In my opinion dpdr is very much a spiritual battle. You doing great. Made a video about my recovery (Healing #DPDR - dereliction disorder #HPPD - Hallucinagen Intoxication) You'll get to where ya want. Stick with Jesus, you got this...
@@theparadigmshift74dear brother ur not alone... I'm 46.. Suffered from severe depression for 31 years... Some power brought me to jesus... Hangin there.. I actually feel depersonalization... Don't take it as disorder.. I also suffer from it... Our souls are crying for god.. The eternal life is with jesus.... May be thts why me n u are feeling depersonalization every second... This can't be explained... I'll pray for u ❤.. I feel exactly wat u feel for almost 31 years.. Can we connect... If possible
@@theparadigmshift74i dont know wat power brought me here.. Please read my message below.. For 31 years I'm in same shit wat u went through... Can u please pray fr tht foundation in jesus fr me..please ❤🙏🙏
I am currently at home crying because i done with the struggle and done with trying to get better and find healing and relief and be part of society again. I am so done with this crap. Just when I find myself seeing some good then booom symptoms hit me again. And of course those around me dont get it. I am at the end of myself. And tired of even hearing sermons because it leaves me wondering where is my help. I habe gotten so many programs in hopes of relief and yet I still feel like a prisoner to my own mind and body. Not connected to myself anymore. My body braces so tightly in defense to not feel the emotions and i feel so fragmented. Only God can heal me yet it has been so many years of this suffering. I try to renounce and do deliverance and go to church and pray and fast. But yet here I am .😢 trying so hard not to entertain the negative thoughts from the enemy. I will have momentary glimspees of hope renwed but they dont last......ugh.. Just venting. Sorryy. 😂.😅😭
Oh, my friend, this hit me in my soul. I can utterly relate to the depth of your misery and desperation. "For whosoever will save his life shall lose it, and whosoever will lose his life for My sake shall find it." I know nothing helps, nor my words, nor anything can lighten the load your mind and soul is under. I can only pray the Holy Spirit will come touch you and fill you with hope that one day it will end. I suffered for 14 years straight, I didn't even recognize my own daughter or why she was more valuable to me or relatable than a rock. And I just sobbed and really really sobbed. And I threw my hands up and praised God in the depth of my spiritual death, and God delivered me. I haven't struggled with it like this in over a year. Our sin can make the DPDR bad, I noticed that in my own life. Pray God will search your anxious heart and reveal to you anything that can be hurting you in your walk. Much love to you my friend, please let me know if you need anything.
@@theparadigmshift74 thank you for the heartfelt reply. Literally makes me feel better to know others out there do get it. I feel like just a blob floating and not connected to my body at the worst. Like dreamlike state. I cant even feel the intensity of how tightly wound my body is. And wondering if i am at the point of no return. Hahaha. My name is faleshia by the way. I appreciate your prayera. i ask God daily to search my heart and guide me and strengthen me but yet I am still in the valley. I feel numb and unable to feel him as well. That makes it so much worse. Before i would just feel his touch and it would calm my anxious heart or mind but now its hard when i feel like this ultimate disconnect. Sometimes I get wrapped up in praise and worship and scripture that I have moments of hope but it doesnt last long. I guess I have to just keep having blind faith.
@fifiearthwanderer sometimes it's very hard to know, or understand why we experience what we do. But I will tell you what, my dpdr humbled me so much, and the Lord actually used it to grow my character. I have a feeling you actually have great character with love and the desire to be seen and loved,validated. You have much to offer the people around you. God may be hiding you from yourself for now, but I pray there is a point where your questions and concerns are answered and you can come to an understanding that what is happening may actually be building something in you, and one day it's fruit will be revealed in its fullness.
God bless you, i have ptsd and have depersonilization and am a victim of mkultra and the targeted individual program. I dont feel real, feel like im dreaming all the time. I want to feel and have a connection with god and jesus so bad.
I understand! Those are very awful things to deal with ,the good news is Christ can indeed free you from those things! When I was born again he freed me immediately from my DPDR, just seek Him read the word and pray. Do you have a bible and also do you understand the gospel my friend?
