Falling Apart: My story of starting over.
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 15 ต.ค. 2024
- This is the story of how my career, my physical health, and my mental health fell apart in 2020. And how I was shown on a journey with psilocybin that stored trauma from my childhood played a major role in my decline. Then of course there's the question of what do I do about it?
I hope you get something out of this deeper dive into the beginning of my road to healing and you'll stick around to see where that road takes me.
I am so grateful for you and appreciate you sharing this. I’m very inspired by your journey, growth and vulnerability to share this and your willingness to work with others through our journeys. I so appreciate you.
Feelings mutual Ben. You’ve inspired thousands of people and I’m one of em!
Very wise, I have a lot of childhood trauma also. Violence and alcoholism was rife in my house, interested to learn more about your journey. Absolutely, we need to purge. I had chronic fatigue for a few years....finally my energy has returned. Still on this healing journey
Right there with you Nicola! I’m truly happy to hear your energy is returning and look forward to having you here with me!
The feeling of climbing out of that chronic heightened state of tension and threat is hard to relate to, but Im sure many parts of our stories are similar ❤️
@@GettingTheresauerkraut, Kim chi, and every kind of fermented food, will get your guts firing on all cylinders. This and great hydration will get you back to where you Wana be. I like squid and /or tuna in my Kim chi. I love it.
Now we know that the so called covid crisis was a human experiment that hugely upset a lot of people's lives....
Carnivore has worked wonders for osteoarthritis and mental clarity amongst a long last of other improvements in health ❤
@@audreysuter4315 have considered this.. I eat very low sugar but not full carnivore
So glad to have watched this and reconnected with you. I’m still sad about the loss of the community you all worked so hard to build, but as you’ve alluded to here, our existence contains multitudes.
I’m interested in your experience of unwrapping your trauma and how it has impacted your health long term, as well as your spiritual journey. I was diagnosed in 2018 with two overlapping autoimmune diseases that, combined with the events of 2020, also started my journey of self reflection and addressing old trauma.
All that to say it’s good to see you, and I’m in. Let’s go.
Robyn it is so good to see you here. I certainly hope you’ve made progress with your healing and look forward to sharing ideas.
Really touching story, thank you for having the courage to be vulnerable to share your experience. I think it helps me reflect on my own personal struggles and learn how to navigate through my own life.
@@kevinthewind thank you Kevin, I truly hope it’s helpful in some way. I appreciate you for watching and sharing this my friend 💯
You were an integral part of the team that made AFS such a special place.
It is so good to hear your story, and through telling it, you will grow and heal even more. You will help others as they struggle with their own life issues as well.
Stay strong, and may you continue to make progress in your journey!
Had a lot of great times with you there my friend. Thank you for the kind words and for taking the time to watch. Getting a little further each day 🫶🏻
This was a seemingly random recommendation from TH-cam and I hadn't heard of you before now. But what a story, and what honesty. Thanks a ton for sharing and I'm looking forward to the journey - wherever that takes you.
Thank you for these kind words Glenn! No idea how my video made it to you, but it’s an honor that you invested time into watching it. More to come!
Welcome to the TH-cam family! I am so glad you have decided to focus on long-form story telling on this platform!
Thank you Rachel! Happy to be here ❤️ Really appreciate the encouragement
Appreciate your voice and your vulnerability Nate. Looking forward to hearing more. Holly McMain
Thank you for finding and watching this Holly! Truly appreciate you taking the time 🫶🏻
Thank you for your courage in sharing. So many parallels, as my health also came crashing down in 2019. It caused me to almost entirely leave the fitness space and community before the pandemic, which was so isolating and painful. What's revealed at these low points is so life-changing. I look forward to following along with more of your healing journey.
I remember you having health issues during that time, but wasn’t up to speed on the full depth of what was going on. Totally get the pain of leaving the health space behind. Had to mourn that version of myself heavily, but have since begun softening my perspective around that. I believe what I’m working on now is fundamentally health and wellness, just not how most define it. How is your health now?
Nate! So wonderful to see your face and hear your voice. You are a masterful story teller. Thank you for allowing your vulnerability and courage to take center stage… along side a little intrigue, humor, and dog lovin’. I’m grateful I came across this segment and look forward to the next!
