This! I have lost what i called my “bonus grandfather” i haven’t got any grandparents anymore, I lost my “bonus grandfather “ last year and this will be the second christmas without him and i still miss him everyday, Grief is strange thing specially around the holidays, But so glad to know that we here are there for eachother❤️ I lost my last grandmother 10 years ago and it will get abit easier but it will never go away, take care❤️
I’m reminded of a Bastille lyric: “I have written you down, now you will live forever” Through sharing this in your vlog, your aunt will live forever through you and now us as well. From someone who is grieving a lost one too, thank you for sharing her with us ❤
So sorry for your loss, it’s not over sharing at all. I lost my dad last December, his anniversary is next week and I’m struggling. I think I was still in shock last Christmas and I know I’m going to find this year harder. He loved Christmas and made the best Christmas dinner. Sending big hugs ❤
“To grieve deeply, is to have loved fully” ❤️ Your grief is a beautiful sign of how wonderful your Aunt must have been. Thank you for sharing such deep emotions with us. This is my first Christmas as a parent, and even 12 years after their passing my heart aches that my grandparents aren’t here to share these special moments any more but, as you say about your Aunt, they are always with us. Sending so much love ❤️
I never comment on videos but just want to say thanks Mark for sharing what you're going through with your Auntie. I have gone through exactly the same thing these last few weeks and attended her funeral Monday. Been the hardest time & Christmas is even more difficult during these times. Seeing you crying in the car has been a mirror image of myself so big love and thanks for the reminder that we are not alone in these things. Please continue to share any ways you help yourself to get through it all.
I appreciate you talking about how difficult Christmas can be for a lot of people. There's so many people having a hard time during the holidays and very few people acknowledge that. Sending you tons of hugs Mark. ❤
just loving vlogmas so much this year, mark. you’re doing so great and bringing so much joy. this is my second christmas without my dad and in a lot of ways it feels a bit harder than that first one. i’m doing all the christmassy, festive things but everything feels a bit lackluster, like the brightness has been turned down. you are always safe to share your grief here in this space you’ve created. sending you so much love & hope your auntie sends you lovely christmas signs so you feel her all around this season❤
I love your transparency, I have just found out my Dad has Cancer as well as dementia, it’s hard, you voicing your pain will help you, I am old and appreciate that I now have the knowledge to know that saying it out loud makes a huge difference. Carry on being you, you are real and loved. X
Grief is love with nowhere to go. Feel it when it’s heartbreaking and feel it when you’re happy. It won’t always hurt. Thinking of anyone dealing with hard things.
Hi Mark! 🎄 I’m usually a silent watcher but just wanted to say how great it is to have someone share who is going through something similar. Grief is a weird thing and is totally normal feeling to go through the ups and downs. I just lost my uncle in August whom we were really close with. He was always the life of the party and will sure miss him this Christmas. Listening to you talk has definitely helped ❤
I'm absolutely loving Vlogmas so far! 💛Ferris, you are smashing it!!! You bring such a realness to TH-cam & social media and it's so refreshing. Thank you for making my day brighter 🥰💫
Thank you for sharing your grief, I lost my grandma (day before Thanksgiving 2021) and cousin (December 4th,2021) a week apart from each other 2 years ago and it’s so hard… I appreciate you for being so open it brings me comfort
So sorry for your loss mark, I lost my auntie in 2019 and it was so hard she was crazy funny and the life of the party, sometimes feels harder to lose someone so full of life and that pain never goes away but every Christmas we have a brandy and Diet Coke (her favourite) and you realise how lucky you were to have such a special person in your life ❤️ Thank you so much Mark, grief is so tough (especially at Christmas) and it’s so refreshing to get your genuine and raw thoughts and feelings on it. Loving this vlogmas series, you’re smashing it 🥹🎄
I lost 3 grandparents in the last 18 months, this year is the first Christmas that I won't be sat round my nan and grandads house, it is now empty. Teared up buying Christmas cards because I only had one nan to buy for. There will always be those moments. I'm sorry you're going through it too. Much love xx
Thank you for talking about this. I lost my mom in September. I can't even get my head around it. She was a healthy 78 year old who was so let down by the medical system. Always remember to be your best advocate. I know this time will be hard but it's okay to share the low times. Your aunt sounds like a lovely person. She must be so proud of you Mark!
I'm a newer subscriber, but from the first video I watched, I was immediately compelled to keep watching your videos. You're such a sweet and GENUINE human being. Bless you Mark Ferris 🩷
Thank you so much Mark for doing vlogmass and for being so open and honest. I lost my grandad three months ago and still can't believe he isn't amongst us anymore. The holidays will be so weird without him. Missing him more and more everyday. And always will thinking extra about him around this time. That indeed is real life. thank you for being you!
Hey Mark! Thank you so much for being so vulnerable about your grief for your auntie. I also have lost someone very close to me, my mom, and seeing your videos has really helped me not only come to terms with my grief, but also helped me sit with it and remember how amazing my mom was. Your aunt must have been an amazing person to leave everyone filled with so much love for her. Christmas is always a difficult time for grief, but your vlogmas videos and your openness about who you are and about your aunt are helping so much, more than you even know. Thank you so much for sharing!! ❤
I completely get how you feel Mark and I’m sorry for your loss. I lost my Auntie in June this year too and I still have days where I think she’s with us still and maybe it’s because I don’t quite want to believe she’s gone as it’s so painful. Seeing you share about your aunt gives a lot of comfort to know we’re not alone and we are all struggling with things in some way or another and it’s good to allow ourselves to let our emotions out when we need too. Thank you for your videos and always being real 🩵
Thank you for talking about grief so openly. It means the world to those of us who are having similar experiences. It feels like being seen and reminds me that we are not alone in our grief but part of a community of others trying to get through. Loving this vlogmas! Can't wait to see what the rest of the month has in store.