I wanted to add some more to this, that I totally understand what it's like to not feel real, and like you're dreaming all the time. And I just want to let you know you're not alone in that. Its truly the most difficult thing.. words cannot describe how frustrating and hopeless DPDR can be, I truly think it's a spirit that's attached to people. I mean when I received Christ it left, I can't understand it but I know there is a solution for your troubles as well and liberation
right there with ya. I believe too but I have no idea what this place is either and do not or can not or being stopped somehow from ever fitting in or feeling connected to anyone. There is always this invisible barrier creating this separation. If it comforts you, I read some passage yesterday where a psychiatrist described it as the opposite of insanity - as if you are too sane because you're hyper aware of your surroundings.
@@theparadigmshift74 I think the world is most obviously definitely insane so getting advice on how to cure depersonalization for me from the world wont work. The Bible does say you are not from this world and a pilgrim. I dont know man...i have dived into the spiritual aspects for the last 10 years and last 4 with the Bible and while certain things have improved because I believe in the God of the Bible the depersonalization has only increased. I wish I knew what was happening. Then as mentioned the world has definitely gone completely insane and im not sure how people even look at the news and believe what they say when the contradict themselves over and over and its very frustrating. I dont think I will ever fit in here. How does it go with your wife? I liked your video cause it was something real in this weird world.
@@saltydog9340 yea i feel the same way as you, me and her are great we are working on building a stronger foundation. Yes its incredbily difficult when a part of you is attatched to the world but the other part just wants to leave badly, i like how your can see through the BS of the world especially the news, its hard to imagine how people are so led astray with all this noise and "information" i cant stand the news and its constant depressing rederick, i just want to find more stillness and less noise
Dealing with issues from benzos chronic health issues injury, didn't know God before all this, it's affecting God stuff, am I the only one, like he's a fairy tale, this is so scary
Hang in there brother! I know how terrible it can be, i was born again last sept and repented turned away from living in willfull sin, i have no dealt with this issue since then, i 100% now believe it is a spirtual issue or attack, i focus on Christ and my relationship with him. Ive never been more at peace in my life. Il be praying for you!
@@theparadigmshift74my little sister has it, apparently pretty bad, but ive been saying 100% its a spiritual thing. But glory be to the Lord Jesus for i know He has a much bigger and better plan for her. Im just waiting for her to accept that and see the hope He has for her, to taste of His goodness and pull her from the darkness into His glorious light like He did for me when i was at rock bottom for 2.5 years dealing with my own situation that started in September 2016 when i was shot twice with 12 ga 00buck, once through my elbow into my ribcage, the other in my butt (just missed the hole, right between my legs through my pelvis coming out my high upper right groin area) losing my left arm, one of my testicles, the affectiveness of my infection fighting abilities, destroying part of my urethra, having a suprapubic catheter (which causes constant infections), and having a colostomy bag. I wouldn't change a thing, for it led me down a dark path of ignorance to the devil where God intervened and allowed me to see what true evil and darkness was, allowing me about a 5 second glimpse of separation from Him in February 2019 which caused me to throw myself back and call out for forgiveness where i received the polar opposite, about a 5 second glimpse of what His presense was like. (It was so intense, it felt like if it were any stronger it would have killed me.) In that moment i was filled with His Spirit being born again, coming to know Christ and have grown ever since. Much love in the Lord Jesus Christ and may God abundantly bless you brother. Amen and amen!
the idea that i will never get myself back is almost unacceptable. i have tried i just can’t accept it. my whole life feels gone. i feel so cheated. i make one mistake and every reason for staying alive just taken. I have begged God to take me home instead.
I think something in us does die, and it sucks its so hard to loose yourself, but i think something also comes to us and gets reborn in us and new idnentity and vision thats beyond words. I so understand your pain . I feel it in my heart
@@theparadigmshift74 thank you. yeah I’m hoping I can come to terms with some new identity. have u been able to have Romantic relationships with depersonalization? The best part of life was love and I’m not sure I can have that now
@@eleyseanderson4782 of yes!! Ive found the best relationship ive ever had, i can still love well. I have a daughter and i love her more than anything. My best advice is if you get scared or worried just pray, thsts never ever not helped me. You will not loose your ability to love, i promise.