Thank you so much for this! Truly means a lot ❤️
Thank you Nate for your vulnerability & expressing you as You. The inspiration you’ve given me has been tremendous, i deeply appreciate you & know our paths shall cross again soon 🙏🏾🫂
You as you is where the limitless happens 🤲🏻 Always pulling for you.
Incredible story teller and powerful story. Thank you for sharing your heart. And thank you for reaching me the beauty of ‘Getting There’
Thank you Eileen! More to come ❤️
Your smile when your doggy came in was so lovely. Animals are the best healers 🙂
@@obiblooze5902 couldn’t agree more. He’s an angel to me ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you for sharing, you are not alone!
Appreciate you Beth! Sending you hugs
You're loved, brother! Thanks for sharing this
Back at you 🤲🏻🤲🏻🤲🏻
First of all, I watched because I was very intrigued! So cool to see you telling the story to the world. I think you have a lot to offer and such a unique way of telling the stories. I can already see the impacts you’re going to have, much like the vision you had I feel like I just had one about your future. Great work keep it up! Looking forward to the next videos
Garron, you've got such a rich energy. One that I can't say I've ever experienced before. Deeply grounded in strength and loyalty while also light and visionary. Feel so lucky we got to spend some time together this spring and am looking forward to the next time for sure. Your words have been placed into the furnace of fruition.
I literally had the same problems you had, spasms in my muscles and pain in the muscles and joints and too much dizziness and low energy and bad sleep....
mine was severe anemia. I started multivitamins that had 100% of the daily dose of all vitamins (a b1-12 c d ...) and minerals and omega 3 fish oil capsules and eating healthier (less sugar and coffee and more veggies and red meat) and it all went away for years (I'm still fine and getting better)...
That is so good to hear! Truly appreciate you sharing this and hoping it just keeps getting better
Thank you so much, such an great video - honest, real and realistic. Thank you for your openness. Really enjoyed listening to your wisdom and learning. Subscribed :)
Ps I’m very intrigued, not very bored 😉
@@CPerry-bu1ni made my morning reading this, thank you!!
I am forever grateful for you, Nate.
Wandered over from IG for a chance to hear more of your story. The Universe rewarded me with a guest appearance by Bear! So honored to be a witness to The Story of Nate. Proud of you. - N
You stayed for the bear Easter egg! ❤️☺️
Huge warm hugs and love your four legged family member, pet. You have far more in your life than you realize, mate. Greetings from NZ.
@@a-k6575 couldn’t agree more! Thank you for the kind words my friend! NZ is my favorite place 🌎
@@GettingThere You are most welcome 🤗
Thank you for sharing your story and vulnerability. ❤️🇨🇦
@@wendybauman4074 thank you for being here Wendy, I appreciate you!
Childhood memories are emblem that lasts lifelong..it does resonate with me and I understand thoroughly..keep the healing on🙏oh Bear Boi🐻 must nudge Dadda Enborough 😀🐶🐾🌹❤️✌️🙏😊
So happy to see you here Jhimli 🤲🏻
This feeling is making me go crazy… finding out I was living in a moldy house for 4 yrs . I’ve been experiencing dizziness, brain fog,headache ringing ear and joint and back pain, imbalance . I moved out just last week and am now focusing seriously on healing. I pray we all heal soon. I wish I had known sooner, but I will share my story. I’m a filmmaker whose job is to document people’s lives and tell their stories, but this has shut me down. I can’t even use the new RED camera I bought. Thankfully, I have a supportive family who never gives up, and I know that in the months to come, I will get better.”
@@fearlesstalkgh1940 you’ve gotten out. This is so vital-and though I know how much it stings to know the exposure went on for four years, here in the present you’ve got the resolve and support to heal.
Your story will be told right on time. Now is the time to live it.
@@GettingThere yes sir God is king 👑
Awwww, what a cute puppy!!! Good boy.
@@mountainstream8351 my baby dowg!!
Hello, No I wasn't bored, but intrigued.
I sat with my spiritual teacher this evening, for like 7 hours. And I told her what has been going on.
Part of your story triggered a thought for me, that maybe gave me a reason for a repeating occurrence.
I come from an abusive alcoholic home too. And I saw the same things you saw. My father is long dead now.
My Grammy, (His mother) has been visiting me, in dreams and in my waking time as well. And like you, I have had serious health issues along the way too.