Lost my dad in may, first xmas without him. Christmas is cancelled for me i cant even deal with it, cant stand the decs, the adverts, the music. None of it....and i usually love it . Love to you hunny, your vlogs are really bringing me so much comfort in such a gloomy time xxxxx
Merry Christmas from Canada, Mark! I'm a silent follower, but I have been watching you for years! Grief is a strange thing for sure, and you're not over sharing at all. I lost my 21 year old son to Epilepsy in September, and he loved Christmas, which is making this holiday season very difficult. But I've decorated as usual and added a special little tree just for him, as he wouldn't want us to not celebrate. And I'm sure your auntie is glad that you are celebrating as well. Lots of love ❤️
Thank you for sharing Mark!! I lost someone this year too and talking about it is so helpful and it’s also nice to know we are not alone in feeling grief.
Seeing you share the REAL parts of life is honestly so refreshing and comforting. This is why I love your channel Mark, your authenticity and openheartedness is such a rare thing to come across on TH-cam these days. What a gem you are Mark
Please keep sharing your grief journey, I love seeing it! It’s normalising it and makes my heart so happy (not because you’re sad) to see more people taking about grief ❤️
Oh Mark. My heart breaks for you. Thank you for being so open and candid about your grief. Stay strong and know I am praying for you 🙏🏻 I know your aunt is in Heaven smiling down on you and sending her love to you.
Thank you so much for being vulnerable. It brings peace and comfort to know that we aren't alone in our struggles. I don't have any kids of my own, but I love my niece so so much, as much as it seems your aunt loved you. And I hope to be able to provide the love and joy to her, just as your aunt loved you.
Mark I can’t thank you enough for being so open in this space about your grief❤️ I lost my aunt two months ago and it was my first experience with family grief and you talking so openly has honestly made me feel less alone in the grief I feel. I can’t thank you enough for being you in this space ❤️ I’m sending all my love and hugs to you.
Exactly remember the joy and happiness a loved one brought us , I was a mess losing my mam , but I know she is with me every day , the only girl out of 4 children , , you are the best mark , always remember that ❤
Oh mark, seeing you so upset over your aunt made me quite emotional! It never gets easier without your loved ones, in July it was 10 years since I lost my Nan, I lost my grandad in the February of the same year, my other Nan 3 years later and my grandad nearly 5 years ago. You learn how to live without them, but like you said you keep on going to make them proud! Christmas in another reminder of how precious family is, but making memories with those who are still here. Love ya ❤
As an auntie myself, seeing you crying and grieving is beautiful and heartbreaking. I am so sorry for your loss. But I am so glad you two loved each other very much and her love and legacy lives on in you.
14 years without my mama this December. Thank you for being honest and sharing your grief. ❤ Sometimes we forget how many of us are carrying these feelings alongside the Christmas cheer.
I’m sorry for your loss 🩷 it’s really not easy but I’m glad you’re willing to be vulnerable for us in hopes to give us comfort. My gran was the magic at Christmas and she’s been gone for 10 years now. Nothing is the same, we try to celebrate in her memory but it just doesn’t feel the way it used to. My heart breaks for anyone who struggles during the holidays where everything is bows, sparkles, laughs and you can’t relate. ❣️❄️
Thank you for showing your vulnerability in Grief, people never really show that... So appreciate that, dreading this year first Christmas without my dad. 💔lots of love to you and your family xxx
Mark, I'm so sorry for your loss! Even more heartbreaking at this time of year as well. We're here for you. On an unrelated note the comic store reminds me of a shop near me named cool merch I love it for not only the loungefly stuff but for anime merchandise and music merch
Thank you Mark. Third Christmas without my Grandad, eighth without my Nanny. Grief still catches me off guard. Sending love and strength this festive season✨🫶🏼
It's been 14 years without my dad during the holidays. This is when I think of him the most cause Christmas was his favorite. I'm thinking of you and your family during this holiday season ❤
Thank you for talking about it mark when I was 12 I lost my godmother right near Christmas and still to this day 4 years later I still find it hard around Christmas especially since she loved it so much and most memories with her were at Christmas so thank you for speaking about it and we have got this ❤
Your not over sharing at all I really appreciate it my dad passed away three years ago and I wish people would talk about grief more it helps me at least to talk about it and hear others talk about it. Sending you love mark your very wise 💕 xx
it's so nice in a world where everyone pretends to be someone they're not, where most people only use social media as a highlight reel of their life, to have even just a tiny corner of the internet that you know will always be a safe place with someone who will be honest and real even in the dark times - thank you for being that person mark, you're not oversharing at all, the world needs a little bit of realism sometimes. sending you all the love and hugs this christmas
You talking about your auntie is making me emotional because I was watching old “vlogs” of my auntie from like 2004 before she passed and it’s so nice to see her face and hear her voice at times like this ❤
How lucky was your aunt to have you for a nephew! You have a guardian angel now. I'm so glad you shared your feelings. This time of year brings so many emotions and some of them are very difficult. Nice to know we have a friend in you!