I have severe DPDR. I feel guilty because if I can barely tell if I exist and I’m not in a dreamlike video game, how do I connect to a God that I can’t see or feel? Idk what to do what those thoughts. I turn to ungodly music and tons of caffeine and internet to cancel out the thoughts of trauma and just overall not feeling anything. It makes things worse in the long run. Any advice?
I feel you, like so feel your pain!! Mine was so bad for awhile i could hardly bear it, i thought i was going to evaporate. I got rid of my TV, ended toxic relationships, read the bible everyday and really devoted myself to prayer and learning about Christ and how to put my faith in him and trust him and just lean on Him and also to be filled with the holy spirit. I swear by this i have not suffered bad DPDR for awhile now since these changes were made. Sometimes i get freaked out by how people look lol, but thats about it. I heard something today i really liked it said "you dont achieve your identity you recieve you identity" and from what ive been experincing that is so 100% true, this has been like nothing ive ever experinced! Ive only brought on dpdr twice and that was from severe overthinking from some heartache from past relationship pain, i thought it was hilarious because for once i actual saw DPDR and felt its usefulness because it actually calmed me down when it switched on and i was like "ohhh thats what thats used for." Hebrews 11:13 All of these died in faith, They did not obtain what had been promised but saw and saluted it from afar. By acknowledging themselves to be strangers and foreigners on the earth, they showed that they were seeking a homeland. If they had been thinking back to the place from which they had came, they would have had the oppurtunity of returning there. But they were searching for a better , a heavenly home. Werefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them." I also go to Christian therapist and she helps me sort out some truama too! Sounds like you got a little digging to do yourself my friend, you arent alone. Let the Lord show you who you are and also how to heal that pain thats being suppressed.
We have the same last name lol! But i couldnt find an answer to your question i had a hard time with it, thr internet makes it someone easier, i pray alot. Sometimes people are just put into our paths that can help us make our loads a little lighter ,and make us not feel so alone.
I totally understand, and empathize with that man.. mine used to be like that too. I haven't had it for almost two year. I committed myself to Christ and was born again, and the dpdr left me.
@@theparadigmshift74 I’ve been praying as much as possible, it’s been 4 months and some relief but it’s active 24/7 and it’s scary. I’m glad you’re doing well and I hope I can recover soon . May god bless you brother
@111585sandman I know it's scary, brother. Hold tight , keep moving forward. You're just passing through this place. Keep breathing through your nose, too. I just want to assure you that you are real and valuable. Sometimes, our perception is just a little too heightened and inward focused. But may the Lord search your heart and uncover anything that's causing a spirtual stumbling block or any blatant sins that may be giving the enemy a foothold and reveal them to you to submit to Christ. Stay close to Him. One day, you'll be in a new place where you won't ever have to worry again.
@@theparadigmshift74 thank you brother. I’m seeking guidance from anyone who can help me and I know that the almighty is watching and listening, I pray for the day I can go back to normal and be part of this so called society we live in. May god bless you brother and thank you for the comments.
@@111585sandman you're very welcome! It also may be good to seek out a genuine Christian therapist, I have one and she helped with alot of repressed emotions
Do you have any physical symptoms? What caused your breakdown? Did you try therapy, christian counseling or something like that? I found a christian page/ministry who works with dissociative disorders, but haven't yet tried their program. I often have shifts where it seems as if I lose what I felt have recovered (feelings, beliefs, opinions, viewpoints) and it is always accompanied with a range of new physical symptoms, weird body sensations..
Oh yea tons. Numb finger tips cant get a good breath, tight stomach l, acid reflux, weird vision , i could go on and on! Yea so you said you loose what had once made you feel better ? Did i interpret that correctly?
@@theparadigmshift74 yes, like parts of my personality and experiences which I "integrate". I finally have some part of experience where I feel connected (to some of my beliefs, experiences..), then something happens and I lose it. I also feel weird brain sensations, lungs, numb hands, memory loss, poor concentration and focus.. sorry for going into details, I'm just trying to find if someone also has that and how they live with that. Thank you...
@@saraj2 oh yes!! I have that as well, its hard for me to make decisons because im not sure what i actually want , or what others need. So one day its a good choice and i want that, then next day or next hour its the opposite. Its very hard to find equilibrium!
