaking from a place of privilege and it just makes things worse for someone struggling with depression because it almost never gets better. Being told that it'll get better and it only gets worse will push someone over the edge to unalive themselves. We live in a country that actively makes it impossible to live and treats homeless people like criminals and the government chooses to put corporations over the people. In what world does that sound like it's getting better? Cause half the nation votes against their self interest and the other half just tries to censor everything and tries to justify their racism by silencing people who oppose their extreme ideology. We have to stop saying that it's going to get better especially in modern society.
I've got depression/suicidal ideation, i love this song but it's hard to explain to emotions and feelings this song cause me to feel. =Z
I sing this aong and worry my family amd friends
Hollywood Undead has appx 50 bangers to check out
Had to talk down the friend who introduced me to this song from jmping off a bridge once, he's still around today. ruined my buzz for the night but would rather he reach out than just go for it even if it's at a bad time for me. recently had a person i didn't really know but that was part of my friend group decide to not reach out and to just go for it, he's not around anymore, sht is bad all around, don't be an as*h*le and do this.
No lie it's rather easy to survive unalive attempts.... I'm living proof of this due to the amount of times I've hugged a blade and survived without any scars.... Btw side note this is emo rap
Sometimes there is no "why"...
just to address the christian delimma of suicide - if god is truly all good, then suicide should not be punished because he created you in a situation or way in which that was the inevitable conclusion
but if god is not actually all good, then its entirely possible he would punish you for this offence in addition to the many other ridiculous offenses you can find in the book from 2000 years ago thats been manipulated by countless people to further their own agenda, shocking i know