Awh mark, grief really is such a weird and awful feeling, I think it never feels real they’re gone, it’s 5 years since I lost my grandad still everyday it shocks me I will never see him again. You got this, keep talking about your auntie, she would want you to be happy and carry on being your authentic beautiful self 🤍 sending love xxx
I appreciate you talking about it so much. Christmas is normally my FAVORITE time of year, I watch Christmas stuff year round. But this year I lost a few family members and someone who was my top three most important people and so Christmas has been this thing that I just want to be done already. I felt like no one really understood how f-ing hard this is. Hearing someone actually talk about it helped so so so much. I feel so much better crying with you, thank you thank you thank you thank you 💕
So so appreciative of you, I lost my aunt 5 years ago and the grieving never stops, you learn to ride the waves. Keep talking about her with your friends and family 🤍
Thank you for sharing Mark. I lost my grandmother in June and she was more than just that to me. She was also my best friend she held our family together and made every holiday special. This is my first Christmas without her. I’m devastated, but watching your vlogs is helping me. Thank you, continue to be authentic you’re finding the right people. 💕
Thank you for another lovely vlog Mark. So sorry about your Aunty, but talking about her all the time will help heal the pain. I've lost both my grandparents many years back and still find Christmas hard. Stay strong, we're all behind you❤
Mark, I want to thank you from The bottom of my heart for being so real and authentic with us this Christmas! All though it’s so nice to see someone’s highlights / exciting moments during the holidays- for some it’s not always so joyous. I’ve been struggling the last few Christmas’s having lost my auntie as well- who was VERY much like an older sister and my only best friend. Please don’t ever apologize for going through something so difficult. I wish I had this when my aunt did pass away. I had never felt so numb and lonely- but to have this now and also seeing you push through and still enjoying life as best you can is just HEART WARMING and so SO incredible to see.❤️ love you Marky Mark!!
I’ve been a silent viewer for years but today I just wanted to thank you Mark! I really appreciate you sharing your feelings, I lost my grandma this year and I feel this so much! So sorry for your loss and sending lots of love your way 💗
I love how open and vulnerable you are with your grief. I lost my grandpa three years ago just a few days before Christmas and it’s been the hardest thing for me because I feel guilty for being happy around the holidays without him. Thank you for being a light for people going through hard times
I lost my dad in August and the things you mention are very relatable. The still not believing they are gone and then when you get a moment and realisation kicks in it literally takes your breathe away. Thank you for being raw and honest, being the first Christmas without my dad and finding it really hard. This is refreshing to hear and see I’m not alone in my thoughts. Sending you love and hugs x
i'm so sorry for your loss mark. glad you have spoken about grief during christmas time. i lost my grandparents along time ago but i miss them everyday. i miss the simple things like popping around for a cuppa and having a natter ♥
Dear Mark, I lost my mum three years ago and it still hurts... I understand you. You are so brave, kind and beautiful human being. I am sending you love and appreciation from Slovakia. And huge hug ❤
Never feel like your oversharing things that make you feel emotions that are anything other than happy, because being vulnerable is so scary but you getting it off your chest and letting out the feelings you feel is so normal and healthy. You help so many people online and in personal day to day life by opening yourself up because it shows us that we can also do the same and not be ashamed of being vulnerable about thing that makes us all feel emotions that aren’t ‘happy’. Your amazing Mark and you are everything your auntie could have ever imagined you’d become and more. I’ve lost a close friend around this time 4 years ago and it gets easier but also you will never ‘let go’ if that makes sense.. it’ll never seem real but time goes by and as humans we learn to adapt to the huge change .. doesn’t mean you stop caring or loving that person. Last week I also lost a man that changed mine and my older brothers childhood and was a step in dad for a couple years and he sadly passed from cancer last week. And even though my mum and him split up around 15 years ago now, doesn’t make it hurt any less and its totally fine to feel vulnerable sometimes and let out how you really feel as bottling it all up sounds easier but has really long lasting effects and in the long run could make you feel worse. Love you Mark, keep shining lovely x
I’ve lost my aunt last year and it really was devastating but I understand that this is life and we can’t stop things from happening. It’s ok to not be ok. The first year will always be the hardest. Be in your feelings and let it out. So sorry for your loss. Sending you big hugs and love.❤
So sorry for your loss mark 💕 its always hard for my family around this time as well . I always say just be kind to everyone , you never know what a person may be going through . Hugs to you 💕
This is my first year without my dad and grandma. Both of them brought the family together for the holidays. I still have no idea what this holiday will be like. Thank you for sharing your greif. It's helpful to be going through it with you each day.
I'm sorry for your loss Mark. ❤ You don't know how much your rawness meant to me in this video. ❤❤❤ I'm going through my own grief and it's strangely comforting to know someone else out there is having a hard time like me. Everything reminds me of them. It's beautiful but at the same time, the sadness is debilitating. It feels like a really messed up time. Nothing makes sense. I hope you heal from this loss and things start to feel a little better. ❤
Talking about loss is the best way to get through it! And this made me feel so much more closer to you! You keep things real and that is what makes you an amazing person! 24 years ago i lost my dad to suicide. And i still to this day cry when i think about him even though the memories with him is starting to blur! But i still miss him!❤
Mark you’re the most beautiful person inside and out! Thank you so much for sharing your happy times and your vulnerable times it’s very important for many people. Can’t wait for tomorrow’s vlogmas!
Thank you for sharing Mark! I appreciate you being real and sharing your emotions and experience with grief. I have lost both my grandparents this year and sometimes grief can feel lonely. All around people are excited and happy in the holiday spirit. I feel that way sometimes but its also hard going through the firsts without your loved ones.