Yes I know the struggle my friend! I had it for 13 years, I've been free from it for almost 2 years now. It's such a helpless illness , you become a prisoner to your own mind. But I repented and cried out to Jesus, literally I couldn't tell the difference between my daughter and a rock, and I just lost it. And I was seeking God for awhile. And I put my faith and everything I had into Christ and was born again, and it melted off of me. I've never suffered with it again like this, I was liberated and now a servant to a new master. A perfect one!
@@theparadigmshift74 Long comment ahead: Absurdism as a philosophy refers to the fundamental nature of conflict in human tendency to find meaning and inherent value in life and inability in the same in a purposeless existence in an irrational universe. From wiki "Absurdism shares some concepts, and a common theoretical template, with existentialism and nihilism. It has its origins in the work of the 19th-century Danish philosopher Søren Kierkegaard, who chose to confront the crisis that humans face with the Absurd by developing his own existentialist philosophy.[2] Absurdism as a belief system was born of the European existentialist movement that ensued, specifically when Camus rejected certain aspects of that philosophical line of thought[3] and published his essay The Myth of Sisyphus. The aftermath of World War II provided the social environment that stimulated absurdist views and allowed for their popular development, especially in the devastated country of France." As for any book recommendations, one I'd have to solidly go to is "The Stranger" written by Albert Camus in 1946, who really kinda did like Jesus and explained great and weighty topics with parables.
@@theparadigmshift74 oh yeah and I definitely recommend looking into the Psychology of Carl Jung if you haven't already. Can shoot a couple well respected videos or something if you'd like.
@@TheFos88 ive heard a decent amount of his stuff, but i always come back to the parables and gospels theyre the only thing that makes the existence and experince or the void bareable to me.. Jesus words fill me in a way which i cant find anywhere else, but you know who else i really like listing to is jordan peterson!
Yes we have to still be faithful to God! Its scary when it feels like theres nothing to stay your fall, and reality gets torn apart. Thats the hardest time to continue to be faithful , when theres nothing left. No you, no them, no reality , nothing. But it passes and help comes! I had a great experince with that check the 2nd video of mine , i had a great experince
I Overcome by just going through it, thats the only way i can stand it, is to pray and go right through, that true breaking apart from reality and that fall into the void never comes i can feel it coming and it breaks me but i never actually dissolve like i think i will. I alwayd end up getting renewed amd a new day always comes. The thing i fear is loosing myself and ceasing to exist, but ive never lost my conciousness . Does that help or answer your question at all?
@@tannerbrandon5211 theyre always there under the surface everyday, i never feel totally normal in a sense , some dayd are just alot better than others. Do you deal with it?
Dude, He healed me....day by day, moment by moment His love and spirit healed me and is doing the same for you.
Never quit, you will win : )
In my opinion dpdr is very much a spiritual battle. You doing great.
Made a video about my recovery
(Healing #DPDR - dereliction disorder #HPPD - Hallucinagen Intoxication)
You'll get to where ya want.
Stick with Jesus, you got this...
Youre exactly right! Thank you my friend
@@theparadigmshift74dear brother ur not alone... I'm 46.. Suffered from severe depression for 31 years... Some power brought me to jesus... Hangin there.. I actually feel depersonalization... Don't take it as disorder.. I also suffer from it... Our souls are crying for god.. The eternal life is with jesus.... May be thts why me n u are feeling depersonalization every second... This can't be explained... I'll pray for u ❤.. I feel exactly wat u feel for almost 31 years.. Can we connect... If possible
@@theparadigmshift74i dont know wat power brought me here.. Please read my message below.. For 31 years I'm in same shit wat u went through... Can u please pray fr tht foundation in jesus fr me..please ❤🙏🙏
@@puneetgrvr thank you my friend, you are very correct!!