She comes and visits, and she brings me a visual of standing in her bedroom looking down at the garden we built together when I was a kid. (She was my protector and One of my mother figures). as I stand there looking out the second story window, I jump out that window and everything goes black, until I come up for air and realize where I am (usually in the shower)
I asked my teacher tonight, why she was bringing me this vision continuously. And she said that there will probably be a message there in it for you, but I will need to figure it out.
And when you spoke of your inner child, the answer finally came to me. I won't get closure or truth from my parents, by their choice not mine, but what I will get is love, respect, and safety with Grammy. She has been visiting the past couple of months and my health has picked up, my transient pain has gone, and I feel better now than I have, in recent years.
She has been following me around the world for years since her death many years ago.
I can tell you the pandemic screwed us all up here in Montreal for a long time. We had to build a gym in our bedroom so we did not kill each other being locked at home for months on end, so I feel your pain. Now we can tell those horrible stories, right ??
@@jeremy1350 proud of you for tuning in. I think you’re absolutely on the right track in understanding the visits from your grandma. She brings you healing and protection always. Thanks for sharing this with me. Powerful for sure 💛
That dog entry was priceless!!
@@tourdeforce2881 he’s so sweet 🥹
You are young & healthy- you can do anything !!!! You are gorgeous also !!!
Thank you for the confidence boost Thomas!
I second that. You are really gorgeous and talented. Thank you for your story. I truly believe you will overcome this.
Have you checked out ' life wave'? Its a technology patch that is doing incredible things for people.
@@rachelconradie8480 really appreciate the kind words Rachel, I will look into this, haven’t heard of it. 🤲🏻🤲🏻💛
So I came across a video from 2 years ago, and during that video you were supposedly dealing with mold in your house. And now, fast forward, it is childhood trauma. Now, granted, I have not watched all of your videos, but I am baffled. Just what what the heck are you trying to portray here?
@@kimlittleton4943 Kim what if there was a world where both of those things happened!?
I’m portraying a story about myself. Part of my individual calling as a person is to share the experiences I’ve had with other people. It’s led to a lot of really meaningful connections.
One of the most fascinating things to me about mold illness and auto-immune issues in general is the immense amount of people I’ve met personally, spoken with on here, and read about whose immune systems were compromised by adverse childhood experiences.
THEY ARE CONNECTED.
The tone of your comment couldn’t have been more combative which leads me to believe there’s stuff you’re struggling with that you need to get off of your chest.
Do it soon.
I have not cried since about 2007 - the tears stopped …not sure if bandages will ever be ripped off by minr
@@silvana11221122 thinking of you. 💭
Hey brother I can relate 100% mold is crazy I’m currently in Texas doing hyperbaric oxygen chamber i definitely feel better than I did after these treatments but still have a long way to go
Tyler, I appreciate you for stopping to leave a comment.. I felt so good on hyperbaric. I think you’re on the right track with that! How long have you been aware that mold was your issue?
@@GettingThere I lived in a house with it for almost 5 yrs I’ve been aware of it now for about 6 months I’ve done 20 dives so far with hyperbaric got another twenty to go. How many dives have you done?
@@tylerkee9150 I haven’t done hyperbaric since 2021, similar background though. Was in a condo w black mold for about 5yrs and health declined year over year until I was sensitive to everything and had a big nervous system meltdown. When I was doing it I’d say I only went around 10 times then I moved to AZ and started the shoemaker protocol.
Always felt instantly better and “un-inflamed” when I’d leave hyperbaric though.
@@GettingThere yea I was having symptoms throughout the years, but never linked it to mold. I would forget a bunch of things periodically. I was also getting the tingling extremities, but it always subsided fairly quickly, plus I already had prior injuries so there was no cause for alarm. Then back in December I got hit with a tidal wave of about 30 symptoms. I was totally on death’s door I felt at the time. Hey did you ever take legal action since you didn’t know the mold was there?
@@tylerkee9150 I honestly probably could have because a big contributor to the mold was the airflow design of the condos.. was trapping cool air in areas and creating dampness. By the time I figured out what it was I was so ready to put it behind me that I just let it go.
I cant find part 2!?
@@BethBliss11.11 I did a few that sort of piggy back off of that first video.. th-cam.com/video/DWxlt2xlREs/w-d-xo.htmlsi=TJ9WFk3W-p2Uvzkn
Gabor Mate helps with getting through the trauma.
Yes, have watched a lot of his talks! Haven’t read the books yet though.
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