Thank you for sharing the harder parts of life as well. I lost my uncle this past summer so I feel like I'm going through the same thing as you right now, where it just doesn't feel real sometimes. Sending you so much love and all the hugs ❤❤
Thank you for sharing your feelings. It comforts me being the second year without my cousin and my uncle. It’s still a wonderful time but very different and difficult without them ❤️
Thank you for sharing your grief journey, it doesn't get spoken about enough. We lost my beautiful sister unexpectedly just over 2 years ago. Like you said, it's still so hard to comprehend that she is gone. Big hugs to you and your family. xoxox
It’ll be my families first Christmas without my Uncle this year. I can definitely relate, thank you for being so real and vulnerable with us ❤💕 sending love
Thankyou for keeping it so real this Christmas. I am usually the most festive person you could ever meet around this time of year, but it’s my first Christmas in 7 years that I won’t be spending with my boyfriend. I’m grieving the loss of our relationship and it’s so hard! I’m still trying to enjoy Christmas as much as possible but I’m definitely having down days where I miss him so much 😢. Your videos are a joy each day that I look forward to ❤
Thank you for sharing Mark. I lost my dad a year and a half ago in a sudden violent accident and life has never been the same. Dad was the love of my life. Everyday I live without him is the worst day of my life. Christmas is a horrific time for people living with grief, it highlights family time and it highlights whose NOT around the dinner table. Its pressure to be happy and for it to be the most wonderful time of the year but for people who are in the depths of grief this is not reality. Thanks for sharing your pain because I feel that too, and I think speaking and being truthful about grief is a really important life lesson because no one can escape it. Lots of love xx
Hearing you talk about grieving during the holiday season is so heartwarming and makes me feel not alone. It’s the first Christmas since my parents separated and it’s so mixed emotions. It’s my husbands and i first Christmas as well. It’s also the 3rd Xmas without my husbands mom who loved Christmas. Thank you for being open about grieving and processing 💕
Thankyou for this video! Honestly relate a lot 😢 lost my uncle who was like my best friend 3 years ago and spending the festive period which includes my birthday without him is heartbreaking :( You’re not over sharing it’s refreshing to hear, love you Marky x
Arrrr mark 😢 you made me cry love watching your videos wish you could do vlogmas all the time I look forward to watching your videos your such a real person xx
Thank you so much for your rawness and vulnerability during this. My soul dog had to be put to sleep last Friday. Christmas definitely feels so different this year.
You've got such a beautiful soul, Mark. Thank you for always being yourself and so real with us 🤍 Your videos feel like getting a hug from a friend, and that's such a gift to the world 💕
we lost my grandma around this time last year and i still can't believe she's gone. thank you for sharing this mark. your positivity and realness helps so much
I’ve been so thankful for your vlogs ever since I started watching years ago, mainly because of how honest and genuine you are with us. It feels like FaceTiming with a close friend! I hope you know how loved and appreciated you are. 💛
Thank you for being so real mark you are not over sharing at all❤️❤️❤️❤️ I lost my grandad beginning of the year with my autism and anxiety it been very difficult for me you have helped me so much and I am so sorry for your loss xx you are my inspiration and hero xx
Omg! I kid you not, the lamp that you bought, was the lamp I had as a kid growing up! You tearing up, makes me tear up.😢 Sometimes it good to have a good cry, always here for you mark 💖
Thank you for sharing your very honest feelings, Mark….they’re normal and natural. Sharing them is good for you and for those of us who are also going through the grief of loss.❤ You take care of yourself.❤
Mark, you are the purest of souls and never feel like you are over sharing. Too many people hide things on here and we appreciate how real you are with everything, as long as you are comfortable with sharing it! And thank you for showing it’s okay not to go to social events if you don’t want to, like you said your friends are always there and you will see them again another time 😊
Mark, I really just want to say how much this meant to me and how much I needed this reminder. I’m telling myself everyday my Grandpa is with me and your Auntie is there with you too. And she’s so proud of everything you’re doing. Thank you from the bottom of my heart 🤍
Mark your never over sharing, you are such an incredible person, I love that you want to keep it real and I appreciate that, so never say your cliche or think your over sharing, and I am so sorry for your loss.
Loving vlogmas so far, thank you for the videos Mark!! 🎄❤️ You are such a beautiful human being & you're doing an amazing job & making your Auntie proud every single day 💕 xxx
I really needed your video today Mark.❤I lost my aunt many years ago to breast cancer and today is her birthday. I completely understand what you’re going through and even though for me it’s many years later I still think about her every day. I was feeling especially sad today but you sharing your grief with us has helped me through. ❤thank you Mark for always being so honest and caring and being yourself. Love you 💕🎄🥰😘 I’m so sorry for your loss ❤
I am so sorry about your Aunty Mark! You are so right, you’re definitely not the only one, and your vlogs are helping for sure! I love that you’re putting yourself out there and sharing the bad with the good. Or rather the sad, not bad. Wrong word choice there. I lost my Mother a couple days after Christmas, and let me tell you this year has been the hardest thing ever! All the feels are just there. I’m trying to go about it a different way to cheer myself up. Now I could have gone on absolutely upset at Christmas time like anyone can slip away into, but for me I have been doing things to honor my Mother. Watching her favorite movies, listening to her favorite Christmas songs. I’ve been doing as much as I can that reminds me of her. Anyways I’m rambling, but thank you for sharing real emotions and not just putting on a happy face as if everything were golden 100% love ya!
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I don't think this is oversharing at all!! I'm so sorry for your loss Mark
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This! I have lost what i called my “bonus grandfather” i haven’t got any grandparents anymore, I lost my “bonus grandfather “ last year and this will be the second christmas without him and i still miss him everyday, Grief is strange thing specially around the holidays, But so glad to know that we here are there for eachother❤️ I lost my last grandmother 10 years ago and it will get abit easier but it will never go away, take care❤️
I’m reminded of a Bastille lyric: “I have written you down, now you will live forever” Through sharing this in your vlog, your aunt will live forever through you and now us as well. From someone who is grieving a lost one too, thank you for sharing her with us ❤
So sorry for your loss, it’s not over sharing at all. I lost my dad last December, his anniversary is next week and I’m struggling. I think I was still in shock last Christmas and I know I’m going to find this year harder. He loved Christmas and made the best Christmas dinner. Sending big hugs ❤
“To grieve deeply, is to have loved fully” ❤️
Your grief is a beautiful sign of how wonderful your Aunt must have been. Thank you for sharing such deep emotions with us.