your words circumscribe the hole in my mind. "I feel like a fucking painting most days"
thanks for uploading
I am currently at home crying because i done with the struggle and done with trying to get better and find healing and relief and be part of society again. I am so done with this crap. Just when I find myself seeing some good then booom symptoms hit me again. And of course those around me dont get it. I am at the end of myself. And tired of even hearing sermons because it leaves me wondering where is my help. I habe gotten so many programs in hopes of relief and yet I still feel like a prisoner to my own mind and body. Not connected to myself anymore. My body braces so tightly in defense to not feel the emotions and i feel so fragmented. Only God can heal me yet it has been so many years of this suffering. I try to renounce and do deliverance and go to church and pray and fast. But yet here I am .😢 trying so hard not to entertain the negative thoughts from the enemy. I will have momentary glimspees of hope renwed but they dont last......ugh.. Just venting. Sorryy. 😂.😅😭
Oh, my friend, this hit me in my soul. I can utterly relate to the depth of your misery and desperation. "For whosoever will save his life shall lose it, and whosoever will lose his life for My sake shall find it." I know nothing helps, nor my words, nor anything can lighten the load your mind and soul is under. I can only pray the Holy Spirit will come touch you and fill you with hope that one day it will end. I suffered for 14 years straight, I didn't even recognize my own daughter or why she was more valuable to me or relatable than a rock. And I just sobbed and really really sobbed. And I threw my hands up and praised God in the depth of my spiritual death, and God delivered me. I haven't struggled with it like this in over a year. Our sin can make the DPDR bad, I noticed that in my own life. Pray God will search your anxious heart and reveal to you anything that can be hurting you in your walk. Much love to you my friend, please let me know if you need anything.
What's your name so I can pray for you ?
@@theparadigmshift74 thank you for the heartfelt reply. Literally makes me feel better to know others out there do get it. I feel like just a blob floating and not connected to my body at the worst. Like dreamlike state. I cant even feel the intensity of how tightly wound my body is. And wondering if i am at the point of no return. Hahaha.
My name is faleshia by the way. I appreciate your prayera. i ask God daily to search my heart and guide me and strengthen me but yet I am still in the valley. I feel numb and unable to feel him as well. That makes it so much worse. Before i would just feel his touch and it would calm my anxious heart or mind but now its hard when i feel like this ultimate disconnect.
Sometimes I get wrapped up in praise and worship and scripture that I have moments of hope but it doesnt last long. I guess I have to just keep having blind faith.
@fifiearthwanderer sometimes it's very hard to know, or understand why we experience what we do. But I will tell you what, my dpdr humbled me so much, and the Lord actually used it to grow my character. I have a feeling you actually have great character with love and the desire to be seen and loved,validated. You have much to offer the people around you. God may be hiding you from yourself for now, but I pray there is a point where your questions and concerns are answered and you can come to an understanding that what is happening may actually be building something in you, and one day it's fruit will be revealed in its fullness.
You are never at the point of no return, trust God and he will give you the victory! God bless you and don’t give up
God bless you, i have ptsd and have depersonilization and am a victim of mkultra and the targeted individual program. I dont feel real, feel like im dreaming all the time. I want to feel and have a connection with god and jesus so bad.
I understand! Those are very awful things to deal with ,the good news is Christ can indeed free you from those things! When I was born again he freed me immediately from my DPDR, just seek Him read the word and pray. Do you have a bible and also do you understand the gospel my friend?
I wanted to add some more to this, that I totally understand what it's like to not feel real, and like you're dreaming all the time. And I just want to let you know you're not alone in that. Its truly the most difficult thing.. words cannot describe how frustrating and hopeless DPDR can be, I truly think it's a spirit that's attached to people. I mean when I received Christ it left, I can't understand it but I know there is a solution for your troubles as well and liberation
You might have schizophrenia. Pray and fast. Ask Jesus to heal and deliver you every day. Repent of your sins.
Good to see you back. It’s good to hear you articulate the same thoughts and questions about reality that I have.
Love you bro going thru the same shit it’s unbearable but we’re going to get thru it
Love you too man , we sure will
right there with ya. I believe too but I have no idea what this place is either and do not or can not or being stopped somehow from ever fitting in or feeling connected to anyone. There is always this invisible barrier creating this separation. If it comforts you, I read some passage yesterday where a psychiatrist described it as the opposite of insanity - as if you are too sane because you're hyper aware of your surroundings.
Yesss !! That makes so much sense but man i didnt know itd he so hard to be sane.. thank you for replying to the video, i really enjoyed your words
@@theparadigmshift74 I think the world is most obviously definitely insane so getting advice on how to cure depersonalization for me from the world wont work. The Bible does say you are not from this world and a pilgrim. I dont know man...i have dived into the spiritual aspects for the last 10 years and last 4 with the Bible and while certain things have improved because I believe in the God of the Bible the depersonalization has only increased. I wish I knew what was happening. Then as mentioned the world has definitely gone completely insane and im not sure how people even look at the news and believe what they say when the contradict themselves over and over and its very frustrating. I dont think I will ever fit in here. How does it go with your wife? I liked your video cause it was something real in this weird world.
@@saltydog9340 yea i feel the same way as you, me and her are great we are working on building a stronger foundation. Yes its incredbily difficult when a part of you is attatched to the world but the other part just wants to leave badly, i like how your can see through the BS of the world especially the news, its hard to imagine how people are so led astray with all this noise and "information" i cant stand the news and its constant depressing rederick, i just want to find more stillness and less noise
@@saltydog9340 how are you feeling now
What do you my by what you said
If you enjoyed this , i do have a part 2 as well. From a new perspective! Thank you! There is peace out there for us somewhere
Im here to say don’t give up on god faith means having trust believe love every time you have that feeling you pray to god his son Jesus is with us
Amen my friend!! Thank you Merry Christmas
Bro I feel you ! Everything you said , I completely understand
Its hard to live with derealization/depersonalization
Dealing with issues from benzos chronic health issues injury, didn't know God before all this, it's affecting God stuff, am I the only one, like he's a fairy tale, this is so scary
Hang in there brother! I know how terrible it can be, i was born again last sept and repented turned away from living in willfull sin, i have no dealt with this issue since then, i 100% now believe it is a spirtual issue or attack, i focus on Christ and my relationship with him. Ive never been more at peace in my life. Il be praying for you!
@@theparadigmshift74my little sister has it, apparently pretty bad, but ive been saying 100% its a spiritual thing. But glory be to the Lord Jesus for i know He has a much bigger and better plan for her. Im just waiting for her to accept that and see the hope He has for her, to taste of His goodness and pull her from the darkness into His glorious light like He did for me when i was at rock bottom for 2.5 years dealing with my own situation that started in September 2016 when i was shot twice with 12 ga 00buck, once through my elbow into my ribcage, the other in my butt (just missed the hole, right between my legs through my pelvis coming out my high upper right groin area) losing my left arm, one of my testicles, the affectiveness of my infection fighting abilities, destroying part of my urethra, having a suprapubic catheter (which causes constant infections), and having a colostomy bag. I wouldn't change a thing, for it led me down a dark path of ignorance to the devil where God intervened and allowed me to see what true evil and darkness was, allowing me about a 5 second glimpse of separation from Him in February 2019 which caused me to throw myself back and call out for forgiveness where i received the polar opposite, about a 5 second glimpse of what His presense was like. (It was so intense, it felt like if it were any stronger it would have killed me.) In that moment i was filled with His Spirit being born again, coming to know Christ and have grown ever since. Much love in the Lord Jesus Christ and may God abundantly bless you brother. Amen and amen!
Trust God He will give you the victory
the idea that i will never get myself back is almost unacceptable. i have tried i just can’t accept it. my whole life feels gone. i feel so cheated. i make one mistake and every reason for staying alive just taken. I have begged God to take me home instead.
I think something in us does die, and it sucks its so hard to loose yourself, but i think something also comes to us and gets reborn in us and new idnentity and vision thats beyond words. I so understand your pain . I feel it in my heart
@@theparadigmshift74 thank you. yeah I’m hoping I can come to terms with some new identity. have u been able to have Romantic relationships with depersonalization? The best part of life was love and I’m not sure I can have that now
@@eleyseanderson4782 of yes!! Ive found the best relationship ive ever had, i can still love well. I have a daughter and i love her more than anything. My best advice is if you get scared or worried just pray, thsts never ever not helped me. You will not loose your ability to love, i promise.
@@theparadigmshift74 wow ok. that gives me hope. i do want a family one day. thank you ! 😊
Do you have some physical symptoms as well? If so, how do they change/shift?