This is my first Christmas as a parent, and even 12 years after their passing my heart aches that my grandparents aren’t here to share these special moments any more but, as you say about your Aunt, they are always with us. Sending so much love ❤️
Let's all think of Mark's auntie together, sending her lots of love and good energy❣ Towards the light and beyond✨🌟✨💕💖
I never comment on videos but just want to say thanks Mark for sharing what you're going through with your Auntie. I have gone through exactly the same thing these last few weeks and attended her funeral Monday. Been the hardest time & Christmas is even more difficult during these times. Seeing you crying in the car has been a mirror image of myself so big love and thanks for the reminder that we are not alone in these things. Please continue to share any ways you help yourself to get through it all.
I appreciate you talking about how difficult Christmas can be for a lot of people. There's so many people having a hard time during the holidays and very few people acknowledge that. Sending you tons of hugs Mark. ❤
just loving vlogmas so much this year, mark. you’re doing so great and bringing so much joy. this is my second christmas without my dad and in a lot of ways it feels a bit harder than that first one. i’m doing all the christmassy, festive things but everything feels a bit lackluster, like the brightness has been turned down. you are always safe to share your grief here in this space you’ve created. sending you so much love & hope your auntie sends you lovely christmas signs so you feel her all around this season❤
I love your transparency, I have just found out my Dad has Cancer as well as dementia, it’s hard, you voicing your pain will help you, I am old and appreciate that I now have the knowledge to know that saying it out loud makes a huge difference. Carry on being you, you are real and loved. X
Sending Love
Grief is love with nowhere to go.
Feel it when it’s heartbreaking and feel it when you’re happy. It won’t always hurt. Thinking of anyone dealing with hard things.
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I’m usually a silent watcher but just wanted to say how great it is to have someone share who is going through something similar. Grief is a weird thing and is totally normal feeling to go through the ups and downs. I just lost my uncle in August whom we were really close with. He was always the life of the party and will sure miss him this Christmas. Listening to you talk has definitely helped ❤
I'm absolutely loving Vlogmas so far! 💛Ferris, you are smashing it!!! You bring such a realness to TH-cam & social media and it's so refreshing. Thank you for making my day brighter 🥰💫
Thank you for sharing your grief, I lost my grandma (day before Thanksgiving 2021) and cousin (December 4th,2021) a week apart from each other 2 years ago and it’s so hard… I appreciate you for being so open it brings me comfort
So sorry for your loss mark, I lost my auntie in 2019 and it was so hard she was crazy funny and the life of the party, sometimes feels harder to lose someone so full of life and that pain never goes away but every Christmas we have a brandy and Diet Coke (her favourite) and you realise how lucky you were to have such a special person in your life ❤️ Thank you so much Mark, grief is so tough (especially at Christmas) and it’s so refreshing to get your genuine and raw thoughts and feelings on it. Loving this vlogmas series, you’re smashing it 🥹🎄
I lost 3 grandparents in the last 18 months, this year is the first Christmas that I won't be sat round my nan and grandads house, it is now empty. Teared up buying Christmas cards because I only had one nan to buy for. There will always be those moments. I'm sorry you're going through it too. Much love xx
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Thank you for talking about this. I lost my mom in September. I can't even get my head around it. She was a healthy 78 year old who was so let down by the medical system. Always remember to be your best advocate. I know this time will be hard but it's okay to share the low times. Your aunt sounds like a lovely person. She must be so proud of you Mark!
I'm a newer subscriber, but from the first video I watched, I was immediately compelled to keep watching your videos. You're such a sweet and GENUINE human being. Bless you Mark Ferris 🩷
Thank you so much Mark for doing vlogmass and for being so open and honest. I lost my grandad three months ago and still can't believe he isn't amongst us anymore. The holidays will be so weird without him. Missing him more and more everyday. And always will thinking extra about him around this time. That indeed is real life. thank you for being you!
Hey Mark! Thank you so much for being so vulnerable about your grief for your auntie. I also have lost someone very close to me, my mom, and seeing your videos has really helped me not only come to terms with my grief, but also helped me sit with it and remember how amazing my mom was. Your aunt must have been an amazing person to leave everyone filled with so much love for her. Christmas is always a difficult time for grief, but your vlogmas videos and your openness about who you are and about your aunt are helping so much, more than you even know. Thank you so much for sharing!! ❤
I completely get how you feel Mark and I’m sorry for your loss. I lost my Auntie in June this year too and I still have days where I think she’s with us still and maybe it’s because I don’t quite want to believe she’s gone as it’s so painful. Seeing you share about your aunt gives a lot of comfort to know we’re not alone and we are all struggling with things in some way or another and it’s good to allow ourselves to let our emotions out when we need too. Thank you for your videos and always being real 🩵
Thank you for talking about grief so openly. It means the world to those of us who are having similar experiences. It feels like being seen and reminds me that we are not alone in our grief but part of a community of others trying to get through. Loving this vlogmas! Can't wait to see what the rest of the month has in store.
Lost my dad in may, first xmas without him. Christmas is cancelled for me i cant even deal with it, cant stand the decs, the adverts, the music. None of it....and i usually love it . Love to you hunny, your vlogs are really bringing me so much comfort in such a gloomy time xxxxx
Your pickles!!!😩😂 I love you Mark, don’t ever be afraid to share anything with us❤️
Sharing your experience does help others. It has helped me with my own grief and knowing that you’re not alone ❤
Merry Christmas from Canada, Mark! I'm a silent follower, but I have been watching you for years! Grief is a strange thing for sure, and you're not over sharing at all. I lost my 21 year old son to Epilepsy in September, and he loved Christmas, which is making this holiday season very difficult. But I've decorated as usual and added a special little tree just for him, as he wouldn't want us to not celebrate. And I'm sure your auntie is glad that you are celebrating as well. Lots of love ❤️
Thank you for sharing Mark!! I lost someone this year too and talking about it is so helpful and it’s also nice to know we are not alone in feeling grief.
Seeing you share the REAL parts of life is honestly so refreshing and comforting. This is why I love your channel Mark, your authenticity and openheartedness is such a rare thing to come across on TH-cam these days. What a gem you are Mark
nothing makes me happier than a youtube notification from mark ferris makes my whole day x
Please keep sharing your grief journey, I love seeing it! It’s normalising it and makes my heart so happy (not because you’re sad) to see more people taking about grief ❤️
Oh Mark. My heart breaks for you. Thank you for being so open and candid about your grief. Stay strong and know I am praying for you 🙏🏻 I know your aunt is in Heaven smiling down on you and sending her love to you.
Thank you so much for being vulnerable. It brings peace and comfort to know that we aren't alone in our struggles. I don't have any kids of my own, but I love my niece so so much, as much as it seems your aunt loved you. And I hope to be able to provide the love and joy to her, just as your aunt loved you.
Mark I can’t thank you enough for being so open in this space about your grief❤️ I lost my aunt two months ago and it was my first experience with family grief and you talking so openly has honestly made me feel less alone in the grief I feel. I can’t thank you enough for being you in this space ❤️ I’m sending all my love and hugs to you.
Exactly remember the joy and happiness a loved one brought us , I was a mess losing my mam , but I know she is with me every day , the only girl out of 4 children , , you are the best mark , always remember that ❤
Honestly sending so much love to you Mark and anyone who's grieving a loved one, especially during the holidays!
Oh mark, seeing you so upset over your aunt made me quite emotional! It never gets easier without your loved ones, in July it was 10 years since I lost my Nan, I lost my grandad in the February of the same year, my other Nan 3 years later and my grandad nearly 5 years ago. You learn how to live without them, but like you said you keep on going to make them proud! Christmas in another reminder of how precious family is, but making memories with those who are still here. Love ya ❤
As an auntie myself, seeing you crying and grieving is beautiful and heartbreaking. I am so sorry for your loss. But I am so glad you two loved each other very much and her love and legacy lives on in you.
14 years without my mama this December. Thank you for being honest and sharing your grief. ❤ Sometimes we forget how many of us are carrying these feelings alongside the Christmas cheer.
I’m sorry for your loss 🩷 it’s really not easy but I’m glad you’re willing to be vulnerable for us in hopes to give us comfort. My gran was the magic at Christmas and she’s been gone for 10 years now. Nothing is the same, we try to celebrate in her memory but it just doesn’t feel the way it used to. My heart breaks for anyone who struggles during the holidays where everything is bows, sparkles, laughs and you can’t relate. ❣️❄️
Thank you for showing your vulnerability in Grief, people never really show that... So appreciate that, dreading this year first Christmas without my dad. 💔lots of love to you and your family xxx
Mark, I'm so sorry for your loss! Even more heartbreaking at this time of year as well. We're here for you. On an unrelated note the comic store reminds me of a shop near me named cool merch I love it for not only the loungefly stuff but for anime merchandise and music merch
Thank you Mark. Third Christmas without my Grandad, eighth without my Nanny. Grief still catches me off guard. Sending love and strength this festive season✨🫶🏼
Sending Love
It's been 14 years without my dad during the holidays. This is when I think of him the most cause Christmas was his favorite. I'm thinking of you and your family during this holiday season ❤
Thank you for talking about it mark when I was 12 I lost my godmother right near Christmas and still to this day 4 years later I still find it hard around Christmas especially since she loved it so much and most memories with her were at Christmas so thank you for speaking about it and we have got this ❤
Your not over sharing at all I really appreciate it my dad passed away three years ago and I wish people would talk about grief more it helps me at least to talk about it and hear others talk about it. Sending you love mark your very wise 💕 xx
it's so nice in a world where everyone pretends to be someone they're not, where most people only use social media as a highlight reel of their life, to have even just a tiny corner of the internet that you know will always be a safe place with someone who will be honest and real even in the dark times - thank you for being that person mark, you're not oversharing at all, the world needs a little bit of realism sometimes. sending you all the love and hugs this christmas
Bless your heart. It is not oversharing. Thank you for being real.
You talking about your auntie is making me emotional because I was watching old “vlogs” of my auntie from like 2004 before she passed and it’s so nice to see her face and hear her voice at times like this ❤
How lucky was your aunt to have you for a nephew! You have a guardian angel now. I'm so glad you shared your feelings. This time of year brings so many emotions and some of them are very difficult. Nice to know we have a friend in you!
Awh mark, grief really is such a weird and awful feeling, I think it never feels real they’re gone, it’s 5 years since I lost my grandad still everyday it shocks me I will never see him again. You got this, keep talking about your auntie, she would want you to be happy and carry on being your authentic beautiful self 🤍 sending love xxx
I appreciate you keeping it real! I love this time of year, but it brings sadness and grief with it as well. We’re all in this together! ❤❤❤
Mark watching you so upset makes me want to cry! Love you and I know your aunt is shining down on you every step!