If this is a call for us to connect I would love to help someone help me
Whatre you having trouble with?
Glad I found your video
I have severe DPDR. I feel guilty because if I can barely tell if I exist and I’m not in a dreamlike video game, how do I connect to a God that I can’t see or feel? Idk what to do what those thoughts. I turn to ungodly music and tons of caffeine and internet to cancel out the thoughts of trauma and just overall not feeling anything. It makes things worse in the long run. Any advice?
I feel you, like so feel your pain!! Mine was so bad for awhile i could hardly bear it, i thought i was going to evaporate. I got rid of my TV, ended toxic relationships, read the bible everyday and really devoted myself to prayer and learning about Christ and how to put my faith in him and trust him and just lean on Him and also to be filled with the holy spirit. I swear by this i have not suffered bad DPDR for awhile now since these changes were made. Sometimes i get freaked out by how people look lol, but thats about it. I heard something today i really liked it said "you dont achieve your identity you recieve you identity" and from what ive been experincing that is so 100% true, this has been like nothing ive ever experinced! Ive only brought on dpdr twice and that was from severe overthinking from some heartache from past relationship pain, i thought it was hilarious because for once i actual saw DPDR and felt its usefulness because it actually calmed me down when it switched on and i was like "ohhh thats what thats used for." Hebrews 11:13 All of these died in faith, They did not obtain what had been promised but saw and saluted it from afar. By acknowledging themselves to be strangers and foreigners on the earth, they showed that they were seeking a homeland. If they had been thinking back to the place from which they had came, they would have had the oppurtunity of returning there. But they were searching for a better , a heavenly home. Werefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them." I also go to Christian therapist and she helps me sort out some truama too! Sounds like you got a little digging to do yourself my friend, you arent alone. Let the Lord show you who you are and also how to heal that pain thats being suppressed.
How does one find other like minded people outside of this context”real world”
We have the same last name lol! But i couldnt find an answer to your question i had a hard time with it, thr internet makes it someone easier, i pray alot. Sometimes people are just put into our paths that can help us make our loads a little lighter ,and make us not feel so alone.
Mine is on 24/7. Dp/Dr
I totally understand, and empathize with that man.. mine used to be like that too. I haven't had it for almost two year. I committed myself to Christ and was born again, and the dpdr left me.
@@theparadigmshift74 I’ve been praying as much as possible, it’s been 4 months and some relief but it’s active 24/7 and it’s scary. I’m glad you’re doing well and I hope I can recover soon . May god bless you brother
@111585sandman I know it's scary, brother. Hold tight , keep moving forward. You're just passing through this place. Keep breathing through your nose, too. I just want to assure you that you are real and valuable. Sometimes, our perception is just a little too heightened and inward focused. But may the Lord search your heart and uncover anything that's causing a spirtual stumbling block or any blatant sins that may be giving the enemy a foothold and reveal them to you to submit to Christ. Stay close to Him. One day, you'll be in a new place where you won't ever have to worry again.
@@theparadigmshift74 thank you brother. I’m seeking guidance from anyone who can help me and I know that the almighty is watching and listening, I pray for the day I can go back to normal and be part of this so called society we live in. May god bless you brother and thank you for the comments.
@@111585sandman you're very welcome! It also may be good to seek out a genuine Christian therapist, I have one and she helped with alot of repressed emotions
Do you have any physical symptoms? What caused your breakdown? Did you try therapy, christian counseling or something like that? I found a christian page/ministry who works with dissociative disorders, but haven't yet tried their program. I often have shifts where it seems as if I lose what I felt have recovered (feelings, beliefs, opinions, viewpoints) and it is always accompanied with a range of new physical symptoms, weird body sensations..
Oh yea tons. Numb finger tips cant get a good breath, tight stomach l, acid reflux, weird vision , i could go on and on! Yea so you said you loose what had once made you feel better ? Did i interpret that correctly?
@@theparadigmshift74 yes, like parts of my personality and experiences which I "integrate". I finally have some part of experience where I feel connected (to some of my beliefs, experiences..), then something happens and I lose it. I also feel weird brain sensations, lungs, numb hands, memory loss, poor concentration and focus.. sorry for going into details, I'm just trying to find if someone also has that and how they live with that. Thank you...