Mark is a kind of person beautiful from inside and outside 😊🎉❤ be happy and have a great festive season
I appreciate you talking about it so much. Christmas is normally my FAVORITE time of year, I watch Christmas stuff year round. But this year I lost a few family members and someone who was my top three most important people and so Christmas has been this thing that I just want to be done already. I felt like no one really understood how f-ing hard this is. Hearing someone actually talk about it helped so so so much. I feel so much better crying with you, thank you thank you thank you thank you 💕
Not over sharing! Thank you for being your true, real and authentic self! I adore you, Mark! Sending you hugs ❤
I’ve never wanted to hug someone so much through a screen 😢 Mark bless your heart ❤
So so appreciative of you, I lost my aunt 5 years ago and the grieving never stops, you learn to ride the waves. Keep talking about her with your friends and family 🤍
Thank you for sharing Mark. I lost my grandmother in June and she was more than just that to me. She was also my best friend she held our family together and made every holiday special. This is my first Christmas without her. I’m devastated, but watching your vlogs is helping me. Thank you, continue to be authentic you’re finding the right people. 💕
Thank you for another lovely vlog Mark. So sorry about your Aunty, but talking about her all the time will help heal the pain. I've lost both my grandparents many years back and still find Christmas hard. Stay strong, we're all behind you❤
Mark, I want to thank you from
The bottom of my heart for being so real and authentic with us this Christmas! All though it’s so nice to see someone’s highlights / exciting moments during the holidays- for some it’s not always so joyous. I’ve been struggling the last few Christmas’s having lost my auntie as well- who was VERY much like an older sister and my only best friend. Please don’t ever apologize for going through something so difficult. I wish I had this when my aunt did pass away. I had never felt so numb and lonely- but to have this now and also seeing you push through and still enjoying life as best you can is just HEART WARMING and so SO incredible to see.❤️ love you Marky Mark!!
I’ve been a silent viewer for years but today I just wanted to thank you Mark! I really appreciate you sharing your feelings, I lost my grandma this year and I feel this so much! So sorry for your loss and sending lots of love your way 💗
I love how open and vulnerable you are with your grief. I lost my grandpa three years ago just a few days before Christmas and it’s been the hardest thing for me because I feel guilty for being happy around the holidays without him. Thank you for being a light for people going through hard times
I lost my dad in August and the things you mention are very relatable. The still not believing they are gone and then when you get a moment and realisation kicks in it literally takes your breathe away.
Thank you for being raw and honest, being the first Christmas without my dad and finding it really hard. This is refreshing to hear and see I’m not alone in my thoughts. Sending you love and hugs x
You are such a beautiful human Mark , I am so glad you are in this world ❤
i'm so sorry for your loss mark. glad you have spoken about grief during christmas time. i lost my grandparents along time ago but i miss them everyday. i miss the simple things like popping around for a cuppa and having a natter ♥
Dear Mark, I lost my mum three years ago and it still hurts... I understand you. You are so brave, kind and beautiful human being. I am sending you love and appreciation from Slovakia. And huge hug ❤
Never feel like your oversharing things that make you feel emotions that are anything other than happy, because being vulnerable is so scary but you getting it off your chest and letting out the feelings you feel is so normal and healthy. You help so many people online and in personal day to day life by opening yourself up because it shows us that we can also do the same and not be ashamed of being vulnerable about thing that makes us all feel emotions that aren’t ‘happy’. Your amazing Mark and you are everything your auntie could have ever imagined you’d become and more. I’ve lost a close friend around this time 4 years ago and it gets easier but also you will never ‘let go’ if that makes sense.. it’ll never seem real but time goes by and as humans we learn to adapt to the huge change .. doesn’t mean you stop caring or loving that person. Last week I also lost a man that changed mine and my older brothers childhood and was a step in dad for a couple years and he sadly passed from cancer last week. And even though my mum and him split up around 15 years ago now, doesn’t make it hurt any less and its totally fine to feel vulnerable sometimes and let out how you really feel as bottling it all up sounds easier but has really long lasting effects and in the long run could make you feel worse. Love you Mark, keep shining lovely x
I’ve lost my aunt last year and it really was devastating but I understand that this is life and we can’t stop things from happening. It’s ok to not be ok. The first year will always be the hardest. Be in your feelings and let it out. So sorry for your loss. Sending you big hugs and love.❤
So sorry for your loss mark 💕 its always hard for my family around this time as well . I always say just be kind to everyone , you never know what a person may be going through . Hugs to you 💕
This is my first year without my dad and grandma. Both of them brought the family together for the holidays. I still have no idea what this holiday will be like. Thank you for sharing your greif. It's helpful to be going through it with you each day.
I'm sorry for your loss Mark. ❤ You don't know how much your rawness meant to me in this video. ❤❤❤ I'm going through my own grief and it's strangely comforting to know someone else out there is having a hard time like me. Everything reminds me of them. It's beautiful but at the same time, the sadness is debilitating. It feels like a really messed up time. Nothing makes sense. I hope you heal from this loss and things start to feel a little better. ❤
Talking about loss is the best way to get through it! And this made me feel so much more closer to you! You keep things real and that is what makes you an amazing person! 24 years ago i lost my dad to suicide. And i still to this day cry when i think about him even though the memories with him is starting to blur! But i still miss him!❤
Mark you’re the most beautiful person inside and out! Thank you so much for sharing your happy times and your vulnerable times it’s very important for many people. Can’t wait for tomorrow’s vlogmas!
Thank you for sharing Mark! I appreciate you being real and sharing your emotions and experience with grief. I have lost both my grandparents this year and sometimes grief can feel lonely. All around people are excited and happy in the holiday spirit. I feel that way sometimes but its also hard going through the firsts without your loved ones.
Thank you for sharing the harder parts of life as well. I lost my uncle this past summer so I feel like I'm going through the same thing as you right now, where it just doesn't feel real sometimes. Sending you so much love and all the hugs ❤❤
So sorry for your loss, Mark 🤍 Sending lots of love. You are pure light ✨
Thank you for sharing your feelings. It comforts me being the second year without my cousin and my uncle. It’s still a wonderful time but very different and difficult without them ❤️
Thank you for sharing your grief journey, it doesn't get spoken about enough. We lost my beautiful sister unexpectedly just over 2 years ago. Like you said, it's still so hard to comprehend that she is gone. Big hugs to you and your family. xoxox
It’ll be my families first Christmas without my Uncle this year. I can definitely relate, thank you for being so real and vulnerable with us ❤💕 sending love
Thankyou for keeping it so real this Christmas. I am usually the most festive person you could ever meet around this time of year, but it’s my first Christmas in 7 years that I won’t be spending with my boyfriend. I’m grieving the loss of our relationship and it’s so hard! I’m still trying to enjoy Christmas as much as possible but I’m definitely having down days where I miss him so much 😢. Your videos are a joy each day that I look forward to ❤
Thank you for sharing Mark. I lost my dad a year and a half ago in a sudden violent accident and life has never been the same. Dad was the love of my life. Everyday I live without him is the worst day of my life. Christmas is a horrific time for people living with grief, it highlights family time and it highlights whose NOT around the dinner table. Its pressure to be happy and for it to be the most wonderful time of the year but for people who are in the depths of grief this is not reality. Thanks for sharing your pain because I feel that too, and I think speaking and being truthful about grief is a really important life lesson because no one can escape it. Lots of love xx
I love that your sharing this about grief, experiencing this personally right now & this helped me remember I’m not alone ❤
I know exactly how you feel Mark. We keep going day by day but when the reality hits, it hurts so much.
We're strong for us and for them❤
Hearing you talk about grieving during the holiday season is so heartwarming and makes me feel not alone. It’s the first Christmas since my parents separated and it’s so mixed emotions. It’s my husbands and i first Christmas as well. It’s also the 3rd Xmas without my husbands mom who loved Christmas. Thank you for being open about grieving and processing 💕
Thankyou for this video! Honestly relate a lot 😢 lost my uncle who was like my best friend 3 years ago and spending the festive period which includes my birthday without him is heartbreaking :(
You’re not over sharing it’s refreshing to hear, love you Marky x
Arrrr mark 😢 you made me cry love watching your videos wish you could do vlogmas all the time I look forward to watching your videos your such a real person xx
Thank you so much for your rawness and vulnerability during this. My soul dog had to be put to sleep last Friday. Christmas definitely feels so different this year.
You've got such a beautiful soul, Mark. Thank you for always being yourself and so real with us 🤍 Your videos feel like getting a hug from a friend, and that's such a gift to the world 💕
we lost my grandma around this time last year and i still can't believe she's gone. thank you for sharing this mark. your positivity and realness helps so much
I’ve been so thankful for your vlogs ever since I started watching years ago, mainly because of how honest and genuine you are with us. It feels like FaceTiming with a close friend! I hope you know how loved and appreciated you are. 💛
Thank you for being so real mark you are not over sharing at all❤️❤️❤️❤️ I lost my grandad beginning of the year with my autism and anxiety it been very difficult for me you have helped me so much and I am so sorry for your loss xx you are my inspiration and hero xx
Omg! I kid you not, the lamp that you bought, was the lamp I had as a kid growing up! You tearing up, makes me tear up.😢 Sometimes it good to have a good cry, always here for you mark 💖
Thank you for sharing your very honest feelings, Mark….they’re normal and natural. Sharing them is good for you and for those of us who are also going through the grief of loss.❤ You take care of yourself.❤
Sending hugs Mark. Still miss my aunty nearly 5 years on. Really feeling it this year. ❤❤❤
Mark, you are the purest of souls and never feel like you are over sharing. Too many people hide things on here and we appreciate how real you are with everything, as long as you are comfortable with sharing it!
And thank you for showing it’s okay not to go to social events if you don’t want to, like you said your friends are always there and you will see them again another time 😊
Mark, I really just want to say how much this meant to me and how much I needed this reminder. I’m telling myself everyday my Grandpa is with me and your Auntie is there with you too. And she’s so proud of everything you’re doing. Thank you from the bottom of my heart 🤍
Oh Mark 😭 You are so strong. Never wanted to hug someone more 🫶🏽
Mark your never over sharing, you are such an incredible person, I love that you want to keep it real and I appreciate that, so never say your cliche or think your over sharing, and I am so sorry for your loss.
Loving vlogmas so far, thank you for the videos Mark!! 🎄❤️ You are such a beautiful human being & you're doing an amazing job & making your Auntie proud every single day 💕 xxx
I really needed your video today Mark.❤I lost my aunt many years ago to breast cancer and today is her birthday. I completely understand what you’re going through and even though for me it’s many years later I still think about her every day. I was feeling especially sad today but you sharing your grief with us has helped me through. ❤thank you Mark for always being so honest and caring and being yourself. Love you 💕🎄🥰😘 I’m so sorry for your loss ❤
I am so sorry about your Aunty Mark!
You are so right, you’re definitely not the only one, and your vlogs are helping for sure! I love that you’re putting yourself out there and sharing the bad with the good. Or rather the sad, not bad. Wrong word choice there.
I lost my Mother a couple days after Christmas, and let me tell you this year has been the hardest thing ever! All the feels are just there. I’m trying to go about it a different way to cheer myself up. Now I could have gone on absolutely upset at Christmas time like anyone can slip away into, but for me I have been doing things to honor my Mother. Watching her favorite movies, listening to her favorite Christmas songs. I’ve been doing as much as I can that reminds me of her.
Anyways I’m rambling, but thank you for sharing real emotions and not just putting on a happy face as if everything were golden 100% love ya!