@@saraj2 oh yes!! I have that as well, its hard for me to make decisons because im not sure what i actually want , or what others need. So one day its a good choice and i want that, then next day or next hour its the opposite. Its very hard to find equilibrium!
What's their name(the Christian ministry)
@@yunghp97 it's Discovering MErcy.
All the unexplainables
Do you think it could be related to being demonically oppressed or possessed
Yes, once i was saved and turned away from multiple different sins i was entertaining it ceased, i havent delt with it like this anymore
Dear God you sound just like my brain.
I have this from 8 years every f* Day
Yes I know the struggle my friend! I had it for 13 years, I've been free from it for almost 2 years now. It's such a helpless illness , you become a prisoner to your own mind. But I repented and cried out to Jesus, literally I couldn't tell the difference between my daughter and a rock, and I just lost it. And I was seeking God for awhile. And I put my faith and everything I had into Christ and was born again, and it melted off of me. I've never suffered with it again like this, I was liberated and now a servant to a new master. A perfect one!
God will heal you it’s just your brain trying to protect you from the stress your experiencing
He certainly did! I haven't experienced this in almost 2 years now after I came to Christ and was born again. Very grateful
For me this has all turned me towards the absurdist view of the universe with a look at humanity in Jungian terms.
Interesting il have to check that out, i am not familiar
Thats very intriguing the absurdist view i would like to read more about that, do you recommend any books?
@@theparadigmshift74
Long comment ahead: Absurdism as a philosophy refers to the fundamental nature of conflict in human tendency to find meaning and inherent value in life and inability in the same in a purposeless existence in an irrational universe.
From wiki "Absurdism shares some concepts, and a common theoretical template, with existentialism and nihilism. It has its origins in the work of the 19th-century Danish philosopher Søren Kierkegaard, who chose to confront the crisis that humans face with the Absurd by developing his own existentialist philosophy.[2] Absurdism as a belief system was born of the European existentialist movement that ensued, specifically when Camus rejected certain aspects of that philosophical line of thought[3] and published his essay The Myth of Sisyphus. The aftermath of World War II provided the social environment that stimulated absurdist views and allowed for their popular development, especially in the devastated country of France."
As for any book recommendations, one I'd have to solidly go to is "The Stranger" written by Albert Camus in 1946, who really kinda did like Jesus and explained great and weighty topics with parables.
@@theparadigmshift74 oh yeah and I definitely recommend looking into the Psychology of Carl Jung if you haven't already. Can shoot a couple well respected videos or something if you'd like.
@@TheFos88 ive heard a decent amount of his stuff, but i always come back to the parables and gospels theyre the only thing that makes the existence and experince or the void bareable to me.. Jesus words fill me in a way which i cant find anywhere else, but you know who else i really like listing to is jordan peterson!
God is still faithful though.
Yes we have to still be faithful to God! Its scary when it feels like theres nothing to stay your fall, and reality gets torn apart. Thats the hardest time to continue to be faithful , when theres nothing left. No you, no them, no reality , nothing. But it passes and help comes! I had a great experince with that check the 2nd video of mine , i had a great experince
Have you been able to overcome the dp before and recover
I Overcome by just going through it, thats the only way i can stand it, is to pray and go right through, that true breaking apart from reality and that fall into the void never comes i can feel it coming and it breaks me but i never actually dissolve like i think i will. I alwayd end up getting renewed amd a new day always comes. The thing i fear is loosing myself and ceasing to exist, but ive never lost my conciousness . Does that help or answer your question at all?
@@theparadigmshift74 so the symptoms eventually go away
@@tannerbrandon5211 sort of , you just get more comfortable with being uncomfortable
@@theparadigmshift74 wait so you are saying the symptoms are always there and you never feel back to normal?
@@tannerbrandon5211 theyre always there under the surface everyday, i never feel totally normal in a sense , some dayd are just alot better than others. Do you deal with it?
Can we be friends? Need someone who understands me right now.
Sure! Are you having some similar issues?
I'm losing hope
Whats going on?
watch depersonalization part 2 , i was literally at the end of my rope. Then i was able to find something to help me, i hope it can help you to
How ya holding up ?